#shd; m.

[aubeyed]

[sadfishpile]

a quiet night

[invenuos]

falling in love w how u look is literally the most disorienting weird dopamined feeling ever

[sonderdd]

So I recently decided to catch up with m!ik only to find out there's an official?? Mafia AU??????? Which is????? Completely unexpected????????? But also really really welcomed because I've read it and all I can say is EVERYTHING because it is perfect we get baby iruma in all his baby cheeks glory with his perfect eyes and perfect little hands and cute hair then we get not only iruma but also literally EVERYONE in a SUIT (still has not recovered). AND Iruma's suit is WHITE which is just??? So perfect??????? AND we get rough and feral opera which is not something I thought I needed but apparently it is and I don't know how I've lived my life up until this point without it AND now we're in for more ALICE!!!!!! And I can confidently say I will not survive anyways my skin is clear my crops have been watered and the drought has been healed the world is at peace because Iruma in a suit is humanity peaking and opera in a suit looking to the world like he's ready to commit all sorts of atrocities is also humanity using all of it's brainpower and I just shd sh shabshsbhshshs what universe am I living in right now

[maggiec70]

Maréchaux d'Empire: La gloire pour destin

Quelle horreur!

On the other hand, this book will keep me alternating between guffaws and serious eye-rolls for days.

The "replacement" for David Chandler's anthology, Napoleon's Marshals, published in 1987 with each of the 26 mini-bios written by for-real scholars [and not just Americans, either] is this November 2023 anthology edited by Francois Houdecek, who holds forth at the Sorbonne, claims to be a "disciple" of Jean Tulard [I believe M. Tulard has thousands of those!], and is involved in all sorts of activities and scribblings involving Naps. He is also responsible for gathering and organizing vast quantities of Napoleon's correspondence, so kudos for that.

However--and oh, my! what a huge "however" this is!--the 26 contributors range from the marginally average Pierre Branda to the apparent dregs of French scholarship whose names have never resonated outside the borders of Gallica. Each of these articles is depressingly cardboard, flimsy with details, utterly bereft of any attempt at analysis or understanding of the individual's character, talents--or lack thereof--and other useful and expected details, even in an anthology. These contributors apparently competed to see who could write the most drivel using the fewest sources. Naturally, I went straight to the entry about Lannes, and by the time I reached the end, I had permanently dislocated my eyebrows. The "author" of this travesty is Jacques-Olivier Boudon, whose credentials, on paper, are impressive but whose knowledge of Jean-Boy is worse than passing; it is non-existent. The reason for that is based on M. Boudon's sources:

He cites Lannes’ “official dossier” in the SHD, which I copied before I left, so I know every page and every sentence in it, and I know you won’t find squat that is useful unless, of course, you care how much putting on Mozart’s Requiem cost, and who sang the tenor solo.

High on the hit parade list is Regis de Crepy’s smarmy bio of the Lovely Louise, another book I can quote endlessly. Boudon used one letter from that.

Boudon also took bits and pieces from the three more recent French biographies by Dammame, Zins, and Willette—although the latest was published in 1994—and explained what I thought about them in a previous blog.

The absolutely most hysterical “source” is the 2002 historical fiction by a lovely 93-year-old woman, Penelope Le Fers-Dupac, who lives in Lectoure and who I know [I also know the biographer Jean-Claude Dammame, but that’s another story]. This novel is called “Le Mousquetaire de Napoleon: L’autre vie du marechal Lannes.” Make of this what you will, but it is the wonderfully entertaining, hilarious, and fictional tale of Jean-Boy’s first marriage.

I am appalled that this person didn’t do justice to Jean-Boy in an anthology where he would have shone at the top in capable hands. I know who's the real expert here, and I certainly don’t mind if someone also chooses to write about My Guy. But he or she had damn well better get it right, and this French morceau de merde massacred his subject.

BTW, joachimnapoleon, have you encountered Vincent Haegele? He did Murat no favors here, either. Thanks for reading the rant. I feel better.

[putting-alastor-in-places]

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[speedywithadhd]

She mighta sorta coulda.. be in trouble...

And I don't think she'd be in a particularly good mood tomorrow...

shds... not even in this universe right now? Of course I haven't seen her..m

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[edvinception]

don’t really wanna drag the f&m thing but they’re together now. saw a pic i prob shd not have seen but yh..

I have no idea who's dating who and I don't care. But I kinda get that impression.

[slyshyfoxy]

july 10 2024

hi its me, anyways been ya feeling low these days but honestly idk what am I even feeling low about, actually everything is good, I m just a loser who is thinking about bad things, actually my studies I have been doing actually much better than before. Like I am actually focusing and remember my own goal which is to get GPA 3.0 by end of this trimester, don't lose focus, be consistent jenny u can do it. And ur weight also 46 kg right? U are currently 49.6kg just 3 more kg, faster do ur meal preps, and yes been feeling overwhelmed cause I wake up so late right? just sleep earlier if not wake up earlier is the way, I think I already have been resting enough. 5 things I am grateful as of now : 1. I have gotten another business registered under me, actually that is a good thing, my dream of having 2 cats, one car and one house is coming true, even tho yes more responsibilities but honestly, isn't it good? Like I will have more income and also isn't it my dream to travel? I will have more money to travel around the world. How could I forgot about this dream? 2. I have a supportive gf, my gf actually really cares about me and love me especially through her actions even though she is not good at words I don't resent her so. And yes thoughts are crazy sometimes but it is just a passing thoughts, remember how u have ur exes thoughts too? It will just pass, must always remain to be faithful.

3. my new start just begin, why am I thinking like it is going to end? I have actually many things yet to do, many people yet to meet, places yet to go. Even though I am in my four walls, I have places yet to be and I shd look at my globe and remind myself daily. 4. I am actually in a much better place than before, last time I couldn't even be in a relationship cause I wasn't as healed, right now I am in a supportive relationship with my gf, my family who is trying to help me, friends that know who I am as of now and yet to be. So why am I not be grateful? 5. I am a person who I set out to be, and I will be. No matter how many times life has thrown me downwards, I will always prove that I am capable of moving forward no matter what. and I will. So many things to be grateful of, yet I keep getting stuck in my cave. Wake up jenny wake up. So what if I wake up late nowadays? I can just fix it back again, so what if I fucked it up now? I can always earn it back , because I am me, I am Jenny Tan Ming Hui , the one who will earn 300k by 25. HAHAHAH NO MATTER WHAT> I WILL BE BETTER> . STARTING FROM TOMORROW> today I slack first.

[breeding-like-rabbots]

vanilla gasped at jacks sweet sweet confession, she moaned as he drank from her large heavy incredible tits, her chest was so warm sexy and cozy and she would hold jack there forever, they were wet and shined in the sunlight, “j-j-jack…~~~~” she whined very loudly, her legs began to quiver from sheer love and lust, jacks long cock rubbed against her warm folds and he could feel how amazingly hot shd felt for him, “m-my heart and body are all yours~~” her thick thighs were spread, her pussy and her asshole were so warm and ready to be loved hard and deep, she was whining so loud “j-jack baby~~~~ i n-n-need you like I’ve never needed anyone before~~~~” so much milk was squirting into jacks mouth, she was so fertile and desperate for jacks amazing love

Jack listened to Vanilla moan as he continued to drink her milk as it squirted into his mouth, his cock twitched and throbbed against her folds as she whined showing how needy she was, he shyly nodded and slowly pushed into her pink pussy while never letting go of her perfect body as he gave her what she wanted.

[invenuos]

cann o t!! get into my head the idea that a project ideally does and should take multiple revamps and drafting. that not 'getting it at first attempt' is genuinely the norm. like im aware of this. i understand why it happens. i encourage this!!!! and YET

the thing abt. the thing abt procrastinating a free-time project is the more u look at it, the more worse it starts looking back at u, and by the time ur sick of procrastinating, ur also just as close to revamping the whole thing and starting all over again

[osaemu]

HAII !! :3 I was wonderin how do u write long one shots ? :0 m tryin to write a 6k+ words oneshot but I can’t seem to ? draft ?? or write it to be longer :(

— ᡣ𐭩 anon

p.s : have a nice day / night !! :D

hihi anon !! honestly i'm not the best person to ask since the most i've ever written in one sitting was about 4K :,) :,) but i think what helps a lot is if you write a brief outline first (in bullet points or something) that kinda gives you an idea of what your plot will be. that way you can just focus on writing instead of thinking too hard about what you're writing ... if that makes sense. also, for most ppl (including myself), it's hard to write a lot of words in just one sitting, so prepare for the process to take longer than just a day or two !! but as long as you stay really interested in the topic, that by itself shd be enough :,) have a good day/night too and good luck anon !! lmk how it goes 🤍

[beeanz]

Check out this listing I just added to my Poshmark closet: MOSSIMO DARK BLUE SUEDE FABRIC SILVER COLOR TOE 4" STILETTO HEELS SHOES.

[wannabeunalived]

idk what's coming over me

i feel like i m losing everything

fuck did i mess everything up

i feel so tired

my head hurts

my eyes hurt

my entire face hurts so much

i feel like i lost the love of my life

idk why

my head hurts so much

i cant stop breaking down

i messed it up again

fucking hell i messed it up again

every time i get attached to someone i end up hurting them and sabotaging us

i keep. losing. everyone. god why the fuck is it me why am i such a fucking curse why cant i just a good fucking person

i feel like im going to go insane

idk what to do

i have no one to even talk to, not like i ever cared abt that

but before i vented to noshu, but now i feel like i hurt her n pushed her away too

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i hurt myself, after 2 yrs. it feels weird. its not bleeding but my skin burns. fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck this all reminds me of 9th grade i messed everything up that time too.

goddamnit i am just a fucking piece of shit arent i

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ok its bleeding a bit shit, ig vaseline shd do the trick.

i feel pukish, i think im gonna puke. i feel so scared. i havent felt like this in years fuck i feel so empty rn. i need her. i need piki i rly need her.

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idk why when she said she was talking to polks and ts i felt like she wanted to vent to me about something but couldnt........ i dont want us to end up like her and ym. fuck im not ym, please god i dont wanna hurt her.

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if she does fall for ts it wouldnt be so bad tho, would it ? i mean, he would probably treat her better. we are just a coincidence, i guess, afterall. she did feel we would end sooner than her and ym did. i feel scared. why do i feel like shes going to break up with me tomorrow. .

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god no, please no, i cant take it. i wanna sleep thru all this, i have an exam on tuesday.

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i m sorry noshu, i am sorry gaurangi, i m sorry piki. i m really sorry. i wish i could fucking kill myself rn. i cant live if i lose her too, i ccant lose her too shes all thts holding me tog rn. m sorry for being so dependent on you.

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i feel so toxic and clingy and draining. i am draining her arent i. sigh.

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i cant study.

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good night.

i hope the fan falls on my head n crushes my brain in my sleep, i dont wanna live anymore. we are going to break up, rent we.

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