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I'm too lazy to figure something out with mobile, lol. this been great for my executive dysfunction tho
for the first time in my many many years of being on this hellsite I am now a pc main instead of mobile main (thank you dashboard unfucker)
#it was VERY interesting#in the beginning#deleting the app rlly made me realize just how much I was on it#it's kinda jarring having zero social medias on my phone#like I also stopped playing games on mobile#simply to avoid responsibilities#i left like#several ppl on read on one of my games and i just#can't#and since i feel bad my brain decided the best thing is to avoid it HARDER#you can imagine how well that is going
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One of the biggest arguments I’ve seen used by the Ob*d*l*s against Anidala, is that scene in the ROTS novel where Padmé says she could trust OW with the secret of the rebellion and was hesitant to tell Anakin and I just wanna say:
Padmé wasn't an idiot. She was an extremely intelligent and competent woman, perfectly able to understand that loving Anakin and thinking that he could be trusted with a certain politic-related matter were two very different things and reducing her choice regarding who to trust with an important political matter only on the basis of her feelings of romantic love diminishes her professionalism, and this is why I say y'all could never understand her.
Padmé didn’t have to "love" OW or even like him at all to know he was the perfect Jedi to ask for help in a secret political matter.
That's the point being made in the novel, she’s hit with the realization that Anakin in this particular moment could not be told this piece of info because of his relationship with Palpatine, and Padmé specifically mentions in the Junior ROTS novel that she didn't want to make Anakin “keep a secret” if he didn’t agree with their stance because it’d be “unfair.” So this also played a part in why Padmé didn’t think it best to inform Anakin about the Rebellion. It honestly had little to do with her actually lacking trust in him, and more to do with the circumstances she was in not allowing her to be open with her husband and her not wanting to make him choose between his wife and his “father figure.”
However, Padmé knows OW’s political ideas aren't tied to ONE particular person but to a philosophy, one which is closer to her own, at that point. None of this was ever meant to be hinted as “romantic” or even remotely insinuated as romantic. It’s strictly professional and even the tone of the scene makes that so abundantly clear.
All I’m saying is that, some of these proshippers are doing the most out here to try and prove their ship, like my loves? You forgot a very important thing called ✨ context ✨ and regardless of her rational thinking, Padmé still went out of her way to try and talk out all of this Rebellion secrecy stuff with Anakin when she confronted him in the scene where she asks if he ever thought they were “fighting on the wrong side.” Padmé didn’t trust OW in the same way she trusted Anakin (with her entire self and being) she had the level of trust and love for Anakin that was only meant for him.
Mixing up her unwavering faith in Anakin as her husband with her trust in OW’s devotion to duty as her comrade/ally is purposely deluding yourself, because the two aren’t the same and therefore can’t be compared. An example of this is: Padmé constantly putting more value to Anakin’s words over OW’s in the end of ROTS when he came to tell her of Anakin’s “crimes”. She completely disregarded what OW had claimed about her husband and instead made her way to where Anakin was herself, to ask him directly. Despite what the truth was, this is proof of her trusting Anakin unconditionally, and I didn’t even think I had to spell that out because it’s as clear as day.
In conclusion, Padmé didn’t trust OW more than Anakin, she just knew the circumstances she was in didn’t exactly make it easy for her to openly talk with her husband about these matters and that’s part of what played into the issues they had in ROTS, it’s exactly what Sidious wanted.
#star wars#anidala#anakin skywalker#padmé amidala#sw novels#revenge of the sith novelization#revenge of the sith junior novelization#avoiding tagging and using full character names because I don’t wanna attract those weirdos on my post#haters dni#anti ob****d*la#i’ve seen shippers claim that ow and padme would make a better couple simply because they both value duty and share some of the same ideals#even though padmé’s strong sense of duty doesn’t define her personal identity#she’s always wanted to leave behind her responsibilities to live a simple happy life with her husband#she stays out duty and care for peace and justice in the galaxy#which is actually a trait she shared with anakin not ow#anakin is loyal and dutiful because he cares about helping people and that’s padmé’s aim too#ow stays to help people because of his devotion to the jedi#that’s not the same#saying she’d be more compatible with ow is like the punchline of a bad joke#in every way padmé shares more in common with anakin when it comes to the core of her personality#and relationships aren’t built off sharing ideals mind you#it’s about connecting and sharing core values which is what anakin and padmé always had#there’s a reasons why padmé and ow argued a lot in wild space#padmé says the one thing her and ow can agree on is loving anakin otherwise their mindsets clash way too much#compatible? never in a million years.#padmé herself disagrees#and apart from the fact that canonically padmé never shows romantic interest in him#nor does the narrative include ow as one of padmé’s love interests…#holy god my tags deserve their own posts
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finally ordered a coffee maker bc I came to the realization that I am spending over $200 a month on my little coffee runs and this cannot continue
#personal#its one of those things where the upfront cost of buying a decent coffee maker & some beans was big enough to make me avoid it (~$50?)#but a small enough issue that i was able to ignore it#checking my credit card statement now and 😀#POV youre poor and you choose the small recurring purchases over the one big purchase and it fucks you over in the end#also i simply drink too much coffee#i take responsibility for that#it's my vice
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Friendly reminder that Francesco Coppino and Prospero di Camulio, contemporaries who were literally getting their information from predominantly Yorkist circles, were both explicitly clear that it was Henry VI who decided to surrender Berwick to Scotland.
Camulio: "King Henry has given away a castle [town] called Berwick, which is one of the keys of the frontier between England and Scotland." Coppino: "[Scotland has] received from the same Henry the town of Berwick, on the frontiers of Scotland, which the Scots have long claimed as their right from the English, as the excellently well furnished guardian of their frontiers, and the place to which King Henry repaired as an asylum after the battle."
The idea that Margaret of Anjou was principally involved in the surrender, or that she was the one who actually made the decision, is based on nothing but assumption. Two direct contemporaries, both speaking of ongoing events as they unfolded, who were both getting information from Yorkist-held England, both clearly believed it was Henry who was responsible for this course of action. Neither of them mention Margaret. Sure, you can argue that it was merely rhetorical, and that they were simply automatically attributing such an important decision to the King rather than the queen - but rhetoric is nonetheless extremely important and helps us understand how historical figures were perceived at the time. Margaret's enemies would surely not have hesitated to broadcast her involvement had it actually been true, and Coppino in particular had shown no qualms about criticizing her in favor of the Yorkists before. If she was genuinely believed to have been responsible, and if the Yorkists were actually claiming that she was at the time, I see no reason why Coppino or Camulio would not have emphasized her role in their letters. What these samples instead indicate is literally the opposite: that their contemporaries - probably including the Yorkists who were putting out the information that Coppino and Camulio reported - actually believed that Henry was the one making the decision. I think it's a very large and very unnecessary stretch to go against actual evidence and claim otherwise by placing the responsibility on Margaret instead.
Additionally, these small samples may also reveal what people at the time - once again including the Yorkists - actually thought of Henry's role in the war on a broader level, away from direct Yorkist propaganda which would obviously and perhaps understandably seek to de-emphasize it: namely, that Henry was perceived as the one making decisions and deciding the courses of action for his own side.
Source: Excerpts from the Calendar of State Papers and Manuscripts, Existing in the Archives and Collections of Milan
#henry vi#margaret of anjou#english history#my post#I want to make a longer post detailing the clear indications we have that Henry *was* perceived as the active decision maker of his side#which indicates that contemporaries did not really think that there was some kind of giant 'role-reversal' between him and MoA#but until then the gist is:#after Henry was rescued in 1461 contemporary letters clearly emphasize his own actions; they mostly did not attribute decisions to Margaret#we also know he and Margaret separated when she headed off to the continent;#that he seems to have been involved in border-raids against Yorkist England;#*and* that he avoided capture until 1465#if Henry was entirely passive throughout it all and entirely dependent on Margaret to make decisions#I do not understand how any of this would have been possible#Instead Henry & Margaret seemed to have had more of a partnership with Margaret focusing on gaining international support#which she was very well-suited for given her powerful foreign connections#& with her taking on leadership in his absence (mainly due to imprisonment/incapacity) rather than all the time/when they were together#and like I said when it comes to Berwick contemporaries clearly believed it was Henry's decision#but also like. let's hypothetically assume that Margaret was the driving force behind it. please think of this situation logically.#whoever's idea it was Scotland was very obviously going to want a proper confirmation from the *king*#who was. yk. the actual authority of the country#even if Margaret was the one encouraging this surrender Henry's approval and agreement would have still been required#if not by the Lancastrian party then by Scotland#and again this is assuming that Margaret was actually the driving force behind it. there's no indication that she was#but ultimately contemporaries very clearly believed *Henry* was responsible#we don't know what MoA actually thought of it or what her actual involvement was (she could may encouraged it; she may have misliked it;#she may have simply been told after the decision had already been made)#but ultimately even in the most extreme case - which is contradicted by actual evidence - the final say would have been Henry's#it would be nice if this was reflected by historians?
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you are grown adults. you curate your own online experience. no one is forcing you to engage with any user or seek out topics that pose active triggers to you. you choose to repeatedly seek out my blog. it is YOUR RESPECTIVE RESPONSIBILITY to overview and determine what type of content you wish to consume. if certain content causes you any amount of distress or triggers other strong emotional responses, by the love of all that is holy, don’t repeatedly and intentionally expose yourself.
your mental health remains your own responsibility. take care of yourself.
#it speaks#fandom discourse#this is precisely why i don’t tag my wyll related posts#so you can simply avoid my blog if you don’t vibe with it#the only exception being the scene tally#feel free to block me anytime. it is - in fact - as easy as that.#anyway. this is the last response i’ll post on the matter#i’d rather focus my private time on the things that actively bring me joy.#i am also urging you to do the same
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i love when i obsess over stuff that isn't even under my control
#ever since wednesday i haven't been able to stop wondering if my friendship is so unimportant that ppl would rather distance themselves from#me rather than talk about any issue they have w me#i'm never going to force anyone to a relationship w me. if they have an issue but would prefer not talk abt it it's on them i can't take#responsibility for it#but then again i can't help but torture myself that maybe thats the better path. just. stop talking to me!!!!!#and then all i think is this is why i always get so detached from ppl lol!!!!!#i spent months convincing myself it didn't hurt and all but it did hurt!!!!!!!!!!!#and it's funny bcs then ppl say they miss me as a friend but all i can think is then why did u let it get to this point!!!!!!!!!!!#everything could have been avoided if u simply talked to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but whatever#if someone doesn't want to communicate whatever issue they have with me it's not my job to find out#jo.txt
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I'm normal.
(I have been over analyzing and designing an associative chart regarding the TMA Fears and their well, associations to one another. Opposites, closest links, and so on.)
#voidthoughts#idk if I should tag this tma?#regardless... i will get back to Jash stuff soon too dw. i simply have multiple interests and am multifaceted.#also i dont wanna resketch over variations on a cloud but I should...#and my life just has a lot of moving parts and things I have to do rn u-u#can avoid promises and responsibilities no longer
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i so desperately wanted to beat cazador up with my bard’s lute but karlach slam dunked him into the void mid-evil monologue 👉👈
#bg3 spoilers#as combat goes it wasn’t the worst fight#but it was 2am i left gale and his fireballs at camp and shadowheart kept pooping her armor about the wolves#desperate times call for cheesin measures#sorry cazador if you’re gonna hide at the edge to avoid my daylight spells#i simply can’t miss such a comedic opportunity#i will say i did that on the second attempt and reloded because i thought losing his corpse might fuck up the end choice#but it did not#and then i tried to fight for real for another hour or two and couldn’t get further than killing a couple bats#bg3#cazador fight#astarion#astarion spoilers#died enough times to run through most of astarion’s confrontation dialogue though#holy shit#if you say anything cazador makes fun of him for needing someone to speak for him#and from then til the start of the fight he’s so hurt and scared#like cazador is calling him a weak stupid little boy and completely rips through any confidence he had#tr-tr-tr-trauma response#an awful glimpse at how powerless astarion truly felt#we all joke about astarion being a sad little wet cat but the UNSPEAKABLE trauma he endured and inflicted unwillingly for CENTURIES#but if you say nothing he delivers one of the best ‘fuck you’ lines ever#and jesus christ the ending#obviously i chose the good one#but it hurt so bad anyway
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32 for Caterella :]
i got sappy with this one teehee. ty travvy another beloved friend who Doesnt Go Here and indulged my anyway l o l 🧡
this one rolled Come Back to Me by David Cook, another song i dont think i'd heard of til spotify suggested it as i started making the playlist and it made me think of the type of bond trey and cater have...
i dont know how the mirror works dont worry about it fjksdfje my point here????? both for an au but also very much in canon trey seems to have the relationship with cater where they are genuinely very good friends, but there's still a bit of distance that cater is putting between them that trey wants cater to like, open up and trust him more but he doesnt want to push. so this song sounds very much like the best friend trey is here like "i love you, i'll wait for you, take all the time in the world you need to feel comfortable and ready to open up to me, i love you enough to let you go if it comes to it, in hopes that you'll come back when you're ready" etc etc etc OUGHHHH!! i could talk endlessly about treycay or whatever. theyre EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!!
i promise the caterella playlist isnt just trey/cater but i think a lot of the songs apply to them lfkdsjf and some are more au based but. but. these two have a hold on me even in just canon !!!! god!!!
[pick a playlist and send me a corresponding number for a DOODLE]
#twisted wonderland#cater diamond#trey clover#twst#treikei#treycay#what ever you call it idk#officialgleamstar#cereal tries to draw#asks#also shoutout to everyone that responded to my struggles with the mirror#ur responses were very funny kslfjslfj#i simply cheated and avoided showing what's going on below it LOL#IT'S NOT THE POINT DONT WORRY ABOUT IT!!! <- me getting defensive over stuff people arent arguing with me about LOL#god this is soooo sappy but like. IT'S WHAT I THINK SUITS THEM.#i love pining besties to lovers OUGHGHGHGHG#heartslabyul is everything to me forever and ever and ever and ev#this also isnt necessarily like a graduation goodbye but#could be taken that way. or a holiday. or just a see ya ambiguously lol
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ohhh it's one of those nights where my love for the world is painful to bear.. it's a strange way to feel when everywhere I look there is concentrated pain, the state of the world, all over the world.. but my dog is so beautiful and the books I'm reading so full of time and attention, and the act of writing anything at all, of language, so intricate and woven with love.. I'm having a moment here 😅
#ed mumbles#it helps to avoid social media a bit..#tiktok is...#there's this mentality that if you care then you must concentrate on suffering and neglect yourself bc if you partake in anything good#it means you don't care and youre contributing to suffering#i even saw someone who was simply saying that they don't know how to process this much suffering get shut down#i dont really understand my response at this time#and im not thinking about it#im just going to let the love happen
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I am always curious why Spamton had this like fandom view of being angry or quick to rage. Like I get how desperation and his mood swings fr highs to lows can be conflated with rage but the guy is more often anxious and jittery than pissed.
He just emotes in a way that seems pointed and can lead to the appearance he’s constantly angry. He’s constantly upset about something due to his situation but it’s the same way a person may feel disappointed or desolate rather than peeved, in my mind at least.
#this is also based on the principal there are clear moments he’s pissed Vs like being an ego maniac#like I#see him as someone quick to flick through his feelings but he’s more bitter than#angry you can match the two but it’s not like it’s a constant that both are there#I feel like people took his actions during snowgrave and forget that we are mostly responsible as the soul/player#characters react to#our choices and Spamton simply followed our inclinations towards violence#otherwise it seems that most of his attempts to#get the neo suit involve him avoiding violence and his anger so he can be pragmatic#idk he’s not#so much as angry as aggressive#spamton#spamton g spamton#utdr#deltarune#undertale#deltarune analysis#getting to that point where I’m starting to see fandom interpretations overtake canon things and flanderization#cause he’s def still goofy and off putting and aggressive#but to say he’s just an angry little con artist that is comically bad at life is losing a lot of#his character through viewing him in this isolated scenario
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#i hate being trans & i have no clue if i'll ever actually transition (too many things to consider that i won't start listing here. but it#WOULD stop a whole lot of suffocation) but heyyyyyyyyyyy at least it's creative fuel#coping mechanisms: using it as creative fuel & making choking kink jokes about the suffocation of being closeted#cuz my tear ducts simply do not work anymore so at least let it all be funny!#at least the chronic pain is more manageable. as is the fomo of having to avoid stuff because of it.#for the most part everything's way better now that i'm in college & living away from my parents (they're much better to talk to when i'm NO#living with them) and i'm getting to be more of myself. i'm getting to actually EXPRESS. i know i said 'suffocation' but compared to before#much improved. although the fact that everything is better is also making the shit things stand out more in contrast.#anyway if i'm too much of a fucking COWARD to come out & transition + if this makes me suffer as i continue the double life stuff w/being#trans on the internet & cis offline (to most people) then it'll be fully my responsibility (it already is) & no one should feel bad for me#or my cowardice
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apparently i dislike one of my coworkers noticeably enough, despite not saying anything about it, that he took the liberty of catching me alone when i was putting on my high-visibility gear yesterday and asking me about it. which did not stop him from deliberately trying to rope me into a conversation when he got the chance later for reasons i can only assume were related to making me uncomfortable which congratulations! you succeeded
#cool.#this is partially on me i am friendly with almost every coworker but him because i cannot bring myself to do it#and when he asked if i hated him i said Not Yet (lie) which is simply not a good response in this kind of situation#the conversation went on after that but i dont really remember what else was said because i was deeply nervous LOL#to give you an idea of this guy: my first impression of him was him walking into the room while i was getting my paycheck#and him going oh your first name is my last name :) if we got married *takes a swig from his water bottle#with a thin blue line sticker on it that he just brings to work i guess* your name would be [the name in question x2]'#which is a joke so funny that he's used it multiple times. so. this might not be an issue if i didnt keep#ending up in the break area as he's leaving it and if i was better at masking my dislike/discomfort#but also i think it would not be an issue if he left me alone and perhaps had something dreadful happen to him. so who's to say really#i dont think itd be considered provocative enough to tell someone and have it be taken seriously -_- whatever.#ill just keep avoiding him and if anything worse happens then well
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stop reblogging this the bots have found me and i'm getting flooded with bot followers.
I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -
I am fine with "the audience" -
downloading my fics
printing my fics
copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics
sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3
making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss
doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc
I am not fine with "the audience"
doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity
feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever
Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.
Enjoy the fandom things.
#tumblr things#since i deleted like 30 the other day#i've since gotten like 60 more#and it's so DISTRACTING getting the notifications#and seeing the bots there#and it's so tedious to block followers you have to do it one at a time#so instead i've avoided using tumblr at all#simply bc of the bots triggering my 'too much stimuli' response#adhd artichoke
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Concept I've been stewing on for a while here. I've got a name for it now and I'm calling it the Shot Dog Factor. It's a numerical value, assignable to any internet post, which represents the average number of engagements it needs to reach before someone comes along acting like this post shot their dog.
And for the sake of High Number = More Danger, which feels like the intuitive and sensible read, let's call it the inverse. As in the chance that any given interaction results in a Shot Dog response.
"Hee hee haa haa" type of silly shitpost? Low Shot Dog Factor. Largely safe. A genuine political opinion? Critically high Shot Dog Factor. Guaranteed to elicit such a response if it breaks containment.
As a result of this phenomenon, you see phrasings and circumventions added specifically to lower the Shot Dog factor. Every "now I know this doesn't apply to EVERYONE'S specific situation, but I just think--" about something where the non-specificity was obvious, but OP needed to add that disclaimer to avoid the Shot Dog from someone who thinks it needs to apply to them.
And another--perhaps the most--critical thing to understand about the Shot Dog factor is that 0 is not a valid value. There's a discontinuation at 0. And as such, the Shot Dog limit, as engagement goes to infinity is, in fact, 100%. Any and every post you have ever made, given enough containment breaching, WILL piss someone off in wild ways. You can lower the Shot Dog factor but it is never 0. Sometimes when a post of yours escapes containment, you must simply sit back and accept this reality.
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sometimes you see questions on stackexchange that give you very interesting insights into how people think.
#a writer asked how to avoid swear words since they don't like using them#a response was simply “perhaps your characters aren't like you and don't feel the same way you do about swearing”
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