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This angel has another question! \o
do you have a general idea of what renrens voice would sound like? like a celebrity, singer, or maybe just a general description?
i hope all is going well for you 🫶🫶
✦゜ANSWERED: Ren's singing vc can be found here (I misread the original ask and thought it said "sings like", not "sounds like" sdksdgjs), but it also includes what I think Ren's talking voice would sound like ^^
But!! if I had to give an example, I've always imagined Eve (from Nier) to be very similar to Ren's talking voice!! It's soft, timid, and has that curious lilt to it — but also has dat [REDACTED] edge as well >:3
#���� — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#💖 — about ren.#monday-reads#In Ray Chase we trust lmao#I think [REDACTED] would probs have Noctis as his voice claim because he enunciates his words in a similar way but........#Babes...... [REDACTED] already has black hair and blue eyes thanks to him sdghjshj /hj /silly#I am NAWT beating these Noct Enjoyer allegations!!!#He is my forever boy <3 They could never make me hate the prince of lucis and king of fishing <3333#But they also won't stop me from holding Lunafreya's hand and kissing her and smooching her and making out with her and
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kamikou cheer squad “you’re not stuck on that rooftop anymore, rui” -> ena5 mizuki side story 2 “welcome to this side, mizuki” what if i cried. they’re finally both free of that rooftop……. they’re not friends in solitude anymore… they’re friends!!!!! that have each found their people!!!
also, in cheer squad, rui's “there's something i want to say, but i'm scared that i'll drive everyone to the other side again if i say it” was craaaazy. such a direct parallel to mizuki... and mizuki reassuring him (and having asked him to direct the cheer squad in the first place) being why he was able to gather his courage... “you'll be fine rui. seeing you at the culture festival made me believe you're not stuck on that rooftop anymore. i'm looking forward to seeing what crazy idea you'll direct!” i'm not caught up on all of wxs's stories so i can't say if it has an impact there, but rui's success in getting his feelings across in cheer squad being how he's able to reach out and make new friends in pandemonium/spirited affair... gwah.
rui's effect on mizuki is obvious. he's in a fair amount of her focuses / side stories / + picnic and ena5. and RIBBON... the shadow his absence casts on her... being the reason she was hesitant to reach out to niigo because she was scared niigo would leave her eventually like he did... but also the reason she wanted to reach out at all... because rui made her see that there are people in the world who will understand her... the 1 in “25:00:01” on kimi no yoru wo kure’s cover being rui’s colour… all so awesome. but mizuki's effect on rui is subtler/less focused on. so cheer squad where mizuki is unequivocally a key part of rui's growth is so special to me.
#man i’ve gotta rewatch kamikou cheer squad….#AMD FUCK!!! mizuki’s ena5 side story 2 where mizuki ACTIVELY SEEKS RUI OUT to have a heartfelt conversation instead of bumping into e/o!!!#THEY TALKED TO EACH OTHER WITHOUT RUI OFFERING AN OUT OR MIZUKI RUNNING AWAY!!!!!#also…. rui’s picnic side story 1 story where he regards having a conversation with mizuki as not unlike hunting a spooked prey animal#not in as many words but… mizuki catching rui looking at her seriously and giving him a fake smile… rui’s ‘i won’t get anither chance now…’#and then ena5… where rui says being forceful may be something she needs… and that proving correct…#gaaah mizurui. they make me illl. because they are fundamentally more like each other than like someone who could save them#prsk posting#mizurui#mizuki akiyama#rui kamishiro#oh and mizuki’s ena5 side story 2… i love the way they talk to each other#because they’re similar kinds of people who put on an act of being silly#the way they understand each other…. the cycling between serious and silly… so awesome#i hope by the end of this game theu hang out on purpose outside of schol
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drabbles about the deer imagery in The Secret History (specifically in relation 2 Camilla) because her becoming a deer/believing that she did stuck in my mind (although this post will mostly take Camilla and the other's recollection of events to be as they recount it – if i examine it in it's effect as an incorrect account, that would be in a separate post)
Obviously there's, on a meta level, an irony to it – Camilla and Charles are named to make fun of the Princess Diana scandal that was happening at the time, and so ironically Camilla transforms into an animal sacred to Diana.
There's also a parallel that I think could be interesting to make between Camilla and Taygete, who for anyone unfamiliar, was turned into a deer by Artemis to protect her from Zeus' sexual advances. Although I think that what happened in the Bacchae was concensual sexually, I think it could possible be indicative in Camilla's narrative role as the "wanted"/"desired" one within the greek class – by Charles, Henry, Richard (although he wasnt there) and even Francis, although he wants to be her more so than actually wanting her.
Additionally, outside of how it actually functions within the story, her transformation into a creature associated so closely with innocence, especially in relation to Diana/Artemis' virginity, might perhaps be tied to Richards view of her as this "pure" and "virginal" person – obviously we know this is far from the truth, and he himself learns this later, but I think it definitely ties into this flawed angelic idea of her he so covets.
I think this interpretation ties into the myth of Actaeon (in terms of "deer transformation myths") although its very interesting to me that they different at key points – Camilla, the "virginual" character, is the one transformed, rather than the sexual transgressor (Charles) or the one who introduces miasma (Henry). But, like Actaeon, she is pursued and hunted – which, another key point – Actaeon is pursued and killed by his own hunting dogs, and Charles returns from the ritual with a bite mark, perhaps tying him into the myth thurther?
#sillies sillies#gay people will really write 5 paragraphs of analysis about a book written in the nineties instead of studing#(talking about himself)#~350 words isnt much BUT i dont write much literature analysis 4 myself outside of class#so I'm quite happy with this#feel free 2 add stuff on 🫡 I'm more familiar with Homer's works (and bits of Ovid) than i am wider greek myths#so if im missing any interesting deer transformation myths let me know :D#LOVE carmilla. obviously as flawed as any character but she's so interesting 2 me#both of the twins are honestly. what the fuck was their childhoods like that made them like that#cause. we know bits and pieces about francis and Henry's childhoods#and obviously Richard's#but i feel like we know so little about the twin's...#anyways#the secret history#the kat speaks#camilla macaulay#charles macaulay#francis abernathy#henry winter#richard papen#again not tagging buns cause hes not in here#although i wanna talk about his youth imagery @ some point#he's very Paris 2 me /pos#LOATH henry (ik hes as complex as the rest of them but he just rubs me up the wrong way. dont even hate him 4 the murder) but i really wish#i could hear his opinions on the character of the iliad#WHAT DID HE THINK OF PANDARUS. my boy my love#asshole in my class civ class who's name is very similar 2 henry's called him stupid... arse#he literally ticks every box of the homeric hero whats not to love#anyways. absolutely ESSAY of a post and tags#soz guys
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HAPPY BLOG ANNIVERSARY!
it's officially midnight here, which means i'm allowed to post this! so ... happy one year anniversary of enduring the plague of avalon upon your dashboards! alternatively, thank you so much for giving me a place to babble about my #1 favorite comfort character who has experienced zero comfort. ( i swear i am being SO NORMAL about this. yes i did literally buy cake and party hats. ) whether we speak on the daily, you've just gotten here or anywhere in between, i want to extend my sincerest gratitude for being on this absolutely wild ride of a blog with me. there's been ups and downs, but ultimately i feel like my passion for writing has been ignited stronger than it's ever been before. i am still always so excited whenever i get the chance to log on here and create stories with all of you — and i wouldn't have that opportunity if it wasn't for this little corner of the internet you've helped make truly special.
there are so many of you i feel lucky to have met. ( and so many i would love to get to know better, too! ) i hope we can continue writing together for many more anniversaries to come. and if the day ever comes that they finally pull the plug on this cockroach of a hellsite, i'll forever remember this community as the rpc that got me to laugh at petrichor.
have a wonderful day / night! i'm sharing the cake with everyone in spirit.
#𝟎𝟎𝟏 : 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. ◟ ooc .◝#( i struggle sometimes because i know i tend to hide behind my muses / headcanons / ic posts --#because i am honestly just so bad about talking about / as myself & i think part of it has to do with me being really nervous / awkward )#( we all love ye olde social anxiety & the myriad of ways it manifests etc etc )#( but!! i just wanted to do / say something silly because i really do appreciate you all so much )#( even if we don't actively talk / write imagine me liking your posts as a little high five of appreciation for what you create here )#( this blog & rpc have helped me grow so much both as a writer and as a person. )#( having a place to express my interests & meet other people with similar interests has had such a positive effect on my life )#( i'm making plans to meet my best friend in person one day and it's only happening because i made this account & reblogged a gifset )#( yes it's sappy but i really do mean every word )
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might sound weird to say as a person with a couple ocs who have Big Horrible Event(s) in their backstories or as a person who has like 3 ocs total bc he sucks at writing and as a person who hopes their ocs arent too Boring with [the thing im about to mention] but the thing about writing [characters] and [people] is that like.
any little thing a person experiences can take up their whole existence... its actually something "fun" to experience as i meet new ppl and do more things. My friend had something happen that she'll be talking about forever. I had several things happen last year that ill never stop talking about, some of which other ppl think werent that bad actually. In the same way I'll forever remember about the way my sister accidentally insulted me almost 10 years ago, it's really interesting and Fun to find and assign smaller things like that to characters...its really Real. some people's dealbreakers are other people's solvable problems etc etc
#(as well as the opposite: Big Event that maybe shocks everyone around em but they genuinely werent shaken by)#though this one is more common and leads to those ''ohh i didnt know that was normal oops'' moments#talkys#inspired by recent me and friend events#and also recent events where i told sum ppl more stuff about Thing and they responded as if it wasnt a big deal. but it was to me.#and also how i thought a part of al's childhood backstory was kind of maybe dumb and not realistically as impactful as id expect#but i saw someone on reddit almost word for word write that as their experience and how its shaped em as a person#and thats it like... the small things are boring and hard to keep track of sometimes#its not like you'll include every single little event your oc was shaped by in their bio#but idk. its like Fun to piece together for fun. to mold a human being#ykwim? wld be silly to tell everyone ''oh my oc struggles with self image due to many instances like... when their sister called em ugly''#or write it anywhere but it is fun to Know and have in your head. and its real !#just like if a friend told you about something that happened to em#long post#delete later#sorry i keep saying stupid obvious shit lately ive always been bad at oc making AND socializing so im learning everything late#but anyway yes. idk even as i keep making ocs that are ''similar'' its like. every person so different#people can react to anything in any way for any reason. i love people#this is why i struggle a bit with keeping ocs to archetypes i guess bc like. what is ooc for an oc. people contain contradictions all the#time. you can change yourself at any time.#ok nobody will read this far so ill go to the real insane rambling#part of this has been a part of my chats with talon while trying to get him to share more info#like. yeah ok you're 400+ years old the things that happened to you were such a comparatively small part of your life#but humans dont live as long and think about small things until they die. i dont think time would heal all wounds actually. not all of em#some thoughts just always come to gnaw at your brain. its ok to not be over things. i feel ill never be over some things#and also complainerism can be fun but thats something else entirely wee hee ^_^
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Okay, so, speaking of Jessica Law: you ever think about the fact that she says the word “law” in both Trial by Song and Gunfight at the Dolorous Guard? Like I’m sure it’s nothing but I think about it every time I hear it.
I also think about her accent a lot. I *really* enjoy /g/ on the end of /ŋ/ words.
#that is genuine enjoyment. fyi. i really like accents#its possible that its actually a /k/ rather than a /g/ but i think its /g/#also those are ipa notation. /g/ is the sound g makes in ‘gain’ in english. /ŋ/ (called ‘eng’) is the sound ‘ng’ make in english. like in-#‘thing’ (but also in ‘think’ because /k/ and /g/ are so similar it sneaks in there). /k/ is a typical ‘k’ pronunciation in english#difference between /k/ and /g/ is that /g/ is voiced.#and the slashes (/ /) just denoted that its ipa but just discussing the sounds not showing the pronunciation of a word. basically (i think)#the silly problem that i have is that. when starting listening to the mechs i fell in love with jessicas part first.#and i always imitate the singer… (its fun to me)…#this has resulted in me added those /g/s onto /ŋ/ words no matter whos part im singing#its just part of my attempt at a british accent now (although i think *only* when singing)#(which is funny because i actually noticed those /g/s in her accent when examining some of her lines as *nikola*)#the mechanisms#jessica law#udad#trial by song#hnoc#gunfight at the dolorous guard
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today I had a 12 hour-long sleep and dreamt a lethal company josuyasu au and yes. one of them was a monster.
#my subconscious cooks aus for me#wondering if i should entertain it and fully flesh it out#i still remember what monster josuke looked like and it did Not looking similar at all#if you wanna see fucked up bald spider bone josuke hit subscribe#my silly words#maybe i should be ceo of josuyasu where they can kill each other if they rly want#but wont because <333 true love#josuyasu
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ugh.
new year ✅
new me ❌
#from the bottom of my heart with ever fiber of my being#i hate that my mind always goes back to 🍊#it’s just not fair at all is it. and i feel so genuinely stupid#i don’t know i try to distract myself i try to remind myself how stupid even humoring the idea is#i can’t make my brain stop it though#i feel like i’m slowly going insane over this and the worst part is i KNOW how stupid it is#ougghghggh#lately i’ve been trying to remind myself that i did a similar thing with someone else#and when that was happening i was able to kind of reason with myself#and i was able to get over it quickly#but with 🍊….god it’s been almost two years now. TWO !!#how stupid..#like with the Other Person i knew how silly it was and i was able to talk myself down#and pretty quickly it was just like. not even a problem#but no matter what i do. this is different for some reason. and i hate it. i HATE it !#like my whole brain and body and spirit knows how ridiculous this is#but there’s this tiiiiinnnny little piece of me somewhere that keeps holding on with a death grip#i don’t even feel like it’s part of me. i don’t want to be like this! like it feels foreign!#cause i mean i don’t want to have suicidal thoughts either but they’re different even if they’re unwanted they’re still part of me u know#but this whole situation. it’s like. it feels like a ghost sometimes#idk. this doesn’t make sense. i can’t put it into words#but it’s driving me crazy. and i feel like crying!#snow.txt
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I hope my mutuals know this is how I react every single time without fail when you guys say you like my headcanons and even incorporate them in bigger hcs/verses/fanworks
the highest compliment right up there with “I like how you draw Micolash/your style” this fandom is too sweet and kind
#bad doodles#bloodborne#headcanon#I just get so happy#you mean to tell me YOU???#an amazingly skilled person whom I admire and respect???#take interest in MY silly little brain murmurs??#and even approve of it enough to adopt the same/similar hcs??!!#ಥ_ಥ#words cannot express how high of an honor that is#love this fandom sm
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Hello shiratorizawa friend
I would take myself off anon but I fear I haven't posted enough about shiratorizawa recently and I would bring shame upon my ancestors...
Anyways, I'd like to present you with more ideas, such as: Semi having ADHD, Yamagata with a tooth gap, Shirabu having to tutor Ushijima in science despite the year gap, and Goshiki being insanely popular with first year girls and having no idea
(I have a lot of thoughts about the boys)
Fear not, friend, as I too have abandoned my boys for 3-4 years. The stz family is forgiving <3
Ok but hear me out. Yamagata definitely has ADHD too. He hyperfocuses on volleyball and that's where he gets rid of most of his excess energy. Then there's the corny jokes. The inability to stick to a hobby outside of volleyball. The constantly losing things even after the time skip. Listen. ADHD buddies.
Love the idea of stz study sessions with Shirabu as the leader who's valiantly trying to teach a bunch of idiots how to do science. It's absolute chaos. Semi and Yamagata aren't focusing. Tendou is just messing around. Reon is really really trying but everyone is so loud that he's practically forced to tune in to their conversations. Shirabu keeps snapping at everyone to be quiet, but it's not working. Ushijima is the only one who can actually focus through the noise but he's still not getting anything done because he's waiting for Shirabu who keeps getting distracted by the rest.
AND THEN GOSHIKI MY DEAR. LOVE THAT ONE. 10/10 NO FURTHER COMMENTS
#a² (answered ask)#anon#you came back <33#also anon i need your help#with ushijima specifically#you see. he gives dumbass energy right#but he's in class 3.#that's. that's a college prep class.#unless stz is full of silly people and only class 4 is a prep class??? i somehow doubt that though#also he uses fancy ass metaphors and big words quite a lot#..........i think ushijima is actually smart#he is just socially unaware and that makes him seem dumb sometimes#i genuinely dont know when i started thinking of him as similar to kageyama and hinata????#bc i definitely did#i was shook when i checked his wiki page and realized he was in class 3#so. what are we thinking about that#it took me a while to wrap my head around it but personally i love it LMAOO#furudate really said ushijima can have everything. except for social skills <3
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Kelbrey Week - Day 3 - Flower Languages
@kelbreyweek i forgot to @ you yesterday LMAO but yes Hiii <33
Basil tells Aubrey the meaning of a bunch of flowers, and camellia catches her eye for... some reason ;3 She asks him if she could have one camellia flower <3
Kel then proceeds to go home with the flower in his hair, and Hero asks where it was from. He says it's from Aubrey, and that Basil told her about it or something, he just shrugs it off. But Hero, being not as oblivious as his brother, knows that it means a special little something, and that if it was from Basil, it probably has a special meaning <3 And prompts him to look it up <3 And so...
#kelbrey art#kelbrey enthusiast times#kelbrey week stuff#kelbrey week 2023#omori#omori kelbrey#omori baseball bat#omori baseball#aubrey omori#omori aubrey#kel omori#omori kel#hero omori#(kinda)#and now cut to kel struggling to find another flower that has a similar meaning to give to aubrey <3#theyre so so silly#okay but if you ask me#'who would confess first'#i'd say#LOOK AT THEM. DO YOU THINK THAT ANY OF THESE DAMNED IDIOTS WOULD HAVE THE GUTS NOR THE WORDS TO *CONFESS???*#im not saying none of them would but like#they're both SUCH idiots they'd be DISASTERS#they'd be hinting shit like i just portrayed for a WHOLE while#until they finally get enough hints to assume the other feels the same#and make a move#who'd make the first move??#WHO KNOWS#THEY DONT KNOW EITHER#WHAT'S A FIRST MOVE? THEY DON'T KNOW#they're such such silly idiots <33 and yes. im projecting
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Every time I go through my Total drama sketches in my sketchbook and see Chase there, I die inside.
#tdi#total drama#total drama 2023#total drama reloaded#total drama reboot#total drama chase#td chase#I really thought he'll be a cool character 😭#But he actually annoys me like BRO HOW MANY TIMES DIES HE HAVE TO GEAR THE WORD NO FROM EMMA TO GET THAT HER ASS TO GET IT!?#Him being oblivious to the fact that Emma didn't want to be with him was actually bugging me sm#When he was introduced I was like “omg he so silly jcxxsfhsasshajjgdkkk” but slowly throughout the show I started disliking him...#He looks like he'll have a similar personality to Priya but more optimistic and doesn't gets serious when angry#*cries and dies inside*
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I was abt to be like hey guys here's the clangen sprites for the main characters of spiraling upwards ^-^ but luckily I caught myself before I accidentally dropped some Massive spoilers by doing so lol. Anyways take Whimsygoose, Pumpkin, and Daisystar instead because they're so cutsies <3
#rat rambles#spiraling upwards#warriors posting#idc if pumpkin has nothing going on except having a wife I Will make her relevant to the plot somehow mark my word#ok ok tbf whimsygoose and pumpkin will likely have similar levels of relevance since theyre both murtlepaw's clanmates#and both get a lil boost since I like them lol#well whimsygoose is the deputy's mate so it's not like he has no reason to come up#daisystar is very much relevant tho even if his screentime is probably going to be a lil limited#mostly because of ~plot reasons~#aka he gets real fucking paranoid over the course of the plot#oh also fun fact whimsygoose is deaf! guy who's always been loud looses ability to tell hes loud thousands found dead#and pumpkin is a lesbian and also my best friend and thats all that truly matters <3#oh unrelated but one of whimsygoose and thistlepeaks's kids ended up named fireice so thats fun#he is another guy who doesnt matter to the plot but I like him anyways he's silly#oh also daisystar is also gay he has a husband 👍#alas not all of the leaders are gay firestar (previously firenip) is alas probably straight#I wanna believe she could be bi or pan but thatd just make me feel more bad for blazebelly girlie was so in love with her#conestar is a lesbian tho and honeystar is. a weird one.#like she technically has a mate kind of but its more of a. coping mechanism for them both than anything?#long story short the clans first medic died a couple moons ago and his medic husband silentfleck and honeystar took it poorly#he was both of their closest friend and neither knew what to do with themselves afterwards#their current relationship is a mix of a rebound and a qpr sort of#theyre depression buddies who constantly worry eachother but know that if they vocalized this the other would mention their worries#andneither of them want to be confronted with their downward spiral directly so they just normalize it for themselves and eachother instead#so this is my long way of saying I have no idea what honeystar's sexuality is Ive thought abt it and I don't know what I wanna do with that#like Im leaning towards aro cause of my aro bias but I almost kinda wanna make her demiro or even pan#it doesn't rly matter to the main story tho so I've been not thinking abt it too hard for now#oh also speaking of aro characters I should mention murtlepaw's name is mispelled on purpose#as a kit murtle met a cat with a nickname and was like I want one of those and then made one up#so they just took turtle and replaced the t to combine it and their deadname
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Just wrapped up chapter 15/16 of something I've been writing for MONTHS now and I'm just sitting here like 🥺 fic? No more fic for Randy? 🥺 Only one more chapter? Hello????? 🥺
#randy rambles#cause like okay heres the thing#i revitalized my interest in the mechs on a whim#and it has wholeheartedly consumed me WAY more than it ever did the first time around#ive been working on this thing since early february#i GRADUATED COLLEGE in the time ive been writing this foc#and now its just? gonna be over? no more fic for randy?#the worst part is i cant even go 'oh i can make silly one-off things for this version of lyf since theyre my favorite#cause im really bad at doing really quick fics#it HAS to be a 16 chapter 100k words BEAST of a fic#i have ideas for other lyf joins the mechs fics#specifically one where lyf escapes but does not meet the mechs so you get marius/lyf doing similar things#not even knowing the other is still out there#which was going to be VERY fun#but 🥺 i like *this* version of lyf :( im gonna miss them#i have GOT to make silly doodles right now right now right now
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It is kind of funny thinking on my headcanon like naturally im googling that where im like Did anyone else have this thought and a few people yes! I tend to see other diagnoses which are usually fair. But also stumbling upon someone else thinking that by chance was so DELIGHTFUL i still clap when i see others mention it like YES!!! YEAH!!!!
#floyd.txt#it can be a complicated thing but again for me#i am projecting in some ways but i also see other traits and its#for me i do have genuine interest in this i always think its neat to see stuff align#for a character made before this was like...a diagnosis i guess. i guess thats wording it right...#i was rereading and highlighting because i know i had a lot of moments casually reading where im kind of like#woah...that reminds me of this/me#i always feel like i need to disclaimer stuff or otherwise but must i really. i can have fun. i can do things#i do think this is stemming from like..never really reading a character with such similar struggles.#both in what a lot of people may relate to but some things were like...#i dont know just kind of eerie in how nearly 1:1 it would feel like ive never really read a protagonist going thru this stuff#so i feel like i naturally dive im some more#i feel like these always sound goofy silly i just have a lot of struggles and it was an experience to see so fucking many in a guy made so#long ago...#like i read ive been picking up reading more and have related to charactwrs before to degrees but WAOW...#Good God i can ramble about him. sorry....nope...MY BLOGGGG#i can get over the duhh everyones thought and known this about the guy because I am pretty new here#part of the joy and fun is all of this..we are all new to something...! at some point! thank you.mm#tumblr app let me edit tags plese...
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The way akishinji and ashbella both have dramatic coma scenes and dramatic shot through the heart scenes like we’ve gotta stop meeting like this 😩
#the klock keeps ticking#theres actually so many similarities between these two pairings which is. probably why theyre my favorite pairings ever#like theres shinji and ashton they are guys with long hair/crabby/trying to be cool but theyre lame/emo/fingerless gloves/repressed#care so so deeply about their friends and break their fucking backs trying to protect them but are terrible with expressing their affection#with words so they come off as uncaring and rude/associates with shady people/buried beneath lies they tell to their friends/hate themselves#plans to die alone because they think they dont matter/bad at sincerity/has it bad like really bad for aki/bella#they love aki/bella for their kindness and sincerity and they feel theyre unworthy of it and that theyre a burden#gets [REDACTED] and held by aki/bella#then the aki isabella similarities are like older sibling who works too hard/stubborn/bad at reading social cues#too good for this world/will punch their friends if needed/bad at self care/emotionally repressed/kinda clumsy and silly#when they find out about shinji/ash trying to get themselves killed they get very angry and emotional and have a big confrontation#lose an important family member despite all their efforts to keep them safe/have trouble understanding their own feelings#especially if those feelings are romantic#and like both couples love to argue and bicker but care for each other so deeply its annoying lol and theres lots of miscommunication#cuz god theyre bad at having feelings and expressing them to each other and theyre long term friends#the coma scenes and the shot through the heart scenes are waaaaay better on the ashbella end though thats a given#since the letter has significantly better writing good god lol#like the emotions are very real and they fuck me up so bad then p3 its like. aki cries for 3 seconds and thats all you get cuz god forbid#a character in this series get to like. be written in a satisfying way lol#the letter just works so much better like akishinji would benefit from those scenes but ashbella needs like no work aksjks#plus ‘this is how it should be’ is a line that i fucking hate cuz of how its treated afterwards meanwhile fucking#‘you are going to die ashton frey. and you are going to die alone’ ‘she got one thing wrong though. i did not die alone’#that shit gets me so bad every single time ITS SO GOOD and such a slap to the face#realizing that youve made a grave error and youre actually loved deeply and matter a lot right as youre dying and feeling relieved#cuz you may be dying. BUT YOU DIDNT DIE ALONE YOU DIED BEING LOVED AND CARED FOR#like idk at least his death is able to mean something for him as a character its still a moment of growth#shinji doesnt learn anything he fully dies believing he deserves it and that everyone will benefit from it#god awful writing right there boooo
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