#shit financial situation
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
i can’t even cry good right now cause my nose is all stuffed up so it’s hard to breath so i can’t just let myself go and bawl my eyes out
#my food order hasn't arrived yet and i'm low on fuckin... blood sugar or whatever#whenever i miss a meal i get sad#and i mean technically it's really just whenever anything deviates from my norm i get sad#and sometimes when things are going normally i get sad#depression's a bitch#i can't bring myself to call up the restaurant and ask about the status of my order#cause i'm too fucking depressed and anxious god damn it#i feel#very#very...#worthless#like for real what's even the point of me being around y'know?#shit job that is actively not good for humanity#shit physical and mental health#shit financial situation#got good friends but i don't feel like i can rely on them in times like this or any time ever#like i feel like if i'm not positive 100% of the time i'm around friends they're gonna leave me#my family sitch is .. okay but not amazing#love life's DOA#and now i'm sick on top of that with a sick that hasn't left me for like two fucking months#and the worst thing#THE WORST THING#is I KNOW all of that is a fucking lie#i know my fucking bad mental health depressed-ass brain is going to negative extremes#like yeah a bunch of shit is not so good right now but there's also presumably a lot of good stuff#but my brain absolutely will not latch on to any of that no matter what i think#no matter how i try#and knowing that i know that... and that depression isn't something you can just get over or cure or whatever#knowing that i'm gonna be stuck feeling like this for my whoel fucking life...#definitely makes me wish my life were not so fucking long
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
Feel free to not answer this if its too invasive but what do you do for work? how do you manage your time to still create such awesome things while working? sorry if this comes off as weird I just want to find a way to work while still having time for my art
hoo boi ok i went into the job field hellbent on getting a more heavy duty job like welding and just do art as i please and preserve my passion for it so i dont get burnt out from an art job, but bröther ive realized the hard way my body just don't have the energy to balance working my ever sweatin ass off all day and Also have the energy to draw. I used to have a factory job building coolers but the management went to pure shit, all my good coworkers got fired or quit, and i was beginning to not trust myself holding a framing gun sOOO as of rn i '''technically''' don't have a job, my patreons payin the bills (and then some praise the lorTTTT) rn plus i got that mural gig that came at the most perfect time but im currently perfecting my craft at tattooing so i can get into that field eventually 🤙 i worked my ass off and drew my ass off for a while but my lack of energy made me crash and burn so i may not be the person to give advice on that AHHAAaa
#like im currently on a tightrope having the time of my life but im just free rangin it#i was determined not to get burnt out on drawing all day from an art job but i realized i literally just want to draw all day#and the fact that i was using all of my energy working at some souless meaningless job and then i barely had the energy to draw#shit got real fucked up in the cranium thats all imma say#it almost feels illegal not having anywhere to go i deadass feel like some authority figure is gunna bust down my door 😭 i lOVE IT#like the amount of lucky circumstances that allowed me to save my own ass from myself is sooo :''')#im so glad i started up that patreon when i did cause boy is it coverin for me#i remember 2 days b4 i quit my team leader was bitching me out again In Front of Everyone makin me feel like a useless dumbass as always an#i thought to myself clear as day im either quitting or killing myself so i plotted out my financial situation and stopped showin up!!!#working at a shitty job that deteriorates your health and will replace you in a second when you die for most of your life man just kill me#all i wanna do with my life is draw n inspire other ppl w my creations bro thats iT#suicide mention
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
lost my warriors honor twice today folks.
#potshots are never good form but inciting people to get mean about your financial situation somehow feels like i need to seek moksha#my financial situation is mostly fine btw i earn like shit but im from the third world so it feels like a lot and i have savings#its temporary grad school poverty
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
it's the bf's birthday today and we just spent half an hour rolling in bed and laughing at stupid little jokes like
i'm so glad this dude was born and that i somehow found him in the trenches that is overwatch ranked gold
#life#i opened the curtains and the morning is so sunny#like sure.. my health is shit and my financial situation is in shambles#but moments like this make me feel so happy and grateful to be here with him#i tickled him and he got jokingly upset and said I'M LEAVING! i'm gonna go make breakfast.. for myself!!#and then 5 minutes later showed up with breakfast for me 🥺
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
oh my god. oh my god
#my financial situation just improved !! im getting financial aid from uni !!#i thought i had lost all opportunity of it. but turns out i had been waitlisted!!#the universe has smiled upon me today holy shit#this is so great you all have no idea
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
I maintain that stress sickness is a stupid maladaptive response like oooohhh the numbers in my bank account aren't big enough so now my body is cooking itself. bruh.
#my financial situation isnt like dire or a crisis (yet) but its not what i would like it to be.#too many expenses all at once kinda fucked me over.#im hoping itll even out but god its stressful.#dgmw ive always been smart about savings and stuff and we have like. enough for rent and whatnot.#as well as emergency money for... yk whatever.#but still i dont like using my savings (even tho thats what theyre for)#and its still stressful to go over numbers#esp bc we have so many weddings this year.#i rlly think joe and i made the right call to elope#i love weddings and the celebration of love. but i think us going to city hall and doing it there#might have been the right move. bc holy jesus fucking shit christ. planning weddings is soooo stress#my irls often have me help plan stuff like this bc im good at planning if its not for myself#and im also as my brother puts it ''good at nutting up and shutting others up'' on the day of#bc i can herd ppl. yk. good skill ig.#but also holy fucking shit even a small wedding is ludicrously expensive.#id like to have a wedding celebration with joe one day of course#but also. idk man planning it looks like HELL
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
btw its interesting the way james tries to imply that like. well the videos that have plagiarism are the ones our dumb stupid annoying patrons requested about bad topics that didnt deserve to have the effort put in to covering them well so basically its fine. like obv thats interesting on its own but moreso the fact that he doesnt actually /say/ it, or like. give a list of the videos hes referring to, just says "those videos are very clear on which ones they were" i think as a nod meaning like "yknow the ones everyones talking about". unless what hes meaning is that like they put a note in certain videos saying "this video was requested by a patron, we here at james somertom incorporated do not espouse these views" which seems unlikely to me. idk methinks maybe it's because there is indeed a lot more than people think and with all the buzz he's not sure which ones have been discovered yet or not, so putting down a solid list that missed some would look like he was still hiding things whereas putting down a fully sourced list would be admitting to wayyyy more than anyone's found yet
#which is ironic too bc if he genuinely did want to prove he understood what he did wrong and that hed changed thatd be the way to do it#yknow like a full list of every single source including ones no one has found on their own or /can/ find anymore would a) be taking full#responsibility and b) make people less likely to always be like 'youre still hiding something'#which in turn makes me super think hes still hiding a lot of somethings#also cant go without stating that the 'request a video topic' thing was only for $100/month patrons after 3 months on that tier#like fucker these people gave you THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS AT LEAST and youre trying to blame it on them??????#no one forced you to make 'let patrons pick video topics' a reward dude like. hello????????#shit dude even hbombs highest tier ($10 for anyone wondering bc he doesnt see his audience as a money machine lmao)#just says you can vote in polls about future topics#like that makes complete sense to me as a version of this‚ the most dedicated audience members get a say in the future of the#channel while the creator still gets overall control of the direction#also 'patrons who gave me fuckloads of money asked me to make videos on topics i didnt like so i plagiarized those' is i think uhhh#worse than just 'i plagiarize everything without remorse' frankly?#like at least with the second youre just a general shitbag but the first where youre a shitbag specifically to the people#majorly financially supporting you rather than just like. be an adult and say 'hm i dont feel like that topic really works for the channel‚#do you have any other ideas?'#or dare i say even perhaps yknow. doing what other youtubers do in similar situations and find ways to tie that subject#to what they usually talk about is just. wild#course that last one would take actual creativity and aint that just the crux of the issue#james somerton#or i say cannot go without stating i should say cannot go without restating kwnrkabdkwbrn
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
npr doing a bit on crypto. host was like "it's easy in hindsight to see how crypto sounds like non sense." it was easy during too!!!!
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
The issue of power is so interesting (or something) to see because yes, from an economic perspective Taylor undoubtedly has more sway -- she's one of the most famous people on the planet, she's a billionaire, her every move is followed, etc. So I can almost sort of understand the concern, in another scenario, where some people may expect that she could crush her detractors (For instance, I'm thinking about how Harvey W. silenced his victims as a Hollywood mogul, or how corporate titans silence whistleblowers which I feel are analogies some people may turn to. Or maybe we've all just watched too much of the Roys on Succession.)
I said this in the tags of a post the other day I think, but I think some of the discourse is kind of conflating power with platform. And yes, Taylor undoubtedly has a bigger platform, again by virtue of her fame and position in the media/industry. But part of that is that she's visible in these areas, and her presumed subjects aren't, of their own choice. If any of these subjects ever chose to spoke out, or make art based on their experiences, or pursue opportunities in the media/public eye, they would absolutely be given a platform for it. (Going way back, think of how JM used the media to give his side of the story through his music and his interviews after their split. And I'd argue he was probably way more public/direct about it than she ever was.)
If any of these people decided they wanted their side of the story out there, it would be and it would absolutely be turned into a story. (And arguably that may already be starting but that's a whole other thing.) And this is just my opinion, but given that the subjects of these topics are often privileged white men, I'd argue that their sides tend to carry (more) weight regardless of their economic status in relation to her. If JM or JG or JA or HS wrote a book or a song or a script about their experiences, even only insinuating about her, it'd be the conversation. And not to be a cupcake about it, but the media seems to always want to find something to knock her down a peg about (which, sure, journalism's job is to hold people accountable, but that's not what always happens here and we know it), so they would absolutely give this the time of day, if they chose to put anything out there.
The thing is, I do see in a superficial way that there is there is a clear difference in their socioeconomic/celebrity status, and perhaps that's perceived as a power imbalance, but that's implying that she's dictating a whole host of entities out of her control, and I just don't think she holds the sway of those that some feel she does. Don't get me wrong, she's absurdly wealthy and has influence, but so do so many other people around her, including those who don't support her. (That's the wrong word for it, but I just mean, people who aren't in her circle/sympathetic to her.) And as I've posted about so so so many times before, THESE OTHER PEOPLE (men) ARE WEALTHY AND IN THE PUBLIC EYE TOO. They are all in careers that entail celebrity and involve their own influence in the media. These are not shrinking violets in private civil life who are like, grocery store checkout clerks. They're actors and musicians and media personalities who play the same game. And even the "poorest" of these subjects for the most part are millionaires who are far, far wealthier than any of us will ever be in our lifetimes. They may choose to stay off of social media or the press when it suits them, but they could absolutely make art or give interviews about their experiences and they would command their own kind of influence. (I'd also argue that they would be given a platform thanks to Taylor's platform, but that's another thing.)
I don't want to dismiss the influence of her wealth and stature in the entertainment industry, and I feel like that's kind of where the perceived "imbalance" comes from, but to be frank, I feel like if any of these other subjects spoke out, the media would be so quick to raise their stature in the press for the sake of clicks/controversy/what have you. Critics claim that Taylor can crush any story or person who goes against her, but I think given the breadth of stories out there about her at any given time (the NYT op ed, the jet stuff, the DM stuff, etc.) I don't think that's true; I think the publicity/clicks outlets get for covering stuff, even if salacious, outweighs any concerns over upsetting her or burning bridges. (Not saying that may have not happened, but... I think it would be more obvious if it were a regular occurrence these days.) If anything, 2016 through rep kinda proves that she doesn't have the "control" of the media that some claim she does.
But most importantly, THE ALBUM ISN'T OUT YET. WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THE LYRICS ARE. Taylor gets accused of writing diss tracks, but she rarely does, and I don't think she's written an outright callout song since her Fearless/Speak Now days when she was a teenager/very young adult. Just about everything since Red on has been about her own feelings, experiences, etc. and not a literal "you did x and y and z and you're stupid and i hate you" song. She's not calling people out by name, and truly only chronically online fans are going to deduce who songs are about; five years from now, people discovering the music will just know they're bops (or depressingly sad breakup songs, as the case may be).
I don't know where I'm going with this, i'm talking in circles, it's just interesting how things are being interpreted or assumed so far. I fully acknowledge I'm a cupcake so I'm generally not going to jump to the worst conclusion about Taylor, but there's also curious sociological/gender stuff happening in these conversations. I absolutely think that if the roles were reversed and her exes were billionaire household names and she was an indie artist, nobody would ever talk about power dynamics. I think it's all moot because like so many people have said, I don't think the album is going to be what some think it's going to be, and I think it's going to be way more introspective/vulnerable/dark than what they assume a breakup album is going to be, though obviously I don't know anymore than they do. It's just funny because you never hear about this with other people. (Like, was there a big fuss when Kelly Clarkson wrote a breakup album about her ex-husband? I know she's not as wealthy as Taylor and her ex was probably wealthier than Taylor's exes, but she's someone with sway in the industry and is on TV everyday, but everyone kind of said "lol her ex was a jackass wow she writes sad banger ballads" and moved on.)
Anyway I don't want to start shit or anything, but I'm just giving my two cents about my observations of the whole media landscape stuff.
#my personal bug bear is some faction painting J*e as a poor street urchin who was plucked from obscurity hunger games-style#yes his life undoubtedly changed from associating with her but HE'S AN ACTOR WHO'S BEEN IN OSCAR-NOMINATED FILMS#HIS FIRST MOVIE WAS WITH AN OSCAR-NOMINATED (winning?) DIRECTOR!!#I'm not shitting on him or anything in this case -- I'm saying he was pursuing a career in a very high profile industry himself!#it may not have panned out for him like he'd hoped or planned but as far as we know it's still what he's pursuing#he comes from a privileged background that i'd argue mirrors taylor's own pre-fame#and even now (thanks to royalties) will be financially secure for life#he's not the most famous man in the world but if he decided he wanted to speak out he would be for 15 minutes#and the media would absolutely eat it up and i'd even argue give his side more weight than his 'power' would indicate#i'm not saying he should or needs to but i'm just saying he's not powerless in this situation#also putting this in tags but it seems in private there was often a power imbalance in her relationships & not in her favour iykwim
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Talking a little bit about 'boycotting Eurovision' under Keep Reading, feel free to scroll down if is not what you want to see.
The most used argument on the matter of banning Israel from Eurovision is the fact that Russia got banned from Eurovision, which is the worst argument anyone could bring.
Kindly reminder that Russia didn't get banned because of the war with Ukraine. Russia got banned because many countries has threatened to withdraw from the competition. Sadly, that's a big difference.
Yes, the countries has threatened to withdraw because they support Ukraine and see Russia as the party in the wrong. That was their reason. EBU's reason for banning Russian was because those countries threatened to withdraw, not because the war was bad and Russia must be stopped.
This situation isn't the same. Why? Because many countries support Israel in their genocide. Because this time around Palestine is the party in the wrong. Because we're taught to believe that Israel isn't in the wrong here.**
Boycotting Eurovision won't work. There are people out there who don't know the truth and want to watch Eurovision. There are people out there who don't care and will watch Eurovision regardless of the situation. There are people out there who, despite having the facts, still don't see Israel as the bad guy in this situation and will watch Eurovision. Sadly, boycotting won't work unless everyone does it.
The only way Israel will get banned, in my opinion, is by going through the same thing as Russia. If other countries threatened to withdraw- and not any countries, but the ones investing the most in Eurovision, then yes. That will get Israel banned.
Otherwise? The only thing we do is hurt artists that don't deserve it. Artists who use Eurovision as a way to get more exposure and experience. Artists who deserve to be heard.
Don't vote for Israel's entry. Don't stream their song either. Heck, turn off the TV when is their turn to perform.
**This whole situation (the war, not Eurovision) isn't only black and white. Civilians die daily because of this, all of them from both sides. Innocent people who has no fault. Let's not forget that
#Honestly I'm tired of the whole 'Russia got banned Israel should be banned too' speech because is truly bullshit#It has nothing to do with the war per se. It was because countries were unwilling to participate in support for Ukraine#If the whole situation was truly political then other countries wouldn't be able to participate either#Is it fair? No. But that's the situation#Alas Eurovision exist so we forget about the bad in the world for a bit and be more united. Have some fun. Stuff like that#I'm going to get so much hate over this omg. But this is just my opinion/point of view on the matter#Sadly this whole situation isn't even about helping the innocent put in danger by this situation. Is about hate like everything else#My wording is so shitty but people on the internet don't understand shit unless I call 'X bad Y good' so we go with that#eurovision 2024#Also another reminder that THE WHOLE AUDIENCE chanted 'Cha Cha Cha' during eurovision 2023 and were rotting for Finland to win just to lose#Many entries got fucked up by the jury votes too. Our opinion doesn't matter as much as some of you might think lol#Jury votes GOT CHANGED during another eurovision under shitty reasons (I can't remember which year but there were 5 or 6 countries who got#their votes changed). Eurovision has never been fair#We always get annoyed over it and trash talk it then watch it the next year#Also this is not the same as boycotting brands and shit like that who support Israel. No money go from Eurovision to Israel.#This competition as far as I am aware (please correct me if I'm wrong) doesn't support Israel in any way#Be it financially or by donating arms or any other way#Their only fault is for allowing Israel to participate. That's all#Weapons* don't ask me why I said arms instead sorry#i'm tired lol#Fair warning I won't answer any replies to this post
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
for every "how dare you plan to spend money out of your entertainment budget while i, a complete stranger to you, am still poor" post i see i am buying another $3 worth of crabs
#look. i get that people in bad financial situations are tetchy#which is why i talked myself out of reblogging several stupid posts#but this is just the 'how dare poor people buy starbucks' argument except coming from other poor people#if you wouldn't begrudge a fellow poor person their sugary coffee just because you yourself don't have a coffee budget this week#then shut the fuck up about people wanting to give up a week's coffee to maybe help a website they enjoy#'if everybody donated to my kofi instead of to tumblr then i wouldn't be poor anymore'#yeah probably but also no one knows who you are and you're not specialer than any of the other poor ppl who enjoy this site#meanwhile we ALL know what tumblr is. because we live here#it's like 'why did they donate to save the savings & loan instead of to the individuals in the town who had loans out'#also. why does everyone think that solving the moderation problem is free!!!#that shit is very hard work! it's not a solved problem algorthmically at all#this site has 200 employees and 21 million posts a DAY#crab day#tumblr meta#dove.txt
53 notes
·
View notes
Text
there is no way that paying people to vote for the political party you support is legal
that is so fucking insane
#elon musk is an asshole#like fuck him#taking advantage of people in terrible financial circumstances to put someone in power who will likely worsen the overall financial#situation of the US is bull shit on a different level#jesus christ
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#I am so like ???? at my current living situation lol?#straight up ask my partner to tickle me#no#um ok can you like trace your hand on my arms or my back#barely does for a few seconds#can we cuddle#no you can lay near me#like???? how does this bitch live?#don’t get into relationships and be financially dependent kids#I’m bout to start having sessions again and being more open on here because like this is some insane shit#personal#ignore me#I’m just like#how#I’ve explained by the fucking skin of my teeth repeatedly that I need physical touch and interaction and that is my love language and#that being tickled is more important to me than literally anything like fuck food fuck sex fuck everything that isnt being tickled AHDHFJGJ#I didn’t explain it that intensely but like#yeah#ranting in the tags#goodbye#somehow we got here and three years have gone by and I’m like ?? what did I just spend my time doing lmfao#yucky real life things
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
Just scored an unus annus hoodie on ebay let’s fuckin go
#bits of banter#yes I should not be buying shit bc of my situation yes I should be saving my money yes I should not be making these financial decisions#but when does a good deal on an unus annus hoodie come up on eBay I mean seriously#it’s one I don’t even have too!#for only £65 as well which may seem like a lot but for an unus annus hoodie in 2024? bargain.#plus I needed something to cheer myself up
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
we know that everyone who follows us is. probably tired of seeing us beg for money. but genuinely, we have bills to pay now because we no longer live with our parents, and we genuinely need some help to get us on our feet :,)
#Faye Rambles#our financial situation is not necessarily *dire*#but it could definitely be. far far better.#we have commissions; patreon; ko-fi; all that shit#we just need money
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
every once in awhile i'll start thinking my dad isn't really THAT angry and/or controlling, then he'll just merrily prove me wrong. thanks dad.
#hes not like. the worst. and things have improved but hes still such a shit sometimes.#he told my mom she's not allowed to bake for big groups anymore even though its something shes been doing for a decade and finds a lot of#satisfaction in doing#and he wont let her leave her job even though it makes her fucking miserable#and i realize theres real financial constraints to both of those things but he hasnt even bothered to talk things through with anyone else#it just feels like now that my brother and i are out of the house all his toxic behaviors are concentrated on my mom. which i fucking hate.#and he doesnt treat ME like shit just my mom and brother which just makes this whole situation feel grosser#sorry. just needed to vent.#raspberry rambles#vent post#please dont reblog
4 notes
·
View notes