#slight tmi

[tinyidle]

sometimes I wonder if my og followers know I still exist, but then I see them at times and then I feel at peace again 😌

[plague-vulture]

punk rock is my mom getting me like 20 pairs of tomboyx boxers off of the local buynothing for me

[roosterzebra]

🐸

Damn, didn't realize how much i missed kink stuff. maybe spiraling in my thoughts/apartment aint the best way to live. Not when there's cuties who can flog me

[piece-of-mined]

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I’m sad that I have no plans for the 2 weeks I have off next month.

I could try to book a last-minute group tour, as an option. I wish I wasn’t too much of a coward to go through with it.

Also, I keep having dreams about someone from a previous chapter of my life. I’ve moved on. He definitely has (marriage, and I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s a kid on its way). So why the hell does my subconscious keep teasing me like this? Why am I taunted with feelings of happiness and hope in REM only to wake up with nothing but disappointment and longing? It feels cruel.

I had wished that I could effortlessly feel attracted to someone again just so I’d have a natural desire to want to spend time with them and learn more about them (feelings that have been so fucking foreign to me in adulthood). But then when I think back to the last time I felt that way, a whole fucking decade ago, even then I was too emotionally retarded to be anything but too scared and timid, which only resulted in heartbreak and confusion for me.

To add on top of everything else, I’m feeling particularly horny right now but just for one specific guy. I’m not ashamed to admit I’m a virgin but if I had the chance to bed him right now I think I’d go for it, even though ultimately I know it would have disastrous results for me. Ha.

[mexashepot]

Just realised that my "my libido unfortunately seems to have come back from war" update is also quite literal🥲😭

[toruro]

hi mika!! how are you today?? (silly question but i really want to interact with u <3)

i am good >_< currently debating if i should get coffee or boba today … or boba tmrw … or both haha ! i also just ordered my outfit for twice concert and a little nervous that it might not look as nice as i’m expecting but😵‍💫 if it’s cute u all might be getting pics in two weeks hehe

[trans-wojak]

The masculine urge to have a cigarette and immediately poop afterwards.

[munebat]

I’ve had no spoons the past few days, spoon fairy where are yoou

[llois-lane]

in the middle of assessing for adhd/asd and i feel like an idiot. is this normal? lol

[tinyidle]

ooh shit it's that time of the month

[dragongirlbooty]

whoops

[blossoms-phan]

i am having the most dangerously unproductive day of my LIFEEE rewards systems don’t work for me bc I’ll just keep watching the videos and doing the stuff pretending that I’m doing work, do rushed work in the absolute minimum amount of time possible and then go back to doing whatever I want. these classes are stupidly easy yet I’m going insane bc my ovulation brain isn’t letting me focus on anything

[roosterzebra]

🐸

Sure, I could go to a Party saturday where three of my crushes will be. there's also gonna be people who have unrequited crushes on me for some reason and make it my problem. Like, I've tried to be polite about it - but one of them was weirdly trying to shame me into acquiescing to their crush? The other is nice but not feeling it, and kinda get the vibes that it'd be a Thing for them too. Got to the point of detecting if someone could have a crush on me, but when it's reciprocated the detector gets broke for some reason

But also might just have another movie night with a cutie who seems nice and meets the 4 baseline standards, maybe

[sprolden]

actually how do you feel about the queer rep in tsc in general, b/c i feel like it's so good but also sometimes. Bad. like Anna was so messy imo, both as a nonbinary character and her relationship to Ari. but at the same time she writes so much queer rep for such a big and mainstream series.

i think the short answer is "overall very good, but not perfect, as can be expected from a cishet woman in her 40s"

long answer is yeah, it's a bit of a mixed bag sometimes, but generally good. i think she treats her queer and her cishet characters equally, without putting too much thought into certain sterotypes she wants to avoid, which does lead to a few questionable moments. (though she does avoid killing her queer characters like the plague, which, so true. keep that up)

i think a good example of this is how both magnus and matthew, two of the most prominent bisexual characters, are both known for being very flirtatious people, which is a negative sterotype i think most authors as dedicated to writing rep as cc would want to avoid. at the same time, there's also slutty characters who aren't bi (jace, isabelle, anna) and bi characters who aren't slutty (mark, kieran, helen). would it be better if she had avoided this stereotype altogether? i don't know!

same goes for the way cetain characters talk about magnus' femininity. though it's generally respected and generally admired, it's absolutely used as the butt of a joke like... all the time. would it be better if no one made fun of it, even though magnus' femininity is also explicity admired in-text by just as many people? i don't know, you tell me.

anna is......... a lot to unpack, isn't she. i can't really say how i feel about her gender identity since i'm not nonbinary myself, but i do think that if cc set out to write a genderqueer character she could have made that more explicit. i get that tlh being set in the 1900s leads to some complications, but i think a sensitivity reader may have helped her a bit here.

i do think her and ari's romance lacked a certain depth that other couples were given (and same goes for helen and aline, though they are obviously not main characters). i think this is mostly due to the way cc writes her male and female characters, or rather, their romances. it's a little hard to put into words but i feel like, in the end, her female characters are the ones who are regular people while the male characters often step into the sexy love interest role, ready to admire the Main Girl any opportunity he gets. that's not to say that most characters don't carry elements of both these roles sometimes, but it kind of leaves us with, like, Lesbian Sheep? does anyone get what the fuck i'm trying to say?

basically, when your romances depend on men being sexy dreamboats waiting for a girl to slowly fall in love with him, it's hard to write one without a man in there. the reason why ari and anna don't read as romantic is because they're both rational, three-dimensional people, whose main purpose in life is not getting the attention of some girl, when cc's romances almost always depend on the core dynamic being Regular Girl x Universally Admired Guy Who Would Kill Himself For Her If She Asked. (sizzy is a very notable exception to this, with izzy being the universally admired guy, while simon is the regular girl.)

basically, think her desire to write all her women as relatable, rational people for whom romance is not the single most important thing in their lives is preventing her from doing it. i'm very curious to see if twp will give us a better take on a lesbian romance but i don't count on it unfortunately!

[girlscience]

Realization tonight about how I am feeling about my body recently. I feel like I was given breast implants without being asked. Like full on silicone implants. Which is a bit strange given my chest hasn't changed in years(outside of maybe some weight gain), so I'm not sure why I am feeling this now. And I am "comfortable" with touching my chest/showing off my chest/other people looking at my chest/etc. in the same way I find it "comfortable" to poke a bruise or prod a sore tooth or touch a mouth sore or pick a piece of loose skin or other similar things. It hurts and it's annoying and you can't ignore it and it won't go away and you can't stop thinking about it unless you are super distracted/engaged in something else (and sometimes not even then) and you will find yourself doing it unconsciously all the time and other people will notice and yell at you to stop but it's nearly impossible to..... Yeah, that is exactly how I feel about things right now.

[ct-hardcase]

I girlbossed too close to the sun and didn’t pack my ibuprofen since I didn’t cramp up on my period last time and I’m inconvenienced now