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armand feeling hopeless and useless as a maker and asking daniel to fuck him to feel like he has something to offer
YESSS i love deadbeat maker armand so much esp combined w crazy fledgling libido daniel just letting daniel use him over & over again because other people have actually dtaught him how to be a vampire so now all armand can offer is himself ie his body for daniels sustenance & his pleasure ;0; at least he feels useful this way at least he gives daniel something this way
#MAC post#MAC ask#armandaniel#;-; yeag#i just fucking adore how armand like. offers to teach people (lesat & louis) offers to protect people offers to serve people offers his#services to people. not himself#he uses how he can be of assistance to others in order to drawthem to him#lestat n louis didnt know anything about vampirism so armand could offer his 'ancient wisdom' to them & the coven#& then offers his servitude to louis when the wisdom didnt work out & he couldnt offer protection or teachinf#its all reciprocal to him. hes a service. not to say he doesnt use others in return which he absolutely does#offering louis his servitude in order to assauge his need for companionship & affection & in turn controlling & abusing louis#its just. so good.#with daniel he cant offer anything as a maker & he cant control him like marius could with him#so he offers him another service#because he sees himself as what he can do to/for others & not as a fully realized being#does that track. idk im in a mood today
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Curly not immediately punishing Jimmy for assaulting Anya is something I don’t think a lot of people are viewing in the complex context for Curly as the superior to both of them and closest confidante they had.
Like I am in no way saying he didn’t under react or fail Anya by not being harsh or direct with Jimmy but it really is the case that he really couldn’t. Imagine being stuck in such a confined space with very little areas to genuinely hold someone if they commit a crime. It’s not like this was an event that occurred before they departed or that they have easy communication with The Pony Express to ask for how to proceed when something like this arises. Not to mention, Jimmy’s relative power in relation to Anya as the co-pilot and second in command, he has the knowledge and access to do something to her had Curly directly punished him in this setting.
They were also Curly’s friends. It’s not just the case of him mediating something between his subordinates but people he is personally invested in don’t want to see spiral further in Anya’s case while also not wanting believe his friend go that bad in Jimmy’s actions. They were both suicidal and Curly putting Jimmy’s stability first is both out of bias but also the fact he’s aware at some level Jimmy is a danger to himself and others if not constantly placated. Combined with the fact he was in denial or just not piecing together what Anya said it’s hard to say what he buying time for and what he had treat as urgent. This isn’t even saying he doesn’t care about Anya but he’s not going jump to the worst conclusions about his friends even if part of him acknowledges the evidence saying so. It’s a complicated thing but he’s still human and needed to process it on top of trying to keep a ship that already took on a lot of water from further sinking, metaphorically.
I just personally think that while Curly failed Anya, it was a scenario where there wasn’t much he could do to the best thing by her safely and like Jimmy, we are underestimating what a good leader would do in a very fragile and tense situation like he was in. By the time he may have been ready and had a plan, things were much too late.
#like in my one Anya still respected Curly after he didn’t punish Jimmy so I assume he still respected her or reassured her he’d do something#it just was never enough because sadly Jimmy just needed to be removed from the ship and that’s not possible#cause no matter what Jimmy was going to do something stupid to fix it and Curly had to be thinking of a way to avoid that but also trying to#play the subjective role of friend and objective role of captain with two of the people he is currently closest with#not to mention how he’s a big picture guy and it’s not an excuse but those little detail and subtle behaviors are probably lost if the big#picture looks fine still and he admits he’d drive himself crazy trying to look for it#like weirdly Curlys character is only seen through the people he tried to protect and we judge him on his failures but we don’t get too much#on his insights directly as Jimmy is unreliable and he tries hard to be gentle with Anya#personal note is I don’t think Curly underplaying Anya’s trauma is a guy code protecting my bud thing but more a flaw in his personal#character in where he just wants everything and everyone to be ok in the end and taking responsibility that isn’t his to bare like he can’t#make up for what Jimmy did but he tried and that’s the problem really cause he’s just used to actually fixing it for him and it’s the case#this is the one thing he really couldn’t like I think he’s a good guy but he’s trapped in his and a bunch of other peoples worse moments#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing curly#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#jimmy mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse Anya#mouthwashing spoilers#rape tw#suicide tw#also last thought is how he like also was being emotionally drained by Jimmy constantly like Anya and his relationship with Jimmy parallel#each other in such a way that both him and Anya warily follow the words of the others abuser because they fear the physical or emotional#repercussions if they don’t like her not being able to really tell curly what happened and then curly not being able to do the same and how#jimmy assaults and dehumanizes both when they are no longer a service to him like god they are more adjacent than Jimmy and Curly like Curly#messed up in a already messy pile Jimmy mad it into a dumpster fire in a landfill they are not the same
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the fucking iron grip that KHR has on my ass is insane bc its such an EPITOME of found family - bc its not even the side effect of like a shared goal or mission the way found families tend to be - but because FOUND FAMILY IS THE ENTIRE POINT
its the end goal, its the journey, its the whole story
theres a wholeass emphasis on tsuna's big empty house getting more crowded and more noisy
and not only that, its found family and a found purpose - each of the vongola find an achor in tsuna and vice versa - like fuck everybody else, im with them type a way
its that bone gnawing loyalty where not even the hounds of hell could keep these assholes from having each other's back
not just their relation to tsuna - which is the primary focus of the story but their relation to each other - how they must learn to be together bc again
Found Family Is The Mission
#khr#katekyo hitman reborn#bonds bonds bonds#this emphasis also on tsuna growing as a leader#their hearthfire and lighthouse#their home and final resting place#and how this shounen ass protags whole character arc#its not about being hokage#its not about becoming the greatest hero#its not about becoming pirate king#its not a goal to strive for#its a service that tsuna must learn to give#its a role that tsuna must learn to play#there is so much emphasis on how tsuna learns to take care of the people around him#because thats his job and their job and they all must work together to take care of each other#its so good?#also bc lbr the final boss is tsuna's own inheritance#which he is slowly being raised to have#and yet must violently reject in order to make that true and final transformation#to be the best of himself and the best of himself for others#tsuna is at his best when hes protecting someone#likewise tsuna shines the most because he is protected and loved and adored in return
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look we all know that aziraphale is mr. fiddlesticks-not-fuck and dearie-me-good-gracious, but my favorite thing about him is that there is also, at all times, a fuck-shit little bastard inside of him just begging to be let loose. he's petty, he's passive aggressive, and the Second he decides that playing by heaven's rules isn't going to help anybody, it's all "i know who you are, you idiot!" and "you STUPID man" and "FUCK"
#i'm so passionate about his portrayal in the book as this glass-closeted dickhead and i will advocate for it every day of my life#he and crowley would literally never have worked if aziraphale wasn't a little mean and conniving himself#i mean the man Disappears people who try to coerce him into selling his shop for god's sake#he is Known for scowling and skulking and being rude as hell to everyone who so much as thinks about buying a book from him#and we all saw how much he Enjoyed taunting beelzebub & michael in the bathtub scene#and yes at the same time he is kind and darling and anxious and proper and everything we love about him#but by GOD i live for the moments where he's just a little bit of an asshole just because he can be#imo michael sheen absolutely Nailed the aura of the lovely (slightly bitchy) old queen whose customer service voice doubles as a threat#aziraphale#good omens
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honestly, maybe it's a hot take or whatever, but I think that tearing down the veil and *potentially* bringing back the immortality to the elves would not have helped them a lot
#like ok i'm not 100% sure that tearing down the veil would even make them immortal again#bc the problem is that the elves of today are so far distanced from the ones is solas's time i don't know how that would even work#or maybe i'm stupid and missing context clues but whatever#but like what service would that *actually* do to the elves?#it won't bring their erased history back#it won't suddenly break all the chains of the ensalved elves#or give better quality of life to those in the alienages#bc take fucking tevinter#yeah if suddenly all enslaved elves became mages it sure would help them#but their enslavers are ALSO mages#who had way more training and years of practice#and then the ones in the south#if they suddenly all became mages#what would stop the templars of jus rounding everyone up and committing a genocide?#what would stop the ruler of orlais of burning the alienages again#like waht gets to me is that#the current situation of elves in thedas is a political problem#that needs to be solved through that#through rebellion through changing the status quo#to pushing for political powers to protect their elven citizes#not through magical means#bc that time is gone#and the dalish and the city elves have SUCH different cultures#than the ones of the first elves#that like...what would they gain?#solas could have spent his time actively encouraging all elves in thedas to rebel#to break their chains and rise up against their masters#but instead he's choosing to risk literally everyone's lives bc of HIS regrets#like he is only thinking of the past and of himself and of the people of his time#the way he treats the dalish is a good example of that
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sorry jinx and silco's relationship enthralls me so. silco's first appearance paints him as a stereotypical crime boss boogeyman who no holds barred tries to get 4 kids killed for meddling with his plans. then when he succeeds at killing 2 he approaches powder with the intention of finishing her off as well, but she tackles him to the ground with a hug. she knocks the knife out of his hand and never notices it. everything about this character archetype in media suggests that he's doing this for himself, for some ulterior motive and ultimately that jinx is nothing to him but a means to an end. the whole time he's constantly repeating to her that it's us against the world, and it's manipulative but then you realize he fully believes it. her sister returns and he flips, not because she'll take away his perfect weapon but she would take away his daughter. it hits in the final episode when she kills him, and rather than being angry or violent he says that she's perfect. i am going to kill myself
#the heart#arcaneposting#not main tagging but still no ship i dont want people who sexualize their relationship interacting with this#anyways#its kind of funny and sad bc i think their relationship is like a dad who's going to lose his child to child protective services or lose#custody or whatever. bc silco was fighting in the last episode to not free himself or shoot jinx but to kill vi#it's just a very sad desperation you could see for him when he felt like he was losing her bc she is his daughter and he did believe#everything that he said to her
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For how much Machete is described by others as off-putting, he really is a beautiful dog. Does Vasco ever tell him so? That his eyes make him look earnest, his fur the most comforting shade of white like cream, the way his ears catch light like stained glass? If someone doesn't tell him so, he'd forever think he was ugliest duckling
I think Vasco definitely tries, sincerely and often, but Machete is very reluctant to accept compliments and positive feedback. Especially if it's about something as personal and innate as his looks.
#he quietly spends a lot of time and effort trying to make himself look his best so appearances aren't a trivial thing for him#he's always very clean and neat and presentable#except on those occasions when he's soaked in blood but that's totally besides the point#white fur is kind of high maintenance any tiny bit of dirt or staining becomes an eyesore and if it dries it may be hard to remove#he bathes very frequently way more than average considering the time period#some of the outfits he wears are worth more than the combined lifetime earnings of like six generations of his family#silk was outrageously expensive and the brightest red dye came from pulverized cochineal insects that had to be imported from America#which had been colonized less than a century ago so those tiny little cactus bugs were really troublesome to get and the demand was huge#he doesn't quite have the nerve to wear perfume despite it's widespread popularity at the time#but he makes sure the smell of frankincense burned during church services sticks to his fur and clothes#in general when you spend your entire life around strict emotionally congested highly religious men#you might not end up developing a very healthy self-esteem or body image#once you've internalized that sense of inferiority it's hard to unlearn it#he's so thirsty for approval and praise but when he receives some he immediately gets uncomfortable and distrustful and vaguely angry#he absolutely struggles to compliment people back as well at least on any meaningful and personal level so there's that#answered#anonymous#Machete
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Watching Wayward Pines for potential ST5 inspo bc the Duffers wrote a couple episodes in s1, and when I got to their second (last) episode and their name crossed the screen, I noticed a visual parallel that might already exist on the show…
Recognize it??
It instantly reminded me of that last shot for the opening of s3, with the landscape peaking out behind the Russian base. But when I went back and actually compared the two, holy shit it’s near identical, and not just the landscape.
I didn’t even remember the helicopter being there on the left, not to mention the pillar-esaue contraption at the center. Like… they’re the same picture.!
With them being credited right at that moment, it’s obvious this was an intentional nod to their previous work.
I just thought it was cool so I wanted to share, but in terms of my watch overall, there is a LOT going on that they could pull from. I’m only halfway through s1, though I’ve heard the show goes downhill in s2 so we’ll see how that goes 😂
#byler#stranger things#wayward pines#st inspo#st5 predictions#spoilers I guess?#matt dillon is a secret service agent and when fellow agents go missing#he goes to find them and ends up in an accident himself#and wakes up in wayward pines#and no matter what he does he can’t reach anyone on the outside nor leave#people around him seem to be playing along with this sort of Truman show lifestyle of pretending everything is fine#then he runs into one of the agents who went missing also his ex-mistres#carla gugino my beloved#and she’s also playing along#bc they kind of have to otherwise they will be killed#little does Matt Dillon know his wife and kid on the outside are worried because he went missing#they go looking for him and end up in wayward pines too#wayward pines is actually really chill in retrospect bc you get a free house when you arrive#but the whole being trapped and not explained what’s going on and treated like your crazy part makes it hard to see the positives#and just when you think this whole town is an experiment#it is!!#but also not because they have any other choice really#turns out humans devolved into this creature referred to as abbies and they basically take over the world killing everything in sight#a scientist predicted this and managed to launch an experiment where he basically kidnapped a bunch of people and froze them from aging#to live safely in the future over 2000 years later in this confined town#where very few know the truth#the town being an experiment aspect intrigues me in terms of all the surveillance in Hawkins…#also random but the main kid on the show has an uncanny resemblance to the duffers despite no relation and it’s freaky 😂
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“Crusader,” Phases of the Moon Knight (Vol. 1/2024), #1.
Writer: Benjamin Percy; Artist: Rod Reis; Letterer: Cory Petit
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Marvel 616#Phases of the Moon Knight#Moon Knight comics#latest release#Moon Knight#Cassian#Khonshu#Apocalypse#En Sabah Nur#I’m sure there are some X-Men aficionados who are scoffing at this hypothetical#however#I’m out here feeling like#you know the end of Midsummer Night’s Dream where Puck comes out and instead of saying some moral#like would typically happen at the end of one of Shakespeare’s plays#he just kind of says «yeah wasn’t that wild? anyway take it easy»#the way Khonshu only seems to take his previously averse devotees when they’re on death’s door#how Cassian’s tying himself to service in a temple that is like a tomb like how he might as well be dead in his service to Khonshu#the fact that he’s traded one unfeeling master for another and worse now he may be one as well#all set upon the background of how Cassian resented the upperclass for their greed and callousness and how they abused their power#but now here he is a European in North Africa having carved his way to where he is by the sword#having people bow before him#oh that sure is wild and I don’t think I’ll be able to take it easy for a little while yet
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what do you think is the worst octopath take you’ve ever seen
ok i’ve seen a lot on reddit. because sadly i do crosspost there… so i can’t remember everything but one from recent memory that i remember clowning on with my friend is someone on reddit saying that alfyn and tressa wouldn’t like each other. literally why the fuck would they dislike each other they’re actually best friends forever
#like they said something like Alfyn wouldn’t like that tressa “sells junk to people#like. first of all. Alfyn only ever opposes people making money when it’s himself.#like he understands that you should charge for goods and services that is just a personal choice that he makes#also. tressa doesn’t like. scam people….#yes she sells stuff that’s not objectively useful like the skystones thing but that’s not… scamming. she doesn’t take advantage of anyone#in order to make money.#they have similar dispositions and outlooks.#i think the only thing is like… tressa at one point says alfyn shouldn’t be a merchant since he just doesn’t really care about making money#which is. like. fair.#but they have multiple travel banters where they both recognize things like#treasure is value to the beholder#like alfyn’s bag or ellen and flynn with the shells#not to mention like. they both are seeking to emulate the literal same guy.#they’re besties ok. to me.#i’m sure i’ve heard worse takes but that’s just one that i actually remember hearing and being like that’s not fucking true what the fuck
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This is so funny to me bc this is about my tav who is very much not the dark urge! just a bit of a freak
#tav yeric#astarion#bg3#started rambling about yeric in the tags couldn’t stop lol#yeric is pretty well adjusted for a guy who’s been living in the woods alone for a decade#he is generally really reserved and quiet#but off putting stuff just spills from his mouth sometimes#and when he does open up he says things without thinking them through (and that’s on his 8 INT)#also the thing about cannibalism is that yeric got trapped in the mountains with a bunch of travelers when he was 23#and they ended up having to cannibalize some people and eat their dead#Yeric’s partner died and he ate her#this launched the previously mentioned decade long woods isolation#and so yeric has issues around food and hunger#and a deep deep fear of people around him starving to death#so I’m some ways like getting fed on by astarion is genuinely a comfort to him#doesn’t need to worry about astarion being hungry!#he has direct proof that astarion is physically well!#all he has to do is take care of himself and cast lesser restoration and someone else can be sustained just on that! how wonderful!#yeric is also a big acts of service guy so that desire also gets fulfilled by the blood sucking agreement#at the same time#yeric also processed the cannibalism thing in a weird way where his survivors guilt manifested as a desire to be eaten#so while he genuinely does get a lot out of the agreement with astarion it is also triggering to him and does not help at all with#his self worth issues#astarion and yeric have a long talk about this post game - I think their relationship would need a break from the feeding for a while#yeric needs space to be see himself being loved outside of his utility to other people#and also to know that astarion is going to be okay if yeric takes a break from being his personal juicebox for 5 minutes
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Thank you, and nice to meet you, The One And Only.
#our skyy 2#our skyy 2 x never let me go#our skyy x never let me go#never let me go the series#never let me go#nuengdiao kiattrakulmethee#phuwin tangsakyuen#**couldn't find the other actor's name#gifset#*brace's#//#that farang (who I just realized never introduced himself) was trying his best okay#also so nice of Nueng to notice two people struggling and decide he should help. just because he could.#did you hear his customer service / manager voice in that first ''can I help you?''#tell me he was raised to do this kind of work without telling me he was raised to do this kind of work#instincts kicked in so hard Khun Nu forgot he was in an entirely different century pretending to be an entirely different person#on another note do you ever hear the meaning of someone else's name and think your parents had no expectations for you whatsoever#damn. (I want a cool name too...)
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Having feelings about my Azem and her death at the hands of the Third and Final Doom to buy the world time to summon Zodiark, even though she hated it, because they needed a plan and someone needed to do something
The sun, torn from the heavens, devoured by the night… eclipsed, extinguished, lost…
#she died alone and in pain#her final act in service to the star and her people#though no one knew but Emet-Selch… who found her body… that it was indeed Azem that saved them#she never left Amaurot when she stepped down she just stopped answering to Azem#she stayed to protect Hythlodaeus but he decided that he wasn’t worth all that and sacrificed himself to zodiark#in the hopes that it would give her and Emet more time to help the star :’)#all it did was drive her to despair and sap the will to survive that final battle from her veins but it’s fINE LMAO#Azem#ffxiv azem
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was talking to cody about this earlier but i really just love this scene once again for the autism of it all. kisuke simply deciding he can change his feelings on a whim, that he has that sort of precise control over his emotions or how he processes data- the way he knows the tension inherent in serving as kirio's replacement yet genuinely does want to (at first) approach everything in an open and friendly way in order to try pleasing everyone- his expression shift when shinji calls him out on his masking and all but calls it bullshit- it's so fascinating to me because it's ultimately this conversation that helps propel kisuke in the direction of embracing his own vision as captain and forming the s.r.d.i. instead of simply trying to mask and make everything easier for everyone.
#sena's crying about kisuke again.#also the last panel of shinji...... what if i end it all actually#also i think it's so interesting because even after this discussion#kisuke still uses honorifics with people in the same way he does in current timeframe#like he calls hiyori 'hiyori-san' and shinji (even after 10 years as captain) he still calls him hirako-san#even though shinji says he's told him multiple times to call him by shinji#like even as captain kisuke treats everyone not just with standard politeness but he holds people at a distance#not in the way shinji says about being above others#like what kisuke was trying to do with his masking *was* ingratiating don't get it twisted#but also he doesn't view himself as above others either. he embodies a sort of servant role in the service of others#(<- guy who is normal about kisuke)
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What does everyone think of Nigel Forbes-Colbie ever getting pregnant? It doesn't matter how you interpret it: Omegaverse, males can get pregnant Au, Trans! Nigel. Just tell me your guys' headcanons of Nigel's pregnancy: The changes, the hardships, the softness, and the vulnerabilities.
#murderous intent#like minds 2006#like minds#alex forbes#nigel colbie#Alex Forbes X Nigel Colbie#Nigel Colbie x Alex Forbes#If you guys haven't noticed my recent posts I've been feeling way too soft for this fandom#Like#Too soft#And it's both Nigel and Alex's fault for making me too soft when all I want is to cause chaos and do crimes#To be honest I'd like to Imagine Nigel's pregnancy as an arduous one: Swollen feet . Sore back. Weird cravings. Mood swings. Everything.#And he isn't used to seeing himself get swollen with life each and every day. While Alex is so gullible first thing in the morning because#of the baby bump growing every single day. And Nigel getting rounder every week.#Sure. Nigel is enjoying being pampered by Alex with all these services and gifts but sometimes he thinks that he isn't that attractive#Anymore for Alex. And that while he's carrying his children he will leave him like a used toy.#He'd have instances where he'd feel conflicting feelings for their child and think of possibilities of removing her from his body#But he'd soon regret it. He just breaks down into tiny little pieces of ever thinking of their daughter that way. His and ALEX"S#He can never stomach killing her. He can never stomach ruining her beautiful life that he has yet witnessed.#He still has his self-harm tendencies but he avoids it. He avoids harming his angel. His miracle. His life.#He wants to be a good father to his child. He wants to nurture her. Feed her knowledge and love. Cater to her needs and be at her beck#and call: be a father.#Alex knows what's happening to Nigel. They talk. And they talk everyday. He knows how much it can be hard for Nigel during his pregnancy#And he will always be there to protect his spouse and his unborn child.#He will spite their original purpose in order to create their own purpose. Which Nigel had a hard time letting go of.#It was hard. Seeing the history that made them into the people they are today. But it had to#they had to change#change for their family.#For their miracle.#And Nigel seeing Alex being this doting makes him fall for him ten times more
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deadnamed at my father's funeral
#parental death tw#family death tw#not sure how else to tag this one#yeah december was a very rough month for me :)))#i actually drew this on the way to my hometown a couple days after i got the news that my dad had passed away#fully anticipating that one of the grueling parts of the process would be the incessant deadnaming and misgendering#bc my dad himself never once used my right name after i came out to him. not once#i asked and we even got in fights about it! bc he just REFUSED to do it#didnt want to think of me as a man at all. i was his only daughter and his baby girl and he didnt wanna accept that id changed#in that way#but i do know bc his wife told me that despite not really accepting the truth about my identity#he was very glad that i seemed happy about it#so i think thats whatll be important to me about it#he didnt get it and didnt really accept it for himself but he was happy that i was happy#anyway it was indeed annoying at the service but more people were chill about it than i expected#and i also had to deal with fewer people than i thought i would#was talking to one of his old band friends who i vaguely remembered and joked that 'i was a girl last time u saw me'#and he said 'youre still a girl' and i just went 'no i am not. the sideburns beg to differ.'#then at the end of the service when people were leaving he came and asked for my New name and when i told him#he was like 'ok ill try to remember that'#i like to think he realized instantly the faux pas he made and was like Yikes. This Is Her/His Dads Funeral. Maybe I Should Be Cool.#anyway. the whole affair was exhausting but i got some nice things out of it too#like hanging out w my brothers#then we got home and me and my wife both had covid bc life wasnt done kicking me in the dick i guess!#im good now i think tho. its fine its fine its fine
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