#seriously the question that took me the longest was the concert one

[fullsunalicia]

oh could you please write like a soulmate au for chenle? i just watched this video on yt 'chenle is an angel' and honestly its giving me major chenle feels because hes so sweet and caring and cUTE?? if its not a bother and if you arent busy hehe

pinky promise — ZCL

a long time ago, long before the symbols on your wrists appeared, chenle gave you a promise. no matter what, he’ll love you forever, whether that’s going to be in a familial sense or romantic. you would never have thought that chenle would break it.

soulmate au — when you turn eighteen, a symbol will appear on your wrist that matches the one your soulmate has.

gladly bubs! honestly this is chenle’s era, look at him go,,,, i love him so much sigh

Promises are sacred. In this friendship, they’re not shallow words that are easily spoken. Whenever Chenle and you lock pinkies, the next thing that’s going to be promised is of utmost importance.

“I promise to tell you the truth.”

“I promise to take care of myself.”

“I promise to love you forever.”

Your eighteenth birthday is supposed to be a day you get excited for, and not a day you dread. Yet, you’re the one who’s going to lock herself into the room for the next seven days, and if you want to cry on your birthday, you will do it.

Zhong Chenle has broken his word, and your heart with it.

❀ ❀ ❀

You met Chenle in kindergarten. Rosy-cheeked and a big grin on his lips, he had offered to push you on the swings. He always made sure you didn’t fall, and when you did, Chenle was always the fastest to grab some bandaids. At that age, boys tended to be disgusted by the other gender, but Chenle had always treasured you as much as any other friend. You shared sweets with him, and you already began exchanging birthday presents at age seven. Toys turned into handwritten letters and bracelets you made yourself, and flowers were replaced with real jewelry Chenle bought you with his pocket money.

At age thirteen, you bought him a proper bracelet, not one you made yourself. It wasn’t much and couldn’t compare to the ones Chenle always got for you, since your family didn’t earn as much as he did, but when you told him that you saved up your pocket money and even helped around in the neighborhood to gain some, he had burst into tears and held you close for the longest time.

It was the first and last time you ever saw Zhong Chenle cry.

He was not the type of child to spill tears; always happy, constantly loud. His good mood radiates and affects every person around him. It’s funny to watch him panic when you start bawling, since you’re a big crybaby and Chenle is a stone when it comes to feeling upset. He just doesn’t see any reason to do it. If something upsets him, he works on it.

Tears don’t get you far in life. It’s what Chenle was taught, drilled into his head since he first stood on his own two legs. Even now when the stress bursts open his temples and weighs on him as heavy as an anchor, he’s just unable to do it. He clutches to you like his own personal life ring, fingers leaving scratch marks on your arms and back as he tries to get a grip on reality. Never once do tears pool in his eyes. It’s just not him.

At age sixteen, Chenle bought you roses. He was just a little older than you, barely being able to call himself that with the few months he’s got on you. You’re younger than your shared friend Jisung, but it’s not fair he plays the ‘respect your elders’-card every time you get cheeky with him. On that day though, Chenle had given you the roses and held your hands tightly, his face unusually serious, almost scary.

“You’re younger than me, so I have to protect you. I have to show you how a boy should treat you so you’ll never let anyone trample over you.”

Pinkies interlocked, Chenle promised to never let anyone hurt you. He started showering you with presents and bouquets, even though you begged him not to waste any money on you. Your words fall on deaf ears - he doesn’t accept the ‘your friendship is the biggest present’. He has to show you. Windows are left open in the middle of the night so Chenle can climb in, because you don’t want to be alone. When your parents start fighting, he starts taking you out to do all the things they usually don’t allow you. Stay out until the sun rises. Skip town and go to a fair. Go on your first party and get a taste of alcohol, but only this sip - Chenle still deems you too young.

You don’t know when your friendship had shifted into something more, but there comes a time where Chenle stops looking at you as his baby that he has to protect and starts recognizing you’re becoming a woman. Hands start hindering you from getting to your first date; he claims your boy is nothing but trouble. Cute outfits are snatched out of your hands just so he can pull his own hoodie over your frame, because “it’ll be cold outside and I don’t want you to get sick”. Chenle stops making his friends sit on each other’s lap in a full car so you have a seat for your own and begins sitting you down on his own lap, legs spread, hands on your waist.

When you look Chenle into the eyes, you don’t see the innocent toddler that used to put Spongebob bandaids on your nose, but a grown man. Chenle, who fills out his baby face features. You still pinch his cheeks, but it’s not the same when both cheekbones and jawline are sharper than in your childhood days. Veiny, big hands that cover your own. He even thinks about going to a fitness center, but you can hinder him from that by luring him with cuddles.

The moment this boy - or man, whatever - starts gaining muscles, you’re seriously going to lose it. You have to postpone that for as long as you can. There’s still that selfish wish inside you that craves for Chenle to stay the friend you made in kindergarten, with a soft tummy and dimply cheeks. It’s childish, but you don’t want him to grow up and be noticed by even more fans who will for sure fall in love with him.

Of course you’re happy for him. You attended lots of showcases and concerts, and Chenle always laughs and says you’re the loudest one to scream. Every album is bought yourself, no matter how much he wants do it for you. Very often, you end up going with his parents to support him at an event. It seems like with every comeback, Chenle drifts out of your hold.

Age seventeen, Chenle makes you a promise that changes your friendship forever.

Surrounded by several plates of sweet and sour pork, dumplings and spring rolls, Chenle and you are seated on the ground inside your room. The window’s wide open, the nightly breeze making you shudder every once in a while. In the past few weeks, he’s been busy preparing for a comeback, and had practically jumped at the chance to have a free day. As soon as he had told you about it, you grabbed your keys, gotten some takeout and took the bus to his place. With a big grin, Chenle shared some information with you about the music video(even though he was technically not allowed to), going so far to ask you to only look at him during the music video or he’ll get jealous.

You rolled your eyes at that, but he was only halfly joking. Not that you knew that.

“How’s school going?”

You sigh. “Sucks without you, of course.” Chopsticks clatter on your plate as you let go and lay back, looking for comfort in the blanket your best friend had given you. He’s got the best view of the house - the city’s skyline is clearly seen even from your seat on the ground, the pale moonlight filling his room with a ghostly ambience. Outside, you can still hear people chattering away, even though it’s late in the evening. “But atleast I don’t have to worry about exams anymore. We’re all just waiting for summer break. It sucks to be stuck in a classroom when it’s a thousand degrees outside and we’re not even doing anything productive. Why would I go to school to watch a movie?”

“Be patient, you big baby,” Chenle giggles. He stuffs his mouth with a dumpling and follows your gaze, before he looks at your face again. You may not notice it, but Chenle stares at you often. There’s something so angelic about your features, the soft slope of your throat ... When he closes his eyes, he can vividly picture you. You’re unforgettable. Born out of stardust and sunlight, you are the single most beautiful thing Chenle has ever laid eyes on.

No money in the world would ever be enough to match your worth. That’s why he will treasure you forever. It’s a silent promise, the only one he never speaks aloud.

A yawn tumbles from your lips, and you wrap yourself tighter into the blankets. Why cuddle the blanket when you can cuddle him? “Whatever,” you mumble, unknowingly answering the question he posed in his mind. “I just want to get the hell out of school and visit the ocean again.”

“You want to visit your grandmother?”

You hum. “Yeah. It’s been so long since we last went. I didn’t even get to swim that day.”

Chenle remembers. It was cold and the wind was freezing up your cheeks, almost hurtful to the touch as he had pressed his hands against them. You shared a picnic there, but your mother forbade you from entering the water. That day, he had discovered that you’re even pretty when you pout. He clears his throat. “I’ll take you,” he says then.

His heart jumps in the most lovely way when you reach for his hand. He mimics you, gripping it tightly as he inches closer to your tired body and presses your hands against his cheek. Even though the darkness casts shadows over your pretty face, the dim light makes your eyes shine like jewels. “You’re busy,” you remind him, but there’s a big, grateful smile on your lips as you take in the view infront of you. Does he make your heart skip like you do to him? What galaxies do you find in his eyes? “You can take me when you’re not busy promoting another album. I’ll go with my cousins this summer.”

“Let me take you,” he complains, but Chenle knows just as much as you that he won’t be able to. When you pull him closer, his fingers move on instinct to untangle the blankets enveloping your body so he can pull it against his own. You’re frail and precious, but that doesn’t stop him from holding you as tightly as humanly possible. When your hands bury themselves in his dyed hair, his eyes slip closed.

In moments like these, he can pretend you’re his and he’s yours and there’s not a worry in the world. Someday though, you’re going to find your soulmate and leave him forever. And he can’t even get mad about it; how could he get mad over something that makes you happy, when it’s all he wants in life?

“(y/n).” Chenle breaks free of your embrace and holds up your hand so he can lock pinkies. You follow his quick movement with your eyes, suprised about his sudden actions. “I want to promise you something.”

“Hear, hear.” You’re joking, but there’s just a slight hint of nervousity hiding in your voice. He doesn’t have the time to ponder over that.

Chenle looks you in the eyes and sees the woman he wants to marry someday. The woman he’s never going to have. “(l/n) (y/n), I promise to love you forever.”

❀ ❀ ❀

You had left Chenle’s house that evening with thousands of questions swarming your mind. After he promised you, he returned to finishing his dinner and even offered to take you home, but you had needed the fresh air and alone time to think about what he said. Why would he say something like that, when his soulmate mark already appeared? Does he want to break your heart that badly?

A summer at the seaside will help clear your head. It’s not like Chenle confessed to you - in a way, it was just like any other promise he’d made you. This isn’t the first time where he had been overly affectionate with you. You’re reminded of the last summer where Chenle was so hellbent of proving you how a real boyfriend should treat you, and you almost want to start crying again.

What guy that was in love with you would show you how another guy should do that?

When Chenle comes to help you pack your bags for Busan, he never mentions the promise. Like always, he makes fun of you and your bad habits, since you tend to pack last-minute every time. Your grandmother would be disappointed Chenle wouldn’t accompany you both, but it’s not like you can tell the guy “hey, stop being an idol for once and come chill with my grandma”.

It’s a four-hour-drive by train. Chenle insists on buying you snacks while you wait for said train to arrive at the station, and your best friend returns just before your transportation means arrive. “I’m going to miss you,” he says, and you wish he wouldn’t say that. It tugs at your heartstrings, since they’re tied around Chenle’s mere existence. Every step away you take away from him hurts. You don’t want to go without him.

But you don’t say that. Instead, you tell him: “I’ll miss you, too. I’ll show grandma your music video.”

“You better - she’s my biggest fan.” Chenle hooks an arm around your waist and pulls you close. You want to scold him not to do that in public, but his lips are already on your cheek. It’s a pretty quick way to shut you up, and he enjoys the way you blush. Unbothered, Chenle lets go and stuffs your bagpack with the many gummybears and chips he bought. “Text me when you’re there. I don’t want to find out over the news that you turned into a zombie.”

“Please leave the corny jokes to Jeno, Chenle.”

That makes him laugh. He grips your hands for a last time. When he offers you his cheek, you can’t help yourself, leaning forward to leave a peck there on instinct. It hurts. But you stay quiet.

“See you soon, (y/n)ie.”

❀ ❀ ❀

What a blatant lie.

When you reach Busan, several trends are already taken up by Chenle and the most recent scandal. You should’ve known. No, you knew you should have stopped him, and yet you selfishly decided against it because you did everything for just a slither of his attention. The place where his lips had met your skin still tingles, the effect not numbed by the tears running over them.

The public eats the rumors up; they’re all very excited to trash you for being close to their precious Chenle, and it doesn’t take long for his company to react. This is what you feared. This is what you’ve been trying to avoid for so long, and now it’s caught up with you.

He ignores all of your messages. Not a single call goes through. That evening, you’re contacted by his manager. He tries to formulate it as a plead, but you know it’s an order.

“Please refrain from meeting Chenle ever again. He has a dating ban until he finds his soulmate.”

The words are like a slap to the face. Your grandmother doesn’t question it when you leave the house to walk to the beach, at the very spot Chenle and you hang out at every time you’re there. There’s a bench in which Chenle carved in both your initials, and you can still hear yourself beg him not to do it because he’d hurt himself.

Of course that idiot cut himself several times. But it’s impossible to get mad at him when he smiles so sweetly at you and hugs you so tight you forget all about your worries.

He’s never going to hug you like that again.

The sea shells you find prick tears at your eyes, since they’re the same ones you used when you were younger to create the necklaces you gifted him. You shatter them inside your hand, matching the state your heart is currently in.

You curse the universe for giving you Chenle when he was never yours to begin with.

❀ ❀ ❀

Days stretch into weeks as you wait for any sign of life from Chenle. With every day that passes, the pain grows bigger, eating away at your heart and mind as you cry yourself to sleep. You tear out all of the birthday presents you’ve gotten from Chenle in plans of being rid of them forever, but it feels like such a betrayal to yourself that you end up cowering over them, violent sobs wrecking your body. You’ve never been away so long from Chenle, and it hurts. It hurts to reread the many letters and hear his voice whispering the words. Looking at pictures seems almost impossible when it feels like salt being strewn into a deep wound.

The closer your eighteenth birthday looms, the more you feel like vomitting.

You don’t want a soulmate if it’s not going to be Chenle. Your Chenle, who laughs so loud the entire street hears him. Chenle, who taught you how to play basketball despite you being so clumsy. Chenle, who composed a song on the guitar for you as a seventeenth birthday present. You’d rather die than look at anyone else the way you used to look at him.

You know hearts can’t physically break, but your chest hurts so much. With your best friend gone, it feels like someone ripped a huge piece out of it and left it to bleed out. And it feels disgusting.

In the last hours before your birthday, your thoughts keep drifting back to Chenle’s soulmate tattoo. You’ve never seen it, but you know it took him a longer while for it to appear. Usually, when the clock strikes twelve on your birthday, it’s supposed to already be there. It only takes longer when your soulmate lives far away, or you’re not the same age.

Despite rejecting the idea so much, you wonder how it’s going to be for you. You’ve seen several soulmate patters; the intricate lines connecting to form a heart on your parents’ wrists, or the balloons tied together on the skin of Chenle’s parents. Jisung’s small smiley, right over his pulse artery.

Your parents cheers flood your room as midnight signals the end of your seventeenth year of life, but the missing person is felt by everyone. Instead of Chenle, Jisung is the one to burst through the door to give you a present and a hug you desperately need.

It’s not the same. It’s not your childhood best friend of fourteen years, but you’ll take anything that eases the loss of him.

Your soulmate mark doesn’t appear until lunch, where your mother slides you a piece of cake over the table and promises to celebrate your birthday properly when she comes back from home. Your dad’s already long gone.

There’s another promise ringing inside your head while you stare at the dessert, but before you can cry over that, too, it knocks quietly at the door.

It’s unusual for your mom to forget anything. She’s very tidy, a born perfectionist. She never let you forget your school stuff on purpose, no much how you begged her to let it slide just this once. You swing open the door, ready to tease her for being forgetful, but your mouth falls open instead of speaking.

Chenle doesn’t let you recover from your shock. He pushes you inside, locking the door behind him. His hair is disheveled, his cheeks a fiery red - did he run here? “What the hell?” you gasp. “Chenle, what are you doing?”

“I ran several blocks to escape the dreamies and came here because I couldn’t stay away from you.” Your best friend topples over as he tries hard to catch his breath, and you turn to fetch him a glass of water. You’re stopped before you can make a single step, familiar arms wrapping around your middle to keep you there. How long has it been since you’ve last hugged him? You almost forgot his heavenly scent; the mixture of way too expensive perfume and chewing gum. Chenle raises his head to look you in the face. “I made you a promise, didn’t I?”

“You disobeyed your management just to show me your stupid soulmate tattoo? I don’t want to be the reason you get into trouble again...”

“Did yours appear?”

Your breath hitches. For a few seconds, you just continue looking at him, the familiar teddybear eyes that have watched you your entire life. Making sure you don’t trip. Watching you get home safely. “Yeah,” you finally whisper, and you let him hold your arm besides yours.

His fingers are trembling, almost as much as yours. You don’t dare hope, but it’s impossible to do so when Chenle is right here and your heart yearns for him so much, it almost jumps out of your chest. “(y/n),” he says. His voice is the remedy to the pain blooming inside your chest. “I gave you another promise. And I don’t intend going back on that. That’s why I’m telling you again, (y/n), that I love you with all my heart. You are in my heart, been there since the day you gave me that necklace you wasted all your money on even though I’ve got enough to cover us both. I’m so in love with you, in love with your flaws, your mistakes, everything that makes you you. I’ve loved you long before I even knew what love was. It doesn’t matter what’s on your wrist, (y/n), because I’ll love you for eternity. I’ll love you until I die and I’ll love you even after.”

And then he tugs down both of your sleeves.

Despite revealing the soulmate marks, you still look at each other for a long time, imprinting the other’s face into their minds for maybe the last time in long. You think about Chenle’s laughter and how easy it was to laugh with him. The sweet, dark chocolate brown color of his eyes, how you can look past them and right into his soul. And you think about how Chenle never cries, and yet the tears spill past the rims of his eyes to leave wet tracks over his milky pale cheeks.

The pattern matches. Several points, connected by thick lines. A star constellation. You can even name it - Cassiopeia, lover to King Cepheus, a love story written in the sky.

For a long time, you both don’t move. And then you jump straight into Chenle’s arms, you almost knock him over and make him slam his back straight into the door, but he still laughs and wraps his arms around you. You can’t breathe because of his tight embrace, but you don’t care, you don’t need to breathe when this is the single most happiest day in your life.

“I didn’t bring you a birthday present,” Chenle whispers, and you draw back to cup his face. Every single cell inside of you screams for you to kiss him, but first, you have to thank your soulmate.

“You’re the birthday present, Chenle.”

The universe’s apology comes in form of a sweet kiss, one that’s long overdue since the day Chenle sent you off to Busan. This time, you’ll return to your grandmother to introduce her to the love of your life.

[surveys4ever]

25.

Section 1 – Who were you?

Think back as far as you can. What is the first memory you have? I think meeting my (now) dad for the first time when he and my mom were dating. I was very upset because he was short and that’s not what dads were supposed to look like in my 3 year old eyes since my bio dad was super tall.

What is something you remember enjoying very much as a small child? Playing Barbies, watching Barney, Happy Meals, being with my grandma.

How old were you, when you made your very first friend? Probably preschool.

Are you still friends with this person today? Facebook friends, yeah. Real friends, no.

Was there a story somebody read or told you that has stuck with you? No one ever read to me after I learned to read for myself so one day I was sick and I came home and curled up with my mom on the couch and asked her to read me a Little Mermaid book I had and she did, even though I had to get up to go shit myself halfway through and it meant a lot to me at the time.

What is something you get an immense feeling of nostalgia from? Hannah Montana for some reason. It was my favorite show and we didn’t get the Disney channel so whenever we went to a hotel, nobody could tell me fuckin NOTHING because we were watching Hannah Montana whether they liked it or not.

As a child, were you a sore loser or a sore winner? I was the only child for 8 years and then the oldest after that so I never lost at anything and now when I do, I feel like I'm the biggest piece of shit loser there’s ever been. So that’s fun.

Did you go through the "naked phase"? I learned that you didn’t have to sleep in pajamas and you could just sleep naked so I did it for a while but then realized that I much preferred pajamas.

Which television shows do you watch the most as a child? I loved TV so basically all of the 90′s/early 2000′s shows there were.

Did you play with siblings, neighbourhood kids or by yourself? Either with neighborhood/school kids or by myself. I didn’t ever really have siblings who weren’t my kids, if that makes sense.

Is there something you really miss from your childhood today? I miss back when everything was simple.

Section 2 – Likes and interests  

Would you ever like to try competitive pinball playing? Ummm, no.

Do you knit, crochet or cross stitch? I’m trying to teach myself to crochet.

Have you ever, or would you like to attend a gaming or comic convention? No thx.

What's your opinion on online multiplayer games? I really liked Among Us for a while there but I don’t really enjoy how rude everyone is on online games.

Do you like to go cycling? If so, where? Uh no.

Have you ever tried woodturning? If not, would you like to? Never tried it, don’t really have any desire to, but it can be relaxing to watch!

Do you enjoy drawing? If so, what do you usually draw? I do! I usually draw graphics for YouTube videos or doodle over Instagram photos, draw things to put on shirts with my Cricut, etc. I use my iPad for so many things.

Have you ever attended a painting class? If so, what did you create? I haven’t but I would like to!

How about a creative writing course? If so, did you get any feedback? I took Creative Writing literally every year it was offered in high school and I always got awards for having the top marks in the class.

What is your favourite form of exercise? No thank you.

Section 3 – People  

Who is the most important person in your life (besides yourself)? My husband.

Do people generally approach you easily? I think so!

Do you get along with people well? If not, what's the problem? Yeah! I’m pretty friendly and easy going.

Do you enjoy being in crowds or do you prefer your own company? I would much prefer my own company than crowds.

Which one of your friends have you known the longest? I still talk to the girl I was best friends with in the 6th grade on occasion so like 17-18 years?

Do you find it easy to make friends now? If not, what makes it difficult? As an adult who works from home, making friends is hard as fuck. 

What is something about people that annoys you? Something I've noticed in recent years is just how entitled and greedy everyone is. Everybody wants something from you or for your skills to benefit them without them putting in any work or paying you for your time. It’s just gross.

What is something about people that you really like? We have really, really harsh winters and if you ever find yourself in the ditch for whatever reason, there will be a lineup of cars stopped behind you to help you push it out or let you chill in their car while you wait for a tow truck. On the really bad blizzard days, there are groups of men in big trucks that literally L I V E to go around and help pull people’s cars out of the ditch. It’s the only time I feel like there’s actually a sense of community around here.

If you live alone, what would be your criteria for a roommate? I honestly would never have a roommate because they could either be your friend or a stranger and living with friends is a good way to ruin a friendship if your living styles aren’t similar and living with a stranger just sounds like a nightmare.

How about criteria for a spouse, if you're single? I am married but my criteria was honestly that I just wanted him to be kind and funny and I got that tenfold with my husband.

In general, what's your attitude towards people? I can’t stand to be around grumpy people. If all you do is gripe and complain about literally everything, I’m out. No thank you. Why is your hobby being angry? Take up knitting or something for christ’s sake.

Section 4 – Habits

What is something you do every day without fail? Baby talk the dog and snuggle with Beebs.

What is your typical breakfast? I’m a leftovers for breakfast kinda gal but lately I’ve been having a bagel and watermelon.

Which article of clothing do you like to wear the most? I loooove me a good baggy T-shirt and booty shorts.

Is there a TV show you watch habitually? We’re currently watching Unhhhh while we eat dinner every night, haha!

Where do you usually spend most of your day? I really only sit in 4 places--bed, the couch, my makeup/work desk, or my sewing desk. Depends on the day which one I’m at.

Is there a product that you do not want to run out of? Moisturizer. I’m a dry son of a bitch.

What is your preferred mode of transport? Car!

Do you usually have something playing in the background when you're home? Nah. I’m in silence a lot of the time.

Where do you usually get your groceries? Walmart for the bulk of it, a local grocery store for the specialty items, and Target if we ever run out of something midweek because I cannot handle Walmart more than once a week.

How often do you go to your local park? Like once or twice a month in the summer!

Which of your hobbies do you indulge in most often? Sewing and Sims currently!

Section 5 – Favourites and dislikes

What is your favourite fruit? Watermelon!

How about your favourite berry? Strawberries are the only berry I like.

Which food do you highly dislike? Fish. It’s all disgusting.

What is your favourite song, and why? I hate this question. Who can pick one definitive favorite song out of the bajillions of songs that have been written??

What is a movie you cannot stand? Anything with Seth Rogen in it, any movie that's got a 3+ after it (looking @ you, Fast & Furious), and all the fuckin’ superhero movies that have the same ‘ah yes, this undefeatable bad guy that we have absolutely no chance against and will undoubtedly kill us all--but we’re going to pull through at the last second with the power of friendship!’ plot line.

Which trait in a person do you find most appealing? I don’t know how to describe it--certain people just have that spark and you can always tell right away if they’ve got it or not and those are my favorite kind of people.

Which trait puts you instantly off? If they’re religious it’s an instant no from me, dog.

Who is an actor/actress who you dislike so much you can't watch them? I really, really dislike Tom Holland. I honestly think he’s a terrible actor.

What colour are your favourite shoes? White!

What is a smell that disgusts you to no end? B.O., on me or others. I just can’t deal with it.

Which door handle/door knob do you like the most in your home? They’re all the same.

Section 6 – Culture

What is something very typical to the culture of your home country? Apple pie and baseball are the only things coming to mind atm.

Do you enjoy art? If so, which form of art is the most enjoyable? I do! But I prefer art that you can look at and know the artist is incredibly gifted and/or has put in a ton of time and effort to master their skills. None of that million dollar paint smear on a canvas shit.

What is something about another country's culture you don't understand? I feel like other cultures take their family and their family’s approval way too seriously. That might be rich coming from someone who doesn’t have a very good relationship with their family but I just don’t understand what the point of making yourself miserable to make your family happy is.

Do you ever attend the theater? If so, which play did you see last? Last thing I saw in a theater was Shangela perform a drag show, haha!

How about the opera or the ballet? Nope.

Which dance troupe do you enjoy, if any? ...they still do that?

Do you attend concerts or gigs? If so, which band did you see last? Not as much as I’d like to as no one good really comes here very often. Last band we saw was X Ambassadors and Paramore!

Are you interested in foreign food? I’m not uninterested but I’m not super interested either.

If so, which country's cuisine do you enjoy the most? Chinese...albiet probably a very Americanized version of Chinese.

Do you enjoy stand-up comedy? If so, who is your favourite comic? I doooo! Bo Burnham and Drew Lynch are my favorites.

Do you contribute to culture in some way? If so, how? I try to? I’m an influencer so I definitely have a platform of a couple hundred thousand people. Not sure what exactly I contribute tho.

Section 7 – Charity

Do you volunteer your time to anything charitable? If so, what? Newp.

Do you donate money to any charities? If so, which ones? No. I don’t trust a lot of charities, to be quite honest. A lot of them are very shady and I’d rather donate money directly to someone who needed it rather than it getting tied up in a charity where it might never actually see the people they claim to be helping.

If you have pets, are any of them rescues from shelters? We adopted our dog from one of my husband’s coworkers but she probably would have gone to the shelter if we didn’t take her.

Do you donate your old clothes, linen etc. to charitable organizations? Yes! We almost always have a bag of donations in our trunk that we always forget to take to the thrift store when we go.

If someone you know is in need, is it in your nature to offer help? If I can, yes!

Have you ever donated Christmas presents to children of poor families? We used to do that when I was a kid.

Have you ever had to rely on other people's charity? One Christmas when I was really young I remember my parents signed up for a sponsorship through the Salvation Army where a family adopted us and bought us Christmas presents and Christmas dinner or whatever.

How do you feel about donating to charities endorsed by celebrities? I would never donate to a charity simply because it was sponsored by a celebrity but I guess its the easiest way for a charity to get the word out that they need donations.

Is there a charity you absolutely never ever will not trust? PETA, Salvation Army, Goodwill, and that breast cancer one with the horrible CEO.

Have you ever donated to a cause that had a person going door to door? No. I extra wouldn’t if someone came knocking on my door asking for money.

In general, what is your opinion on charity? I already did my rant about them, haha.

Section 8 – Entertainment

Which was the very first video game you remember playing? Ocarina of Time I believe!

Which was the very first film you remember watching? That I don’t remember. Maybe that Barney movie with the magic egg?

What is your go-to form of entertainment? TikTok usually.

Do you have a large collection of DVDs/Blu-Rays? Nah. We have a drawer but we usually stream everything.

How about music albums? Beebs collects vinyls!

Do you prefer to have your music on vinyls, tapes, CDs or digital? I prefer digital and Beebs likes vinyl.

When and where do you like to entertain yourself usually? Either the bed or the couch.

Do you ever binge watch shows? If so, what are you binging now? Usually! I’m sadly in between shows rn.

What kinds of books do you like to read, if any? I honestly don’t read anymore.

Is there a book series you're currently collecting? ..

Is entertainment something you prefer to enjoy alone or with someone else? I have my shows and then we have shows we watch together. So there’s a time and place for both!

Section 9 – Internet 

Do you always have access to the Internet, wherever you go? If not, why? Yup!

Which website do you frequent the most? Website website? Google. App website? Instagram or TikTok.

Which search engine do you prefer and trust the most? Googs.

What do you use the Internet the most for? Social media or entertainment.

Do you judge people who have their phones out all the time? If so, why? Random people? None of my business. But if we’re spending time together and I’m trying to have a conversation with you and you're not paying attention to me because your nose is glued to your phone, I’m gonna be pissed.

If your connection goes down, what do you do? Go do something that’s not on the internet?

Is there something you wish you could do online that isn't possible yet? I still wish you could smell things through the internet.

Do you remember the first time you used the Internet? When was it? Yes! I believe the 2nd/3rd grade?

What was a website you used to frequent that doesn't exist anymore? I loved the Disney website with all the games.

Do/Did you ever have your own website? That was the thiiiing back in the day.

Isn't it great how much knowledge and info we have at our fingertips? It’s great but also overwhelming.

Section 10 – And finally...

What is something you consider to be highly controversial? Politics, apparently.

What kinds of jokes do you like the best? I love a good pun.

Is there a person who makes you laugh effortlessly? Oh definitely.

Which part of your body do you like the least? My eyes.

What's something random, out of context you remember from your past? I don’t do well with really vague questions.

Do you wear shoes indoors? No, I’m not a heathen.

What's the silliest thing you've worn on your body in public? I don’t think I usually wear silly things.

What's the most important thing in your life right now? Just spending time with my fam. Trying to get over this anxiety.

What is the most distant point on the planet that you've been from home? Florida.

Do you enjoy trivia games? If so, which one's your favourite? We love some Trivial Pursuit in this house!

Are you more logical or emotional? My emotions take over and then my logic brings it back in. Equal parts, baby.

[saikostories]

BTS - Six Days (JK) (M)

If you continued reading at this pace you could finish reading your book tonight. But only if there weeent any distractions. And there was one tall one entering your flat right now. You sighed deeply as you heard Jungkook walking towards your bedroom. He had been out with the boys but Jungkook wasn’t the one to get completely trashed, he was only slightly drunk. And in fact very horny. Immediately when he entered the bedroom he let himself fall next to you and tried to get your attention.

“Y/nnn”

“Y/nn”

“Babe”

“What do you want Jungkook?”

“You.”

“Not right now. I’m tired and I want to finish this book.”

“But pleeeeeaaaaase”

“God jungkook why are you always so needy? Can’t you go one day without sex?”

“I’m not needy, you’re the needy one here. You always want to fuck when I’m tired after practice.”

“You are always the one that wants to fuck at the most inappropriate times! Remember your last concert or the dinner lately-“

“Fine. How about a bet, who can last the longest without sex?”

“And what does the winner get?”

“The loser does all the housework for a week.”

“Fine, I’ll win anyways.”

Jungkook left the room, frustrated but determined to win. You finished your book and went to sleep as planned. Jungkook joined you later after playing some video ganmes. The next morning you found yourself in your normal position in Jungkooks arms. You snuggled closer up to him, only to feel his boner poking you in the back. He groaned and you shifted around a bit to accidentally rub your butt against it. He groaned again, gripping your hips tightly to stop you from moving.

“Why don’t you just give up? Imagine what fun we could have right now…”

“Are you kidding me? If I give up after one day you will never let this down. I am stronger than this.”

“Let’s see for how long”

You giggled as he rolled away from you to escape your teasing. He had dance practice today so he wouldn’t be home till late in the evening. And after, practice, he was always too tired to do anything besides falling on to the bed and sleep. His luck.

The next few days went on normally how they would anyways. Just without the sex. He had a lot of schedules with the group that provides enough distraction for him. When he came home he was mostly tired so he went to sleep immediately. As he’d as it or better he was, he couldn’t sleep with you cuddled up in his arms. He just got up really early in the morning to take care of his problems before you could tempt him to just give up. It was not only hard for jungkook, you were suffering as well. But you wouldn’t give in that quickly. You were close to giving in when he came out of the shower, only his towel around his hips, his toned chest and stomach glistening with water droplets. He was honestly a sinful gift from the heavens. But you realised the temptation and just crossed your legs and pretended to be completely captured by a game on your phone.

You decided to get him back for it on the same evening, walking around only in your underwear pretending to look somewhere. Whatever you looked for was strategically placed under the TV so you had to bend down right in front of jungkook who was sitting on the couch. You could hear him breathing harder, but he didn’t move. After you returned to the bedroom, you could hear the bathroom door being locked and you’d Smirked hopefully he would give in soon.

On the fourth date you received a text from Namjoon.

n: as the leader of the group and as Jungkooks friend, you need to end this stupid bet. Jungkook is a mess. He can’t focus for long and he’s constantly in a bad mood. Please give in. You know his ego wouldn’t let him.

That was Jungkooks problem, he started this bet, and if his ego was too big then he had to suffer, he could give in at any time. And you thought he would when he came back this evening. He arrived him and gave you the usual kiss as he greeted you. But instead of pulling back, his kisses grew stronger with more need. He walked you backwards until your back hit the wall, kissing you roughly as his hands roamed over your body. He was close to his breaking point ready to give up. His kisses were raw and needy and he proceeded to suck hickies onto your neck. You could t help but moan, tangling your hands in his hair before he suddenly pulled away. He was panting hard and so were you. But you knew him better than this, he was way to stubborn to give in. His arms trapped you against the wall as he whispered

“You know I’m not going to lose this, baby”

“Neither will I”

You captured him in one last kiss before you duck under his arms and walked towards the bedroom with a smirk. He followed you but he made sure you didn’t cuddle up too close to him to avoid you rubbing your ass on his dick. He wouldn’t survive it this night.

On the morning of the fifth day, you seriously considered throwing this bet out of the window. Jungkook had a concert and a fansigning and would sleep in a hotel for one night. But as bad as you wanted Jungkook, to finally fuck You again, you would at least a week. That was your promise to yourself.

Taehyung was at the door to pick Jungkook up and jungkook made sure to only give you a quick kiss before he left. Taehyung grinned widely and obviously held back a bunch of stupid comments. Through out their fansign, you received multiple texts from Tae informing you that Jungkook had been asked by fans if he had any worries or if he was really stressed since he seemed so tensed and unfocused. You made sure to fuck around with him a bit more, getting into his favourite lingerie set and posing as nicely as you could. Your phone buzzes and to your surprise it Tae not Jungkook.

T: what the fuck did you just do?? Jungkook looks like he will pass out any second. Or like he will stab us all.

The concert was hell for Jungkook. He loved it, he loved performing, he loved the fans, no question. But he couldn’t get you off his mind. Especially not after the picture you had sent him earlier. He needed to end this as soon as he got home. The night at the hotel was too long. He shared a room with Taehyung who wouldn’t stop teasing him until he fell asleep. He couldn’t wait until tomorrow.

You were surprised when you heard the front door being unlocked, usually you would get a text lime “I’ll be home in five.” You were just in one of Jungkooks big shirts and your panties, since you had just gotten up. Jungkook entered the flat, slamming the door shut behind him and dropped his things carelessly in the floor. He walked over to you in quick and determined steps and crashed his lips onto yours. You melted into his arms as he grabbed your thighs so you would wrap them around his waist and lifted you onto the kitchen counter. After a while, he pulled back to catch his breath. You chuckled.

“Well it’s nice to see you too jungkook”

“I give up. This stupid bet needs to end. I give up okay. It has been six day since I last fucked you, I can’t do this any longer. I’ll do all the housework for a week, I don’t care. Just let me fuck you right and now.”

It was very unlikely for him to beg and you can see the desperation in his eyes. Six days were too long. You grabbed his hair and pulled him close to kiss him, throwing you onto the fluffy mattress.

In seconds he was back hovering over you, trailing kisses down your neck. You were both impatient and needy so t took no time before you both pulled your shirt over your head. You were only in your panties and jungkook proceeded into taking off his pants as well, leaving him in his boxers. He was already incredibly hard. His kisses answered to your breasts gently sucking your nipple as his fingers totes with the other one. You moaned and arched your back, trying to grind yourself on to his knee that was placed between your thighs. He growled lowly.

“I can hear how fucking wet you are.”

His lips trailed lower and he wasted no time until he pulled down your panties. Without any further warnings, he wrapped his lips around your clit and pushed a finger inside of you. You were dripping wet and he could easily push a second finger, curling his digits upwards so they would brush against your spots with every thrusts. You were so needy it didn’t take long till you were clenching around him close to your orgasm. His fingers worked with an intensity borderline painful as his lips were wrapped tightly around your clit and you tried to speak between moans and panting.

“Wait stop jungkook.”

He looked at you questioningly. Why on earth would you stop him from giving you an orgasm after he hadn’t touched in 6 days.

“I want you inside me when I cum”

He didn’t need to be told twice, hastily taking his boxers off before he hovered over you. He didn’t tease you this time, he hadn’t the strength for it. When he pushed inside of you until he had filled you up all the way both of you let out a guttural moan.

“Fuck you’re so tight, stop moving around or I will lose it all right now.”

It had been too long since you felt this full and satisfied. You couldn’t stop clenching around him. Jungkook was too close already to go slow or tease you any further, he thrusted into you harder and faster.

“Faster. Faster jungkook. Faster and harder.”

“Ohhhh god. You don’t know how much I missed this. How much I missed youuuu….”

“I’m s-so close Jungkook. I c-can’t hold it any l-longer…”

“F-fuck y/n … oh my god… FUCK ME… Y/NNNNN”

His fingers went straight to your clit rubbing hard circles onto it and you lost it as your orgasm ripped through you. Your vision went white as you clenched erratically around him. He followed quickly after you, groaning and moaning your name. He made sure to ride both of your highs out completely before he pulled out and dropped next to you on the bed.

“We are never gonna make a bet this stupid again okay? Six days without fucking you… completely

Wasted. Think of all the things we could’ve done.”

“We have plenty of time now don’t we.”

[lunawings]

King of Prism SSS episode 11 commentary (Shin...)

Thankfully at least the Crunchyroll subs weren’t so bad this time. I mean, there was the usual weirdness, but no major mistranslations that effect the plot like that time. So.... great!!

(After last week my standards are so low....)

But anyway. A reminder that the commentary you guys are getting on these episodes now is coming from the place where I am after having two months to digest things. After seeing this in the theater I didn’t really want to talk about anything to anyone. HOW COULD I COMMENT ABOUT ANYTHING REMOTELY CASUAL WHEN SHIN IS SUFFERING. Was my thought. But... eventually............

I should have pointed this out last week, but did you catch that they added Dorachi to the OP?

So yeah, there are a lot of little moments in this episode that it took me weeks to even begin to think about (what with everything else that happens) and this is one of them. Joji leaves Jin so quickly once he’s not cheating at prism shows anymore. Haha I know this is just a gag scene probably but really! When you think about it in the context of that line Joji had last week that was like “He’s changed....” it made me realize that maybe Joji really does love the “do anything to win” Jin.

And since Jin isn’t interested in that right now, here we have Joji kissing Sanada. 

Jin doesn’t care about winning anymore. All Jin cares about is Louis.

The relationship between Jin and Louis is something I have a lot of questions about. Why is this a part of the plot? For what purpose? 

My only guess is it’s here to show that Jin can still love? Because he seems to really, truly love Louis. (Could you imagine him cradling one of the Shuffle boys after they failed a jump....) 

And this is all despite the fact that Louis also reminds him of his worst enemies, Hiro and Hijiri................. 

All of my past comments about how Shin changed things for everyone and how much everyone loves and believes in him have all been leading up to this moment. 

Even after what just happened, they all run to him without any sort of hesitation. They aren’t afraid of him. They all still love him. Edel Rose.  

For people watching this on TV, the titles of the episodes are all spoiled in advance. 

But for us watching in the theater, we didn’t know.

When I saw Part 4 the first time, I chose a bad seat in the theater on purpose. Front row, far right. Because I just wanted to be alone, and there was guaranteed to be nobody sitting next to me unless the theater sold out. The theater sold out. And there I was in the right corner craning my neck up at an angle to this GIANT screen immediately right before me. Watching this happen. Small and helpless. Terrible chills washed all over my body and I think it was the most horrified feeling I have ever gotten while watching fictional media. I will never forget it......

When I first watched this, I got the feeling that Shine had been floating in a void for a long time. (Maybe even the 1,000 years they always talk about.) But recently I realized, maybe it was just the amount of time Shin’s Mom was pregnant for? Since Shine wasn’t sealed that long ago (recent enough that Yamada-san knew him) it could be possible that he was sealed the instant Shin was conceived....?  

One of my biggest questions about Shin for the longest time was whether he was actually..... born or not. Since the date 2/29/2001 does not exist. But he was. And I am glad about that. 

This is the first time we learn Shin’s name is written 新.

Also Shin, when will you accept your megane destiny. 

(I guess he did in the last episode lol. But really, does he wear contacts...?)

So this is our Young of Prism reference. 

Shin did meet Louis on a night at his grandmother’s house when he woke up and saw sparkling light. But Louis didn’t exist yet at that time. It was Rinne. 

FUTURE 4TH PLACE (technically should have been 3rd) IN PRISM KING CUP 

....ahh Shin................ I love you......................

His childhood was just so normal.......... 

(Shine must have been so bored...........)

This answered another one of my long-time questions about Shin. Where was he going? Why would he be out biking at night in casual clothes (not school uniform or sports uniform) in the middle of the night far from home? 

At one point I was so concerned about this (and his birth date not being real) that I wondered if he didn’t even exist before he was biking along the river. But he did. Shin had a normal, happy, real childhood. Ahhh........ 

Christmas live! I already talked about this in my post about Leo’s episode, but yes it’s both an analog for the real life Music Ready Sparking concert, and a big part of the main story on Prism Rush: https://prism-rush.tumblr.com/mainstory

I’m so glad it was confirmed to be canon. (Well, it was already briefly mentioned in Pride the Hero. But still.)

THIS WAS MY QUESTION 

Well, we finally got the answer in the last episode: Because the prism gods found out and changed Louis’ mission. 

But you can kind of understand why Shine was..... pretty pissed off at Rinne/Louis when he finally resurrected in the last episode...................................... to say the least........

So this was weird. Shine said “Rinne” before Louis said his line from Pride the Hero “we’re the same now”, but the subs make it look like it’s the same line....?

This is honestly the only thing in this episode which I think is flat out wrong though. There is some other weird/inconsistent wording of course but I mean seriously FUCK IT. THAT’S NOT IMPORTANT NOW.

Crunchyroll A++++++++++++++++++++++ job this time.  

I didn’t realize it at the time, but..... 

Subconsciously, in the back of my mind somewhere....  at that very moment when Ace says CHOU YABEEE..... he became my favorite member of the Shuffle. 

Just like..... Look at them. They’re all so happy. They didn’t look like this when they were with Joji. The best part about this episode finally airing on TV is that I can finally watch the new Shuffle’s performance on its own (without having to be forced to also watch.... the suffering....). 

I can’t wait for this full song to come out. Even though we only hear it for like 10 seconds it’s actually gotten stuck in my head before. 

And I don’t know if it was intentional, but I think having Ace perform in this episode is very ironic and incredibly significant. Because here we have Ace at his highest point while Shin is at his lowest point. 

Ace doesn’t know about Edel Rose and why they needed to win this. He’s on the top of the world. This is his moment. He’s finally getting to perform. The Shuffle is finally free from Joji. For the Schwarz Rose boys.... Ace is the hero. 

Since I am already on a roll talking about them, I guess I’ll bring up something I forgot to mention in my episode 5 commentary. When Part 2 premiered in theaters, nobody knew what Ace’s color was. People were actually using red, which would make no sense because Kokoro is red. You can’t have two members of the same group with the same color. But gradually people realized, due to the light blue A on his shirt and the light blue wrist band he has in some official art, that Ace is actually light blue. And here it was confirmed.

The interesting thing about this is, up until very recently Tsurugi was light blue. Only since his art for SSS he suddenly became pink. 

So when we first saw that SSS concept art.... was it hinting all along at this very performance? That Ace would become the new center?

I don’t know. 

What do you think?

What?

No I’m not stalling. 

Why would I be stalling? 

Well okay.... I guess.... the next scene we have to talk about is......

..................

................................

Where do I even begin.........................

So, a little while after this was shown in theaters I made a vague post containing my raw emotions about a particular prism show in Part 4:  https://lunawings.tumblr.com/post/184802787153/okay-i-am-ready-to-talk-a-little-bit-about-king-of

So if you read it at the time, I’m sure now you know I was talking about this. 

If you were scared or uneasy about it while watching it on your computer screen, imagine what it was like in the theaters. This performance effected me to the point where I had nightmares for about a week. And I’m not making a joke either. They weren’t the kind of nightmares I could describe, it was just like.... seeing bits and pieces of this show over and over again. I’d wake up panicked and have to watch something on YouTube, anything else, to try and get my mind off of it so I could sleep. 

And like I said in my original post, the thing is, I just cannot get over how good this prism show was....... at accomplishing exactly what it was supposed to do. Which I’m assuming is, to make you feel VERY VERY UNEASY. It is just...... I can’t even..... I......................

And of course. The worst thing. The worst thing was coming to terms with the fact that I.... liked..... it..... ?

Because if I didn’t like it, I wouldn’t be thinking about it so much. 

If I didn’t like it, it wouldn’t have been stuck in my head FOR 24 TERRIFYING HOURS after seeing Part 4. 

NO

MAKE IT STOP

GET OUT OF ME

SHINE 

GET OUT OF MY HEAD 

I DIDN’T EVEN FULLY NOTICE HIS SPOKEN LINES UNTIL THEY WERE SUBBED OH MY FUCKING GOD 

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

It’s just it.....

This is so frighteningly real. 

It actually worked. 

I actually felt like Shine had some kind of power over me which lingered for days and days........... 

I guess..... I can understand why Rinne loved him........................

........................

He meant like consecutive jumps. 

Shin(e) is not doing a chain of consecutive jumps like Taiga, Yukinojo, etc. did. Instead he split himself and is doing a whole bunch of jumps at the same time. 

DONT

So, I gotta take a moment to make this clear. Since, to my horror, people were actually referring to him as Shin in this scene in the livestream chat. 

THIS IS NOT SHIN. THIS IS SHINE. 

He used Shin’s body and Shin’s voice. But this was not Shin’s prism show. 

Shin does not perform in this episode. 

SHIN WAS ROBBED

OF HIS PRISM SHOW

BY SHINE 

So, people who don’t actually follow me and/or just stumbled upon these posts may not know this. But Shin is (and basically always has been) my favorite. 

After Part 4 premiered in theaters, I had multiple friends in Japan send me messages to check if I was OK. It was even the immediate reaction of a girl I just met in the theater after I casually mentioned that Shin was my favorite. Like practically grabbing my shoulders ARE YOU OK. 

So. 

Am I OK?

No, but..... yes. 

By that I mean, I am not bitter that Shin does not get a new solo in SSS. In fact, I can recognize the irony, since up until this point Shin was the only Edel Rose boy to perform a proper show. And now he’s the only one who didn’t perform a new solo in SSS. So it’s even. Technically. 

So that is not what upsets me about this episode. What DOES upset me is how this emotionally effects Shin the character, who now thinks this was all was his fault when it wasn’t.....................

I personally have known for a long time that something like this would happen, and have basically been emotionally preparing myself since the Pride the Hero era. No, scratch that, even since the first movie era when I suddenly noticed the dark moon mark on the back of his neck in Over the Sunshine (which took me months). I just had a bad feeling. Something told me that loving this character would someday bring me pain. 

So if I truly loved him, I knew would have to be strong.

If you take the good, you have to take the bad.   

King of Prism SSS premiered in theaters in Japan after Taiga’s episode aired on TV, and right before Kakeru’s. In that gap, I came back a changed person. 

During the week of Kakeru’s episode I was just trying to feel normal again (while all y’all be sending me anon messages about whether we should pave over Africa or not FFS guys......). But from the next week onward was when I began to recover and was starting to want answers. You may have noticed, that was when I suddenly started talking about scores all the time.

Yes, part of it was trying to understand Taiga’s score and hoping it wasn’t lower for mathematical reasons since it later gets cut in half. But the truth is. The actual truth is. All that time I was trying to understand.... this. 

This zero right here has been weighing on me for a long, long time. Every time I brought up scores, it was always there. Looming at the back of my mind. 

For example, when I wrote “ I guess no matter what someone has to be last………………………….. ” in my episode 8 commentary, I wasn’t talking about Yu. 

So. Let’s discuss this. How can someone perform, as actually get up on stage, but end up with 0 karats? Clearly the audience did have a reaction to Shin(e)’s show..... 

But Kakeru said there wasn’t a system error. So it’s not that. 

According to June, if I understood correctly, it was judged based on Shine himself. There was no heart in his show. 

This lead me to question if this could explain some of the other character’s shows. How much does your own heart matter?

(According to this, it’s everything.)

No, I do not know why they still released a periodical update for a discontinued program. I guess there was a miscommunication in the prism IT department. 

(But I suppose it’s possible other Shines still exist in other worlds....? But I really don’t want to touch that right now.)

So, in case you didn’t fully understand the gravity of this, with the way the score is now it is mathematically impossible for Edel Rose to win.

Even if they get a perfect score with their unit show. 

Edel Rose has lost.

It’s over. 

So this was the moment when I forgave my idiot son Taiga.

Even after Shin got a zero, he still blames himself. 

And this may be a terrible way of thinking, but... I’m kinda glad they included this debacle with Taiga. Because it made it so this situation is not entirely Shin’s fault. (Technically it’s not his fault at all. It was Shine. But they don’t know that.) 

They treat it like everyone’s fault.... oh Edel Rose..... 

Also, my favorite moment in this episode and it has nothing to do with Shin. 

Kakeru offers Taiga his support.... 

And Taiga actually takes it. 

Also, I may be wrong but, I think this is the first time we have seen Kakeru cry. And not just in the main series, I mean like in ANY King of Prism media. 

I find it interesting that he doesn’t mention Kouji here. He goes right to Hiro. 

Despite their “rivalry”, he felt Hiro was counting on him.

I can’t believe y’all actually pointed this out in the livestream but it’s so true now that I think about it. There may be intentional symbolism with Hijiri’s hair here. 

There are a lot of scenes where Hijiri is trying to pull his hair back. But in this scene he pushes it FORWARD. 

He’s finally realized what really matters, and why he’s done all this in the first place. 

Oh Shin. Baby. It wasn’t your fault............................

And that’s basically it. For now. We’ll talk about their gay unit outfits next time. 

So to answer perhaps your most burning question: Yes, next week is the last episode. 

Next week is the finale of King of Prism SSS. Yes. For real. 

EDIT: OH MAN. Junta Terashima just confirmed in a Tweet that this is the outfit Leo originally made for Shin’s show. Ahhhhh.......

[rosesfromcth]

Spill Your Guts. SM

Summary/AN: So I spent tonight watching clips from the late late show with James Corden and the up next videos ended up always showing me the segment ‘Spill your guts or fill your guts’ and that got me thinking about how Shawn Mendes would do on the show and how I would do if I would ever end up on the show if I were famous and it gave me an idea for a fic so here we are.

Pairing: Shawn Mendes and Famous!Reader

Word count:3.4K

#queen of the run on sentence.

This was not your first time being on The Late Late Show. It was probably one of your favorite late show to go on, you always had so much fun with James. You typically would go on with people that you were promoting other projects with to normally just talk. You’d never really done any of the game segments.

However, tonight you were playing a game with a bunch of other celebrities you had not yet met. IT was the worst possible game for you to play as well. It was Spill your Guts or Fill your Guts. For starters, you have always had a very sensitive stomach and you had a very big problem with most textures when it came to food.  But you also had never met these people and you didn’t want to make them have ti eat these foods because you hated hurting foods and you also hated having to ask them compromising questions. You could only hope that James would be your teammate for the night because you felt somewhat comfortable around him.

It was 5 minutes till your segment and you’d just been introduced to one of the other guests, Sabrina Carpenter. You have been a fan of her music for the longest time, so it was pretty exciting to meet her. The two of you were chatting when one of the crew members walks up and says that the last guest is running just a few minutes late but should be there any second.

It was just as you were about to go on when the third and final guest finally arrived. You were surprised to see it was Shawn Mendes. This was kind of surprising for a few reasons, He was your ‘celebrity crush’ and the last time you had been on the show James had asked you about who your celebrity crush was and of course you had told him and now of course he was here. You actually are so embarrassed by this that you pretend that you have a preshow routine to do quickly before you go on stage when Sabrina says she is going to go say hello. You are then told you it’s time to go on stage.

“Ladies and Gentleman, it is time for our next segment, I’d like a warm welcome for our incoming guest. Shawn Mendes, Sabrina Carpenter and Y/Full/Name!” James announces and you all rush on.

James stands to greet each of you and gives you a hug before you sit down at the rotating table of disgusting foods.

“I am so excited to have each of you here tonight, now have you all had a chance to get acquainted?” He asks as you each settle in.

“Y/N and I actually just met tonight for the first time and we had a few minutes beforehand to chat. I am quite a fan so I was a little star struck when I was told she would be here tonight,” Sabrina giggles. “But Shawn and I have known each other for a while and I always love to see him when we get the chance.”

“Sabrina and I have, um well, we’ve actually even discussed collaborating before on a song but have never had the chance.” Shawn smiles. “But I’ve never met Y/N before. I was running late tonight so I actually didn’t even get to introduce myself before we came out here. Hi Y/N, nice to meet you. I am Shawn Mendes.”

The crowd erupts in laughter and you laugh alongside them before smiling at him and offering your hand in a handshake.

“Well, isn’t that nice? Shawn, did you know that the last time Y/N was on this show she actually told  me-“ You cut James off before he has a chance to out you.

“That I am a huge fan of yours. Yeah I love your music. Anyways. James, can you tell me more about the gross foods we have to choose from?” The crowd seems to get a kick out of this because it seems they all know your little secret but Shawn doesn’t show any hint on his face of knowing what you’re hiding.

James just smirks at you before listing each of the foods.

“So I figured the teams would be Sabrina and Shawn because both of their names start with an S and Then I figured Y/N and I would be together on a team. The rules of the game are that you don’t have to answer whatever question you are asked but if you don’t you and your teammate have to eat whatever food the opposing team had chosen for you.” James explains and you all nod in understanding.

“I think this will be a very fun game tonight. actually, because I know how uncomfortable Y/N gets and how awkward she is but also that she is the nicest, most polite person I know tied alongside Shawn.” James laughs and so does the audience yet again.

You are the first to ask a question and you are told to ask Sabrina the first question in your deck. You let James pick the food that she will have to eat if she doesn’t answer. He chooses Turkey Testes.

“Oh no,” You say as you pick up the card. “I feel so bad even asking this question. Like I don’t want to put you in a hard spot.”

From besides you, James chuckles and awhs at your reaction to the question in your hands.

“Okay, ahh. Sabrina, you were on the popular Disney Channel reboot of Boy Meets World titled Girl Meets World-I have to admit I was a huge fan of that show- Who was your least favorite person in that cast to work with?” You sputter out. You can feel your cheeks grow red.

“Y/N, this isn’t even something you have to answer or risk eating a gross food for and you’re this flustered, my god!” James cries.

“Erh, Shawn, I don’t know that I can answer that. I loved everyone one that set, ahhh.”

“It’s not that you don’t like them, it’s that they were your least favorite.” James reminds her.

“Sabrina, I can eat Turkey Balls for you. You don’t have to answer that if you’ll get in trouble.” Shawn tells her.

“Um, my least favorite person on that set, oh gosh. I-I can’t.” She says as she grabs one of the Items and throws it into her mouth, gagging slightly as she does so. Shawn follows her lead and throws it straight back. They both hew for a moment and start laughing as they do so until they swallow.

Sabrina then moves on to asking James a question, which was very similar to many questions he gets, was about who the worst singer he did Carpool Karaoke with was.

“James, don’t answer, please. Don’t. I can, ugh, I can drink this Sardine Smoothie.” You protest. “Or say, I was the worst if I was, I can handle it.”

He looks at you for a second. “I’m so sorry, I can’t say that because it wouldn’t be true. But I can’t tell you who the worst was either. Sorry, Y/N, bottoms up.”  

Both of you grab a glass and take a chug of the thick liquid. You plug your nose as you do so to try and hide of some of the taste. It it’s chunky and thick and just disgusting. You try and down it but end up gagging and having to spit it out.

“Well, I definitely do not feel super attractive after that.” You announce as you take a big gulp of water and use your napkin to wipe your face and to that everyone laughs.

James asks Shawn a question which he actually doesn’t end up answering. James then tells Shawn to grab a card to ask you a question and tells them to select a food for you to eat but tell them to go easy on you with the food because of how flustered you are already which of course makes you blush harder.

“Y/N, since we are looking to stir up some drama onstage tonight, can you list five Shawn Mendes songs, five of my songs?” He smiles at you and for a second you have to ask him to repeat because just looking at his smile breaks you for a seconds “Or you can drink some pickle juice.”

“Wow they really went easy on me tonight. When I said I was a fan earlier, I wasn’t lying to either of you about being a fan. But okay, five songs. Um, there’s Life of the Party. Which oddly enough was really the first song that got me into your music. Back when you were touring with Austin Mahone, my friend who was a huge Mahonie, I believe is the fandom name, had a group of us go the concert near our hometown for her birthday. And we both fangirled so hard over you at that concert. Okay so life of the party was like your big song at the time and oof, we loved it. Okay, one down, four to go. When you’re ready, Lights on, Roses and then, um, Falling all in you is another of my favorites.” You could feel yourself rambling so as soon as you said the last one you cut yourself off.

You picked up the glass of pickle juice and thought about how as a kid you used to drink it straight up.

“The funny thing is, I used to love pickle juice, I could drink it by the jar. And I’ve heard it’s a pretty good hangover remedy. As a kid, I would beg my parents to let me drink it and they would usually indulge me a bit but never let me drink a lot because they said I would get a tummy ache.” You brought the glass to your mouth and took a sip, sighing at how good it tasted to you. It was probably the weirdest food you enjoyed.  You quickly finished the drink as everyone laughed at you. James was a bit in awe because he didn’t expect it considering how you had a weak stomach and were gagging at most of the foods as they passed you on the table. Shawn and Sabrina both picked up glasses as well and raised their glasses to you before taking a sip. Sabrina also finished her glass off, but Shawn’s face quickly puckered and he set the glass back down.

“Wow, I’ve never seen all of the guests try a food when none of them had to. She answered the question. You two aren’t even on her team!” James exclaimed as the audience quieted down.

It is then your turn to ask Sabrina another question and this time she is able to answer. She continues the game by asking James about which celebrity has been the worst behaved on his show and he jokingly answers that it was Harry Styles but then refuses to answer seriously so you end up drinking bird saliva, which again, you are unable to swallow.

“Shawn Mendes, my question for you has to do with both of the young and talented women we have here with us tonight.” James turns and smirks at you and you can feel the heat rise to your cheeks. What is he doing? “My question, and you cannot go wrong with your answer because both of these women are beautiful and funny and kind, is who would you most likely date out of your co-guests tonight?”

If James hadn’t embarrassed you enough at this point, he winks at you and nudges your shoulder. Shawn has to have some clue at this point.

He’s going to choose Sabrina. She is a strong and successful woman, not to mention she is just so cute and funny. Hell, if you were him you’d choose her. Besides, they are already friends and he knows her unlike you.

Sabrina is grinning at Shawn, even she knows he’ll choose her. This is embarrassing. “C’mon Shawn, tell her.” Then she grins directly at James and winks. That’s when you notice that Shawn’s cheeks are possibly just as red as yours must be.

“Well, I would have to admit that Y/N is probably who I would choose since she’s been my celebrity crush for quite some time.” He awkwardly chuckles and then sneaks a glance at you and you awkwardly look away.

It makes sense, you’d been set up completely and you can feel a grin grow on your face.

“Wow, isn’t that interesting, Y/N, last time you were here you were actually telling all of us about how Shawn Mendes, who is sitting right there and just confessed that he would like to take you on a date, is your biggest celebrity crush.” James feigns shock and you see Shawn’s mouth curl up into a smile that matches your own as James spills the beans.

Shawn then asks you your last question of the night, both of you sending each other shy glances and smiling softly as James closes the show.

Sabrina and you walk off the stage together one the cameras stop filming. You exchange phone numbers and make plans to meet up for coffee sometime soon. James and Shawn stay at their spots for a moment while you converse with Sabrina. One of the crew members walked over and offers you each a disposable tooth brush and a mini tube of toothpaste. Sabrina leads you to her dressing room where you continue to chat and brush your teeth of the gross aftertaste that is lingering in your mouth from the game.

When you walk back out to the set, she says goodbye to you and walks with you to Shawn and James. Sabrina gives Shawn a quick hug and then pulls James to the side to talk to him, James winks at you before walking away.

“We were really set up, weren’t we?” You giggle, breaking the ice.

“Yeah, I’d mentioned it to Sabrina a while ago that I thought you were cute and she must’ve told James at some point and then the orchestrated this.” He laughs with you.

“I had no idea you would be here tonight, to be honest, it really threw me off. But I was happy I got to meet you, if nothing else.”

“Yeah, yeah me too.” He agrees and you both say goodbye.

It’s as you are gathering your items out of your dressing room that you notice the presence of the tall singer.

“Hey Shawn, what’s up?” You turn to look at the singer.

 “So, about tonight, I actually would love to get to know you a little bit better and maybe take you on a date?” Shawn asks.

It takes you a second to realize what he is asking and that this is reality, not a dream. When you finally realize that you had yet to respond, you give him your full attention and stop packing your bag up.

“I would love that.”

After that night, the two of you went on three dates before he asked you to become his girlfriend. You kept your relationship fairly quiet for a while, telling everyone you were really good friends. You ended up announcing it officially six months later when you went back to The Late Late Show. James took all credit and pretended to be shocked just like when he first heard about Shawn’s crush on the show that first night. The both of you had actually told James fairly quickly after you got together. James continued to talk about how he would be taking credit for getting you together and decided he had to call Sabrina Carpenter on air to tell her the news. This led to him explaining to the audience his plan that he and Sabrina had created to get the two of you together. She had seen the episode when it first aired of you telling James about your crush and had decided she had to get you two together if it was possible. To this day whenever, you or Shawn are on the show he brings up his matchmaker status. “100 percent matching success.” He will brag.

Now, two years later, you are seated back at the table with disgusting food surrounded by Harry Styles and Steve Carrell. The two Europeans, Harry and James are on a team and you are paired with Steve. James has yet to brag about being the reason behind your relationship. Which is odd, because anytime you see him, that’s typically the first thing he will say.

The questions had been fairly easy so far and the only weird food you’d had to consume was pickle juice yet again.

“Y/N. The last question of the night goes to you,” James looks at you. “The first time we played this game, I was able to set you up with your boyfriend of two years, Shawn Mendes. By the way, if anyone needs a significant other, come to me. 100 percent of the couples I have set up are still together.” He tells the audience. They laugh as you correct him telling them you are the only couple he has set up.

He is quick to shush you. “My question for you actually doesn’t come from my crew. My question is very special. Your boyfriend, Shawn Mendes, wants to know if you will do him the honors of marrying him.”

You gasp as he says this thinking it’s a joke but then the crowd erupts into cheers and both Steve and Harry are clapping and staring behind you.  You turn around and are greeted by the smiling face of your boyfriend.

“Hi.” You whisper to him, “is this real?”                                      

“Y/N, We met exactly two years ago on this stage. I figured this might be the perfect way to do this. I’ve known I wanted to do this since our first date. And with the help of our friends, James and Sabrina, I am able to do this in what I hope is the right way.” Shawn explains.

“I love you with my whole heart, you are the kindest and most beautiful person I know. I want to make you laugh every day for the rest of our lives and kiss you whenever I want. I love how generous and selfless you are, especially with both your fans and mine. I will never understand how I got so lucky to have you in my life and I will spend every day trying to do what I can to deserve you and your love. You make me a better person and a better artist. I hope I get to wake up next to you every day and fall asleep with you in my arms every night for the rest of our lives. So my question for you, is will you marry me? Remember, if you say no there is a cow tongue on that table for you to eat?” He is now kneeling on the ground in front of you. He has the ring box in one hand and your hand is in his other hand.

“Yes.” You whisper.

“Yes?’ He asks, smiling at you in disbelief.

“Yes!” You exclaim and he slips the ring on your left ring finger. You collapse onto the ground so you are at the same height as him and wrap both arms around his neck, pulling him into you. He pulls away after being content with how long he’s been able to hug you and kisses you. Then he jumps up and fist bumps the air.

“She said yes!” He yells and jumps around. He is such a dork, but you know exactly how he’s feeling because you feel the same. You laugh as you stand up next to him and wrap your arms around his waist again and he presses a kiss to your forehead pulling you as close to his chest as possible.

James then comes over and congrats you before announcing a special guest. Sabrina Carpenter walks onto stage and announces she’ll be singing a new song that she just recently finished writing with Shawn title “Marry Her One Day.”

[oosteven-universe]

Oberon #4

Oberon #4 Aftershock Comics 2019 Created & Written by Ryan Parrott Illustrated by Milos Slavkovic Coloured by Leonardo Paciarotti Lettered by Charles Pritchett     With his adversaries closing in, Oberon strikes an unexpected bargain with Titania, the Queen of the Fairies, leading to a complicated reunion at the longest running party in history: The Immortal Masquerade.     One of the things I remember most from my introduction to fairies is that you never ever say yes to them or strike a deal because either way they’ll own you forever. That and they are vengeful, destructive creatures. Like everything else Disney took the harshness out of them and made them cute and lovable so when we see a series like this where they are as dangerous as they are supposed to be I get all a twitter. I think that’s why I am honestly enjoying this as much as I am because Ryan isn’t holding back and depicting these folk as they should be, conniving, nasty, power hungry beings.     Oh Mother Mayie I think you played your hand too soon. Then again she was caught with hand in the cookie jar so to speak so she didn’t have much of a choice. This encounter that opens the book this issue is a complicated affair for me. On one hand it shows how much Oberon is despised and hated and on the other it makes us want feel sympathy for him at the same time. Then that begs the question which is more dangerous to know he’s the root of all evil or to feel sorry for the devil? Either way you look at that Ryan has me thinking beyond what we see and delving into the complexity of the characters and their mythology on me own is sensationally well done. This kind of engagement is what I look for when it comes to the writers I like to follow.     The structure of the book is fantastic! The way the story is told through these pages has this great balance of action, story & plot development and more than a fair share of intrigue. Also there can be no discounting Bonnie in all this because she is young, impressionable and sheltered so that someone like Nick who is indentured, willingly or not, to Oberon paying her this kind of attention is going to teach her a harsh lesson in having crush, she’s too young for love though she may feel otherwise.  Yes the characterisation here is extraordinarily good throughout and with every character whom we meet.     Milos is doing some really wondrous work on the interiors here. As lovely as Oberon looks and how old world charming his attire suits him what grabs me more is seeing the fairy in the horrific forms. Or taking that Colosseum and turning it into what it becomes that’s where the real magic happens. The linework here is exquisite as we see strong bold lines and soft subtle lines working in concert to create this beautiful attention to detail. I mean seriously page 2 alone! The creativity and imagination that we see in the characters who inhabit this realm is utterly delightful. As is Milos’ skill at creating fashion, an underrated skill having to create looks, gowns, suits and whatnot's for them to wear and I have to say his eye for this is amazing.     Of course all this design would be nothing without the colour work Leonardo provides. I love the way we see the colour work, from the highlights through light sources which provide this look at shading, colour blocking, colour gradation as well muted in the darker moments or illuminated in the sunnier ones. The utilisation of the page layouts and how we see the angles and perspective in the panels show off a strong whimsical eye for storytelling. I think backgrounds are utilised more judiciously than I would like but can’t have it all now can we? ​     I am thoroughly caught up in the spell that Ryan, Milos and Leonardo are weaving for us here. This is an exceptionally well executed book that would make any shelf that much better for having it.

[chriscoleman]

Covid Lockdown

March 2020 to May 2021

The COVID quarantine is slowly lifting. Here is a quick review of our last year in limbo.

The first COVID death in Seattle was in a nursing home on February 29th, 2020. We discussed the serious threat at Ultimate that day. Then Julia and I went to a Umphrey’s McGee concert at Showbox SODO that evening. I remember questioning if we should be taking this virus seriously, but brushing off the idea.

March 2nd our life was turned around in another way - the rental apartment we lived in for the past 8 years was being sold. Time to decide if buying a house is a smart decision…

March 11th the CDC officially declared COVID a pandemic. Things get serious fast. We begin watching the news constantly.

March 14th was our last day skiing for the 2019/2020 season. There was still significant snow on the mountain - but state restrictions closed down the resort. Then we jumped into a backcountry ski/camp trip. Shortly after that - even backcountry skiing was forbidden. That’s when the lockdown got serious.

The rest of March and April were uneventful. I thought I had COVID at 1 point, but tests were hard to get. The at-home test I did get returned a negative result. Julia had a small accident that took the Subaru out of commission for a little bit. No big deal.

Sadly the white cat, Lucy, had to be put down. The process with COVID restrictions at the vet made the experience extra hard. Sad to see my favorite cat gone after 12 years together.

May 27th we got the keys to our new house in Beacon Hill, Seattle! Huge day for us. One I didn’t think would ever come. Home prices in Seattle are pure insanity. Buying at the beginning of the pandemic gave us a little advantage - no bidding war at all. In retrospect it was an amazing decision.

We ate momo’s (Himalayan dumplings) the first night on cardboard boxes. Then got to work on improvements right away. I made the terrible decision to do ‘exploratory drilling’ in our walls at 2am that night to route some ethernet cables for the cable company coming the next day. Luckily it worked out - but I don’t recommend putting holes in your new home on day #1.

A train of professionals came out for the big jobs:

* Plumbers - pressure reducer and expansion tank

* Electricians - new panel and service

* Insulation - replace attic insulation

* Flooring - LVP in the mud room

Julia and I got our hands dirty a bunch too:

* Closet shelving/rods

* Toilet replacement

* TV mount install

* Hanging blinds (after 1 month with none!)

* Siding repair

* Install dog door

* Light/Fan upgrades

* Fence repair

* Bench and table builds

* Chicken coop converted to raised beds

* Yard work of all kinds

* More yard work of different kinds

* Plus a bunch of small stuff that continually keep us busy

Bamboo and Blackberries were the big task. Our house is directly next to a city ‘right of way’. Basically a big plot of land the city owns where no one can build. Kinda like a park or play field directly to our south. We call it the “side yard”. Opposite our fence that separates us from the side yard was a 6 foot tall 6 foot wide 60 foot long thicket of blackberries. Then it turned into 30 foot tall bamboo beyond that.

Julia and I took 1 weekend to clear the bamboo from inside our backyard. Then another 2 weekends to clear the bamboo from the side yard. Luckily a city mower came and tore down most of the blackberries with a tractor after I reported it as a nuisance. It was a beast of a job - but the neighbors came out to help (at least to take away the bamboo poles for their gardens). Then we sheet mulched the entire area to prevent regrowth. Huge project - which we are still fighting currently - but a massive improvement the whole neighborhood enjoys.

Discovering new local restaurants was hard during COVID. Many places still offered delivery or take-out, but no inside dining. Bahn Mi sandwiches and Bubble Tea has been a staple for us. Too many cheesesteaks and taco truck burritos also. Plus a bunch of other Viatemese, Chinese, and Asian restaurants that are popular here in south Beacon Hill.

Throwing the frisbee with my teammate, Patrick, was my only activity with someone other than Julia or the Grubhub driver. We got together about once a week with masks at Judkins Park to toss. A fun way to get some sun, exercise, and social interaction.

July 11th my grandmother died in upstate NY with my mother and family close by. Not COVID related, just her time to go. The best grandma anyone could have asked for. Always an open house and supportive of all my life adventures.

September 3-6 we got permits to hike in the Cascades, Alpine Lakes Wilderness, Enchantments. It’s a protected area with very limited daily permits for backcountry camping. I tried for 8 years to get these permits - so no chance we were gonna miss the opportunity. Unfortunately I got a small hernia on our birthday in July - but again - not gonna stop me! The prep-hikes in July/August went great. Another fun way to get outdoors safely.

The trip ended up amazing all around. A true life-list adventure filled with lakes, goats, vistas, and leg burning trails.

October, November, and December were totally uneventful.

January 2021 we began a bathroom remodel with Premier Contractors. Toby and his family/team worked with us to design a totally custom dream bathroom. Ferguson supplied the materials, the discount I’ve been waiting to use for 16 years of employment. Jackpot!

End of January came with great bathroom progress. They ended up replacing the majority of the house plumbing - as our old galvanized pipes were badly corroded. The electricians also came back to install new circuits for the heated flooring, jetted tub, mirror, and heater/fan/lights. We also got new circuits in the garage and my office to expand the power downstairs.

Because we are crazy - we decided to begin a 2nd project at the same time - a deck rebuild. The construction crew we got to design our back deck randomly had availability earlier than expected, which we jumped on. Why not knock out both at once?!? Demo began February 16th.

End of February the bathroom was tiled and the deck had cedar floorboards installed. Floyd, Hank, Jeff, Brian, Robert, and the whole Blue Oak Builders crew were amazing. Unfortunately the bathroom project stalled for a variety of supply/time reasons. They slowly made progress through March.

March 31st Julia and I got our first COVID vaccine shot. We jumped at the first opportunity, one of the first in our age group to get an appointment. We drove down south to the minor league hockey rink where they had the process down solid after a month of giving shots to more vulnerable people. Relief that the end was in sight! We celebrated by buying strawberry plants on the way home. :)

Then our 2nd Pfizer shot on April 20th. May 5th we were considered fully vaccinated. I celebrated with a game of pickup the first chance possible. I ended up going 441 days without ultimate - my longest streak in 24 years. Before this I had never gone 14 days without some sort of pickup, practice, league, or tournament game of ultimate. It felt amazing to be back in action - even if I’m fatter + slower than ever.

That brings us to today - May 23, 2021. Ski season is nearly over, flowers are blooming, concerts are announcing, Sounders are playing, friends are calling, and mask mandates are lifting. My schedule is already starting to fill up with fun. There really does feel like a light at the end of this tunnel. Finally!

Overall - I consider us lucky. Julia and I were able to work from home without interruption. Our companies had hiccups, but are more profitable than ever. Julia has been extremely busy with work - but that’s the life in a startup I guess.

We had no clue what buying a home at the start of a pandemic would mean. It ended up being ideal for us. Canceled vacations gave us extra time and money to invest in this 62 year old raised ranch style house. Room for Skye to enjoy, as she is getting old fast, is a treat. Not to mention offices on separate floors might have saved our relationship (seriously - who talks that loud on conference calls? just kidding my lover). We even got lucky with great neighbors who really look out for each other.

I realize that so many other people in Seattle / WA / USA / World were not so lucky during this pandemic. It sucks. I hope as these restrictions are lifted that everyone can begin to prosper again - both socially and financially. 2020 will go down as a monumental time in our lives. I look forward to post-pandemic-2021!

[fishychoo]

K4 Company 1st Event Round-up

So after watching the most recent K4 Company video that was posted and seeing what went on during the event I thought I’d take the time to highlight some of the fun and more interesting parts that happened :D

Spoiler alert: This post is going to be on the long side just for you @yaoisex​ xD

First off are the characteristic charts that the members made for each other!

Masuyama Takeaki --> Komatsu Shohei:

- (Dark blue area): Cute smile = 25%

- (Red area): High physical ability = 25%

- (Green area): Hates losing = 20%

- (Purple area): Gentle mannered = 10%

- (Teal area): Un-expecting and overlooking = 10%

- (Orange area): Would want to give New Year’s money = 5%

- (Grey area): Would like to see having a perm = 5%

Had some slight difficulties with the last one since I couldn’t see if the Katakana was “ha” or “pa” :p Masuyama commented that with Hime he could give him New Year’s money without having to worry about it being used for something unnecessary xD Hime then refutes Masuyama’s observation of him and says he would use the money for travel expenses haha 

Hama Kento --> Masumoto Takuya:

- (Blue area): Motivation towards glasses = 30%

- (Red area): Love for birds = 30%

- (Green area): Cooking = 25%

- (Purple area): Handstands = 15%

Masumoto has mentioned on the first episode that he likes to cook and is hoping one day they’ll get to do a cooking corner on the show xD He also owns 2 pet birds that he basically dotes on 24/7 when not working :P Masumoto also has a love for glasses which Hama asks if he buys them that often (in which he also asks if it’s expensive or not) since Masumoto switches between frames a lot.

Komatsu Shohei --> Hama Kento:

- (Blue area): Alcohol = 30%

- (Red area): Smile = 20%

- (Green area): Youth = 20%

- (Purple area): Loud voice = 20%

- (Teal area): Height = 10%

Hime notes that Hama REALLY loves to drink as well notes his trademark smile :) Hime also adds in youth for Hama’s chart because he is the youngest out of the 4 of them but Hime is their kouhai which Hime says himself it being a subtle feeling xD

Masumoto Takuya --> Masuyama Takeaki:

- (Blue area): Face depth = 40%

- (Red area): Fiery presentation = 20%

- (Green area): Body language = 20%

- (Purple area): Deresute = 20%

I’ll be quite honest with the purple area of Masuyama’s chart I have literally no idea what Masumoto is referring to o.O I tried googling it and it seems to be in reference to IdolMaster but I’m not too sure. (So if someone could correct me on it that would be great :D) Masuyama went full tsukomi mode here constantly saying to Masumoto that in the past 7 years they’ve known each other he could only come up with a few things about him LOL

Next up we have missions that the members must perform during the event! For each member they were given 2 missions each

Masuyama Takeaki Mission 1 = Kabedon each member

- To kick things off Masuyama decided to break the ice and perform his 1st mission on Masumoto while they were discussing about Masumoto’s chart. Honestly I found this super amusing to watch since Masuyama is fairly unskilled when it comes to things like this xD

- Alright now this part had me squealing like a little girl haha While Masumoto was getting his turn being kabedon on by Masuyama Hime decides to man up and offer himself up next (he admitted that during the time he thought to himself “might as well just get it over with” LOL) and HAMA ON THE SIDE HRGH!!!! TOO ADORABLE QQ

- *BLOOD EXPLODES EVERYWHERE* I don’t really have to explain what’s going on in this picture now do I???? LOL Though I have noticed for awhile now but Hime is pretty short for a dude xD I’m guessing he’s just barely hitting 170 in height compared to the others? Hama outta the 4 is the tallest one after all

- *AGAIN BLOOD EXPLODES EVERYWHERE* Thank god during the draft meeting the guys pulled out this mission but like @yaoisex​ said in her post I still wished it was Hama who got this mission instead LOL

Masumoto Takuya Mission 1 = Make a pun using “K4″

- TBH this mission had to be the weakest one outta the 8 that had to be done during this event but somehow since Masumoto ended up with this mission he still managed to find a way to make it adorably stupid :P

Komatsu Shohei Mission 1 & 2 = Use muscles for appeal | Get a “Ooo” response from the audience 

- HOLY MOTHER OF........ I mentioned this before but it’s a given fact that outta the 4 Hime is the most physically fit but man his muscles are just..... *drools all over the floor* In terms of appearance he’s like the complete opposite of say the likes of agency senpai’s Kiyan or Takuchan but if your familiar with his background he does always mention in almost every other interview that he’s a very sporty person (though he did admit he’s bad at any ball related sport xD). In the 2nd shot Masumoto decides to check how hard Hime’s muscles are and confirms it for everyone :P   

- Now these screenshots I took of Hama were just too adorable to pass up. K Gorilla-kun who is the mascot of the company and a creation by Hama himself during this event was the first time they got to meet each other in person :) K Gorilla-kun did make a appearance in the show but it was during episodes when Hama wasn’t the one hosting. So as sort of a gag since he’s based off a gorilla his business card is in the form of banana with his name on it that he hands out when introducing himself hahaha 

Hama Kento Mission 1 = Eat a banana

- Okay now this mission was just outright silly when it ended up being drawn during the draft meeting xD But since it was drawn for Hama both Hime and Masuyama couldn’t have asked for anything better since it related well for Hama (K Gorilla-kun and all during the event).

- In this shot after Hama ends up eating the business card that K Gorilla-kun gave him Masumoto makes a comment that it was pretty rude of Hama to eat the banana that was a business card that he got from K Gorilla-kun xD But in Hama’s defense he didn’t have any other banana’s to eat at this point so gotta take what you got :P 

Hama Kento Mission 2 = Steal then wear a pair of glasses (Masumoto’s)

- So after finishing up his banana at some point Hama ended up stealing Masumoto’s glasses and had to wear them himself for his 2nd mission :D I gotta admit Hama looks mighty fine in glasses but he has mentioned in a later episode of K4 Company that he has a difficult time figuring out fashion and that his fashion sense is rather.... questionable at times. Hama does also note that once he received a pair of fake circular lens glasses from a fan but when he tried wearing them in front of a mirror he said that he wanted to knock himself out for wearing them LOL (Don’t worry Hama not everyone can pull those glasses off :P)

- Alright now this next part is SUPER ADORABLE!!! So the discussion had reached the topic of each member choosing their individual colors so Hime asked the other 3 guys if any of them already had a color in mind. Hama was literally like a bullet train with his response and chose pink as his color to which the other 3 guys started to giggle along with the audience LOL Masuyama then comments about Hama how he’s like dumb child so he asks him again what he wants as his color to which Hama responds imitating a child that he wants to have pink as his color xD All the while that the conversation is going on Hime is just standing on the sidelines giggling away at the responses being thrown around by his senpais :P 

Masumoto Takuya Mission 2 = Call the other members by their first names and add  the “chan” honorific 

- Now to wrap things up for Masumoto’s final mission he had to call the other members by their given names and add “chan” at the end. During the draft meeting Masuyama was actually hoping that Hime would pull this mission since it suited him quite nicely but since Masumoto got this mission instead he found it rather amusing. Between the 4 of them besides Masumoto and Masuyama knowing each other the longest they don’t really have any preferences when it comes to using either their given names or family names but for Masumoto he automatically defaults to using family names when calling people. So when Masumoto ended up saying Takeaki-chan Masuyama couldn’t take it seriously :P 

- Also for Masuyama’s 2nd mission which was basically winking there’s not really a specific segment during the video where he ends up doing it (or rather in this case if he did it at all) LOL and with that brings an end to this round up post :) Now time to do one for the most recent SideM Nico Nico that Hime was apart of since there’s PLENTY of juicy info that he revealed during the last 2 legs of the 3rd live concerts :D

[almost-sweet-music]

I honestly just melt when I hear 2D sing! Get i get a fluff with the s/o just becoming a puddle?

This is by far the longest I have ever kept a request in my inbox and anon, HOLY FUCKING SHIT AM I SORRY FOR THIS. No, seriously I fucked up. I was attempting to write this three times and each time I got to like… 400 words and realized that it was utter shit. THIS TIME I am semi fine with how it turned out so I’m uploading it.

This was also the last request I had pending but I can’t yet open them since my friend from school wanted me to write her an imagine about Hank Mccoy from the x-men so that’s what I’ll be doing for probably the rest of the week :/

Anyways, enjoy!

Warning: Some sexual innuendos but it’s barely 2 sentences.

Y/F/N if your friend’s name

“Aww c'mon Y/N, it’ll be fun I promise!” Your friend chirped in your ear, trying to convince you to come to some concert with her. She’s been praising them for over an hour now, determined to make you come. She was saying how awesome their music is, how great the people are and something about a…. Satanist? And about some possessed guy? You were hella confused by now but to be honest… You were starting to give up.

“What even is that band anyways? I have no clue what they even do.” You Sighed sipping your tea and typing away on your laptop.

“They’re great, I’m telling you. Besides, after the show we can go get some drinks at a bar nearby.” She wiggled her brows at you. You glanced up at her and smiled shyly. “Ah see? There we go. It can be our…. Ladies night.” She skipped around the room and put on her shoes. “I think you’re going to like the frontman. He’s… Your type.”

“What do you mean my type? I don’t have a type…” You look up from your computer slightly offended by her tone.

“Mmmm yeah you do.” She grinned and left your flat in a victorious prance. You sighed and pinched the bridge of your nose. How in the hell were you supposed to say no to her?

______

You looked at yourself in the mirror and pouted. You turned to your friend.

“Be honest, do I look like a slut?” She looked up from her phone and glanced over you.

“Yeah, you look like you’re ready to gobble up some reaaal cock.” You scoffed at her and blushed. She giggled. “Just kidding! You look perfect. I mean, I’d tap the shit out of you.”

“Jesus Christ Y/F/N…” You turned back to the mirror.

“Hey, you wanted me to be honest, I was honest. Besides, you said it like being a slut is a bad thing. C'mon everyone likes sluts. The only people that don’t, don’t get any.” She said and stood up. She walked over to you and hugged you from behind. “Look at my girl. Finally leaving the house for once in her god damn life.” You huffed and pushed her away. She snorted and pranced out of the room. “C'mon slut, the cab’s here.” You rolled your eyes and picked up your purse, following her outside.

______

You were already hot and sticky. A crowd of people surrounded you as you all waited for the band to come on stage. Y/F/N stood next to you, all giddy and stuff, way more excited than you. To be honest, you were so regretting this… You were dreaming of coming back home and never going on a concert like this ever again.

The hall went black. Music started playing and some time later a group of four entered the stage. It was still all black but judging from the silhouettes at least one of them was a definite girl.

A very much british sounding voice started to greet the crowd and say some random stuff you didn’t honestly care about, still mentally far, far away in the warmth of your bed.

The lights went back on and only then did the scene grab your attention.  Your eyes skipped from person to person trying to see as much as you could through the sea of hands. Indeed, as you predicted, one of them was a girl. Pretty one I’m fact. The drummer was a slightly heavier, dark skinned man with completely white eyes but a really nice smile. The frontman, standing behind the microphone had blue hair and…. Pitch black eyes. No iris… Just pitch black. You were confused… Was this the guy Y/F/N was talking about? And lastly, the bassist. He had jet black hair and he was… He was just straight up green.  It could’ve been body paint but… It looked so real??

Minutes later the proper concert started and no joke… You were blown away. The music was great just as your friend told you. It had nice melodies a practically every song was different from the other. The blue haired boy was a great singer and since the first song, you couldn’t get your eyes off of him. It was like he was putting you in some sort of trance like state. The way he sang, especially the slower songs made you putty and for god’s sake you swear you locked stares with him for a second.

You sort of knew that Y/F/N was looking at you and smirking, but you chose to ignore it an not give her the satisfaction she wanted.

___

“See? I bloody told you you’ll like the guy didn’t I?” Y/F/N skipped next to you, on your way to some pub nearby. You rolled your eyes.

“Oh please, who told you I like him?” She huffed.

“Y/N… I saw it in your eyes. You were UNDRESSING him with them.” You punched her arm.

“I was not!”

“Sure lady, lie to yourself as much as you like but I know what you’ll be doing after you come back home and who’s name you will be moaning at night…” You groaned.

“Y/F/N, please.”

“Oh. so you’re not denying it?”

“Yes of course I’m denying it!” She laughed. You two entered a pub that was just around the block from the place where the concert took place. It was a bit crowded but not that much and you found a table easily.

“So, you sit here, look pretty and try to scoop out some hot peeps kay? I’ll get the drinks.” Your friend said and left you on your own. Some time later she came running back, with no drinks but the biggest grin on her face. She slammed her hands on the table. “Forget the hot peeps, I have someone I’d like to introduce you to.” You were confused bit didn’t even have time to ask questions before getting tugged through the group of people by your wrist. Somewhere in the distance you saw a glimpse of blue hair and you immediately stopped, pulling Y/F/N back a step. “Y/N?!”

“Please don’t do this to me.” You said and tried to pull away.

“Oh come on Y/N! He’s a great guy, I talked to him. He said it’s okay to introduce you! Please, come!” You cringed at the thought of having to speak with a stranger like that but in the end succumbed to her.

You stopped in front of the guy from before. You clutched onto Y/F/N’s hand and hid behind her back. She tapped his shoulder and pushed you forward a bit.

“Hey so this is the chick I’ve been telling you about. Her name is Y/N and she’s pretty damn cool and she’s been looking at you the whole evening so yeah. I’m just gonna leave you two now and I gotta blast!”  She said, seemingly in one breath only before letting go of your hand and jogging away.

“Wh- Y/F/N??” You called out to her.

“Gotta blast!” She giggled and gave you the thumbs up before running out the building. You were speechless and frozen in place.

“What the…” You whispered.

“Your friend is really… Jumpy isn’t she?” Blue haired guy said. You felt yourself grow hot. What were you supposed to do now?

“I uh… Yeah…” You turned to him. “Listen… I’m sorry for this I uh… Won’t ruin your fun and I’ll just leave okay? Great show by the way I’m a fan-” Just as you were going to leave, you felt a big hand grab your.

“Oh, no please stay.” You blushed and looked down. Your hand was intertwined with his, bigger one. He noticed you staring and pulled it away. “Sorry. No but seriously, stay. I’d love to chat a bit with you Y/N.” You kept silent for a second before sitting down next to him awkwardly.

And you chatted. A lot in fact. You talked about everything and anything and nothing and the conversation didn’t seem to want to end to the point where his band mates left and he stayed with you. Finally after an hour or so you decided to go home and Stu - that you just learned, has volunteered to walk you home.

He pulled out a cigarette and lit it.

“Ya smoke?” He asked. You shook your head and continued to walk alongside him. “So… Which song did ya like the most?”

“Hmm? Oh. I liked a lot of them similarly. I really liked the slow kinda sad one. Busted and…. Blue?” He smiled.

“Yup. That’s the one.” He looked at the moving ground and sighed happily. There was a pause where you were both just walking silently when suddenly you heard a faint voice sing. “Where does it come from?When everything was outsideBusted and Blue”.  You glanced as in awe at Stu who started to silently sing. He looked up at you and smiled shyly.

You got that feeling again. That warm flutter in your belly that made you all giddy inside. Your legs felt like they were made out of jelly, ready to give out at any moment.

“All my life

All my lifeBeam a lightOn me I am a satelliteAnd I can’t get back without you.” The way he looked at you when he sang that, although the thought was completely foolish and almost certainly wrong, made you feel like he sang it to you specifically. That probably wasn’t true, given that you just met a few hours ago but you liked to think it was. You blushed at the thought and continued to listen and walk along silently.

He finished not long after. You grinned and clapped a couple times.

“Bravo. That was great! Honestly I’m kind of angry I didn’t discover you guys earlier.” Stu chuckled.

“You seem pretty nice. Nicest person I’ve met in a while actually.” He said, putting his hands in his pockets. You smiled and tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.

“You think so?”

“Yeah. Well I mean… I live with a guy that fractured both me eyes and kidnapped me a couple times. On top of that he’s generally pretty mean. Real bastard that one. He’s green too.” He turned his head over to you. “Uh, you a'ight?” Your mouth has fallen agape and you were speechless. “Luv?” You closed your mouth.

“Sorry I was just… You… Actually live with that person? And you didn’t do anything about the abuse?”

“Well, no…”

“D- Stuart…. Do you know how much money you can win in court after all that guy has done? Why didn’t you sue him yet??” You were almost shaking in anger. How did he manage to not do anything all these years?

“I uh… You know, he was in jail once. Besides he’s been through some tough stuff too. He’s not that bad really. Jus bad temper. He really loves Noodle though. Seriously, she’s like a daughter to him. I’m sure she wouldn’t be happy if he was gone.” Stu said and looked at you with a soft smile.

“But… Okay, what about moving?”

“Wha bout it?”

“Well, why can’t you just move away? At least you wouldn’t be living in the same house as that guy.” Stu chuckled.

“Maybe someday…” He sighed. “Is your place far away?” He asked.

“No actually, just around the corner.” You pointed in the distance to the big building where you lived.

“Oh. I’m kind of sad actually. I enjoyed your company t'night.” He admitted.

“So did I!” You replied.

A minute or so later you were there, by your door.

“So uh… See you soon I guess.” Stu said.

“Hopefully!” You said cheerfully.

“Hey uh actually… Can I get your number? I’d really love to see you again.” You agreed and quickly exchanged numbers before, 2d had to leave. You came back to your flat and immediately flopped in the bed, screaming into your pillow.

____

You got a text from Stu, early in the morning. It was a video.

“Hello Y/N! It’s Stuart Pot, recording from the studio. I’m currently doing audio for a new song I made myself and it’s called Sleeping po-” He got cut of by a voice you recognized as Murdoc.

“Aye, faceache!We got work to do!” 2d turned around and yelled

“Shut up gobshite, I’m doing something!” You giggled and bit on your finger “So yeah, we’re recording a new song, it’s called Sleeping Powder and I just wanted to say that I miss you a lot and I love you and I’ll see you, very very soon! 2d signing off!” He smiled wide and the video finished and after that, you couldn’t stop grinning til the end of the day.

[loveg1rl-remade]

write short descriptions of your favourite mutuals/friends and then tag them (but not next to their descriptions) and try to make them guess which one is theirs!

i did two parts bc i did a lot of ppl! ppl are tagged in alphabetical order dfjskfn also i hope y'all can guess your number 🚶🚶🚶

p1. 

@01bri @1aju @1oveful @2blushy @chanilovehours @doyoung @fruittxt @himlo @jenolees @junghwasgf

01 - omg we were JUST talking today… we always hit each other up for drama its p funny sjdfksldj i love hearing them talk just in general. they have a lot of good energy and it makes me happy that they like me enough to like. willingly hit me up i think thats really cute and i love that… also theyre always going to concerts and i think thats really cute i hope they hve a really good time :( they always have my back n i love talking to them !! angel 

02 - my sweetheart!!! they’re really the funniest we used to talk ALL the time before school started :( i miss them a lot but honestly i love when they spam me with notifs :’) jsdfkjsd i remember when we first met n we talked about divergent and the bts visual novel it was HONESTLY really iconic… they’re a year under me but honestly it feels like we’ve known each other for a while !! they have a lot of love in their heart and their love for a certain few ppl (starting w t) is so sweet :( i love how we both procrastinate and stay up until like 2 for everything anyway ily and i miss u! 

03 -  omg.. i feel like they’re my younger sister… i really don’t deserve such a ray of sunshine! whenever i’m down they always send me the sweetest asks and messages and once they even told me abt their day out of nowhere i just thought that was really cute :( they’re ALWAYS cheering me on and it is really really sweet !! they make me rlly happy nsdfkjsd even just seeing their asks that start with “GIRL!!!” yea :’) they’re the brightest star w the cutest personality

04. we talked for like four hours about grapes once and that’s how we became friends… uhh i love them a LOT !!! they are really so kind and supportive and we get along really well?? they have a callout list for me kjdfdsf honestly we have a lot of inside jokes and it’s really cute. they changed my opinion abt taureans (U SHOULD KNOW WHO U ARE BY NOW .. ) and i just love how we can talk about anythin????? also your sleep schedule is SUPER screwed up but its chill bc that means we can talk more ndfkjsdkf i love you angel !! 

05. i will LITERALLY never forget the time i was feeling like absolute SHIT and they took the time to write out like an ESSAY for me and it’s saved and screenshotted and immortalized forever in my heart it really meant a lot for someone to like. take the time out to do that for me and im so grateful…we don’t even post the same content anymore but they always interact w my posts and check up on me and send me asks… i love them a lot lot lot! on my old blog they’d send me the cutest asks too im grateful and lucky to have them in my life :’) 

06. they know who they are !! my one n only!! we talk every single day and somehow they don’t get sick of me which is a feat in of itself. super creative and caring and empathetic and strong and selfless and just? a really good person. they have the biggest heart and the most love to give. they’re also really hard on themselves :( my biggest cheerleader n the love of my life.. if you haven’t figured out who you are yet i’ll send jeno over to talk some sense into you (*tell you he loves you)

07. soooo soft :( everything about them is soft!! they hav a lot of love for a certain bunny boy and they’re always always tagging ppl in things i think it’s so unbelievably kind. they’re always spreading kindness and joy and is such a ray of sunshine!! i really really lov them a lot ! 

08. o man where do i start?? they’re really full of a lot of love… they’re always love posting abt their best friend and that really makes me so happy that they have such a positive good person in their life… anyway we always send each other cute asks periodically to check on each other & we’re always helping each other out when we go through emo moods… anyway they’re applying to college at the same time i am and i remember stressing out abt it with them but i KNOW we’ll both be fine i lovve them :’)

09. seriously a big source of support for me even if we don’t talk on the daily!! they always have really good advice to give and even when like. No Advice Can Be Given they’re always lending an listening ear. they’re really cute i love how mature they are !! besides giving rlly insightful n thoughtful advice.. uh they’re just a rockstar! they’re a little bit younger than me but they always try their best and help others out and it’s really admirable. plus they said they love making playlists and i just thought that was the cutest thing :/

10. we haven’t had a lot of conversations together but theyre really just the sweetest :( ever :( i was going through a hard time n they sent me so many sweet asks and messages. its always nice to know there are ppl who care abt u and this person is just SO caring in general!! they’re always tagging ppl in sweet things and doing their best and it is much appreciated !! much like their name they rlly are. the best and the brightest

– 

p2. 

@kimjunnoodle @lazy-gudetama @pastelunnie @rapgodkth @rosehyuck @snowedjin @taehn @taeilsgrl @taeyyongs

11. UGH another sweetheart … they’re always sending me the sweetest long asks checking up on me and they’re always interacting n communicating and talking abt stuff they’re passionate abt it i really love it ?????? i miss talking to them !! they would send me the cutest dog pictures :( i always see them around spreading love and happiness and warmth .. they have a lot of love and compassion in their heart. i always look forward to their asks and replies!!

12.  my EVERYTHING!!!! i saw their selfies like yesterday n they rlly knocked my socks off imagine being so pretty!!!! they are really an icon it was so cute talking to them abt our wedding :/ they’re a lot of fun they go from super soft to super funny and like, theyre either loveposting or talking about furries i think its the funniest thing ever. anyway they’re a total sweetheart n the best hyuck stan so yeah ! i love love

13. omg …. they’re SO considerate they’re always tagging me in those “associate ur mutuals with” posts and it’s honestly really cute ??? they have my kidneys and my left lung and my Whole heart :( the biggest sweetest tae stan ! super sweet and lovely and funny !!! we don’t talk a lot but i’m always cheering them on behind the scenes!! they always interact w my not funny stupid posts and hype me up theyre just. really great to be with and im grateful to b mutuals 

14. i’ve known you the longest!!!!!!!! i have all ur jk fics saved omg :( you’re the sweetest bean and i love talking to you.. even tho we don’t talk on the regular anymore it’s always so sweet hearing from you and i love how we always update each other when smthing important happens in our lives!!!! i love watching the videos u send ur voice is rlly the cutest n i remember the first tme i heard it i started crying anyway i still have your christmas card saved and i love you a whole freaking lot im still waiting to go on a date with u :( my tall gf

15. UH we literally talk and just. gush over how cute girls are …. jsfdasdf we ALWAYS tell each other beef no matter what sfjdsk they really have such a caring n chill personality. we think alike so it’s really nice telling them abt things i need help with because i always get a good second perspective on it… they’re always here to listen to me (even late at night when they have work the next day)… they’re a bit like my older sister i trust them a lot !! i really love how they always update me on things even tho i SUCK ass at messaging so :) anyway i love them a lot (move to california sooner!) 

16. one of the funniest most down to earth ppl i’ve ever met. memes are iconic and every single conversation we have i always manage to laugh bc their comedic timing is amazing and yea they’re just an all around great person. they’re my movie buddy and we can also really talk abt anything??? like we’re super comfortable around each other which is super cool n i’m grateful. we can talk for hours n hours … and yeah .. they’re also super sweet and always support me through everything! we have a lot of inside joke its cute & i’m glad i met this person i really am :’)

17. hdfsfn.. really. they really own my heart.. honestly i couldn’t have asked for a better mutual???????? they are Top Tier quality one of kind…they have like thousands upon thousands of followers and they always always promo me … im so undeserving of their love… AND AND THEY ALWAYS SEND ME ASKS …. even when like. im being annoying and ask stupid questions no one wants to answer they always write out a whole paragraph and it makes my WHOLE world ten times over im so grateful for them … i have the strawberry emoji on like all of their asks bc i want to keep all of them thats how much i appreciate the time n effort they show me … wrow… the cutest and best ever i love them a LOT! 

18. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they’re so motherly to me …. they’re always looking out for me and making sure i’m doing ok and i think that’s just the sweetest best thing ever :( they’re really sweet n pretty AND funny i always love seein their posts… they’re one of my few exo mutuals and i LOVE IT ! I LOVE THEM! they are sosososo soft their tags for their man are really the cutest too… they’re one of those mutuals who switch from loveposting to toesucking and it’s the best and funniest i love them! once i was sick n they sent me like two asks making sure i was ok and . wrow. i couldnt have asked for anyone better

19.  mMmMmMm i remember i thought they hated me and then it turns out they didn’t and i was SO relieved bc they’re so sweet and funny and :( just a really great person. they did a lil astrology analysis for me and it was so spot on i’d trust them with my life and my savings and my posterity…. uhhh they have a heart of gold they’re always looking out for others and trying their best n it’s really admirable. they also have such a good sense of humor!! a treasured mutual who owns my heart :( 

[eglantinian]

tag, you’re it~

okay, so @courageandbravery and i have this fun tradition of tagging each other on stuff, and i tagged her on one of those get-to-know things, but it was something done before, so she changed the questions, and i really like it a lot

*cue Billy Joel singing honesty is such a lonely word*

i tag: @eponineinthebarricade, @bisexual-eponine, @tomorrowatdawn, @ladywolfmd, @lesfillesenfleur, @shadows-of-1832​, @ladywolfmd​

·         What’s one thing you would like to change about yourself?

I would like to… wish I didn’t let the pessimism of others get to me -- even when I know I could handle it really well. It’s hard to break from it, even if I’ve succeeded sometimes. 

·         What was the best phase in your life?

2nd year college. 

·         What was the worst phase in your life?

3rd year college. Lol. 

·         Who is one person you would talk to about anything?

Hmm. There’s a lot I could talk to about anything, seriously. But my irl guy best friend would have to take the cake, I think, because I would just blurt the most random shite, and he wouldn’t mind. 

·         Have you ever lost someone close to you?

I loved a puppy we once called mojacko for reasons I’ve forgotten. She had green eyes, and her paws were soft, and she liked to follow me everywhere. One time, I was cuddling her on my chest, and she was sleeping. There was sort of a contentment during that moment, even if I was doing my homework. Then my mum came home, but she was driving the car, and needed someone to open the gate for her. I was the only one available at that time, so I gently placed mojacko on the seat I was in. When she stirred and barked playfully at me, I ruffled her furred head, and told her to ‘Please don't follow me.’ She barked again, but I closed the screened door and hurried to do as my mum asked. But you see, mojacko is a really clever girl, and like I said, she likes following me everywhere. So when I opened the gates, and mum drove the car in, she had bitten the screens to get a way out and call for me. I didn’t hear her right away, though, as I’ve always had hearing problems. But when I heard her cry, my mum didn't realise that my clever girl was running to me and oh god, the tire did her in. I heard her last whimper, and her green eyes were staring up at me. I felt the tears fall before I realised it did until EVERYONE in my family blamed me for her death. I didn’t fight it. I felt and thought that it was true, so I didn't question it. I fucking murdered her, my clever girl. God. I was a murderer. I couldn't breathe. It took me years to move on from that, and find the fondness I used to have for dogs once again. But I think I can never want to own a dog ever again. 

·         Have you ever had your heart broken?

Yeah. For romantic, familial, and platonic reasons.

·         Do you believe in second chances?

Yeah. I really do. It’s kept me grounded for the longest time.

·         What is one thing that people always misunderstand about you?

Hm. People think I'm weird for the stuff that I like and that I think too differently, so they always hesitate when approaching me until I smile at them and they relax.

·      What is your biggest regret in life?

Not fighting to take theatre hard enough. 

·      What things are standing between you and complete happiness?

Some of it, myself. A lot of it, society. 

·         If you could send a message to the entire world, what would you say to everybody?

PLEASE TAKE CARE OF THE ENVIRONMENT. SERIOUSLY. PLEASE. I BEG YOU. 

·         If you were going to die tomorrow, what would you spend today doing?

Hug my family and friends in the morning. Spend the afternoon with my guy best friend and hug him goodbye. Then I'll go out to a garden, seat on a bench, and have someone play Red and Black when I look out into the sunset and then go. Pretty dramatic, but I don’t like not having music when I am in quite ‘the moment’ for it. 

·         How would you describe yourself in 5 words?

Affectionate. Curious. Melancholic. Rational. Terrible.

·         What would you do differently if you knew that no one would judge you?

I’d be doing theatre first before pursuing my course, Consular and Diplomatic Affairs.

·         What is one thing you hate that most people don’t mind?

Going to big concerts. I can't fully appreciate the singer or band. My hearing isn't that good, so I don't really like it when people scream and stuff. It's hard for me to hear, and I feel really claustrophobic.

·         When you think of home, what comes to mind?

My family sometimes. Often than not, my best friend.

·         What scares you the most?

Right now? Losing someone I care about.

·         How much do you love yourself?

I am trying to, but it's hard. I'm a terrible person, so I don't think I ever fully could.

·         Do you believe in karma?

If energy can be neither created nor destroyed, so do the things we do -- it will always come back in varied forms. So yes. Karma exists.

[whydoyouwantmyname]

Imagine being Snape’s foster child (Years 4-6)

2-12

13

-During the summer you went to the Weasley's as usual, and were there when Harry came to visit. 

"You boys are fully aware that Molly knows you were out?" You asked the boys as the silently tried to sneak into the house. 

"I thought you said you would cover for us?" George snapped playfully 

 "Well I can't quite break the charmed clock now can I?" You barked back, pointing at the clock which was identifying that the boys were home. 

 -you tried hard not to laugh when Molly yelled at the boys. After her speech you rose and began helping her cook, apologizing that she allowed the twins and Ron to leave. 

"Oh sweetheart it isn't your fault, I would have done the same thing if I had friends who wanted to save my little brother." 

 -You went back to Hogwarts while the Weasleys and Harry went book shopping, cause Snape made sure you already had everything you needed. 

-He also bought you advanced potion books, along with a new cauldron. 

       "Dad you really didn't have to." 

       "Yes I did." 

 -Snape requested you be placed in an advanced potions class instead of Defense against the Dark Arts, cause he didn't trust Lockheart as a professor. His request was denied. 

 -Once joking about how Lockheart was probably a coward. 

 -within the first week you and the Twins had pranked at least 87% of the staff, your favorite so far was when you turned all Treadhorny's tea leaves into butterflies. 

 -"you should be focused on your studies, not on creating childish antics with the two Weasley spawns." Snape hissed at you, as you sat at one of the desks after hours, working on your divination homework. 

       "Well as you can see I currently am." 

       "Yes along with thinking of the next prank, I know for a fact those two could never have made that voice altering potion slipped into professor Flick's morning pumpkin juice." 

 -when the attacks started to occur Snape was panicked that someone was going to find out about you, seeing how they were no doubt a follower. 

 -you calmed him down, swearing you wouldn't die, 

    “I mean why would they go after me to begin with, for I am not a mudblood.” 

    “Yes and a Potter.”

    “And no one but the Weasleys, Harry, and Hermonie know that.”

-You were the third one petrified. You were setting up a prank in an empty classroom, while Fred and George were acting as the look outs on either end of the hall. They noticed you were inside for far too long, and when they opened the door they found you by the windows of the room, and failed to notice the open grate on the floor behind you.

- Snape was unaware, when it occurred he had been called away to collect a box of ingredients you wanted to use to make a potion, upon returning to the grounds Albus had him called to his office.

- “Headmaster.”

“Severus, I request you remain calm.”

“I am calm sir...”

“I am afraid the creature has attacked once again while you were away. And it appears that [Y/N] has been petrified.”

“Excuse me.” Snape snapped, salt water began to threaten his eyes as he looked at Albus.

“I had her placed in her old quarters in the dungeon if you would...” and with that Snape fled the office, in disbelief.

-When he entered your room and saw your body in the bed he sank to the floor, the tears freely falling as he struggled to breathe.

-Whenever he wasn’t teaching he was at your side, or trying to find a faster way to unpetrify you.

-He was very cross when it came to the golden trio or the Weasleys, he thought they had shared your true identity with someone. 

-Fred and George tried to figure out where they had you resting, since they were also extremely torn up about what occurred, however Snape refused to let them see you.

-Snape read to you every night, either a potion book, or a childhood story he would tell you as a child.

-He would cry at least once a day, and beg you to wake up even though he knew you wouldn’t.

-He snapped at the Twins once in his class, because they were unable to make a potion.

“Well maybe if you both didn’t relay so much on the Black girl you two would be able to make the most simplest of potions! However you both find messing about and pulling childish pranks to be more enjoyable then taking this seriously! No wonder the girl got petrified in your care, you both were probably too busy lighting off a stink bomb to even notice you were putting her in danger!”

-When you finally were unpetrifired, you sat up and immediately hugged Snape, who was at your bedside while they administrated the cure. 

-Snape told you everything, and when it was all said you quickly stood from the bed and ran out of the room, Snape close behind. 

-He followed you to the room where Arthur and Molly were gathered, Ginny stood between them. You quickly entered the room, and when Ginny saw you she had tears streaming down her face. You moved forward and embraced the crying girl.

“I d-d-d-didn’t know, a-a-a-af-after it attacked you I-I tr-tried to g-get rid of it...”She stuttered into your blouse.

“Shhhhh shhhh Ginny, it is okay. It wasn’t your fault.” You comforted as she clung to you tighter. Snape stood outside the door and listened, his heart breaking at the forgiveness you gave.

-That summer you didn’t go to the Weasley’s, you stayed with Snape, and made potions. However you wrote Fred and George a letter at least once a week, as did they.

-You asked Snape to go easy on the twins this coming school year, since you were in a different potions then they were this year. And you were not taking Defense against the Dark arts, at all.

-Snape told Albus that he felt it was inappropriate to have you in a class with a man who could so easily blow your cover. He complided, knowing there was a deeper reason for Snape’s plead.

-When the students returned you were waiting at the platform with Hagrid, and as soon as you saw the messes of red hair, you took off towards them and basically leapt into Fred’s arms. After a long hug, you unhinged and quickly hugged George.

-Snape was glaring down Lupin during the feast, which did not go unnoticed to you. 

“So you going to tell me what your issue with the new Defense Against the Dark Arts professor is?”

“Nothing.”

“It is n’t nothing, and I know who he is. So tell me now, before I go and ask him questions about my father.”

-That was the night Snape told you about all the bullying, and you listened.

-At the end of the story, you had a different view of your father 

-When the school went in lock down due to Sirius’s possible entrance into the castle, you went to your old room in the dungeon.... with a certain red headed Weasely.

-When Snape didn’t see you in the Great Hall he thought nothing of it, but when he saw only one twin, he quickly made his way to your room, where he found you cuddled up asleep with the redheaded joker.

-As much as he knew that he should be angry, he couldn’t be.

-He never brought it up that he saw you both, and you didn’t tell him that you were dating him till you both hit the 8th month mark of your relationship.

-He just hummed in response, unsure how one would react to their teenage daughter dating. 

-You cried when Buckbeak got sentenced to death, and wanted to be there when it happened to support Hagrid, however Snape wouldn’t let you go. 

-You were the only student who knew about the time turner, and when it happened told Hermonie she should go back in time and stop Draco from being an idiot.

-He once got you and Fred snogging in the hall, and it took all his strength to not be enraged at the boy. 

-Before you told Snape, he hinted at your relationship with Fred in class, Fred always told you too what he would say, and while it didn’t bother Fred, it did you however, which is what led you to tell him.

-”Now today we shall be learning how to make potions of lust, one drop will make your drinker fall hoplessly in love with you. However I am sure not everyone needs this, isn’t that right Mr. Weasley?”

“Here is a truth serum, if I were to give this to anyone of you, you could reveal your darkest secrets, like bank account numbers, test grades, involvement with organizations, secret relationships.”

-”Okay I am going to tell you something, and you can’t be mad.” 

“What.” He flipped half of his paper down, looking at you in wonder.

“I have been dating the Weasley boy since September.” You expected an explosion of a response.

“Hmmmmm.”

“That is all?”

“Hmmmm.”

“Please don’t poison his pumpkin juice.”

“Hmmmmm.”

“Oh Goodness you already did.”

“Hmmmmmm.”

-Fred was in the hospital wing that afternoon.

-Harry told you everything about Sirius, and how he helped to free him and concerted running away with him, you told him he should.

-Spending the summer with the Weasley’s that year, and Molly thinking you and Fred where adorable together.

“I knew it from the moment I met you my dear, you were going to turn my Freddy into an honest man.”

-You and the twins explored the campsite as soon as you got to the tournament, and almost bumped into the Viktor Krum, however you dragged both boys away (Seeing how they wanted the charm his broom)

-When you reached your spots in the stand Fred stood behind you, his hands resting on your waist as you cheered for the Irish.

-When the death eater attack happened you got separated, and ended up in the field with Harry, both of you knocked unconscious. 

-You both woke up to see the casting of the Dark Mark in the sky, and when the scar burned you were there to try and comfort Harry.

-When Fred saw you were safe upon returning he wrapped you in a warm embrace, “I thought I lost you.”

“You can’t get rid of me that easy Weasley.” You smiled

-Fred begged you not to go home to Hogwarts with Hagrid.

-”I have to babe, gotta tend to the garden.” His reflection pouted at you as you tied your hair back in the mirror, “Don’t give me that look, it is only three days before school starts.”

“The longest three days of my life.” He sighed as you turned around and looked at him

“You will survive.”You sighed, before walking forward and kissing his head before aerating into the dungeon.

-”You know you shouldn’t be doing that, the floo powder system works just fine.” Snape scolded.

“Yes well however I had to leave fast, before Fred convinced me to stay.”

“Hmmm.” He replied as you rolled your eyes and hurried back to your dorm, in the Gryffindor common room.

 -“So he is coming back?” You asked Snape the next day as you both did inventory of the potions chamber. Your eyes fixated on Snape as he looked anywhere but at you.

“I am afraid so.” his voice was filled with sorrow.

“Am I in danger?” You asked, already aware that the return of Voldemort would result in the danger level around Harry to rise.

“I am unsure.” he breathed out, before looking at you with teary eyes.

-Snape was extra protective of you, he also made certain requests.

“So I never want you alone with anyone except the Weasley boy, and that is ONLY when you are in the castle.Also you can not be alone with any Slytherins.”

“Ok.’

“And absolutely...”

“No one can know I am your foster daughter, or a Potter.” You replied

-Moody found out who you were though, and started plotting.

-You smacked Fred’s chest playfully when he checked out the Beauxbaton girl’s flowing mini skirts.

-You purposely messed up the boy’s potion.

“Watch this.” You whispered to Lee, before the boys drank the liquid. 

-You told Fred and George they made hot elderly men, and then took them to Snape to make them a cure.

-When Harry’s name got called, your heart dropped, your hand rocketing to Fred’s thigh.

-Snape comforted you, after expressing your thoughts about Harry’s involvement.

-You scolded Fred and George for making merch to sell. 

-When the ball happened you and Fred left after the first dance, and sat beside the lake in your formal attire and drank.

-You were viewed as smarted then most of the girls from Beauxbaton’s, which made your father smile. Especially when Fluer, their grand champion, blew up a potion in her face, while you had a leaf dying in yours. 

-You snuck out one night, and had tea with Hagrid, telling him all about your relationship with Fred.

-When Cedric came back with Harry died, you were devastated by his cries. “He’s Back He’s Back!”

-You followed Moody when he drug Harry to his office, and snuck in after him. When he was advancing Harry, rambling of himself, you throw yourself protectively in front of Harry.

-Snape wanted you under constant protection..... 

-You refused

[rdpercocets]

25/17

It’s been an interesting year, but that’s pretty much how every year goes. Well it is my 25th year and it did not go quite as planned at all, but when does anything go as planned? “The best laid plans of mice & men are never right.” But it’s the ups and the downs that help us have a better understanding of ourselves. It’s like a test to see how we react in certain situations and for the most part, honestly I act on impulse at times and it bites me in the ass pretty bad....but..

Hey that’s life!

And in life comes the trials and tribulations. For the most part, I did overcome a lot of things that were bringing me down. Got a new job, surrounded myself with goal oriented people and tried to set goals for myself everyday but...yeah!

I fell in and out of love. She was actually perfect, from her knowledge down to her...lets leave it at that. But I started to sense lies and the trust began to deteriorate and it was something you said that made me feel this way. “What if everything I told you was a lie, I fabricated everything to make things seem the way you wanted, just so you could be happy. Maybe I’m not really in love with you and maybe this is all pretend.” Oh my damn I was scared and I had been spending the night at your place twice a week. I could have been dead any of the times!! After you said that I began to question everything, if you really went to school, if your family was this wealthy as you say, if you were even Cuban, if your name was your name. But the time that really got me was when you said somebody kidnapped your dog because you let her hold her while you chased the other one, mind you she had 3 dogs. But it made no sense, did you have to give her away or what. And not to mention the other dog I bought you, he suddenly disappeared but you said he was at your moms. I don’t know, I still go crazy thinking about this. I’m sorry the way things ended, but I hope you’re happy with your new guy and the baby you said you’re having comes out healthy and well. Much love.

Close friends became distant. It’s crazy how it happens, take years to build it and it all can come down in an instant. Not trying to be a Dr. Seuss rhymer but its the Truf (inside joke)! When you told me “I used to want to be your friend, but not anymore.” my heart broke into a million pieces. We were supposed to go to all the concerts together, share all the hip-hop music in our library and have all these inside jokes that nobody could understand but it was over. You kicked me out like that and I didn’t know what to do. I tried to apologize and you told me “Stop being extra for something, that isn’t so serious.” Seriously?! So I stopped and i checked your twitter daily to see if you would even mention me at all and you didn’t. That was when I told myself, “I would never get the closure I need and it’s time to move on.” I didn’t think we would ever be friends again because of the way you acted and 7 months and a couple calls later we back to the same way we used to be. But I still need that apology from you, so I can get this out the way.

Strangers became friends. It’s crazy how you can vibe and get along with someone so well that it feels like you’ve known each other for years but its only been a month, it’s also a plus that you have a pretty face. But you’ve become one of my closest friends and I have yet to even get tired of you but you can irritate me, easily to where I’m going to leave a red balloon or a chucky doll in front of your house. I’ve been learning a lot from you on how to be positive and keep strong when times get rough. I appreciate your existence and everything you are, i’m glad God had us meet in a funny way because who would have thought the coolest person in my life would be at my job? Should have talked to you sooner.  There is just so much more about you but I’ll have to give you your own post for that. Aren’t you special?

My friends, the homies, the ones I grew up with. It seems every year we drift apart and then we are together like 6 months straight. But this year was a little different, everybody ended up having kids or is going to have kids. And it’s cool and im happy for all you guys. It just shows how old we are getting and that all the times we used to have will become memories because of the families everybody is starting. We will always have basketball though, it seems its the only way to bring everybody together. I appreciate all you guys from the bottom of my heart. Somebody needs to get married already so we can have a turn up at a wedding.

My family, I think we had more downs than ups and it suck because we never communicate. We kinda just assume everybody is doing well and things are going great. But I’ve been needing help and struggling for the longest. I hated how you guys always ask me for help and and im always willing but you guys could never help me out when I needed. This one can get really long too but i think it also deserves its own post as well. But it took some years and a group message telling everybody how I feel to bring us all together. Because now we on the same page and closer than ever. 

Well as always my writings kinda change into something else as I ramble on about things. But it’s just that. 25 & 2017 had more to do with the people I already know and encountered on my journey of life. I hope we can all always be on the same page and talk things out if there are any issues because you never know what could happen to someone. Love & appreciate the people we have in our lives.

Well now that I have my peoples and all that. I think my 26th year is the year I become rich. Time to make money moves and any clichés anybody wants to insert here.

-RDP

[mildlymaddy]

Tagged by @akai-coat (thank you <3) to ramble on about five current wips. So I guess I have to choose five.

Mind you I mean if we only talk about things I’m semi-actively working on, there’s probably less than that.

1. is obviously puppy/kitten lilo, in which Louis wakes up as a kitten, and Liam wakes up as a puppy, and basically they wreck havoc in Niall’s hotel room. I wrote a good chunk of it yesterday, and there’s still quite a bit to write, but I’m feeling way more confident now than I did two days ago. The puppy/kitten part is easy. It’s getting them to kiss once they’re back to human beings that’s probably going to take me the longest (even though I already know how I want it to happen).

They thought it was a prank, which Louis couldn’t begrudge them for. It would have been an awesome prank. He was a bit sad that he would never be able to do it now that it had actually happened. It just wouldn’t be as funny the second time around.

“I'll give them until tonight,” Terry, their new chief of security, said. “Then I'm calling the cops and putting their asses on the line.”

Louis hissed at him, safely sat in the hollow of Niall’s elbow. Terry took a step back, startled, and Niall started petting Louis between the ears to calm him. Two birds with one stone, Louis thought smugly, closing his eyes with pleasure and tickling Niall’s arm with his tail in a friendly way.

“I'm sure they'll be back,” Harry said from his spot on the floor of Niall’s hotel room. He'd been throwing a balled up sock for Liam to catch for the past ten minutes and Liam still hadn't tired of fetching it, his thoughts an uninterrupted stream of This is so fun Harry’s so nice Louis you should play too this is so fun!!

Louis stared at Harry intimidatingly, willing him to stop throwing that stupid sock, but Harry didn't seem to care. Louis was definitely going to throw up a furball in Harry’s ridiculous golden boots later on. As soon as he could figure out how furballs actually worked, at least.

  2. I’m also still working on the 3rd installment in the Another Man lourry verse, which is basically porn with feelings, in which Louis goes to Harry’s place a 3rd time and Harry more or less throws himself at him because he’s not about being subtle in this verse. The only problem I have is that almost all of it is written in my head but there’s barely anything on paper, so every time I trick myself into thinking it’s nearly done but it’s actually barely started.

“I didn’t get any cake,” Harry mumbles against Louis’s cheek, and Louis can feel his lips stretching into a smile as he adds, “Was kinda counting on me being the dessert, to be honest.”

“Oh, did you?” Louis teases, his heartbeat picking up so fast it gives him motion sickness.

“Yeah,” Harry whispers, before trailing his lips back to Louis’s mouth, one hand slowly fisting around Louis’s sweatshirt.

  3. I’ve also started a silly Narry fic about Niall helping Harry bond with his guitar, because what this verse really needs is some Narry, obviously. Probably need people to shout things at me to get me inspired, or for Niall to post more pics of himself gently cradling Ruby’s body.

When Harry shows up on his doorstep with a guitar case slung on his shoulder and a carry-on bag at his feet, Niall doesn’t ask questions. He didn’t know Harry was coming, hasn’t really heard about him in five months, but he’s not about to willingly jinx his luck.

“I’m putting together a proper band,” Harry tells him excitedly fifteen minutes later, both of them sitting on Niall’s patio, a glass of beer in hand. “And I wanna play too, at least on some songs. I want to really be a part of it, you know?”

“Singing lead is a pretty big part of the band, mate,” Niall says, even though he understands what Harry means. He always loved playing guitar during their concerts. It wasn’t about having something to do with his hands as much as feeling like he was an actual part of the cogs and gears.

“I’m still pretty bad, though,” Harry says, nervously twisting his bottom lip between thumb and forefinger. “I’m looking for a way to be more… you know when you look at really good guitarists and it feels like the guitar’s just part of their body? They don’t even need to look at their fingers or anything, and they get the sickest notes out, like the guitar’s… alive. That’s what I’d like to be like.”

Harry’s leaning forward, eyes shining with eagerness, and Niall feels himself getting a little hot under the collar, despite his better judgement. It’s just… been a long time since Harry’s looked at him like this. “Got your ambitions up, Hazza,” he says, clearing his throat when the words come out strangled.

Harry nods, then shakes his head, looking upset. “Yes, I know. But that’s why I want to get a better understanding of it all, y’know?”

Niall isn’t sure he knows. All he can think of is that thirty minutes before Harry rang on his door, he was lying naked on his couch with Ruby in his lap, just liking the way the cool wood felt against his cock. He hadn’t wanked or anything, he’d actually gotten a melody out that he was rather proud of, but he wonders what Harry would say if Niall told him the best way to bond with your guitar is to get stark naked.

He’d probably be thrilled, actually.

(actually I’ve got to thank you for this one because what I had was too short for a snippet so I just spent 15mn working on it!)

4. Then because I love angst I’ve got a little angsty no-happy-ending lilo, about how Louis’s dealing with his solo career and Liam’s happy family life. I started it on a day where I was feeling really bad, so I’m not sure I’ll ever finish it, but I’d like to.

“Want one?” Louis says, extending the packet out to him. He blows out a cloud of smoke, and Liam tries his best not to inhale. The key is in never slipping.

“Nah, I've quit,” he says. Louis throws him a weird sideways look, and Liam feels compelled to explain, “With the baby and all, I thought…”

“Right,” Louis says, staring straight ahead at the sweeping view over L.A.. “Guess it's different when you've got him all the time.” He takes a long drag on his cigarette, like a punctuation, and Liam wants to reach out, but doesn't quite know if he should.

He never used to second-guess himself when it comes to Louis. Maybe the hiatus changed things in more ways than one.

5. And, well, I still haven’t given up hope on ever finishing Take These Chances. I owe it to Lilo, really. I can’t leave them cold turkey when they were just about to finally shag. Honestly for this one I’d just like for someone to sit with me one afternoon and gently whack me over the head until I’m done writing it. I sometimes fear that’s the only way I’ll get it done. And yet, I’m so close to having the next chapter finished, it’s infuriating.

It would all have been perfect, if it wasn’t for the fact Louis’s thoughts could barely stray from wondering about what Liam was doing, turning everything else to white noise. Which was stupid, because Liam was obviously doing exactly the same thing as him, one door away.

Which made the fact he somehow missed Liam’s sly entrance into his dressing room all the more ironic. Louis sprung up from his chair the second he spotted him talking pleasantly with his mum. “Everybody out!” Louis shouted, drawing everyone’s gaze towards him. “I’ve got a score to settle with Payno here,” he added in lieu of an explanation, standing in the middle of the room with his hands shoved in his pockets, rocking on his feet.

People rolled their eyes and started filing out of the dressing room, Louis herding them out with his arms outstretched, until there was no one left but Liam. Louis closed and locked the door, then took a deep breath. Moment of truth, then. He guessed it was a good sign Liam had stayed in the room, at least.

He turned around to find himself nose to nose with Liam. “Well hello there,” he said, trying for casual but his voice not quite matching the tone. It had been a long, frustrating day.

“I’m going to kiss you, alright?” Liam said, not bothering with small-talk, bracketing Louis’s shoulders with his arms, eyes fixed on Louis’s lips.

And there you go! Feel free to yell at me any time about any of these WIPs. I’ll be grateful, seriously.

Tagging @ferryboatpeak, @saysthemagpie, @queerlyalex and @1000-directions. :)

[mypersonalrambling]

Love/Hate relationship

           Ring Ring Ring. Who the hell could be calling you at four in the morning? You rolled over to look at your phone, hoping to shut it up. After your eyes adjusted to the light, you saw that you had a missed call from Louis. What the hell was so important that it couldn’t wait until morning and by morning you meant noon. You didn’t have to wait long to find out because he called again. “Hey YN, whatcha doing?”

           “Scuba diving. What kinda question is that?”

           “No need to be snarky.”

           “Louis it’s four in the morning, get to the point.”

           “Well I was wondering if you wanted to go on tour with us? If you do then you need to be packed and at the airport at 7.”

           “Of course I want to go. Why are you just inviting me now? I have almost no time to pack!” You were wide awake now. Your mind was going a million miles a minute. You needed to make a list and get everything together. “Louis I gotta go if I’m gonna get ready in time.”

           “Well I didn’t tell you because I wanted you to go and not have time to change your mind. Alright see you at the airport.”

           It took a lot less time to pack than you actually thought. You were completely packed by 5:30, so now you were just sitting and waiting until it was time to leave for the airport. Your taxi pulled up right at six. You threw your bags in the trunk, slide into the back seat, and closed your eyes until you got to the airport.

           When you arrived at the airport, you had the taxi driver pull up next to the two private planes. Unfortunately the only person there was Harry. Both of you loved to be early, unlike the rest of them who arrived just on time or little late. You debated for a while if you wanted to get out of the taxi or just wait until someone else arrived. Before you could decide Louis pulled up, so you decided to get out and head over to him. “Hey Louis,” you shouted.

           “Now how did I know that even though I was packed and ready to go, you’d still be here earlier than me?” he laughed.

           “Because I actually care about being on time. Are we all riding together?”

           “No, you, Liam and I are riding on one plane. And Harry and Niall are riding on the other.” Thank god, you thought. You didn’t want to have to be on a plane with Harry. You didn’t understand why you guys didn’t get along. You tried being nice to him, but he was always short and rude to you.

           You must have fallen asleep on the plane, because before you knew it Louis was shaking you awake. “Hey wake up, we’re here.”

           “Where’s here? You didn’t tell me where we were going.” Not that it really surprised you. Louis always left out details. This time may have been your fault though because you were too excited to stay on the phone any longer.

           “We’re in Sydney. It’s the first stop of the tour.”

           “Awesome, I’ve always wanted to see Sydney!” You really wanted to see the entire world. You’re so happy that you had taken a year off from college. If you hadn’t, there would be no way you would have been able to come on tour with them.

           “I know, that’s why I invited you to come along. Plus I wouldn’t want to travel the world without my best friend,” he smiled. You had known Louis almost your entire life and you can’t imagine not being best friends. You two knew each other as well as you knew yourselves.          

           It didn’t take very long to get to the hotel, which was good for you because you felt like you were going to explode if you didn’t use the restroom soon. You hadn’t had a chance to go to the bathroom since you fell asleep on the plane. Louis told you that they had to go practice today. He offered for you to come along, but you told him wanted to visit all the places you could while you were here.

           You were sitting backstage while everyone got ready, trying to stay out of everyone’s way. You were tired of sitting, so you decided to go find Louis and talk with him until he had to go on. You didn’t even realize that you weren’t spacing out until you ran into someone. “Watch where the fuck you’re going. God, seriously how hard is it to walk and not run into people.”

           “Sorry Harry. I was just trying to find Louis.” You tried to be as quiet as possible, hoping not to upset him. You both had a temper, but he seemed to always be angry with you. He was always so nice and calm with everyone else. Hell, Louis said he’d really only seen Harry mad a couple of times.

           “He’s in his room. Why do you always follow him around? You’re like a puppy, that can’t leave their master alone. He needs time to relax before a show. He shouldn’t have to worry about babysitting you. Be an adult and learn to talk to other people. God I don’t know how he puts up with yeh. I would have ditched you a long time ago. You know maybe if you weren’t so weird people would actually want to talk to you.”

           You couldn’t form any words. You turned and walked away as fast as you could, hoping that he wouldn’t see you crying. Your plan to find Louis just seemed irrelevant now. You tried to find the bathroom, but you were crying so much that you couldn’t even see straight. You went into the next room that you saw not even paying attention to whose it was. All you knew was that you needed to sit down. You saw the couch and lied down only to curl yourself in a ball. All of a sudden you hear yelling and it was getting louder. “DAMMIT HARRY, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?” It was Louis.

           “Nothing is wrong with me. She’s just so damn annoying.”

           “She’s not and I don’t care what you think, there was no reason for any of the things you said. Why do you hate her so much? She has never done anything to you. You want to come off as such as nice guy to everyone, and you do, but it’s a lie. You might be nice to everyone else, but you’re such a dick to Sam and that cancels you being a nice guy.”

           “She just gets on my nerves.” You heard the door open and were scared what would be said. You finally looked around the room and saw that you had stumbled into Harry’s dressing room. “WHY IS SHE IN HERE?”

           “I’m sorry; I just went into the first room that I saw. I’ll leave.” You were kicking yourself right now. Why didn’t you look at the room when you came in? If you had looked you could have saved yourself this entire mess.

           “No. I’ll leave.” Harry said slamming the door.  Louis ran over throwing his arms around you.

           “Aww, babe don’t cry. He’s an ass. He has no right to say any of the stuff he did.”

           “Louis, why does he hate me so much? I’ve never done anything to him. I’m never rude to him. Can’t he tell that I’m in love with him?”

           “Wait, you’re in love with him?” Louis put his hand on your chin, pulling it up so you had to look at him. “YN I didn’t even know you liked him. Why didn’t you tell me? We tell each other everything.”

           “I didn’t tell you because obviously he will never return the feelings. I was hoping it was just a crush, but my feelings just kept getting stronger. What am I gonna do?” You started to cry again. You thought you had cried yourself out, but your body must have replenished because you had a constant stream of tears running down your face.

           “Hey, he whispered, “I’ll talk to him. Even if he doesn’t return your feelings there is no reason for him to treat you the way he does. You shouldn’t have to worry about setting him off.”

           “No, please don’t say anything to him about how I feel. He’ll make fun of me for it or just be angry.” You didn’t want Harry to know how you felt, because you felt that he would just use it against you all the time. And that was the last thing you needed.

           It’d been a month since Harry had made you cry. Whatever Louis said to Harry must have worked because Harry was actually being civil to you. You tried to stay away from him as much as possible so he wouldn’t have a chance to be rude. Even when you did have to be in the same place as him, he actually treated you decently.

           It was the night of their last concert in Japan before they went to Singapore. You were sitting in Louis’ dressing room trying to stay out of the way. You were sitting on the couch, texting your mom telling her all the amazing things you were able to experience while on tour with them. This was the longest you would be away from home and you weren’t too home sick yet, but you knew you’d probably get there by the end of the tour.

           You heard a soft knock at the door. “Come in.”

           You were surprised when Harry poked his head in. “Hey can I talk to you?”

           “Sure,” you said shifting uncomfortably. You guys were hardly ever together alone and normally when you were; it ended up in him saying something rude. “So, uh how are you?”

           You stared at him before answering. You wanted to know where he was going with this conversation. It wasn’t like him to small talk with you. “Uh, I’m fine.” You knew you probably should have said more, but you weren’t sure what else to say.

           “Good, good.” God you didn’t think you’d ever been in a more awkward situation. Both of you just sat there for a few minutes just staring at the floor.

           “Harry why are you here? You have to be on stage in about 15 minutes.”

           “Louis told me something and I wanted to talk about it.” Why would Louis tell him when you asked him not to? You were going to have to talk to him. He’s never betrayed your trust like this before. Well this is going to be the most awkward conversation of your life.

           “Well he said you were in love with me. How long have you felt that way? Why didn’t you tell me? How could you feel that way after the way I treated you? You must hate me. Hell I hate me. God, I can’t believe I’ve been such an ass.”

           “I…uh.” You couldn’t form any words. So many things were running through you head. Like should you tell the truth or lie. Definitely lie, maybe he’ll just think the entire thing was a joke. “Louis was just kidding. I had a crush on you for a little bit.”

           “YN, don’t lie to me. Louis was serious. He didn’t want to tell me at first, but I forced it out of him. Please answer my questions.”

           “I’ve felt like that after the first time I went on tour with you guys back in 2013. You were all so fun and you weren’t as rude to me back then. I didn’t tell you because I thought you hated me. You were always rude to me no matter how I acted towards you. I can’t tell you how many times I tried to stop liking you. Especially after the way you treated me. I knew the feelings would never be returned, but no matter what I did I couldn’t stop liking you. I don’t hate you; it might have been easier if I did.”

           You both sat there for what seemed like forever, neither of you sure what to say. Before you knew it they were calling all the boys to get ready. Harry gave you a small smile before he left. You stretched out on the couch, holding a pillow in your arms, wondering what would happen when the show was over.

Two years later

           You stood in front of the mirror wondering how you became so lucky. You took one final look before deciding you were ready. You’re six best friends were lined up in front of you waiting for the music to begin. The music started and the doors opened. They slowly walked out eventually leaving you by yourself. The music paused before beginning your song. You took a deep breath waiting for the doors to open. You stepped out and you’re father intertwined his arm with yours.

           You looked up at the altar to see Louis smiling back at you. He only caught your attention for second before it was turned to Harry. He was looking at you smiling, but with tears running down his cheeks. You had to look away before you began to cry.

           When you finally reached the altar, it took all you had to not start balling. Harry lifted your veil up only to stare for a few seconds before finally placing it behind your head.

           The rest of the wedding was almost a blur to you. You only had eyes for Harry and he only had eyes for you. You never imagined you life would turn out this way especially the way he used to treat you. You thought you would be mad at Louis forever after he told Harry that you loved him, but it turned out to be the best thing to happen to you.

           After that day you and Harry slowly built a relationship. He treated you better than you knew was possible. You knew it was because he felt terrible about how he had treated you in the past and felt the need to make up for it. He had made up for and then some. You two still fought some just like any couple, but always made sure to talk things out.

           You and Harry were in the back of the limo on the way to the airport. Harry had an amazing honeymoon planned. You honestly could care less where you went as long as you were with Harry. You had your head on his shoulder, just thinking about how amazing everything turned out. You couldn’t wait to see what the future would bring. It didn’t matter though because you knew it would be great with Harry by your side.

[akasen-the-red]

My Short Lived Fling with Visual Novels: Reflections on Ignorance and Lethargy

Six years ago, I found myself caving into boredom and taking a ride into Tsukihime. Why did I do this? I don’t even recall anymore. Boredom and a want for vampires maybe. Vampires are seriously my biggest love in life. If it’s got vampires, I will probably have interest in it. If they suck, I will kill you.

Suffice to say though, this was pretty much my first step into Type-Moon. After reading Tsukihime, I would eventually find myself watching the Kara no Kyoukai movies and read Fate/Stay Night within at least the next five months.

The more important take away though is that the year I was getting into this stuff was 2011. Carnival Phantasm was being released August that year, followed by Fate/Zero in the Fall.

But let me derail the notion of this writing though. This isn’t about Kinoko’s work, as much as I love his work and the derivatives of it.

Truth be told, the more I keep revisiting old anime and finding new appreciations in them, the more I question my opinions on things of the past.

I’ve held a very checkered opinion on the Fate franchise the most, a strong disdain to say the least. But on the other hand, maybe it’s my fault for that disdain. Between me not really making a concerted effort to learn to swim in the sea of Kinoko’s writing and becoming too narrowminded to accept anything else, I effectively became a bitter and jaded person who may as well have forgotten the magic that Kinoko’s writing had on me when I first read Tsukihime or Fate/Stay Night. Or how KnK resonated to my Freshman college self in a weird way.

Put simply, I can’t truly say anything on these things I haven’t read in years. My memory far too damaged to fully recall the plot points leading the finer details together, and my emotions on the matter too all over the place to really pin a true opinion on the original series and also how I feel about the series as a whole here and now.

What I can say though is I am absolutely ashamed at myself for not actually reading more Visual Novels, and it is here we get to the heart of my thoughts.

The biggest thing that Tsukihime and Fate did was basically bring to light that there was fictional writing out there of superb quality hiding behind a tainted cowl. Visual Novels seemed like nothing more than just porn with a plot to me, as it did with a good deal of people.

Suffice to say, I found myself with a new view on this. All those years back, I had made a post on another forum about my recent readings, like a man who found God (very apt comparison). I was impassioned, in love, and yearning for more of something.

So I went to read G-Senjou no Maou, the Devil on G-Strings on recommendation.

Long story short, I finished one route in G-Senjou maybe two or so years ago. That took me then probably four years to get to the end of a route. And I didn’t even get a route that got to more juicy bits.

So what happened? To be honest, I dunno. What I’m learning lately from rewatching older series though may give us the simple insight of “I had a terrible attention span and a truly terrible lack of dedication to what I was doing”. Life could also have been a factor in this as well, but who knows.

I felt like I was gonna read more novels in those days, learn Japanese, read in Japanese, possibly help translate some works, and more.

This could also lead into a sudden crisis of me questioning what I’d been doing for like six years, but let’s not.

The real question becomes then as to what I regret from that failure, and to be honest my only regret was not really pursuing the Type-Moon franchise more actively.

Like for the longest time, the possibility of either a Tsukihime remake, sequel, or possibly a translation of Mahou Tsukai no Yoru (which from what I have learned is only partially translated into english). I never really considered anything else, and as such I became blind to the fact that the Nasuverse was growing in interesting directions with stories just as interesting as what I’d hope for.

Ignorance is bliss until knowledge removes it.

As of right now, I’m reading the novel Fate/Strange Fake. In short, it truly rekindles the feelings I once felt six years ago when I read Tsukihime or FSN. If you had given these writings to me then, I would have been howling mad with joy to read this. It would have been, and does read as, a terrific follow up to reading Fate/Stay Night. Alas, I don’t entirely think it would have gotten me into any more works though. A major issue I had six years ago was that I didn’t have anyone I knew personally who was knowledgeable on this stuff to really pick the brain matter of, nor did I (or do I) have the courage to openly ask where to go next or how to acquire the works I’m looking for.

To be completely honest though, and I believe I type this every time I ever touch the topic, but I am surprised I have yet to touch the Lord El-Mello Case Files. Waver was my favorite character in Zero, along with Iskander. His older self really left called out to me by design alone and was my avatar of choice for years til a close friend drew pictures of me based on a hybrid of myself, the avatar I’d use, and some artist zazz (major artist zazz).

But I’m rambling. I’m rambling a lot and avoiding responsibilities like an adult.