#she would tweet abt wanting a gf

[bandzboy]

catching up with my old twt friends and finding out one of them as a job and is living with her gf is like… wow

[clairoscharm]

━━ my pov of ellie iii

warnings : use of yn, lowkey self inserted uhh, using spotify cause the blend thingy but PLEASE BOYCOTT SPOTIFY GUYS !!!

cr : @idontgetanysleep & pinterest for the pics

ellie's taglist (lmk if u wanna be add / remove) : @ellstronaut , @dinaissoprettyoml , @julienology , @euphternal , @sapphhicslut

also chat, boop me !!

part i ⟶ part ii

DAILY CLICK

DONT BUY TLOU

WAYS TO HELP PALESTINE

⭐️ she’s the type of person who is not into pda that much (but you guys still do pda like holding hands/hand on waist or shoulder & some kisses here n there) BUT SHE LOVE YOU LOUD & PROUDLY!! 🍮 all of her social media bios would be something like “taken by @yourtag” or “e + your initial : ♡” or “i love my wife” KNOWING DAMN WELL YALL ARE NOT MARRY (yet… 😏) 🕯️ her page would be filled with your pictures / something that has you in it. and would caption like “she saw it first” or “yn chose it for me” like okay we get it ellie 🙄✋

⭐️ GUYS HEAR ME OUT!!!! she’s the type that would wait for you to get ready and be like “oh it's okay, i can wait. just make sure to be safe & look pretty f’me” LIKE HIHIRHEUDBSOANA 🍮 would let you do her hair (tiny braids !!!) 🕯️ she so corny guys i just know it

⭐️ omg few months or maybe even weeks of you two talking she would be asking you if you have spotify (boycott spotify guys!!) and ask you if you wanna do a blend, she just wanna know you better through your music taste 🍮 WOULD TOTALLY FREAK OUT WHEN THE RESULTS ARE ABOVE 80 “she’s my soulmate, i knew it” and do hand YES! gesture thingy (pls know what im saying (◞‸◟) ) 🕯️ why, just why, her gf had to live 34764482939 away from her!! (ellie is being dramatic but so real)

⭐️ WOULD LEARN YOUR FAV SONGS TO PLAY ON HER GUITAR AND SENT YOU VIDEOS OF HER PLAYING IT AND BE LIKE “for you, baby” or post it on her story and captioned (?) “for my girl @yourtag” 🍮 i know she makes a lot of playlists for you. started when you were her crush, then you were in the talking stage with her, then the two of you dating, then songs that reminded her of you

🕯️ SHE WOULD SING TO CLAIRO's SONGS WITH YOUU AND DANCING AROUND IN THE KITCHEN OR 3 AM TO THE SMITHS OMGOMG

⭐️ her home & lock screen is your picture, it doesn’t matter if the pictures of both of you tgt or just you. 🍮 matching stuff with you LIKE HELLO YES SHE LOVE IT !!!! immediately drop everything when you ask her if she wanna matches w you, per examples :

🕯️ she just a biggest simp ever!!! ⭐️ loveee calling you especially facetime, she just adore looking at your pretty face, your sweet smile & listen to your cute laughs every time ellie cracks a joke. 🍮 would cut & peel fruits for you, and you do it to her as well 🕯️ text you in 3 in the morning for her & you scolding her for not sleeping

⭐️ blurts out i love you one time and since then she just wont stop saying how much she loves you 🍮 since you guys are in ldr :(, ellie had to give you gifts & all that by giving you a package but the good thing is that you can keep the letters she wrote for you and the drawing she gave you as well !! 🕯️ HER FRICKING JOURNAL IS FULL WITH YOU..... not kidding...and some sweet details that she had noticed about you

⭐️ always tweeting how she wished she's with you and would diff tweet something like " 'if she wanted, she would', then WHY IS SHE NOT TELEPORTING HERE, NEXT TO ME, LAYIN ON MY ARM, WHYYY" (this is so me coded lol)

🍮 omg would do streaks with you to update abt each other's day and also locket

🕯️ timezone sucks so be ready to be wake to 99+ tiktoks ellie had sent you while you were sleeping. (you did the same thing too)

⭐️ movie night every friday !!

🍮 few years of ldr and both you & ellie had decided to moved in together

🕯️ would surprise you once in awhile and vice versa

⭐️ girly would treat the teddy bear that you gifted her like its her CHILD (it is)

🍮 ellie who loves you very dearly

🕯️ ellie is your girlfriend & also now, your roommate (hehe hinted)

REMINDER !!

that neil is a zionist and therefore dont buy his games, doesnt matter remastered or not !!!

before you leave, have you DONATE TO PALESTINE today? ITS FREE TOO !!

[qprpbj]

for soda centric fics decentishoutsidersthoughts has some good ideas!

but some general ones to spur the thoughts:

middle child syndrome in the sense that he’s always playing the middle man between pony and Darry… and do they really stop fighting after canon even with his whole breakdown….

he’s the “stupid” curtis… both his brothers are so smart damn how would he feel growing up… his baby brother being able to do his homework for him :/ his convo with Darry abt dropping out after their parents die and Darry is trying to prove to the state that he’s a fit guardian

sandy. that’s it.

I lie that’s not it. but the girl ur so in love with and want to marry just up and leaves with no explanation. you find out later it’s cause she’s pregnant (with another man’s child?)

he’s canonically the crybaby of the family. he wears his heart on his sleeve but wouldn’t that get him into trouble? as a boy as a greaser in the south in the 60s

ADHD, dyslexia… in the 60s... end tweet

He’s 16 and also working as a breadwinner for the household. Hes even taking the place as one of pony’s guardians in a way…

Just his stress and anxiety abt pony being gone that week, the trial, his friends dying (and they’re all around his age more than they are the other brothers… do with that what you will)

Him finding Johnny in the lot

Pomyboy says he doesn’t drink and has never lost a fight BFFR he’s just hero worshipping and I believe sodas never let him see him like that

If ur a Stevepop gal…. yeah…. having feelings for your best friend…. and you really notice them after ur girlfriend disappears… but he’s still happily dating evie….

He probably has a shit ton of insecurities and just doesn’t show it… not being smart like his brothers… working at a gas station… not being enough for his gf to not cheat… not being enough for his brothers to not fight… not being able to help out with bills more… not being able to help his little brother out at school… people just talk about him for his looks….

Imagine ponyboy starting to grow up and not need soda as much anymore… no more bed sharing, no more late combos, pony grows taller than him (I’m a truther), pony starts hanging out with people other than the gang (curly Angela) and imagine how that feels after being such a strong parental role for your brother and he’s just starting to pull away from you like every teen does… but then again that’s your brother and you’ve always been close…. you were just immediately thrust into this parental roll and slowly it’s being taken away from you and you don’t even notice it until it’s too late…. ADD ON TOP OF THAT HOW OUT OF ALL THREE BROTHERS SODA IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO GET OUT OF TULSA BC OF REASONS (SEE ABOVE) AND SO HES FEELS LIKE HES BEING LEFT BEHIND

Shit wait I kinda cooked up more than I meant to… maybe I actually gotta learn how to write fanfics skdhfbcbbd

ok no but the soda feeling stupid compared to his brothers is sooooo insane to me. like one of them graduating, okay, but BOTH? esp pony a year early?? frankly once is a fluke but twice is a pattern!! so why couldn’t he graduate too, why did he have to be the only brother to perpetuate greaserhood and see nothing bigger for himself than working at a gas station?? also ponyboy doing his hw FOR him despite being two years younger is nauseatingggggg.

i DO think that soda genuinely is happy where he is most of the time but at the same timeee i think he’d sometimes have trouble reckoning with guilt esp on pony’s graduation day (i dooooo have a fic. coming someday about that. smiles), esp because we only know soda through ponyboys eyes. for all we know maybe he ISNT as happy as he always seems and puts up a front for his baby brother!!! in fact that’s most likely it tbh!! like he is canonically a crybaby and is probably just scared to show ponyboy bc he Knows pony looks up to him like a hero!!! it’s so!!!

adhd dyslexic soda in the 50/60s. yeah. i could yap that into the GROUND. lest this post becomes an Essay though i will leave it there unless someone else asks LOL

pony not needing soda as much anymore as he gets older is so. like ohhh you Hate me. it’s not even that pony doesn’t Need him it’s just that he’s growing up and bettering himself and making a better life than he was ever supposed to have and sodaaaa thinks he’s gonna stay stagnant his whole life 😣😣 pony who used to share every secret with him but now he’s all grown and doesn’t need to as much anymore. sighhhhh. sodapop curtis i LOVE YOUUUUU

[simpinberry]

for my mental health i need hcs of bella ramsey x fem or gn reader with words of affirmation love language ‼️‼️

hi guys i’m back to feed you some more bella content ˖⁺‧₊˚♡˚₊‧⁺˖ hope i did this right and that u guys like it :) also tysm for the requests

listen listen!!! after taking a shower she would 100% leave sweet compliments on the foggy mirror for u to read. will add ‘kiss your s/o’ to your to do lists.

will text/send photos of random things that reminds you of her throughout the day. she does this especially when she’s on set and you guys can’t talk much. they have your favorite snack there? sends u a photo and tells u theyre thinking of u. lots of i miss yous, love yous and that she can’t wait to be home to see u again. “text me abt what you get up to today babe” “pedro is making fun of me because i’m apparently such a simp for you, he is absolutely, in every way, correct ;).” “i saw a butterfly today n it reminded me of the pretty tattoo you have”

will watch u like the weirdo she is when you’re getting ready in the morning. sneaks up behind u and repeatedly attacks ur face with kisses. “i have the most beautiful gf in the world” “omg i love this purple eyeliner on you, it rlly suits you” “your curls look really defined today, the new conditioner you got is so good!! my beautiful bby”

is the type to whisper compliments in between kisses. yk like corny spelling out of i love you in between pecks? yep, does that. “i really really like you” “my darling” “mine” “you’re so cute” in between kisses hehehe.

spam texts you when you send/post a photo. in your dms/comment section screechingggg!! my mans is DOWN BADDD. needs and loves to comment “first” on ur posts. they actually make up most of ur comment section. “BABE IM DYING YOURE TOO BEAUTIFUL” “so glad we’ve advanced technology so i can stare at this photo 4life if i want to” “you+this dress= my death”

randomly tweets a photo of you, captioning it “this is my darling, be jealous, gn”

very validating when you’re upset and talks you through it. thanks you for speaking up and communicating abt anything that’s been bothering you. SPILLS THE TEA WITH YOUUU. you have a co worker you hate? she hates them too. listen to me when i say she is on ur side, she is shocked and they’ll even remember stuff you’ve previously told them to add to the fire. best bf frr “thank you for telling me babe, i’ll really keep it in mind next time, i’m so sorry for hurting your feelings like that” “it sounds like it’s been difficult for you to complete (insert task) you’ve been working through it so well :)” “he said what??? yeah like he’s one to talk, go go! continue tell me more i’m invested” “babe you’re honestly so right, this is why i always listen to u”

definitely acknowledges you so so much when you accomplish something. will go on about how proud they are of you, how well you’ve done and how wonderful it is. big or small, bellas on her way to pour her heart out to you. would be unbelievably encouraging throughout the process too, telling you to keep going and trust the progress. “you’ve got this babe, go on :))” “that drawing is absolutely amazing, you’re so talented omg look at the details” “you submitted your assignment?? ahead of time?? that’s my girl frr” “these cookies are amazing, thank u sm for baking them ughh give me a hug you’re the best baker ever, they’re so soft!!”

you guys will be facetiming one night when shes away in a different country for filming. she’s been gone two months and you really miss them. you get a bit emotional talking abt it and they really listen, telling you to let it out. just before you guys hang up they tell you to look at the last drawer of your jewellery box. turns out she wrote you a letter before she left, many letters in fact, for when you really miss them. you can’t help but sob reading it. she attached a polaroid photo of you guys kissing at bottom of the page. she’s so incredibly kind in the letter, telling you how wonderful its been getting to know you these past few months. "hehe youre probably crying from how nice im being" istg this mf even teases you in writing. when you're finished you call her back, they immediately burst out laughing at your blood shot eyes, “hahahhs i knew you’d cry”. sneaks in a ‘you look so pretty even when you cry’. tells you they have more hidden around your room and that when you need it she’ll tell you where you can find more ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ

goodnight!! if i made any mistakes, no i didn’t. byebye!!

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i closed my eyes and suddenly, i became known as the monsterfucker anon—ANYWAY; wednesday doesn't seem to be the type to become a green eyed monster but how does she react to the talks about people crushing on her girl? specially since their relationship status is vague, i could see someone (maybe a co-star or just a fan) asking sin out in her presence or publicly hearing someone wishing sin to rail them. speaking of which, with all the interview talks, i can def see hem reading thirst tweets together

you said that you didn't think really that far in but I HAVE TO ASK: how influential is the show and streamers like endespair in terms of the way outcasts are treated? being called a monsterfucker seems to be more derogatory than funny or nice tbh. is helios also a late bloomer like enid? and is viper also one for the macabre? if so, i feel like her describing helios' transformation to be graceful is so viper of her

since isabelle is an endespair fan, has she done anything to wednesday in behalf of endespair? like endespair is opening fan mail for like a special or something and suddenly comes across a paper she remembered isabelle asked her and the rest of the cast to sign or a poster of the lunal curse with wednesday's signature. is that a bit awkward for her? how does she treat it? esp since isabelle doesn't rlly seem to hide her infatuation with endespair. how does wednesday react? does she feel more obligated to show up as willa in the background?

you said that wenclair isn't really hiding their relationship. will endespair ever be like "o yea guys im e "sin" addams, watch lunal curse now" or sum? would isabelle notice certain traits sin and endespair share that lead her to realizing theyre the same person? does sin call wednesday willa on set? does anyone even bother to question why these two have matching rings? on why they're always so sus and gomez/morticia-like?? why are sins eyes suddenly pitch black when looking at wednesday but bright blue when at literally anyone else??

the interview about werewolves thoughts on the lunal curse, does it ever click to people that the cute werewolf blonde with huge teeth who praised the book and the upcoming adaptation—THE ONE WHO CALLED WEDNESDAY HER WIFE– IS THE SAME PRETTY WOMAN WEDNESDAY IS OFTEN SEEN WITH? THE ONE SHE'S SO COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY WITH???

THE BTS OF WENCLAIR— they're mostly in the background but they're never NOT doing anything. people go crazy for romance and probably see how close these two are. i mean, their co-workers see it, how can the world not? master lip readers come out and reveal the disgusting, dirty stuff these two speak in what seems to be a million different languages. it causes people to look deeper in miss e. addams, the beast that got wednesday out of her cage. WEDNESDAYS HANDS ARE UNDER HER SHIRT PEOPLE, BEST FRIENDS DONT DO THAT!!!

WHAT IF WEDNESDAY'S WALLET GETS LOST AND PEOPLE SEE THEIR MARRIAGE PHOTOS + OTHER STUFF LIKE LETTERS THEY EXCHANGE????

I swear being known as a monsterfucker is uh

Hm

Seeing as outcasts exists, it's kinda up in the air. Like one, being known as a monsterfucker is usually in jest and people just think you have a type or worse case, you got a fetish💀 which is what Wednesday's PR doesn't want her known for. They just twisted it into a fascination with actual monsters.

The more outcast inclined people in Wednesday's Fandom tend to think she simply has a type and it's just a running joke bc of what she writes. Kinda like how people hope she gets her own golden retriever werewolf Gf like Viper 🥺 bc clearly she's projecting her want /j

Anyways, as for if Wednesday reacts! She always hides a smile behind a mug when such talks happen, it's smug asf too. Like I got what you can't have <3

It's hard to be jealous when their relationship survived like 5-6 years of ldr so they trust each other a lot! She does tease Enid abt it tho, much to the werewolf's confusion.

"they want me to what-"

"yes my dear, they went you to do the very same thing you did to m-" sudden hand on mouth.

"wends you can't just say that in public!?"

Pushing that quickly aside, the outcasts racism thing isn't as bad here as it is in my streamer Wednesday au.

The forevermore series change the outcasts view from caution to intrigued, it's why endespair is such a niche streamer bc it's not everyday you see a supposed scary werewolf scream like a little girl and admire a woman.

Also seeing as imperial gold (ship name of helios and Viper) is literally Wenclair, yes Helios is a late bloomer and Viper is into the dark and macabre. It's why the show decides to go with Viper narrating some of helios' scenes and vice versa for that good contrast.

"despite the fact that I've been in this school for years, I haven't been granted the blessing to see Helios shift right before my very eyes.

Now that I'm gifted such an opportunity, I cannot believe the time I've wasted not seeing it.

She's beautiful.

All big gleaming teeth and a body shifting to a form no one else can compare too."

Then on screen is the most brutal looking werewolf transformation ever.

Meanwhile, we got Helios over here stating the obvious.

"to the stars, moons, planets above- they did not have the right to give my deadly roomie a silver knife"

Helios is standing there, looking fucking enraptured with blow out eyes as Viper does idk, smth. I haven't figured out the plot of Lunal Curse other than the main points soooo, it's left vague on purpose.

Endespair doesn't accept fanmail, left over paranoia from the stalker in her junior year so isabelle can't send such things.

Wednesday doesn't at all feel obligated to pop into stream as Willa. They just work in the same room and if Enid wants to go stand up to bring her wife into a hug then that's their business as chat cries abt how single they're making them feel.

As for if Isabelle, I feel like. She'd be in denial? But then she realizes the scar Enid has isn't just effects but real and she goes, oh shit

Like just a little bit bc the way Endespair carries herself is alot more easily exagerrated compared to how Enid normally is. It doesn't help that Enid dyed her hair a little bit more saturated for Helios so they may look similar if you double take.

So she was like 'aha, totally a coincidence' but when she's watching a endespair stream, Mika will wonder where shes watching sin from.

The two fucking PANIC after that

As for the matching rings, I made Enid wear two rings just for that reason too! So in the end It just looks like they're wearing accessories, that's all. Gold rings for Enid bc the obvious is obvious and white gold for wednesday.

Enid cringes at the thought of seeing herself on screen. So she doesn't at all bring up her status as Sin on stream. Someone brings up that there's a werewolf acting with Wednesday Addams? Cringe, disgusting, hurling noises

She's her own hater and chat takes it as Enid being low key jealous that it's another werewolf and not her.

As for whether people recognize Enid from that werewolf interview, they recognize her as endespair than sin. The dorky ass clothes, known beanie and overall simp mannerisms clocked it to her Fandom.

Sorry anon,, people are delusional sometimes so while they note the simp werewolf, they don't linger on it too long.

Wenclair bts? You're so right, whenever they're outside of their room, they do alot of things. Like Wednesday chasing Enid who's wearing a bit too tight of a shirt with the smaller lady wearing a jacket that suspiciously is a bit too baggy.

Sometimes you can see Wednesday looking over papers and Enid is just leaning over her, practically caging the director in between her arms.

Inbetween breaks, if Enid is ever drinking smth, the cast kinda does a double take when Wednesday grabs the bottle and drinks from it. They didn't even looked shocked, like yeah this happens.

Idt Wednesday would ever lose her wallet, but that would definitely be one way to reveal the relationship

[joocomics]

thoughts on gunil/keeho (or both if ur up to it) with a gf that's smaller than them? likeeeeeeeeee i KNOWWW them hunky leaders have a size kink fr they'll obsess over the size difference 🧎🏻‍♂️‍➡️🧎🏻‍♂️‍➡️🧎🏻‍♂️‍➡️ they're like that one tweet going around rn "call me cinderella the way i'll make it fit" LIKEEEEE 😭😭😭 they'd be sooooo smug about it cooing at her and just LOVINGGGG the way she squirms n whines abt who they're too big.... tea tbh 😛😛 so yeaaa thoughts (and prayers???)? 🎤🎤🎤

oh that is so correct 😮‍💨 both of them have size kink plus strength kink AND body worship kink - receiving of course; they love giving your body detailed attention, but when you’re the one doing that to them, along with praising them for their amazing muscles and kissing them all over… that’s when things escalate…

they enjoy immensely feeling the power they have when you’re in their hands all sensitive and delicate. they cherish the moments when they see your eyes widen every time they hover over you, or when they hear you gasp whenever their big heavy hands grip your arms/legs and adjust you how they want. or when they pull out their dicks and sigh at the way it looks like it’s going to split you apart cause you’re so small and tight. the surprise on your face is such an ego boost, and when you start whining and biting on their shoulder from the strech they turn even more cocky.. “too big for your small cunt, huh sweetheart?” they ask despite your ability to only let out desperate sounds as you breathe heavily beneath their body weight. “shh, you have some more to take of me, baby…”

the one difference between the two of them i see is that gunil always prefers to have the upper hand while keeho often has fun letting you struggle with his size. keeho is the type to love resting on his back and watch you ride him till you’re groggy and end up begging him to fuck you cause you can’t make yourself cum, oh he would lose his mind if you ever say something like this. meanwhile gunil just wants to manhandle you however he wants >< he lets you on top when he’s too tired from work, and even then he occasionally tells you how to move and where to touch yourself so you can feel even better. keeho just watches amused cause he finds it fun letting you figure it out on your own; he always ends up with his chest and thighs in scratches that prove you really tried your best with handling his big cock

[lqfiles]

I REALLY SHOULDDD but i get distracted way too easily, and your chapters are nOT helping ma'am 🤨

yes seriously tho, everyone needs a karina bestie by their side 😔 hyuck is such a menace but for some reason, why is it kinda..??? 🤭 BUT HOLD— why do i feel like he’s just a lil boy going through some kind of rough patch by himself and, as the stories go, he uses this "rude unbothered boy" act to cope w it and as a defense mechanism?

and his pvt twt... bro is anyone even on there except him 😭 he basically just uses it as a ranting space atp. and the tweets he used to post before it was all abt the mc felt rlly sad and lonely lol :( someone give the boy a hug

a big part of me feels like he went through a reaaaally shitty heartbreak and he swore that he would never let anyone affect him that badly again, so now he's walking around all like 😫🙄 omg i just cannot stAND girls for more than a week, gOd — like,, i get it but boy pls 😭😭😭 the way you’re so quite obviously desperate to talk with the mc says otherwise???

shut ur heartbroken ass up, take therapy, heal and be the hot sexy adorable sweet & lovingly annoying loverboy i know you can be 😭

(genuinely tho, you’ve got everyone so hooked lq, i hope you know you’re doing an amazing job w the smau. i think everyone knows how tough making and handling one is ‼️ keep it uppp)

not you trying to blame me for your procrastination 🙄🙄🙄 (pls do your work.. this is me motivating you)

i’d die to have karina as my bff, she is so cutieful (both irl and in the smau) i want her.. AND LMAOOOO EXACTLY hyuck is a bitch boy but in a “i want you so bad” way.. and STOPP i’m not gonna give my plot away let me stay mysterious 😒😒 (you kinda got it right)

his priv was just a place for him to rant whenever he felt like it so his 9k followers didn’t have to perceive him ygm? based on the bg story i got for him they probably were kinda :// so yeah let’s give him a hug 😓 I LOVE FHIS BREAKUP THEORY THO it’s not what happens but in an alternative universe that would probably EATTT like i hate all gfs BUT you? WE WANT IR FRR

and thank you so much friend you’re so sweet let me smooch you 🥹💗 it was definitely tough to start smaus at first but i’m getting the gist of it better so YAYYY this rlly motivated me i’m glad to see everyone enjoying it ^^ 🙏🏽

[muqingists]

OKAY SO. wait im putting a readmore bc i don't wanna be obnoxious zkmskns

@forffax @destructix ask and you shall receive. sorry this is LONG

ok so like. this is going to be a mess im sorry it WAS a mess. 2018-2019 i was rly into the french skam remake so i got into the twt fandom and the (at the time) gf of one of my friends was like. a rly big acc lol so this is abt her. she sucked so bad both online and irl lmao

they were doing screenings for some eps (like. once a month or smth i forgot) to watch in a cinema and meet up with the cast and crew after and if you got tickets most of us would queue in front of the cinema bc it was a way to just hang out beforehand and her group would always be the very first in line and she was. the most obnoxious person ever like genuinely so desperate to have the attention on her at all times. she kept pretending she was super close with all the cast and that she was above everyone else for it

also?? onto the more serious stuff but. she was lying about EVERYTHING like about her studies her job . she faked having mental illnesses (like. she admitted she was lying abt it. i wouldn't make that judgment lol). she lied abt so much serious stuff that would've put her in the hospital and then pretended to be her own mother on her twitter acc here to share the updates like. girl. sorry im not going into details for this one bc i don't want to trigger anyone but i was There for a few of these and it was so on the nose

OKAY. THE FUCKING HILARIOUS STUFF NOW. the thing that made her genuinely a legendary figure. so notre-dame burned and so she had to make it about herself and she posted a series of tweets that'll go down in HISTORY including one i can literally quote from memory. that reads like . "i'm outside, i ran away from the table. i can't handle this. i can't. i'm crying outside alone because fuck it's notre dame and i feel like i'm dying" < literally gets quoted by everyone whenever anything happens just replace the notre dame by whatever is relevant. changed the face of french twitter forever

i forget you guys weren't on french twitter in like 2019 truly a formative year. absolutely nothing can ever top that

[falcqns]

Hii i have this request in mind like Chris Evans x Actress! Singer! Reader like the reader and chris dated for 3y idk but they broke up but the reader always visit chris’ family bc she treated them like family aswell specialy when the reader’s parents died so she spend Christmas there or any occasions bc chris’ family invite her and when chris got a new gf the reader is kinda hurt bc she still love chris but she try to look like she doesn’t care but then she released her new song its called deja vu (by olivia rodrigo) and she release it to her bday so when the song is released the fans knew its abt chris bc of the new gf (chris’ fam doesn’t like the new gf and the fans kinda didn’t support them bc of the girl’s attitude) and chris’ family invites her over bc they want to show the reader something and when the reader got there they surprise her for her bday and congratulate her and turns out chris is there too with his new gf🤨and the reader knew chris’ new gf hated her bc of her look and scott called you all to the living room and watch the mv of the reader’s new song and when the mv ends scott and the fam congratuleted the reader and chris’ gf is giving the reader looks again and chris is noticing it and when the reader is in the kitchen alone getting something chris talk to her and congratulate her and chris’ new gf wrapped her arms around chris and chris tried to stop her to make a scene but she started a scene and scream at the reader but the reader cut her off and embarrassing her and the reader prove the new gf shes first not her (idk if that make sense lol) and the new gf leave(idk you can make her a random name so its not only “new gf”) and the reader and chris talk and they got back together, you can do wha you want at the end this is just so random bc i was listening to deja vu and advance thank you if you do my request! Stay safe! ❤️ and im so sorry if this is so long

Deja Vu

pairing: Chris Evans x singer!reader

warnings: parents death, major angst, fluff. 

a/n: thank you for the request! Hope you enjoy!

You had known Chris since college, when you had met him in your communications class. You two had grown close quickly, and became best friends. 

He brought you home every Christmas Eve, before you would go home to your parents house on Christmas Day. You had always felt like a part of the family, so when your parents passed a way, you turned to him. 

You and your parents were driving home from a Christmas Day church service, when you were hit by a semi truck. It had completely totalled the car, and your parents had died on impact. You had been sitting in the back, and only had a broken leg from where your moms seat had been pushed back into it roughly. 

You had been pulled from the car and sat in a second ambulance, while your parents were transported in another. You knew you'd never forget watching that ambulance door close and drive away, knowing that was the last time you'd ever see them. 

When the police officers asked if there was anyone you could call, you didn't know what to do. Your parents were both only children, so you had no aunts, uncles or cousins. You were an only child too, so you had no siblings, and your grandparents had passed when you were little, your other ones passing before you were born. 

So when the officer asked you, you told him the Evans’ phone number. Lisa picked up on the second ring, and you tearfully explained what had happened as the shock wore off. She immediately said she’d meet you at the hospital, and not to worry, that she and Bob would take care of you. 

You were taken to the hospital and treated for your broken leg. Less than an hour after you arrived, Lisa arrived at the hospital with Chris in tow. They comforted you, and took you home with them. You stayed in Chris’s room for the first few days, and when you were given your own room, you still had a hard time sleeping alone, so Chris ended up in your bed with you most nights, not that he minded. 

You never went back to college, and instead turned to singing as a release from all the pain you were feeling. You started out posting covers on YouTube, and gradually progressed to getting a record deal with Interscope Records, which didn't surprise anyone who knew you. You had immense talent, and your parents used to tell you that they were counting down the days before you were a celebrity. 

When Chris graduated college and told you he was moving to Los Angeles, he convinced you to come with him. Prices were high in LA, and he didn't want to be separated from you for too long, so you joined him. He got to be an actor, and you got to be a singer, which is what you both had wanted since you were younger. 

You went to every one of Chris’s movie premieres, and he attended as many of your live shows as he could. You supported him through all his relationships and his breakups, and played the middle man whenever he and Jenny would fight, up until the very end. You told yourself you did that because you just wanted what's best for him, but you both kind of knew that wasn't the reason at all. 

Throughout your time living together, you friendship grew, as did your feelings for each other. You'd be lying if you didn't have a small crush on him in college, and those feelings only grew as time went on, especially since the two of you decided to only get a one bedroom apartment. Mainly because it was cheap, but also because Chris made a decision a week after your parents death to never allow you to sleep alone because of the nightmares that would occur if he wasn't there.

So, when you won your first award for your first album, named ‘hand in hand’, he kissed you the second you came off the stage with your award in hand. It blew your mind that he felt the same, but you were happy nonetheless. You two began dating that night, and everything was perfect. 

Until, you were invited by 5 Seconds of Summer to be their opening act on their newest tour. You had agreed, and Chris let you go. You two had been dating for over 3 years, and you thought your relationship would be fine. 

You quickly realized however that that wasn't the case, when the two of you started fighting less than two weeks into the tour. The fights weren't anything major, more petty things like ‘did you change the Netflix password’ or ‘why did you take this piece of clothing, that was mine and it was my favourite.’ All around stupid fights. 

You had turned to Calum, who you were closest with, and he consoled you as much as you could. You realized however, that you couldn't be with Chris anymore when he drunk called you in the middle of the night while you were in the UK and got angry with you when you answered and told him to call you back in the morning when he was sober, to which he proceeded to brag that he slept with his co star at the time, Jessica Alba, you freaked out and ended things. 

You got a message from Jessica on instagram the next day letting you know that they did not sleep together, and that she was sorry he even said it. You assured her it was fine, and felt relief.

Relief because you got to the bottom of the situation, but also relief from your relationship. You didn't know what happened in those few weeks, but you knew the relationship was turning toxic, and you wanted to stop it before that happened. Neither you or Chris needed that. You told him you’d find a new place to live, and by the time tour ended, you bought yourself a house in Beverly Hills, and moved out of the apartment.

Chris moved out not long after, and bought his own house. He had tried to stay friends with you, but you didn't want that at that point in time. You were still hurting, and needed time to heal. 

Once you felt ready to date again, you were asked to be Calum’s date to the Peoples Choice Awards, you accepted. You knew Chris would be there, and you were hoping to talk to him, and maybe work it out. He had told you during the break up that he would always wait for you to come back, and that he still loved you, and always would. 

But you knew that wasn't the case when he showed up on the red carpet, with a new actress named Myra Woodfield. You had smiled at him, while trying not to break down inside, but he gave you a dirty look and rolled his eyes at you when Calum wrapped his arm around your waist for a picture. You furrowed your eye brows and took a good look at Myra. 

She looked almost exactly like you. Same build, same hair colour, same eye colour. The only difference is that she was slightly taller than you. You didn't know why he was replacing you, but it hurt. You pushed it out of your head however, and enjoyed the night with your best friend. 

It was a few months later when you were awoken by the constant dinging of your phone. You unlocked it, and saw you had a lot of unread messages from Luke, Ashton, Michael, Calum, and your other best friend Ashe about Chris’s new movie trailer, you sighed. 

You watched the trailer, and sighed when it looked like a recreation of a bunch of moments in your relationship with him, only Myra was in your place. 

Your fans and some of Chris’s had commented on it, and Myra immediately became aggressive with them, and insulted them. She told them that you were a nobody who could make Chris happy, which she was glad about because she made him happy how. 

Within minutes of this happening the hashtag #cancelmyrawoodfield was trending on twitter. You shamelessly went through the tweets and like and retweeted a couple. Then an idea popped in your head.

With a quick google search, you had a plan. 

You had written a new song called Deja Vu after the peoples choice awards, and it was had been recorded a few weeks ago, and you just had to decide on a date to release it, and make a decision on the music video. Her birthday was in about 3 months, which gave you enough time to get everything in place to drop on her birthday. 

Was it evil? Yes. Did you care? Not really. Besides, you inherited your pettiness from your mother and you knew she’d be proud of you. You called your manager and label, and got it planned out. 

When the new music video had been announced, Lisa called you and invited you home to watch it premiere with the family. You accepted, knowing Chris and Myra would be there, and that her birthday would get overshadowed by the release of your music video.

So, three weeks later, you were sitting with Lisa, Bob, Carly, Shanna, Scott, Chris and Myra in Lisa’s living room, waiting for the video to premiere.

Scott had picked you up at the airport earlier in the morning along with Carly and Shanna, and the four of you had a laugh about the face that no one acknowledged Myra’s birthday, not even Chris. It was mean, but no one liked her. 

Lisa absolutely hated her, but didn't want to upset Chris, so you got a call shortly after the PCA’s from her and the two of you ranted about her for a good two hours. 

You watched as the timer counted down from 10, and then the screen turned black. You took a deep breath and watched Chris out of the corner of your eye. 

You had searched for a while for a guy who looked similar to Chris, and you stumbled on Andrew Siwicki. He didn't look exactly like Chris, but it was close enough that everyone would know who the song was about if they didn't already. Andrew was a fan of Chris and hated Myra too, so he was more than glad to help you out. 

The music began to play, and you watched as the black screen faded in on two people walking along the beach, holding hands. 

“Car rides to Malibu Strawberry ice cream One spoon for two And trading jackets Laughing 'bout how small it looks on you,”

The next scene was a recreation of yours and Chris’s first date where you two had a picnic on the beach, and ended up splashing each other with the ocean water. Towards the end, everyone watched as Andrew picked you up and threw you into the water the same way Chris always did. 

You glanced at him, and could have burst into laughter at how uncomfortable Chris looked, but more importantly how angry Myra looked. 

“Watching reruns of Glee Being annoying Singing in harmony I bet she's bragging To all her friends, saying you're so unique, hmm,”

The next scene was you and Andrew (who was dressed as Ransom) on what appeared to be a recreation of the Knives Out set, running around with a dog that looked like Dodger chasing after you, the two of you laughing. The next shot was the two of you kissing behind a trailer, seemingly hiding from production. 

“So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? She thinks it's special But it's all reused That was our place, I found it first I made the jokes you tell to her when she's with you,”

The next scene was the two of you driving through Southern California, in a car that was almost identical to Chris’s. You two were laughing and singing along to the song, your hair whipping around you.

You took a deep breath, knowing this next scene would piss him right off.

“Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? Do you get déjà vu? (Ah), hmm Do you get déjà vu, huh?”

This scene was you, along with the rest of Chris’s family sitting around a living room that looked like the one you were in now, a Christmas tree full of presents in the corner. The camera panned across everyone as everyone was talking and settled on you and Andrew and the two of you recreated the scene where Chris whispered in your ear how much he loved you, and couldn't wait to start a family with you. 

“Do you call her Almost say my name? 'Cause let's be honest We kinda do sound the same,”

The screen showed you and Andrew saying goodbye at the airport, with 5 Seconds of Summer standing behind you. They weren't actually there when you left for tour, but Luke suggested it to piss Chris off, and you had agreed. 

Then there was a small montage of clips from tour, including a shot of Michael elbow dropping Ashton into a pool, which made everyone laugh, except Chris and Myra. The montage was followed up by you sitting on the floor of a dressing room and crying as you sent a text that said “I’m done.”

“Another actress I hate to think that I was just your type,”

Now you were on the red carpet, with Calum right beside you. You both were wearing the same clothes you wore on that night, you hair and makeup recreated perfectly. The camera unfocused on you as you turned and looked at Andrew and an actress named Alexa Morrison, who looked a lot like Myra, and they were recreating Chris and Myra’s actions perfectly. The camera swivelled around and came to rest pointing towards your face, as you looked in shock, and a single tear fell down your face. 

“I'll bet that she knows Billy Joel 'Cause you played her Uptown Girl You're singing it together,”

You were shown watching a movie trailer with Ashe sitting next to you, while you sobbed at what Alexa and Andrew were doing. You looked at the camera and began singing the song, while Ashe and everything else around you was frozen.

“Now I bet you even tell her How you love her In between the chorus and the verse (ooh) (I love you),”

You were sat on the bed in Chris’s red flannel that you had stolen before leaving for tour, and you were writing in the notebook aggressively with tears rolling down your face and singing.

“So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? She thinks it's special But it's all reused That was the show we talked about Played you the song she's singing now when she's with you,”

You were now being shown sitting on the couch, and watching Andrew run across the TV screen dressed as Captain America, an ice cream tub in your hand. You were wearing sweats and a t shirt, your hair in a messy bun.

“Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? Do you get déjà vu? Oh Do you get déjà vu?”

The camera circled around you before transitioning to the next scene. 

“Strawberry ice cream in Malibu Don't act like we didn't do that shit too You're trading jackets like we used to do (Yeah, everything is all reused),”

You were shown laying down in bed, and your eyes closing before an image of you and Andrew danced, dressed as Steve and Peggy in endgame, a scene Chris always told you the two of you would recreate one day. You had called Hayley and asked if it was okay, and she immediately said yes, and even came and watched you do the scene.

“Play her piano, but she doesn't know (oh, oh) That I was the one who taught you Billy Joel (oh) A different girl now, but there's nothing new (I know you get déjà vu),”

When your eyes opened, you were sitting at your piano, and playing while singing along. 

“I know you get déjà vu I know you get déjà vu,”

Suddenly, the piano disappeared, and you were left standing in an empty living room as the screen faded to black. 

The entire room burst into cheers as the video ended, except for Myra, who looked like she was going to murder you, and Chris who just clapped with a tight lipped smile. 

Later that night after all the kids had gone to bed and Lisa was driving Bob home,  Scott had pulled you into the kitchen under the pretences of ‘helping him fix a drink’, which ended up just being the two of you gossiping about Chris and Myra, and the music video.

Suddenly, Chris walked in, and nodded for Scott to leave. You cleared your throat and ignored him.

“That was a good song, and an amazing music video.” He said. “I can see you're just getting more and more talented as time-” He began, as you rolled your eyes, and looked at him. 

“What do you want?” You asked bluntly. 

“I just wanted to congratulate you.” He said, and you were about to open your mouth, when Myra came slinking in the room with an evil look on her face. 

“Nice job, Y/N. I’m glad I could inspire your music video.” She said sarcastically, and you could tell Chris was about to defend you, but you opened your mouth first. 

“Well, I’m glad I had such a snake like bitch to draw inspiration from,” You said, and heard Scott, his siblings burst into laughter in the living room. Myra’s jaw dropped and she turned to look at him. You looked up at Chris, who was leaning up against the counter, and biting back a smile.

“You’re just going to let her talk to me like that?” She asked, and Chris sighed.

“Myra, don't start. Not now.” He said, she scoffed. 

“I knew you still loved her. Only a pathetic loser could love someone as ugly and untalented as her.” She spat, and Chris growled. You felt tears welling up in your eyes, and you ran out of the room, your drink abandoned on the counter. 

You ran into your bedroom, where you shut the door, and fell onto the bed in tears. 

Back in the kitchen, Chris had gotten in Myra’s face, and was yelling.

“DON’T YOU DARE TALK TO HER LIKE THAT! SHE’S BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH SHIT IN HER LIFE, AND I WON’T ALLOW YOU TO ADD TO THAT!” He screamed, as Scott, Carly, and Shanna ran to the door, unsure of what to do. “SHE IS SO TALENTED, WAY MORE TALENTED THAN YOU! YOU’RE THE REASON PRODUCTION TOOK SO DAMN LONG, IT TOOK FOREVER TO GET A PERFORMANCE OUT OF YOU! YOU OPENLY INSULTED HER AND HER FANS HOURS AFTER YOU WERE ANNOUNCED TO BE IN THIS MOVIE, AND THEN HAD THE AUDACITY TO COME TO ME CRYING BECAUSE YOUR LITTLE FEELINGS GOT HURT!” He screamed, and Shanna ran and backed Chris away from her. 

“YOU’RE MY BOYFRIEND! AND ITS MY BIRTHDAY, YET HERE YOU ARE, CONGRATULATING HER FOR A SHITTY MUSIC VIDEO!” Myra screamed, and it was Scott’s turn to get in her face. 

“You need to leave. If you don't we’re going to call the cops.” He stated, and Myra rolled her eyes before storming out of the house. 

Scott turned back to Chris, and was shocked when he saw him in tears. 

“You need to work shit out with Y/N. It’s clear the two of you are still in love, and you need to figure it out as adults,” Scott said, his sisters nodding. Chris took a deep breath, and looked at your closed bedroom door.

Chris walked up to your bedroom door, and took a deep breath before entering the room where he used to sleep in every night.

He opened the door, and saw you curled up in a ball on the bed, your body still shaking. He smiled sadly, and walked into the room, closing the door behind him. He sat on the bed behind you, and rubbed your back gently. 

“I’m sorry. Not just for what Myra said, but for everything. For breaking your heart, and for causing you so much pain. I didn't realize how much I was missing you too until we watched that music video and I saw how truly broken you were. I never noticed that before now. And I’m sorry I didn't. If I’d have, I could have fixed this sooner, and we could be together right now.” He said.

You furrowed your brows at his last sentence and sat up.

“W-What?” You asked, and Chris moved closer. He wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into a hug. 

“I still love you. So so much.” He smiled, and a tear rolled down his face. “You're my entire world, and not having you here is slowly breaking me apart. I didn't know just how much until today, but I can't live another day without you.” He said. “I’m so sorry I hurt you baby.” He sobbed, and his head buried itself into your hair. Your body shook with sobs too, and you turned around to face him.

“I love you too.” You sobbed out. “I never should have ended things, but-” You said, but were cut off by Chris’s lips on yours, and you felt yourself melting into it.

He pulled away a few seconds later. “Don't. It was my fault, not yours. I am so sorry, and I am going to spend the rest of my life making up for it, I promise.” He said, as he stood the two of you up and led you out of the room, and to his.

“Where are we going?” You asked, and Chris pressed a kiss to your cheek.

“I have to grab something.” He said. He opened his closet, and grabbed something out of the top corner before turning to you. 

“I said I planned on spending the rest of my life making it up to you, and I plan on keeping that promise.” He said, as he got down on one knee. You gasped, as he opened the box and your dream engagement ring was inside. “I want you for the rest of my life, and the next. Will you marry me?” he asked, tears pouring down his face, just like yours.

You nodded enthusiastically, and Chris stood up. He placed the ring on your ring finger and scooped you up. “I love you,” You choked out, and Chris sobbed harder into you. 

“I love you too, and I’m never letting you go.”

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[dyke1]

i cannot find the post or if I imagined it but that that one tweet where one of the writers is like id like to think homophobia or the concept of the closet whatever doesn't exist in the future is so so strange when it comes to Bangalore's character cause she is portrayed as this person who (imo) represents a lot of the repressed nature found in a structural environments like the IMC and military in general who uphold homophobia, ableism etc..

the point im getting at is i feel the writers have gone out of their way to emphasize the expression of denial and alienation in Anita's character (not believing her brothers dead[note* this one was true but still its about conveying to the audience], liking loba, not wanting to admit the ICM’s crimes, and to some extent her friendship with wraith) as faults that developed because of personal resentment and fail to consider what that would mean for a lesbian coded character like Anita.

the reason i point this out is because a lot of that denial seems to bubble into internalized hatred for herself and hostility for people who share traits she has come to recognize as "unfavorable"

like in most obvious of ways her outright refusal to renounce the IMC which..

considering she grew up on a military operated planet she still holds like a lot of misogynistic attitudes especially towards women who express themselves in a feminine manner and like you could say it stemmed from her grievances with her brothers's gf but they are still specific to women..like she makes it clear that she is directing that weariness specifically to women . she hates men too because they are stupid and self-interested... but.... anyone can be stupid and act like that and ESPECIALLY in this character just makes her seem even more aligned with lesbianism actually... like even just her excessive use of the term ladies in squads full of men, “dont call me lady” etc..(btw like where do you think that was learned -_-) she has come to align feminine traits with weakness or a weapon to wield against authority in environments where that power is kinda expected to go to men. ASSUMING these structures are even just specific to Gridiron and not the Frontier as a whole its still funny that the writers were like homophobia is over :) but we still hate women who express themselves in this one specific way like ok lol

less obvious but even with wraith... the ableism there.. i just dont know why the writers would go down this path to show anita as like? this hateful person when Anita herself is NOT the most shining example of neurotypical behavior either..unless to continue the narrative of trying to distance herself from these traits.. but again they make her repeat those insults to a point it seems irredeemable which sucks cause i feel like people already find her unlikable and its continuing a narrative i find really gross.

anyways, ultimately it does result in a character that comes off with a ton of internalized lesbophobia in a universe where the concept doesn't...exist? like maybe if the loba/anita relationship where straight i could understand her not wanting to get attached to anyone, i could understand this coming off as her being a “private” person. WHICH. like she still can be... but even NOW with Valks introduction as woman who is unapologetically GAY ...its hard to not make the comparisons..like seriously..

theres a line im not sure theyll ever use for the halloween event or something but its directed towards anita and im not going to say what it is but like thinking abt it. HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO TAKE IT?

ofc this does seem like an issue of dissonance in writing with language/ perceived assumptions that dont translate well in contexts from modern life to the apex universe which i guess is also my fault so like sorry for existing in this day and age and being a lesbian but uhh ok im done whatever also i havent kept up with the lore so maybe im wrong idk

[loveisbraveandwild]

what’s this fletcher thing?

the very short of it is fletcher released a snippet of her new song on tiktok and in it she mentions shannon by name (they dated a few yrs ago) and shannon’s gf by name, saying she would rather becky and that becky’s so hot and she wants to hit her and taste her (i kid u not). ppl on tiktok, specifically lesbians, are taking sides. fletcher has a much bigger platform and is kinda just feeding the drama/laughing abt it(sound like anyone we know?), while her fans bully shannon (who is a famous lesbian utuber) and her gf in their comment sections (shannon tweeted a semi light hearted thing, but has since posted a pretty serious tiktok)

[dollymadness]

headcannon - Izuku Midorya as a boyfriend

king of 2 minute audios (or more)

elaborate dates — the guy has a plan

he gave you a ring at the moment he asked to date you

not only he has a page for you in his notebook abt heroes, with all abt your quirk like everyone else, but also a entire notebook about YOU, your personality, your favorite things, draws of his fav photos of you (this includes the funny ones) and he do be writing on that thing every single day: "she likes cherry lollipops better than the strawberry ones" "her new perfume is * " also he writes everything that happens on the dates

he posts you EVERYTIME — guys take a look at my gf

so LOYAL, he will talk about you and how he loves you to every girl that approaches to him

always stuttering around you

everytime he thinks you're mad, he starts panicking so bad (poor anxious baby)

likes giving you candys

crys about the little things you do to him, like cooking his favorite meal or giving a gift

always asking if you're tired of him — anxiety

doesn't sleep well, at list you demand him to

loves being called "princess" or "sweetie"

PRAISE KINK

tweeting abt you

cuddles and movies

would do anything for you

he is so funny — inside jokes

he likes gossiping — and having dates only to gossip

one of his ways to show his love is working on ways to you to improve yourself, like your hero costume or helping you with a subject he knows your struggling with — and he knows what you need without you saying a word

always apologizing

"why do you love me?" and he really expects you to come up with a list

this boy is jealous af — he come closer, grab you by your waist, and say "I see you already meet MY girlfriend, but let me introduce myself..." and take you out there the quickest as possible

he is so smart and you spend hours only hearing him talk abt what he loves

insecure abt his scars

likes singing to you — even if it's bad

"...and then we'll have five children named..."

opens calls to take buzzfeed tests togheter

makes a hundred comments on your pics, and is so creative with it

you're bestfriends with his mom

learned how to cook, just for you

holding hands all the time

"i want to make the world a better place for you"

heres my playlist:

[zanesgirlfriend]

The Reality House | David Dobrik

Requested by anonymous: hiii, can you do one abt knj house and the reader is davids gf or jasons daughter or both(?) and shit goes down with trisha?

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It's not like you needed the money. You and Kristen both just wanted to do something fun and crazy. The Reality House seemed like something to fill your time while David was busy.

"Two whole days without you?" David whined as you packed your bag.

"It'll be fun!" You smiled at him.

"I don't wanna sleep without you." He opened his arms and you joined him on the bed.

"We can FaceTime later, okay?"

"What if they keep you up all night?" He tugged on the ends of your hair gently.

"Well you're up all night anyway. You'll live." You chuckled before kissing his cheek.

"Okay."

Your phone buzzed in your pocket and you pulled it out, not expecting the text that appeared. "Oh no."

"What is it?" David peered over your shoulder as you sat up.

"Trisha's gonna be there." You looked at him, some type of sadness in your eyes.

"Deadass?"

"Deadass. Kristen just texted me." You showed him your phone, watching his muted expression change.

"Just try to stay away from her. You already know she's gonna start shit."

"I know, but if she brings you up I will feel very compelled to defend you."

"Don't worry about me, everyone knows she's crazy."

"Yeah, but you're my baby."

"Just ignore her, okay? You'll do great."

So with a nervous tick in your heart you drove to Kristen's house, picking her up, and then you were on your way.

The Reality House was incredible. It seemed like a mansion. There were a million rooms, beautiful decorations, a pool, and a million other incredible things.

People started arriving so Kian and JC made everyone walk up to the door one by one, introducing themselves as they went.

Yours was easy and fun, and you stood in the living room with a few other girls as people continued arriving.

Trisha's sparkley outfit was spotted immediately, you putting your head down as soon as she walked through the door. Things seemed to be going well until she continued talking. She mentioned "Twenty-Two year olds controlling her life" and you rolled your eyes. She continued, talking about David's pranks and some jokes about Tana that allegedly ruined her relationship with Jason. You let it slide.

"Tana's gonna be here." Kian joked.

"Is she? That's fine. We live for Tana, we just fucking hate Jason and David." Trisha put on her sunglasses, obviously glaring at you as she walked into the living room. Kristen's jaw dropped, and your eyebrows raised, giving Trish that "Really, bitch?" glare.

"You hate them. Not 'we.' You don't speak for everyone." You didn't even notice that the words had left your mouth. You were pissed. You hated that she felt the need to comment on David and bring him up, when it was her own problems and insecurities that ended her relationship.

"Hey, I didn't mention you." She jabbed at you with her words, the grudge between you very obvious as she walked into the kitchen and grabbed a drink.

"You mentioned my boyfriend." You stepped a little closer to her.

"I don't know how you can date someone so crazy and manipulative." Her high-pitched valley girl voice drove you insane.

"I don't know how you can continually blame someone else for your break up just because you're insecure." You stepped a little closer still, ready at any moment if she wanted to fight.

"Hey, hey, let's not fight yet." JC stepped in, a chorus of "oh shit" and "damn's" promoting him to stop any physical violence from happening.

"Come chill out a little bit." Kristen grabbed your wrist bringing you back over to the couch. Trisha mumbled some things, you utterly ignoring her. A million thoughts ran through your head, most of them wondering why you even signed up for this.

Once all the contestants were in the house, you all sat around, talking and roasting eachother. You and Kristen stayed inside with a few other girls while people argued outside. Being away from Trisha was your best bet.

You ignored her presence completely until the first challenge. There were thirteen people in the house, and only ten could stay. The rules of the game were that the first ten people to get their ball into the trashcan got to stay. Easy enough.

The first few rounds went fine, a few people getting in one by one. You made it somewhere in the middle, not sure if you were happy that you were staying, or sad that you wouldn't be going home to David. As more people made it in, Kristen seemed like she wasn't going to make it. You needed her to make it, especially instead of Trisha. Hell, you didn't even care if Kristen made it, as long as Trisha didn't make it in either.

The final four were on the line. Kristen, Trisha, and two other people that you didn't really know or care about. There was one more spot. One spot left, reserved for everyone except Trisha.

"Come on Kristen!" You screamed, making it very evident that you wanted her to make it, and not Trisha.

Kristen's heart sank when she didn't make it in, and your heart sank when Trisha did. There was no way you could deal with her any longer, especially not as she got drunker.

You rubbed your face, the headache you got from her presence growing stronger.

"I don't want you to go." You pouted at Kristen. "I don't think I can do this without you."

"I don't wanna leave." She frowned back at you. You were whisked away back inside by one of the other girls, and Kristen was left outside with Kian and JC. She begged and pleaded them, asking what she could do to get back in the house. One of the other losing contestants mentioned buying a spot from someone else, and she had a lightbulb moment.

You were in the backyard when Kristen ran up to you.

"I'll buy you out." She stated excitedly.

"What?" Your head tilted as you looked at the wild expression on her face.

"I'll give you two thousand dollars to trade." She offered. You thought for a moment, wondering if you could make it through, or if it would be better just to go home with more than you started with, and still get to cuddle with David.

"I'm down, I need to get out of here." Trisha's face flashed in your mind and you followed her quickly out to KnJ. They agreed to the deal and Kristen Venmo'd you the money.

You let all your emotions out during confessionals, talking incredible shit about Trisha, and gassing up David.

"Hey, Trisha!" You screamed across the room as you grabbed your bag. "Fuck you, I'm out!" You couldn't deny flipping her off, the alcohol in your system aiding in your craziness.

"Fuck you, too! Go back to your psychopath boyfriend." Her words were slightly slurred, she'd been drinking a lot, but you didn't care. Your uber was almost there and you wanted to have the last word.

"Go back to your boyfriend, oh wait, you don't have one! Because nobody wants to deal with your crazy ass!" Everyone else in the room was holding in laughter, almost silent as the two of you hashed it out.

"I can get any man I want!" She stood up her drink held firmly in her hand.

"But you can't keep one, can you?" Your hand pulled your bag behind you as you walked up to the door.

"You're just a bitter bitch!" Trisha shouted down the entryway at you.

"At least I'm not obsessed with my ex boyfriend! Your drunk tweets tell it all, Trish. Why can't you get it in your head that everyone thinks you're crazy? Just move on. Leave Jason the fuck alone and move the fuck on!" You slammed the door behind you, not caring what the people inside were thinking, or that it would soon be posted all over the internet. You meant what you said, and you didn't care who heard it.

You fell into a deep sleep in David's arms, needing a mental break after what happened, and then rehashing it to David when you got home. You cried out of frustration, David rubbing your back and talking you to sleep.

This was the reason you loved him.

You didn't care if he was a 'psychopath' or if he went overboard sometimes. He's a good person who cares greatly about you, and that's all that matters.

[vancilocs]

Personality and misc with kenjiro and marcy?

outer rim bounty hunter and almost outer rim almost bounty hunter

Personality:

21. What is their favorite thing about their personality?

He’s mellow and relaxed, so it’s pretty easy to just chill in his company

She’s balanced and rational

22. What is their least favorite thing about their personality?

While he is pretty easygoing it’s too easy to irritate him and also he’s too impulsive

She’s too shy

23. Do they get lonely easily?

Not really, he sees enough people at work and goes out often enough, so when he’s alone he usually wants to be

A bit, she’ll text someone if she’s left alone for too long

24. Do you know their MBTI type?

No idk anything abt those except what mine is

25. What is their biggest flaw?

Too impulsive, lacks inhibitors (because of straight up brain damage), addiction comes along the need for stimulation

She’s not really a leader type and has a hard time standing up for herself sometimes

26. Are they aware of their flaws?

He embraces or ignores them but sometimes he does things like trashes his own apartment and is like goddammit not again

Yeah, and is trying to work on it

27. What is their biggest strength?

Physical strength and reading people

Being balanced

28. Are they aware of their strengths?

Yes and he utilizes them well

When looking at her gf and gf’s partner she does notice it

29. How would they describe their own personality?

Easygoing, bit too easy to rile up

Nondescript, calm, shy

30. When frightened, will they resort to “fight” or “flight”?

Fight at the slightest sign of trouble

Flight

31. Does this character ever put somebody else’s needs before their own? Who do they do this for? How often do they do this?

On jobs he does keep an eye on his comrades and keeps them safe like he expects them to look after him, otherwise he does look after his old father when he asks him to and they’re on speaking terms for the time being

Daughter comes first, also when Shyn was pregnant Marcy would make sure she was as comfortable as possible

32. What is their self esteem like?

It fluctuates, goes from him being the best on earth to really hating his own reflection. Depends on what’s been happening recently.

Not the best, dysphoria is a big thing - but it’s generally positive. She works with what she has

33. What is their biggest fear? How would they react to having to face it?

He wouldn’t be able to cope in a restricted environment such as being in jail, that was a possibility with how he acted on the Citadel side and he just went back to where he could do what he wanted

Kid being in any kind of danger, if that’s the case that kid would be put in the care of either her parents or Shyn’s family

34. How easily do they trust others with their secrets? With their lives?

Not easily, plays his cards pretty close to his chest. Nor does he have much secrets, mind you. At work he trusts his comrades have his back but mainly also looks after himself.

Being good friends will let you in on her secrets, good enough and life too.

35. What is the easiest way to annoy them?

Touch him or his stuff without permission, get in his space, insults, be noisy

Getting too close and touchy-feely, insults

36. What is their sense of humor like? Give an example of a joke they would find humorous.

His sense of humor is a bit crude and dark, amputee jokes are a hoot

More of a memey kind of jokester, TV show jokes too

37. How easy is it for them to say “I love you”? Do they say it without meaning it?

Can’t remember the last time he said it, doesn’t come easily, not a part of his vocabulary in general

If she loves you she will say it, and she will mean it

38. What do others admire most about their personality?

Easy to chill out with, it’s not awkward even if you don’t know each other

A very calming and reliable presence

39. What does their happily ever after look like?

Doesn’t really know - very much lives in the present. Expects to die on a mission sometime soonish (though with his much he’s been battered already he’d just get more metal into him)

Still has her gf and their kid, more comfortable in her body

40. Who do they trust most? Is that trust mutual?

Probably if you ask he’d name a Citadel bounty hunter because those kids make honour a hobby apparently. He was trustworthy in a sense that he did the mission, he looked after his comrades, but he didn’t care about material damage he caused and the bounties were captured dead half the time

Willow or Shyn, they trust her right back

Misc.

81. Are they bothered by the sight of blood?

Not at all

A bloody nose or something like that won’t be a bother, but injury can make her a lil queasy

82. What is their handwriting like?

Quick, capital letters, scratchy, well legible (unless he’s drunk). He’s used to writing important things in his notebook so it’s useful to keep it easy to read

Kinda small and loopy, easy enough to read

83. Can they swim? How well? Do they like to swim?

He can, hasn’t in a long time, not super good in it and it’s not his favorite thing. Thankfully his leg or arm don’t weigh him down at least

She can’t, her homeland doesn’t have water and she never learned

84. Which deadly sin do they represent best?

Probably greed, the impulsiveness shows

Perhaps envy, would be nice to be in lingerie too but body looks too bad

85. Do they believe in ghosts?

Not entirely sure bc he’s seen some shit when high

Not really

86. How do they celebrate holidays? How do they celebrate birthdays?

Celebrates by getting shitfaced, forgets birthday

Very lowkey celebrations before, but after Mint came around she would teach her their culture through holidays. Birthdays are for getting drinks and cake and maybe a gift.

87. What is something they regret?

Thinks abt how he treated and left his husband and wonders what the fuck is wrong with him to act like that

Sometimes regrets leaving her homeland

88. Do they have an accent?

Outer Rim born and raised, so that’s the accent he has

Saborian

89. What is their D&D alignment?

Chaotic neutral maybe...?

Neutral good....?

90. Are they right or left handed?

Right, ambidextrous with weapons though

Favors right but can operate with left

91. If they were a tweet, what tweet would they be?

92. Describe them as a John Mulaney gif.

[incessantwhine]

down so incredibly bad for sum1 who sees me as a customer and customer only. ik it’s literally their job to make ppl obsess over her but boy is she good at it!! like i feel straight up ruined. fundamentally altered or whatever. rattled to my core. even when i don’t want to be thinking abt them I am. It’s to the point where i genuinely wondered if theyre doing some dark magic on the side.

like im glad im able to just be like “it’s not that deep” and snap myself out of it and return to the things in my life that are actually important but that takes a worrying amount of effort & it’s only gonna get worse. it genuinely snuck up on me too. it feels so so fast. they were just some stranger on an app 6 months ago and now im like “im gonna steal some supplies at my job to give her a vial of my own blood because she tweeted about it” like WHAT?? absolutely feral behavior. WHO DOES THAT??? there’s shit that i never even would have considered as a possibility before that I’d be into now if she said she liked it.

every interaction is so intense for no reason too. I never think carefully before i speak like conversation is usually pretty easy for me but w/ her im spending 20 minutes before i respond to make sure what I say is perfect. and theyve called me out for it too she’s like “you’re so anxious, just relax :)” and it’s like i want to scream and be like “IM NOT USUALLY LIKE THIS ITS JUST SUPER IMPORTANT” but it’s like…why? why is it so important?? why do i care so much???? im not intimidated by anyone and i don’t ever let anyone get under my fkn skin like this b/c ik it’s dumb. barriers are barriers for a reason so i make sure to keep them in good shape. but its like they looked at those walls and said “oh, that’s cute!” and effortlessly stepped right thru a doorway that didn’t even exist until now.

and like it’s absolutely not romantic at all. it’s laughable to think that it ever would be on my end. i for sure am a hopeless romantic but that’s reserved for my wife and my wife only. i have zero desire to woo her or like daydream abt being gfs like i do not want to be anything other than a really great client but that’s still a Big Feeling and I just hate that shit. like part of being a really great client is like…being super vulnerable and intimate and trusting (because, hello, it’s SW??) so i just don’t know what to do w/ myself. i can stop at any time too like it’s me thats doing the obsessing so it’s me that can stop it; it’s literally as easy as hitting the block button and taking a break; but there’s just something abt them and I do not understand what. is it like a “want what you can’t have thing”? is it “i wanna be like you” thing? who knows??? I don’t!! it just makes me want to crawl out of my own skin. I don’t even know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. that’s the terrible part too. like i do not know if this change is for the better.

and like the most pathetic part is there’s like a thousand ppl who feel the same way and ik for a fact she doesn’t think of me any differently than those ppl. like I am quite literally just a number no matter how “sweet” i am or how good I am at subbing. the amount of thought/effort/money/care does not matter in the slightest like it’s all futile. at best my place is like a passing thought of “yay, more money and gifts, sweet” and maybe an amusing conversation (cuz i got jokes! that’s all i got!) and that’s it. not terribly important or impactful or valuable or worth a second thought. im honestly not even sure if they’d notice if i dropped dead. she’s not like, wondering how or what im doing at random points of the day LOL. not because they’re cold-hearted or malicious or anything it’s just that im not even a blip on the radar. and i KNOW that and i KNOW that it has to be that way and it SHOULD be that way and it’s GOOD that it’s that way. but i still put in work anyway because…because i like to?? because me being pathetic is part of the appeal?? i don’t even know!!

the other terrible thing is that this is exactly how im supposed to feel too like im sure they’d be pleased as punch if i ever vocalized this in a space where she could see it. it’s part of the whole domme shtick, right?? fkn lowkey torturing ur subs with just ur existence?? living rent free in ppls heads?? who wouldn’t want that ability?? that just means ur in the right field & doing good work. ugh

and it’s not a competition but ofc I’m so competitive that i make it a competition with other ppl who don’t even know who I AM, bro. what am I competing for? acknowledgement? like my brain is all IM going to give the most money, IM going to be the most supportive, IM going to be the most observant, IM gonna be the most serious, IM going to be the most sweet, IM going to serve the best. at any cost. and for WHAT? so I have a one up on ppl who don’t know me? a made up “first place” that only I care abt? how could i even win if the judge and the competitors don’t even know it’s happening? it’s quite literally all in my head. i can’t keep reading subtext into things where its not to be found. it’s so fucking stupid but i cannot help myself because it’s so fun, too.

and what do I do with all this energy, this new part of myself that I’ve found? surely it’s too much to put it onto one person. if I can barely deal with it i would never make it someone else’s responsibility.

honestly when i get feeling like this sometimes I wish i never went to nyc. i should have known after that session (& the fkn TT that blew up abt me after, talk abt an ego trip—hundreds of ppl commenting abt how they wish they could be me? Really? way to appeal to the greediest, most disgusting part of myself—if you reward that, you got me hook, line, and sinker. ) that this was going to destroy me in really great but also terrible ways. it’s also rly good for me too, tho. like i do feel like healthier and better abt myself b/c of all this. im just confused. i feel like i did my due diligence and research and waited a long time before making that decision and I had numerous opportunities to back out and all my self reflection/assessment and i still wasn’t prepared. i didn’t think it would be like this. now it’s a little too late and i don’t know anything about what i did to myself or what she did to me. if she did anything at all. idk why im so invested. I feel stupid. i feel like a little kid wanting to play with the big boys and now im here and im in so far over my head. but im just keeping cool because panicking is a sure way to drown and ill get eaten alive. im way too proud to admit i wasn’t prepared. i either figure it out now or drop dead trying but i would never walk away w/ my tail between my legs. i need guidance but the only person i want to listen to anymore is her which is like…going to be super biased in her favor LMFAO.

deep down this is satisfying some urge or need or whatever and i don’t mind, I think it’s important and i think this is a healthy way to do it, im just still baffled by it. ik the solution is to not seek some great answer that’ll magically make me at peace because i don’t think there is a good answer but still. it’s hard to accept parts of me that I don’t understand. it’s freeing in some ways but mostly lowkey scary. it would be freeing if i felt like i was holding it back but honestly i didn’t even know it was there to begin with. that’s scary! how could i not have that answer? it’s ME. I know myself better than anyone knows anything. it’s MY body and MY brain. historically im incredibly self aware. so how could there be something in me lurking this whole time that I didn’t know about rearing it’s ugly head b/c of some stranger? and for them and i to welcome that sad, broken, helpless little thing with open arms because it’s positive? how could it be a good thing? how could it be of value? but it’s treated like it is. it’s rewarded. idk. it’s a mystery to me. the big question is whether or not i can accept it’s a mystery, honor it, and move on OR if im going to spend my time pondering it and challenging it. i know which one sounds better, i just don’t know which is ACTUALLY better.

and maybe it’s not that deep. maybe im just horny and it means nothing cause im just trying to be creative in how I get off. but it feels like more than that. UGH

[phansprings]

sometimes I miss those nights I’d stay up re-watching all 15 of dans videos or the super amazing project, and the sundays id block out to listen to the radio show....ah, nostalgia. But I’m so happy at how far they’ve come and I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world 💖

this is really valid… im gonna share a part of my traumatic back story with u rn anon bc this made me :’)

back in 2010 my older sister fell fatally ill, no one knew what was wrong with her, my parents at age 11 gave me a phone and said i had to grow up and raise myself now.. bc they needed to focus on sara. shortly after i started being physically and verbally bullied at school. and my parents didnt have the time to care really. ( not their fault i hid it rlly well bc i didnt want them to worry abt me)

my brothers showed me dan and phil bc my oldest bros gf at the time liked phil. he thought i would too,(they also were both in hs and couldnt take care of me)  i spent mostly every single day watching dan and phil, shane, jenna marbles, o2l.

just youtube. I would stay up until 3am watching videos bc as my life was falling apart around me dnp and everyone else was an escape a happy spot. when they got the radio show i would watch it at church after i prayed for my sister. it was like this all the way until 2014. then we moved across the country and she got better (she was allergic to dust btw thats a whole other story)

in 2011 on an old and lost twitter of mine dan favourited a tweet of mine the night i planned to kill myself, i didnt. I was 13. Four years later, i tried to kill myself twice. Both times my sister and i watched dan and phil in the hospital and reminded me of dan favouriting my tweet and how excited i was that day i visited her in the hospital. 

2011 nostalgia, i love it it was such a positive in such a nEGaTIVE part of my life. 

i am so fucking proud of how far they’ve come, i am so fucking thankful they were around when i needed them to be. i wouldn’t change anything for the world.