#she's a medical doctor btw

[oncemorewithqueering]

she's his great great great great great x 100 grandmother

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[waspstar]

i <3 selfshipping

[crimeronan]

last night's "wow that symbolism is a little heavy-handed isn't it" dream was that i was mauled by a pack of dogs (because their homophobic owners sicced them on me) and then instead of THAT being the bad part of the dream, the Actual Bad Part was that i needed to go get a rabies shot, obviously, and i kept telling everybody that i needed to go get a rabies shot, and i didn't have a car, so i was begging my mom to take me to get a rabies shot, and she was like, no, you're in high school, and you're obviously just trying to cut class again, you don't need a rabies shot and you never have you're a faking liar who lies. while i was openly bleeding from like a dozen dog bites.

[caimitos]

saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad

[speedane]

Dancing with... Death?

The masquerade party was doing so well... until a familiar stare met his eyes-

[incorrect-primarchs-quotes]

HonestlyYYYY!! Though now you intimidate me more, you're clearly a big league pharmacist. I just took a summer class to be a techie.

Though like the rude customers are both understandable (miserable, pain, feel icky) but also not because du d e it's not our fault the doctor did the wrong stuff

Don't be afraid, I'm really just tired or confused all the time😭

But yes, I've became kind of sus(?) of doctors now. I have a lot of things I could tell, like when this newly appointed doctor gave her first med to her own grandma - which is a family's friend - and I turned pale after hearing what drug she gave her.

[calpalsworld]

A family 😄

[box-dwelling]

Welp the person on the suicide hotline just told me to stop attention seeking by trying to kill myself. How's your night going?

[honeysbunchesofoats]

i just spent about 3 hours looking up orthopedic doctors at clinics that I haven't yet been dismissed at yet (only 3 clinics, but most doctors in the surrounding area by about 30 miles are from those). and have good reviews. and specialize in what i need. and are in network with my insurance. fuck if i could convince my insurance that they should cover the mayo clinic (its a whole fucking thing to get insurance to do that) I'd make it work. i mean to be fair i was dismissed at the mayo clinic about 10 years ago for being too young to have chronic pain. but i feel like they have a better potential than everywhere else ive gone in the past 4 or so years

[cerealxperimentslain]

“a lot of people go to the doctor when they really don’t have to” i don’t actually care about the feelings of doctors, sorry! as someone in my 20s with several Medical Conditions there is nothing i hate more than “doctor who resents you for having the gall to think you might have a medical condition in your 20s” and that’s the majority of doctors i’ve seen.

one doctor even tried to argue that actually i was mistaken about my at the time only Medical Condition as a way to undermine me, because he was too lazy to do more than glance at my medical journal. then he gave me a lecture about how i should just do as im told and how i dont want to have a medical condition because people who have those take a lot of medicine every day, and also that even if i did have a medical condition there’s nothing they can do about it anyway. (then when i left he called me the equivalent in tone of something like “toots”, but that’s a different story) (for any swedish understanders it was “stumpan”)

now, when it comes to my health i am a stubborn shithead so i will just keep going to the doctor until i have a satisfactory explanation, but many people don’t have the time or energy or (especially in places like the us) money to do that.

and surprise surprise! turns out when i kept going back to the doctor they actually did find another Medical Condition after all! (turns out you can have those at literally any age) and since then i have gotten one of those extremely rare doctors who actual cares to see you get better (a specialist doctor to be specific, and i specify because in my experience they are generally way more likely to actually care) so now i not only have regular testing to see that it doesn’t get worse (and getting worse in this case can literally kill me), but i even have medicine that makes me better!!! wow!!!!!!!

[bigender-cowboy]

I HATE DOCTORS WHYYYYY NO NO NO GUYS WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS YOU’RE QUITE LITERALLY PAID TO MAKE SURE IM OKAY WHYYY

[manebioniclegali]

Medical side of Tumblr, can you please explain?? I'm so lost. My only guess is that since PB has some protein in it, it can help stabilize your blood sugar which influences your mood (although Jif isn't that healthy, there's better alternatives)

(credit ladyspinedoc on Instagram)

[boatemboys]

little fucked up actually that a few years ago when trying to get my back problems diagnosed. a doctor told me that my back was never going to get better and to fix it i (14 years old, average weight) needed to lose weight

[yuridovewing]

I'm so torn on whether or not Twigbranch should have been a medic apprentice. Because on one hand, while having a prophecy cat get promoted to a medic has been done before, Twigpaw would have been an interesting spin on it because her sister is in another clan and everyone's begging her to save them, and maybe she thinks being a medic and taking on everyone's pain makes her useful and special, especially if she can communicate with starclan. If they needed Alderpaw to have the SkyClan vision, he could have just had it as a regular Warrior apprentice and whatnot. But then on the other hand get Jayfeather the fuck away from her.

[vitiateoriginator]

Remembering the last time I started therapy again, where my new shrink talked to me for 20 minutes, barely let me get a word in before proclaiming I need to be on antidepressants, and then cut the session short