#shara's covid thing

[sharas-bae]

one side-highlight of my trip was that i walked over 10,000 steps on 3 days and over 5,000 on the rest. and, despite sleeping absolutely terribly the whole time (sharing the bed while also in an emotionally charged situation threw us both pretty hard in that department), i didn't have any real issues.

and had no dizziness to speak of, which i'd been worried about because the week before there were two days where i had a worse spell than had happened in awhile. which makes me wonder if there's a screen time and/or driving trigger remaining.

so that's really encouraging. i think i might actually be ok, physically. it took 3 months but i think i'm ok.

[ao3feed-rebelcaptain2]

Flu Season

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/67PMGmY

by punkleslieknope

“Jyn, go home,” Cassian ordered.

“No time,” Jyn insisted, trying to fight off the feeling of lightheadedness as she looked for a pen that was already in her hand. “I gotta get ready for the Chamber of Secrets.”

“Commerce,” Cassian corrected.

“Hey Jyn!” Han shouted at them, looking up from one of the new iPads Melshi had scattered around the office. “I typed your symptoms in here and it says you could have ‘network connectivity issues.’”

-

No, Jyn doesn't have the flu, why do you ask?

Words: 7999, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 7 of Parks and the Rebellion

Fandoms: Rogue One: A Star Wars Story (2016), Star Wars Original Trilogy, Parks and Recreation

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M, M/M

Characters: Jyn Erso, Cassian Andor, Bodhi Rook, Kay Tuesso/K2SO, Chirrut Îmwe, Baze Malbus, Shara Bey, Kes Dameron, Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Han Solo, Ruescott Melshi, Lando Calrissian, Yaddle (Star Wars)

Relationships: Cassian Andor/Jyn Erso, Bodhi Rook/Luke Skywalker, Chirrut Îmwe/Baze Malbus, Shara Bey/Kes Dameron, Leia Organa/Han Solo

Additional Tags: Star Wars/Parks and Rec, Alternate Universe - Parks and Recreation Fusion, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, i'm sorry these characters have the sense of humor of middle schoolers, the Michael Jordan of public policy, "I hope this doesn't awaken anything in me", the comments section of leia's social media is (of course) horrible, alternate universe where they make jokes about the flu because covid wasn't a thing, punnett squares?, Shara and Kes bet on their friends (literally)

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/67PMGmY

[voidstilesplease]

I was tagged by @iwritesinsnotstraightlines. Thank you, thank you, Sins!!! 🖤 This has been sitting for a while in my drafts. I loved your answers! I'm also a Directioner, so hiiii. And lead singer of a band? I bow. Your TW sideblog is btw one the few blogs I followed when I was new here. So I love it. Anyway-

• what do you prefer to be called name-wise? shara :) or my url

• when is your birthday? march 24th. im an aries ♈

• where do you live? in The Phils, SEA :)

• three things you’re doing right now? in bed, waiting for the sandman. reading drarry. printing stuff for work :'( this one sucks because it's a sunday and it's 11 in the evening

• four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now? well, none of these are recent because i haven't had the time to discover new fandoms unfortunately. but there's Teen Wolf and that's not news, there's the Simon Snow trilogy, the Grishaverse, and Marvel i guess because of the new stuff going on

• how is the pandemic treating you? right now? better than when it first hit definitely. it's still scary. just last friday, a co-worker of mine got diagnosed with covid. i waited an entire year to get into my job too and had a few hitches in my mental health while at it. but anyway, it's peachy.

• songs you can’t stop listening to right now? i feel like no one would relate to my taste in music because it's too... idk how to describe it 😂 but there's my tears ricochet by taylor swift, sign of the times by harry styles, save your tears by the weeknd to name a few. the others are old, and old old

• recommend a movie. oh god. im probably one of the worst persons to be asked this. uh, okay, catch me if you can? it has leonardo di caprio in it... 😂 i dunno why that movie was the first thing that came to mind, but there you have it. if you wanna see leo fake checks and get away with it for years, try it.

• how old are you? veinticuatro

• school, university, occupation, or other? school and occupation... since school is where my occupation is.

• do you prefer hot or cold? in general, i think i can last longer in the heat because my body's used to it being in a tropical country. but i hate the heat too. so, i prefer cold.

• name one fact others may not know about you. im a little person. im almost five feet tall. 😂

• are you shy? in general, yes. but that's because of my anxiety, too.

• do you have any preferred pronouns? she/her

• any pet peeves? people reading over my shoulder cuz that's very easy to do 😒

• what’s your favorite “dere” type? yandere, heh 😏 characters that will kill for their beloved. and not just for defense.

• rate your life 1 - 10, with one being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be. that's hard. maybe 4.

• what’s your main blog? this is it.

• list your side blogs and what they’re used for. wanted to make one, but i cant handle it. i die on main

• is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you? i can be annoying! my brain's constantly in the gutter. sometimes, i go days and weeks without replying to messages 🥺 but im not deliberately ignoring anybody.

i'm tagging these awesome people if you have the time or think it's fun @sunel0, @msmischief101, @mercheswan, @amatchinwater, @jimmy12427, @theoraeken, @thominho-incorrectquotes, @dark-coffee-dark-soul, @theheightofdishonor, @cescalr, @blue-eyedbeta, and everyone who wants to do the game 😁 this is your tag!

[the-part-time-escapist]

A P R I L H I G H L I G H T S

1. Hustle on things to improve in my new work

2. Meal Prep and food deliveries ( finaaaaally pizzaaaa)

3. Receiving plants to grow

4. Birthdays

5. Skin Care Addiction because breakouts is real

6. Watched anime after a few years: Violet Evergarden

7. Movies: Rewatched my movie faves (Leap Year and The Blind Side) New finds: (Two weeks notice, Miss Congeniality, a Sandra Bullock kind of month)

8. Covid

9. V-calls with fam and Shara (grateful for this wonderful lady who made time and really wanted to talk to me.. Talked for 2 hrs straight.. love you bff even tho you won't be able to read this)

10. ML gaming

11. First padala

12. Familiarize road and became interested on road signs from work to accomodation, vice versa

[t-t-p-d]

13, 14 and 15!!

13. any three book releases you are excited for next year. daughter of the moon goddess, the girl who fell beneath the sea, bloodmarked, i kissed shara wheeler (yes i know it's four shhh)

14. any three upcoming movies/tv series that you are excited for next year. movies: turning red, spiderman across the spiderverse, shows: heartstopper!! <33333

15. if you could change one thing about the past year what would it be? covid lol but that's out of my control. tbh no major regrets come to mind!!! wow is this growth

before the new year begins

[ugh-fml]

big lesbian + Casey fan here! i feel like the quality of her writing after publishing RWRB sharply decreased by each release. RWRB is not perfect, I understand that, but it still is my all time favorite book. I almost DNFed OLS and DNFed I Kissed Shara Wheeler (and was very excited about these books). 

Why, you may ask? August was insufferable and Jane was literally treated as eye candy the whole time... Jane is all instalove on August and it makes no sense because she was so unlikable. The plot tied up too nicely with the whole waffle/pancake house thing. I also would say that reading about a Jane jacking off another August on a car with people in it is disturbing to most readers, as it literally is public indecency. Imagine if it weren’t lesbians and it was just a man masturbating in the car instead... it’s literally the same but one is more okay because lesbians are sexualized all the time. 

And those readers commenting about the sanitary aspect of floor sex on the Q is honestly a pretty understandable grievance if you’ve been there before. COVID def made them cleaner but oh god they are so bad normally. And again, these two points (public sex and cleanliness) have nothing to do with race.

 I Kissed Shara Wheeler felt too forced and again, I didn’t finish it and don’t plan to because somehow this book was more impossible to read IMO. 

TLDR: both books read like drafts to me and I promise you and everyone who reblogged this that it’s not about race. I do see what you’re talking about and yes there def is hypocrisy out there but really it’s not that deep in some cases. Some of us are annoyed by the worse writing quality and mega uncomfortable by the glamorization of public indecency in that book.

people being extremely generous and indulgent with red white and royal blue (mlm couple) and I kissed shara wheeler (white sapphics) while finding EVERY reason to dunk on one last stop (interracial sapphic couple) and nitpick each of its faults to the maximum is my villain origin story. literally rwrb made some gross statements about Israel and waterboarding and people were like "AWWW Casey was just in a silly goofy mood!" meanwhile you clowns are trying to cancel one last stop because jane and august having sex on a train is a health code violation. .... I'm tired

[sharas-bae]

i went to my friend's (blessedly costume-optional) halloween party tonight! it was exciting to be out and seeing people in the evening and feeling solid. especially since even 2 weeks ago i had no idea if i'd be up for it. i got to see friends i haven't seen in ages and a girl i met at last year's party who i hung out with a couple times and then drifted from. we're gonna try to find a time to meet up again, which is great!

these parties are always a good, casual time. i also got to congratulate not one but two couples (including the host) who got engaged recently. one of said couples is gay and were long distance for awhile, so i got to tell them my story (they were thrilled) and ask for Pro Tips lol.

but also. i'd been planning to mask, as i've been doing everywhere again, because even though i'm solidly inside of the 3-month window that post-infection immunity supposedly lasts idk how much i trust that to stick. (getting my vaccine tomorrow though). but i failed to actually put it on when i arrived, and then i got a drink, and then it seemed pointless. we did gravitate to emptier rooms and screen doors were open so at least there was a crossbreeze, but still. idk, probably gonna be anxious about that for a few days regardless.

[sharas-bae]

according to the ultrasound tech who did my echocardiogram my heart shows up so clearly it could be in a textbook and i could get a side gig as an equipment model at ultrasound conferences so. adding that to the list of oddest compliments i've received!

[sharas-bae]

today it's been 2 months since i got covid and i'm starting to feel like i'm beginning to approach my previous normal, kind of. or at least normal feels like it's becoming attainable.

i'm still physically pretty limited but now it seems more about how my stamina/cardio capacity has fallen off so sharply, rather than that my symptoms are actively preventing me from doing more. once i get this last heart test this week i'll know whether i can start making more of a push to bring up that baseline, beyond some gentle mobility exercises and very short walks. i'm in physical therapy to address what is almost definitely vestibular neuritis, which seems to be getting better anyway but is leaving some lingering stuff.

a month from today i'm flying out to toronto to figure out if we wanna make a proper go at this dating thing (seeing as how we were on a video call until almost midnight last night, i feel like it's looking good). thinking back to how wretched i felt a month ago, i think i'll be ok in time, though not guaranteed 100%. at the very least i should be able to get around the airport under my own power again and go places with her.

this whole thing has sucked shit and i also feel incredibly fortunate that it doesn't seem to be going full-blown long covid, and that my job has been very good about accommodations in the meantime. and that my pcp is good and that i hit my deductible early in the year.

[sharas-bae]

i was supposed to go to chicago for a friend's birthday this weekend, but this morning when i got yet another positive test and then got hit with another flattening dizzy spell (i'm starting to wonder if caffeine might be a trigger? i felt fine for like 3 hours and then it hit while i was getting ready for work) i had to accept that i'm not gonna pull through in time.

i'm really disappointed! we've been trying and failing to make a visit happen all summer and it should Not be this difficult when the train is right there but here we are. and also i was just looking forward to a weekend partying with a bunch of queer dudes whom i love.

when i told him he was like, uh yeah even if you weren't testing positive i would've told you to stay home with dizzy spells! you gotta get as much rest as you need don't feel bad, plus this way i don't have to put sheets on the guest bed lol

and it's like. really wild how that bit of validation and gentle ribbing made me emotional? like i know i gotta put rest and recovery above all else, i'm adamant about it, i've been getting that encouragement from other people too, but to have the person i was supposed to visit skip straight over anything else to try and make me feel better about the whole thing was just. nice.

still sucks though.

[sharas-bae]

i was supposed to have a call with the girl from the wedding tonight (i should come up with a shorter reference name since it seems she's sticking around for a bit) but it looks like i'll probably wanna postpone. but in the meantime, she's being very sweet and genuinely helpful. she had long covid for over a year awhile back and it sounds just awful, and she's had some useful advice about rest and resisting the instinct to just push through.

and i gotta admit it's nice to have someone validate my anxiety about long covid instead of being surprised since i'm otherwise pretty healthy. as if that isn't the very reason it scares me.

[sharas-bae]

i can go back to the gym next week! no myocarditis or other inflammation/mechanical fuckups! (i do have a slight, apparently insignificant valve regurgitation which is inevitably concerning re: longterm despite the assurances but. i'll take it)

it's gonna be starting from basically zero compared to where i was 3 months ago but i'm just glad to be starting at all

[sharas-bae]

this morning i drove to a coffee shop across the river to meet up with a friend. i parked around the corner, and we walked a couple blocks to sit in a park. at the end i walked him back to his bike before doubling back to my car, and then stopped at my neighborhood co-op before heading home.

at the park we talked about many things, but mostly relationships and the experience of what moving around can do to/for your sense of self and other people (for better and for worse). his wife is chilean (he lived there for several years before moving back here for grad school) and she moved back home a year ago. he's joining her in december, so we'll have to say goodbye soon.

i told him i realized recently that he's really the first friend i've had to see move away before me, rather than me going first or all of us leaving together. (not counting when we graduated and most of our cohort left town, but that was part of a larger transition so it felt different). it'll probably be good for me to see what it's like on the other side, since i usually do the leaving.

he also had some useful practical insights about doing long-distance relationships, if it does end up going that way with toronto girl.

and i felt completely fine the entire time, which is huge! my shopping bag definitely felt heavy on the walk from the co-op to the car but i only got a smidge breathless there and on the way up the steps to my floor. so far i'm still feeling fine but will probably take it easy for the afternoon to monitor. but in any case, progress!!

[sharas-bae]

last night i went to my friend's place to watch the first 4 lovm episodes. it's the first time i've gone out in the evening since i got sick and so far i seem to be doing ok. recovery milestone unlocked!

[sharas-bae]

went to my friend's place today and it was really nice. normally a group of us take lakefront walks but i'm not up to that so i asked if we could hang out in a park by my place. and then she offered banana bread at hers. and a chance to meet the kitten she and her bf got when they moved in together, alongside seeing the cat she already had (a foster fail she adopted our first semester of grad school). they're both so cute and they get along great, which is wonderful

it feels so good to be able to go to another location that isn't either work or the doctor's office. another friend gave me a ride bc i'm still not ok to drive (dizziness and vertigo are my most persistent symptoms, ugh) and it was nice to get that extra 1:1 time too. hopefully i'll be able to bike there soon, or at least in the spring. it's on the other side of a big park a few blocks from me and a very pleasant route.

and then i came home, ate lunch, napped and watched another starstruck odyssey episode, and then had a 2-plus hour video call with toronto girl. in which i managed to fail to bring up planning a visit, but i'll text her tomorrow about it.

it wasn't my highest exertion day in the last 2 weeks physically-speaking, but it was the most socializing i've done by far since i got sick, at least in a single day. so far i feel fine, but i think tomorrow will be a better indicator of whether i'm actually as on-the-mend as i think i maybe am. not actually recovered, no. and possibly in need of medical intervention still. but still, decidedly better than i've been. here's hoping.

[sharas-bae]

based on how my first three days at home went, on the whole it was probably a mistake to travel for a work thing (that i ended up being able to attend in person for maybe 5 hours total) while i'm still in covid recovery limbo.

however, today my best friend came over and we just sat and talked for a couple hours and it was so lovely and so good to see her. so there's that!