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In the waking hour✨

And just then, it came back to me... I did have a wild, fun, sensual side to myself which I confidently bantered with every now and then. Like that time when I threw that [---]. Yes! To his face! He was a light-hearted, sun-chasing, young imminent rock star, and I had him eating off... my hand. Right among the crowd (literally), I knew exactly how to make myself noticed. And hell was I loud!

Could I revive and integrate this part of me into my actual self? Why would I? Why not?!

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And here you lay, breathing in the rain. Your hand on my thigh, where peace abides.

I know here is where we’re ought to live.

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Like this.

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Spooky action at a distance...

In a strange way, I love you, and I hope you are okay. I really hope you get well soon; those are hard times to go through. I wish I could help you more, but if I did, I would wound myself. My staying away comes not from a lack of love, but more from practicing and cultivating self love. If I don’t love myself first, if I don’t take care of myself, I’ll never really be able to take care of another, fully.

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Red, real, happening.

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Now is the time.

Clarity and connection to oneself.

Who am I? Real love

What do I want? Real love

What do I need? Real love

What do I value? Real love

What do I deserve? Real love

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#contemporarypoetry

To all the boys I never loved (bc they didn’t let me):

I just wanted to go out for a walk, to run and get tired, to go back in and rest for a while, to get a cup of hot chocolate almond milk [scroll on social media], to have a deep conversation about color and light, to kiss you goodbye, to sleep, to dream, to wake up, to meet you & greet you, to watch Netflix, to laugh, then cry, eat some #VeganGlutenFreeNonGmo kinda snack, to say something inappropriate, laugh some more, [scroll again] show you some stupid meme, and sleep again. 

To smooch you, to hold you, to tackle you, 

to run away from you, to be chased and reached by you,

I just wanted to BE beside you BEING, in this era, at this time and space,

but you just wanted to “hang”.

And you know you’re cool, and you know I liked you,

but you didn’t care, and that’s ok. 

So now that you valiantly texted me again, 

I’m ready to go my way, down my own road and say:

“Gee, thanks! But no.”, [and just HANG UP the app] 

goodbye and good riddance. 

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Mis cosas favoritas son:

El sonido claro de una guitarra, cuando alguien prefiere hablar así

El sol calentando mi piel, cuando la casa es más fría que el jardín

Una conversación profunda con cualquiera que me cruce en el camino, 

que abra la posibilidad de aprender algo nuevo

El aroma del viento en invierno, cuando duermen las plantas y las flores

El eco de mi voz en la regadera, cuando canto una canción privada

Una mordida de una Carlota de limón, sí, esa receta que todos conocen 

La emoción de pisar tierra nueva, que recarga mi alma de energía

Quiero vivir más de todo esto, pero antes quiero ver tu lista,

porque la cosa que más me llena a mí, es saber lo que te mueve a ti.

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“A simple kind of life.”

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<3

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Fin del viaje.

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Like blood, like fire, like land.

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<3

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Hoy me di cuenta que sí duele.

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“Love [really] burns brighter than sunshine.”

- Aqualung

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Taco esencial

Tortilla de maíz amarilla recién calentada + cantidad generosa de frijoles peruanos tibios + suficiente tomate* (sin escatimar) cortado en rodajas chiquitas + varios pedazos grandes de aguacate* + algunas hojas de espinaca

*Añadir un poco de sal directamente.

Repetir la receta para comer otro taco igual.

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Coolness. Literally.

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