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bereft-of-frogs · 7 months ago

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the friday list ~

this is really covering like a week and a half, because with all the traveling and eclipse adventures, I didn't have much to update last week.

books:

Jawbone - Monica Ojeda: I finally finished this one. I think it went on just a little long for the structure, which was very stream-of-consciousness. There would be like, multiple pages with no paragraph or dialogue breaks. It was interesting, I still liked the vibe, but it ended up being kind of hard to get through.

(in-progress, for book club) This Wretched Valley - Jenny Kiefer: What I like about this book is it's doing a good job showing how annoying both rock climbing people and 'I can't go anywhere without my dog' people are without fully tipping over into completely insufferable. She's walking that line really well. The metaphors are a tiny bit much but I'm enjoying the atmosphere so far. Oh also, I'm struggling a tiny bit with how many dumb decisions they're making. Like, I get that there's something supernatural going on, but outdoor horror stories definitely have a very narrow margin for error between 'understandable mistakes' and 'why the fuck wouldn't you bring a second helmet or rope? why once there's a significant injury does it never occur to you to send one person hiking out to get help? WHY DON'T YOU HAVE ANY PAPER MAPS OR A COMPASS???????' Oh, wah, the GPS is broken, WHY ARE YOU RELYING SOLELY ON GPS IN THE FIRST PLACE? (ok sort of unfair because there's some spooky shit going on so even if they did everything right they wouldn't escape BUT that's even less of an excuse to have them make a bunch of dumb mistakes. Like isn't it MORE horrifying if you do everything right and still can't get out? Idk I just like competent characters and I wish more outdoor horror did the 'super competent characters make understandable mistakes or are caught by forces outside of their control' and less just went for the imo lazy 'idiots bumbling into doom'.)

(in-progress, phone book) Into the Dark - Claudia Gray: I had some bad scrolling moments there for a couple days, but I'm rededicated to not scrolling, catching up on the High Republic series instead. I'm a little over halfway, I forgot this book does one thing I find a little irksome, but it's a can of worms I don't want to open, iykyk kind of deal. Still love Reath though.

(in-progress) The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien: I don't often reread The Hobbit, but once I finished LOTR I thought I'd pick it up. It's always funny to me when Tolkien like, slips into a lore dump in the middle of his children's adventure novel. Like we'll be bopping around and suddenly he'll be like 'and in the days of the kings of old, when the Valar....' and there's just a paragraph with all the cadences of The Silmarillion before he kind of snaps back and remembers what they're doing and it's back to being a romp.

tv:

Severance (AppleTV): Oh my GOD. WHAT. This was so disturbing and so funny and I basically had a 45 minute heart attack during that finale. I can't wait for season 2, that was INSANE. I think my only critique is that I wish some of the twists had been signaled a bit earlier. I think I might rewatch to see if I pick up on any foreshadowing but I really didn't seen the twist about Mark's wife coming at all, like it wasn't even on my radar as a direction they could take. It felt like it was signaled then revealed seemingly within the same episode, and I thought maybe there could have been more hints earlier on. Though I think some worked to come out of nowhere, like who Helly really is.

Anthracite (Netflix): Short little 6 episode cult mystery on Netflix. It's kind of a frenetic pace which I think is partially purposeful style, and partially because they only have 6 episodes. I think I'd like to see the 10 episode version of this show, where they have a little more time to build the characters.

movies:

Train to Busan (2016): I had never actually seen this. It was a truly excellent zombie film. I cried.

Jigoku (1960): I'm back to trying to work through the Letterboxd Top 250 horror list, AND try to watch all the ones on Criterion so I can drop that subscription. Bit of a slow build, but the hell scenes were cool.

Zone of Interest (2023): Do I regret not seeing this in theaters? I don't know. I didn't because it didn't seem like I needed the big screen, but the more I heard about the sound design and now that I've seen it, yeah, I think it deserved the big speaker system and not my TV's kind of tinny speakers. The sound design was for sure the real star. Extremely disturbing and effective. Maybe it would have been TOO much seeing it in theaters.

Speak No Evil (2022): I get what they were trying to do but you can refer to my liveblog to see why it didn't quite work for me.

Monkey Man (2024): Omg I almost forgot to put this one? This was such a good action movie, Dev Patel is fantastic and the soundtrack is 10/10. I really enjoyed it, if you haven't seen it yet you 100% should.

video game update: got through Ilum in my perpetual Fallen Order playthrough. Which means: purple lightsaber time :)

craft update: I have reached the underarm join on my vest! Which is exciting because I'm so close to not needing to purl anymore but I did not think through a significant tool issue so before I actually join it up I have to either 1) find another #7 circular needle among my supplies, 2) buy another one, 3) possibly just buy another set of interchangeable needle tips? We'll see if I can JUST get the needle tips and it's not too expensive.

to do:

I have to do an errand I don't want to on my lunch hour. Boo. It involves paperwork and the DMV. I know it will probably not take as long as I'm imagining but. I don't wanna. I'm watching a video of a youtuber I like also deal with car registration as inspiration. Argh. Let this saga be over, before I can't deal with it anymore and drive my stupid car into the sea (I shouldn't joke about that someone actually did that like 6 months ago).

post office to hopefully finally finish the above saga

clean apartment

finish out the first week of my new running routine with about 2 miles tonight and then around 3ish tomorrow

writing goals: I think I figured out my block on chapter 7, so my goal for the next week is to finish a really rough draft of chapter 8, then retreat back to finishing up chapter 7 and then continuing on with the more polished version of chapter 8. I moved some things around. I don't think I have to kill a darling (a paragraph I really like). I think I found a place for it that doesn't completely break the characterization and logic, like the version I started with.

figure out knitting needle issue and/or finish detangling yarn so I can make progress on other project

I might go to home depot because I have a dresser I'd like to repaint, I've had the swatches picked out for a full year now, I just have to actually get the paint and sandpaper and such.

despair: oh my god my activity page is ruined. that post about fanon has over 10k notes. I'm gradually losing faith in the reading comprehension of this site (gradually?). pray that things lessen up a bit this week LOL But also #grateful no one has called me a bitch yet, small wins, I've just learned a lot about random discourse in other fandoms, no one's actually tried to start discourse with me yet

#long post #the friday list #lists lists lists

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altschmerzes · 2 years ago

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hi !! what’d you think of the new episode of Ted Lasso?

OKAY getting to this a few days late i'm sorry. as usual, i have about One Million Thoughts. in short, i thought it was fine!! it wasn't like, AMAZING, but not every episode of something is gonna be, and it was overall pretty solid. i liked it more than last episode by a good measure but not as much as

here is, as is traditional for me, some more specific thoughts in no particular order on ted lasso 3x05:

i feel like this episode was sort of a return to form in some ways, from some of the stuff that's been causing what i'd call..... some issues? in the front half of this season so far. it feels like they've been trying to do way too much at once? which has led to a bit of a disoriented, frenetic feeling. i think this was sort of a way to.... cut down on some of that? with what would seem to be the wrapping of the zava and shandy plots (which i'll.... get to). this is overall i think a good shift. let's redirect a bit. focus a bit.

oh my gd the stuff with ted and henry was so good. i also was like. really in my feelings immediately when beard was so protective the instant they thought henry'd been bullied. and then ROY was too. man. that got me where i live :')

and man. man. the bit after where ted talked himself down from that panic attack with 'he's okay, he's okay, he's okay.' i about cried at that.

this is gonna be extremely predictable from me and i know i've mentioned it already but i really did expect like. literally any acknowledgement of playing man city being a Big Thing after what happened last time. for jamie particularly. wouldn't need to take much space, just like. a nod to them being mindful of keeping an eye on him that week, or a quick 'you good?' or yknow. anything.

that said. man am i ever so proud of jamie. his speech to them was really, really good - especially if you actually do consider what contemplating playing against city for the first time since the wembley thing must have been like for him. still, he rallied and gave this really effective motivating speech that got the team going.

until zava took over and repeated what he said lmao but still. (also the bit of him like. grabbing at and holding jamie's head? WHOOF that was hard to watch. jamie does Not want that man touching him, and watching him just sorta hunch a bit and Deal With It until deciding he'd had enough and ducking away was. whoof. what a little scene.)

dunno where this psychic thing with rebecca is going but i do kind of love the shift her story has taken, if this is gonna continue to be a focus (pursuing the possibility of motherhood). idk if this is like..... a controversial take in some way or whatever but i actually always kind of thought that it would make more sense for her narrative arc to go more in the direction of searching for that as a possibility than of searching for a romantic partner? it's something she clearly wanted very much but couldn't have because of rupert and that whole. thing. i think it's a much more interesting avenue to go down with her, and idk if it's gonna go anywhere else but. yeah. enjoyed her storyline in this episode a lot more than i have in some others.

i dunno how to feel about the whole bit with nate and jade the woman at the greek restaurant. i feel like i kind of get what they're going for with it but i'm not really sure where i land? like my romance allergy aside, i was ruminating on it and i wish we'd had like. idk. she has been pretty...... weird and rude to him in every single scene we've seen her in and i really think in order to actually know how i feel about how that was played i would need some more context. i wish we'd seen her interact with other customers? if that makes sense? like i want to see if this demeanour she has with nate which is pretty shitty and bizarre is just sort of. how she is and she's a weird and rude person generally, or if she's somehow treating nate differently than other people she interacts with at her job.

man i really did otherwise like nate's bits in that ep though. his scenes so far have been fucking stellar this season - though i didn't like last episode much, his part? oh my gd it was incredible. and then in this one it's like- rehearsing what to say on the phone was fantastic, and the part where he's trying to explain to anastasia what that place means to his family (which...... buddy. man. that made me sad, it doesn't seem like he's been very well treated there, but it's such an important figure in his family. feels like a metaphor.)

was a little disappointed we didn't get a bit more west ham follow-up? like they got, what was it, three red cards in that ep? that's three suspensions. how long were they suspended for? obvs we didn't see the immediate subsequent matches but yknow. that's a Big Deal. the way that match went is a big deal. otherwise, i did like the switch from the big win streak to this winless streak after the west ham loss. that was a satisfying The Epic Highs And Lows Of Sports detail.

keeley sleeping with jack? GET IT. not sure how this is gonna shake out in the long run and has the potential to get messy and i generally don't.... know how i feel about jack yet but for now? get it.

i answered a whole ask about this, but in brief: i thought the zava wrap, if that was actually his whole wrap and he's not gonna return in some dramatic fashion, was anticlimactic to the way he and his arc were introduced. i think it was..... misplayed overall. they should've either not played so hard into seeming like he was being set up to be a major factor when he was first introduced and then had that focal episode, or they should've followed that energy through. instead he had his intro and then that huge focus episode and immediately following that he just kinda..... faded and was a nonissue and then abruptly decided to ride off into the sunset. makes me wonder what they were going for at all when they didn't really resolve any of the big stuff that whole thing brought up.

i feel similarly about shandy. it seemed like they were setting something up with her to be a Thing and then she ended up not like.... her arc wasn't anticlimactic in resolve, it was actually extremely dramatic, but it happened very fast and in a way that felt kind of. cartoonish? keeley Learned A Lesson i guess about being a boss which is a tough thing to do, and that was neat, but it felt like. idk. i think they could've done that without introducing a whole new character who felt like she had a lot of potential to have an interesting arc with keeley and then kinda built tension in the background for a bit only to resolve it pretty quickly and in a pretty. what's the way i want to put this.

interested to see where it goes from here!

#gav gab #gav answers #ted lasso spoilers

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squeeb100 · 3 years ago

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caution all ye who enter: centaurworld s2 negativity and spoilers up to “bunch o’ scrunch.” Seriously man I warned you

i’m not done with season 2 but I’m just kind of absolutely BAFFLED by the steep drop in quality from season one. Lightning didn’t strike twice here. Events are just not very memorable and the characters are going through the motions of interacting, but there’s never a solid emotional resolution to anything (i just got through the backstory jumping thing and they almost hit on something with ‘hey you need people’s consent before you read their minds’ and the herd was like ‘horse that was rude’ and she was like ‘yeah sorry’ and they were like ‘it’s fine.’ like that’s the level of emotional depth we’re dealing with here). The jokes don’t land for me, which is fine because they didn’t land for me first season either - the interesting characters and wonderful music made up for that. Unfortunately, that doesn’t happen this time.

The songs and writing both feel loose? If that makes sense? Like occasionally the characters will sing but it’s not really a song it’s just like a couple seconds of music happening and them singing words at each other. Back in September, I was listening to every song from season 1 on repeat; that’s how good they are. I can’t even remember what the season 2 songs are or sound like and don’t care for them. I keep waiting for them to click into “being a song” and they never do, they just end. They’ll just sing for a bit and then go back to having a conversation with surprisingly little emotional depth based on their character arcs in season one. Any time a conflict emerges they summarily address it and move on, OR there’s an opportunity for interesting character exploration which is completely missed.

WHAT’S HAPPENING with the writing. Not the plot, but the literal writing, the lines. The characters constantly just say things at each other. Some lines don’t make much sense at all? Like they didn’t get properly proofread? In episode one: “of course we’ll make it, Horsatia, we didn’t come all the way here from the Chatterly-on-Whist Beansz, or my name isn’t Viscount Horsatio Wighair Beansz.” I think they meant: “we didn’t come all the way here from our home just to be denied entrance to the party, I swear to you.” What they said: “we didn’t come all the way here from our home, I swear to you.” There was another line kind of like that in episode 5, but I’ve forgotten what it was. There are things that strike me as lazy writing, like the characters saying their motivations out loud (which I know is necessary sometimes in screenwriting, but there really are moments where it’s just like yeah dude i coulda picked that up from subtext and having you SAY it is irritating), but there are things that straight-up don’t make sense! There’s also a lack of continuity with the first season, characterization-wise (I thought Wammawink had grown past the obsessive mothering a bit, I thought Ched had grown past hating Horse, I thought Horse had overcome some of her insecurity) and just...in general. The tail is just gone -- not that I particularly cared for him, but it feels like the writers just FORGOT. He got pushed out of the picture at the end of season 1 because other things were happening. Here it feels like they didn’t wanna deal with maintaining that as a Thing. What they do love maintaining is Comfortable Doug, who I loved so much in the first season because he was surprising. He’s no longer surprising here, and he talks so much that his speaking pattern loses the absurd humor from before and I’m left irritated.

The plots of the episodes have been...not that interesting? And it’s just got this wild, frenetic energy, not necessarily in the balanced way S1 had. Too much happens too fast and nothing feels satisfying. Idk. I know there’s some interesting stuff coming up, but I really am just SO confused that the same people made season 2 as made season 1.

The animation is still lovely! Which is kind of wildly at odds with the writing and music. I wonder what causes stuff like this to happen. Maybe some of the pressure was off since they made a good first impression? But season 2 HAD to be in production before season 1 came out. I really don’t know. Anyway.

I stand by the fact that season 1 is really genuinely good work and people should watch it. Season 2 is not as good. probably could have just said that,

#centaurworld #centaurworld season 2 negativity #centaruworld season 2 #centaurworld season 2 review #centaurworld criticism

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old-congratzams · 4 years ago

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endeavor x fem reader with a Kitty Cheshire quirk (neko with ability to teleport) plot: reader super low Grade villain that love to start trouble and teleport away but endeavor catches her she can’t teleport away and endeavor teaches her a lesson nsfw 😺

aaa, i hope this is good! i feel like it’s a lil bit rushed but maybe it’s just my self criticism kicking in asdhaskfhsf thanks so much for requestingggg

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐰. 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐢 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐢

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: mentions of blood, size difference, smutty smut, blowjob, cum eating, cat girl idk how to tag this one hadhsdhf

𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓. I can’t control what you guys choose to read or not but I’d be way more comfortable if minors stayed away from my works. <3

Enji was annoyed. Doing rounds on a night market was always so monotonous because the presence of the number one hero quickly scared the villains and criminals away. But during that night in particular, things escalated quickly and Enji rushed towards the commotion.

"Endeavor, you're here! Do something!"

Chasing a delinquent that stole fish from a nearby stand was nowhere near the number one's ideal job. However, people gathering around and expecting him to do something so simple like going after a low criminal added enough fuel to his irritation and shook his ego.

"Watch this."

He followed the scent of raw fish down the streets and the trail ended in a dark alley. Enji thought he'd seen someone with cat ears and tail but didn't find anyone there, it was like they'd just disappeared right under his nose. And speaking of nose, the scent was back and it was-- behind him!

Enji was quick to grab the criminal by the arm — the first thing his gloved hand could reach. The criminal let out a squeal while in mid-air, a pair of strong hands holding her own behind her back.

"I see. A teleportation quirk, huh?"

Her cat ears twitched by the sound of his deep, dangerous voice. She tried to struggle her way out, free from the arms of the pro hero.

"There's no use, you won't be able to--"

She frenetically fluttered her tail, squirming as anxiety build up in her tummy. It was unfair that a low criminal as her would be caught by the number one himself.

"Tch."

The wiggling tail seemed to annoy Enji even further. Holding the tiny arms in one hand, the other reached for the tail in a firm grasp. The action caused the criminal to inhale deeply and freeze.

Tears gathered on the corner of her dolly eyes and red flushed her cheeks. The hero was oblivious to the fact her tail was very sensitive and any form of rough touch would send waves of warmth to her womb.

"L-Let me go..." Her voice sounded meek and bearing distress. "I'll pay for it-- I promise!!"

The grip on her tail tightened, the incoherent actions increasing Enji's suspicions. "What do you think you’re doing?!"

She gasped when Enji tugged on her tail by accident, instinctively rolling her hips and searching for friction while low moans left her mouth.

The sinful sounds put the hero in alert, his hand securing her arms now reaching for her mouth and his voice now low and threatening. "Do you want people to hear?"

The criminal shook her head even though her mind was clouded with sexual needs. Her nipples were hard as pebbles as seen from her vest.

"S-sir, it's that you're t-touching my tail..."

"Tch. I can't risk you running away."

She breathed heavily, pressed against his chest and her tail still on his hand. A sudden wave of pleasure hit the cat girl, sending shivers all over her body and a loud moan escaping her lips.

Enji pressed the girl against the wall, holding her by her face and squeezing her cheeks. "Are you insane?!? I told you to keep quiet--"

The look of pure lust, gaze lost in heaven and drool dripping from her chin made Enji realize what she meant before. It was impossible for him, a healthy man, to not go hard knowing that he caused that, even if accidentally.

Her tail fluttered, exposing the euphoria she was feeling. Although very embarassed by the situation and quite ashamed, the hero weighted his course of action.

"I'll give you what you want and then you'll turn yourself in," Enji proposed, grabbing the tail and putting it over the line of his cock, stroking both over his hero suit.

The way her eyes rolled to the back of the head and her sharp teeth drew blood from her lips encouraged Enji to continue taking advantage of the criminal. He licked her lips clean from the blood and then pushed his tongue into her small mouth, the size difference adding fuel to the fire.

"Lick it." He pressed the tip of her tail against her lips, to which she complied. "Now touch yourself with it while you suck me off."

She did everything she was told. The wetness from her previous orgasm coated her tail and both her tail and clit were very sensitive to any touch, which sent electrical shocks through her body every time she fluttered it against her small hardened bud.

While she moaned, Enji freed his cock from the suit, pushing it into her mouth. "Watch out for the teeth."

His cock was too big for her mouth so she had to open big and wide to accommodate it. Enji slowly fucked her mouth, not allowing any further than the tip to pass her lips. Her tongue worked hard around it, fluttering against the vein underneath his cock and giving it special attention.

"You probably like milk..." Enji pondered. "If you're a good girl until the end I might reward you with it."

By that suggestion, she licked and sucked eagerly. The tip of her tail fluttered faster on her clit, both sensitive from the filthy pleasure Enji was putting her through. Her tiny hands switched from massaging the base of his cock to toying with his sack.

A disappointed cry left the girl's mouth once Enji pulled his cock out of it. Precum glistened the tip and the girl probably had drunk loads of it. Enji's cock felt sensitive and was ready to shoot cum all over her face but he had other plans for her. It felt decades since he last fucked and the filthy, embarassing situation didn't help at all.

"On your hands and knees, girl."

Her legs were shaking from the heavy stimulus, the ending of her tail covered in her own wetness, but she promptly obeyed the command.

His hand grabbed the tail forcefully, getting it out of his way. The roughness he handled the tail caused the girl's pussy to tighten and dampen the suit even more. Weren't for the piece of clothing, she would be dripping on the alley like she had just wetted herself.

Enji gave each her butt cheeks a light slap, making them jiggle with the impact. He pushed aside the sopping fabric, sighing by the view of her dripping cunt and resisting the urge to plunge in one finger. Instead, he lined up his fat cock against her entrance, responding with a guttural moan by the feeling of her warm velvety pussy sucking him in.

Needless to say, his cock stretched her with ease, the wetness aiding the intrusion. She felt so full while his cock pressed just the right spots, she felt like bursting, she felt--

Enji thrusted in one rapid motion, burying his cock deep into her as soon as he felt her convulsing around him, groaning at how tight she are. He lost control the minute he felt her coming around him, even though he was only halfway through.

Tears gathered at the corner of her eyes and she spilled all over the hero. Thankfully, his suit was impermeable but the concrete underneath their knees was not.

A hand grabbed her hair while the other remained at the base of her tail, holding her in place while he thrusted into the girl. She couldn't discern if she was so high in ecstasy that his violent thrusts didn't hurt her at all or if Enji was taking such a good care of her that it's not even supposed to hurt. Either way, she knew for sure she'd be sore in the morning — in jail, perhaps.

But she didn't want to think about it while being fucked by the number one himself. His girth and length were massive, and opened her whole. The way he thrusted into her got more erratic and she could feel he was holding back.

“N-no, don't... don't hold back--!!" she pleaded, tail fluttering in agitation and her body ready to be ruined.

He let go of her hair and fisted her tail, giving it a harsh tug. Her hips were pulled back in the mean time, the new angle allowing the tip of his cock to line up perfectly with her cervix and she screamed from the sudden burn.

Enji was close to his limit, his voice cracking from pleasure and the threats that left his lips seemed empty. "If... If you keep screaming, I'll have to shut-- shut you up."

She was drenching, losing any focus she regained after coming while Enji played with her tail, but her body reached its limits and started descending from the previous high.

"E-Endeavor-san, I don't think I can come anymore..." she murmured.

He groaned, taking his cock out of her abused hole. It felt heavy, the cum ready to burst any minute. "Come 'ere, open your mouth."

His hand stroked his cock a couple times before he gushed cum all over her tongue. She let some of it spill on the ground, not able to gulp it all down. Enji looked just as wasted as the girl in front of him.

He breathed heavily as if he just won a fight, having used all of his power to win. The criminal waited patiently for him to say anything after the haze dissipated.

"You... You were a very good kitten," he praised after adjusting his suit. "But you still owe the owner some apologies after stealing from him."

She agreed, obediently following Enji from the dark alley back to the food stands. Once there, she bowed apologetically to the owner while Enji kept his arms crossed in front of his chest, trying to look the usual but his eyes betraying the fatigue and indifference towards the present moment.

After everything was settled, Enji ended up paying for the damage she had caused. He grabbed the cat girl by the neck and guided her through the streets, only one thing in his mind.

"Disobedient girls like you should have someone to discipline them. How about that, hm?"

Something in her guts was telling her that she was stuck with the number one for some time — not that she was complaining, though.

#endeavor x reader #bnha x reader #endeavor imagines #bnha imagines #endeavor

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moonyblackwerewolf · 4 years ago

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The Letter Ch. 3 - Sirius Black

Betrothed Ch. 3

Sirius Black x fem!Reader

Word count: 3.2k

Summary: Sirius and Y/N meet at a family dinner and have some fun, later she finds out she is betrothed to some pureblood boy so Sirius comes up with a mental idea to save them both.

Warnings: Kissing, hints of sex, 'aggressive' parents, underage drinking, idk my writing and English? lol

a/n: I don't really know how i feel about this, so i hope you guys like it. Feedback is always welcome too :)

Xxxx

Ch.1 Ch.2 Ch. 2.5 Ch.3 Ch.4 Ch. 5

The exams were now over, Y/N and Lily were at the Great Hall eating breakfast, the smell of bacon and fruits invading their noses, they could enjoy the morning Saturday sun and the pancakes without worrying about the exams.

“What did you think about the Potions test? I can’t stop thinking about that last question I think got it wrong” Lily mumbled while picking up an apple.

“Oh Lils, you are so cute” Y/N laughed at her friend’s worries. “I can’t remember, but we can go to library today and check, but I’m sure you got it right, Slughorn has his reasons for inventing you for his little club” Y/N/N pointed out and Lily nodded, while looking at her sister who was staring suspiciously at her “At least you got in for pure talent, not because he wanted to suck up to your father” she chuckled, trying to avoid her sister’s gaze.

“That’s a lie, you’re one of the best Potions student Y/N/N i’m sure you-” Lily was cut off by Diana standing by her sister’s side.

“Got your mail yet Y/N/N? I’m so delighted for you, when Mother and Father told me I started planning the party already, Slytherin common room Sunday 8 p.m, also if you need help getting your hair done you can ask me.” Y/N was scared, her sister was never this nice to her, something was going on.

“Why Sunday?” But she was interrupted.

As if Diana knew when the letter would arrive, an Elegant snowy owl showed up carrying a letter from her parents. “What’s that” she was now genuinely scared as she saw Lucius looking at her from the Slytherin table. Lily who has calmed her down on several sleepless nights after the Malfoy incident looked between the two girl worried, connecting the dots about the letter’s content, as her friend read the letter and stormed out of the Hall. Lily tried to follow her but she just vanished. She looked for Y/N everywhere but she seemed to be nowhere to be found, she was feeling scared and even desperate, what could’ve made Y/N so upset, her family of course, but what did they do?

Y/N was in the only place in the castle Lily didn’t look for, the Hufflepuff common room, her friend Amos Diggory, a handsome boy, who would was loyal and would do anything for his friends, let her in and stay in his room, since it was Saturday and everyone was outside. She laid in his bed, heart racing threatening to jump off her chest, she felt sick and completely and utterly alone and unloved, she felt stuck in a life she never asked for and an inevitable future, this feeling of despair was too much for her to hold, like she would always do. Y/N buried her faced in Amos’ pillow and cries the life out of her, she couldn’t believe and in the same time she always knew this would happen, but it didn’t make it all less painful.

“Hi” Amos knocked on the room’s door delicately earning a jump from the girl. “I’m sorry, but you seem like someone who desperately needs a friend” he said with a sympathetic smile.

She smiled warmly at the boy and let him sit by her side, he offered her his shoulder to cry on, soothing the girl, even though he didn’t know why she was so sad. Eventually she told him everything and he was as disgusted as she was, his heart ached for his friend, he couldn’t imagine what was like to have her parents and go through what she was. He could only help.

“You should go tell your friends, they never leave your side, they’ll probably want to know about this, you should trust them Y/N/N” he suggested with a reassuring smile, wrapping her in a hug. Y/N loved that on Amos, he was so sweet and helpful and never asked for anything in return, he was a true Hufflepuff, she always teased him.

“But I don’t want them to worry, it’s not really easy for me to trust people and it’s nothing really, I don’t want to be dramatic” she sighed looking troubled.

“Y/N/N, i can assure you, you’re not being dramatic” he paused looking at her with a concerned smile “You have all the right to be upset, i’d be too in your situation, i’d demand justice for me and the other person too, it’s not fair, but you should tell your friends, they must be really worried”

“You’re right badger, thank you for letting me stay here, if you ever need something you know where to find me” she mumbled quietly still trying to hold her tears desperately.

It was nighttime by the time she was heading to the Gryffindor tower. The marauders were at the empty Gryffindor common room, they had just finished packing and were siting by the fireplace talking, Lily looking worried whispering to herself places she might’ve forgotten to search, when y/n entered the room the girl stood up fast and wrapped her in the tightest hug she could give only letting her friend go after her arms became sore, y/n mumbled a thank you hugging Lily again and then gave Sirius a kiss on the cheek and laid on his chest, she was looking completely broken, that made the boys get concerned too.

“Hey guys” she said with voice of someone who has been crying. Sirius started caressing her hair, the group was now completely quiet until.

“Y/n-” Remus Lupin said softly “What’s wrong? Have you been crying?” His question made everyone look at her and she shifted in her Sirius lap a bit, his hands still caressing her hair patiently waiting for her answer, Lily was sitting next to them in the sofa, she grabbed her friend’s hand reassuringly.

“I got this letter from my parents today- at breakfast” she said, her voice completely numb she sounded like someone who had abandoned all hope. She then took a letter with a fancy wax seal with an “W” from her coat, she couldn’t say it so she handed it to Sirius. The seal was already broken from when she read it earlier and the parchment had stains that suggested crying, he started reading the letter, Lily peaking too, while the other boys were curious and he’s blood was boiling with anger.

He stood up abruptly and screamed “No way they're making you do this- Over my dead body, Y/n”. Sirius’ reaction startled the boys, but he was so angry he didn’t even notice James taking the letter and reading it aloud.

Dear Y/n,

Your father and i are delighted to inform you that after a few meetings with family friends, we have decided, together with the Malfoys, that you and their son, Lucius, are now engaged and the marriage will happen soon after your graduation.

Lucius has already talked with his parents and he is more than happy for taking your hand in matrimony if you accept him, in our meeting with Abraxas Malfoy this evening, he has told us how Lucius cares about and wants to protect you. Therefore we were shocked to hear that you’ve been spending many nights in the Gryffindor tower and been ignoring your fellow housemates including Lucius.

In light of theses events we’ve decided that you will be spending Christmas break in the Malfoy manor, so you and Lucius can seal each other’s promise contract and get used to each other and future married life.

Now Y/n, you are going to listen very carefully what i’m going to tell you, young lady, you are going to behave AND accept this proposal, the Malfoys are a very respectful pureblood family, they were extremely delighted to know about your interest in their son. The Watson name carries weight in our world, I don’t want you doing anything that could compromise that. Now you are going to sleep every night of the rest of your years at Hogwarts in the Slytherin dorms, we already talked with Lucius and he is going to stay with you the whole night if necessary.

With Love,

Charles Edward Watson and Louise Helena Watson

“Holy shit y/n/n” James gasped “I’m so sorry, I can’t believe your parents would do that” he paused pondering if he should joke or not, and figured it could help “but is that their way of making you shag Malfoy?, Godric they’ don’t even try to be subtle” y/n chuckled humourlessly.

“Really? because I do, that’s what all these crazy purists families do, they breed their children, they don’t care about love or anything of the sort, I can’t believe how much time I spent putting up with their shit, pretending to agree with them” she hissed starting to sound more angry, she couldn’t believe it herself she just couldn't admit.

“Y/n we won’t let that happen” Remus reassured her grabbing other her hand “we’ll do anything to help you” all the boys and Lily agreed, except for Sirius that was on a weird kind of angry trance. Lily jumped from her seat and hugged her best friend with all the love she could give again.

She was happy to see her friends helping her, she didn’t feel as alone as she felt this morning, but still, reality was rough, she’d have to marry that prick Lucius Malfoy that she and the Marauders hated so much, he was a real blood purist just like their parents and that made her feel suffocated.

Suddenly Sirius burst out of his trance and went to his dorm, which scared the remaining group on the common room, making Y/n follow him. The common room went silent. After she left they sighed “I can’t believe she’s having to go through that, she doesn’t deserve it, this year she’s been nothing but a good friend, she even helped you study Moony and she became your best friend Lily, we all know you talk about us when you’re alone” James sighed “I wish we could do something for her”.

“Yes, we sure do Potter” Lily shrugged a bit absentmindedly, wondering what was happening in the other room.

“Siri, what’s going on with you?” She asked a bit startled by his sudden weirdness, while standing in the threshold. He was searching for something frenetically in his trunk. “What are you searching for Sirius?”

“Y/n/n- Y/n” he turned to her seriously “there’s no way i’m letting you marry Malfoy” he stared so deep into her eyes that she felt a shiver run down her spine.

“Thanks you Sirius, I love you for that, but there's nothing me or you can do to help, believe me i’ve been trying to find a way out since i read that letter, but there isn’t” she sighed her voice cracking “All I can do is enjoy the little time i’ve left before i’m Mrs. Malfoy” she ran her hand in her face and looked at Sirius “But I appreciate your efforts” Sirius made his way to where she was and caressed her cheeks looking at her with a determination Y/n couldn’t understand.

“I’m going to do everything i can to help you- even if I’ll have ask my monster of a mother for help” he revealed.

“What?” She gasped, surprised and confused at his revelation to say the least.

“I hate to say it out loud but- I’m still a Black, from the Noble house of Black” He paused and Y/n began to catch up with his plan, still a little shocked “I bet it’ll be easy to convince my mom, if i Sirius Black, her hopeless case of a son, tell her he wants to marry Elena Watson the daughter of the Royal house of Watson, she would finally be at least pleased with me”

“WHAT?! No way Sirius, no- no! absolutely not” she almost choked on her words, shock written all over her face. “I’m not letting you ruin your life for me! No way! Do you even know what you’d be doing? You’d be committing yourself for the rest of your life and you know your parents AND mine wouldn’t let us divorce till the day they die at least! There is no going back and they certainly won’t let us escape, never” She was not going to let him ruin his life too.

“I know that perfectly well, but would it be that bad? we’re best friends and it’s not like we never slept together before” Y/n was in shock, left without words, Sirius Black wanting to commit with someone, he truly was a good friend but she looked at him with a gaze that said ‘no’ “Y/n… if you don’t accept this, then i’ll help you escape” he grabbed her hand and held it tightly in his chest, for a moment he wondered what about it made him feel so angry, angrier than the other boys, he felt this urge to protect her so much it almost hurt “I- just- i can’t stand seeing you suffering from this and being forced to sleep in the same bed as Malfoy- it makes me so angry, i want to protect you- I promised I would protect you, you’ve became one of my best friends this year I can’t let you go through this” he was looking at her with desperate eyes, almost imploring her to let him help her, it made Y/n’s heart jump from her chest.

“I don’t know what to do Sirius” her eyes were filling up with tears again, she was trying hard not to cry, as a wave of courage hit her and made her stop, she needed to grow up. “But I can’t escape my home, my parents would find me and probably-” she paused reconsidering if telling Sirius about her parents’ ways of parenting was a good idea, remembering Amos’ words, but even though she decided against it, she didn’t want him to worry more then he already was “I’m going to be okay, everything’s going to be fine. I’m going home and i’ll tell my parents that i won’t oblige, that I won’t be a pawn on their sick game of blood purity” she finished, more determined than she had been during the day, knowing that it’d be a foolish mistake, but it was confrontation or marriage.

“Are you sure Y/n? You want me to go with you?” He asked concerned, not feeling confident in her idea, it seemed dangerous and reckless, normally he’d love a little danger, but the fact that she could get hurt made him opposed to it.

“Yes, you don’t need to come with me, I think its better if I go alone, my parents can get- irritated. I’ll send you letters and i’ll keep you updated i promise” with that she kissed his cheek.

“Y/n/n are you really sure? I don’t think it’s- I don’t know your parents but I know mine and they wouldn’t react really well if I confronted them that way” Y/n knew what Sirius meant, but she had to try, so she whispered a yes burying her head in his neck as he wrapped her in a tight hug.

They both returned to the common room, updating their friends about what had happened and then they tried to have a pleasant last day at Hogwarts, the boys reassured Y/n even more and promised they’d be there for her if she ever needs them. The rest of the day they tried to forget all of their problems and talked, James kept trying to invite Lily out and she kept saying no while everyone laughed at the boy, Y/n laid in Sirius’s chest enjoying this little interactions while she still could. Sirius’ plan never left the back of his mind, he wasn’t sure if she’d be able to convince the Watsons, they didn’t strike him as understanding people. Little did he know how right he was.

The next day went by fast, everyone finished packing and met at the train station. The group left the Hogwarts Express and entered platform 9 3/4 everyone said their goodbyes, hugging and wishing Y/n worried good lucks, then heading to their respective families.

“I wish you could meet my family, Y/n/n, expect my sister, she’d be mean to you” Lily pouted as Y/n hugged her tightly for the last time in two weeks. “I’m gonna write you ok? with the names we planned” the both best friends chuckled, they had created nicknames so Y/n’s parents wouldn’t suspect about Lily.

“Oh Lils thank you, I’m gonna miss you so much, wish you could visit me” Y/n whispered sadly leaving Lily’s embrace after she said she would miss her too, heading to Sirius.

“Hey beautiful” Sirius murmured while wrapping her in a hug and lifting her making her laugh. “Wanna meet mommy and daddy Black, they’ll love you?”

“Of course” she chuckled in his lap, being so close to him made her heart jump faster, she didn’t want to let go, never “And of course they will, how could they not like me” she joked.

Sirius put her in the ground slowly, heart jumping too, grabbed her wrist and the two of them walked to where his parents and brother were waiting, he hated his parents but he wanted an excuse to spend more time with her. “Mother, Father, this is Y/n Watson” he mocked his parents, who were clearly shocked their son had perhaps grown some sense into his head.

“Miss Watson, what a pleasure to see you again, darling, how are your parents doing?” Mr. and Mrs. Black asked politely. Walburga was a tall raven haired woman with an elegant appearance and stern face, she was quite scary, Mr. Black looked just like his wife but older and more serious.

“Suck ups” Sirius whispered in her ears making her giggle, she could feel his breath against her ear and it made her shiver.

“They’re alright, thank you Mr. Black, how are you?” Y/n asked, looking so much like her mother that it scared Sirius, he had to hide his laugh.

Before Mr. Black answered, Mr. and Mrs. Watson showed up, with angry faces. Mrs. Watson grabbed Y/n’s wrist strongly making her wince, pushing her to their side.

“Walburga, Orion, what a pleasure to see you” Mr. Watson offered his hand to the couple, softening his face a little, Mrs. Watson smiled, while whispering.

“Y/n, where is Lucius? Haven’t you been seeing him? You should be here with him young lady” her mother hissed at her, angry with the lack of effort from her daughter to make the marriage happen.

Sirius looked at Y/n’s wrist and suspected, he felt angry at Mrs. Watson, something was wrong, but he couldn’t do anything in front of their parents, so he just looked reassuringly at her.

“Pleasure to see you too Charles, we hope to see you and Louise at the Rosiers later this week” Mrs. Black politely suggested.

“Of course” with that the Watsons said goodbye and the both families headed their separate ways, breaking Sirius’ and Y/n’s grasp on each other.

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kissjane · 4 years ago

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For fan Friday, maybe... lost pet that turns into cupid... 🙃 Or new cute neighbor with arachnophobia who gets stuck outside his apartment until the other handsome neighbor shows up and saves the day 🙃... Idk, these are a little random, but you can do ✨magic✨ with words, so...

Lots of love to you, dear Jane. I hope you get better soon 🖤

Miss Stela. At first I thought that you meant like the *actual Cupid* disguised or magicked into a pet, and now I kinda want to write that, ngl.

But instead I combined two prompts into one, and wrote this little thing.

Also, my google history is now ruined for ever, and I better not get random pop-ups based on what I looked at today.

Okay, so maybe Eliott liked to take Charlotte out of her terrarium and let her walk over his arms occasionally – because, really, why would you even have a pet if you couldn’t pet it, right? And, okay, so maybe, he might not always close the plexiglass lid all the way when he put her back at night. And, yes, he had woken up once or twice to find her little tank empty, and had to search all over the room for her before breakfast.

But still he didn’t expect her to get out of his flat one sunny afternoon while he was out getting groceries, or he would have been more careful with the closure, obviously.

The thing was, he hadn’t been careful with it, and Charlotte had somehow gotten out, and she was currently sitting proudly in the middle of the front door of his neighbour across the hall.

The other thing was, his neighbour didn’t seem to appreciate this, like, at all – if the fact that he was glued flatly against Eliott’s own door breathing very shallowly was any indication.

“Oh, thank god,” the guy mumbled when Eliott showed up. “I can’t get into my flat because of that – that – monster on the door.”

And, well. Charlotte was many things – pretty, smart, fluffy, to name just a few – but she was definitely not a monster.

“Don’t listen to him, baby,” he cooed at her, while he softly cradled her in his hands. “You’re not a monster, you are beautiful and cute and I love you.”

The guy shrieked, and he went very pale. He had big blue eyes, Eliott couldn’t help but notice. He jumped out of the way when Eliott took a step closer.

“Keep that away from me! Kill it!”

“Kill Charlotte? Are you crazy?”

“Charlotte?” the guy gasped, while moving with his back against the wall, eyeing Eliott’s hand suspiciously. “Is that – is that thing yours?”

“Of course,” Eliott replied, proudly. “You’re my cute little Charlotte, aren’t you?”

“Little? There’s nothing little about it! Let alone cute! It almost gave me a heart attack!”

Eliott shook his head, sadly.

“She has feelings, you know. She wouldn’t hurt a fly! Or, okay, well, yeah, she would hurt a fly. But she wouldn’t hurt you. Look how pretty she is, with those green-blue legs and that cute little red flag.”

The guy watched him, unimpressed. It was too bad he was so cruel against Charlotte, Eliott thought, because now that he didn’t look so horribly frightened and pale anymore, he actually looked quite handsome.

“It’s not the colour of its legs that’s the problem,” the guy mumbled, “it’s more that there are so many of them.”

Eliott chuckled. It seemed his neighbour did have a sense of humour, even though he clearly had no taste in animals.

“I’m sorry she got out,” he said therefore. “I’ll make sure the lid is closed properly from now on. Oh, and I’m Eliott, by the way. And this lady is Charlotte.”

He stretched out his hand, ready to make Cute Neighbour’s acquaintance, but the guy recoiled.

“Uhm, yeah, I’m Lucas, and I’m not really in the mood to shake your hand, knowing what you just touched.”

Eliott laughed out loud at that.

“Oh, come on!” He cupped Charlotte again, and moved his hands closer towards Lucas, who jumped back until he was flat against his own door now. “She likes you.”

“Just – just keep her away, okay?” Lucas grumbled. “I don’t like the way she’s looking at me with all those eyes. She is plotting how to best kill me, I bet.”

“She’s not even poisonous, Lucas! I swear you’re safe. Oh, and I’m sure Wolfgang and Shelob are both still in the tank, and nowhere near your flat.”

“What?”

The jump Lucas made would have set some record on an athletics meeting, Eliott was sure of it.

“There’s more of them? Where the fuck? They are not – they are not on me, are they? Eliott! Seriously, get them off me, or I –”

He stopped his frenetic movements and narrowed his eyes when Eliott couldn’t hold his straight face and started giggling uncontrollably.

“Not. Funny.”

Eliott disagreed, but he had to admit it was a bit rude of him to torture the cutest guy he’d met in ages like this. Might not raise his chances of getting Lucas’ number, although, he knew where the guy lived, he might not need it.

“I’m sorry. Hey, let me make it up to you. I’ll put Charlotte in her terrarium, with the lid closed safely this time, and I’ll buy you a coffee to forget all about her. Sounds good?”

“Not very likely,” Lucas muttered, eyeing Charlotte warily. “Will probably have nightmares about her for weeks.”

Ah. Well, Eliott knew an opening when he saw one, and he believed in striking the iron while it was hot.

“I could hold you in your sleep, so you wouldn’t have to worry about any spiders coming to get you, if that would help.”

“Hmmm.”

Lucas stared at him thoughtfully, and Eliott wondered if he had pushed too hard, too soon. He didn’t even know if Lucas was into guys.

“Best take my bed, then. As far away from Charlotte as possible.”

Eliott grinned. He noticed Lucas had gone from monster to Charlotte in five minutes. He’d be ready to hold her in no time. And in the meantime –

“Deal,” he said, and then added, lowly so Lucas wouldn’t hear, “Well done, baby. You ensnared the prettiest man ever, and all that without even having to make a web!”

#asked!#i write things #Elu #my angel of light #😇#Fan Choice Friday

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hyena-frog · 4 years ago

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Hey I’m sure you’ve been asked before but what’s your opinion on the audiobooks of Red Rising? Personally I think Tim Gerard Reynolds’ narration as Darrow is what elevated the series to being my absolute favorite. As for the other narrators in IG and DA, Ephrim’s narrator really grew on me and I’m so sad Ephrim is gone. I’m glad Lyria got recast in Dark Age. I skip her chapters when I re-listen to IG. I think Lysander’s first narrator was much better. His new voice sounds 40 but he’s only 20

Sorry it took me so long to answer this! Fun fact, but you actually sent this around the same time I decided to re-read Iron Gold (via the audiobook) to help flesh out a theory post I’m drafting. So I didn’t want to answer until I’d gotten a taste of each narrator. That’s some A+ psychic premonition on your part.

Unfortunately, I’ve yet to finish the IG audiobook because of Real Life but I’ve at least heard all of the narrators, so even if I’m still not very far in, I’ll give my opinions on them.

So, confession time, Dark Age is the first Red Rising audiobook I have ever listened to, even though I've heard good things about the RR audiobooks in general. Audiobooks aren’t really my thing. But I was taking too long to read that monster of a book, so I figured listening and reading at the same time would help me finish it faster. And boy, did it!

Now, Iron Gold is the second audiobook I’m listening to... I’m going about this all backwards, it seems. So, I’m going to give my opinions on the narrators in the order I experienced them.

Dark Age —

Tim Gerard Reynolds:

The GOAT. I’ve only heard good things about his narration, including from Pierce Brown himself at both signings I’ve been to. Now that I’ve experienced it for myself, I have to agree! I’m definitely going to need to listen to the original trilogy audiobooks at some point to get more of this guy.

He made you feel every ounce of exhaustion Dark Age Darrow felt, especially in Part I, and during the finale. His rare moments of levity (Sevro’s Palace) were delivered impeccably. His character voices were enjoyable; his Rhonna was great and his Atalantia gave me the creeps. Any moment Darrow thought of Virginia made me feel the full gamut of emotions. Anytime he summoned his righteous anger and went into Reaper mode, Reynolds sucked you in with the drama of it all.

Darrow’s always been my favorite but hearing Reynold’s interpretation of Darrow’s inner narrative really elevated why he’s a fantastic character. This guy is great.

John Curless:

Honestly? If Reynolds weren’t in the picture, he’d be my #1. Calling him my second favorite narrator doesn’t do him justice. His Ephraim injected much needed comedy into this narrative. Curless balanced Ephraim’s other nuances very well too. His deep psychological issues, his continued grief over Trigg, his budding love for the kids. It was beautifully executed.

One chapter that still haunts me is when Pax forces him off the Z cold turkey. Curless nailed Ephraim going into withdrawal. He was frightening and it was great. I also loved his reunion with Volga, even if his Volga voice was jarring to me after hearing Moira Quirk’s interpretation for most of the book. On that note, his generic Obsidian accent (Scandinavian-ish) never became too annoying and he differentiated the main players pretty well (namely Ozgard and Sefi). I really liked his Sefi voice. Quiet and whispery, very Sefi.

Don’t talk to me about Ephraim’s fate, I’m still in pain. 😭 I actually liked IG Ephraim a lot, not as a person but I thought his story was interesting. But his DA development was incredible. He really grew on me, and the fact he won’t be back, meaning Curless’ amazing narration won’t be back, is devastating.

James Langdon:

I didn’t mind his Lysander too much. I mean, I hate Lysander, but I thought he did a decent job portraying him. Maybe it’s just because he was my first Lysander voice. Although, I do agree he sounds too old for the role, but then again, Reynolds sounds too old for Red Rising Darrow (16) so? -shrug-

My main complaint with this guy is that sometimes, during the height of the action, he sounds as detached as a BBC newscaster. Which is fine, when Lysander uses the Mind’s Eye, but even when he’s full on panicking, this guy sounds so levelheaded.

His character voices are... ok. The growly voice he puts on for Ajax, and little bit for Cicero, is a bit weird. His Atalantia is sensual and creepy af and I loved his Atlas voice. One chapter that stands out to me is Kalindora’s confession toward the end. Langdon blew me out of the water with that one. Kalindora was never my favorite, but he made me really feel for her in that scene.

Moira Quirk:

I love her. I think she’s great. She has a very strong voice that pulls you along the story with ease. I think Lyria has the best DA story line and Quirk’s narration only made it better. She embodied Lyria’s temperament wonderfully; the anger, the kindness, and the stubborn resolve to keep living after initially giving up.

I keep harping on about character voices but they’re important, alright? Quirk’s character voices are some of the best. Her Victra is high and mighty and I felt Lyria’s annoyance along with her. But she also did Victra’s vulnerable moments wonderfully. I LOVE Quirk’s Volga. She’s so cute! Her accent reminds me of Sypha Belnades from the Netflix Castlevania series, which is not at all correct regionally, but it’s so adorable that it is officially The Volga Voice in my mind.

Not much else to say on this one, except, I hope the next book keeps this Lyria or I will be so sad.

Rendah Heywood:

Hail Sovereign! Another amazing narrator. At first I wasn’t sure what to think because I didn’t have any headcanon for what Virginia’s voice sounds like, but Heywood’s narration quickly convinced me this is The Virginia Voice. Very classy, very calm, could kill you but chooses not to, so don’t push her, understood?

She really gets across Virgnia’s main frustration of being smarter than everyone and being right like 99.9% of the time but rarely being listened to, VERY well, without making her seem unnecessarily whiny or something. It’s just a fact that she’s smarter than everyone else and the worlds would be better place if you took her advice.

Virgnia’s always been a bit of a mystery but Heywood really makes her into a Real Person, you know? Her fun interactions with Holiday and Theodora, her devastation after the Senate upheaval, her drive to escape from her captors... Expertly portrayed.

Her character voices are pretty good. I thought her Sevro was hilarious. I’m already missing her voice in IG (since I’m reading these backwards). I’m really looking forward to her return in the next book... Virginia will still be a POV character in the next one, right Pierce? Right??

Iron Gold —

Tim Gerard Reynolds:

I’m repeating this guy only to say: Reynolds is making sure I feel every molecule of exhaustion in Darrow’s body and I’m not very far in. I’ve already read IG, and I’m just coming off DA, so I know it won’t let up but still... have mercy on me.

John Curless:

Repeating again to say, goddamn, does this guy nail Ephraim’s development between books really well. IG Ephraim is no fun at all. Barely cracked a joke yet and is still very much wallowing in grief... Curless’ narration really makes IG Ephraim bearable, tbh.

Julian Elfer:

Hmmm. I don’t know if I’d agree he’s better than James Langdon. They’re both ok to me. Elfer is certainly more age appropriate. However, he’s a bit monotone and his reading cadence is a little annoying to me. He sounds like someone reading his own writing at a book club more than a professional narrator. I don’t mean that as an insult! He’s pleasant enough to listen to but he’s not on the same level as the others imo.

Idk. I’m still not very far into the IG audiobook, so it’s not fair to compare him to Langdon without the full picture. Maybe he gets better. However so far both Lysander narrators are. OK. That said, I don’t think Elfer is atrocious enough to warrant a re-cast? I heard people complained about him and Lyria’s IG narrator and that’s why they were changed... but Elfer isn’t terrible so I’m confused on that one.

Aedin Moloney:

Oh dear. I hate to be so blunt but... I hate her narration. A lot. Coming off of Quirk’s incredible Lyria, Moloney’s performance is... jarring, to say the least. She doesn’t give Lyria the same spunk that Quirk does. Moloney’s Lyria is too out of character for me. Lyria’s life is a shitshow and her weirdly whimsical voice is way too out of place. And during the more frenetic scenes, she’s way over the top.

I guess the problem with this narrator is she gives Lyria Too Much. Lyria is a very practical, very down-to-earth person, not prone to expressing a lot of deep emotion. Quirk balanced this very well, making her inner narrative just emotional enough without contradicting her outer expression. Meanwhile, I can barely follow along with what Moloney was saying when Tiran got shot because she was So Distressed and Hysterical. Good thing I had the book open.

Again, I’m not very far in, so maybe she gets better... idk. Take my opinions on Elfer and Moloney with a grain of salt because I haven’t finished IG yet.

Thank you for the ask! I’d love to hear opinions from anyone else on the second trilogy narrators (because I think we all agree Reynolds is great).

#red rising #iron gold #dark age #red rising trilogy #iron gold trilogy #paraphernalia-wagon #my post

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mego42 · 4 years ago

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For the WIP: timeline (I would love to see it! The Dean chapter was predictably great); Beth POV // 5+1; and/or tell me lies notes/outline, tell me lies snippets. Thank you!

THANK YOU FOR INDULGING ME ANON (and also thaaank yooouuuu!!!! I am disturbingly pleased you enjoyed it, genuinely had no idea how people were gonna feel about that much dean)

dropping this under the cut bc mildest of spoilers but read more if you want to see the timeline in it’s freshly spreadsheeted (the doc version had lots of notes and spoilers so, no) and color coded glory bc apparently I’m really letting y’all in on what kind of nerd I am today.

am not currently accepting rebuttals or opinions on when anyone thinks canon 311 took place, the show doesn’t do linear time and most importantly, I do what I want.

V EXCITED ABOUT BETH POV TBH but I have a bunch of other stuff I have to finish first. like song. and my kinkmeme thing. and maybe a prompt fill I found the other day that’s like, 75% done. maybe even sex pollen depending on my mood, idk, they’re like, complete tonal opposites.

ANYWAY enjoy these tell me lies bits as a ty for asking.

the tell me lies notes/outline is mostly just me making notes while I reread the book on what events I want to use, what chapter they’d go in, whose pov would cover them (bc i thiiiiiiiink this would be alternating pov, idk, we’ll see how the overall breakdown comes out) and then my general notes on the backstory and themes I’m playing around with (the whole thing centers around identity and the perceptions we hang on to about ourselves and others)

I don’t have many snippets written but here’s one:

“Ahem!”

Beth breaks off mid-sentence and both of their heads swivel in unison. Beth knew who it was the moment she heard the faux cough—not only was the direction of the sound a dead giveaway, but she only knew one person who actually enunciated the ahem into a distinct word.

Still, she can’t help sighing a bit when she sees the floral bow on top of the straw-hatted head barely able to peep over the fence into Beth’s yard. Mrs. Karpinski must’ve really wanted a good look, she’d brought out her kitchen stool.

��Good afternoon Mrs. Karpinski,” Beth calls, sweet as pie.

“Bethany,” Mrs. Karpinski gasped, wide eyes darting from Beth, to Rio, to the glass in Beth’s hand with the circular frenetic energy of a hummingbird trapped in a hampster ball. “Is that alcohol? In the middle of the afternoon?”

“My name’s not Bethany,” Beth mutters through gritted teeth. “Which you should know based on how much attention you pay to our household.”

She says it under her breath, but loud enough that Rio laughs softly and obviously the alcohol is the only reason the low, husky sound zips right through her before settling low and warm in her center. Great stuff, alcohol.

my wip folder is a mess and a mystery to me as much as you but ask me about any that strike your fancy anyway

#a couple people now have said i made them feel things for dean #and im getting EXTREMELY EMBARRASSINGLY EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT #and also cackling p much non stop #I AM NOT SORRY #I DO NOT SUFFER ALONE #HOW DO Y'ALL THINK I FEEL #I'VE LIVED WITH THIS FOR WEEKS #G R O S S #wip sampler #ask me stuff #my fic #shut up meg #listening through the air shaft #now use both hands

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bisluthq · 4 years ago

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hold up by logic right if kaylors say Tay is being abused and she used a signal... yet they think Joe isn't real... aren't they technically saying her "partner" Karlie is abusing her?

I think it was mostly frenetic Swifties who hate Joe for other non Kay reasons who thought that tbh. And like there were some salty soft Kays and ex-Kays but I don’t think any of the everlasting ones.

I don’t want to talk about this because I have (thankfully) never been abused and I’m not a therapist or crisis worker and I know it is an extremely sensitive topic that I can easily fuck up. Like the point is we don’t know. Calling the allegations “stupid” because “angel boyfriend would never” is straight up showing your ass. But making a big fuss about it is also deeply disrespectful. They essentially issued a denial by running a presser on how happy Swiftwyn are the very next day. They had the video edited to avoid further controversy. Tree liked tweets saying it was an accident and it’s a gesture she makes on occasion. They essentially said it’s nonsense without directly addressing it (which is a basic PR move because a hard denial draws attention to the rumor and tends to fuel it).

If Taylor needs help she has a wide support network of family, employees, and friends who can help her far more than we can.

Idk why this is being brought up again and I’d prefer for it to not. It’s like not even a little bit funny to me. It’s not a topic for light entertainment. It’s a super serious (and not outlandish) allegation that thankfully seems false (and what is unlikely is that Tay would’ve made that gesture on National TV - like it’s far likelier to have handled it privately) but I also hate people straight up denying the possibility because men ARE TRASH and we don’t know them.

#tw domestic violence #tw domestic abuse #tw abuse #tw emotional abuse

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goldenworldsabound · 5 years ago

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Philly’s playlist has 25 songs in it because I love him! Every day is an exercise in not adding more LHFEHJ

Some explanations under the cut!

Control ft Nick Nikon

The theme of the song is working through difficulty and being stronger than it, in a way, and it's got good vibes and feels very Philly. Like each challenge just makes me strong fuck you vibes. "No peace without violence" speaks to me as a lyric here because Philly wants peace to a degree but he has to kill a lot of people to get there due to having a huge bounty on his head (which he sort of deserves but you know).

Regardless (from Cannon Busters)

It's the end credits. It's also got fairly applicable lyrics. Self explanatory, However,

Even though, we been down this road

And I know it's far from flawless

You'll be comin' home regardless

Relationships take work and ours is no exception. Sort of reference to the time we spent apart and how we always come back together, after anything that separates us.

Weapon

This song makes me feel VERY STRONG and like we're kicking ass together. We're both really fucking dangerous.

When they say I'm a machine gun

I take it as a compliment

Honey, you should know

I can be your weapon

It kinda fits either of us honestly, we're both really protective and will do anything to protect the other person

Help I'm Alive

This songs seems both ironic and appropriate for immortals. Really like all of these lyrics are applicable for the idea of like, we're alive, our hearts won't stop beating because we can't die, but if we're together it's okay you know? But there's also a freneticness to be alive.

If you're still alive

My regrets are few

If my life is mine

What shouldn't I do?

I get wherever I'm going

I get whatever I need

While my blood's still flowing

And my heart's still beating like a hammer

Beating like a hammer

Patience Gets Us Nowhere Fast

To me this song speaks to how Philly especially feels when he meets me and his world starts to change. Life feels a bit more worth living. "Even the sunlight doesn't feel this good." There's a lot of like, let's be together, let's take a chance, let's do it! And it kinda speaks to the way we're both hesitant but really want this love thing.

I want it all and nothing less

I want it all, I want the best for us

I'm telling you to trust

The world you see is on our side

Take a chance and take a ride with me

From sea to shining sea

Like it's just so soft and sweet and it feels like Philly's inner monologue to me ;w;

Trampoline (with ZAYN)

This song just feels super Philly to me. I've talked about it before but this song is angst material. It's just. Big oof but also perfect. It's not really about our relationship but just about him.

Wait if I'm on fire

How am I so deep in love?

When I dream of dying

I never feel so loved

The idea that he dreams about dying because he dies all the time. The fact that he likely has trauma over this, and how it must've fucked him up pretty bad. It's just. Hngh.

Regain Control

It's the right time (to rise up to the top)

Prime time (cause we can't get enough)

And fight for (this city that we made)

To take back (the power that you crave)

This song is just like COOL VIBES very fight-y vibes and the lyrics match that. It's really easy to imagine fighting side by side to this song. Additionally it has angst that can kind of reference the time in our relationship where he got me my immortal - that caused me to leave him for a bit as I grappled with it. See the following lyrics: Can't get enough

Of your love

But to save you now, I gotta give it up

Give it up, give it up

Baby Come Back

Sort of a joke song but also it's got the twangy cowboy outlaw vibes to it. Also this line specifically, "She's so cute, and really cool" it's just like, Philly trying to describe me and like he's just struck for words FWEJKFHWJE the rest of the lyrics don't necessarily apply but the vibes are good.

4 Wheels 9 Lives

No lyrics, but this song slaps and it's also just very Cannon Busters vibes. Very cowboy outlaw on the road kinda vibes. Easy to imagine lots of shenanigans with him and I and this plays in the background.

Get Free

This song just screams Philly going absolutely bonkers driving around just doing whatever he wants having a good time but also like an existential crisis HFJWEHFJE classic right. There's not a lot to the lyrics but like, "Drive you around the corner" and "She never loved (x3) why should anyone?" just feel very Philly to me idk. It's very upbeat song.

Save Me From Myself

This song is a little angsty but it has good vibes. It makes me think of a vulnerable late night chat by the fire out at night. But still covering up the hurt with jokes and other deflections.

Still it's 48 hours without rest

Burning sensation in my chest

Never would admit that I'm depressed

'Cause I was raised to take the bitter with a twist

and also

The pain is real, my laughter is pretend

So I light the matches, ready to forget

There's also a lot in the verses about sparking up the fire and that sort of thing hence the particular imagine. And sort of asking for help and acceptance but continuing to deflect.

Don't Let Me Go

This has very similar vibes to the above. Like being vulnerable with some deflections in place. Also a little sexy.

And it's all about the way you feel

When you first take off your heels,

And then your clothes;

Don't let me go.

And when all has come and made its deal,

And then everything get's real,

And i'm still froze...

Don't let me go.

Vulnerability in two flavors - the physical layers of clothing, and this repeated line throughout the entire song of "don't let me go". His emotional vulnerability. My emotional vulnerability. All the things coming together.

RBB (Really Bad Boy)

...what can I say, he's a really bad boy LKFWEHFJKW. It's fun and it's sexy and that's it that's all I have for you it gives me a lot of images of him smirking and giving me naughty glances and being a flirty lad.

Rescue Me

We really out here rescuing each other all the damn time. It's pretty straightforward.

Would you rescue me? Would you get my back?

Would you take my call when I start to crack?

Would you rescue me? Uh

Would you rescue me?

Would you rescue me when I'm by myself?

When I need your love, if I need your help

Would you rescue me? Uh

Would you rescue me?

Circles

This is very much about like, the circles we run around each other before we get together. We both kind of cycle through like, should I try to make this work? And wanting distance because we can feel we're falling in love but don't know how the other person feels. So we circle that way. I realize that's not exactly what the lyrics are about but the vibe it gives off works for that even though the lyrics aren't an exact match.

Lightspeed (IMLAY remix)

This gives me really big feelings like. It's a very intense song but like it's like man things are fucked up but maybe we can fix it if we work together.

We're moving faster than light while

We're dealing with these demons inside so

Where are the ones who made us now!?

Maybe we got to do better

Maybe we've got to do it together and

Maybe we lost our way somehow

And maybe maybe means never

"Where are the ones who made us now" to me is just like...we were made immortal by sorcerers and magic that seems to have disappeared from the world, but also like...the world that continues to hunt us and has forced us to keep running, you know? and the we've got to do it together is just like ;w; us coming together and working to make life worth living and all...hngh...it touches my heart a lot and also it's a really good song with good energy.

Never Game Over

Ride I'm gonna ride the lightning

Danger feel the danger rising

Never it's never game over

Wild I am a wild eyed thriller

Dragon I'm a dragon killer

Never it's never game over

It is LITERALLY never game over for us cause we keep coming back to life. We always find a way to win against every single bad odd. Also a fucking bop to imagine fight scenes to.

Reckless Tongue

The wording and tone in this just scream Philly.

I've got a reckless tongue

What are you bothering me for

It's gonna look bad on you

I've got a big old gun

What are you laughing at me for

It's gonna look bad on, you

It's also kind of about trying to flirt with a girl but being interrupted and failing and getting frustrated and it very much just...it feels Philly.

Legend

I'm a living legend

You ain't heard yet? You not get the message?

From the moment that I step in it, I get a couple weapons

Yeah, I turn into a beast when I'm repping

Again, just flawless lyrics for Philly being a cocky shit.

Ride It

...this song is just very sexy okay...>///>

People = Shit (Richard Cheese cover)

Okay but like I don't know the original song at all but the loung cover of it IS HILARIOUS to imagine like Philly wandering around a bar starting fights and killing people. Like a musical number! It would be great.

Paralyzer

Well, I'm not paralyzed

But, I seem to be struck by you

I wanna make you move

Because you're standing still

If your body matches

What your eyes can do

You'll probably move right through

Me on my way to you

I really catch him off guard. The lyrics aren't a perfect match, but the way he just is totally struck by me over and over...I can keep of with him, he thinks I'm gorgeous all of that is like lightning to him.

Ain't No Rest For The Wicked

Okay definitely added this at least partially for the aesthetic. Like it just has cowboy outlaw vibes. And of course the lyrics, "Ain't No Rest for the Wicked" are extremely pertinent right? It's a bit ironic because the full lyric is, "ain't no rest for the wicked, until we close our eyes for good". Which we never will. So it's the kinda thing we say with a wry smirk before killing someone you know feel?

Trouble

Trouble on my left, trouble on my right

I've been facing trouble almost all my life

My sweet love, won't you pull me through?

Everywhere I look I catch a glimpse of you

I said it was love and I did it for life

Did-did it for you

Hoo boy this is just big Us. Like yeah we're surrounded by trouble nonstop but we get through it with each other!

Black and Gold

This song gives me mega feelings about the time Philly and I spend apart after he gets me turned immortal to save my life.

'Cause if you're not really here

Then the stars don't even matter

Now I'm filled to the top with fear

That it's all just a bunch of matter

'Cause if you're not really here

I don't want to be either

I wanna be next to you

Black and gold, black and gold, black and gold

Like oof just both of feeling like...what's the point in this immortality if we aren't together? But unwilling to reach out because we're afraid. Because that would be a huge step for how bad of terms we left on.

Additionally the song has really big vibes for stargazing which is definitely a thing for us, particularly when we're apart.

#fofebruary #eternal roadtrip #audio #self ship #self insert #selfship #selfinsert #if you read the entire thing I love you and also I'm sorry it's really long...

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chrysalispen · 6 years ago

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just spent the last week and a half really busy with day job and then cleaning my house memorial day weekend

i come requesting forgiveness and also bearing saucy nero/wol postcoital banter, as i am wont to do

mayyyy post this on ao3 later today, idk

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Long moments passed in which the only sound was the rasp of their breathing, hot and ragged and immediate.

After what felt like an eternity, Nero was able to summon the wherewithal to open his eyes. His mind felt smooth and blank, like a hard reset on a systems terminal; everything was just basic sensory input amid the heavy languor weighing down his limbs, and even those were things coming back to him one by one as his breathing slowed.

That much loss of self-control would have normally bothered him, but this time he found he didn't mind so much. For one thing, it was by all appearances wholly mutual: the hands that had slain gods and dragons, overthrown corrupt rulers, and brought low to his knowledge at least two legions of the Garlean Empire were currently draped over his shoulders, loose and relaxed.

He decided he wasn't going to be the one to break their silence, concentrating instead on the soft weight of his partner's body against his own, her skin slick with sweat and chest heaving in shuddering gasps as she tried to catch her breath. There was also the soft sensation of her fingertips in his hair, slowly and gently carding through the damp, tangled curls at the nape of his neck and brushing the surface of his skin, a tiny, absentminded caress that was in turns careful and tender.

When she buried her face in the crook of his neck he caught her scent: the slight tang of sweat, lingering musk, the smell of dust and freshly-cut grass he'd always associated with the smell of the road. Beneath that was the note of Althyk lavender she always carried with her. It made him think of his boyhood home, briefly, but in a kinder light than he'd seen it in years.

At length she exhaled, long and shaking, a mumbled "seven hells, Nero" on the back end of it. His hands wandered over her exposed back in slow and idle patterns, gently tugging her long curtain of golden hair to one side so he could press his lips to her neck.

“Are you alright?"

"Never better." The weight over his shoulders shifted and he felt one of her palms running over his collarbone, down across his chest to tangle briefly in the wiry hairs there. "Even if my legs currently feel a bit like the custard pudding they used to serve in Castrum Novum's mess hall."

Nero didn't even try to stop the smug grin he could feel stretching his lips.

"Is that so?"

"...And I've just admitted out loud that you wrecked me like the idiot I am."

"Surely you were not laboring beneath the assumption that I limit myself only to engineering-related accolades? I accept any and all compliments towards my person, sexual prowess included."

He let out a small, startled yelp when she tweaked one of his nipples in warning. "You would, you insufferable shite."

"None of that," Nero chided, rubbing his chest and gently squeezing the fingers that still lingered there, "unless you'd like to stay glued to your well-appointed sofa for the remainder of the evening. I'm sure your neighbours have appreciated the free show."

"You say that, but now you mention it those curtains are mostly decorative. This... might not have been well considered." She pushed herself into an upright sitting position, shifting her hips as the muscles in her thighs trembled from exertion. "Also I'm afraid we've left a bit of a mess."

"I can't imagine why this in any way surprises you, given that 'accosting your hapless partner before he's managed to drop his breeches' appears to be your preferred mode of foreplay. Should I endeavor to express some fond hope for a less frenetic coupling in future, 'tis for the novelty alone."

"Complaints, Scaeva?" she snorted. "You seemed to enjoy the pace well enough while you were fucking me half senseless."

"Only half?" His smirk widened by ilms. "I am out of practice."

Her fingers had not stopped gentling in his hair. He'd observed on other occasions that it seemed to be one of the ways she showed the soft feelings she reserved for people to whom she felt especially close.

The more he thought about that, the more it started to make him feel something close to uncomfortable. But he found he quite favored her affectionate little touch, more than he wanted to admit if he were entirely honest, and he really didn't want her to stop.

So he packaged those emotions and set them aside for later consideration. There would be ample time later to analyze this particular bit of self-reflection without spoiling the moment. In the meantime that soft mouth had lingered close enough for him to kiss it, so that was precisely what he did.

"Nero?"

"Hmm?"

"What do we do now?"

"Meaning...?"

"This, I guess? Us? I mean-" One of her hands made a vaguely questioning gesture in the air.

"You're asking if this is going anywhere." He made his way down her neck into the soft hollow where it met her collarbone, leaving small bites in his wake. "...I admit I do not find myself opposed to an arrangement of a more permanent sort."

"I thought you said you don't do love?"

"Pray forgive a moment of vulgarity, darling, but tumbling you hardly amounts to a heart's confession."

"I'm aware of that. I'm not- ...I'm not asking for a commitment, per se. You're busy, I'm busy, and..." He hadn't spoken yet and it made her stomach tighten with anxiety. Nero could be difficult to read on occasion and now was one of those times, his eyes fixed on her face as he waited patiently for her to continue. She decided to plunge on ahead anyway. "It's not you at all, it's just, I don't think I'm ready for. Um."

"Romance?" he supplied mildly.

Aurelia took a deep breath.

"I mean, yes, since you've said it aloud yourself. It's... that's just too much with everything else that's going on. But I wouldn't mind... something like this. Where you stayed here and-...right, well." She could feel the flush on her cheeks and it had nothing to do with arousal. "You're welcome here anytime you like; in fact, I think it would make all of us feel better if we knew you had somewhere to go, even Cid, and maybe you don't care what he thinks but I-"

Nero pressed a finger to her lips to halt the torrent of nervous words.

"Garlond aside, I am not disinclined if that's what concerns you. I think it plain that we enjoy each other's company; there's certainly little point in denying that. Seeing as the both of us are wont to be possessed by wanderlust from time to time it might even be ideal."

"Then you'll stay?"

He leaned forward to kiss her between her breasts, over the scar Zenos' sword had left behind. "I must say, the notion of having a stable roof over mine head does hold a certain appeal."

"Ah, so that's how it is." Aurelia let out a soft, fond laugh and pressed her lips to the crown of his head. That kiss had been a ploy. He was using it as a bridge point, trailing delicate touches of his lips over the curve of one breast. "Using me for my house, are you?"

"Your house, your food, your potential workshop space. ...Also your wine cellar. My time in Eorzea seems to have made La Noscean red something approaching palatable."

"Are you demeaning my taste in wi-" His teeth scraped lightly against the coral peak he'd teased to stiffness, eliciting a muttered curse from her lips and a prickle of gooseflesh along her arms. She let out something between a gasp and a short laugh, and squirmed desperately in his lap. "Damn it, I'm trying to talk, you cheeky git!"

"And I am attempting to distract you. All's fair in love, war, and housing arrangements, or are you not one to rise to a challenge?"

"... 'Rise' to a-..." She swatted lightly at his wandering hands. "That jest was atrocious even by your standards. Are you looking for another tumble or are you just going to talk me to death?"

"By remarkable happenstance," his lips brushed over hers again, light and deceptively chaste, "my plan at this very moment is to retire to a more suitable venue wherein we might continue this discussion until all possibilities have been exhausted."

"I'm telling you, if I try to stand up right now you will actually see me collapse--Nero Scaeva!" In one fluid motion he rose, tucking one arm beneath her legs and the other wrapped around her waist. Aurelia made a startled little yelp, immediately twining her arms about his neck for purchase. "Rhalgr's shit, you may actually be the worst man I've ever met in my life."

"And you, my sweet, are a public menace. Slayer of eikons. Ruiner of military careers." He adjusted his grip long enough to hoist her upper body over one shoulder and planted a kiss squarely on her flank, making her gasp aloud. "Scourge of unsoiled smallclothes the length and breadth of Eorzea."

"Implying I seduced you," she said a trifle breathlessly.

"Implying you didn't?"

By the time they actually reached her bed the linkpearl was chiming for attention, but for once Aurelia couldn't have cared less.

#nero/wol #nero tol scaeva #shrugs aggressively #look writing him is just fun ok #and i just enjoy this particular ship dynamic a lot #in which the wol and nero do literally anything to pretend they don't have feelings #i will have to get into why this is a mutual issue with them in another fic #ffxiv writing

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unproduciblesmackdown · 6 years ago

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What’re your top 5 bmc songs

i’m answering this as a total mess b/c otherwise i know i’ll never answer it lol.....i never really have True top 10 or top 5 or top 3 or Favorite anythings and i like every bmc song and each one has stuff where i’ll go Oh Shit!!! and i’m sure if i were to say be like listening to the album on loop the top __ would shift around some.....

aka i have no definitive answer to this so i’m not really gonna try and i’m not Really gonna try to be fancy about my answer in terms of like, musically analyzing every song, or saying what i think is ~objectively~ the best or whatever, we’d be here all day and i wouldnt know half of what i was talking about anyways. i’m like, a chord?? what? anyways here’s my nondefinitive whims in no particular order

1) loser geek whatever

i aptly Lose it for this song, i mean, what can i say. a tour de force and will roland central and i’ve gone a bit ham singing along sometimes and that’s fun and the Emotion of it all........keeping it brief but i obviously love this song and it’s an essential number here

2) more than survive

i mean classic. it really goes off and i enjoy it....what can i say!!! well i can say better things but i’m trying to whip this out right here and now because otherwise i totally never will lol

3) a guy that i’d kinda be into / reprise

i’m cheating!!!! the reprise owns my soul!!!! it is SO pretty and sweet thanks you guys thanks i’m dead in miami. and the original number is a lot of fun, i love the orchestrations, all the harmony, hell yes. the energy. love it

4) the pants song...

underrated but i appreciate you pants song. i like what the number does and how it juxtaposes so strongly with the Intense Drama of the pitiful children and how these two opposing forces in jeremy’s world are bringing these entirely different energies.....wild that the order was once swapped. anyways. i love when the beat picks up and this is just a bop. i really like that jeremy’s dad doesn’t respond to the situation with any ego or anger or some nonsense about his role as a parent hinging on maintaining authority rather than just loving and supporting his kid.....and how yeah he might not be that close to jeremy atm but he knows enough important stuff to reach out to michael, who like, it feels fitting that he might need that guidance from someone with The Maturity to like, direct him to be like dude okay yeah but you gotta do this thing b/c we could just Stay Mad but we’d regret it......i really like the Content of this song and that it bops and that it’s this humble ordinary not very flashy version of a “let’s go save the day” psych ourselves up number......i like it a bunch

5) voices in my head

of course!!!! similar with more than survive.....it slaps and i love it. love that for jeremy and for all of them......the Frenetic Energy at the end is beautiful ugh. and the little intro there is so good i’m like oh hell yes i am bopping the fuck along....and again, what a Message. hashtag so true. it really is tho and that’s just great and idk it’s just totally making the list!!!

And Then You Know

i like all the songs and could say great things abt them and have no true Definitive Judgment passed down.......just went off about how good bmc pt 1 is the other day.......like honestly mitb is basically Its Own Thing like, what is there to say....there’s that Musical Bit in it and i lose it. the song pumps me up a little bit lmao cuz it’s got all that energy we love that.........i love brooke’s bit in upgrade she’s so good the like nooooowwWWWWwwww now!! and when the squip kicks right into “your life was so PITiful before” i hurl myself down a staircase but like, as a way of dancing along.

idk i have no really illuminating answers here cuz it’s mostly me going oh shit lol

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sweet-little-bird-fanfic · 6 years ago

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YOUNG K - Pure Desire

Masterlist & Chapters: Check my bio for the masterlist link. Idk why but posts with links don’t show up on the tumblr’s search feature anymore. So, I’ll leave the link to my master list there, where you can find the other chapters easily. I hope this is still functional for you guys, sorry for the trouble. I hope you can still enjoy my work despite the technical issues.

Summary: A young writer that’s struggling with her work until she crosses paths with an intense and fated new type of inspiration; An inspiration called: YOUNG K!

Genre: Fanfic; Romance; Smut (っ˘ڡ˘ς)

Warnings: Swearing?

CHAPTER 3- Kitchen Heat

YOUNG K

It was a long day of work, but it passed really fast since we had a lot to do in the studio. To be honest, I spent half of the time laughing alone because of the hug situation and the other half... I was just trying to forget the feeling of that silly girl's wet skin against my body.

Everyone was making it even harder for me, the members kept talking about her and how nice, energetic and clumsy she seemed. It was almost impossible not to think about her when everyone but her brother kept bringing her up, which made me a bit irritated and I accidentally ended up mocking her every single time. And at those moments, I could feel Kim Jii (big bro) staring at me amused as if he was agreeing with my mocking words without even defending his sister. At least that's what I thought until at some point he patted my shoulder and said imitating an old man's voice:

- Oh boy, you're in trouble Young K.

We arrived at our temporary house and the first thing I saw was a black cat cuddling up to a troublesome girl sleeping on the sofa. Everyone else went to the kitchen since it was late and we were all starving, but I stayed behind looking at Violet as she rested her head peacefully on her hands. "She's cute when she's asleep." I looked around and grabbed a red blanket to cover her, once I did, the cat came from under it and run off somewhere.

It didn't take long until Violet came to the kitchen and greeted us with a sleepy smile. Everyone talked with her and I sat next to her as she explained some preparations she had made during the day and I couldn't help but tease her when she brought up the bathroom on the second floor. Even though all the members attacked me and protected the naive girl, I felt extremely pleased with the fact that I could provoke her so easily.

I guess she was feeling too uncomfortable with my behaviour that she wanted to disappear from the kitchen as soon as possible. After she said her polite goodbyes, Violet bumped into my shoulder accidentally as she got up from her seat. And without realising my hand fled to her back protected by the blanket that was involving her, drove by the urge to make sure she was okay and the unsuspected need to touch her. I bowed in response when I noticed her concerned look and then saw her disappear on the stairs.

They all finished snacking as I reflected on my weird actions. We went to our room and Kim Jii (big bro) made sure everyone didn't need anything and left us to sleep. I looked around the room and it was very organised and different from before: one side was the sleeping area and the other was the free time area, filled with games and some other cool stuff. Violet had probably spent the whole day preparing everything to make sure we felt at home. This thought made my heart warm and I started to feel guilty about teasing her so much. "But she's so damn cute when she gets all flushed and panics." As I lay down, I noticed every bed had towels from different sizes well folded and tidy.

- Does she think this is a hotel? What's up with the room service?! - I thought out loud.

- Brian, what is your problem!? - Jae said looking at me with a disgusted expression.

- Are you a bully, Young K? - Sungjin asked throwing a pillow at me and for some reason, I felt really stupid and my guilt increased.

I ignored all of them and hugged some pillows. It didn't take long until everyone fell asleep, Jae was drooling on his pillow, Sungjin was hidden under his blankets, as for Dowoon and Dopil, they had fallen asleep hugging each other on the sofa. And even though the atmosphere was so pacific and quiet, I couldn't sleep. I rolled over and over in bed until my hair became close to look like a bird's nest. And all of this is because I couldn't stop thinking about her.

I couldn't stop thinking about how I ingeniously followed the sound of her voice when she called out from the bathroom and our bodies collided, my hands rushed to hold her and my heart seemed to want to jump out of my chest. I couldn't stop thinking about her delicious fresh flowered smell, the water drops on her neck side, her startled look, her flustered words, how it made me feel and how my brain stopped working as I stopped the towel from falling. If I was to be completely honest, I would have to say I wanted that towel to fall at her feet and reveal her naked body. But at that moment, I was divided between what I was supposed to do and what my body was telling me to do. And I definitely couldn't forget the way I behaved, absorbed in the strong attraction our bodies were sharing and blinded by the need to fight against myself, I ended up losing my self-control and teased her once again like an idiot! But I couldn't help it, her innocence toyed with my boundaries and pricked my discipline.

But what really wasn't letting me sleep was the sensation she left me with when she trembled against my tough body, the electricity that pulsed through my body and the adrenaline that rushed through my veins fed a new famished sexual lust in me.

I started to feel a tactile frenetic feeling at the end of my loins just from the thought of it.

Trying to avoid getting aroused in a room filled with boys and knowing I wouldn't fall asleep soon, I forcedly distracted myself getting up and tried to get the cuddling boys on the sofa to go to their beds:

- Hey, it's 2 am. Go to your beds, your backs will hurt tomorrow. - I said shaking their arms gently, but they didn't even open their eyes and cuddled up even tighter in response.

I laughed looking at them and stole a blanket from one of the beds to cover my friends.

- Aigo, you cutie buns... - I said whilst scratching my head and walking out of the room.

As I closed the door behind me, I sighed and stopped to stare at the bathroom door. I couldn't help but remember the incident from this morning again (not that I forgot about it anyway) and felt my body reacting towards that memory: her wet skin slipping through my fingers as I tried to grab and push her against me; her unsteady breathing tickling my chin; her adorable hesitant expression and her sparkling eyes.

Everything was driving me nuts. I barely knew her and none of this made sense... I should be sleeping and resting but contradictory to that, it was 2 AM and I was drowning in thoughts of her and I had to force myself to not even look at her bedroom door. "You're not a teenager, Young K! For fuck's sake!"

I rushed downstairs to the kitchen to find something to drink since all those wild thoughts were making me thirsty. When I walked in, I saw Violet holding a cup of tea between her delicate hands. Our eyes met nervously and I could see by her expression that she was uncomfortably anxious with my presence too, but the flame in her eyes told a different story and I made all the efforts to avoid her gaze. Otherwise, I wasn't sure what I would do!

- Can't sleep? - I asked to break the silence.

- I was working. You? - Violet spoke too fast which made it obvious that she was lying.

- I can't sleep. - I said running my eyes through her body and locked them with hers.

She was wearing a simple thin pyjamas with shorts and that innocent outfit made me wonder if I was a pervert, considering it was making me more aroused. The fact that she wasn't wearing a bra was obvious seeing that her hard nipples were striking against the thin fabric that covered her skin, helping my excitement to increase more and more. From where I was standing, even though they weren't that big, her boobs seemed naturally beautiful and their curvy smooth form shaped the fabric of her shirt. Without realising, I probably stared for too long and made her cross her arms over her breasts.

- So... - she said weirdly loud - Want some tea?! It always puts me to sleep.

- Please... - I said disappointedly as I looked at her crossed arms.

I saw her moving carefully as she prepared my tea and I couldn't stop myself from staring at her curvy body. I was being intoxicated by the defiled thoughts that left my brain and hurried down to my lower part, making my blood pressure rise and my bulge become even more voluminous.

I felt my mind drifting away alongside with my self-control when she asked me for some sugar and I unconsciously cornered her against the kitchen table, drunk in lust. As she turned around suddenly facing me, her fragrance was even stronger than I remembered from before. And when I finally came to my senses, I had already lost to her pure but intense desire. She could try to pretend she didn't want me, but I could feel her unsteady breaths against my lips and I just knew: she wanted me too. It was too late to go back, not because I couldn't simply say sorry and make an excuse, but because I couldn't let her go. Call it sex pheromones or whatever, but I just wanted to get lost in her. So, I took the mug she bravely put between us, placing it on the table and came closer, making the distance between our bodies disappear. I felt her tremble and she placed her hand on my chest, I smirked and kissed it as she sat on the kitchen table. "Good girl."

- Were you thinking about me? - I said as I looked at her lips insatiably - Was that why you couldn't sleep, Violet?

I saw her struggling to maintain her composure and noticed she was shaken away when I pronounced her name, which made me unintentionally groan. She did answer me but I didn't even bother to understand what she said, knowing it was a lie by the tone of her voice so she could run away from this situation.

- You're a really bad liar, Violet. - I said against her ear as I possessively felt her soft skin covered by her pyjamas' shorts and spread her legs, standing between them trying to pull her against my body as I bit her earlobe and felt her shiver. The feeling of my bare hands rubbing against her smooth skin made me feel euphoric and lose all the rationality I had left.

She berried her face on my shoulders and tried to cover her legs, I guess I made a mess out of her shorts when I explored her legs since they were all rolled up now. I grabbed her waist and run my hand through her back, making her thoughtlessly wrap her legs around me. "What a good girl", I thought as my cramped member pressured against her stomach.

She said something but I wasn't really listening because of the feeling of her warm feminine body against my excited manhood. Even though my brain was a chaos I managed to bring out some words filled with bad intentions:

- Earlier... - I placed my right hand on her sweaty neck looking for approval - You said you weren't good at games. Shall I teach you?

I leaned towards her face, even though she closed her eyes she still shrugged trying to run away. I smiled at her cute reaction and bit my lower lip, thirsty for hers. I was desperate to kiss her and it was when our breaths were mixing together and our lips were millimetres away from touching, that a weird fluffy sensation rubbed against my left hand that was resting on the table. And all of the sudden a thin sharp pain attacked and evolved it. When I looked down, I saw the black cat biting me.

- What the ... - I said staring at the cat confused, but that's when I noticed I could feel Violet's accelerated heartbeats on her neck against my fingers which excited me even more.

When I looked back at her, she let go of a disappointing sight and managed to get away from me. As she got down the table, her body rubbed against mine and even though that was an accident, my body shivered with the sudden rushed impact of our bodies colliding. I was able to grab her hand and pushed her against the fridge.

- Wait! - I said as I grabbed her hair behind her neck firmly - Don't go...

- If ... if - she said shaking and lost in words - If you don't let go of me right now, I'll bite you too!

I knew those words were a mere pure attend of threat, but they surprised me and made me feel guilty, as a sinful desire came over me when she pronounced them. The image of her biting my skin made me feel hot but since I recognised she was just being naive, I couldn't help but laugh.

- Go ahead! Bite me - I said looking deep into her eyes - I'll let you do it.

- What ?! - She said pushing her hand against my chest trying to create some distance between us - Do you have a biting fetish or something? Let me go. Now!

- I think you like it too. - I said and bit her earlobe again, the salty taste of her skin made me go crazy and woke my wildest senses.

She moaned quietly into my ear and when I looked at her amazed at the sweet sound, I saw her face being invaded with a red shade that made her look extremely vulnerable. I stared at her lips and she quickly covered them with her hands, knowing I was going to kiss her. That reaction made me want to tease her even more. So, I slowly kissed the elegant hands that were covering her tempting lips, as I got lost in the agitated emotions shown in her eyes.

I could feel her squeezing her legs tightly together and the thought that maybe she was feeling my presence somewhere else and deeper than I could reach at that moment made me lose it: I roughly took her hands from her mouth and held them above her head against the fridge as I leaned my lips towards hers. I could feel her twisting and on the last second, before our lips could connect, she moved her face and made me end up kissing her cheek instead.

- Would you mind to stay still!? - I ordered as I placed my knee between her legs and saw her struggling to control her breath.

Her breasts rubbed against my chest each time Violet inhaled and she desperately tried to avoid the pressure I was making between her legs with my knee. I slowly took one of my hands to caress the side of her body and placed it on her ass, my hand slid and lifted her right leg.

- Stop! - she gasped placing her forehead against my shoulder.

I laughed and let go of her hands to grab her other leg and lifted her up. She put her arms around my neck and let a gasp escape her nervous mouth when I made her jump in the air and grabbed her ass. Violet struggled to try to make me let go of her and made her body rub against the tip of my hard member.

- Hmmm, Violet. If I were you, I wouldn't move much. - I said kissing her neck and letting my desire take over me.

She bit my shoulder trying to hide her moans when I licked her neck. I felt my body give away with the erotic pain she inflicted on me. So, I pulled for a chair to sit and placed her on my lap, grabbing her hips and letting her rub her tense body against my excited groin with only our mere clothes separating us.

- I wanna hear more of that sweet voice of yours. - I said whispering as she played with my hair and hid her face on my neck. - Don't hide...

I grabbed her chin and made her face me. As I brushed her hair and placed it behind her ear, she placed her shaking hands against my abdomen and made butterflies invade my stomach. I excused all of those energetic sensations she triggered in me with the fact that it had been a while since I had been with someone.

- I'm going to kiss you. - I said staring at her expectant eyes.

The moment our lips touched and I kissed her softly, it made my back shiver as she dug her nails into my neck. We both stopped and stared at each other's lips, and leaned in sync once again to bury our thirsty lips together. As I bit her lower lip she slightly opened her mouth and let me explore it with my thrilling tongue, she moaned into my mouth as our tongues played with each other and hugged me tightly, pressing her body against mine. I grabbed her ass thither and made her bounce on my lap, groaning between our frenetic kiss and making her face lean to the other side. Every move we made seemed well matched and our mouths completed each other as only the most passionate lovers would. As our kiss deepened, our bodies started to look for more and more, becoming sincere with each move we took. As we searched for an easier way to move and to involve our bodies deeper, we stood up together and bumped against the table, waking up from our inflamed kiss when we could barely breathe.

We looked at each other knowing that our kiss wasn't just built on physical attraction and step back awkwardly as we tried to catch our breath, knowing we willingly crossed a dangerous line.

This was too dangerous, I wanted more. That wasn't enough and I tried to read the look on her face, hoping she wanted more too. Her watered shiny eyes demanded more but her body was in defence as she protected it holding one of her arms with her hand. Violet was clearly facing a battle with her self-control and as for me... I was trying to respect her space by avoiding something I was craving so deeply.

- I... That felt ... - I said as she stared at my lips.

- ...good. - she completed my phrase letting an invisible "but" in the air, seeming a bit scared and anxious.

- Sorry, I went a bit overboard... - I said running my hands through my hair.

I touched her hand with my fingers and then created some distance between us. Then, I slowly sat in the furthest chair from her and saw her lost in thoughts. I let my head fall on the kitchen table and then lifted it to support it on one of my hands.

- Goodnight, Violet. - I said as I covered my victorious childish smile behind my free hand.

- Goodnight... - She said timidly as she walked towards the kitchen door and stopped to look back at me.

- You better go before I chase after you. - I pronounced before burying my face in my arms and saw her leave - What have I done?!

I hid my stupid smiley face in my hands and stood up to stretch my arms in the air. That moment didn't last long and it was interrupted right away when the growth in my pants remembered to punish me and agonize me.

- Nice! - I said bending down and holding my knees assimilating what just happened between the two of us, wishing she could come back to take care of what she had done to me.

I stood up and walked upstairs slowly, really slowly. The boner I had wasn't letting me move easily and my mind was calming down to make it less hard on myself. Miraculously, I was able to reach the bathroom and locked myself in it. I turned on the cold water in the bathtub and got under it. How could I have gotten so hard just from looking at her and touching a little?

The water running down my body didn't relax me at all, everything felt extremely good and the fact that she was just in the next room as I stared down at my stiff state made me feel even more aroused.

- Oh fuck. - I said as I gave up my self-control, grabbed my hard Young K junior and started to relieve myself.

Masterlist & Chapters:

Check my bio for the masterlist link. Idk why but posts with links don’t show up on the tumblr’s search feature anymore. So, I’ll leave the link to my master list there, where you can find the other chapters easily. I hope this is still functional for you guys, sorry for the trouble. I hope you can still enjoy my work despite the technical issues.

A/N: I wish you all hot kitchen scenes in your life!

Love Hot kitchen scenes from Sweet Little Bird.

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SYTYCD S15 Top 8 recap

Cool opening number! Poor Slavik got left behind. I wonder if he wasn’t in the group part because of his lower contemporary ability?

Vanessa finally looks normal for once.

ROUND 1

Jensen and Jay Jay - Jazz Pretty nice routine. It felt sexy but not overlay sensual. I thought Jensen was given more to do with the choreo, but she was less controlled than Jay Jay. It was his style, though. I noticed he literally does not stop pointing his feet. Even when they are on the floor, they are pointed all the way to his toes. That attention to detail serves him well as a dancer.

Cole does a nice Jailhouse Rock jive solo with an amazing jump thrown in at the end there. He also tried his best to have Elvis hair. His locks aren’t quite thick enough, but he looks good enough for me.

Genessy and Slavik - Contemporary Listen, I love these two. They are cute and get along very well. But I don’t want the show trying to push the showmance at angle. LET THEM BE. I couldn’t decide if they were reading from cue cards during the rehearsal video or not. Anyway, this was a really refreshing contemporary dance. No angsty flailing. I feel like Genessy was mostly dancing around Slavik, but the dude put in a pretty good effort. I think Mandy specifically gave him that arabesque as a chance to say ‘hey, I can have nice lines too’. He didn’t always point his toes, though.

Hannahlei throws a whole ton of technique into her solo. Too bad she’s using that song. Sigh.

Magda and Darius - hip hop haha, I like this concept. I think Magda looked a bit frantic but was hitting the movies harder than Darius, who knew what he was doing but had retract his long long limbs. They also went out of sync in the middle and it was pretty obvious, because there were lots of side-by-side moves there.

Jay Jays solo was kinda weird. I didn’t get what it was all about. But wow his jumps are fantastic.

I feel like Slavk might have improved his solo. Not that it hasn’t been done before. I like the thing he did with his fingers when the piano keys were being played.

Hannahlei and Cole - Broadway Travis was originally a broadway dancer?? Dude, who would have thought? Damn, Cole’s characterisation was on point. His expressions were great. Perhaps he was more impressive than Hannahlei here, since all she had to do was pretty much be herself. Vanessa, the dance wasn’t about taking clothes off. She missed the point by such a wide margin with that comment.

ROUND 2

Genesy and Slavik - Jazz This was so fun to watch! Genessy was SO INTO IT. I think she was sharper in her movements than Slavik. Oh my god Nigel DON’T PUSH THEM. That engagement thing had as much subtlety as a sledgehammer.

Magda and Darius - Contemporary Wonderful routine from Jacqi Royal. I think I saw Royal Flux rehearsing something like this. I think there might have been a part towards the end where the rope didn’t go as they wanted it too so Darius had to take a while to untangle it. The spins and slides were well done, though, and that’s probably the most memorable part of the dance. Nigel made a good point that Darius didn’t really dance here, not really his fault though.

Both Magda and Jensen had samba solos with frilly costumes and idk, but I feel like that combo just makes things look really frenetic, as fiery as both ladies are.

Jensen and Jay Jay - hip hop Don’t worry, I can’t really cook either. This dance was hilarious. I found that Jensen shone a bit more. She just felt more grounded. There were this little moments in the dance like when they wiggled their fingers at each other, those were really awesome inclusions.

Oh my god, Darius is younger than me?? That solo was out of this world.

Hannahlei and Cole - Cha cha do cha chas allow lifts? The tricks plus the sultriness of this dance made it feel like an AT with cha cha steps thrown in. Other than that, a great job from both dancers.

Nice final lyrical solo from Genessy with a pretty costume to match. Love her skirt.

ROUND 3 - group dances

Top 4 girls - contemporary I didn’t understand this number. I couldn’t connect to it either. It just seemed like a random dark contemp number that wasn’t going anywhere.

Jensen is obviously safe. Magda and Genessy are in the bottom 4. Hannahlei is safe.

Top 4 guys - hip hop I mean, this dance was fun, but why are they wearing raincoats?????? Funnily, I feel like Slavik stood out in an odd way, because they were given a more looser style of hip hop but as an animator Slavik dances more tight and controlled. At some points it seemed he had less energy than the rest of the guys as a result. Cole doing the smurf - LOL.

Jay Jay is obviously safe (I mean, it’s no secret the producers wanted the J couple to be the power couple.) Cole is in the bottom 4. Slavik is safe (!!!!!). And Darius is in the bottom 4.

Yo, seeing Cole and Darius up there without the yellow coats lookin’ so DAPPER, man why didn’t they just have that as the costume?

Bottom 4 - Cole, Darius, Magda, and Genessy. I feel like it could have gone either way for both the men and women. Ultimately, Cole and Magda are sent home. Losing 2 ballroom dancers in one night - that must be hard for Mary.

All stars will be back next week!

This week’s rankings: 1. Hannahlei and Cole 2. Genessy and Slavik 3. Magda and Darius 4. Jensen and Jay Jay

#So You Think You Can Dance #sytycd #sytycd 15 #hannahlei cabanilla #slavik pustovoytov #genessy castillo #darius hickman #jensen arnold #jay jay dixonbey

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