#seriously i am treasuring this ask forever

[lecsainz]

my brother's friend

pairings: max verstappen x leclerc!reader

summary: the one where you're charles' sister and dating one of his friends, max.

authors note: I absolutely love writing smau!! sometimes I want to include all the ideas I have, but I'm afraid it will end up being tooooo longgggg

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yn_leclerc

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yn_leclerc a little photo dump from this week, and let's pretend that I didn't spend this entire weekend with max away from the ferrari paddock 🤭

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maxverstappen1 blue looks good on you 😍

yn_leclerc I know! 😘

lestappen these photos are the ultimate boyfriend material

redbullwins the best couple on the grid

arthur_leclerc traitor 😔

yn_leclerc who? arthur_leclerc you! yn_leclerc no, who asked you?

charles_leclerc what shirt is that, y/n?? it's horrifying, my eyes are bleeding

yn_leclerc your problem, not mine. 🫶

lorenzotl but to grab some food, you were there in the ferrari paddock

yn_leclerc lorenzo! shhhhhh lorenzotl I'm just stating the truth yn_leclerc red bull doesn't have italian food 😭 what could I do? arthur_leclerc spend the weekend with us

leclercmoves I'm loving this

riccnorris HER WEARING A RED BULL SHIRT

yn_leclerc

yn_leclerc always a ferrari girl, and no, my brothers didn't force me to post this 😁

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lercsainz xavi out!

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arthur_leclerc why isn't there a picture of me too?

yn_leclerc cause you're annoying arthur_leclerc seriously?! just yesterday you said I was your favorite sibling charles_leclerc everyone knows it's me! yn_leclerc actually, it's enzo

maxverstappen1 I missed seeing you in my motorhome

yn_leclerc christian said I'm not allowed in there wearing ferrari clothes, love maxverstappen1 oh he did? I think I'm going to have a little chat with the red bull team

sebredbull max activating the madmax mode

cl16 I miss seeing y/n in ferrari clothing

redbullracing am I the only one who thinks that the red bull blue is her color?

scuderiaferrari no way! the ferrari red is so much better landonorris I think orange is her color yn_leclerc never lando! you forced me to wear that hoodie and I looked so ugly danielricciardo I remember max almost having a heart attack seeing her in that hoodie pierregasly I thought lando would die that day 😅

yn_leclerc added to their story

maxverstappen1

maxverstappen1 look in my eyes, they will tell you the truth the girl in my story has always been you

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yn_leclerc I love you so much 🤍

maxverstappen1 I love you too, mijn schat (my treasure)

yn_leclerc

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yn_leclerc life has been full of surprises lately and I couldn't be happier to announce that I said YES to forever with the love of my life! couldn't imagine my life without this incredible man by my side. love you, max! and that's not all... we have an extra little passenger on board! baby leclerc-verstappen coming soon! the joy and excitement we feel right now is indescribable we can't wait to welcome our little one into the world and create beautiful memories together as a family

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maxverstappen1 I couldn't be more grateful and excited for this next chapter of our lives. y/n, you've made me the happiest man on earth. thank you for choosing me to be your partner in this incredible journey. I love you endlessly, schatje (sweetheart)

charles_leclerc wow, can't believe you're becoming a mom, y/n. you've always been my little sister! it's a beautiful journey you and max are on. wishing you all the love and happiness in this new chapter. I'm here to support you always! ❤️

arthur_leclerc congrats on the engagement and baby news, though! can't wait to become the coolest uncle ever. love you

charles_leclerc let's face it, I'm going to be the best uncle yn_leclerc I think enzo beats you guys lorenzotl I think so too charles_leclerc you think nothing. arthur_leclerc I'm going to be the best uncle, end of story yn_leclerc if you say so 🤭 arthur_leclerc Y/N! yn_leclerc I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING

lorenzotl congratulations, y/n and max! so happy for you both and excited to be an uncle. sending all the love and happiness your way

leclerc_pascale oh mon petit chou, je suis tellement fière de toi et de ta belle vie! congratulations on your engagement and the upcoming arrival of our little baby! you've truly found your happily ever after, and I couldn't be happier for you. sending all my love and blessings to you, max and our precious leclerc-verstappen baby. love, your adoring maman 💕(my little cabbage, I'm so proud of you and your beautiful life!)

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maxverstappen1 words can't express the love and joy we feel as we hold our little one in our arms, from the moment we found out we were expecting the anticipation and excitement have been off the charts. now, seeing this tiny human who carries both our love and our dreams, it's a feeling like no other ❤️ to my beautiful fiancée, y/n, you continue to amaze me with your grace and resilience. seeing you bring our little racer into this world has filled my heart with an indescribable joy. I am beyond grateful for the incredible woman you are and I can't wait to continue this incredible journey together as a family

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yn_leclerc you've stolen my heart all over again with this heartfelt message, max. our little one is a true blessing, a beautiful reflection of our love and dreams. I'm endlessly grateful to be by your side, witnessing the incredible love and joy you bring as a father. I am so incredibly blessed to have you by my side on this beautiful journey ❤️

charles_leclerc I'm so happy for you both, and I can't wait for the day when the little one is old enough to choose ferrari as their favorite team!

maxverstappen1 definitely not! the baby will be rooting for redbull! charles_leclerc we'll see about that! 👀

alex_albon I think we all know who the obvious choice for the godfather is... me! I mean, have you seen my skills with the little ones? 😁

danielricciardo oh, come on, albon! we need someone with real charisma and charm to be the godfather. that's where I step in, mate. I'll bring the laughs, the smiles, and the epic shoey celebrations! carlossainz55 hold up! I'm the perfect candidate for the godfather gig. think about it - I'll bring the spanish flair, the fiestas, and the best paella you've ever tasted landonorris sorry guys, but it's clear that I'm the most qualified for this role. I'll be the cool, fun-loving godfather who introduces the kid to the world of gaming, memes, and, of course, helmet design maxverstappen1 alright, alright, boys. I hate to break it to you, but we've already made our decision, and none of you made the cut carlossainz55 WHAT?? danielricciardo we were friends, max and y/n 😭 landonorris who is better than me??? alex_albon I feel betrayed

verstlercs I'M SCREAMING, CRYING, AND FREAKING OUT

f1number1 leclerc-verstappen family, something nobody saw coming

scuderiaferrari oh, we all know this little one is destined to be a future ferrari driver! welcome to the scuderia, baby leclerc-verstappen!

redbullracing this little racer is definitely going to join the red bull family and experience the thrill of flying on the track! get ready for some high-speed action! scuderiaferrari dream on, red bull! our legacy and history speak for themselves. this baby will be rocking the prancing horse on their chest, just like their talented uncles! redbullracing talent? speed? innovation? that's what red bull stands for! This little champion will be tearing up the circuits in our car, guaranteed! charles_leclerc can I place my bet? I say the baby will race for ferrari, just like their dear old uncle charles! maxverstappen1 sorry, bro! the baby will follow in their old man's footsteps and race for red bull. it's in their blood!

[sarucane]

Do we just keep telling the same story forever? Meta on OFMD S1E7 "This is Happening"

In this S1E7, two characters--Ed and Jim--have to answer a simple question: Am I ready to tell a diferent story?

At the start of the episode, Ed's framing his time on Stede's ship as "sitting idle." He's thinking about preparing for the next adventure, whatever that may be--the next chapter in a story he knows and understands. Because there are rules. A ship has only one captain.

When Stede tries to prove that Ed can tell the next chapter in that story without leaving the Revenge, Ed is pretty unapologetic in his disdain. But he does come along, even while moaning and complaining.

And Stede's just trying to tell the same story, too. What he imagines a pirate's tale is supposed to be, not what it actually is. He doesn't recognize the difference between nonsense and truth, he's so caught up in "entertaining" Ed that he doesn't realize he needs to feed Ed.

But in fairness to Stede, Ed has a poor grip on what he really wants as well. When he fantasizes as he flirts with Stede, he's not imagining a swashbuckling adventure. He's imagining opening a restaurant. He's half in his old life, and half out.

Lucius, the unemotional observer, figures all this out of course.

He sees that Ed is absolutely very receptive to Stede, and that Stede is crazy about Ed. But Ed is caught up in who he's been, without seriously considering how to move forward in this story he's in now. So Lucius confronts Ed. He points out that Ed's story as it is going now ends one way: pain and loneliness. And he asks if Ed wants that.

Stede didn't want Ed to leave, so he told a story about treasure hunting. And Ed doesn't want to leave and be alone again, so he tells the story too. And by telling that story together, Ed and Stede find their way to the same place: beginning a new chapter. Imagining a life they can live together, without devaluing or overwriting anything that came before.

It sounds nice, although it's shallow (Ed's not going to be happy as a pirate, Stede is bad at telling this pirate's story and he'll never be a successful traditional pirate). But it's still a hopeful story, because they're still moving forward. Right on the edge of telling a different story.

And resolving in the opposite direction is Jim's plot. Jim's story is relentlessly upbeat and funny in this ep, but it's a tragedy through and through. Jim, like Ed, is half in their old life and half out. Has been with Olu for more than a year, without actually doing anything, while keeping him at a distance.

And it turns out they were "raised by a nun to be a killing machine." That Nana projected all her own trauma and righteousness onto Jim, and passed cruel judgement when Jim says that they already killed "the only one that matters." When Jim suggests that they might have moved on, and be ready to tell another story.

Jim regresses in this episode. They let Olu walk away instead of telling a new story with him, one where he's their family. They take the petrified orange as a sign that they should go back to being who Nana told them they were, to being obsessed with revenge. But really, it's more like a warning of what they'll become if they cling to the same old story.

It's sad. And it's a painful foreshadowing of what awaits Ed and Stede when they falter on the path forward, when they think their past defines their future. When they tell someone else's story, instead of their own.

[nonotternine]

a love letter from the Narrator to the reader

(Okay I’m posting it. It’s kind of long so I’ll put it under the cut, with a brief tag list at the end)

My dearest Reader, 

You truly are the pinnacle of beauty. Every day I look at you and ask the stars how they could have made something more divine than themselves, and every night I ponder what I have done to deserve you and what I must do to keep you. You are more than my muse, you are my love itself, my hope, and my heart. Without you, this world would be nothing. My stories ached for you before I found you. As exquisite as they are, they almost wane in comparison to your magnificence. 

How fortunate I am to have met you. I couldn’t bear to live in this world without you. You have shown me love and kindness beyond measure. You have blessed me with passion and prosperity for years to come. The bond we forged as narrator and reader strengthened me. Our connection is my greatest treasure. I know our fates are forever joined. 

And yet, as I write this letter, I gaze upon the poems you have never read. I yearn for you, dear Reader. You have given me insurmountable joy and left me with an aching want. Even when we’re together, I pine for you. I crave for the touch of your lips and my name spoken from your tongue in the same manner I speak yours. You hand me a mug of tea and I become drunk on the passing touch of your fingers against mine. We sit only inches apart and yet the space between us is so vast, to my heart we may as well be on opposite sides of the universe. When you are with me, I couldn’t feel farther away. 

It is only in my dreams that we are truly together. For in my dreams, you share the same feelings as I. We dance under the moonlight and I tell you I will love you as long as the stars burn in the sky. It is in my dreams that you fall asleep to me running my fingers through your hair, whispering the sweet story of our freedom. Our happily ever after. 

I wake up knowing that these dreams are wishes. They are unfulfilled longings made only real by my writing. And so I write our stories, these saccharine tales in which you hold your hands in mine and kiss me softly underneath the stars of a universe that has not kept us apart. You tell me that we are together, and we always will be. You promise me that you will never leave. You say you love me, in the same manner of the word as I, you. 

It is transient, but for a moment, I believe you. I lift my pen from the paper and I am once again faced with the reality that you have promised me no such love. There is only one thin apartment wall and a universe between us. 

Perhaps one day, I will tell you this. Perhaps then you will love me in the nature I so covet. Until then, I suppose all I can do is yearn. 

Yours sincerely, 

The Narrator

OKAY WHEW IM ACTUALLY POSTING THIS!!!

Everyone please a big thank you to my beta reader, @vellichorom for being my beta reader and giving me the courage to actually post this. They made this process so much easier and seriously relieved a lot of my anxiety.

I would also like to thank @give-soup-please for offering to beta as well! Part of the reason I’ve decided to just go ahead and post this is because I want to do it before I chicken out. Any advice or critique you may have for me is seriously appreciated!! I love your work and I take so much inspiration from you so thank you so much!!

And lastly I’d like to thank @continentalblue​ for posting about tspud and effectively getting me into it. This letter is only a very small piece of what I’ve written, but something about the Narrator has me writing like crazy, which is a wonderful feeling.

[osarina]

you're gonna get me gushing over you for a second, so STICK WITH ME.

badlands made me go through the five stages of grief and i'm scared to even move onto unreal unearth. like, i KNOW i'm gonna cry, and i'm not emotionally prepared for it.

but in all seriousness, badlands (and waterloo as a whole) is so phenomenal; it's like, becoming my new roman empire. i don't know if i have ever been so in love with dazai before, but if i wasn't already, it completely sold me.

the attention to detail, the dialogue, the characterization was so fantastic. like, when i wasn't gaping at the plot details, i was fangirling over your writing style, because it was legitimately so perfect. like, please LEND ME some of your characterization prowess. (and i'm obsessed with the dialogue as someone who is terrible at writing it).

phenomenal. 10/10. added to the list of works i wish i could read for the first-time all over again.

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muse when i tell you ive read ur ask like 40 times and each time never fails to make me weep ilysm my heart feels so big & warm rn it makes me so happy that u enjoyed it waterloo is genuinely my baby and i always get so nervous posting each part like i kid u not sit here having to hype myself up to post them HAHAH it’s a little embarassing but this fic - more than any other i’ve written - rlly feels so much like sharing a part of myself with u guys so it literally makes me weep when i hear that you enjoyed it

AND ACTUALLY ITS SO FUNNY U MENTION DIALOGUE BECAUSE I ACTUALLY AM SO INSECURE ABOUT MY DIALOGUE HAHHHAHH LIKE i literally sit here having a conversation w myself sometimes & im like “would someone RLLY say that” or “is this RLLY a natural flow of convo it seems so forced” and i double guess and rephrase it like 40 times LOLLL like i kid u not sometimes i speak the dialogue out loud acting out the part trying to figure out if its actually natural or not HAHAHH

but muse i adore you so much truly thank you so much 🥹 i am literally going to treasure ur ask forever

[eroseas]

ellie williams angst drabble

pairing: ellie/reader or ellie/you

cw: cursing, angsty, misunderstandings, yelling.

an: listen i am a very sad individual and i just need u to understand that before we move on.

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It's fucking stupid, and you know it. There's really nothing else to it. You knew what you were getting yourself into. Dina and Ellie had that weird on-again off-again relationship, and at first, that turned you way off. It turned you so off you wouldn't even hang out with Ellie alone. This infatuation is a sickness; you'd succumb to it so long ago that it's started to actually feel good. That ache in your shoulders, the dread in your ribs. It's a painful reminder. You are alone. Alone, again.

When you two first started hanging out, it was innocent. A music recommendation, then a song or two, then an album, then the whole fucking discography. What else were you supposed to do? She actually seemed to like you. The hand on your shoulder, that look of support, those soft eyes staring deep into your being. It all added up to something that you longed for. To a friendship, maybe a kind of love you knew only Tommy and Maria had. The lucky ones, you'd call them. The ones who found a love in this life and treasured it so deeply, with every cell in their body. The ones who had found their person, their purpose.

What a joke.

Coming over before dinner turned into coming over for dinner. Then after dinner. Then the whole night. It seemed simple enough; you'd hang out, talk about this life you two live, and you'd laugh. You'd smile. It was such a nice change of pace that you almost forgot: nothing lasts forever.

You can't remember who leaned in first. You can't remember if it was you who broke your own heart; doing the one thing you'd swore not to. You swore you wouldn't get your hopes up. But her lips, and her touch, and her voice just— it just did things to you. You couldn't control that, no matter how much you tried. You think, distantly, that this was supposed to happen. That you were supposed to kiss her, and you were supposed to let her kiss you back. It was a Friday, and your infatuation had turned into something more. If you remember anything, it was that.

"Fuck," Ellie mutters, her face pushed into your neck, her lips brushing against your throat. You shudder, one of her hands gripping your hips and the other on your ass. Her hips knock into your own, and you moan involuntarily, feeling her strap-on against your thigh. You can barely register the concept; the notion that she came here thinking about it, about you, pretty and wet on her dick.

She bites suddenly, a gentle thing, but you grip her arm, tugging, a quiet plea. She sinks her teeth into your flesh, just a tad bit harder, and you hum, content. She sucks a hickey while she's there, and it makes you dizzy; the thought of being marked by her, the thought that you're hers, even for a fleeting moment, you want to believe it. You pray for it to be true, you'll do anything to prove it. She's pushing your shirt up before you can even blink, and she does the same, too.

It makes your mouth fill with sand once you finally notice it. The hickeys on her chest, near her collarbone. From Dina, no doubt. They're fading, though, turning yellow as if they're a couple weeks old. It makes sense; Ellie had told you a couple days ago that they stopped seeing each other again, and while you wanted to believe the finality in her tone, the way she seemed so determined to make it true, you just— couldn't. It was the same story, every time. You're very still, now, still enough that Ellie falters. She tries to catch your eye, and it takes you out of your trance. You manage a tight-lipped smile, but she looks at you in disbelief.

"Seriously?" She asks, her tone sharper than you'd anticipated and you freeze. Your eyebrows furrow, and you stare back.

"What?"

She chuckles, a dry, mean sound. Nothing's funny. You're not sure why she's chuckling like that, can barely comprehend that she's putting her shirt back on. You cover your chest, ice cold humiliation washing down your spine.

"You know, I really thought you understood me," she says, her voice louder than before, "That you saw me for who I am, that you— I don't know, fucking saw how in love I am with you."

You stare. Nothing more you could do than stare. In love? Are you kidding? You shake your head, memories coming back to you like fucking flies in the summer. Ellie and the songs she'd play on the guitar for you, Ellie and the flowers she had planted with you in your backyard, Ellie and the sweets she'd save for you. You scoff, because yeah, she did all those things, with her fucking tongue shoved down Dina's throat.

"Fuck you, Ellie," you spit, tears welling up in your eyes, and she halts her movements, looking over at you, "You have no idea what being in love even fucking means."

She scoffs, her eyes like swords. But you don't give her a chance to interrupt— no, of course not. This isn't about her and what she did. This is about you, and what you didn't do, because you knew it wouldn't work out.

"Being in love means watching that person— the person you love so much it makes you ache— you watch them fuck other girls without a second thought," you stand, snatching your shirt from the couch and tugging it on quickly, "You watch and you support them and you fucking—"

You cut yourself off, the look on Ellie's face too sad for you to bear, and you shake your head. Tears slip down your face. You don't bother wiping them.

"I thought the world of you," you say, quiet, like a secret, "I've loved you for far too long. I saw you with Dina, and you know what I always wondered this whole time?" You ask, pausing for Ellie to say anything, do anything. She shakes her head, shame clouding her green eyes.

"I wondered how fucking stupid Dina had to be to let you go," you admit, stepping closer just to shove at her shoulder. She barely budges, but takes a step back anyway, her head hanging. You cry, maybe for the first time in a while, but you just don't care to remember.

"I watched you, and I waited, and I didn't do anything, no," you say, pushing her back more til her back hits the door, "But that's only because I saw you happy, and loved, and maybe I love you more, but I let you be."

You sigh, shaky, and Ellie looks up at you, regret written on her pretty face.

"But it's your turn, Ellie." You murmur, the ache and the dread and the pain weighing you down. Her eyebrows furrow, and she starts shaking her head, a protest on her lips.

"You need to leave me be now. 'Cause I'm not fuckin' doing this."

"Baby—" She starts, her voice laced in pain, and you shake your head.

"Get the fuck out, please," you say softly, defeated. It takes a while, but she does, eventually. She leaves, and you stand there, with that dread in your ribs, the ache in your shoulders, and now, a sharpness in your heart.

You're alone. Again.

[startanewdream]

Couldn't finish this in time for @hinnyfest but let's hope still counts. A sequel to #1 First I love you, for prompt #10 " I am so lucky to be able to live this life with you".

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The days of the Summer slip by quietly, each sunset moving then closer to a train ride that will drive them apart. If once Harry counted down the days to September 1st, crossing the days diligently on the calendar, now every time he looks at the date there is a twist inside him, something unpleasant like falling just as you are trying to sleep. It reminds him too much of those days a little over one year ago, when he knew he was about to break up with Ginny.

It is not the same, he tells himself more than once, and so does Ginny when a reporter loudly asks how they will deal now with the months apart. “It is a pause,” she tells him seriously, and Harry nods in agreement. If before he couldn’t see the future, now he can picture it, a dozen scenarios that are bright and colourful. Hopeful.

It is a pause, not an ending.

Harry has learned long ago that dreading something doesn’t make it easier nor slows down time; so he tries not thinking about it. Ginny makes it easy for him; her kisses render time meaningless. They hold hands and walk and discuss plans for the future that edge on illusion and grandness or are boringly, amazingly real; they learn touches and how to read each other's sighs and this is even better than all those memories that Harry treasured in secluded corners of Hogwarts.

"I am so lucky to be able to live this life with you," he says honestly afterwards, as they are laying together in her bed, with Ginny’s head over his chest.

Her breath catches; Ginny raises her head to look at him, eyes sparkling.

"I love you," she whispers, and though it is not the first time she has said it, the words warm him as much as the moment they just shared.

Of course it does; they slept together because they are in love. 

Harry loves her and this time he knows what he needs to say. Love has been around in his life since forever; first his parents, then something ethereal as a magical protection. Love has saved him many times, but when Harry thinks about love as a concept, he thinks of facing death (a blazing look; the feel of her lips over his) and coming back.

"I love you too," he answers, the words leaving his lips as easily as the days of the summer slipping by and just as unstoppable. 

Ginny smiles at him, just a hint of surprise in her eyes, but there is no fanfare, no excitement as this declaration should elate, and suddenly Harry prefers it like this. It’s not explosive; it’s a statement.

"I had never told this to anyone," he admits.

"You had, Harry," she tells him, and though he doesn’t get what she is saying, he accepts her lips and there isn’t any discussion about this. 

(It will be years before he understands it. By then, it will be a summer night and Ginny will be trying to tuck little Lily for the night — tucking her is the easiest part, keeping her there is another altogether. She will make an agreement with her — one story and the lights will be off — and then Lily will ask her: “Mum? How did you know Dad loved you?”

A smile. “He told me.”

“Was it romantic? With flowers?”

A sparkling warm laugh. “No, no. Some people said it loudly, but your dad—he said he was lucky to live his life with me, but what he meant was that he loved me.”)

[beesfairlyland]

Heyy! I just wanna ask you something related to non dualism cus I'm really getting curious ≧﹏≦ 🤍🤍

⚠️tw: mention of suicide, depression and swearing

I've had this thing going on in my head that I wanna share with you. I have a friend of mine that's depressed, and suicidal (yeah actually even I'm tryna help her state of mental health) she always try to make sad or depressing jokes, but 2 days ago she said something that's stuck in my head for a while. She said ‘‘people who get to die are such damn lucky b*stards’’ actually this seems like some sort of thing that our society terms suicide as ‘passing on the pain to the others’ But for me, as someone who's into non dualism finds it interesting.

Like people who die, means they leave the physical realm, are lucky? Like is death inevitable for us pure awarenesses? I think not cus you entirely leave your physical realm once you die. Actually ik there's no start or an end for all of us. Suppose we plan on a reincarnation or something in this reality, and we leave our physical realm (which is an illusion ofc) we can definitely wake up wherever we want to right? So suicidal people intend and plan to reincarnate in a better place? I mean just help me out lol, there's a lot of questions going on in my head.

Sorry for the long ass story lol, if you're not comfortable to answer this it's totally fine! Or if you know, just link some articles or something if you find :)

Have a nice day ☆(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*🤍🤍

Heyaa!!💗

I am soo sorry that your friend is going through this phase....tell her that it's not forever and it's gonna be alright!!

Hmm...your question is quite interesting. Let's jump into that!

(whatever i say it's just my opinion... don't take them as fact)

"like ppl who die, means they leave physical realm are lucky"

Yeah they are kinda lucky as they get rid of the illusionary pain of this illusionary world and then what? They reincarnate again into another seemingly appearing human and go thru the cycle of illusionary life again, die again, born again....and this goes on until they decide to find the actual reason of their illusionary birth.

And that my love, is finding our True selves. The reason we were put on this planet, this game called life was too find who we are. But funny enough, we took this game soo seriously that we forgot the actual purpose of the game. This treasure hunt game was made for THAT to have some fun.

And once you find yourSELF..... that's when you are "lucky". After that you take the game as a game. You enjoy it. You cherish the beautiful moments this character experience. And you become Free from pain.

"like is death inevitable for us pure awareness"

THAT was never born, so THAT can never die.

Infact imo death is inevitable as long as you want it to be. As THAT you decide what you want. You wanna live forever...ofc go ahead!!

"so suicidal people intend and plan to reincarnate in a better place"

Noo!! They just hope that they'll be reincarnated in some less miserable human. But all they do is just make themselves enter in the cycle of illusionary life again.

DO NOT EVER THINK SUICIDE IS THE SOLUTION FOR REALISING SELF..... IT'S JUST GONNA "RESTART" THE "JOURNEY" OF REALISING SELF AGAIN

Once you Realise SELF completely that's when you get to choose which experience you wanna have in next soo called rebirth (if you choose to reborn). Ofc all illusionary.

Hope i made you understand a bit!

And it's totally okayy....you can ask me whatever you want to!!

Hope you have a nice day too!!💗

[theyanderespecialist]

William's Nightguard (Headcanons/Scenario) William Afton X Nightguard Reader

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[Hello My Sexy Muffins, It is the new year. And I hope we all made it through 2022 and that 2023 is even better. Now in this, we are doing William Afton, I hope you all enjoy this chapter!]

(Disclaimer: William is a child unaliver in canon, but he is not yandere in canon. This is just for fun and not to be taken seriously at all! Simping for fictional characters and fictional yanderes is fine. As long as you are not illegal or gross about it and you remember to separate fiction from reality! Yanderes and people that are like William Afton. They are not ideal to have as a partner in real life.)

(Please enjoy this chapter!)

-Yandere Headcanons William Afton X Nightguard Reader (Five Night At Freddy's)-

.William was pretending to be Dave, for he had the plan to get the remnant from the animatronics to put in the Funtime Animatronics suits.

.Though his plans had nothing to do with the security guard he had to train.

.That Security guard was you, an interesting person who once dave saw stole his heart, and made the already unstable man even more unstable.

.He is very unstable and obsessed with becoming immortal.

.He has lost his daughter, and one of his sons, and his eldest son did not want him in his life.

.He is a man that has nothing left to lose and everything to gain.

.So when he met you he was obsessed and that obsession for you was very risky.

.He isolates you from anyone who can take you away.

.Stalks you, and breaks your car down so you have to call him for a ride.

.He gets close to you so you depend on him.

.He would not be afraid to gaslight you, manipulate, or guilt you into being with him.

.He also has been stalking you and even broke into your home.

.Getting rid of anyone in his way.

.If you have a partner he will kill them and hide the body, you will think they are missing or that they left you.

.William of course will be there to comfort you manipulating you even more.

.He would confess to you when he knows he has manipulated you enough to win you over.

.If you say yes, he is never going to let you go, he is never going to let you leave him, you are his and his alone.

.He will make you into an animatronic if he has to, that way you and he will be immortal forever.

.Always together.

.With his nightguard side he most likely would kidnap you as well after drugging you and keep you locked away. In his home, in the woods, where he will NEVER let you go.

-Now here is the scenario, enjoy-

(No One's POV)

"So you are the new nightguard." William who is pretending to be Dave asks you, you are such a lovely woman, he could not help but stare a bit. At the very least desire in him.

"Yes I am." You him.

He stared at you for a long moment. His smile was wide, unnerving, like there was something wrong about it. It made heyour shudder a bit. He felt his heart race, the power he had over you and how innocent and soft you looked. He wanted to destroy you, but also treasure you at the same time.

"Follow me, little bunny." He says to you making you look at him oddly.

Why did he call you little bunny. You both make it to the office and began to work. William watches you as you presses the buttons. He knew that you are the one for him. Just watching you made him feel the most joy he has ever felt.

This is how it started William watching you like a hawk everytime you saw him. It only got worse as this continue. As you started to feel watched as you were out of work. To the point it feels like you always have someone's eyes on you. The feeling only went away when you were with William.

It made you at ease when you were around him. Feeling safe and sound. Though you were not safe, not one bit.

You had to check the suits tonight. So you walk up to them, the feeling of being watched back. You slowly shine your light on them. Something was leaking from the suits and it smelled of rot and death. You gag and leaned closer.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" You scream and step back dropping your light!

There was your boyfriend in the suit! You thought he just left! But no he was, he was..

You did not get to finish another thought as a hand clamps over your mouth and you hear William. "You were not supposed to find him, little bunny." He whispers in your ear. "To bad he had to be gotten rid of. Just breath my little bunny. Everything will be okay when you wake up."

You then feel a needle prick in your neck. You try to fight against him but for someone built like a twig he was very strong! You slowly began to feel tired and do your best to keep your eyes open but your body goes limp and you are lifted in the arms of the man you think is Dave.

He grins at you and then last thing you see is his insane smile and a look of pure obsession in his eyes.

"Dave..." You say and then everything went dark.

[WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO You just got kidnapped! I hope you all enjoyed and stay sexy all my sexy muffins, hope you all have a good new years welcome to 2023!]

[Side not in my youtube version of this I added a bit more just a heads up, anyways once more stay sexy all my muffins!]

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I've invaded your inbox to ask if you'd like to infodump about your WIPs to me! Seriously, go ahead and write an essay if you'd like to 👀 Your WIPs just sound very cool and I'd like to know more!

Hi! Thank you! Sorry for taking forever to answer!

I actually have a few different wips that I'm going to add eventually. But these are the first two I'm worried about.

Anomalous is actually an older wip that I have. It actually started very different and focused on just strange shenanigans in the town with the vampire twins as the main characters. Although, Vlad hasn't changed much except to have more depth beyond horny vampire dating a faery. The village didn't even have a name until I tore the story apart to start anew. I am a huge sucker for stories that center in a town or village that spooky scary things live in. Unfortunately those stories rarely involve anything adult or the kinds of detail stuff I like. So now I just try to write them myself. Anyways, Anomalous is my hope to have my romance and found family and supernatural drama all in one.

Now, Vlad's family isn't necessarily bad, they're not even very terrible in most regards. Vlad just has his own way of thinking and his family doesn't agree with him. They don't resent him either, there isn't any hard feelings. They both just have their own way of living. They literally just visit because the oldest of their children is finally getting married after centuries of dating. Going into the idea once I decided to focus on Vlad and Aerin I didn't want any serious over the top conflict. Drama yes, death murder slaughter no. This is suppose to be a fun while also have Vlad on the seat of his pants scared he'll be single by the time his old fashioned family leaves, if they ever do. I want to play with old fashioned vampires and supernatural town and also some getting married in there too. I also plan to try make like little bios for the characters and the town down the line when I have more time.

Originally in his back story, Vlad was suppose to have been some punk, former pirate guy obsessed with getting his vitamin D. And Aerin was his newest fling. Now I like the idea of Vlad being a punk former pirate that met the love of his life accidently and they decided to finally take the next step for the tax benefits and also that 'gross shit' called love and commitment, you know, a few centuries in. He also founded the town just so his boyfriend could have neighbors that weren't gonna chase him out of town with pitchforks and torches for being a faery.

But if there is specific things yinz are looking for about Anomalous, you know, just send me another ask. :)

The Dragon's Suitors is a much newer wip. I've been struck with the bachelor(ette) sort of tropes for a hot minute and I also love dragons. A lot of the details of this one are still in the works because it is so new. A lot of the wips outside of Anomalous are rather new for me.

Weylan, our mc here, is a cool headed pro at her job. Her father was in charge before her and made sure to teach her everything she would need to know. Now it's her turn to take the lead and keep the village safe. And as any dragon with a treasure, the only thing they could also need is a spouse. So the king himself has sent his best matchmaker as a favor to her father. She's got 5 different people looking for her hand in marriage. Basically it's a love multiple triangles except not really because she has no interest in that shenanigans.

So yeah, with it being rather new I am still going to work on the details so I can get the ideas I'm actually interested in writing. But if anyone has questions in particular go ahead and send me an ask. It'll probably help me work those details out faster!

Thank you for the ask my dear! I appreciate it greatly!

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Can I request The hex characters with The reader who easily gets flustered on Valentine's Day hcs

Hex Characters with a Reader who is easily flustered on Valentine’s

hc’s

[Author’s Note: I am fashionably late 😅]

Lionel: 

Doesn’t care much for Valentine’s Day but that’s because he hasn’t celebrated it with many people before you. 

Lionel was never one to actively seek out a partner as he was focused on his work.

If Valentine’s Day is important to you then it’s important to him. If he’s still friends with Carla he would ask her for advice. 

Gets you the usual flowers and chocolates, maybe even a teddy bear. He originally planned to get you something more expensive but he wanted to keep it simple. 

When he sees how flustered you are he feels proud, even if you’re flustered over something simple.

Carla: 

This girl takes Valentine’s Day’s very seriously. She calls off work for the day and takes a month to plan. 

Carla probably gets you one of those Valentine’s gift baskets. 

She loves how flustered you are and will tease you about it. 

Despite her teasing it is very easy to flushed Carla and if you get her something she’s going to treasure it forever. 

She’d like to do something out during the day and then snuggle up to you at night. But if you prefer a calm Valentine’s Day at home she doesn’t mind.

Reggie: 

Even when he wasn’t romantically involved with someone Reggie still loved Valentine’s Day because he’s a hopeless romantic. 

He’d spend countless nights thinking about his future partner and here you are! 

Reggie knows how to fluster you but he is impossible to fluster. 

There isn’t much that can be done in the inn but he still tries his best, he makes origami flowers out of paper to make a bouquet for you. 

He’d prefer to spend his time with you just talking about how much he cares about you. 

Jeremiah:

At first Jeremiah isn’t sure what to do for Valentine’s and he starts to panic. He knows you’ll be happy with whatever he does for you but he wants it to be special. 

He goes to a bunch of different games to get you presents and such. If he finds a game that has no danger he’ll take you there. 

Both of you are probably too flustered to talk to each other and it’s funny. He has no clue if he’s doing things right so he’s incredibly nervous. 

I hc that he writes poetry so he’ll definitely write some poetry for you. 

It doesn’t matter what you get or do for him he’s going to think about it for the rest of his life. The next day he’s still smiling. 

Chef Bryce: 

Cooking is a must but he doesn’t cook for you, the both of you cook together. Bryce prefers to cook with someone and he’ll be happy to teach you. 

Both of you make so many pastries and you’re probably not going to eat all of them but they’re fun to decorate. 

He’s going to fluster you by lightly smearing frosting on your nose or throwing a bit of flour at you. It may even turn into a play fight and by the time you’re done cooking both of you are covered in frosting and flour. 

Bryce is a lot more casual about Valentine’s Day so you don’t have to worry about it being stressful or overwhelming. 

After giving away some of the pastries you made both of you just relax together unless there’s something you want to do. 

Lazarus: 

Lazarus wants to be on the same page as you so he’ll ask what you want to do for Valentine’s Day in advance. 

He’s constantly tired so he would prefer to do something more casual but he still puts effort into it. 

He goes out of his way to make himself look nice for the special day. He’ll wear something other than his armor, brush his probably knotted hair, stuff like that.

He doesn’t mean to fluster you but he does anyways. He loves to hold your hand or lean on you. On the outside he doesn’t have much of a reaction to you being flustered but he thinks it’s amusing. 

The only thing he wants to do is stay in bed and hold you. 

Chandrelle: 

If both of you are still in Secrets of Legendaria she’s going to take you sightseeing. She hates the game but it does have some pretty scenery. 

To most people she seems closed off but she’s a lot more open than people think she is and she won’t hesitate to tell you how much she loves you.

She probably flusters you with her words. Chandrelle is no poet but she has a way with worths in a casual sense.

She does whatever she can to impress you. She practices her sorcery  just so she can see the amazement in your eyes. 

Also if something or someone ruins your special day together she will not be merciful. 

Sado: 

Valentine’s Day with her is going to be the most chaotic thing imaginable. Chances are that Sado doesn’t even have a plan and is just doing things she thinks you’ll enjoy. 

You are going to be so spoiled by her. You’re going to have so many gifts from so many games. 

“I appreciate it Sado, I really do but I don’t even know how to use a sword.” 

“It’s okay, I just thought it matched the color of your eyes.”

She flusters you on a daily basis but on Valentine’s Day she does it a lot more.

Irving: 

He’s so clueless. Chances are that you’re his first romantic partner so he’s still learning how to be romantic.

Irving isn’t great about opening up about his feelings so he’ll get you a card and try to write how he feels about you in it. It’s actually really sweet. 

He flusters you with a lot of cheesy pick up lines and every time you laugh he says another one. 

I can see him slow dancing with you. It’s the complete opposite of fighting but it’s still something he enjoys, especially if it’s with you. 

Since it’s his first Valentine’s with someone he does stress out about it at first but you’re a big comfort to him.

First Person Perspective: 

Gets flustered very easily as well. 

Because he can’t really talk you’re probably the one who makes the plans for Valentine’s but if it were up to him, he’d prefer just to lounge around in bed with you. 

He wouldn’t mind stargazing or doing something as long as it’s on the calmer side of things. 

He’s an amazing artist so he’ll definitely draw you as you are his most favorite thing to draw. He loves drawing you with a smile because you’re the light of his life.

Very physically affectionate with you and he would love to be in your arms for the whole day.

Rust McClain: 

Because he spent a lot of his life in a wasteland with minimal supplies, Rust is great at crafting things. Give him a few pieces of scrap and he’s going to make you something amazing for Valentine’s. 

He’s big on compliments and it increases tenfold on Valentine’s Day. He’s also great with making you feel better about your insecurities. 

Doesn’t mind if you want to do something specific for Valentine’s he just wants to spend the day with you. 

I feel like he’s a happy crier so if you do something really sweet for him he’s going to give you a hug while shedding a few tears. 

Rust may also play some silly pranks on you just to see you laugh. 

Rebecha: 

Rebecha has been all over the game world so she can take you to any game you’d like. 

For once she takes a day off because she wants to dedicate the day to you and her. 

She might have a lot planned as there’s many different games she wants to show you but she’ll make sure you aren’t overwhelmed. 

She’s aware of how easily flustered you get but she actually doesn’t fluster you on purpose. It just happens because she’s a very direct person in both her actions and her words.

Gets you a small but very colorful bouquet of flowers. If she could she would grow her own garden.

[whumpcereal]

whumptober, day twenty-eight: anger born of worry | punching a wall | headache

part two of four of a behavior modification (masterlist here) miniseries; immediately follows this piece.

content warnings for: some references to past trauma, adult language

future snippet, kids will be kids

“Five-letter word for ‘slangy request at a kegger’.” 

Joe wrinkles his nose. “You think I’d know that?” 

“What? Too straightlaced for keggers?” 

Jack smiles and drops his lips to the place where Joe’s neck meets his shoulder. It’s been over twenty years, and Joe still can’t help the flutter in his stomach when Jack touches him. He knows better than to take it for granted. There’s nothing in his life that he doesn’t treasure. His husband, their child, the home they’ve built together. How blessed he is that Jack trusts him and loves him back. That they’re safe. 

He ducks his head to meet Jack’s lips. “I might have been.” 

“Oh, Doctor Prescott–”

“Doctor Prescott-Kenyon,” Joe corrects. 

“Such a mouthful,” Jack laughs. He kisses Joe again, and then leans his head back against the sofa cushion. 

“I think we’re even there.” 

“Sure. But I don’t wear the title with as much inherent nerdiness.”

Joe straightens his glasses; Jack swears they make him look distinguished. Just like Joe swears the gray at Jack’s temples is sexy. And it is. 

 “I wear my nerdiness with pride,” says Joe. 

“You wear it well,” Jack agrees. “But you are a gigantic nerd.”

“Because you went to so many keggers?” 

Jack shrugs. “I got myself into plenty of trouble,” he says softly. 

That much is true. Joe knows well what Jack’s life was like after he left juvenile detention. They don’t talk about it often. Jack’s suffered enough indignities over the course of his life that there’s no point in dredging them all up over and over again. 

But it’s harder now that Hallie’s older. Jack doesn’t say it, but Joe knows Jack worries just as much as he does. Jack wants to protect their little girl from every ugly thing he’s been through, to make sure that she’s safe and taken care of. He wants to know that no one can ever hurt her the way that he’s been hurt. 

He doesn’t show it, though. Jack is always cool and collected; it’s only Joe who knows his fears. 

“Well, lucky I’m here to keep an eye on you,” Joe murmurs. He snakes his arm around Jack’s hoodie-clad waist and rests his head against Jack’s chest. His glasses dig into his nose, but he doesn’t care. It isn’t an exaggeration to say he could stay like this forever. 

Jack kisses Joe’s hair and lets the crossword puzzle fall to his lap. “I am. I always have been.” 

“Me too, Jackie.” 

They stay that way for a while, Jack tangled in Joe’s arms, Joe listening to Jack’s heartbeat. 

Eventually, Jack breaks the silence. “God, it’s good Hals isn’t home. We’re disgusting.” 

They are not, but Joe knows what Jack means. He rolls his eyes. 

“Where is she tonight?” Jack asks. 

Joe snuggles closer to his husband, finally surrendering his glasses and balancing them on the sofa’s arm. “Studying.” 

“On a Saturday?”

“That’s what she said,” Joe replies. Jack was meeting with clients all day, so it was Joe who’d given Hallie the rundown before she left the house.  “She said that she and Katie were going to study.” 

Jack groans.

“What?” Joe asks.

“She played you, Prescott.”

“Prescott-Kenyon. What do you mean?” 

“I mean, even Hallie doesn’t study on a Saturday night.” 

“But that’s what she said she was doing,” Joe protests. 

Hallie always does what she says she will. She doesn’t lie. She wouldn’t have lied. Right? 

“You never said you were studying and then did something else?”

“I did not,” Joe answers seriously. 

Jack’s chest shakes with soft laughter. “Of course you didn't.” 

“I didn’t lie to my mother.” 

Joe couldn’t have lied to his mother, even if he’d wanted to. Marilyn Prescott was a bloodhound. She would have known the instant he’d misled her, and he would have paid dearly for it. But he also just wouldn’t have done it. It wouldn’t have occurred to him. 

Jack snorts. “I can’t blame you for that.”

“Hallie knows better,” Joe says, his voice smaller than he means it to be. There’s the start of a headache behind his right eye, and he rubs at it absently. 

“She does. But didn’t you ever get tired of not lying to your mother?”

“No.” 

“Didn’t you ever get tired of being perfect?” 

“Yes,” Joe says. And he did. But he didn’t want to let his mother down, not after what his father had done. So, he’d kept his nose clean and sucked it up. But he’d never thought of Hallie being in the same situation. “But Hallie’s not like that. She–”

“Joey, she’s a kid.” 

“She’s a really good kid.”

“She is. But really good kids are still kids.”

“Should we check her location?” Joe asks. 

“Do you want to?” 

There’s another throb behind Joe’s eye. He sits up from Jack’s chest and reaches for his glasses again. “I kind of do.” 

“Okay,” Jack says softly. He digs in the pocket of his sweats for his phone. “Just–be cool. If she’s not at Katie’s.” 

“I just want her to be safe.” 

“Joe, she’s smarter than the two of us put together. I’m sure she’s safe.” But something in Jack’s voice isn’t exactly convincing. He thumbs at his phone screen. “Well.” 

“Well?”

“She’s not at Katie’s.” 

There’s a pang in Joe’s chest. “Where is she?”

“I’m not sure–it looks like a neighborhood over by the golf course?” 

“The Greens? Who is she friends with over there?” 

“No one that I know of.”

“She lied,” Joe says. 

“She did. But I’m sure it’s fine. We know where she is. I mean, we can keep an eye on her until curfew.”

“But she lied to us. She knows better than that,” Joe says. He can feel the anger burning in his chest. “What if–”

“Joey, I’m sure she’s fine–”

“No, don’t do that,” Joe snaps. He mops his hands over his face, sending his glasses off-kilter. “Don’t pretend like you’re not worried.” 

“Joey–”

“Jack, she could be doing anything.”

“I know! But we’ve got to trust her.”

“I do! I just don’t trust–”

“Anyone else,” Jack finishes. He reaches to straighten Joe’s glasses, and when his blue eyes come into focus again, they’re sad. “We live enough of our lives like they’re still lurking around every corner. Hallie shouldn’t have to deal with that too.”

Joe wilts. “Jackie–” 

“I understand why you’re mad. I’m–not thrilled either. But maybe we could just remember that she’s a kid, and kids do stupid things, and it doesn’t mean that anything terrible is going to happen.”

But what if it does? Joe wants to ask, but he swallows the words before they can escape. He knows that Jack needs to reassure himself. 

“Right,”Joe sighs. There’s another sharp stab behind his eye, but he ignores it. 

“If she’s home by curfew, we don’t even let her know we looked,” Jack says. 

“And if she isn’t?”

“Then we ground her ass until the middle of next century.” 

Jack draws Joe back into his arms again, snuggling into the corner of the sofa. Joe dares to look up, and he can see the worry in the soft lines that cling to the corners of Jack’s eyes. He kisses Jack’s cheek and holds him tighter. 

“Sounds like a plan.” 

It will be alright. Hallie is fine.

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I never knew until now that you also write, but when I saw Friendcation on my FYP, I realized I should have known earlier because your works are fantastic! Although Friendcation is the only fic I've read from your works, I am certain that every fic you've made is a masterpiece, and I can't wait to read all of them!

I am still reading Friendcation and recently finished Chapter 2, and I can't wait to read more of it! I really love the concept; every scene is just a chef's kiss! Honestly, Yoongi is perfect for the male lead, and I can picture it in my head so well! You did a great job portraying Yoongi, MC, and the whole gang in the story. I am really a fan of the friends to lovers concept! I can't wait to read more!

One thing that I will commend you for is how you constructed the whole thing so perfectly! As a reader, I am a fan of "show don't tell" because it adds more thrill to imagining things, and you are by far the perfect writer who has the best "show don't tell," I fucking swear to god! Just by reading the first paragraph of Friendcation, my jaw dropped, literally! Everything is perfectly written! If I had the chance to swim inside your head, I would take the opportunity without any hesitation!

I was really amazed by your work, and it's itching me to tell you already how excellent you are! I started reading Friendcation the other night, and most of the time, I read it before I slept. That's why it takes me forever to complete a chapter because I really take time reading every word, sentence, and paragraph because it's a fucking masterpiece! I will read your works as slowly as possible because I have to savour and enjoy everything! Continue doing your best! Love you!!!

Oh my god, Kai 😭😭😭😭😭

Thank you so much! I’ve been writing and posting for some time, but I never wanted to mix that with my montly fic recs – because I mainly just want to hype other people up and shine a light on their beautiful work, so it’s completely okay you didn’t know I wrote!

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You are so fucking sweet with your words and your review! You are both making me smile like a goddamn fool and bawl my eyes out at the same time. I feel so honored 😭I really like “show don’t tell,” and I tried my best to incorporate that! I mean, I am just so speechless by your lovely words and praise, I’ll treasure your words forever!!!

Seriously, you don’t know how happy you’ve made me with this ask! 🥹 You are amazing my lovely friend, truly a star ⭐ 

If you like the darker stuff, I’d recommend ‘Coming Home’, although it’s not nearly as dark and thriller as your amazing ‘Fragments of the Past’ (still the best yandere thriller I’ve read! 😘). Take your time love, don’t rush or stress, also remember to do your own stuff 😂 My fics will always be here.

I also like to take my time when reading (and to add to that, I’m a fucking slow reader because I don’t want to miss or skip anything). So please take your time, I really hope you enjoy it! I had a lot of fun writing it and I already miss this couple so much 😭

Again, thank you so much for taking your time to read it, and then write this freaking lovely message to me 😭 You have truly made my day! Although I don’t think it’s a masterpiece (don’t get me wrong, I love it very much!), I’ll try to take your words and praise completely to heart and use it to fuel and continue doing my best in my future writing 💜

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Warning: I’m sorry but this is going to be a really long ramble ❤️❤️❤️!!!

Okay I have to say this one first because I think it needs to be said *Holds a microphone 🎤* YOU ARE SO DAMN PRECIOUS!!! SERIOUSLY!! YOU ARE TOO PRECIOUS!! THANK YOU FOR EXISTING!! YOU’RE A REAL GIFT FROM EYWA HERSELF!! AND MY GOSH HAVE YOU FED US WELL WITH YOUR AMAZING ART!! RALAK WILL FOREVER BE TREASURED HERE!!! ໒( ” •̀ ᗜ •́ ” )७

As an artist myself, you really are a great inspiration to me to keep on improving. Art block has gotten to me recently but I see the art that you post and it makes me want to draw again. The colors, the proportions, the line art, the tattoos omg, and all the amazing detail you put into it don’t go unnoticed!! So thank you for sharing your work! Chefs kiss 100/10ヽ(”`▽´)ﾉ

But while I’m going to ramble, can I ask for permission to write about Ralak? I’ve seen so many amazing fics about him and I hope to add to that. It’s just that I want your permission first. 〜(^∇^〜）

On the topic about Ralak (sorry for jumping topic to topic ಥ‿ಥ)… HOW?! I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS!! (Puts on reporter glasses) How are you able to create such a fine looking man? JUST HOW! HE’S TOO PERFECT!! CREATING SUCH A MAN SHOULD BE ILLEGAL!! ʕ̡̢̡̡̢̡̡̢♡ᵒ̴̷͈艸ᵒ̴̷͈॰ʔ̢̡̢̢̡̢̢̡̢✧

SO RALAK IF YOU ARE ALSO READING THIS, KNOW THIS— YOUR CREATOR IS THE MOST PRECIOUS PERSON ON EARTH AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS BRING HER BACK TO PANDORA!! Pack her bags, steal a ship, and do whatever it takes. Just make sure it happens and that she is taken care of!! She needs to be protected at all costs!!( *//｀ω´//)

Take care, love! Hope you stay happy and healthy ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪

I can’t even begin to say how overwhelmed and happy i am rn🥹❤️❤️❤️ I’m gonna cry🥲 I’m absolutely devastated by the amount of love and i was smiling like an idiot while reading this🙈💕💕💕 Thank you so, so much! I’m super glad to hear you’ve managed to overcome art block, that is the worst👁️👁️ and incredibly pleased that you notice the details 🌚❤️ Yes ofc you can write about him! I’d be honored 💖 AHH much love to you as well pookie!💖 You made my day!!

Ps: He’s not my only oc :3

[jerzwriter]

some asks for carolina x trystan :))

31: Most prized possession?

35: What activities do they enjoy, but consider to be a waste of time?

44: Superstitions or views on the occult?

Thanks so much for sending these! :)

From this list.

31: Most prized possession?

For Carolina, it would definitely be something of her father's, perhaps a watch or a ring that he always wore. And a card he gave her on her birthday. He wasn't big on cards, but he gave her a very sweet one and wrote a heartfelt inscription on the last birthday they shared together. I really want to come up with an HC for her mother - because she may be in here as well - but I'm so scared Book 3 will cover it and muck things all up. lol

For Trystan, I'm going to say some old drawings he has from childhood. They were pictures he drew with some of his siblings, during a simpler time, when the animosity between them hadn't developed yet. When he looks at them, he imagines a world where things could have gone differently, and in some weird way, it brings him peace.

I am sure he treasures a few letters he received from Julianna. He would keep them in a very special place and would take them out to read each year on her birthday.

Lastly, a photo of Carolina - I'm not going to say much more about it because I want to write a fic about it - but it signified a very big moment in their relationship, and he prints it out, frames it, it will remain one of his favorite things forever.

35. What do they enjoy but consider to be a waste of time?

Trystan's answer would be absolutely nothing. He'd argue that if it brings you joy, it's never a waste of time. (I kind of agree, lol)

But Carolina is more, well, Carolina. She doesn't mind a good social media scroll or maybe going on YouTube after a long day. But she can fall down that rabbit hole, and before she knows it, she looks up, and 2 hours have passed. She will literally curse at herself because she thinks it is a total waste of time.

44: Superstitions or views on the occult?

Oh, this is a tough one! After dealing with The Hand of Mahra, these two will want to stay as far away from anything cult related as possible.

But superstitions... I'm part Greek, and I know my family was insane with the evil eye. Some still are. I can see Drakovia having its own version, and though he's embarrassed to admit it, Trystan kind of always has one on him. Now, the evil eye is only supposed to protect you if it is a gift; it cannot be something you buy yourself. So if his goes missing, he has to get someone to buy him a new one. Mags was his go-to for this, but now Carolina is dragged in, too. Now, there is a little shop in the Bryant Park Holiday Market that only sells evil eye jewelry and such (I go there frequently lol). I can see Carolina going there at Christmastime and buying like 30 to keep stashed in her room. This way, when Trystan is freaking out because he lost one, she just goes to her closet and is like, "Here!" lol (Now I want to write that fic! lol)

Carolina really doesn't believe in superstitions, at least not anymore. She's seen so many bad things she doesn't think anything can ward them off. That said, she does have two things she does every New Year's Eve. One, at midnight, she eats 12 grapes the moment the clock strikes twelve. She makes everyone with her do the same, and Trystan will just have to wait for that kiss! After the grapes (and kiss), they run to the front door and throw a bucket of water outside. Both of these are commonly done in certain Latine cultures. I don't think she feels they usher in good or bad luck, but it's part of her culture, and she's very attached to the tradition, so she takes it very seriously.

Thank you so much for the great asks! :)

[eurydicees]

For blue lock, what are your thoughts on Kaiser and Ness as characters? I'm honestly really curious about Ness and if he'll unlock his own Ego through the threat of being replaced by Isagi. Or how Kaiser and Isagi's rivalry will continue. I don't know if you've seen the spoilers for the latest chapter btw but if so, what are your thoughts on Isagi's new skill?

ahhh this took forever to get to i apologize, i am so so behind on asks rn. i talk about this in this post, but i wanna expand on it because immediately after publishing that i had More Thoughts LOL. under the cut bc they're,,,,, long. spoilers up through chp 218 below!!!

i'm ALSO really curious to see if ness will unlock his own ego....maybe it's through the threat of isagi replacing him, as you said. but i'm also kinda hopeful that it comes through the realization that, like, he can play with people other than kaiser; he can create those chemical reactions with other people and he can play just as well with other people and he's his own player who has his own important role on the pitch other than supporting kaiser specifically.

bastard münchen is really interesting because it's a team built around one player (vs the other teams we see who seem to have more specific team-based and collaborative play styes, esp ubers), and that role is shifting from kaiser to isagi. so i'm curious to see ness connecting with people other than kaiser; i think it would be reaaaaallly fun if he made something really big happen with isagi and he found some more allyship with him, yk what i mean? i think ness has SO much potential as a player and him unlocking an ego that doesn't revolve around making kaiser better would be so cool for his character. at the same time, i also am super unsure what that would look like, though.

this is kinda where i think that parallels to reonagi come in, like i talked about in the other post. they're obviously not exactly the same and there's not really a one:one match up, and there are also just a lot of plain key differences, but i think some of the core traits of their dynamic are really similar.

at the beginning of the story, nagi really relies on reo to make soccer something interesting/fun to play--he's overall arc is realizing that he can grow stronger without reo's support and that, in growing stronger, he can find the joy in playing and he can discover why it's worth it at all.

meanwhile, reo is super attached to nagi as the "treasure" he was able to befriend and help lead into the world of soccer. i don't see this necessarily as an insane possessiveness, moreso as someone who is holding on so tightly to the first genuine connection he's made by himself; his first ally in soccer, the first thing that made it possible for him to play. it's not really "he's my thing to own and i don't want to let go of the things that are mine, even if they want to leave" and more "he's the one that made it all possible; that formed who i have the potential to be; and i don't know how to let go of that."

ness specifically feels similar to reo's arc: he is deeply attached to kaiser and he bases his self-worth and understanding of himself and the game around the way kaiser views him and the game. when kaiser begins to shift interest over to isagi's play, ness doesn't know what to do with that--how do you play the game when the person who shaped the way you play suddenly stops looking in your direction?

anyways nice segue eury let's talk about kaiser.

i think kaiser's rivalry with isagi is kind of fascinating, this in particular because he's the first person (iirc) to really actually seek isagi out as the one to beat. everyone else who has viewed him as a rival has to come to view him that way; kaiser starts out viewing him that way. kaiser actively looking at isagi to see what he can do from the very start is really different from rin, who didn't at all take him seriously until the very end, and everyone on team z, who didn't listen to him until he truly proved himself on the field. bachira believes in him from the start, but it's not as a rival, it's as an ally--he passes to isagi, he doesn't tag him as the highest ranked person to beat.

i'm really interested to see, too, how ness responds to isagi and kaiser's rivalry as it rises in intensity.

this ask was sent, like, a month ago, so yes i have read that chapter lol. but looking at the development of his skill is really cool imo. also i like that niko just kinda. figured it out. he just kind learned how to do it and isagi was just 😲😲😲 about it, yk? i looooooove niko. that's what i've got on that.

[leezlelatch]

i saw an ask game and just had to 👀

Culpa

Zero

Mummy

Ghuleh

Macabre

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HI THANK YOU FOR PLAYING.

Culpa - When did you first discover Ghost?

I heard Mary On a Cross on Tik Tok during early summer maybe? See, this part I am fuzzy on because I knew I had MOAC on my playlist, but it was like I listened to it a couple times and was like "rad" but it didn't go anywhere from there.

And then I kept seeing more Ghost content pop up around late August and I've always had a penchant for spooky old men, so I was immediately intrigued, and it all came together from there. Now, I feel like a damn fool for not realizing what MOAC really was and how wonderful Ghost's music is. I could seriously kick myself.

Zero - Have you been to one of their concerts?

September 20, 2022. Burned into my memory forever. It was just after I really became obsessed with the band that I checked the Imperatour and saw they were playing 3 hours away from me. It was past midnight when I desperately texted my sister begging her to go with me. I had to wait almost 2 weeks to buy my ticket and I kept my eyes on a specific set of seats the entire time, hoping that they wouldn't be sold out. They weren't.

Being there was completely surreal. It was like it didn't even happen, and when it was over, and I got to the car, I cried. I just couldn't believe it. It was the first concert that I have ever been to, and I will treasure that forever. I keep my parking ticket from that night in my caboodle.

Mummy - Have you ever attempted to cosplay someone from Ghost (or are planning to)?

I did Papa IV's make-up for Halloween!

Ghuleh - What’s your least favorite Ghost album?

I don't have one. And I'm not lying. I don't consider one particularly higher or lesser than the other? You'll definitely hear me say that I love Prequelle with my entire body and soul, but I appreciate and listen to each one differently, easily able to say that Opus is my "favorite" one day, or Meliora the next.

This is the first time I have EVER experienced this. My approach to music has always been...oh, I like this song, but I don't like this artist. Or I like this one album. My playlist on my phone has always been a pieced together mismatch of songs. Finding Ghost opened me up to a new world. I genuinely adore every single thing Tobias Forge has ever put out.

Macabre - Do you enjoy the interviews and the lore, or do you like sticking to just the music?

I absolutely suck every piece of content into my pores LOL such is the fate of a hyper-fixation. I try to keep up with everything as soon as it happens. The lore is so incredibly interesting to me, and I LOVE how the fandom takes it, molds it into their own, creates stories and art from it. Tobias himself has said that he thinks it's wonderful that we build on the foundation he's set.