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smashingpunkkins · 2 years

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god i hope i dont fuckt this up!!

#me and gf got into a fight bc of some dumb shit i did yet again #im new to this shit i dont know when to mention it or not #and i dont wanna look like some jackass being like 'i have a gf!!' to ppl who literally hold open the door or smth #but it upset her and hurt her at the end of the day and thats what matters #im gonna fix it but like #shit i wasnt even thinking abt it like that yk #hes just my old ass neighbor and idk i would always just agree and dodge and that worked for a while #but ig not anymore #sigh i feel so dumb

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ghastlyaffairs · 5 months

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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

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shaw-kai · 1 year

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me: [is repeatedly traumatized]

brain: cool! you are a squid now. mitosis be upon you

#DID #OSDD #sigh. I am now a squid. I guess #I'm kind of embarrassed about it #haven't fully accepted my diagnosis yet so I feel fake and dumb #welcome to. me. fucking..captain 3 from splatoon. sigh #host said 'I'm out' so here I am. 👍#happy to interact with splatoon fans btw I enjoy the validation. I'm not exactly like canon of course but. yeah. hello #talking to the moon

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varicspidey · 19 days

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goodnight i had sutmhing about 2day that i wanted 2 say but i am so exhausted so i’ll js say it 2morrow morning

#ajax posts ཋྀ #also cuz i feel like no one cares so like why say it its dumb #sigh #its a bad thing btw

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seventh-district · 4 months

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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djevelbl · 3 months

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I just learned that all my preconceived notions about who Ratoo is in COTL are like. completely wrong--

#WHO WAS GONNA TELL ME THAT RATAU & RATOO ARE N O T THE SAME PERSON????#i feel stupid #I don't even think i can recall how Ratoo is even supposed to look like #all i can see is Ratau when i think of Ratoo #somebody help me #i ALSO learned this through the developers(? i think?) telling ppl the official pronouns for the characters I can't with this shit #WHY oh WHY did i let myself walk thru life with this WRONG ASSUMPTION ??????#going to the wiki just left me even MORE disappointed in myself #THEY'RE BROTHERS & THEY LOOK COMPLETELY DIFFERENT WHY DID I THINK THEY WERE THE SAME PERSON ??????#i think i never payed any attention to COTL gameplays where Ratoo appeared on screen???? otherwise i have NO CLUE how this even happened #like. i KNOW how Ratau looks like. i KNOW IT #he doesn't look like Ratoo #not really #this bullshit still happened #i cant with this shit #i am but a clown. a lonely court jester performing for the masses. HOW did this HAPPEN?????#i am so confused #i think my brain melted #i think my brain decided it must've been a translation difference?? like how Miles Edgeworth is Benjamin Hunter in french for no good reason #BUT THE GAME'S ORIGINALLY IN ENGLISH?????#THE DEVELOPERS ARE FROM AUSTRALIA (i think) !!!!#im just dumb #sigh #anyway #cotl #cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb ratau #cult of the lamb ratoo #cotl ratau #cotl ratoo

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meezer · 5 days

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for a little while today I thought I might be a psychopath

#but that's dumb. I'm not. sometimes I just feel so inhuman and disconnected from other people and how they feel emotions #that I'm like fuck. what is going on with me. and also I can be quite machiavellian at times. sigh.#I'M FINE. I AM NORMAL HUMAN MAN.

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stargirlrchive · 9 months

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i feel like most ** ** ******* ******* ** because they are so ********** ** ****** ******* while * *** *******

#and it’s just so :/// sigh #needed to vent a little sorry #w/o actual saying it cause i feel dumb #anissa’s rambles ୨୧

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mellotronmkll · 13 days

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Well it's likely I have covid but the good news is being unable to do anything will really help me finally catch up on my they might be giants podcast

#im really 😭 though because im on call at work this week (from home) but its gonna make it miserable #like taking calls from customers while i have brain fog sounds so awful #my partner is really sick but i seem to be okay so far but i do habe mild symptoms but im testing negative but im sure 90% i have a mild #case esp since he tested positive and we went to this concert together #i feel so dumb for going to the concert like its a risk of course but #auvhhh sigh #i barely leave my house so i just feel dumb for going to one big thing and immediately getting sick but #i cant really complain its not a big deal #really though hopefully i can use the week at home to get a lot of music done but ill probably end up laying innbed listen to podcast and #bootlegs and playing minecraft. but thats ok

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cinnamon-bunni · 25 days

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NOT okay right now im thinking abt pokemon leaving scars on their trainers + everyday, domestic problems.....

#this is abt my top gun au btw <3333 which will forever haunt me even though im less likely to write it everyday </3333 #like.....getting thin scars from rowlet as a kid which have now all basically faded to time #(though the ones gained as a teen from dartrix can still be seen)#while in the other hand always having angry red scratches along both arms because hes always holding up rufflet who fights like no tomorrow #(believe me; its better to hold him up and take the damage than put him down and let rufflet pick a fight with someone)#OR like....getting electrical burns because elekid doesnt know how to control its discharge yet. and the scars that stay bc of that #(which tbh is an ash + pikachu thing i would love to see)#or how one accidental poison jab from toxicroak will leave you utterly sick for days #(like serious he should probably go to a hospital or smth) and toxi just has the biggest saddest puppy dog eyes in existence it feels so ba #(its fine this has happened before he'll be fine. probably)#bruisings on your shins bc pawmot punches your legs to grab your attention or to get smth it wants....#rooms always being like ten to twenty degrees colder (or even more) when he has his ice pokemon out for whatever reason...#the reverse of that with fire types..... ough...#having to BEG flygon not to fly rn bc it starts a sandstorm every fucking time and it does it anyway #(PLEASE i took you out of your ball to eat dinner why cant yiu behave this one time)#and then dragonair fixing it to be clear skies again.....the never ending cycle....#any trainer who have pokemon that start sandstorm needing a pair of safety goggles for when they battle #(maybe even bringing a spare just in case or--if theyre kind enough--for their opponent to wear so they can see too)#dont even get me started on mythical pokemon interacting with the tg characters.....#anyway tried to stay as vague as possible for the characters lolol #bergmite is just a lil guy who wants to be carried around like all the other small 'mons....i am so sorry sweetie you are over 200 pounds #you cannot be perched on your trainers shoulder like someone else's rufflet can #having ice burns bc froslass tried to freeze him.....#anyway. can you tell i love pokemon #sorry to anyone who sees this in the pokemon tag </333 #delete later #i feel like im begging on my knees for someone to ask abt my au....but also if they did id die of embarrassment from answering it...#the pros and cons of having a dumb little au </3 #sigh maybe one day i'll write a fic... (<-keeps saying it but has written nothing for it (yet))

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pasta5284 · 10 months

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watching the world rly descend into fascism over the years is just so upsetting i dont even know how to process it

#uwu #like ik its not like the world was perfect before and in a lot of ways we've really progressed!#but in the last ~7 years it feels like things have gotten rly bad exponentially #which ik is probably a lot of reaction To all the progress thats been made #and ik we can fight it and come back i wont lose hope but idk if itll happen in my lifetime and its so disheartening to see #and thru it all i have to like. write essays work retail deal w personal issues etc #feels so pointless & stupid when it feels like the end is near & there are literally nazis and genocide and shit happenign #ik i sound like a dumb child and its much more complicated but why cant we all just be fucking nicies to eachother #.-.#globalization........sigh

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gregmarriage · 2 months

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claustrophobia combined with agoraphobia, is the stupidest shit in the world. like, oh, you’re going actually insane being stuck in the house all the time, due to your disability? oh, here’s sickening anxiety about leaving the house, like, wow, well done brain 👍🏻