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jirsungs · 5 months ago
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DRUM ME, STUPID! ☆ p.js
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pairing: drummer!jisung x fem!reader
drum me, stupid! synopsis: a story about a college student enjoying her life in school perfectly fine, until one of her friends drags the group along to watch their school's band perform. little did she know that day would be marked as the day her whole world turned upside down because of a particular, nonchalant, and difficult drummer boy. a drummer boy who spilled his entire drink on her brand new outfit at a party and never came back.
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genre: college au, social media au (some chapters will be written though!), music band au, slight enemies to lovers, unrequited love (for a bit), whole bunch of fluff, angst, mutual pining, silly humor
warnings: explicit language, college partying, alcohol consumption, A LOT of banter between characters including sexual/kys/death jokes of the sort, reader's kind of an ass (in the beginning), jisung ends up being a lover boy once the "nonchalant" wears off, yeonjun flirts like 24/7, overwhelming feelings that the characters can't handle
author's note: hi! since i've always enjoyed reading smaus and always get writers block with full on stories, i decided to make my own :] please excuse my bad knowledge on any of these majors or experiences and none of this reflects the real lives of the kpop idols! this was written solely for entertainment and fun! enjoy!!<3
comment if you wish to be tagged for the story's updates!
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profiles #1 ☆ profiles #2
chapters will be added once they're posted!
episode 1: i did NOT agree to this gc name!
episode 2: costumers of ningcreates?!
episode 3: the universe is out to get me
episode 4: p.y.t (pretty young thing) (written)
episode 5: jisung's a coward, we all say in unison
episode 6: the latte lounge incident (written)
episode 7: hating each other era
episode 8: future uncles and aunt
episode 9: apologies & new beginnings
episode 10: what a lover boy!
episode 11: love like the movies (written)
episode 12: super obvious, but still not a confession
episode 13: my wonderwall, at least i hope so (written)
episode 14: she's going ghost mode on me
episode 15: ain't no way a girl got you like this
episode 16: i missed you
episode 17: i missed you (too) (written)
episode 18: finally mine!
episode 19: ningcreates (expanded) fan club
episode 20: she fr got him liking musicals
episode 21: drummer's girlfriend duties
episode 22: i fear yeonjun's loyalty to latte lounge finally paid off
episode 23: first mistake: letting y/n out of your sight wtf
episode 24: you maam caller
episode 25: wym drummer boy has a driver's license??
episode 26: only losers make wishes at 11:11
episode 27: pussy boy stand up
episode 28: no girls allowed at rockway rehearsals! (written)
episode 29: crashed ynsung's date lol
episode 30: ning bag that shit
episode 31: drummed her stupid!
END! started: 06.23.24 finished: 09.03.24
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BONUS CHAPTERS:
#1: close to you (written) tba. . .
#2: the not-so-silly apple or orange juice debate tba. . .
#3: finally meeting the parents? tba. . .
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catcze · 1 year ago
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OKAY BUT how about matching jewellery with Wriothesley?? You could both wear a necklace or a choker to match his vibe or maybe earrings? (The fact he's wearing some is sending me 😩 His style is really good tbh, def would let him choose my clothes) And if they're embedded with each other's initials? Even better, let the world know you belong to him, the same way he belongs to you (was inspired by your other collar drabble don't mind me 🥺👌)
AAAAA that is SO cute wtf ?!?! And so true, his style is honestly immaculate !! I got inspiredddd and wrote this (even tho it's a little more 'secret relationship for now, but wearing little tokens of each other until we make it public' kind of thing tee hee)
warning for vv slight leaks (Wriothesley's birthdate) and a slightly ooc Wrio !!
Reblogs are greatly appreciated !!
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"Your grace?"
"Yes, Sigewinne?" Wriothesley hums, not looking up from his morning paper. He holds a teacup in his other hand, the scent of freshly brewed English Breakfast filling the room.
Sigewinne is staring hard at him, head tilted as she examines the change in the Duke's wardrobe. "I can't seem to place my finger on it but your new necklace looks rather—"
Wriothesley promptly chokes on his drink, loud coughing breaking the quiet of his office as he thumps his chest, sputtering and frantically moving his paper out of the range of fire of his choking.
"—familiar."
Sigewinne hands him a handkerchief, which he takes with a wheezed word of thanks. She's squinting at him in suspicion, antennae twitching as she watches the duke squirm.
"I'm afraid I don't follow," Wriothesley coughs one last time into the handkerchief, clearing his throat in an attempt to get rid of the roughness in his voice. It doesn't work. "Perhaps you're mistaken, Sigewinne. Are you certain that you haven't just seen someone around the fortress using something similar? Or maybe you saw it in fashion on the surface."
Sigewinne is sure she hasn't. She just hums in thought, placing her hands on her hips as she continues to evaluate the necklace, while Wriothesley pointedly does not meet her gaze.
It's a simple thing, really. A silver circle on a thin silver chain, and from this distance Sigewinne can barely make out what looks like two letters and a date carved on it. It's this simplicity, actually, that makes it stand out amidst the Duke's otherwise chunky and bold accessories.
Sigewinne keeps staring, trying to remember just where oh where had she seen something like that before, and why does it nag her so much that she can't recall. Wriothesley doesn't offer up any information, however, having chosen to pour himself another cup of tea and resuming reading his paper.
Eventually, the nurse relents and turns to head down the staircase to leave his office with a word of farewell thrown over her shoulder, still bothered by the mystery that she just can't solve, but knowing what the Duke is like when he clams up.
"Oh! Hi, Sigewinne!" You greet, almost running into her as she descends, while you yourself are on your way up. You reach out a hand to steady her lest she roll down the rest of the way. "Leaving already? Everything alright?"
"Everything is fine," she says kindly, patting your arm in thanks as she looks up to your face. "Some patients to check on, but otherwise nothing particularly noteworthy. His Grace just refuses to answer any of my questions, however..."
But then her eyes catch on something shiny on your neck. Something shiny, and looking awfully like the object of her interest just a few short minutes ago. She glances at it, and as close as she is, she can make out what is carved on the pendant around your neck: A simple W and the date November 23 written underneath it.
She pauses mid-sentence, turning to glance over her shoulder.
Wriothesley is still reading his paper, but from here even she can see how he's trying to subtly glance over it in your direction. His fingers clench the sheets in anticipation and how his boot has started to tap on the floor despite his show of nonchalance. She looks at the pot of tea he had put out earlier, notices just how much tea there still seems to be in it, and the extra teacup that she had asked about earlier when she had first come in.
Just in case a guest stops by, he had told her, and nothing after that. Suddenly, she has a pretty good guess of what is written on his grace's necklace.
"Nevermind," she corrects, trying not to smile too widely. "But I certainly have to be going. Enjoy your... meeting with his grace. I'll see you later!"
You blink at her abrupt departure. "Oh? Okay. Uh... Bye, Sigewinne. See you soon!"
She nods, hurriedly excusing herself in an attempt to give you two some privacy, finally letting her happy little grin show once she was no longer in sight. She shuts the doors behind her and takes a moment, then practically skips her way back to the infirmary, her steps light and joyful.
I'm glad. They deserve to be happy together.
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nialls-gorgeous-colors · 1 year ago
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Shawn and Niall's public dating history doesn't match the themes and narratives of their songwriting
Mannn… if you actually take the time to look at Shawn’s and Niall’s dating history…. Where are these passionate songs coming from if you buy into the general public narrative 😭 Shawn’s literally supposedly dated 2 people 😭
And it didn’t start until 2017 😭 which albums are typically written A YEAR AT LEAST before they are released. Shawn Mendes Self Titled was released on May 25, 2018. Illuminate was released on April 20, 2017.
And then he’s singing about hoping someone will be by his side and being with someone “who cares if they approve”…. The media and fans were wanting him and C to get together… where are these obstacles of being together 😭
Niall’s dating history is so weird, like, don’t even get me started. It’s so full of PR and short bursts of being with someone?? Women who have even issued statements and denied when asked that they were anything romantic??? Where are all of these passionate songs coming from?? Who is he showing up at their door soaking wet? Where are these obstacles??? Wedding song???
Why is he needing to tell someone there’s “no judgement” (it’s romantic with a “mate and… you know”. No, it’s not about Harry please stop?) when they’re together??? Who is he missing so much he needs a “new angel”?? This Town: Who is he saying “if the whole world was watching I’d still dance with you” about”?? Why wouldn’t anyone he’s been with be accepted???
There’s so much that begs to be said about all of this. Shawn invalidating his whole discography (saying it’s all about Camila???) in his documentary still makes me so incredibly sad. That doesn’t make any sense. It doesn’t all line up, nor do the themes match up with his life history with her. Please 😭
Make it make sense. 🤨😭 whomever made him say that had no idea what they were doing. They expected the fans to just blindly accept what came out of his mouth.
I have talked with his fans who believe that he was writing so many songs about her… and to believe it, you have to think that he’s just sitting on the sidelines for years just pining away for her while she’s with other guys??? That doesn’t even match with his songs???
I know I’m going back and forth between the two but there’s so much of Niall’s that don’t make sense either. It starts with Barbara Palvin, who was starting out her modeling career who was connected with Niall in 2013-2014. If you don’t think he stunted, then what’s this?
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Amelia Lily (yup another Amelia) 2011-2012. There’s later an article about her DENYING anything went on and that she was actually dating an electrician dude.
He was connected briefly with Ellie Goulding who would greatly benefit from the clout boost in Aug-Sept 2013. Meh. Standard music industry stuff.
Melissa Whitelaw, an Australian student, Feb-June 2015 so says a DM article. There’s papwalks complete with the weird backseat photos. Her looking out the window while Niall is awkwardly trying to cope with what he’s being subjected to, see below.
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And there’s Celine Helene Vandycke, yet another student. This time she’s Belgian. They show up at events with his arm around her shoulders. They’re only together about a month or two in 2016. Again, here’s the customary car backseat photo published in DM.
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And then there Hailee Steinfeld, in 2017-2018. Niall never confirms it but there’s really awkward (while walking across the street?? Like??? Wtf???) kissing pics that exist. She wears his merch. She shows up to a m&g during his tour. They “breakup” then the narrative is she released a song called “Wrong Direction” but denies it’s about him. (Great PR move, Hailee.)
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Then it brings us to Amelia Woolley, pandemic lockdown lady. Met in Apr 2020, UK lockdown started in Mar. Dramatic story how they met in tabloids. Niall tore her away from her electrician boyfriend. They now do papwalks and she shows up at golf and events. Everyone forgets about her.
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So….. I repeat…. where’s the kind of longterm love along the ways that’s sparked their work and matches the themes of their songs??? Please let me know if you find it???
And yes I know there’s some typos, the timeline also isn’t exact. But that’s the thing about these “relationships” that are arranged. Dates are messy because no one actually knows them. 😂
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lighthouseas · 1 year ago
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17, 21, 29, 30!
hi jo! thank u for the ask :)
17 - post a line from the wip you're working on
okay instead of spoiling my bylerween fic more, i'll do something different hehehe >:)
Mike exhales shakily. “I think,” he reiterates, “I have to kill myself.”
i promise this is meant to be funny not sad okay. Okay
21 - tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? what is it about them that you admire?
oh well that's a lot....hm. i guess in terms of fanfic writers, i really admire my beloved @wayward-sherlock. wayli is so talented and all of the ideas she has are like...insane. Bonkers Fucking Insane /pos and how she finds time to execute all of her amazing ideas, i have no clue, but it's amazing and i really, really, really admire them for it. also, they're just super duper supportive and sweet and so fun to brainstorm with !!!!
and. well. noah @pimplepogue i hope u don't mind me calling u out but having gotten some Sneak Peeks of your writing...falls to my knees at your feet. sir you are SO talented and i greatly admire the way you Write About Things and Think About Things and Come Up With Things....ur just. ur so good at it and SO creative and ur big brain gets my creative juices a'flowing (<- hahahahaha. HA). so. yeah. i admire u a Lot in that aspect (but in SO many other aspects too ofc )
+ ofc there's a lot more writers i admire because. well. look at me. but i can't think of them off the top of my head sooooo pls accept this lols
29 - do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?
all of them jk lol um....probably my Iumax fic, yesterday i got so old (it made me want to cry) .... i really really enjoyed writing for them and was really proud of it. also it's just. so fluffy and sweet.
also, probably my highler fic (i believe you've already read it question mark?), i would tell you that i loved you (if i thought that you would stay) which is. kind of a sad fic but whatever i was really proud of it and think it deserves more love....sigh....(desperately needs to write more highler)
also don't mind the fact that both of these are named after the cure songs okayyy
30 - in contrast to 29 is there a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at?
lol , probably the first byler fic i ever posted tbh strange sleeping arrangements. only because yk. it wasn't That good in my opinion but ended up getting like 1k+ kudos which was like ???? wtf. i mean it's funny i Guess but i feel like i've written SO much better than it lol
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kyluxtrashpit · 1 year ago
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Okay so. This is going to be a ramble no one cares about but I just have to get it out lmao. I’ve been watching gundam witch from mercury because I’m both a lesbian and a huge gundam fan, so the prospect of a gundam series WITH lesbians is like. What you’d put in my lab experiment reward bottle lmao. That sounds amazing
Thing is though… I want to like the show. I do. I really do. Especially because I just know there are fanboys out there pissing on it immediately cause how dare there be women and gays in “their” show. But. I just. I don’t love it. I find it frustrating to be perfectly honest. I will say season 2 so far as improved GREATLY on season 1 (wtf was the point of 10 episodes of weird high school slice of life drama in a gundam series anyway, it was incredibly boring). But I still am not loving it and if season 2 doesn’t deliver by the end, I’m gonna give up on it
However! I have devised what I would consider a fix for the show. And I’m sure people who actually like it, were they to stumble across this post, would be very unhappy with my fixes lmao but. I stand by them and I’m rambling them here solely so they’ll stop rolling around in my brain. So here we go (spoilers below)
So. First off, gonna really commit to the shoujo-ai/yuri vibes by going full strawberry panic. If we have to have a school, I’m making it an all girl’s school. There are no men there. There is now 0 percent chance of even the slightest hint of heterosexuality among the students. Men can still be like in the political stuff, dads play a big role in this show, but why do we need male students? We don’t. I’m making them all girls now. This will be important later and it's not like it's uncommon in anime, especially in the femslash genre
Second thing: my main issue with this show is Suletta’s lack of emotional reaction to… fucking anything. She’ll be sad for like 30 seconds when something genuinely devastating happens and then it’s over, she got hungry, a friend acknowledged her, she watered tomatoes - boom, she’s cured. Being abandoned/rejected the 3 most important beings in her life in like a week span left her sad for a couple of days (which we didn’t even see - there was literally one like 5 second shot of her lying in a bed and that’s it), sure, but as soon as she gets hungry and her friends say 2 words to her, she’s 100% back to normal. That is insane. That is not how human emotions work. I don’t know whether it’s her character itself or the way her character is written that irks me so much, but I have never seen a less engaging protagonist character like… ever. And I almost never like anime protagonists so that’s impressive. I don’t even dislike her character, I just find her immensely boring to the point where I feel nothing about her except the frustration of what a waste her character is in this setting. If she died in the next episode, all I would feel is surprise, not sadness. It’s like the narrative has no ability to affect or change her - what the hell is the point of her then??? Guel, previously most obnoxious and hate-able character in the show, was made interesting by the narrative, yet the protagonist remains unaffected by it and therefore remains about as interesting as paint drying. Why????? It’s such a waste. But anyway
So if Suletta does not behave like, you know, a person, what does she behave like? Well I would say she has the exact emotional depth of a golden retriever. Bubbly, highly social, a bit anxious, wants to help and be a part of everything, never stays sad for long - that’s a golden retriever right there. It's not good writing, but it's precisely what the writers have done here
So, what if she was literally a golden retriever?
So. Everything’s the same except it’s an all girl’s school now and Suletta is now literally a dog. World’s first mobile suit piloting dog. They send her to the school as sort of a test, to see if this dog can outperform the ace student pilots there. A dog would also still want to rescue Miorine at the start, so this stays intact. Highly social dogs like to be helpful
So. Guel is a girl now and gets her ass kicked by a dog - this is even more humiliating and drives her spiral just as well, if not better. Miorine is also now stuck engaged to a dog, which further cements how dehumanizing and humiliating this marriage arrangement thing is for her and further shows what a piece of shit her father is. The rich spacians would also be super insulted by even the idea that a dog could be a match or better than them, so she'd still end up with the earthians and all that. So the plot remains exactly the same, literally no change
“But KTP, dogs can’t pilot mobile suits!” You cry. But the thing is - the dog isn’t actually doing it. Eri is, because Aerial is sentient. We don’t even know if Suletta as a human is actually any better than average at piloting because of that - she doesn’t need to be, so she probably isn't. So the dog doesn’t actually need to be good or even at all capable, just throw some buttons in there that make it look like the dog is piloting and you’re good. That’s all you need. No one, including the dog, would know better except Eri and Prospera
Prospera - she’s the dog’s owner/trainer. Her grief after losing Eri makes her pursue this. Maybe Eri loved dogs, was obsessed with them, so Prospera got her a dog - even in her current form. And then the plan was born
And because Suletta is a dog and people like dogs, the care she inspires in Miorine and others honestly makes more sense. Of course they want to protect this dog and make her happy and let her be free of these complicated plans and things. She’s a dog. Dogs should be playing and getting belly rubs and being happy. So Miorine, Prospera, and Eri/Aerial all agreeing that Suletta should be set free from their machinations before shit gets real also makes WAY MORE sense. Because it’s both good for the dog AND everyone else cause the last thing you'd want involved in all this is a dog
And, because we made everyone girls at the start, Miorine could go into a romance with literally any character and it’d still be the lesbian gundam except now there’s just also a dog there who behaves identically to human Suletta except for not being able to talk. Because if your protagonist is so much more a plot device than a character that you could replace her with a literal actual dog and the plot remains completely unchanged like. That’s an atrocious and insulting way to treat a female character, especially a queer one, so why not just actually do that and have an even more unique story concept and let all your female characters feel like actual people?
They could also, you know, just make Suletta a compelling character with a real, developed personality instead too, but that would involve more radical changes to the plot (which I also think would likely be an improvement but) lmao. However, when doing these 'fix it' concepts, I always aim to change as little as possible as a challenge for myself. So that's what I've done here
And with that, my job here is done, and now I just know I’m gonna be even more mad at this week’s episode cause this even gayer, more dog-filled version I’ve made up in my head is already better than the actual show lmfao
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honeymouthedtales · 2 years ago
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This chapter has answered all of my questions and theories that i have silently kept to myself to analyze them all by my lonesome. Ever since the Islands Arc started, my heart had been rooting for DS; seeing her disrespected and underestimated by her people, her family, makes me really sad. I feel like DH, and now their mother, were the only ones who truly believed in her. It makes me agitated no one thinks DS going to marry a foreigner, leaving her home to live in an enemy country, (cont.)
(cont.) bearing said enemy’s child is just as important, tiring and draining as DH being king. And now that she’s heir, people only care about missing DH and how he’s being treated… WTF!!! I’m so glad you brought to light about MK’s situation with being passed the crown from his brother, just like DS right now. I’ve always wondered how that played out; how MK and his brother felt and reacted to the new development, how their relationship was like. With MK and DS being in the same boat, (cont.)
(cont.) I feel like MK could really help her out and share how he’s handled it. MK-DS besties is so heartwarming! its like MK can finally see who DS is NOW than he did during their 15 years of engagement, they were too busy trying to play the perfect husband/wife to really build a true friendship, I could imagine. But DS has perseverance and resilience, to be able to withstand her role as a wife, no one would do what she could (MK said so). I can also imagine that DS training to be a (cont.)
(cont.) prince's wife had been different to training to be the wife of a future king. How did everyone back then feel that DS was going to be queen of the Vale? Her education could have changed to prep her for being a queen, but im guessing a wife in the Islands is different than a wife in the Vale. I could see how everyone looked down on her for trying to be a lady of the Vale and not a lady of the Shar. I’m secretly yearning for a DS side story, she deserves all the love and support!! (cont.)
(cont.) I’m so sorry about my rant, this was a lot I know! i hav a word limit to my ask. But I really needed to get this out of my chest now that ch 58 has satisfied all my theories! You have stated multiple times that you don’t plan ahead, you write as you go in the moment and I didn’t want to say anything for fear of changing your work process. But everything is good now!!! Keep up the good work! Stay healthy and happy!
Joining all your asks into one for clarity.
Yeah, one of the reasons I'm really happy to have written this arc is that for so long people have worked on assumptions greatly shaped by our main characters, Mark who knows very little about the Islands and has only been with Dongsoon a few weeks every year, and Donghyuck who is fiercely loyal to his country and misses it terribly and so is bound to have very good feelings about it.
Many people were surprised to see Dongsoon being neglected because they had come to imagine the Islands being a beautiful place, more fair and equal compared to the Vale. It's only partly true. While the Islands are more willing to challenge some outdated views, they're not a perfectly place and they're affected by period-typical prejudices.
I didn't always have in mind to make Dongsoon's experience being so hard in the Islands, but as soon as the arc started and Yangyang appeared I realized that it only made sense for him to disrespect her because he's used to her just being Donghyuck's sister and not the crown princess. And if he does it, then maybe other people are doing it. Dongsoon was raised to be someone who blended into the situation, doing her thing without being seen because that was seen as a virtue. She was also not trained with weapons (even though some girls are trained) nor in trade, because as the queen of the Vale she wouldn't be able to keep up with that kind of education. She was, however, trained to be a skilled diplomat, and she did study together with Donghyuck and they're both equally smart and not competitive with each other so her education as a princess is not lacking. But she never had to prove that she was fit to rule the way Donghyuck did, nor she gained anyone's respect by bonding with important people or participating in campaigns, or training with the troops.
That's why I really wanted her and Mark to have this moment, because Mark is seeing her as a fellow heir right now, and he's seeing her struggling with the same problems he had in the past, and as someone whose abilities have been doubted by his father again and again, and had to prove himself to everyone, he is in a place of understanding from where he can help her by sharing his experience.
Also, when I started writing this fic some characters were barely fleshed out. Dongsoon appeared so little in this fic in the beginning, and always in moments filled with tension, as a background to Mark and Donghyuck's troubled relationship (i.e. Mark's kiss with her is seen as a negative thing that threatens their relationship, and generally when we think of her spending time with Mark we imagine how must Donghyuck suffered because of it). The few times she appeared as a positive character were in Donghyuck's interludes, but I was really aching to show that Mark and Dongsoon had a good relationship and could even have a better one now.
I also really really wanted to avoid the 'Donghyuck is jealous of his sister route' because it never existed in my p.lans. He loves her dearly, he trusts her dearly, and it could've been easy to hate her for taking Mark when Donghyuck wanted him, but he simply didn't because he loves her. They have a lot of respect for each other, they trust each other, they love each other, and being apart was hard for both of them, especially after having this special bond.
And also it might not be immediate to understand, but the fact that they complete each other so well is one of the reasons no one realized they were Alpha and Omega, because they covered for each other's character flaws and always balanced each other out. Dongsoon always covered for Donghyuck when he got in trouble and went to save him like a good Alpha, but people thought she was an Omega wanting to comfort her Alpha brother. At the same time, Donghyuck was constantly acting out because he needed the attention, and people thought it was a sign of him being an Alpha dragging his sister along in his adventures, but it was actually Dongsoon who stopped him when he was going too far and he always listened to her and trusted her judgment. They are two sides of the same coin in the end.
So this - having Mark getting along with her - is going to make all of them happy, because Donghyuck has the most important Alphas in his life on his side, and both Mark and Dongsoon gain an Alpha friend (especially for Dongsoon, who has no experience being an Alpha, Mark's help will be invaluable) and an ally in stopping Donghyuck from doing something crazy. I'm so glad I had the chance to write about their relationship because I really like it.
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eremiie · 4 years ago
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why do you like gabi? ive been surrounded by people who absolutely despise her but im curious ab the other opinions (i can kinda see it both ways)
aot season 4 anime spoilers (episode 8)
LETS GET TO TALKING (i love when you guys ask me questions like these, especially regarding the aot verse— when you wanna know my opinions on shit, i love it)
okay so i used to not like gabi, like at all. like that little girl was a menace, and it wasn’t even because she killed sasha, it was because her personality. she was cocky and arrogant and had a big mouth and she was just so annoying. adding onto that— her killing sasha was just even worse... it was like “damn, you are really unlikable???”
so what made me change my mind about her?
first i remember when she first killed sasha, i was like something’s not right about this, it seemed to me like sasha was just killed for the plot. it seemed like sasha was just an obstacle for gabi’s character development, and i still think that to this day— her death was rushed in my opinion, and i couldn’t catch that rush of emotion (maybe bc i was spoiled) reading it or watching it. 
but even as these episodes progressed it’s clearly very obvious that gabi is brainwashed. you see the disposition between falco and gabi, and frankly; isayama couldn’t have made it anymore obvious. 
gabi literally walks around saying shit like 
“these island devils!1!!11!!!” as she sits at a dinner table with the same ‘devils’ that took her in.
like i don’t know how it’s not obvious to some people that she’s brainwashed especially when she’s sitting right next to someone like falco.
at a young age they were all taught that paradis was full of island devils that fucked marley over, and as an eldian she wants to prove herself, thats the satisfaction that she gets and wants and thats the satisfaction that she has this constant need to obtain. 
and on top of this when she watches people like the infamous eren jaeger kill both of her closest friends, almost kill porco, pieck, reiner, and shit on her whole town, this anger in her only flares up— she gets a good reason to hate the people of paradis, because they’re only showing her what she was taught.
so when she did get in that airship and kill sasha, guess what? she didn’t even see sasha’s face, sasha was turned around, she just aimed aimlessly— and gabi never misses, so she just happened to shoot sasha. that could’ve been anybody. she was trying to do something for her people, trying to get her revenge, she wasn’t out to get sasha specifically. +++ i don’t blame her for killing sash. put yourself in her shoes.
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gabi gets her development as well. the brainwashing gets undone, she gets her redemption arc, she saves kaya, she sides with the alliance, she gets on her knees and begs jean for help, she sees that the island devils aren’t island devils and that they all currently have one common enemy.
and when she does get this development you see how much of an amazing character she is— she reminds me so much of s1-3 eren, the determination, the way she redeems herself and the way she’s so passionate about everything she does and does it with a purpose. she’s just a little girl and i understand her just as much as i understand any other character. 
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the gabi slander is what makes me like her even more, the way her character bothers people who have half a brain is something else— people saying shit like they want her to get raped, they hope she dies, shit like that is just like what the fuck???? is this drawing bothering you that much that you feel the need to say something like that? that you feel the need to write a song about how much you hate her?
that in itself just shows how well isayama wrote her character. in my eyes she was made to be disliked at first, you were made to watch her develop and grow, but not everyone is able to see that because they look past shit like that.
most people who do understand attack on titan understand that in the show there are no good or bad people, everyone happens to be a person doing bad things. (like if you’re gonna shit on eren for killing all those marleyans, please shit on reiner for killing all those people on paradis + our milf carla, and shit on armin for killing all those marleyans too— cause his body count is right beside eren’s atp) i understand everyone from eren to gabi to even floch, who i slander the fuck out of because i don’t like him but i understand him and he’s a greatly written character. i understand the marleyans, the eldians, the alliance, the people of paradis, i understand eren, i understand zeke, and shit i dont know what that little girl got going on but i understand miss ymir fritz too.
but that being said, that is why i like my son gabi<3.
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inactiveanimeblog · 4 years ago
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DISCLAIMER : THIS IS JUST A PREVIEW NOT THE ENTIRE FIRST CHAPTER
pls y’all let me know if this is decent enough to continue writing. i wrote it a month ago or whatever but this is the vampire itachi AU i just mentioned in one of my previous blog posts. this one series will include smut, toxicity, and light FLUFF. (wow shocking, me doing fluff wtf)
for this little drabble/intro only warnings is mentions of killing, mentions of drinking, vampires, itachi has no humanity
(so far basically only the intro and how you guys meet is written)
anyways send me an ask or a comment of your opinion, it’ll be greatly appreciated !
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vampires. just a myth right? i mean, how could they even exist? walk amongst you like regular human beings. if anyone ever tried convincing you vampires were real you would laugh in their face. “have you lost your mind? there’s no such thing as vampires.” you would say.
except, you were wrong. completely, embarrassingly wrong. there were vampires. ones that most people weren’t aware were around them.
attacks happened frequently, but they would be ruled out as something like a bear attack, or a wolf attack. vampires had such a low profile, that to most of the population they were just a folk tale. a legend.
itachi uchiha had lived the age of twenty one through hundreds of years. along side others in his clan.
he was living in the village of konoha, japan with his younger brother sasuke, and his mother and father. his parents passed away due to a tragic accident when he was at the age of nineteen, and he vowed to take care of sasuke for as long as he lived.
two years later, his village was attacked by what you would describe as beasts. fangs and red eyes. feeding on humans, it looked like a herd of cannibals. itachi along with a few of his clan members and brother survived that night. bitten and turned into murderous monsters, called blood suckers.
itachi wasn’t the noble man like he once was. the hunger had taken over him and he no longer cared for the human race.
he fell in love with izumi uchiha, a member of his clan that was from a different part of japan. she was also a vampire. a sophisticated women, one who he quickly changed his ways for.
until she passed away, thirteen years later due to a stake through her heart. the pain was unbearable for itachi. he became feral again, losing his humanity and killing any human that he could prey on. he would continue his life like before he met izumi, a viscous cycle of slaughtering people.
that was until he found you. y/n l/n. at first you were just another snack of the day, a foolish college girl, wondering by her lonely late at night.
you were beautiful, drop dead gorgeous actually. nonetheless, itachi wasn’t going to let looks alone save you. he was starving, looking for a hunt. and you were right there, so delicious he could almost taste you from just a stare. easy prey.
you noticed a figure nearby. you were dizzy. drunk off shots of don julio, walking off from a frat party to get some fresh air. it was a warm night, about seventy degree’s out. the wind was blowing, but not harshly.
“hey? are you alright?” you called out to the figure. it was probably just a frat boy, drunk doing the same thing you were doing. getting some air.
he walked closer to you, his steps were agonizingly slow and when he stepped into the moonlight you got a good look at him. he was pale, long dark hair tied back with a few strands in front of his face. he wore an all black outfit. he was for sure handsome, unlike any man you’ve ever seen before. there was no way he belonged to any frat house.
“hey, if you’re really drunk i can call you an uber home or something?” you called out again, your phone was in your hand ready to open the app.
he got closer towards you, merely a few inches away. “no that won’t be needed darling.” he responded, his voice barely above a whisper.
“do you go to school here? i’ve never seen you before.. no offense or whatever, but you look like you’re too good to be going here.” you asked, sticking your phone in your back pocket. “if you’re gonna be out here alone you might as well take a walk with me.”
“you wanna walk alone late at night with a stranger you just met?” he asked, his head turning to the side while he looked you up and down. dumb little girl.
you grinned at him and crossed you arms to your chest. “my intuition tells me i have nothing to worry about.” walking closer, almost directly in front of him you mocked his stance, turning your head to the side. “so are you gonna take a stroll with me or are you scared of a little stranger?” you teased.
he grinned back at you and you both walked beside each other along the grass. it was silent for a few moments, almost awkwardly before you spoke up.
“so.. you never answered my question. you go to school here?” looking up at him, you noticed he was already staring at you. intensely as well, his gaze was serious.
“no i don’t go to school here. i’m not in school at all, i was only invited to a gathering and decided to go. maybe grab a bite to eat around here afterwards.” he answered.
“a bite to eat huh? who even eats this late at night? it’s not good for you, also i promise you’ll find nothing good around here. try getting food in the city. much better.” nodding your head assuredly at him. he smiled down at you, a genuine smile. his eyes matched his lips.
“and why do you care what’s good for me? hm?” he questioned.
“i don’t.” you snorted and turned the other way. he only chuckled at your sudden aloofness.
“feisty all of a sudden? and what’s the reason for that love?”
you blushed at the nickname love, he was a very attractive stranger and you weren’t used to this sort of attention unless someone was trying to sleep with you. but this felt different, he actually seemed interested in your presence, interested in your conversation.
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delos-mio · 4 years ago
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Out of the Woods - College!AU - PART 1
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A/N: Welp, here it is! Part 1 of my silly little AU for my favorite silly little king. I really hope I can do him justice and I greatly appreciate any comments and questions you may have! No major triggers- only implied drug use, drinking, allusion to sexy stuff. So, without further ado..
If you had to gaze into a crystal ball at the beginning of the year, this would not have been the future you expected to see. You didn’t plan on being unhoused, stuck in an idle relationship, and debating dropping out of school all together. But here you were, trying your very best to pick up the pieces, salvage what little motivation to carry on that you had left. It could have been worse. It could have been much worse, at least that’s what you kept telling yourself to keep from crumbling entirely. You were never one to back down though, and these few hurdles sure as hell weren’t going to be the thing to break you. At least one of your problems was solved.
You had just emptied the last of the boxes left from moving and were hanging up the rest of your clothes when there was a soft knock on your door. Genya popped her head in, smiling brightly.
“Hey. I was just making sure you were getting settled ok,” she said.
“Yeah, I’m just about done unpacking I think.” You sat down next to her on the edge of your bed. “Thanks again for letting me live here. You have no idea how much you saved his ass,” you laughed.
“Don’t mention it! I’m happy to have someone else here, honestly.” She seemed to mean it, so you decided not to keep groveling. “Anyways, I just had a friend text me about a party tonight if you wanted to go?”
Your party days were almost entirely behind you. Freshman and Sophomore year were a haze of booze and recreational drugs, leading to you almost flunking out of school on more than one occasion. You’d since cleaned up your act, for the most part, and found you way back on the Dean’s list. But...it was a Friday afterall. And you’d just spent all day moving and contemplating your entire life- did that not earn a beer or two?
“Yeah, ok. Ok. That sounds good,” you said with a nod.
“Awesome! I think we’re meeting there around 10ish, so I’ll come grab you to get ready in a little bit.”
“Get ready? Are we 18 and going to our first frat party?” you joked, making Genya laugh.
“I was thinking about it more so as a roomie bonding activity, but if you wanna be a brat…” she drawled, trying to keep the smile off her face.
“Come back in an hour,” you finally sighed. Genya looked simply delighted as she exited, very clearly planning out looks for you both in her head.
As you went to finish up organizing your closet, you felt the familiar buzz of your phone in your pocket.
Matt: u coming over tonight?
You couldn’t stop your eyes from rolling back in your skull. That probably shouldn’t happen when you get a text from your boyfriend.
Y: can’t, sorry. Going out with Genya M: ok- have fun. Make good choices. Y: wtf does that mean M: just to make good choices? Jesus does everything have to be a fight? Y: i’m not trying to fight omg Y: i’ll just talk to you later M: k
K. He had some fucking nerve.
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Across campus, Nikolai wasn’t having much better of an evening.
"Do I have to?"
"Yes." Aleks's tone was final; Nikolai knew there was no point in trying to bargain with him at this point.
"Jesus, fine." Nikolai’s fate had been decided and it was now mandatory that he go to the Delta Chi party that night. And here he had been looking forward to a quiet evening alone with his guitar and journal...
"It'll be fun, you sad sack. And I really want you to meet Alina," Aleks chastised.
"I didn’t know you missed my irreplaceable company quite this much."
Aleks gently threw a pencil across the table at his head. "Maybe you'll even catch a new fish of your own, huh?" he said with an obnoxious smirk. Nikolai just chuckled, nodding noncommittally before heading off to his bedroom.
It's not that he didn’t want to go. Well, he didn’t, really. But normally, he would. It’d been about a month since he called it off with the girl he met in Statistics. And it's not like he even missed her all that much- he knew she wouldn’t be around long from the start. But he was still stuck in the “mope in his room, write songs about heartbreak” phase of his healing. Because of such, he hadn't felt like partying much lately, but he’d blown off Aleks the last 3 weekends...he wasn't going to let Nikolai say no again.
Nikolai figured the least he could do is try and look presentable. It was unlike him to spend as much time in sweats as he had; his sense of style had always been impeccable. He was a man who knew he was handsome and knew the best way to broadcast just that. He pulled out tight black jeans and paired them with a powder blue button down with the sleeves rolled up, maybe a couple of the top buttons left undone. He pushed his golden hair back out of his hazel eyes and scrutinized himself in the mirror. To his horror, he looked like he hadn't had a good night of sleep in a week, which was true. Overall, it could have been better, but it could be worse. With a sigh, he grabbed his phone and keys before going out to find Aleks.
They got to the Delta Chi house, and there were already a few guys passed out on the lawn. Nikolai wasn’t surprised, but it was only 10:30. They must have been freshmen. Aleks lead the way to the porch where a petite dark haired girl turned around and beamed at them.
"You're late!" she says with a clearly fake pout. Aleks leaned in to kiss it away and Nikolai looked everywhere but at them.
"Sorry, sorry, I know. Miss Princess here had to be dragged out of his cave," he laughed at his expense. "Alina, this is Nikolai. Nikolai, Alina."
"Nice to finally meet you," Alina smiled. She's cute, he can give Aleks that.
"I’ll have you know I was not in a cave. I was waxing poetic about love lost, heartbreak and what have you,” Nikolai smirked as Alina laughed.
"Genya and her new roommate are already inside," Alina said, grabbing Aleks's hand.
Thank god. Not that he didn't want to spend time with them or get to know Alina, but he didn't really want to watch them suck face and play third wheel all night. Genya had been a friend of theirs since Freshman year- she smoked them down at a random dorm party and she'd been part of the gang ever since. Nikolai pushed through the crowd and made it along with Aleks and Alina to the kitchen. There were fewer people back here and Nikolai felt like he could breathe again.
"Nik," Genya chirped and threw her hands up excitement. "He lives!"
"You saw me Wednesday," Nikolai laughed. “But, I understand. Aleks was desperate for his company too. It must have been unbearable without me.”
"I really didn't think Aleks would get you to come," she said with an easy grin. Genya handed him a cup of what he assumed was beer. "Doesn't matter. You're here now."
They all circled up and chatted for a minute. For once in his life, Nikolai felt like he was noticeably quiet, but he found he didn’t have much to add. They didn’t want to hear about how he managed to cook a meal TWICE last week. Or how he’d written probably a dozen songs, all of them dogshit. Genya was grinning at a story their friend William was telling when she looked over his shoulder and motioned for someone to join them.
"Guys! Guys! This is my new roommate," Genya said. Ah yes, the new roommate. How could Nikolai forget?
New Roommate had wedged themselves into the circle two people away from Nikolai. He looked up from his cup and immediately locked eyes with you. Honestly, the name should have tipped him off. He never, ever thought he’d see you again. There's no way you possibly remember him, right? God, you were still so beautiful.
"Nikolai?" you asked with a tight voice, eyes jumping all around his face. And it's right about then that Nikolai wished he got a little more beauty sleep. Here you were, practically glowing, while he looked like the walking dead.
"Hey," he breathed out. It sounded a lot more desperate than he meant it to, but you always have had that effect on him.
"You guys know each other?" Aleks interjected.
"It's uh, it's been a few years, but yeah," you said with a blush, looking down into your cup. Aleks and Genya both looked at Nikolai with a raised eyebrow. He could feel the sweat pricking along his brow. Fuck, now all eyes were on him...
"Maybe there's a spot open for beer pong. Let's go check it out." Thank you. Subtle, Genya. "You guys can catch up," Genya said walking past you and patting Nikolai on the shoulder. The rest of his friends followed suit and Nikolai was left alone with you, staring not so subtly.
You hadn’t grown an inch. You’d lost the bright red glasses too. But, god, you were still the most gorgeous creature Nikolai had ever laid his eyes on. Really, he couldn't have lost his virginity to a hotter person.
It's your typical boy-meets-girl story. Nikolai first saw you at the rink where he played hockey in high school. Your parents owned the building and seeing as such, you were employed as the kid behind the concession stand. Nikolai remembered the first time he saw you, he thought you looked like a dork. A very hot dork, but a dork all the same. Nikolai began to notice you watching him in particular during practice, which just further flustered his raging teen hormones.
One night, after everyone else had left practice, Nikolai stayed behind and introduced himself to you. He’d never seen such a beautiful mouth and he had to resist the urge to kiss you right then and there. It became habit that he stay after practice and lean against the counter to shamelessly flirt with you. You often had the rink to yourselves by that time, so Nikolai felt like he could really be himself during those hours. He was still figuring out his place in the world and had stuck-up parents who would never approve of him taking you home. But in the lowlights of the concourse, he was allowed to have a crush on you.
Flirting led to making out behind the counter. Making out behind the counter led to hand stuff in your beat up purple van once you locked up for the night. Hand stuff led to him fucking you in the locker room shower. It was both of your first time and it could have been much less hurried. But you were young and inexperienced and horny as fuck and still exploring sexuality. You kept that arrangement up for the next few months until the season ended and Nikolai left that fall for school. He felt like a dick for not saying goodbye to you. It's not in his nature to ghost. It just isn't. He thinks maybe he was still scared of what it all "meant" and how much he really liked you. Maybe this was the universe telling him to make things right with you and make things right for himself.
"Hey, stranger," you said with a lopsided grin. Fuck. Nikolai was so done for if you kept looking at him like that.
"Hey yourself." And Nikolai couldn't help himself when he reached out to you to pull you in a tight embrace. Lucky him, you didn’t push him away and call him a fucking asshole; he thought he would have deserved that. You buried your face into his neck and the hot little puffs of air were doing way more to him than they should. You parted just enough to get a good look at each other.
"You look good," you said with a dark edge to your voice, bottom lip trapped between your teeth. He knew very well what he looked like that night, but you seemed to mean the compliment.
"You look better," he replied earnestly, because it was true. It shouldn't have been this easy to fall right back into things. But it was always different with you. Sometimes, he still thought you were the only one that really understood him without him having to say a word.
"Nikolai Lantsov, you always were a little flirt," you laughed. Your eyes crinkled at the corner and Nikolai thought to himself how beautiful you are when you’re playful. You’re always beautiful. He wanted nothing more than to whisk you away and have you alone. This time, he wouldn’t fuck it up. He wouldn’t let you go. You must have noticed his brain going into overdrive because you say "What's going on up there? What ya thinking?" You pushed a rogue lock of golden hair away from his face.
"Honestly?"
"Honestly."
"I'm thinking about how much I wish we weren't at a frat party right now. I'm thinking about how I want to be selfish and have you all to myself," Nikolai said low so only you could hear. You laughed a little to yourself and looked at him with sparkling eyes.
"I'm not stopping you," you drawled. Fuck. Fuck, ok. This was really happening.
"Let me tell the guys we're leaving and then do you maybe want to get some food?" Nikolai asked hopefully. You just nodded coyly with a small smirk.
"I'll meet you out front." You squeezed his hand once and started pushing your way through the sea of bodies.
Nikolai ran his hands through his hair and took a deep breath before nearly running down to the basement, eager to say goodbye and make his way back to you. Genya, Aleks, Alina, and William were playing each other, a beer pong table stretching between their pairs.
"Where's your old friend?" Genya asked with a shit eating grin.
"We're um. We're actually gonna head out. So, I guess I'll—" but he was immediately cut off by Aleks.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa! Nik, are you leaving with a girl?" he teased.
"Yes. I am." Nikolai looked at him defiantly.
"How do you guys know each other anyways?" Bill asked before launching a shot.
"Just from growing up. High school or whatever," Nikolai mumbled.
"Cmon..." Genya begged.
"Wouldn’t you love to know," he said, voice laced with snark. "I just came down here to say we're fucking leaving!"
"Well then you better not keep your girl waiting," Genya said with a silent kiss in his direction. Nikolai just flipped her off and took his leave.
When he got outside, you were waiting with your hands in your pockets at the bottom of the porch steps. He smiled wide at you and offered a hand, which you seemed happy to take.
"So, are they gonna give me a bunch of shit next time I see them?" you asked as you walked hand in hand to the little strip of 24 hour restaurants on the outskirts of campus.
"Probably. Nothing you can't handle," Nikolai winked. You laughed then a little giggle. It's such a familiar sound and just like that, Nikolai was transported back to the ice rink and you giggling between kisses behind the snack bar.
You made it to one of his favorite delis in town and he offers to buy you a sandwich, which of course you tried to refuse his offer. Nikolai simply won't hear it. He had 5 years of douche baggery to make up for and insisted. You finally conceded and thanked him with the sweetest smile Nikolai had ever seen. You found a table in the corner, away from the door and prying eyes.
"So, how'd you meet Genya?" Nikolai asked.
"We have a writing class together. And we got to talking and became friends. I needed to find a new place cause my old roommate had to drop out and move home. I couldn't afford the place on my own. And I mean, you know how Genya is," you laughed, "I told her all about it one day in class and she offered me a room at her place without batting an eye."
"That does sound like Genya," Nikolai nodded.
"I've only been there like, two hours. But it's been good so far. Genya's been super cool," you said with a smile.
"I can't believe that we've been at the same school this whole time and it's taken this long to find each other," Nikolai said, mostly to himself, but you heard him and reached across the table to grab one of his hands.
"But we did find each other eventually, yeah?" You ran your thumb over his knuckle.
"Yeah," he said, suddenly bashful. Nikolai was seldom flustered. He had nerves of steel and had confidence to spare on his worst days. But you. You cut through him, all the way down to the core, and that made him nervous.
"So," you started, "Tell me about everything Nikolai Lantsov. Surely you've been up to something the last few years."
"Not much interesting to tell," he shrugged. "Been studying history. Writing music here and there to keep myself occupied."
"Girlfriend?"
"Who wants to know?" he asked with an arched eyebrow.
"Shut up," you mumbled into your soda. He doesn't miss the blush that's spreading over your cheeks.
"No. No girlfriend." he paused, considering how honest to be. But fuck it, he owed you candor. "I actually broke up with a girl a little over a month ago." You looked back up at him then, your eyes searching presumably for whether or not Nikolai was still torn up about it. "She wasn’t...she wasn’t right for mw and I guess I was just done. I feel like I should still be sad about it or whatever, but I'm not. I don't miss her. The wallowing and self reflection has been great writing fodder though," he said with a laugh.
"I'm sorry, Nik. You don't deserve that."
"Don't I?" Nikolai looked at you and suddenly felt torn open. "I...I'll never forgive myself for what I did to you." You bit down on your lip and looked out the window. "I regretted leaving you, god, and like a fucking asshole. I regretted leaving you so much. I know saying I'm sorry isn't even close to enough. But god, I'm so fucking sorry." He knew there were tears threatening to fall from his eyes, but he swallowed them down best he could.
"I'm not going to act like it didn't hurt me. Because it really, really did. But I accept your apology, Nik. You know I could never stay mad at you." You paused for a minute before looking at Nikolai with a tiny fire in your eyes. "You know, I'm pretty sure I was in love with you back then."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah."
"Well, I don’t think I ever stopped loving you," He said confidently. Your jaw dropped just for a moment before you're giving him that sexy grin that apparently still drives him absolutely crazy.
"Still?” Nikolai just smirked. "What if you don't know me anymore?" you asked and sucked at the straw in your soda.
"I'd like to." There's a shift in the air between you. Nikolai was sure you could both feel it. It was suddenly too warm in the restaurant and there's too much table separating you. He decided to take his chance. “How do you feel about going back to my place?”
You suddenly seemed very interested in your nail beds, picking anxiously at the skin. “You didn’t ask me if I was seeing anyone.”
Nikolai stalled. He didn’t. You asked about his relationship status and he was so absorbed with letting you know that he was, in fact, single, that he didn’t bother to ask if you were even available. Hadn't you been flirting all night? He'd certainly been flirting. But like you said, maybe he didn't know you anymore. Maybe this was just how you were these days. “Are you...are you seeing someone?”
“Yeah,” you sighed. Maybe it was his own wishful thinking, him hearing the resignation in your voice. Not that he wanted you to be unhappy. No, you deserved the world and he wanted nothing more than for you to have the sun and the moon and the stars. But, maybe there was still a chance for him yet. “His name is Matt. We’ve been together for like, a year or so.”
“Matt.” He let the name burn his tongue. “You love him?”
“Nik…” you warned.
“Just a question.”
“It’s more complicated than that.”
“Just my two cents here,” Nikolai started, leaning back into the booth, “But you deserve to be with someone you can gush about. Someone who when you get asked if you love them, you don’t think twice and say ‘they’re the love of my life!’”
“And you don’t think that’s him?” you said, huffing. “You think that’s you?”
“There’s a chance,” he smirked. “All that aside, I’m very glad fate has brought us together again.”
“Yeah, yeah,” you laughed. “I missed you too.” You looked at your phone quickly. “Shit, I should get going. I have a shift at 9 tomorrow.”
“Let me walk you home,” Nikolai insisted, standing from the booth and helping you into your jacket.
“Always such a gentleman,” you smiled, tapping him gently on the nose before walking ahead of him.
The walk to your and Genya’s place felt too short. Nikolai had made this trek, both intoxicated and sober, and it always seemed much longer. But now he was at your front door, hands shoved in his pockets as he shifted his weight from foot to foot. “If you don’t want to hang out again, I understand, but I need you to tell me now if you think it’s a bad idea,” he rushed out.
“Of course I want to see you again,” you said, rolling your eyes. “So dramatic. We can still be friends, right?”
“We can be best friends,” he smiled.
“I’m glad I ran into you tonight.”
“Likewise.”
You were both clearly just trying to prolong the evening at this point. Nikolai took it upon himself to put you both out of your misery and pulled you into his arms again. You gripped his torso tightly, melting your body against his. He held you close, both strong arms wrapped around your shoulder while he tucked your head under his chin. After a moment, he pulled back enough to leave a gentle kiss on your forehead.
“Get some sleep,” he whispered, his breathing a little hard.
“Ok,” you croaked, nodding. Nikolai stepped out of your space then, squeezing your hand one last time before walking back out to the sidewalk, waiting and watching to make sure you got inside safely.
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ran-orimoto · 3 years ago
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FRONTIER FEST✨✨✨✨✨
Oh lol I’ve managed to bring my ass to do this, what the heck. I’ll do the first four, I guess.
1 First memory of Frontier
My country (Italy!)’s opening. It was like 2012/2013 when I opened the door to the Digimon world and I started by listening to italian openings. Eventually I obviously landed on Frontier and its badass one!
2 What do you like the best about the series? Alternately, how does it continue inspiring you?
Frontier might be one of the most hated seasons of the franchise and I can see why: the flaws are clear, the characters are fleshed in a kinda poor way, the last arc of the season is a total mess and so much more. Well, what I love about Frontier is exactly what it could have been. It’s weird, I know, but I’m in love with its wasted potential. Don’t misunderstand me, I loved this season also because I genuinely enjoyed a lot of scenes and ideas, but what makes me love it even more is what could have been with better-fleshed characters. They left a lot of fantasy to the watcher, the fantasy to imagine tons of what ifs about this oneric world they left behind.
LIKE, FRONTIER, TELL ME ABOUT IZUMI’S AND JUNPEI’S FAM??? The manga says Junpei comes from a wealthy, refined family. WHY HAVE YOU STOPPED AT THEIR SOCIAL STRUGGLES??? No really, it pisses me how Junpei and Izumi’s family are the only families we don’t know a thing about🤣. It’s like if they wanted to represent the loneliness of these two in that way as well.
Another aspect I really love about Frontier is that I adore imagining it as a dream, or better, I love imagining the whole journey these kids had was only useful for them to grow up, becoming a mere dream once they reached that goal. Even if my favourite hc of mine, of my fucked up mind, is that sooner or later they will forget about this dream, and, why not, many past flaws will surface within them. I like draw and angsty stuff, don’t judge me🤣. The whole <<Digimon can’t enter real world>> thing gives me these vibes.
3 What are your hopes for the “official” Digimon Frontier 20th anniversary?
Idk, I’m very happy we got that artwork of them in fancy party outfits, so I hope new artworks about the bbies and, why not, some new cool cards like the ones Digimon Tamers’ characters have had; you know, those with the 3D perspective.
4 Favourite main character (Human)
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Grumpy, clumsy, glutton, wise, brave, kind, romantic electric beetle son. I mean, I’ve broken his tag. What can I even say? I admit now my love for him is on the stars because of the drama. Seeing him taking on opera singing and being so into my country makes me hope for him to move here and eat as much as he wants 🤣. Ahaha returning serious, he’s one of the most detested Digimon characters because of reasons I can’t explain. People depicting him as a pervert whereas he only has got an innocent crush on the main girl; people saying he’s an annoying brat whereas they don’t even try understanding how relatable his character is: feeling so hopeless and inferior than others and trying finding worth in yoursef? Heck if I’ve been there! Minchia. And it’s a daily struggle I still face, so I feel him greatly. I also love how he seems not to be that close to the other kids in the drama -except Izumi- anymore. Idk I kinda feel like the group has been too mean towards him in many circumstances; I would have thrown them all off the cliff when everyone laughed about him trying being the leader or when everyone accused him of having peeped on Izumi WHILE HE HAD BEEN THERE, WITH THEM THE WHOLE TIME BEING. Honestly wtf, I woukd habe written the first episode I’ve mentioned in a much more different way because I would have made him really vacillate about the trust he has got in them.
Then there is Izumi too…But she’s a complete mess of a character. Ton of potential they have thrown in the WC. Being a girl, I feel offended by her character, by the way she’s connected to such a frivolous arc, to her random mean attitude. Still I love her a ton because, again, of what she could have been besides an annoying sexualized presence in the franchise.
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Aww Betty's revenge. Even then, she still went fairly easy on them considering what they did to her lol. That whole bit of the story is also very well developed, and enjoyable. Betty had a whole whirlwind of emotions to deal with and a process to go through there. But the way she ended her vengeance on Armando and Mario by exposing the truth and putting the letter on their reports was just *chef's kiss 😏Brilliant writing there imo
Yeah Armando and Marcela had this weird relationship. And it sucks that Armando couldn't even have his parents for himself, because even that he had to share with Marcela. What's worse is that in their eye's, Marcela was always the victim, and she always came off as a better child to them than Armando. Like when Roberto tells Armando right before the board meeting that "they'd never forgive him" had he decided to cancel the wedding when he confirmed to Marcela that the wedding was still on. I mean, I imagine any parent would be annoyed if their son/daughter canceled their wedding hours before, but responding "we would have never forgiven you" even before they have taken the opportunity to hear why, is cruel. They completely invalidated his feelings and made his choice to marry all about them. It's sad, because Marcela wasn't at fault here, but in a sense M & A were also competing for Margarita and Roberto's affection and parental approval as well. Marcela was the model child, the mature one, the one that attended to them, picked them up from the airport, keep them up to date about the company, and overall stayed out of trouble. Meanwhile, Armando was more disconnected from them, more prone to trouble, and had issues with communicating with his parents. So that's even more resentment to add onto their already damaged and dysfunctional relationship 😔.
I've seen people arguing that Marcela's hate for Betty was reasonable from the beginning because she covered Armando's infidelity, but so did Calderon (and pretty much every employee in the office). Marcela knew this yet she didn't mistreat Mario at all. She was just terrible to Betty for no justified reason from the start. She did display some moments of empathy and female solidarity in the workplace, but it was mostly in situations that she felt identified in (ex. Sofia vs. la pupuchura & Aura Maria and Freddy's on-again & off again romance). When her ego, and social class were on the line, that empathy went out the door. Like when she prohibited el cuartel from attending the launch just to prove her authority over Betty and back up her childish friend Paty .🤷🏽‍♀️
Oh I'm with you on Mario Calderon. The scenes with Mario and Armando discussing Betty's looks are a guilty pleasure.They're so terrible to Betty, it's so bad yet so hilarious 😭🤣. The impressions of Betty from Mario, his lack of remorse for anything and everything... he was the WORST, but also undeniably hilarious 👀😩. And I'll add Hugo to that list as well. He was such a dick, yet so entertaining to watch. His snidey remarks, total lack of professional attitude towards other employees, and diva behavior.... I love him lol. Fernando Gaitan's writing in this story is amazing, but the actors really brought the characters to life and everybody was perfectly casted in their roles. It's even more noticeable when you see comparisons between the different versions of this story. The original is no doubt the best.
Uff, i wouldn’t call what Betty did “going easy” at all— she literally gaslighted Armando for months to the point of nearly destroyinghis sanity. She set up everything to make him think she was “cheating” on him with Nicolás and stealing his company away; going to expensive “dates” using Terramoda’s money, touching and even using informal language with Nicolás when she knew Armando was spying on them, and whenever Armando asked wtf was going on, she always told him all was good and that he was the one acting weird and that he was crazy. Like… Armando was already veeeery emotionally and psychologically unstable. What Betty did was just break him further. Even he admits to Calderon that even though all the awful truth came out and he lost everything, he’s deep down grateful because he couldn’t handle any of that anymore ☹️☹️ Betty made a lot of harm to Armando’s mental health, just like Armando did to hers 🥲🥲
Yeah, maybe that explains why Armando is so possessive. He never had anything for himself, not even his parents’ love. Marcela and him had a weird sibling dynamic in that sense 😰😰
Ah, yeah, so many people try to justify Marcela’s actions, but there’s simoly no justification for her attitude at the beginning😔😔 I love Marcela but her misogyny and classism was so blatant.
Mario’s scenes are my biggest guilty pleasure lol like that scenes in which he’s showing Armando the little gifts he got for Betty and they both start singing like a pair of dorks😂😂 or when Armando is practicing what he’ll say to Betty and Calderon has to pretend to be Betty and he just goes :
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😂😂😂 *laughs like Betty*
But yeah Mario was an awful person and soooo manipulative, but he had a great chemistry with Armsndo and never failed to make me laugh lol I love him. I love this whole novela and how it makes me love greatly written characters but awful people lol
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I'm kind of new in the CW fandom, and can't managed to read Karen Traviss, but I see bad opinions about her books. Please, could you explain a little more? Thanks!
I don’t know if I’m the best person to ask this, since I still haven’t finished the novels, so I couldn’t give you a fully accurate answer, but, I can tell you what I think about what I’ve read so far.
First of all, painfully cishet, so with all the tropes and sterotypes this brings. Maybe it wouldn’t bother me so much if I wasn’t a Mean Gay(TM) but I am, so it bothers me quite a lot. It doesn’t help that Traviss is a terf, and as much as one can say separate the art from the artist, the entire vibes of the books make me go “ah yes, it was clearly written by a terf”. Only a terf could be a woman and a rampant mysoginist at the same time.
Secondly, Traviss is very obviously anti Jedi and pro Mandalorians, which ends up with her greatly misinterpreting the Jedi so that she can tell you how better the Mandalorians are. For her, the only good Jedi are her OCs, which to me sounds like something Moffatt would say, and that’s not a compliment at all. You must really be an asshole to dismiss everything someone else created in order to say “only my stuff is good”.
For someone who considers herself so “pro clones” she also seems to do the same thing she does for the Jedi, as in only her ocs are actually deign of note. Also I don’t know what she has against ARC troopers, but she always dunks on them, unless it’s the Null-ARCs which are basically another kind of ARC that she came up with, so it’s still a “only my ocs are good” territory.
Last thing, everything about Kal Skirata, fervent anti-Jedi mysoginist (in a “it’s your fault, female Jedi, for getting pregnant by having sex with a clone, because you should’ve known better, so I’m gonna abuse you and make it so that you’ll be terrified of me and also the kid once they’re born won’t be yours but mine” way) that says stuff that should make any sensible read go wtf are you talking about (the pregnacy one is just one of the many bullshittery he says), but he’s treated by the narrative as a flawless paragon of virtue, which I hate. I’m not against him being that way, because characters can and should have flaws, but I hate that he gets away with all everything he says or does. Even the Jedi ocs, which remember, for Traviss are the only good Jedi, are basically mindless idiots who blindly follow what Skirata says. If he suffered more consequences for the way he is, I would’ve been fine with him, but I guess I couldn’t expect that from what is basically the author’s self insert.
I mean, I don’t know what I expected from someone who thinks that Order 66 is the Big Moment of clone rebellion, and sure you might argue that at the time the stuff with the chips wasn’t a thing yet, but if you think that clones being so blindly loyal to orders that they wouldn’t even think about what they’re doing, you know, like a droid would, is a good thing... I guess you do you, but at that point I would ask myself why would you care so much about characters like that.
Idk, I’m just so disappointed that the clone centric content in all SW canon is this, and even then I wouldn’t know if calling it clone centric would be right, since once Skirata appears he kinda steals the show, but oh well. I’m sad that if you want more clone centric stuff you either have to watch CW which, in the end, isn’t that clone centric at all except for maybe 2 or 3 arcs, the Bad Batch show, which seems to be framed as “The Special Ones VS The Faceless Meat Droids”, so clone centric but only if you are Special, and these books.
If you look around the repcomm tag, you’ll surely find more detailed posts about this by people who have finished the books, which is something that I actually recommend you if you want to get a clearer picture.
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Absolutely love amended but I just can't see the happy ending man.. Surely there's affection between both of them, they care and want the best for each other, for sure. However it seems to me like there are too many flaws for it to work? With the big fight, we have a clear view of how they work with their defense mechanism under pressure and shock and it's not good. To me, there will always be an imbalance in the relationship, because no matter what, you say dumb shit you don't mean when you're angry and Jungkook will throw in the fact it's his money, his house and etc. while Belle will threaten to leave with the kids. It's bound to happen again, I think. And with Belle traumas, I'm quite sure she might, no matter how in love she falls, keep in the back of her mind the fact that Jungkook did pay for everything, that her situation now could be gone in a breath if Jungkook wanted to. But that could be entirely different once she starts her new job (so happy for her) and save enough money—again, her mind might just be full of 'secure the money so the kids can be safe if Jungkook ever kicks us out'? Unhealthy. So there's definitely a stronger one on the relationship, dependence happening. That's not good to me, if they're always going to come back to that fact at some point. Belle has always been on her toes, ready to leave to keep her kids safe and I don't see her fully trusting Jungkook, no matter what. And Jungkook could definitely question her intentions as time flies—if she loves him or if she's here for the money to keep her kids safe! The foundation is fragile, unstable imo. Also, Jungkook is quite childish at times, even if he does a lot of efforts for Belle. He gets hurt too and say stupid stuff, making her even more insecure. They don't communicate very well, do they? Patricia won't be here forever, they only speak their mind when she comes around. And she pointed out how Jungkook would go for the 'easy' explanation when the real one would just hurt Belle, but that would help her understand him. It's hard to change that too! And I don't agree on people blaming Belle only. They're to blame together, one is not wrong and the other right—they have flaws, on different levels, yeah, but that doesn't make one less important than the other. But sooo many, and some are yet to come into the mess of it all, like the basement thing! It's exhausting for both of them. And I'm sure they love each other but sometimes, love's not enough—sometimes things don't go the way you want it to and that's okay. I could see both of them being exhausted time after time because they don't communicate well and have awful defense mechanisms. I could also see Jungkook stuck in there bc he loved Belle when he was young and he loves to provide and he's like a puppy you know? Like he did her wrong in the past and now he's trying his best to make it right, kind of redemption? Blindsinded maybe, not true love. And Belle stuck in there bc she likes Jungkook, sure, but it's safer for the kids and she'll do anything to keep them safe and Jungkook does just that? Not that she would force herself into it but you know. Yeah. Just my thoughts, love you! ♡
This was really sad to me to read because it seems like such a fatalistic view of marriage and relationships. People just aren't perfect, and marriage puts someone right there in the mud with you when you going through shitty phases, but that doesn't mean it's not worth it. You don't have to be a perfect person to be loved or worthy of love. You can love someone at their worst, and I really don't see Isabella or Jungkook being at their worst now. In fact, the opposite, both of them actually feel safe and supported and accepted enough that they're starting to crack open pains and fears they have kept locked up --in some cases their whole lives!-- so that they can finally heal.
There's not really an "ending" in life until you die. There are always new challenges, new opportunities, new opportunities for growth. Does that mean that love and intimacy aren't worth it, that you shouldn't even try until you've reached some impossible place of perfection?
You also don't seem to think they're capable of growth but people are! Some things take years to heal or unlearn, sure, and I'll honestly be expediting some of that growth in the story compared to real life. Maybe that's just a difference in our view of people? I think that people can and do improve if the intent is there, and that intention to be better makes a huge difference. I see the ways Jungkook and Isabella have greatly improved in this story. Just because they aren't done yet doesn't negate all the progress they've made.
I've been married for almost eight years and we are still learning how to communicate, how to live together, how to support each other, and how to understand our own changing needs. Neither me nor my husband are perfect people, and we have had fight much bigger than any Isabella and Jungkook have had, but do I think our marriage isn't worth it? Nah. Even though sometimes we fight over the STUPIDEST fucking stuff. We have grown and changed as people, and it's sometimes been rough, but we've made it work so far. Isabella and Jungkook are just at the very beginning of their relationship and are rapidly learning so much about each other, and rapid growth can be painful, but they’re both invested. Why would that mean it's already time for quits? They haven't even gotten to fighting over fruit left on the counter or how to load the dishwasher or why would you ever NOT immediately clean up the bug you just squashed on the wall or why the fuck no one but me will put the empty toilet paper rolls in the bin THAT IS LITERALLY RIGHT THERE and they just line them up on the windowsill... like... wtf?!
You mention the fights as exhausting but you don't seem to be giving fair weight to the joy that they bring each other most of the time. If their relationship was nothing but fighting, that'd be one thing. You do make some good observations about their flaws and struggles! And I could absolutely have written a very tragic story of their marriage based on guilt and obligation and regret. I see so much love and admiration in their interactions though --playfulness and joy and gratitude. You don't see that too?
I guess this made me sad because it just seems like you are suggesting something should get thrown away because it's not perfect, when marriage is really learning about how to love and compromise on the imperfections.
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villanelle-wlwship · 4 years ago
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Okay but IF supercorp are indeed “just friends” their whole storyline doesnt make sense at all?
- James, Winn, Alex, Jonn and Kelly(??) know Kara is SG... WHY is lena the ONLY ONE being attacked and thrown into court (100th ep) if she knew beforehand that Kara is SG. HOW would other people even know she would know that Kara is SG?? She befriended KARA not supergirl.
If you look at lois and clark. Everyone knew lois was supermans love interest and that made her a target. Because if you could get to lois, you could hurt superman. But Lena just being a friend to KARA doesnt give other people any reason to attack lena for her knowing who supergirl is. In fact they made it very clear that Kara is her hero, not supergirl. So that whole storyline didnt make any sense.
- Second IF THEY ARE JUST FRIENDS. Why is lena the ONLY ONE supergirl bridal carries like that? She bridal carried Kelly once, but she holded her in a very in-fact- friendly way. And Why is lena always the damsel in distress?
- if they are indeed JUST FRIENDS, why is Lena only relevant for the “superfriends” if she is in good terms with Kara? And why isnt she just as hurt about her “friends” lying to her for YEARS. And why are Lena and Jonn not in the same position as Lena and Kara in this moment because HE LIED TO HER FOR YEARS about being a martian?!
- 5A..wtf was that?! It was literally a fckng love story with romantic music, romantic scenes, parallels with kelly/alex with russel/andrea.. like 🤷🏻‍♀️ WHY and WHAT was that? Buying Lena lunch from three different countries because she wants her lunch “to be perfect”.. this whole part of the season made me SO excited and it was absolutely the FIRST time they had me believe they would make them canon.. the picture scene, seriously???????? WHAT WAS THAT? i was screaming, my whole timeline was screaming... i never believed they would go there for a second until 5A I WAS HAPPY WITH MY FANFICS FANART and inside jokes with the fandom!!
And then it all exploded in 5B.. like honestly? Why WRITE 5A like THAT????? WHY? I HONESTLY want some answers because i think a lot of people are hurt, frustrated and done because of all of this and then getting blocked and attacked and hated on by other viewers, the crew and the cast.
If they had invested in the whole william/ kara thing from the start of 5A and never gave us this much MAINtext because it fckng was, between supercorp. It would have hurt less and I personally could have lived with it, if the season was greatly written because i love Kara Danvers, I love the Danvers Sisters, I love Kelly, i love the friendship between Nia and Kara, i love Brainy i love everything about that. But they honestly destroyed everything? So for season six IF IM EVEN GOING TO WATCH (dont think so) but i HOPE we get:
- Danvers sisters as main storyline like season one.
- Alex / Kelly a decent well written love story
- Bring the alex wanted to be a mother storyline back?
- give kelly her own story as a therapist helping Kara, Lena, and Alex
- Make Catco relevant again, Nia and Kara being the journalist team and show us growth for Nia as a reporter maybe even winning a pulitzer at the end of the season. And let her use her powers (dreaming the future) to make great stories for Catco?? Andrea being the CEO would be cool
- turn William into a villian i think that could work because his story was useless in season 5.
- Make lena our strong female empowerment CEO again, i loved her so so much and they destroyed her whole character for the sake of drama!
And finally MAKE THE SHOW ABOUT SUPERGIRL AGAIN!! let her be the hero again fighting villains, lena providing her suits and weapons and shit.
And last but not least STOP.WITH.THE.QUEERBAIT!
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mysticalmusicwhispers · 4 years ago
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HELLO sorry i had an extremely busy past week so i left this to stew for weeks T_T (my term break was Not a term break in any sense of the word. f)
OH OF COURSE SHE HAS A BLACKLIST.... vietnam keeping a list of students who are Brats is really so valid.. i'm willing to bet that in future when that dubious list of students grows up many of them will go on to commit morally dubious acts lmaoo including yao himself. and if they get arrested or if rumors spread she'll just be like "lol called it"
Also yes go get her friendship Aditya hopefully it will mellow you out a little as well - YEAHH their personalities are like. polar opposites tbh because he's Dramatic And Extroverted and she's very much Not... but for some reason i can just see them really bonding (over things like coffee if i had to make a guess though i haven't really thought about these two in depth.. )
“Admissions officers think Yao’s amazing and contributes greatly to the classroom environment and Vietnam is like “yeah, in a way, as long as you don’t mind someone who thinks every word you say is somehow wrong and will fight you to prove it lol. just take him, I’m trying to get rid of him”
JUST TAKE HIM I'M TRYING TO GET RID OF HIM THIS IS SO FUNNY WTF also aww baby yao's Going Places!! he comes back for like teacher's day or something and vietnam is like "okay so how many of your teachers and your classmates have you antagonised" and yao's like "my teachers love me and my classmates fear me. or they're begging me to help with their homework. or they're potential friends/accomplices >:)" and vietnam is like ugh love to see that you're terrible as usual
Since there’s essays involved I’m assuming she teaches either history or literature? Kinda on the fence because I feel like she’d be good at giving a no-nonsense version of history filled with interesting details and prompts that make you think (and also hosts monthly debates on controversial issues), but I also want Yao to be as un-confident as possible in his abilities in her class, and I feel like he would be less comfortable/sure of his answers and thoughts in a lit class than a history one. I’m not sure though
honestly i would really want her to teach lit so bad but history would be so cool too.. as someone who suffered through lit for the first month of school (though i think i'm getting the hang of it now :D) i also want yao to suffer through the feelings of inadequacy when the teacher gives an evaluation that is COMPLETELY different from yours while also awkwardly trying to tell you your evaluation is wrong without crushing your ~passion for learning~ or something... but at the same time vietnam has such strong history vibes??? and they would probably clash over like different methods of historiography and methods for interpreting sources BUT historiography isn't really taught in-depth here at high scholl level ... And at the same time lit is the best place for one to feel Insecure so i really don't know because vietnam has such History/art vibes.. i think you should decide this i have no idea 😔
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“she'll just be like "lol called it"” that’s such a mood honestly, watching your former bratty students grow up to be bratty adults 😅 At least Vietnam’s predictions for the future are vindicated and she gets self satisfaction from it lol. (maybe she sends emails to them sometimes like ‘are you aware that people think you committed tax fraud’ and the reply is just a simple ‘yes. sincerely, Yao’ lmao)
ooh yeah I think they’d be interesting; definitely agree with what you said about India being really flamboyant and Vietnam being more honest/down to earth and definitely someone who hates when people put on airs (which Aditya does to a fairly large extent...). I think she’d like him just a tad more because he isn’t super condescending and gets along with his classmates pretty well; she knows he’s trying to impress her (lollolll they’re all trying to get teacher points for recommendations) but at least he’s friendly and participates in class and stuff. Also I think India’s good at small talk, makes an effort in getting to know people, and is very emotionally in tune with other’s feelings (even if he’s a bit stupid/oblivious sometimes) so even if Vietnam is kinda closed off to him at first (she’s nicer to him than Yao though, that’s for sure) he can get along with her quickly by picking up on what she likes talking about and accommodating her interests. Yao could theoretically be charming like Aditya but he just doesn’t make an effort lol. YES to bonding over coffee, especially raging about how Starbucks is Inferior™™™™ (idk if Aditya would drink coffee but I think Vietnam brews her own Vietnamese iced coffee at home and bring it to class because she needs Fortification for putting up with Indchuran lol.) However, I also want to see her popping his bubble and whenever he’s exaggerating one of his accomplishments, Vietnam just shuts him right down. “No, he actually didn’t go all out; I’ve had students turn in whole ass dioramas for that project so your meager offerings are nothing special :}” (Vietnam has the pleasure of crushing each of their egos in turn hehehe)
Yao came back to visit her!!! Looks like someone caught feelings (platonically ofc) :) She sees right through his excuses for coming back and is like “haha bastard you got sentimental and Attached to me >:)”, but then Yao proceeds to remind her exactly why that’s a bad thing lmao (also... what if... we smashed this au and bros for life together.... and Vietnam is the first person to see that they’re hopelessly pining on one of their visits to see her..........and she calls them out on it....o-o)
“"my teachers love me and my classmates fear me. or they're begging me to help with their homework. or they're potential friends/accomplices >:)"” LOVE TO SEE YOU’RE TERRIBLE AS USUAL ALDSjSDLSD Yao dashed my hopes of him becoming somewhat of a model member of society but seeing him as an unchanging bastard is still quite alright. Headcanon that Yao really hates helping with homework though, because he’s like “WHY DON’T YOU GET THIS” after about 5 seconds of trying to explain something. Pity, he would be good at teaching if only he had the patience for it :} Also I propose that he really hates that teaching isn’t enjoyable for him because it would be great blackmail material (i.e. “if you do this to me I’ll stop giving you the answers to the problem sets *winks in a threatening manner*”)
SAME literature is the one class that makes you thoroughly question your comprehension and understanding of everything in life everything ever written, but HISTORY. she would be such a fun history teacher and I can see her having her students really dig into events for themselves and make their own evaluations of why things happened and who’s “right”. YES THEM CLASHING OVER HISTORIOGRAPHY hmm... maybe we could get around historiography not being covered much by having Yao be Extra™? For example, maybe one day Vietnam offhandedly mentions there’s a lot of interpretations around x period (and whether it was a success or failure) depending on which type of historiography you subscribe to; Yao, who was already feeling strongly on the subject, does some research (“what is historiography” “interpretations of x” *rabbit hole of articles ensues*) and then goes to class the next day armed with 10 sources and a full on debate about the subject ensues, resulting in him being late to lunch by half an hour. 
What about a compromise, where Yao has a ferocious literature teacher (who??? idk) but Vietnam is teaching history, and when he gets comfortable in her class he starts complaining about the lit teacher and she thinks oh finally, a teacher that he’s intimidated by. I am at peace now. 😌. 
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austenwharton · 4 years ago
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midnight sun thoughts!!
I have finished conquering Midnight Sun. here are my final and initial thoughts (more will come after all 600whatever pages have time to marinate)
-Edwin sux. Charlie has the right idea
-seriously, seeing bella hurt in the hospital and only focusing on wanting to leave her?? wtf man. read the room.
-I hate Edward a lot. i also love him. i also think Bella deserves better. I also think (especially Bella in Eclipse... the bella who dumps jacob after he gets injured in a battle about her, parallelism!!) deserves Edward exactly how he is.
-it is really strange seeing Bella through his eyes. it's very.... infantilizing. he sees her as such a child. it is greatly at odds with her view of herself.
-Rosalie deserves better. I refuse to believe that she would not have helped Bella with the James situation. I refuse to believe that someone who survived an assault would not help another woman.... and that the only reason she would help was bc emmett might face trouble as a result. I refuse to believe that smeyer. learn how to write woman. 
-we deserve SO MUCH MORE esme characterization. Esme is so bland like... please give us something i want more esme!! 
-renee sucks, too. i wish we'd gotten, either in this book or any of the original saga, some view of esme filling the role of bella's mother, since smeyer wants esme to only be a mom and have no other discernible personality traits.
-still so full of misogyny and racism. HOW have editors allowed this to happen?? this book can't be shielded by the thin excuse of "well, 2005 wasn't a socially conscious time." okay, it is never acceptable for the white man being painted as the hero to fantasize about destroying a very real tribe, not in 2005, not in 2020. wtf smeyer.
-I tend to think that Twilight and New Moon are the most compelling books in the saga because of the element of fantasy. They're more interactive for the reader. Edward's absence in both of the novels allows for the reader to mold him better to their image... i could go on and on about this, but i want to keep it short. I find it so funny that Edward shares this point of view. the amount of times he fantasizes about Bella's life without him, but yet he is still somewhere in the shadows, watching. idk about y'all, but i imagined this exact scene in middle school when i read New Moon for the first time, hoping that maybe bella & jacob could get together, and edward would be watching from the shadows, remorseful. 
-idk if i can reread this one in the way that I can reread the others (well, apart from breaking dawn). the first 300 pages or so (and the scene in the ballet studio) were straight up difficult for me to read, especially when edward was fighting between "the monster" and himself. i have an anxiety disorder, and it reminded me a lot of my own brain on a bad day... fighting against intrusive thoughts, and it would get kind of triggering for me. it makes me wonder about smeyer... 
-i tried to read the meadow scene outside, under the southern sun, to feel something, but i ended up getting chased inside by a big hornet. i feel like that represents bella and edward's relationship. 
but yeah, all in all, i can't tell if i really hate this book or if i think it's just fine. it's so weird. the fact that there's a car chase scene... wow, just... wow. i do not think i could handle the rest of this series from eddie's eyes, and i'm very glad smeyer has said that she can't do it. as i think about it, the only thing i would like is to hear alice get mad at edward about leaving bella in new moon, but i am sure someone has written a fanfic that does better than smeyer could!!
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