#slightly inspired by myself

[wooziswonderfulworld]

Love is (not) in the air

Z realizes how different his love life is compared to his friends. Aka Z realizes he might be Aromantic

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For as long as he could remember Aaron Z was different from his classmates, as a child he never had crushes on anyone like his peers did, when everyone was getting into relationships in high school he wasn’t

“Oh you’ll find someone” his mother told him when he was fifteen, then he was sixteen and still had no romantic feelings for anyone

“Maybe they just aren’t my type” he’d try and reason with himself but did he even have a type? He was sure he did, everyone had a type

Then he was joining a new boy band, 4town, by this point he was seventeen almost eighteen. He quickly learned that all four of them where very much into romance. Jesse, the oldest was engaged to the “love of his life” he’d met her, she was kind and her and Jesse made a cute couple

Then there was Robaire, who was fittingly born on February 14th, spoke one of the most romantic language ever fluently, and in general just loved the idea of romance (Z was certain he had a secret girlfriend)

Aaron T loved watching romcoms (much to Z’s displeasure), he was a huge flirt as well and would often flirt with Z but the slightly older boy couldn’t even tell that was what he was doing. No one ever flirted with him it wasn’t his fault he couldn’t tell

Tae Young was the biggest sap, he loved any romantic gestures, would constantly talk about finding his “one true love” would awe when he saw a couple showing affection to each other (something Z couldn’t stand seeing, he didn’t understand why couples had to be on lovey dovey out in Public, go home and do that)

“You’re just a hater” Tae Young told him with a laugh as they walked through the park

Z just shrugged, sure maybe he was just jealous because everyone seemed to be able to fall in love and he couldn’t “where you in a bad relationship and now you don’t like romance?” Tae Young asked bringing him out of his thought process, shaking his head he spoke up “never been in one”

Tae Young was shocked by this news “what!? But you’re like every, well a lot of, girls ideal type how are you single??” Z just shrugged “well did you have any crushes” again he shook his head “well I had fictional crushes..?” He muttered “that doesn’t count!” Tae Young Said laughing “did you find people attractive?” “I think so? But it only lasted a few days” he said rubbing the back of his neck

“Wow that’s so weird” Tae Young Said, Z sighed, maybe their was something wrong with him, he felt like this wasn’t normal, his lack in romantic feelings couldn’t be normal maybe he could start dating just to fit in, but he couldn’t waste someone’s time knowing he didn’t have feelings for them

He spent the rest of the walk thinking about himself, about how different he was compared to his friends how none of them could relate to him and how he felt

As they made it back home Z sat down on the sofa immediately looking away from the tv as the guys where watching some stupid romance movie “did you guys know that Z has never dated anyone ever!” Tae Young announced earning a glare from Z “really?” Robaire asked surprised “maybe it’s cause he’s shy, don’t worry man you’re still young you’ll find someone” Jesse said from his spot on the couch

“But do I need to be in a relationship to be happy?” Z wondered aloud “because I have no desire to be in one” Jesse paused thoughtfully “well I guess not but why would you want to be alone?”

“I’m not alone I have you guys” He said shrugging “well what about when we move into our own separate homes?” T asked now pausing the tv “um I don’t know; I kinda like the idea of being alone. I mean I guess the idea of romantic gestures doesn’t bother me but an actual romantic relationship doesn’t interest me at least right now and since I was a child” Z explained

The guys looked at him again trying to understand him. Z just sighed giving up and went upstairs to his room

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It was 2002 now, the band was doing amazing, they where the biggest boy band in the world at that point. Aaron Z was now 23 and still hasn’t been in a relationship despite what rumors people started

Unfortunately the guys had gotten really tired of him not showing interest in anyone, so what did they do? Starting setting him up with people

“I hate you guys” Z groaned “I don’t even know the chick”

“I told you her name is Amara she’s 23 so same age as you and she’s very friendly” Robaire said trying to decide between to shirts

Z just huffed and zoned out. Before he knew it she was there at the front door

“Amara hi! So good to meet you” Robaire said opening the door for her “this Aaron” He said pushing Z forward, he froze not really the best at suddenly meeting new people, especially if he was gonna go on a date with them “hi nice to meet you” she said, Z nodded softly “he’s shy and has trouble talking to girls so, we’re trying to get him out there” Robaire said

Z zoned out again, everything was a blur and he hadn’t realized they where halfway to the restaurant “you don’t talk much do you?” Amara asked making him turn red “sorry” he muttered “it’s okay I get it you’re shy”

Z looked at her, she was very pretty but he still felt nothing, but they barely talked, maybe it would change…

Nope.

The drive back was silent, Z felt absolutely nothing for her. Even when she flirted with him he just responded with “okay” and “thanks” when she complimented him on his physical appearance all he said was “I know” because he couldn’t think of anything else

“Sorry” He muttered getting out of her car and walked to the front door as she drove away. That was the sixth date he’d been set up on and still he felt nothing

He opened the door ignoring the members and went to his room going on Google and typing something into his computer

“Why can’t I fall in love?” He typed searching for an answer

After a while he found something “aromantic?” He muttered reading into it, it felt like everything was clicking, this was it. Aaron Z was aromantic and there where so many people just like him who could relate just like he could

T burst in making him slam his laptop shut and turn towards him “did it not go well?” T asked him. Z shook his head “well I found this-“ “T stop” Z Said shaking his head and handed him his laptop

T raised a brow but opened it seeing what Z was reading “Aromantic?” He asked Reading about it “Aaron are you aromantic?” He asked curiously “I think so? I mean everything seemed to click for me when I read it”

“So setting you up on dates is pointless?” T asked making Z nod “probably” He said, T smiled and hugged him “I’m glad you’ve finally figured yourself out” he muttered

“Thanks T, so am I”

[mmxxviii]

kristen and cassandra: prophet, apostate, saint, god

(you can find the majority under the cut - this is quite long)

Oxford Languages // (could not find) // Wikipedia // Berlin Syndrome, Sparky Deathcap // the hero who couldn't save anyone, m.a.w // Prayer for the Newly Damned, Ocean Vuong // Deaf Republic, Ilya Kaminsky // confessions, k.a. // Little Bird, Clementine von Radics // (could not find) // If My Body Could Speak, Blythe Baird // (could not find) // Prelude, Brynne Rebele-Henry // Crossing the Water, Sylvia Plath // (could not find) // Hell Followed With Us, Andrew Joseph White // Half Hanged Mary, Margaret Atwood // Power Politics: Poems, Margaret Atwood // (could not find) // Rachel Wolchin // Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters, John Steinbeck // Editor's Pages: The Long and Short of It, Richard Siken // Not Forgotten, Israel Houghton // (could not find) // Churching, Kristin Chang // I'm Your Man, Mitski // Cassandra, ABBA // Dimension 20 LIVE presents Fantasy High: Sophomore Year (2019) // Dimension 20: Fantasy High: Junior Year (2024)

[tarmac-rat]

WE WERE TOO DIFFERENT || WE WERE TOO ALIKE

Cyberpunk 2077 // Fredrik Backman // William Bouguereau with a quote by Richard Siken // chloe moriondo // Gang of Youths // Carl Goos with lyrics from 'Hadestown' // Hannah Tinti

[krikidilly]

I cant be, what you need, I am stuck, in a dream, I am stuck, in a dream.

[thelastspeecher]

I've been painting my nails lately (for really the first time ever! never been a nail painter before) and while I'm decent at painting my non-dominant hand, my dominant hand gets fucked up every. single. time. it's not just that I'm painting with my non-dominant hand, it's also that for some reason I keep bumping it into things and smearing stuff before it can dry

anyways I'm going on a long Family Vacation at the end of next week and I wanna paint my nails for the vacation and I'm gonna have to set aside like at least an hour bc if I wanna do it right I'll need to take soooooo much time for things to dry.

but I'm determined to do it right! and then I'll have some v fun Christmas-themed nails for the Family Vacation in [REDACTED]

[personinthepalace]

Just saw Spy x Family: Code White in theaters! It was so fun! The animation was gorgeous as expected :)

anyway have some sneaky post-credits spoilers below the cut :)

(also I audio recorded the movie (english dub) for myself but if anyone is interested in it, then let me know and I’d be more than happy to share it :) ) (also also if anyone has an extra copy of those little sxf card thing that some theaters gave out and is willing to share it, please let me know bc I would love to have one - my theater sadly didn't give any out. I'd be more than happy to trade my audio for the card thingy :) )

[sarcasticgaypotato]

This cat has a PhD

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Fanart for Panthera by @idrewacow

I cannot recommend this fic enough, it is an absolute delight so far. It's a classic, traditionally lighthearted fanfiction trope being handled dead serious and it's everything I didn't know I needed. It doesn't hesitate to dig its claws (haha) into visceral discomfort for our lead, but it still has moments that made me laugh out loud. Can't wait to see what happens next!

[myighlou]

haha maybe one of the primary reasons that harry finally goes to therapy after the game (41st being a busy station, and harry not remembering a single thing, and kim transferring might not help too much with leaving everyone with a ton of free time) is how he realizes how much hes started idolizing kim. his own innocence right in front of him. staring up at him like he did a broken stained glass windown not so long ago. maybe his final push to prioritize getting therapy, not letting this all too familiar feeling take him over again. he might not remember exactly but hes seen what it resulted in first hand, hes experienced it. 

third times the charm, this time it might completely tear both of them down, untill there is nothing left. there is remnants of the previous two times within him and jean and in a bit of everyone around them. harrys bearly starting to connect the dots of his previous life but he knows for certain it would be the last time if he spirals into this obsession again.

(i like to think that a bit after jean and harry met and became partners at 41st, they dated for like a month max. harry was still reacently recovering from the breakup with dora and jean was there as a sort of savior from that. right person wrong time sort of thing ig? then broke up after realizing how fucking bad it was for both of them. maybe they still might be a bit bitter it didnt work out and maybe they still want it to but in the end it was better (not by much) for eveyone like this)

the ending where kim joins 41st (ive only played that one so far and havent watched any of the others yet, but man its been living in my head rent free) is such a catalyst for change within 41st. one of the top detectives from an other station is already going to be such a big help to lessen the stress and workload for the others already there. kims arrival, and harry seeking therapy (hopefully jean too that bitch needs it a shit ton too), it gives the whole station time to breath, to truly catch a break. with a slightly lessened work load on each of the members, they have time to focus on things other then work, to not have to drink themselves into amnesia on the job (*cough cough* harry- but imo jean and the others just as much, theyre more responsible on the job but its hard as fuck on them too, especially with harry pre game) 

within time, lots of time, they can all grow close again, harry can get to know each of them over again and things can not just go back to the way they were but better 

thats what i wanna think anyway, pls just let then be happy oml

anyway thats all i wrote this at 2 am pls dont mind if its fucked lmaoo

[charrchan]

I've been reading The First Leaves That Fall by @c-l-y-d-e and it's so good!! I'm not quite caught up yet but I'm enjoying it so much!

Instrument: RAV Vast B Onoleo

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

Time to ramble about the song! I read chapter 5 yesterday and kept thinking about the scene where Yugi gets lost in the forest and asks the spirit to lead him out. So, when playing my RAV Vast I took inspiration for an improv piece that I then tried to replicate to record. :)

I used only 7 of the 9 notes, specifically because I wanted to stick to the notes I can use on my drum to play the traditional Japanese song "Sakura Sakura" (it's in a slight different key but you can certainly recognise the tune!). I thought it would be a nice nod to the story's setting and themes. You can here me go up the scale at a couple points! :) It's certainly not a traditional Japanese scale but it's the closest I can get on my drum. I wanted to have a repeating downwards scale with some mild clashing to show how Yugi was probably feeling a little panicked as the sun went down, even as the spirit leads him out he's probably still quite unsettled. I made some tapping noises to hint towards the sound of the spirit's sandles as he walks.

I tried to mix it as best I could but tongue drums are kinda hard to record. ^^; Overall, I think this piece could use some polishing but I'm just here to have fun. :)

I'm excited to read more of this fic!!!! :D

[bloombird]

I stayed up reading X male! reader story on Quotev last night. Cringe but indulging. How about you?

[lucalicatteart]

A few little sketches of some possible school uniforms for mage schools/learning centers for magic/etc. :0c Though because Nanyevimi is so scattered and disconnected, it'd actually vary much more by region (like not everywhere would have a cultural concept of what a suit jacket or neck tie looks like lol), so it's probably unrealistic for so many of them to follow too many traditional Uniform Conventions from cultures in our world, etc. But, still, fun to mess around with designs, and think about which would be most fun to wear/what school you'd go to just based off the clothing lol~

[scribbling-dragon]

just a small notice (maybe not small, but it feels silly to call this an announcement, because that feels awfully dramatic)

essentially, I'm going to be putting crown of antlers on hiatus for now. I apologise to anyone this might disappoint, but I've lost quite a bit of motivation for the project at the moment, and have been feeling increasingly guilty over not updating the fic, to the point where i feel bad for writing things that are not coa.

some of you may have noticed my recent lack of updates, and that has been partially due to the workload I currently have (bio and chem is No Joke), but it is also partially due to this anxiety.

again, i apologise for anyone this might disappoint, but I hope you can understand my reasoning behind this hiatus and enjoy the fics I will (hopefully) be writing in the future <3

[enigmatic-enigmas]

GOT MY FIRST TATTOO YAYAYAYAYAY

(Tattooed by @beardcoreevan on instagram!!)

[haaam-guuuurl]

Little Women Famous Artists Modern AU

"The March family makes headlines once more as oldest sister Meg March takes to the red carpet for the premiere of her latest movie.

The young starlet turned heads in an understated pink lace gown, and with her handsome new husband, producer John Brooke, on her arm. Also attending was the actress' sister, Josephine March, whose most recent novel has been steadily climbing the ranks on the New York Times bestseller list. The two sisters have been seen together for a long time at premieres, award shows, and parties, and it's even rumored that the two might be working on a project together. When asked about the possibility of joining her sister on a movie set, Jo March had no comment.

But while the two sisters have talent to spare, they're certainly not alone, as the spotlight seems to run in the family. If you follow classical musical news, you'll know the name Beth March, who has been a featured pianist with the Massachusetts Symphony Orchestra for years now, and has even performed with a few other prestigious groups, including the New York Philharmonic, with talks of a permanent contract in her future.

Last but certainly not least, youngest sister Amy March has been gathering her own attention in the art world, as, fresh out of CalArts, her oil paintings have been must-gets in a few exclusive auctions around town, and the young prodigy has even teased an exhibition of her recent watercolor collection in her thriving social media accounts, though the where and with whom remain a mystery. Could the rich (and handsome) Theodore Laurence, heir to his grandfather's production company, and longtime benefactor of the arts, as well as friend of the family, be her sponsor? The two have certainly been seen together often, lately, leaving us wondering - is it an old friendship, a business partnership, or something more?

There must have been something in the water at the March household, because these sisters have been taking the world by storm, and for sure momma Margaret March is beaming with pride. We, for one, can't wait to see what these little women do next."

[huntersapprentice]

weird little doodles of me

[shake-this-poet-out-of-the-beast]

Shhh.... Just let me have my bunny/cat maids...