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hellcifrogs · 11 months ago

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This is what Kenshi sees when he goes visit his husband's AU.

Some good old redesigns to slowly get me back to drawing! - half of these are @dolce-tenebra-toscana 's designs, the other half are mine based off hers.

#my art #naruto au #konoha 12 #fox paradise au #legendary sannin #naruto #clearly there are ideas and thoughts behind the teams' mixing but pls enjoy just the visuals here #since I can't really explain them~#i can however pick my favorites >:)

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leslieseveride · 6 months ago

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they really weren't kidding about the rom-com vibes in this season.

#*carly catalogs #bridgerton #bridgerton s3 #no offense but they've said that in the past two previous seasons and sorry i did not get any rom-com vibes from s1 or s2 #but then again it took me a little while longer to get into this show cause i'm not gonna lie i hated s1 #idk how to explain it but something about both simon and daphne's characters book and show really pissed me off for some reason??#like... i don't like them at AAALLLLL #and i found their love story to be the least bit romantic (out of the 8)#and initially i wasn't gonna watch s2 cause of how much i didn't like s1 but the beautiful gifmakers on here got me #i enjoyed s2 sooooo much more #but THIS???!!!!!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!#THIS #THIS IS SOME OF THE MOST HEART MELTING ROMANTIC SHIT I HAVE EVER!!!! SEEN!!!!!!!#it especially felt like one when....#cressida was explaining to lord debling that colin and pen have been friends since the featherington's moved across the street from them #oh wow would you look at how much i rambled 😳#but i can't help it that friends to lovers is MY bread and butter #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #polin #otp: you are special to me

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bookwyrminspiration · 3 months ago

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i cannot emphasize enough how much my entire academic situation is currently hinging on receiving an email from one (1) person

#quil's unholy underworld #i emailed her a couple weeks ago but like. that was summer so i wasn't surprised to have no response #but i would've expected to hear from her in the past week. since the class is a special situation. and that's what she's done in the past #and now i'm like. please. the class on the schedule starts TOMORROW #i need to know if that is correct. OR. if like the other semester. this one starts a week late #AND if it's actually t tr or if it should me m/w in the system #which THEN impacts this OTHER thing that is really crucial #if it's for sure t/tr #i need to fill out a form explaining why i still can't take this other required class #which is marking me in the system as 'failing to make academic progress'#literally one class one credit hour.#that i have been unable to take purely because of these classes #and I need to petition them to be like hey. i'm actually do a whole shit load of stuff this ONE class is an outlier #but if it's m/w. then I need to resign up for that class. and drop another one #and then i WON'T have to petition #SO PLEASE FUCKING EMAIL ME ALREADY

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tinybro · 1 year ago

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jasico server was chatting about the cupid scene and jason getting nico's memories blasted straight into his brain and how jason being shot with one of cupid's arrows while with nico and this was just never brought up in canon again and now i'm thinking like...what if that's just how cupid's arrows work? not by magically manifesting love for someone out of nothing, but by giving someone the perspective that'd make them fall in love naturally? jason gets a front row seat to nico's memories and instantly understands him intimately and can trust him completely without any doubt or suspicion

so what if jason, after slowly realizing he's totally in love with nico, just thought back to the arrow incident and it made him second-guess everything? because maybe he's only feeling this way because cupid hit him with an arrow with only nico was around and it's no different than any other god messing with his love life

#i live for anything that drags out the pining/pre-relationship period as long as possible okay #give me the drama of jason frustrated about constantly being manipulated by gods #in love with nico but convinced it's just cupid fucking with him and not wanting nico to get dragged into it #maybe telling nico eventually because he's having trouble hiding his feelings and he doesn't wanna hurt nico by confusing him #which is of course an emotional rollercoaster for nico #hearing jason say he's in love with him only to then immediately hear that it's just godly fuckery #nico agreeing to help jason find cupid to get it reversed because he knows how much it sucks having feelings for someone unwillingly #and he doesn't want jason stuck mooning over someone like him just because he was unkucky enough to be with nico for the cupid incident #whole quest in which nico develops feelings in return and angsts because he's sure jason only feels that way because of the arrow #maybe a slip-up in the middle somewhere with nico accidentally revealing he likes jason back before backpedaling wildly #so now jason has hope despite himself because he'd never really thought it was possible anyway given nico's feelings for percy #and he doesn't like being manipulated by gods but he doesn't mind the idea of being in love with nico #and what if he just gave up on the hunt for cupid entirely and let it happen #while nico feels guilty since clearly it's just cupid arrow magic fucking with jason and he's enabling it #and then of course when they finally find cupid he explains how his arrows work and that he can't just FORCE someone to be in love #no more than hera could with jason and piper by fucking with their memories to push them together #cupid's methods are just way more effective #my tag babble ended up longer than the actual post oh my god #pjo #jasico #my dumb headcanons

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l0ganberry · 6 months ago

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shannonsketches · 6 months ago

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like why did they change where Vegeta was when Cell announced the cell games in the anime

why did they make this vegeta starting shit with yamcha instead of chillin in the lab with his family? why did they take Bulma out of the lab? Why'd they say she was Out while Dr Brief was repairing 16? Why did they change Bulma working on advanced robotics to running in late with her baby?

it's the same scene except: - Bulma's actively at work being a scientist - Vegeta's not being rude to her (or anyone else!) - Vegeta waits for Trunks instead of leaving the room - Cell interrupted the airwaves, which means Trunks and Vegeta were just hanging out with Bulma and Dr B while they were working

Those are all Great Character Details!! That the anime rails against!!

#these cowards afraid of showing Vegeta actively choosing to be around his wife and child even when he's Bad #Because Goku who is Good never ever even once makes that choice onscreen outside of filler #and then they justify that choice by making Chi-Chi seem horrid and unreasonable for (checks notes) Not Wanting Her Child to Die #anyway I am once again being bitter about anime vs manga klasjdklasd #I can't believe I let the anime convince me I hated Goku man Goku's SUCH a good and ridiculous character in the manga #the anime just SUCKS at letting him be who he's always been #and has to reframe and recontextualize and reword everything he does so that it seems like he's Actually Quite Mature and Thoughtful nO #THAT's VEGETA YOU COWARDS #also the fact that bulma said she wouldn't live with him at the beginning of this arc to him casually hanging out with her and trunks #after cell beat his ass and humbled him is REALLY GOOD SUBTEXT for their shared relationship having improved without showing it #it's great subtext for all three of them and toei just went 'nah' and decided to make it a whole group shot so ...? Master Roshi could sit #and explain how ??? Tournaments Work??? Just so Cell could log on and also explain how tournaments work?? God it's been so long #since I've watched the anime and now when I do it just makes me mad aklsdjskja the manga is SOOOOO much better #there are some spots where the pacing is more ideal in the anime like goku turning ssj for the first time but like man. everything else is.#like why are you making Goku snarky with Vegeta dude his clapbacks are SO much funnier when they're just Tactless Honesty #like Vegeta's not insulted by Snark bitch he grew up in the Freeza force that man was raised by THE bitchiest drag queens #Vegeta's insulted by someone saying something deeply and insultingly True to his face as if it's the fucking weather #Goku in the anime is like 'a battle of wits hoho' but Goku's purity is part of the joke he's not snippy he's just got no social etiquette #He's just honest! He's not trying to be insulting. That's what MAKES it insulting! That's the WHOLE GAG of why Vegeta can't stand him #Goku is always just telling the truth and it's always the rudest shit Vegeta's ever heard in his life #'it's a sunny day! i'm way stronger than you! see you out there bud!' 10000% Genuinely Friendly. Golden Retriever-Ass Pure.#Infuriating. Hilarious.#anyway I looked at anime clips to make sure I remembered things right and that was a mistake #as someone who has a soft spot for it and grew up on it -- compared to the manga it's bad and it's always been bad #and toriyama was right to be disinterested in watching it jesus christ they BUTCHERED his work #anyway this has been another shot of haterade with sketches thank you for scrolling my rambletags askljdask #dbtag #i just truly can't get over how they make Vegeta call her 'woman' in the anime and he literally only ever calls her Bulma in the manga #except for on namek when he refers to her as 'the/that woman' because she is a complete stranger #why is he calling her woman like he's a 1940s american husband and not an extraterrestrial from a deeply advanced society toei

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shalom-iamcominghome · 26 days ago

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So, I've been a bit open about my mental health on here since it affects how I experience and interact with judaism, but I'm wondering how you all balance it? I've found that antisemitism does not specifically cause the recent episode/s I have been having, but it makes them worse, and I find that it makes it even harder to engage with judaism, so I'm currently in a Sisyphean spiral. I guess for me, my brain has been so high-alert about this stuff that it completely shuts down, but not engaging with my jewish community is just as detrimental to my health as antisemitism is. Plus, I'm just angry at the thought that something like antisemitism would prevent me from being with my community.

#jumblr #jewish politics #antisemitism tw #personal thoughts tag #i'm going to shabbos services tomorrow since i miss my community so much #i am very protective over my community. i've reached papa bear levels of being protective about them. so it does hurt when i can't be there #bonus points to those of you with bipolar/PTSD/schizophrenia/anything i might be missing #just because i find those to be underrepresented in general. and also because it might help me out personally.....#to be clear i don't mind if anyone with any condition (or perhaps even none) contribute respectfully! this isn't an Exclusive Conversation #i don't even know how i am going to explain to them why i missed so much. i feel so behind right now #i emailed my rabbi so hopefully we can schedule a meetup and i can pour my soul out about it haha #it sucks talking about this but i really don't have mentally ill jews to talk to offline (as far as i know)#but i am open with my offline community about my issues so i don't think this will surprise them #i'm trying to work through my toxic masculinity surrounding shame about how my mental health presents so i'm pushing myself to be more open #though i will say that if someone is reading this and thinks they can trigger psychosis or whatever: it's not going to work like that

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bayesiandragon · 8 months ago

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Not sure I care enough to engage with the post, but to read SVSSS + extras and come away with the interpretation that SJ doesn't care about why YQY failed to save him, just that he did fail, and therefore would never forgive him or change his behavior towards him if he learned the truth, feels off-place to me. It seems to lean into the view that SJ doesn't actually care about YQY, just sees him as a useful tool, and thus couldn't be hurt by the supposed abandonment - with that interpretation it would then make sense to think he would neither care nor change his behavior (towards YQY) upon learning what actually happened.

#generously put - I suppose it's not an interpretation that the text of svsss completely forbids #but I don't see it as the most probable interpretation by a long shot and it doesn't explain their interactions or themes well at all #given that Shen Jiu eventually canonically forgives YQY even without an explanation I don't see why he wouldn't if one was earnestly given #I could see SJ continuing to throw some lingering degree of fit if he learned that YQY had indeed tried but failed #(and YQY honestly doesn't need to elaborate on the whole trauma only the important part - that he set out too late)#but I really don't think their relationship would have been anything like how it turned out in canon #no real comment on how SJ's actions would change on ~everything else~ since it's so counterfactual after that point and we know he's a git #I do honestly feel that the novel bolsters this idea with the whole thing at Maigu Ridge #where SY learns of YQY's tragedy and immediately sees what he has to do to avert the same with LBH #he saw how important it was to explicitly let LBH know how loved he is even if he can't explain everything because it CAN change things #and it does for them #the responsibility part is... well everyone is responsible for their own behavior - including SJ #now I don't have strong opinions on this next part #but regardless of trauma or his right to remain silent - YQY has some responsibility for the ~direct~ consequences of the choice he made #namely referring to SJ's belief that he was callously abandoned and his pain and anger over it #but he is absolutely not responsible for SJ's “everything else”#idk just had some thoughts

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coquelicoq · 4 months ago

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i'm now looking at my list of least favorite french words to pronounce and going "too many r's" for about 40% of them and "skill issue" for most of the rest. some of these are actually very fun to pronounce i just couldn't wrap my tongue around them a year or so ago, but now i can i guess??? so that's very exciting. makes me hope that someday i'll be able to pronounce the rest of them. this is a bit pie in the sky because i really don't see myself ever getting there with procureur du roi but you never know. and luckily the french abolished the monarchy so it's not like i'll ever have to use that phrase in modern conversation.

anyway here are the words i actually love pronouncing now: décaféiné diététicien filleul pneumonie

i now feel normal/neutral about these words that used to be hard for me: automne, condamner douloureux électricité, énergie inférieur, supérieur, etc. itinéraire lourdeur salmonellose sclérose subodorer succincte

words that are definitely within the realm of my current capability but i haven't practiced them enough: bugle hiérarchisation méditerranéen phtisie

words that are still the bane of my existence but i live in hope: [yʁ] plus at least one other r or [y] sound: chirurgie, fourrure, marbrure, moirure, nourriture, ordures, peinturlurer, procureur du roi, prurit, purpurin, sculpture, serrurerie, structure, sulfureux, tournure all words beginning with ur-, hur-, or sur- other difficult sequence of r's and vowels: construire and other -truire verbs; lueur and sueur; utérus too many r's: marbre, martre, meurtre, opprobre, proroger, réfrigérateur, rétrograde, rorqual difficult sequence of vowels and/or semivowels: coopérant, extraordinaire, hémorroïdal, kyrie eleison, météorologique, micro-ordinateur, micro-organisme, mouillure, quatuor, vanillier not pronounced the way i would expect from the spelling: indemne, penta-, punk just hard for some reason: humour

#girl you didn't like filleul????? get well soon damn #the french love writing about linden trees (tilleuls) so i've now had tons of practice with that sequence of sounds and love it #all the words that are hard for some reason other than r sounds is just a skill issue. and it makes sense because a lot of them are #not common words so when would i even be practicing them?#the words that are hard because of r sounds is also a skill issue but that's one that i don't know i will be able to fix through practice #i think i have maybe plateaued with my r sounds lol. but you never know!#bugle is a funky word. i want to love it. someday i will.#you'd think i would have méditerranéen down by now since it is a pretty common word. but it still trips me up. i'll get there #sur- words are bad because i just end up whistling the s?? i think i'm pronouncing the [y] too forward in the mouth #i just looked at my ladefoged and he's like 'rounding lowers the second formant so [y] sounds like it's between [i] and [u]'#but i think i'm trying too hard to get it really close to [i] and maybe overcompensating for the formant drop #and actually pronouncing [y] MORE forward in the mouth than [i]? that's my guess #french #fun with pronunciation #my posts #i deleted a couple words from the list if i couldn't remember why they were hard. filtre? what's so bad about filtre...#yeah folklore is a little weird in french but it's not like putting an l before a k is phonotactically illegal it's just unusual #and not at all difficult for an anglophone ultimately #lubrifiant? idk why i would have felt strongly enough about lubrifiant to go back in my drafts several pages to add it to the post #the rest of these though i can explain. électricité and énergie were hard because my mouth just automatically wanted to pronounce #the second vowel as é as well #automne and condamner were hard because you don't nasalize the vowel before the m AND you don't pronounce the m #these are now so normal to me that i can't get myself to remember the pronunciation of indemne (in which the m IS pronounced)

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name-doggo · 5 months ago

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One thing I really wish the FF Community would Stop doing is Removing All Nuance from the Parents in Those Stories in order to Make Them Abusive Supervillains who Never Loved their Kid.

Like... In the Four Years I've been here, and for how Small the Community really is, you'd be surprised how many Times I've seen it-

#The Most Prominent (and Worst) Example I can Give is with Alec’s Mother #Like... Yeah- She listens to Fucking Books and is a Karen basically- She's not a Good Mother #But making her into an Abusive Mother who Never Loved Alec and just wants to Control Him?? I think we read the Wrong Book Guys-#That Removes alot of the Tragedy in Lonely Freddy- The Fact that Things could've Gotten Better if they just Talked #But they can't anymore since Alec is Trapped in a Dumpster...#There's also plenty of More Examples I can Give #Devon's Mother isn’t Abusive or Homophobic- She’s a Struggling Woman who was Abused herself (Devon’s Father threw things at her)#Which in turn from that Struggle- Has made her Neglectful of Him #I can't really say much for Pete's Mom since I forgot alot of Step Closer- but making her a Comical Abusive Mother probably isn’t accurate.#I even once saw Oswald's Dad get Villainized and Like... We definitely must've read the wrong story cause the worst thing I remember him #doing is getting upset at Oswald for going Into the Pit #It's usually always the Mothers who get Villainized tho- Like... If we're going to look at their Kids with Nuance and-#- believe they could get better if their stories didn't end with Tragedy #Why can't we do the same for their Parents??#Also if you REALLY want like... an Abusive Parent to Hate- Greg's Dad is right There.#Angel's Step Dad is Pretty Abusive too from what I heard (I never read the Story)#I'm just saying- There’s no need to villainize the Parents with Actual Nuance to Comical Degrees #fazbear frights #<- Tagging it because it's something I've really grown tired of...#Oh Yeah in Case I wasn't Clear #I don't think the Ones I mentioned above are good Parents necessarily (Besides maybe Oswald's Dad)#I just Don't like when people make every single one of them Super Mega Abusive cause that like... Kinda removes the fact that you can be a-#- Bad Parent WITHOUT being Abusive or Hating their Kids?? Like... You're kinda removing alot of Gray and making things very Black and White #Ok sorry for Writing an Essay in the Tags- I just had alot to Explain

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yuriyuruandyuraart · 1 year ago

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do you have any more doodles from that demon!au nightmare design you had!!??? and killer!!??:/&!:&; they were STUNNING!!!!

HGHHSFFHGF WAIT you wanna see that anon?? omg!!! i haven't had anyone ask me about them since bee waaa yes I do actually!!! they're pretty old (from when I was drawing w/ a mouse xd) but here goes!

no wips of nightmare yet but i could draw them if you guys want *shrugs* I really like how her design came out :D

#ask #my art #killer #cross #demon au #demon!killer #demon!cross #don't look at the anatomyyy these are so old GHGHGHG #if you ask me why i haven't posted these before I uhhh can't really explain? they were so old and i never found the opportunity to post em #and since there's no demand for them i also forgot about my own au :') sad i know sob sob</3 #nah jk i think about them once in a while whenever a song hits me in the feels but wahgag seeing this ask made me gasp in joy #thank you thank you anon!!! i'm so glad you liked them :'D I'll probably doodle night soon so look out for that teehee<333

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lunozapp · 2 months ago

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FINALLY I HAVE A FANDOM THAT ACTUALLY HAS FANFICTION WOOOOOOO

#im talking about portal lol #splatoon has fics yes but i never really cared for them #indigo park kinda but i can't really get invested in any since theres so much of the game that needs explaining in future chapters still #plok has 2; one is a danganronpa crossover fic and the other is INCE5T (EW) (NOT A JOKE) (I HATE IT HERE)#danger mouse has a handful but all the good ones are unfinished

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sskk-manifesto · 8 months ago

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#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show…#Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk.#Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die.#I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me.#I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time...#Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply.#Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author).#Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry.#Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging.#Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia.#The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.)#Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)–#bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them–#and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)–#stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?)#I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild).#But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking.#I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further…#But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views–#and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry)#so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt.#Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles

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trans-xianxian · 8 days ago

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at like 9:30 tonight our landlord tried to be like yeah I'm coming over tomorrow to look at all your rooms and we were like. no.... that's not 24 hours notice and then he just didn't respond. because it is the nighttime. so I guess when I wake up for work tomorrow I get to find out what I have to deal with

#this is all part of a whole larger nightmare situation that I don't have the energy to explain #but essentially we have to have the handyman come and fix and issue HE created #and it started a whole thing with out landlord #and I had to be the one who was combative over email and I'll be alone in the house when the handyman comes again tomorrow #and the landlord wants to come look at it and the issue is in the kitchen #and thats Fine but he can't come in to the rest of the house #esp since I have a door that I'm not technically allowed to have lmao 😭#and the whole situation is just really stressful and overwhelming and I really don't want to be alone in the house w either of them tomorrow #but half of the house has no electricity so theres not really any other options #this whole situation has just made me so frustrated I want OUT of here #ghost posts #text

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starboundsingularities · 9 months ago

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I NEED TO BE OBNOXIOUS ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVED THAT ACE ATTORNEY LAWBLR SIM YOU MADE BECAUSE OH MY GOD IT MADE ME LOSE MY SHIT. I definitely can tell you put genuine effort into making that silly little thang and I wish that it would have 10,000 notes like right this minute. Hellsite hall of fame if you’re reading this please reblog this person’s ace attorney lawblr sim because it deserves an award

i think this is one of the nicest asks i've ever gotten thank you so so much (I'M RAMBLING IN THE TAGS SO MUCH BTW. if you want insight into the thought process or anything)

#honestly it was really fun to make !!#i like thinking about posts people would make #i definitely could've put more steel samurai posts in but i forgor.#perhaps if i ever make a second !!#it would also have to include at least one 'happy almost christmas to those who celebrate' 'who is putting this on my dash it is JUNE'#i feel like almost christmas would become a meme on lawblr #the only things stopping me from making another are a not enough post ideas #and b i don't want to be the unnecessary sequels guy #i think my biggest struggle was with usernames lol #since they would have had to be related to law in general or the trials specifically #or in other cases regular generic usernames. or the two gavinners fans #making up a username for a fandom is a lot harder when you can't acknowledge that it's a piece of media /lh #like nobody would be able to have an url referencing unnecessary feelings because nobody on lawblr would know that was said #forever going to be thinking about courtofwaw #a large chunk of usernames on it are from my ocs tbh. i have usernames picked out for them #one of them is just one of my friends' blogs shoutout to rubie for volunteering to be perjury girl #i think one was one of my old usernames #it was that and it was finding the emojis #favorites are definitely courtofwaw and just--ice #i can't explain why waw is so funny sorry #THIS GOT REALLY LONG #basically oh my god thank you so so much you mean the world to me /p #save #<- i am saving this post because it will singlehandedly fix me i think if i ever get sad #most of this kind of just started as 'i bet in the aa universe there's wild discourse about this'#also if i do make a second post. i'm stealing my 'you guys couldn't even handle manfred von karma' post #SOMEONE would make it. idk who but i know someone would make that post unironically.#also one final note !!#none of the characters in the post were MEANT to be canon aa characters #however if anyone SEEMS like they would be i would LOVE to hear it tbh

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running-in-the-dark · 4 months ago

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I've bought so many RH dolls in the past four weeks or so. it's. really disappointing and stressful and stupid and I hate myself, ngl.

#I did really well for a little while there #then I had a very bad couple of days and. I don't know. I don't get it. I guess that explains why I bought a couple that day.#but it just. hasn't stopped since then.#I'm actively working on stopping again now. like it shouldn't be hard right?? but I see them and it's like. oh this is the thing that I #love a lot right now. buying it makes me feel good. nothing else matters. money isn't real. just buy it. it's so pretty.#and it DOESN'T make me happy! of course it doesn't! I feel way too guilty about it!#but I can't do anything about it. I've tried thinking about selling some of my dolls and it legit makes me panic #like the thought alone is so scary that I can't even consider it really #which makes NO sense!#it's so embarrassing and I'm really ashamed and I hate myself #personal

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