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Holy fucking shit they don’t think Elon did a nazi salute either I’m in hell.
#GET ME OUT OF HERE.#MOTHERFUCKER.#seriously idk what to do anymore#I’m just fucking. idk. I don’t know.#I’m lucky they aren’t super transphobic. they deadname me but at least im not in danger#it’s just.#idk. I love my family but this is genuinely shit.#nebula rambles
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Man so beautiful you can never draw him the exact same way twice
#dorian storm#critical role fanart#chubs art#seriously i change him#every#single#time#I need to make myself a guide at this point idk what to do anymore ksnsls
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atp i genuinely doooon’t care if the old guard two is the worst thing put to film i just want to see the best character of all time (andromache the scythian) and her loser henchmen and everyone’s favorite girl nile freeman again
#its not even funny anymore WHERE IS ANDY AND NORIKO!!!!!!!!!!! it was supposed to be the year of dyke drama 😞😞😞😞😞😞#like given the way they structured the first movie the second would have to be almost wholly original and differ a lot from the comic#like andy cant go thru the shit noriko puts her thru so im guessing the script would switch her out with nile getting tossed in the ocean#but that doesnt really work with norikos comic characterization (trying to get andy to see her point by making her go thru what noriko did#isnt something quynh will gaf about if andy isnt one of the immortals. andys become thr ‘vermin’ noriko hates!!!)#and given the end of the movie everyones chill with copley so joe and nickys whole subplot cant exist anymore…. idk maybe theyll switch out#copley with moose?? idc as long as we get their stupid car conversation tbh makes me laugh#honestly given the changes that would have to be made they probably just made a stupid movie and don’t want to release it. but I DONT CAREEE#its not exactly like the first one was that good i still mute it in preparation for every cringe needle drop like its a lame movie but its#genuineeeeee fun like i seriously do not care netflix give me my movie!!!#the old guard
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Here's some genshin ships that
I. ME PERSONALLY.
headcanon as queerplatonic (cuz i wanna talk just to talk)
1- Pixelshark. One of those ships that's like "a rare straight ship that i like and then it's actually not cuz they're both aroace as hell" kinda ship yk?
2- Kaebedo I know ppl probably wouldn't like this but omg Albedo is so aspec to me it's crazy (also Kaeya is on the ace spectrum out of spite cuz this fandom).
3- Lionfish/Gaminet OMG THEY MAKE ME SOB i don't see them having labels at all sorry not sorry.
4- Kokorou. My og genshin qpps theyre so. Ik they're not that popular but I need more people to know that gorou is literally aroace. Like he is. Play his hangout. He is. Idk abt Kokomi she's just me. So. Lol
Doodles cuz i can't help myself (^-^
#please dont take this too seriously guys#if you read the word headcanon and then get mad at someone elses headcanons being there idk what to do for ya bud#i dont even play genshin anymore lol#genshin impact#genshin hcs#genshin headcanons#queerplatonic#aroace#aromantic#asexual#kaebedo#pixelshark#gaminet#lionfish genshin#genshin gorou#genshin kokomi#kokorou#genshin rarepair
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Sketches i did while waiting for the boarding & older stuff
#not tagging because all of these are just sketches#school is seriously making me want to kms idk what to do anymore#asoiaf#🧩
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Why are vetted accounts sending people stuff like this.
I mean it's clearly copy-pasted and sent to multiple people but this isn't even a donations ask. Imma guess the reason people aren't responding is because you're accusing them of not doing enough for Palestine and sending it to multiple people who you clearly don't check because I've been posting about and for Palestine since oct 7th when I learned about it.
Also yes he is looking for donations, you can check his account and find it. Why are you sending this guilt trippy stuff to people and accusing them of not caring enough? You don't know me? You send these to multiple people so your clearly not checking the account in question. This dose nothing to help you personally or the Palestinian cause, it just pisses people off and makes them question vetters.
#levi speaks#the second i put the daily click for palestine on multiple of my other popular non politcal blogs#i got a bunch of non vetted spam donations asks to the point i had to turn off my inbox#like why are they being sent to my completely empty blog without even a post on it nor a mention of Palestine#like a blog with litterally nothing on it but its pfp header and a tiny bit of type#im not saying they shouldn't reach out to as many people as possible but clearly spam accounts with stolen pictures have started#claiming they are vetted like ones with ai generated supposed irl photographs with so many fuck ups and water marks its not gunny#before you say im trying to claim hes a spam bot im not but seriously#ive gotten child gore like actual guts out child gore sent to my inbox by vetted accounts#like no i cant post your donations ask because it could get my whole account taken down you put gore in it#im native i get the plight but you cant be doing this#dont go harass this guy idk what his deal is and i dont care ive already blocked him#but seriously dont send gore dont send guilt triply stuff dont do any of it its why ive offically decided that no one is exempt anymore#from my no donations posts rule how can i trust vetters when copypaste stuff like this and gore get tossed around#i had one rule#in your ask state who vetter you so i could double check#ive deleted probably over a hundred copypaste donations requests because they couldnt state who vetted them#usually cause no one had even when they got suggested vetters to help#again i wanna be clear idk whose real or not and im not following that stupid conspiracy theory that they are all bots#or its a scam ring i dont believe that#i however absolutely believe that theres a bigger bot problem than people want to admit to#cause unless some of these victims are just copy pasting into thousands of inboxes all day every day#then its probably a bot and not one by a victim because bot campaigns cost astronomical amounts of money#like enough money to help them cross the border 6 times over#and if we follow Occam's razor well they arnt goong to waste thousands of dollars trying to buy bots to get more#they are just gonna feed themselves and escape#or give it to other loved ones who need to feed themselves and escape#or medical expenses but you get the jist they arent buying bots so if it read like a bot its probably not an actual victim#im sadly getting to the point where i only trust organizations#meant to help there
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lowkey one of the most infuriating things i see regularly now is artists on tiktok being interrogated by people accusing them of using ai that have no idea how to actually spot ai art. i keep seeing vids of artists posting timelapses and showing their layers in response to commenters who dont believe them no matter what they do. and im just like . who exactly do they think they’re helping. have artists not fucking suffered enough from the existence of generative ai already. its bad enough that artists work and jobs are getting stolen and the value of creative work is being degraded NOW we also gotta worry abt proving that we’re real and trying to avoid making art that looks like the slop that stole from US in the first place. bye
#idk if im just on a bad algorithm and i see a disproportionate amount of it but. it feels like every time i open tiktok i see this shit#and i have screen time limits on god im NOT on there that much. way too much lately but still its 5 mins at a time#lowkey i want artists to stop feeding these people like. i completely get the need to disprove an accusation#but the indignity of having to prove u made ur art is unbelievable. u guys shouldnt have to be proving urself#these motherfuckers have no idea how to identify ai and they go accusing anyone and everyone like it doesnt matter#like. when i reply to posts w the ‘😑🫵 ai generated’ meme i fucking DIG bc i dont do that if im not absolutely sure#cuz im not gonna accuse a real artist. ive done reverse image searches and searching thru entire portfolios on instagram#i take this shit so seriously and then i go on tiktok and see ppl getting accused over a STYLE. can u guys have a little sense#a little respect a little decency some fucking care abt what ur actually doing to real artists#holy fuck it makes me so mad. everything makes me mad. ive been too online this week cuz ive been too depressed to draw#UGGGHHHHHHHHHHGGHHHH#plus my tiktok isnt fun anymore its all fucking trade war tariff shit. give me spiderman edits and fursuits again FUCK
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It is important to keep in mind when talking about intra community trans issues that. There are 5 of us in total despite it not feeling like it because we find each other. And even if youre a trans ally, you probably do know more trans people than the average joe, for a reason.
We often dont have anyone other than other trans people so discussions on transmisogyny, for example, do become important even under really dire circumstances because not socially isolating people becomes more and more important the more trans rights are stripped away. Especially if youre a young transmasc it becomes pretty important to recognize how your transition is used against trans women, and how different transphobic narratives are used to reinforce each other to cause material harm in the world. Similarly now its pretty important to start learning about other kinds of oppression to know how to protect more vulnerable trans people.
That being said, every discussion on trans issues (from trans people) is bound to be kind of fucked because we are marginalized af and under active threat constantly (whatever it might be) so every trans person has mental health issues and trauma and just general minority stress. And those make people reactive? So i dont personally love every single thing some other trans person says but I also dont have the energy to give a shit about every opinion i think doesnt describe my personal reality. Trans women dont have to be experts in my personal history for me to try not to add insult to injury. Same with fandom stuff, in the middle of everything the small things reflect bigger things.
Internet makes this extra hard because how you navigate the world as a trans person is different depending on your gender but also transition status as well as locality and the medical and legal regime controlling your body. Also. Sometimes it's just luck (or larger trends in the world/society/locality/whateverrr) what your local island of a trans community is like. Just. Benefit of a doubt, please.
#trans issues#idk what tags to use anymore#but honestly just#a lot of trans communities are interest groups instead of friend groups#which also should be kept in mind#dunno i feel seriously sorry for young trans men because while i do think theyre being stupid and harmful#its genuinely hard not to have sympathy and understand where some of the stuff is coming from#also because a lot of posts tagged as transandrophobia do have genuine good points about specific things#the framing is just misguided#ok im actually also really tired of every trans person feeling like they have to be sociologists and medical experts and activists#because the outside pressure demands it#but it means most people arent and are bad at all three#and it should be a trans persons right to be kind of stupid sometimes#but that doesnt mean lets go social murder trans women fr.#that shit is a problem and needs to stop
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molten/molted/molded
also yes i do actually have a flamingo mug thats sorta chipped, and it is a little ugly, here it is :
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its not super chipped, but i was still devastated when i found out
#HI. WILL YOU GUYS LET ME POST PRETENTIOUS POETRY#idk i was just thinking about how im doing a lot better than before and. being sympathetic to the zoned-out escapism i did to survive then#im not that person anymore and feels weird to be in her body? but im glad shes passed away#i dont knowwwww. it feels like im a lizard shedding my skin every year and occasionally ill look at my old molts and be like wow#i used to fit in that thing. i used BE that thing. but now im not#dont take this too seriously i mean its not a vent its just me thinkin about how im doing great and little louie was not HAHAHA#im really proud of this actually i like how the glass effect came out and i like the colors and the poem.... i cooked !!!#this is also practice for lineless/painted art and its not too bad for a beginner#anyways. i like poetry and more ppl should make it casually this is poetry propaganda#uhhh what do i tag this as#poetry#art#artists on tumblr#????? i never know how to tag non-fandom art#anyways thats it :]
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being a comics fan is so exhausting........ why do i do this to myself
#personal#the only one i keep up w anymore is the worlds finest run w mark waid and dan mora#mainly bc it's goofy as fuck like what the hell do you mean we got superbatlantern fusion steven universe style#none of that made any sense. how in the sweet fuck did that work. i'll take 10 more issues thank you#me poking the titans comics........ i just cant take it seriously i just cant 😭😭#idk if that run is even bad. i didnt get more than a page in before i noped out ijgkfhldgjhfj
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#svsss#scum villains self saving system#shang qinghua#how I be feeling these days ahdnfjgkg#I keep stressing about life in general and its seriously bumming me out hajdjg#how nice it would be to not exist#everyday I wake up and do the same things I hate#time hasn't felt real in years and it goes way before covid times#I haven't felt real in most of those years either#Look I'm lucky I'm not like depressed or whatever but frankly this derealization shit is seriously startin to get a little worrying at times#tbf I only really notice it recently so maybe its just a bias#I've been chugging along this way for years all thats changed is my perception of it#but at the same time I really want to do more too#I get I'm a very boring and unreliable person#and I know I just said its my perception of it but like I do genuinely think my social skills my general living just like me mentally ig#I'm kinda deteriorating in my stagnation ig? artistically too but more worrying in my life idbfjg#priorities sorry anyways I also think I do have adhd or something and that rejection thing dhfjgjg I really can't start things anymore#idk I really just feel so clueless in most things now and I'm too scared or too confused or both to start fixing things#like how do I even fix things? what do I even search for in this kind of thing?#Idk I'm just gonna go sleep ig god I'm so tired of everything#I haven't been able to draw I've really lost passion for a lot of things again and everything irritates me#I can't stand my phone sometimes but it's kinda the only thing getting me through it all ha#ngl I wish I were depressed sometimes if only so I'd actually have the balls to do smth but Ik that's just the Metnally Ail part speaking so#chug chug going along#I also have to make wushi before I die. haha#god my life is so empty#what am I even doing#I'm really so tired why can't my life end here already? modern lifespans are too long how am I supposed to keep going on like this?#so pointless and vapid and its just me ? why did it have to be me that was born? couldn't someone else have been here I hate it here so much#I strive for nothing but I have such a long life and so many people to disappoint haha maybe I should go outside more
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Suddenly feeling very dissatisfied with what project: new moon turned out like
Or. Well. I guess I shouldn't say "suddenly" bc I've been feeling a vague dissatisfaction with it for. A while. But only know am I starting to parse out the reasons why I feel that way
With it having been out for a while now, I think back on all the things I could've done or could've executed differently, but didn't think of at the time so I didn't do them
Nox, for example. As a character, he's just kind of a vehicle for the story to happen, a source of torment for Rue, and the reason Sonic's werehog form is brought back. He never got to be much else. He's not very present in the story anyway despite being the main villain, and besides his obsession with Dark Gaia and lack of ethics, he's not really... much of a person
I got really lazy with fleshing him out so his entire character ended up just being evil antagonist. And honestly now I feel his role in Rue's story could've easily been taken by someone like Eggman with only a few changes
Rue's parents could've been way more developed too. They really only exist to make Rue's tragic backstory More Tragic and that's pretty much it. They're even less developed than Nox. Like they're not even characters even by the end of the story
And there's also Specter and Phantom, whom I like and have developed more than those I talked abt above, but I feel like I didn't really show enough of them as individuals. They're just kinda there to be Rue's friends and fight ghosts and not much else
It's like. Idk. I feel like I only really wrote that fic to justify my ocs existing and interacting with Sonic, and justify Sonic's werehog form being brought back even through it wasn't really necessary in the end. It was fun at the time, sure, but that rose-tinted view I had of it has kinda faded. Sometimes I even feel like I kinda rushed it bc I was so desperate to get that story out, since I've been working on these characters and the fic for so long. I was satisfied not bc I felt I made something good, but bc I was finally *done* with it. Now that's biting me in the ass and making me feel like all the work put into it went to waste
Hell now I'm even considering retiring Nox's character entirely (he is like. The biggest part of why I've been feeling crappy abt the fic now that I think of it) and giving Rue another revamp. Tho it feels weird to do it now bc the fic they're part of is out and finished. They are my ocs and I'm allowed to do whatever I want with them, but still
Whatever it is I decide to do, the twins probably won't change much, if at all. Not sure abt Sonic's redesign, I don't really wanna change it but I might have to recontextualize why he looks the way he does in this au
Idk what to do with the story yet, if I wanna rewrite it or not and just have my ocs existing in an au where Sonic never lost his werehog form instead. Really undecided abt all of this stuff rn. I definitely won't be deleting the project: new moon blog or anything tho, just won't be posting there anymore probably
Idk if this post makes any sense of if anyone actually cares but whatever I just need to get this off my chest
#ramblings#neg#i have been feeling. all over the place recently#especially when it comes to my fan projects. like on one hand i'm having a blast talking abt corrupted au#but on the other i'm feeling like shit abt project: new moon#and it sucks and i hate it i wish I could just be happy with the things i make#there's also the original projects that i just. never do shit with and have seriously been considering letting them go#and not touching them ever again bc i feel like nothing will come out of them and they're not worth it. that too#i don't know man. idk what to do or think anymore#will i be happier if i kill my darlings or will i just never be satisfied with anything i make ever#no matter how long it takes or how much work i put in#do i even love these things as much as i think i do#idk. idk idk and i'm tired#i don't think i even wanna do that comic i said I was working on. i have thumbnails and everything but now it just doesn't feel worth it#maybe i just need to sleep. it's late#i keep saying to not trust your feelings after 9pm but i sure do find myself trusting them a lot#man i wish i was normal
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thinking about knights on the clock
#THINKING ABT. THEE KNIGHT#im seriously considering inquiring abt becoming a jouster next year...#they'll train you from the ground up... and yea its Florida but like.......#i think travelling around doing ren fests all year + otherwise being around horses and shit would fix my mental health#the only PROBLEM. is fucking. MEDICAL AND STUDENT LOAN DEBT#idk what the pay is like and im gonna be so real w/ you guys i do need a stable paycheck rn#not to mention the fact that if i DID like. get hired by them. then thats critical exposure to Thee Knight#who i am quite literally giggling and kicking my feet abt right now#hes so fucking gorgeous im insane about him hes like quantifiably Just Some Guy but hes MY Just Some Guy#he doesnt have a hole in his chainmail skirt anymore... sad day for me. a faggot#the newly darkened armor does look REALLYYYY good tho and i do love the scale on him#SOZ EVERYONE. IM ILL
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okay don giovanni review from last night. under the cut bc it's me. tldr the vocal performances were great, leporello carried the show, one of the most insane productions i've seen thus far but somehow in a new bizarre direction from normal. good snacks.
first of all i don't care how much wine you offer i think it's kind of ridiculous to charge $165 for a base ticket price for a performance that 1. isn't even in a concert hall or theater 2. is a concert performance rather than a staged performance (which was not advertised ahead of time) and 3. was not even a full production because they made the absolutely mind boggling decision to cut 100% of the recitative and replace it with Some Guy sitting on the stage narrating the plot between every 1-3 numbers
i did not pay that much gd bless. the student ticket was way cheaper.
the narration wasn't even good it was weirdly ungenerous to the women (like how do you even make elvira out be a "women, amirite" thing and also vaguely imply anna was into it in a production with zero acting? well they figured something out) and i don't think it even explained well enough what happens between each number to truly give a first time watcher a good idea of what's actually going on. not to mention that it absolutely kills any sense of momentum in the plot and makes the entire show drag like hell, because you have to wait between every single aria for either Some Guy to talk at you for three minutes straight, or wait awkwardly while people onstage walk off and people offstage walk on. it was so painfully clunky
they had a piano up there but since there was no recit it's not like she was accompanying much of anything. in practice what it ended up being used for was 1. the mandolin part for deh vieni (acceptable in the absence of a mandolin player; they were working with a limited chamber ensemble of musicians so i get it) 2. the party music at the end of act i (egregious fault imo because it absolutely kills the vibe of the scene and completely obfuscates the way the music is supposed to be adding to the tension and chaos with its different instrumental groups playing in different meters)
and 3. used to give singers their notes when the vocal line of their arias start on beat 1 measure 1, which they otherwise would have been able to get from the preceding recits (which is imo painfully amateurish for an ostensibly professional production)
all the numbers in act i were there although the narration was so bad i got jumpscared by fin ch'han dal vino because i forgot it was supposed to be there and thought we had skipped over that point in the plot. act ii had some really bizarre additional cuts made, notably they just entirely skipped over meta di voi and vedrai carino. it was like masetto and zerlina fuck off for the entirety of act ii save for, like, mille torbidi (they VERY briefly mentioned masetto getting beat up in the narration and i don't think they mentioned vedrai carino at all, they just skipped straight from deh vieni to sola sola. and also there was a painful awkward pause before deh vieni because i think the pianist forgot she was supposed to play there and the narrator jumped ahead to the next chunk of plot explanation too early). kept both dalla and tesoro (i'm fine with this ottavio was quite good though could've used a bit of ornamentation imo), kept mi tradi, kept non mi dir (more on that in a bit). no per queste which is probably a good thing not only for the show itself but also my head would have absolutely and irreversibly exploded if they had, probably
the whole thing kind of felt underrehearsed. like a quarter of the time it seemed like people didn't know what they were doing or had to be reminded where to be at that point in the show. and there were a few moments throughout where the orchestra struggled to keep up with the singers, but i really don't think they had much time to rehearse together, honestly.
and then, to my utter shock, the finale was actually really good?? like. insane compared to the rest of the show thus far. though it helps that 1. i absolutely love the harmonieband arrangements of cosa rara/i litiganti/non piu andrai, after possibly the draggiest non mi dir i've yet experienced it was like a breath of fresh air to hear that (and non mi dir was actually well performed i liked this anna but considering how much the Entire Show was dragging, the fact that they cut meta di voi and vedrai carino, AND the fact that they promised this act would be short, it felt crazy to me to keep it at that point.)
2. leporello and the don were by far the best performers of the night. so much so that i sought them out during the post show reception to tell them how great they were and enjoyed their performance. which i usually do not do, but in this like, high school recital ass production value. unbelievable relief that the final scene is dominated by the two actors in the show who most remembered that they can, and in fact Should, be acting. so much more movement and physicality and expression from those two compared to most everyone else. leporello especially, his actor apparently specializes in comedic bass roles and it shows, he was the standout all night
and 3. for the first time in the entire production they made an interesting decision regarding the physical space and staging! they had the commendatore sing from up on a balcony overlooking the audience in the foyer. the bar admittedly was set very low in the previous act and a half but the finale reminded me that i actually like this show again which is appreciated
though they then threw another curveball at me by Cutting the sextet at the end. which like didn't even piss me off at that point i was just baffled. like the don sinks down in agony and leporello sinks down whimpering in fear and the orchestra cuts off. and i'm expecting an awkward pause while they quietly get up and shuffle off so the rest of the cast can come back but nope. big orange title slate appears on the big screen behind them and the audience breaks into a roaring applause and the announcement of the wine and dessert reception. felt like i was in a fever dream
i will say the desserts were very nearly almost worth the bullshit that was the preceding show. they were so good. thank you austria for your dedication to pastry. and because i don't drink and couldn't appreciate the free wine offered i had to indulge in my own manner. spread contained chocolate oat bites (tasted as much like espresso powder as chocolate and coated in coconut, 4/10), almond sponge cake (classic, 7/10), cardamom apple bread pudding with caramel cream (not enough cardamom but otherwise very tasty and autumnal, 8.5/10) and honey cake (11/10. i don't know how they made this so good. i want more right now so much). i take both my mozart opera and my desserts very seriously.
anyway overall the production was. i would say frustrating. the singing quality was Really Good (leporello was the clear standout, probably followed by the don though i prefer my dons with a lighter voice but technically he was very good, then probably ottavio, then maybe masetto or anna. the commendatore was great but he's in it so little it's hard to compare)
i just wish they could have, like, actually done a full production. it would have been so great if they had gotten to tell the actual story and had been fully allowed to act. when there Was acting were the best moments of the show, and it's really unsurprising that most of that came from leporello, the absolute legend.
#no one respects a galant recit anymore. smh#sasha speaks#sasha reviews#don giovanni#opera tag#Really weird production. seemed designed to piss me off specifically in many aspects#frustrating in others because it DID have a lot of (mostly and regrettably squandered) promise that shone through in moments#but the singing was good. when there Was acting that was good. the desserts were good. the narration was dogshit i hate that so much#could not have fathomed producing a performance with a narrator replacing a recit#ZERO clue how they plan on applying that model to fanciulla later in the season.#if they do at all but it seems like a Thing for this company maybe? idk#don't know if i'll go see their carmen next spring. maybe it depends on my schedule#i think carmen might suffer a little less from the narration treatment comparatively since it can already be done with dialogue#as opposed to recit#idek how you'd do a puccini like that though. unless you just completely disregard narrative flow and comprehension#which honestly maybe they do. at least the flow part. including narration feels like they WANT comprehension (even if they do it poorly)#but don't seem to care about the flow considering how it butchered one of the best operas in the repertoire so far.#seriously if you just do what's written on the page for dg you have a slam dunk. and they deliberately chose not to. baffling#anyway carmen is at the french embassy next spring so maybe i just go to practice my french.#and see if they compete with austria for their refreshment spread.#and yes i realize now that part of the high ticket price is meant to cover the wine and desserts but i still think it's kind of ridiculous#okay done now bye.
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My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes
#the fear tho lmao#what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue#this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone?#in an existential spiral at the moment#but honestly why do they always ask for my number#like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me#but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it#and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young#young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it#maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain#anyone younger than that#but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore#but I just needed to talk about this somewhere#because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to#customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it#idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it#anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow#and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by
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Just a thing for anyone who might wonder why I drop off the face of the earth this week (idk if anyone will actually notice I just wanna say this in case there is someone)
Because of the KOSA bill and the stuff happening with it this week, I will not be accessing Tumblr until next weekend when I can get to it on my computer through guest mode just in case
So I have not died or anything, I'm just being cautious because god damn that bill is insane and stupid
(there is a chance I'll pop up before then if I have time to access it like that but it's unlikely and would be very often or for long)
#Seriously tho#If anyone can do anything to try and prevent this bill please do#Ok it's hard cos it's happening like tomorrow but y'all#This website is my lifeline and if I cant access it anymore idk what I'll do#Especially if my parents find out I'm on it#That would just make it so much worse#So please y'all#KOSA#Fuck KOSA#Stop KOSA#kids online safety act#stop kids online safety act
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