#she being abusive didnt even contribute shit to the story

[mikeellee]

Hi 👋

What are your opinions about mitsuki bakugo and what makes you think that she is a better mother than inko. I agree with you when it comes to this and I think shiggy had the best mum but I do just want you to go into deeper detail about it

Hi @bibibbon

First things first, I'm on my job right now (waiting instructions. I'm on my grace period) but I do have an answer for you.

I want to be clear I don't like the whole trope "slap on his head" even if is 100% harmless and comical. That being said, Mitsuki didn't slap on her son here bc she is EVIL and ABUSIVE. Bk was acting like an ass and she discipline him.

Yes, in real life such action would make people frown but like mha is not real. Plus, Asian moms can be like that. Hell, hispanic mom too.

"Behave or I'll use my sandals/chinelo on you"

I'm latina. I've seen rude kids being threaten by this to behave...hate or love, this alone is not indication of abuse. Its a way to make the kids not act rudely...in my time, there was spooky stories too. "If you do this, the monster will get you" you know? It's a tool. Not expert on motherhood but a mom disciplining her son is not always equal to ABUSE.

Also look at the image I shared...people are hanging up on hating Mitsuki for this panel but like ...her son is threating to beat her up. Look, BK has show to be rude with his mom (if he was being abuse...he wouldn't have provoked her)

*He calls her hag. What mom likes to be called that?

* I remember a short where Bk asks his father why he married his mom and then at the end he said "so you couldn't get rid of her" haha hilarious isnt it?😒 I think this one is in smash. I think.

Also...let's imagine this: IF she was abusing her son...what this adds to the story? Many fics use this trope to justify BK. "His mom was abusive" ok...and what about Izu? Is he not allowed to be angry? Is "Mitsuki is abusive" free jail card?

Also the fics NEVER gave us a reason as why this woman would abuse her son. "Abuse doesnt need to have a reason" I agree in parts, its just if you are to do a story like that usually has a trigger "she lost her job/lost her hubby/was abused as well"

Mitsuki has none of this.

"Why you think she is better than Inko?" Well, she does parenting! As much people may not like "the slap on his head" it's something. Inko does nothing!!!!

On the war arc 2 the eletrical bangaloo...Mitsuki is seen worried for her son "oh no. Its raining you know our son's quirk dont fare well under the rain"

Does Inko knows anything about her son's quirk? Nah. She just weeps and does nothing.

Like Inko is such shitty mom that she lives in an extreme scale. Either fics shows her as LE BEST MOM EVER (read a fic where Inko was OP and her son is still abused and still asks for her to not hurt "kaachan"😒) or the worst mom ever. (One where she was happy her son got a quirk so now she can gave a life. She is going out and is barely at home, in essence abandoning her son, bk calls her auntie and still abuses Izu)

Nao is the best mom. No questions here. I dont like how all the Shimuras arent important.

Also she and Mitsuki are good moms.

The mc ...is saddle with his abuser and a pretty neglectful mom.

Not of the implication "Inko was thin but thanks to Izu being quirkless she got fat"

I dont think Inko has maturity to be a mom...but I see her as a lonely person who wanted to have a family.

She is a pathetic and sad character.

But hey this is a fandom where people say "Shig is so deep" and sigh...what can we do?

[konnoiseur]

i would genuinely like a bumbleby stan to tell me what about bumbleby they like. the only thing i like about them is complimentary colors and thats simply NOT enough for me. i feel like a lot of bumbleby stans is just sunk cost fallacy because it took TEN FUCKING YEARS for two girls to kiss on screen.

because really??? a LOT of the stuff that "sets bmblb up" is a LOT of fan conjecture. shit about their eye colors matching each others auras and shit? thats all fan theory DESPITE the fact that colors ARE important in this world and color matching could have been set up!

the problems i have with bumbleby are NUMEROUS and all factually supported by the show; neither were present for the main bulk of each others arc, with the exception of yang helping kill adam there at the end, which completely ended all of blakes contributions to the story at large. she ceased to give a shit about faunus rights or combating the schnee legacy despite being in mantle/atlas, despite SITTING IN THE SCHNEE MANOR, until vol9 when suddenly shes been suffering under the weight of being a bridge between humans and faunus ?? ok. and blake wasnt present for ANY of yangs arc, her recovery or meeting her mother, or confronting her to get the lamp.

"oh" i hear you say "but their arcs extend all the way back to volumes two and three! remember those bumbleby scenes??" you mean the one where yang was explicitly racist to blake, and then shoved her, a visibly exhausted minority, into a desk and said "you couldnt even stop me" before hugging her, a pretty explicit lovebomb move? or do you mean the part where blake explicitly compared yang to adam, her violently abusive ex, and asked yang to apologize or deny it and instead yang doubled-down and didnt apologize? we can keep going back to when yang (and the other girls) happily massacred a train full of faunus minorities that were being taken advantage of by a human, and how none of them has ever had to grapple with that

also, as much as i like the color symbolism, i just cant move past how blake is just like raven; dark hair, big eyes, stealthy ninja type fighting (at least originally), a self described coward who runs and runs-- and how yang is just like adam; prone to violence, prone to showboating, similar semblances, both disabled at the hands of monsters. blake and yang are so representative of the worst parts of each others lives and its too much!

theres not enough "good" about bumbleby to justify the amount of time it took to be canon, not to mention the suspicious timing of it; you mean to tell me that in the volume of reactionary content, after the company just spent two years getting lambasted for being violently homophobic and racist and generally problematic that NOW is suddenly the moment theyve been planning towards for ten years? okay eat my ass lol

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[too-much-sunshine]

Fangs for the Hospitality

Chapter 4

Summary: After Roman leaves his family reunion mad at Remus, his car breaks down. The huge snow storm forces him into the forest hes always been told to stay away from. Who will he meet? And why are they being so nice? Most importantly, why are his teeth so sharp?

A/N: My self-indulgent magic/vampire fic! Let me know if I need to tag something or you wanna be tagged!

Relationship: Familial DAM, Eventual Roceit, Eventual Intrulogical

Warnings (per chapter): Small reference to past child abuse, mention of late parents, let me know if there anything else!

Catch up!: Master list, Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3

Word Count: 1869

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Remus sat on the steps of his childhood house. Or well...mansion. Even he could recognize that this wasn't a house. It definitely wasn't a home either. 

He had his head in his hands thinking about everything that happened that night that led up to this point. He really, really messed up.

It wasn't that Remus thought that nothing bad would happen when he told that rumor to his mother. In fact he was quite hopeful some shit would go down. His mother would be the best to win over with her propensity for being very gullible. Then he was hoping he could just coast along to victory after she believed him. Sadly that worked and bit too well.

Remus knew everyone was hoping Roman would finally contribute to the family. So by giving him and wife, fake or not, would alleviate the worry in the family. They wouldn't question it too much. What he didn't account for was the fact that Roman never wanted that kind of attention.

Remus was kicking himself remembering the look on his brother's face as he ran from the ballroom. He looked scared and shook up. Remus was hoping he would take it as a joke, or at least play along until Remus could dispel the rumor. But It was already too late.

He ran right out the door and into the car and away before Remus could catch him. Which leaves Remus on the front porch in the snow regretting most of this night.

Remus just thinks too fast most of the time. Never being able to stop the next thought even if the first one isn't finished yet. It's not an excuse for putting Roman on blast, but it is a reason. He just never thought though to the consequences before he opened his mouth. The fact of the matter is that he should of asked Roman before he talked to anyone.

 Remus gave a heavy sigh as Remy came up from behind him. 

“Listen babe, you should come back inside for a bit. I’ll drive you home once nobody is looking for us.” He said solemnly.

“Where do you think he went? There so much snow, that car is a piece of shit and hes freaking the fuck out.” Remus said back, not hearing, or not caring about, Remy's first statement.

“I’m sure he’ll be fine. Its fucking cold out here Rems. Lets go inside and talk about th-”

“NO! Remy you don't get it! Who knows what he could be doing or thinking! I never think! After all these years he's been the person this family hated the most and I certainly never helped him!” Remus stood up and started yelling at the snow falling. “I’m his twin brother and even I treat him so poorly.”

“I hear what you're saying and I raise you, you are the only one who has ever stuck by him. Yes you fucked up today Remus but he’s bound to forgive you. You have your own issues Rems. He knows you didn't mean it. Just give him a bit to calm down.”

“I know he’ll forgive me. He always does. He's the kindest person in the whole bitch ass family! But no one has ever been the same to him!” Remus groaned loudly at the sky. 

Remus turned back to look at Remy, who was still standing and shivering on the porch. Remy looked over Remus and nodded his head.

“You’re right. But you and him stick together. Just let him go for a bit. We’ll find him tomorrow.” Remy pulled a set of keys out of his coat pocket. “For now I’m sure that nobody is looking for us since no one came after us. Come home with me and then we will find him. Grab his coat before we leave though.”

Remus huffed then nodded back. He walked back inside to grab both him and Romans coats from the coat rack. He doesn't feel any better from what happened. He’ll have to have a long talk with Roman to try and figure this out. 

Remus walked out the front door to Remy's car.

 ~~~

Janus walked through the halls of his house, away from the guest rooms. He knew that there was no way that anyone could go in or out of that room without his knowledge. But that did little to alleviate his worry of having this stranger in his house. 

There was so much unknown with this stanger. How could he see Janus’ house from the road? That road was miles away from his house, and it is heavily snowing. Even if he could for some reason have seen his house, there should have not been a way for him to just wander into the forest. 

These woods were not the typical thick forest that one may travers as they want. Janus didn't want to say it had a mind of its own, but they may be the best way to describe it. It just...played by its own rules. He needed to go to his library and, though he didn't really want to, call a friend over. Maybe they would know more than he would about these things. ‘They probably won’t but it’s worth a shot.’ Janus thought.

Janus continued meandering his way to his home library, thinking of the possibilities of why this Roman could walk into the woods. 

‘I’ve lived in this damn forest for over a century and I’ve never met someone like this.” Janus thought. ‘It should have just sent him away. Humans can't walk in here. I certainly couldn't so why him?’ As Janus continued his inner monologue he passed by his son's door. Realizing this he stopped and took a step back.

Janus realized that before he goes to his library to inevitably get lost in his thoughts and books, he should check on his two sons. The night had had a lot of excitement; it had been just short of a nightmare getting the two to sleep.

He made sure to put the stranger into the room furthest away from any of the living quarters that either his kids or himself used. That being said, his room was the closet, then Virgils, the last being Pattons. 

He first peeked into little Virgil's room. The 3 year old was sleeping soundly in his crib. The poor child had the hardest time sleeping without some sort of song sung beforehand, not that Janus minded. He's pretty sure he would do just about anything for the little boy. He was just about ready to move into an actual bed, which Janus was not looking forward to. He's growing up too fast.

He still remembered when Virgil was a baby. He was so small and fragile. Janus has done many things in his life he was not proud of, but taking Virgil in will never be one of them. He will admit that taking in the infant was not what he had planned that day but he's forever glad he did.

He was a hard baby to take care of too. He was a mix of two beings that were told to never be together. And instead of punishing the parents, they went after the small child instead. Virgil was in pain most of his first months of life. His little body is a mix of things that have never been mixed. Janus was so glad he grew out of the pain, even if he still needed a little help sometimes. 

Taking little Virgil from his crib turned prison, was one of the best decisions of his entire life. 

Smiling softly at the sleeping child, Janus stopped his walk down memory lane. He was just so glad to have Virgil with him. Janus was determined to give this child a second chance that nobody else was willing to give him.

He silently closed the door to move to Pattons door. He cracked the door open in on the 8 year old. Luckily, he too was sound asleep. 

He's had Patton longer than he's had Virgil, but he didnt take Patton in as young as Virgil. He still thinks about Patton's story and gets a bit misty eyed. Janus had been great friends with Patton's biological parents, and though Patton didn't remember them much, Janus did. They were amazing forest witches and had a love for nature. They are the most loving people. Distantly Janus thought that you'd have to be to be friends with him. 

He would always rather have Patton's biological parents here, but he will never ever regret agreeing to being Patton's godparent. After Pat's parents passed, and he was left in Janus care, it was a large learning curve on how to be a parent. But now he wouldn't trade either of his sons for all the power in the world. 

Patton had scared Janus so bad when he opened the door for the stranger. Yes Pat wasn't used to visitors. But he was taught from a young age to never open the door alone. Janus had always preached safety to them both for fear of what lurked around in the woods. Pat was lucky the person behind the door was actually a person. They were going to have to reiterate the rules of the front door once the morning hit.

Closing the door to his son's room he finally let out his last strained sigh. It's been a long night even though it's already 2am. 

Finally catching some calm, Janus made his way just past his two sons' rooms into the fairly large library. The circular room went from the first floor all the way up to the third, and even a bit into the attic. It could be entered from any of those levels as well. Each shelf was completely filled with books. 

This is the place where he spends arguably the most time. Even his sons would hang out here with him. There just so many things that can be learned here.

Speaking of learning things, he needed to find out who the hell Roman was. There was no way this guy was who he said he was if he was able to see and walk into the forest. There were many things that could be happening here. Though Janus thought there were a few that were more likely than others.

No matter what though, Janus thought that there was no way in heaven or hell that Roman was trustworthy. 

Running his hands down the spines of the books and he walked around the room, Janus was looking for a specific book. After a few minutes of reading through the books with his fingertips he finally found the right book: ‘The Complete Book of Different Beings, Magic and Otherwise.’

“A-ha!” He whispered triumphantly. “This should be it!”

Taking the book to the corner of the room, Janus sat in his favorite chair. Not for the first time he's glad he doesn't need to sleep, he's gonna be here for a while. The book itself was quite large and he really didn't know where to start with Roman. 

With a contented sigh Janus opened the book, and started at the beginning.

~~~

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[cybernightwanderer]

“ My Reiki and Yoga New Free Soul Brother - Once an abuser manipulative thieve , money driven leach “

Well thats a big tittle to describe one person entirely. So my ( midle ) brother across my kid years and then teenager developing to adult, my brother was an interesting person. For example, in school my brother would pretend he didnt know me , and if i even dared to aproach him he would shame me in front of everyone, even thought they already knew i was his sister, i was bullied a lot in school so at the start i tried a few times reaching out to him , specially because i didnt have any friends and id always be alone. This motherfucker who was already a teenager completly dismissed me , BUT would actually seek me out or talk to me when he needed lunch money because he already “ spent his”, funny enough hed get mine to eat coz he didnt wanna use his, and if i didnt gave him even though i hadnt eaten , he would guilty me badly , and being the kid that i was , my brother was everything to me , even tho he didnt gave a shit about me.

So in consequence i started drawing a distance line between me and him, at home id start to distance myself and ignore him. And he started getting like a really attention whore, hed always annoye me , and force me to hangout, and i didnt he would threaten me or do some shit at the house and blame me for it , because my mother at the tinniest shit at home would beat the crap out of me , so me being the little kid that i was tired of getting beatings for no random reason , id play along. My brother would literally antagonzie me and scare the shit out of me while so. Everytime my family went anywhere , for example the beach, id try to go to the water alone for some peace this motherfucker would sneak behind me and try to drown me as a joke , like every 5 minutes, id yell in panic and my mom wouldnt do shit, eventually id end up actually chocking on water and  hit my head on the sand and cry the rest of the time. So yeah FUN ! Did my mom do anything ? ofc no , “ hes just playing around “. I had BD collections that id buy with my lunch money that sometimes id save up, disney movie cassettes and so on. Sometimes id have snacks in my room to eat when studying or something. My brother, being a full grown ass teenager that he was , would steal everything without me even catching a glimpse of it. My brother would “ borrow “ things without asking then hide them because he wanted. I had two final fantasy collectible caracters that i spent my leftover bday money on, and my brother would take it as his own. Yes because whatever birthday money i got wether it be 50 euros or even 20 from my grandma or aunt, my mom would take it “ borrowed” for herself with no justification, shed always say “ Ah lend me i need it  / or / I always buy you clothes and everythings, i buy you food , you owe me this , thats the minimum you could do / “ or / she would just take it without me knowing , she would inspect my bday gifts and take it before hand , the problem is that my grandma or aunt would always after if i was gonna save it up and id ask what and they would question what i did with the money and i would ask what money and blah blah , you get where this is going.

OH and if i didnt give my money the money she would beat me up ! wich is funny asf. My brother literally sold all my things behind my back, my original BDS, MY FUCKING POISON IVY STORYLINE BD, my disney cassetes , my collectibles, and my snacks he would steal and eat. If i had saved up money hidden, first he would try to borrow it and guilty me with the “ im such a good brother to you , you cant even lend me money ? i will pay you back, trust me “ ... ofc he never payed me back , but every two weeks he woul do this shit. And if i by any chance didnt gave him , hed just steal, or sell my things, wich regardless of me lending him , he would do it anyway. Fast forward to my early teenage years, i had to start working , i quit school because we entered that internet deth with my moms company, wich my brother also contributed to but let the blame to me ofc, i was already the punch bag of the family what is one more thing. My brothers were always my moms “ babies “ even tho one was already a full grown ass man and the other was already on his way. My brother did nothing at home , didnt take the dog outside, didnt take out the trash, didnt make food, didnt wash the dishes, didnt clean the house, basicly sit on his ass all day playing video games and eating, and selling my shit for money. My brother was unemployed for 3/4 years in between those i studied and worked at the same time , and did all the house chores, even if i had to walk the dog as 2/3 am after work i would have to, even tho my brother was in bed all day. My mom would literally yell at me and make my life a living hell and threaten to hit me if i didnt do it or even dared to complain. I would get home trying to study , trying to recorver at school ,and she would yell non stop until i didn every house chore, wich i would only manage to finish at midnight or later, and then id be too tired and unmotivated to do anything so id just sleep, and id always get late to class thanks to that. When my brothers started working, it was at my dads wearehouse, where i was forced to work too. Id work 8 to 10 hours , sometimes more, because we got payed by publicity stock packs, each pack was worth 1 euro, wich also 1 pack took 1 hour and 15/20 minutes to make. So if i wanted to make the day worth anything i had to rush , no eating breaks or pee breakes. My hands at the end of the day would literally be filled with newspaper and printed paper ink and dirk, and tons of cuts and sores , that would be leeched in paper ink, wich make it hurt even more at the end of the day, and was really hard to take it out. My brother would take breaks every 30 minutes to smoke , be on his phone or even go to bathroom or eat randomly, i wouldnt stop the 8 hours straight, and when i actually had to go to the bathroom or eat something because id get sick, my brother literally stole packs from me, or try to “ negociate my help for X “, the thing about my brother is that hed always try to negociate something , ofc it was always entangled for his own benefit and not both.

So it was like this my brother came up to me all excited and say “ oh if you do this to help me , ill split the profit that way we will make more and will be less exausting “ stupid like i was id always give in, specially because if i didnt  hed steal anyway.... Hed always change his methods and works, and guilty me if i didnt do it, so id always have to do so. If i didnt hed just change the pack registration list either way, without me even seeing it, and fake my signature, i only found out we had to sign an official paper a few months later when my dad asked, before that my brother would always tell me to note them on my phone then send the numbers by the end of the week, and since he was the bosses son , every one backed up that story ofc.  Eventually when i started to get older , i cut ties with my brothers and dad. And my ( midle ) brother was constantly trying to reach out and play nice and shit , also he was still working at the wearhouse . Anyway , fast forward when i got unemployed after the 5 star hotel due to rape attent and shit like that, i was unemplyoyed for 4 moths?! My brother tried to reach out , and even came home before my mother to try and persuade me to enter one of his schemes, i explained to my brother that i didnt have any money and that i wouldnt believe anymore of his stupid schemes and blah blah. He swore he was only trying to make up to me , and the plan was , i would pretend to work at my dads  wearehouse, but i would just be there 2 times a week and he would give me a cut of the protfit, coz if he didnt want my dad to hire some random slow guy, so he set up to do a two persons work, and give me 30 % of the monthy rate and all i had to do is show up a few times for my dad to see i was there, and then go home. That motherfucker insisted for 3 days straight promissing it wasnt a scheme and that he was serious this time. OBVIOUSLY THAT DIDNT HAPPEN OBVIOUSLY- with the last 10 euros i had, i bought train tickers to the wearhouse, the first week he actually stick to his word, a few days later the shit started, he actualy forced me to deliver shit and stuff. Wich for me was really difficult because its when i started to develop hernias, and the pain was too overwhealming, and that fucker didnt care and still forced me to, eventually i told him i was out , and found out he still used my name in his shit plan  and pretended i was still working there to my dad for two whole months , and then begged me to lie to my dad on the phone, hed literally call me before my dad trying to get me to lie, and promissing the money, and hed ask my mom to pressure my to help him. What could i do??!! what happend after you may ask? did my brother gave me the money? OFC NO ! NO! He gave me 115 euros of the cut , and he made 996 euros to himself. And told me it was only for the days “ i actually worked “  NEVER IN MY LIFE  I VERBALLY EVER SAID TO ANYONE , FAMILY OR NOT  “ I hope you die, you are shit , you are nothing to me , seriously i hope you die “ and acually meant it and wished it. For the first time in my life i actually wished so hard for my brother to just die. I was done, i was officialy done , i had never been so done with someone. I was officialy done with my family. I blocked my dad on everything, i told my dad to fuck off. I told my older brother to fuck off. I told my middle brother to go die. And the last person was my dying grandma who was a snob ass piece of shit who only gave a shit about me when i was a little girl ( because its only cute when they r kids  ), to stop trying to call me and told her to just go and die. She literally sent me a voice message of 5 minutes crying beggin me to see her, and i just told her to go and die, its not because she is dying that is gonna erase the fact that she didnt gave a shit about me after i actually grown. And the fact that i did this apparently scared the shit out my dad and brothes, specially because i did it so naturally. AND TO THIS DAY I DONT REGRET WHAT I SAID AND I STILL DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HER. OH AND PLOT TWIST SHES NOT DEAD NOR WAS SHE DYING, LAST YEAR SHE TRIED TO SCHEME MONEY OUT OF MY MOM, AND BEFORE THAT SHE WOULD ALWAYS TREAT MY MOM LIKE SHIT AN CALL HER NAMES, FUNNY ! Now they try to sneak into my life really AGAIN ... ffs Since the end of last year, apparently my brother turned into reiki and yoga and shit and is now driving a motivational fuck page for people who wanna “ grow spiritually and open the third eye “ and is trying to reconnect with me again, obviously i cut him off before he could even talk to me. So he spent 3 months or so , coming here and trying, and since he didnt get anything since january and february hes trying to manipulate me behind my mother, my mother is venting to my brother about me being closed off to them , and my brother is DIAGNOSING ME AS A PROBLEM, BECAUSE HE IS SO WISE AND ENLIGHTED... WTF??? diagnosing me??? ur not a fucking therapist you asshole ! The other day i heard him tell my mother in the living room , that “ SHE CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ITS VERY TOXIC FOR HER, SHE HAS TO TALK TO YOU AND BE A BETTER SISTER AND DAUGHTER SHE NEEDS TO BLAH BLAH YOU NEED TO KICK HER OUT IF SHE IS LIVING OFF YOU  “ WHAT THE FUCK?? im living off my mother?? the woman that forced me to give her more than half of my paycheck, thats doesnt give me privacy or respect and that literally threatned me if i ever tried to leave that she would chase me down???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR SEND ME TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL????!!!! ... My older brother is doing the same, keeps trying to get me to go visit his kid, and to meet his kid, keeps trying to get my mother to see pictures of the kid or to call them. They keep trying to guilty me “ oh you cant take it out on the kid, its not the kids fault , he needs to know his aunt, you are his family “ BITCH FAMILY?????? FAMILY??? family doesnt mean shit. Yesterday even sent photos of his kid trought a new number LOL. I actually did went to the kids birthday, first time a few months ago, and guess what , my brother still the NO ONE ASKED- OPINIONATED asshole he was about my whole life, he literally takes one glimpse of me and judges my whole life and starts yelling shit at me ...ofc thats not gonna happend again. People dont change. People. dont. change. PEOPLE DONT CHANGE ! BITCH ?? WHAT? WHO THE FCK?? HOW THE FUCK??? In conclusion my brother is still the same piece of shit he was , and now even more narcisistic, and manipulative, he cant get what he wants from me , so now hes resourting to my mother again. I NEED TO LEAVE THIS HOUSE, I NEED TO LEAVE THIS FAMILY OMFG. Funny enough he does this shit then tries to get me to go to his house to celebrate his birthday because he “ MISSES ME AND THE OLD DAYS” ???? OLD DAYS OF YOU MENTALY ABUSING ME ? NOT TO MENTION THAT YOU ALMOST BROKE MY ARM BECAUSE I WOULDNT LEND YOU MY COMPUTER 3 YEARS AGO????? my mom literally told him we were gonna go there without even asking me if i wanted or even if i was gonna go. LOL, shes trying to emotionally manipulate me with older pictures of me and him , and games we would play together LOL. OMFG PLEASE SOME ONE, I DONT EVEN KNOW I NEED TO DIE OMFG... I CANT TAKE THIS FAMILY ANYMORE.

[dancing-with-dichotomies]

“Lone Pearl Cowgirl” Ch5 update/Important mentions

I've been feeling... Pretty super horribly awful down lately, like bottom of the bottom... Been fighting several things at once. A persistant seasonal depression, probably. My massive damn writing block that's haunted every single thing I've tried to write all this damn year, and part of the last too. My damned body that just Won't. Stop. Hurting. EVER...

And my abusive family, my family that is literally in a damn cult, my family that "lowkey" supported the second-coming of the worst kinds of evil, even though not a small portion of our family once escaped that... Them holding me down, manipulating me knowing I am disabled, isolating me all my life and using me...And I can only hope that being able to live away from them won't just be a dream when I'm disabled but can't get disability, live in one of the priciest damned states in the country, and my parents keep sabotaging me and using me and manipulating me. I've tried to claw myself away from them. It hurts to keep seeing them selfishly sabotage me and having others judge me. So much of my life hurts, but especially lately, around winter, around my birthday... And they always actively dunk on me harder around my birthday...

That, plus my pain increasing, and... and, and, and... Well, you probably already get it if yer one of the ones who even really cared, so I won't go on if yer not, but...

Anyways I feel like it so I wanna tell the people who REALLY helped me to survive what was one of the worst bouts of depression I've had in years, even knowing I generally get depressed periodically... You guys are really the ones who made a difference this time and you should know it.

crappy-crapolice  -- Change yer nickname already, Crappy. Yer the awesomest. XP XD Really dude, most of the time we just BS and have fun with various fandom shit, but you've seen me at my lowest points not just once but a few times, seen me get paranoid and doubt you a few times, but you've always been so patient and amazing about reminding me that it's my mental illness making me think/believe those things. And you've always been so great at reminding me when I need those reminders, but without judging me or shaming me. You've been so nice about really listening to my issues and realizing how many struggles I face that the average person doesn't, how I get way less help, way more demands, and way more obstruction than the average person, and you've showed me real sympathy instead of the usual "get over it already, nobody cares about what happened in your past only that you can contribute in the present" or "I'm sorry that happened to you, but also this bores me, can't we just talk about nice things 24-7..." type 'sympathy' most people settle for all too quickly... You've been the one to remind me of my own limitations when most people don't even want to hear about it, won't even let me finish before they judge me. Most just settle for assuming that someone in a bad position must deserve it. That they're not working hard enough or something. You're one of the few that really understood... Because you're one of the few who really listened long enough and didn't just blow me off or dismiss me. You treated me like I'm still a normal human being even when I've been in the midst of going kinda crazy from the stress, and that's what's managed to bring me back sometimes... Also, I hardly ever even TALK about the fandom we started out in anymore, I actually kinda dislike that fandom more than not after it all was over with, and you've still treated me like a friend. A lot of people would just drift away if you weren't interested in their fandom anymore. But you care about not just my other fandom interests too, but my original work. That really means a lot to me, NOT-Crappy. Thanks, dude. <3

Iris - People like you give me hope for the future. You work so incredibly hard for such a selfless cause. People even really mistreat doctors where you're from, and you're still determined to make it your life mission to heal and save and educate as many people as you can. Of course like I've told you to, you need to remember to make time for yourself! But I'm so incredibly grateful you've made time for me too... Again, we fandom BS a lot, but we also talk about the heavy stuff too, and I wanna let you know I appreciate it, that it helps make it feel lighter about it overall and I hope you do too. You always really listen and talk with me, have answered questions I've had, and are concerned about how I'm really feeling, instead of just rushing to cover up my troubles. It's doubly impressive that you manage to be so patient when you work so long and so hard. I have some pretty bad issues with feelings of being abandoned and "disappeared", so I really especially appreciate you talking me through that. It's also super impressive to me that despite us having a couple times where we both kinda unintentionally offended the other saying things that didnt quite come out right over the keyboard, that we managed to talk to each other about how we felt about it and clarify that no harm was meant. I know you're really busy and sometimes a while goes by where we don't talk, and even still it's easy to trust that you wouldn't just disappear on me, and that you'd really care if I truly disappeared too... I just want you to know. You're not just a My Hero-fan, you're a legit real life hero to me and I know to a lot of other people too. <3 <3

closet-cryptid/Michelle - We sometimes go a while without talking nowadays, I know we both know how hard it is with a little one, and that yer net sometimes goes in and out. But again, yer one of those friends I trust enough that it doesn't  matter. It actually amazes me even more because there was a time where we had a pretty big disagreement to say the least, and both said some pretty harsh things. I was fully prepared to burn our bridge of friendship, but to my deep surprise, you actually apologized some time later, and I did too, and I feel like we're better friends for it now. And again, yer one of those people who don't just  try to cover up troubles with fandom. We have our fun fandom discussions, but you've always been really willing to listen and really be sympathetic when I need to be sad too, you care about the real me and not just the me that made content for the fandom, and that's why we're still around to still putz about the fandom junk too. IZ FOREVER! XD (and I hope you and your sisters feel better too <3)

csp124 - Yer a newer friend, but yanno, you've proven to be a good one. Again, we can putz about fandom junk or other fun stuff, but you've been truly understanding about allowing me to talk about the bad junk that's been worrying my mind so much lately. You've been really helpful especially lately because you didn't just give up on me because my illness wouldn't let me stop "being negative" for a while, as some people reduce it to. Even though I didn't want to look on the bright side for a while, you kept bringing it up to me. It took a while, others gave up on me and got frustrated or angry with me, but you're one of the ones who kept being positive when you knew I -couldn't-, not that I just -wouldn't-, and understanding of my darkness too...

unified-multiversal-theory - Everybody here has helped me along a lot in various ways this year, but you've shown a special interest in my original work especially that really helped give me the inspiration I needed to get this latest chapter done. I feel so proud and relieved to have gotten chapter five finally done, and have more hope than I have in a while that the rest might be possible too. It's really deeply disheartening, a whole new level of isolation and depression, when so many people time and again, even other creators you'd hope would get it or at LEAST encourage you a LITTLE instead of being overly critical, especially those that get heaped with praise themselves, either ignore you completely/never give you a chance or even tear your creations down, claiming that they're trying to be "helpful/constructive". It's not that I can't handle constructive criticism, but I can recognize my characters being torn down by someone who is being overly critical because they dont really care one whiff about my work and REAL, ACTUAL -constructive- criticism like the kind you gave me, where you actually found a few errors that, while it depressed me for a moment to realize I had forgotten something so silly and needed to rewrite almost a while page because of it lol, IT ACTUALLY HELPED ME FINALLY FINISH THE DANG CHAPTER INSTEAD OF PARALYZING ME WITH DEPRESSION AND FEAR ABOUT MY ENTIRE WORK. You actually discussed my ideas and plot in detail and that's been so incredibly helpful. I know like Iris yer busy, so I wanted to say thank you for taking the time to help me with this especially. This work means more than a lot to me, a lot of people just blow it off like a silly story but it's SO much more than that. Helping me with this has really improved my outlook on life lately. I know everyone knows I love and live for my daughter, that she's the reason I keep existing... But she's not the reason I was made to exist in the first place. I feel like this story and her sister-stories are. Sometimes I confuse it because everything is confusing in this world, and because there's a sea of people who think the crazy shit Christians and Muslims and men in general do makes sense but somehow I'M the really crazy one, but... Just, thanks. I just feel a lot saner now that I made progress on something that means so much to me, and to know there's at least a few people out there who also really take interest in and appreciate it. <3

itsmorethanjustafantasy - We actually don't talk too much at all lol, here and there we talk a bit about fandom, but yanno... I just wanted to mention again how nice I think you are for sending people holiday well-wishes. Growing up with 90+% of my family in the Jehovah's Witnesses cult, and because of how sick I was growing up, my birthday and other holidays were especially hard times for me. Always on the outside looking in. Trained to tell other people it didn't matter and reject any holiday wishes or gifts given to my face when they were around, but deep down always feeling so lonely and isolated and excluded. You're one of those people who just out of the blue wishes people well on the holidays. For most people it's probably just nice. I just wanted you to know it did a little more for me though. It was nice to do for me, but it also made me feel included, and like someone remembered me. Thank u for that. Belated Happy Halloween, and upcoming Merry Christmas!

In general, there were a few other people that popped in when I was temporarily mad with grief and pain and helped talk to me about the rough stuff, bookrebelwordwarrior, kendallandherstuff, and a handful of others, sorry if it's been a while and I forgot anyone specific, but yeah. To everyone who really helped me and and didn't just give up on me, who not just remembered the good in me, but helped me to eventually see it again too, and help that goodness actually -grow-... Help bring out what -I- feel is really the best of me, not what others want me to be... Thank you. I can't say I'll never be depressed again, I've seen too much and there's so much stacked against me, but I'll try my best to keep trying, to keep believing progress is possible even when it feels like your life is currently stagnant and there's an ocean of people who don't care if you die or that you even ever existed. It's sad that there's so few, but life is just barely bearable when people really show they care. <3

So, consider this latest chapter of Lone Pearl,  "Faithful Phil and the Martyred Mother", dedicated to you guys. <3

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20041537/chapters/51013765

[34rfrees3s34]

Glitchedpuppet/Glip/Purplekecleon and Lexy Eevee are on Mastodon

https://awoo.space/@glip // screenshot

https://mastodon.social/@eevee // screenshot

Warnings for child sexual abuse, CSA, pedophilia

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its time for me to talk about these people. eevee has been on mastodon.social for awhile now and glip just joined awoo.space. i thought for awhile people were not aware of any sort of claims against eevee or who they were affiliated with, but ive begun to realize that in fact no. people are actually aware of the claims, theyre just only hearing eevee's side of it because of his place in the tech community. im fed up fediverse. ive lost countless friends and communities for this, so even though i hate having to be the one to do it, here it comes regardless.

this thread will compile verifiable evidence (aka "not screenshots"). i am not going to speak on the current legal allegations which may never be confirmed/denied, only actions which are archived and shouldnt be overlooked when considering their involvement in our community. i will not be speaking on the issue with marl. marl stayed behind the scenes, i suspect theres a reason for it but that can only be speculation on my part. marl is not on mastodon so im focusing on eevee and glip right now.

to preface this i feel the need to remind everyone that these people have following and support. this is probably self evident but im not just trying to throw anyone under the bus because i dont like them. eevee is a moderately well known programmer/website host and glip is a successful artist. both of them have been around online for a long time, so personally im not gonna hear that theyre the sole victims of 4chan smear campaign. this is the result of long term bad behaviour.

im not here to laugh at these people. i dont think theres anything funny about this situation. i am being as wordy as possible because i see these people being wordy as hell to cover it up too. if youre willing to read their paragraph long posts on patreon pleading for acceptance on behalf of their "poor cute oddball family," you can read this too.

im a completely uninvolved party, but i think they pose a real threat. the extent of my involvement is that i was a fan of glip when they were known as PK (okay bear with me i am bad at numbers/time but i think i was aged 14-15 or something probably), i was not involved in PMD-E and i didnt go to their servers. later i found their porn blog, by then i was around 18-19 at the time i think, so i just wrote it off as "gross," because while im not a fan of porn in the first place i especially think its uncomfortable to see it with childhood based characters. its one of those things i wouldnt have thought about as a minor but i began to realize as i aged. whatever, anyways.

it was only after i stopped following them that i discovered what was going on. so this isnt any kind of grudge, i assure you. i will refer the kiwifarms thread but i took no part in it. ive never met or talked to these people and i never will. also before you suggest it, no im really not going to try to talk to them. countless people have tried to talk to them. i have read many of their posts and claims. i do not trust them. i am staying the fuck away from them.

i know people are invariably going to say to me "well kiwifarms dug this up so you cant trust it!" and to a degree i get it. i do not support kiwifarms for their harassment and mob mentality in general. they are hugely homophobic/transphobic and if it were not for the "funny drama" i think they would have ignored the fact that glip drew child porn as well because they dont give a fuck about lolicon/shotacon.

but i am not going to throw information under the bus just because of where it came from, these people are riding on the hope that people wont be willing to dig through tons of information from kiwifarms to uncover what theyve done. people NEED to pay attention to this if theyre going to have these people in their circles. the admins of awoo.space and mastodon.social are to be held responsible for giving these people platform. these people cannot undo the harm which they've willfully perpetuated, no amount of apologies can ever make up for this. get them out of our spaces.

this thread will not be a complete example of their behaviours by any means and i do believe the kiwifarms thread has a lot of it which should be looked at and accounted for when judging this. i believe they have been a danger to children on the internet for a long time in more ways than one. i think it started as smug/dramatic deviantArt personalities and grew into something hideous. there are accounts of them harassing and making fun of other artists and children (and i still see them doing it), but i am focusing on the more immediately harmful stuff.

finally i would like to remind people that this entire group of people has stuck together through these allegations, for that reason i feel we shouldnt overlook eevee’s actions for glip’s, or glip’s actions for marl’s. theyre all aware of whats going on and this is only going to give them more leeway when being faced with these serious problems. they’re going to rely on each other for as long as they can slide by doing that.

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eevee defending ownership of child porn- SCREENSHOT (including just because its easier to read): https://kiwifarms.net/attachments/eevee-defend-jpg.38156/

ARCHIVES (for confirmation): http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244965411521708032 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244966006211092480 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244976970209837056 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244978882191695872 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244985791657426946 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244990121911414784 http://tweetsave.com/eevee/status/244993723384078336

eevee in response to someone talking about their actual, real CSA says he wishes that was him (its 10 years old but shouldnt be thrown aside)- ARCHIVES: https://archive.is/5JTEL#selection-2833.0-2833.57

glip's collection of child porn which she drew herself of her own characters (yes these ones are screenshots hosted on kiwifarms but you cant fake that much art)- THREAD LINK: https://kiwifarms.is/threads/melanie-herring-purplekecleon-pk-papayakitty-glitchedpuppet-floraverse-forbidden-flora.5567/page-514#post-2411146

ARCHIVES: http://oresund4.rssing.com/chan-3345726/all_p11.html

glip includes a ball gag as an accessory in a deviantArt roleplay game (PMD-E) she and the group hosted which was knowingly comprised of mostly children- ARCHIVE: https://comments.deviantart.com/1/290954538/2461459333?offset=0#comments // archive

glip also then took the ideas of that project and turned it into a physical doujin to sell, note some of these are the same characters those children interacted with in the ARPG and she still continues to include children in the stories themselves: ARCHIVE (page is SFW but comes from a doujin she published): https://archive.is/3ObC1#selection-435.8-435.19

here's her character from PMD-E having sex with a child- ARCHIVE !!!VIEW WITH EXTREME CAUTION!!!: https://archive.is/YlCzT

more "dubious age" character porn LINK WITH ARCHIVES INSIDE !!!VIEW WITH EXTREME CAUTION!!!: https://kiwifarms.is/threads/melanie-herring-purplekecleon-pk-papayakitty-glitchedpuppet-floraverse-forbidden-flora.5567/page-515#post-2411705

she tags her own porn with shotacon- LINK WITH ARCHIVES INSIDE: https://kiwifarms.is/threads/melanie-herring-purplekecleon-pk-papayakitty-glitchedpuppet-floraverse-forbidden-flora.5567/page-515#post-2411899

she even contributes to a cub porn/shotacon magazine, credited as 'papaya kitty': ARCHIVES !!!VIEW WITH EXTREME CAUTION!!!: https://archive.fo/jaHzt https://archive.fo/IczP7

HERES ANOTHER POST I FOUND WHICH OUTLINES SOME MORE QUESTIONABLE SHIT AS WELL:

https://bestofglitchedpuppet.tumblr.com/post/162852252909/callout-glitchedpuppet

[mystech-master]

one thing I dont get is why people say ragna is dumb filling the typical shonen manga protagonist role of being book dumb but good at fighting, and why rachel like in chronophantasm extend where we got to see abridged version of CS mocks ragna for not heeding her warnings that ragna couldnt beat terumi when she didnt tell him about terumi creating the grimoire and being able to shut it down or being vague

Ah finally, an actual question from you.

Yeah that’s one thing I dislike about Rachel. I mean I GET that she has to be vague due to her being the Onlooker, and saying too much might count as “interfering” with someone who is as directly involved as Ragna, but she should know that she sounds like she’s just saying “You suck, you can’t win” like she always has said, and doesn’t let Ragna know what the real issue is.

I mean her and Jubei both give Ragna these cryptic warnings, almost like they expect him to KNOW all the timeloop bullshit going on (shown in Ragna’s alt ending w Jubeiand Rachel’s alt ending with him in CT). Ragna at that moment in the story, has NO reason to give a fuck about being a “Guardian of the Azure” or to give a shit about the world in any way.

Ragna’s “world” was his family: The Sister, Saya, and Jin. But that is GONE now. And to him, the world outside of that is full of assholes who treat you like hell. I mean his first years of his life are being a lab rat. I feel like this contributes greatly to his rebellious and asshole nature, those scientists wouldn’t listen to being nice or anything like that, so Ragna had to get loud and mean for them to fuck off. It is literally his survival method. But everyone is just expecting him to just let go of that, and do good just because “it’s the right thing to do.”

Think of Superman, would Supes be the same hero if he didn’t have the small town origins, and wasn’t raised by good folks like the Kents?

It’s the whole nature and nurture kind of thing, and since Ragna and his sibs are artificial humans, the nature part is kind of out the window, and the first years of their lives....they weren’t exactly “nurturing” to say the least.

It may be selfish, but you can’t just tell someone, “do the right thing” after they just went through hell/an abusive childhood”. As I learned in my economics class in high school: “Self interest that benefits others is what makes the world go ‘round.”

Stop expecting Ragna to save the world when the world has done nothing but treat him like ass outside of like 2 people, at that moment in time.

Although I will admit one thing, Ragna does also fall into the “do what I want and don’t ask questions” shit that Rachel and Kokonoe do sometimes, shown when dealing with Noel in CP and CF. When he grabbed her b/c he needed her to find Kushinada’s Lynchpin, Kagura thought he was attacking her and Ragna got captured. In CF, he was trying to reunite Noel with Mu, but b/c Noel was suppressing her Mu side she got all freaked out and Ragna was scolded. So he kind has his moments as well.

As for Intelligence, I actually had a HC for that. I remembered a quote from Einstein that said:

“Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.”

So that got me thinking, what kind of intelligence does Ragna fit into?

As some of us know, there are the 9 Types of intelligence. And the one I thin Ragna fits into best is Naturalist Intelligence.

My evidence:

1. He grew up with Jubei in the wild during his late adolescence and early adulthood, where this kind of Intelligence could grow

2. cooking is an ability which matches with this kind of intelligence, which happens to be Ragna’s hobby

3. Some of the characteristics of Naturalist Intelligent people:

being comfortable with animals. In Ragna’s case: cats. As I have mentioned like ten times before, the Kaka Clan is where he was the most chill in the whole series.

Having keen senses (sight, hearing, sense of touch and smell, and may even have a well developed “sixth sense”), needed for a guy so deep in combat, and said “sixth sense” was show  in CT when he sense Jubei, or even in BBTAG when he sensed Ruby’s “bloodlust”

Learns though natural contact....which I believe can also fit into “Live and Learn”, I mean one type of learning is kinisthetic learning, where you actually need to experience/do something in order to learn. Many protags seem to be like this because they, and also we the audience, need to see exactly how shit happens and works in the show/game/movie.

and 4. This mostly comes from the anime, the episode with Lambda (the one everyone agrees was one of the few good things about it), not only was he able to identify that the Tartar from Arakune got food or nutrition AND that the big blob was like his own little ecosystem (when any other dumbass protag might’ve just said he was filthy and had bugs...I mean I would’ve thought that and I don’t think I’m stupid), BUT was able to know that Aqualeaf (the plant he used to help the Tartar...which btw ties into the animal thing I mentioned) was able to grow around that area. Which MIGHT imply that he is familiar with what plants grow in what environment at what altitude.

He might not be able to understand feelings, complex math equations, or half the shit that Rachel says (seriously in almost every scene with her I learn a new word or phrase), but that doesn’t mean he’s stupid. His intelligence just lies in other areas.

I mean if the guy had some positive encouragement and some time to actually develop this type of intelligence, he surprise some people.

[midwestgender]

imma talk abt megan is missing under the cut heavy tw for discussion of fictional csa and fictional kidnapping/rape. also spoilers obviously lmao. 

i think megan is missing kinda sucks for a variety of reasons so im gonna preface with that and then talk abt parts that i liked/would like to comment on. i honestly didnt notice this scene in the movie, thats how glossed over it is, but i read in some commentary that there is a black child who is missing mentioned in one of the news broadcasts and then they are never mentioned again. this is apparently supposed to be a nod or some shit to how real life media treats black children compared to white girls who are missing but honestly its just... silly of them because this movie isn’t SUPPOSED to be about the media, it is heavily about the interpersonal life of megan and her kidnapping in a very personal way. it would have been EASY to make megan a woc. (and if you want to argue that a good portion of the movie is newscasts and, to some point those DO contribute to the points made in the movie- make amy a woc. she is barely mentioned when it comes to newscasts anyways, and honestly if you want to be 'realistic’ (as this movie obviously is trying to be), the movie woud be IMPROVED by amy being a woc. also honestly. this movie was made in 2011 and by that point in time the entire ‘internet predator thing’ was OVERDONE. so i dont really understand the whole ‘spreading awareness’ thing. like who are we spreading awareness too? because according to the movie the people who need to be aware are young teenage girls but... clearly this movie is not marketed towards that demographic, considering its rated r. the movie can basically be split into the first hour of the movie and then the last 25 minutes. the first 10 of the last 25 minutes are... very unneceessary imo and seem straight out of a dark fetish website LMAO. like not needed whatsoever.  the last part of it (which admitabbly i watched in 2x speed because who has time for that) is very heart wrenching and sad but ultimately... what point did it make? idk. 

i did like megans charecterization, and honestly i did enjoy her actress a lot. however that is DEFINETELY not how teenagers interact lol. maybe i just wasnt a teen in the 2000s but it seemed very unrealistic just the way they spoke to eachother, but also that might have just been dramatized. however as someone who has been in mental hospitals and MET girls like megan, girls who have been abused from a young age who are willing to talk about it so blatantly, i thought this was a well done character in that sense. i thought the scene where megan talks about being sexually assaulted at camp to amy was SUPER well done, and ive honestly been in very similar situations myself. the way megan talks about it casually, as if shes talking about a normal consensual sexual encounter, the way she grins during it (which grinning when recounting trauma is a very common thing) and glosses over everything. amy kind of .... matching her energy but in sort of a shocked way? because amy obviously doesn’t know what to say, and the way megan poises herself she’s not asking for help or comfort (although, in some ways, she is) so amy just treats it like her friend is telling a story (and amy is ONLY friends with megan and megans friends who are... not normal teens, but to amy it seems like megan and her friends are the norm. so when mega tells this story, amy might just assume that the majority of other teen girls have had encounters like megan, which isn’t true but amy doesnt have a huge frame of reference) amy occasionally will ask ‘did you scream?’ and megans face will flicker, because she is being forced to encounter the fact that this was a traumatic situation, and then she’ll brush it off and continue the story. i really liked that scene and the silent hug scene after megan talked abt being sexually assaulted by her stepfather. (and in this scene megan is willing to view it as traumatic, and she talks about it very sadly, and even to someone like amy it would be clear that this is Not Normal, so thats why the hug happens here, whilst in the chat about the camp counselor amy doesn’t offer comfort) 

idk i could talk more abt it but overall it was pretty good, if a bit problematic. to my knowledge it didnt have that big of a budget so. idk . just word vomit here. 

[baebeyza]

I wanna learn more about Szorkach! because tbh i think he's my favorite out of your OCs so far (and he's totally not my phone wallpaper atm) 💙

Okay sweetheart, lemme just add a bunch of my favourite art of him:

XDDDAnyways, to his story:Szor’s story begins with the fact that in my story undead’s have the same status as everyone else, but only on the surface - if you didn’t live in the undead country Nera, you had a shit life as an undead.But let’s say you are a “worker” for a farmer and you escape from the abuse and get refuge in Nera to have a better life, it wouldnt be guaranteed, because the Nerarian Ruler had so little power that they couldn’t say no if the Farmer you worked for previously wanted you back on his farm.That’s the kind of shit that came over the years of the other countries opressing the undead country.BUT there was one way to guaranteer your stay in Nera - having a child born on Neranian ground - because the law in Nera says that every child deserve a guardian and if someone is born in Nera they are automatically a citizen of Nera and therefore it’s not allowed to take the parents of that child away from them.That law is the ONLY reason Szorkach was born.His father, Istvan, came from the country Varona and joined a refugee group who travelled across countries to gather some undead’s and to then travel to Nera together.Szor’s mother, Soo Yeon, came from the country Bwara and was used as a sex slave since she 12 and Istvan saved her from her abuser.But because Istvan feared her abuser would try to get her back, he had sex with her, even though she didn’t give consent (she was also only 16 years old by that point, he was over 20)Anyway, they did arrive on Nera and Szorkach was born, and because of that they are not only save from the outside, they also get a house for contributing to the undead population.Their “happy life” went along for like 2 years, but Soo Yeon, being deeply traumatized and mentally ill, set a fire in the house during a craze, and Istvan died from that.Soo Yeon and little Szor were saved, but Soo Yeon, once she gained her sanity back, refused to take care of him any longer, saying she couldn’t and would only hurt him as well.So their saviour, a Morvar Pixie called Shiya, brought little Szor to the Chief of the Morvar’s and asked him what to do with him.About the Morvars: They are a small undead race who made it their goal to be servants. Not like cleaning servant’s and such, they mean being the right hand man of a special person, protecting them, guiding them, being there for them, with their awesome super powers - mind reading and magical dragon powers. (they are also called Dragon souls)Thing is, since they are a race, you can’t actually turn an outsider into one, right?Not really, because all the superpowers and original features (blue skin, black scelera, things like that) are being put into them, after they are born.The only thing these people wouldnt have is the genetical “brain washing” that makes it impossible for Morvar’s to ever use their power’s for their personal gain. A thing which was invented by the first Morvar because he thought the powers they had were to powerful.But the Chief decided to still turn Szor into a Morvar, because the King at that time would get a child soon, and they wanted Szor to become that child’s servant, so that he could have a very happy life as the servant of a prince.(PS: the master’s are almost always people their age, you get a master chosen for you before are right after you are born and most of the time that master isn’t born either at that time)So much to that, he did have a rather nice life as the servant of a royal member, but the guys 82 old at some point, he sure had an eventful life, but that’s so much detail, so now I will just talk about some personality shit xDSo Szor knows that he isn’t like other Morvar’s and because of that forces himself to make an effort to think of himself as a servant who only want’s to do what’s best for his Master Lysander. (Lysander himself isn’t so serious about that). Buuuut, he does stuff with his power’s for his personal gain ALL THE TIME. He uses his mind-reading to blackmail people a lot, just to get stuff for free or get his way in certain situations. The other Morvar’s know this, but they dont actually give a shit and don’t say much other than “stop being an asshole man.”At some point Szor also made the choice to make Lysander his actual priority and protect and serve him forever, that was because Szor got kidnapped and tortured when he was 17 and Lysander saved him and cared for him without break, til got on his feet again.What the kidnapper’s wanted to to with Szor is to use his already given dragon nature to turn him into an Lycanthrope, (but not as in werewolf, a were-dragon).The process was looooong and really painful for Szor, but Lysander saved him soon enough for him to not have changed much. But there are still some features from that, like the picture on your phone, they way half his face is weird, that comes from that kidnapping.He also has enhanced senses from that. That’s why he wears sunglasses, his eyes react too extreme to sunlight xDAlso little info on that:Lysander didnt save him like some knight or something, he was kidnapped with Szor and held there to keep Szor under control.During those few days they were kidnapped, he managed to kill the kidnapper’s via necromancy - he sucked out their life force, making them rot.As an adult he can do that with no effort within seconds, that makes him actually more dangerous than Szor, despite being disabled.About Szor’s more evil nature:So remember the law that made him exist? He hated the whole thing.He hated how living people treated undeads and he hated how little power his foster-father, the King Lysandro, had.He also knew how his real mother was treated, and using undead as sex slaves and for prostitution are things Szor also hated. (and still exist)His goal is to get rid of that oppressive system and free all undeads who are forced to work in the sex industry. And once they are saved, he and Lysander make sure they can get work, a home and care for them til they can live on their own.A lot of them also work for Szor and help save even more abused undeads.Sounds heroic, but Szor also kills all the people who are involved in the sex industry, from the owner’s of a whore house to the people going there.He made sex between living people and undeads illegal and punishable by death, just so that he is allowed to kill those people.And what if a undead sex worker’s doesnt want to be saved and likes what they are doing?Szor kills them as well, because they support a system other’s are abused from.The thing is, he doesn’t fight to protect innocent people, he fight’s to punish guilty people.And he does everything for that, regardless of who get’s hurt by itAnd since he and Lysander gained the power to make new laws, he has, lawfully, all the rights he needs to kill whom he wants to.That makes him lawful evil.In one story of mine he even is the villian and kills two people the main heroin liked dearly, but because he has every right to kill them, she can’t do anything against him. In front of a judge, he’s in the right.PS: ABOUT WHY HE HAS POWERThat’s because a group called “warriors of Light”, who believed undeads are monsters and must be get rid of, murdered almost every member of the royal family of Nera, to make the destruction of the entire country easier.The only people who survived were Szor, (who, together with some other’s people who protect the royal family, killed the assassins) Lysander and his niece Syra, Lysander’s wife Shanna and their unborn son Dominic.As an answer to this killing Lysander gathered every force he had to find every member of the Warriors of Light and decided to kill them all.

Which wasn’t hard, since Szor, and all other Morvars who assisted him, could read minds.Thing is, the Warriors of Light were funded by the King of Arath and his entire family (except for one child called Nicolai) and so they were also on Lysander’s list.And with their knowledge from the mind reading they killed all the people they wanted to kill.But it didnt stop there.Lysander than gathered all the other Rulers and showed them the dead royal family of Arath and threatened to do the same to them, should they not sign a contract. (he also killed some people with necromancy to scare them :D)That contract includes:- Lysander has the right to add new laws to the other countries - They have to make sure that udead businesses in their country get treated fair- remove the refugee laws in Nera (the one I told about in the beginning)- return every undead to Nera that was brought back because of said Law- and each country ruler (and they descandants) have to promise Lysander to grant him and his offspring one favour they can’t refuse- Morvar’s get special treatment as judges (that’s why Szor can kill people without court)And yeah, that’s why Lysander, and with that Szor, has so much power :D

[blackwomenconfessions]

C: My mom expects me to babysit my siblings when she’s here AND when she’s gone. I get that she’s aging almost 40, works in retail, and shes too tired to do anything most days but its suffocating to me as well. Today she got mad at me because my little brother got into some cheese she was going to use for dinner and i didnt see him. Long story short, shes too tired to raise my siblings directly and heavily relies on me to supervise them in the way a parent would.

More recently i’ve come to suspect that she didn’t want to have kids when she did and it shows. The signs have always been there, but im only now seeing it. She takes responsibility for her choices but she does nothing about her resentment for having kids early seeping into the way she talks to and treats of us.

On top of that, my older brother whose 21 lives here too but is too selfish for anyone to rely on so it’s just unspoken that nobody can count on him, which makes me take on the load that could have been divided between me and my older brother if he wasnt a selfish irresponsible manchild like the father he and I share.

She coddles him and makes threats she never follows through on but doesn’t want to kick him out because shes afraid of what’s to become of him. He couldn’t care less about what happens to anyone else besides himself and has shown her that for years but yet and still, she stans so hard for him. He couldn’t give a shit if there’s no food in the house, as long as he’s eating. He’s also disrespectful, socially unconscious, misogynistic and trash. I think it’s just time for her to let him go. You can’t help someone who don’t want to be helped or at least show appreciation FOR your help. Some people need to learn lessons the hard way and her protecting him from learning those lessons is harming him more than she thinks it’s helping. But she defends herself by saying that “black families dont stick together” and that “were all we’ve got in this world” and I understand that, but he’s not trying to help anybody, he thinks he can step on everyone’s toes and that everyone is not supposed to say anything about it. There has to be a line drawn when you cut people you love out of your life because they’re harming you; no matter how much you hope they get better. He’s not trying to improve our situation. He’s being part of the problem and he does not care. He does not act like he wants go be a contributing member of this family.

You KNOW you’re trash when people who want to see you do better stop wanting to help you.

I see my mom as one of those black mothers who could have stopped a trash black man from becoming trash; but somehow was not able to. She tried her best to raise us right but idk. She used to be emotionally/psychologically and physically abusive up until I was 14 but shes stopped being physically and psychologically abusive since. She spoiled me and my older brother with buying us stuff she never had as a kid as a replacement for her having a personal relationship with us. She didn’t try to form a relationship with any of us. None of us have a close intimate relationship with her. I have the closest relationship with her and even i see her as a semi stranger, an acquaintance. Like a much older room mate who pays the bills. I see my relationship with my mom as two black women who sees eachothers struggles and helps eachothers when they can and relies on eachothers for different things because we both know how hard it is to be a black woman. She helps me and I help her. Which contributes to why I think she didnt want kids when she had us.

I witness the emotional abuse she inflicts on my little sister that she used to do to me. I want to help my sis but I just…dont know how. I know how she feels and I feel like I should speak up for her like I wanted someone to speak up for me when I was a kid. She was just like me as a kid. I was really emotionally sensitive and my mom was not and I use to cry really easily from my moms meanness and insensitivity. Now that im older and grew out of that I just see my moms side better. She doesn’t have enough patience to monitor how she talks to us and think about if something she said was too mean or insensitive. She doesn’t have the patience, to my little sisters detriment. But another side of me doesn’t stop it because my little sister doesn’t obey me like my mom raised me to obey her while im expected to be a live in nanny. My mom raised me so rigidly with whoopings with a belt if I misunderstood something she told me to do or if I did something normal for kids to do but she didnt have the patience for. And it annoys me that my younger sister gets away with so much that I would never have at her age. I think that’s why I dont speak up for her and I know its wrong but I think in the end, the biggest problem is that my mom is someone who shouldnt have had kids. Not everyone should have kids just because theyre physically able to and my mom is one of them. Some people just dont have the emotional capacity it requires to raise mentally and emotionally healthy children and my mom is just one of those people. She wants the best for us i know and would die for us absolutely but that’s not enough in order to have a happy home as single parent with four kids each with their own specific emotional needs and some who are special needs and another with mental illness, especially since she doesn’t have the patience and energy to cater to all of our needs effectively.