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that-jack-kline-bestie · 8 months ago

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whatever show ive been watching has been really necessary bc all the other things are like house and hannibal and so so much codependency and unhealthy relationships that im all gone so the one ive been watching has been good it kinda cleansed me of that my mind is righting itself but i cant reslly remember what the show is

#idk if thhis #akes sense im kind of high and issociated and my arms are growing longer away from me #lol #not in the weed way i did that and it made me go so bad im srtlll recovering oh no great theres the headache #yeag xanax is cool cuz i cant get too much of it at a time bc i take it from my moms prescription which i know is bad and wrong but she suc #s okay #and it makes mu feeijngs come back a bit and i lose the self cpntrol which is very good bc thats what kepes the emotions at bay #but unlesss im around my mom #cuz if im sad i hav tpo be very careful if shes nice mom or mean mom today #last time i was sad and i started crying and i couldnt stop she got so so mad called me manipulative #the time before that (but that time i wasnt high) i also cried and she just hugged me and cuddled #so i trusted her a little bit after that i thought maybe we could work on our relationship betetr #but it turns out mean mom is still tehre #shes so mean #im not making sense anymore #i just want nice mom back from wehnni wasa kid #shes srill there but it s so sad bc she ususalyly isnt #mean mom was even there when i was a kid but she wasnt mean mom then she was just stressed mom #but now idk if itll be mean mom or nice mom #stressed mom was still mama #but shes not anymore it feeels like #ventm

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