#she's not really uncomfortable with it. it's more like she thinks it's worthless LOL

[acourtofthought]

lol I was skimming through your blog and I saw ppl love to say elain is uncomfortable around lucien I once had this argument with someone and I asked them "why hasn't she break the mating bond?" and they instantly shut down lol

like come on girl if she was THAT uncomfortable wouldn't she asked feyre if there was a way to end whatever it was with him and set herself free and choose azriel? she had 2 years to think about it and it apparently hasn't accrued to her once...

and my bigger question is why Azriel hasn't ask himself that? ah right... he hasn't think beyond the fantasy of her in his bedroom so he dosen't really care if she's mated or not bc his brothers are mated to her sisters and lucien of all people is mated with her, now how fair is that? very romantic...

honestly it's really that simple... yall just need to think a little and stop being blind and delulu lmao

I think it's probably accurate to say Elain IS uncomfortable when Lucien is around.

But.......so what, right? 😂

Feyre was terrified of Rhys when she first met him.

Nesta made Cassian feel like he was worthless when she first met him, snorting and looking away as if he was nothing then told him on multiple occasions to leave her the hell alone.

So yes, Elain is uncomfortable but there are many possible reasons that could be causing that besides the "she has no interest in him and will never have interest in him" argument.

I am the absolute worst around people I'm really attracted to. Like, "can't make eye contact and have no idea what to say" awkward and uncomfortable.

Elain might not want a mate or a male because she's trying to convince herself it's the truth all the while being frustrated that she's extremely drawn to Lucien.

Elain's "newfound boldness" might disappear around Lucien because he can see right through that "newfound boldness" to realize she's fooling herself and those around her, that she's not as happy and fine in the NC as she's putting out there.

Everyone expects Elain to make friends and be optimistic because that's who she's always been but what happens when if it's not working? She wouldn't want to let others down when they have certain expectations of her so she's showing them what they want to see. Maybe she's trying to fake it until she makes it herself.

But a mate KNOWS things and can most likely sense that she's full of shit. That would make me lose my "newfound boldness" too. Knowing someone has a front row seat to my soul and they can see act I'm putting on.

Until we are at the end of Elain's book (considering Nesta STILL couldn't admit her feelings for Cassian until 3/4 of the way through), no one can say for certain that Elain's reaction to Lucien isn't a result of the intense emotions and pull she has to him, that it's something she's fighting having to admit because it's scary.

Like you said, why string the poor man along for nearly two years if she's really not interested? Why keep accepting his gifts? Why not beg Feyre to not invite him to Solstice? And why haven't Az or Elain made any plans on what they'll say to Lucien if they do in fact have feelings for one another? If Elain has no interest in him then why is Rhys telling Az to back off? Why does Nesta call her a wretch for not sitting near him? Why does Cassian feel bad for the longing on Lucien's face? Why did Feyre tell Elain to get to know Lucien? Why did Feyre encourage Lucien to spend more time with Elain? Considering these are Az's people, why are they all on board the Elucien train?

Elain and Az not ending up together is a blip in their journey's. They had a year where they tossed around the idea of something (all the while Az was also tossing around the idea of wishing Mor wanted him). But they can move on and it really doesn't affect anyone to any real degree, not even themselves. If Az can get over his 500 + year old love for Mor within the span of a book then getting over a 1 year long crush should take him 1/500th of that time.

Elain and Lucien not ending up together impacts their entire lives. It impacts the lives of whoever they end up with (that person always knowing that their SO has a unique bond with someone else, a super special connection that only mates share). It's not something, as Rhys tells us, that will ever completely go away.

[2n2n]

What do you think hanako kun and shijima San have in common

Shijima-san is pretty strictly explored within the confines of her arc so, I think I can only reply with the obvious things: that she hates the concept of feel-good surface-level lies meant to placate/comfort or hide you from reality, and they both feel as if murder is a good way to 'save' someone from something they see as far worse. Love and devotion and protection is both of their motivations for ~murder, possibly. Shijima-san is surely one piece of the big puzzle to teach us about the Yugi through example of similar thought process.

Both feel like lying to yourself is worthless. Neither want to perpetuate self-delusion. Hanako is quite brutal to Mitsuba about giving up on dreaming of life, and Shijima-san is quite brutal to Nene about the absoluteness of her short lifespan.

Both are fussy, aloof, antisocial people, with a fakey-fake upsetting veneer of cheerful positivity fronted particularly intensely in circumstances that upset people (intentionally creating distance). Both will look down on the living for their foolish, limited understanding of the reality of life/death.

I really think they butt heads because they are so similar. I can't see a single world they get along. Shijima-san is like… too alpha, wwww. Amane is put-off by it. They can't, talk.... immovable pieces.

Both are intensely self-hating, and feel guilty/responsible for something done to that which they find precious and live to protect or help.

And they both need a cheerful, perky counterpart! The living Shijima Mei is more similar to Nene or Tsukasa. Thoughtful, sweet, energetic! Cheerful, hopeful!

The largest divide between them though, is that Hanako does a lot more…. performance? He can maintain his r'ships with others and does despite that he seems to only truly (by his own definition I assume) care about a few things? I think Shijima-san is the more honorable between them, with her lonely belief system being taken all the way to the bank. She's not out there palling around with Kou and Akane and partying with Yako and Tsuchigomori. Amane is very broody and emo and can make dramatic displays of his indifference to others and lack of humanity, but he isn't quite the epic loner he believes himself to be. Shijima-san is a lot more thorough in her isolation. She lacks 'guff'.

Shijima-san is pretty right to hate Hanako, even while sharing similarities, I mean if you take that kaii distance and emotional brokenness but Also combined it with sexual irreverence and possessiveness of a 'random' (as far as she knows) girl, it's like, innately disgusting and uncomfortable to watch. LOL. Hanako sure is hard to like..... and as Shijima-san is bound to her duty and takes it seriously, I'm sure seeing Hanako faff off with a girl is like..... impossible to respect. Kind of a betrayal to what it means to be devoted to your object, to obsess on something unrelated to it. He looks disloyal or half-committed or distractible. You couldn't imagine Shijima-san moving away from her 1-track devotion to Mei.

[p0is0ned]

It's unbelievable to see your Instagram accounts inactive. At least the ones I can see. I can't believe you aren't seeking female attention to the extent you were before. I can see that you still are from what I'm able to see, but I'm surprised your need for attention has decreased at all lol. What about the girls you "loved"? The ones you couldn't help but cheat on me with? The ones that were so much "better" than me? The ones you were hung up on before me and during our time together? You don't even follow them? When we were together you couldn't keep them blocked. You could not resist looking at pictures of them. I'm talking specifically about those 2. You know their names. The ones you promised me you'd block and then unblock, like, and message the next day thinking I wouldn't notice. The one you'd been so madly in love with. Remember the poems you'd write about her? Her, the one who you creeped out so bad she wanted nothing to do with you? Ghosted you because you made her uncomfortable? Meanwhile me, your girlfriend, begged for attention you never gave me lmao. I couldn't spark an ounce of creative writing from you, despite all my love letters I wrote you. You could have used them for inspiration. But I wasn't her I guess. Anyways, I'm surprised to see the last time you were thirsting like the creepy man you are in her comments was 3 years ago. Surprised you aren't following her. I can't keep tabs on the other one because she blocked me. Remember she blocked me for asking, way too politely, if you cheated with her? Lmfao. You should've just dated her instead of me. You're both trash!

I can only imagine how little I meant to you if you don't even like them anymore. They were (are?) your favorite girls in the world! So much better than me. I must not be more than a passing scent in the wind, probably less than that. Not that I need to mean anything to you, but I gave you so much time and devotion that looking back and thinking about it, in all its context, is just out of my realm. It's really hard for me to imagine caring so little about your long term partner, the person you say that you love and are devoted to. Looking back now I feel the hatred you must have had for me, the control and possession. Not love, but enjoyment that someone was devoted to you, someone who would forgive you for all the pleasure you got from hurting them. So you could do it repeatedly. My emotional torment was your pleasure. I can see the evil in you. It's still hard for me to visualize that level of evil. And I'm only touching on the surface. I really was dirt to you. It's still hard not to see myself as worthless sometimes, when I get stuck in the past remembering that someone can call themselves your partner and also convince you that no one will ever really love you romantically.

Turns out I don't have a "temper". I'm not mad all the time. I was just reacting to constant pain, your constant need to love, care for, and fuck other women when you were only supposed to do that for me. I've been with my man for a year and he's never made me feel the way you did. The way you made me feel from the beginning. I see now why you targeted me from the start; I was already susceptible to manipulation. Insecure, empathetic, and desperate to love and be loved.

Anyways, you can have them all back now. But I guess it's not as pleasurable without someone to cheat on. you're a creepy fuck.

[cat-eared-rose]

This post is gonna be talking about some heavier stuff, so please be advised!

cw for: abuse, mental health, and trauma

I've been spending a lot of time recently taking a closer look at myself and my past, and it's definitely been a bit of an eye opener.

This started because I recently stopped talking to my parents, completely. A very uncomfortable phone call about me being trans and very minimal celebration (if you can even consider it a celebration) of me getting married (I got two "congratulations?" And then my mom just made it about herself, asking why she wasn't told sooner 😞) was really the last straw for me. I yelled at my dad, telling him I wasn't going to have this conversation with him, and blocked both their numbers.

It was a really scary thing to do, because it's difficult for me to imagine my life without my parents. Not that I enjoyed their presence, or that they were doing anything significant for me right now, but it's just scary to think that could be it. Like, I feel it's my responsibility to talk to them, and keep in touch, but I know it's best for me not to reach out again, considering how they make me feel.

After a few days of being nervous my parents would show up at my doorstep because I had the audacity to not talk to them, I started researching a bit more about child abuse. I definitely knew my childhood wasn't great, but I needed a little extra reassurance to help me stand by my decision.

I started looking into things like verbal and emotional abuse, narcissistic family structures (I'm almost certain my mother is a narcissist), and what sorts of things can stem from that.

I ended up learning that I was abused in ways that I never even really recognized, nor cared to remember.

My mother is definitely a narcissist since a majority of what she complains about with me is that I make her look bad to other people. She used to force me to get good grades in school (Mostly As and some Bs, Cs weren't ever enough) and I'd get spanked if I didn't do s good job. And when I did, I'd basically get "that's what you're supposed to do. You want celebration for doing what you're supposed to? Fuck off", and a ton of other shit like that which really made me realize that a lot of the praise i got from my parents was just shit they wanted me to do, and even then it felt pretty superficial....

My mom also used to hit me a lot: spanking me, slapping me, she used to hug me, and then either dig her nails into my ribs or squeeze my back very sharply like she was trying to snap me in half. I was super scared and uncomfortable with personal contact for a LONG while because of this, and I'm still a little edgy about it at times.

My dad wasn't as bad as my mom, at least from what I thought, but I also realized from reading that he's actually just as bad (if not worse) because he would enable my mom's terrible behavior. When I used to go to him and say my mom said something mean to me, or hurt me in some way, he would tell me I was overreacting and that "she's just joking with you, bud", and I never really received help...

When I was 16, my mom told me my life was worthless, and by then, I was so numb I didn't even really care.

After realizing that a lot of things were worse than I remembered (way more, but I'm not going to recount my ENTIRE life story lol), I started looking at what kinds of issues people going through this sort of thing can run into, and figured out that I had PTSD because of a lot of the trauma I'd gone through.

This came to a head when about a day later, I remembered that I was afraid of the dark because when I used to sneak food at night (because I was hungry, and never ate breakfast due to stomach issues), my mom would stand in the dark waiting for me to pass her room and grab me to scare me. Then shed yell at me, tell me I'm being too loud and waking everyone up,.and make me out the food back and go to sleep. It makes more sense, in retrospect, that whenever I imagined something scary in the dark, it was a woman with long, dark hair (how my mom looks)

Remembering this gave me a really intense flashback, and I had to take the next day off of work because I just didn't get a good rest that night....

I never really felt any positive emotions for a long time, and I just thought it was how I was, but after receiving a lot of support and love from all my partners, I actually started feeling happy, and excited for things, and realized that the reason I didn't feel those emotions was because of the PTSD

My parents of fucked me up so God damn much, and I'm remembering more shit all the time. I'm honestly more upset I didn't make this decision sooner, but I don't blame myself. My years of trauma made me think that I was destined to fail, and that i was going to have to go back to my parents. But I know how the best thing for me to do is just to cut them out completely and pick up the pieces left behind.

I also never realized that not remembering, basically any of your childhood, is not a normal thing and that these memories are instead most likely repressed in a section of my brain I don't really access due to the harsh events associated with them. Hopefully soon, I'll be able to work through a lot of this, and maybe reclaim some of my childhood by regaining those memories.

It's one more step forward on the path of self understanding and recovery, and although it's been quite difficult for me to think of and process all of this, I can already feel that I'm getting better, even after a few days of recognizing this (I'm not as scared of the dark anymore knowing my mom isn't waiting there to get me, so that's a plus :3)

Just wanted to talk about it, so if you read all this, thank you for listening 💖

[hyperdemona]

This person tonight just said to me they did nice things in the beginning to make me feel safe.

Then when I moved in they started threatening me and claiming I was disrespecting them for not respecting their “rules.” To the point I finally broke down to tears and then they hugged me…. I took a long hot shower after that because it made me feel disgusting.

I feel like I need to take a cold shower now. This is my landlord that I live with. I hate being in poverty making me vulnerable to people like this.

She in the beginning lied and said she respected privacy, then justified snooping in my room… she also claimed she respected boundaries but repeatedly ignored my boundaries. She lies constantly.

Ick ick ick. She reminds me of some toxic men I’ve known, like her desire to be dominating and viewing me as inferior, the creepy manipulation. She’s a Christian In her 50’s, hate to say it but they’re all like this.

But her saying she was nice in the beginning to make me feel safe made my skin crawl. Like I honestly am tempted to, once I sign a lease somewhere else, remind her that creepy men also act “nice” to get what they want, that not considering how her threats effected me is what demonstrates she lacks empathy.

I’m repulsed at the hug Crossing my boundaries. It made me so uncomfortable.

You didn't deserve to be treated that way. She treated you like shit, then hugged you to reassure herself she isn't a threatening piece shitt. I'd tell her that her behavior is shameful and that nice people don't need to let others know they are nice by telling them. A "don't touch me" is really impactful if you can assert yourself. If she tells you she's nice one more time tell her "Yeah. I could see that", I'd SMIRK at her. I'd probably also tell her she's rude and to watch her behavior but that might not be wise for everyone if it can jeopardise your situation.

You need to have a secure living situation. I hope it all goes well. It probably will. Don't apologise for hating on Christians, Christians are what they do and most are poorly behaved. There's this touchy pastor in my church and I'm planning on boldly telling him to not touch me if he tries to again like he has with my sister. But that's because I don't care about what these shits think of me lol, they're mostly worthless in my book.

[josiebelladonna]

you know, i’m reading her fics (and also afterglow, so good so bad, and living on the edge by temple) and i’m not going to lie to you guys: i really do feel threatened. i feel my sexual wounding reopening itself. that raw feeling that gnawed at me from late 2021 into a good chunk of last year back to me again. this lingering demon that constantly tells me i’m worthless and that sexuality is a thing of pain, and it tells me to give up the ghost on sexuality as a whole. i read her fics and i feel worthless, just completely unsexy, those old shaming thoughts that have haunted me and built walls around me for what feels like eternity: they want me back. she may as well just shame me for my preferences and my desires. just get it over with. i know that’s what you want to do. 

she hinted at it a few times whenever i wrote something that supposed to be hot and she called it “cute” instead. pain and repression are a joke to her. you think you’re the only one who can do it right. i feel so sexless, so neutered, so prudish if you will, all because i don’t have it whereas you do. lol, i’m a sexual being. lol, yeah, imagine me being sexual, especially when her ass exists.

one thing i read during my two “raw” periods last year—where, in a proverbial sense, i threw myself at a wall and splayed myself open and i examined the pieces, kicked up a lot of anxiety, depression, humiliation, actual physical pain, bad memories, and angry tears—was that when a woman feels sexually empowered, she inspires other women to do the same. well... i’m afraid i never got that from her: quite the contrary, actually. i felt more unsafe and like i was being forced to write erotically rather than have it come from me naturally: it felt like there was this unspoken rule that i had to do erotica when she was around. and moreover, her reactions to it only made me feel like i wasn’t doing it right.

i still feel raw at times, too: i still hate and feel so uncomfortable with my desires, and i wish i could get rid of them. my kinks are still heavily riddled in shame. i still think what i like is dumb (just to give an example: you know how i really like how alex looks with a little belly on him? sometimes i’ll think about that and then i’ll immediately think “what am i doing. this is stupid, i can’t do this, i can’t do this to him, i am such a fucking creep”). i look at lingerie or toys online and it feels like such a waste of time even considering them in the first place, like no one wants me. i look at my complete absence of a sex life and i want to cry: 30 years old in april and i never even had my first kiss, what the hell.

and rather than make me feel good about myself and help me understand that it’s all natural and i had to do that myself and i feel like i failed, she did not make me feel safe to express myself. she still doesn’t.

these are the hottest band fics y’all have read. they’re so self-assured and comfortable. but then i stop and ask, you’re serious?

you can’t be.

i’m not going to say much about temple because… i’d rather not, i gave her kudos as like an olive branch and i really don’t want to undo that. but if i remember correctly, just from seeing posts about what people don’t like to see in fic, piss poor grammar and spelling are unanimously a kiss of death for fanfic. and add to this, istg, the quality of their fics has steadily dropped off the last couple of years: i’m having to reread chapters 2-3 times because i don’t know what the hell is happening. there’s rereading something because it’s good, and then there’s rereading because it’s hard to follow.

i liked louder than love. it was fun, and sweet, and actually hot in some places, and to this day, i still go back to that original trilogy. the type o fics felt like natural evolutions of the story, too.

but… i think it’s just me being the thrash and death metal girl here but i can see the chlamydia coming out of the motley ones. it doesn’t help that the quality has fallen off a cliff, and moreover, i’m not sure how that works. i would think that, as time goes on, you improve your writing. maybe it’s just the style—this is tommy lee here, i’m not expecting alex skolnick or chuck schuldiner—but it’s a bad sign if i read and i find it hard to follow. it’s like “a first draft from a sixth grade student writing their first big essay and it’s loaded with errors and you do your damnedest to not be mean about here during peer review” level of hard to follow. whereas i knew what was going on in l.t.l., all the way to the end.

and i’m completely turned off by the green druidess’ motley fics. i mean, i’m already predisposed to feel turned off from her, but i genuinely feel dirty reading life after death. i don’t want to read something that talks to me like i’m an idiot, let alone read said thing from someone who pretty much convinced me that my sexuality is wrong.

you know, i just realized something. these two… things, i wouldn’t call them series (fever in, fever out was a series, so is eerie inhabitants), are basically the fanfic equivalent of marvel. really, think about it: started out humble and small and kinda quaint and then ego took over and they’re just churning out sequel after sequel, spin-off after spin-off, hollow story after hollow story with some sort of vague connection but the quality is abysmal after a while. they’re basically marvel or disney but much, much smaller—and i get a sense that people are afraid to speak out about it, too, given this is fanfic here (so abuse of “don’t like don’t read” on two levels).

except, instead of obsession with money, i don’t know what the intent is. to punish me? that’s what it feels like. it’s not like i give a shit, but… ego blurs your vision, and as i have shown, ego is a major problem with the green druidess—and i’m starting to think temple’s just a puppet. someone who flip-flops like that doesn’t have an ego but lacks a spine. and speaking of her, i thought she’d cruise, at least through last year: quarantine is over and we’re all trying to make sense of this new world we’re in, sure, but i remember seeing her kick ass in 2019 into a good chunk of 2020. and then *she showed up* and... oof. talk about easy to assume the worst. you’re just like mike love but you’ll never be brian wilson.

“we’re lowly fanfic writers. we toil and suffer in obscurity.” listen, if you say this about yourself, apply this to everyone on ao3 and wattpad. okay? it’s not just you. i said this before and i’ll say it again: what the hell makes her so special? is it because she ~actually replies to you~?

you know who else ~actually replied to you~? tila.

although…

from what I’ve read about tila, before she went completely off her rocker, she was actually daring and a formidable person (i mean, she was the first social media star before smartphones became ubiquitous, for god’s sake).

she was blunt and confessional. that was part of her appeal aside from the open lewdness: she was like an open book. people following her felt like they “got” her.

she was genuinely adult, too. there was nothing about her that seemed juvenile, i want to say. she seemed genuinely mature and the way that she expressed it was no child’s play.

you know... compare this to…

well, you know.

and... she called me “cute” for writing a phone sex scene.

...

...

there’s nothing about ^her that is blunt or confessional, now that i really think about it and how her fics sit in my memory. i really cannot think of anything from her that’s on that deep a level except -maybe- “stay”, and i wasn’t too crazy about the ending of that, either: that’s probably my one complaint with that one, was the ending felt a little... i want to say “canned” or “unsatisfying”, like i was expecting more of a punch but instead i got a little tap on the back of the head.

everything about ^her reminds me of that “abcdefu” song that came out last year: it makes you go, “god, this girl’s a brat. she steals from people and then stabs them in the back when she finds there’s nothing left to take, and then cries about it when someone calls her out, and the way she goes about with it is so childish. she takes until there’s nothing left to take and then plays dead when she doesn’t get her way.”

not just grifter behavior but someone who, in a vein very similar to tila (hence why i keep comparing them to one another), never grew up. except, this is like 5th grade type stuff with an air of detachedness and arrogance, so it gets weirdly creepy once you put some thought into it.

i don’t have any idea how a grown-ass woman pulls off the “creepy child” trope but... somehow.

she did it.

i mean, the fact she reuploaded her anthrax fics almost immediately after the incident happened and then didn’t even sniff the ass of that tag until ^that stupid chapter of like loving the dead should give you more of a clue.

oh, you don’t believe me?

that series was reuploaded. she deleted it because my name was in the kudos. i had it bookmarked. really, i checked out the first chapter of that one and she only changed like minor grammatical errors, which tells me she didn’t even try to fix her plagiarism and do right by it (especially when i’ve shown that she’s still doing it): it was really only to get my name off of there. by the way, i deleted the bookmarks because they were empty; my fault for doing that, i should’ve screenshot them before i deleted them just to back this up, but nevertheless-

SHE IS LYING TO ALL OF YOU.

if something doesn’t go her way, she stomps her feet and screams until someone does listen, and then she abuses fic rules by putting a thin veneer of feminism on top to give herself the upper hand. she makes it look like she’s the only one who can say all this. 

it is textbook spoiled brat behavior, and grifter behavior… and i hate to say it but i’m seeing it way too much now. oh, you don’t think women lie or stretch the truth? you seriously believe all women are pure and are victims of everything and it’s impossible that some of them can absolutely vile? “how do we know you’re not lying?” i’ve been telling the truth this whole time—for one thing, i never deleted any posts about it, whereas she has: she pretty much scraped any record of my existence from her accounts because… i wish i knew.

i guarantee you, as you’re reading this, somewhere in the world, a woman is cheating on a man or another woman, a woman is hitting her child, a woman is performing animal cruelty, a woman is engaging in something horrific but no one says anything because y’all have warped the true meaning of feminism from “women should be held accountable as much as men” to “all women are victims and pure and if they don’t act in a way we want, they aren’t real women, and also all men are scum”. 

and to really burst your bubble, they’re all real people, too. seriously, stop this “real women” bullshit, already. i’m serious: stop it. it’s literally right up there with telling a guy to be a real man, it’s fucking annoying and helps no one—in my case, it triggered an existential crisis. i really thought there was no way i could identify as a woman because of her bullshit implying i’m not a real woman. and the fact that there are so many people on here who—i’m just going to say it—have no business being on here because they’re at an impressionable age, which only makes it worse. so many teenage girls are going to grow up with internalized misandry and a sense of “us vs. them” as well as misogyny.

do you see why i see her as a prototype for what tumblr has become? moreover, do you see why i am so genuinely creeped out by it? she thinks she’s still a teenager (for the record: i don’t know how old she is. she’s older than me, i know that).

moreover, this is her legacy. 

is it worth it to get attention for the hell of it rather than to do something worthwhile like—oh, i don’t know—write a genuinely good story or indulge in art and work on it and get better at it? again, much like tila, she’s obviously passionate about it. why does she feel a need to act like this when she only ends up breaking someone all because she doesn’t like them and leaves whole subcultures hanging just because she doesn’t want to be proven wrong? worse, knowing the size of her ego, there’s no hope for her. i’m afraid she’s too far gone to even assess the damage she’s done to herself. nevermind me and what i went through for a second: the fact she continues to antagonize me and carry this snotty, holier-than-thou, spoiled brat attitude tells me this is going to follow her around forever, no matter what she does and no matter what i do.

do i take responsibility? sure. i absolutely do. i exposed the truth about her, but it’s only because i thought i could trust her. i thought i had made a friend in her, and she turned out to be a complete bully to me and i had no choice but to really look at her behavior and talk about it. i take responsibility but you forced my hand. i didn’t point a gun to your head and tell you to reupload, you chose to do it and you chose to lie on top of that, too.

i didn’t have a choice: you did.

but you know what? i say, let her continue to dig the hole she has dug for herself. it’s like what i said about the people who support ai art: go ahead, keep doing it. let your ego swell so badly that you can’t even walk through a doorway. keep playing the victim.

i didn’t come to your wedding, but i will surely be at your wake. unlike your precious lizzy graves (...i fucking gag every time i think of that name, especially when you realize she’s named after michale graves), i have no regrets about any of it.

[loststarphounix]

Kazuichi and Gundham Headcannons and Headcannons of Them as a Couple Part 2

Part One

Kazuichi (cause I had more for him since I posted lol)

While it’s known that Kazuichi has earrings, he actually has six other piercings - two on his tongue, two snake bites and one on each nipple (Gundham is fond of all of them)

Kazuichi can cook

When you only live with an asshole dad who beats you up just for skipping a school trip, it’s safe to say he’d also beat him up for being hungry

While he isn’t Teruteru levels of Master Chef, he is very apt in the kitchen - the only place besides his garage that he’s not a clumsy klutz

Can make some good dishes but seems to really shine in comfort foods like ramen and baked goods

Has to make a rule about making any kind of cookie or cake limit due to his friends always asking for them

Has springs allergies 

They molly rock them unless he has medication and wears a mask outside

Has anxiety

Either major or GAD

Smokes to help it

You damn right he made edibles once and immediately regretted it when Hajime and Fuyuhiko ate them but also how dare they no one told them to eat it 

Kazuichi apologizes to Sonia because he does honestly feel like shit for making her uncomfortable around him, he feels bad for using her as a scapegoat for his own mess and as a means to get closer to Gundham. 

Sonia makes him suffer of course, making him do a variety of different things as a way to test him and she also apologizes later on about her treatment towards the other. This is only AFTER extensive time and reflection on both parts

Not all is forgiven and forgotten, but they do make the steps towards a better acquaintanceship.

They actually get along really well and can talk shop about technology, games (Chiaki) and even to both their delight action films. The duo plus one becomes a comfortable trio of mutual friends 

Kazuichi isolates himself a lot

He was taught by his dad he was worthless and only useful in one thing so after middle school he was proven right

Tried to use becoming Sonia’s boyfriend as a “I’ll show you all!” but it failed

And after the NWP he felt awful about all that and tried to hide

At first they left him alone cause it was a rough time and Sonia felt better without him close by but overtime it became worrying

They’d find him and he’d make some lame excuse but the next day he would be missing again and the last hiding spot abandoned 

They really had to force him to interact which caused an anxiety attack and it triggered a domino effect where everyone realized this was more fucked then they thought 

He still doesn’t interact with them as much as he did before the Tragedy and the NW program, but he’s coming around slowly

Him and Akane see each other as siblings - they both grew up in rough situations but not the exact same. 

When she comes to him about having a crush on Sonia, he’s distraught over his dream shattering but backs away cause he wants her to be happy more than he wants the dream of being someone important enough to be with a princess

He’s their biggest supporter though - gently ribbing Akane on her choice of flirting by offering food and trying to actually get to know Sonia and making amends

Gundham is number 2 supporter and likes that they can be friends but he does at times lament about his peace being “broken”

In their first three months in freshman year they bond over how “out of touch” the more well off of their classmates were compared to them 

During their Remnant Days, they would be apart to heighten their Despair but would always sit close by during meetings

Once Junko died and her control over them waned, they were seen together frequently until their capture

With Chiaki gone, Akane is his first choice of platonic cuddle buddy; with Chiaki alive she’s number two

He will always make Akane food and bake for her no matter what time or day. And Akane will always be there to cheer him up

Kazuichi sews! He can sew really well actually 

It’s a mind relaxing hobby - most times you don’t have to think and it’s soothing for him

Repairs the Survivors clothes if there’s enough thread around

Gets a sewing kit for his birthday from Fuyuhiko and Peko - those really expensive ones where the scissors are lined with real gold and shit

He does embroidery and cross stitch 

Fixed Gundham’s scarf as part welcome back part apology gift for when he woke up

Make Hajime an orange themed handkerchief and a Chinese dragon themed eyepatch for Fuyuhiko

Both of Them

Kazuichi teaches Gundham to swim. 

Once the mechanic sees and hears Gundham’s feverthment protests at the beach, he decides to teach him. 

He doesn’t know why he does it and tells himself it’s to win Sonia over and not to feel up the somewhat hot guy that’s his story and it’ll go to his grave-

Both are Evanescence fans!

This is surprising to the breeder because Gundham didn’t expect Kazuichi to have such good taste lol

Kazuichi is a long time on and off fan - his favorite album being the Open Door and was so distraught when the group broke up with only Amy left

They both like to chill and listen to the classics while explaining to each other what each song means to them

They also like FOB and Painc! but Kazuichi only knows the latest PATD album and Gundham still teases him for not knowing “I Write Sins Not Tradget” but can belt out “Dance Dance” with no problems like a champ

They both slowly open up about their respective pasts and how that made them what they are. 

Both are afraid of being shunned or mocked and belittled, but to Kazuichi’s surprise they both had a shitty dad. 

He tells Gundham about how brave he is and how he wished he was when he was a kid and Gundham admits he wasn’t brave - just scared for his mom more than himself

They talk about it on bad days and console each other 

Gundham is the finale wake up call for Kazuichi’s Pansexual Awakening. 

The mechanic had felt something for Sonia obviously, but also for Hajime, Ibuki (short lived) Imposter, and surprisingly enough Fuyuhiko and Peko at the same time that he just chalked up to liking a bro. But one day while they were strangely alone and forced into a team building exercise, the two found themselves finding a lot in common and then before Kaz knew it he got distracted and twisted his ankle and the breeder had to carry him back and oh momma, oh baby he’s a lot stronger than he looks oh s h i t- 

After that, it’s awkward attempts at figuring out his feelings for Gundham and his diminishing fake ones for Sonia and just disaster flirting with both before he finally decides that yeah Gundham is endgame

Sonia knows what’s up. She knows. 

Kazuichi is not slick and Gundham is hella obvious to everyone BUT Kazuichi. 

Gundham will never hide anything from the She-Cat and admits his feelings, but fears they are only one sided. It takes Kazuichi longer to admit it, but after being cornered by Hajime and Sonia he hastily laments that the breeder would never like him like that. 

Her chaotic nature comes into full sadist play as she drops not so subtle hints and remarks around the two much to both men’s embarrassment.

It takes weeks of active sabotage of group hangouts and finally an upright romantic dinner setting complete with live violin (Ibuki the musician Goddess) the two finally get together. But in the least orthodox way possible- anesthesia. 

Gundham gets injured helping a trapped bear and falling from a tall cliff. He has a concussion but it’s minor and a leg that needed several stitches and needed to be casted. Kazuichi was a complete wreck after he’s brought in - out right sobbing and cannot be calmed down by even Chiaki. 

When Mikan is done he beats Sonia to the door and was hovering over the bed, tears of relief making him look like a complete mess and Gundham, high as fuck, takes one look him and goes “pretty mortal. very pretty.” and just fumbles through several attempts at flirting and hand holding and cheek caressing before finally asking Kazuichi to please let him let the breeder take him out he would die if he didn’t. 

And Kazuichi is speechless cause, ya know, Gundham is high as fuck but uses his energy to flirt and ask him out and??? His brain can’t process. Sonia gently intervenes and tell the mechanic that Gundham wanted to ask him out for the longest but was too scared and he likes him so go on the date already we’ve all been trying to hook you two up-

Kazuichi and Gundham are both touch starved - but on different sides of the spectrum.

Gundham doesn’t actively seek it out and will enjoy basking in Kazuichi’s touch when they do 

On particular days he will hold Kazuichi captive and running his hands down his love’s body

Kazuichi on the other hand craves it and actively seeks Gundham out 

Gundham purrs when Kazuichi scratches his scalp 

Gundham is pale due to his anemia and as a result is always cold. On the other hand, Kazuichi runs really hot - close to unbearable. 

The two love to cuddle because they love the contact - Gundham can warm up and bask in the warmth and love of his paramour and Kazuichi can cling to the breeder as much as he wants without worrying about making him overheat, he feels safe when they do and can cool down at the same time

Gundham can’t swim but can ice skate; Kazuichi can’t ice skate but can swim. Balanced.

Kazuichi helps Gundham with his daily sunscreen application

Pet names. Oh gods the pet names. 

Gundham uses his extensive vocabulary to his advantage and creates new and invited titles almost on the fly. 

He gauges Kazuichi’s reaction to each one and when one seems to get a more positive response than the others then he’ll retain that knowledge to use later when they’re alone in their shared cabin. 

Kazuichi, who never had a partner let alone a boyfriend before, starts off with commonly used ones he’s seen in the media: Baby, Honey, Dear etc. Later on, however, his boyfriend’s way with words rubs off on him and he’ll begin to give as good as he gets. 

He’ll only use one particular pet name when they are either alone or Gundham is so overcome with rage or his tirades that he needs to be brought back to the here and now.

Kazuichi kisses Gundham’s scars to show he isn’t bothered by them while Gundham will whisper praise and caress his body

[plan-d-to-i]

LOL, watch the same weirdos who called lwj an abusive asshole like jc and yzy uniting with the freaks who call lxc evil and abusive, to headcanon jyl as this awesome politically aware and super loving and supporting sister, who was doing everything she could to help wwx even though he didn't accept her help! and we don't see it because it happened behind the scenes but the fact she never even asked if he was okay is because she knew he wouldn't answer and anyway lwj asked and what did it help? so she was right in not asking! and aCtuAlly jyl did more than lwj, really, and she was so much more worried because she loved and cared about him more!

we just need to read between the lines, just like we need to read between the lines to see how unhappy and uncomfortable wwx is living in CR because of the way lxc and lqr are abusive towards him, and also we need to read between the lines to see how wwx was super scared of lwj, fearing for his life!! and none of it is headcanon, it's obvious the interpretation the author wanted us to have, because if you interpret only what's in the text and say everything else is questionable unless the author makes it clear we should interpret it a certain way (e.g wwx's back being full of scars--him saying yzy didn't treat him that badly=yzy physically abused him even though he's making light of it) but if there's not even a single line about it then that's not supported by the text that's obviously the inferior way to do text analysis and is actually really bad faith on your part to not see how awesome jyl was in fighting the patriarchy in any way she could!! even though she also did not know anything because she was kept in the dark but also she was involved because her husband talked with her! but also she isn't seen doing more because she wasn't a cultivator but lwj was one so what he did is nothing and worthless! and more harmful! it's what the author wanted us to see!

but also, death of the author, lol, doesn't matter that mxtx said jc is straight, it's obvious that his feelings for wwx are romantic and he is actually a parallel to lwj. and jyl is also a parallel. because that's the only superior way to analyze texts, by making everything a parallel. super weird and offensive of you to not see it my way and ask about the text and details, that shows you are inferior and dumber and just don't want to acknowledge it.

⊙_ʘ what the fuck. My head hurts, it really does. I genuinely don't know if they actually think all that, if they really pick the most boring or basic characters to project on, or are just doing it for attention, none of this is doing any good for my paranoia.

((please ignore all this, bin this ask, it's just me venting))

haha y would you want me to bin this 🥲. This is one of the most comprehensive breakdown of all the dumb takes floating around. vent anytime. xx

[just-some-random-blogger]

One Million In One Day | 10 (Final)

GOT7 SugarDaddy!Jackson Wang x Reader + Park Jinyoung x Reader | Part 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 Characters: GOT7 Summary: His mother’s final wish is to see him be happy in a relationship, knowing that Jackson would be fine when she left him. But, damn, he didn’t have time for relationships, especially not since he was busy running his father’s billion dollar empire, thus the compromise: you. Word Count: <2k Warnings: Stalking, fighting, cursing, mentioning of illness, TYPOS, etc.

A/N: I literally said I was planning to finish this soon, but guess what HAHHAHAH THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN. I-- Anyway, to @tia-m94, @aquietkerfuffle SKSKSKS here it is. Also maybe actually listen to the song reader begged to play in this chappie lol

Dance, Dance by Fall Out Boy was going to be playing in the club. Why? Because I crawled over to the DJ and wept, begging him to play it. Why I was emotional about it: yes. I was just- yes. Y'know?

Yes.

It was why Nari, at that point, had disowned me. Also Mark, he disowned me too... although I don't actually remember if he was with us at this time.

I did remember where Jinyoung was though. I squint and looked out in the crowd for him.

I was wearing a sparkly violet dress and killer pumps, as in they were killing my feet. I was warned not to remove them though by the sour man watching me, over there with a sweater on and skinny jeans. Who wears sweaters in a dance club?

I mean it's fine, he was kinda cute. Like hecka cute. 10/10 cute you know. Would ask him out.

I finally spot him from where he sat in one of the tables by the bar. I wave at him. He sees me and waves back. I wipe the tears from my face and thank the DJ for promising to play the song for me and make my way to the cute man in a plain-ass lumpy sweater.

"What did the DJ say?" Jinyoung asks me, standing up from the stool and helping me sit.

"Well, first of all, I told him my boyfriend was really mean because he told me I couldn't take these uncomfortable shoes off."

Jinyoung sighs, "I told you to wear sneakers so we wouldn't have this conversation, but you insisted on 'looking hot.'"

I am offended by the air quotes he says.

"I so too am hot, you worthless piece of-" but my face is suddenly in his hands and my lips are being peppered by kisses. He lightly brushes his lips on mine and wipes he side of it, "Ye, ye, I didn't mean it like that, and you know it, pabo. You're absolutely stunning most of the time."

I blink, most-of-the-time doesn't sit right with me, but I'm not really sure why... "I feel like I should still fight with you."

Jinyoung chuckles then raises his brows and points, "Isn't that your song?"

I take a moment and listen. I then promptly freak out and nod. I instantly grab Jinyoung by the hand and drag him out. Once he's on his feet, he scolds, "up, up, up, up, up. What did we talk about earlier?"

I whine, "What is it this time?"

Jinyoung looks me in the eye, "after this song we...?"

I groan, "we go home! Ugh, what a party pooper."

"Just making sure we're on the same page, baby girl."

I make a face and poke Jinyoung's belly, "oooh, am I your baby girl?"

He chuckles and hums. He pulls his hand away from mine to place his arm around my shoulders, "More like shit-faced, childish adult."

I give him a look, "let's break up."

"Ah," he boops my nose, "when you're not under the influence, m'kay? For now, let's dance."

And so dance we did, if you think of flailing your arms and shaking your rump was dancing. But of course it is though.

Jinyoung, as exasperated as he was, actually enjoyed dancing with me, I think. I mean he seemed to be enjoying himself. He had his hands clenched and his arms folded, shaking as if he held two maracas. And I, when I wasn't head banging, I was lovingly looking at him.

"I'm glad that you're my boyfriend."

Jinyoung didn't seem to hear me because he just continues doing his dad-ish dancey-dance. I was about to say it again, but then his eyes catch something and he point at the direction, "Isn't that Jackson?"

"Jackson?" I scrunch my nose, "Jackson who?"

"Jackson Wang, babe. You're sugar daddy."

I take a moment to think about what he said. Jinyoung looks at me and raises a brow. He chuckles, "you're so shitfaced. Jackson's the one who bought us tickets to the Olympics? Got me a job in Seoul? Got you a job in Seoul?"

I wipe my nose, "Well, I know Michael Jackson."

Jinyoung sighs, "come on, let's say hi. Your song's almost over."

The next thing I know, Jinyoung's grabbing my hand and leading me off to the side.

Jackson, who had seen us, wasn't actually with anyone tonight. Bambam actually owned the club, and he had yet to show up. He found the dancing spectacle pretty amusing but there was a this thing in his chest, like something was biting his heart.

Oh fuck, they're coming over.

Jinyoung calls out. Jackson looks over and pulls on a smile, "Aye, Park Jinyoung." They do a bro shake.

I turn to the man in shade and wonder why he's wearing shades indoors, so I ask, "why are you wearing shades indoors?"

Jinyoung sighs. Jackson's lips part in thought, "they look cool?"

The sweater man shakes his head, "she's shitfaced. She cried over this song and doesn't remember who you are. You know know how she gets when she's drunk."

"I'm not drunk!"

Jackson clenches his fist, thinking, how do I still think she's cute when she doesn't remember me when she's drunk?

"Sure," Jinyoung says, turning to man sat alone in the booth, "you with anyone tonight, Seunie?"

I perk up, "Seunie's here?"

Jackson places his head in his hand and turns to Jinyoung, "I'm waiting for Bambam."

Jinyoung chuckles, "don't wait up."

Jackson laughs softly, "I'm giving him a few more minutes"

"That's what I said last time. Bam's excuse was so bad too."

"Stuck in traffic?"

"Stuck in traffic."

"Wait, where's Seunie?" I whine. Jinyoung looks at me and points, "there's your beloved Seunie."

Jackson freezes.

I turn to him and pout, "why are you wearing shades indoors?"

Jinyoung sighs. He takes my face in his hands and mouths slowly, "stay with Jackson. I need to pee."

"I don't need to pee though."

"Which is why you should stay with Jackson."

"But why?"

Jinyoung turns to Jackson and Jackson nods, "it's okay dude, I got it."

Jinyoung takes his leave.

Jackson moves closer, "so, Seunie?"

I turn to him and tilt my head, "Seunie?"

"He's your friend."

"He's my best friend. I love him."

Jackson clears his throat, "but you said you don't know who Jackson Wang is?"

"MmMmm, nope," I pop the p.

Jackson chuckles, "don't do that?"

"Do what?"

He takes a moment to respond. He mutters softly under his breath, "make me want to steal you away."

"Habudabibittiy-doo," I repeat his words.

Jackson sighs.

For a moment, I sit with shades guy in silence until he speaks up again, "He likes you a lot."

"Likes who?"

"You."

"Who likes me?"

"Jackson Wang."

I think for a moment, "Seunie?"

Jackson stills. He debates the consequences. He chuckles, knowing how bad these drunk episodes were. He clarifies the indifference in the question, "Yeah, I, Seunie, like you. So, so much."

"He said that?"

He nods, "he told me."

I blink and nod, "I like him too."

Jackson shakes his head. What a joke. He continues, "Jackson likes you in a way Jinyoung does, but sadder."

I pout my lips, "Sadder? I don't like it when Seunie is sad. He's sad because he misses his mom"

He pushes his shades up his forehead, "He's not sad about liking you like that. He's sad in a way he wants to be the one to bring you home when you're drunk and hold you when you sleep."

"He... felt like that?"

"He felt it when you went on dates, even though they were fake. He feels it until now."

I look at the man and see sadness in his eyes, "don't cry."

He gives a sad laugh, "I'm not sad, I'm happy for you. You glow when you're with him and he glows because of you. When we started hanging out with him, I thought he talked about you to grind my gears, but he just really loves you. I'm glad he does."

"Then why do you look like you're about to cry?"

"It still hurts."

"I'm back," Jinyoung suddenly said. He looks between us and says, "damn, you look like you're about to pass out, both of you."

Jackson clicks his tongue, "I'm tired of waiting from Bambam."

"Well, we're going home too. You need a ride?"

"Nah. I bought my car."

"Good. I really didn't feel like driving across the city for you."

Jackson rolls his eyes, chuckling, "same for you two."

"Not for her though, right? Anything for her," Jinyoung says, looking at Jackson with a smile, then to me, "come on, pabo." He turns around and gathers my arms. He bends down and pulls me up behind him.

"See you next week, Jackson," Jinyoung says. Jackson nods. They have a executive meeting tomorrow. Jinyoung was quickly rising above the ranks. As proud he felt, he felt a little jealous too. He really had not fault to him, huh?

He puts his shades back down and raises a glass, "I'll finish this one."

"Don't drink too much."

"Just the one."

He watches as Jinyoung walks away. He watches her nuzzle against him. He looks to his glass, "anything for her.

[atopearth]

Cupid Parasite Part 3 - Shelby Snail Route

I love how thorough and dedicated Owen is to his job that he made a date plan according to what he thinks Shelby would do for a date lmao. OMG, I knew Shelby was the one swimming in the pool but I didn't expect the CG!!! I love it. 10/10 approval. He's so hot, I'm enthralled. I can see why Lynette couldn't take her eyes off him (even though it was mainly because of his swimming form). HAHAHA at Owen taking out a jelly drink for lunch😂😂 Omg and then he just left?!? Time for work?! That was the end of the date?! I am DEAD😂😂 LOL at Shelby wondering if Owen has any common sense for sending a photo of Lynette in a swimsuit to him😂 It's so funny how both Shelby and Owen can be so clueless. Oh btw I'm glad Lynette told Owen off when he took a photo of her in her swimsuit without her consent, definitely a no no! Anyway, I find it really sweet how much Shelby trusts Lynette to tell her his secret so honestly. Like yeah, his lies were running out of steam and he was starting to get desperate, but he sees how capable she is and understands what kind of person she is and felt that he could tell her because of all that. I find it so sweet that despite Shelby being in a predicament, when Lynette suggests that she pretends to be his wife for now, the first thing he thinks about is her feelings, how her parents would feel and how marriage is a lifetime thing and he doesn't want her to "sacrifice" herself for him and his company. I love how casually Lynette said they should live together, she's such a great woman, I love her🤣 I love how Shelby drew out a contract and made the condition that if she didn't like the arrangement or finds something not to her liking, they'll cancel the whole thing. He really does prioritise her feelings and thoughts above all and I think that's so sweet.

I loveeee Lynette's look as the President's wife. The elegant dress with her hair down is sooo pretty! I can see why Shelby was shocked when he first saw her, she's stunning! Shelby is so considerate, it's so touching. When he apologised to Lynette for making her lie for him, my heart squealed🥲 I absolutely love how Shelby had a talk with Lynette to see if she was uncomfortable with anything and he put his phone facedown and didn't look at it at all! Considering how busy he is all the time and answering emails/messages nearly every moment of the day, seeing him doing that for Lynette was very sweet. He always says that Lynette is very sincere and passionate about her work, but Shelby is just the same when it comes to work and relationships. I really liked how they both individually worked on their respective projects at a cafe together. I like how comfortable they are starting to get with each other and I enjoy seeing them communicate.

Peter is the new secretary Shelby hired to help out Owen?! What a riot😂 Is Lynette's dad the one trying to sabotage Shelby's reputation? And is Peter his spy?😂 I'm glad Lynette is telling Shelby off and making him realise that even for a pretend couple, it's difficult if she never sees him since it makes it harder for them to act like they're comfortable with each other when they haven't been seeing each other. She's so cool to be so honest with her boss haha! Even though it's funny how serious Shelby can be about work to the point that everything else in life is foreign to him, at the same time it sounded so sad when he basically said a man is nothing without his prestige, it was basically as if he was saying that if he didn't keep doing what he's doing right now, he and his life would become worthless. Awww, I love how Shelby is making baby steps in trying to be a better "husband". It was so cute when he called Lynette the ideal wife, my heart🥲 LMAO, I died when Lynette got out a banana to add to the silhouette of them so the reporter or whatever outside will know that Shelby really does have a partner. It was so funny when Shelby told her no and she got disappointed😂😂😂 I'm glad Shelby is becoming more interested in Lynette personally. It's mainly because he feels like he can't understand the existence of someone who could disregard the need for status, but the fact that he really wants an answer from her shows that he wants to know more about her and that's good enough for now haha.

Lmaoo at Lynette drying her underwear outside and Shelby having the shock of his life seeing them hanging outside🤣🤣 He's so cute🤣 Shelby laughing made my heart melt🥺 It was so sweet when Shelby grabbed Lynette's hand to cool off her burn, I love how everyone else just stared at them and had their own different reactions🤣 Shelby taking in Lynette's opinion and deciding to delay going back to his work for the day to have dinner with her for once was really heartwarming. It must have been a difficult decision since he's always so hardworking but I'm glad he's finally learning to relax with Lynette instead of always just working himself to the bone. Omggg Lynette fixing his tie and helping him putting on his jacket like the perfect wife was the most adorable thing ever! It was really sweet how Shelby so gently held Lynette and let her cry her heart out. It felt so terrible seeing Lynette called a thief and having her own colleagues doubt her. Shelby is so reliable and efficient, I love him hahaha. I always love how protective Claris is of Lynette too🥺 I'm glad the planning department lady properly apologised to Lynette in a very sincere way, Lynette deserved every bit of that apology. We should really thank Shelby for making that lady investigate Rome & Julie Wedding since by doing that, it helped her understand that plans aren't everything and that it's because someone like Lynette delivers these plans to the clients so well that people are satisfied.

Shelby holding a press conference to announce that his wife doesn't exist was pretty much inevitable, but seeing him have the resolve to do it to protect Lynette was sweet. It was so hard to watch him feel so small and weak, but I'm so glad Lynette was there to give him her shoulder just like how he supported her before. It felt so heartbreaking to watch him think that he's nothing without his prestige and be so worried about what's going to happen from here onwards. But I'm happy that Lynette told him she would be by his side even if he had no prestige, and that everyone in the company follows him because they respect him for who he is and not his status. It's so like Shelby to be so thorough and prepared to have been preparing for the announcement for a while now and to have emailed the company presidents he was affiliated with about the news before the conference. It warms my heart to see the overwhelming support everyone is giving him. Lynette giving Shelby a kiss on the forehead and saying goodnight was so cuteee. I'm so happy that Shelby is trying his best to find a way to confess haha. Shelby and Lynette going on an amusement park date is the cutest thing ever. Lmao at Ryuki and Raul randomly appearing🤣 AHHHH I hated how that random president made Shelby lose his chance to tell Lynette😭😭😭 Them enjoying the night scenery with Lynette wearing Shelby's jacket was so romantic, I need them to be happy together😭😭😭 I understand their hesitation but stilllll😭

Honestly, it makes me so mad that Shelby misunderstood Lynette to be the type of girl who cares about status, but at the same time I understand that what he truly doubts isn't her, but himself. He's just constantly seeing everything around him in a biased way to fit his lack of confidence as a person, he's just constantly feeding himself the idea that without prestige, he is nothing, and he's projecting that on to everything Lynette does and it's just so saddening. I love Claris though, she's so good at seeing other people's feelings all the time haha. LMAO, I was wondering why Lynette was staying so meek, and then when she woke up in the morning and thought about everything again, she started getting mad at Shelby and it was just so cute🤣🤣 I love how she was all mad and sulky saying she doesn't care about the company anymore, and Claris is just like let's just go to work first and talk at night loll🤣 Shelby was really mean though and I agree that Lynette should be annoyed with him. Honestly, I find Shelby's back story kinda silly in the way it was portrayed but I understand why he's so insistent on living up to his name and being SS in everything. I guess I just found the whole thing quite shallow.

Lmao at Ryuki spraying both Shelby and Lynette, they deserve it😂😂 Hooray to gods getting drunk on chocolate! Honesty is key! I wanted one of them to take the initiative but I guess this is all right, since in reality I'm sure a lot of people miss out on being able to tell others their true feelings because they make assumptions, misunderstand and are too afraid to really take that next step in fear of failure, so yeah, hooray to getting drunk honesty at times like these haha. On the other hand, I find it hard to believe that Gill didn't notice Lynette getting drunk lol! Has Owen been brainwashed?🧐 LMAO at Owen complaining and insulting Shelby with his limited vocabulary😂😂 Man, can Shelby be any cooler? Legit, when he shot the gun from Owen's hand and said he's SS in everything, I was like yes man, I believe you, you are definitely the best, 10/10! Anyway, even though it was funny, I feel sorry for Owen. He's been so stressed from work already, and now he's been brainwashed and nearly did something like shoot Shelby or Lynette with a gun!! LOL when Lynette shot Mars and the robot vacuum cleaner with her bow and now he's in love with the robot and chasing after it😂 I feel bad for Owen, like yeah apparently the majority of it was because he held a grudge against Shelby himself, but I honestly feel like the whole thing was a rather "cheap" way to make it that Lynette's dad isn't that bad and everyone should be responsible for their own actions. I guess I would have preferred they either developed Owen's dissatisfaction with Shelby instead, since I always enjoyed how trusting of a relationship Shelby and Owen had with each other.

Shelby making mistakes while filling in the marriage registration form is the cutest thing ever haha! On the other hand, I'm kinda disappointed that Lynette has become Shelby's secretary. Yeah, it's definitely an important job and higher level, and she can suggest plans easier blah blah, but I feel like for Lynette, what she loves the most is personally being a part of matchmaking couples together, so it's a bit sad imo. I'm glad Mars repented properly and promised to make things right with the world again, especially when it comes to Owen. But yeah lol. I guess we get to see Lynette in a wedding dress for every ending? Exciting! If Claris knows Allan, I feel like she's definitely 100% related to the gods in some way. I think the normal ending where Lynette becomes the branch manager of a new branch of Cupid Corp is more like her haha. Btw the treasure hunter ending with Raul is hilarious, so unexpected😂😂 Lmao the bad endings are so wild😂😂

Overall, Shelby's character and KENN definitely carried this route for me lol! Honestly, from the moment I first heard Shelby's voice and saw his looks, I was smitten, he is 10/10 (SS I guess) haha, loveee the sultry and mature tones to his voice, it's sooo good🥺🥺🥺 All of Shelby's CGs are so hot too, like dangg I could not choose. Otherwise, I actually think the plot went downhill after they stopped being a fake couple. Initially, I wasn't sure if I liked the fake couple trope but I actually really enjoyed how they handled it. I liked how seriously they took the contractual relationship, and how much they understood that even contractual relationships needed something to build from, and that helped them get to know each other better. I liked how much Lynette enjoyed it, and I liked how much Shelby prioritised her thoughts and emotions, and did his best to make sure she was comfortable and happy. He's like the best fake partner haha. I really loved how considerate he was and how much he cared about her, whilst Lynette made the whole thing so much more enjoyable by expressing her thoughts honestly a lot of the time. So yeah, when the misunderstanding happened and they both just assumed things without saying anything, and it only got resolved because Lynette was "drunk", I was like where did all the maturity from the beginning go?! It was still cute, but I was sorta disappointed. I also feel like they did Owen dirty in this route and I'm so sad about that because I really really like him. He deserves the best, or Melanie anyway😭 Shelby's backstory was also done rather shallowly as I said before too. However, I would still say even though there are quite a few flaws in this route, I still loved it heaps because of Shelby, he was too great of a guy, it was impossible to not enjoy the route imo haha! Ending was wild too, but Shelby was cool so that’s all that matters imo.

[sunnysviolin]

oh boy, here I go. Tbh i feel a little embarrassed to ask for a headcanon request, but your hcs always make my day, and I couldn't resist. If kelbrey was real, I always imagined her hiding her relationship with kel from the rest of the group and the hooligans. Can I have some headcanons on this?

Embarrassed??? No nonnie!! I love to hear from you guys!! It’s the best part of my day (and trust me today is not a good one) I love to hear that I’m a good part of your day <333 I can’t always promise to be prompt in answering y’all but I love to see them and it makes me super happy!! Never any embarrassment necessary!!

I normally see it as Kel and Aubrey being like lol we’re dating get over it, but let’s play with this idea a bit together nonnie because I think it’s interesting. 

Aubrey isn’t ashamed of Kel. That’s not it at all. She is just a complex person, and one of her complexities is her need to hide things. The others didn’t know about her home life, and they didn’t know about her connection to Kel, Sunny, and Basil, so it fits her character profile. Aubrey is used to hoarding and hiding the things she loves. If she never shows the world, there’s no way that they can be taken from her. 

Telling everyone is just too much pressure on something that is young and still growing. They still don’t know what to call each other or what to do really. It’s a first relationship for both of them, and they’re jumping into the deep end head first. 

In the end Aubrey asks if they can keep it secret. At least at first. Kel agrees steadily, mostly because he’s not sure how to explain to Hero that he’s dating his former bully. Then they just...never transition into telling people. 

I imagine for the beginning it is fun. It’s interesting to see how they can get away with secret kisses and where they can go for discreet dates. But then it keeps going. and going. and going. Aubrey denies any romantic feelings towards him when Vance teases her for her “crush’ one day, she points out how hot one of his teammates is another. At night it’s his window she’s climbing into, and it’s him she’s saying she loves, but the duality of it starts to hit Kel in the face. 

I like to HC Kel has a little bit of an inferiority complex (How could he not with literally the perfect big brother?) And usually he can deal with his low self esteem in healthy ways, but the longer they sneak around, the more he gets to thinking that maybe Aubrey doesn’t actually think he’s enough for her. 

He tries to brush it away, but ideas like that are like weeds. They root deep and poisonous, and they don’t let go easily. He begins to pull away, to prepare himself for the inevitable moment she gets bored of him, for when she finally grows tired of being with someone who isn’t worth her time. 

Now Aubrey isn’t the most emotionally intelligent person out there, but she can tell something is wrong with her boyfriend. He smiles less, he isn’t as eager to spend time with her, and when they do he sometimes looks at her in this wistful way that twists her stomach. 

Now enter Basil. Beloved Bagel. 

Basil is not a person for confrontation, but he is the one person that Kela and Aubrey told that they were dating. He has become Kel’s confidant for all questions relating to their relationship, and although he’s never had one of his own, he’s doing his best to help. 

So Basil knows exactly how worthless Kel has felt to Aubrey the last few weeks. How he’s just waiting for her to be done with him. How low his self esteem has gotten when it comes to them. And Basil is...not happy. 

He loves Aubrey, she’s the closest thing he has to a sister, but she’s also hurting his best friend, and he can’t understand why. So when she comes home from being denied to hang out at Kel’s for a third time that week because he’s “busy” and starts to rant to him about how “selfish” Kel is being, he kinda snaps at her. 

He doesn’t tell her everything, but what he does tell her is enough to make Aubrey incredibly uncomfortable. She’s seen the results of bad relationships. She swore she would never be like that with her partners, but somehow it ended up just as bad. 

She asks Basil what she should do, and he can’t tell her. He’s already far too involved in his best friend’s romance, and being stuck in the middle is stressing him out. Aubrey apologizes (a rarity for her) and asks him to help her with just one more thing

Late that night Aubrey texts Kel and tells him that they’re having an impromptu picnic together tomorrow because they “need to talk” Kel barely responds beyond telling her he’ll be there. He’s sure this is the end, and he can’t bring himself to drag it out asking her to tell him why. They’ll have a clean break after weeks of waiting, and they can both move on. 

Kel gets to their secret spot in the park, and is surprised to see not only his girlfriend, but all of their friends. Even Sunny is there, seeming confused as ever, but happy to see him. Aubrey gets up from where she was sitting on the picnic blanket and walks over. She takes his hand in hers and leads him over. 

She acts like they do when they’re alone. She leans against his side and plays with his fingers and presses short kisses to his cheek. Kel is in the twilight zone, everyone but Basil and Sunny seems confused, and Aubrey is pulling a total 180. Finally Angel cuts through the rising tension with a weak joke. 

“What are you guys dating or something?”

Kel goes to correct him on autopilot, but before he can say anything Aubrey in a rush before him blurts out her own answer

“Yeah. Today’s actually our six month anniversary. It’s going really well, even if I can be a lot to handle sometimes. Couldn’t ask for anyone better,”

The Hooligans burst into shocked yelling demanding answers and shouting out their shock. Kel can’t help the tiny indulgent smile. He looks down at Aubrey and is surprised to see she’s watching his reaction with an uncharacteristically nervous expression. He rolls his eyes and presses a soft kiss to her hair, murmuring a quiet thank you that only she can hear. She squeezes his hand tight to her and nestles closer. 

They still have a lot to talk about, and it’s not all solved, but it’s perfect for now. 

[alj4890]

I have an ask. We know in TRR Book 3 Ch10 Drake is the one being challenged by Neville but what if The King is the one to challenge Neville? After all he’s the one that would talk down to Riley during book 3 and nit once did Liam stand up for her during those times? So I wonder if Liam knew what Neville had said to his future Queen what would his reaction would be. I feel at least that Riley had the choice to punch him! Lol

A/N: Okay, seriously. WHY didn't all the other love interests tell Neville off?! He even annoyed Olivia with his pouting and whines. I get the tension between him and Drake and all; but Neville was talking bad behind Liam's back about his choice to elevate MC to becoming a duchess regardless of whether or not she was engaged to Liam. He was such a jerk to Hana and who in their right mind could be mean to her??? As protective and sacrificial as Maxwell was, (he did show getting ticked off whenever Neville opened his mouth), why wasn't there a dance fight between the two🤣 Now that my mini rant is over, let's see what would happen if Neville pushed Liam too far.

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Too Far

It wasn't noticeable at first.

He even somehow managed to make friends.

Neville had a way that made him appear as the perfect example of a gentlemanly noble. His cultured tone uttering compliments and his ability to appear humble before his betters had assured his place within Cordonia's high society. Being heir to an earldom and not too horrible to look upon also set him up in life to have a variety of ladies to choose from.

Or so he believed.

When Prince Leo abdicated, the nobles of Cordonia were actually laughed at by the rest of the world. The teasing began with mere good natured ribbing at parties of how unfaithful a Cordonian must be.

It was enough to sour any disposition, especially one that was already so.

Neville Vancoeur kept his noble mask firmly in place. Nothing was going to stop him from his destiny.

Nothing. No one. 

But the newest crown prince was best friends with, it was disgusting simply thinking of the word, a commoner. A commoner! What noble much less a direct descendant of the king himself would ever align themselves with someone who was absolutely worthless

Yet, the embarrassment that was Prince Liam didn't end there. He then went on to favor a poor waitress from America of all places. A waitress. He redeemed himself in Neville's eyes when he chose Countess Madeleine Amaranth of Fydelia to be Cordonia's queen. Though he didn't quite understand why the normally shrewd countess would allow the waitress to travel with the nobility, perhaps it was to give Drake Walker a playmate (one has to entertain pets, he supposed) he accepted it as a way to appease the people they ruled over.

Then New York happened. King Liam threw aside a well respected, birthed to perfection noble for that mongrel American who did not possess the first clue of how to behave amongst Cordonia's elite court.

Neville would have found it humorous if he was not permanently tied to his country.

To top it all off, not only was he forced to endure such unworthy company, he was shamed in front of them by some minor noble who had failed to win Liam. He blamed that brief moment of weakness for finding Lady Hana attractive on being inadvertently influenced by what had to be Drake and Riley's baser inclinations.

There was only one action left to a man so much more above these lowly peasants.

He was going to have to put these people in their proper place.

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Liam knew that some of his fellow nobles took their positions as some sort of right in lording over those they considered their inferiors. It had never sat easy with him. He himself had a mother who had been a, "simple commoner". Yet, being in the tenacious situation he was in as a new king, he had to ignore for the most part their rude behavior.

But there was only so much he could stand when it came to the one he loved.

He knew something was going on the night of Madeleine's ball. As he stood on the other side of the ballroom, listening to Duke Godfrey drone on and on, he noticed Drake bump into the future earl. He knew there were very few nobles his best friend respected so seeing the flash of anger was normal.

Riley's though was surprising.

That unusual bitter twist to her normal, friendly smile followed by what he could only assume were heated words between his love and Neville made him feel the need to rush over and place himself between them. That desire to protect Riley was so strong that his body had already turned to leave Godfrey mid sentence.

But then Neville walked away.

Maxwell's brief sadness followed by Hana's irritation had him focusing once more on Riley's anger turning to resigned acceptance. Her relaxed stance returned as his group of friends found a table to sit and enjoy their meal.

He knew then that he would need to keep an eye on Lord Neville for the rest of the Unity Tour.

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It didn't surprise him at all the insults and tension between Drake and Neville during the charity polo match. Liam felt sorry for Rashad and Maxwell being stuck on their team and forced to work with the two men that seemed to truly despise one another.

Liam also felt a large bit of pride when Riley used Neville's refusal to pass to Drake to score.

He also was relieved that Neville had not turned his disdain toward her.

Perhaps he was beginning to respect his future queen.

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It shouldn't have affected Liam like it did. Maybe it was the fact he was under so much pressure from keeping his father's cancer hidden, the fear from hearing he had been rushed to the hospital, all the terrorist attacks and threats, and then having to focus on pampered nobles instead of actually running his kingdom that caused him to lose his last shred of patience.

This ball was one that he had looked forward to. It would be the first of his escorting his Riley before the court. He had waited so long for such a moment to show his world how proud he was to have won her heart.

And Neville had to ruin it during their first dance.

The heated exchange of words escalated when Riley jumped in to defend Drake. Liam could see the utter hatred and lack of respect Neville had for the two people he was closest to. The way the young lord talked down to his beloved sent a bitter resolve through Cordonia's king.

"I've had enough of your insolence!" Neville snapped.

Liam saw his hand reach for his pocket and begin to withdraw a white glove. Before he could think through what he was about to do, he slapped Neville with the back of his hand, cutting short the challenge the lord was about to issue to Drake.

The entire court gasped. Silence fell as all watched this rare occurrence of Liam losing his temper.

"I've had enough of your insolence." Liam bit out. "Lord Neville, I challenge you to a duel."

Neville paled. His eyes darted around the ballroom, searching for anyone who might possibly be on his side. Seeing no sympathy, his chin lifted.

"I accept." His voice cracked slightly.

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"Liam, why are you doing this?" Riley gripped his hand as they walked out to the courtyard.

"I'm tired of his attitude." Liam explained. "Especially around you."

"I can handle his snide remarks." She countered. "What I can't handle is the thought of you possibly getting hurt."

Liam paused and slipped his arm around her waist. "You don't think I can take him?"

She smiled, looping her arms around his neck. "I know you can." She snared him with a tender kiss. "Just make it fast. There's a certain king I want to slow dance with."

His lips curved once more before turning toward the growing crowd. "As my queen wishes, so it shall be."

With a wink to her, he removed his sword from its sheath with a dramatic flourish.

Her delighted laughter followed him as he faced his opponent.

Neville swallowed uncomfortably as Constantine laid out the rules for the duel.

He barely managed to block Liam's blows, footsteps retreating most of the time. His lip curled into a snarl when the new king sliced into his blazer.

"My lady was right," Liam taunted, "that is a dreadful dinner jacket."

Neville's cheeks burned when those watching nearby chuckled. Each time he tried to make an offensive strike, Liam not only blocked it but somehow turned it into a point in his favor.

At one point they locked swords. Neville hated he had to tilt his head up to meet Liam's eyes. He hadn't expected to see the coldness there.

"You will apologize to Riley and Drake." Liam commanded in a low tone. "You will also never speak to either of them with such disrespect again."

"Why should I?" Neville breathed. "They need to learn to respect their betters."

"Really?" Liam's tone held a sinister edge. 

With an elegant spin that happened in the blink of an eye, he knocked his opponent’s sword out of his hand, caught it in mid air with his free one, and had both blades crossed with Neville's neck in the middle.

"Well done!" Constantine cheered from the sideline.

Riley let out a whoop as she hurried over to Liam's side. 

"Wasn't there something you wished to say to her grace, Lord Neville?" Liam asked

Neville's ready sneer died when he felt a slight nick to his tender skin.

"Forgive me, your grace." He managed to say without choking. "I will remember my manners when next we meet."

Riley gave a regal nod of acceptance.

Liam lowered the swords. "You're dismissed."

Neville scurried through the amused crowd, keeping his eyes downcast.

Riley yanked Liam into a passionate kiss once all the compliments were given and the crowd dispersed.

"My lady?" He asked with a grin. "What brought that on?"

"Nothing except my impressive Prince Charming fighting for me." She responded. "Perhaps he would like to find somewhere more private where I can better express my admiration."

"As you wish." He handed his swords to a servant as the couple sneaked away for a moment alone.

[formashimataichi]

I really like the way you view things and how you articulate it very well. I have the same thoughts as you but couldn’t put it to words so I’m really happy reading your thoughts on the ending. I just want to ask what you think about the main 3 resolutions by the end, for Taichi, Chihaya, Arata respectively. Do you feel like they are OOC? Are you are satisfied with the conclusion or if not, what aspects in the ending would you have liked to be expounded more if given more pages?

my thoughts on this are a little disorganized so this will be a more informal answer lol (and ty for the compliment omg i am very flattered!) but yes i'm personally very pleased with the individual character resolutions.. like i think everyone sort of went into this last chapter expecting that it would be about those conclusive character arc moments for every member of the trio but idk in retrospect now i think the moment each member hugged their younger self was supposed to be that resolution. so like technically chihaya and arata already got their personal closure with themselves and that was what thereby allowed them to win their overall matches. and taichi finally got personal closure with himself in this chapter. that's why to me in terms of individual focus there was more of an emphasis on shinobu and suou in this chapter bc their personal closure had to come as a result of loss. but for the main trio their personal closure had to come as a result of them being okay with who they were as children while also having the strength to move forward. and with that internal conflict settled on chihaya and arata's end in earlier chapters they were then allowed to focus on external conflicts, namely, their relationships with taichi, or their empathy and camaraderie with respect to shinobu and suou. that's why i didn't feel as thrown off by the lack of extensive individual focus on them in the last chapter. their conjoined dreams kicked off this story certainly but they also expanded to encompass more than just that initial connection they had with each other. hence why i believe the highest expression of chihaya's win in the end was to emphasize on her relationships with shinobu and chitose, and the highest expression of arata's win in the end was to emphasize on his now proud, comfortable remembrance of his grandfather. and on taichi's end obv there was no win but he now knew there was no need to be uncomfortable with distance and that the friendship between him and chihaya and arata would always exist no matter what. that's also why the ending with them not being together as i already said feels really ingenious to me bc like! in the long term is it really healthy to imagine a future where all three of them can only maintain a friendship if they're physically in the same city. not remotely! being okay with distance knowing you'll always have something that brings you back is healthier and way more realistic and i think it's what suetsugu's been building up to the whole time now that i look back

the pages post-matches to me acted as a kind of bonus. not necessarily central plot related but not entirely extraneous of it either. chihaya remained beholden to no one bc her feelings were her matter and she would express them whenever she wanted to and how she wanted to as was her right all along. taichi being reciprocated was as no result of him "earning" chihaya's reciprocation bc it was never meant to be earned in the first place and a good chunk of his arc dealt with coming to terms with the harm of his own entitlement. arata deciding not to give up on chihaya was emblematic not only of his newfound resolve with respect to all obstacles in his life, but also of the general idea that to be and remain in love is not worthless for lack of a reciprocation on our own timeline or terms

i think suetsugu has one of the healthiest mindsets regarding romance i have ever seen from an author. so on one hand do the sort of discordant reactions from across all of fandom surprise me. ya. but i suppose they're not entirely unexpected either bc she diverges quite strongly from what mainstream shoujosei tends to espouse. a girl's feelings aren't realistically constricted to a narrative structure and she's not required to be accountable to anyone for not possessing the right feelings at the right time. she's just a girl. she has dreams and a life and she is most importantly still growing and changing and her emotional mishmash doesn't owe explanation to anyone unless it's actively doing harm. which ig people believe she is doing by not responding to someone's feelings properly, whether that's a sentiment that has come from taichi fans or is coming now from arata fans. but i think in a sense we've pathologized romance and romantic feelings to the point where we believe that if we (and this applies to women esp) don't explicitly justify or negate someone's romantic feelings for us then we're not doing right by them and idk i just.. really really disagree with that tbh! not to extrapolate this far bc obv taichi and arata are nowhere near being in the realm of men who are violently reactionary in the face of what they believe to an improper rejection but it's this mindset that we're entitled to women's feelings and that they have to reject us a certain way for them to get us off their case that leads to so much misogynist violence. and i do think suetsugu is trying to make a statement about that entitlement, simply within the scope of her narrative and her characters. so to see the way arata reacts to finding out taichi and chihaya are dating is quite refreshing to me bc like. instead of being genuinely sulky or angry he just makes a joke about it and moves on and decides he's going to continue loving chihaya. i don't think that's him imposing on her or disrespecting her ability to decide who she has feelings for. he's just expressing his own feelings comfortably bc he has them and they're not suddenly going to disappear. i can admit though that like. ig the 18-28 joke comes off a little cringe like maybe suetsugu could have chosen a better joke to make. but i don't think arata is suddenly an incel where he's never acted like one before lmao like let's relax

ultimately i think the only main problem i have with the last chapter is the pacing like i probably would have put more pages in between the matches conclusion and graduation season timeskip and then i think i would have made the conversations at the start of the new tournament cycle just a little less rushed. like i'm happy with the resolutions arata got and i vehemently disagree with the idea that him not being reciprocated by chihaya suddenly means suetsugu doesn't give a rat's ass about him but maybe it would have been nice to yknow see him start preparing to come to tokyo and having that closure with the fact that he's come to be happy where he is in fukui but he's also looking forward to the new future he's forging in tokyo. idk what else there would have been to say about chihaya and her page time was fine to me like we got the shinobu closure and the chitose closure and the romantic closure which were pretty much the big loose ends she had on a personal level. with taichi i might have liked seeing some sort of convo between him and his mom about the decisions he's making regarding his future but who knows maybe we'll get that in spin-off content (or on the flip side ig we do know that no relationship is immediately mended and the qualifiers were a sign that they're working on it slowly but surely). if anything i know the anime production occurs at a snail's pace and it may be ten years before we even get to a point where this finale is animated lol but i feel like they'd be able to smooth these parts over so they come across a little less haphazardly than they do in the pages. i do feel like suetsugu could have stretched it out to one more official chapter though just so it felt as seamless as her stuff usually does like ig she got excited bc it was the end and she's put it off so many times already and obv eighty page is already a huge number but yknow. an extra chapter probably would not have hurt

[demonicheadcanons]

Can you please do a headcanon for Satan, Mammon& Lucifer for when their s/o gets drunk & starts crying &gets emotional(i usually don't show my true feelings & I only do so when I'm drunk I get emotional af I feel like I'm worthless & a burden to my mom as she gave up her entire life in raising me & well highschool & my best friend depression)it got dark real quick lol sorry about that)so I was wondering how the brothers would react it's fine if you don't want to do it thank you 😊have a nice day

AN: Feel better soon Nonny! You’re a whole person on your own and the people who are supporting you have made the decision to do so, rather than giving in to guilt, it might help to focus on being grateful for the choices they’ve made for you - you’re absolutely worth it :O Be safe, and I hope you find a safer coping mechanism!!

TW: Mentions of alcohol / unhealthy relationships with drinking, etc.

Reactions to an Emotional Drunk MC

Scenario: Satan, Mammon, Lucifer, and the MC are all in the human realm and are relaxing in a bar with some drinks.

Lucifer

- Lucifer is the one who shuts it down.

- He was feeling quite settled, and so had decided not to be so on top of everyone. It was up to you, Mammon, and Satan to make good decisions and take care of yourselves. He’d still be there, and he was still watching, but he also wanted to relax a little before he had to return back to the Devildom and start catching up on the work he’d missed out on.

- He was keeping an eye on you, in particular - you seemed to be uncomfortable but he wasn’t putting the pieces together properly until you’d downed yet another glass of something or other, some human liquor he couldn’t make out by colour alone, and then plopped down in the seat beside him.

- You seemed alright for a few moments, maybe a bit out of it, and his gaze flickered across the room again away from you until he heard a sniffle. He looks at you again, suddenly on edge. His hand is on your chin in seconds, tilting your head up towards him so that he could see your face better. Tears openly flow down your cheeks, and his heart skips a beat.

- He starts asking questions immediately, not letting go of your chin unless you grab his wrist or try to brush his hand away. “What’s wrong? Did something happen?” He bristles out of no where, leaning in closer. “Did someone do something?”

- You rub at your eyes and just start gushing, and he’s at a loss for words as he listens to everything. You see his eyebrows furrow any time you say something negative about yourself, Lucifer’s shoulders still up and with him still leaning his entire body towards you, fully focused. He processes everything and, before you can continue putting yourself down, he gives you a sharp glare.

- It’s not that he doesn’t care, but he doesn’t see the point in this - he’d listen to you talk, listen to you get out everything you needed to, but this seemed counter-intuitive if you were going to spend the entire time putting yourself down. He sighs and pulls off his cloak, settling it around your shoulders before sitting slightly closer, looking out over the room as he talks.

- His words aren’t reassuring as such, full of concern masked in self-confidence. He tells you that you surely couldn’t be so bad; you were doing well amongst all the demons, you were resisting fairly well, within days you had half his brothers in your hands and under your control which meant you were either very smart, or stupidly caring. You’d made strides no one else could have. He levels you with a stare again. “I have no reason to lie,” he informs you, “and no reason to inform you of your own worth if I felt you didn’t have any.” The smallest smile forms on his face as he tells you, “You’ve proved yourself useful for me and Lord Diavolo, at least.”

- He watches you curl up in his coat and take in everything he’s said, and his chest hurts for a split second - humans really were so small and fragile. And yet you’d held strong until now, and even this wasn’t enough of a weakness to diminish your worth. He sighs again, excuses himself to fetch you both a glass of water - he’d let you cry it out, now, but you needed to be hydrated for that at least.

- When you’re sober and back home, he regularly checks up on you. He subtly asks about your mood and how you feel you’re doing, compliments you randomly, and if you’re drinking, he’s by your side so that you at the very least have someone to correct you if you start spiraling.

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Mammon

- Mammon is the one who gives emotional comfort.

- He was having fun, the human alcohol relaxing him just enough that he could exist with ease whilst still functioning. At the same time, he was keeping a close eye on you, and would regularly circle back to see where you were - you wouldn’t be alone for even a second unless you forcibly asked him to leave you be, with Mammon ensuring that at least one of the brothers was with you at all times.

- Satan had wandered off somewhere after someone bumped into him and made him spill his drink, and Mammon sees you standing alone staring into your glass. He heads over in your direction, cursing under his breath as he watches people walk past and look you over. His anger fades when he gets to you and puts a hand on your shoulder and you look up at him with tears in your eyes.

- You barely have time to react to his presence before he’s pulling you across the room to find somewhere quiet, and then he holds you by your shoulders, watching you carefully as he asks what’s wrong, what happened, did someone make you uncomfortable? He waits patiently for an answer, although you can see him getting more and more concerned and frustrated as he tries to figure out what the hell he’s supposed to do if you don’t tell him anything.

- You start talking, venting about this and that and he wraps you up in his arms. You pause for a second before he tells you to let it all out, say whatever you need to. He’s here. He listens, tearing up at times as well and trying to subtly wipe it away. Had you been hurting like this all this time, or was this entirely because of the alcohol, or a mix of the two?

- His grip on you is tight up until your sobs turn to sniffles, and then he pulls back and asks if there’s anything you need right now - if you want to, he’ll go get Lucifer and Satan and you can all go home? He has this one thing he’s been wanting to watch but he doesn’t want to be alone for it, you two could totally have a movie night and get popcorn and such and just relax, if that would help?

- When you’re done, he wipes your face with his sleeve and tells you that you should come to him in future, any time you need to. He’s your first demon, after all - you should feel the need to come to him anyway, without being asked. Despite his fake-confident attitude, he reinforces what he’s said by checking up on you when you’re back in the Devildom, and oftentimes if he knows you’re going to be alone he’ll invite you out to whatever he’s doing so you don’t have too much time to think. It helps him cope, and he hopes it’ll help you too.

Satan

- Satan is the one who listens, who debates.

- He’d known it was coming beforehand. There were signs, little anxieties that you just couldn’t hide forever, especially not from him. He keeps an eye on you the entire time the two of you are in the human realm, curious as to how you’ll react to being ‘home’ and if it’ll make you want to leave them so you can stay here. He’d been nervous somewhere deep down, too, and it kept him observing you even when he was supposed to be relaxing.

- The second you start to get emotional, he’s by your side, inviting you to come over and sit with him. He levels anyone near you with a glare, and the two of you end up in a relatively peaceful and quiet area because everyone else can sense the aura he’s giving off to keep them all away.

- His questions are sharp but not hurtful, and he chips away at whatever resistance you still have that keeps you bottling everything up until you finally break and spill out what you’re thinking about, tears pouring out alongside your harsh words. It takes him by surprise, but he shifts until he’s facing you and watches you closely as you speak.

- Satan tries not to interrupt, but every now and then he can’t help himself. “Why do you think that?” “Is there a reason for this?” etc. He doesn’t exactly parrot back what you’re saying, but you can tell he’s listening intently because he uses everything you’ve told him in his responses. His questions turn more into “but don’t you think...” and “I don’t quite see it that way myself.” It’s a debate, but a lighthearted one, and he’s being careful as he speaks.

- He’s clever. He knows what points to chip away at, to pick on so that you open up and tell him more about your concerns. Part of it is a morbid curiosity - he likes to observe people, to know what makes them tick, and now he has easy access to some of that with you. Mostly, though, he’s concerned. He’d grown to care about you and now that you were unloading all your anxieties he realises he clearly hadn’t been watching close enough, if you’d been feeling like this the entire time. Sometimes, when he’s upset, he wonders what it would be like to just tell someone every little thing, and by pressing on and on he knows he’ll be able to help you let it out.

- Once you’ve let everything out and you stop crying, he stops asking questions, stops prodding away at your thoughts. You’d been able to let out everything you needed to, been able to break whilst having support there, even if he hadn’t directly said anything to make you feel better. He was careful enough that what he said at least wouldn’t make you feel worse, and now it was all out there for him to think over in future and for the two of you to work on.

- That’s what he does. Satan takes everything you’ve told him and, when you’re back in the Devildom, he works to build up your confidence and to make you happier. The second you think you’re not all that useful, he’s rambling about how, remember that one time, where you did this and that? And how you act a certain way at times, and how your eyes light up when you help others, and so on? He can give exact examples to refute every point you’ve made, he’s been watching closely and memorising them all. You might not feel better right away, but he plans to work away at it slowly so that the negativity doesn’t have any ground left to stand on by the time he’s done.

AN: I hope this is okay!! Be safe, all of you <3

[lawxbread]

I wasn’t sure where to send the request, but I was wondering is you could do an x reader where the reader was Ace’s girlfriend and after he died and the straw hats were on haitatus she went to train with Laws crew and they fall in love but she’s afraid of getting hurt again by losing someone she loves because important people seem to always die in her life

Hey,hey,hey!(bokuto's voice) Oh my god! I really enjoyed writing this, thanks for sending me this awesome plot!! Lol I tried my best but I think I was too descriptive (I got too excited and this got longer than I planned...) But I hope you like it!

A/N: I rushed at the end because I felt every brain cell of mine dying as i wrote the smut scene lmaooo

Sorrow

Synopsis: You were Ace's girlfriend and since when he died you've been afraid of losing someone again. Your heart is wrapped up. You feel solitary. But... What if the doctor, Captain Of the Heart Pirates, heals your pain by making you realize that you are capable of loving again?

"I can't control myself anymore"

"Make me yours, Law"

    Warnings: angst, smut, implied death, unprotected sex, swear-word

   Word count: 3K

It's all dark. You feel something touching your skin lightly. That touch... you recognize it, that warm touch you are so used to. Suddenly, your vision comes to be brighter, a few seconds have passed when you feel a breath on your face, then you finally see it, It's the man you loved wildly: Portgas D. Ace. As soon as you see him, he stops touching you, posteriorly Ace looks at you with tears in his eyes and starts running away. You don't understand what the hell is happening so you just try to reach him, "Wait!! Ace!!!" : You try to scream but, for some reason, your voice doesn't come out. When you realize, Ace abruptly fades away and then the surroundings are no longer warm. You start to cry, still trying to scream his name but not a single word comes out of your mouth. A deadly hush. "ACE!!! NO!" you try again, nothing. All your efforts are ineffective. You start blaming yourself, hopeless.

  "Y/N- ya!!". You hear someone yells. Attempting to come back to your senses, you slowly open your eyes. You feel your sweat rolling down your face and take a deep breath until you feel steady. Eventually, everything seems regular. You see Trafalgar Law staring at you with an apprehensive look and it doesn't take long for him to ask

  " Another nightmare, Y/N- ya?"

   "Uh... Apparently yes." You retort, then add "Law... When will this pain go away?"

   "It depends on you. Everyone has their traumas, I know it's not easy... But, Y/N, you have to move on." Law replies, using a concerned voice tone.

  You start to cry, then you get up from the bed and instantly hug Law. He freezes.

 "H-hey...Y/N-ya...uhh. Everything will be alright..." He says embarrassed while patting your back

  Law gently moves you away and says "Y-you should grab something to eat, Bepo prepared a breakfast."

   "What the hell I just did??!" You think, blushing as you realize the hug you gave Law.

  "O-Ok" You declare.

You were Ace's girlfriend. One year has passed since your boyfriend's death. Portgas D. Ace wasn't just some guy you dated, he was, foremost, your best friend and the only person you could count on.

   Your parents died when you were just 10 years old and you grew up cleaning houses, selling stuff you found in the junk, and doing any kind of service for other people. All of these just to survive, relying on a very small amount of money. Then, you met Ace, when you both were 18 years old, he helped you by beating some thieves that stole bellies from you, and little by little you fell in love with each other. Two years have passed when you heard that Ace was captured by the Blackbeard Pirates and taken over by the Navy, who would execute him at Marine Ford. You wanted to go save him immediately but when you declared to the WhiteBeard you would save Ace with him, he didn't let you go. Whitebeard ordered some of his sons to stay with you and prevent you from going with the rest of the numerous crew, as Whitebeard knew that Ace wouldn't be happy to see his girlfriend in the middle of a war. You tried to fight back but it was worthless.

   You couldn't sleep and eat properly, fretted over Ace's life. Then, you heard the choking news: Ace died in Luffy's arms at Marine ford.

       You couldn't believe it, you just couldn't. 

You suffered so much, you only wanted to die because you had totally lost the reason for continuing to exist.  Until  1 month after Ace's death, a huge yellow submarine appeared in front of you, and Trafalgar Law came out of it saying that Luffy asked him to take you and make you stay with his crew. You didn't have anything to lose so you just accepted the offer. Since then, you've been training with Law while the rest of the straw hats are on hiatus.

   It's not that you still can't accept Ace's death, you know presently that this kind of tragedies happens. It's just that... you are afraid that something similar occurs again. You are so attached to the Heart Pirates Crew, they are like a family to you, and Law has been great to you ...so your biggest fear is losing them. This sort of thought results in constant nightmares, leaving you scared when you wake up.

    "Good morning, everyone!" You say as you approach the kitchen with Law.

   Bepo and Shachi are eating some fried eggs and cake, discussing something about the fish Bepo fished earlier being poisonous.

     "Hello, Y/N!! Did you have another frightening nightmare?" Bepo asks.

       "Yeah, nothing new..." You retort while taking a piece of bacon.

   As you walk towards the dinner table to sit on a seat next to Shachi, you notice Law staring at you non stop, making your heart races. "Uhm, what feeling is this?", you keep thinking about it but don't understand what is going on with you so you just ignore it.

  The things between you and Law have been weird in the past 3 months since you joined the crew one year ago. He seems more comprehensive with you than usual, Law used to argue with you every time you did something wrong but now... He's changed, in a certain way.

    You seat next to Shachi, in front of Bepo and Law. As soon as you realize, Shachi puts on your plate a piece of the cake he is eating.

        " Hey, Y/N-chan, you should try this", Shachi says as he looks at you with a smirk.

    "Oh, thanks..." You say in an embarrassed voice tone, trying to be polite.

    You look at Law and he is still gazing at you, but now he seems uneasy.

   You eat the cake, unintentionally, leaving a crumb on the right corner of your mouth.

   "Y/N-ya, there's a crumb right there," Law tells you as he points from his seat at the crumb left on your mouth.

   "Here?" You attempt to clean it, but you don't succeed since you can't see it.

   Shachi quickly says "Let me clean it for you." He presses his finger against the crumb, taking it off for you. Then he caresses your cheeks "Done, Y/N-chan". He gives you a  smirk.

   You are uncomfortable, really uncomfortable. "T-thanks..."  You stutter.

    You look at Law and he looks pissed as hell but you don't understand why, you just suppose he woke up in a bad mood today.

   Law gets up from his chair not saying anything, then he utters "Y/N, a word?"

  You don't comprehend why he called you and interrupted your meal, but you feel relieved since you don't have to stand Shachi's inconvenience anymore. You obey him, following Law to his office.

  Law could wait for you to eat but he was irritated seeing Shachi shamelessly hitting on you, so he called you just to get you out of there, he knew you were uncomfortable. Besides Law was worried about you, he was jealous. Actually, you are a breath-taking girl, really stunning and beautiful so most of the crew's men always hit on you when they get the chance of doing so. It bothers Law a lot but you'd never imagine that.

   As soon as you enter the office, you shut the door. You notice that Law isn't looking you in the eye and then he starts seeking some papers that he left in one of the desk drawers. He grabs the papers and says:

    "Y/N-ya, I think I don't have to train you anymore, you seem prepared enough to train haki by yourself from now on." Then, still avoiding to look at you, he orders, coldly.

   "So, I need some favors, take these papers that have a list of tasks for you to do at the submarine, most of them are related to repair stuff. " Law putts them in your hands.

  "What? Why all of this so suddenly?" You ask.

  "It's nothing. Just go." Law replies, indifferently.

     You left the office questioning yourself if you've done something wrong for Law to act that way. But not a single idea comes to your mind, so you just decide to do what he ordered since he is your captain.

   Six days have passed since then, you've been doing repairs and improvements all over the submarine, and when you get the chance, you train haki and fight skills by yourself. Since the day Law acted weird, he's been more absent than before. Plus, he avoids you every time you try to reach him and you don't understand why, but seeing Law ignoring you makes you feel sad for some reason. You start to think that there's a remote chance of ~maybe~ you had catch feelings for Law. But... You don't wanna accept them, thinking about how much you loved Ace and he died abruptly makes you feel hesitant to love someone again. You are already afraid of losing Law, if you fall in love with him, you fear that the pain you'd feel if he dies, would be worse, like how happened between you and Ace.

  On your way towards your room, you see Law entering his office so you decide to go talk to him and ask him why he's acting like that.

   You knock on the door. "Come on in," Law says.

  As soon as Law sees you, he instantly changes his facial expression, he seems more anxious, uneasy.

   "Hi, Law. Can I talk to you for a second?" You ask him as you slowly approach his desk.

  "Yes. But be brief, I'm busy." He declares with a coldhearted tone of voice, still avoiding your stares.

  "So..." You take a deep breath, then let out  "Why you've been avoiding me these past days? Have I done something wrong?" 

  Law quickly replies, "I'm not avoiding you. Are you done?"

  "Liar, you can't even look me in the eye!!"

Silence fulfills the room as Law puts his hands on his forehead, letting his head rests on them. You try to understand whatever is going on, a sentiment of heavy tension appears when you look at Law.

   Tension. Simply, tension.

Law , still with his head down, finally confesses "Y/N-ya...Yes, I've been avoiding you" He mumbles. "Do you really wanna know the reason?"

   "Yes!! I'll try my best to help you with whatever is making you feel low!" You declare.

  "I don't think you can help me, but... I can't control myself anymore when I'm by your side.Y/N-ya..." Law admits as he finally stares back at you, and this time, he's looking deeply into your eyes.

  You freeze.

   "W-what? What do you mean by that?" You certainly think you misunderstood his words.

   " I have feelings for you," Law confesses directly, leaving you no more doubts.

  You try to keep your composure, but it looks like you are on fire, your whole body is steaming. You don't know what to do so you just stand still, staring at Law with a shocking glance.

 "Y/N-ya...You don't have to return my feelings, I won't compel you to do anything about it." Law says, then he gets up from his chair, approaching you, so he adds "Look, it's just that it's hard for me to see you and couldn't be able to announce you're mine. I don't know when it started, maybe 3 months ago so you can just ignore it and I'll move on."

   "Law..." you mumble, an immense desire to cry emerges, so when you least expect it, you are covered in tears.

   Law looks surely worried about you, he attempts to approach you even more but you are moving away from him.

"Law..." You cover your eyes with your hands as you cry, "I-I think I feel the same but..." You sigh, "I'm afraid... I'm afraid of losing you! I can't go through that again."

   You are crying a lot but you stop when Law abruptly hugs you.

     "I'm not going anywhere, Y/N-ya." Law whispers.

    Important people seem to always die in your life, you lost your parents when you were just 10, and then you lost Ace... This fear that haunts you has total control of your mind, but, somehow, the last few words that Law said to you comforted your troubled soul.

  "Y/N-ya, take your time," Law says as he sweetly moves you away, now you both are no longer hugging, but staring deeply at each other. "I'll wait for you to make your decision, please rest...have a good night," Law says then opens the door for you

  "Good night, Law..." You leave his office and go straight to your bedroom.

  Two months have passed and surprisingly you didn't have any nightmare during its period. You felt so calm when Law hugged you and said he wouldn't go anywhere, since that day you've been wondering if you are capable of giving love a second chance. Besides, Law is still waiting for your decision but you can't just get through your trauma so easily; however, the time you took to think was enough for you to understand that you were worrying too much about an uncertain future. You thought a lot about it and figured it out that you have strong feelings for him, the idea of having him by your side is being more recurrent in your mind than the idea of losing him. You certainly want him, you want him so bad.

       Since the day Law confessed to you, he is no longer avoiding you and everything is natural between you two. As he is respecting your time and not bringing the relationship matter back.

    You have made your decision. Maybe...It's time for you to move on and tell Law what you want the most: him.

   It's 2 am when you decide to go see Law and tell him your decision, you couldn't wait anymore longer. You go straight towards his bedroom to check if Law is still up and notice that the door is half-open so you slowly push it.

    "Law...?" You mumble as you enter the bedroom. You don't see him anywhere. A few seconds have passed when suddenly Law appears right behind you.

   "Y/N-ya?" Law says, he looks kind of surprised. You turn back to see, then you gradually make steps forwards "I'm sorry I was at the kitch-" You kiss his lips wildly, interrupting Law's words.

   Still with his eyes open, Law can't believe what's going on. He stops you from kissing him, "H-hey....Y/N-ya w-what are you doing?" he stutters.

   "Oh, I made my decision, Law." You confess "I realized that I want you much more than I fear losing you. It seems confusing but..." You look down, "I don't want to live the rest of my life wondering what my life would have been like with you.  I really want to live it." Law smiles.

  You add "I don't care about the future anymore, we are in the present and I want you right now!"

   "Y/N-ya, I want you so much, and hearing from you that you got over your fear really makes me glad..." Law kisses your forehead.

  You look back at him, you both exchanging stares, "I want you, you want me so... please, make me yours, Law"

  Law doesn't hesitate a second, he kisses your lips remarkably as he slowly shuts the door. Law puts you against the wall and starts kissing your neck and touching your right breast with his left hand. You let out a groan.

   "Y/N-ya, you make me so..." Law whispers while he takes off your shirt then he kisses your neck again, leaving it marks.

  "L-law??" you mutter as you are blushing, you just can't believe it, you want him right now.

   He presses his body against yours while he also kisses your lips, you feel his hard manhood touching your thigh. Your whole body is on fire, he unhurriedly moves down his right hand until it reaches your cunt, Law dry rubs it using his index finger as you moan. You can't stand it anymore, the heat between your both bodies is driving you insane, plus his warm touches all over your trunk.

   "Y/N-ya..." Law takes off his shirt and pants, revealing his ample chest with his tattoos, muscles and his bulky underwear, indicating his cock's hardness. Everything about him turns you on. "Take off your skirt and panties ", Law orders, his eyes: full of desire. You obey him, embarrassingly. Law watches every movement of you taking off your remaining clothes, hardening his cock even more.

  Unawares, Law took off his underwear, showing his thick and lengthy dick. Your face turns flushed.

   Law holds you by the waist, making you put your legs around his hips, he controls your waist back and forth bringing in your pussy to rub his cock's tip for some seconds. " Y/N-ya... I can't hold it anymore". He stops then lifts you in his arms, leading you to his bed.

   He lays you on the bed, lying on all fours on top of you and so he starts to gently caress your face, hair,ear... Unexpectedly, you feel the tip of his manhood lightly touching your entrance, then, Law holds your hands, pushing your arms against the mattress. So he starts penetrating, "Fuck. It's so tight" Law exclaims. The impact sound of skin against skin is gradually increasing, Law is moving faster and faster, you can't help but moan, moan a lot.

  "L-Law" you call out his name, "L-Law".

" I love you, Y/N-ya," Law says while he moves into you, you are so close to reaching your climax, and so do him, that in you head only Law and you exist, so your vision starts to blur;  you felt like fire was running through your veins instead of blood. "Law, I'm...almost..." you finally achieve your culmination.

   "Y/N-ya" Law stutters your name as he releases his cum inside you. Law takes a deep breath then he lays down next to you and you both embrace each other.

Law kisses your forehead, "I'm not going anywhere, Y/N-ya. It's a promise." He whispers.

   So you reply to him, "I know." and after a few cuddles you both fall asleep.

[cheeseymatcha]

(Just rambling with no sleep pls don’t mind haha don’t reblog)

Imagining scenario with Momo talking about taking care of things etc etc working doing this and that and He Tian just putting his forehead on Mo’s while not saying anything.

To not 否定 what Momo is trying to do, imagining HT doing things in the BG while Momo doesn’t know to make things smoother for Momo. One day Momo will find out… some day he will realize what they were doing were out of love for Momo even while it’s so foreign for Momo to be that precious to other people (other than his mom/dad). One day they don’t have to hide it from Momo and Momo won’t see it as a form of reliance or weakness. Even if Momo can’t do some things by himself doesn’t make him invalid or worthless or lesser than other people. Having friends is not a weakness. Beating up people by yourself isn’t strength.

I want Momo to succeed and not feel sorry for himself. But also I want Momo to know he doesn’t have to be alone anymore and fight his battles alone, like he has since he was little.

Momo can take proactive action. He is very capable. He’s been doing that since he was small. His friends believe him. But also it doesn’t mean that nobody should help him and they should just watch Momo struggle in silence even while Momo himself is crying out and obviously putting on a brave front in front of a wall, refusing to be broken while he’s struggling inside, wondering why everything is so difficult.

His friends don’t want Momo to be hurt. To keep suffering. They want Momo safe and happy… share their happiness, even while Momo thinks he should not be a part of it. Maybe they don’t know what is “happiness” really for Momo but they want to find out… They want to be with Momo through happy times and also the bad times. They don’t want people hurting Momo.

When He Tian told Momo he’ll be his underling/lackey, it felt like He Tian knew how to make Momo not uncomfortable with him “protecting” him. He wants to be Momo’s knife and shield but the power is with Momo. Everything is for Momo.

I want HT to hold back SL while Momo tells him off lol. Or get him expelled with help from the three haha. Maybe Momo can get the courage to actually speak up for himself about what SL has been doing… maybe Mama Mo will get so worried she’ll barge in the school (T_T) or will He Tian move with a resolve Momo might hate him forever?

She Li will taunt Mo but maybe by then Momo can talk back to SL about it… more confident on where He Tian stands in his life… where his real friends are… then after Momo leaves HT will pull gangster stuff with Cheng and Qiu lol so SL and the others can never bother Momo ever again. Momo did his best. Momo will be like “hm I haven’t heard from them in a while” 🤣🔫 and Momo will be happy he was able to step up to move to solve his problem…

I want gangster stuff with Cheng and Qiu. What did He Tian ask from them in the dog chapter 🐶 I wanna hear the request 🐶