#seriously one of the tougher questions though!
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26 for the ask!
What I love about myself? Oh man, you've picked kind of a tough one! There are plenty of things I like about myself, but love? Hmm.
I think the answer that fits best is my singing voice. I sing/play jazz music as a hobby and I love that my singing voice has a unique/interesting timbre, and that I have a big range so I can sing in a wide range of keys, and that I'm technically skilled enough that I can mostly get it to do what I want (in jazz at least; I'm no Whitney Houston lol). I definitely don't think you need to be a 'good' singer to enjoy singing, but there's a freedom in being able to have a melodic idea and/or a feeling and actually being able to express it just how you wanted to. It makes performing really fun!
#ask game#thanks for the ask!#seriously one of the tougher questions though!#like I could have told you my name just. right off the top of my head. this actually took some thinking lol
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Like bro would so walk into the readerâs bathroom whilst you shower just bc he needs to pee and ends up just having a whole convo with her
âB O N D I N Gâ â JAMES POTTER!
james potter x fem!reader | fluff | 1.0k | masterlist!!
youâre convinced james has separation anxiety. the boy canât even let you shower in peace.
an â it totally hasnât been two months since i last posted⌠what??? nooo
âCan I come in?â
Jamesâ voice, muffled both by the wooden door and his incessant knocking that joins his question, immediately destroys the tranquility of your shower.
âHeyyyyyy,â More heavy knocks. âI know you can hear me in there, let me in,â
âJames,â Your voice is more a groan than spoken words. âLet me wallow in my self pity,â
âBut I need to pee,â He drags out the end of his sentence like a petulant child, and you can hear a light thump against the door where he presumably lumps his weight against it. âCome onnn, Iâm sorry you sucked and we beat you,â
âYou rubbing it in is not helping your chances, James,â
A five a side friendlies game between two halves of the Gryffindor quidditch team? Nah. A chance for James and Sirius to prove how competitive they are by acting like it was a proper game and then absolutely battering your side? Sounds more like it.
âPleaseee love, Iâm gonna piss myself here,â He gives another loaded knock against the door. âAnd itâs my bathroom youâre invading, you canât shut me out of it,â
He tries the doorknob, and it doesnât open.
âPlease say I can come in,â
âThe doorâs locked,â
âI know that,â You can practically hear him roll his eyes. âCan I unlock it?â
âPiss your heart away, cheater,â
Thereâs the sound of the door mechanism unlocking, then James discarding his wand on the bathroom countertop, his voice infinitely more clear.
âI didnât cheat, you flew directly into me,â
You canât see him behind the shower curtain, but if you had to guess youâd say he had that irritatingly self-gratifying smirk on his face.
âBecause Sirius hit a bludger at my face,â You groan. âI couldâve died,â
James laughs harshly, joined by the sounds of his zipper being undone and a stream of pee hitting the toilet water. âDonât be so dramatic, I caught you,â
âYou pushed me,â
âYeah, out of the way of danger,â
âOut of the pitch entirely you mean,â
âOh please, you didnât even get close to the stands,â
âStill, it was an unnecessary risk,â you retort, the frustration clear in your voice. âYou guys take it way too seriously.â
James finishes up and flushes the toilet, laughing. âAlright, alright, maybe we went a bit overboard. But you have to admit, it was kind of fun.â
âFun for you, maybe,â you grumble, rinsing the last of the shampoo from your hair. âIâm the one who almost got a concussion.â
James chuckles, the sound of him washing his hands mixing with the running water of your shower. âYouâre exaggerating. Besides, youâre tougher than that.â
You roll your eyes even though he canât see you. âDoesnât mean I enjoy getting knocked around like a ragdoll.â
âFair point,â he concedes. âNext time, Iâll make sure Sirius aims for someone else.â
You snort, reaching for the conditioner. âHow generous of you.â
âHey, what are best friends for?â he replies cheekily.
âBest friends donât usually barge in while youâre showering,â you point out with a sigh, running the conditioner through your hair.
âYeah, well, Iâm not just a best friend,â he says, his tone light and teasing. You can practically hear the grin in his voice. âIâm like the best friend,â
âAnd so humble too,â You roll your eyes with sarcasm dripping from your tone.
James chuckles, unfazed. âYou love it.â
âDebatable,â you mutter, but thereâs a small smile on your face now. Despite everything, you canât stay mad at him for long.
âAdmit it, youâd miss me if I wasnât around to annoy you,â he says, leaning against the bathroom sink.
You rinse the conditioner from your hair, contemplating his words. âMaybe a little,â you concede, though it's clear from your tone that youâre not entirely serious.
âOnly a little?â James feigns hurt, placing a hand dramatically over his heart. âIâm wounded, truly.â
âStop being so dramatic,â you laugh, turning off the shower. âHand me a towel, will you?â
James obliges, passing you a towel over the shower curtain. âAt your service, princess.â
âThanks,â you say, wrapping the towel around yourself. âHave you put your dick away?â
âYes, milady,â he says with a mock bow. âAll tucked in and ready to go.â
You step out of the shower, rolling your eyes at his antics. âGood, I donât need any more jumpscares today,â
James laughs, grabbing his wand from the countertop. "My dick happens to be quite the attraction Iâll have you know," he says with a wink.
"Yeah, well, Iâm sure it has its fan club,â you shoot back, drying yourself off.
âOnly the most exclusive members,â he says, flashing you a cheeky grin. âNow, how about we grab some lunch? My treat.â
You raise an eyebrow, intrigued. âWhatâs the occasion? Feeling guilty for almost killing me?â
James laughs, shaking his head. âNah, just thought we could use some bonding time. Plus, I know youâre always hungry after a good match.â
You canât help but smile at his thoughtfulness, even if itâs wrapped in his usual playful banter. âAlright, youâve convinced me. Let me just get dressed.â
âTake your time, love,â he says, leaning against the doorframe. âIâll be waiting in the common room.â
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Hope They Caught Us â§âË â
Blue Lock Chars. (Request)
ଳ oh no, the paparazzi has revealed your relationship; what's going to happen now?ଳ characters; isagi yoichi, bachira meguru, nagi seishiro, reo mikage, michael kaiser, sae itoshi, rin itoshi, barou shoei, chigiri hyoma, shidou ryusei ଳ tags; pro player characters, gn reader, sfw
ᯠIsagi Yoichi
Isagi wasn't really concerned about being "found out" in the first place. He mostly kept a low profile with you for your own privacy and safety.
If you're just starting out, he'd probably dodge questions about his love life. But after a couple of months, he'd gladly reveal it in a press con.
Being one of the top strikers, it became an unspoken rule in media to not be that "trashy" tabloid to mess around with Isagi's private life.
In a way, everyone respected the low profile he wanted for the two of you.
He'd probably be more open with sharing photos of the two of you once you're married. Maybe he'd even post occasional updates about your family.
ᯠBachira Meguru
He does the job of the paparazzi for them. Tabloids have no use in tailing him in public because he posts about you on his socials as much as he can.
Seriously. When he needs to promote an upcoming match, he'll use a picture of you wearing his jersey and slap on the caption his management asked him to.
It probably becomes a memeâhow obsessed he can be with you. Oddly enough, it earns him even more fans.
When you get married... he will never shut up. Seeing his social media, you'd forget that he was a football player in the first place.
It's a different story if he had kids though. He'd be super pumped to share them and all their milestones, but he's responsible enough to know that they need to remain private for their safety.
ᯠNagi Seishirou
His management initially told him to keep a low profile with anyone that he dates. Being a famous footballer meant that he had to protect his reputation at all costs. Romantic relationships could be a slippery slope, so they wanted to safeguard his image as best they can.
He shrugs it off and promises that he will do that. Butttttt, not long after the two of you started dating, the paps already got to him. Suffice to say that his management was not happy.
The two of you were caught out in public getting some food. They could've argued that you were going as friends, but the way Nagi lazily wrapped his arms around your waist (force of habit) told people otherwise.
When the news blew up that he was dating someoneâhe shrugged it off. Again. His publicist trains him excessively to prepare for the upcoming press con, knowing that Nagi will most definitely slip up again.
The poor guy tries so hard to lie in front of the media, but it was too obvious. It was almost hilarious how he kept mixing up his answers. In the end, the management relented and allowed him to reveal your relationship without mincing words.
ᯠReo Mikage
Similar to Nagi's case, everyone tells him to keep the relationship a secretâhis management, his parents, his financial advisors, and even a few of his friends.
It was a tougher situation for him because not only is he famous, but he's also disgustingly rich. That only posed more danger for you and especially for him.
There were plenty of close calls when the paparazzi would camp near his house and his usual haunts. But somehow... all the stories and articles get shut down quickly. Reo has his managing team (and some of his parents' connections) to thank for that.
So, people now have a slight idea that Reo might be dating someone. But that's about it. They have no idea about who the person is nor how serious the relationship is. When a photo or two goes under the radar and somehow makes its way on to the internet, people always assume it's edited or taken out of context.
The devil works hard, but Reo Mikage's management team works harder.
ᯠMichael Kaiser
He's the type of celebrity that the paparazzi always gets ahold of. It's practically impossible for him to get away, so he gave up and accepted his fate. When he was still singleâhe didn't give a shit about them as long as they kept their distance and turned off the flash of their cameras.
But when you came into the picture... he became so so mean to the paparazzi. Even if they kept their distance from the two of you, he'd always throw a scarf over your head or hand you his sunglasses, so that you didn't have to deal with your face being plastered all over the internet.
He would definitely throw a middle finger or two if one of the paps tells you to smile for them or something. An article about Kaiserâwith the now infamous picture of himâwould be uploaded the next morning. But, honestly? Who gives a shit?
Grows to hate the paps with a burning passion. He literally can't have a calm day without them on his tail. And best believe that he'll express this disdain on every press con and interview possible.
Fans eventually come to his rescue and throw hate on every tabloid that keeps on hounding him and his precious significant other.
ᯠSae Itoshi
Sae is the only one safe from the prying eyes of the public. if he wants to keep you and your relationship privateâthen private it shall be. It's not that he's embarrassed of you, but he thinks that other people have absolutely no say in your relationship. What' between the two of you, stays there.
He rarely posts on social media. If he does, it's going to be a promotional pub for his next match or appearance. Not a single post about his personal life will be there, especially a post about you.
The paparazzi almost never catches him. Even if they do, it's always just him by himself doing mundane things. Eventually, the paps figured it was useless to track him down and decided to hound a different celebrity (his brother lol).
He secretly loves to mess with the internet by posting the most cryptic shit ever. It has everyone coming up with conspiracy theories, but none of them seem to stick (there's always gonna be that one "debunker" after all). When he randomly sees people debating and fighting on the internet about his postsâit makes him giggle a bit inside.
He'll probably only reveal bits of his personal life once he's retired. Maybe he'll tell people he was married and was with you for a long time now. For a star as big as him, the paps won't let him go even if he retires, but at that point, he could hardly care.
ᯠRin Itoshi
He hated the thought of having the public know about your relationship because 1) it will compromise your safety, 2) it will mean that a bunch of random extras would be talking about the two of you, and 3) his business is his alone. Rin's just an incredibly private person all around.
So smug at first because the paparazzi was exclusively going after his brotherâbeing a huge pain in the ass. His smugness was quickly wiped away once the paps started hounding him instead. He definitely cursed his brother in his mind for "being so boring that even the tabloids got sick of him."
He would release a statement in which he tells the public to back off and that it's none of their concern if he was dating anyone. Although, it completely backfires because who mentions that out of the blue? Everyone knew he was reverse-psychology-ing them.
Of course, he was pissed about how his statement blew up in the wrong direction. You, on the other hand, found it quite amusing. To relieve his stress, you suggested to go out of the country with him for a while and enjoy a nice vacation.
As fate would have it, that was when the two of you were caught red-handedâbeing all over each other at a beach in Cancun. Rin was... not impressed when the pictures spread all over the internet. But you were there to cheer him up again! (He still won't give them the satisfaction of admitting to your relationship though).
ᯠBarou Shoei
Barou's strict with himself and with you. His management team doesn't have to fret over him because they know he has it all under control. He reminds you constantly and teaches you how to be careful under the public eye. He's super sweet and considerate for that !
He asks you if your prefer the privacy or if you'd like to make your relationship public (He cares too much about what you think). If you prefer privacy, then he'd do anything and everything in his power to keep your existence under wraps. If you wanna go public, then he's making a statement tomorrow.
However, you do decide that you want people to know about your relationship; it felt more real that way. He takes note of it and does it in the flashiest way possible: inviting you down on the field to celebrate with him after a win.
The paps have an absolute field day with that moment. So many HD pictures of different angles of that celebration filled the internet for a month or so. Everyone thought it was quite cute.
You still kept a low profile after that. People knew about your relationship, but your safety was still his number one priority.
ᯠChigiri Hyoma
Chigiri could give two shits about the paparazzi. Let them follow if they want; it makes them look sad and pathetic shouting for his and your attention after all.
Don't get him wrong thoughâhe's still concerned about your safety, so he does everything else in the background to make sure no one can do anything nasty to you even if your relationship is plastered all over the internet.
There wasn't any need for statement or confirmation from him. There were always paparazzi waiting for you when you go out to dinner with him. He'll still gladly hold your hand and whisper some reassurance into your ear.
HE IS THE TYPE TO RESPOND TO HATE COMMENTS ONLINE. And it's too funny. Chigiri has the best comebacks and one-liners to the haters which has fans rolling on the floor laughing. "That's why Chigiri is the goat," one netizen says.
You two eventually become a power couple that's referenced quite often in media. How cute.
ᯠShidou Ryusei
He was involved in an incident once wherein he calmly approached one of the paps, took the camera from him, snapped a photo of the guy right in his face, and said, "Doesn't feel good to be photographed without your permission huh?"
Safe to say that after thatâthe paps didn't want to do anything to him. I mean, he's already a menace on the football field (which is a regulated place, by the way), so what more if he was out in public without any restraint?
People knew about your relationship anyway. He wasn't shy about it and both of you were like YOLOâhaving fun over safety any day was your motto. (Thankfully, management was kind enough to make sure both of you were still safe though).
He's the type to overshare on the internet. It's to the point that sometimes you have to whack him over the head and ask him to delete a post because it revealed too much about his life.
Shidou shitposts on the internet way too often. So much so that people started calling his posts "Shidouposts" (affectionately). He also loved sharing memes about himself or about the two of you.
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Collision | Chapter 22
Word Count:Â 3.4K
Story Description:Â (Y/N) Uley is back home after being away for four years. Her life is at its first standstill and she is taking this time to find out who she is without school. But she never thought that coming back to the reservation would turn her whole life around. In the midst of secrets and mystery, a man crashes into (Y/N)âs and her life will never be the same.
A/N:Â can't believe how different my characters are in my twilight stories. this Paul is so much different than Speak Paul, and so is Jake, it kinda breaks my brain đ
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A moment can feel like an eternity when the soul isnât at ease. Time seems to reverse and turn over on itself, holding the body hostage to its grapples. It twists the mind, numbs all reason, and feeds doubt. Time can sometimes be scarier than death itself.
(Y/N) could have sworn the entire day had passed before the pack finally walked through the doors. But the light coming from the outside told her it was still early. They walked in as though nothing had happened, and they hadnât just torn a vampire to shreds. The boys laughed and patted each other on the backs, celebrating as though their lives had not been in peril.
As soon as they came into view, the girl ran to her brother and wrapped her arms tightly around him. She wrapped them around his neck as his own caught her by the waist. Once she felt him with her own hands, she finally let out a strangled breath, allowing all the anxiousness to roll off her body.
âOh, thank the spirits youâre okay,â she breathed shakingly. âI thought something happened to you.â
âYou need to give me more credit here, bean,â he chuckled. âWe take this job seriously.â
âI was scared.â
âCome on, he was outnumbered,â Sam shrugged. âThere was no way we were going to let him go. He was easy meat.â
âSo, none of you got hurt? Youâre all okay?âÂ
âOf course we are,â Paul interjected. âThat guy had nothing on us.âÂ
âI told you they would be okay,â Emily said, carrying a plate of fresh biscuits that the boys dug into as quickly as it reached them. âThe boys always come home. Especially when they know that thereâs food on the table.â
âI knew I could smell chicken,â Jared grinned. âIâm starving, man.â
âWhen are you not?â Embry teased as he walked past him.
âOh, the young kid has some bark in him,â Jared chuckled. âYouâre finally one of us.â
Laughing, Embry, Jacob, and Paul walked right past (Y/N) and to the dining table. Jacob was about to do the same but stopped next to her. âBellaâs okay,â she said. âShe got home a while ago. Sheâs still a bit shaken up, mostly because of the giant wolves she saw.â
âOkay,â he said as he let out a breath of relief. âThanks.â
âSheâs tougher than she looks, Jake,â (Y/N) smiled. âSheâs also smart, and she has a lot of questions.â
âI know,â Jake sighed. âI donât know what Iâm gonna do.â
âForcing the imprint bond hasnât worked out?â the girl teased. âI thought it would.â
âNot funny, (Y/N),â he pouted. âBut no. I guess everyone was right. Itâs just⌠she deserves so much better.â
âDonât we all, Jake? Donât we all,â she said as she patted him comfortingly on the shoulder. âNow, go eat. You gotta refuel.â
âYeah. Iâll see you around, (Y/N).â
âBye, Jake.â
As the boy left her by herself, her gaze found her brother. He was sitting on a bench in the backyard, his shoulders slumped and a hand over his eyes. Sam was tired, that much she could tell. But it wasnât because of the vampire. No. It was a fatigue she knew very well.
âHey,â she said softly as she sat next to him. âHowâre you doing?â
âI told you weâre all good, Bean,â Sam smiled weakly.
âThatâs not what I mean, Sam. How are you?â
âIâm fine,â he breathed. âJust⌠tired. I was worried before that. We caught the leechâs scent first, and we were ready for a fightâfinally finish up whoâs been killing all those hikers. But then your scent was mixed up in it and I got so stressed that I wouldnât get to you in time. Iâve been worried that a bloodsucker would take you away from me, but I never thought it couldâve happened this way.â
âIâm not going anywhere, Sam,â (Y/N) said as she wrapped her arms around her brother. âNot for a while, at least.â
âIt was scary to realize how easy it would have been for that guy to kill you.â His voice trembled as he spoke, the protector mask quickly falling away. âWith how things were going with the doctor, I was sure I would have to get used to not having you near again. But today reminded me about how you could have been gone for good. And what wouldâve happened if you had no idea who we were? You would have no idea that we were trying to protect you, and you would have been just as terrified as Bella was. You would have been scared of me.â
âWell, I guess thatâs one thing you can be grateful about him,â (Y/N) smiled, squeezing her brotherâs hand comfortingly. âThis is one secret you donât have to hide from me.â
âItâs a shitty secret.â
âItâs a necessary one, Sam. You taught me that.â
âYeah, itâs the reason two of the people I love most in the world got hurt,â he grumbled. âItâs a shitty secret.â
âWhat? Youâre saying if it had been a choice, you would have said no?â
Sam sighed and let his head fall back as his eyes closed. âI donât know, honestly,â he admitted. âItâs an honor to have been chosen to protect our people. But sometimes, I just wish the responsibility fell onto someone else. If it hadnât been for this, so many lives would have been different. I know Iâm meant to be the strong one, but I just canât help but wonder why me sometimes.â
âDo you remember what you told me before I left for school?â (Y/N) said. âI wasnât sure why I had been the one chosen for the scholarship and I was so scared that the school had made a mistake that I wanted to stay home. You told me that the only one who didnât believe in me was myself âthat I would always be my harshest critic and that I would never believe how amazing I was no matter how much people told me. Well, now itâs your turn, Sam. Youâre doing an amazing job as an alpha. Youâre keeping out people safe, you have a beautiful fiancĂŠe that loves you, and youâre the best brother a girl could ask for. If the universe chose this job for you, it was for a reason.â
âYeah, an alpha that didnât have a hold on things and managed to not only scar the woman I love, but I couldnât even stop you from getting hurt,â he exclaimed. âAnd now all these hikers are dead, and even though we killed this leech, another one with a vendetta is gonna come here for the Swab girl. I just canât seem to do things right. I have no business caring for all these people.â
âSam, I canât think of anyone else that would be perfect for the job. Youâve been taking care of me and mom for a long time. Even when you didnât have to, you always made sure we were okay. You made me dinner when mom was at work after school, you were there at every science fair, you even taught me how to ride a freaking bike,â she chuckled. âI donât think you realize how good of a person and a leader you are. How you always step up to the plate when anyone needs you, no matter how trivial the matter is. Youâre an amazing brother and an amazing alpha. We are all gonna lose someone sometime, no matter how hard we try to save them. Our job is to save those we can.â
Sam allowed the words of his sister to skin into his head, slowly allowing his body to relax. He settled into the bench comfortably and draped an arm around (Y/N) to bring her in for a side hug. âSince when do I have a little sister that is so smart?â he teased lovingly. âDonât remember the moment you got old enough to give me advice.â
âSam, youâre barely older than me.â
âDoesnât change the fact that Iâm older.â
âNo. Youâre just old.â
The pair of siblings joined the rest of the pack soon after, gathering around the table to enjoy the feast that Emily had prepared. They ate, they laughed, they talked, and finally, they crashed all around the fireplace in the living room. Jared and Embry had taken the sofas, and Emily and Sam had excused themselves to their room while Jacob had said his goodbyes and gone back home. The only people that were left awake were Paul and (Y/N), tension surrounding the air around them.
(Y/N) knew that avoiding Paul couldnât last much longer, especially not when she could have lost him that afternoon. She had waited for him to come home, breathless and terrified that the last moments she had spent with him had been avoiding him. The survival of their friendship rested on the conversation she did not want to have with him, but she knew it was essential if she ever wanted him to stay her best friend.
âSo,â she said, finally breaking the silence. âHowâve you been?â
âOh, you finally have some time for me in your busy schedule?â Paul teased. âHow lucky am I? Maybe I should face vampires more often.â
âVery funny, Paul.â
âHey, Iâm not the one that has been avoiding you for weeks now,â he shrugged as he threw his hands up in defeat. âWhatâs that about?â
The girl sighed as she restless her head against the wall, staring up at the wooden ceiling than into Paulâs eyes. She could feel his state burning a joke through her skull, seaman ding entrance into her innermost thoughts. âPaul, you know what itâs about,â she responded. âYou were getting too attached, and I didnât know how to manage that.â
âAre you serious, (Y/N)? I was growing too attached?â Pail spoke in shouted whispers, wanting nothing more than to explode at that. But exhaustion clawed at his body, and the last thing he wanted was to let his wolf out. âAnd what have you that brilliant idea?â
âPaul, come on. The night Jacob finally turned, I could hear it in your voice,â she recalled. âYou said there was something you just had to tell me, and Iâm pretty certain I know what it is.â
âOh yeah, Einstein? And whatâs that?â
âThat you want more,â she stated. âThat you want us to be more.â
Surprise ran through Paulaâs face before quickly transforming into an angry scowl. It had been what (Y/N) had wanted to avoid, but it was no use to continue pushing the inevitable. âCome on, (Y/N),â he exclaimed. âYou canât tell me it doesnât make sense. We work well together, we have chemistry, and we have known each other for so long. Why wonât you just give it a chance?â
âBecause I donât see you that way, Paul, and I never will,â she responded. âYouâre my best friend, yes, and we get along well because of it. It doesnât mean that I want to be with you. I told you from the start that this was not gonna be anything other than just a physical thingâI was very clear on that.â
âSo, what? You just use me for my fucking body but wonât even give yourself a chance to see if you might have feelings for me?â Paul spat. âIs it because of the bloodsucker? He broke you so much that you wonât give anyone else a chance?â
âThis has nothing to do with him. I simply donât have feelings for you, Paul.â
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me!â His voice rose as he jumped to his feet. âHeâs not coming back, (Y/N)! He left you. He took his family, and he left you. Why wonât you get over him already?â
âWhether he was here or not, my feelings for you wouldnât change. I see you as a friend, and Iâll always see you as a friend, Paul,â (Y/N) stated, trying her best to stay calm. She knew that playing into his game would only work to make him angrier, and the result could be catastrophic. âIf you canât handle that, then I think itâs best we just cool things off.â
âOh my god, you are still in love with him,â he scoffed. âAfter all that bullshit that you went through for months. He told you he didnât care about you. He said you were only a moment in his eternal life. He doesnât love you, and he never fucking did.â
By that point, the pair had gotten an audience, the two teens that were asleep on the couches had woken up and Sam had come out of his room. But none of that seemed to deter Paul from continuing with his rant. He was seeing red and didnât care if what he said hurt her. âYou donât care that he stomped on your heart and didnât give it another thought. I bet youâd take him right back if he asked,â he spat. âI guess you both have something in common, though. You take what you want from people and, once youâre done with them, you throw them away.â
âThatâs quite enough, Paul.â
âNo, Sam, itâs okay,â (Y/N) interjected. âFrom the beginning, you knew what you were getting into, Paul. I didnât want a relationship, and I sure as hell have never given you any indication that I wanted one with you. Iâm sorry if you are hurt, but I was very clear about what I did and didnât want. Itâs not my fault you believed this could ever go anywhere.â
âYou knew exactly what you were doing when you asked me to be your fuck buddy,â the boy seethed. âYou knew youâd be leading me on, and you held it over me like a fucking toy.â
âDonât you dare put this on me, Paul,â she said, her tone rising as frustration overtook her. âI was very clear. I was very honest. Not once did I ever say or even insinuate that I wanted to be with you. Iâm sorry that I did use you for your body and the convenience, but it is not my fault that you deluded yourself into believing that we could be together.â
âYou are honestly unbelievable, (Y/N). You used me, and now you wanna make it my fault,â Paul pushed. He closed the distance between them, towering over her like a dark cloud. He could see or hear reason; he couldnât even admit that everything he was saying was a lie. All he could see was red. âNo wonder you fell for a bloodsucker. Youâre just as heartless and cold as them. I bet you wouldnât even give betraying us a second thought if it meant you could save one of them. Maybe he left you before you could leave him. After all, it is in your genes.â
The words struck a chord in (Y/N). She gathered all the strength she had, recoiled her hand, and slapped Paul firmly across the face. But where everyone was expecting her hand to shatter at the contact, the hit went through and made the boyâs face snap to the side. The mere surprise had him stumbling a couple of steps back, holding his face as it grew pink from the strike.
After the initial shock, anger bubbled inside him, and he charged toward (Y/N). But he couldnât even make it a step toward her before Jared and Embry were shielding her. The boys grabbed Paulâs arms and held him back as he fought, yelling at them to let him go.
âThatâs enough!â Samâs voice bounced off the walls, sending shivers even down (Y/N)âs back. âGet out of here, Paul, and cool off. Thatâs an order. Go with him, Jared.â
The second-in-command pulled Paul out of the house and far from view, leaving Sam and Embry with a tearful (Y/N).
âHey, Embry, can you give us a second?â
âUh, yeah, sure,â he mumbled. âYou okay, (Y/N)?â
âYeah, Iâm okay,â she sniffled. âThanks.â
 âIâll, uh, be in the guest room until my shift starts.â
Once the boy had left, Sam wrapped his arms tightly around his sister, allowing her to crumble in his embrace. âHeâs an ass, (Y/N),â he whispered. âAnd he had no right to say any of those things.â
âBut heâs a little bit right,â she cried. âA few months ago, I was ready to leave everyone behind for a man that didnât even spare me a thought. And then I used Pau to fill a void someone else left, knowing he had feelings for me. Iâm just like dad.â
âHey, absolutely not. You are nothing like him,â Sam affirmed. He cradled her face in his hands, wiping away the tears on her cheeks. âYou are by far one of the most amazing human beings I know. Youâre intelligent, youâre caring, and so determined. I donât think you know just how proud I am of you. Paulâs just butthurt that you donât like him. He doesnât deal well with rejection.â
âIt doesnât mean heâd no right.â
âWhat could he possibly be right about? Heâs barely passing his classes.â
âI still love him,â she answered meekly, her voice so low and broken she wasnât sure she had said anything at all. âI miss him every single day, no matter what I do to forget him. I keep waking up thinking heâll be just a drive away, but then I get to the hospital, and his office is empty. Itâs not a bad dream, Sam. Itâs my reality.â
âBean, I didnât⌠why didnât you tell me you were feeling like this?  I thought things were better.â
âWell, I thought the last thing you wanted to hear about was about my ex-boyfriend, who is literally centuries older than me and is your natural-born enemy,â (Y/N) chuckled through her tears. âAnd itâs not easy to say that Iâm not over the guys that told me I was just a spec of sand in his lifetime.â
âLove is a strange thing, (Y/N). Itâs hard to come by, and it takes forever to move on from. It hurts for a really long time, until one day you wake up and it doesnât anymore,â he said, brushing back strands of her hair. âI donât care who this guy is, Bean. If you need me, if you need to talk, you just have to tell me. I am here for anything you need. He may have been my enemy, but you are my sister, and that trumps everything.â
âDo you think theyâll ever come back?â
âMaybe not in our lifetime. The last time they left, they didnât come back for almost seventy years. If they do come back, itâll be long after weâre dead,â he shrugged. âDo you want them to?â
âIs it selfish if I say I do?â
âI mean, it does make me question how weâre related,â he teased. âBut I donât think youâre selfish for it. Just promise me one thing.â
âWhat?â
âIf by some weird trick of the universe they do decide to come back, that you wonât go back to him, (Y/N). Or at least give him hell for it first.â
âI can promise you I will make him grovel until his knees give out,â she grinned softly. âBut I do hope that, if they donât come back, living without him gets easier soon enough. I hate carrying this black hole inside me.â
âItâll get better one day, Bean,â he said as he wrapped his arms around her. âBut while it isnât, let me carry this burden with you. And just take things one at a time. Focus on school and work and forget about this whole thing with Paul. Heâll see reason soon enough.â
âI love you, Sam. Thank you fed everything that youâve done.â
âI love you too, kid.â
âIâm only a year younger than you,â she laughed.
âA year is still a year,â he smiled as he chuckled. âNow, letâs get you home so you can rest and forget this all happened.â
Yet, it was a moment none of them would be able to rid from their minds. (Y/N) should not have been able to slap Paul without hurting herself, and she most definitely should not have hurt him. But, at that moment, no one was thinking about that. All they wanted was comfort and rest, and thatâs all they did. Because in their town, there was always something new lurking around the corner.
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I watched return of the jedi for the first time in 4 years and here are my thoughts:
I know the line between sci-fi and fantasy is already super blurry but Star Wars truly feels like a fantasy movie. Itâs in the costumes, the worldbuilding, the vibe, the odd encounters, palpatineâs entire character. And while there is futuristic tech the world of Star Wars doesnât feel particularly Futuristicâ˘ď¸, if that makes sense.
Thereâs this one imperial officer Bacar interacts with at the start of the movie who acts his ASS off. Seriously give this man an Oscar. The fear!! The subtly!! The little gulp he does before facing Vadar!!! The palpable terror at the idea of the emperor coming there!!! This dude single handedly sets up palpatine as a threat
PRACTICAL SETS!!! All the practical sets!!! Thereâs so many sequences, especially in jabbaâs palace but theyâre throughout, where the characters casually interact with the world around them, and itâs such a small detail but it means so much to me. They really feel like theyâre part of the world. My favorites were the Hall of Horrors C-3PO walks through in Jabbaâs palace and Luke interacting with his x-wing on dagoba
Itâs not all this great though, the green screen to the sarlack pit was awful. I found it endearing.
Also I love how thereâs so much this movie doesnât explain to you. Thereâs this weird robot spider thing in Jabbaâs palace that we see when R2 and C-3PO walk in!!! What does it do!!! Thereâs a guy whoâs super upset when Luke kills that monster!!! Who is he!!! And a bunch of other weird little things that just arenât elaborated on. On top of that thereâs just all these strange aliens just chilling, living their lives, some of which I donât think we see again. It all comes together to make the world feel so much bigger than what we see.
Iâd heard the analysis that Luke wears black in return of the Jedi to allude to a possible fall to the dark side, but that analysis hadnât really clicked for me until this watch through. Like dudeâs introduction was him force choking someone
Honestly like has this kind of subdued confidence this whole movie and I love it. He knows heâs good but doesnât need to flaunt it.
Like his grin when he says âyou should have bargained jabba. Itâs the last mistake youâll ever makeâ I love it
Luke is actually really subdued this entire movie, which tracks with all the internal conflict heâs dealing with. The biggest displays of emotion we see from him are when heâs reuniting with friends or when he goes OFF on Vadar at the end for threatening leia
Chewbacca and Hanâs reunion đ, they care so much about each other, chewy pets his head
In general everyone is so happy to see each other in this movie, every time someone shows up after being separated everyone is so excited to see them. Thereâs so many hugs. You can really tell they care about each other.
Due to some of the framing, I donât think leia slaughtering Jabba was part of the plan. I think she just saw an opportunity and took it. Girlboss.
I noticed Lukeâs fighting style with his lightsaber is much tougher around the edges, itâs less elegant, which tracks with him having much less official training with it. I like it
Yoda trying to use dying as a way to avoid Lukeâs questions. Iconic.
Yodaâs choked out dying words of âthere is another skywalkerâ become so much funnier when you remember he becomes a force ghost. The man could just peacefully pass then come back 10 minutes later and continue the conversation, he doesnât need to try this hard to get the words out. Then again that would take some of the drama out of it.
Han is just so great in this movie, heâs got a reputation for being this suave sarcastic outlaw, which to be fair he kind of was in new hope, but here heâs just so sweet. Heâs the one telling Luke to be more optimistic! When lando gets his promotion to general he doesnât tell him about his own, and looks genuinely bashful when itâs brought up in front of the group! He goes to check on leia after she talks with Luke! He gives lando the falcon because he knows itâll help him even though the ship means so much to him and is scared of it getting destroyed! When he thinks leia has feelings for Luke he offers to step aside and not get in the way! This man cares about his friends!
Speaking of that moment with leia after Luke leaves, thatâs the one moment we see him being a dick, he lashes out with âbut you could tell Luke? Is that who you could tell?!â But then immediately apologizes and comforts her when she asks for it. He loves leia so much and itâs so obvious the entire time
My man thought he was in this love triangle and was doing his best, and was fully prepared to step aside and let leia be happy with Luke. And the face journey he goes on when leia tells him luke is her brother. Itâs gold. Itâs that math meme but even better.
For the mission to endor, Luke and leia are both in these camo space ponchos and helmets but apparently Hanâs outfit was to iconic to change because he just puts on a camo trench coat over his usual outfit
The first speeder chase through the woods of endor struck me as much more low key then it would have been if it was made today. This isnât a bad thing, but I know if it was made today it would have been much more dramatic, a set piece
When leia goes missing Han, Luke, and chewy immediately peel off from the group to go find her. Good friends but you are LEADING THE MISSION
Leia meeting the ewok is a fun sequence and itâs funny how she just rolls with it. She does not question it, just accepts this little guy is here now and starts following him. Itâs funny to contrast this with when Luke, Han, and chewy rescued her in a new hope and she fought every step of the way
In general the Ewoks are such a strange and whimsical inclusion. Like this is part 3 in a space opera and a huge chunk of it has these little furry dudes who live and fight like the lost boys from Peter Pan that weâve literally never seen before. Itâs weird
Luke is so delighted by the Ewoks, from his little smile when the first surround them to trying to hide his laughter at them thinking C-3PO is a god
Also we should not ignore how hilarious his idea to scare the Ewoks into listening was. And the man knew it too, you could tell from his smile. The little shit.
The storytelling sequence!!! I love it!! I love how C-3PO uses the sound effects! I love how everyone is huddled together! I love how we the audience can tell whatâs being said from context clues even if we donât understand all the words!!
Luke peacing out like âitâs time to angstđâ
I do think the bridge scene between luke and leia could have been done a bit better but it wasnât bad, just a bit flat for the gravity of what was being revealed. Leia and Han are great though
I love luke and vadarâs back and forths even if they can get repetitive
The writers really used âsearch your feelingsâ or âyour feelings betray youâ as shortcuts to avoid hard writing huh
The emperor was such a little gremlin, he did nothing but talk about how luke was going to fall to him, how he knew everything was gonna happen and itâs all according to his plan, he really didnât do anything but talk shit until the very end with the force lightning
To be fair, Vadar didnât do anything until the force lightning either
Neither of these points are complaints, palpatine is supposed to be a shadowy scheming villain that others do the dirty work for and the really pull it off. And vadarâs passivity in this movie I think demonstrates the conflict heâs feeling. Despite his words about how he must do his emperorâs will, heâs not really doing that right now, is he? Heâs not really defying orders either but something is different
Something I noticed!!! When Hanâs team first make it in to the back door, off in the corner as they go inside we see a storm trooper adjusting his armor and taking his position again. One of the rebels stole the storm troopers armor and took their place. This doesnât lead up to anything but itâs SUCH a cool detail
The true heroâs of this movie are the Ewoks, palpatine had Hanâs team captured and the air fleet on the ropes before the Ewoks stepped in and saved Han and co. Palpatine would probably have won if it werenât for them. Itâs great.
I really love luke so much, heâs just so compassionate. For his friends, for his father, for everyone. This is the trait that makes him a hero. Itâs literally what palpatine tried to use to turn him, the anger heâd feel at watching his friends die because he loves them so much
âNo, youâre wrong. I am a Jedi, like my father before meâ not gonna lie, this was kinda hot. Itâs that quiet confidence I was talking about earlier. Also the way he nods towards vadar when he mentions his father
â��.so be it, Jediâ THIS!!!! THIS!!!! I love this so much!! Because the entire movie palpatine has been talking about how Luke is going to fall to him, how itâs inevitable, how Luke is foolish to think otherwise. But this moment right here, is him acknowledging heâs wrong. He wonât be able to turn Luke, he failed. Luke truly is a Jedi and even palpatine cannot away him. Itâs so fucking good
When vadar lifts up palpatine to stop him, we get a reaction shot for Luke who just looks so confused. Appropriate reaction.
As luke is dragging vadar to his ship we see imperial officers and storm troopers running around to try and escape and I just want to know what the fuck was going through their heads when they saw Luke and vadar
I know the falcon surviving doesnât make sense but it makes me happy
Something important I realized towards the end: AT NO POINT IN THIS MOVIE DID ANYONE TELL HAN VADAR WAS LUKEâS DAD
CHEWY AND LANDO WERENâT TOLD EITHER FOR THAT MATTER
THEY DONâT KNOW
Presumably they were told later but holy fuck why is no one talking about this.
AgainâŚ.those reunions, hugs all around, everyone is so happy and relieved and I love it
I know it doesnât end here, which makes be kinda sad, because this is such a beautiful and hopeful ending
All in all, with all the Star Wars fatigue and what Disney has been doing, this really reminded me what I love about Star Wars. I felt like I could appreciate the movie a lot more on this watch through and had a wonderful time
#star wars#the return of the jedi#may 4th#may the fourth be with you#luke skywalker#leia organa#princess leia#han solo#chewbacca#darth vader#anakin skywalker#emperor palpatine
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Captain's Quarrels
Oikawa x m!reader (he/him/his)
I've been sitting on the idea of Oikawa falling for the so-called 'heartbreaker' of the school, the guy to avoid at all costs unless you wanted to end up hurt, at least according to everyone he knew.
These guys, ~~, usually mean a switch in view or time passing, it's more obvious as it goes.
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It was lunch at Aoba Johsai, and y/n had decided to sit with his team instead of by himself like he usually did. What he immediately noticed was that the cafeteria was far too loud, and the people where obnoxious; it reminded him of why he always sat outside by the field.
But, he was trying to be more social in an attempt to maybe sully some of the rumors going around about him. He was a naturally flirty person, and not one to change his whole personality to fit what others wanted him to be. So, he found himself being spoken about around the school as something like a playboy.
Truthfully, he hadn't had many partners during his life so far. He was a third-year in school and he'd had a few short-term relationships but nothing more than that. He always felt like people came to him just because of the way he looked, not because of anything else, so he would playfully flirt with them but not have it go anywhere.
He looked around the cafeteria as he ate, noticing the different groups of people gathered, some stealing glances his way, others doing their best to avoid him. One group was making quite a bit more noise than the others, though y/n couldn't figure out who they were just by looking at them.
Lightly elbowing one of his team mates he asked, "Who're they?" His teammate looked a bit surprised to have received the question.
"You seriously don't know? That's the volleyball team, don't you pay attention to anything else here besides our club?" Y/n shrugged off the slight insult. He watched them for another moment, one of them catching his gaze. Y/n panicked a bit, he hadn't meant to make eye contact with any of them, so he just played it like he always did.
He cracked a smile at him, even going so far as to offer him a wink before turning back to his team to finish eating his food. He didn't think about it again, he did the same routine to girls all the time to get them off his back for a few minutes. His teammates that had noticed chided him, but he ignored it.
As lunch concluded, y/n got up to head back to class but he was blocked before he could get very far. It wasn't the guy he had winked at, but rather someone who looked much tougher. He had spiky near-black hair, and green eyes that pierced his own.
"I know who you are." The stranger said. "And I don't need you messing with my captain's head, winking at him and shit." Y/n raised an eyebrow at him, curious to what the other's reaction had been when he'd winked at him.
"Hey, I've got no intention of messing up your captain. He just caught my eye and I thought I'd give him a gift since he's so pretty." The corner of y/n's mouth lifting into a smirk. The stranger frowned.
"You just play with people's feelings, and Oikawa doesn't need or deserve that. Leave him alone." The stranger didn't give y/n a chance to reply as he took off towards where this 'Oikawa' guy was waiting for him by the doors.
Oikawa's eyes met y/n's again, but only briefly before the stranger dragged him through the doors and away from y/n.
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Oikawa didn't understand what was going on. The hottest guy he'd ever laid his eyes on had been looking at him during lunch, and Iwa wasn't even letting him talk to the guy! Instead, Iwa had gone to talk to him, though it didn't seem like a very friendly conversation.
"Why are you being so...protective?" Oikawa asked his friend, who had dragged him out of the cafeteria only moments earlier.
"Because," Iwaizumi replied, "He only plays with feelings, and you were his next victim. I was making sure he wouldn't go after you." Oikawa stopped in his tracks, shock plastered on his face.
"You mean to tell me, that you stopped the hottest person in our school from talking to me?? What is wrong with you!" He was actually a bit angry, Iwa had known about his thoughts about the captain of the soccer team for quite a while.
He had never talked to the other captain, but he saw him often both during school and in passing after or before practices. He was easily one of the most attractive people in their school, but that wasn't the only thing that held his captivation. Whenever he saw the captain during practices, he looked happy, happier than whenever he was talking to the girls that swarmed him or to the other boys he flirted with. He could also see the pride the captain felt whenever he played, the seriousness with which he directed the team.
Iwaizumi took his time coming up with a response. "You don't deserve to get played with, Oikawa. I know you like him, and you think things will be different since its you, but I know you'll end up hurt if you go after him." He offered no more explanation, and Oikawa thought about what he'd said.
Sure, he had heard the rumors about the soccer captain and the games he played with his admirers, but Oikawa was determined that things would be different with him. Not just because he was way better than everyone else that tried to pursue him, but also because he understood how it felt to have people obsess over him because of his looks. He thought that because they were similar in that sense, that maybe he'd be able to get to know the real captain.
Their classes came and went, the school day coming to an end. Oikawa's teammates had been quick to leave class and head off to practice, usually Oikawa being the same way, but today he decided to take his time. Unfortunately, y/n wasn't in his class. But, he was in the class next door, which meant if Oikawa timed things right, they'd walk out to where the gyms and soccer field were at the same time. If everything went to plan, Oikawa would have a chance to talk to the captain and maybe get to know him.
As he left his classroom, Oikawa looked around the hallways, greeting his friends as they passed him, though not seeing the one he had hoped too. He was about to start heading down the stairs towards the main doors, when a voice greeted him from his left.
"You look lost. You need some help finding the gym?" Oikawa swiveled his head towards the velvety voice and found y/n smirking at him. Oikawa's stomach fluttered a bit, being so close and finally hearing the voice of the person he'd watched for so long. "You just gonna stare at me or are we going to have a conversation?" He asked, snapping Oikawa back into reality.
"Ah, sorry. I guess I just got...distracted. You're headed outside right?" Y/n nodded, and they started down the stairs together. "So," Oikawa started, "You're the captain of the soccer team, yeah?"
Y/n smiled, his eyes only set ahead of him. "Yeah, same for you right, in volleyball?" Oikawa nodded. There was a moment of silence as they walked before y/n spoke again. "Why'd you wait for me? I always see you walking with that bold guy." Oikawa took notice of his word choice, he always saw him with Iwa? Oikawa thought today was the first time he'd noticed him.
He did his best to reply smoothly, though it was hard for him to keep his composure explaining why he wanted to walk with the other. "I just thought that we should get to know each other, since we're captains." He added quickly. Y/n eyed him carefully, the usual playful flirt missing from his gaze if only for a second.
"Your bold friend wouldn't like that. He chewed me out earlier for just looking at you, are you guys dating or something?" Oikawa nearly choked on his own saliva; date Iwa? He couldn't picture it.
"No, no, Iwaizumi and I could only be good friends, we established that a while ago. He's just protective, I guess. He's heard some stuff about you..."
Y/n laughed, interrupting Oikawa's train of thought. "Of course he has, nearly everyone has. So let me ask you again, why did you wait for me?" Oikawa didn't know what to say. He didn't want to just outright tell him that he liked him, he thought it would come off shallow. But he wasn't sure what else to say. "I see." Y/n said during Oikawa's silence. "You like making your friends and fans jealous."
Oikawa laughed, "Well I mean yes of course I do-"
"And that's why you wanted to talk to me. The incredible volleyball captain was going to play with the attention of the school's heartbreaker, so his fans would have a show." Y/n stated, his tone holding slightly more malice than it had earlier.
As soon as he said it, Oikawa realized how he'd sounded in his response. "No, wait that's not what I meant. I just,"
"No, it's ok. I get it, to prove to your fans that you know how to play the game as well as I do, you go behind your friend's back and do the very thing he told you not to. I guess I'm the one who got played this time, I thought for a second you actually wanted to be friends." They had made it outside when y/n had made his statement, his expression more tired than anything else.
"Y/n, please that's not how I meant it!" Oikawa tried, but y/n had turned away from him and was heading towards the soccer field.
"I'll leave you alone, Oikawa. Just do me the courtesy of the same." He called back, afterwards breaking into a jog so Oikawa didn't have a chance to say anything else.
He cursed himself as he watched y/n jog away from him, he was careless. He should've known y/n would be curious as to why Oikawa bothered to wait for him, he should've said something instead of staying quiet like an idiot. Frustrated, he made his way to the volleyball gym where he knew his team would be waiting for him, upset at his tardiness.
"There you are, where the hell have you been? I didn't think you could walk so slowly!" Iwa scolded him, but Oikawa just rolled his eyes. He wasn't up for Iwa's shit right now, after all it was kind of his fault that things went so south earlier. If he hadn't talked to y/n during lunch, Oikawa might have had a better chance. "Oi what's wrong?" Iwa asked, but again Oikawa ignored him and went to the locker room to get changed.
Throughout the practice, Oikawa's sets were off and he couldn't rile up the team like he usually did. He couldn't help but feel that he had to make things right with y/n. When practice finally ended, Oikawa was the first one out of the building, and instead of heading towards the gates to the school, he went off towards the soccer field. Several of his teammates had called out to him, asking what he was doing or where he was going, but he didn't answer them.
As he approached the soccer field, he saw that they too were wrapping up practice, everyone putting their jackets on and moving their equipment into a nearby shed. Everyone, that was, except for y/n who was currently talking to their coach, still dressed in workout clothes. It had looked like the coach wasn't much a fan of whatever y/n was saying, but he eventually gave in and left the field with the rest of the team. Y/n remained with a few soccer balls and other equipment, continuing his practice.
Oikawa decided to wait until he was noticed, not wanting to interrupt y/n while he was so focused, but after fifteen minutes, he wasn't sure it was going to happen. Y/n had just been taking shots on goal, not breaking until he was satisfied with what he had done. Wiping the sweat from his brow, he approached the sideline to take a break, then noticing Oikawa's presence. He stopped before reaching the sideline, confusion playing on his features.
"Uh, hey." Oikawa sputtered out, slightly embarrassed.
"How long have you been standing there?" Y/n asked.
"Longer than I should've without saying something, that's for sure." He replied. "Would you hear me out for just a minute? I want to apologize for earlier."
Y/n didn't look enthusiastic, but there wasn't much he could do to get away from the situation. If he just up and left the field as it was right now he'd get chewed out by his coach for leaving equipment out, and he'd never be allowed to stay late again.
"I didn't wait for you after class because I wanted to make my friends or 'fans' jealous, I wanted to talk to you." Oikawa said, putting as much conviction into his words as he could manage. "My friend, Iwaizumi, had said that you were bad news, but I've known about you for a while." He confessed, "I know people are obsessed with you because of your looks and your position as captain of a team, and I understand how annoying that can be. That's why I wanted to talk to you, I wanted you to know that not everybody is like that...I guess."
Y/n watched him while he spoke, it was obvious he was trying to figure out if Oikawa was just talking to talk or if he meant it.
"You know you'll have to do a lot more than just talk to get me to even somewhat trust you." Y/n said, Oikawa immediately nodding.
"Of course. But you'll have to do the same, I know how you treat most people." Y/n was hesitant, but slowly agreed to his terms. "Ok, cool. So, what should we do?" Oikawa asked.
"You can let me finish practicing since I only get to have the field for about another hour." His face was blank, no malice, no friendliness. "I'll see you tomorrow." He turned and went back towards the goal.
Oikawa was a bit surprised, he thought that since they'd cleared things up that maybe he'd want to go to a convenience store and get something to eat, or at least chat. He wasn't expecting to essentially be shooed off the field. He tried not to be disappointed, after all, y/n had said he'd see him tomorrow, all wasn't lost.
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Y/n could hardly keep it together when he'd seen Oikawa on the sidelines during his practice. When they'd spoken earlier, he had actually gotten a bit upset at Oikawa toying with him, sure he was used to dishing it out but it wasn't usually out of pure spite like that. He'd cleared things up when they'd talked, but it was hard to believe that Oikawa actually wanted to be something like friends with y/n. He couldn't think of any real similarities between them, sure they were captains and both adored by people at their school but that was all he could think of.
Of course, there was the fact that Oikawa was, to his right, a very attractive person. One of the only in the school that y/n had actually been so intrigued by, it lead to him acting slightly more genuine towards the volleyball captain. Usually, y/n went with the 'they can't hurt you if they don't actually know you' kind of stance, since everyone already thought of him one way. If he just stuck to it and Oikawa turned out to be nothing more than a piece of shit, it wouldn't affect y/n as much as if he'd been genuine with him.
He finished up his practice, mulling over his thoughts while he worked. Eventually, he packed things up and went home where he ate a meal and passed out, exhausted form the day's events.
The following morning, y/n was quick to get to school, feeling slightly anxious about seeing Oikawa again. He'd arrived just before classes were going to start, so he quickly made his way up the stairs to his classroom. He glanced into what he knew was Oikawa's as he passed, barely making eye contact with him before he disappeared into his own. The time passed much too slowly for y/n to handle, but eventually lunch came and he quickly left his classroom hoping to beat Oikawa to the cafeteria.
As he was heading down the stairs though, he heard his name called from a voice not far behind him. He turned to see Oikawa waving at him, and waited so he could catch up.
"Should we eat together? Maybe not with my team though, they don't like you that much..." Y/n cracked a smile, Oikawa nervously laughing.
"Sure, I'll follow you." He said, his voice unwavering, the anxiety he felt managing to stay hidden. Oikawa smiled and led the way, they got their food and Oikawa took him outside where there was a bench that resided under a large tree.
"This is the spot I always go to when I want to eat in peace, isn't it nice?" Y/n nodded, with the slight breeze and the sunshine, it was beautiful. He wasn't ever super talkative, especially when he didn't know people very well, so he just let Oikawa talk on and on about volleyball. A few times, Oikawa would ask him a question but his answers were always short and to the point, Oikawa always reverting back to volleyball.
Hearing him talk about the sport he loved so much was actually quite peaceful to y/n, he felt the same way about soccer. It was nice to know that there was at least one other person who was as committed to their sport as he was. Things went on like this for nearly twenty minutes before Oikawa realized that he'd been talking the entire time.
"It's definitely your turn to say something, you've finished your food and I've hardly touched mine." Oikawa scolded. Y/n laughed at the pout on his face, though with the sunlight highlighting his features, it was hard for y/n to keep his eyes off him.
"It's no wonder you have such a fan club." Y/n said suddenly. Oikawa was a bit thrown off by the slight compliment, though the confusion he felt showed on his face. "You really are quite a pretty boy, you know." His internal nervous system couldn't believe the things he was saying out loud.
Oikawa's face was immediately a darker shade at y/n's words. It was just then that y/n realized Oikawa might actually feel slightly differently towards y/n than he had originally thought. Sure blushing at flirty stuff was normal, but Oikawa was supposedly the king of flirting amongst his fans and even his friends. He wouldn't get so worked up over a small compliment unless there was something... deeper.
"You're not really a 'heartbreaker' or a 'playboy' are you?" Oikawa asked, trying to change the subject.
Y/n shook his head. "Not really. I just don't like all the attention I get for how I look, so I play a little game to get everybody to back off. But since I don't go out of my way to get to know other people, assumptions about me just run rampant." Oikawa's expression changed, he seemed more relaxed now that he knew that y/n wasn't what everyone thought he was.
"Why don't you try to make more friends, get a new narrative about you going around?" Oikawa asked him, though y/n had a difficult time coming up with a real answer. He thought maybe he was just lazy, and it was only high school, he didn't care all that much. In truth though, it was likely because he didn't want people to know who he really was; it was easier to get hurt if people knew who you were.
"Guess I just don't trust anybody. Something like that anyway." He looked up to the sky, watching the leaves of the tree they sat under wave in the small breeze, clouds ever slowly making their way across the blue.
Suddenly, he felt Oikawa's hand on his jaw, carefully turning his head so it was facing the other's. Y/n was confused at the action, but when he saw Oikawa studying him so intently, he realized what was going to happen next. Oikawa's face approached his own, and y/n soon felt Oikawa's lips brush against his, gentle but determined in their path. Y/n leaned into the kiss, bringing one of his hands to the back of Oikawa's head, bringing the volleyball captain as close to him as he could. The kiss didn't last for as long as y/n longed for it to, as Oikawa pulled away from him he held his gaze. As Oikawa leaned back to where he had been sitting, y/n's hand fell from his head returning to his lap.
"I shouldn't have done that out of nowhere, sorry." Oikawa muttered, blush dusting his features like it had earlier. His gaze had dropped from y/n's, and he was starting to get up as if to leave.
"I'm not sorry." Y/n said, hoping to keep the brunette for just a few more moments. "I don't regret it." Oikawa looked surprised, which y/n didn't understand, he had kissed him back hadn't he? Why was he acting like y/n would be upset?
"What do you mean?" Oikawa asked, y/n standing so that they'd be eye level. "What do you mean you're not sorry?" Was he scared? Is that what y/n heard in his voice?
Instead of saying anything, y/n grabbed the collar of Oikawa's shirt and pulled him into another kiss. Oikawa melted into his touch, whatever tension or anxiety he had been feeling when he had first kissed y/n disappearing. When y/n pulled his lips from Oikawa's, he brought the other into a tight embrace, Oikawa's head resting on y/n's shoulder.
"I guess you're the first person I trust, Oikawa." Y/n mumbled, one of his hands in Oikawa's hair, playing with the small knots his fingers found.
"TĹru." The other said, "Call me TĹru if you're going to kiss me like that." Y/n lightly chuckled,
"Whatever you want, TĹru."
#oikawa x male reader#oikawa tooru#aoba johsai#seijoh#Oikawa x reader#hq oikawa#Oikawa imagine#iwaizumi hajime#haikyuu#haikyuu x male reader#oneshot#fluff
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when gwen came back to vault 101, no one cheered. no one welcomed her back. which is to be expected - there were some who blamed her for what happened. butch thought that was bullshit, but no one would ever hear him defending gwen. especially not gwen. so he watched from a distance when she stomped into the vault in her too-big boots, dried blood in her hair, dusty and dirty and standing taller than he had ever seen her.
gwen lit up when she saw amata, but quickly dimmed when amata approached her hesitantly, as if scared. butch can't blame amata; this new gwen, wasteland gwen, looked like vault gwen only in passing. wasteland gwen was rougher, tougher. imposing. her rifle slung easily from her shoulder.
butch wondered if she had ever killed anyone with it.
butch decided to break the silence. he pointed at gwen's rifle. "ever killed anyone with that thing?"
he leaned against the door as gwen and amata talked, noting gwen's frown deepening the more amata filled her in. she was all business now; very serious, impartial and indifferent. asking questions like: what happened here? what do you want me to do? how much are you going to pay me? which unsettled butch a little. gwen was never a joker, but she never took anything seriously, either. to see her stone-cold and stern (like james) was new, and it was concerning.
so when gwen passed him on her way to the overseer, he walked in step with her. she nodded at him. he nodded back. they stayed like that for a few blocks, just quiet. which was new, also. before, they would've been talking each other's ears off, firing off insults and jabs one after another.
gwen rolled her eyes. "hi, gwen," she said in a deepened voice. "it's nice to see you again, gwen. i was so worried about you, gwen." she sighed. "just shot wilkins with it."
"wilkins is dead?"
"fuck if i know. i didn't stay to check." she doubled back to peer into the clinic. she turned to butch, her hands on her hips. "look, what do you want from me?"
butch looked her in the eye. no need to beat around the bush, then. "i need to get out of here, man."
gwen shrugged. "then get out of here. what's stopping you and your dinky little knife?"
"dinky? what are you calling dinky?" butch bristled. "this thing's sharp as fuck."
"that shit can't peel an apple. that shit's barely worth a cap."
butch frowned. "the fuck is a cap?"
"wasteland money. it's dumb." gwen entered the clinic as she talked. butch followed her. "they use fucking bottlecaps."
"there's money up there?" brotch taught them about money and trade, but they didn't use it in the vault. "no vouchers? no rations?"
"no, man. you find food or you trade or you starve." gwen was rummaging through the rubble in james' office. "i've just been eating cold cram."
"but you're eating what you want," butch said. "you have a choice."
"yeah, i guess. it's just..." gwen sighed again and faced butch. "i'm not gonna lie, dude, it's bad out there. you get shot at, you get chased by randos, you eat 200-year old shit because you can't find fresh food. there's choices, sure, but it's between two shitty choices all the time." she gestured at their surroundings. "but, even with all that... it's loads better than this shithole."
butch whooped. "so you'll help me escape?"
"i'm going to do what amata wants, and that's to get the door open. what you do after that is your business." gwen went to the framed verse on the wall and opened it. "here we go."
butch went to her. she took out a bobby pin and a screwdriver and jimmied the lock, which broke with a small click. the safe opened, and gwen took out a small bag and some schematics. she stuffed both in her battered pack.
"okay, butch, i'm gonna go deal with the overseer," she said, patting his shoulder. "go do... whatever you want. go fucking wild. no one in here, or out there, cares."
"thanks?" butch watched her walk past him. gwen stopped when she got to the door.
"if you do get out, though," she said, "i live in this house in megaton. right at the entrance. you can't miss it. you're - and i can't believe i'm saying this - welcome there."
butch felt warmth bloom in his chest. it felt weird and gross, but not unwelcome. he smiled at her. she smiled back. and then she was gone.
#shh peri shhh#my writing#gwen#vault kids#spoiler alert! gwen kills the overseer and when amata exiles her she just shuts down and leaves them without even a goodbye#just turns around and fucks off and takes out her hurt and anger on the next fucker who dared to cross her#and butch gets lost and misses megaton and just meanders until he gets to rivet city#where they meet again and team up :)
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Oh, Leon
(Not my gif)
Did you know:
Leon had a girlfriend before he left for Raccoon City and since he had to head there fast, he broke up with his girlfriend before he left?
Summary: Leon leaving his girlfriend so selfishly forever haunts him as she was so understanding even in such a situation but what happens when one mission his temporary partner holds a shockingly close resemblanceâŚ
Timeframe: Around Resident Evil 6
Word count: 1.3k
CW: Canon-typical violence, toxic relationship (not really though, reader blames stuff on herself and Leon sucks at communicating), major injuries (not too graphic), hurt/comfort(?), let know if I missed any
A/N: I just feel so bad for this manâŚalso, this wasnât a request, I just wanted to post so people got the gist of my writing. This is not proofread well, sorry! And I donât have access to my laptop right now so this was on my phone.
âOh, LeonâŚâ
He froze as he stared into those all too familiar eyes, any words lost with the shock of seeing your face again.
âI wish I could say you look well these days but even you know that would be a lieâŚâ you admitted as you stood across from him, watching him tense under your gaze.
âI-âŚâ he started but stopped himself, worried he might say something to anger you, which would be almost impossible. âItâs alright. You donât need to say anything. Just so you know, Iâm not angry about what happened back then. Whatâs to be is to be.â
âLetâs go. We need to start briefing,â is all he said as he made his way past you to the briefing room. âHey, Leon,â you called as you turned him. He stopped but made no move to look at you.
âIâm still interested in youâŚbut donât feel any obligation to me. I know you have a lot to deal with these days. Forgive meâŚâ
Though you didnât see it, Leonâs eyes welled up with tears, face scrunching slightly with a tiny sniffle as he forced them back down.
Maybe he realized why he was with you in the first place, someone understanding and patient, though he thinks you're insane for asking for forgiveness when itâs him that should have been asking for forgiveness.
Leon continued to the briefing room with you close behind.
ââ
Your mission started off without a hitch but as you progressed the enemies and B.O.Wâs became tougher. At the start, communication was limited as it was not required with weaker enemies but if the lack of communication continued then someone could seriously get hurt, you and Leon both knew that.
You two headed towards a massive double door leading to an old cathedral-like building. âThis should be where the evidence is kept,â Leon stated.
You reached the doors, back against the walls beside them, guns ready. Leon slowly pushed one door open, peeking inside but the dark obstructed his vision inside. He looked to you as a signal to be ready to storm him as soon as he pushed the doors open. You looked back at him, whilst to signal you were ready but you swore time froze as you looked at each other.
Leon was the first to breakaway as he kicked the doors open. You both entered, checking every corner while aiming your guns with your flashlights.
You two searched on opposite corners of the cathedral. It seemed eerily quiet as you looked for any enemies or the evidence you came to collect.
While you were investigating the altar at the front, Leon was inspecting the near the murals on the right side. He heard a soft but strange noise and followed it with his light up to the ceiling only to land on the massive chandelier near the altar.
His eyes widened.
A massive B.O.W laid across the chandelier as it chewed on the base of the support. Leon tensed, as he wondered how he missed such a beast above him.
He looked down to see you unaware of the monster above you as you read old text on the altar. He took cautious steps towards you.
âHeyâŚslowly step away from thereâŚâ he spoke as lowly as possible to you with the distance between you guys. You move your gaze to him with a questioning look but still made a move to stand. Before Leon could even motion to the B.O.W above you, it made a loud growling noise causing you both to focus your flashlights towards it.
You froze at the sight of it as it took a massive bite of the chandelier base causing it to only hang from a wire.
â(Y/N)!â Leon shouted to you but before you could make for a sprint it started to fall.
Without hesitation, Leon accelerated towards you. He grabbed you by your waist as you threw you two out of the chandeliers' vicinity with his body weight.
Your vision blurred as you hit the floor. You felt Leon get off of you and went to inspect you only to hear the roar of the beast again. It seemed he had said something to you but you couldnât hear it, all you could make out was him giving you a look that seemed to be an apology and made his way to the fiery wreckage of the chandelier where the beast stood.
It took a few minutes before the ringing in your ear stopped as you writhed on the floor. You went to sit up only to feel an excruciating pain in your side. You look down to your abdomen to see an ugly deep wound from the glass piece, most likely from when the chandelier fell. Your fear worsened at the sight and you were about to start hyperventilating only to hear a loud groan ahead.
In the midst of the mess you saw Leon being held up by the B.O.W by one hand, the other ready for a finishing blow.
You look around you to see your gun a meter to your left. You use whatever strength you have to crawl over to it. You reach for it and in one motion grab it and aim for the big red beating organ in its chest.
It fell to the floor in agony, dropping Leon in the process. Leon shot up, grabbing his gun and aiming it at the monster. With a last check that it was defeated, he looked towards you only to see you drop your gun and lay your head back down.
â(Y/N)!â He started towards you. Once he reached you he took your head and rested it on his lap. He saw the big wound in your side and took his receiver to request for rescue.
He saw you slowly move out of consciousness, âHeyâŚhey, I got you, okay? Stay with me.â He rested his palm on your forehead, moving your hair out of the way. âTheâŚevidence⌠I sawâŚugh, itâŚin aâŚhidden compartmentâŚin the altar,â you struggled out.
He was baffled that you said that in a time like this but in a way it reminded him of himself. âWeâll worry about that later, right now you need to focus on yourself.â
You looked at him with such love in your eyes it made him want to die. How could he ever let this happen to you?
âOh, LeonâŚâ
Is the last thing you said as you heard helicopters in the distance and slipped out of consciousness.
ââ
âHey, LeonâŚdid you know that I became a secret agent so I could find you. Maybe I was too desperate, you could have already had a badass girlfriend by now,â you chuckled out.
You had just awoken since the mission and Leon turned to you in shock. His gaze then softened.
âYouâre crazy,â he told you with a small smile.
âI just had to see you again. You left with such haste, I just wanted some closure but I heard what happened in Raccoon CityâŚI just wanted you to be happy but maybe if I was more stubborn to not let you leave then you couldâve lived the life you wantedâŚâ you admitted to him with a sad smile.
âYouâre seriously blaming yourself for what happened to me?! God! You're still the same!â He sounded more concerned than angry as he let out a sad sigh.
He made his way towards your recovery bed. He stood there for a few minutes before gathering you in his arms. You could feel him shaking and a wet spot form on your shirt.
He is cryingâŚ
âI love you.â
ââŚâ
âItâs okay, take as much time as needed.â
ââŚthank you.â
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Should I make a part two or is it better to end there?
Well, thanks for reading my first post! Make sure to send in requests!
#leon s kennedy x reader#leon kennedy x reader#resident evil 4#resident evil 6#resident evil x reader#reader#resident evil 4 remake#jill valentine x reader#chris redfield x reader#albert wesker x reader#x reader#resident evil
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Idk if this has been asked, but which Will Wood song do you think represents David Tennant?
ooooo ok i have never been asked this.
i canât really assign one to david himself i donât think but i will absolutely give a will wood song to every DT character i can think of
my autism is bursting at the seams at this question hehe when worlds collide
assigning every david tennant character (that i can think of) a will wood song. (with accompanying reasons varying in detail)
Campbell Bain - 2econd 2ight 2eer. in my head heâs a lot of others as well but primarily this one.
Tenth Doctor - Hand Me My Shovel. covers a lot of ground i think. i couldâve gone with a sadder one but i donât think heâs openly miserable often enough for that.
Fourteenth Doctor - Cicada Days. (yes the doctors get separate ones leave me alone) this is my favourite song ever i didnât think i was gonna include it here but actually i think it fits fourteen quite well.
Crowley - I/Me/Myself. the obvious choice is Laplaceâs Angel but i reserved that one for Kilgrave. this one is kinder. this isnât just because heâs all genderfluid itâs also because i think a lot of it could fit with his relationship to being a demon. thereâs a lot of other options i think but i like this one best.
Kilgrave - Laplaceâs Angel. come on. what else would he be. (although, Your Body My Temple is a tempting 2nd choice.)
Alec Hardy - Skeleton Appreciation Day (Bones). tougher decision but i think this one fits best.
Casanova - Chemical Overreaction. born to give him a whore song, forced to consider his other traits đ. no but in all seriousness this one is giving Giacomo because of his eccentricity but also the actual story.
Phileas Fogg - Everything Is a Lot. tough choice again but mainly because i actually couldnât think of any that fit right. the lingering on âall the moments you lostâ works very well i think though.
Simon Yates - Cover This Song. easier than expected. i think Simon and Emilyâs relationship and its past work pretty well with this.
sorry you probably only wanted one answer and iâve given 9 but i had fun with this so tyvm :)
#thank you for coming to my ted talk#i had way too much fun with this#i could probably explain a lot more than i already did but i wonât bc itâs already super wordy#sorry#also i didnât do characters from stuff i havenât seen and i didnât do shakespeare ones bc those arenât DT exclusive#i also didnât wanna do one for Staged!David bc uhhhh i didnât want to soz#will wood#david tennant#will wood and the tapeworms#crowley#campbell bain#tenth doctor#fourteenth doctor#kilgrave#simon yates#phileas fogg#giacomo casanova#alec hardy
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hello!
i decided to ask for some advice, if you don't really know, you can encourage ppl to answer in replies/rbs, that's totally fine.
the question of disability has long since been on my mind, and for a while now, i've considered myself disabled. physically i'm not the worst, but my mental problems often render me unable to do anything at all, from taking care of myself and my living space, to doing any activities (especially if it's some kind of job), to even thinking straight - i think my headmates try to get through to me in those moments, but it usually doesn't reach me when it's really bad, so it falls onto my own shoulders to keep myself from harming the body. my first ask for advice is with this. what are some tips for surviving those pretty frequent moments, or maybe lessening their intensity or frequency? maybe some internal/external system communication tips?
that's not the only thing, though. since i'm unemployed, i have to depend on my parents for money - my mother neglected me for the better part of my life, and my father abused me. it's a whole can of worms, but the most important issue is that disability payments in my country aren't really enough to pay for everything, and so i somehow have to convince my mother that i am, in fact, disabled and unable to get a job, and manage to keep her financial support, as that's unfortunately my only option seemingly. if you or anyone can give some advice on that, i'd be really grateful.
apologies for such a long one. try to stay safe and take some care of yourself!
Oh wow you're asking for dissociative disorder advice, something I'm very not qualified to give! I do fully believe that mental problems sabotaging you from being able to take care of yourself, and struggling to just not harm the body, count as a disability, and you deserve and should be given help, you do not deserve to have to fight so badly just to get to survive, and it should be society's responsibility to help you be safe and sound (not that I know how to get this from society, it's a tough issue).
I know all common information on osdd suggests improving communication and getting to know your headmates better, but I can imagine this is tougher to say than to do, and I haven't managed it either, it's a big mess in here too, but I still don't experience what you do â not being able to think, wanting to do harm to yourself, I am somehow protected from this, so I don't know what would help such extreme situations, but it sounds extremely serious and I hope you can find a way to resolve it, I am sure it's not something that cannot be resolved. This should be able to get better.
I'm so sorry that you have to depend on your parents due to disability and a dissociative disorder that they likely caused; it's unfair and messed up. And that the disability payments are not enough to give you safety, that is extremely unfair and unkind. I'm not sure how you'd be able to convince a neglectful parent that you're disabled, it's difficult to convince neglectful parents of anything since their main feature is not caring about how you're doing and just expecting things out of you endlessly. I feel like maybe if she got information about the dissociative disorder, not from you, but from people she respects and wants to impress, that this might sway her, but it's impossible to tell because it might also not work.
Yeah I'm really sorry that all I can do is confirm that your situation is difficult and one that nobody would want to be in, and you're asking some real serious and tough questions here. I can say you're asking the good and right questions though! I can tell that you're looking very seriously to resolve this and you're trying to find any way to freedom and protection from abuse, and I love that, I'm sure you'll eventually get there, because you are looking in a good direction.
If anyone else could give advice to anon, please respond to this post!
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Question,
On your oc sheet for bulzar, you mentioned about him disliking humans with some exceptions. Has he ever befriended or at the very least was mural with a human?
Bulzar is a gruff and very territorial fellow, so even if you get on his good side, donât expect him to act all warm nâ fuzzy around you (Miko being the obvious exception). That said, it is still possible to befriend him, especially if you make a good first impression and prove youâre not a threat to his precious son.
Bulzar is on pretty good terms with these guys, although introductions were seriously rocky:
This is the trio of bounty hunting bois I mentioned. From left to right, we have Grimaldus (aka Grim for short) the foul tempered conjurer, Balroc the big n' rowdy warrior, and Owin the optimistic young mage and healer. The story where they first meet the giants is still in the works, but @amanofhamm wrote the blurb below explaining how the gang came to be:
It all begins with Owin. He's a young but highly intelligent student of magic who cares for people and wants to use his magic to help others. Other mages were jealous of him, but his elders loved his mind and his talents. However, it became clear that the masters were dabbling in the dark arts. Owin tried to plead with them to not corrupt their souls, and when they abandoned their morality for power, and many other mages followed suit, Owin denounced the guild and went his own way.
The first he came across was Grim, an elder mage who was originally from a rival guild, and regarded Owin's guild as a bunch of pansies. The two first met when Owin decided to travel the world to find a new way to help people. Grim, meanwhile, was on his way to a bounty, using his magic for a job usually suited for tougher warriors. But Grim's particular brand of magic was quite deadly. At first, Grim didn't like Owin. He thought of him as a little wimp who would just slow him down...til a ghoul bit and poisoned him, and Owin ended up saving the old mans life. So after that, it was like, "fine, you can tag along, kid..."
But when the two were on their way to Grim's bounty, they came across Balroc, who was also after the same bounty as Grim. Balroc was already a bounty hunter and was looking for the biggest, toughest bounties to take down. He doesn't talk a lot about where he came from, but he's clearly a very skilled warrior, but also deeply boastful, headstrong, and while not a meathead, he isn't the sharpest tool in the shed either.
He'd also just gotten his ass kicked by the monster he was after. Grim told him to beat it since the monster was his prize, and Balroc basically told him to go fuck himself. And the two, naturally, did not hit it off especially well. Grim went after the bounty himself, with Owin's assistance, and sure as the sky is blue, Grim got his ass kicked, and once again required Owin's healing.
So, Owin came up with the idea of the three of them working together, Grim using his magic for ranged attacks, Balroc for close attacks, and Owin supporting them both with his magic to provide defenses. And sure enough, they took down the monster and each collected and split the rather large bounty. And from that point on, however begrudgingly, they became partners who constantly bicker but grew to trust and care for one another, tho Grim will never admit it.
Owin's around 19 years old. He's the youngest of the bunch but also the most mature, well disciplined and empathetic. He's very kindhearted and always willing to help others out, even if there's no payment in it for him.
Balroc is anywhere from his early to mid twenties and acts kinda like a rowdy big brother to Owin. Though, he's not a mentor by any stretch of the imagination. In fact, a lot of the time, Owin's the one teaching him a thing or two. Though, he's the biggest and strongest of the bunch, with excellent combat stills, resilience, stamina, and an appetite to spare. He's not quite as trusting as Owin, but he's got a good heart and isn't afraid to show it from time to time. Though, he has a deep hatred of monsters.
Grim is in his sixties, and is like the grumpy old uncle to the two bois. He's a grouch through and through. Hates most people and is seemingly only ever happy when he's tormenting Balroc. He and Balroc bicker and argue like an old married couple all the time. And while not a strong fighter, he has more spells than he knows what to do with. He doesn't give a shit most times, so long as there's a pay day. Grim has a heart, but he's like if Grumpy Cat were a dude. "Fun is overrated."
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this isn't an ask question but do you have nsfw fic headcanons for your main ship/s?
nsfw england nt headcanons âĄ
hendolish
jack is a bratty bottom. thatâs a given truth i feel but itâs just in his nature to push peopleâs buttons (esp hendoâs because he can be so proper about things at times being a captain and all) so jack is always testing hendoâs boundaries for what he can get away with.
hendo doesnât mind because he secretly loves it. loves seeing jack get needy and demanding when things donât quite go his way, or when hendo doesnât give in to him as quickly as heâd expected. he also loves to spoil jack rotten, but will never openly admit it, so jack always ends up with what he wants. he also canât ever get over how lucky he is, that jack wants him and loves him in the same way, because jack is, well, jack (ridiculously handsome, like, seriously demigod levels of perfection on top of having a heart of gold), and hendo has always just been⌠himself. a little better than above average at things and caring just enough.
stonesford
this one is tougher!! iâve never really settled on who i prefer to write on top/bottom for these two so i think the answer must be that they take it in turns.
jordan grumbles about it when itâs his turn but loves it once john is actually inside of him. itâs something about the unfathomable closeness and intimacy that gets him gasping and moaning into his johnâs mouth as he scratches his non-existent nails down his bfâs back. heâll never admit that he loves it though.
jordan loves to be inside of john. itâs his favourite thing, like, ever (apart from maybe making an impossible save for england in a huge tournament), but heâd always have it this way if he could. john likes how much jordan loves it so he loves it too. he can take jordan much more easily than he could in the beginning, and jordanâs a lot better at thinking about johnâs pleasure, making it so good for him that once is never enough.
benaaron
love love love their dynamic. so addictive ugh, i could ramble forever.
benâs always been the one with more experience. aaron hasnât been with many guys but heâs eager, as he always is, to learn how to make it good for ben. he listens intently to his instructions when theyâre in bed together. heâs addicted to the way benâs voice hitches and gets breathy when heâs doing well, hitting that spot inside of him that makes benâs eyes roll to the back of his head in ecstasy and clench tightly around him. the way benâs fingers dig into the flesh of his back, telling him, âfaster, harder, moreâ. aaron always dutifully listens.
benâs more experienced and he loves to suck aaronâs dick. it makes him feel like heâs in control, seeing the flutter of aaronâs stomach and feeling his fingers clutch in the curls of his hair, but heâs slowly relinquished that control with aaron now. he lets himself go more and more every time, gasping louder, pressing his demands against aaronâs lips, letting him eat him out when he asks. he likes aaron a lot and grows more comfortable with him than anyone in the world.
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#i could do a million more of these if anyoneâs interested lol <3#this was fun#wrote this whilst fervently ignoring the united score x#england#england national team#england nt#england football#football#football rpf#jordan henderson#hendo#henderson#hendolish#jack grealish#grealish#grealo#stonesford#jordan pickford#john stones#ben white#aaron ramsdale#arsenal#liverpool#everton#man city#manchester city
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đˇ"No...no way."đ¸ Part 4
1610 Miles Morales x fem reader
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⢠Miles dreamt about alot of things that night. His parents, you, and most importantly, what he had to do. It was weird though. He didn't see his success, but he didn't see a loss either. He was just...foreshadowing..? It was weird but it felt familiar...
⢠Has he done this before...?
⢠"Miles."
⢠...Someone was shaking his shoulder. Miles, of course, pushed the hand of whoever was touching him, but they persisted. That put a frown on his face. What the h?
⢠"Go away."
⢠He grumbled. The person sighed. (Kinda like the "I'm gonna lose my patience" sigh)
⢠"We have to save Jeff."
⢠That caught his attention. He sprang up.
⢠"How do you know about my da-!?"
⢠He froze. In front of him was his undead uncle. Miles was perplexed. Until, he remembered the previous night. He's in his spider's dimension, uncle Aaron is super alive and this dimensions Miles is tipping on the scale of jerk and you've changed slightly...Crap. Realizing he just shouted at his dad's brother, he sinks back into the blanket.
⢠"I'm sorry."
⢠The young hero mumbled. Uncle Aaron chuckled in his throat. It's rare when he sees his nephew being polite. Let alone timid. But, there's still stuff to do. He can ponder the differences later.
⢠"It's cool, come on."
⢠"We got work to do."
⢠That caught the anomaly's attention. He let the blanket fall back on his lap.
⢠"Work to do?"
⢠Wait, wasn't the plan gonna be relayed when everyone was present? Matter of fact, it's still dark out. ...What time is it!?
⢠"You'll see when we get there."
⢠His uncle replied, while tossing him a jacket.
⢠"We leave in fifteen."
⢠Miles sat quietly in the car while the ex Prowler grabbed some things from his apartment. Once again, this felt crazy. His uncle Aaron had a purple convertible, this one has a truck.
⢠(Which is still purple...seriously how did he NEVER know his uncle was the prowler? They're so many signs.)
⢠He's also...jaded. He's not mean or anything. Just quiet and pretty short with answers...but, that's okay. Miles can tell from all his greys that life's been tough...probably a lot tougher than his life. The driver door opened, making the him jump.
⢠Of course, it was just uncle Aaron. He hopped in the driver's seat.
⢠"Ready?"
⢠Still frazzled, Miles nodded.
⢠The drive was...quiet. Well, sorta. There was music on, but zero talking. Oddly though, it was nostalgic. Reminded him those drives when his Uncle and his dad fought before Miles stayed over. (He never caught the arguments, but he always knew something was up.) Silent with the calm sound of wheels grinding against the pavement. BUT, this silence is getting pretty heavy. He's starting to feel like he's breathing too loud.
⢠Miles cleared his throat.
⢠"So, um..."
⢠His uncle looked over, his gaze making Miles feel super small.
⢠(Is this how uncle Aaron was with other people!?)
⢠"What's up with the prowler thing? With...Miles and all that jazz?"
⢠The truck was filled with heavy silence again.
⢠"Ask a different question."
⢠Uncle Aaron replied, flatly. 1610 Miles swallowed hard. Okay...that was a touchy subject.
⢠"Sooo, the truck,"
⢠"It's purple and black. Where'd...you get it painted?"
⢠The uncle chuckled. So, the boy chooses the car instead? Must've stood out to 'im.
⢠"A friend of mine did it."
⢠"I had to pay her still but it was half off so..."
⢠Miles nodded. That's...kinda interesting. More questions could be asked but...nah. His heart resides on paper, not wheels.
⢠"You draw?"
⢠The teen twitched at the question.
⢠"Huh?"
⢠"Do you like to draw? Like my Miles."
⢠Uncle Aaron asked again, this time using a fuller sentence. Miles couldn't stop the smile forming on his face. Finally, a subject he can get behind!
⢠"Yeah, alot."
⢠He replied.
⢠"I use highlighters and pens normally, but recently I've been trying to go digi-tal."
⢠Miles snickered. (He's kinda lying about the digital thing, Ganke only let's him use his tablet twice a week.)
⢠His (kinda) uncle listened quietly as his (kinda) nephew ramble on about his hobby. It's lowkey adorable. His Miles does the same thing. Except, his nephew is strictly pencils and black pens. Like one of those...manga artists? Slowly, the truck came to a stop. Miles looked through the window.
⢠This looks like...
⢠"Alchemex?"
⢠He said outloud.
⢠"You got it."
⢠Uncle Aaron replied getting out of the car. The Spiderman couldn't help but feel a little uneasy. Alchemex...has alot of memories he rather forget about. Suddenly, another glitch hit. The burning and atom decaying lasted only a few minutes, but it felt like a hour. He took a deep breath and climbed out of the truck. Uncle Aaron was waiting at the entrance, analyzing him as usual.
⢠"Sorry, I, um...hit the roof."
⢠Miles nervously snickered. Yeah right. He hasn't felt any roofs or balls since he got this hairstyle. And he's been rocking it since he was 10. His hair absorbs ALL impacts. His kinda uncle didn't reply and pushed open the doors. The teen immediately pulled out a flashlight. The sun is coming up, but it's not showing in Alchemex!
⢠"Don't fall behind."
⢠"Okay."
⢠The two of them slowly ventured through the building. It looked abandoned and destroyed. Like, some beast escaped in here. Wait- There wasn't a Peppy playtime incident here, was it!?
⢠(Get the reference?)
⢠But, now that he looks at all the spray paint...it's just abandoned. And the destruction...is still unknown, but he's sure as hell it wasn't a fuzzy, blue monster with red lips.
⢠"So...Alchemex. Why?"
⢠Pfft! Why'd he ask the question like that? His past uncle remained silent until they got into what looks like the collider room.
⢠(Seriously, who destroyed the place?)
⢠"Back when I still prowled,"
⢠His uncle (randomly) said.
⢠"I picked up a little on how this thing works."
⢠"Maybe the collider can send you back."
⢠Miles gasped. That was a perfect idea! The collider can bring and return people to different dimensions! Why didn't he think about this earlier!? But...what's his dimension?
⢠"This could work, but,"
⢠He looked at all the broken computers and desks.
⢠"How would we get any data to the collider?"
⢠For the first time, Uncle Aaron smiled at him.
⢠"I'll leave that to you two."
⢠'You two'. Who's the other person?
⢠"Anyway, we came here to get the layer of the land."
⢠The ex prowler said, back to business.
⢠"What tools we need. If the colliders still working. And how to send you home in one piece."
⢠Miles snickered.
⢠"I know we need some new computers."
⢠Uncle Aaron shook his head and put his foot on the rail.
⢠"Don't all the kids have computers these days?"
⢠He wasn't wrong there. Ganke has dang near three. His uncle's eyes were on him again.
⢠"You got your little suit on, right?"
⢠Miles nodded. After everything that happened, he wouldn't feel safe without it!
⢠"Good,"
⢠He tied a black rope around his leg and shot a gun attached to it.
⢠(Uncle Aaron's doing this, btw)
⢠"Let's scope the joint."
⢠And he jumped off, swinging around the white room. It's...actually pretty cool to see his uncle in action, when he's not trying to claw his throat out. And even though this isn't his universe or his true uncle. Swinging around with him is a dream come true.
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I'm proud and surprised I'm still doing this series. I'm usually terrible at consistency, but this series has a hold on me𤣠I have an announcement on the 31st, so I hope to see everyone there!
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#spiderman imagine#miles x female reader#miles morales#spiderman across the spiderverse#atsv#miles 42#uncle aaron#part four#this series will not be forgotten#thanks for tuning in#thanks for the support#see you soon#stay cool#spiderman beyond the spiderverse
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TTNBD BLOG: PART TWO
Welcome once again, to the extended authorâs notes! Thatâs kind of how Iâm thinking of these posts. This post covers the details of chapter two of the story, (chapter 3 on ao3 if youâre just looking at the numbers), entitled What a Tangled Web We Weave. So, spoilers if you havenât read that yet.
HISTORICAL ACCURACY
In this weekâs retrospective, Iâd like to talk a little bit about historical accuracy. If youâre anything like me, you like watching and reading a lot of things that take place in past eras. If youâre like me, you hate when something- be it a phrase, an outfit, a hairstyle, or a reference to people/events- is egregiously incorrect to the time period being portrayed. Big anachronisms drive me crazy.
However, thereâs a level of inaccuracy that I donât actually mind- if it helps better the story without taking me too much out of the fantasy, or if it adds something to the setting while not detracting from the believably- Iâll allow it. Basically, what Iâm saying is that, like a lot of other aspects of writing/art, historical accuracy is about finding the right balance. Or, getting as close as you can to the target of perfect. With fanfiction, I think the margin is even wider- I try not to take this medium too overly seriously, especially when Iâm reading and enjoying something someone else has written. Iâm a little tougher on myself, though I hope not too tough.
I like to call what I do âmovie-accurateâ. A lot of my favourite period films have things in them that just arenât correct, but because I love those movies so much, and because the overall vibe is close enough to what I know about history, I let it slide.
For example, in the 2005 film Pride and Prejudice, the hairstyles of the young women, as well as some of their dress styles are quite off from what womenâs fashions were actually like at the time in which the novel/movie was set. The 1995 BBC miniseries adaptation is far, far more faithful in terms of aesthetics. However, the 2005 film is incredibly beloved by a lot of Jane Austen fans, despite its inaccuracies! Because itâs a fucking good movie, which sells the characterization and romances so well that you can sort of excuse the âdumbing downâ of the details. Itâs one of my favourite period films, and films, period.
Obviously there are bad movies that donât even try to be accurate, but when I say âmovie-accurateâ know that Iâm talking about the good ones.
During the course of Though the Night be Dark, Iâll be making a lot of references to/descriptions of outfits and hairstyles, because Iâm pretty sure I was a fashion designer or personal stylist in my past life, but not all of them will be totally accurate to the years 1899/1900. That goes for stuff like technology, too- it wonât ever be over-the-top (i.e. theyâre not gonna have television in the year 1900) but if you notice stuff that seems just a little out of place, know that I felt it was necessary to fudge the numbers, so to speak, in pursuit of the characters, the romance, and the story itself.
This same sort of âmovie-accuracyâ applies to the settings. Iâve never been to Paris or London in my life- Iâm broke and thereâs a whole ocean in between me and Europe. I do my best to research and reference actual places and landmarks, but if you do live in either of those places and what I write seems fantastical or inaccurate, I am sorry, believe me. Please forgive me, and do your best to imagine these as like, imaginary versions of these places.
I donât know why Iâm defending myself- most people probably donât mind, and some probably donât notice things like this. But itâs important to me to be as accurate as I can be within the scope of my ability, and itâs important to me for people to learn about my process if they want to. I digress.
CHAPTER TWO: WHAT A TANGLED WEB WE WEAVE
Sometimes I pick titles because theyâre references to things, and the words/themes of the things in question closely fit the character and the story. For example, To the End of Everything is a lyric from the Adam Lambert song Sleepwalker, which was on my SebaCiel playlist back in 2014 when I was first writing it. It fit the story of the end of Cielâs life, and the end of his contract with Sebastian, and itâs such a nice set of words to say out loud and look at on a screen.
The first chapter of this fic, A Far, Far Better Rest, is a reference to the final line from A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens. Two cities, London and Paris, both of which are the settings for TTNBD. Not a super deep reference, but thereâs a reason for it.
What a Tangled Web We Weave is also a reference to something- part of a famous line from am 1808 poem Marmion: A Tale of Flodden Field by Sir Walter Scott. Itâs set in the time of Henry VIII and tells the romantic and ultimately tragic story of some rich guy and his affair with a woman. The full line is what a tangled we weave/when first we practise to deceive.
I picked this title for three reasons: one, because it has the word web in it, and Claude is a spider demon. Two, because itâs about lies, and lies are the basis for some of the upcoming conflict in this story. And three, and most chief among the reasons: it sounded cool.
What can I say. Sometimes I write/use things are deep and profound, and sometimes I just use things I think are kinda neat. I try, as always, to strike a decent balance.
Alright, letâs break this chapter down.
We started off with a remix of a scene from the second season of the Black Butler anime. Itâs a little infamous, to be sure. Iâm speaking of course about the scene where Alois shoves his finger into Hannahâs eye socket! I know that in the original scene he doesnât actually pull out her eyeball, but I wanted to go whole-hog, I think itâs just extra insane and I wanted you to know what kind of Alois Trancy character Iâm playing with here. Heâs an adult here, whereas he was a kid in the anime- I donât know, I just thought the increased level of brutality suited him.
I pulled actual dialogue from the scene and repurposed it, which I love doing and have done many times in my fanfic writing career (side-eye at my Supernatural fics). I wrote it from Claudeâs POV because I love that outsider POV in a scene. I also wanted to establish his thoughts and feelings about Alois right off the bat.
Cards on the table: I havenât watched the second season of the anime in a very long time. I watched the first few episodes some time last year I think??? When I was deciding to write this story, just to get a feel for their characters/relationship again. Iâve seen them portrayed in fanon as everything from a toxic couple to a couple who are more actually in love, like Ciel and Sebastian- I very much donât see that for these two. Their tension is different, and in the context of this story, itâs been years, and that tension is heading towards a boiling point.
What Iâm saying is that Iâm sorry to any real die-hard Alois and/or Claude fans in advance if I do stretch them too far out of the OOC allowance margins⌠but also no Iâm not hehehehehe.
Claude mentions Alois reading penny dreadfuls. Penny dreadfuls were these cheap little serialised fiction zines you could buy for a penny, hence the name. Every volume was like, an 8â16 page chunk of a story. The dreadful part comes from the fact that they were highly sensationalised and sometime salacious stories about murder and highway robbery and pirates and stories of real-life criminals doing heinous murder and such- sometimes sold at public executions! Overall, these things werenât considered Proper English Literature. Which of course meant that they were VERY popular. Mostly in the early to mid 1800s. As far as I know, they started to lose ground in popular culture by the turn of the century, but they existed, I think they were cool, and therefore I can include a reference to them!
Penny dreadfuls werenât really about romance or sex but they were super popular among young people, and the idea of Alois reading trashy romance novels in general is just hilarious to me. And like I said, I just really wanted to reference something so undeniably Victorian.
And yes, for the purposes of this story, he does in fact know that Hannah is a demon. Did he know that in the anime? I think maybe he did, but like I said, itâs been a while, and I donât remember. I could go back and watch it again, but I donât want canon to mess up my fanfiction. Anyway, the fact that Alois knows Hannah is a demon will become relevant and important as the story continues, so I wonât say too much more about it.
Back to Paris- itâs time for more Lizzy content! Thereâs quite a bit of that in this chapter. Originally, this chapter and the next one were originally just supposed to be one chapter, but the whole thing got too long/had a natural breaking point in my mins, so I split it up.
These parts of the story are more difficult to write- they involve the OCs a lot, and thereâs lots of things to establish. Itâs hard to do that without getting to in the weeds or being really clunky, but on the other hand, I canât forget that anything outside of canon references is in my brain and no one elseâs, so I have to make sure to cover the important stuff.
This is my first time writing F/F romance! Thatâs not quite true. Iâve been writing original stories with F/F romances in them for years and years- this is my first time writing an F/F romance that other people are actually going to read. Thankfully, being a lesbian, I have actual experience falling in love with women, so I have lots of real-life stuff to draw from. I didnât realise how much of my own past and current crushes and preferences wormed their way into the Lizzy/Sybil dynamic. Iâve read posts before about how romance/sex scenes are always revealing of the authorâs preferences/feelings/kinks, and I was like ânot me haha I am Unknowableâ but I guess I canât say that anymore oops.
When it comes to labels for fictional characters, I donât like to use them/talk about them unless itâs been explicitly stated in canon. For example, I would never say a canon bisexual character is exclusively gay, that would be bi erasure and we donât do that shit here. This is especially relevant when it comes to time periods where terminology was different, and labels hadnât been invented yet/didnât mean the same things.
Iâm trying to write Lizzy in a way that the reader can interpret any way they want! If you want to read her as bi or as a lesbian, thatâs fine, I have no hard opinion on the subject! I think it makes a lot of sense that sheâs bi, I think that thereâs a case for her being a lesbian whoâs had to deal with some hardcore compulsory heterosexuality.
However, Sybil is my character and therefore I do get to say what she is, and she is a lesbian. Stone cold homosexual. Again, not that it matters, I just like saying it.
Lizzy and Sybilâs romance isnât a full-on slow burn per se, but Iâm really enjoying building it up here brick-by-brick. At this point, she and Lizzy have been friends for a long time and already know each other really well, so the âto loversâ part can kind of come into play early, but Iâm not going to give it all away at once- where would the fun be in that?
Letâs talk about Verity. Madame LaChance if youâre nasty. Verity, of course, means truth, and la chance is French for luck. I kind of wanted her to be straight up called âLady Luckâ but that was a bit TOO hokey, even for me. I wanted there to be an auntie-like side character, and I said to myself, what if there was a character who was like, all the good, lighthearted parts of Grell and Madame Red without any of the âoh btw Iâm insane/also a serial killerâ. I thought itâd be funny if she was sort of a go-between, having friendships with both Sybil & Lizzy as well as Ciel & Sebastian without any of them being aware of it. She became a bigger part of the story than Iâd originally intended- she sort of stole my heart, maybe sheâll steal yours too.
Sheâs a little mysterious, but I can promise you she is a normal human. Sheâs just very⌠unique, I guess you could say. No more spoilers.
Iâm being sort of vague about the club and what itâs called and what it looks like, thereâs a lot more about it in a future chapter, donât worry. Also, Madame refers to Ciel as Monsieur PhĂŠnix and Sebastian as Monsieur Corbeau. Thatâs French for phoenix and raven respectively. Stage names. Code names. C'est très dramatique. (No, I donât actually speak French, beyond some very basic words and phrases.)
I hate to admit it, but I felt woefully out of my element while writing this part and I'm not 100% happy with how it came out I knew I wanted to have some reason to show Sebastian and Ciel going about their day-to-day lives, but I was also struck by the lack of, like, drama or action so far in the story. I fell back on the old adage of âwrite what you knowâ and had the boys not solving crime per se (there will be time for that later) but perhaps avenging somebody. I donât think Ciel will ever give up his vengeful nature, whether its on his own behalf or someone elseâs. And for Sebastian, itâs just bad business, and we canât have that, can we?
There are a whole two paragraphs from Little Women by Louisa May Alcott in this next scene. I donât know if that book is meant to be sad, but it made me terribly melancholy when I read it as a kid. Also, there I go again referencing literature. I pulled the same trick in next weekâs chapter too, which I didnât even realise I was repeating until Iâd already done it. Oops.
â-And nobody saw Beth wipe the tears off the yellow keys, that wouldn't keep in tune, when she was all alone. She sang like a little lark about her work, never was too tired for Marmee and the girls, and day after day said hopefully to herself, "I know I'll get my music some time, if I'm good."
"There are many Bethâs in the world, shy and quiet, sitting in corners till needed, and living for others so cheerfully that no one sees the sacrifices till the little cricket on the hearth stops chirping, and the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes, leaving silence and shadow behind.â
I wanted Lizzy to be reading aloud in this scene and this reference jumped out at me when I was trying to think of books that existed at the time and that characters this age might have access to. Beth of course is short for Elizabeth, and Lizzyâs arc in this story is about her becoming her own person in a lot of ways, or like, realising who she is, and this quote about Beth feeling like sheâs in everyoneâs shadow and only exists to do things for other people seemed really appropriate.
Thereâs a little more insight into Simeon- I drew the photograph described in the scene so you could get an idea of what Simeon looks like. I really like writing Simeon. Heâs such a Good Dad. I mean, heâs bound by his word to be a good dad, but he really loves Sybil so much and wants her to be happy. But thereâs also so much going on beneath the surface. I know most of you have figured out his true nature by now, but I hope that I still have the ability to surprise you in the long run when it comes to him.
Once again, thanks for reading! Comments and questions are always welcome, and Iâll see you all again next week! Special shout-out to vandorttranslations, who is translating this story into Russian as we go! It will never not be amazing to me that someone feels strongly enough about my work to undertake such a task!
-lord_is_it_mine
#lord speaks#kuroshitsuji#fanfiction#black butler#sebaciel#writing#my writing#behind the scenes#ttnbd#tteoe series#ttnbd blog#commentary
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hey, bug! if i'm not bothering you/if you already answered this before, but your favorite characters are Blossom and Mojo, right? i wanna ask: what's your favorite moments of the show that featured them? like, if you had to choose a scene that you liked the most that had them "center-stage", what would you choose?
sorry if i worded this really weirdly; im not too good at asking questions lol. hope this comes off as sorta coherent at the very least, though!
Yes! They're both my faves! And the real answer to what stand-out scene I would choose for each of them is... agh, there are just way too many! I don't know! đ It's so tough to pick just one for them because the reason they're my faves is because of all of those little moments in all of those episodes and books and the movie and special features (etc., etc.) throughout the entire series combined into one big stupid love for them. ...but I'll try to pick at least a few anyway!
For Mojo... it would probably have to just be the entirety of all of The PPG Rule!!! scenes he's in. Itâs not only my favorite episode of all time, but also my favorite Mojo episode. It's silly and goofy, he's silly and goofy... it's great! If I have to pick a moment from a regular episode though (since The PPG Rule!!! is technically a special), it would probably be the one scene where he goes berserk and finally beats the crud out of that Galactus-ish alien from Forced Kin. He proves himself to be super powerful and the evilest of evils... only to realize that he's actually saved the day as the goodest of do-gooders. đ
Itâs tougher for me to think of just one stand-out scene for Blossom. I feel like one of the biggest reasons I love her is the PPG movie, since the time I saw it is around the same time she started to kind of take her place as my fave of the trio. I still really cherish the whole scene on the asteroid where the girls are still reeling from Mojoâs betrayal. While Bubbles and Buttercup are way open about how they feel about the situation, poor Blossomâs the one whoâs going through all of it silently in her mind. And it sucks, and it's so heartbreaking. But itâs such a good scene. Whatâs even better is the scene later when Blossomâs the one to put two and two together and be the first of the girls to start fighting the bad guys with intention, asserting her position as leader. That one freeze frame of her punching one of the monkey's machines with the theme song suddenly playing in the background (and the subsequent EXPLOSIONNNNN!!! behind her) is super badass!
âŚif I have to pick an episode scene though, gosh, there're so many good ones... haha, actually, I donât know why, but the first scene that popped up in my head was her being a goofball and owning her bad haircut in The Mane Event to take down the villain. Blossom takes herself very seriously, so not only does she sometimes become self-conscious about things easily, she often gets herself so down about it. But this particular scene is cute because it shows her deciding to own the thing crippling her ability to be the leader she needs to be... and actually having fun with it (her puns are genuinely adorable, and the way she starts talking like some weird old-timey vaudeville comic cracks me up). A similar moment in the show is in Not So Awesome Blossom which... yes, that's one of the weird S5 episodes, but it's fun and kind of cathartic to see her beat the crap out of Mojo after he's tried to use her shaken confidence to his advantage. She gets her mojo back and gets back at Mojo! My one favorite beating up my other favorite! You love to see it! đ
Again, agh, as I write this I keep thinking about more and more moments that I love, but I'll have to leave it at that for now. Thank you for the ask!
#mojo jojo#blossom#these are tough but fun kinds of asks!#i like these asks!#more asks like this would be great! đ#tl;dr i apparently like to see blossom win despite her perceived failures and mojo fail by winning lmao
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the big question is though would a human and moray breeding together produce an egg or would it be a child in the parents womb?
Damn anon asking hardcore questions. I will try to answer this seriously though. At least, the decision I'll go through with on my blog if a thread/plot ever comes to that.
I think that if a human and moray want children, one of them will have to make adjustments to make things work. Either Jade takes a potion and makes himself fully and biologically human, or the human will have to become a mermaid. I can imagine that in most cases, Jade will be the one who would make that sacrifice since he is already on land for a few years and is already partially or fully over his uncomfortable/adapting phase. It will be a non-issue to simply continue what he's doing bar the fact that he would have to permanently part ways with Azul, Floyd, and his family, which, I think if he does love someone enough, Jade will understand what he's signing up for. Aside from that, it might be silly to say this but Jade's not very calculative when it comes to sacrifices. He is ironically a very lenient and cooperative person about taking a step back so that things can work between his S/O and himself.
But if their goal isn't to have children, they can always just have sex in human form, fish form, etc, but no children will be born from the intercourse due to their incompatible biology. There's more freedom and liberty for both parties if this alternative is picked
However, the real issue with the children route is that when Jade does make himself fully human and they split up after a few years, he will have to stay human forever on top of losing his sole purpose of staying permanently on land (to be with his S/O). That would absolutely suck so he's quite careful about giving/devoting himself to one person especially when they are not a mer.
So in short, they will probably give birth the human way since Jade will be the one to become human in the process, but it can also work the other way around (i.e. the human turns into a mer, and they would then have eggs instead), but personally, I don't think this option will often happen because the Coral Sea life is a lot tougher than life on land. Jade, while used to the Coral Sea life and would have no issue going back home, will have to shoulder the stress of helping his S/O adapt to life in the Coral Sea. While Jade would never complain about the added responsibilities thrown on himself, why pick the much harder path when something much easier is available just right there?
(P.S.: Mun is kind of eh about anything pertaining to pregnancy/birth giving so if it ever happens on this blog they will be vaguely breezed through or skip the pregnancy period and go straight to post children were born. đś)
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