#she was more than a bit of a c*nt

[pooksbedamned]

No way

1000 swarming tinkerbells? I just saw Peter Pan and I loathed her

I’ll take my chances with the walrus

[creedslove]

mari bb it’s 3am here but i’m suddenly thinking about brooklyn/qz joel (the phase where he’s wearing denim shirt and looms over people like a fucking goon) and how i just wanna be his girl sooo bad 😫 like i want the other women in qz whispering how “no way she got a fucking sundress” and “joel got it for her” and like bash me “fucking spoiled c*nt” etc 😫😫😫😫😫😫 want those nasty blue balled men at the ratty makeshift bar at qz to stare but not daring to do anything bcs “that’s joel’s girl” 😫😫😫 wanna rub joel’s tired muscles after a day of hard work 😫😫😫

but then i thought to myself “wait… do they pnly eat jerkies ..?” and was like nuh uh I WOULD STARVEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭 but i wanna be scary old man joel who can body grown men with a single arm’s sweet little pea soooo bad

-jerk loving anon

Post outbreak!Joel Miller x f!reader

A/N: my beautiful jerk loving anon, this ask is pure sin, it smells and tastes like sex just like everything revolving around Joel Miller 🤤🤤🤤 also, I hope you are doing better now my angel, and sorry if it took me too long to get this done

• life in the Boston QZ was hard; more than hard, it was pure shit most of the time, a depressing city full of depressing people who died out of starvation, disease and poor condition while ruled by a fascist government division, it was understandable why it was so terrible

• that for most people, but not for you, not when you were Joel Miller's girl

• technically, life was a shitty for you and Joel, but you two had each other which made things much better because well, you made Joel happy and no one, absolutely no one messed with Joel Miller's girl

• you both were such a good match, taking care of each other and making sure to make your existence a little less terrible in that fucked up world

• it had started with sex, just sex in the beginning, but it wasn't like Joel could resist your body, your touches looking for some affection and shyly cuddling him after being railed by his thick cock and your big warm eyes looking at him as if he was the greatest thing in the world when he could only think of himself as a murderer and nothing else

• he knew you deserved better, he knew he should keep away, but he didn't want to make sacrifices anymore, he wanted to be selfish and have at least one good thing in the world, and that had to be you, his girl

• it was a surprise to him when he found out his fame didn't bother you one bit, it didn't matter if people hated or feared him, if people knew he could kill in the blink of an eye or if he smuggled shit inside the QZ, you still liked him

• so he knew he would have to take good care of you; so he did his best to give you nice things, it wasn't easy but he would smuggle whatever he could in order to spoil you

• so he would manage to get you several things: new shoes, books, a gorgeous summer dress that would hug tight to your body and even a red lipstick he managed to find because he wanted to see his cock all smeared in red as you gave him a blowjob with red lips

• he even managed to smuggle some snacks once, anything to make his girl happy

• he pretends not to know most women around nearly dies of jealousy of you, they whisper and talk whenever you pass by, whether it's because you have usually better or newer things or simply because of the fact you managed to win Joel Miller's heart of stone, out of all the other women in that QZ

• you also knew those envious bitches trash talked you, but you didn't care one bit, if anything, you were proud of being Joel's and that a lot of people envied you, you just knew you would be envious too if Joel liked someone else instead

• you and Joel walked around when you had some days off, it only took a glare from him at whoever guy who tried to hit on you or make any remarks towards you, your looks or your body, and needless to you, you felt so safe in his arms

• he always pulled you closer, kissing your temple and having his arm wrapped around your waist

• in return, you would do your best to cook as decent meals as possible with that ration FEDRA gave you all, it wasn't the best, but Joel seemed to like it

• you always warmed up food so he could have a warm shower and you would gladly rub his shoulders, massage them and make sure to help him relax

• and you gladly loved to ride his cock in that shitty couch or shitty bed and it didn't matter if the neighbors could hear it or not, you just wanted to enjoy the pleasure Joel gave you

• at the end of the day, you would snuggle Joel and hug him to bed, falling asleep in his arms, loving how he very often became the little spoon even if he was bigger than you

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[br0ught2l1fe]

Headcanons on what the creeps would be like in a bl^nt rotation [includes jane the killer, clockwork, jeff the killer, ben drowned, and ticci toby]

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a/n: these are my headcanons on what the creeps [jane, jeff, natalie, toby, ben] are like during a blunt rotation with eachother. if you havent already, i really recommend reading my headcanons on what the creeps are like high on their own time here just to understand this post a bit better. enjoy c:

✮ in this rotation we have: ben, jeff, toby, jane, and natalie aka clockwork

✮ lets set the scene: usually everyone’s go to smoke sesh spot is ben’s room because it’s just the vibiest and he’s always got the good stuff on him. his room will have his led light’s on and they WILL be on green. it’s a must to be on green. all his other lights like his lava lamp will also be on. and he’ll always have some quiet lofi on in the back to give the room a relaxing feel. [ben can be a jerk sometimes but one thing he will do is make sure everyone is comfortable enough to start smoking. we don’t want any panic attacks]

✮ unfortunately for nina, she is never invited to the sesh anymore because she tends to be highly annoying

✮ mainly the conversations between everyone starts off easy going, usually just talking about what slender did to piss them off this time or whatever crazy/strange thing they witnessed today.

✮ ben is definitely the one that’s got everyone laughing, like i said in another post he’s the absolute funniest when he’s high off his ass. it gets even better when toby starts joking along with him, i mean these guys are masters at bouncing jokes off each other.

✮ jeff will talk about his most recent murders while insensitively making jokes about them while jane rolls her eyes

✮ both jane and natalie at some point will playfully start picking on jeff to which he will playfully pick on them back

✮ this usually starts by jeff saying something stupid or saying something that just didn’t really make sense and natalie and jane will point it out every single time and make fun of him for it

✮ another thing is that when jeff tells a story he uses sound effects and it’s the funniest thing to natalie and jane, they’ll definitely make fun of the sounds and mock him

✮ examplé, jeff was once describing how he timed himself to see how fast he can kill someone [he’s lame like that, i wasn’t kidding when i said he was insensitive to his victims/murders] at one point he described the sound of his knife as “chchchch” to which natalie and jane simultaneously mocked the sound and laughed for a good 10 minutes about it

✮ both jeff and natalie will argue over his hypothetical questions about who is right or why their idea would never work

✮ both jeff and natalie really enjoy discussing on what they would do if a zombie apocalypse were to actually happen

✮ toby and ben eventually chime in to their conversation but they never take the conversation seriously

✮ so we have jeff and natalie arguing like the situation is genuinely happening at that very moment while ben and toby are cracking jokes about what they would do and making fun of jeff and natalie while pointing out the holes in their plans while jane just laughs along and listens

✮ eventually at some point ben and toby will decide they wanna go out and do something which usually involves a gas station run and just running around the nearby town acting like children

✮ jeff, jane, and natalie tag along but they’re falling behind caught up in talking about some random drama that natalie definitely brought up on accident [that girl cant keep a secret]

✮ sometimes if they smoked alot, ben and toby will come up with the dumbest ideas

✮ once, they both went out during the winter in like 40 degree weather and jumped off a bridge literally just for fun

✮ and they’ve done way more dumber things than that

✮ like this one time they both convinced the whole group to sneak into a house party where the cops ended up getting called and toby being the funny guy he thinks he is shouted out something along the lines “aww who invited these guys”. obviously that got the attention of the officers who noticed they were all high. basically that night consisted of a party and running away from cops chasing them.

✮ jane and natalie are basically a duo in the group

✮ eventually they’ll start talking to just each other and it’s usually about more drama natalie can’t keep to herself or they’re talking shit about nina or making fun of jeff

✮ they will definitely start sharing tmi details about their life with each other [as besties do]

✮ after a few hours most of them will get tired

✮ usually toby and natalie get tired around the same time and jane will end up going to her room since nat’s not there anymore

✮ so it’s just jeff and ben left

✮ thats when it starts to get deep

✮ i headcanon jeff and ben to be close friends so once it’s just them left thats when they feel comfortable enough to start getting into heavier topics

✮ i mean this is the one and only time jeff will ever show emotions and disclose information about him actually… like… caring?… about people. which is the strangest thing to hear coming from jeff considering how he puts on a cold and distant persona around people

✮ like he has opened up to ben about how grateful he feels to have him in his life and even toby and natalie too. he has opened up about how he really does enjoy being able to talk about his dumb theories with natalie and to actually know that she is truly listening knowing that she’s also into that stuff

✮ after knowing jeff for as long as he has it’s not strange hearing this from him but in the past he was SHOCKED i tell you. shocked. because it was just so unlike him

✮ but even after years of being jeff’s best friend it still shocked him to hear jeff admit to how he felt bad for what he did to jane even though she really does get on his nerves.

✮ but yea these guys will spill their guts when it’s just them

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a/n: that’s all i got. if you have any more ideas or suggestions dm me and i will consider adding them all to a part 2! if you want to see any other headcanons topics you can dm me those requests too because MY REQUESTS ARE OPENN!!!! also check out my jeff the killer hcs <3

have a great day and don’t forget to be nice 💕

[xx--ofmanythoughts--xx]

Rant and spoilers of Season 2, Episode 1

Before anyone calls me an ELITIST C*nt as I was called last night for reading Fire and Blood then using it as canon…these are MY opinions and rant.  Do not like it, unfollow me; I do not care but I am going to say this.  The episode was slow and boring…for an episode so hyped; it was horrible!  The writing was weak.  Too many changes and such. 

Now do not tell me because the book was written by sources that are not to be trusted, it is STILL canon not what Ryan and Sara wish to do with a story because many of us know that Daemon Targaryen was not a warmonger, but they turned him into one. 

The cons of the episode:

 To start off, to remove the scene where Aemond returns and gets berated by his mother and grandsire as well as Aegon celebrating; was so wrong because it sets up so much.   He NEVER felt remorse for it as he MEANT to kill Luke so to remove that scene was a bad idea. 

Don’t even get me started on the sex scenes with Alicent and Ser Crispy because it was NOT needed…all it showed to me was that Ser Crispy is a fucking hypocrite and still butt hurt the future queen (the true queen) did not wish to give up her station for him but now he is sleeping with a queen because he is on her side and has the same hatred.  And yes, in the book Alicent and Rhaenyra HATED each other. 

The Blood and Cheese scene!  And I know I will get hate on this, but I do not care!  Daemon ordered them to assassinate Aemond, but they were too afraid of Aemond or could not find him.  In the book, Helaena was with Alicent in her chambers bringing her 3 children to her for the evening as she always did. Alicent was bound and gagged, and a guard had been killed as well as a maid servant. Helaena pleaded for her life, but it was to no avail.  She chooses Maelor but they did kill Jaehaera and when they killed him; she screamed and was sobbing.  She did NOT just leave the room carrying her other child into Alicent’s bedchamber where she is getting her rocks off with Ser Crispy!  And without any emotions.  Now for the show version of Helaena, they have made her this robot dreamer without emotions and neurotic but in the book; she was not that way.  She was NOT a dreamer or a seer.  She was a woman who married you, had children young and suffered some thing so horrific that made her insane. 

But the writers of the show made this scene so weak and pathetic.  The Red Wedding gave us more than this and this was more horrific than that!  This part of the episode was badly written and then for her to go to find her mother while her mother is off getting off shows me the writers have no clue. 

Aemond looked weak to me.  His insanity and fall into the psychopathic c*nt that he is should have already begun but they have not done this and it drives me insane.  Aemond doesn’t know love, but he does know loyalty, but he is loyal to his House but for him to be King because he believes he should be King, but they made him a little bitch.  I hope that gets better.

The pros of the episode:

Rhaenyra looking for Luke’s remains and all the scenes that went along with that.  It was powerful and so sad. The fact she carried all of that with ONLY one line to say was brilliant.  And when Jace came home, it broke my heart because I know what it is like to lose a brother so my heart broke. 

DAEMON!  Matt Smith is amazing as Daemon and nothing in the scenes with him surprised me with his responses or attitude.  Daemon is out to protect his family and that is what he was doing.  Do I agree with Blood and Cheese?  If they had tried to assassinate Aemond, YES!  But since those two killed a child; it did weaken Rhaenyra because she did lose the smallfolk for a bit, but Daemon did not want the war but a well-placed assassination and talks (but HBO and Sara want us to hate Daemon)

Aegon Targaryen!  Tom did an amazing job of playing Aegon as the childish king that he was.  Aegon was a cruel King once his anger and rage took over but to him the Seven Kingdoms was his playground and he toyed with them.  He had no training because he did NOT want to be king and mom as well as grandsire forced that for their own power grab.  Viserys had an heir.  Viserys is to blame partially for this war, but it was Otto and Alicent who began it.  But the laughter and the play Tom did with Aegon was right on que and perfect! 

The piece with Alicent in the bathtub making her like Lady MacBeth as she is scrubbing away the “blood”.  Perfect scene for what many of us who have read the book know what happens to her.

I did enjoy Rhaenys telling off Daemon, but she was that way anyway.  She is a strong female and I love how they have kept that but as many of us know she is also very tired so if you know the book about her; you will understand what happens and her decision. 

All in all…  I was not happy with the episode.  It was weak and badly written.   It did not impress me as the episode that everyone made it out to be.  I was disappointed and I hope the rest of the season gets better or this is going to be a long 7 weeks until we see season 3 in two years as they begin filming that season at the end of this year.

[typosandtea]

With Artfight very soon I though it was about time to post about some of my ocs!

Introducing: Murphy!!

SKETCHS HERE!!!

Nora Murphy is a whole 5ft of mutant soldier trauma and caring.

The short:

S:5, P:7, E:8, C:10, I:3, A:7, L:2

Toughness, Lifegiver, rad resistant, refractor, admantium skeleton, animal friend, inspirational, local leader, rifleman

BOS main, contractor for the minuteman, deacon only minor contact with the railroad, hates the institute

Good, helps people, very anxious, terrified of becoming a monster. Unlucky.

Is a mutant: can fly, quick heal / tough, but needs to eat a lot, restricted to night by being nocturnal, shunned by many

Companions: Danse and Preston mostly, sometimes nick, befriends all of them at least a bit.

Heritage: white Australian

The long: Lore \/

The long:

Fallout 4 ‘Sole survivor’ oc, but in my Mutant AU where vault 111 was a dual experiment creating super soldiers by forcing animal DNA on people with some twisted results (Murph is very lucky to still look mostly human with wings), basically fallout 4 but with a bunch of extra side quests to fight or help her old neighbours in various states of mind.

She is Australian! From NT, Which kinda sucks in fallout universe since most countries had fallen well before the bombs ever fell, Australia was absorbed by USA for its abundance of uranium and strategic proximity to china! She and Nathan (Nate) were accepted as military refugees into the us army about 2065, where they were in power armour core together her as a soldier and him as a mechanic. They were married shortly before where they both get injured in an explosion, Nathan much more so as Murphy was in power Armor at the time. They are discharged, Nathan for injury and Murphy for being pregnant with Shaun. Bombs fall etc.

She is mutated with sooty owl DNA by Vaulttec in an attempt to make an extremely mobile stealth night operative, which didn’t go entirely to plan! While she hardier than normal, capable of flight and is reasonably stealthy she is also now limited to night ops by being nocturnal, daytime is way too bright and painful for her to be in without eye protection! She also struggles to be awake in the day. She also has other negatives from the mutation such as lost intelligence, needing to eat way more food, being smaller than she used to be, and being shunned or shot at. The mutation forces each of the residents to cocoon and liquify into their new forms!

She has so much military trauma, from being in the Aus army when they get demolished by china and then by USA fighting china to take control of Aus, by being acquired by the us army, being a ‘volunteer’ for the power Armor testing, seeing fellow Aussie soldiers get treated poorly in the army, having to participate in the mandatory war crimes, her and Nathan getting badly injured in anchorage, the horrors of war etc.

Personality wise she is very people oriented and will put people before the goal often, extremely charismatic which is the only reason she hasn’t been shot multiple times by just about every faction 😅. Very anxious even before being mutated, but is positively a nervous wreck now, is ok at hiding it. Soldiers training helps a lot to shift into mission focus but is not sustainable in the long term as she finds out! Worries about being a mutant and is terrified of becoming, or being seen as a monster so she is very restrained in her combat, how she moves and speaks, rarely yells or fights first. Will go out of her way to help people as has become the go to helper for many people against her will such as the minuteman, the other mutants and various other people she has helped. She has a very broad definition of person much to Danse’s + the BOS’s chagrin. Has multiple mental breakdowns throughout the story. Privately thinks she deserves to be hated and hunted from a combination of BOS rubbish, military trauma at the awful things she has done as a soldier both pre and post war, and just all round ruined self esteem. Banter is a core part of her speech, if an Aussie is mildly insulting you they think you’re neat!

Pre war was 5’6”, post mutation is 5’ with 15’ wingspan, is not happy about suddenly being a lot shorter. As a morning person naturally the shift to nocturnal is extremely difficult to her, dislikes having to wake people up constantly and feels bad about it. (She feels bad about everything really). Jury-rigs some aviators goggles sunglasses so she can tolerate the sun slightly better, is not a fan of the day anymore, feels too exposed and dislikes flying in the sun.

BOS as feels the familiarity of being as soldier as that’s all she’s ever been for the past 17 years (her perspective excluding the ice nap). Unknown to her, Danse is instructed by Maxon after arcjet on to recruit her so they can study her, and use her as a political pawn with the minutemen and mutants, because by the time she goes to Cambridge she is already reasonably well know and tentatively liked in the commonwealth. (Don’t worry I love both Danse and Maxon as characters so they are not reduced to 1 dimensional jerks!) over time though she befriends Danse as he is assigned to her as her ‘sponsor’ (observe her for study and make sure she makes BoS friendly decisions), mixed feeling in the BoS when she is made knight by Maxon to say the least! over time she becomes a great friend and asset to the BoS and Maxon realises one day the he no longer intends to go through with his original secret plans.

Since she spent so much time in power armour prewar, and Nathan was a power armour mechanic, she knows quite a lot about it! And is very unhappy that she physicaly cannot wear it anymore!

Physically she is small wiry and very hardy from the mutations. Though she can’t wear armour due to its weight and her small stature so she needs to be tough! Important appearance features are she is short, lots of freckles, gap in front teeth, rather flat face, prominent eyebrows, eyes that are too big and yellow from the mutation, shoulder length thick light brown hair that’s messy or braided, she is lean, pear shaped, and has a wide gait. Prefers baggy clothes and will layer over the vault suit / bos uniform. She rather suntanned / leathery and freckled from spending a lot of time outside pre war. She has a prominent set of vertical scars over her left eye from anchorage. She has barbed wire tattoos around her arms above her elbows on both sides. wings connect to her body like having a second set of shoulders.

Absolutely has no cold tolerance from the double whammy of being a Northern Territory Aussie (winter is like 17c here) and cryosleep trauma! Layers clothing wherever possible. Being very cold brings bad memories.

Left leg gets messed up in a nasty fight later, can’t really run much anymore, so is a lot more reliant on flying and her friends, scar on her stomach from stacking it badly on her bike as a kid.

Despite being highly charismatic keeps messing up and emotionally hurting her friends (everyone needs to grow as a person in my fanfic I’m trying to write and that includes messing up in relationships and subsequently repairing the relationship stronger)

Uses laser rifle from Danse that’s modified to be scoped and extra light, carries a combat knife on her person at all times out of habit, before meeting Danse was using 10mm but prefers long range without power armour, which she can’t wear anymore. Her and Sturges whip up some rudimentary comms for her, which later she and danse improves so she can use them in flight without the wind noise making her illegible.

Tends to horde / carry / eat any food she finds since she needs to eat so much and doesn’t want to be a burden on anyone else, most of the time her very limited caring capacity is atleast half food. Has very few clothes because of the time and effort required to modify them, gets a modified bomber jacket later and basically never takes it off again cause bloody hell Boston is cold compared to Aus.

[deputyclover]

Spear of Justice

*Clover and Rose continue and see Undyne on the top of the rock pillar.

Seven. Seven human souls, and King ASGORE will become a god.

Five. That's how many we've collected thus far, due to one escaping and not being found. Understand? Through your sixth and seventh souls, this world will be transformed. First, however, as is customary for those who make it thus far, I shall tell you the tragic tale of our people. It all started long ago... No, you know what?

SCREW IT! HERE'S YOUR SYNOPSIS: HUMANS STARTED WAR WHEN WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING AND KILLED TONS OF US!

THAT'S BULLSH*T!!

ROSE!

NO DADDY! I'M TALKING!

Oh sh*t.

THOSE HUMANS SEEMED LIKE B*TCH-A*S MOTHERF*CKERS!! I READ ON ONE OF THEM WALLS HUMANS FEARED YOU FOR NO REASON! WELL THEY'RE A BUNCH OF C*NTS! ME AND DADDY ARE ON A TRIP FROM OUR HOUSE DOWN HERE TO FREE MONSTERS SO LET US THROUGH! Please.

*Clover looks at Undyne and points at Rose and looks at her after he stops yelling.

I DID NOT TEACH HER TO SAY THAT! I am very proud of you sweetie.

*Undyne throws her helmet off.

YOU TWO! You're both standing in the way of everyone's hopes and dreams! Alphys's history books made me think humans were cool, with their giant robots and flowery swordswomen, BUT YOU? You're just a coward!

And you didn't read history books! That was probably manga!

And you with your goody-two-shoes-schtick! Oooh, I'm helping random strangers! You know what would be more valuable to everyone? IF YOU WERE DEAD!!! That's right, humans! Your continued existence is a crime! Your lives are all that stands between us and freedom! Right now, I can feel everyone's hearts pounding together! Everyone's been waiting their whole lives for this moment! But we're not nervous at all. When everyone puts their hearts together, they can't lose! Now, humans! Let's end this, right here, right now. I'll show you how determined monsters can be! Step forward when you're ready! Fuhuhuhu!

Remember the plan Rose?

Yes, run til' I see a friend.

Great,

*Clover unsheathes his magic sword.

PREPARE UNDYNE! FOR OUR HEARTS WILL PERSIST AND WIN!

That's it then, no more running away! HERE I COME!

*Undyne stabs the spear down and Clover blocks it with his sword.

You can't run now! ENGARDE!

*Clover knocks spears out of the way as they fly towards him as Rose sneaks off.

Man, Papyrus got more hits on me than you!

*The spears get faster and eventually Clover runs away and Undyne stops Clover and this goes on for a bit.

*Clover gets a call.

Oop, hold on.

HEY! WHAT'S UP!?

Oh, hey Papyrus.

I WAS JUST THINKING, YOU, ME, ROSE, AND UNDYNE SHOULD ALL HANG OUT SOMETIME!

That sounds great Papyrus.

*Undyne notices Rose is gone.

HEY PUNK! WHERE IS YOUR KID?

Oops, sorry Papyrus, got to go.

*Clover ends the call and continues running and sees Rose hiding behind a water cooler and Undyne falls unconscious on the bridge.

Uh-oh, Rose, get a cup of water and pour it on Undyne.

Yes Daddy!

*Rose gets a cup of water and pours it on Undyne's head and Rose and Clover smile as she gets back up.

*After a tiny bit Undyne leaves.

Ok Rose, we must continue.

Ok!

*Clover and Rose continue.

[werewolffem]

i am going to use this weirdo moid as an example. this is guilt tripping + gaslighting at it's finest. this is something i probably would have fallen for years ago. they try to install this...odd, odd fear in attempts to get you to "their side".

i had been in the trans community for probably a decade or close to it. i had been transitioning for 6 of those years. i know all about what happens in that community and it is nothing good. most of these people assume that any radical feminist has not been on their side before or in the community itself, they just assume it. they assume you've been "stolen" or "taken" from them if someone agrees with radical feminism and they do their best to attempt to convince you you're wrong. if not convinced or you've moved away from that community they will turn on you like a snap.

in the community, females (ftm or a female identifying as another gender) are treated the same as ever -- like females everyday. the males know they hold power still, they just redirect it towards saying they are the most oppressed and the most in danger so the females should protect them and defend them. the females get abused by these males yet don't know and understand that they are. whether it's sexual, violent, or something like gaslighting. trans identified females are the most likely and are the most to still experience sexual harassment/aggression/rape/and murder from these males.

many trans identified males have been outed as pedophiles/abusers/rapists/murderers, as i am sure all of the radfem community knows, yet they are still protected and defended and are allowed to keep their status. and TiFs will STILL protect them and show respect. it's a community full of men that know they can get away with things as long as they "identified as a woman". the amount of survivors and victims in the TiF group is more than 90% from what i have seen. too many have the same shared experiences or can understand each other. TiMs will proudly just send you sexual pics. no context. they'll just send them to you. much like any other male out there in the world. but at least they aren't calling it their girl****.

this community HATES women. HATES them. they hate you even if you side with them. as soon as you say something that is deemed transphobic they will go rabid towards you. it's sometimes for the silliest thing! a woman loving her body is transphobic for example. even though i have noticed even now, that TiFs are the ones who are constantly miserable and obsessing over our bodies. the TiMs...why would they? they know what they have and what they can do. they're still proud. too proud. if they're not calling women c*nt or b*tch then they're probably trying to doxx you and harass/attack you that way.

the community is the MOST racist group i have come across. i would rather be called a spic, beaner, or wetback by some str8 snowman of a guy than the trans community doing it. it is some of the most aggressive and degrading racism i have seen ESPECIALLY towards black women. some cop fucking yelled at me after seeing my name and became more aggressive and i would rather go through that again than see what they say towards black women. i know a woman right now going through this treatment and she didn't even speak about the trans community for it to happen. yet they are the ones doing the most.

the homophobia... the absolute nerve of this community guilting lesbians into the whole twaw issue and they're not really lesbian unless you're attracted and include TiMs as well... this is another violent issue. ik everyone knows what i am talking about...

the death threats, the sexual abuse, harassment, rape threats, misogyny, racism, doxxing, stalking... this hasn't changed one bit since i have left that community. as soon as someone detransitions, most attacks towards the women, they will attempt to just... try and ruin you the best they can. the community is a nightmare, they protect the monsters instead of getting rid of them, agps and men who just get off to being a "woman" are the ones speaking to fucking companies and apparently the president now which is absurd and makes absolutely no sense... it's truly a nightmare.

and before anyone is like bbbbbbut the radfems! YES. i have seen self proclaimed "radfems" being racist/abusive/whatnot but you know what makes the difference? radical feminists call them out, bring it to the attention of others so we know, we don't protect them.

sorry if this is long but goddddd...these condescending males are getting on my last nerve here.

[londonspirit]

London, Take 1

Very first London trip in 2024 - one of at least four planned ones (maybe five depending on WHEN they re-home Macbeth.)

And boy, was it a great one. 

Friday noon was leaving time - and I can only recommend that time of day: airports are basically empty, flights are on time and people are less stressed. 

All very uneventful, meeting up C in London and off to the YHA Thameside - pretty far out but was the cheapest so… it’s a good place to stay (whether you still wanna do dorms which im too old now, or a private room; always worth checking if you’re on a budget!) 

Got caught in the rain for a bit but once we’ve dried off, we were off towards Battersea power station for the light installations. 

The weather Gods were merciful, no more rain for the rest of the trip so we could have a nice wander around, having dinner and learning that a fire alarm doesn’t really faze people that much at all - we were finished so we left but there were many that just stayed put O_O (was a FALSE alarm but still...O_O)

Since it got late that was about it for the Friday. 

Saturday morning we had a NT backstage tour planned. GUh, I love them sooo much. I’ve done so many by now and I still love to go behind the scenes of that huge place, and have people tell me all about it. This time we had Chelsea who did an incredible job - and they were so many people that asked just smart questions that we went a bit overtime. 

And we weren’t allowed into the Olivier because the NYE cast was in there, rehearsing!!! 

So we were in the same building as Michael freaking Sheen!!! (We didn’t manage to get tickets for that weekend beforehand - it was sold out as it was very first preview! But we already had planned to do stage door in the evening, just in case!) 

Anyhow, after the tour we were off to Richmond! Finally! I have been trying to get there for a while now. 

Gosh, it’s gorgeous there! And yes, of course my Ted Lasso loving heart was in Heaven to see it all: the pub, the park, the bench (which was sadly occupied), the street!!! *sighs happily* I love to be in places where beloved shows got filmed. 

And the riverside is soo pretty even though it was rather crowded. But then again, the weather was nice enough, even sunny at points. 

After a while we sat down near a muddy field, considering when to go to the theatre. Being the needing to plan woman I am, I checked the site to see how long the play goes. 

And there they were, two beautifully perfect seats next to each other in the middle of the circle. 

I stared at them, stared at my friend and started laughing. 

“Do you wanna go to the theatre tonight?” I asked once I could breathe again. 

“Huh?” she said. 

I showed her the site and she stared at it for like 30 seconds. 

“Can we make it back in time?” she asked wide-eyed. 

“Yes we can. And if we leave now, we even can have dinner before the show.” 

Now SHE started laughing and nodding wildly. 

So I took out my credit card and booked us tickets for NYE’s very first preview in the middle of a muddy field.

We then made our way back to London, had dinner and soon we sat down to watch Michael Sheen being amazing on stage!!! 

There were no obvious issues, the staging was pretty cool and Michael was BRILLIANT despite him being in his pj’s  and barefoot all play long! 

It was a bit weird that the curtain call was soo quick - i'm used to longer ones but with it being 1st preview it’s probably normal. They still got standing ovations so there’s that. 

Stage door was very calm; not too many people (less than I expected tbh), and all very collected. 

What was funny, that there was a person looking at me as if they know me. After a few moments of staring back and forth and them waving at me, I walked over. 

“What name do I call you?” I asked as I had absolutely no clue who they were (IM SORRY IM OLD!) 

“D. From the Rhys gig last year!” 

Only in London!!! *giggles* That was soo very nice to run into them again, we had such a blast at the Rhys gig, but sadly they’d left before I could get their socials! 

We chatted for a moment and then Michael came out! 

*sighs* He’s sooo lovely!!! And so kind. He was rather tired which didn’t stop him from taking pics, writing autographs and chatting with everyone. (He had indeed cold feet, literally; I asked him *hehe*) 

We told him how amazing he was, got our pics and autos, stuck around for a bit (I might have told Anna who waited for him how lovely she looked at the Baftas!) and then he was done, wished us a good night and lead Anna back inside for the party, I guess *lol* 

We were very happy when we made our way back to the hostel (even though the stupid bus didn’t come the 2nd day in a row!) 

For Sunday we only had the Jason and Paul gig in the evening… and a Tower visit I surprised my friend with! She’s never been, but I knew how badly she wanted to see the Crown Jewels so I got tickets for us, got her there under the pretense of meeting a friend and then just walked inside!! HER FACE was fucking priceless!!! 

And DAMN, it’s really worth the price!!! At least for us. Never been INSIDE before, but if you like history and beheadings, this is for you!!! I LOVED the tour, the kids that were in it were amazed and a constant source of amusement to our guide! 

I LOVED the Ravens! Getting this close to them without them being fazed at all, was cool! We spent about 3 hours in there before it was time for food and then heading toward the gig! 

God, I missed live shows!!! Especially Jason and Paul’s - they’re always so much fun!!! 

Still not over the fact that my last one was FIVE years ago; also in London and also around that time of year! 

I had bought VIP tickets just BECAUSE and it was worth the insanity that are these two on a stage just dorking around. 

They played a few songs and then started one somebody had requested during the tour. 

I sat there, confused because I knew it somehow… but it wasn’t one of theirs. 

And then it hit!!! It was a FLIGHT OF THE CONCORDS song!!! One I had just seen/heard a few days ago on my OFMD twitter!!!! 

I couldn’t get it together; my friend thought I’d’ve lost the last bit of my sanity, and I couldn't stop cackling!!! 

It was soo hilarious!!! I mean, Jemaine and Bret did that for a living but Jason and Paul’s faces while trying to get through ‘Business Time’ was sooo worth the money!!!! 

Still not over that!!! 

The general gig was as awesome as always!!! It’s funny tho how the love has shifted: used to be Jason who pulled the fans, nowadays it’s Paul!!! My boy’s come a long way! 

We stuck around after, mainly because I wanted to say HI to Paul. But he’s in HIGH demand. 

Still… when I walked past him and he saw me, his whole face lit up! It’s always nice to be recognized by your ‘stars’. Plus, we ‘know’ each other for more than a decade now so yeah. 

I finally got my hug (and MAN, his hugs are the greatest, especially since there’s so much more shoulders there now *giggles*). 

We chatted a bit, then he left for a bit, came back, I introduced my friend to him, we got our pics and more hugs and another brief chat (which is harder these days, too many people want a piece of him *hehe*) before we said good night and headed back ‘home’! 

Always soo good to see them boys! 

Monday was leaving day for my friend; we had a wander around before it was time for her to leave for the airport, and for me to head towards the Old Vic to catch up with an old friend! It was brief as she’s busy as hell these days, but it was soo good to see her and here’s hope the next meet-up will be a bit longer!  

After that, I was off to see my beloved Victoria Palace Theatre again!!! I’ve sat in basically all seats by now, boxes, royal and grand circle, slip seats but NEVER in the stalls. 

So yeah, 2nd row, smack in the middle!!! ARGH!!! SOO GOOD!!! I love that stage sooo freaking much and seeing it this close was AMAZING!!! Totally new cast but two! I squeed and scared people when I read the cast list in the foyer: Dom was still there: his Washington is sooo good and I was soo happy to see him again!!! 

What made this evening even more wonderful was the adorably excited French man next to me. His very first time and he was sooo hyped! Once it started he had a REALLY hard time to control himself - his joy made my night!!! 

After I sent him around to stage door and after picking up my things joined him; sadly Dom had already left but I played photographer for the french so he got his pics with some of the cast before we said good night - he called meeting me ‘very delightful’ which was 👀!!! Never been called that before!!! 

One last sleep, and I was off home again. Thankfully I’ll be back very soon so saying goodbye wasn’t too hard. 

As always London proved that it’s the most incredibly city in the world - I can’t wait to come back in June!!! 

And this concludes my rather long winded tale of my first London trip in 2024!!!

[jess-moloney]

Starting years ago it's obvious that Jess's goal is and always has been to become famous for doing little to no work to earn that fame. In 2017 she started a fitness blog with a total of 6 posts before she discontinued it. More than likely because it was not giving her the instant gratification and fame that she was seeking.

Within these posts, you can find quite a bit of problematic statements. One of the biggest red flags is what she has to say about food and her relationship with it.

"I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with food. I eat because I have to, not because I enjoy it – and no, I have never had an eating disorder." - Jess Moloney [Source]

This statement is indicative of two things. The first very clearly being an eating disorder (or disordered eating) as well as absolute denial that she could have an eating disorder or problem with food, immediately after. This pattern of saying something problematic and then following it up with some justification for why it's actually not problematic has quite a history if you bother to read what is written in her posts. If she can't own up to her mistakes, faults, or flaws and is quick to dismiss them as something normal then she is at the very least immature and at the very worst a gaslighter, as well as a narcissist. Especially with statements like this:

Interviewer: What do you do when you hit a wall? I’ve never hit a wall. Interviewer: Come again…? I swear to God. I know I sound like such a c*nt but it’s true. I’ve never hit a wall because I’ve never told myself: I can’t do it. [Source]

Moving on from this and continuing with her fame-hungry ploy from way before she got involved with Jamie, we can see her first attempt to get any sort of recognition (and probably money) was her sucking up to Nike, constantly, as if they owed her a brand deal for the 6 blog posts she made, a few Instagram posts, and the fact that she completed 4-5 marathons (and was training for Iron Man).

She praises them as being an inspiration/motivation to her for continuing her training for Iron Man and also praises them for making her look good when she works out because looking good while working out is important to her (for some odd reason that I suppose has nothing to do with being very egotistical).

Her very last post says that she was injured and had to stop training for Iron Man. That post also goes on to say that it wasn't a bad enough injury to make her stop running for good and she intended to keep training, keep going, and keep running marathons so she could maybe try again to compete in Iron Man. Then she just stopped posting about that at all and her blog was never updated again. Running marathons (even though she wasn't winning awards or a star at it), is still something that takes a lot of talent and perseverance. Why did she stop? Was this not bringing her the instant gratification and recognition she was seeking? She may have been athletic but she was no better at it than any other average person doing the same exact thing. Why did she go so hard for Nike or think she was deserving of recognition for the bare minimum effort she put into trying to market them in the first place?

Moving on you can see this post on her Instagram. For someone who has continually bragged about being an agent for various things like PR and celebrity/talent management, this was her version of advertising a product. One where she does not say what the product is, show herself using it, show the item clearly, or even say why she uses it. One of the comments even believed she was holding up vibrators, not hair straighteners. I suppose it's not surprising that this company never asked her to promote anything again because she had no idea how to do it properly in the first place. This begs the question as to how and why she was ever involved in a job working with high-profile clients at a prominent management agency.

Until she got involved with Jamie, her account had fairly low traffic and engagement. Even her posts about Machine Gun Kelly fell flat most of the time, only ever garnering a couple hundred likes. An article from Distractify says that at the time that article was written, she had 28K followers on IG. Since then, it has doubled and is directly a result of her posting about Jamie and being involved with Jamie.

As previously mentioned, it's very doubtful she's had consistent (or any) employment since 2019. Jamie is her only claim to fame and cash cow. Yet still, as hungry for fame as she seems to be she also doesn't appear to want to do any work to get this fame. She wants it to be handed to her on a silver platter for just existing and being involved with Jamie romantically.

Someone with any sort of business savvy or knowledge in PR (as she claims to have) would know how to use this attention she was getting for being with Jamie to turn it into something much bigger. If she had any marketable skills, drive, or determination, she would be posting original content on her IG account. She could be posting fashion tips, makeup tutorials, vlogs, or even advice on how to get into her line of work. She could post behind-the-scenes photos at her alleged job or photoshoots she attends. Yet, she opts to do none of that and build her account around 90% stolen material that she vaguely tries to take credit for, posts of her with Jamie, and her poor promotion of Ice Studios that 90% of the time the people and companies tagged don't even seem to acknowledge that she exists.

It appears that Jess wants fame, believes she deserves fame, but also doesn't believe she should have to do any real hard work to get it. She also seems to think she's special as she is and doesn't need to hone any talent or skills or make herself anywhere near interesting. That because she's with Jamie and because she posts on Instagram people should just like her, give her money, make her famous, and offer her brand deals. Her utter incompetency in any field she claims to be in shows how self-entitled she is and the way she clings to Jamie to steal his portion of the spotlight makes it even more obvious what her intentions behind this relationship always have been.

[thebreakfastgenie]

Look, I have had a really bad week at work (narrator: it was Wednesday) and I have a splitting headache so possibly I am coming across as more inflammatory than I intended. However, it does not feel like you are reading my messages in good faith.

Obviously Trapper’s name was given to him by the writers; every aspect of his character was. That’s how fiction works, and I am well aware of that. The reason I find his name objectionable is that it’s emblematic of an era of the show that has aged the most poorly, with the lighthearted and/or misogynistic depiction and discussion of sexual assault (or, as you pointed out, other misogynistic themes) that other characters like Hawkeye aged out of to an extent but Trapper never got the opportunity to. These feelings are then compounded by the fact that I don’t find the character as written particularly compelling; perhaps if I did, I would more easily be able to overlook those things. This is not an insult to the character or to anyone who likes the character. It was intended purely as an explanation of why I do not, in answer to your comment about how you don’t understand why people don’t love Trapper. Nor was I trying to “lecture” you about the false rape allegations as a misogynistic trope. I was trying to establish that I agreed with you and show evidence in the text of how this is a valid reading but still one that I do not ascribe to.

Regarding your post about Colonel Potter; I believe that you posted that while I was typing my previous message so I did not see it until after I submitted the ask. I thought about sending a follow up to address that but thought it was unnecessary.

When you have time I would like to see your thoughts on the remainder of the ask I sent because this was never intended to be some kind of Trapper shitflinging fest: that was intended just as an offhand closer to my actual point which is how the show approaches the subject of cheating in different ways with different characters and how this makes those characters more or less sympathetic to audiences and some reasons I thought that might be. Specifically I’m interested in your views on what I raised in my second ask, the ones about cheating with only a physical component (casual sex), married characters falling for characters other than their spouse, and long-standing affairs with a stated intent to continue to carry on the affair in a romantic and sexual way (even if the character does not intend to actually follow through on maintaining the relationship).

Since you mentioned how Potter is the least sympathetic because his adultery took place outside of the context of war, I’m also interested in your views on Frank as a character who is implied to be a serial adulterer (having a lasting affair with another woman prior to the war also).

I'm sorry that you had a bad week but you don't need to take it out on me. You can make your own post, you know? I'm also a bit tense with anons these days since I've been called a c*nt and told to kill myself. Full disclosure I'm also drunk now.

I don't see how Trapper's name can possibly be "emblematic" of that era of the show, when that very era of the show chose not to use the origin story for it. There are parts of the show that have aged poorly, although not many. I simply don't agree that Hawkeye "aged out of it." The show did stop doing storylines like that, but the history of how the show handled women is complicated. We saw less of the nurses later on. Episodes like Inga and Hey Look Me Over were both about Hawkeye treating women poorly, though those were intentional so he learned his lesson. So is Who Knew to an extent. Margaret's fear of being raped if she's captured is treated seriously maybe once. And men get this treatment too; Hawkeye's joke about a stewardess forcing herself on him in Adam's Rib boils down to "men cannot be sexually assaulted."

I understand that you don't care for Trapper, but treating him as emblematic of what you don't like about the early seasons is not rational or objective. You forgive Hawkeye because you like him. That's okay, but I don't sympathize or take that seriously. I also don't think there's a question that the early seasons are better, both artistically and politically. So you won't get far with me saying you dislike them. There are a couple moments that make me cringe, but while I'm normally pretty sensitive to misogyny, I don't feel bothered by the early seasons much.

I do think your point about romantic vs purely physical affairs is interesting. I think which one is "worse" depends on what the partner who was cheated on thinks. But I do lean toward finding purely sexual affairs easier to forgive, especially in the context of MASH. I'm not going to tell someone who's been drafted and is seeing everything those guys are seeing that it's wrong to turn to sex for comfort, whether he's married or not. That's me. A romantic affair, where another relationship is being actively pursued, is a different thing. I think just having feelings is beyond your control (so BJ is in the clear with Aggie) but acting on them is something else.

Like I said, I appreciate the reasoning, but my comment about not loving Trapper was an aside because someone said they couldn't understand not loving Charles, but casually placed Trapper at the bottom. I get Trapper not being someone's fave, but I find the hate he gets just doesn't make sense to me! You can explain it, but I'm still not going to feel it. I don't think cheating is that important to his character.

Yes, we crossed; I wrote that post about Potter before I saw your ask. I wasn't thinking about Frank when I said Potter is the least sympathetic. But Potter cheated on the woman he loved. Frank doesn't love Louise, and if he had a spine he'd just get divorced. I find Frank and Margaret's affair fairly sympathetic, because I think they're in love, and for a while they're happier with each other than anyone else. Frank is never going to marry Margaret and deep down she knows it, but he'd be happier if he did. Their affair is hardly the worst thing either of them do, being Army supporters and Republicans. Their hypocrisy is worse than their adultery, judging Hawkeye and Trapper for sexual activity while doing the same thing. Frank having affairs before is scummy, but it's also consistent with his character and again, not the worst thing he did. He's just not a good person. He's a great character, which is why I rank him so highly. But I do find his pre-war affairs unsympathetic. Man up and get a divorce if you're so unhappy.

The war makes me very sympathetic, because sex is a comfort, a distraction, a way of feeling human under insane circumstances, when home doesn't even feel real and there is a very real chance you might die. If I were married to one of them, I'd have simply said the relationship was open until they got home, but even so I'd forgive them for whatever happened. I think the bigger issue is the double standard, like we see with Henry and Lorraine, but even then, being home alone for two years is hard but it's not the same as being in a war.

Edited to add it felt like you were lecturing me because from your phrasing I felt like you were telling me it was misogynistic like I didn't know and literally say so.

[fiora-miriel]

HotD rewatch episode 2

Episode 2: The incident at Dragonstone and the 2nd marriage

Daemon is on Dragonstone for at least the last 6 months. One of the few moments in this whole show where we are given an approximation of the time that has passed

Corlys and Otto in the Small Council. “I caution you Lord Corlys. A seat at the King’s table doesn’t make you his equal.” I know I'm biased but I think Otto thinks his seat makes him a bit mire equaler than Corlys.

Corlys is kind of proud of Rhaenyra for standing up here.

Also Otto and Mellos seem to glance at each other at the SC table??

Why is Rhaenys watching Rhaenyra during the Kingsguard selection?

Alicent encourages Viserys to speak with Rhaenyra which is kind of sweet

Viserys also realizes it is inappropriate what he does with Alicent

The way Alicent tells Rhaenyea that Viserys loves Rhaenyra. Does Alicent feel similarly that Otto really loves her? Is that maybe envy or some longing that Otto is not loving her as Rhaneyra  is loved by Viserys.

“He didn’t choose me. He spurns Daemon” Truer words were never spoken. I get that Viserys is angry but also there seems to be some hidden anger that we are never told

The meeting between Viserys, Corlys and Rhaneys? Viserys doesn’t like their honesty, even though he should à parallel to Daemon’s honesty.

Dinner between Rhaenyra and Viserys. He brushes her ideas aside and doesn’t prepare her?

The talk between Rhaenyra and Rhaenys? Why is it so confrontative? Also why is Rhaenys so bitter? Also why is that wig so weird

Alicent knows what is expected of her. Once again. She is complicit, even though she is also the victim here. Ugh Otto you idiot, you deserve be devoured by a dragon.

The dragonkeepers about the egg: It seems Otto understands at least a bit of High Valyrian?

Otto loves interrupting people at the Small Council and stokes the fire

Corlys is a bit of the mediator? He might have been a good hand?

But also it is hilarious that Lord Beesbury just drinks and is like “o gods what is happening again”

Viserys originally wants to go to Dragonstone himself, but Otto prevents it. Why? Could things have gone quite differently if Viserys had gone himself? Did Daemon want to speak with his brother?

Otto “cannot allow it” with what authority? Doesn’t he overstep here? Daemon is right, Otto is a c*nt

Also Otto being super manipulative. He is chastising and being concerned (fake) about Alicent picking her nails, but also demands that she should visit the kind (where she is clearly reluctant to do so)

Daemon wanted to see Viserys it seems

Otto is kind of an asshole to Daemon. Pretty insulting, even though Daemon is a prince of the realm. Wouldn't that mean he is theoretically higher up the social ladder than Otto?

Mysaria is kind of “wife, me?”

Ser Harold is so over it. Over both Otto and Daemon

Also why is Mellos there? He is useless on such a mission

As soon as Otto hears Caraxes whistles he is scared shitless. No one can convince me otherwise.

And when they hear Syrax, Otto is also “wtf this is not part of the plan” – And Criston is also flabbergasted. Harrold seems more like “Princess not again”.

The little glance Rhaneyra gives Otto? At that point he also seems to be thinking that the princess is either an idiot or another obstacle

After the talk between Mysaria and Daemon, Daemon seems to be a bit… disappointed? Sad?

Viserys meets with Lord Strong for council. Visersys feels threatened by Corlys. And Lord Strong calls Corlys (rightfully) proud. But he could also mention Otto here (fic idea). Strong is in favour of Laena. Strong is very right about Corlys. But also it seems that when Viserys wants impartial council he goes to Strong? I mean, good for him. Strong also warns about the Stepstones and the potential war. Strong indirectly makes the comparison between Corlys and Otto (even though he doesn’t know it). And Otto does not win here.

The sea snake has made a calculated reach. Fair play for a man of his position

Kingsguard comes in and tells Viserys that Rhaenyra went to Dragonstone herself. He doesn’t seem happy. And then she has to

“You are my only heir. You could have been killed.” Boy does Viserys have a bad opinion about Daemon.

And Rhaenyra is right that Otto couldn’t have reclaimed the egg without her

“To know that I’m not alone in my grief” Viserys left Rhaenyra alone. And the man barely reacts to that. Aemma can't have meant that much to him

“I do not wish to make us estranged.” Well not from Rhaenyra, but you estrange yourself from the rest of your family. And also from Rhaenyra

Viserys announcing  Alicent as his wife is still a bit out of the blue. Too much happens off screen here. Also, the fact that he didn’t even tell Rhaenyra? No wonder she is a bit estranged from you.

Diplomacy is also not Viserys’s strength, He could have at least tried to soften the blow for Corlys.

Also Otto is being such an ass in the council scene

Alicent looks miserable.

And the fact that Rhaenyra leaves the same way that Corlys does? Viserys learn to read the room

Love the worldbuilding and Velaryon background we are given

And Daemon and Corlys working together for the Steptones!

But Daemon is so proud. His second son standing is something that grates on him so much I think

“Being King was never my brother’s strongest trait”

Corlys looks at the bigger picture economically. And also at Viserys’s lavish lifestyle. He would have been a benefit for the Smalll Council if only Otto and Viserys would have let him speak more often

“I will speak of my brother as I wish. You will not” Daemon loves Viserys. He would defend him still.

Corlys also knows how to bait Daemon.

Love the foreshadowing of the Stepstones here and the first glances at Cragar

[mostly-functional]

Decidedly not autistic, it runs in my family so I've been routinely tested for it 4x, and it's safe to say I might be one of the least autistic people alive (I scored an 11 on the RAADS R test).

I am dyslexic, which has similar hyper-fixations, and RSD, and Executive Dysfunction to ADHD, but it's a little different. I also have c-PTSD.Anyway, yes, small talk is very intuitive. Most NT people genuinely don't find it boring. It's because the social back and forth of it, even if the topic is inherently meaningless, catching up on the minutia of people's lives and sharing bits of yours is interesting.

There isn't a secret code. You give exactly as much detail and information about your life as the other person is providing. In order for this to work, tis means that in most conversations, there will be someone who is 'conversationally dominant,' (person a.) and that person will decide how much they want to share and the other person (person b.) will follow their lead or decide to share more. If someone feels that they don't wanna share as much as the other person is sharing (not super common) they will usually politely brush off in response with a friendly smile.

(Comfortable sharing: Person A: Katie's having some trouble in school, we think she might be dyslexic. Person B: Oh yeah, Lily's got some ADHD, we got her a tutor who specialises learning disability, want me to give you her number?)

(Person B pulls back: Person A: Katie's having some trouble in school, we think she might be dyslexic. Person B: Oh, that's too bad, Lily's been having a bad time in ballet recently, we offered to let her quit, but she wants to keep going and see if it gets better.)

The thing is, every conversation, even small talk, is an invitation from person a. to get closer and it's up to person b. to either take up the invitation and share something similarly vulnerable, or politely decline the invitation and deflect.

Most nuerotypicals will decide how much to share based on how long they've known the person and other context clues, but it really boils down to, every converstoin is this give and take and it never really turns off or stops because neurotypicals are always trying to make new friends or become closer with the people they're interacting with. Most neurotypicals see anyone they've met, even once, as just a potential friend they haven't been close with yet. Unless an NT actively dislikes you, you are now locked in this back and forth with them.

I know a LOT about my favourite things, but it's more that it would feel unnatural/intrinsically wrong to info-dump about it unless it was in an appropriate space. I would feel uncomfortable doing it.

If I'm alone with my thoughts, I will 'spin out' and have a panic attack eventually from intrusive thoughts. This is more related to my c-PTSD, so I can't speak to how true NTs would answer this.

Most fabrics on my skin feel neutral, I will notice if one is silky or soft or unusually pleasant, but unless I'm allergic (I have a lot of skin allergies) to something it doesn't usually bother me and I don't usually even notice it in most of my clothes.

Socks on the other hand, the toe seam can be super noticeable on my toes and bother me all day, basically I will notice it continually as long as the seam is in the wrong place, I won't forget it or stop noticing it until it's fixed.

Loud music can have emotional impacts and the louder, the stronger the effect can be. Loud sounds like rhythmic beats can cause euphoria. It also can help drive out intrusive thoughts. It's also more like loud environments can be tuned out to the point that you don't notice them.

Also, Loud spaces with just a lot of public noise can actually be necessary to maintain mental health for NTs. Like, I get a little loopy if I'm not out in a public space for more than 24 hours (so staying in my house without going out in a loud, brought public space for than 24 hours is not fun for me, my anxiety spikes, I get kinda OCD. This is common for neurotypicals).

I could work on something I enjoy for a full day without needing a break. I used to research horse stuff for most of my afterschool days as a kid. I will sort through knitting resources for 4+ hours an evening.

This is an awesome answer! Thank you so much for sharing

[mandssisters]

Fare thee well 16.11.22

As I’ve quoted before and I think I will roll it out for a wee while, where do I begin.

No hardcore CAAMP fans in tents outside early queuing for tomorrows show! I mean absolute shocker.

We’d like to thank the local catering company for leaving their cardboard boxes outside for making the stone marble steps so much more hospitable to sit on!! I mean what’s not to love about 3 layers OF padding to put some bounce into the day.

Night two at Shepherd’s Bush empire. Still soaking it all in from last night. Here we are again. Another international line up of queuers, Uk, the states, fresh from Florida and Denmark. A colder day perhaps or is that #tiredness

A very causal day, I can highly recommend the cheese and tomato sour dough toastie from the green cafe KAVE next to the venue, and the black bean beef rice dish from the Noodle bar. Both very tasty. 9/10 for sure.

Some rain and a bit chilly but all good.

Monica Martin and Jake Sherman opened again, Monica in outfit number two tonight and hair down. Looked amazing loved the white cowboy boots. Boot envy.

She complimented the crowd on being quiet 🤫 and then I thought the mumbling got louder! Bugger. She did well. Another get set.

Showtime. Personally feeling more looser and relaxed about what was to come, I also felt Marcus felt a little less pressure than night 1. Said he loved this venue and loved being H.O.M.E

Never sure what a London crowd will bring on a Wednesday night but they were very appreciative and respectful… full of love.

You could have knocked us all down with a feather when the opener was Lovers Eyes 👀. What a treat. Second time playing on this tour. Evening made already!

Solo The cave and then the band joined Marcus on stage.

Let the album begin:

Banter:

Marcus stated he didn’t like silence between song changes so does some “chat”. Recalls a time from the US tour when he used the C*nt word 13 times at a show and then realised a 6 year old was in the audience. You can use the C*nt word much easier in the Uk apparently. It’s like f*ck was 20 years ago!! Much more open to it.

Mixing it up from the set list after Better off High the band leaves and we get Dinks Song. This went down very well. What a treat.

Marcus said the band were delighted to be experiencing all London had to offer…. Rain cold dark grey days etc but Mason, stage left was embracing the real heart of London and went to the Savoy!! A quick straw poll of how many of the audience had been there and Marcus proved his point!!

What a joy Go in light is with Monica. There vocals are so angelic together. You just want it to go on longer.

Little bit of banter with a lady down the front, Marcus thinking there as another medical emergency, however her fiend only wanted to embarrass her and she only wanted to say hello as he met her in 2015 or something!!

A lot of friends and family in the house tonight as it was a coming home London show. #jasonSudeikis

There are no words still for the beauty of Stonecatcher and How. Just beautiful.

Back on with Cowboy and who doesn’t love a Taylor Swift song, he has a great cowboy twang.

Ending with

WIGMHOY - epic

Kansas City - epic

Timshel dropped

I will wait unplugged. Always #special

Post show wanderings in the rain, we didn’t chance the Chicken 126 a second time. Golden Arches all the way. On a wet and windy Wednesday night it’s mad to see how busy it was. 007 all the way. Cold McPlant has always been a favourite.

It’s over too soon goodbyes to our American buddies. Safe travels home. Always a pleasure. Until #lemons.

[catholockhart]

Dear Reader,

Yesterday, I had a woman reach out and ask: “I’m not happy, but I don’t know how to leave. Any tips?” Her question took me back to a time when I didn’t know how to leave, either.

Much like this woman, my [ex] partner was a knight in shining armor — until he wasn’t.

It always starts slowly, until they feel that they’ve got you for good. It may be cheating, yelling, or “jokingly” name-calling. Eventually, and inevitably, it turns into something much more sinister.

When my mother would warn me about these things in my youth, I would often brush it off; What could mom possibly know, that I don’t? As it turns out, my mother knew quite a bit.

See, in my case, it started out as isolation. It was simple enough [at first] that I didn’t even notice it. He asked me to block my exes, so I did. Then he asked me to block their friends and family members, so I did. Eventually, he made me block my own “toxic” family members and friends (i.e., those who saw right through him).

After I was socially isolated, he moved me two counties over. I wasn’t allowed to work, have a cellphone, or have my own car anymore; He worried I’d cheat on him like he had done to me. So when I did leave him, I was absolutely impoverished.

When I did threaten to leave, he would lock himself in the bathroom with a knife and alcohol. I was well aware that he’d attempted su*c*de in the past, and he was well aware that he could use it against me—and he did.

I cannot count on both hands, how many times I was called stupid, a c*nt, lazy (for not doing the dishes once), a narcissist, a POS, a drama queen, etc. And all this, from the man who ki**ed my cat with his bare hands; the man who’d done that twice before, though I never knew it.

Even long after we were done, he would reach out to my friends, old classmates, and family members, to tell them what a horrible person I was. More often than not, the things he would accuse me of were things that he had actually done. But the world kept spinning.

He wasn’t a kind man. I didn’t have a physical way out, for quite some time. In fact, I got lucky in the way that I left.

He’d asked me to take his truck to the shop while he was at work. While at the shop, I asked a technician if I could borrow his phone. I suppose the technician could see the urgency in my eyes; he said yes. As if God Himself had whispered it in my ear, I recalled my best friend’s phone number (who I hadn’t spoken to in 3 years), and left her a voicemail. Within minutes, she called back.

I told her everything, through tears and apologies. That night, she sent another friend of mine to come collect me and my belongings. Now, I haven’t seen him in years. I haven’t felt imprisoned in years.

Truthfully, leaving is hard if you wait. But it’s hard not to wait, if you aren’t being given explicit reasons to leave.

We can’t blame victims, no matter their situation. Knowing there are many others in this world, who feel imprisoned by those who are supposed to love them, is a sickening but sobering reality.

Please, be kind to all you meet. Don’t be afraid to step in for those who cannot step out. Forgive those who can’t forgive themselves, and love those who have never felt it.

x

[smokedust]

Why are you trembling like this? Are you scared?"

"Hmph, instead of answering me, you're fiddling with your fingers, huh."

"Is it because of my strong divine power, or is it because my fingers are good?"

He chuckled wickedly, whispering into her ear.

"You have to answer me, Sarah Abbott."

"It's because of your fingers, more... than..."

"Even when I poke you like this?"

As he pushed deeper into her sensitive spot, pressing against the sensitive area with the tip of his finger, her inner walls tightened frantically, tingling with excitement.

"Hng!"

"It seems you still have a long way to go, judging by how eagerly your c*nt craves penetration. I should probably use a s*x toy."

A s*x toy? Was he finally going to take off his pants and pull out his monstrous p*nis?

Filled with anticipation, she looked up, only to see him open the bedside drawer. What he took out was a thick glass rod.

"...Is that the s*x toy?"

No, it was a bit too ugly to be called a s*x toy. It looked like a giant mushroom, almost like a model p*nis.

"Yes. It's made of a material that conducts divine power well."

Sarah watched him with suspicion in her eyes. He carefully brought the glass rod to her v*lva.

"Just hold still for a moment."

As the cold surface of the glass touched her, she frowned. He then dipped the entire rod in her love fl*id, making it lukewarm.

The s*x toy, now moistened with her bodily fl*ids, quickly warmed up. As the gl*ns of the model p*nis slipped through the opening of her v*lva, Sarah held her breath.

Her passage was so narrow and tight that he could barely insert the tip of the gl*ns. He moved it around, trying to widen the gap.

After much effort, her v*lva swallowed half of the model p*nis. Sebastian looked at it intently, his eyes filled with genuine curiosity.

How could someone with such a pure body, unable to even take the s*x toy all at once, behave so promiscuously? It must be that a demon had possessed the angel's body.

Even when she tried to unbutton his pants with her small, delicate hands. Even when she teased his p*nis, rubbing her soft knees against it.

He found it difficult to focus, feeling a dizzying sense of dissonance that threatened to overwhelm him.

After all, it was in the nature of demons to exploit weakness. Since she was born with such an obsc*ne body, it was only natural that she would indulge in lustful desires, even with a face as pure as an angel.

He desperately wanted to use his divine power to cleanse all the impurities within her and bring her comfort. Of course, it wouldn't be long before the lust in her lower abdomen flared up again, but he could just take it out again then.

However, her tightly closed inner walls did not easily allow him to proceed.

"If I push any further, I think it will hurt. Let's wait."

He stopped inserting and gently rolled his tongue over her er*ct cl*toris, which he had captured with his lips.

Her body responded well. He sucked on it like he was eating grapes, and when he clamped it between his slightly parted lips and squeezed, she trembled uncontrollably.

As he gently moved the handle in circles, her inner walls twitched, and sticky love fl*id dripped down between the model p*nis and the walls.

After a long struggle, when he felt that the inside had loosened up a bit, he tilted the angle slightly and pushed it in as if lifting it up.

"Ugh!"

In an instant, her hips were lifted into the air as if pierced by a spear, and a hot sensation bloomed inside her. She looked up, her lower jaw trembling and tears welling up, but he continued to slowly thrust into her while holding her.

Unable to bear the intense stimulation, she began to wiggle her toes. He lifted her legs and placed them over his arms, fixing her in place. Her hips and pelvis were completely lifted.

"Hmph, hng."

Perhaps because her stomach was pressed down, making it difficult to breathe, Sarah panted, focusing on the sensation of the s*x toy penetrating deep inside her.

Was divine power really flowing through it? Every time he spread and scraped her tight folds, she felt a refreshing sensation, as if the itch was being relieved.

"Do you like it when I scrape the deep inside of your v*gina?"

"Hng... yes."

When she answered in a daze, Sebastian also responded with a faint smile. He didn't scold her even though she moaned several times.

Just as she was starting to feel a little good in his gentle hands, he increased the speed of his insertion and squeezed her br*asts with his left hand.

"Ahk!"

She gasped for breath, overwhelmed by the weight. Her soft flesh was crushed in his rough grip, and her heart pounded like a drum beneath her skin.

"Your c*nt is so filthy, even when it's not being f*cked."

He clicked his tongue as he watched her bright red inner flesh emerge with the glass d*ldo.

Her l*bia minora and wrinkles, which were smeared with love fl*id and stuck to the glass pillar every time it moved, and her bright pink anus, which was wide open, were incredibly lewd.

"Ugh, hng."

"Come to your senses. It's a s*x toy, not a d*ck."

Despite his stern command, Sarah found it difficult to focus. He was hitting the exact spot of excitement that he had confirmed with his finger earlier.

He had clearly said he was healing her, so why was he thrusting into her so unbearably? Without time to think, her heated body trembled pathetically, as if it craved his touch.

"If you get this excited even with a s*x toy, it must be quite a sight to see you with a real d*ck."

"Hng, yes, your d*ck, hmph."

"Hoo, what did you say?"

"I want you to f*ck my filthy c*nt... Aah!"

As Sarah begged, lifting her hips, he pushed the s*x toy harder into her.

"You talk so dirty."

"Hng, th, that's enough..."

"I won't stop until you've poured out all that filth."

The scolding-like caresses continued. He squeezed her br*asts roughly and scratched her n*pples savagely with his fingertips.

As he quickly thrust the s*x toy while pressing down on her cl*toris with his thumb, an overwhelming excitement surged through her, as if her pelvis were about to twist.

When the tip of the s*x toy hit her inner excitement point and pressed against her c*rvix, her inner walls spasmed involuntarily, as if struck by lightning.

"Ahng...!"

Her whole body seemed to be swept away by a wave of cl*max, and her vision blurred. Her head tilted back, her back arched like a bow, and the clear love fl*id that poured out of her flowed down the s*x toy and onto his arm.

After she reached her own cl*max, he slowly inserted the s*x toy into her soaked v*lva a few more times before gently pulling it out.

The bed sheets were soaked and wrinkled with the lewd traces she had left behind.

"You did well."

Sebastian looked at her nape, her w*t eyes, and her round forehead, one by one, with his empty eyes, and kissed them.

Then, he gave her a short kiss on the lips and, with a face more noble than anyone else's, brushed back her w*t hair.

"Hic, hic."

She was still sobbing softly and hiccuping.

"You've done enough. Rest for a while."

He gently stroked her cheek and untied her bound wrists.

His gaze, which had been hazy, returned to its usual composure, as if nothing had happened.

She thought she would jump at him as soon as he released her hands, but she felt as if her body had been drained of all strength, as if she had been hit by a spell.

Was it because of the divine power he had given her? She closed her eyes, letting out a long breath, overcome by the languid feeling of powerlessness that took over her entire body.

[sminny-wew]

It's funny you say that :3c

I actually have three (3) different takes on how I would write Kalinka based on the differing continuities of the Battle Network games, the NT Warrior anime, and the manga, b/c if they can't keep canon consistent across all 3 then why should I lmao

Game canon: Kalinka transfers to Lan's school from Sharo, where she used to live with her divorced mother Nastenka, in an attempt to improve Kalinka's mood and social situation. It becomes immediately apparent that despite being very shy around other people, she becomes incredibly friendly when interacting with navis, despite not having a navi of her own. Discovers that her estranged father, Dr. Cossak, is suddenly claiming he wants to destroy the world and wants to figure out what the hell is going on as much as Lan and Megaman do. Develops a crush on Megaman that becomes particularly flustering for her when she discovers his past as Hub Hikari. Initially has very faint memories of Bass as a "big brother guardian angel" type figure that are only reinforced when she meets him again, despite Bass being, y'know, Bass lmao. Recurring character who becomes good friends with Lan's group and their navis.

Anime canon: Since Bass's origins are very different here, Kalinka and Dr. Cossak don't exist in Lan's world, BUT they have counterparts who exist in Beyondard. Beyondard Bass was gravely injured at some point and developed amnesia; Dr. Cossak and Kalinka found him and have basically been caring for him like a feral cat. She also tends to encounter Iris quite a bit, and the two often ponder whether humans and navis can truly coexist in peace, with Kalinka being on the more optimistic end. Dr. Cossak and Kalinka are the only two people who can manage to convince Bass of anything, and even then it's a struggle; when a fight breaks out between a berserker Falzar Bass and Gregar Megaman, she just barely manages to stop him from then attacking her father. Bass and Kalinka manage to perform cross fusion a grand total of one (1) time for the sake of helping C.F. Beast Out Megaman take down the Super Cybeast. Then Lan and the others go home and Beyondard Bass, Kalinka, and Dr. Cossak aren't seen again lmao

Manga canon: Here, Kalinka was already Lan's age when the Alpha incident happened (b/c again, if canon can choose to ignore the Hub stuff and Mamoru then I'm allowed to ignore the logical inconsistencies of this lmao). Much like how this Dr. Cossak thinks of Bass more like a son, Kalinka thinks of him as an older brother, despite him technically being younger than her. They are both the only people that Bass remotely trusts and feels comfortable around. After Bass was imprisoned with his limiters, she promised to visit him as often as she could, even if the officials tried to stop her. Unfortunately, Kalinka was killed during the Alpha incident, while Dr. Cossak was branded as a traitor and arrested. Bass, already deeply affected by the loss of Kalinka, became enraged when others implied he was to blame for it. Not knowing of Cossak's fate, Bass assumed that his creator had betrayed both him and his own daughter, blamed Kalinka's death entirely on Cossak, and swore from that moment on that he didn't need bonds to survive.

TL;DR Kalinka goes the Maria route at least once lol

(If you wanna see more of any of this content, peep my AU in the tags!!)

Reasons why Kalinka Cossack should've been in Battle Network:

EXHIBIT A: She's adorable and I love her

EXHIBIT B: The idea of Bass willingly protecting and begrudgingly coming to care for a human while still being staunchly anti-operator is really interesting and also really really funny ("My navi? Oh you mean Bass!! Yeah he's not my navi he's my brother")

EXHIBIT C: