#shut the FUCK UP we hate your weird cult

[coldswarkids]

ok ladies wish me a very hope your family shuts the fuck up about (voice dripping with venom) CrossFit for one fucking second!!!!

[hauntingofhouses]

top/bottom discourse in the satosugu fandom is wild like why are yall so mad about someone else's preferred ship dynamic ???? 😭😭 just block the ppl you find annoying and move on GEEZ

[haveihitanerve]

Ok so we all know Dick Grayson loves to sing and is probably a real life disney princess, but i give you Dick Grayson who loves to sing and is real life disney princess, only with certain people. 

Bruce and Alfred have had the privilege of watching in live time his mid conversation singing and broadway production, and even as Nightwing if hes on patrol with B sometimes Dick will switch off his comm and start singing to his father and Batman is sitting there with a straight face, not even looking at him, but that doesn't stop him and finally, when hes done, or, even better, if its a duet, and he reaches the end of his part, bruce will join in, and applaud. 

Jason knows he sings because Dick tried to convert him to being a disney princess, jason actually hated it, he doesn't mind the singing and movies but dick was always singing. Jason doesn't have a bad voice, but he prefers humming or softly singing, though he will break out into a complete reenactment of a disney movie scene with dick if his older brother tempts him

Tim honestly didn't earn the privilege of seeing/hearing dick sing for the first time, he just spent so much time watching Batman and Robin that he was lucky enough to catch them at a time where they were alone(or so they thought) and heard him sing, its also how he knows bruce can sing, but later when he became robin ig dick saw it as a ritualic kind of thing because he also tried to convert tim into a disney princess, tim would totally fit the bill except that his voice sounds like a dying cat

Babs herself is a disney princess and when they were the boy wonder and batgirl they would sing together just to annoy batman, and then scream like fangirls when he did harmonize with them, but yeah she knows

Steph actually attempted to convert Dick into a disney princess before he revealed he is one and then they spent an entire week singing back and forth to each other not a single word was spoken until bruce finally snapped and threw dick out the window. Steph went ‘what the fuck richard’ and dick laughed so hard he almost busted a lung

Cass is a disney princess and she was invited to hear dick sing and watch a personal performance in the theatre because she is the disney princess queen and she clapped very loudly for him when he finished, sometimes when shes upset dick will crawl over and sing to her

Damian got to experience Dick as Batman and unfortunately Dick’s disney princess ways kinda went to sleep during that time because though he wanted to sing and distance himself from the Batman that was Bruce, it also every time reminded him of when bruce would sing with him, but when bruce came back dick would sing at the top of his lungs in the house so damian got the privilege too. 

Needless to say, the batfam is pretty used to Princess Dick Grayson, so i just want a scene where, its very serious, in Young Justice, the entire team has gathered, and Tim and Jason are supposed to pick him up for family game night and they're like ‘whats going on?’ and Wally goes ‘shhhh! Hes about to sing for us! Finally!” and jason and tim are like ???? ‘finally?? You mean he doesn't sing???” and wally looks at them weirdly and is like ‘no???” jason gasp dramatically and goes ‘you got him to shut up??? But how?? Teach me your ways!!!” while tim went ‘what have you done to our brother???” and meanwhile dick is singing and the entire team is like, now. Now we have truly gained his trust and respect. And Jason and Tim in the back of the room recording it for Babs and the others just like ‘wtf is this cult dedicated to dicks singing???’ 

Idk i just like the idea of Dick’s singing being sacred to everyone outside of his family. They all love it, ofc, but its also allthe time and so the idea of him just??? Not??? Singing??? Is super weird to them.

[24h7enkrank]

„i didnt want to, but you made it sooo easy..“

Kai Anderson - without consent.

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This is my first post on here, it‘s just a drabble that rotted in my notes for a while, just for my own imagination.. lmao

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Warning: this is a piece of FICTION with just pure non consent, if this makes you uncomfortable i advise you to scroll.

non-consent, p in v, reader is female, LOTS of dirty talk, degrading, praising, age gap (reader is 20, he‘s 30.) , reader was a virgin, choking, daddy kink if you squint, kai on adderall, deepthroating, fingering (reader receiving) , yeah if i missed something pls comment..

word count: 1,709

kai n i met in a vinyl store, he caught my eye and i went up to him, saying how him buying a vinyl is „sooo lana-del-ray“, making fun of him. he didnt mind and he even laughed along me, i asked him if the coffee he had in his hand was good and now im here, stuck in this cult, kai kissing my neck and calling me ugly names.

„i bet you get wet even thinking about me.“ he said, full of confidence, touching my needy cunt through my panties.

„tell me how much you want me to destroy your tiny cunt“ he rubbed his fingers roughly over my clothed-clit, it hurt. a lot.

„p-please.. let me go.“ i say with tears in my eyes.

„if you didnt want this your panties wouldn’t be soaked, you dumb little slut.“ he was visibly hard, touching me, raping me.

„please, kai.“ tears keep streaming down my face as he undresses my lower half.

„if you gave in, it wouldnt hurt as much.“ he kept on talking, at this point i was saying nothing.

kai slapped my face, his deep, black eyes digging through my reddened eyes.

„c-can we do this… when im ready?“ i say again, crying as i was still a virgin, a 20 year old virgin, while he was 30.

„you want me to, i know that you want it. your wetness tells me otherwise.“ he keeps rubbing his thumb over my cunt, making me gasp and whine.

„i- kai please i dont want you to take my virginity!“ i yell out into his face, his hand holding my face, his thumb stuffed deep inside my mouth, playing with my tongue now.

„virgin? you‘re a virgin? god…. i want to rip your pretty pink pussy open with my cock…“ he rambles him taking off my panties immediately now.

„please no! kai please…“ i cry now.

„you crying makes it even better, you are such a good toy.“ he spits on my face and i felt myself get wetter from his touch, just a natural response and i hated it.

„you disgust me; you are just a hole for me to fuck, do you understand?“ his hand was still stuck in my mouth, fucking his fingers into my throat as i try to pull away.

„i bet your little mouth would feel soooo good around my dick baby. if only you‘d stop crying.“ he was so mad at me, he knew i was interested in him but not into him sexually.

„if only you would give in.“ he says before he bites my own lip, i try to kick him away but it only ends with him holding my legs.

„why wont you be a good girl, hm? always have to ruin everything.“ he chokes me so hard that i cant even think straight, my legs resting on his shoulder.

i cry out again but i lose myself in his touch, i couldnt fight him so i just went limp.

„thats it, i knew you wanted this.“ his finger enter my cunt roughly, fucking his digits into my core, moaning and crying as he does what he does.

„your tight little pussy had me hooked from the start, the moment i saw you i knew how good it‘d feel.“ tears keep running down, i was trying to pretend this was a nightmare, a movie.. some kind off horrible porn thatd only weird people would watch.

„i never care about girls, i only fuck them, usually they thank me. kai you made me cum so hard, thank you daddy.“ he mimics some other girl, which probably didnt happen and he just said for his own pleasure.

„im just making sure you think of me when someone else fucks you, slut.“

„IM A VIRGIN! IM NOT A SLUT.“ i yell at him as he stuffs my wet panties in my mouth.

„SHUT UP.“ he yells even louder than me.

„be happy im prepping you.“ he said as he rammed his fingers in continuously, not even making me feel good and hitting the spot that id liked, it hurt. so much.

„does that feel good? i bet it does.“ he spoke through gritted teeth as his whole arm moved now, i shook my head violently and he took out the panties and stuffed his fingers in my mouth instead.

„tell me, is that not your cunt? does it not taste like you? hm?“ his nails dig into me, it felt close to cutting me.

„if it didnt feel good you wouldnt be this wet.“ his eyes were emotionless, he was clearly on some sort of drug, as i saw him do it.

„god babygirl, you had such whore potential, if only you didnt wanna leave.“

he said, referencing a few minutes ago, where the moment i entered his house, he started kissing me, i gave in to the kisses but said no to sex. his kisses felt good for a second, before his hand moved to my skirt and i said that i cant and had to leave.

„you have to expect that to happen, you are worth nothing. absolutely NOTHING. only just a cunt to fuck.“

he pushed me on the bed and threw my panties to the side completely, his fingers loged so deeply in my throat that i would gag.

„i want you to gag on my cock so bad, but im nice to you.“ he smiles, kissing my nose.

he turned me around and spoke „get on all fours, i dont want to see you cry anymore.“ i protest and sit up, before he pushed me down again.

„nu-uhuh.“ his tongue clicked.

„baby… come on.“ he whispered.

„p-please… be careful.“

i cry out again and again, begging for him to NOT rip me apart.

��okay, i promise.“ he spoke in a soft tone, this was oddly reassuring. even if i was raped it didnt hurt as mu-

he didnt even bother to turn me around now, and aligned himself with my entrance. before saying anything his cock slammed so deep and hard into me that i only could scream, him quickly shutting me up with a blanket in my mouth which he held there.

„fuck baby, you‘re so fucking tight, god.“ he spoke through gritted teeth, raping my cunt as tears wont stop streaming, it hurt so bad.

it stung, his dick was so thick… and long i felt it hit my cervix and when i looked down, i looked at the bulge in my tummy.

„you… argh~ fuck, so good.“ he couldnt even say a coherent sentence, screaming into his hand that held the blanket there.

his cock felt so warm, the sensation was new… but it hurt… more physiologically than physically.

i started to give in now, loosening up a bit, knowing it would hurt less.

„now you‘re a good slut, you take my cock so well.“ he says as he takes me by my hair to face me.

„i wish i could hear your moans and curses, but all you do is cry.“ he says as he kept slamming himself into me.

i shake my head, pulling out the blanket before i speak.

„k-kai… let me speak.“ he kept pushing deeper.

he takes out the towel completely.

„cumming?“ he jumps to the conclusion quickly. i shake my head.

„kai… it hurts so much!“ i cry out again before he slows down.

„i‘ll be nice.“ he says before his fingers touch my clit again, making me gasp.

he goes slower, hitting my sweetspot now too, making me moan loudly, giving into the sensation.. i tried to pretend he wasnt raping me.

„it feels so good.“ i say, trying to satisfy him, maybe he would stop.

„i told you baby, hm? sex is sooo fucking nice.“ he says before he whispers into my ear again.

„are you gonna cum? tell me when you are close. i want you to cum in my mouth.“ this made me feel sick, i didnt want his mouth on me, especially not on my womanhood.

i had hoped he was done, but he wasnt.

„im gonna fuck your pretty mouth too, you‘ll like that right?“ i dont say anything and keep moaning, him hitting my cervix again.

i didnt want it. i wanted it to end. so bad.

„p-please stop.“ i cry out again and again.

„no… you‘re just starting to make me like you.“ he kisses me, his tongue deep into my mouth and i let out a hum.

„i didnt want to rape you, but you made it soooo easy.“ his words hurt, he was traumatizing me even more.

„k-kai… why are you doing this?“ i look him right into his eyes, for the first time that day.

„dont… look at me.“ he turns my head away.

„i dont want you to look at me.“ he says as he slaps me again, just hurting me even more.

„im fucking you cuz i want to, bitch.“ he goes even harder now, i was probably bleeding too now and as he got even more rough now, my eyes seemed to upset him.

„you‘re on birthcontrol, right?“ he speaks through his teeth as he seemingly was close

„n-no, please… kai dont, just use my mouth!“ i beg as i look into his eyes again, trying to awaken the guy thats inside of his shell.

„and now we are begging, i told you you wanted it.“ yea. sure wanted it. definitely not trying to avoid pregnancy.

he pulls out of me with a hiss, my heat was hurting, swollen and just pulsating.

his hands rest on it and he looks at me, i felt sore.

„my dick is coated with your fucking juice, clean it up like a good little girl.“ he said as he ripped open my mouth, his tip resting on my lips.

„you have such a pretty mouth, put it to good use.“

he pushes his cock deep inside, my tongue gliding against it.

„mhhm, thats what i meant baby.“ he bucks his hips in my mouth as he holds me by my hair, i kept gagging.

„too big, huh?“ no, too rough.

tears were streaming down my face, and my eyes roll back.

„my fucked out slut.“ he speaks inbetween animalistic grunts.

I HOPE YOU ENJOYED !! pls comment n reblog maybe ! :3 i lov you

this is my first post, so again… pls dont be mean.

[mrspark7777777]

You don't laughing JK shut down taekookers lmao. As if he didn't said I don't keep in touch with ALL members, he didn't met up with Jimin, he said out JEON JIMIN which literally established them as brothers. We don't need the vlive validation where two members who don't even meet up each other chats on weverse from two different places because whenever we see them Tkk are together and hanging out often. JK traveling with tae, jk gaming with tae, jk going out with tae's friends, jk and tae going shopping and the biggest of all, JUST AFTER HE 'ENDED SHIPPERS' TAEKOOK ARE TOGETHER RN AT INGIKAYO DANCING TOGETHER. if anyone got shut down today it's Jikookers lmao because even if JK said he don't know where tae is he was literally back stage with him ready to dance with him on stage. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

"I don't keep in touch with ALL members."

So this is a gloating point now?? 😂 you realise it also reads 'he only keeps up with some of the members'? And even if that wasn't the case celebrating that sentence makes u dumb AF because the all also incudes V. You get that, right?

This whole ask is about comparing Jikook with Vkook which i find so pointless. This is the issue with u cult members u can never celebrate your moments without bringing Jkkrs into it. If your ship so real why do u always feel the need to compare?

I mean, I can do the same thing too, you know? Like I can share JK with Jimin comments

And his face with that one question about V today

I can also tell u right now, for free that if that same question was about Jimin he wouldn't have made that face. And no, its not because he hates V. Its just the way he reacts to certain stuff about Jimin; positively. He always has. To him the idea of living with another member who's not Jimin is weird. Those are just the facts.

Idk why u came here anon but you are not a threat to us. You're really not. And as long as V continues to fuck Jennie you will never be a threat. Sorry not sorry.

No, JK would never read Jeon Kim outloud.

It's not the first time and won't be the last time he's been annoyed by the vermin in the comment section. Y'all made him ask u to stop mentioning other members. Only for him to call our username "Jeon Jimin" not long after 🤭🤭

Fam, Taekook real?

[kaiasky]

Recently rediscovered an audio log I had made while tripping. I tripped and then played tabletop/journaling RPGs, to prep for GMing a D&D oneshot where the players would be tripping and the gm sober. (the oneshot never actually happened sadly/fortunately)

This, unsurprisingly for me and particularly where I was at the time (this is around the time I did 5-25kaia stuff), led to me arguing with my past and future self in a long rambling 1h30m audiolog recorded in parts throughout the trip. For the first part, i was playing Delve by blackwell games, then i wandered around the apt and streets thinking, then i sat down to try and play a hack of dungeon world.

I do not think this is very interesting to read.

but it was very funny and highly recommend that if you are going to trip [this is not an endorsement of tripping or not] you should get a cheap audio recorder and yell at your sober self.

- "do i think the dragon,, dragon. the dragon dragon. um. dragon. fight the dragon? no it'd kill me. cant risk it. [30 seconds of silence, then i remember the recorder records voice and not thoughts]. but thankfully its asleep."

- "its all garish and costly because theyre building their fantasy fancy. thing. fuck. [saccharine voice] you know what i meeaannn. its a kitchen :("

- "its like the eiffel tower, in that everybody hates it but once we're all dead. its gonna be like a landmark. fuck. talking :("

- "im just imagining [[the mine entrance that doubles income below it]] like a lifeguard tower. but thats silly. [at self] fuck you. fuck you. its a lifeguard tower. shut up. theres a big lifeguard and he says thats too much money, give it to me.... [next turn] they dig up a temple below it. so theres. a cult of the lifeguard mine. that thinks we should be lifeguard mining. so theyre going to mine there. lifeguard mine there. [laugh]"

- [the temple in the lifeguard mine is revealed to be a mimic and i am OVERJOYED at how perfect this is. the mimic called out to the dwarves to build the lifeguard mine and they built it and fed themselves gleefully into its maw. wish there had been a lifeguard on that mine! everything i say for the next 15 minutes is about how i love the lifeguard mine]

- "these dwarves are really like suffering and i like it. the gems and ruby crystals keep looking more and more natural and wet and like teeth and blood. and they break through into a small chamber with foul smelling gas and an archway carved with ancient sigils. and they retreat and. the lifeguard mine isn't gonna be a problem for them any more, fuck yes. talking is easy when its describing how these guys die. im gonna draw an evil sigil. i think drawing evil sigils could be fun"

- "i cannot explain the things to you, i think the things and i think i should have communicated them. i am experiencing the process of making myself legible, but i think a lot of this is just that i trip solo, where tripping with others there is a lot of this experience already. i think i just came here to say, this peach is good. peaches are a good experience. *peach noises*. goodbye."

- "this is me to sober me. have you ever noticed that the lights on the bicycle make it look like a weird little alien creature. say hi sometime."

- "ok. so, I don't want it to end. but i lost by the rules. so i have to figure out how i want to cheat in a way that works and feels good. which is difficult. so im going to say that we're cut off from the surface by the lich king . which breaks a lot of the rules but im going to say the lifeguard mine is the new core of dwarven domain." [[i go back and forth on how to resolve the fact that i lost and would have to break the rules, and don't come to a decision]]

- "fundamentally i do not think i—i the creature here—was meant to think about dwarves. That's not a complaint its just. i think about the things the songs are suggesting to me and. [laughing] they are not math. [sob-laugh] they are not math. [pause]. they're so sour.... by the way i know these [recordings] will not be useful to you"

- "figuring out what to do with a lit candle was not the smartest decision of me. i think i can just blow it out, but you know. the significance—sorry you should try this. you light a candle and you snuff it out and you cover the lid and. the air pulls on your hand. you can really feel the suction. that's cool"

- "so for some reason, i have decided i need to roll a bunch of dice and add them up. so you can know well i can do math. i have. 1d20, 2d12. ... this is difficult. anyways i rolled 51. did i add those correctly? i took a picture figure it out" [[an: correct! i checked]]

- "ok so like, you're trying to study yourself and how you respond to this. to figure out how to do this better but also just to study yourself. and so.. [music changes and i lose train of thought] think it was like. recording me is mean, because. it makes me sound dumber. because theres some subject object positioning you're positioning yourself as the interlocutor. and so you're putting me-yourself into disadvantageous positions from the get-go. which is all to say you've imagined yourself and you're beating yourself up. fuck. im yourself too. fuck.

- "the difference between this vs if i was talking with somebody in real life. we have this sort of interviewer-interviewee dichotomy going on. im talking about things to an interested audience but they aren't saying things back. but i think part of the fun of acid and why it'd be so good with an rpg group is the struggle to communicate because that's all anything is or something, actually. communication is the thing you try to do as a human in life—or a dwarf."

- "i do think its very funny that you decided you wanted to make yourself extremely legible. like i feel like most people get into this state and think "ok, I don't have to be legible". i don't have to make sense. but youve gone in this opposite direction of my thoughts have to be rigorously justified [saccharine voice] which is very stupid. because they dont.”

- "can you imagine what reading-listening to 45 minutes of this is going to sound like? [[an: yes i can.]] it's going to sound like nonsense! and that's what it is! we're 3hrs in, just timestamping for you. which also means ive been recording for a lot of the time ive been on drugs. like. a big fraction. percentagewise"

- "this hasn't been a very visual trip, because ive been trying to focus on stuff. like dwarves."

- "why did i think i had to record this. im sorry. sorry. im recording a fucking "my voice sounds bad" thing on,, acid. but i feel like my voice should sound more like. girlvlogger. when im talking about this to my camcorder, because im trying to make things legible to you like a vlogger."

- "none of this makes sense. but just but just think about how im feeling, and dwarves, and west [an: the sleeping at last song] and you'll be able to rederive it. i think we say that to a lot of people online. im interested to see how it is for you" [AN: no fucking idea]

- "god dammit. it was paused. i was thinking about an eyeball monster, and how that's like, an analogy. for how acid is the experiential and not intellectual. because the person who said that it was very stupid is right" [AN: referring to some wikipedia thing about an early person seeing his academic friends taking acid who said like, ‘it cant really give profound insights because the people taking it all sound really fucking stupid’]

- "the greedy algorithm thing becomes relevant once again because im just a greedy algorithm, because once i look forward i cannot help but have changed the entity that was looking forward. that made sense. this is about dwarves im talking about dwarves again."

- "ok, so an experiment that you can do for me. i feel like im thinking faster than i can put things into words. and... if you had to put things into words for things you are thinking about right now would you be able to do this? did i. [laugh] i think i came here to ask my future self what it was like being sober. which is a real fucking lot.

- "ok the point is i guess. there's debate over what this is for, is this for me. which is you listening to this is a future subject position i am taking to sort of imagine myself in to force myself to put things into words and through putting things into words, becoming the person who has to put things into words which is a novel and unique position to convince me to think about things. OR, is this supposed to be useful to you, because you wanted...to plan an...rpg [laughing] jesus christ oh my god. you wanted to plan a fucking rpg so am like this. [aside] yep . yep that is what happened isnt it right. yup um ok. [pause to eat goldfish and contemplate life]. and so i guess in the terms of the rest of my life. i am actually trying to explain this to you. i am trying to figure ou—fuck what am i doing? [laugh] this is intended to be a useful document for my future self to plan an rpg. i know what this is, and it is NOT a useful document to plan an rpg! You are just talking to a tripping person. and that's not particularly enlightening. except for me, the tripping person. get fucked! :)"

- "Its really just messing with me that the purpose i am like this right now is [through laughter] to figure out how rpg people would feel on a trip. like you really did it. this is gonna be how they are! you'll see, it'll be funny. get fucked! you were like [frat boy voice] ok ill prepare ill get so prepared by doing drugs. [me voice] and now you have to tripsit-gm for TWO groups and one of them's me. and im in the PAST which is really an L for you but [unmitigated glee] its really funny for me. oh my god get absolutely fucked!"

- "those dwarves are so screwed. im really excited for them!"

- "and I think an RPG will be easier if there is somebody else just sort of making a momentum that continues even if people aren't thinking in that direction. because right now the momentum is that if i think a thing i will continue thinking things. and if i don't make myself tethered to the act of speaking into a microphone, or talking my way through a task, then I'm going to fly off and get lost in the fog. So i think having a gm will be good. which is to say that it's rather rude of you not to be here for *my* game because i am invested in these dwarves, and i want somebody to figure out the math for me while i just decide how the dwarves are sad."

- "ok, I'm going to try and go through the dungeon world character creation,, as though i were?? two separate people? as though i were one person? we will just have to find out. but i think this is the part we were the most curious about, so buckle the fuck up. i am having such a hard time and you are just not helping me at all. :(("

- "are your thoughts filled such.. latent thoughts? all these things are filled with all these subthoughts, that I'm not gonna pursue, but they're just there. *sigh*. right im going to play some fucking dungeon world. idk i feel like it's a little bit cruel to—i haven't tripped with people in so long but like. they keep getting pulled up from the depths every couple of seconds because you're like, what do you do? and whatever you're thinking about—you know, what it would be like to be samol hieron—is interrupted by like, i attack the goblin. and i know thats the point of this i know thats the point of this."

- “i think you'll never understand because you're not in my brain and you'll never understand how weird i want it to be and i think if you said like, sure youre in the cosmic realm oooh its all trippy. its like, you don't understand what that's like. you couldn't describe trippy as a gm. i dont remember what the start of this was. Anyway you're poking yourself to the surface, which isn't as fun. and i think that's also a function of tripping with other people, but also you're a very talky person whos demanding their attention. i dont always like that. sometimes people are talking and i just sort of tune them out. so i think [serious voice] if there's one important thing to take from this, it'd be like, them being able to tune you out because you are being an annoying gm. important. and you cannot expect their attention."

- "ok so i have a character! hes tisald and hes a dwarf. so he is like a dwarf, but he doesn't have the sort of stocky build you'd expect. he carries this slim blade that gleams in the night and ripples like water, and I don't think he talks much, but he's like weirdly compelling when he does. what im saying is hes probably a vampire. or like, hes bad news. maybe he'll defeat the lich king but he's probably bad news later if he gets what he wants."

- "ok so i dont have 2d6, somehow, which is certainly a choice for me, to have. but this is fine, actually. im just going to roll a d12 and divide by 2, and that's a d6. so ok obviously i cant play this game—what are you trying to do kenyon. this d12 idea is the stupidest thing I've done its sad. make sure you get good dice for your players this is sad for me."

- "ok so the problem is rules. ok we've kinda been toying with the idea that i can be both perspectives at once, but i cannot, because i cannot be the gm and the player. i can be sober and tripping that's fine, but like. i can't be like, heres what you find down the corridor, what do you do, and then also decide what you do, because that's just thinking—you're just thinking. the fundamental thing is like. ok ive been thinking about it in these terms—you open the door and peek inside. your character does. and in my mind there's something else that's supposed to fill in there, and that is the role of the rules, or the gm, or the collaborators. but you're trying to fill this in with yourself and i dont think that works because that's just imagining. or dreaming."

- "i dont think you want to set yourself as the adversary of the adventure, which i think was kinda your idea. or like, sober you's temptation was... that you would be the evil thing that they would fight at the end. and i think that's a very sober-person plotline."

- "i mean i think the key thing is that my thoughts are so permeated with meaning but that is not because i am better at thinking, it's because my brain is stupid and scrambled. [sigh]. i guess i just wanted to tell you that you're not incomparably dull compared to me. [laugh] jesus christ is that why i hit record?? to say it's ok to be sober?"

- "i think where we're at. as best as i can figure are, 1) talking as the sober person is not going to be.. idk, i feel like there are sober people that could be entertaining to hear talk, but i think, a lot of the time you're not talking at their level, and i think especially that goes for psychedelia. like i think if somebody was like, to me? there's like some crazy rainbow swirly wormhole, i would be like, yeah ok, i can picture that and its, fine, but it doesn't do anything special to me because im tripping. and sadly i think that the eyeballs thing also, is bad. [pause] idk. i think if you stuck eyeballs on a plant i would find it funny to me personally. yeah"

[menta11yi11]

Doctor's orders to pull back from social media as I keep having back to back panic attacks and wanting to kms.

I'm sure there's some folks on my public tumblr accounts that follow me only to get intel on me and not because they actually like me- and would love nothing more than for me to leap off a building. Yeah I'm a flawed person. I hurt a lot of people. I own up to that. I'm trying to be someone that at least tolerates my own existence in this realm. 🙃 but having folks on the Homestuck discord team telling me to "SHUT THE FUCK UP" and "DIE" for expressing a vague, nonconsequential fandom opinion (that wasn't even HS related) they don't like does not paint a good picture of how they'll handle knowing I've tried to kill myself over 8 times now. Bitch I'm like Deadpool the metanarrative will not let me end it. I'd love nothing more than to have never existed. You hate me so much, then fucking ban me from the discord and start your hate campaign like you did to my other trans system friends. Makin, you're pathetic. Just admit you have no compassion for folks with persistent mental health issues rather than acting like it's okay for you to harass people because you're the server administrator. You have enough simps laughing at your cruelty you think you're justified in these harassment campaigns. I don't think I've had a single positive interaction with you, and you can blame me being a 'snowflake' but at least I'm not inciting mentally ill people to kill themselves on your streams. I hope you lose the admin privileges and people realize what an actual asshole you are. I can't help that I have introjects of your friends. Do you think I woke up one day and decided to have amnesiac episodes where some brain ghosts take over my body and humiliate me publicly? That's like, a bit to you? I do have Andrew Hussie listed as an alter in my disability paperwork because they stepped up to stop me from ending things. Our (now) Hussie Royle is the reason we kept fighting to improve and become better people. You can think I'm cringe all you want, but it kept me alive. I can't know what source Hussie thinks of me as I've already attempted to reach out and apologize for crossing boundaries into parasocial delusional stuff. They didn't respond and they don't owe me one. I am, however, knowledgeable about what goes down in Homestuck VRC communities and have been helpful there as an informant and mod. You can dislike me and think I'm annoying and tight wound all you want but I'm not stepping back from my beliefs that people should be given compassion and time to be heard. I'm a socialist and I feel very strongly that we have a duty to protecting our communities and having transparency. Idk what weird shadow elder thing you've got going on within the HICU that I once wanted to be a part of, but I'm now realizing y'all are such a dysfunctional work family from an (outside but close neighbor) perspective.

I've been in enough grassroots organizing since 2014 that I can see the rot in the company.

I'm also a cult survivor, having been forced into the LDS (Mormon) church from 2001-2016 by my former legal guardians. I know what cult tactics are and I know how deep the abuse goes. Watch yourself before you have another well-documented video of abusive behavior. I don't play around with that shit. I held up my end of accountability, now it's your turn.

[bandofchimeras]

religious trauma diaryposting

nah you don't get it. in my house growing up the kids would actually CRY if we heard someone say "oh my god" or cuss. even trying to briefly touch on White Jesus and Jesus actually being a Middle Eastern man got my fam so freaked out about potential blasphemy (????? idk, guess you can't criticize any portrayal of Christ) they shut down this whole conversation we were having about Palestine that was actually constructive.

when I say I grew up Catholic I mean, devout, convicted, delusionally Catholic to the point we engaged in cult behavior. and I want to, and try to respect other people's cultural Catholicism and understand my own family's cultural ties to it but bro....it's ridiculous.

I can't even imagine saying "What if Jesus kinda sucked?" to my dad. Like I do not have a mental picture of what would happen. With my parents you can criticize them, but you cannot criticize the Church. You cannot cross the line of blasphemy. It's draining to try and have a normal conversation bc in order to do so I have to pretend that sex doesn't exist, everything the Catholic Church has ever decreed is 100% absolute truth, and bodily functions are deeply shameful.

I am 28 years old. I cannot waste anymore of my life navigating this insane bullshit.

Cult recovery is so weird when the rest of your family is still in it, I'm just figuring out you can be a person without following some complex set of arbitrary rules. Like you can just exist. I constantly feel like I'm about to be struck with lightning. When I'm around my family they can be so sweet and we can have some fun but there's always a trigger line I have to mind so they don't self destruct and shut down or lash out at me. Neurodivergent religious people are incredibly fragile. And being homeschooled, that orientation was normalized to the point, along with having OCD, I have had to teach myself how to interact with the public without praying in my head for their souls or to God to protect me. It's terrifying, at first, and I still don't really understand people who just exist and don't feel a wracking pain in their core all the time from losing that delusion of absolute certainty in a belief. It's comparative to being told the Sun isn't actually real, it's a big prop in the sky created to manipulate you.

Anyways forgive the drama on main. I feel like a constant outsider and a dogged sense of aloneness, and worry that no one whose out here engaging in pop culture and living their lives actually understands the extent of the psychological damage that comes from being 100% immersed in a harmful cult for all of your formative years and leaving it to become the thing they taught you to hate and fear, and realizing you are hated and feared for having been part of the harmful cult as well.

The only time I've felt close to being seen is reading Hell Followed With Us. I related a lot to Benji's soldier like mentality of adopting new language and concepts immediately, and his hard-line dedication to destroying where he came from to prove he is not on their side, not dangerous, etc. it's fucking torturous. So that book was not fun to read at all. I barely can recommend it and will never reread it even though I am very glad to have read it. Felt a lot like watching the Passion of the Christ.

So yeah fuck off with "why aren't you over that by now?" I don't think I will be over it until I'm brave enough to publicly blaspheme and bathe myself in pigs blood or do a burlesque number on the altar of my home parish lmao.

[elllteo]

🍕 and/or 🍩 for everyone!! (anyone you want to answer :3)

🍕: What is your Oc's favorite food???

OOoo this one is fun, UMMM

Matteo - Cinnamon rolls. He's a whore for them sorry KJHGFD

Julia - Cheesy Bagels with herb butter COATING them thangs. She can't have them often bc she's diabetic but. Sometimes she's a little naughty, we stan

Travis - Steak and potatoes - I LIED NO he likes boba milk. Oreo boba milk.

Vance - He doesn't really have a preference! Eating is more a means to an end for him, so if anything I think he'd just prefer certain textures. Things that have a Styrofoam mouthfeel are good, or things that are easy and quick (liquids). He would probably like the fruit cups with juice orbs in them, or mozzarella balls also. Shaped or Texture foods :]

Blake - homemade chicken noodle soup with ramen noodles instead of egg noodles, like his mom would make when he was sick 🥺 but if you actually asked him he'd say gatorade rice (he's lying but he does eat it)

Crispin - The triple chocolate cake Emmett makes on his birthday (emmett is a baker by profession, and crispin's husband/boyfriend/whatever KGJFD)

🍩 : Who is your OC’s arch-nemesis or rival???

oh, my god, ok. okay.

Matteo - He's not someone who makes many like, mortal enemies/nemesis'. However. He fucking HATES Cassius and also Fletcher. He hates Cassius for killing and cult-enslaving a ton of people, ruining lives and nearly killing him and Ellis.

He hates Fletcher even more than that, because Fletcher is Ellis' abusive father, and he literally throws himself on that wretched man mid-rampage while he's werewolf shifted and starts clawing kicking and fighting him to get him to leave Ellis alone.

He gets Very hurt, Ellis shuts down and has a panic attack, its a horrible time! Fletcher goes to jail though so there's that. I think he'd consider Fletcher his absolute fucking beloathed nemesis of all time

Cassius gets sent back to his weird dimension and his brother gets to laugh @ him the whole way back. he's more a stinky little shitstain to Matteo than a real Rival or Nemesis

Vance - Thatse a spoiler <3 :) sowwy

Blake - himself. like actually KFGJSH DLFGKJH he'd beat his own ass if he wasn't a coward, so he gets other people to do it for him. :(

Travis - Ellis.....they go from rivals to like. frenemies, or something. Mutual begrudging respect.

Crispin - in any and every au, he fucking hates Matteo for no reason. KJGH SLJKF

Melanie - She becomes rivals/nemesis with Syrin even though they're related - his betrayal of their whole syndicate thing, and him having and giving up the life she idolized for so long just like. Turns her to Evil. I mean she was already evil, but it makes her wanna be more evil @ him. LMAO

[wack-ashimself]

So I'm watching X-Files from 2016 I think it was when the reboot came out. There is an episode about a conspiracy in which the government was purposely allowing immigrants in illegally so they could form basically cults, become terrorists, and attack us within. This is where it gets weird. Over the past two days I have read multiple super conservative bullshit articles saying the exact same thing is happening right now at the Mexican border. They're afraid a bunch of young people from South America are coming in and going to be a threat to us. Shut the fuck up. Shut the fuck up. That's one conspiracy I've hated that I've heard my whole life from the media. That we're going to be attacked from within. That doesn't make sense. Why would somebody Flee for their fucking lives and then attack the country that hosts them? Doesnt fucking make sense. See terrorists attacking from their country makes sense because they're trying to attack those who are going to attack their country. They want to stay on their own soil. That actually makes sense. But coming to our country to attack us Within seems like the commie run back in the day. They accused everybody of being a commie,, but they never really fucking had any proof. It's all paranoia. Please don't fall for it. Your neighbor is never going to be as big of a threat as the billionaire. Never. That's one sentence we don't say out loud enough. Banks kill everybody. They're the reason people can sell deadly drugs and pay a fee, they're the reason war is profitable, they're the reason innocent people are in jail because it's profitable, they're the billionaires own all the media and constantly lie to you. Big banks are the source of all fucking evil. ALL.

[musashi]

not to mention the amount of people who try to tell the streamer how to feel about certain cases and then act shocked when the streamer tells them to shut the fuck up or disagrees!!!!

i have a whole long rant about this in a script for an upcoming youtube video but the AA fandom is just teeming with mob mentality and anyone who dissents from the popular ideas/opinions is instantly unpersoned to the nth degree. it's happened to me, it's happened to my friends, and it's the reason why new fans never stick around for long--because they bring all these fresh new unique ideas, get singled out, realize how cliquey it is here, and dip to kinder fandoms.

and this is no more obvious than in the streams of new fans playing blind. the spoilers are bad, but if i have to hear one more streamer tell their chat to shut up and stop pressuring them to hate Turnabout Big Top i will SCREAM.

i know that deeply insecure people do not understand this, but most people are not desperate for the approval of the masses. most people playing a game want to enjoy the game and form their own opinions. they do not want to be told how to feel!

it's like, we get it, you get all your opinions on media from video essayists on youtube because you were drawing BNHA yaoi in the back of english class instead of developing media analysis skills yourself. please stop trying to rope normal people with developed brains into your weird cult. the rest of us are trying to have fun with video games.

i'm aware of how passionate the AA fandom is but people really need to cool it when they hop into a streamer's chat or LP's comment section, ESPECIALLY if the streamer is playing blind. i've observed that for any given AA playthrough, it feels like half the participating chat (if not the total viewers) is people who have already played the game themselves. they are not actually being considerate of spoilers just because they merely allude to future plot points rather than discussing them plainly. i know folks wanna talk really badly about which plot points and arcs and characters they love/hate with other fans, but someone else's stream is not always the most appropriate place to do that, when the person isn't even finished with the game and doesn't have the full context. we're all entitled to our opinions and it's not like we can't express them ever, but we should practice a little restraint because the streamer's experience is the priority. it's just polite

[sammygender]

every time i read one of the all so common transphobic articles about the worrying rise in girls transitioning or what fucking ever it’s only like two paragraphs before they start going on about how Many girls feel it is easier to come out as trans male than a lesbian. are you absolutely fucking kidding me. being gay is shit but this is not 1993 it TRULY is not that uncommon or that taboo. i am the first to say that it’s not as easy as the whole ‘gen z are so progressive’ movement makes out it is but the same applies to being trans one hundred fucking times more. sure, when i was 13 and i tried to come out to my mom as into girls she shut me down pretty quick, but by the time i was 16 she was ready for that because the truth is by this point gay people have been in the public consciousness for a while. meanwhile my transness destroys her. lesbians are in tv and they’re all over tiktok and sooooo many 12 year old girls identify as some variant of wlw now, in 2023, in an averagely liberal area. and the average liberal parent isn’t going to care Much if their kid is gay but they very easily might send you to conversion therapy if you’re trans. these days in the uk you don’t get isolated from a friend group the same for mentioning your ex of the same gender in most cases, but correcting someone on a pronoun gets you branded as the crazy transgender in a microsecond and then everyone’ll stay away from you. into more personal experiences: if i told my colleagues (of at least some i’m sure are homophobic) i liked girls (which they’d perceive as gay) i’d get treated weird sure but if my work found out i was trans and not just some quirky little tomboy who the kids mix up the gender of i would 100% be fired.

anyway sorry this is turning into a crazy little rant it just makes me so angry bc this bullshit is everywhere. and it cherry picks the rare detransitioner experience like the ex-gay movement of the 2000s used to and then tells the story of hundreds of other trans people through the eyes of a journalist or a medical practitioner who clearly comes into this not believing them and refers to people consistent in their identity as the opposite and expects us to do the same. literally makes me want to cry because it’s people who have never made the effort to know a trans person and they get to make all the decisions they get to write their little fucking articles in the spectator or the independent or the fucking guardian and they get to put it as this very clear issue where young girls are being duped and medicalised and told there is something wrong with them WHICH OBVIOUSLY ANY RATIONAL PERSON WOULD BE AGAINST and they don’t make any effort to try and understand even though people have been DOING this for hundreds of years it’s just never been this Public before and they’re so cruel about it. & what about the hundreds upon hundreds of adult trans people of whom transitioning saved them? & what about the fact that, in your entire article, you cite 2 detransitioners and just talk about how Certain you are that everyone currently transitioning will regret it without any actual other proof? do you realise that ninety percent of people who transition have no other options and have to do shit like cut off their family or work in different fields than they wanted or lose the ability to raise kids or be poor forever affording it or all of the above?? and of course even if they didn’t it’d still be fine but i just want to make the point to these fucking people that we’re not doing this for fun i would actually literally genuinely murder a human being if it let me be cisgender because it would be so easy & i’ve hated myself for being gay before sure but never to this insane point because at least the world recognises, these days, that homophobia isn’t morally GREAT, and we don’t get articles in every fucking newspaper about the cult of homosexuality young teenagers are recruited into. and i know the process of being trans is fucking weird. that’s bc it IS fucking weird. i just hate it so much no one makes one tiny effort to try and understand it’s just whiplash and Concern and I think we should be very careful what we let children do to themselves…. And like to be perfectly fucking honest i think we should be very careful that we don’t let children kill themselves bc transitioning has a crazy high reduction rate in suicides and if any antidepressant had that suicide reduction rate it’d be a fucking miracle. and yes we should treat kids for mental health before they transition but that would require good mental health services, wouldn’t it, which nobody seems to be working on implementing anyway? so is that an issue with trans healthcare or is that an issue with mental healthcare BC i think it is actually the latter. & i’m so angry that hundreds upon hundreds of people have just accepted this as truth.

[pyreofsunflowers]

What I watched this week (3/20-3/26)

Oops, It's late! Anyways hope y'all enjoy.

The Wicker Man (1973, dir. Robin Hardy)

So apart from my obvious bias of being a Neofolk fan watching the Neofolk movie, the Wicker Man fucking rocks. Everything about it is masterfully crafted, from the story to the subtext to the imagery and ESPECIALLY the soundtrack.

I greatly enjoyed the commentary on religion and conservatism, which despite this movies age still manages to hold up some. Christopher Lee is amazing and really carries this movie with his convincing performance.

I don't have a lot to say about the Wicker Man that isn't insane raving about how pretty it is, but I will say that it is not like Midsommar at all outside of aesthetics :-)

5/5

Eyes Wide Shut (1999, dir. Stanley Kubrick)

I loved this one, kinda unsurprisingly. Tom Cruise knocks it out of the park, which is surpring - as I normally hate Tom Cruise. But that aside, this movie is fascinating. It does a really good job at putting you in the shoes of someone truly in over there head - wandering around lost, looking for answers, afraid but yearning for more. It captures all of these emotions well.

I liked what it had to say about the intersection of sex and class, and even more what it had to say about desire - and how desire can both bring people together and apart.

Go watch it, it's so much more than just the haha funny cult movie. In fact, the cult is a relatively small part of the plot for how much people talk about it!

4.5/5

Moonrise Kingdom (2012, dir. Wes Anderson)

As dark, foreboding, and weird my usual aesthetic (and taste) in movies is. I am not immune to a feel-good Wes Anderson movie. Maybe it's the style, maybe it's the melancholy, maybe it's the soundtrack. I'm not really sure, but I love Anderson. Especially when I'm stuck in bed with the flu and can't think, which is when i watched this one!

And surprise surprise. I loved it, as it has all the trappings of every other Anderson film. Solid, unique characters, a fun aesthetic and a story with just the right amount of stakes that despite it's simplicity wraps you up and keeps you enthralled. Is it his best work? no, I don't think so. But it's a ~* Good Fun Movie *~ nonetheless :-)

4/5

Halloween II (1981, dir. Rick Rosenthal)

Meh. Is what i have to say about Halloween II. It was FINE. I feel the same way about it that I do Scream 1. It's decent, it's well made, It has it's fun moments, but it's just nothing more than that. It doesn't have an amazing aesthetic, or extremely well done kills, or out of this world pacing and suspense. It does have the same high quality cinematography and lighting of the original, but that's about it. For movies that take place on the same night, they could not feel more different.

3/5 - put it on in the background while you get high or bang your gf or at a party or whatever.

Gone Girl (2014, dir. David Fincher)

YOU ALL LIED TO ME ABOUT GONE GIRL. ALL OF YOU. AND IM SO HAPPY YOU DID.

Because I hate the essence of Amy's character, and I hate the people who idolize it. This movie. THIS MOVIE IS SO GOOD AT MAKING ME HATE AMY and I love it. Sure, Nick is not a good guy either. I don't like him at all, but dear GOD was I rooting for him more than I've rooted for any other movie main in a while.

If this ever escapes, I will get crucified for this and I do. Not. Care I hated that bitch and watching her downfall over the runtime was amazing and enthralling.

What's even more commendable is that the ending twist manages to still be satisfying despite not ending the way I (or Nick, most likely) would have wanted it to end!

Also shoutout to the score I love you Trent Reznor.

Go watch it it if you haven't, and go watch it again if your a weirdo who thinks its some feminist masterpiece

4.5/5

[fandom-blackhole]

Episode 8 im ready to scream 🙃

Never ready for Winter in game, definitely not ready to see it in show 🥲

Give love and hate that they're making David's group religious, it fits so well and makes them so much more sour and nasty

Love that David is still fucking a creepy mf

Will you bury him? Will you?????

Troyyyyyyy my beloved, and now my beloathed

Gods be damned David is the definition of cult leader creepyyyyy

That is in fact INFECTED as shit

Joel is fucking ILLLLLLLLL

Lmak thats the funniest shit

Also im counting that rabbit for my bingo card

And there's the deer, I had to do that with a bow!

Also love how they kept it realistic as deer don't just fall over when shot they'll run for a bit

I love my daughter <3

You can't drag this back on your own. Fucking watch me bitch

Troy that was the dorkiest jog ever I love you

Literally screaminggggg Bella 100% has Ellie's winter attitude down pat

Ahhhh don't tell him your name!

Decent man???? Mmm nope

Some weird cult thing. Yuppp

I was a teacher. Yooooo David has been grooming since before the outbreak

I love that they mentioned Pittsburgh and how it fell like in the game

I hope that the infected find and go after ellie and David like in game

Ellie be prepared my child

Where do I put this? Well his ass typically but right there will do lmao

Oh shes laying down with himmmmmm

Ahhhhh he leaned into herrrr

I dont think thats deer 🙃

Yup not the deer

Love that they are beating down the revenge plot line, as if they're preparing for s2 or something

Oh fuck damnnnnn

Knew David was a bitch but damnnn

WHY DID HER NAME HAVE TO BE HANNAH, NOW IM GONNA THROW UPPPP

Seriously this fucker saying my name makes my stomach TURN

I love theyre showing the people eating bc you know its gonna be a big impact later for those who don't know

The wound looks a little better

Callus my beloved

I need ellie to say callus' name once just so I can knock it off my bingo card

Wllje if bird get disturbed like that it means something big or a group, RUN

Sense of mercy? Naw he's just a pedo

Do I despise James yes, but Troy is my beloved so I cant hate him

I like that they made Joel somewhat conscious

Run Callus Run

Troy's gonna be the one to kill callus I just know- ope I was right

RIP Callus you were a real one

Why am I more sad about callus' death in the show than in game, we had more of him in game 😭

Fucking knew they were gonna eat the horse too

Good thing ellie was smart enough to cover the door to the basement

That house straight up looks like its been burnt

Come on joel get uppppp, moveeeee

YEAHHHH

Be the man you are in game, wipe out EVERYONE

Also was that the combat music i heard?! Yessssssss

Why the fuck he smiling weirdo

I love ellie so much 🥰🥰

Ughh are we getting the- were getting the scene that awoken certain FEELINGS in me for the first time

Ohhhh the pipe, im in 7th heaven

CANNIBALSSS

I would have told you. GROOMERRRR 🚩🚩🚩🚩

You remind me of me. David fuucckkk youuu

Dude you're so gross I can't take it

Is this dude fucking worshipping cordyceps??

They need a father, you don't. Mmm debatable

Also shut the FUCK upppp 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

They will follow us. 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢

Break his fingerrrrrr, fuck him uppppppp, say my favorite lineee

SCRWAMMMINNGGGGGGGDJDIDKDIEKSKFBSKKX

The blizzard!!! The dings of being in the middle of a fight!!!!

My fight or flight has been triggered lmao

Joel about to show them the in game version of himself :):):)

Im gonna throw uppppp, im glad they showed Joel seeing that

Ope everyone hoping Pedro would kill Troy was wrong, love that Ellie their shared daughter did it

Ugghhhh the worst part if the game right here

Running from David in a burning building was nausea inducingggggg

And it is here too

Avoid the glass lmao!

Find a bottle!

Neither one of us is dying today. HahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHA

Get the CLEAVER CRAWLLLLL

The fighting is the part I like the most. fjsonfjskdn🤢🤢🤢🤢

Ok they made it clear as fucking day in the show that David was a pedoooooo, in game it wasn't so clear

He finally said itttnakfnsksldjxksp

What they aren't showing is that Joel murdered the whole town while looking for her :)

This episode was so fucking vile and perfect I hate it (not really but ughhhhh)

Trailer-

AHAHHAHA

We're finally gonna get Ellie's mom!!!!!

I swear to God the best scene in game better in the showwww

Ok ok ok The Last of Us episode 1 thoughts below!

• CLIMATE CHANGE?! (Love that honestly)

• Not me sobbing at the intro (I HOPED they'd do something like the games intro so this was a perfect surprise)

• Joels shirt is inside out 😭 (ok noticed this before it was mentioned)

• Let the man have his coffee Sarah

• Gabriel as tommy?! Sounds almost identical omggg

• The neighbors 😭 (oh I understand now.....)(I like how they changed the changing/infected neighbor scene)

• Desert Storm???? 👀

• Sarah fixing the watch instead of getting him a new one 🥺

• Sarah's backpack is so cute omg

• The dog 🥲

• "Drugs. I sell hard-core drugs." Happy screams

• Joel and his shitty movies smh (hope this is ref later with ellie and joels movie nights)

• Dammit Tommy, jail, really??

• Yo wtf grandma. No joke the cordyceps out of her mouth?!?!?

• The truck scene was done so welllllllllll

• Jimmy's place!!!

• The planes (OMFG THE PLANE)

• Ooo the car crash separating them, I approve

• These bitches CREEPY (Love that they have no fine motor control)

• Joel begging 🥲🥲🥲

• That is infact a small child (😭😭😭)(🥲🥲🥲)

• DONT YOU TWENTY YEARS LATER ME YOU BITCHES (both 2014 Hannah and 2023 Hannah)

Sarah's death was sadder here and I stand by that

• The amount of time it takes to change depending on where your bit poster is 👌👌👌

• Joel doing actual work in the QZ is kinda really funny to me (sewer maintenance) (now this is more like it....wait drug dealing??)

• MUSICCCCCCCC

• HANGING?????? IN THE QZ??? BY FEDRA???

• Tess 🥰🥰🥰

• Ooo truck battery and not guns (what about your guy?- He answers to me FUCK YEAH HE DOES....WAIT oh fuck explosion! Well fuck you anyway Robert)

•  ELLIE!! (SHE HAS HER EYEBROW SCAR! And her sense if humor) (veronica?) (unchain my child please)

• Oooo message operator! (TOMMY!) (Slavers 🤔)

• Joel planning a trip already is genius (wtf you doing drinking and doing pills?!)

• The watch 🥲

• Those walls are THIN or that baby is LOUD

• Marleneeeeeee

• I love all the yellow wires, ik in the game it was an obvious way to show you where to go, but u like that its been added to the show

• Oh damn, rip unnamed firefly Marlene talked too, you're dying in the capital (kim) (ope her ear)

• Tell me to look for the light and ill break your jaw 🥰🥰🥰

• Ellie getting water on her face lmao

• The knife 🥺

• Atleast the wrapped the handcuff so it wouldn't hurt her

• Don't talk about Riley bitch, I will fight you

• I like all the water dripping, good touch

• Joel talking construction 🥰🥰🥰

• Ok but that wallpaper in the hallway with the dead Robert, I want

• Well ellie you tried, but Joel is better

• Ellie is in fact feral, love her

• Give ellie her knife dammit (yes ellie I agree that was an asshole move)

• Ope don't mention Tommy

• What are they capable of?- alot ellie, alot

• You all talk it out but please remember I am bleeding out 😭😭😭

• God I love my husband

• Ellies shoes squishing 🤢

• Bill and Frank 🥺

• Your watch us broken 🥲

• Ok but why is all the wallpaper cute in this episode?!

• Ellie figuring out the radio code shes so smart i love her

• That door (or whatever you wanna call it) was hidden perfectly omg

• Worst time to take a piss (hahahahaha honestly fuck that guy)

• Pedro's eyes 😩 (oh fuck wait hes fucking that guy upppp)

• PTSD!!!

• THE RADIOOOOOOOOO

• THE RADIO AS IT PANS OVER THE CITY AND WE HEAR INFECTED?!? so good

• The trailer!

• The city landscapes 😩😩😩

• Frank!!!!

• There's no halfway with this, we finish what we started *indistinct screeching*

If you read all this PLEASE send me Joel thoughts, I wanna talk about my husband! Also if you want me to explain any of these ASK MEEEE!! Also, Also, I'll be doing this for every episode so if wanna be tagged in these just if be down 👉👈

[marvellousinternethideout]

BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER

Season 2

Ep 8 - The Dark Age

A visitor for Rupert Giles, well, everything gonna be fine, really, why would he look for him and it not he's gonna die before reaching him.

Oh for fuck sake, put the volume down Buffy, a man is dying outside woman.

Well, I guess he will die.

Now you turn off the music. Oh girl.

Did this green color monster(?) girl turned into green liquid. Perfect.

What was this Giles dream? Was he part of the dark forces cult? Giles is too damn mysterious.

Jenny is gonna die, isn't she...

Jenny make him squirm in another way, not by telling him you underlined in his book.

Welp she will make him squirm other way and she decided to try it on Saturday. Good for you girl, ofc unless you're dead then it's not good idea at all.

God Cordelia, shut up.

Giles was part of some cult wasn't he..?

What's with the tattoo ?

C'mon now even doctors are vampires. No one is safe there.

What's going Giles? Another one of Giles old cult friend is dead, looks like three of them is dead. Well giles is next .

He also has the same tattoo. What kind of cult were you part of giles.

Wait, who's back Giles? More mystery, love it, love the episode .

So the tattoo killed bodies are turning into some kind of monster and killing the next member. So he's coming for giles now.

Lmao xander, i love it when he roasts Cordelia .

Oh, it's Ethan guy, wait why is he here? Oh, yeah he was also the part of cult.

"Mark of wagon(?)" damn it kinda sounds devilish.

The dead body is back and he wants to kill Ethan. So Ethan will kill Rupert.

Ethan called giles ripper didn't he?

Damn giles, he's hot when he gets like this, all serious and strong.

What kind of evil god/demon did they all summoned and pissed off?

Oh no, Jenny is the green monster now. Damn another one is dead. Poor giles. Also, Giles get tf away from Jenny.

Giles love, Jenny is gonna kill you, run.

Good, the gang figured out that Jenny is the possessed demon now.

Oh well the demon came forward on his own, good for giles i guess... Or not.

Rupert Jenny is dead now. Yes "don't be sorry, be Giles", listen to buffy.

What do you mean, you created this monster giles.

Giles was in the band, Damn! He was kinda hot.

We're gonna have to kill Jenny, don't we?

Ethan is kinda hot and a dumb bitch.

Wait, what is Ethan doing? What a fucking bitch. What a coward.

Xander and Cordelia just needs to hate fuck it out of their system. Go find a closet.

Oh damn, willow snapped, you go, girl tell them.

Giles get your shit together, it's time to save buffy.

Kill ethan not buffy you weird green demon.

Oh yess Angel is here to save the day.

Wait, wtf, did angel just got the demon inside him. What's gonna happen to him.

So Jenny didn't die this episode, well let's see when she does.

Damn, so I guess giles and Jenny are over. Feel bad for Giles, he and buffy are so alone, it's sad. They share the same fate.

What happened to angel?

So, phew this episode, this was intense. I loved this one, it's like we are now continually picking pace. Giles dark past, honestly not that dark, I thought it's gonna be more darker and intense. Still, kinda wish we had more scenes of his past.

Whatever that monster was, wygon(?) I think, is inside angel or dead, I didn't quite understand that part. That was a smart move from willow.

Oh and Jenny and giles seem to be over, yeah it's sad but who can blame her, you can't be part of giles and Buffy's life unless you're part of the supernatural world, it's sad but it is what it is. Hopefully he will find someone someday. It has to get so lonely. It's honestly a sad life, minus saving the whole world thingy.

I guess that's it, loved the episode, it was interesting, especially giles past, I still wish we had more angel, as much as I love the chemistry between buffy and him, I can't exactly ship them when he's barely in the show. No spike or drusilla in this episode, no vampires. Also, no OZ, can we have him back.

Oh btw, fuck you Ethan.

That's it, see ya in the next one. Cheers 🥂

[lilallama]

[for the cc]

i don't think this has been done (if it has, feel free to ignore this ask)... but what if the cc are all on the way to class and suddenly they stumble upon four girls at the end of the hallway; crowding a crying y/n while saying shit like 'stop stringing them on' 'they deserve better than a wh*ore like you' 'stay away from them or we'll make you pay'

"Ugh! I fucking hate thursday's. Y/n is in none of my classes!" Jeongguk crossed his arms, pouting. "Sucks to be you. I'm looking forward to a wonderful forty-five minutes of lovingly exchanging glances with my Y/n~" exclaimed a cheerful Jimin before sighing dreamily. The others eyed him with disgust. Seokjin let out a mocking laugh, "If 'lovingly exchanging glances' means 'staring creepily at another man's love while they're thinking about their soulmate', then definitely!" "You are all entitled savages who dare corrupt my dearest saviour. None of you pesky children deserve even the slightest hint of a glance from such a pure, angelic being." Jimin threw his arm around Taehyung's shoulder and smiled sweetly. "Tae tae, as your friend I hate to say this-" he was interrupted by Taehyung who tried to create distance between the two again, to no avail, "I am not your friend, you-" "But you're really weird. Like always." The boys turned around the corner, laughing at Taehyung. "Maybe try getting a personality outside of your strange Y/n cult-" Jeongguk's comment was interrupted when four girls at the end of the hall entered their view.

The girls stood with their backs to them, somehow unaware of their presence. Something very surprising indeed, considering how loud they had been. They could vaguely make out another person, mostly covered by these girls. The boys didn't think much of it. This was pretty much what your average every day bullying at Bulsajo was like. You'd think such a prestigious school would care more about these issues, but truthfully, no one cared. A sad reality Yoongi especially had come to know.

Namjoon looked these girls up and down. Just as he thought, four spoiled rich girls. He didn't care to remember their names, but two of them were from families that his father had connections to. Him and Hoseok quietly made eye contact and nodded. Nothing to worry about. Or so they thought.

They were going to pass them by untill... was that... Y/n?

Immediately all their focus landed on Y/n, cornered to the spotless, white wall of their hallway by these girls. These filthy, filthy girls... Jeongguk wasn't going to wait. He was sbout to storm forward and show them what it means to mess with his beloved Y/n. But Hoseok tugged him back by his collar.

"Stop stringing them on." One of the girls wore an angry expression while staring down at the intimidated Y/n. "You only want attention, right? They deserve better than a whore like you." "Stay away from them before we'll make you-" Hoseok let go of Jeongguk's collar.

Immediately, the boy sprinted right at the girls. Knocking one to the floor and wrapping his hand around her neck. "Did you just threaten my Y/n!" She helplessly clawed on his throat, while her friends watched in shock. "Huh? Speak bitch! I can't fucking hear you!" The other boys, now standing behind the other girls are watching with amusement, as Jeongguk slams the girls head against the floor again.

For a short moment he makes eye contact with the concerned Y/n. "Oh! Hello, Y/n! I missed you so much. No boys talked to you, right?" The girl underneath him managed to cough out, "You're fucking insane!" "Shut up, filthy bitch!" Y/n only looked more concerned. They were about to stand up and ask Jeongguk to release her, when Jimin started coddling them. "Awe! My baby~ you don't know how excited I was to see you! These ugly girls just ruined my day." Jin tugged on another girls hair violently and laughed at her screech. "Like a disgusting pig. Ew."

Carefully Yoongi stepped forward. He was going to ask Y/n if they were okay, but was interrupted by Taehyung. "My God/Goddess! Please, I deeply apologise. Words cannot measure my guilt. How incompetent of a servant have I been, letting these leeches blemish your perfection through such cruel words. We deserve none of your forgiveness. I dare not even beg for such. Punish me however you see fit, my dearest saviour." Y/n was speechless. What was happening?

"Don't worry, sunshine," Hoseok lovingly caressed their cheek, "they will not bother you anymore. We'll make sure of it." He threw them his notorious smile, that everyone swears could end wars. Before he the then rurned to his club members. The girl underneath Jeongguk had fainted, due to lack of oxygen. The muscular brunette was currently breaking her fingers, one by one. Meanwhile Namjoon criticised his savage behaviour infront of Y/n, Jin was laughing hysterically at the other girls faces and Yoongi started to look pale as he heard tge crunching of the girls bones being ripped apart. Y/n shared his sentiment. Each crack made them feel sick. "Oh dear, you look quite pale! Shall we take you outside? Maybe bring you a glass of water?" With panic in his eyes Taehyung gently took Y/n's hand in his, running his thumb soothingly over their knuckles. At least he attempted to be soothing. Together with Jimin clinging to their arm, Taehyung's touch was only making Y/n's stomach twist more and more.

"Jimin, Taehyung, take Y/n to the school nurse." Jimin jumped at the command, excitedly clinging to Y/n's arm. This would mean he could spend some private time in the nurse's office with Y/n. Maybe he even could dress up as a nurse snd take care of them! The two boys hurried to bring Y/n away from the brutality that was taking place in the hallway.

Hoseok waited until Y/n had left the hallway and then dropped his smile. "You are a fucking idiot, Jeon." Jeongguk glared back at Hoseok. "At least I did something to protect my sweetheart's honour. What did you do, huh!?" "Be careful what you say." Jeongguk huffed. "Are we going to... you know.." Yoongi asked his classmate with hesitation. "Knock them out. I have different plans for them."