#so Dan deciding enough was enough makes perfect sense

[fire-fira]

Blue Devil #10

Dan: This is atrocious. Get me out of here.

The fez-wearing hecklers: -mocking Wayne in a tone that's bordering on harassment building up to this point-

Dan: (✧_✧) You know what? Nevermind. Forget about me leaving. Targets acquired.

[the-fox-with-no-name]

Aftg skit: Marriage of Convenience

Disclaimer: i know nora sakavic said that Neil and Andrew won't possibly happen I respect that, hear me out.

I have seen this too many times it might make sense. If Neil and Andrew "were" to get married. It would be for financial reasons. Of course they go to the court house, wake up Wymack in the middle of the morning to ask him to be a witness.

Not tell anyone because "not a big deal its marriage of convenience" to say the least. Of course the foxes will be like all over the place. Bets will be lost for sure, Renee might be a second witness and keep quiet. Once everyone finds out well, Allison will be pissed for not being able to set up perfect wedding, Kevin wouldn't care much, Matt and Dan will be upset for not knowing because "technically they adopted Neil as their son" but will get over it. Nicky will loose his marbles and cause a ruckus. Its nicky. Aaron's reaction will be his usual "I dont care bla bla bla," but aaron will sent an anonymous message to Andrew and never speak about it.

Neil figured if he and Andrew get married, it will benefit them when those two decide to find a place of there own or new car, pet insurance for Sir and King, being financially responsible while taking on their pro exy career. Its a pretty smart move and logical if you think about it.

They way I see it play out is:

Neil: "Ever thought about getting married?"

Andrew: [Glances over, expression unreadable] "What would be the point?"

Neil: "Tax breaks, maybe. Legal stuff. Easier to buy a house together."

Andrew: [Snorts] "Right, because that’s exactly what I want more paperwork and people in my business."

Neil: "So, never crossed your mind?"

Andrew: [Shrugs] "It’s a piece of paper. People act like it changes everything."

Later after the discussion which is yes.

Neil: "We’d need two witnesses. Wymack could be one."

Andrew: [Deadpan] "Wymack? You want our coach at our wedding. That’s... disturbingly sentimental."

Neil: "He’d show up. And he’s practical."

Andrew: [Already pulling out his phone] "Sure, if you want Wymack to lecture us halfway through. I’ll call Renee."

Neil: [Raises an eyebrow] "Renee? Not Kevin?"

Andrew: [Smirking] "Renee would bring something useful like sanity. Kevin would bring a sports drink and talk stats the whole time."

Neil: [Shrugs] "Fair enough."

Andrew: [On the phone, calm as ever] "Renee, you busy? Good. You’re witnessing a wedding. No, not a real one. Just sign the damn papers."

Honestly this is just a head canon, im probably not the only who came up with this or different results.

Also Wymack's reaction to being asked to be a witness for Neil and Andrew's so called wedding would probably be a mix of surprise, exasperation, and begrudging acceptance. He wouldn't say no to them if he wanted to. As long as he doesn't have to do a speech or wear a suit.

[fishhateme]

maxiel(ish) drabble pt 1

Daniel's sigh was so loud he wasn't even surprised when Sassy looked at him, perched atop one of Max's book shelves ("Why do you have so many, Maxy? It's not like you actually read" raised eyebrow, thick lips parting for a beat before quirking up shyly "Shut up" "These days you just meow on livestreams, right? Busy schedule" a full smile then, pink tongue darting out to wet his full, chapped lips, so wonderfully feminine "Shut up, Dan" "Is it like when you bought that Hermes bracelet and you just never let it go? Is it about being all fancy? Maybe we should ask George for some vocab tips" a full laugh, head thrown back against the pillows and crinkled corners of his eyes "I think it makes perfect sense, no? Why would I not have bookshelves. They're classy, and the cats like them. Who doesn't have bookshelves?" oh, okay, his voice is more nasally in the morning, it's more noticeable when he says more than two words. Yeah, it's been years and Daniel knows this already, but he could still drown in the raspiness of it, suddenly back to day one and awkward chuckles in hotel rooms "Who meows on a livestream?" "Shut up, Daniel"). The way Sassy looked at him wasn't even concerned, it was mostly annoyed. And, sure, Daniel hated dogs - er, hated, was terrified of, had been chased by back home, same difference -, but there was a certain autonomy about cats that unsettled him. Those lucky bastards didn't need attention like a wilting, desperate plant needed fresh water, like Daniel needed love to breathe. Enchanté, nice to meet you too, did I tell you I'm jealous of my boyfriend's cats? No, I don't go to therapy anymore, how did you know?

Ugh. Daniel scowled at himself for that shitty self-pitying monologue. He briefly considered calling his therapist again, but he didn't like feeling like he needed a crutch, and he wasn't as distressed and hurting as he was back in the McLaren days. He could manage, really, and he'd rather that than going through the shameful motion of crawling back to his therapist after assuring (read, lying) to her he could cope perfectly fine on his own, with his stupid little journal (abandoned shortly after Belgium, because everything was blindingly bright in his future and he'd get to write it down later, now he just wanted to focus on the feeling of being on top of the world) and his stupid little breathing techniques. He was fine, really. He was just... ugh.

He sighed again, still staring at his phone screen, prompting Sassy to send him another one of her patented annoyed looks. Her feline eyes, already perpetually displeased as if inconvenienced by the existence of her owners (oh, we only feed, shelter and pamper you, I'd be annoyed too, you expensive little brat), seemed even more judgy in the stuffy Mediterranean heat of the afternoon. The living room was so poorly designed (as was most of Monaco, because money couldn't buy enough space to build a decent apartment when every single millionaire on Earth decided to cram themselves in the same five or so blocks) that Daniel was beginning to run out of air in his lungs, but maybe that was because of his own... shit ("Yes, of course I'll remember my breathing techniques, I'll be fine, besides, you'll be late for your next client. I promise I'll be fine").

It came so easily to lie, sometimes.

part 2

[violetsareblue-selfships]

#19. Shared Hobby / Potion

Selfshiptober 2024 | [WC: 358] / teehee more dan heng :3 it's nice getting to write for him more :3 anyways i hope you enjoy this~

April shifts the tray's weight to settle more on her left arm so she can open the door. She doesn't need to knock anymore. That's surreal to her still. But the Archives are her own space as much as it's his.

Dan Heng glances up from his book briefly enough to watch her set the tray down, a small smile quirking his lips. He resumes his reading even as she settles into her spot beside him, his arm moving to wrap around her as she leans in close.

Once his paragraph is finished, he turns and presses a kiss to her temple. He doesn't say anything as he reaches for her book and sets it in her lap. She can't help but smile at how he already had it prepared, expecting her presence as always.

Her head rests against his shoulder as she opens the book, and the two of them read in silence for a while, snacking on the fruits and cookies she brought.

Minutes slip away like seconds until Dan Heng finds it hard to focus on the page. Deciding not to fight it, he slides a bookmark in and sets his book aside, shifting to pull her properly into his lap so he can bury his face against her neck without impeding her reading.

His eyes peek at the page she's reading occasionally, especially when she makes some kind of verbal or audible response to the story, but otherwise, he enjoys getting to hold her while she indulges in her book.

He could stay here holding her for hours more and has in the past. Other times, she gets tired first and lays against his chest while he reads. Either way, getting to read with each other is something both cherishes.

It's a nice sense of calm compared to all the chaos the Nameless find themselves encountering out on other planets.

April giggles at something in her book, and it brings a smile to his face. His arms tighten a little around her, and he idly presses a kiss to her shoulder.

Yes. This feels perfect.

It's everything he didn't know he wanted before her.

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

mischief cast in the hatchetfield series (version 2)

hello. in january, i did a series of "mischief members cast in starkid shows" posts, which i did for most of their shows. i did a casting of hatchetfield during this series, but i only based the castings on the guy who didn't like musicals and black friday, as at this point in time, it had been a while since i had watched nightmare time season 1, i hadn't yet watched nightmare time season 2, and nerdy prudes must die hadn't come out yet. but now that i've watched everything, i figured i should update my casting. quite a few of these roles have been switched around from how i originally had them, because of how additional roles changed my perspective.

some notes that i made in the original series but will reiterate now, plus an extra one:

vocals did not play a part in the castings because i didn't want to limit myself and also because i can't tell what vocal types people are. so this is purely based on acting abilities.

i only used cast members from filmed shows because they're who i'm familiar with. so basically tgws and mmni cast members only. (there is a single exception to this).

now the extra note. i have cast all of them as if they're taking over a starkid members parts (aka someone will be playing all of jon matteson's parts, etc). however, if two different starkid people play a character during different shows (most notably the recasting of r*bert m*nion's roles in nmt2) i have changed it so that only one mischief actor plays that part. for which actor i gave these doubled up roles to, i gave priority to the stage shows over nightmare time. a good example of this is the lords in black - i have counted their actors as the person who played them in npmd, no matter who played them in nmt. the only character that this is a little complicated for is peter spankoffski, as he's been played by three different people, but i've put him as joey's character over r*bert's, as he has a more prominent role in npmd than in tgwdlm. hopefully that makes sense!

also you can see my original casting here. just so you can see what's changed. i would recommend reading this one first because the ones i kept the same are mostly just "see previous explanation".

casting under the readmore!

paul matthews / wiggly / gary goldstein / paul 23 / roman murray / boy jerry / daniel / richie lipshitz: jonathan sayer

this was hard because i moved my first choice for this role to a different character, but i think jono could do it! dennis has the awkward vibes paul does, and i feel like from what we see of him in mmni, jono is unhinged enough to play every other character /lh. my personal favourite character for jono to play is richie though.

emma perkins / donna daggit / linda monroe / madame iris / emdroid / mary / courtney / ruth fleming / blinky: nancy zamit

listen. nancy as linda monroe could fix me. okay. i just think she'd smash any and all of these characters.

bill woodward / frank pricely / solomon lauter / jason jepson / pokey: harry kershaw

this one is the same as my old casting, so i won't spend much explanation on it, but it's perfect, okay?

charlotte sweetly / nora / deb / colonel schaffer / sherman young / jane perkins / pamela foster / sheila young / marco: charlie russell

this is also the same as before, but the addition of sheila is the one that solidified this for me. we know she can play sexy villains. we've seen it in mmni. the prime minister in star paws, madame castaway in a dice with death (i know she isn't the villain in that one but she's got the same vibe). this also goes for jane. charlie russell playing villains for the win.

ted spankoffski / dan reynolds / wilbur cross / cineplex teen / malone / ezekiel / thrash / peter spankoffski: dave hearn

although he wasn't who i landed on previously, i had already strongly considered him for this role, and i eventually decided that he did fit this role better after all. i mean, we love villain dave in this house, so wilbur and ezekiel are covered. i also think he has the range to play pete as well, as we've seen him play those awkward kind of characters in mmni. i think he's definitely right for the part.

professor hidgens / ethan green / tony green: joshua elliott

same as previous casting and not much to add.

mr davidson / sam sweetly / general macnamara / barry swift / chumby the ape-man / papa sniggle / andy kilgore / gabe / skud: henry lewis

okay hear me out on this one. the initial reason i considered him for this role is because mcnamara's voice in tgwdlm reminded me of his chesney hawkes voice in light over the rocks. then i thought about it some more and i feel like he could really rock all of these roles? idk i just think he could do it.

alice woodward / greenpeace girl / melissa / zoey chambers / stephanie lauter / webby: rhyanna alexander-davis

same as previous. i think the added characters are really great for her as well. like rhyanna as steph??? come onnnn.

tom houston / gerald monroe / bob metzger: chris leask

okay listen. chris leask has that rugged dad kind of vibe that tom has. i said what i said. it works sooo well. you cannot tell me you don't see where i'm coming from on this one.

becky barnes / sylvia / jenny / miss holloway / girl jeri / karen chasity / miss mullberry / stacy / nibbly: lauren shearing

this was perfect casting the first time and i stand by that!!!

lex foster / lucy stockworth / snigglette / willabella muckwab / hailey / grace chasity: ellie morris

i also stand by this one! i feel like once again, she isn't the obvious choice for any of these, but i think she has a range that i want to see explored.

hannah foster / tim houston: susan harrison

idk how to explain it i just think it's a role i'd love to see her in.

howard goodman / jonathan brisby / duke keane / zach chambers / lumber-axe / eddie chiplucky / mark chasity / officer bailey / kyle clauger / tinky: greg tannahill

once again another example of perfect casting the first time. i am a genius /j. the most notable addition to me is duke, and i think he absolutely has the heart to play him.

xander lee / bob morris / watcher world barker / river monroe / noah / charles: niall ransome

it still fits. not much to add tbh.

rose / sophia / detective shapiro / brenda: bryony corrigan

okay, of all of these the only one i struggle to imagine her as is rose, but even then i don't think that's beyond her capabilities? like idk i just could really see her as shapiro tbh.

ziggs / kale: scott hunter

i did say there was a single exception to the "only tgws or mmni rule"! because ofc i have to cast non-binary icon scott hunter as non-binary icon jae hughes.

max jägerman: henry shields

this role was super hard to cast. partially because will branner hasn't played any other characters yet so i haven't seen his range, and also because will brings such a specific energy to this character that i think is hard to replicate? he's an excellent addition to starkid. anyway i thought shields was probably the best bet for casting this role, purely because max reminds me very slightly of kyle from primary cape crusader. there's just a specific vibe and shields was the only one i felt could fit that.

[not-sure-what-im-feeling]

🖊 Danner

OUGH HE IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE BOYS TO THROW AGAINST A WALL AND TORTURE!!! :D

Warnings for his everything: abusive family, murder, death, running away, just a heap ton of trauma

Let’s start with basics.

He uses he/him. He’s a Carrow, aka a member of one of extremely few families allowed to practice magic. He is a practicing wizard, and uses mainly nature related magic because it’s what he’s interested in. He also is quitte adept at transformation, disguising, and otherwise visually altering spells, because he practices mostly on himself. He’s transgender, and extremely close with his cousins. He wants to be perfect. He has to be perfect.

His story goes like this:

Danner was raised with the typical education a child in his family receives. Homeschooled with his cousins, taught magic but told it was dangerous. Taught to fear and hate magicfolk. He didn’t actually ever really hate them, but he became fascinated with magicfolk as time went on.

The Carrows have a known tendency to be cruel and abusive, especially to their own children. The kids who last typically become abusers, and those who don’t either ran away or died. Danner had a wonderful relationship with his older cousin, and younger cousins and siblings. The kids all sort of grouped together, safer together. When the eldest cousin was old enough, he ran away in the night. Danner was left to talk care of the younger ones. He did the same thing as his cousin when he was old enough, promising his younger siblings that he would find them one day.

When on the run, he meets Azazel. Azazel was in the woods, demonic and, after running into Danner, almost killing the latter. Danner stays with Azazel as he returns to normal in the sense of his headspace. Azazel explains that he was cursed. He doesn’t know much of who he is or who cursed him, but he knows that he’s dangerous, and in danger of people see his physical demonic traits. This is where some of Danner’s skill in disguise magic comes in. Danner puts a cloaking spell on Azazel, and the two runaways and outlaws decide to stay together.

Danner and Az eventually make their way to Safehaven. They take up their residence in an old abandoned cabin, and stay there together, taking care of one another. Eventually, they meet the others (Andreas, Chord, Rene, and Percy), and bring them in as well.

Sometime through all of this, Danner and Az fall in love. They start dating, even though there’s the fear and looming knowledge that Az’s curse will take over one day.

They fight Blackthorne’s (the bbeg) men and win, and (for most of them begrudgingly) take in Axel. Danner tends to his wounds and helps him heal. Axel grows on him.

Danner proposes a solution to Az’s curse.

He’s heard of a possible cure. It’s a long journey, and a dangerous one of course, but Az would do anything to be able to live his life with Dan. Axel joins them for their quest for more protection and help, and to allow him to redeem himself. They set off for the quest.

They get far, like really far. But when they’re taking shelter on a mountain cave, and Axel left to get more firewood, Az loses himself. Danner knows that this is the final one. Az is gone. He’s gone.

He’s gone.

Danner knows what he has to do.

Azazel’s soul is still attached to the body, so he’ll be condemned to walking the world as long as the demon lives. And the demon will continue to hurt people. There’s only one thing Danner can do know. It’s what he and Az spoke about. It’s what Az wanted him to do.

Danner kills him.

When Axel returns, Az’s lifeless body is wrapped in Danner’s arms, tears and blood falling and dripping onto the snow around them and mixing as one.

They go back. They bury Azazel’s body on a hill on Safehaven. Danner still won’t forgive himself.

He knows he had to do it, but if only they could have saved Azazel.

And yeah he just has a lot of pain :3

[brooklynislandgirl]

A for Aphrodisiac (from Peter)

Spell It Out || -

Some part of Beth feels bad for Peter being trapped in this booth with her.

They'd worked their shift at the Centre and then decided catch a matinee. Doc doesn't need Peter to come in until tonight. Beth lets that go without comment because she knows how important their work is, how much it means for him to work with Dr Octavius ~if her feelings had ever changed, she would have cringed into oblivion over all the things she had and would have been willing to do during medical school~ and ultimately how vital it was to have something for himself, something that focused on his interests and no because he felt like he owed someone. Beth knows Peter will some day change the world. She only wishes he knew it too. Sometime during the movie they lifted the arm rest/cup holder between them and she'd curled up on the seat, leaning into him. His arm had come down and he'd held her close. There'd been a few tense moments where she ended up clutching his hand or burying her face in his chest. She holds up popcorn for him, he holds up the drink, the straw ~which she doesn't complain about for once~ angled so that she can take sips.

Then they'd opted to have an early supper, and the pizza place is surprisingly quiet. They were mid deconstructing the movie when she brought up the fact that the least credible part was the c-plotline, the romance between the tormented writer and his on-and-off again girlfriend.

"I jus' t'ink dat da demons were more plausible dan her feelings for him. Like none of it made sense. How committed dey could be when dey barely saw each oddah an' he's become increasingly isolated?"

She watches him wrestle with his expressions, as if desperately trying to remain neutral despite whatever discomfort she's provoked. He raises one hand to the nape of his neck and rubs at it as he formulates the sort of right response. And surprises her with a question.

She replies with lowering her chin and ducking her neck, eyes slightly wider than normal after she blinks. "I…uh."

There's something to that tilt of his head and the somewhat lopsided grin he offers that makes Beth take him more seriously. But answering him is a lot harder than he might imagine. Maybe because Beth doesn't really know, either.

"So, told ya, I t'ink dat I don' really feel like oddah people do. My brea'd doesn't catch in my t'roat when I see a handsome guy an' I don't get all giggly when pretty girl talk at me. Didn't even know what it felt like t' even wan someone until I was 'round eighteen or so. It was only dat one person, an' nevah anyone else. Now, ten years laddah, I guess… it al start wi' needin' some kind of closeness. A sense of connection wheddah it is emotional or spiritual. Dat all bein' true, I guess ya bes' chance of datin' me is if I actually friend-zone ya." She giggles, her nose crinkling faintly. "But yeah, someone I feel I know an' jus….get. No kine I can describe in any factual way. Only feelin'. Beyond dat?"

She pauses again. This time she chews on the inner corner of her lower lip in consideration. Beth doesn't seem to realise how she open her expressions are. How much she can say without uttering a single word.

"I guess feelin' comfortable enough to get close. I'm a very touchy person. Uhm feelin' like I can confide in dem wi'out fearin' criticism or bein' made fun of. Mebbe…mebbe proximity. Like fingers trailin' along my spine, or against my arm, an' I look up…an' he's right dere. Face soft, eyes dark an' gleamin'. My heart would feel fluttery den alla stars will seem to align an' I'll lean dat rest of da way…an' it'll be da perfect kiss. Sof' an' sweet an' gentle. Tender and lingerin'."

Her eyes are half closed and her elbows are now set on the table as she seems to be leaning toward him.

A few seconds later, she slumps back down with something of a dreamy sigh.

"Of course, dat all is predicated on…findin' someone t'ink I'm wor'd da wait."

"Put question sorta back on you? Wha' qualities ya look for in a girl make you interested? Wha' about dem make ya wanna stay?"

[daymusik]

🐾 Watch the audio visualizer on YouTube!: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5VHllzhFtY 🐾 Purchase this song here: https://daymusik.bandcamp.com/track/wanted ▶ THIS SONG IS 11 YEARS OLD! IT IS AMONG THE FIRST SONGS I HAVE EVER MADE!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ óÓÒò

🐾 Almost to the DAY, this song just hit 11 years old. It was uploaded on January 2, 2012! That would absolutely mean I originally created this song on my iPod Touch using the app Music Studio by Xewton. This song is so old that you can not find it on my current SoundCloud account because it was before I even knew how to use SoundCloud [effectively]. I believe I created that account with my Facebook account, which got deleted years ago and so I can no longer access it. I mean, here, see all of this information for yourself! https://soundcloud.com/daybreakpony/wanted Also, reading the description, I don't know what was going on in my life back then, but apparently, some shit was going down in my life. "The lyrics, at first, make no sense, but they are about life...just like Electronic music is." And then... for absolutely no reason, the only other tags besides "electronic" are "Renard" and "Queenston". I was a mess back then. I mean, I know his music was essentially my inspiration to start making music (honestly, a poor inspiration for someone like me, but at least I started and moved away from that style), but I don't know why I decided to use that as tags. 🐾 Anyway, this song, clearly, has been completely redone. ALL in FL Studio. I recall wanting to revisit this song a few times in the past, but the main issue stopping me from doing so back then was the one sound that persists throughout. Obviously, with a simple app like Xewton Music Studio, there were a lot of basic, "legacy" sounds available. The "orchestral hit" was one of them. I don't know what compelled me to use that in this song, but ever since then, I've not been able to find a sound that sounded similar to it but of higher quality. Until I found the Orchestral plugin by Edirol, that is! (Honestly, it's sad that it's been abandoned because it's such a good plugin and I still use it but it isn't maintained, so now small things like me using 4K monitors causing the plugin to appear incredibly small are things I have to deal with). (also, I don't remember if it was that plugin or FLEX by FL Studio but I don't want to reopen FL Studio right now to check because this whole project has taken far too long and I just want to be done with these songs now.) BUT, now that I found a decent version of that sound, I went ahead and recreated the song from scratch. Answers to possible questions: - The lyrics are self-explanatory. Also, yes, the lyrics are, what's known as, "microtonal", because, you know me, I like to add pointless "word painting" to my songs, so when I say "no slipping through the gaps", the vocals descend microtonally, going down from G to F in 5 steps -- G, G½♭, G♭, F½♯, F -- ...because music. - Yes, that is Arin Hanson from Game Grumps at the beginning. I don't remember from which video it was, but they had joked about EDM and dance music and the various sounds and shouts that emphasize drops and builds and whatnot. I don't know which song(s) it was at the moment, but I've already used Dan's imitation riser from that video as a riser before, so I decided to use Arin's perfect pre-drop vocal as a pre-drop vocal here. - Yes, you have probably heard the vocal clips at the end from somewhere before. Many artists, including Skrillex, have used the pack that they're from and, recently, I was lucky enough to afford it and PURCHASE it myself. "Urban Dance Vocals" is the pack and I'm making the most out of it for the music I make. Lyrics: You hear the sirens wailin' your escape attempts are failin' You're wanted; you're on the run but the fun has just begun. You're caught; you're trapped. No slipping through the gaps. You feel your life's at end, but every day it starts again. óÓÒò ▶ Bandcamp 🐾 https://daymusik.bandcamp.com ▶ MySpace 🐾 https://myspace.com/daymusik197 ▶ Twitter 🐾 https://www.twitter.com/daymusik/ ▶ everywhere else 🐾 https://linktr.ee/Daymusik

[bbs-backlog-challenge]

Games of 2023

(2022)

I barely played anything last year. Tears Of The Kingdom so wholly swallowed my attention that, once I finally brought it to a close, I just fell of playing video games for a long time, and still haven't quite picked my way back into the hobby. I'll get into it during the write-up below, but it's OBVIOUSLY going to be my Game Of The Year (and in a rare change of pace, it actually came out this year!) so I will be nominating another game as GOTY instead.

This is also the year I became a car mechanic in my spare time after crashing and totalling my beloved Beetle and instead of getting a new car like a sensible person, I decided "well, I can probably fix it". 12 months later, still driving it! And also, still fixing it.

August brought with it an incredible depression out of nowhere during which I lost the plot a bit, but I did write an awful lot of words towards my novel, so I guess that evens things out. Regardless, a combination of all of the above resulted in very few games being played this year! My count is 23, compared to recent years being in the 70-80 range. Makes this an easier read, anyway. To the games!

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Jumpgrid

Hold over from last year, I played a little further but the final few levels are less reactive and more memory tests, which is a real shame. Just remembering which direction to move and trying to time it right isn't anywhere near as fun as frenetically dashing all around the grid. Soundtrack is still legit though.

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Absolute Drift

We gave this one quite the pasting in our livestream chat- safe to say it's not for me. In the hour I gave it, I didn't get even the slightest grip on how the controls work, which seems to be the intent. I'm sure there's a moment where, if you are persistent, everything -clicks- and suddenly it all makes perfect sense, but it didn't come close to happening and the game itself wasn't compelling me enough to keep blindly headbutting it until we got there.

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Thirty Flights

Wendy's no longer offers the 4 for $4 deal. I would still argue their $5 Biggie Bag is a better deal than this, despite technically being more expensive.

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Metroid Prime Remaster

And what a remaster it is! I'd argue the original Prime still looks and plays fantastic and didn't need remastering, but this is sublime and if you missed out the first time around (holy crap it was 20 years ago augugahguaghuhgh) this is a fine way to get caught up. Surely Primes 2 and 3 are on their way as well?

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Black Mesa

Interesting juxtaposition with MP:R here, another remaster of a classic game. This is similarly excellent despite my own cognitive dissonance as described in my BBLC entry. Unfortunately let down by the end sequence- the original's Xen chapter is pretty universally regarded as an awful blight on an otherwise great game and Black Mesa's approach was to... make it five times longer? They actually reworked the whole set up but it still just wasn't quite enough to polish that turd. It does look absolutely beautiful and the soundtrack is breath-taking, but I do wish they had let the environment breathe a little instead of filling it with enemy encounters. Still well worth a look, and a monumental achievement to finally have this game in a fully complete playable state after so long in development.

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Tears Of The Kingdom

I'm sure I don't need to say much here. Game so good I stopped playing games. Masterpiece. Every aspect of it- gameplay, visuals, music, story- masterpiece. Minor spoilers, the music during the final approach towards the final boss' arena had me so worked up I needed 5 minutes to get my head back into focus. It's a fairly common thing for the actual boss fight to feel badass, but I cannot recall any other time previous that just the *approach* made me feel like a hero, bringing to an end a story that had gone on for far, far too long. I don't need to tell you any of this. It's a masterpiece beyond masterpiece.

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Time Gentlemen Please

Adventure game sequel to Ben There Dan That, which I enjoyed oh-so-many moons past, but I couldn't get far here. There's an intolerable lag between every action and movement that drove me spare, which I'm not sure if it's an engine issue or a game issue. I don't enjoy adventure games enough to put up with things like that unfortunately, though I do remember enjoying the first game a lot.

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Final Fantasy 2 (Pixel Remaster) (PC)

Oh man. Without speaking hyperbolically, I think this might be the worst game I've ever played that is technically competent. The game runs nicely, the graphics are lovely, the music is just as fantastic this early in the series as it came to be known for, but by the nine divines, what an absolute pile of stink the actual gameplay experience is. I finished the game with 100% of achievements solely so I never, ever had to pick it up again. An abysmal and frustrating mess of a game that had some interesting ideas and had no clue what to do with any of them.

[20:26] Beebs: You should all buy Final Fantasy 2 on the sale [20:26] spookiott: didn't you hate it [20:26] Beebs: I did and still do and always will [20:26] Beebs: I just don't think I should suffer alone [20:27] Beebs: I'm going for 100% achievements just so I never ever have to play it ever again [20:27] spookiott: yeah, that'll show 'em! [20:33] Beebs: I do not know how they ever got to make a Final Fantasy 3, by rights they shouldn't have [20:34] Beebs: The series should have ended here and everyone involved with it should have been arrested [20:34] Beebs: please buy it.

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Endless Space

As a space-based 4x that isn't Master Of Orion 2, Endless Space caught my attention better than most, but I only played to the end of my first galaxy before moving onto

Endless Space Two: Endlesser Space

which I think hooked me a lot stronger. I found the conquer mechanics too opaque for my liking, with my invading army of millions somehow being annihilated by a defending force that had literally been reduced to zero remaining soldiers, and no explanation of how that could happen or how I could have done it better. I think modern 4x games have leaned away from conquest being the predominant means of victory and as such it's a way to make that victory type less appealing? I don't know. It's a good game, it's just not Orion.

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Fortnite

I played Fartbutt pretty much every day all year, it is honestly a fun game, and if you are resistant to the predatory business practices of the parent company you’ll have a good time. Don’t have much else to say here- getting down to the last 5 players alive and scanning the horizon for any sign of activity is thrilling and it’s a huge adrenaline rush to trade shots with the last one standing and secure the win.

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Diddy Kong Racing

Had a few attempts at this in recent years, this is the one that finally stuck thanks to the Deck. It’s a good racer with some total BS (I literally cheated the final boss with save states to race perfectly and still couldn’t beat him with one character lol) and adds a lot of fun single player content missing from the Mario flavoured rivals. Flying around exploring the hub island is just fun and I’d love to see the concept return in a future MK game. Wizpig theme is legit.

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Master Of Orion 2

You know it and you love it. This year I tried a no-expansion game where I could only settle planets in my home system. I actually won but there was a fun challenge towards the end where two enemy systems were behind black holes that I couldn’t reach- had to manipulate them into a war with each other so they would destroy those systems for me, but also keep one from defeating the other before they had finished the job. It worked out!

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Fire Emblem N-gage

A lot of people really loved this entry. I thought it was fine. Hard mode is way overtuned IMO, mostly because of the bosses, but Normal mode is conversely far too easy. Wish there was some middle ground between the two. The Somniel stuff felt REALLY tacked on, too, like they just put it there so people who had only played Three Houses had something familiar to the monastery, but the dialogue is all repeated and it feels a bit soulless. I thought for sure I was going to marry Celine because, I mean, look at her- but she drinks floral tea which is unforgivable so I married big tiddy goth GF Ivy instead, who already told me she loved me and worshipped me like a god in just our B rank support. Healthy!

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Team Fortress 2

I only played the fun halloween maps this year (surprisingly few of them are fun) and skipped the terrible ones, resulting in significantly less playtime this year than previous. Still didn’t get my thrice-damned hat. I also spent some time earlier in the year trying the Dragon’s Fury, a weapon I never previously bothered with, and it was quite refreshing.

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Star Fox 64

Really weird that they never made another Star Fox game after this one.

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Neopets

It is absolutely WILD that this site is still running, and many parts of it unchanged since 1999. I come back every so often- it's sort of my internet birthplace. "can't take the country out of the girl", so they say. They were giving away childhood dream-item Illusen's Staff essentially for free so I had to get it, and then I just kept sticking around for a bit. It's fun but I think only nostalgia keeps these servers running any more.

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Touhou 19

It's a Vs shooter, so even though you can play as Ran I pretty much bounced off once I had seen the new girls and heard the new music. It's a shame, but vs mode simply isn't what I play touhou for. Looking forward to 20, hopefully next year but probably 2025. New Ran lore though!

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Age Of Empires 2 Ultra Mega Edition

There really is simply no reason at all AoE2 needed to be made into a live service game, but ignoring that festering boil this is otherwise the ultimate way to play a very old and still very good game, with a whole slew of QoL features that I'll never be able to live without now I have them (visible tower range!). It's also compatible with all custom scenarios made in the original so we can still re-live the majesty of JUSTIN TIMBERLAR.sco and all the other very-good-actually scenarios I made as a clueless 14 year old.

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Ys 8: Lacrimosa Of Dana

An unexpected late entry takes this year's GOTY (That Isn't Zelda). The incredible lull I felt after TotK didn't clear for a long time, but at the end of November I fired this up and remembered why I love games generally and Ys specifically. Falcom is an established company that still somehow feels like a doujin circle, and I’m not sure how to explain what I mean by that but I mean it positively. This one’s actually telling a pretty neat story so far too, though I haven’t finished it yet. Can a game I haven’t finished truly be named GOTY? Yes. It’s my blog and I can do what I want. One year there were three winners!

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That’s all for 2023. 2024 doesn’t look to have any big hitters, but the JPRGs are accumulating on my backlog and I’m at roughly the halfway point in writing my book, so time will tell if I manage to beat this year’s meager score.

[pre1ude]

@serpentxprince , sent 👬 for four headcanons about our muses' relationship (<33)

1.

Now, it's a well known fact these two team up for mutual gain, quid pro quo and mostly out of necessity. Forsythe seems an outsider from his own community, smart enough to be terrified of Danny, semi-raliable at worst (by proxy, since he's a Lasombra) and in possession of such an intrinsic link to the great Wyrm that he's essentially a portable scourge compass. Dan meets him and decides to keep him in his pocket like a Boss Map to toggle at his leisure. It doesn't mean he likes the guy, but at the very least he has an appreciation for him. That said, with how Daniel's character in this verse has developed, I think at this point I can comfortably say this: He likely planned to dispose of Forsythe once he'd outlived his usefullness. Sentiments and attachments aside (few as they are at the beginning), he can't ignore what a giant liability their whole involvement with each other is, in light of the penance Danny would receive for it from the Regiment. Until Forsythe saves his life and he finds himself rethinking everything. I'm fairly sure he'd confess at some point, since guilt never sits well with him, and I'm excited about it.

2.

Daniel sends him letters. Once he finds out they have no feasible electronic communication available, he's all too happy to make the switch. It might be a necessity but he still overindulges, for the inherent drama of it alone. He writes in perfect calligraphy and absolutely words it like an english victorian writing to a starcrossed paramour. It's such a nerdy cringefest. Yes, Forsythe's name adds to the fantasy, if you're wondering. Mostly does it when he's sent away somewhere far enough that he can't make the walk to visit within an hour. His letters are blackmail material, he is so very serious about them. Yes, he also sends postcards from the next state over.

3.

After his second time tending to a particular vampire with a 'death wish', Danny starts making sure he's well-prepared. Forsythe's a trouble magnet and whoever finds themself so unlucky to be his designated safehouse has to take their nursing seriously. And Daniel does, he has phenomenal bedside manner for a man who's never needed medical aid past the age of 12. That's not to say he asks what Fodsythe needs; it would be far too embarassing. Rather, like any self-respecting nerd, he studies for it (part of it is his assumption that Forsythe's hostile sire never taught him much about his own bloodline). He does feel a little guilty for consulting the Regiment's vampiric records, no doubt sourced in a horrific manner, but the information on physiology and weaknesses there, used primarily for attack tactics, serves to educate Dan on how to better keep his own personal Lasombra out of death's second door. He strays away from using fire around the vampire, for example.

4.

Juxtaposing headcanon no. 1 (listen, character development): Daniel grows to cherish and treasure Forsythe and worry for him so much that he deigns to bestow upon him the old mark of the Regiment without his mother's knowledge. A crescent with a sword stabbed through it, to signify he is under their jurisdiction and protection, and all who may harm him will answer to the ancient order. A sort of immunity he thinks his vampire friend may benefit from. Paints it on his skin in a hidden place Forsythe can expose in a pinch, if he needs that sort of saving grace last minute. Essentially leaves the choice to him, but urgently implores him to please utilize it as often as he wishes, for his safety. I like to think vampire clans in particular are deathly afraid of it.

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Safe to say, Forsythe will find himself in trouble with Patricia at some point. I just know it. The way they're being even a little careless in most of our threads, it's inevitable. Danny's lulled himself into a false sense of security with the self-imposed assumption he would be excommunicated at best, and at worst, able to overpower and succeed his mother as Regiment leader if confronted violently (technically, he would). Which he is consciously giving her ample reason to do, with his betrayals and disloyalties and the particularly vile pact/relationship he has with a dark creature. But the mistake he makes is thinking she would not play dirty the moment she has the information necessary. The woman is ten steps ahead at all times, though. I don't know what to tell you. You've got a big storm coming, buddy. 😔

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Baby Steps

5/26

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Rating - Mature

Warnings - Explicit Language, alcohol and mentions of sex

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Thankfully, Daniel seemed to ignore your little outburst in the garage earlier and you were grateful for that. You weren’t sure if he asked someone to explain it to him but he hadn’t even mentioned it - gone straight into qualifying mode. You’d decided to leave Milo with the sitter during the weekend, mostly because you wanted to focus but also because you were worried he’d ask Dan to get in the car; you had to explain to him that cars were only for adults and Daniel was only being silly when he’d asked.

You looked back over your shoulder from the pitwall as Daniel climbed into the McLaren, he gave you a small wave before disappearing into the cockpit. After coming 3rd in the championship last season - your team had clearly shown the driver you were a team worth driving for, so you really hoped the car would perform well enough.

“Okay. Let’s get some good times, don’t worry about the tires - just give it all you’ve got.” You explained over the radio.

“I’m a pro, I’ve got this… sit back and relax, Sheila.”

A small smile tugged at the corner of your mouth as you turned your attention to the data on the screen in front of you. Daniel was right, he knew exactly what he was doing - all you had to do was give him the data he needed to perform. You cursed under your breath quietly as a Ferrari and Alfa tauri did an absolutely stellar lap, you expected Redbull and Mercedes to do a good lap but where did that pace come from.

“C’mon Daniel…” You mumbled quietly, tapping your foot against the bar under your chair. “We need a top 10 start to the season.”

If you could’ve crossed all of your fingers and toes for Daniel to get a good time, you would have. As the papaya car came charging at the finish line, the team cheered - 6th for Daniel, 7th for Lando. Not perfect but a decent start to the season.

“That’s P6 Daniel, good job.”

“Didn’t quite have the pace I wanted in that middle sector but we’ll get there. Good job team.”

You knew the Australian needed to get used to driving the car; he was the captain of the late braking club and both he and the team would have to make adjustments to make the car work out. You and your fellow pitwall sitters crossed over to the garage after qualifying finished - you made sure to congratulate Lando as you walked past.

“Not a bad start to the season, right boss?” You asked Andreas, earning a kind smile in return.

“I wasn’t expecting that kind of pace from an Alfa tauri, that Pierre really is something. But I am happy. Let’s just hope they can keep it up in the race tomorrow.”

“A points start is exactly what we need!” Zak interrupted, clapping you on the shoulder - making you jump a little. “But first, how about that dinner?”

You smiled and gave him a firm nod. “Smart casual, remember. So don’t be outdoing us all with that killer wardrobe I know you have, boss.”

The American’s laugh boomed through the garage, drawing the attention of your fellow teammates including the drivers. Daniel smiled when he saw the awkward look on your face; he’d been on the receiving end of Zak’s sense of humour before so he wasn’t surprised that you’d got him howling. The Australian swerved through the garage to get to you, nudging you slightly to let you know he was now beside you - making you look at him, a much more relaxed look now on your face.

“I’m starving. Can’t wait for dinner, I’ve been a good boy all week with my meals so I can pig out tonight.”

You couldn’t help but giggle when Dan oinked like a pig. “It’ll be good, I’m sure. Gonna crack out one of your famous party shirts?”

“Oh you know it.” He grinned. “You’ll love it.”

He was right. As he waltzed into the restaurant, it was like you were seeing him in a whole new light. It was so ridiculous, pastel pink with palm trees printed on it, but on him? The way it skimmed his broad shoulders and down to his narrow waist… how did you not realise how attractive he was before? You weren’t blind, you always knew but this was different.

The Australian pushed his sunglasses into his curls and approached you. “Good evening. You look lovely.”

“You don’t look too bad yourself.” You hummed, looking at him over the rim of your wine glass as you took a sip - not daring to be the one who broke eye contact first.

Something had changed in you, and he could sense it. The driver didn’t know how many drinks you’d had before he’d arrived but there was a gorgeous confidence. “Thank you. Are we waiting on anyone?”

“Just Lando, he’s picking up Luisa from the airport first. Drink? It’s on Zak.” You chuckled softly.

“What’s the most expensive thing on the menu?” He peered over your shoulder at the menu that was laid on the bar. “Think I’ll just have a glass of red, to be honest.”

You turned to order yourself another glass and Daniel his drink too; your cheeks flushed a soft pink when his hand ghosted the small of your back for a moment. He wanted to learn more about you, but as the fates would have it - everyone’s attention was stolen when Lando strolled in. The host led you all over to a group of large tables in the centre of the restaurant, you were the only patrons tonight and it was a good thing - there were so many of you.

“Lando.” Daniel whispered, getting his teammate’s attention. “You gotta make sure I’m sitting next to y/n.”

The young Brit’s mouth curved into a mischievous smirk. “Oh yeah?”

He nodded, immediately regretting it when Lando cupped his hands around his mouth and yelled across the restaurant to you, where you were standing with William. “AYE! Y/N, C’MERE?”

You excused yourself from your conversation with William and walked over to the drivers. A concerned frown on your face. “Everything okay, Lando?”

“Wanna sit with us?” The Brit said, eyes flickering briefly to his teammate and Dan let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding, glad that Lando hadn't completely thrown him under the bus.

“I’d like that.” You smiled, eyes moving over to Dan. “Shall we then?”

Dan pulled out a chair for you before the four of you sat down - you between the two drivers. You were on the largest table with Zak, Andreas and several other of the top engineers and Dan was eager to keep your attention on him for as long as possible and he knew just the topic to do it.

“So, tell me about Milo.”

The way your eyes lit up was truly beautiful, he could truly tell that Milo was your world. “Oh he’s amazing. He’s so clever?”

You were so animated when you spoke, with both your hands and facial impressions. You pulled your phone out of your pocket to show him baby photos; him in little costumes, a video your mum took taking his first steps towards you and Dan was annoyed at himself that the only thing he could notice was Dad seemed to be absent in all of the memories.

“He’s so funny. And look at his little curls, you’ll have to tell me what you do with yours because when he gets older I know they’re gonna get more unruly.”

“Oh for sure!” He smiled. “He’s such a cute kid. I can’t wait to get to know him.”

“He likes you already. Uncle Carlos is still his favourite and he likes Lewis and Lando too, but you’re definitely in the running.”

Zak clinked his knife against the side of his glass and stood up. “Hey everyone, I know she planned tonight but we’re hijacking it… we want to say a massive thank you to y/n.”

Dan watched as your cheeks flushed a dark pink and you lowered your head a little. You were so unassuming and humble that he knew that being singled out like this made you nervous, but that didn’t stop Zak from carrying on.

“You’ve been such a star player this past decade and we’re so grateful that you stuck with us despite other teams wanting to poach you with promotions, especially Ferrari.”

“I could never leave you guys, you’re like my family at this point.” You chuckled, trying to get the attention off of you and back to everyone else. So you raised a glass. “To McLaren!”

Everyone clinked their glasses together and Dan offered his to you, cheersing you. “Good job you’re still here, I’m glad you’re with me.”

You didn’t think you could blush any darker but you did, if you could have just turned invisible right in that moment you would. The way Dan’s honey coloured eyes were scanning over your face made you feel all weird and you didn’t know if you liked it. You hadn’t had this feeling for a long time and it was scary.

“…Lando.” You turned your attention away from Dan, looking to the man on your other side instead. “Ready for the race tomorrow?”

Dan frowned a little, clenching his jaw a little - all he wanted was to get to know you but you just kept shutting the door on him. He excused himself from the table for a moment and you took a deep breath. You didn’t like making him feel confused but you were just not ready to talk about your feelings, your past… anything. He didn’t know you, despite the fact he really wanted to.

“You should give him a chance, y’know.” Lando said, his voice soft.

“Excuse me?” You frowned.

Lando’s eyes widened. “Not like that! Just get to know him, he’s a good guy. He’ll have your back.”

You let out a soft sigh, taking a big sip of your wine. “I’m not very good at letting people in… I’m just a little scared I’ll say too much and scare someone away.”

“It’s Dan. You could have an extra set of toes growing out back and he’d be your friend. Just give it a go.”

Just give it a go.

If it was that simple you would’ve done it a long time ago, but when Dan reapproached the table you knew you had to at least try. You gave him a kind smile.

“I’m glad I’m at McLaren with you as well.” Your voice was quiet, a slight nervous tremor.

Dan placed a gentle hand on your shoulder and squeezed. “We’re gonna make a great team, y’know? I don’t know what happened in your past, I’m more focused on the here and now.”

He relished in the way your cheeks flushed. “…thank you. Look, I uhm, I’m not very good at opening up but I’ll try.”

“Don’t put too much pressure on yourself, okay?” He’d lowered his voice, practically a whisper. “I want to get to know you but your pace.”

You let out a soft sigh. It was just hard. Getting close to someone was terrifying because you didn’t want to get hurt again. The Australian felt guilty, he didn’t mean to upset you.

“Hey… come with me.”

Without thinking, he wrapped his hand around yours and led you away from the table. Your heart was absolutely racing, why did his hand feel good around yours? He pushed open the door into the patio area, the warm breeze was pleasant on your skin and the quiet felt nice.

“Nice out here right?” He hummed, the two of you took a seat at one of the patio tables. “Much quieter.”

“…being a single mother is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and sometimes I wake up and feel like every choice I’ve ever made in Milo’s life was the wrong one.”

The word vomit came out before you could stop it - you expected Dan to excuse himself awkwardly but instead he wrapped an arm around your shoulder and pulled you into his side.

“I’ve not known you long but you are a great Mum.” He whispered softly. “Milo is such a good kid. He’s funny, he’s kind… he’s amazing.”

You let your head rest on his shoulder, closing your eyes as you let out a shaky breath. His fingers traced softly up and down your arm, just enjoying your warmth against him.

“I’m sorry.” You mumbled. “I didn’t mean to just come out and say that.”

“Don’t apologise. I appreciate you opening up to me.”

You looked up at him, backing away a little when you realised how close your faces were. “I just wanted to keep this relationship professional but there’s just something about you that makes me feel comfortable and that’s scary.”

Dan’s heart was racing but he didn’t want to scare you away. Any declaration of his crush would definitely send you running for the hills so instead he just opted for a kind smile.

“I feel comfortable around you too… so, friends?”

The way your eyes sparkled in the soft lights of the patio gave him butterflies, the soft smile on your face was beautiful.

“Friends.”

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Please Stay With Me

Chapter 18

I hope you all enjoyed this story all your comments and support with this fic truly means a lot I hope you like the ending of this fic

A year had now passed Jessy had completed her treatment and was doing really well she was in a new relationship with Dan, things had been going well and they where now engaged. Richy and Cleo were stornger than ever she had moved in with Richy. MC and Jake had gotten married they didn't want anything too big just a small gathering with friends and family James was 1 and was coming leaps and bounds.

They had just finished moving into their new house it had 3 bedrooms and a large office space for Jake's computers. Jake was now working cyber security he got too work from home which was perfect. MC was also working from home she had gotten a job in advertising and was doing really well.

Jake's birthday was coming up and MC wanted too do something special for Jake, she had booked a night away at a little country inn. Everything had been taken care off Richy and Cleo offered too look after James for the night.

MC: okay that's everything all his bottles and food are in this bag, I've got extra nappies in this bag with a a change of clothes.

Cleo: don't worry MC everything will be fine

MC: here's the key too the house incase you need too get him anything

Cleo: you go have a nice time with Jake

They arrived at the inn and went too check in, they got shown too their room inside was a bottle of champagne and two glasses.

Jake: MC this is amazing you didn't have too do this

MC: I wanted too you deserve it

Jake: thanks you

They had a wonderful evening and an even more amazing night, they headed back the next day and picked up jay from Cleo and Richy's. As Jake and MC were putting jay into the car Jessy and Dan were coming towards them. MC hadn't really spoken with Jessy since everything that went down. Even though MC had expected her apologie she didn't really want too be around her.

Dan: hey MC how you doing?

MC: am good, how's you?

Dan: couldn't be better

MC: I sense an ulterior motive?

Dan: well... There is something

MC: forget it Dan

Jessy: please MC we need too talk

MC: I have nothing left too say too wasn't it enough I was forced too accept your apology?

Dan: just hear her out please

Jake: you got 5 minutes

Jessy: I understand that you don't want too be best friends again, I just wanted you too know that I miss you. You will always be my best friend no matter how much you hate me. I know I've messed up alot in my past but all that is behind me know. I've been able too move I'm with Dan now he's been so good too me I am truly truly sorry for what happened. I will spend everyday of my life trying too make up for what I did.

Jake pulled MC too one side and spoke too her softly.

Jake: what ever you decide is up too you i will respect

MC: I don't know what too do Jake she was my best friend and she did what she did

Jake: you forgave me, so maybe you could forgive her in time

MC: why do you have too be so reasonable

Jake: it's why you love me

They both walked back over too where Dan and Jessy were stood.

MC: look Jessy it's never going too be the same at least not right now, but Jake said that if I can forgive him then maybe in time I can forgive you. I just need time too think about everything first.

Jessy: that's all I ask

Jessy and Dan continued their walk as Jake and MC got into the car and went back home, a few weeks had passed Jessy and MC where getting their friendship back on track. Jake was busy working in his office when MC came in and wrapped her arms around him.

Jake: hey, your in a good mood what's up?

MC: Jake I've got something too tell you

Jake: what is it?

MC: I'm pregnant

Jake: you are!! That's amazing news do you know when?

MC: the night of your birthday and we got pretty wild in the hotel

Jake stood up and embraced MC in his arms holding her close, he whispered in her ear

Jake: I love you so much

MC: I love you too Jake

The end

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I can be your mirror - Daniel Ricciardo smut!

You feel insecure when you see his ex's instagram and Daniel decides to show you why you don't need to be

Warnings: smut! unprotected sex, low self esteem, etc

You were just chilling in the hotel bed, scrolling through your phone while Daniel finished taking a shower. It was Thursday night in Hungary, and media day was relatively calm (all eyes were still on Max and Lewis, after the whole Silverstone incident).

Your relationship was still new, you guys had just went public a couple months ago, and you liked that you were still discovering things about each other everyday, like how he prefers his eggs in the morning or that small scar under your chin he just noticed yesterday. Yet, some things weren't as fun to find out, like what his exes looked like.

A few fan accounts had started following you, including some F1 WAGs accounts, and you followed some of them back - you wanted to the updated, after all (or at least that's what you told yourself). The thing is, comparisons were inevitable to you - no matter how much you tried to be reasonable, low self esteem was always an issue to you. When a WAGs account posted about Daniel's ex hanging around in the paddock today and how cute her outfit was, you quickly found yourself clicking on the tag and stalking her ig. Perfect. Fucking perfect. You just have to set your own heartbreak up, don’t you? If at least you could let life do that, but no, you had to go and fall for the guy with the instagram models as his exes. You smiled ironically to yourself.

"Did you see Max shutting down that reporter on the press conference today?" Daniel said walking out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his torso and another drying his hair. You quickly locked your phone and looked up, startled like a kid caught with their hands on the cookie jar.

"Hum?" you asked him.

“What were you looking at?” he grinned you, throwing himself on the bed and sitting by your side.

“Nothing” you answered quickly, looking away.

“Don’t be like that. Tell me” he asked again, nudging you with his head.

“It’s nothing Dan, just silly old instagram”

“You wanna know one of the things I love most about you?” He asked before continuing. “You don’t really have filters. And even when you try to hide what you’re thinking, your face and body gives you away” He said. “That’s why you’re so perfect, you’re genuine” he touched your nose with his. “Let’s be honest with each other. Tell me what’s going on in there” Then he tried to lighten the mood saying "Can't be shirtless pictures of me that got you smirking, cause here I am in the flesh for you" you rolled your eyes but smiled at him.

“I’m laughing at myself” You said and he just looked at you, waiting for you to continue. “I’m setting myself up for heartbreak, more and more, and it’s just like me”

“What you’re talking about?”

“Please don’t say it’s stupid” you said before continuing. “You’re like, a rock star… fast cars, VIP, supermodels… these stuff are routine for you, you have the most interesting life. And you could have any girl. And your exes are like movie stars, fucking supermodels, and I'm not sure how much longer till you realize that and just, you know” you said gesturing to yourself and waving your fingers in front of your throat like who says 'abort mission'.

"I should know better, I really should and this might be nothing, but the deeper we get in this, the harder it's to wrap my own head around it and it’s so stupid, but how can anyone compete with that?” You weren’t making any sense, you knew and he was looking at you with his eyebrows raised and lips pressed, like he was holding a smile. “I’m rambling, forget I said anything it's so stupid” You said hiding your face behind your hand.

“I thought you said it wasn’t stupid” He said opening up a smirk and you opened your fingers to look at him. He pulled your hand down. “But you’re right, it is fucking stupid, because there’s no competing with you. I don’t care if I have to repeat that a thousand times for you to believe me, I mean…you had to have a flaw, huh?” You turned your head to the side. “This insecurity of yours, that you’re not good enough, it’s just the most crazy thing ever. Because I feel exactly the same. I’m the one that’s not good enough for you. You’re so smart, and good and you actually do good in the world. I’m just the lucky bastard that got picked to drive in circles around the world”

“You know that’s bullshit” You said.

“I’m serious. This whole stuff, fame, whatever… doesn’t mean anything. It’s just not real. I’m glad I realized that when I did” you were watching him intently. “Racing, challenging myself, working with the team, you... what we have, those are the stuff that are real to me, what really matters".

"Okay" you nodded agreeing.

"If you must to know, the reason why I didn’t work out with anybody else, it’s because we were never more than fuck buddies. Those girls are great fun, but they're more worried about showing than being, you know? And I’m not really interested in talking about them because it doesn’t mean anything, but I’ll tell you anything you ask me” You were dying to ask him more, to know every little details and to learn from their mistakes, but you knew you’d become obsessed with comparing yourself to them and didn’t he just tell you he wasn’t interest in anything about it?

“Sorry” you said quietly.

“What for?”

“Being a nag. Killing the mood” he smiled.

“Don’t-” “you-” “dare-” He kissed your face in between every word. “apologizing-” “for-” “your-” “feelings” he pulled away and looked at you. “Specially not to me. I meant it, let’s be honest, huh?” you nodded smiling back at him. “And if I’m ever a dick, please tell me before screw things up. This is not nothing, okay?”

“Okay”

“And I’m flattered you think I could have any girl” he said grinning. “I mean, I AM pretty hot, but-”

“Shut up. You know I’m right”

“Maybe any girl who cares about that stuff, and my amazing six pack” he says laughing and kissing you.

“And hard butts” you replied laughing and reaching to squeeze his, playfully.

“And hard butts” he agreed, rolling so he was on top of you.

“Those girls are usually the hottest”

“Do you honestly don’t have a mirror at home?” he said pulling away slightly from you. “It’s okay baby” he said in your ear, lifting your shirt over your head, then nibbling at your earlobe, making you moan. “I can be your mirror” he said in a low voice, taking your hands over your head and pinning them with his own.

Then he used his knees to push your legs apart. You were following his face, trying to kiss his mouth but he was holding you down, his lips barely touching your skin now, him hovering over your neck, your collarbone, your exposed breasts. You were squirming now, trying to get some release. He just wouldn’t let you have any yet.

“You have the most amazing skin” he begin saying. “So soft” he looked up to you, you had your eyes closed now. “The most amazing boobs. Fucking perfect tits, so round… and these perking nipples, so hard when you’re turned on” his lips touched your breasts lightly, barely.

“Your hair always smells so good, it’s the perfect frame for your perfect face” He went up again and kissed your lips, biting them lightly and dragging them out. “I love your lips, I love how plumped they are. I’m kind of jealous actually” he chuckled and you opened your eyes rolling them. “And those eyes. Fuck, I know it’s the first thing anyone notices about you, isn’t it? Are you sick of it by now? So big and green. I love seeing them rolling back when you come” he brought one hand down, pulling your pijama pants down and holding both of your hands up with only one of his. “I’m getting there in a minute” he said grabbing your pussy. “I just want to tell you about your ass first” he said sliding his hand through your hips until he reached your ass, grabbing it then releasing to give it a slap. You let out a yelp. “You in the mood for a little rough love?” he slapped you again and you smiled through your moan, this is so hot. And the best part of it was that no one else knew this side of his, just you. It's petty yeah, but you decided to indulge yourself in that thought.

“I love your ass, I swear I was trying to be respectful today, but you were such a tease, on those little shorts, made me hard as soon as you walked in the paddock” he went down to suck your left boob in his mouth and you were so sensitive you couldn’t help but moan, loudly. “Yeah baby, let me hear you. Let everyone hear you” He said releasing your boob and nibbling at it. “I saw how the guys were staring at your ass today. Fuckers, couldn’t help themselves. Let them stare…as long as they know who you belong to” he said leaning down to suck on your other boob. “Tell me who you belong to” his voice was so low.

“Uh…you” You were a moaning mess.

“Huh?”

“You, Daniel! I’m yours”

“That’s right”

“Please” you begged.

“What is it? What you what baby?” he whispered against your skin.

“Touch me, please”

“But I am touching you baby” he said and you heard the smirk in his voice. “Oh, I see what you mean… you want me to touch your pussy?”

“Yeah” you nodded. At the same time this was torture, it felt so, so good.

“This fucking perfect cunt of yours” he said sliding two fingers through your lips and opening them to spread you to him, you were soaking wet and pulsating, clenching around nothing. “Fuck, look at this” He said almost to himself, licking his lips. Then he slid his fingers in, curling them up, making a ‘come here’ motion. He dipped his head down, kissing the inside of your leg, then right over your clit, taking it in between his lips and sucking. You moaned loudly. “Oh sorry baby… you wanted it rough, huh?” he sucked your clit harder, then bit on it lightly. You could scream at how much pleasure he was giving you.

“Fuck! Oh my god Dan” He started to tease you with another finger meanwhile.

“Think you can take another one?” his words sending vibrations against you and making you forget how to form words. “I know you can, you take me so well. Such a good girl for me” he inserted another finger and started to pump them in and out of you faster. “So fucking tight. Can’t wait to feel you around me. That’s my favorite place you know? Buried deep inside your cunt” that was it, you came, hard. Arching your back and hips, Daniel releasing your hands to push you down and hold you there while you came and he kept sucking and licking and biting your clit. You couldn’t take anymore, you pushed him away, pulling his hair.

“Can’t-” You tried to say. “Dan”

“Yes, you can. Come here” He said pulling away and lifting you, dragging you out of the bed and into the bathroom, the rest of your clothes and his towel getting lost in the way. He pushed you against the sink, pulling your face up, making you look at yourself on the mirror. He was pressing against you from behind, his cock leaking in between your legs. “I want you to see what I see” he said staring at you through the mirror. “Gonna fuck you so good, you don’t ever forget how fucking perfect you are” and with that he slammed inside you. “Fucking-” he had one hand on your hair and the other around you, between your folders, massaging your clit. “Fucking heaven, taking me so good”

“Ah Dan” You screamed. He started to fuck you hard and fast, pushing you against the sink. You lifted your head and looked at the mirror, it was the most erotic thing you’ve ever seen. Daniel was dripping sweat, thrusting with perfect precision. His eyes were locked on yours and you knew he was as close as you. The thought of how deep the connection between you were at that moment made you clench again and he lost it, giving you one final thrust and a guttural groan. You came again, shaking more than ever, the feeling too much this time. “I can’t-” You tried to say again. “Too much-” Squeezing him over and over, so he pulled out, still spilling, making a mess over your legs and on the bathroom floor. He was still holding you though.

“I’m right here baby. Right here” He whispered on you ear from behind. You both were riding out your orgasms, rocking slightly, your body leaned on the sink, pressing your boobs against it, and he leaning over you, breathing hard.

After you both calmed down, you tried to move but his weight was too much. You let out a weak laugh and he moved. “Sorry” he said kissing your back. When you got up, you turned to him and kissed him lightly.

“You are-” You said against his lips “amazing”. And kissed him again, lovinly. “Thank you. You make me feel so good, Daniel. Let me take care of you now”

Daniel's POV

This woman is trying to kill me. “Baby I don’t think I have it in me-” “Not like that” she smiled. “I meant with a bath” she said gesturing to the bathtub.

“Yes, please” I said already opening the tap and letting the water run. She went back to the room and returned with a water bottle, taking a sip before passing it to me. I took it from her hand and almost finished it, before giving it back to her.

“Do they have any bubbles? Bath salts?” she asked.

“Hum…I don’t think so, baby” I answered looking around on the sink.

“That’s fine” she smiled, getting in the tub and motioning for me to sit in between her legs. Her hair was up in a knot, but some of it was clinging to her neck due to the sweat. She was so beautiful, I can’t believe she wants me.

“You don’t want me to stay behind you?” she shook her head smiling and I did as she asked, leaning on her. The tap was still running, filling the tub with hot water, while we two of us just soaked in there, relaxing. “This is nice,” I said while she ran her hands through my hair. When the tub was full enough, she turned off the water and applied some body wash on my skin, running her hand over my back and shoulders, it felt so good, so comfortable, like I didn’t have a worry in the world. Then I washed her legs around me, kissing her feet and calves and making her giggle. She kept massaging my shoulders. We stayed there for good while, half an hour? More or less? There’s nothing else in the world other than this bathroom anyway, so who cares?

“Can we stay here forever?” She asked me after a while, kissing behind my neck. I just hummed in response. “Actually, scratch that. I’m getting hungry. And thirsty”

“The limitations of the human body” I said jokingly but got out of the tub after a few minutes. If m’lady wants to eat, I’m getting her food. I dried myself, wrapping a towel around me and holding hers open for her to step out of the tub.

We went back to the room, she picked her clothes from the floor and put them away in her travel bag back inside the closet. I watched as she got a fresh pair of underwear and a clean bra, while I put on boxers and sweatpants. She wore some leggings that hugged her ass perfectly, what a view. I noticed her going through her bag, probably looking for a shirt but I just wanted her to wear some clothing of mine, so I took the hoodie I was going to wear and passed it to her. She smiled and accepted it, it looked oversized on her and covered her ass, but maybe that’s a good thing, I don’t need anyone thirsting over what’s mine, I don’t care how much of a prick that makes me sound.

"Do you wanna order or go out to eat?" I asked her.

"Let's just go downstairs, to the restaurant?"

"Yeah, that's fine" I say and peck her lips.

I put on a sweatshirt, and hold the door open for her. We walk out and the temperature was a bit colder out here in the hallway (or maybe it was just too hot inside the room), so I just take her hand and intertwine our fingers, passing my arms around her and holding her closer. I just love that I can do that whenever I want.

And I plan on doing that for the rest of my life.

[ofoceansandtombsanew]

Manhwa Rec: Inso’s Law

My obsession of about a year now, Inso’s Law is a manhwa I stumbled on accidentally on mangahere and I’m here for the ride. Unfortunately, I’m literally the only person in my group of friends that reads it. And since I’m desperate to try and convince people to check it out one way or another, I’ve decided the only thing I can do is make a long post about it because I suck at making slideshows. 

So please, sit back and relax, and enjoy my manhwa recommendation of

Why You Definitely Should (only if you want to but please I need someone to talk to) Read

인소의 법칙: Inso’s Law

The plot as it goes follows:

One day, without any explanation or strange phenomenon, Ham Dan-i wakes up to find her life has turned upside down.

Her new uniform her mother bought only days prior is a completely different design that neither of her parents are questioning. The neighbor next door is a beautiful girl she’s never met claiming to be her best friend since birth.

Even more odd? The school she enrolled in no longer exists, replaced by a complete different one altogether. And just when she thinks this day can’t get any crazier, Dan-i stumbles onto what can only be described an episode 1 exposition dump about the school’s hottest boys everyone calls The Four Heavenly Kings.

With no other explanation, Dan-i is forced to accept her new reality. Somehow, Dan-i’s been isekai’d into a universe that runs on the rules of a manhwaー complete with all the ridiculous and dangerous tropes that come along with it. But the cherry on top of this unwanted sundae? 

Dan-i quickly learns that her role in this novel is that of the Side Character. Specifically, the female lead’s childhood best friend. And no matter what she does to distance herself from her new fate of being the third wheel to her new best friend Yeoryeong’s love life, it’s a ride Dan-i is going to have to take. Willingly or otherwise.

But if the plot alone isn’t enough to grab you, I do have several other reasons for you to consider.

1) Comedic genius

From the extreme lengths Ji-ho will go to present himself as the perfect boy in front of Dan-i’s friends only to laugh his ass off at her misery the moment they turn around to Dan-i’s deadpan reaction to Yeoryeong complaining about someone potentially having dyed blonde hair when the vast majority of their friends have red or silver hair.

Inso’s Law is comedic gold.

While a good chunk of the comedy stems from poking fun at genre-specific tropes (ex. the male lead telling the crying protagonist that he’ll give her ten seconds to cry), the vast majority comes from the casts’ chemistry and banter with one another. 

2) The characters

Whether it’s a manhwa or old shoujo anime/manga, we all know the tropes associated with them.

Over-the-top bullying, 

Blackmailing plots, 

Full-blooded Koreans with hair straight out of an anime,

Kidnapping or bribery in extreme casesー 

regardless of the trope, Dan-i’s seen it all in the many manhwas she’s read over the years.

As such, when our story begins, she is all too happy to try and distance herself from our central five characters to avoid being mixed up the whole mess. In spite of her efforts, however, Dan-i unwittingly finds herself wrapped right up tight in the friend group of that is our Female Lead and Four Heavenly Kings. All of which represent some sort of trope you’ve all likely seen if you’re a fan of these types of series.

And while there are lots of great characters in this series, I’ll limit myself to talking about our leads.

Ham Dan-i ・함단이: Female Lead’s Best Friend

Our isekai’d protagonist who has been tossed into the position of ‘side character’. But like most isekai protags, Dan-i would rather not be in the world she’s found herself in because as she words it ‘I have common sense and can take care of myself’. Keeping the facts of this reality to herself, Dan-i struggles with genuinely caring for her new group of friends and the fact she doesn’t belong in this world. That aside, she’s often tired by the shenanigans she now gets involved in because of said friends.

Ban Yeoryeong・반여령: The Female Lead

Exceedingly beautiful, athletic, intelligent, and takes shit from no man- Yeoryeong is the web novel’s female lead and Dan-i’s apparent childhood friend. Unaware of this merge of realities, Yeoryeong adores Dan-i endlessly and in her eyes, Dan-i can do no wrong. Honestly, if the genre of this manhwa was changed to wlw, Yeoryeong would have no problem and would happily propose.

Eun Ji-ho ・은지호: The Snobby Love Interest

A much more turned down version of characters like Tsukasa from Boys Over Flower/Hana Yori Dango, Ji-ho is still the snobby rich kid love interest. His first interaction with Yeoryeong where he found out she beat his score on an exam, he told her he’d best her the next time. He’s snarky, competitive, but even if he’s a tease he has his friends’ collective back and doesn’t cross their boundaries.

Yoo Chun-young ・유천영: The Stoic & Quiet Love Interest

That guy who never talks to anyone and keeps to himself trope. His smile? Only reserved for the heroine or even small animals. Bonus: he’s a model, one with sweet abs that even Dan-i appreciates. But in reality, Chun-young dislikes the expectations set on him by his classmates due to their preconceived notions of him and would rather nap in the back of class while listening to Linkin Park. 

Kwon Eun-hyung ・권은형: The Calm & Mature Love Interest

The designated mom friend guy, who is all calm smiles and is the one everyone goes to for advice. Honestly, he’s as patient as a saint and he cares deeply about the people he loves. Give him one reason though and he won’t hesitate to swing whether he’s going up against one guy or five. Eun-hyung’s a brawler underneath his Makoto Tachibana-esque smile and he’s a master of the death stare.

Woo Ju-in ・우주인: The Cutesy & Smiley Love Interest

Nagisa Hazuki but if he dyed his hair to a light brown and got some contacts. Ju-in is the energetic oddball of the group who dances to the beat of his own drum. A genius with a photographic memory who’ll fail tests on purpose sometimes just for shits and giggles. But underneath that smile belies a more observant nature than he lets on. He’s also Ji-ho’s childhood pal.

In spite of the tropes they all represent, the main cast of Inso’s Law feel like real people and a real group of friends at that. If you’re a fan of tropey manhwas or romance anime, you’ll be right there with Dan-i going ‘oh shit, it’s that trope’. See Ji-ho laughing his ass off at Dan-i’s superficial suffering but coming through when he knows he’s seriously upset, you’ll definitely nod to yourself ‘now this is friendship’.

The dynamic they all have as the leads to the story is definitely one of the best things about it. Speaking of dynamics, Inso’s Law also has,

3) A healthy balance of romance and platonic relationships

A romance-comedy Inso’s Law may be, but it doesn’t neglect the platonic opposite gender friendships for it. Dan-i forms friendships with many male characters and the majority of them are completely platonic. 

Even characters with romantic feelings for another will put their friendship first. There’s no ulterior motives in their interactions thinking ‘oh if I do this, they’ll like me’ guiding their actions, they’re doing it because they’re friends first and foremost and want the best for them. 

Honest conversations about things that make them uncomfortable or a talk on how no matter how many fakes you come across your true friends will stick with you no matter what. Within and out of our main group of characters, you’ll see this across the board and it’s pretty refreshing since most of the time platonic relationships are barely shown if romance is the main aspect of the show.

So there’s something for everybody, not just diehard romance fans.

4) I am desperate

It’s the way I need someone to talk to about everything that’s happened thus far whether it be in the DMs or ask box. Help a sister out.

That’s all I got in terms of reasons to check this series out. It’s a fun read with a lot to keep you reading and currently ongoing! And with Attack on Titan going on break until part 87 comes out in 2045 and waiting for the return of Jujutsu Kaisen season 2 (or if you are a manga reader like me constantly in pain because X just died. Great), maybe some people who follow me can check out Inso’s Law as a light and fun series to perk them up in the midst of all their favorite characters dying.

Just definitely let me know if you check it out, I’d love to talk about it!

[ariaadagio]

Thoughts about S6

This is gonna be a little all over the place. Just me rambling, really. 

So, I went up to LA to watch the show with some fandom friends on Friday. We had an absolute blast. I loved the finale season of the show. LOVED. I had some quibbles, of course, but none worth lingering on at length. I know the ending was controversial for some, but not for me. It worked on all levels. 

I didn’t have much love for the end of 5B (I know, y’all are probably shocked, given some of the things I’ve written re: Lucifer becoming God or godlike) which is why I never really chimed in on the post-5B discussion. I just couldn’t muster much enthusiasm about it, and I didn’t want to froth about or hate on it when other people were having fun and gushing. 

But my main issues at the time involved: Lucifer suddenly wanting to become God felt poorly setup and unearned, and Chloe suddenly quitting the force to support Lucifer becoming God felt incredibly impulsive, perhaps almost out of character. 

S6 not only was perfect for me in its own right, it actually went back and fixed my S5B issues retrospectively. Lucifer suddenly wanting to become God felt poorly setup because it WAS poorly set up. On purpose. He never actually wanted to be God. It wasn’t his calling. And Chloe dropping her Detective job so suddenly WAS impulsive. On purpose. She really didn’t think that one through and ended up being bored out of her fucking mind without that job to engage her problem-solving brain. So ... kudos to the writers for that. I am so pleasantly surprised by that backtracking and never expected it.

As far as season 6 goes ... oh my gosh, what a brilliant roller coaster. Like @tarysande, I also spent a large portion of the season wondering what the evil trick was with Rory. I didn’t trust ANYTHING she said for many episodes. I kept waiting for a shoe to drop that never did. I really appreciate that Deckerstar did not get married—I never felt like a marriage was necessary for them given where they were in their life (a divorcee and a Devil who isn’t beholden to human constructs of law). I actively did not want a Deckerstar baby, but the show did it in a way I found absolutely lovely. Rather than using Rory as a magical “happily ever after” button as so many shows do, she was a tool to create massive character growth in Lucifer, and I am so on board with that. 

I cried during this season. Frequently. Which is something that rarely happens for me when watching or reading fiction. I am just ... so stupidly emotionally involved in these great characters. 

Some people may fixate on the separation between Lucifer and Chloe until her death, but to me ... it worked. Lucifer found a higher purpose and chose to fulfill it, to keep his promise to his daughter—to be a better father for Rory than his father was for him—and he does still ultimately get a “happily ever after” with his family and friends and dearest loved ones. It just starts a little later than planned. Chloe, meanwhile, gets to live her life knowing without doubt the love of her life is not only okay & pursuing his calling, he’s waiting for her on the flip side. They’ll have eternity together—ETERNITY, in exchange for a few decades apart. Bittersweet? Yes. Tragic? No. So I am okay with this. This is a level of certainty no real human ever gets—and as someone with zero certainty about the future whatsoever, I can’t express enough how much this foreknowledge alone would be a comfort in difficult times. It really resonates with me as a meaningful gift.

I do agree that there’s plenty of room for Lucifer to see Chloe without Rory’s knowledge, though I’m on the fence about how realistic this is. I think Dan called it, honestly. Having to watch and not participate is more torturous than not participating at all. And, as I said, he gets to see everybody eventually. He knows his daughter will understand—actively consents, even—and he knows their reunion will come.  He knows Chloe will come back to him, too, because he’s grown to trust and love her fully.

Along those lines, Lucifer showed amazing character development this year. Once this man figures out his feelings and commits, he is ALL IN. I was so proud of him, talking out his feelings, and saying I love you, and hugging people left and right. His goodbyes made me tear up, particularly the scene with Maze. Which. OMG. These two. That scene was a long time coming, and so heartfelt. i loved it. I also loved how comfortable in his own skin he finally seemed this season. He utilized his wings SO MUCH. And his devil face where appropriate. And there was zero angst about any of it.

Time travel is a trope that tends to break my brain, but ... I think Rory showing up is what enabled her own conception. Lucifer didn’t think he could have kids until he finds out he does in the future and then boom, suddenly he can conceive. He self-actualized working swimmers. I know this creates a chicken or the egg paradox—how could this loop ever even start if Rory hadn’t existed at least once on her own—buuut, I’ve definitely seen this trope used in other shows, such as Netflix’s Dark. So, imho, there was an added level to Lucifer’s sacrifice at the end—he wasn’t just trying to preserve his own epiphany via a promise to his daughter, he was actively choosing to save his daughter’s entire existence, and he was choosing to be different from his father.

People who think Lucifer was robbed of choice ... I beg to differ. For the reasons stated above, and also? He was the one who came up with the idea of returning to Hell. No one forced that on him. The only thing Rory did was speed up his time table. And I think there’s a beautiful kind of symmetry to the idea of him returning to Hell and choosing to reframe it as a place of healing, rather than eternal suffering. In a sense, he’s making his own Plan for himself. He’s defining his role in the universe: the Devil, not God. He’s defining his family: Chloe, Rory, Trixie, Dan, Maze, Eve, Linda, Amenadiel, Ella, and all the great friends he’s made. He’s defining his home: not a place, but where his heart is. For the first time in his life, the Devil decided who he is and what he wants to do with his life, instead of letting external forces do it for him.

And I fucking loved every minute of it.

A perfect ending for a long, thoughtful journey.

P.S. If you disagree with me, that’s fine. There’s no wrong way to interpret art and media. But please know I’m not really in the mindset for debate right now. I just want to live in my happy post-S6 bubble. I’d appreciate it if you let me :)

[cuntycassandra]

As a Christmas gift to a few of my favourite people, I decided to construct two little collages consisting of name meanings and coloured structures that remind of these incredible people. If you don’t celebrate Christmas, please just take these pretty boards as gifts for being amazing friends towards me over the last eight months.

The first boards consists of my closest online friends, also known as the harem.

- Kit, you never fail to put a smile on my face with your amazing sense of humour and your beautiful heart. Seeing you appear on the group chat every day is genuinely one of the highlights of my mornings. ( @imgaybut )

- Tori, although our past may have taken a turn I will never stop loving you to your very core. You still mean ever so much to me, and I’m thankful to call you my best friend. The way you beautifully construct words so smoothly, the way you find ways to connect with almost everyone. You are ever so special. ( @torivikachu )

- Sevval, a sweetheart through and through, a kind yet sassy person who can hold the most intelligent yet silliest of conversations at the same time. I have so much time for you, Sevvie, and I hope you know that. ( @that-veela-girl )

- Jamie, the kindest person I have ever met. She is always there to lend a hand, a shoulder or a hug. You have the biggest heart, full of love and pure adoration for your friends. Never let that light dim, sweetheart, it’s one of the many things that makes you so unique. ( @treasureofmy-heart )

- and last but certainly not least, my muse, Hannah. Perfection personified, a heavenly teardrop morphed into that of a beautiful human. For us to have grown so close as not just friends, but even more, fills my heart with so much joy it’s honestly hard to contain. Not a moment goes by where you don’t cross my mind, your smile, your words, your voice, your beautiful eyes. You took hold of my brain and never let go, and I couldn’t be happier. ( @floatyteabag )

The second board is for a few of my other really close friends, who I have grown to love ever so dearly.

- Rahul and Ray, the closest things I have to best friends sparing the wives. You both have always been there for me whenever I have needed you, both of your fanfics have comforted me when I was in my worst state of health, you’ve both heard me cry, laugh, stress, and you’ve used every ounce of your kindness just to exist for my comfort. I can not thank either of you enough for just being your wonderful selves, and most of all being my friends ( @quillsink and @binch-i-might-be )

- Rose, the closest thing I’ll ever have to a real little sister. Not only a very beautiful person physically, but somebody who exhibits so much light, joy and innocence from her person it’s hard not to adore her wonder. You know I love you very very much, and I adore every single conversation we have ever had, and the many to come! ( @hopeless-bisexual-queen )

- and finally Pri, Danika and Abi, three people who I have not known very long, but have stepped up to be there for me in times of need. Not only are they all absolutely hilarious, but incredibly talented and stunning with words. Pri has offered me some of the most useful pieces of advice I have ever received, Dan has such a way with comforting words you can’t help but want to hug her, and Abi has such a kindred soul you can’t help but adore her. I love all three of you very very much, and thank you for coming into my life. (And of course Abi and I now share our dog family) ( @gothicsprinkles @echo-stan I don’t think I can tag Dani but I will be sending this to her.)

I’m not really sure what else to say here, except merry Christmas, happy holidays, and enjoy your time off if nothing else 💛 please, all eleven of you remember I’m nearby whenever you may need me or my hands to hold. I love you all so much!