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whoaaaa fiona tumby rub permitted
#cats man#yard cats#she’s recovering very nicely!!#also she’s decided my feeding schedule works for her so now i get scolded if i’m late#dismantled most of her baby jail but not all of it#i think she likes having a safe little hidey hole that she can choose to be in or not#but the chicken wire was getting on my damn nerves so it’s gone now
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tis the season !
#the charcuterie board was devoured and ppl rly loved the cookies and the dates r usually popular#and the baked brie too!!!#and then ppl brought their own assortment of treats and drinks as well#i rly enjoyed my blackberry orange drink personally#my gf’s friend does really beautiful pottery and all the food she brought was in her gorgeous homemade pieces#was so fun i love feeding ppl and making things look pretty and festive#my gf did the insane lettering on the drink menu#and decorated so cutely#and then we all went to the halloween event at the amusement park afterwards and it was fun and cold and misty#and i mostly sat outside of haunted houses while they walked thru them haha#i struggle rly rly bad to recover from being startled and sometimes it just. turns into a panic attack even if im not like Scared?? idk#it’s stupid my body just can’t distinguish real danger from fun danger very well#but they had these “’no boo”’ necklaces i could wear so actors would then just interact w me nicely and creepily instead of jumping at me#which was still fun :-)#bummer tho i hate being mentally illlllllll#and rly embarassing bc the necklaces lit up rly bright so it was like i was wearing an im-a-weenie beacon#lolll#also shoutout to my mutual who recognized me while i was waiting for my friends and stopped to say hi LMAO that was crazy#won’t name names so i don’t dox u#but i’ve never been recognized from tumblr before was a very i like your shoelaces moment😭😭😭#top 10 most embarassing things to happen to me ever but thanks for saying hi !!!#personal
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my 1 (one) stardew opinion is shane should not have won the bachelor poll
#stardew valley#like i love shane but his storyline is not improved by him being a marriage canidate#if anything his bland post-marriage dialogue and 14 heart event dampen the message#and clint would have been a GREAT bachelor#linus not so much because he would have suffered from the same post-marriage dialogue dampening as shane#and he's too much of a free spirit to be tied down to your farm#like maybe he'd have a similar romance path as krobus? like you don't get MARRIED married but you have a commitment ceremony!!!#and the wizard... need to be in a love square with the witch and caroline...#his hidden dialogue. the situation with abigail. his adulterous past. his condescending behavior towards the player.#i also don't think he'd marry the player though. would probably make you soul bonded or something#maybe it increases your health or smth? and if you get divorced your health gets cut in half for like a week while you slowly recover#idk i really like the idea of him cursing you if you divorce him. 'not a very mature way to express anger' my ass#clint... i need to marry him...#there's a mod which makes his storyline WAYYY too similar to shane for my liking#with him going to therapy and stuff#but it DID make him realize being around emily makes him uncomfortable which i really like#i think a good route for him to go down would be him recognizing that what he feels for emily is not love or even desire#it's anxiety. emily is nice to him which makes him uncomfortable because no one is nice to him#which he confuses for attraction and he confuses her kindness for reciprocation#i think if emily ever asked him out he would turn her down#like emily would come up to you and be like 'hey i realize clint has a crush on me and i think it's really sweet so i'm gonna ask him out'#and then she does and he just goes 'O-O erm... no thank you...'#which confuses emily but she accepts being turned down and later on#clint talks to you about it like 'i thought that was what i wanted but her asking me out made me really uncomfortable and i don't know why'#and in a romance route he gets with you specifically because you make him feel calm :)#originally i wanted to say this was my most controversial stardew opinion but a LOT of people hate shane. so#also emily shouldn't have won the poll either!!!#sandy would have been a MUCH better option to flesh out her character and the desert more#marnie would have been interesting considering her relationship with mayor lewis#and i hate penny so i would fuck her mom out of spite lmaoooo
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when you and your girlfriend leave the call on all night for 12 hours just so you can imagine you’re sleeping together
tis a ✨wonderful feeling✨
#i wish she was here with me#holding me#hugging me#petting my hair#i love her so so much#it was so nice to sleep with her#even if it was from very far away#i’m just so in love right now#your local ✨aroace lesbian✨ may never recover from her love#oh no oh dear but i’m fine with that hehehehe#aromantic#asexual#aroace#queerplatonic#qpr#lesbian#sapphic#sapphic qpr#sapphic aroace#long distance#long distance qpr#long distance girlfriend#our aroace adventure
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obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog
Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️
Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D
#guys help is it time for a rebranding?? am I just gonna post about f1 now??#I still can’t believe this has all started because bestie and I were watching Ted Lasso (because I’ve been obsessed with that show for a#while now too) and I paused the episode to talk about how I really like the way Jamie interacts with kids (I’m sorry people being good with#and nice to kids is one of my weaknesses I work with kids now and have been invested in treating kids well forever)#so me saying that apparently reminded her of max and she showed me a video of him with p and yeah it was very effective in making me like#him and then we left the episode on pause and she told me a lot about f1 and max specifically cause I was interested now lmao (funny thing#is that she also got roped into it by our other friends I swear it’s speeding lmao#she also compared him to Jamie from Ted lasso (if you know you know) and showed me some heart wrenching Taylor swift edits (i haven’t#emotionally recovered yet) and yeah that’s how I started consuming way too much f1 content on YouTube and got into this whole mess lmao#oh yeah our friends also made me and another friend make a Tier list for all the drivers based on vibes alone (cause I only knew a bit about#max at that time and the other one knew nothing really) which was very funny too#especially looking back at it (we did some of them so dirty lmao 😂)#I’ve also come to the conclusion that tumblr is still one of the least annoying platforms to engage with other people (still)#YouTube is full of hate comments about drivers and stuff it’s so annoying actually#not to mention Twitter but I don’t go there and probably never will 😂#I personally don’t enjoy fics and scenarios and shipping of real people cause it makes me a bit uncomfy (not judging people who do#you do you as long as it doesn’t negatively affect anyone#but yeah I’d much rather just scroll by those here than have to look away from all the mindless hate and which driver is better discussions#everywhere else like I’m not one to engage with stuff like that but it does upset me to some#degree so yeah tumblr making memes and being rather positive about their drivers (most of what I’ve seen here of course there are gonna be#annoying people everywhere) is much more tolerable and a lot more enjoyable for me#whoops this post got away from me again oh dear#I’ve had the idea for a meme stuck in my head for days now: Max verstappen but make it if you don’t love me at my *swearing on team radio#giving spicy replies and attitude to the media maxplaining and complaining going for risky overtakes* you don’t deserve me at my *precious#interactions with p talking about his cats being a goofball with other drivers and especially danny defending other drivers driving#beautifully in the rain* it’s a package deal you can’t just pick and choose and personally I don’t even get why people complain about some#of the other stuff I appreciate someone who’s passionate and honest and genuinely kind where it matters 🤷🏻♀️#I think I’ve seen someone else say that but the more people complain about and criticize max the more I feel the need to defend him#god forbid women have hobbies for real (can’t believe I’ve yapped so much I can’t put more tags 💀)#also shoutout to Oscar Piastri and Danny Ric (I was so happy Oscar won even tho McLaren where being very silly in a not so funny way)
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I have stopped giving Olive her painkillers (her dose of 1nce a day for 3days was all done) and despite this she seems so happy and purring and loving still and loves up on her dog cage. And starts purring when i put her e-collar on and knows after we have hang out time it's time to go back into her cage. I think she genuinely just is lovey right now and loves her dog cage tbh. She keeps rubbing her cheek glands all over it. I've heard of crate training cats in a similar way to dogs and this might just be like her chillnice zone dot com now
#After she's all done recovering from her surgery I might just like keep the dog cage open in a room for her#And if she seems to like it in there I might just keep it out for her#I DID do it up very nice for her this time around. I know more now#I got her a bed at the pet store that she LOVES and I specifically got a size that'd fit nice in there#And then I took the other side of the cage and put one of my old pillows in there that she liked laying on#So almost everywhere in the cage is nice and soft for her to lay on#Except for a lil corner with her food and water dishes and where her litterbox is#When I did it up before for her I tried making it comfortable but I piled up sheets and old clothes and towels for her#Which is not nearly as comfy as it is now ... it's nice to see her snuggled up in there and purring like 90% of the time#I DID get really surprised by the fact that I wpuld need a dog cage the 1st time#they didn't tell me until it was almost time to pick her up so I was like fuuck#I do think she's not 100% comfortable in there cause like. She is recovering from a surgery which is just like#Yeah she's got a big wound on her belly#But she's doing well and I've been through this with her before and she's been through this before#So we both have more experience with this now we know how it goes#She seems to be taking this time around much easier
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going into the lab i work at which is the only public place i'm out in and having my mentor and everyone there call me by my preferred name and validating my gender is soooo !!!!!!!
#also said mentor had surgery a bit ago and is still recovering#so she's been having me help lift heavy stuff#and i half jokingly was like “tbh it's very gender validating so please dw about asking me to do it!!”#and then next time we had to carry smth she gave me the heavier thing#and just very lovingly and genuinely went#“since you're so big and strong”#….. 🫣😳#also she reintroduced me to a mutual acquaintance of ours very excitedly#who was so sweet and said my name was awesome :’) she seemed so genuine too auuugh it was so nice#and then my mentor was just like ‘yes!! i know right that seems to be the consensus with everyone’ 🥺#anyway i love my name and i love when people use it >:) and i love having ppl in my life who see me#and love that version of me#and not just love but validate that version of me too!! it’s soo…. everything 2 me tbh#or not version but like…. the me that i’ve been all along that they’re (and honestly me too) seeing clearly for the first time#silas speaks#trans#transblr#trans joy#transmasc#trans things#transgender#trans positivity#bones
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Yeah sure growing up abused may have left me with permanent scars on my psychological state that I'm still working to unpack, but on the bright side it gave me the ability to give a thoughtful in depth analysis of Roald Dahl's Matilda and all of its adaptations
#rambling#i love matilda so much. its such an important story to me. its literally just an abused childs power fantasy#where she gets to get back at the people who hurt her and protect other kids and then get a new loving family and everything is alright#my gf and i just watched the movie adaptation of the musical and we have Opinions on it. some good and some bad#so weve been discussing it and analyzing different parts of it#and its kinda nice to get to use my history for something good#to be able to give thoughtful analysis on how the changes they made in this adaptation have changed the allegory for abuse in the story#from the perspective of someone who grew up with that#and to just. have that be normal. my gf knows my history and its not gonna stop the conversation if i say#'this change works well for trunchbull's character bc it makes her seem more like a real life abuser'#'this detail is very subtle but it really captures some tiny part of the experience of growing up with an abuser'#'i dont like this bc it detracts from the narrative of the main character feeling alone and makes it less relatable to abused kids'#'i dont like this because while it IS something that happens under abuse it detracts from the fantasy where the kids all win together'#idk. of course everything that happened to me as a kid was awful and should not have happened but like#for a long time i had this problem where i didnt know how i was ever supposed to be okay about that#like no matter how much therapy i go through it will never UN-happen. it will always still have happened and it will always have been awful#and i couldnt figure out how i was supposed to recover from that besides 'bury it and try your hardest to never ever think about it'#and. i think maybe this is it. yes the abuse i went through was awful. thats kind of the whole thing about abuse#but. its also just a fact of my life. im better NOW. but that will not change what happened then#the abuse was awful. but the fact that i am an abuse survivor is a neutral fact. the same as any other fact from my childhood#its just a fact. a part of my past. and maybe being able to talk about it that way is... good for me#i dont have to break down when i think about it bc im okay now. my partner doesnt need to stop me and express sorrow for me bc im okay now#i can talk about my past in a neutral way and use my life experience to analyze movies#the same way that i used my experience of growing up in arkansas to analyze hollywood hillbillies when we watched it together#theyre both just two facts of my life. and analyzing movies is fun#that woman has no power over me anymore and hasnt for many many years. im okay now#abuse mention#child abuse mention#request to tag
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finally, at long last, booted up my ds to poke around albw again and. aaaarrghhh < person who forgot the controls
#libra.txt#it's literally fine i just booted up my most recent save file so that i didn't have to go poking around from the very beginning#forgot how pretty some of the scenery is#like..... it's gonna be SO fun designing my swamp champion.#also like.... figuring out names for places instead of all the doom and gloom names they have in albw lorule#after the kingdom recovers!!! it's gonna need better names right!!!!#although also really funny if i introduce the people first and hilda's like 'aww wow these people are so nice and cheerful i like them :-)'#and then she finds out they are from the Misery Mire#idk the dichotomy or whatever#subverted expectations. who knows
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This has to be the saddest Christmas me and my family ever had
#I try to make the best out of it but still#I feel so sorry for my mom since she got a very bad flu (after just recovering from Covid) which completely blew up our usual plans#so for her Christmas this year just sucks and that sorta means it sucks for me too. not as much as for her but y’know#still makes me sad#for her and because I love our Christmas traditions and those are sorta screwed this year#Christmas Eve was nice at least#I hope she feels better soon#yeah sorry for this rambling but I had to get it out and I can tell no one else#I know there’s people whose holidays suck more so I shouldn’t complain but yeah… I said it before but I’m kinda really sad#writer speaks
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I'm not sure if the vriska su ask is about OP (somehow?) or Marceline Adventure from Adventure Time. Works either way I guess.
I AM ALREADY ON THE GROUND WHY ARE YOU KICKING ME MORE
#YES IT WAS ABOUT ME#sorry that ask only makes sense if you know me personally#i just. very much look like her.#like to the point where one time at a con i was asked if im cosplaying human vriska#which ive never recovered from#but because im nice my dearest mutual keeps telling me im like vriska if she was nice actually
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my great auntie barbara has been a widow for almost 10 years now. uncle jack died in summer 2014. and with my grandfather gone she's without her only brother too. today was the wake for my grandfather and she looked absolutely beautiful, i told her as much, she was the best-dressed lady there. and it's been almost three years since my grandmother died and you could tell there was a different understanding between her and my grandfather whenever they got together. it became more necessary to invite barbara to extended-family events when her husband died, but after grammy died it was just about mandatory. there was just something about the two of them sitting together, brother and sister, in their 90s having lost their life partners, but sitting with the only other person left that they had known for as long, no, even longer. as far back as they could each remember. they both looked like they were in the company of their favorite living person. so it was hard to see her at the wake although she looked beautiful and she always does; she has a wonderful smile. it must be hard to be the last survivor of your generation. i just hope she goes home and she has something that makes her feel not so lonely.
#tales from diana#after grammy died it could be hard to see grampy. bc he was (i still have to remind myself to use past tense) WAS a very reserved man.#grammy was always the talker. not to mention he was extremely hard of hearing. so he often missed out on convos anyway#grammy would fill him in back when she could.#he was just so much lonelier without her. you could tell he had a personal awkwardness. it's surprising he lasted so long a widower#he turned 95 in july. 95. i dont think anyone in my family has ever lived that long!#who knows if any of them ever will again...#but yeah. it was always nice at parties or weddings when grampy and barbara got to sit next to each other. you could tell they were content#they liked to talk about old memories and things of the like.#lots of pictures at the wake were from his childhood. the best ones were the ones w their dogs or horses#i also have to wonder what it was like for their parents because their firstborn daughter. claire. born 1927#she died at the age of 2 of whooping cough. and grampy's dad died when he was 18#apparently he never emotionally recovered from losing claire. understandable.#i suppose grampy's not only with grammy but with his parents and with claire again. but poor barbara#i really do feel for her. i can only imagine the pain and sorrow of my children taking me to my brother's funeral.
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When I was 9 I wrote a very autistic letter to my mom for mother's day, meaning in school we were told to like,, list 5 reasons we appreciate our mom or something so I wrote things like "you make me food when I'm hungry and get things off of high shelves that I can't reach" and not anything emotional or sentimental because thats not what the prompt asked for. Anyway I'm incapable of expressing positive emotion to her now for a variety of reasons so I've just been referencing that letter as a joke for the past 14 mothers days and it hasn't steered me wrong yet and I'd like to give a huge thanks to my 3rd grade teachers for giving a vague prompt and to 9 year old me for supplying myself with such reliable material
#personal#mother's day isnt easy when youre contractually obligated to be nice to your mom but you dont actually know that you love her#and actually that was a lie i havent been doing it for 14 years because the card i wrote last year referenced it#but i ultimately decided it could have come across as too mean and i didnt want to deal with the repercussions of that#so i just didnt give her anything or acknowledge the day at all last yeat#year*#oops#but right now im recovering from top surgery and shes sort of almost helping#mostly just she drove me to and from the hospital and then took a bag of trash out of my room bc i forgot#which ties very well into the letter because one of the traits i listed was that she took care of me when i was sick
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Ngl y’all I have been a BAD EMPLOYEE up until recent months.
#my job is so good and like#because i have been recovering from Traumatic Events and a bad time#i am realizing i was. not great#but now that im a lot better mentally i’m doing better at work#thank god my boss took a chance on me when i was in a very bad way. not that she knew that#but like#wow the stark difference between me a year ago and now#again makes me sad#but it’s nice to relearn who i am again#text
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SUDDENLY STARTED RAINING SO HARD WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK
#i was like huh whats that noise. bc i can normally NEVER hear anything over my headphones but it was the rain fucking shattering it down#my bed is WET the window was only open a few inches 😭#anyway had no signal at work again today smfh. but at least they let me on the bus free on the way there this morning#still a bit wobbly im in the baby deer phase of post major depressive episode#roommate asked how i was doing when she got home and i very very nearly started crying but i didnt i was so brave#my insane insecurity and anger swings post rsd episode have mostly faded too thank fuck. only took 4 days which is pretty good for me#but im still so so tired it takes everything out of me...#when im recovered + can talk abt it without making myself upset again im promising myself i will talk to her abt the rsd if nothing else#but i really really dont want to make her feel bad abt it at all its genuinely not anyones fault. but its important to me that i say smth#just so we can avoid it happening again where possible bc it does really suck so bad. for everyone im sure but mostly me here#and i would like to be able to care abt ppl and have close friends without risking my entire mental (+ physical..) wellbeing 😭#i think if im still struggling w mood once my meds stabilise i might ask if there are options to help w that too#like i think ive gone as far as i can w therapeutic techniques rn. its just too overwhelmingly intense and reflexive for me to apply that#and i dont feel like i live my life around it or in fear of it anymore like generally i have been a lot better#but when im vulnerable and it DOES strike i have no defense against it whatsoever and it can tank everything for weeks#its just high stakes. and it'll help to make sure ppl know abt it and might be able to support etc but it would be nice to never worry abt#so worth trying meds for it maybe. i just dont rly wanna have the conversations w medical ppl in order to get it in the first place#like i wouldnt feel safe telling a doctor abt it bc the idea of someone with that authority having power over me is terrifying#ah well this isnt a problem for right now. plus stimulants might help me w it anyway once im finished titrating so we'll see#got so distracted typing this i forgot what i was gonna do.... i need to check my planner#and then ill probably read and go to sleep early i think zzzzz#ahhh.. and the birds are singing outside now the rain has stopped :-)#.diaries
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whatever show ive been watching has been really necessary bc all the other things are like house and hannibal and so so much codependency and unhealthy relationships that im all gone so the one ive been watching has been good it kinda cleansed me of that my mind is righting itself but i cant reslly remember what the show is
#idk if thhis#akes sense im kind of high and issociated and my arms are growing longer away from me#lol#not in the weed way i did that and it made me go so bad im srtlll recovering oh no great theres the headache#yeag xanax is cool cuz i cant get too much of it at a time bc i take it from my moms prescription which i know is bad and wrong but she suc#s okay#and it makes mu feeijngs come back a bit and i lose the self cpntrol which is very good bc thats what kepes the emotions at bay#but unlesss im around my mom#cuz if im sad i hav tpo be very careful if shes nice mom or mean mom today#last time i was sad and i started crying and i couldnt stop she got so so mad called me manipulative#the time before that (but that time i wasnt high) i also cried and she just hugged me and cuddled#so i trusted her a little bit after that i thought maybe we could work on our relationship betetr#but it turns out mean mom is still tehre#shes so mean#im not making sense anymore#i just want nice mom back from wehnni wasa kid#shes srill there but it s so sad bc she ususalyly isnt#mean mom was even there when i was a kid but she wasnt mean mom then she was just stressed mom#but now idk if itll be mean mom or nice mom#stressed mom was still mama#but shes not anymore it feeels like#ventm
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