#send me messages and asks and stuff in these times of isolation!

[shotofstress]

Coming back after being almost a week without electricity, phone, and internet connection. Huge storms with lightning and rain, and winds. We have never have winds like that here and the roof of so many houses were ripped off, stuff flying, etc. All this bc global warming, and the deforestation and mining in our lands. At this rate, in 5 years we will have tornadoes, a thing we have never ever have here (edit: 25th may 2025 the first tornado, in the middle of a town at the south of the country, we are fucked). Nor our lands, infrastructures, states, and culture are prepared for this. Areas of the country are devastated, ppl have died, many are without electricity nor Internet connection so they are isolated. The houses are flooding with water, and the ones that not, are leaking from the ceiling. Too many neighbours and compatriots don't have roofs and the streets are full of fallen trees and pieces of roof material, no electricity, no signal, food rotting, but suffering at the same time for the cold of this terrible winter, and trying to do something, patching even when its gonna go to hell when the storm comes again this next days. More than 33,200 people affected and 41,500 isolated due to 5 days of rain and windstorms. In just a couple of days there were 170,000 homes left without power due to wind and rainstorms and even more as time went by.

If u want to help me to fix the roof, walls, to buy food and being warm this winter please check my PayPal. If u can't donate, please reblog bc thats the only way to make this being seen by ppl thus receiving help. I'm really not being able to keep living like this, i can no longer cope, so please share.

Here are in my PayPal or MACH . I took the kofi link bc they were charging me a fee.

Please, educate about global warming and the effects on Global South, specially for working class, chronically ill, autistic, disable, and long covid survivor ppl like myself.

Edit: I added links and pics

Edit: the weather is better (is finally spring at this current date 24th nov), but I still need to fix were I live/sleep bc the walls are broken and one of the walls is not a wall, but like 1cm wide stuff and all was bad build so even the door is twisted and dont work correctly, there is black mold that i think is damaging my ears, the paint is falling, the lamp has fallen, everything is broken and ugly, etc. I still need to buy food, meds, and everything so please, please, share or donate if you could. I don't want to survive like this and here, no one mask even when they were the ones giving me covid and they have making me also catch flu the other day bc they cogh over everything and don't care if they kill me, they are abusive and really violent people and are working to put me and everyone in danger. I dont even want to be in my country bc we will have a dictatorship soon, but I have nowhere else to go nor money to migrate (i need like $10.537 dollars or € 9.760,95 euros to pay all the documents, the bank money I have to show to prove I am a human being deserver of rights, the tickets, rent money and stuff to migrate).

I currently (date 14 Jan 2025) have $100 dollars donated (coz i spent 40 in food and meds this past month)

I know i will die here, but at least help me to survive in a less dehumanising way.

Edit: tumblr has blocked me from recive or send messages from the chat and comment of posts, so if you are trying to reach throughout there I can't see it, sorry, I'm cut from any communication (cant even see past messages from chat or asks), except send asks. I'm waiting that tumblr do something, but still hasn't even answered the help file I sent to them.

[junwhispers]

I wanted to write some Naruto men headcanons for some time now and I finally did! It was so much fun.

It's emotional fluff 💜 sfw, Naruto men x reader

Letters from Naruto men - they need to confess or they'll lose you

Characters: Kakashi, Sasuke, Shikamaru, Gaara, Naruto

Kakashi

Y/N,

I’m incredibly sorry I left after you told me how you felt. I’ll understand if you never want to see me again.

I’m a coward, nothing more. I got scared and run away. Not because I don’t feel the same — but because I do.

If there’s still a chance to talk to you… please message me. Anytime.

And I’ll try to make everything up to you.

Yours,

Kakashi

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Sasuke

I heard today that you’re leaving.

No, of course I won’t try to stop you. And I know damn well you’re too proud to confess anything to me.

I’ll never send this letter — so this paper will be the only one that knows the truth.

I realized a while ago that I love you.

At first, I thought it was just physical — I couldn’t take my eyes off you. Every time we touched, it felt like my skin was on fire. I couldn’t concentrate when you were around.

So I tried to isolate myself from you. And it only got worse.

I kept thinking about where you were — and with who.

Maybe you remember that one night when we ran into each other at a bar — I saw you laughing, looking beautiful, surrounded by men. I left immediately, even though you saw me and tried to call out.

I was afraid I’d lose it.

And then came the moment I’ll never forget — when your team was sent on a mission and I heard you’d been critically injured.

I don’t even remember what I said or did. My mind went blank, and somehow I got to the hospital.

I didn’t leave your bedside.

And I made everyone promise not to tell you I’d been there.

Since then, I’ve known: you’re my greatest weakness.

And I have a feeling you might feel the same.

I noticed how your face lit up when we talked. How you always picked the seat next to mine. How you asked my friends about me when I wasn’t around.

And I remember that long conversation, when you said you could never make the first move.

I suspected — maybe that was your first move.

And I let you down.

It was hard to watch your smile fade. But I thought it was better that way.

And now you’re leaving. I shouldn’t be surprised.

Maybe I should be glad I won’t have to see your future with someone else — I’m not sure I could take it.

I guess this is goodbye, even if you’re not supposed to read it.

Maybe someday I’ll stop thinking about you.

Sasuke

Found this letter and sent it to you. You’re both idiots.

— Naruto

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Shikamaru

Y/N,

I know everything. Ino told me.

She said I’d be a dumb fuck if I let a girl like you go.

Well… I agree.

And that’s the only reason I’m writing this.

I like you.

Y/N — I’m not a romantic. I thought you knew that. I don’t have much patience or experience with this kind of stuff. But if it’s that important to you — fine.

I think you’re smarter than most people in this village. I like being around you. You don’t annoy me — most of the time. And I think you’ve got a really nice ass.

Including the ass.

…I’m teasing. You’re beautiful.

What do you think? Did I do okay?

So if we could stop playing games, that’d be great. This whole thing is giving me a headache.

Then meet me after training.

Shikamaru

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Gaara

(Written on official Kazekage letterhead)

Y/N,

After a few sleepless nights, I came to the conclusion that I need to write this letter.

It might surprise you, since I know I’m a reserved person — some even call me cold.

But that’s not exactly true.

At least, not when it comes to you.

I’m not sure I’m capable of expressing these thoughts properly, but I’ll try.

It’s difficult to put into words someone as extraordinary as you.

You are more than your beauty — though I’ve never seen anyone who could make a desert sunset look dull in comparison.

You are more than your intellect — though every time we speak, I learn something new, gaining a perspective I couldn’t see on my own.

You are more than your kindness — though I’ve never met someone as empathetic, generous, and thoughtful.

I love you the way night loves the moon.

I need you like a shadow needs the sun.

I’m forever yours,

Gaara

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Naruto

Y/N,

IT’S SO STUPID THAT I CAN’T JUST SEE YOU.

I’m really not good at writing stuff like this.

But Sakura yelled at me and said I had to do it the right way.

Listen — when it comes to some things, I might not be the brightest.

I mean, yeah, I’m one of the greatest shinobi of all time, future Hokage, etc.

But turns out I can be completely blind when it comes to the stuff that actually matters — until it’s too late.

And by the stuff that matters, I mean you.

(Sasuke helped with that sentence. But I meant it.)

I can’t lose you. Now I see I took your friendship for granted. I missed all the signs, and I probably ruined my chance to be with you.

But I’m not giving up.

I’ll show you what it’s like to be adored by Uzumaki Naruto.

Sakura said I shouldn’t deliver this letter in person and should wait patiently for your reply.

…But I’m not listening, hehe.

See you soon, Beautiful.

xx Naruto

[dyktvideogamesfx]

Rules and the like!

Song poll blog inspired by things like @doyoulikethis-videogame-song, @doyoulikethissong-poll and Guess the Game.

The general gist is similar to most if not all of these blogs in which a small clip of SFX from a video game will be isolated and posted here, with polls for people to vote on how well known it is.

This page'll most likely be updated the more this kinda stuff goes on.

Should go without saying but transphobes, aphobes and exclusionists are not welcome here.

Submissions are: CLOSED

Header and pinned post art by @forgetmenautical (thank you!)

Active Tags:

#open vote : Polls that are open

#closed vote : Polls that have been closed and the SFX source revealed

#dykasks : Asks for the blog.

#off-topic : For anything off topic - may be related to the blog or an update/announcement!

General FAQ:

Do you take submissions:

Yes! Though only when submissions are open. This will be through a google form that will open and close periodically, whenever I have the time!

When are the polls revealed/answered?:

Genuinely, whenever I feel like it! I've asked the blog a few times but general consensus seems to enjoy random reveals.

Will there be scheduled posts at specific times?:

Right now I'm scheduling around 3 posts at 4pm GMT every day, though this may change with my own schedule/if submissions are running low.

I'll do my best to keep it going! :D

What is your name/pronouns:

You can call me Smudge. He/They. Nice to meet you :3

How can we submit sounds to you?:

Assuming the form is open - any which way is fine by me. This could be through a youtube video, a google drive link, filegarden, catbox etc etc.

Can we say the answer in the tags?:

I would prefer if people didn't as this goes against the spirit of the game- However, very vague hints are fine by me! Be warey of spoilers in the notes if you want to play along!

My submission wasn't posted?:

I will post every submission I get to the best of my ability but if I cannot locate or find the isolated audio I will have skip as game noise can warp or disturb the sound itself. I will do my best to find it isolated beforehand, but if I cannot then it must be skipped, apologies!

A good resource for finding game SFX is The Sound Resource but unfortunatly not every game has a clean rip for its sounds!

This isn't an SFX!:

For the sake of variety on this blog as long as the sound is triggered by a specific action - it counts as a sound effect. A sound effect, to this blog, is generally anything that has a noise tied to its action. This could be collecting a coin, jumping, healing etc etc.

Can we submit voicelines?:

This is tricky, mostly yes.

I would say things like Hornet's "SHAW" from Hollow Knight count for this blog and I would accept them vs something like a clip from Cave Johnson's Lemon Rant I would not accept! Use your best judgement when submitting, but voicelines and clips are not specifically off of the table.

Can we submit sounds from NSFW games?:

Sounds from NSFW games, such as Honeypop, are fine to submit as long as the SFX itself is not NSFW in nature.

A moan or anything akin to that from a NSFW game (Dark Souls 1 Hollow and Mr Kennedy are exempt from this because I think its funny) would not be accepted.

This SFX was used somewhere else!:

This blog will run both on submissions and generally what the sound is more associated with rather than its original source! Not every SFX is original and some are used from specific sound libraries. The Roblox OOF, for example, comes from a game named Messiah - however, if a submitter has submitted its source asRoblox, thats what this blog will use as its source.

I will also be going off of what people say is the Context/Source for a game so sorry if that is ever wrong! If it is entirely, 100% incorrect in terms of where its from you can send me a message and I'll change it!

Can you tag scary/sounds from horror games?:

The point of the game is listening to unexpected sounds, and "scary" is an extremely subjective description. I will do my best to avoid posting loud jumpscare sounds or other sounds that I think are unpalatable to a general audience, but beyond that I don't intend on tagging specific types of sounds at this time.

How many SFX can we submit in the form?:

2 per person with ideally no repeat games in your own submissions!

You didn't answer my ask/did you recieve my ask?:

I tend to be doing other things while this blog runs on a queue, I try my best to answer and give the best responses I can for this blog to make it more accessible/comfortable and for everyone to contribute to this fun little game!

However- if you've noticed I haven't answered your ask, it's not personal. It may be due to it already being answered here, too spoilery concerning specific polls, inappropriate subjects for this blog or I may just keep asks in my inbox if they're especially nice/kind to look back on!

Can we add XYZ to the voting options?:

I am quite happy with the three options as they are! I prefer not to muddy polls with very specific options, making votes a little more strict. Generally all 3 cover everything they should.

This sound is too loud/quiet!:

In all seriousness, if a sound is genuinely too loud, shoot me an ask. I'll see if its appropriate to add a warning!

What kind of games do you like/play!:

Here's my topsters list!

I'm very open to receiving questions about any and all games though- and hearing recommendations/games you all like too!

[gethoce]

Sending a little ask, as I just happened to see your tournament post...

If you think you don't want to revisit any of that with all the other stressful stuff going on, you can skip this! It's nothing big outside of offering sympathy to you and some commiseration from someone in a similar place! Though I do have a question about including Valfrey in a little piece of tribute art at the end!

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[Tourney Sympathy Section!]

I know we don't know each other extremely well (though I've seen your comics for a while and always admired how much work you put into each one and also your amazing and unique world building) but I'd like to offer hugs (...or whatever you're most comfortable with in place of those!) and sympathy.

I tried to keep a smile up throughout the tourney but I experienced some of that kind of back-talking too. Someone in the server (who I would like to think I became friends with eventually and really respect as a creator) called me a hypocrite way early on and said straight up that I could never understand what the rest of the competitors were going through because I ran a "popular" blog. It shut me up for a good long while ^^ Not saying this to convince you to forgive anyone, just that I know how upsetting the comments would casually get in that place with little to zero apologies to follow… And that I too felt extremely isolated because regardless of how well my posts on here did, I never -knew- anybody in the fandom or had ever talked to anyone before this event.

Anyway, lots and lots of sympathy. ^^ I'll try not to fill this message with "oooh, me as well!" but...I also saw my OC get fairly flanderized by folks, particularly with everyone in the Discord trying to treat him like a kid which, despite his age being a literal kid, that kind of treatment is something that would immediately rub him the wrong way. For me, I ended up kind of throwing in the towel and going with it eventually, and it took a lot of work to mold him back to something more closely resembling my original vision of him. I actually really admire you for standing strong with your character + lore despite how easy it was for things to get jumbled with everyone trying (or not) to figure everyone out.

...And I'm sorry if I was one of the people who mischaracterized Valfrey. I actually went to check out her toybox page VERY early on in the tournament (because I was fascinated + loved how their name came from Morpho's original name + the valkyrie thing) but I admit that some of that might've gotten overwritten or confused with time...

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[Question Section!]

Lastly, given your experiences were a mixed bag, I wanted to ask... 

I have one more piece of tourney art to post this month as a conclusion to the second-chance finals - it's a very short piece with Noir and Rope MF going to a tug of war convention. Because I thought it would be sweet, I included starstruck and Valfrey in their little group too (Valfrey in their smaller butterfly form.)  

But if you would rather I leave her out of this because it's tourney related, I can do that too! Or if you think they wouldn't travel in that form or...?

Basically, after reading everything you went through, I want to try and get them right! (For clarity's sake, it's currently just a little cameo with her perched atop the human vers of Noir's head. I thought that would be okay since he's a lost soul already in that form!)

I hope I don't ramble too much, putting it under the cut just in case!

[Sympathy Section]

I do appreciate hearing about your similar experiences a lot! Makes me feel a little less alone in that whole thing... <3 I feel like people sometimes forget that we too are people. Like, I know how it's like to not be known at all. I've been there for many many years and only recently found a bit of a niche to enjoy.

I've been online for a good 15 years by now, (and given how you're about a decade older than me you can probably relate), naturally I've had my fair share of soul crushing experiences in which I posted something I worked very hard on and it got absolutely zero interactions. Just straight up nothing. It's not like we came online for the first time and immediately had people flocking to us as though it was a natural talent.

I've only been actively drawing Kirby fanart for about two years, the first time in a decade anything I've done actually managed to get some attention. It's worth noting that I don't even think it's possible to even climb that high within a niche fandom like Kirby. Even the biggest blogs that focus solely on Kirby aren't actually that large. The divide feels all the more unnecessary.

I like to tackle esoteric topics while the largely popular wholesome genre is something I really do not vibe with, naturally I don’t actually build up that much of a following. I'd have to force myself to do it and have a couple of times, but I don't want to make that a habit. I'm in this not for any fame but to have fun and get to talk with others about a franchise I've loved for as long as I can remember. Before the tournament there were only one or two people I could regularly talk to. I think having a friend group within the fandom is not only more rewarding than "fame" but also a lot less lonely.

Anyway, can I just mention how impressive it is to see a human OC like Noir find a footing in all of this? My creativity has been called into question for using a "common species" instead of something "more original". While humans aren't commonly used within the larger Kirby OC side of things, I'd imagine people would think of the species as "uncreative" even though there is much to dabble into in terms of lore just as there is for the orbs. People come here largely for characters that aren't human and yet your amazing writing and art managed to overcome that burden and Noir managed to capture people's attention!

I'd imagine many just looked at his design and made some assumptions and characterised him based on that alone instead of engaging with his lore, just as they looked at Valfrey and came to the conclusion that if she is a butterfly she must be a reaper and nothing else... and thank you so much for actually reading her toyhouse page! I've since rewritten it entirely in hopes of perhaps making her lore more clear in the future. It can be tough properly introducing OCs with a lot of lore. I'm grateful for anyone who actually takes their time to look into it!

[Question Section]

I'D ACTUALLY LOVE THAT OMG it'd be an honour to be included in all that!! Valfrey coming in in the butterfly is just so cute and hilarious. She can sit on top of Noir and be carried around a little LOL. Valfrey does like to observe things a lot in that form, I can totally see this being in character! <3

[glassjoeswife]

Hello!!! This is important...

So a friend of mine just sent me the screenshots to this post. Please read all of it and reblog it if you can! I think it's important to share my point of view.

TW: mentions of suicide

This is pretty upsetting to me!!! I haven't targeted anyone. I never said I hate Glass Joe yumes, I only mentioned disliking one and even then I never specified their name!!!

I do do my best to be nice. Even if there is people I don't like in this fandom, I don't go out of my way to harass them or spread rumors like it's being done in this post. I just block and move on, and all I want is to make friends and show my art in this community.

I am obsessive, yes, and I can't really control that. I've been going to therapy, but as of late I have not been able to afford it due to financial problems. Both my Tumblr and my Twitter are personal blogs where I occasionally vent since I don't have many people to talk to. I can show you all my PMs and you'll see I have NOT been mean to a single person in this fandom ONCE. Because that is not my goal and saying it is is degrading and slandering. I just recently joined Tumblr and started regularly posting here after my 18th birthday or so and I'm already getting callout posts about me. I think this is insane.

Regarding Anira and mrsdaqota!!!

I can confidently say I didn't meet them long ago and only did so because a) Anira asked me for an art trade and b) I asked mrsdaqota for an art trade. From there, they added me to a group chat with them. I didn't actively check out their profiles to check for anything problematic because I didn't know them or their reputation. Apart from that, I didn't make a Telegram JUST to talk to them, and that's a lie... I've had it for a while, and mrsdaqota agreed to help me open a Telegram channel.

Overall

I can... hate people. I genuinely do not see what's wrong with that. I haven't done anything to the people I dislike, I haven't disclosed who they are openly either, I just mentioned not liking them I did not take the time to look at all my friends posts in their profiles and that's why I mentioned the fact that I have not been disrespected by them... Because I haven't. I just said "I'm Glass Joe's real wife" and "That fucking double that I hate" and I'm getting my ass hounded because I expressed dislike towards a person whose name wasn't even disclosed? I think it's clear that if people weren't being mean to me, they wouldn't be using the anonymous ask feature to send passive-aggressive stuff to me. I PROMISE you, if you have criticism you can say it to my face constructively and I WILL try to change my behavior.

I think making a post about it and then blocking me so I can't see it or respond to it is counterintuitive, and I think trying to gather "proof" that I'm a bad person over me saying that a) I don't like other doubles, b) have friends I didn't know were problematic and c) wanting to kill myself is not the way to go about this situation in my opinion. If I have problematic friends, instead of calling me a pick me, just tell me what they did instead of sending an anonymous message telling me I'm a bad person. In our Telegram group chat, I've stated my boundaries both towards Anira and Daqota.

About my other claims

On another note, I'm not being nice to the people that aren't being nice to me. I thought that would be obvious. I don't enjoy being hounded on my personal blogs. Also, making fun of me for having suicidal crisis is NOT okay, no matter how much you dislike me. The fact that I'm having a bad day and had to take a trip to the hospital about it to not kill myself and you people are adding it as if it were problematic and I deserve to be isolated because of it is insane to me.

I NEVER said I poured bleach into my eyes, also... I said I almost drank bleach, is all. Because I wanted to kill myself. I DO need professional help. I've BEEN trying to get it. Unfortunately my family is gone for about three months and I am currently living alone, mostly. Anyway, that's not the point--I'm not trying to victimize myself in any way, but I do want to say that I think it's unfair that I don't get to know what's being said about me and people are spreading misinfo about me. I'm not helpless and not stupid, so I can admit that maybe I don't act the best of ways sometimes, but I also don't think it's reasonable or okay to pick on me instead of just... expressing your criticism directly to me. You're not obligated to, of course, but I'd say going on to demonizing me immediately isn't the right move either.

[waterycrescent]

“The sea hides away the most beautiful of treasures..”

“The stars are the wishes of the cookies. They happen to lead me here..”

{MOD INTRO + HEADCANONS + BOUNDARIES BELOW!!}

Mod Intro!!

• Hello! I’m Neuvi!

• My Main Blog; @neuvineuvs

• Other blogs!

• @darknessvanquisher

• @theflameoverlord

• @webweaveroflies

{May add more!!}

Boundaries!!

• Mod is a minor, no NSFW asks, this also includes suggestive asks!

• Homophobia, Xenophobia, Racism and Ableism won’t be tolerated on this blog

• I’m asking you, please do not send vents or gore. I am particularly poor at handling subject matter of sorts and I’m not comfortable with this kind of stuff

• I may be fast or slow with replies, please don’t be impatient as I’m usually busy half the time 😭

• I’m active around 1900 - 2300 GMT

• Don’t be afraid to ask if you’re unable to figure out what I meant when typing! I can be cryptic at times due to writing style

• Some asks may be ignored if I’m uncomfortable answering, hate messages or may just be buried. Any constant harassment will lead to blocking

• I’m NOT Sea Fairy or Moonlight. Keep this in mind.

• This blog ships Sea Fairy and Moonlight together!

• I’m socially awkward so language may be a bit stiff outside of RP 😭

Info!!

• This isn’t anyway related to the other AU I’m (attempting to 😭) build. The other beasts’ and ancients’ stories don’t change but this AU looks at Beast Sea Fairy Cookie and Ancient Moonlight Cookie.

• Moonlight is the light of union and Sea Fairy is the light of isolation, both of their stories probably will unfold when I can plan out more 😭

Headcanons!!

Sea Fairy

• Harsh trust issues and is hesitant to welcome in anyone

• Actually has unstable powers, can tend to accidentally freeze people if she blows a fuse with her temper

• Unhealthily reliant on others when she fully trusts them, willing to divulge anything for them

• She froze herself alongside her people when she first chose isolation, slowly began to unfreeze everything overtime.

• Doesn’t realise how lonely she is until moonlight first meets her

• Touch starved but rarely seems to make it known, aims to just have a simple hand on her cheek or so.

• Tender heart, doesn’t realise how she is actively hurting her people

• Used to be known as the ‘peace keeper’ and now is the ‘ice fairy’.

• She’d choose to drown everyone if it meant to fulfil the wish of happiness for her people.

• Her gills aren’t exactly.. natural. Will tell of the harsh dedication she chose to go through for the sake of keeping outsiders from approaching.

Moonlight

• Moonlight is able to create anything with that staff of her’s, she is limited though as it needs to be something a cookie has wished for

• She is naïve due to the fact that her connection with actual cookies only reaches so far, she is too trusting for her own good

• Her voice easily makes people fall asleep

• A constant optimist, all the cookies’ dreams give her hope for a brighter future on earth read

• If a child were to tug on her hair or dress, they’d quite literally be able to stick their hand into a void-like space.

• No matter as much as she wants to embrace Sea Fairy, the two couldn’t as the moon controls the tides

• Strong Willed, there is no stopping Moonlight whenever she puts her mind to something.

• Moonlight struggles with attachment and can find herself easily attached to people, unfortunately learnt her lesson when trying to save a cookie whose dreams she held near once.

Appearance??

Tags!!

blue moon - ask responses

mod is drifting - mod note

waving away - RP thread

the waves aren’t without their moon - AU related??

washed in - drawings

[webweaveroflies]

“OHOHOHO! Another showstopper in town? Wait! THAT’S ME!”

“I’ve decided to grace my presence on this platform! How wonderful~”

{MOD INTRO + HEADCANONS + BOUNDARIES BELOW!!}

Mod Intro!!

• Hello! I’m Neuvi!

• My Main Blog; @neuvineuvs

• Other blogs!

• @darknessvanquisher

• @theflameoverlord

• @waterycrescent

{May add more!!}

Boundaries!!

• Mod is a minor, no NSFW asks, this also includes suggestive asks!

• Homophobia, Xenophobia, Racism and Ableism won’t be tolerated on this blog

• I’m asking you, please do not send vents or gore. I am particularly poor at handling subject matter of sorts and I’m not comfortable with this kind of stuff

• I may be fast or slow with replies, please don’t be impatient as I’m usually busy half the time 😭

• I’m active around 1900 - 2300 GMT

• Don’t be afraid to ask if you’re unable to figure out what I meant when typing! I can be cryptic at times due to writing style

• Some asks may be ignored if I’m uncomfortable answering, hate messages or may just be buried. Any constant harassment will lead to blocking

• I’m NOT Shadow Milk. Keep this in mind.

• Shipping specifically on this blog won’t be mentioned much as I don’t have a very good clue about specific SMC dynamics

• I’m socially awkward so language may be a bit stiff outside of RP 😭

Info!!

• This blog follows a particular AU revolving around Fire Spirit and Wind Archer! It’s an evolving plot line based around Beast Yeast, Shadow Milk is also important to this story!

• The AU is called ‘The Moth Returns to the Salt’, (It doesn’t make any sense to the story dw 😞) and I don’t know how to explain the story but it should be under the tags of #crk the moth returns to the salt au or #stabbing the last of it’s wings.

Headcanons!!

• Shadow milk has horrible eyesight thanks to his many eyes, yet he also refuses to admit it

• Beast cookies have more ‘animalistic traits’ this applies to shadow milk too as he has cat like tendencies.

• His magic comes at the cost of his body, as he has a fragile body it leads to occasional crumbling.

• Workaholic.

• Shadow Milk has a poor relationship with the other beasts to the point they don’t talk unless necessary.

• He is isolated, to the point of if earthbread was ending he wouldn’t know until months later

• He doesn’t exactly need to breath, does so to not confuse other cookies

• He has fluctuating energy levels with some hard tasks taking from hours to seconds to finish.

• His form isn’t fully physical, due to the cracking of his souljam he isn’t always able to sustain object permanence

Appearance??

• The Sprite work isn’t exactly how I hc him as it was rushed but it’s probably roughly how I view him, the drawing is just how I draw him for comics :3

• I think I’ll rework both of them cause they’re kinda botched 😭

Tags!!

• truthfully full of lies - ask responses

• mod has been deceived - mod note

• meticulous web - RP thread

• stabbing the last of it’s wings - AU post

• scholar notes - Drawing

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Aita for isolating myself from my dearest friend? (♻️♻️♻️ to find later)

So ive had this friend for years now and we've seen each other through our absolute worst and we are way beyond platonic atp in which it's neither romantic (we're both aromantic) nor platonic. Anyway I recently moved cities and while we're not that far away we haven't seen each other in a long time due to work related stuff and busy schedules, but we both talk almost every day online for hours on end. Now recently I've been feeling like he ignores me and like I'm his second choice when it comes to talking online because he has tons of online friends. He sometimes takes hours to answer my messages and I know this guy I am 100% sure he's not busy because he is always on his phone so it's definitely a choice to not answer me, and while I do understand people sometimes don't want to answer right away, I feel like he has always done this and I don't feel right when I put so much effort into maintaining a friendship when he barely sends a message to me (I'm always the one initiating conversations). And while he does constantly tell me how much I mean to him, I don't see any way in which he shows it apart from initiating touch when we're together. So I've decided to just stop initiating conversations with him and just reply if he does talk to me, but I've decided to put in as much effort as he does. So far he's texted me once (in a month and a half) and he was asking me what I thought about a show we're both watching. I feel like he's kind of alone because he's queer and in a not so queer friendly environment so the people he hangs out with don't really get him (he told me this) but is still feel like shit when I know he's talking to people he doesn't even know irl while leaving me on seen

So aita?

What are these acronyms?

[greyjoy-girl]

Salt and Snow: Part VIII

Summary: After Balon Greyjoy's uprising fails, a young Theon Greyjoy is taken to Winterfell as a ward and hostage. Within the castle's looming stone walls, he meets Lord Stark's bastard daughter, a sharp-eyed girl who seems to look straight through him. As the years pass, their shared loneliness transforms their childhood rivalry into a complicated bond forged from shared loneliness and feelings of isolation. As tensions rise in Westeros, war breaks out and Theon is pulled between Pyke and Winterfell, testing the strength of their bond.

Pairing: Theon Greyjoy x Snow! Reader

Warnings: Brief descriptions of battlefield violence, execution

Length: 2k words

Notes: Still staying mostly in line with canon for now, probably will begin to change things soon (I cannot deal with the Reek stuff those chapters make me so sad, I cannot imagine writing them)

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299 AC—Late Winter, Winterfell

The ravens come less often now. You feed them anyway, scraps of gristle, oats, whatever’s left over at the end of meals, just in case. No news comes. You’re desperate for word from somewhere, anywhere. Anything would be better than the stillness.

Winterfell isn’t empty, not really, though it certainly is the most abandoned you’ve ever seen it. Servants still scrub the hearths, boys train in the yard under Rodrik’s watch, clothes hang on lines to dry. Bran sits in the high seat now, his crippled legs to small, hanging there, unmoving. Rickon grows wilder by the day, his moods as flighty as the wind.

You tend to Bran most mornings, read letters for Luwin when they give him headaches, keep Rickon out of trouble. He’d bit your arm the other day, pretending to be a wolf, he’d even drawn blood, wouldn’t stop growling until you called him Shaggydog. At night, Rickon crawls into bed with Bran and listens to Old Nan as she tells stories of the Others, dead things beyond the wall. You don’t like the stories, don’t understand why Bran insists on hearing them, so you use it as an excuse to return to your chambers.

Osha watches you sometimes. She’s still got the chain around her ankles, and you don’t quite trust her yet. You don’t like the way her piercing eyes seem to wait for you to snap.

“You’re not what I expected,” she said one day as you pulled nettles from the Glass Garden. “For a noble girl.”

“I’m not noble.”

She smiled, showing her teeth. “That’s what I mean.”

The smallfolk come to you more now. With Robb, Sansa, and Arya gone, the only real Starks left in Winterfell are children. Now, they treat you like a member of the Stark household, regardless of your origin. You help patch torn clothes, rock crying babes while their mothers are busy in the kitchen, tend to the livestock.

Sometimes, when no one’s paying attention and you find a free moment, you walk in the Godswood and stare at the heart tree. It stares back. You ask the gods to tell you something, give you a sign, but they’re as silent as the ravens.

You still think of Theon. More than you like. Less than he deserves, maybe.

You’re under no delusions about him. You’re certain he’s lying with another girl while you sit in Winterfell, wondering. He’d be stupid to miss you as much as you miss him.

You don’t send him any ravens. They aren’t meant to carry messages that don’t have answers.

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299 AC—Late Winter, Camp on the Banks of the Green Fork

         The camp stinks of sweat, smoke, and damp wool. Rain had poured down a week ago, leaving everything soaked through. Even now, days later, the ground still squelches under boots and every time a wind comes through, piss and mildew assault Theon’s nose. He sits by the fire, picking at a skewer of roasted—burned, more like—meat. It’s weeks since he’s had a proper meal, not since he left Winterfell.

Still, his place at the fire was near center, not on the outskirts with the bannermen’s squires or the men-at-arms. Right by Robb, his tent pitched close, his name called when they met to discuss plans.

That counted for something, didn’t it?

Besides, he’d earned it. Ridden through mud at the boy’s side, supported him even when the lords doubted him. He’d watch him raise his sword in battle for the first time, bringing it down and cleanly slicing through the shoulder of a man twice his age. He’d watched as Robb grew from a posturing child into a half-decent commander. For all Robb’s victories, Theon Greyjoy was there at his side.

It should have filled him with pride. And it did, mostly. Except for that place deep inside him, where his father’s voice echoes, screaming at him where he’s from, how the Starks killed his brothers, took him from his home. He ignores it, when he can, focuses on the pride sitting uncomfortably in his gut, like a meal that’s just a bit off. He sits up straighter around the lords, speaks louder, holds his reins tighter when he rides. He’s got to keep hold onto the pride.

He hates how much he cares. He hates when he thinks of Winterfell. Of her.

There are girls in the camp. Washerwomen, they call them. Camp followers. Whores, more like. Men would take one of them by the arm, stumble into a tent, and walk out, smiling wide. Theon had done it too, a few times. More than a few times. It’s be easy, no names, no emotions, no promises.

But every time, he’d close his eyes, imagine it was her in his arms instead—her furrowed brows when furrow when he got under her skin, how her flushed cheeks in the cold, the way her lips looked, tasted—and every time, he’d push the thought away. Out. No place here, not when he’s two hundred leagues away. He shouldn’t think about her here, amidst the rot, the blood in the grass, ash in the wind. So he doesn’t.

That night, Theon goes with a washerwoman. Towheaded with fast hands, quick to laugh but never letting it reach her eyes. Leaning against a cart, she’d smiled at him as he passed, shawl wrapped loosely around her shoulders, leaving a window of flesh he knows he shouldn’t look at. “Can I help you, my prince?” she’d asked, voice low and coy. He could’ve walked on, could’ve sneered and acted above everything. But he doesn’t.

He wants warmth. Temporary warmth is better than sitting in the soggy dirt, thinking about things he can’t have. Warmth for silver sounds like a fair trade to him. He takes what was offered.

His tent was cold and smelled of damp leather. She was well-practiced, efficient. Touched him like she’d been trained for it. And he let it happen, closed his eyes and tried to pretend it was her, but no matter how hard he tries, he can’t. And he feels all the worse for trying. When it’s done, she rolls away and leaves him alone, breathing heavy and sweat sticking to his skin.

He stares at a spot on the black fabric near the top of the structure, clenching his jaw. He feels nothing. Hollow. That’s what he tells himself, at least.

It’s easier that way.

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299 AC—Late Winter, Winterfell

         The raven comes at first light.

You’d been unable to sleep, decided to tidy the woodpiles in the yard when you heard it. You run towards the rookery, watch it land in the roost, its black wings slowing to a stop. You can feel your stomach drop. Ravens don’t come this early unless they carry something cruel.

Maester Luwin descends from the tower, gripping a scroll tightly in his hands, his arm still bandaged from Shaggydog’s attack in the Crypts. You follow him to the Great Hall, looking at the black wax seal the whole way.

Rickon and Bran are already there, accompanied by Osha and Hodor. Shaggydog growls endlessly but no one stops him.

Luwin clears his throat and reads the letter aloud.

“The traitor Eddard Stark, Lord of Winterfell, was executed at the Great Sept of Baelor on the orders of King Joffrey Baratheon, First of His Name.”

The words echo in your ears. Luwin keeps speaking, but you don’t hear it. Bran starts yelling something, Rickon runs off somewhere, you can hear your heartbeat pounding in your ears.

You don’t cry. Not yet. You just walk out of the hall, stand in the shadows of the walls, your head light.

It’s your fault, you think. You’d wished for ravens. For news. You hadn’t said what kind of news you wanted. You didn’t realize you should’ve. And now, everything is ruined. You’re silent for the rest of the day.

When you bring Bran willowbark tea for his headache, you don’t say Lord Stark’s name. You’re not sure you have the right to. He had been your father, everyone knew that. But he hadn’t been your Father, the way he was for Bran. He’d never comforted you when you fought like he did for Sansa and Arya, never trained you in lordly duties like Robb, never lifted you on his shoulders like Rickon. To you, he was just a presence, like a northern wind, cold, distant, and constant.

Still, the grief was there. A strange dull knife pressing against your ribs. You don’t know what to do with it. So you work.

You keep yourself busy, rubbing wet clothes over a washboard until your hands are raw, pounding herbs into fine pastes, sweeping in corners of kitchens where no one will know to find you. Inventory the food stores, patch the bed linens, organize supplies for the holdfasts, promise frightened children things will be ok. You don’t know if it’s true. You’re not sure you believe it yourself.

Maybe if you keep saying it, it’ll be true. But for now, you distract yourself, focus on the present, on what you can do here. You don’t have time to think about things that hurt.

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299 AC—Late Winter, Riverrun

The torchlight flickers in Riverrun’s great hall, casting dancing shadows. Smoke hangs in the air, mixing with the scent of ale and food long gone cold. Theon leans on a pillar near Robb’s seat. Not quite beside him, not equal, but close enough. Close enough to matter.

Robb’s changed. Sits straighter, talks in a deep voice like his father once had. Hasn’t smiled since they got the news. The boy he’d grown up with was gone, replaced by a battle-hardened commander, sword slick with blood. Theon had helped make that happen.

He’d been there, seen Jaime Lannister’s face when he’d realized he’d fallen into a trap, the way his golden smirk fell. He’d watched the lion struggle in his cage, glory crumbling before the Stark and Tully armies. The songs would say Robb had outwitted him, and maybe it was true.

But they wouldn’t mention Theon. They wouldn’t sing about the arrows he’d loose, how he’d ridden by Robb’s side, the man he’d gutted in the mud.

They’d only remember Robb. Still. He had been a part of it, and that had to count for something.

The Greatjon interrupts his thoughts. “Your Grace,” he calls, voice thundering and full of heat. “We’ve bent the knee before. To the Targaryens. But it was the dragons we submitted to , and the dragons are dead.”

Murmurs spread across the hall, hushed agreements and conversations. The air is electric with anticipation.

“We let them rule over us from their flowery seats in the South,” he continues. “With their new gods. But no more. I don’t know the Lannisters. I don’t know the Baratheons. But I do know the North. I know Stark blood. And I know the boy who won this war.” He slams his fist into the table, his stein spilling onto the ground.

“The King in the North!” he yells, pointing his massive sword towards Robb.

One by one, the other lords follow. Lord Karstark, then Umber. Glover, Mormont, Blackwood, even the river lords. They chant, “King in the North,” a disorganized chorus filled with hope and pride.

Theon’s throat is dry. He’s seen what happens to lords who declare themselves kings. He’s seen what it did to his family.

Robb stands, the light catching his face and setting his auburn hair aflame. He nods, once, and the cries grow louder.

Theon joins in a beat too late. Just enough to be noticed. He doesn’t look at Catleyn Stark, not wanting to see the suspicion and grief in her face.

Later, when the hall empties, Theon steps outside for air. He looks up at the sky, a strange red comet streaking through the black. A flaming arrow. A bloody sword. The men call it an omen, saying it’s welcoming the King in the North.

 He stares at it for a long time. Who cares what they call it. Let them hail Robb. Let them kneel, and fight for him, and beat their fists for Northern pride. Theon had fought beside him too, bled beside him, killed for him.

If there’s glory to be had, it’s his too. Greyjoy or not. He smiles his crooked smile, always smiling, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. Let them have their kings. He knows what he’s worth. And someday, they would too.

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[barschter000]

Hi so you asked about my demi Barok hc so I figured I'd just send it here if that's fine!

For starters, I think it adds to the loneliness and isolation he felt for 10 years. He's not really meeting anyone he forms a connection with after his trust in others has been so degraded, so I think it's a neat to see how he's been affected through his sexuality if that makes sense? Like his lack of attraction to anyone for sooo long showing how little he's actually gotten to know people.

Next, if we're to say he did have a religious background (which I do believe), I think him being demi makes it extremely interesting (and kinda funny honestly). So he's growing up religious and being taught about the virtues of waiting til marriage and resisting temptation when he's young, and for the most part he thinks he's killing it in that respect. It's real easy to resist temptation when you don't really have much! "This abstinence stuff is easy!" he might think to himself. And then somewhere along the line he'll get really close to someone. Romantically, he might be able to power through it (though if it's towards a man it'll be more distressing). A bump in the road for sure.

But then the sexual attraction comes.

And he's thinking to himself that this MUST be a test from God to resist his urges. Maybe he's felt this a few times in his life and anxiously tries to repress it each time thinking that's what God wants him to do.

And of course (since I like benbaro and this is bound to come up), he's felt this with Albert, who I wanna talk about next. I think it'd be fun for Albert to also be demi and have a wildly different experience with it than Barok. I think if Albert starts feeling sexual attraction towards someone, he becomes extremely interested in the circumstances that led up to it, and tries to pin down exactly what is responsible for this. Overall though, he welcomes it and has a much better relationship with his sexuality than Barok does. I think of him as the more sex favorable of the two, and he might even have it with someone he's not attracted to (to see what it's like, maybe he's just bored, etc., who knows!).

I also think both of them being demi has fascinating implications for both the 10 years they were apart and them reuniting. This part I don't have a set hc for since I think most directions you can take it in is quite good. Like, did they somehow manage to keep that bond all this time? Or did both of them lose it and it returned when they started seeing each other again? Or did only one of them lose it initially before it returned while the other was still pining for the other all this time? I think either way it's fun to sorta dissect their connection with each other like that :)

SO YEAH, I know this was long, so gold star if you read it all jksdfh thank you for asking about it!

Yippie demi Barok thoughts!! I really enjoyed reading them, thank you for leaving such a long message!! :D

Yeah, I think I see what you mean! That he is aware that other people do experience attraction and connections - he sees couples in public or in court, or even just friends hanging out as he walks about London - but he doesn't experience any of this because he doesn't have any connections to anyone anymore... I can imagine this contributing to Barok feeling even more alienated from society and "inhuman" (there is a line by Stronghart where he refers to Barok as "his" prosecutor that won't leave my head. I feel like people kind of stopped treating him like a person and considering his blatant disregard for his own safety and autonomy, I feel like Barok kind of internalized that. Anyway).

Oh, Barok absolutely grew up religious in my book, he makes way too many Christian allusions for me to not think that ("If that is my fate, let God decide", the sacrificial lamb line, him saying Kazuma is to "crucify" him in 2-5's trial).

BUT YEAH HE'S JUST LIKE "What temptation lmao, I'm going to get a good grade in Religion, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve!" He witnesses Klint (who I think is actively bisexual) flirting with someone and thinks "wow skill issue".

I 100% agree on the test from God thing. Especially because he doesn't experience such attractions consistently, so he never really reaches a point of "I can't help it anyway, so it's no use resisting". And with his "If that's my fate, let God decide" line, it seems like Barok doesn't feel that he is in control of his life and just lets things happen to him because it's God who's doing it.

I also 100% agree with your view of Albert's view of sexuality! I feel like he sees sexuality in general as something that is simply human and harmless most of the time, it's the repression that is harmful (a while ago, I've been reading through publications by Magnus Hirschfeld where he medically described natural deviation from the binary understanding of afab and amab bodies and the "subsequent" deviations from heteronormativity to argue that because it's naturally occuring, it's normal and should be respected, so I'm taking some inspiration from that). And because the human experience is so complex, he wants to understand it! Through scientific methods of course.

I'm trying to think of how Albert developed this for his time rather radical viewpoint when everyone around him is insisting the opposite is true. I think it's because to me at least, he seems like the type of child/teenager/person who would constantly ask the "why" of things. I mean, why do people think sex that results in children is good but sex that doesn't is bad when children are often seen as just another mouth to feed? And if it's so bad, why is it apparently so good that people write and make art about and take pictures of it? So I believe just because they're not logical, Albert deviates from social norms a little and arrives at such viewpoints whereas Barok just kind of accepts things because that's what he's supposed to do.

I think Albert just telling him that he doesn't have to believe everything people say would fix so much. That other people don't know him better than he knows himself. That just because they don't appreciate his sexuality or the lack thereof doesn't mean that they're correct and it shouldn't be cherished and it cannot make him happy.

And I also don't really settle on one interpretation of their relationship during that ten year gap because all of them are so interesting to explore! Feelings kept small and silenced for so long suddenly bursting open like a dam or old feelings blossoming again and it would almost feel like nostalgia if it weren't for those feelings to be joined by newer affections.

[yakuzabrainrotlive]

Finished Like a Dragon! 87 hours of play time all in all. Do NOT ask me how I squeezed in that amount of hours in less than 3 weeks, I'm already ashamed enough😭

Some general stuff and opinions at the bottom part of the post!

My (way too high) levels before the final stretch (around +2 levels for final bosses):

I'm... considering starting Gaiden right away because it dropped into my mailbox today. But I have an 8-day long trip back home starting December 2nd, and I'm not quite sure if I wanna start and then get interrupted. But I also wanna start Infinite Wealth asap... hmmm...

Good to see Date doing well. Kinda surprised Adachi and him are pals. Serena being the base of operations once again, I shouldn't be surprised.

...AND the Millennium Tower being the stage for the final battle again, too.

I'm gonna be fr; CAN WE BLOW THIS TOWER UP?? Like properly?? Ever since the damn thing was built (AND before it, since the Empty Lot was the ground underneath it), it's been nothing but a place for bloodshed. Almost like it's cursed and needs blood sacrifices to keep itself going. Now, I'm not trying to blame the tower, but... something's up. It needs to go.

My dad when I don't answer messages he sends at 1am

Very good acting from the gang. What a bunch of silly goobers.

I've hated Arakawa jr. since the beginning of the game, so you'll have to excuse me being petty and saving this rocket launcher just for this moment. It was satisfying to finish the fight this way.

It was cool to fight 1v1 at the end, but I was kinda scared I'd die and have to start everything again. Even though it was pretty much impossible considering my overall level lol

Awww. Ichi is very sweet. Almost too sweet; I feel like that's gonna cause him a lot of pain in the future.

....do I sound like Majima when he talked to Kiryu at the start of Kiwami right now? lmao

Despite the game kinda trying to make me feel bad for Arakawa, I truly didn't feel anything when I saw this. Well, I did feel very bad for Ichiban, but I really couldn't be bothered to feel anything for this dude in particular. Bye 👋🏻🙂

Adachi finally getting his closure was nice. Good for him! 🫶🏻

sighhhhh *rapid-fire screenshot noises* 😩

Kinda curious to see where the whole security firm business goes. Sounds... weird right now, but I'll let RGG cook. Kinda hard to imagine Majima sticking around for something like that, but maybe I'm wrong. Maybe he'll stay for Saejima and Daigo. Who knows.

Kiryu will probably fuck off somewhere again because of the contract, so I'm not even gonna speculate what's gonna happen with him. For all I know he's going back to driving a taxi in Nagasugai. Or maybe he'll go live in a forest somewhere far away and live as a hunter-gatherer in isolation. Nothing would surprise me at this point. Kinda sorta hoping he'll vibe with Watase for a while, but that's pretty much as likely as Majima growing another eye.

Ichiban staying with his team was a given, but it was still relieving to hear it from the man himself.

NOW. How did I like the game?

Uhhh... How do I put this. Fuck it, I'll be honest: NOT one of my favourites. The battle system is a MASSIVE part of that.

I'm just gonna say it now: I didn't enjoy the fights in the game. As soon as I got Hariti's Amulet, I never took it off. I just couldn't be bothered to put up with all that. I didn't find fights thrilling or engaging - not even boss battles - besides a few select situations. Those situations being Kiryu switching styles and the Majima + Saejima combo. And, unfortunately for this game, fights tend to be a big part of these games. So yeah.

The plot? Solid enough, I suppose? I didn't really feel drawn-in before chapter 12, but it was... okay. Didn't blow my mind, but also not bad by any metric. About the middle ground (or slightly above it) for what I've seen from the games this far. I know a lot of people love the plot and I can definitely see why! Idk what my issue was, but it is what it is. Maybe I'll watch just the cutscenes at some point and re-evaluate.

(new) characters? Cool. It was interesting having a whole squad after spending so much time solo in the previous games. The group dynamics were cool. I do feel like Joon-gi and Zhao didn't really have too much interaction with the rest of the group besides Ichiban? Yeah, the convos on the street were nice enough, but besides that, I honestly can't remember those two interacting too much with the others in a more casual setting? Idk, maybe my memory is just overloaded rn. I might be remembering it all totally wrong and forgetting stuff. Overall a nice group. Cozy vibes fr.

Favourite newbies... Saeko and Adachi. Maybe a bit random, but I just clicked with them the most. But I do have to give shoutouts to Eri and Joon-gi for pretty much cutting battle time by 75% with their devastating Divine Shot + Darts Airstrike combo. Not too many lucky survivors around after that.

Another huge shoutout to the hundreds of Invested Vagabonds I tore apart for exp. I will never be able to repay my debt to their kind. RIP kings 🫡

Soundtrack slapped. Substories were fun; among TOP3 games when it comes to those. Picking up bugs was relaxing, so shoutout to the bugs too.

All in all? It was okay! Probably not gonna replay the game because of how much the battle system frustrated me. Yes, even the infamous blockuza 3 surpasses this one in my books. If you enjoyed the battle system in this game, that's cool and valid! It just wasn't my cup of tea. Not gonna go into specific details in this post. Feel free to ask if you want said details. When I started the game, I did make it clear that I'm very picky about turn-based stuff, so y'all were warned.

[shentheauthor]

Well hello! I’m a smiley puffer fish. So I have seen your Au stuff a few time but didn’t getting into it and when I did I found it pretty interesting like… I really want to know what Fuxi’s messaged would be when he send it to Nuwa but I think that’s for later.

I have realized that you also swapped Chien and shanghai_9000’s roles and I really want to know how she’s doing like… is she gonna try to find Shanghai like they did to find her or just doing her other thing. Also is there gonna be like a little cutscene that she will met with Shanghai again? Like… met them as a broken scrapes, a fixed version of them but no longer have a self awareness, or just don’t and found a message that they’ve sent to her but either way I will enjoy the answers you give me very much

(Sorry If I have a little bad grammar)

Hi! Thank you for the ask!

Fuxi’s letter is going to be its own thing later. I might make a comic or illustration for it, so it’ll take some time.

Chien is a Dusk Guardian who went rogue after discovering the truth, but she has no idea where Shanhai 9000 is. It still ended up with Yi, but it’s very hidden now and never got repaired.

Chien is looking for Shanhai 9000, and as a result, she’s very familiar with the map chip system. She’s good at what she does! She’s a little more isolated from the rest of the group, but she does interact with them from time to time.

She will eventually find Shanhai 9000. I haven’t decided what state it’ll be in when she does. It could be broken, it could be fixed, it could have gone haywire like the Shanhai in Jiequan’s area. I’ll figure that out with time.

[pathological-runaway]

thank you for responding to my asks even though you knew who it was... for the record i didnt lie in the first one!! its very true. i just struggle not to speak like myself i guess...

and no worries about not responding recently its totally understandable. we cant control our mental illnesses we just have to learn to live with them and sometimes they decide to make their presence Very known. im very ok with waiting through periods of isolation and as cliche as it may sound i hope your brain starts being a little kinder to you soon, i know you deserve it after all.

is it ok if i keep sending anons btw? totally ok if not. i can go without them, but it would just help me out a lot personally to be able to send daily messages and to know how youre doing, so id really appreciate it if so

-- ☁️😺 (they dont have a whimsicott emoji so i have to make do)

p.s. i know your brain is telling you otherwise right now but i really do love spending time with and chatting with you. i know im not the only one too. i look up to you too especially the amount of courage youve shown in the past few months, it means a lot that you took a chance on us. i also really admire your work and finally im sorry if anything ive said/done has made your avpd worse, i did not intend to at all. 💛

you can keep sending anons. just (i know it's gonna sound weird) preferably without saying nice things to me. kindness actually makes me spiral even more :') silly stuff's fine. just don't try to comfort me

thanks for everything

[captainstarburst]

lately ive just found myself thinking a lot about like. the way this year started for me. and when i was thinking of writing it all down in a big post i wanted it to have some kind of message or something but i frankly just don't really know what to make of it all..? and i dont think ive really been processing it the way i've processed most other things that happened to me.

i had a big friendship schism pretty much right on the new year- just a really big mess that was the cause of multiple years worth of bad communication and it was kind of a thing i could see being inevitable but like.. i dont know i tried to hold on to everyone involved because i had basically no other friends and i will care for the people i Do have so so so deeply. and this was all right before i came forward and spoke up about being stalked and impersonated and harrassed (and while it was actively still happening!!!) so i was deeply deeply depressed and suicidal. just in a very bad place.

i hadnt been speaking to pretty much anyone because i genuinely thought i was going to take my own life. it was really bad. and instead of being offered much of any sympathies one day i just get a message from one of my (at the time) best friends where he just.. asked to talk and then began immediately accusing me of ignoring him and berating me for making things difficult for him. and when i told him i was quiet because of how bad my mental health was he told me to "come back when i was thinking rationally" which is. maybe an odd thing to say to a schizophrenic idk. this guy had also kept information about my stalker from me because he didnt want it to be a "thing" despite knowing i already knew about it and knowing it was destroying my mental health.

when i finally decided to cut my losses because that group just made me feel terrible i tried to send him a very thought out goodbye message just to find he'd already blocked me without even saying goodbye. pretty much right after he sent me a happy birthday message (that i did respond to!) and then when i finally found a way to get my message to him i had.. pretty much none of those other friends backing me up they all just told me they were picking him over me. which hurts but i get it i guess.

and i dont know its just difficult to still see these people around on occasion when i feel so hurt by it all. and its even worse seeing the way i know it hurts people i love More than it hurts me. it hurts that i was never given a proper apology for the multiple times i was berated or for having information about the traumatic event i was experiencing kept from me. it hurts that even people who said they wouldnt cut contact completely or block me did anyways. that shit just stings.

and i dont really know why i'm laying all of this out here. maybe just so i feel less crazy about it because i've kind of been pushing it all down for months and months because i feel like other people had it worse in this situation and i dont want to make it about me but it just sucks. a lot. i dont know how to process losing the only friends i had for 5 fucking years when i was so isolated bc i was being tortured by a guy and was and still am terrified of any other people so i never made new friends. and i'd expressed being worried about having no one else to them and i got thrown to the curb anyways.

in the end i am glad to be away from that situation (years and years of terrible communication did a number on me i think) and im glad i went public with the other stuff that was happening to me. but i havent even begun to heal from either event and i feel like its just eating away at me and i dont know how to make it hurt less.

like i said. this post doesn't really have any morals im just talking because i dont feel good and. im not sure. maybe i want comfort or just a sense of recognition when someone presses the like button on my post. but if you read all of this and want to take anything away from it. please communicate with the people around you. dont let little things pile up and fester until you explode and take it out on them. and please be kind to the disabled and psychotic and mentally ill people in your life- not everything they experience is something you have to go on a mission to fix, just comfort them when they need it. and please for the love of god at least talk out a plan if you dont want to be friends with someone anymore dont just cut them off with no warning. come to some kind of mutual agreement its a tough and horrible conversation to have Yeah. but you're a cruel asshole if you don't in all honesty

[wings-of-a-landmine-boy]

my personal experience with episodes, below

as you may have noticed, i have disappeared. this is because i was having a bipolar and trauma based episode. this was one of my most severe episodes, despite only lasting around a week. i wish to explain it in detail here.

gonna answer main questions i get/should be explained.

what are episodes like?

completely depends on the person. the episode i just got out of and am recovering from was severe. here’s some stuff that can happen/i experienced:

- i completely cut myself off from communicating with anyone except my father. meaning, i deleted all forms of contact except tumblr, since i found it was a safe space and i used it to mark down thoughts. i didn’t interact with anyone on this app however. this is for a variety of reasons, but not because i hate my friends, nor did they do anything wrong.

- i spent most of my time in my room, listening to music doing various things by myself. i didn’t each much due to low appetite. didn’t go to school.

- memory loss/disassociation as well. there were some times where i legitimately could not remember who i was. usually happens in the middle of an episode.

- guilt, for isolating myself, for existing, for hurting others. i also have a fear of reaching out once more after an episode, due to expectation of anger because i isolated.

- drug usage, smoking specifically, and some self harm as well. still wanting to smoke a lot more than usual, assuming it’s gonna go away soon.

- delusions. these usually are a factor in why i isolate so heavily. in the deepest part of my episodes, i am under a complete delusion that everyone hates me and i am a complete burden. not like normal worries- i mean, im convinced they’re all waiting for the next opportunity to kill me. this influences isolation, which of course does not help.

episodes act like a roller coaster for me. once it starts, i can’t really stop it and it just gets worse and worse from there, until it slows down and i’m left neutral for a few days, before i feel completely normal again. currently i am at the neutral state.

what should you do if you suspect i might be having an episode?

i generally am now trying to give as much of a warning or signal as i can considering my state during an episode. often i do not know how severe it may be, so i dont know how to anticipate it.

if i leave similarly to how i did during this episode, it will almost always mean i wont be able to communicate for a while, whatever format that entails.

do’s/dont’s (these are my attempt at expressing my needs. i am unable to communicate needs during an episode. i am not saying this to fish for attention.)

do: send me asks and reach out with positive intent. that’s completely okay, don’t worry. i’ve received that, and it did much help with this episode. hearing your support was very helpful. even if i don’t respond, i probably did see it. it really helps. i cannot communicate, but i can still comprehend. a reminder that you still love me or miss me helps with the delusions i often face in episodes. you can absolutely send me asks as if it’s a text message.

don’t: ask negative questions or interact with the assumption i am simply ghosting you out of spite. this will just cause more guilt and worsen my state. i really do understand that this may seem selfish for me to just abandon everyone, but it is not a conscious choice i make. i truly feel horrible for it.

what triggers an episode?

lots of stuff. this time: build up of stress, friendships ending, my abuser contacting and trying to meet with me, identity loss, learning shit my friends said about me, physical health issues, and some more major things i don’t wanna get into.

overall it can be a variety of things. can be one major thing, or a lot of smaller things.

notes about this episode (mostly for me):

- started june 15th, became severe on the 17th (slowly deteriorated throughout the day until i isolated at 5:00 pm ish)

- did not contact anyone, at all. i vaguely remember posting something on this blog but im not sure if it was just a private post.

- i do remember posting a goodbye at the beginning of the episode, but it was deleted sometime during it

- depressive episode

summary:

my mental disorders are a huge burden to me. i’m slowly working through them, so i can eventually get to a point where im able to manage my episodes without causing issues. i am again, really sorry that my friends need to deal with this. it would absolutely be difficult having your friend leave without explanation and completely disappear.

i’m going to start doing my absolute best to provide as much warning if i’m going to have an episode. normally, by the time i realize it’s happening im already unable to communicate, so i will continue to do my best.

if you have questions, please dm me.

you can contact me now. i may not reach out first for a bit, but if you message me first i will most likely respond.

during an episode, please, do not perceive what i say/post during an episode as who i really am. if i sent or posted anything weird, please excuse it. if it was posted and later deleted during my episode, there’s a very high chance i don’t remember what it was, so please inform me if i did anything i should apologize for. my brother also (consensually) has access to my accounts, so that may factor.

thank you.

[theflameoverlord]

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{MOD INTRO + HEADCANONS + BOUNDARIES BELOW!! THIS IS NEWER INTRO POST!!}

Mod Intro!!

• Hello! I’m Neuvi!

• My Main Blog; @neuvineuvs

• Other blogs!

• @darknessvanquisher

• @webweaveroflies

• @waterycrescent

{May add more!!}

Boundaries!!

• Mod is a minor, no NSFW asks, this also includes suggestive asks!

• Homophobia, Xenophobia, Racism and Ableism won’t be tolerated on this blog

• I’m asking you, please do not send vents or gore. I am particularly poor at handling subject matter of sorts and I’m not comfortable with this kind of stuff

• I may be fast or slow with replies, please don’t be impatient as I’m usually busy half the time 😭

• I’m active around 1900 - 2300 GMT

• Don’t be afraid to ask if you’re unable to figure out what I meant when typing! I can be cryptic at times due to writing style

• Some asks may be ignored if I’m uncomfortable answering, hate messages or may just be buried. Any constant harassment will lead to blocking

• I’m NOT Fire Spirit. Keep this in mind.

• I’m socially awkward so language may be a bit stiff outside of RP 😭

Info!!

• This blog follows a particular AU revolving around Fire Spirit and Wind Archer! It’s an evolving plot line based around Beast Yeast.

• The AU is called ‘The Moth Returns to the Salt’, (It doesn’t make any sense to the story dw 😞) and I don’t know how to explain the story but it should be under the tags of #crk the moth returns to the salt au or #biting the moth’s ashes.

Headcanons!!

• Fire Spirit inherited some dragon like behavioural patterns when revived, this includes things like hoarding up shiny trinkets and huffing harshly like a dragon would

• He cannot be left nearby any kind of foliage, he managed to disintegrate an entire forest’s greenery whilst attempting to help a lost cookie navigate through it

• His flames seem to correlate with his mood albeit subtly. They seem to grow brighter when he is frustrated and they seem to dim when he is upset.

• He can touch other cookies but not for too long, usually ends in a cookie obtaining singed dough. This leads to a somewhat fearful reputation of the legendary cookie, adding a further sense of isolation to the fact that he can barely initiate contact with another cookie.

• His ego nearly isn’t as big as it seems when you realise the bravado is just a facade. Fire spirit is a little lost and insecure yet never lets it slip.

• He has slight dragons features, this includes the idea that he has more claw like hands

• Poor skills in coordinating things, usually gets lost in what he was already doing when something else catches his attention

• Rarely needs to eat, only does so once in a while though as he does need to keep the eternal flame burning

• Has a kettle laugh (devsis told me, it’s canon)

(More will be added as time goes on)

Appearance??

• Thought I’d slip this in! Sprite work is how I fully hc him and drawing is how I draw him for story posts because it’s easier to draw 🥲

Tags!!

• flamin’ hot responses! - ask responses

• mod is on fire - mod note

• blazing chain! - RP chain

• biting the moth’s ashes - AU post

• burning into the wood - drawings

Notice!!

• I’m having a hella blotchy patch in life at the moment so days of inactivity will fluctuate!