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desiderium-eden · 9 months

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Doodling weapons as I resist the urge to drag another baby into royal verse...

#{call of the void} ooc #I know I gotta write stuff #but like #brain is mush #also #hesitant to bring in Rena #because I know that until Mika finds her or something #she's sad alone and scared #and I don't want her to suffer #also unsure if she'd still be the cursed death dragon demon thingy in this verse or not

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dovewingkinnie · 10 months

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an angel who saved a guy before he could die and vows to protect him and bring him joy

#no one was there to help him #when he was dying alone in his room #except for her #hes very sad but its ok #she is going to take him places so he can have fun!!#and finally enjoy himself #and relax #after he spent his whole life too scared to do anything #shes going to take him to see a pretty sunset #and show him how beautiful it is #oc #oc art

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deoidesign · 4 months

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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moonchild-in-blue · 4 months

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Oh.

#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them #and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual #and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it #i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha #it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing #that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before #my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up #is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop #and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it #maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but #man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc #idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later #probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void #anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself

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tanicus-caesareth · 5 months

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guarana drama, damage control

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beebo-shmeebo · 3 months

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Along the same lines as the last one, drop your saddest, most gut wrenching, guardian oc lore in the tags.

#destiny 2 #destiny guardians #ill go first #before ire was ire (aka prelight) they were iriks #and iriks died alone and scare in the woods #crying out for a family that wasnt coming to save her #she just wanted to hug her brother just wanted to be tucked in by her mother one last time #and her death was seen as a victory #as though a manipulated child could have understood what she was doing #as if a manipulated child could understand that when you die trying to avenge those you love you arent regarded as a hero #youre the villain. and all that you were will be rebranded to fit the narrative of those who stood against you #sad

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dashingwishes · 5 months

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They fired my new coworker I am so sad I mean like why? Now I am all alone again 💔

#Is it because she came late and keep taking breaks I was finally wasn’t all alone.#I feel so sad and scared even more now.#text #personal

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dormiloncito · 6 months

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midterm tomorrow. scared. i will die badly. keep me in your thoughts guys i won't make it

#SCARED. SO SO SCARED #i had to schedule an appointment to take it #i know the proctor she is nice but this also makes me wonder what.#am i gonna be doing it in a room all alone or #funny thing is that this class is fully online so i don't know why i have to go to campus to do it #but that's alright. i guess it's because it is a midterm. then again another fully online class had the midterm done online SO.#whatever #i have been sad and miserable but the fear of academic failure never fails to jolt emotions thru me (negative. but emotions nonetheless)#in all honesty XD i have studied 😇😇😇#but what if i my memory is wiped at the time i begin. what then

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curseofbreadbear · 1 year

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cassie: gregory didn't hurt anybody!

me: oh you poor sweet summer child

#{ i think a lot about the ar mask and how it uses voice clips and stuff and like... }#{ ALL of the gregory voice clips are pathetic and sad. like ''im so scared and alone'' is the most out of character shit }#{ but because of the position cassie is in... ofc she's gonna perceive that he's feeling that way- }#{ -and helpi is going to audio-mix accordingly. }#{ i think the longer that her night goes on it definitely like...uses her brain against her. not INTENTIONALLY- }#{ -but her mind is in such a fragile state that like...everything is going to become warped and scary and remind her of the position- }#{ -she and gregory are in. }#{ i think so bad specifically abt roxy raceway and the cutouts ok dont get me started IVE GONE OFF LONG ENOUGH }#{ MY POINT BEING. cassie has no fucking idea what gregory did in main game and it kinda drives me insane... }#{ what would she do if she knew he was the reason roxy no longer has eyes. }#{ this became long enough to warrant that tag so dfsklfds }#ruin spoilers /#🎬 || it's make believe inside your head. (headcanons.) || 🎬#🎬 || time for bear. (ooc.) || 🎬

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 9 months

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dietitian warned me the other day i may need to go inpatient if this keeps getting worse and it hasn't left my mind ever since. partly because i don't see the reason. i am literally gaining weight. and also because a non-zero part of me wants to go back inpatient and i don't know why

#and also because self destructive impulse go brrrrrr #steadily lying more and more about being full again so that's fun #unfortuantely eating disorders are chronic and will only go into remission not go away entirely!!! so if i just die that will solve that #problem right :)#personal #tw suicide #tw ed #puddleglum hours #i don't want ot have to keep myself alive anymore!! i am so tired #i don't even have a diagnosed eating disorder lol #hilariously funny to me in a terrible way #diagnosed with Big Sad disorder (mdd) but not Can't Eat disorder which is what i originally went to get help with when i first reach out to #a doctor #you know how often i regret that? so so often #im just here like LET ME DIE when the two times in teh last two days i have been Left Alone With Knives i have Talked Myself Out of using #them #in part because im scared of trying and failing again #in part also because i don't want to scar my siblings yknow?? like a friend once said that sometimes you refrain from doing things for othe #people and not yourself and i think she was so right

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wormsdyke · 1 year

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cannot beliiiieeeeeeve the heartstopper show runners would create a show so specifically designed to make my inner child weep

#just like heaven during the prom??? my jaw fucking dropped #i know that’s not a niche song but it happens to be very specific to my sad gay little prom experience #how did they know. how did they know i was sad and gay and listening to the cure too #i was tara being scared and alone and i was darcy running away and i was isaac contemplating asexuality and i was charlie violently avoiding #all of it!!!!!!!!! god damn!!!!!!!!!#my gf at the time was so embarassed to be seen with me that she wouldn’t make eye contact with me the whole night of our prom #living vicariously just for a minute thru this sweet sweet heartbreaking show #i am curious if other people get so sad watching this show it makes me fully cry even tho it’s largely light hearted #like is that a normal reaction. are y’all sobbing too. is this just a me thing #orating!#heartstopper

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hauntingblue · 21 days

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#the struggler #its so sad really she has to live this (hard) life bc of other circumstances put upon her and now that she can mostly control them #she wants out but will not do it alone. like girl. the suffering that comes from desire girl... do not do it #also max kill that fucking captain NOW #THEY GOT TEACH!!!#billy? yep. tried to kill you? yep.#the yapper #girl not now.....#flint looking 😒#what a fucking psycho....#WHAT THE FUUUCK ARE THEY DOING OMG #jesus i dont need to see this....#I AM KILLING MYSELF TOMORROW NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JACK NOOOOOO #FEACH IS STILL KICKING #OH MY GOD LEGEND #IS HE LAUGHING???#anne just keeps looking at anne like i fucking told you ajdhajshjs #AND THEY LIVE OH MY GOOOD HIS BABYGIRL POWERS ARE UNMEASURABLE #TEACH THANK YOU LEGEND!!!#silver in the horse ajdhsusjsi #these pre ww1 methods of fighting are so funny #and they still got snipers #billy... beef squashed #hands got the captain damn!!! old man powers #well this looks good but we are on episode 3.... i am scared #talking tag #watching black sails #black sails

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sweetfreedom2107 · 5 months

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She doesn't need demons to haunt her, she has herself.

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charlotterenaissance · 11 months

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having an almost comically bad couple days so i'm microdosing on all my fixations by alternating episodes of kids in the hall, night court, h2o just add water, and conan o'brien remotes. just having a normal one

#the fun part of being the child of my alcoholic dad and junkie mother is that my form of vice is old tv shows #as i try to zone out while stone-cold sober #i had a bad day at work which was the capstone to a rough couple weeks #which is why haven't really been on here #and i'm pretty sure i can't trust my own vision or whatever because i look at things and get told i'm wrong #and then i found richard moll died so i'm not doing so great #i am so sad #i'm just so so sad and scared #all the time and i hate this so much and i hate being a burden to the person i love #and i just feel so alone and not good at anything and not good enough for anything or anyone i'm just not worth anything #it's my fault for only being able to conceptualize relationships via the familial bond #so i take my boss who is normally sweet and patient with my stupid worthless self #yelling at me as rough as you can possibly imagine #she didn't even yell at me specifically but every time she came by i flinched and any time i said something she got mad and yelled at me #i don't know i'm sorry #i just want to disappear #i'm also on my period one more cosmic corkscrew of pain

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desastre-gay · 3 months

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thinking about the years ive wasted putting medical/legal transition on hold in hopes my parents would come around to be there and support me for it just to not even be able to feel comfortable telling my dad im changing my name legally (soon!!!) and for my mum to say shes not gonna try to stop me but isnt actively supporting me. i waited for nothing and i dont think they'll ever change so i wish i didnt live with them but at the same time i dont have a job or a lot of friends so theyre kind of my only connections in life rn. something about your parents becoming weapons against you the moment you become something they werent hoping for.

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faethfigueroth · 5 months

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#alright these tags are super embarrassing but i needed to rant publicly so uh. you can read this but please don't perceive me too much #it is so fucking exhausting having nobody to share my life with #i have literally zero friends at this point bc ever since my grandpa died i've pretty much stopped trying to keep in touch with my hometown #friends and i cut off my 'friend' group that were racist assholes who treated me like a doormat back in october and haven't really made any #close friends at college since. and i just fucking hate that this is the same way i've felt for so many fucking years like you'd think it #would be bearable at this point and i'd be used to being alone and for a while i honestly was but it just hit me tonight how fucking lonely #i am and how tomorrow i have to keep on just doing the shit i have to do in life without anyone to talk to and share it with #other than my mom who's been pissing me off lately so i've been pushing her away too!#it's so tiring to have to go out and do things and have responsibilities everyday and not being able to share that with anyone idk it makes #it feel almost like i'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders which is SO dramatic i know #like today i wanted to talk about the stupid false alarm gas leak thing with my sort of friends in this club i'm in but i didn't get to talk #to anyone at the meeting bc everyone was just talking amongst themselves in their little groups of best friends and it just reminded me that #i don't have that and i've never fucking had that i've only ever pretended i had that #it's like all these years i've been pretending to be a person that has friends and knows how to live life normally but i never have #more than anything i just miss my friends from home bc they're the closest i've ever felt to having friends that are like family but. i #don't know how to talk to them anymore. i didn't tell any of them when my grandpa died and i think they just assumed that i've moved on so #they've probably moved on and i already know that they have their own lives and friends at their schools that are a lot more full than mine #wanna know the worst part about all of this? i just had therapy and basically told her everything's fine #and i won't meet with her again until 3 weeks from now so literally the only person i can talk to about this right now is my mom #which i am absolutely not gonna do bc she's gonna get so scared and worried for me and i can't have that rn #anyways yeah. this isn't even that big of a deal like i haven't had friends for at least the past 6 months it's not like anything's changed #i just feel extra sad about it right now. i need a distraction stat gonna go watch watch some tv goodnight #shut up hanna

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