#sentmessage

[1961closetnotes]

Spooky action at a distance...

In a strange way, I love you, and I hope you are okay. I really hope you get well soon; those are hard times to go through. I wish I could help you more, but if I did, I would wound myself. My staying away comes not from a lack of love, but more from practicing and cultivating self love. If I don’t love myself first, if I don’t take care of myself, I’ll never really be able to take care of another, fully.

[yourirreplaliceable]

11.30.21 | SENT MESSAGE.

Little by little, I watch you drift away.

I wont stop you anymore and I will happily see you find the love you are looking for.

Your silence has been an answer to my wandering thoughts.

No plans, no efforts, no special days and reason for you to celebrate us.

Because In the first place, I was just your temporary comfort in this world full of expectations.

You already know from the 1st time you saw me that I wasn't the one you were looking for.

Yet you chose to stay, I can't stop thinking if it was maybe out of pity and out of guilt.

You kept me and slowly you've seen that I'm more than what you thought I am and made me your hidden safe place temporarily and to run away from reality.

Maybe you just couldn't admit that you loved who you were when you're with me, but still, I wasn't enough probably.

When our conversations started to become emotionless.

The passion and eagerness to do more slowly turns into doubts and discouragements.

When you see my words as a way to pick a fight rather than ways to make amends.

Venting my emotions to seek for assurance yet you called me desperate instead.

Asking me to groom myself because you're starting to lose interest and you don't find me worthy anymore.

Embarassed to show me to the world by the comparisons you endlessly made cause I ain't your type.

Not the woman you would want to held your head up and be proud to walk holding hands and side-by-side.

You don't appreciate the things that used to be special because they're also doing it to you now.

And despite all the troubles my heart is carrying, I chose to see the goodness in you.

Continuously praying, wishing and hoping that you get to live a better life.

Seek your purpose, find what you've always been looking for and succeed in life.

In exchange of not having you around anymore - I'd be happy to see you reach them all.

My Dear, Lovelove, Bumbum, Daddy.

I love you and thank you for coming into my life and making it so much better. For once I took the courage to fall in love, to not be scared, and for taking the risk and having faith for someone.

But sometimes, we dont always get what our heart wants. And maybe thats okay, not now, but someday.

I will always love you even from afar. Even if you don't, even if you won't be with me anymore. Our memories will forever be carved in my heart. And I will promise to live. Even it means, I have to do it all alone - again.

I don't think I can ever compete to them.

Because I have nothing to offer.

I will just be the same alice who would want to take care of you, serve you, make you happy, respect you and love you by all means.

And that's nothing special. They all can do it. Same way, maybe even better.

I'm just starting with life, honestly.

Everything that I have, my education, my freedom, the chance to live again, I worked hard for it all.

I have been through a lot in life.

Always thinking and doing things for others.

And the moment, I allowed myself to be happy was when I started dating you.

For the first time in my life, I didn't feel alone. 

I had a partner to share my thoughts with.

I had someone who trusted and invested in me. 

I had a bestfriend whom I wouldn't be afraid of showing my true self.

I miss you.

I won't go anywhere tho

I'm just here as your bestfriend and business partner.

I promise to be nicer and be that someone to support you and listen to your stories always.

I prolly will miss some of other things but surely we will be better off as friends.

So, we can be just like how we used to be.

No fights. No nagging. No jealousy. No arguments. No forcing to meet and talk. No begging and no desperate things to do and say.

I will try my best to set aside my emotions and feelings.

I will stop loving you then maybe i can become a better friend.

I'm willing to do this just as long as You promise me to be happy and you promise me that the woman you replace me with - will love and take good care of you properly. Then, I will be happy. 

[yvonich-elle-blog]

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[ambrosiawalker45]

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[somethingkickass]

My bed feels to big. My hands feel empty, but my hope is still high and my heart is warm. Hopes of a new and better day, hopes that one day after another bring me closer to having a full bed every night, and that I won’t have to cry again. It is the warmth in my heart that guides this hope. It is not just warmth I feel, I feel inferno, as every time I even hear your name my heart melts. Nights like these make me appreciate your company, I love having you around, your always trying to find ways to make me happier and I can’t thank you enough for that. I would do anything to have you here with me sleeping so blissfully beside me. I love you, and after some more time and questions I can’t wait to call you my best friend, that’s who you need beside you at all times, who no matter what changes, they’ll always be there. I want to be that for you. I want to be what completes you. You and me baby against it all.