#she isn't 100% in the wrong for responding this way but she isn't 100% right either

[somelonelywordmonger]

I enjoy Catherine Fox. She is a powerful black woman who has blazed an impressive trail. She has done well for herself and has helped many with her foundation and its hospitals. But in Season 20, she has pissed me off so much it isn't funny. Her kickassness is diminished because, suddenly, she is worried more about investors and PR shit than she is about the actual blazing of trails. Like, yeah, money has always been something on her mind as the head of the foundation because money is power. She can't help that and knows how to wield it properly. I applaud her for that. But she was not the uplifting other female surgeons and proudly changed the face of the medicine woman she was in the previous seasons. I don't know if it is because her cancer is growing again, and so her whole worldview has shifted, or maybe the weight of that and her pain have just gotten to her or what, but Catherine's kickass turned to bitch ass. Worried about how it would look for her foundation because it would completely undermine the work of many male (mostly white) researchers and surgeons before Meredith's research on Alzheimer's reached public scrutiny is not a good look for Catherine. That's a 180 from her usual girlboss moments. Instead, she wanted to stunt the progress of this life-changing research to save face and protect what is likely a lie. And then to turn around and pull the "well, it was my company's money and name you did this behind my back with, so you either turn it into me and give it to this white male neurosurgeon or you and everyone you dragged into this is fired."

WTF Catherine!? And then to briefly obstruct the care of a firefighter because one of the people under this threat is technically fired until Meredith caves into that shitty ultimatum was utterly fucked. And so the trauma surgeon trying to save the life speaks up with reason about how Catherine needs to move the hell out of the way, and we need as many hands as we can get, and Altman's are some of the best only to be fired WITHOUT being notified is even more fucked. So she just lost her chief of neuro, trauma, chief of surgery, game-changing Alzheimer's breakthrough, and relationship with the renowned Meredith Grey all because she was a total bitch. Insubordination happened here because she was being unreasonable. So many lives could be changed for the better and saved with Meredith's research, but no, we have to save face and protect the lie of previous research. This trauma surgeon in an overcapacity situation yells at you as he is trying to save a firefighter who needs surgery NOW and just happens to be married to the doctor you fired that could provide some of the best care to the firefighter who is about to die because she is pissed to see Altman working and is standing in the way of the elevator. So let's just fire him, too, then. Then, the interns come and speak up for their own, in a room full of around 20 or more interns, and she says she can easily replace them all in a day. Like Catherine, Bailey has been going on about the physician shortage for a few seasons now, so good luck with that. But also, what a shit-ass thing because we all know this situation is wrong. Just firing everyone who stands up for themselves and others and for the future of medicine because they piss you off or come off as insubordinate is not a solution. Firing has often been her solution even before this. She wants control and power, and she meddles. But it had never been this bad before, and usually, she had some room to be reasoned with. Now, Bailey is facing her down, so maybe she'll lose another great surgeon. Grey-Sloan struggled with staffing for months, so I doubt she can fulfill her threat quickly, and she just took out half the lead attendings. So good fucking luck, Catherine.

[nakylvr]

hiiii can I request gp!sophia x fem!reader with angst prompt 1 + smut prompt 10 where basically reader just had a huge fight with her ex bf and went to sophia bc she’s her best friend (that she’s also lowkey really attracted to) and sophia tries to cheer reader up (by fucking her) but she’s really sweet and fluffy during it🫶🏼

(sorry if this doesn’t make any sense but I hope you get what I mean😭english is not my first language💜)

bestie this is so good...you made perfect sense i understood completely 🫶 thank you so much for requesting!

— ALL I WANTED ⚓️

sophia laforteza (katseye) x fem!reader

summary: angst prompt 1("i didn't know where else to go") + smut prompt 10("don't worry, i'll take care of you") from my 100 follower event OR you have a big fight with your boyfriend and break up. going to your best friend sophia, things take a turn by how she "cheers you up"

warnings/tags: language, nsfw content, g!p!sophia, soft dom!sophia, sub!reader, soft sex, lots of praise, unprotected sex, cumming inside

you stood in front of the door of your best friend's apartment. your arms were folded in on yourself, practically hugging yourself as you waited for the door to open. it was cold outside, feeling the chill breeze as you wore merely a thin sweater and leggings. you glance away for a split second, and suddenly the door opens revealing sophia, whose expression quickly goes from happy to concerned at the sight of you.

"oh my god, are you okay?" she immediately questions. "here, come inside. you're probably freezing." she grabs your arm and pulls you inside, closing the door behind you.

"sorry for showing up like this," you apologize quietly as you look down at the ground. "i didn't know where else to go," your voice cracks as you say this.

sophia can instantly tell something is wrong. the first thing being you apologizing when she would never be upset with you for randomly showing up in the middle of the night. second being the way your eyes won't meet hers. and third, the crack in your voice.

"hey, hey," she says softly, placing her hands on your shoulders. "what's wrong? what happened?" her tone is so caring and genuine like she always is with you. she hates seeing you upset to the point of near crying, but she doesn't know how to help if she doesn't know what's wrong.

"it-it's just my boyfriend and i got in a huge fight...he broke up with me and basically kicked me out so...i came here," your voice is quiet as you speak, still not being able to meet her eyes.

sophia's eyes go wide for a second at your answer. but when you finally look at her, eyes filled with tears, her breath hitches in her throat. she can't lie and say she doesn't think this is a blessing in disguise given the fact she's been pining for you for years now, but couldn't do anything with that stupid boyfriend of yours around, cause she does think it. she knows you feel the same, at least she thinks it with the lingering stares you've been giving her more recently and the way you've talked to her lately. she tries to think quickly of what's the best option to do right now, too many different thoughts running through her head as she stares back at you. hesitantly, she moves her hands from your shoulders to cup your face in her hands, seeing the way your eyes subtly widen at her action and hoping she isn't fucking this up. "how about i help cheer you up?"

you're frozen in your spot as sophia asks you the question, and you're not sure how to respond. you don't have a complete understanding of what she's meaning, your mind going in a direction you assume would never happen ever no matter how much you wanted. "what do you mean by that?" you respond quietly.

"whatever you want it to mean," sophia answers in the same voice. "i'm here for anything you need or want."

those words are enough reassurance you need to finally say what you've been wanting to say for a while now. "kiss me," you whisper.

sophia tries to fight the smile that creeps on her face at your reply, but fails miserably as she leans in and closes the gap between you and her. she can taste the remainder of your lipgloss on your lips that you applied earlier in the day, sighing softly against your lips. your arms wrap around her neck, pulling her closer to you before parting from the kiss. your face is inches away from hers, and your fingers play with her hair as you stare into her eyes.

"you're a really good kisser," you murmur. "how were you planning on cheering me up?" you ask next.

"will you let me show you?" sophia responds. "let me take care of you like you deserve." her hands move to your waist, somehow managing to pull you even closer.

"please," you say in a quiet voice.

that's all sophia needs to hear before she's pulling you to her bedroom, kissing you continuously and almost tripping when she hits the bed. she swiftly picks you up and lays you down on the bed, crawling above you and peering down at you. her hands find the hem of your swearer and she looks at you, silently asking for your permission to remove it. you nod your head, and she slowly pulls it up over your head, leaving you in your bra and leggings.

"you're so beautiful," sophia murmurs, her hands drifting up and down your torso. they stop at the waistband of your leggings, her fingers hooking around it and lightly tugging them down your legs and off along with your panties. "you have no idea how much i've wanted this," she says, her eyes wandering over your body, her cock throbbing in her boxers at the sight of you in front of her. she quickly discards her shirt and shorts, leaving her in her boxers that had a wet spot from the precum leaking from her tip. she brings a hand between your legs, fingers dragging along your folds before slowly slipping two into your wet heat.

"s-sophia," you whimper out when she slowly thrusts her fingers in and out of you.

your walls suck her fingers in greedily, making her only want you more as she pulls her fingers out after a few seconds, needing to feel you around her cock. she strips off her boxers, her cock springing out, the head red and dripping beads of precum. supporting herself up with one of her arms near your head, the other holds the base of her length, sliding up and down your dripping pussy, collecting your slick on her tip. "don't worry, i'll take care of you," she tells you softly. "are you ready?"

you nod your head, whimpering at the feeling of her rubbing against you. "yes- please i need you so bad," your voice comes out whinier than you wanted, but you can't find it in you to care seeing the way sophia's eyes darken at your words.

slowly, she pushes inside of you, watching the way your eyes roll back at the size of her filling you up. sophia curses under her breath at your walls squeezing around her tightly, stopping once she was fully in you. "you tell me when you want me to move, okay?" she presses a quick kiss on your lips.

your jaw falls open as you feel her stretching you out, a quiet whimper coming from you when she stops. you nod again at her words, taking a few shallow breaths before speaking. "y-you can move now."

inch by inch, sophia pulls out before sliding back in, the wetness of your pussy making it oh so easy for her to build a slow pace. "you're so pretty," she says, leaning down and kissing you. "god, you're so tight," she hisses against your lips.

quiet moans fall from your lips as she sets a slow pace, almost embarrassed of getting too loud, whimpering at her words as she kisses you. your arms hook around her neck, pulling her closer. parting from the kiss, you breathe heavily as you stare up at her, biting down on your lower lip to try and keep quiet.

sophia's eyes don't leave yours once, keeping eye contact while maintaining her slow pace. she didn't want to get rough with you in your current state, she was happy enough for this to be happening in general. plus, she seriously doubted your dumbass boyfriend gave a fuck about whether you actually came or not. so she was going to make sure you would. "don't be shy, princess," she pushes some of your hair out of your face. "let me hear you, my love. i wanna hear the pretty noises you make."

your face heats up at the realization that she wants to hear you, finally letting go of your lip from your teeth and freely moaning like she wanted. "sh-shit sophia," you whine her name. you're surprised at how slow and gentle the girl above you is being, as if she was worried she would hurt you when you know she would never even think of hurting you once. but, it was nice. she was right, she was making you feel the way you deserved.

hearing her name coming from you in that whiny tone has sophia's cock twitching in you, letting out quiet grunts with her gaze still on you. "how does it feel, baby?" she asks you, genuine. she needs to know she's making you feel good, she needs to hear you say it. she doesn't know how she's keeping up this slow, almost agonizing pace, but seeing your reactions each time she slowly pushes back in is enough for her to keep at it. "tell me how it feels."

"g-good," you manage out through moans. "it fe-feels so g-good- fuck- you're making m-me feel so good," you emphasize on 'you're' so that she knows that she's the only one on your mind. it was true, you couldn't even think about anything else except for the way she feels like this. you didn't even remember why you came here, and you didn't care, either.

"fuck," sophia breathes out at your response. she can tell you've long forgotten why you originally came to her place, and that mixed with you emphasizing that she's the one making you feel this good has her swelling with pride. "you're so beautiful like this. i love you so so much," she mumbles, not realizing the way her words could sound to you.

you can barely process her words, only hearing the 'i love you', and that alone has you clenching tightly around her cock, somehow getting even wetter than you already were. "i lo-love you too- o-oh my god!" your eyes roll back when you feel her tip nudge against your g-spot. "fu-fuck!" you feel tears welling in your eyes as you feel yourself getting closer to cumming.

seeing the tears in your eyes has sophia cooing at you, cupping your cheek with one of her hands and wiping the stray tear that falls. "shh, you're close, yeah?" she says quietly. she slowly speeds up her thrusts just a little bit, pushing so deep into you that she can practically see the outline of her cock bulging from your stomach making her twitch again. "i'm close too- shit!- tel-tell me where you want me," her words are starting to get interrupted by little whimpers escaping her throat as she feels herself get closer.

you nod your head quickly at her question, murmuring out, "ye-yes," through your noises that are getting louder and whinier. her next words have your head spinning to come up with a response. staring up into her eyes as she stares down at you, you know the answer you're going to give. "i-in me, please, i'm o-on the pill, please cum in me, please," you're begging for her in a way that would be embarrassing to you in any other moment, but you can't find it in you to care.

sophia's eyes go wide when you tell her what you want, but she isn't going to deny your requests in any shape or form. "don't worry, my love," she tells you before kissing you, moaning into the kiss and speeding up just a little bit more.

whining her name as she kisses you, you pull her down impossibly closer to you, your bodies practically pressed against each other. your legs wrap around her hips, bringing her even closer to you. pulling out of the kiss, you rest your forehead against hers, looking deeply into her eyes as short breaths and moans of her name leave your mouth. "f-fuck, sophia 'm so close,"

"go on," she pecks your lips quickly. "cum for me, my pretty girl. so pretty for me like this, god," she groans quietly.

after one final thrust, your eyes roll into the back of your head as you cum so hard you end up seeing white, your hands clawing at her back. not even a minute later, sophia is putting her face in your neck and letting out a long drawn-out whine as spurts of her cum fill you up to the brim. she stays there for a moment or two, breathing heavily into your neck before slowly pulling out of you. a whimper falls from your lips at the feeling, your arms still hooked around her neck and holding her close to you.

"do you...really love me in this way?" you whisper quietly.

sophia pulls her face from your neck at your hesitant question, looking down at you and nodding her head. "of course. i just didn't want to do anything while you were with him," she answers truthfully.

you nod slowly, clearly hesitating about asking the next question you were thinking of. "do you want...to be with me?"

there's a look in sophia's eyes that you can't figure out, as if she's struggling with a response. "yes," she says in a quiet voice.

"then i'm yours," you smile at her, moving your hands to cup her cheeks. "i love you."

sophia's face instantly lights up when you speak, a wide smile tugging on her lips. "i love you too, so much."

[msmk11]

Marauder's Era HC's- How They React When You Ask Them If They'd Still Love You If You Were a Worm

(This is the most unserious thing I've ever written)

James

When you ask him the question, he is SO confused.

I mean, he has no connection to the muggle world, so he's never seen the trend.

James has endless questions for you: "What is the point of this question?" "Why are you a worm?" "Why am I not a worm?"

You have to beg him to stop asking questions and just answer yes or no.

James, of course, is a sweetheart. So even though he's still very confused, his response is lovely: "Well I reckon I'd love you in any universe in any form, so yes I would still love you, even if you were a worm."

Sirius

Sirius is not even fazed by the question.

He INSTANTLY answers yes.

His lack of hesitation makes you all giggly and happy.

But then, he asks you if you'd still love him if he were a worm.

Obviously, you say yes.

Side note: you two would totally have this conversation in bed before going to sleep because that's when you talk about all the weird shit.

Remus

His immediate response is an exasperated, tired sigh because he's so used to your shenanigans.

The first thing he'd say is, "Well am I a worm too?"

Once you tell him no, that he wouldn't be a worm, his answer to you is no because, "he's not attracted to worms?"

You try and explain to him that he'd still know it was you, you'd just be in worm form.

He doesn't budge on his answer and only replies that, "this seems too complicated for a hypothetical, dove."

Peter

I'm sorry, but he instantly laughs in your face after you ask the question because he thinks you're being goofy.

But when he realizes that you're 100% serious, he sobers up real fast.

"Wait, is that a genuine question?

My guy is SWEATING. He doesn't want to say the wrong thing.

He slowly drags out his answer to gauge your reaction and figure out the correct response.

"Nnnnnnnno-" (sees your face fall) "Yes! No yeah, yes, I'd totally still love you if you were a worm."

Lily

She's so happy you asked (if not a little mad that you beat her to it.)

I mean she's muggle born, so she's definitely seen the tik tok trend.

Answers with a giggle and happy, "Yes ofc, lovely."

She'd then go off on a little tangent about all the ways she'd treat you like royalty, even as a worm- she'd get the nicest soil, the best little habitat, etc.

Girl is so precious

Marlene

Marlene doesn't hesitate and instantly responds yes.

But honestly, I think she'd be way more interested to know if you'd still love her if she was a worm.

(There's only one right answer.)

I'm also certain that this question and variants of it would become her obsession for the next month.

Like every day she'd ask you the same question but with a new animal: "Would you still love me if I were a frog?" "A penguin?" "A squirrel?"

Dorcas

Babe is too logical to answer this question.

She's instantly coming up with solutions/alternative answers rather than just saying yes or no.

"I wouldn't need to worry about this, because I'd just turn you back into a human."

Starts listing off all the spells or potions she could use to turn you back into a human.

When you try to protest and tell her that that wouldn't be possible, she'd only take it as a challenge.

Would literally come up with her own spell or potion to prove a point if necessary.

Mary

Her answer is yes

Why? Because she "loves worms and loves you. What's not to love?"

I'm pretty sure this question doesn't linger on her mind very long. But worms do.

Within the week she has a pet worm and a whole habitat for it.

Might even name it after you (which is a ?compliment?)

Regulus

Regulus isn't fazed by the question, but that doesn't mean he will give in to your shenanigans.

Immediately responds no.

Despite your pouty lips and frown, he does not budge.

You say, "So you don't really love me unconditionally?"

"Just be glad you're not a worm."

[haesunflower]

petty fights with zb1

genre: slight angst only for hyung line, most are lighthearted

pairing: reader (gn) x all members of zerobaseone

about/tags: what i think reader x zb1 would fight about

warning some have triggers (implied cheating, jealousy and injury), these are mostly lighthearted, not all are established relationship, bullet point reactions, all lowercase is intentional, not proofread, i should have just made this normal and not bullet, I'm lazy

⠀⠀ kim jiwoong ⠀⠀

you always thought you were secure in your relationship

a lot of people swooned over jiwoong but he's been good at reassuring you that you're the only person for him

but lately, he's been busy filming another drama with seobin

and they spend all their free time together, doing lives and filming vlogs for seobin's channel

while some of it is for pr, you know they're really good friends either way

he's a hell of a good actor, you think

because watching his chemistry with seobin, you start to think he's cheating on you

you hope he isn't, but when he comes home one day looking extremely exhausted and as if he just cried – you prayed that you would be wrong

jiwoong kneels in front of you, and has trouble looking you in the eyes

he keeps stuttering, and then just cries

⠀⠀ zhang hao ⠀⠀

when you first started dating, one of the things you worried about was how well hao would get along with your group of friends

they were kinda, well, loud and too much

and you know hao is quite introverted – it's one of the things you love about him. he's calm. you're crazy. that kinda thing.

when you're all together he's usually mostly silent but he engages in conversation. you had assumed that when you all mingle and have your own conversations he holds up on his own.

to your surpise, your best friend let you know that he hasn't made an effort to get to know her even after all these months

that made you mad

the air in the car ride home felt weird. you were at a stoplight when you accusingly said

"do you hate my friends?"

hao just looks at you, and begins to open his mouth but is distracted by the sudden green light

without giving him a chance to think, "hao i've made an effort to be good friends with your members"

hao thinks you're being unfair, because even his partner doesn't understand what it's like to be an introvert

but to some degree you're right, he doesn't try hard enough

unsure of what to say, he nods and continues to drive

you loudly sigh and direct your body towards your window. you know this will have to be a conversation for tomorrow.

⠀⠀ sung hanbin ⠀⠀

hanbin was taking longer than usual again today

you always meet up at the exit of building b of the university when you're both done with your classes, so you could go on a quick cafe date before the sun sets

it's been 30 minutes since he texted "on my way!"

fed up, you head over to his classroom to find him lending his notes to a girl. usually this isn't a problem, but it's who he's lending it to that irks you.

"baby, can we go?"

"oh hi y/n, yeah hold on somi's just finishing up with my notes"

thing is, somi likes your boyfriend, and your boyfriend doesn't see that.

you head over to their table and pick up hanbin's notebook, somi looks shocked she was disrupted

"i'll send you photos of the other pages when we get home"

you shove his notebook in your book bag and start walking away, not giving her an opportunity to respond

when hanbin catches up to your pace he reaches for your hand only for you to swat it away

"stop being so nice to everyone hanbin, they get the wrong idea"

hanbin wanted to defend himself, but he deprioritized that train of thought as he realized you are 100% the jealous type

⠀⠀ seok matthew ⠀⠀

matthew's main descriptor is that he's cute, because he is

but you didn't know that being called cute bothered your boyfriend

"am i not handsome to you?"

"babe, where is this coming from?"

he flashes his phone screen, your recent photoset post from your finsta on display. it featured various pictures of both of you from your dates the week before

the caption he pointed to: "i have the cutest boyfriend in the whole world"

so you deadass thought he was joking

but he really wasn't, he looked real serious -_-

you set the phone down and hugged him, placing your head on his chest

"of course i also think you're the hottest man on the planet"

"much better", matthew finally smiles and you both laugh as he tickles you in revenge

later that night, you posted a few of his gym thirst traps with the caption "my boyfriend is so handsome he should choke me"

his older sister commented: gross. block me next time.

⠀⠀ kim taerae ⠀⠀

so the "fight" started when he texted you that morning with

"y/n look at this, the fans are saying i dress terribly"

"....well"

"well?! well what??"

you ended up not replying because you didn't know how to word it

you loved taerae but those red sweats needed to go

so when you got another text that said "are you really not going to respond to me"

you hit him with a "let's just go shopping today"

even though you hated couple items, it was the only way for taerae to buy the items you wanted for him

he secretly bought a pair of red sweats for you

in the end, he beats the fashion taeraerist allegations (thanks to you)

⠀⠀ ricky ⠀⠀

ever since you started dating, you couldn't recall a time when you were able to pay for your dates

he beats you to it every time...and you feel terrible about it.

ricky extensively spoiled you, and all you wanted was to be given an opportunity to do the same for him

one day you asked him if you could pay for lunch this time around

"no. never. don't worry about stuff like that"

"let me do it just once, please?"

you didn't get your way, and you both walked out of the restaurant slightly annoyed

in fact, you refused to go on any date with him from that point unless you could pay for it

he deadass couldn't get you to come with him on any plan he made for a whole month.

eventually, he showed up at your place and said "fine. for every ten dates you can pay for one"

he wasn't happy with it but at least you were

⠀⠀ kim gyuvin ⠀⠀

gyuvin was the clumsiest person you know

so when he knocked over the vase and cut his hand in an attempt to clean it up, you couldn't help but scream at him in worry for his safety

"gyuvin what are you doing? you shouldn't have touched that!"

you quickly found the first aid kit that his mom kept underneath the bathroom sink

gyuvin had his head down as he applied pressure to the cut

he watched as you worked your way through the supplies

as you gently tended to his wound he tried not to make any sound

"sorry i yelled earlier. i just wish you were more careful. i don't like it when you get hurt"

he looked up to meet your eyes, you were tearing up

it was sorta clouding your vision, so you had to stop what you were doing

"i know y/n, i'm sorry. i'm working on it"

he leaned his head against yours

⠀⠀ park gunwook ⠀⠀

you're both in debate. and you strongly dislike going up against him because 98% of the time you lose.

he likes to win and then gloat about it later

"how's it like to lose for the 3rd time in a row?" (jokingly, you think)

(because you have an inclination that he might have a massive crush on you) (you are correct)

academic rivals to lovers, if you will

when you finally started dating he stopped gloating at least

that doesn't mean he goes easy on you, he tries to give his one hundred percent because so do you

sometimes mid debate he'd catch himself staring at you and get a little distracted

your losing rate has since decreased to about 70% now (thank you puppy gunwook!)

⠀⠀ han yujin ⠀⠀

yujin had issues with sharing way before you started liking each other

maybe it's because he has younger siblings and basically had to share everything with them all his life

so when he shows up to school with a fully packed lunch and extra snacks, and you dare to come up to ask for the pack of pretzels he had, he was hesitant

you did this every monday without fail and he started to get fed up with it

"get your own food will you?"

"i would but it tastes better when it comes from you" you say as you plop down next to him at the courtyard

boy was gobsmacked. from that moment on he was kinda smitten.

i don't know how either that's just how his brain works

from then on, he only shared his snacks with you

except for that one time yena from the upper year said "oh that looks good, can i have some yujinie?" and he gave the whole bag to her.

yeah you guessed it, your pretzel bag.

you were furious

he didn't understand why until you made a snide remark at the end of the day - something along the lines of "yeah you're only nice to older girls"

he bought the giant xl version of the pretzels to school the next day as a sorry

A/N: my friend alexis helped me out with the ideas per member. personally tried to be angsty but most ended up being lighthearted lol. requests are open and you can claim anons too if you'd like hehe

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[theconstitutionisgayculture]

So let's talk about rape, and porn, and why porn isn't rape.

By now, I've seen more than a few people talking about that OnlyFans chick who fucked 100 guys in a single day and ended up crying afterwards. Let's just say this up front: That's incredibly sad. It's not unique, because there have been a lot of pornstars over the years who have had gangbangs with hundreds of guys before, but it is sad. She obviously wasn't mentally prepared for what she did, and it obviously affected her in ways she wasn't expecting. I feel bad for her, and I hope she ends up learning a lesson from this about the emotional impact of casual sex and treating her body like a commodity to be sold to strangers.

But I've also seen way too many people equating what she did to being raped, and the men who had sex with her to rapists. And that's just not even remotely true. Regret is not rape. She chose to have sex with those men. She chose to keep going with every new guy that showed up. At any point she could have said "Okay, this isn't good, I want to stop now". But that never happened.

Now, I know some people will read that and say that all porn is a form of rape, because paying a woman to have sex is taking her agency away or "forcing" her or "coercing" her. Those people are wrong. Unless someone is actually being forced to do porn, porn is voluntary. Porn stars and OF people and camgirls/guys all choose to have sex in front of a camera for money.

"But the money!" some of you are saying. "The money makes it coercive!"

Well, okay. Let's look at that argument. So, what does coercion mean? It means, according to the dictionary

the practice of persuading someone to do something by using force or threats

Note the last three words. Force or threats. I think we can all agree that threatening or forcing someone to have sex is wrong. But accepting money to perform a job, even if that job is having sex, is not coercion. It's never coercion. It's a voluntary pact between buyer and seller. Even if the person doing the selling is dirt poor.

"But," some others may say, "what if she wanted to stop but some of the guys talked her into continuing?"

To that I say, "So what?"

Convincing someone to do something is not coercion. Even if you're convincing someone to do something they don't want to do. Even if that person really wants to say no, but ends up saying yes. Unless there's force or a threat, it's not coercion. Making bad decisions is not equal to being raped. Talking someone into making a bad decision is not equal to being a rapist. We can't just throw around the most emotionally charged terms we can think of whenever we want to make a point about something that upset you. That's what the left does, and it's the reason why words that should mean very specific things have become watered down. It's why words that used to elicit horror and revulsion now barely get a shrug. Nazi, racist, rapist, fascist, abuser, war criminal. All these words have specific meanings. All these words are used everyday on social media to talk about exes or parents or politicians or friends or celebrities or strangers. Think of how many times you've heard someone use those words. Now think of how many times you actually took the arguments of the person using them seriously after they used them. I'm guessing that first number is pretty high. And I'm guessing that last number is low, if it isn't actually zero.

Don't turn yourselves into the leftists who presided over the biggest electoral shellacking in a generation. Don't adopt the language and tactics of the people who have turned nearly every demographic against them by doing exactly this same shit. If you want to hate porn, go ahead. If you want to advocate against it, go ahead. If you want to get angry at the way sex is treated these days, go right the fuck ahead. But when you do, really think about why you're doing it, and articulate those reasons without trying to get people to respond emotionally by using the worst, most incendiary language you can think of. That's not how you're going to get anything done.

[tohisprettyc00l]

Hi!

May I please request all the characters reacting to y/n's self-harm scars?

If your not comfortable with that it's cool.

Thank you either way ❤️

!!Major tw for self-harm!! If you aren't comfortable with that please skip. Also, I'm sorry if I depict anything wrong. And I'm going to exclude Gus and Collecter since it feels weird to do this with the kids.

Amity: Once she saw your scars it didn't occur to her the source of said scars. In fact, she thinks someone else did it and was pissed the fuck off. "Who hurt you." was all she could muster. Once you told her the truth her whole demeanor shifts. She goes from wanting to stab someone to looking like she was going to cry. She wraps you in abomination goop as a makeshift blanket. She was not willing to leave your side for any reason.

Luz: She's basically crying at the scars regardless of who did it. She just hates seeing hurt okay? :( But when she learns you did it she freezes. She doesn't believe it in the slightest. Starts talking about how much she loves you. Granted she's saying 100 words per second so you can only hear bits and pieces of what she's saying. But she gets her point across. That point is: I love you so much and I'm sorry you had to go through that.

Willow: She doesn't mention them once she first sees them. It's none of her business, they all look pretty healed so why push? But a few days later when you guys are just normally talking she casually brings it up. You don't know how to respond. After a few moments, you tell her the truth. And you can see it on her face, the way it hits her like a sack of bricks. The fact that she didn't ask adds to the guilt. But this isn't a moment to focus on herself. She hugs you. The next day she takes you on a really nice date.

Hunter: Once he notices he does (correctly) assume the reason. But he doesn't want to believe himself. It is pretty understandable why you would want your s/o self-harming. But he knows that if he's right but doesn't talk to you he'll regret it forever. So, despite his nervousness, he asks you. He says multiple times that it's "probably not why." His heart sinks when you confirm his fears. You're immediately wrapped in a hug. He keeps talking about how sorry he is that he didn't help, as well as how much he loves you. And he means every word of it.

Vee: She does not dance around the question. Once she sees the scars she just straight up asked, "Why are there scars all over your arms?" So that was very jarring. Once you end up telling her she just stood there. Before wrapping her tail and arms around you. You felt extra secure. She is going to let you know how much you mean to her.

Raine: They know what your scars are from the moment they see them. They don't point the scars out so that you don't get uncomfortable. They do however become way nicer (if that's even possible.) Every chance they get they'll complement you. It's a very obvious but welcomed change.

Eda: Well shit. She's not even going to ask she knows what the scars are from and she's pissed. Not at you, at herself for not noticing. She hugs you and starts apologizing without an explanation. Once she does explain she makes very clear that she's not mad at you and will help you stop.

Emira: Since she's the oldest of the Blight twins I feel like she had a lot of the pressure to be the perfect child before Amity. (Edric was just kinda ignored.) But she didn't have much of a support system so she did have thoughts she never went through with them. But Titan does it break her heart to see you going through that? Her approach was way more gentle than anyone. She staged a mini-therapy for you.

Edric: On the other hand he's pretty clueless. When you tell him he is very sad. He doesn't know what to do but he starts buying you a bunch of things. He wants you to know how valuable you are.

Lilith: She has no clue how to react. She doesn't even know what you did but her blood feels like ice with how many scars you have. She asks what happened and who hurt you. She starts tearing up when you reveal the truth. She ends up cuddling with you and tries to make you feel as secure as possible.

[just-some-random-blogger]

I Win, You Lose

Pedro Pascal x Actress!Reader

Summary: In Loving Memory of Pedro Pascal, the best bachelor that ever graced the planet. He's not dead, he just got into a relationship and I'm in mourning.

Word Count: 1k+

Warnings: Fem!reader, extremely delusional, socmed au, crack fic, use of y/n smh, fluff, im on my final straw, typos, etc.

A/N: listen pedro pascal is a happy pill for me and i just wanna be silly goofy so let me have this or else i will cry. Tagging: @pinksirensong @aralezinspace @sloanexx @amis-love-bugs @top1bbgloak @sunfairyy @djarinsstuff @mooniesyubi @pedropascalgirly @mmmmandoz @multifandom-fangirl4

Flickering lights. Hollering paparazzi. Click, flash, shudder. Pedro smiles through it all then is redirected to a few interviewers.

The interviewer he is redirected to beams at the sight of him, adjusting his grip on his mic, "hi! How are you?"

Pedro smiles, "I'm good. How are you?"

"I'm great! I'm so excited to see what you have in store for us, as I'm sure everyone else is," he motions to the camera.

Pedro places a hand on his heart. He thanks him, "that means a lot. I'm excited for everyone to see as well."

"Are you nervous at all?"

Pedro blows a raspberry, "I feel like I'm about to pass out any second."

He laughs, "is that the same thing you felt when you were talking to Y/N Y/L/N?"

Pedro's eyes widen a fraction. He lets out a chuckle then stills for a second before playfully slapping the man's arm. He laughs so hard that he can't respond. His face grows a bit red.

The interviewer laughs with him.

Pedro regains his wits, "I won't lie to you, my brain disconnected when she fixed my tie."

"Oh yeah," he agrees, nonchalant, "she did that to me once-"

"SHE DID?!" Pedro gasps.

"-and my- Yeah, she did-"

"When?" Pedro furrows his brows and points a finger, "right now? Right now?! You're not even wearing a tie!"

"No! No! Last time!"

"Well," he purses his lips and raises his brows, "hate to break it to ya, but she fixed my tie, like, 5 seconds ago." He rolls his eyes.

The interviewer raises his hands, "you're right. You win."

"Yes, that's correct."

Y/N Y/L/N poses with Pedro Pascal and stuns in blue dress

pascaldailyupdates: Okay but y/n and pedro 👀👀👀👀

anakinskyrunnin: 🧍‍♀️ this wasn't on my bucket list

ynforgetsramen: WHY ARE THEY POSING LIKE THAT

→ oscarpascal replied: THE WAY HE LOOKIN HER HAS ME ILL

→ → ynishotok replied: ??? CONFIRMING A RELATIONSHIP SOON

grogumybeloved: BRO BRO BRO WHAT @.dilfpascal have you SEEN THIS

→ dilfpascal replied: ❌👄❌ wdm

ynweekly: SO YOURE TELLING ME MY PREDICTIONS WERE ALL WRONG?

→ oscarpascal replied: LITERALLY ME THIS IS SUCH A PLOT TWIST

hollywoodscoop: Y/N Y/L/N & Pedro Pascal spotted with friends in New Yourk.

→ smexywolf replied: THAT COULD LITERALLY BE AND MY GRAMMA THATS SO PIXELATED

→ starwitch replied: YO WAHT

→ javijavipedro replied: GUYS DW I WENT TO NEW YORK AND DIDNT SEE THIS 😌 it cant be real

→ ynftw replied: [VIOLENT SCREAMING] I THOUGHT SHE WAS DATING ANDREW GARFIELD MY SHIP WHAT ABOUT MY SHIP

→ → ynishotok replied: 😭😭😭 PLEASE SAME THOUGHTS

→ goetye replied: I HAVE EXAMS WHAT IS THIS

→ javimypapi replied: HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO COMPETE WITH FUCKING Y/N DAFAQ

→ → 1234choco replied: gg fr fr

Pedro Pascal & Y/N Y/L/N Confirm Relationship

Pascal has confirmed to Volume Magazine that he and actress Y/N Y/L/N have been in a "loving relationship" for a few months now.

pefropuppet: 🤪 loving 🤪 realtionship 🤪

→ javimypapi replied: 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 time to delete myself

It's Official! Pedro Pascal & Y/N Y/L/N are dating

And they're the cutest couple on this side of the planet.

wuit39pi: so glad i live on the otherside of the planet. that means this isn't real

c00lwhip: Y/N and I are still dating on the other side.

→ crayonpascal replied: me with pedro

ICYMI: Y/N Y/L/N dating Pedro Pascal

But I'm willing to bet you Pedro girlies did not miss a second of it.

djarinoppa: please this article is being so LOUD 😭

Radio 100 - Y/N Y/LN talks Pedro Pascal

"Let's talk about it," the young interviewer says, pursing her lips, pinching the air with her manicured nails.

I let out a breathy chuckle and nod, "let's."

"Pedro Pascal."

"Pedro Pascal," I repeat with a smile, continuing to nod.

"I want to know everything," she says, adjusting her headphones and her mic, "we at Radio 100, along with the rest of the world, want to know--" she turns to me, "--how did you bag the baddie?"

I break into laughter.

The host stresses, "the baddie."

"THE baddie," I repeat, "the baddie of our generation, Pedro Pascal," I chuckle and suck in a breath.

The interviewer chuckles with me and motions, "because goodness knows we're all going to be taking notes."

I sigh and think for a moment. I link my hands together and prop them on the table in front of me, "ya know, I was just real with him."

She nods, eager to know what else I had to say.

"I told him," I shrug, "I could bring him in hot or I could bring him in cold."

She breaks into a fit of laughs before I even finish the sentence. I laugh along with her, pleased with the reaction I garnered. She wheezes, "no but did you really?"

"Absolutely not," I snort, "that would have been great though, wouldn't? I'm pretty sure if I did do that, he would have cried."

We both cackle.

"Like," I chuckle, "don't know if it's a good cry or a bad cry but there would have been tears."

dukes_Ducks reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] 😱😱😱😱

cheeseontoast reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] THE PEDRO MEME???????????????????????????????????????????

anabreathing reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] ARE WE GOING TO SEE THEM ON A MAGAZINE TOGETHER LORD HAVE MERCY

TESTmeTRY reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] in front of my mother fucking salad 💀✋

pascalispunk reposted itsYNduh's story:

howlorgrowl reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] did this mf really just say strongly worded letter 😂😂 fuck outta here

itsYNduh reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] THANK YOU 😤😤

dindjarindaddy reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] ????? WHAT IS THIS

thelastofh0e reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] his boomer jumped out smh SCREAMING

pascaldailyupdates: Pedro and Y/N spotted together in a beach in Malibu.

→ MOONBABE replied: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW *RUNS INTO A TRAINTRACK*

→ igotb00bs replied: 💔SO💔HAPPY💔FOR💔YOU💔

→ brrrrambo replied: shhhh you guys its too blurry to tell who it is

→ → dilfpascal replied: LMAOOO

→ → → ynishotok replied: we love denial 🤡

→ cornyluvaffir replied: OK BUT THE HANDS AND THE LEANING AND THE THING WITH THE

→ javimypapi replied: NO CUZ THE WAY MY DAD SAID HE SAW THE MANDO GUY ON THE BEACH AND I DIDNT BELIEVE HIM

→ → 404dead replied: ✋✋✋✋ aint no fucking way 💀

→ dingdongdont replied: *sips clorox cutely*

dadystate0mind: BABE WAKE UP NEW PEDRO Y/N PICS JUST DROPPED

→ dilfpascal replied: what if was my last straw

→ ynbaeluv replied: im so glad this is blurry so i can pretend i didnt see it

→ lmaotryagain replied: the pda is pdaing

→ honeyyn replied: no cuz he got her smiling like mad 😢

→ pedromiamor replied: 😭😭😭

→ ynthighsluv replied: alexa play that should be me

LOOK: Pedro Pascal and Y/N Y/L/N in New York

→ batmanis1 replied: LMAOOOOOO THEY REALLY SAID 4K ULTRA HD

→ → yuh1200 replied: FRRR IM SOBBING I CANT USE THE ITS TOO BLURRY EXCUSE ANYMORE

→ → → jennieluvu replied: JOKES ON YOU I DONT HAVE MY GLASSES ON

→ → → → isaacpascal replied: DW I BLURRED THE PIC FOR US [image attached]

→ propernadz replied: I'm mentally unwell because they look so good together and I cannot deny.

→ stuckyforlife replied: GOD I HAVE SEEN WHAT YOU DO FOR OTHERS

→ natasharomanovv replied: i just woke up

→ → nevergain replied: same 😭😭😭

bellaramsey reposted itsYNduh's story

508cutie reposted bellaramsey's story [captioned] HELP BELLA REPOSTED THIS I CANT

donttalkbetty reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] SCREASMIFNF

pascalispunk reposted itsYNduh's story:

dilfpascals reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] DEAD IN THE GRAVE NO ONE TOUCH ME

memeynok reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] APOLOGY WITH TEARS

anderson_1 reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] no but theyre so cute for this and i hate it

enterthesandman reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] HES SHYYYYYY

ilovepascl reposted pascalispunk's story [captioned] WHAT IF THIS WAS MY LAST STRAW

itsYNduh reposted pascalispunk's story:

igotitithink reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] GOD I SEE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR OTHERS

ILOVEyn reposted itsYNduh's story [captioned] WHEN IS IT MY TURN

[jenniferjareauwife]

Right Here With You

pairing: carina deluca x fem reader

category: hurt/comfort

warnings: depression

word count: 780

summary: you're having a bad day and can't get out of bed so carina comforts you, reassuring you she's there for you

translations: bambina-baby girl, bella-beautiful, mia amata-my love, tesoro-darling, ti amo di più-i love you more

I woke up with an overwhelming weight on my chest. I felt like I couldn't move. "Bambina! You're gonna be late!" I heard my beautiful girlfriend call from the kitchen. I didn't respond, I didn't have the energy, it didn't feel physically possible. "Hey." She barged into the bedroom. "Bella? What's wrong?" Again, I didn't answer. "Hey." Her voice immediately softened once she relished what was going on. "I'm gonna call in sick for you, ok?" She sat down next to me and I just gave her a small nod.

Ten minutes later she was back on the bed, her hand on my shoulder as her thumb softly caressed it. "You ok?"

"Mm."

"So no." She rubbed her hand up and down my arm. "Bambina...what do you need right now?"

"You." I couldn't say anything else, it was too much.

"What do you need from me?" I tensed up, it was too much. It was too much thinking. I couldn't do it right now I just needed her, anything. "It's ok." She moved her hand slowly until it was resting in mine, she laced our fingers together. "I'm gonna hold you." She kissed my temple.

"Hm." I hummed, wanting to tell her how I'm feeling but not being able to get the words out.

"Shh. It's alright bella, I've got you now." My body shook with a silent sob. "I've got you. Let it all out."

"I don't...I can't." I sobbed.

"Shh." She kissed my shoulder gently, rubbing my hand with her thumb. "Just let it out now, yeah? You can talk later." I nodded, squeezing her hand as tight as I could, feeling the hot tears flow down my face.

Ten minutes later I had stopped crying and I had turned around in her arms so that my face could be buried in her chest. "Ready to talk about it now?"

"Mhm."

"What's wrong mia amata?"

"Felt...my chest was heavy." I sniffled, snuggling into her more.

"Anxiety?" I shook my head.

"Just sad."

"Ah. I get it." She brought her hand to the back of my head, gently massaging my scalp to calm me down.

"I can't...don't feel like I can do anything today, you know? I don't feel good...don't feel good at all and I just need..."

"Comfort?"

"Mhm."

"Well I can give you that bella."

"I don't understand how you do it."

"Do what?"

"You're so strong. I almost never see you cry. It's like...you cry once a month." I sniffled again. "And you're always able to get out of bed."

"Well we all handle things differently. I definitely cry more than once a month. Probably around 4 times."

"Oh."

"It's ok to have days where you just need to stay in bed bambina. There's nothing wrong with that."

"The world can't stop just because I'm depressed." I could feel her heart sink against my body.

"Anyone who expects you to be functioning at 100% all the time-"

"Carina."

"What is it mia amata?"

"I don't know...I don't think I can feel like this all the time."

"You don't have to."

"But it's been going on so long- I can't do it anymore I don't think I can do it anymore Carina."

"Bambina? Can you take a deep breath for me?" She waited for me to breathe. "That's good. Now listen to me. This isn't going to last forever. You're not going to feel like this forever."

"But what if it does."

"It won't. I promise you."

"How can you promise that?" She sighed.

"Y/n...bella your happiness didn't last forever, correct? So how can you expect this to? Nothing lasts forever. I know it seems longer because it's not enjoyable but it won't be like this all the time." I clutched the back of her shirt, wanting her closer. "I promise you bambina."

"But I'm tired of it."

"I know." She went back to stroking my hair and rubbing my back in circles, knowing how much it soothed me. "But I'll be here with you every step of the way."

"You will?"

"Of course I will tesoro. You're my love. Why would I abandon you when you're feeling like this?" I shrugged and tilted my head up so she could give me a forehead kiss.

"I don't want to drag you down." I mumbled.

"You're not going to."

"But-"

"No more 'buts' bambina. I want to help you, I need you to realize that, ok? I'm not going to leave you, I'm going to be right here with you every step of the way." I nodded, holding her tighter.

"Just don't let go of me, ok?"

"I won't. I promise."

"I love you."

"Ti amo di più."

[lastoneout]

New Pinned/Intro Post!

Hi, I'm Loo(or Alex), I'm a disabled queer artist and writer as well as a furry vtuber who streams four days a week on twitch(mostly Minecraft but also Soulsborne games and a variety of other stuff).

You may know me from The Tuna Post, in which several thousand of you came together to "force" me to buy damn near 30 American Dollars worth of imported fancy canned tuna to eat and review live on stream. If you're here for it, said live review can be found on twitch and on my youtube channel. TL;DR: 10/10 would recommend.

I currently can't work, so if you like what I've got going on here and want to help me out, I take donations over on my ko-fi <3 Aside from that, follows on twitch help a lot, even if you never end up watching!

(Also, I sell my twitch emotes as stickers on redbubble!)

As a general heads up I am heavily introverted and have ADHD, and between those and my disabilities eating up my energy I often take a while to respond to messages/tags/reblogs/DMs and sometimes forget entirely. This isn't anything against you, and I'm working on it, but just something to keep in mind if you plan on interacting with me a lot.

You are welcome to put screenshots of my text posts on other sites/in your little tiktoks and youtube shorts, but I have rules.

(Note, this does not apply to my art. If I find you reposting my art I will do everything in my power to destroy you.)

Above all else, I would simply appreciate it if you asked first. I am almost always okay with this sort of thing if people are actually willing to reach out and ask permission.

Do not crop out, censor, or otherwise remove my username from the post.

If it's on a site I have an account on, I would love to be tagged in it. I'm a small creator, the boost would really help. Links are in my caard!

Do not edit the post or purposefully leave parts out, you must repost it in it's entirety with the words I actually used. The first post of mine that got big enough to get reposted ended up having an entire paragraph that summarized my point cut off, and that's just rude. (Exception: If you ask first we can talk about editing the post to remove swears and such.)

No AI. If you use AI for any part of the video I do not give you permission to use my content in any way.

FAQ:

Do you take commissions?

Not at the moment, but hopefully in the future!

What do you use for art?

Wacom Intuos tablet + Clip Studio Paint on the PC, though these days I mostly use CSP on a Samsung Galaxy Tab s6 since I can use it in bed on my low spoons days.

What do you want to go to school for?

Digital Art and American Sign Language!

You talk about being sick all the time/having health problems, what's wrong with you?

Too many things to list <3 but the most notable ones are chronic migraines, hEDS, and ADHD.

Queer?

I'm ace, bisexual, bigender, and butch. I'm also polyam but currently in a very happy monogamous relationship and don't have plans to change that. My pronouns are she/they, and while I would prefer to not have people use he/him with me you are highly encouraged to use masculine forms of address(sir, guy, dude, king, man, my guy, grandpa, dad, etc.) whenever appropriate. My assigned sex/gender at birth is none of your business.

Who's Yotsuba?

Yotsuba is an adorable little gremlin and the main character of my favorite manga, Yotsuba &!, and you should go read it right now seriously it's amazing go read it go read it GO READ IT-

What's "ask to tag"?

The tumblr equivalent of "author chose not to use archive warnings", I put it on anything that seems like it could use a trigger warning but where no one has specifically asked me to tag for that trigger yet. Things I currently (try to) tag for: flashing lights/eyestrain, insects, suicide, fatphobia/diet culture/disordered eating, my hero academia, gore/body horror, current events, us politics, politics, covid, cats, and anything nsfw goes under nsft.

I can't promise to be 100% consistent with these tho, between the ADHD and the migraines I am very forgetful, so slip ups are bound to happen.

Loo? Like the bathroom??

LOO is short for LastOneOut, I'm american and forgot people call it that, you can write it as Lou or just call me Alex if it makes you feel better.

LookingForLoo?? Like looking for the bathroom??

On websites where LastOneOut is taken I'm LookingForLoo because I'm literally looking for LOO, LastOneOut. I thought it was clever T_T

Sideblogs?

I have a nsfw alt @looafterdark (18+ only I swear to god I keep a loaded gun pointed at the follow list) and a writing inspo blog @last-scrapbook. I also once ran a couple of character ask blogs, though I don't plan on starting them up again, and I was the mod behind @pokeprofshowdown.

Who's Eugene/Ophelia/Sasha?

My ocs from an original story I'm working on. I get brainrot and post about them a lot. You are ALWAYS allowed to ask me about them!

What's your fursona/can I make art of you?

I'm a dog, kinda like a papillion but not really, and yes you may. My ref sheet is here.

Can I repost your funny text posts to twitter/insta/reddit?

Sure, all I ask is that you include the entire post and leave my username visible. You can also tag me if you want, I'm lookingforloo on twitter, insta, and reddit <3

Can I repost your art/writing?

Absolutely not.

Can I plug your art or writing into an AI program?

Absolutely not under any fucking circumstances.

Can I use your art in an amv/fandom board/as a cover for my playlist or fic/ect.?

Depends, DM me first.

Can I write fic/make fanart based on your fics/art/HCs/AUs?

Absolutely <3

Can I write fic/make fanart based on your OCs?

Art yes, fics no.

What's your stance on the discourse?

There is no amount of posting online about contentious topics that could ever match the sheer power of simply going out into your community and finding a project that helps other people that you can dedicate your time and energy to. Also wear a mask, vote(if you can), and listen to marginalized people when they speak about their experiences.

How old are you?

29

[raayllum]

I think sometimes the way I approach fic / meta writing / analysis stems from how I character build and write my OG stuff as well, because while the classical writing advice is about asking "what does your character want?" I've always found it most useful to ask "What does your character want, and what are they willing to justify to get it?"

(Asking how they justify their actions is also incredibly useful but more on that later.)

For example, when ('good') characters are under stressful situations and respond well regardless, we take that as being indicative of who they Truly Are—heroic, helpful, selfless, often even compassionate, etc, and when antagonists behave that way, we dismiss it as just glory hounding or being selfish, when it can Be multiple things at once.

When ('bad') characters respond poorly to stressful situations—threatening harm, using dark magic to saved loved ones, being angry and cold hearted—we take that as who they are, and when it's the protags, we say they're stressed or coerced or any number of things... that are true for the antags often, too! And still true even if you don't like them or have as much compassion towards them.

But unfortunately sometimes people are rarely inclined to do the opposite. They're rarely inclined to take antagonists' good moments as honest statements of their character because "well they're mean/evil" and often dismiss protagonists' complicated or less than stellar choices because "well they're good and they feel bad" (Viren saying he'll never forgive himself for the things he's done even when they saved his son, and Claudia crying over what she's done to save her father? yeah those scenes don't exist anymore sorry).

The fact of the matter is that, at least in TDP and in many other works (including my own), actual antagonists are not always evil and awful and morally bankrupt 100% of the time, and actual protagonists are not always perfect or good or making the right choice (because sometimes there isn't one, tbh).

Who your character is at their best and their worst, regardless of circumstance, is ALL of who they are. It all has to be taken into account. No cherry picking. Rayla can be selfish and dismissive and a liar who routinely fails at whatever she sets out to do and is awful at communicating, and Viren can love his kingdom and his family and genuinely believe that's what he's doing everything for, and neither encompasses their whole character. A perfect example is Claudia, who we cheer for when she chooses Soren over the world-saving mission of the egg in 2x07, and despair at when she chooses Viren over the world-saving mission of maybe not freeing the dangerous imprisoned Startouch elf in S4 and S5. Same principle, character, motivation, different circumstance, but we're happy about Soren (because he's not Viren) and bummed about Viren (because he's not Soren), and because character traits are consistent, and whether those traits are good or bad is inherently circumstantial. Claudia's loyalty can be great, and it can be a terrible, awful justification. Both of those things are true.

To be clear, this isn't to argue for false equivalency: Viren and Claudia and other antagonists are far more often Wrong than the protagonists are, and the protagonists are routinely more Right than our two favourite dark mages are. TDP likes its complications and circumstantial stuff, but there's still some things that are Bad No Matter What (like gaslighting your child, or routine dehumanization). And some of our associations are because antagonistic characters tend to be routinely cruel and mean, which are part of the horrible things they do, and protagonist characters are routinely kinder and more compassionate to the people around them, and protecting each other / innocent people is part of what makes them a good person, but... There's no inherent difference between a lot (not all, but some) of the actions the characters across the board take, particularly in arc 2, just their perspective and who we're personally more attached to and thereby more willing to justify their decisions surrounding.

Like idk my main WIP protag buries people alive en masse and tortures someone vindictively because they killed her friend and I'd still classify her as a Good Person (fictionally), and it's just always wild to me when people don't take All Parts and Choices and Relationships of a character into account especially because TDP spells it out for us over and over that we Should with quite literally every single character, whether those actions are good or bad:

Once again I am asking for encompassing wholes and character nuances where the only time a character should be like "well it's totally fine that you did a Thing actually" (Rayla towards Callum's dark magic use or Callum towards Rayla lying to/stealing from him) or "totally not okay that you did a thing" (Runaan about Rayla sparing Marcos, or Claudia doing dark magic) is taken as an aspect of Character Bias, not a definitive Narrative get off the hook slant or condemnation, because neither of those things Get us anywhere in a writing or analytical sense thank you

[brf-rumortrackinganon]

Fine but why be bothered when people get her title wrong? It's fine if you never have any intention of calling her anything other than Kate. You've complained about the media calling her Kate in the past, you complain about what coronet William uses, complaining about these things whilst continuing to use a nickname seems false. Also, William hasn't called her Kate for a long time, having to reference the engagement interview shows there aren't any recent examples. Catherine herself doesn't use Kate, she'll respond to it because she isn't rude but it's not the name she goes by. You don't want to use either her proper title or her name but complain about similar things.

Again, anon, go back and get some reading comprehension skills.

I'm not bothered when people get her title wrong because I know it's hypocritical of me to do that when I call her Kate.

I complain about the hypocrisy of the media to use the wrong title for Kate when they use the the correct title for Camilla.

I didn't complain about what coronet William used, I pointed out that it's another inconsistency in the professionalism of the BRF that they're not bothered to fix.

My pointing out the references to "Kate" in the engagement interview has nothing to do with relevance or timeliness, just that at one point William was actively calling her Kate and if Kate was comfortable enough with the nickname that she didn't mind her fiance publicly calling her "Kate," then maybe she doesn't have a problem with other people calling her "Kate."

Kate may prefer to be called Catherine and she has every right to demand we all call her Catherine. But when she lets us call her Kate without correcting us, that's implicit approval. When other heads of state call her "Kate" and it's not corrected, that's implicit approval. When she tells the ordinary public to call her "Kate" (be they children or the elderly or otherwise), that's implicit approval.

Sure, there's an aspect of "she's too polite to say anything" but if you've been on this planet for any number of years, you know that when someone is truly offended or bothered by it, they will absolutely put a stop to it. Kate hasn't. I don't think she cares about what the public does but she does care about what her loved ones and close friends call her (and yes, that is 100% my bias because I'm this same way: I don't care what random strangers call me or how they spell my name but if you're someone I personally interact with on a daily basis, then it does matter).

[shadebloopnik]

Hi everyone! First off, im so so soooo sorry for the late update to this, finals have been hell, and im still going through the last week before breaks.

Anyways, i'd like to thank everyone who participated in my Survey Fic Exchange thing! The survey's still going, but we finally reached the minimum 100 respondents required by my prof!

I truly cannot thank all of you enough, you've all been a dear (and your aggressively worded answers made me laugh, ya got the spirit-)

As for the fic prompts, I thank everyone who sent some! Y'all had some truly wonderful ideas, and I can only hope I do them justiceee

Top 3 Prompts:

1. Radioapple/Appleradio

Ahhh, a duck, truly the symbol of happiness. At least, that's what's kept him happy for so long. Besides, if anyone knows what it means to be happy, it'd be the Morningstar!.....right?

After a grueling couple of days of non-stop overlord meetings, and dealing with those pesky Vees, Alastor's mood has definitely been less than stellar. To help their growing relationsh-FRIENDSHIP, Lucifer aims to cheer him up. And what better way to do that than with a duck! What could go wrong?"

2. Radiostatic/Staticradio

"Well old pal, I do hope you can still catch up.", he couldn't help his eyes widening, watching Alastor expertly skip onto the thin railing; his steps delicate and precise- kicking up the shadows pooled at his feet. His smile was wide, and inviting, and it almost, almost, reminded him of when that smile was all that lit up his life in hell.

"You know I do so hate to be bored."

Stuck at the most mind numbing social gathering for Overlords and other royal hellborns, Vox takes refuge in an empty balcony for a small reprieve and to avoid an onslaught of unwanted memories. Only, he didn't account for the balcony to be not so empty; filled with the buzz of static and a promise of a dance. "

Huge thanks to @sassy-radio-hazbin-queen for the 2 prompts above!

3. Radioapple/Appleradio

Well of course he's going to bid higher! The proceeds from this auction would be going directly to Charlie's Charity Ball, and since she forbid him from sponsoring it directly, this is his way of giving support!

No, the fact that a date with an extremely charming cannibalistic deer was on the line and an annoying square faced blue idiot with his stupid hat's bidding higher and higher against him isn't a factor at all. Why would you even mention that? He didn't even notice it, nope, no, this was for Charlie, that's all on his mind right now, attractive smiles be damned.

To help promote the hotel, Charlie hosts an auction! The prize? A date with Hell's esteemed bachelors! Errr, or as close as you can get in Hell. From half-hearted bids to an all out monetary war, will the chaos ever subside?

Regardless, Angel isn't too happy about not being the main attraction."

Thanks so much for the anon ask who sent this prompt!

I cannot promise quick updates, but I have already started on them, and I will be giving my best to have out the 1st one this early January. I'll be posting on my ao3, under ShadeRobotnik.

Once again, thank you to everyone who helped out! I'm not an amazing writer, but I do hope the fics I write would do you justice!

[insaneintheemembraneowo]

it's not paranoia if they're really out to get you.

**please read!**

hi there, this is my first time publishing a long fanfic on tumblr. updates will be a lot slower here as i like to post longer chapters on tumblr (at least 1-5 chapters need to be written before posting to tumblr) just as a personal preference. that means updates will take a lot longer here than other platforms so please follow me on wattpad or ao3 if you'd like to support me more or read this book faster. find me at @ insaneintheemembrane thanks!

in which a burnt-out detective/vigilante meets the ninjas.

a trans-fem!reader with spiderman? powers x ninjago boys & girls.

slow updates

i will make a male and gender netural version of this book if its wanted! please check out my profile for other books,

posted books; > into the fog (fem!reader x dbd) - only ao3 and wattpad atm > its not paranoia if theyr're really out to get you (fem!reader x ninjago) - all platforms

upcoming books; > teen by day, wicca by night (fem!reader x twilight) > fight for me (sodapop curtis x fem!reader x steve randle)

chapter 1 & 2

A/N: the timeline is fucked and I've added my own parts to spice up the plot so it isn't similar to other fanfics. i do attempt to stick somewhat to the order of things though. please excuse the spacing, this was copied to multiple sites from notion.

warnings: mentions of blood & violence, swearing words: 1906

chapter 1

i didn't know where i was going or why i even the station, i just needed to get out, needed to do something, anything else. nothing made sense, my thoughts were irrational and i wasn't stable enough for this case. i needed to hand it to someone else, but i couldn't, people were counting on me to solve it.

i'm amazing at cases, this is what ive always wanted to do, what i've dreamed of, so why couldn't i? when it mattered and when it counted why couldn't i solve a singular case? what was wrong with me, why was my brain acting like this? god, it felt like my brain was running at 100 miles per hour.

i kept walking, turning different ways when i felt like it. eventually i came to a tea store. outside was a huge poster for fresh tea and pastries on a discounted price for the winter.

'yes' i thought, 'exactly what i need.'

i walked into the store and was immediately greeted by the smell of an intrusive citrus tea. it flooded my senses and slowed my brain down almost instantly.

"hello dear, something i can help you with?" a calming voice asked.

i spun around to see an older lady, she had grey hair and kind green eyes. she was wearing a light coat of well applied makeup and was smiling at me while holding a cup of tea (which seemed to be the culprit of my relaxation.)

"i, uh, i saw the uhm." i tried to explain using my finger to point toward the window, but my eyes were very obviously glued to the cup of magic the woman was holding.

she followed my gaze and lightly chuckled. "you like the smell of this tea? its ours new brand of organic lemon balm tea, otherwise know as melissa. It increases GABA activity, meaning it's a fantastic choice for calming you down andddd getting to sleep at night!" "sounds just like what i need."

i look from the cup to the shelves, they are covered in hundreds of boxes of tea, ranging from all different colours and types. on the shelves behind the counter sit at least 200 different teapots.

"well lucky for you we have an offer on this type of tea, as its new. 2 boxes for £15. although you do need a good teapot to brew this kind of tea to a high standard. so for an extra £15 ill through in a teapot as well." she responded, putting down her teacup, grabbing two boxes of the tea from the shelves and walking behind the counter to select a teapot.

this woman moved fast, i hadn't even said i wanted it yet.

"right okay, £30 sure." i nodded approaching the counter.

as the woman turned back around she knocked the shelf causing one level to fall. without thinking id hopped over the counter and caught the shelf before it could cause any real damage.

fuck!

"oh woah, those are some… fast reflexes. and your quite strong too. hm" the woman said stepping back putting the teapot she had selected for me on the counter. she then turned round and looked me up and down.

i propped the shelf back up and sighed nervously.

"aha, yeah well, i am a detective so quick reflexes and all."

"sure sure, whatever you say, just seemed a little… unnatural is all." she responded with a smile.

i walked back round the counter, pulling my purse out of my oversized winter jacket. it was like this woman could see right through me. read me like a book - as cringey as that sounds. i pulled out three 10s and handed them too her. she bagged up my things and handed then to me.

"have a nice evening and come again!"

"thank you."

i spun around making a b-line for the door, 'freedom!' i thought, right before the door opened in front of me and i crashed into the stranger that had walked through.

"woah! sorry about that, wasn't expecting you to come through." i said apologetically, regaining balance.

i looked at the guy in front of me, he was solid and hadn't even wobbled when i bumped into him. he had fiery brown hair, gelled up into stupid spikes. he had beautiful light brown eyes, but they were currently looking cold and sharp right at me.

"watch where you're going next time." he half-shouted.

i scoffed, looking at him in disbelief. i was being kind and apologising! what was this assholes problem?

"kai! don't be rude to customers." the woman that had served me said from behind.he rolled his eyes walking off to the back grumbling about something. the woman started to say something but id already walked out, fuming.

like my shitty day could get any worse, not only am i in a slump at work, i nearly exposed my powers to the tea lady AND that guy was unnecessarily rude.

i angrily walked back to the station and set my tea down in the locker room. i ignored everyone's confused looks and sat back at my desk, head in hands.

chapter 2

blood dripped down my face and onto my vigilante suit, not like i wasn't already covered in snake juices and blood but it was still an inconvenience. i had been on my way home from work when i heard cries down an alleyway. a group of snakes had stolen a baby. very original.

i dipped into the alley, stashed my bag and tea in an old bin and changed into my suit, before saving the baby. i fought of the serpentine and found the mother a few streets down crying out for her lost child. a few of the slimy bastards got away so i tracked them through the city, to the sewers. it was some kind of hive for all the serpentine clans too meet. how freaky.

that's when i saw them, the ninja. the most irritating men you will ever come across.

4 arrogant, cocky, colourful men in pyjamas. they call themselves ninjas but fail to do the simplest of tasks, not to mention they are always in my way. they believe in no killing unless absolutely necessary, i believe some people just aren't worth keeping around and that not every life is worth saving.

it's fair to say we don't see eye to eye.

they were all here, trying to fight off the serpentine horde and (to my misery) winning. this place must be important because they were all here blue, red, black and… pink? since when was there a pink ninja? what happened to the white one?

i saw the one in black get knocked down and decided to be his knight in shining armour. i pulled down my hood and used my webs to swing myself into the fight. i grabbed the snake on top of the black ninja with my webs and flung him into a wall. the ninja on the ground looked up at me and nodded, swiftly getting off of the ground, rushing back into the fight.

i rolled my eyes, although he couldn't see that. we continued fighting until the serpentine were dead, tied up or knocked out. i'd been scratched a few times but nothing serious. most of the blood on me wasn't mine, not that you could tell whose blood is what anyway, a certain breed of these filthy things exploded into blue goo when it died. extremely gross. there were only a few stragglers left, but i thought that the Pyjama Men could handle them on their own - they were big, scary ninjas after all. i turned on my heel, prepared to leave, when i heard a scream behind me. i looked over my shoulder to see the pink (white?) ninja being lifted up by his neck. the thing lifting him was grotesque; it was like a hybrid snake. it was bigger, stronger, and covered in markings, and metal.

the remaining ninjas rushed to aid their friend, while i took care of the less powerful serpentine who were trying to assist the hybrid. dealing with the remaining serpentine was easy, and i dispatched them quickly while the others did their best to help their icy companion.

the poor guy was choking and struggling as his teammates desperately tried to get the thing off of him, attacking them with everything they had. their golden weapons, powers and strength didn't work so i helped out and tried my best to strike the hybrid with my weapon. nothing worked and the thing just shrugged us off or threw us back. i eventually got fed up and webbed the guy's hands up, he dropped the icy ninja to try and get the webs off. the fire ninja grabbed the ice ninja and we all ran out of there while we still could. there was no point fighting something so strong, especially since we were very under-prepared. plus i could sense that the ninja still weren't my biggest fans even after i just saved them.

we ran out of the sewers and hid in an alleyway. i lifted the bottom part of my mask, revealing my mouth and gasped for air. it stunk in the sewer and i appreciated the fresh air. part of my hair fell out of the mask along with it.

"are you a girl?!" exclaimed the blue lightning ninja.

"i thought that was obvious?" i responded, looking his way.

"not to me."

"it was obvious, you're just a dumbass jay." the earth ninja said rolling his eyes while checking on his injured friend.

"your name is jay?" i asked.

"oh for fucks sake cole!" the red one exclaimed.

"and yours is cole?"

"shut up you two!" the injured white one shouted, his voice sounding croaky and sore. "she knows too much about our identities now, we will have to take her to master wuu."

"yeah good idea. besides, we still need to discuss whatever that monster was." the red one replied nodding, a hint of disgust in his voice toward the end.

"im not going anywhere with you lot." i started backing up, they came toward me and i turned around and bolted.

[bonny-kookoo]

Sugar and spice Drabble idea, maybe? Jungkook needs someone to watch his hybrid at the last minute and can’t find anyone who’s free to watch her. Namjoon overhears and decides to offer to watch her so he can try to get to know her a little. But the whole thing goes sideways and Y/N gets injured somehow when Namjoon turns his attention away from her for a few minutes. I absolutely adore this series by the way!!

You wanted angst, you get angst. Suffer.

"Are you absolutely SURE you can handle this?" Jungkook asks for the fourth time now, checking everything again to make sure nothing could go wrong. It's urgent, a family emergency, and he doesn't have any travel meds for you- so he needs someone to at least be home while he's away. With the carecenter closed at this time however, and no one else available, only Namjoon was up for the task-

And to say that Jungkooks is worried, would be an understatement.

"You said she's calm today, right? It'll be fine." The rapper reassures, more or less confident that he'll manage alright with you. You're a hybrid, you're quiet and calm, you're independent and very much capable of making your own choices as Jungkook had said before. What could go wrong, really?

A lot, apparently.

While it all goes smoothly for a while, Jungkook calling in that night to say that he's going to be on his way back home by tomorrow morning, it all goes south when Namjoon goes out to buy himself something to eat- leaving you alone in the apartment, with no supervision whatsoever.

Now, in one aspect, Jungkook is definitely 100% right. You're no child, no pet. You're very capable of using your human side to make decisions properly. However, that also gives out its risks - because your human judgment does tend to forget sometimes that you're simply not supposed to eat certain things. And with the bandleader not having made any food, neither when he arrived nor now late for dinner, your stomach is screaming for anything to fill it.

In an effort to find anything to at least somewhat soothe your hunger so you can sleep later, you look into the fridge for something you could maybe eat- finding a small container of pudding, left by Namjoon himself. You, however, don't know it's his. It's in your fridge, so it's okay to eat, right?

And Namjoon isn't even mad at you for eating it when he comes back home- simply nodding and shrugging it off as no big deal, giving you the okay to finish the other one left as well. It's something you eagerly agree to- you've never had chocolate before.

You go to sleep feeling a little off- but you blame it on simply missing Jungkook.

When Jungkook texts Namjoon a few hours later in the morning to ask how you're doing, Namjoon lazily replies with an 'doing good, dw' to his friend- but he himself has to get up and actually search for you, because you're nowhere in sight. Do you always sleep this long?

He finds you in the bathroom on the floor, and he can feel himself start to panic.

"Hey- what's wrong?" He tries, but you're not coherent, slurring your voice to the point of making them unrecognizable. He doesn't know what's happening, doesn't realize he's being called by none other than the singer he'd promised to that he'd take proper care of you.

Maybe he can fix this before Jungkook comes home?

Wrong.

Because the door rings just minutes later.

When Jungkook enters the apartment, his smile is immediately wiped off at the sight of his bandleader. "I fucked up." He says, and Jungkook immediately turns serious. "I don't know how, or what's wrong- but I fucked up." He says, leading Jungkook to the bathroom where you've completely slumped over the side of the toilet, barely conscious.

"What the hell happened?" Jungkook asks sternly, immediately helping you try and sit up, skin pale and heart racing under his hand pressed to your chest. "Baby? Hey, I'm back- can you hear me?" He asks, but you don't really respond. "What are you standing there, call an ambulance!" Jungkook barks out angrily at his friend, who scrambles to get the call out.

In the waiting room at the ER, he finally snaps.

"I asked you multiple times! Multiple!" Jungkook angrily states, uncaring of the age difference or any respect. "You said you'd look after her, and here we are! Do you hate her this much?!" He wants to know, Jimin holding him back as he paces back and forth.

"I didn't know.." namjoon mumbles embarrassed, unsure what to say.

"You could've.. no, SHOULD have asked me." Jungkook says, now a lot more quiet. And it's not really any better- if anything, the tone of voice the youngest is using is ice cold, and nothing he's ever heard before. "I trusted you. I really did." Jungkook explains. "I thought, hey, maybe he just needs to see it first hand. Maybe I can change his mind about this." He chuckles darkly. "What a great idea that was."

There's nothing else said between the two for a long time, until a doctor walks up to them. "We couldn't get anything out of her system. She's basically already started digesting most of it; all we can do is help her body break it down on its own." The doctor states. "I've got high hopes she will be just fine. But I have to always remind you that it's not a cakewalk, and complications are common." He explains, making Jungkook sigh with his head in his hands.

"It'll be okay." Jimin offers quietly, and the doctor nods as well.

"Lets keep a positive mindset. You're her owner, correct?" He asks Jungkook, who immediately nods. "You can stay in her room with her. Don't be alarmed by all the machines though." He says, as he leads the zinger to where you're laying in the ICU.

"What do I do if.." Namjoon says after a while of silence, Jimin shaking his head.

"Lets not think about that right now. How could you let her just eat that?" Jimin scolds a lot more gently.

"I didn't know she shouldn't have it!" Namjoon whines. "Jungkook always says she's so independent, yet then she does this!"

"Are you seriously blaming her right now?" Jimin states, unsure. "How many times have you forgotten something? Now imagine living with two different mindsets, two different instincts, all the time. Just try and imagine how confusing that must be." He tries to break through his bandleader. "Its not easy, for neither him nor her. The least you could've done is simply ask." He states.

"I know.. I know and that's the problem." Namjoon shakes his head. "If.. this goes bad, I don't know if he can forgive me." He mumbles quietly, and Jimin sighs.

"I don't think anyone could." Jimin honestly responds before crossing his arms. "For now, let's pray she gets better. Then we'll go from there."

[acourtofthought]

You know why E/riel isn't happening? Because neither Lucien or Gwyn have ever knowingly hurt Elain or Azriel. Lucien is innocent in who he was mated to but he's been nothing but respectful towards Elain since their bond snapped.

And Gwyn has absolutely no idea the mess that is Az's current love life therefore her actions toward him are 100% innocent. The moments she's been flirty with him and he's responded with smiles, amusement, laughter, etc., when Nesta tells him that he's Gwyn's new ribbon, he doesn't push back or claim his heart is already spoken for.

Elain is still my favorite character but even I can admit she's made mistakes in a way that Gwyn has not when it comes to ships.

Do I understand why Elain is scared and pulling away from Lucien?

Absolutely and that's why I don't vilify her for it (just like I didn't vilify Nesta for pushing Cassian away and sleeping with other males even though she knew how badly it would hurt Cassian after she confessed her feelings for him during the war).

Elain has gone through some terrible things and also suddenly found herself connected to / thinking about someone else when in a perfect world, she should have been able to spend that time only focused on her recovery (rather than feeling pulled to Lucien and worrying about his feelings). So she completely disconnected from him (not healthy but not as bad as she could have handled it).

Do I understand why she's trying to prove something by directing her attention towards Az? Proving to herself that she gets to call the shots?

Sure, it's easy to understand her actions. But, it's still not the healthiest / best way to go about things. Instead she's sneaking around under the cover of night leaving Az's gift in his pile of presents because she didn't get Lucien one. Instead she's still never had a conversation with Lucien, asking him not to come around if that's not what she wants. Instead she accepts his gifts rather than returning them if she knows she isn't interested. Instead she's ready to kiss Az knowing that Lucien is staying in the house (seriously, they had a YEAR to kiss if that's what they wanted but figured that was the best time?). She sees Lucien is struggling therefore her actions are knowingly causing him pain. Does she owe Lucien anything? No, however there's something to be said when you knowingly hurt someone's feelings even if they are a stranger to you.

Neither she or Lucien asked for the bond but since it's something they both got, their feelings are now intertwined on some level and so far, only Lucien has been extremely respectful of that fact.

I realize why SJM wrote it this way, it creates tension and a "will they, won't they?" scenario. She's not the kind of author who makes the journey of her endgame couples sweet and happy and easy. Every one of her romances has been an angsty and difficult uphill battle and an Archeron sister putting her mate through Hell before accepting her bond is par for the course. But the male proving that he will suffer through whatever she needs and long for her through all her inner turmoil is pretty much a guarantee of a HEA, something Lucien has excelled at.

As for Az. He couldn't answer Rhys's question about his feelings for Mor therefore he was knowingly going to make out with Elain without being over Mor completely. He admitted how wrong it was to be moving in to kiss her, how wrong it was that he got her the gift he did when her mate was in the house with them. Then he knowingly took the gift he got for Elain and chose to give it to another.

All the jealousy and bitterness he feels toward Lucien, acting irrationally when it comes to respecting another males mating bond and their ally at that, and it was so easy for him to move right on to being swept up in the thought of another females happiness.

I know why that is, it's pretty obvious SJM is setting them up to be mates so he's going to respond to Gwyn in a way that he hasn't for other females. But it just shows that Az has spent an entire year acting like a fool, being ready to burn bridges that could ruin the tentative peace of their world for a female he doesn't truly care about in any sort of lasting (romantic) way. He was so bent out of shape over what the others got (a mating bond) that he's knowingly acted poorly.

I doubt SJM is going to have Az and Elain together in the end when there are two innocent characters (one a confirmed mate and one a possible mate) wrapped up in their storylines with them.

Nesta and Cassian had done wrong to one another but they did not drag a third possible love interest into their relationship drama.

Rhys and Feyre had their moments of acting poorly but the only "victim" in their love story was Tamlin and SJM made sure to make it so he looked like he was in the wrong even more than they were.

The fact that Elain has been hurting Lucien (not maliciously but knowingly) means we'll see an apology to Lucien from her in their book, just like Nesta apologized to Cassian in hers.

The fact that Azriel called Elain a mistake after almost kissing her, then gifted the necklace he got for her to an innocent Gwyn while not being able to confirm to his friend whether he's still hung up on a third female means Az will be apologizing to a few people in his book.

SJM doesn't make innocent bystanders casualties of other ships. Gwyn has been completely in the dark from the mess that has been Azriel's romantic life as of late and she's not going to be a plot device just so E/riel can end up together and she's left hurting.

Sarah has written Lucien and Gwyn to be nothing but amazing when it comes to Elain and Az and it's not so they can lose their mates in future books.

[queen-dahlia]

𝐆𝐢𝐥𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐭 𝐯𝐨𝐧 𝐎𝐛𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐧

𝗠𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝗥𝗼𝘂𝘁𝗲 𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝟭𝟱

I didn't proofread this, will fix it later. Maybe

Note: Translation is not 100% accurate. Expect grammatical errors.

// : alternate translation | ⫘⫘ : flashback | 4:4 answer

The beast said only what he wanted to say and released me from his lair.

Knowing that a harsh reality awaits me when I return to court.

Clavis: "Oh no, it was the right decision to send the knight to pick you up."

He's talking about Cyril

Clavis: "I didn't expect more than 10 people to try to reach you in the morning."

Nokto: "You know, this could be the first and last time in your life that you'll be popular? Congratulations."

Emma: "… I can't be happy about it."

(The day should have just begun, but I'm tired.)

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘

Nobleman: "… How selfish. Even if that was Prince Chevalier's plan the other day, it's impossible."

Nobleman: "Do you intend to repeat the tragedy of Prince Yves's time? It's deplorable."

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Noblewoman: "I never thought that someone who had a private affair with Obsidian would walk around the court with dignity."

Noblewoman: "What kind of nerve does it take to fall in love with someone who doesn't know how to handle herself?"

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(I tried to explain to various people that it was all a misunderstanding because they were being sarcastic about it. But they didn't believe me at all.)

My thorny emotions only stab me one-sidedly, and they don't listen to me.

I was trapped in a worse environment than before, and I was stuck in all directions.

(There are many people in the court who have a stronger dislike for Obsidian than in the city…)

(I guess it reflects the princes' idea that "reconciliation is impossible".)

Clavis: "Haha, don't look so glum. You haven't done anything wrong, have you?"

Clavis: "It is just right to follow the example of Lord Gilbert's brazenness and smile at the situation."

Nokto: "Oh, yeah. I think even King Highness would say, "So what?" I'm sure he’ll say that."

Nokto: "You are King Highness's direct subordinate, so you have to be tough."

Clavis: "The fox that borrows the authority of the tiger—or is it the rabbit?"

Nokto: "Ahaha, she's tough."

(Even in this situation, Nokto and Clavis are the same.)

I glance at the large number of letters piled up on the foreign policy faction's office desk.

The letters listed were inquiries about me, and the two seemed to be busy responding to them.

Although they are busy with unscheduled official duties, I don't hear any resentment.

(If I fret, I'll only make you two worry about me... Enough of this, look over the front.)

Emma: "Thank you. I'm certainly not doing anything wrong, so I have to be confident!"

Clavis: "Yeah, what's the big deal?"

Nokto: "By the way, "this" is just our official business. It's not something you care about."

Clavis: "Rather, it's really interesting that the friendly and anti-Obsidian factions have become clear, isn't it?"

Clavis: "So far, though, it looks like there's a lot of opposition."

Clavis: "Obsidian betrayed Rhodolite once in the past. It's hard to believe."

Nokto: "If you think about it, I wonder which side is King Highness now."

Clavis: "He's a militant. He's not looking to build friendships."

(I see…)

The ally's position is the guideline for the whole.

If Prince Chevalier does not have the idea of approaching Obsidian, the discussion will be extremely difficult.

(... Even if we show a friendly attitude, we do not know if the Obsidian country will betray us at all.)

(A good example is the way Prince Gilbert treats me.)

(I guess Prince Chevalier's way of thinking is rational and steady.)

(Leon would say the same thing about this.)

It is difficult to swallow more than a glimmer of violence, even if one understands.

Clavis: "It's not just Chevalier, we are also being questioned in the situation now." **

Clavis: "If you talk about friendship with Obsidian, it's because the anti-royalty faction that has become active is likely to attack."

Nokto: "But there are anti-monarchy people who think the opposite, right?"

Clavis: "In their case, 'The royal family has made a mistake in judgment, and we can't leave it to them again.'"

Nokto: "I can't believe it got that complicated."

Nokto: "… I mean, has the distrust of the royal family reached this far?"

Clavis: "No… Even if it wasn’t for Lord Gilbert’s instigation, I feel like it’s been a bit too extreme recently."

Clavis: "The anti-monarchy faction was originally cautious. It's only recently that they've started showing some signs of activity."

Clavis: "Perhaps someone is behind the scenes?"

(… I don't think that "someone" has anything to do with Prince Gilbert.)

Clavis: "No matter how things turn out, my current ideal is for Lord Gilbert to leave our country."

Clavis: "I hope he will return home after the four-parliamentary talks as soon as possible."

(Is that... is that what it's all about for Rhodolite now?)

(In the end, I can't do anything…)

My own helplessness pierces my chest with a sense of emptiness.

Clavis: "Sometimes, I've been somewhat curious..."

Clavis: "What happened to your neck?"

(I knew you would ask.)

I gently placed my fingers on my bandaged neck.

Emma: "It's a secret."

Clavis: "Well... does that mean that you want to keep the hot night with Lord Gilbert to yourself?"

Emma: "No… it's not!"

Nokto: "If you have nothing to hide, you can say it, right?"

(… What should I do? I could say I was bitten, but I feel kind of embarrassed…)

Clavis: "Emma, don't make that face. Even if you don't mean it, Lord Gilbert will misunderstand you, won’t he?"

(Uh.)

Nokto: "… You can't possibly—"

Emma: "I was just bitten!"

(… I ended up saying it.)

Clavis: "Oh my…"

Nokto: "Did you know? A man who bites a woman is very possessive."

Nokto: "You might end up with bite marks soon."

Emma: "… It seems possible, and I don't like it."

(Even though it still tingles and hurts.)

Every time my neck hurts, I think of Prince Gilbert.

I should have been scared and in pain, but in the end, the only feeling left in my heart was sadness.

(As long as he is a real beast, the idea of approaching him is just a dream.)

(I thought about having a conversation with Prince Gilbert... but then I realized that I couldn't even do that without turning him back into a person.)

Though I always feel deceived by his refreshing and gentle smile,

Prince Gilbert has never been friendly with me or Rhodolite.

Whether I like it or hate it, the idea of "domination" won't change.

(His Majesty the Emperor may be behind it…)

As I unconsciously put strength into my fingers, a hand extended from behind me and grabbed me, pulling my hand away from my neck.

When I turned around, Cyril, who was standing beside me, shook his head as if troubled.

Clavis: "Emma, if your neck is bothering you so much, the gentle Prince Charming will prepare some medicine that works instantly, okay?"

Emma: "Prepare?"

Nokto: "I don't know. Despite his appearance, Clavis is a professional drug maker who has contributed to numerous medical breakthroughs."

Nokto: "… I'm not sure what to expect."

Clavis: "Do I have to say it twice?"

Emma: "… I can't believe you were such an amazing person."

Clavis: "Haha, did you fall in love? I'm a guilty man."

Clavis: "I'm afraid this is going to make Lord Gilbert jealous… but where's the important guy?"

Emma: "I don't know. I didn't see him, at least not this morning."

(I usually meet Prince Gilbert at the breakfast table, but...)

Since we came back together from his hideout, he must be at the court.

Nokto: "How unusual for someone who spends all his time with you." // "Isn't that unusual for someone like him to be with you all the time?"

Clavis: "In times like this, it's reasonable to assume he's planning some evil deeds."

Emma: "I hope that's not the case."

Emma: "… By the way, Prince Chevalier isn't here, is he?"

(Even though at this time of the day, he's usually in his office.)

Clavis: "He's been missing since this morning, too. I went to wake him up, but his room was empty."

Nokto: "It's unusual for King Highness to be active in the morning."

Clavis: "Oh. Where the hell did he go—"

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Gilbert: "—That's rare, isn't it?"

Chevalier: ". . . . . ."

The sound of footsteps echoes in the chapel in the early morning air.

Gilbert, seated in the front row, crossed his legs without turning around and looked up at the ceiling.

Gilbert: "Greetings to the gods so early in the morning? Haha, I didn't know you were religious."

Chevalier: "… Nonsense."

He proceeded through the aisle leading to the altar, his white cloak fluttering gallantly.

He sat down on the opposite side of the seat without so much as a glance at the other person in front of him and let out a languid breath.

Chevalier: "It seems that you are the one who frequents the chapel."

Gilbert: "Isn't it relaxing to be in a quiet space?"

Gilbert: "You see, I hate people. Sometimes I miss the silence."

Chevalier: "Hating people makes me laugh."

Chevalier: "… I thought you were really repentant."

Gilbert: "Unfortunately, I don't have anything to repent for."

Chevalier: "I suppose."

Snickering, Chevalier looks up at the statue of the god sitting in the chapel.

Chevalier: "I'm going to ask you straight. What are you going to do with that?"

Gilbert: "By "that," you mean the little rabbit? Right…"

Gilbert: "I'm going to get her, and I'm going to take good care of her." // "I'm thinking of getting her and cherishing her."

With his carefree and refreshing smile, there was a firm determination that it was already a matter of decision.

Gilbert: "Because, even if her term as Belle ends, she won't be able to go back to town anymore, right?"

Gilbert: "Right now, rumors are circulating in town that "the girl in Akatsuki's bookstore is an Obsidian woman"..."

Gilbert: "Even the Obsidian pests will hear the rumors and come to see the little rabbit with all sorts of ideas."

Gilbert: "If she gets along with other guys without my knowledge, I'll be jealous."

Chevalier: ". . . . . ."

Chevalier caught his red eye softening. **

Gilbert: "What's that look on your face, like you're trying to say something?"

Chevalier: "I just don't think it's like you."

Chevalier: "As you know, that woman is not a noblewoman."

Gilbert: "Oh, you're just going to admit it."

Chevalier: "We're not in a public forum."

Chevalier: "You are famous for your brutality against those in power, but you are also rumored to be merciful to the weak."

Chevalier: "Even if I think about you in the past... isn’t it against your principles to hurt and corner a common woman?"

Gilbert: "Ahaha, that's just me as a member of the "royal family."

Gilbert: "Not in my private life, okay?"

Chevalier: "Oh, so any malice towards the rabbit is a private matter?"

Gilbert: "Yes. She honestly has nothing to do with my plans."

Gilbert: "It doesn't matter if you're there or not. You don't have to mess with it or not."

Gilbert: "Look, there's no point in a beast slowly torturing its prey without killing it, right? It's the same."

Chevalier: "You're not even interested in her position as "Belle"?" // "You're not even interested in the situation of "Belle"?" **

Gilbert: "Of course, I can't think of a plan to use it, but it's a bit troublesome to prove that she's Bell."

Gilbert: "There's no reason for me to go through all that trouble. Maybe not Benitoite and Jade, though."

Chevalier: ". . . . . ."

The conversation dies down, and a sacred silence returns.

After a moment of searching for something, Gilbert's sigh dissolved into the air.

Gilbert: "You must have figured out what I was after the other day with all that fuss."

Gilbert: "That's why I came here."

Chevalier: "… Ah."

Gilbert: "Okay? I'll at least listen to what you have to say since we've known each other for so long."

Chevalier: "Well? Then…"

Chevalier stands up and quietly draws his sword.

He took a few steps and drew a beautiful trajectory, which was intercepted by a jet-black cane.

Chevalier: "Can I see that cane of yours?"

Gilbert: "Eh, no. Why would I lend it to you?"

Gilbert catches the sword while sitting and laughs out of place.

In contrast, Chevalier etched a wrinkle between his beautiful eyebrows.

Chevalier: "At first I thought it might be a made-up sword, but the position of the cut is unnatural for that."

Chevalier: "If it were just a sword to begin with, there would be no need to disguise it. It's not forbidden to wear a sword belt."

Chevalier: "And it can't possibly be an ordinary cane either. Because according to the little rabbit, it has an unnatural weight to it."

Gilbert: "Then, what do you think?"

Chevalier: "100 years ahead… No, it's the crystallization of technology that's even further ahead, isn't it?" // "It's the culmination of technology that's a hundred years old... maybe even more."

Chevalier: "It's a new type of weapon that no continent has ever seen, with the potential to overturn the world."

The "World Disaster" says nothing.

He dismisses it with a refreshing smile that shows no signs of faltering.

Chevalier: "… When it is introduced to the battlefield, the continent will undoubtedly usher in a new era."

Chevalier: "The time of knights will be over, and the time will come when the common people will have weapons to fight."

Chevalier: "Obsidian's military development has been spectacular... but it seems to have gone far beyond my imagination."

Gilbert: "Fufu… Then why do you think I did what I did so that you would find out about it?"

Gilbert: "Chevalier, you are an uncertainty. Even if we advance our technology a hundred years into the future…"

Gilbert: "You're the only one who can come up with a plan that can overturn that." **

Gilbert: "I value you. I never underestimated you."

Gilbert: "What's the point of me giving you all this information if you can't even guess?"

Chevalier: ". . . . . ."

A small click of the tongue echoes through the chapel.

Gilbert: "Yes. Because we've already done the preparation."

Gilbert: "It's too late for you to realize it now. My piece is on the verge of checkmate."

Gilbert: "Rhodolite is now fanged... yet no one but you is aware of it."

Chevalier: "It seems so… But I have some concerns."

Gilbert: "What?"

Chevalier flicks the cane with his sword and returns it to its sheath.

Chevalier: "There's no reason to wait for a checkmate, is there?"

Chevalier: "You are ready. Then, execute it promptly."

Chevalier: "Why don't you do it?"

Gilbert: ". . . . . ."

Chevalier: "It's a contradiction, isn't it? Especially if you see me as a risk."

Chevalier: "The more time you give, the less chance you have of winning—there's no way you can't understand that reason."

Gilbert: "… Hmm."

Chevalier: "I see... it seems that there is a purpose that has not been read yet."

The glacial eyes stare down at the beast.

Chevalier: "Your evil deeds are very rational and worthy of the name "Ever-Victorious General," but..."

Chevalier: "Your own actions are wasteful and filled with contradictions."

Chevalier: "Even if I know "what to do," I can't honestly understand "what you want to do."

Gilbert: "You think I'm going to tell you nicely?"

Chevalier: "I'd like to hear it out…"

Gilbert: "You don't want to see what's in the cane… yet, do you? It's a bad bet for you."

Chevalier: "It's not bad to accept that bet, but I might accidentally kill you."

Chevalier: "It's troublesome to keep you alive, and it's troublesome to kill you."

Gilbert: "Ahaha, I'm the same. If I kill a prince in Rhodolite, I'll never get out of here alive."

Gilbert: "If you want to kill—"

Chevalier: "You have to figure out a way."

The two beasts laugh as their murderous atmosphere clashes in the air.

It was a smile that seemed to be deeply amused, as if no one else could understand it.

Gilbert: "Hey, I've answered a lot of questions, can I at least get something in return?"

Chevalier: "… I'll listen to you."

Gilbert: "It's about Little Bunny—"

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—And again, silence returns to the chapel.

Chevalier's expression after hearing everything was not bright at all.

Chevalier: "… I don't want to say this out of my mouth, but…"

Chevalier: "The woman you like may be the most unhappy person in the world."

Gilbert: "It's obvious, isn't it? I'm the world disaster."

Chevalier: "There is that, but right now it's like..."

Gilbert: "Like what?"

Chevalier: "… Nothing, I thought something stupid."

Chevalier stands up gallantly after saying that his business is over and heads for the doorway.

He pushed open the heavy door without difficulty and stepped out into the blowing wind—

Gilbert: "Oh, I almost forgot. On a different note, I have a gift for Rhodolite."

With his back turned, Gilbert spins as if singing.

Gilbert: "Look forward to it, okay…?"

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Jin: "I'll disturb you."

Emma: "Oh, Jin?"

While I was helping with official duties in the foreign policy faction's office, Jin came in with a package of sweets in one hand.

Jin: "Oops, you're here too."

Emma: "Yes. I was originally scheduled to help out today…"

Jin: "It's rare that that bastard isn't there."

Nokto: "Jin is the same as always."

Clavis: "Haha, that's why being with Emma has become the norm."

Emma: "… I'm having a headache."

Jin: "Stretch your wings while you still can. By the way, have you seen Luke?"

(...? Jin, you seem to be less relaxed than usual.)

Emma: "I haven't seen him."

Clavis: "So do I. It's rare for him to participate in official business, is it?"

Nokto: "Well, but I certainly haven't seen him around lately. I did manage to get him to attend the memorial service, though."

Nokto: "… No, wait, Jin, is that honey candy?"

Jin: "Yes. I asked Yves to make it for me a while ago, and it's a real masterpiece."

Jin: "I'm walking around the place with this, but I haven't seen him at all."

Clavis: "Oh my…"

Nokto: "… It's a strange situation."

Emma: "What's wrong?"

(Everyone seems to have suddenly changed the look in their eyes.) **

Clavis: "Luke never misses a hint of honey, no matter how far away it is."

Nokto: "Whether he's on official business or eating, as long as he smells the honey, he'll definitely come."

(I-I didn't know he likes honey that much.)

Aside from Jin and Clavis, even Nokto has a straight face, so it must be true.

Jin: "… I've been noticing that he's been acting a little strange lately."

Jin: "I was just curious and wanted to talk to him…"

Clavis: "Hmm, really? I didn't notice anything unusual…"

Nokto: "Me too. I think you're thinking too much. He's probably sleeping somewhere."

Jin: "Then that's fine, but what kind of honey cake does he want to eat?" **

Clavis: "You're too soft on Luke."

Nokto: "That's why Luke is most attached to Jin."

(Come to think of it… I haven't seen Luke lately either.)

(I think that was the last time I saw him, except for the ceremony…)

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Jin: "You're looking a little pale, aren't you?"

Luke: "… It just looks that way because of the sunset."

Luke: "But if you're done with your business, let's go back home."

Emma: "Whoa, Luke!"

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Luke was not talking much that day.

Even after getting into the carriage, he seems to be lost in thought.

Emma: "… Shall I look for Luke, too?"

Before I knew it, those words were coming out of my mouth.

Jin: "But you, you're going through a difficult situation right now, aren't you?"

Clavis: "You can't stay in one room just because things are difficult."

Clavis: "A change of scenery is important. Isn't the air outside better when you're depressed?"

(Clavis…)

Clavis: "Cyril, just to be safe, you're coming with her. Or rather, from today onwards, you can be Emma's exclusive bodyguard."

Cyril: "Eh, is that okay? That's good, now I can get away from my troublesome master for the time being."

Cyril: "I'll do my best, so please look forward to it, young lady!"

Clavis: "… Oi."

(Yes, I wonder if it's okay. I'll have the head knight of the foreign policy faction as my escort…)

(But Cyril seems very happy… and I can't say I don't have a fear of being targeted myself…)

Emma: "Thank you very much. I'll take your word for it!"

Nokto: "I think he's the right person for the job. Cyril is a former Obsidian soldier, and he knows Gilbert, right?"

(Uhm.)

Cyril: "I'd say we've known each other, but that was a long time ago."

Cyril: "Well, I think I can stand up to Gilbert better than most soldiers."

(… So, Cyril, do you know the past of Prince Gilbert?)

I'm curious, but right now it's more about Luke.

Jin: "Sorry Emma, we'll have to split up to find him."