#send good writing vibes pLEASE i am going to need them lol

[stevethehairington]

holiday prompt challenge fic is at 6.5k and is stiiiiiiiill being worked on aaaAAAHHH. i can feel the time left slipping through my haaaaaaands 😱

[celestie0]

First time asker but long time reader 😭 I’m sorry that you got that shitty ask. It’s such a weird fucking thing to ask someone “hey when are you making these two fuck?” like… does that not feel weird to type out?

The gojo x reader tag has at least 5 explicit smut fics minimum daily, go read through those if you genuinely need sex in everything you read (it’s time to reflect on the porn addiction you have).

Regardless, I’ve been reading your fics on Ao3 and I absolutely LOVE the banter between gojo and reader 😭 it flows so fucking well I can feel the chemistry radiating from my screen. When I first started reading IHM, I was also an ancient hag like reader (29) so I found myself able to really relate to her. Usually when I envision Y/N, it’s a random person in their place but with this fic specifically idk why I lowkey insert myself? Everything she does, I would probably do the same and it makes me nervous (in a good way) that I’m gonna get attached to gojo and y/n’s relationship 😭

I absolutely love how gojo provides the security Y/N so desperately needs in the span of the fic. She has been suffocating on her own for so long that he just provides some fresh air. Dare I say meant to be?

The domesticity is everything and I like how we’re learning more about him alongside Y/N. So far we’ve seen just how supportive gojo has been and I’m excited to see how y/n comes through for him because my spidey senses (and your amazing writing) shows me that he has some baggage and it might resurface soon.

The build up to them realizing they love each other is making me giggle and kick my feet. I will happily eat whatever you feed us, thank you for sharing your writing with us. You absolutely have a talent for writing and fleshing out characters/relationships.

I appreciate you and will do my best to support you vocally from here on out 🥹 have a great week pls!

hi my love!! first of all thank you SO much for this supportive message, i srs teared up when i read it 😭 idk if that’s embarrassing to admit lololdjfsdfh but yea omg yesterday was rough so i can’t tell u how much it means to me

i agree on the porn addict thing omg like i love smut as much as the next person, but likeee to go into an author inbox after they just posted a 14k chap of their fic n say “are we gonna get smut soon?” like 💀 that’s sortaaaaa. i’m getting porn addiction vibes

aaaaaaaa i’m so happy you’re enjoying the banter in ihm :’’) and that you’re able to see yourself in reader’s shoes!! that’s such a wonderful thing n one of the aims of my writing ♥️ ♥️ also pls 29 is not ancient hag oml i mean there will be lots of rhetoric in ihm where reader thinks she’s old but like ultimately i want the message of the series to be that it’s never too late to start over and find happiness & joy :) i think that really applies to everything and everyone. and ahhh yes there will be some pretty angst stuffs BUT there will be happy ending <33

yes ihm gojo def got some baggage 😂😂 i need my men like that LOL. but thank you so much for being excited to see how reader comes through for him as well!! i know she’s going through a lot on her own, and that can sometimes cause her to neglect the things outside of her…but i think she has capacity to really be there for him too

oh my dear i really am so lucky to have you as a long time reader and i’m so grateful to hear your thoughts, but also please send them whenever you want to and without pressure <33 i will eat it tf up if/when you do but yea xD never feel burdened to! you have a wonderful week as well omg imma eat u fr

[monst]

Da rules

     I go by Monst and I guess I’m writing again: I do read faster than I write so enjoy all the reblogs lol

I like the color orange it's not relevant, just thought I'd put it out there

Uh the bnha master list is definitely not up to date and needs a revamp (I will probably get to that eventually, someday...soon...) Speaking of it Here's the DC one

Here's the BHNA one.

Here's the Kinktober2024 one

Anyways if you're interested below is basically the what's what. Stick around if you want.

 Okay cool! Let’s get to it:

All characters for nsfw stuff are aged up 18+ (If you’re one of those (Can't separate reality from fiction/fantasy) then the unfollow/block buttons haven’t moved from their location and you are free to use them at your discretion )  

If you're a minor while I can't stop you from reading I will block you if I catch you interacting with any of my 18+ content posts. As a matter of fact for my peace of mind and your safety I would prefer you didn't reblog/comment on my sfw stuff too, they're are dangerous people on the internet so please understand and don't take it personally-Thanks💕

Moving on-

     I’m cool with: 

Requests- Hcs, Scenarios, thirst posts, Ya sending ideas and recommendations👀

For requests I might not get to all of them in a timely manner and I might not do some I’m not feeling. I write for F. Reader, GN. reader and M. Reader. Ships are cool too so you can request Character x character or poly reader- character x character x reader.-Genre: all of them tbh

I’m okay with dark content- (Dubcon, noncon, yandere, somno, etc.) and everything should be labeled appropriately. You can always ask that I tag something if it is missing. I do like a challenge/learning so even if I'm not personally into something I'll definitely give it a whirl (Kinks and or tropes)

Sfw- Fluff, angst basically anything that tickles my fancy and isn't risque or full on smut.

* In regards to requests the things I do fuck w might be prioritized 👉��

    I’m not cool with: 

Scat

Underage/PDF

I'm generally cool w being uncomfortable, especially in regards to what I read or write whether it be by being grossed out or scared. I've always been ridiculously curious mostly to my determent but fiction is a safe way to explore shit so I'll give most things a fair shake in other words the sky's the limit but use your discernment⁉️

Extra:

Random shit- You telling me about your day, thoughts, opinions on whatever ig. ask for advice (trust me bro I got you✌️) or info dump👀 I love to chat. 

Music! Tell me what your listening too! (Yes I'm one of those 'I listen to everything' I need new stuff to listen to)

Also! I miss the whole deviant art/Quizzilla shit so I might do a whole seven minutes in heaven thing lmao (This doesn’t belong here but scream at me about it cause I need it to happen for nostalgia’s sake) 

Also, I'm kinda using this space as a chill/fun mostly nsfw diary? lmao so it's just mostly gonna be vibes :p That being said keep your fandom discourse and weirdo hate bs to yourself cause I will clown/ignore you if you come at me w some sideways ass energy. I'm just as nice as I am mean so don't try me ☯️❤️

So here’s the fandoms&Characters if you wanna request: 

Mha- 

Shocker, but I do have some old asks that are too good to just let’em go ya know?  

Shinsou (I started this blog cause of him so.. yeah) 

Villain/Yandere Deku sorry

Bakugou

Endeavour 

Dabi

Hawks

Tokoyami 

Shoto

Dc- 

Please, please, please send me shit about Tim Drake. (Need him biblically) Literally hopped back on for him. 

Jason Todd

Dick Grayson

Bruce Wayne

Selina Kyle 

Poison Ivy 

Joker (Nothing good is coming out of anyone requesting this I just know it) 

Constantine 

Diana (Wonder woman my beloved) 

Amanda Waller 

Cheetah 

Slade Wilson… 

JJK-

Nanamin 

Gojo  (He's like crack to me istg)

Inumaki 

Invincible- 

Mark Grayson 

…Nolan...

Debbie

Alan! 

Naruto-

Kakashi ‘blow my back out’ Hatake

Itachi 

Shisui (My love)

Madara

Tobirama’s messy ass

Ask for more but these are my faves 

D- gray man-

Yuu Kanda!

Tyki Mikk

Kingdom Hearts-

Riku

Vanitas 

Most of the organization tbh

FF7-

All of them. 

But especially Sephiroth 

Any type of monster lmao 

Kenji Sato lmao

You can ask for others not listed in different fandoms I just think this has gotten a bit too long  

And Yeah, Let’s have fun! ^^

New Tags: 

         This bitch is yapping - Any asks answered or just general shit

         Thirsty bitch juice - Small scenarios, thirst,

         Pretty things- Art 

         Oh la la that’s some good shit right there- Fic recs & reblogs

         On my monster fucking bs - Monster fucking lol 

         Lock that shit up in the basement pls- cursed asks and stuff 

Uh random bullshit go! - My newer writing

And if you made it this far down here's a cookie 🍪

[mintytealfox]

So we have Survivor Nort Decucts... And now we have Hunter Nort deducts... Put them together and what do we get?

You get a hella tragic story oh my GOSHHHH 😭😭😭😭

The set up will be: 1-Surv!Norton 1-Hunt!Norton -Then my thoughts 😏

1-Kindness: Is that an Olive Branch you just threw or... (A Good Deed: Norton, a Miner, Always visited the hospice and cared for all of the homeless old miners) 1-Shrewd 'Each step requires long-term planning' (Shrewd: An old, folded letter: Yellow and brittle. It was once abandoned in a dust corner. Signed, Benny.) -This is interesting 👀 These are both the first which automatically makes me think they are connected. I wonder if the Olive Branch thrown is from Benny? Or if its from Norton with the helping out with the people around Benny? Either way Benny ends up sending a letter to Norton. Maybe it saying something like 'want to meet up? I have stuff that might interest you' or something. Which adds to my -squinting- at Benny. Sounds like Norton was alone even though Benny was around all that time? hmmm

2-Diligence: The more effort, the more rewards? (Work Record: Norton Campbell is always the first to go down into the mines and the last to leave it.) 2-Lonely: 'The loneliness of separation must be endured on the climb up' (A coin: Stained by ash, footprints, tears, and dirt from the slums.) -Brings up the whole 'he had nobody' not even Benny vibe again -squints- Where was Benny during all of this? Seems like Norton would work and work and work so he couldn't feel or notice how alone he is. Like work was his only constant and 'friend' to keep himself from going nutty, but in the hours where work couldn't be used as a distraction he was miserable 😿Crying as he clings to what little he has...my gosh. That coin was so important to him man, I wonder if it was the last thing he got from his dad or something, cause he takes it everywhere and it pops up all the time in the trailer orz which means he never spent it just held onto it enough where you see TEAR STAINS ON IT! I CANNOT-- 😭😭😭😭

3-Efficiency: We need more trials. (A stack of Recommendation Letters: It can be seen that every one of Norton's previous employers appreciated his hard work and expressed their regret at being unable to keep him for long.) 3-Sophisticated 'wear a mask for the sake of survival' (A note on the back: What a detestable Person! Wagging his tail like a dog in front of the overseer!) -This one I can’t quite grasp yet -squints- is this referring to the back of the letter from Benny? Why write that there? Is Benny talking smack about Norton being so good at wearing a mask and pleasing the employers? Or is Norton talking smack about himself? Or is Norton pissed about others doing what he is doing? Wearing a mask to just survive or what the heck? 🤣 This one is still baffling me fr fr Oh wait a min....Seems like he had to jump job from job cause employers kept needing to fire workers, unable to keep him on as an employee. Likely becoming more jaded that him working hard and being good isn't working much for him since he keeps getting let go. Then seeing some fresh faced bushy tailed worker beside him would likely piss him off lol 'Why are you acting like that we are all getting fired anyways' Yea I super don't know with this one, I am juggling so many possibilities for this one.

4-Persistence: People won't be unlucky forever, right? (1-Page Note: There are 13 items listed. The first 12 appear to be names of places, and the last one is crossed out.) 4-Willful 'Those who persist will encounter more opportunities' (A page from a diary: I found that old man's notes. Now, it belongs to the one who lives long.) -He doesn’t sound all that fond of Benny pff like there is a hint of a dig there and/or him trying to convince himself that he is going to break out of here and live. Did he decide to set a plan in motion after getting the letter from Benny? Or was it after meeting with Benny?

5-Patience: Next time... (Diary: Tomorrow, I will go to the last place recorded by the old man. If there's still nothing, then I hope he...) 5-Gloomy 'The other side of Kindness and affability' (Abandoned junk: A tattered quilt, a chisel, an unsent letter, and a small piece of wrapped and hardened white bread) -This one I don't see much of a connection other than reference to old man and then there is that QUILT that could have possibly been the one Benny had made for Norton when the Dad was still alive. 'Then I hope he...' sounds hella ominous now lol -squints- Then Is this stuff found with Benny or was it found where Norton abandoned everything? Did Norton not send a letter? Maybe he meant to go back to get his things but never got to cause of the damage the explosion deed had on his mind ah. This one also gives me more questions than answers lol

6-Courage: The more dangers, the more opportunities. (A Geological Report: Part of the tunnel had been blocked by an unidentified object. One small mistake could cause the inner structure of the mine to collapse.) 6-Greedy 'Merely retaking what the heavens owe' (A map: Several crossed-out mines and a red circle.) -I am thinking Greedy and Gloomy should switch here cause Greedy goes well with the Patience with reference to 'go to the last place recorded' BUT what the frig is that 'unidentified object' -squints- Did Norton set that up?? Was that in the red circled mine? Was the place just found like that and Norton was like -cough cough- "whatever nothing is stopping me". Is this all just setting up how Norton was willing to go anywhere to find what he is looking for? hmmmm Willing to go where no man has gone before. Smash Greed and Courage together and ya thats what you get lol A desperate dude that has nothing to loose and only to gain if this all goes right. aahh

7-Alert: You need to be more cautious. (News: Due to the use of gunpowder and detonators, the era of simple rock drilling is coming to an end. 7-Arrogant 'Only by being bolder can you challenge destiny' (Torn paper: Record the blasting's depth, distance between holes… and the amount of explosives used.) -He uhhhhh, yea he definitely ends up using explosives lol. And its interesting that he made sure that everything was measured and counted in every way. Bro knew what he was doing 1000%. He had it all down to the second, the inch! He was careful alright, careful to make sure this goes perfect AH

8-Share: You need more helpers. (Mining Precautions: Theft of explosives is illegal and will be reported to the police once discovered.) 8-Hypocrite 'Important moments must be witnessed by companions' (A memo: Two bottles of the cheapest whine for those drunkards to wet their throats. And toss some fatty meat to the guard dog.) -BRO STOLE THE HELL OUTTA THEM EXPLOSIVES LOOOOOOOL AND HE DID IT IN THE MOST CLICHE WAY EVER AND IT WORKED IIMMMMM--LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL Like How many laws did he end up breaking by the end of all this?? LIKE GEEZZ And people are so used to him being kind and caring, none were the wiser! This Duddddeeeee!! He played the LONG GAME GOLLY

9-Wisdom: Smart people know when to hold on and when to let go. (An Accident Report: An explosion collapsed a mine on the outskirts of the city. It's suspected that the miners had mishandled the explosives, and the police expressed that there's little chance for anyone to survive) 9-Ruthless 'Exploding from deep within like an ignited explosive' (A page from a diary: Those journalists and policemen are gone. So it's just that simple?) -Bro played everything! The people, the system, the science, the math?? LIKE DUDE! If it was an accident, he wouldn't have survived. Norton had this planned to the T! Every 'i' was dotted and ever 't' was crossed, he knew he was surviving that explosion if everything went perfect like he was planning for OH MY GOSH. Bro playing chess while everyone else was LEARNING CHECKERS

10-Luck: That's only because the rest are just unlucky. (1-Page Case: Moderate burns to the face. Suspected to have been caused by direct exposure to excessive temperatures) 10-Numb 'Forget them and stay away from the dark underground' (A magnet: "Maybe it can keep me away from misfortune and darkness.") -He really didn't get much out of this did he. Like, all he got was trauma, burnt up, and a magnet. And boi is he clinging to that magnet with is all. His new coin; his new thing to cling to orz He really lies to himself a lot 😿He keeps finding out far too late that what he thought would change everything just made everything worse 🙃like yes everything changed, but changed for the worst. That tunnel vision hitting him so hard he never stops to go 'huh, this is a horrible idea, how would this possibly change my fate??' Its like he is trying so hard to convince himself that it was all worth it cause he got this crazy magnet orz gooooossshhhhhhhhhhhh Instead of using this as a wake up call it seems he is pressing on that sigma grind. Nothing like a plague doctor bird man monster to set things right LOOOOL

[lis4ux]

Hey I’m not sure if I’ve ever interacted with you directly on tumblr before but I just wanted to let you know that you’ve been and you still are A MASSIVE part in the Jiara community🤍

Regarding what you said about writing for Jiara and fearing that people wouldn’t be interested anymore I can say with confidence that if there’s someone how can bring that excitement back, it’s you 🫶🏻

I’ve been reading Jiara fics for years (and yours are some of my favorite that I go back to constantly for comfort) and in the past year I’ve also started writing myself for our beloved ship. Sadly I have to admit that right in this moment I am one of those people that has lost the motivation regarding Jiara, both as a writer and as a reader, but one thing that I hope is that this feeling isn’t permanent but only temporary while we navigate through this pain.

I think I can speak for a lot of us in this situation (or maybe not and I’m wrong lol) when I say that the fact we’re not motivated at the moment is something we wish to get past because we love Jiara, we love their story and we love our community and we hope to keep it alive!

In the past 3 days I’ve tried going to Ao3 to get distracted and find comfort in the fans stories, but everytime I tried to I just couldn’t and I have to say that probably a lot of it is because almost every new upload is about JJ’s death and Kiara’s grieving so it’s a costant pain in the chest, but I just wanted to tell you that what I’ve been thinking in these days is “I’m waiting for Enemies with benefits next chapter”, I am waiting for that chapter because I’m 100% positive that it could be what can make me get past the canon hurt and back at living Jiara like we always have. I’ve been thinking of the update of your fics as a way to hold on to them, as a motivation to find back my way to them ‘cause despite everything I don’t want to let go of them and I don’t think any of us do 😭

You have always had an incredible and unique talent in our fandom, creating alternative universes for them in which they could live so many different lives and I think right now it’s what the Jiara fandom needs, to find an escape in those stories and infinite other possibilities for them and you’ve always been amazing with that. I’m the first one who admits the lack of motivation at the moment both as a writer and a reader, but I think the fandom could never lose interest in your stories and actually probably needs them, you have always offered us an escape🤍

Of course please don’t take this as if I’m trying to tell you “go write” AT ALL ‘cause I’m the first one at the moment who needs time, I just want to tell you to keep going with what you feel it’s right and you want to do and not worry about if we’d still be interested, ‘cause we are and your story are forever gonna be and will be part of what makes this ship special to many!!

I think you could be a great part for us to find back that love and excitement towards their stories, seeing them live in the alternative worlds you’ve built for them is something that has always been special but that right now is even more precious in our fandom…we lost them in OBX, but at least they live their love in that house in Malibu🥹

Don’t worry about us losing interest in your stories, I think we need them more than ever to find a refuge from this ugly canon and could help the fandom to reconnect with them🤍🤍🤍

Sending you lots of love 🫶🏻

This is so encouraging 🥹

I do understand what you’re talking about with going to ao3 and it being nothing but pain. That may be the writers way of grieving, and I completely understand it. I can’t do sad art work of them right now or read anything not happy. I just fell in love with the joy of jiara, I can’t go to pain. Only good vibes and ending from me🥰

I also understand taking a break from it. It really is a tragedy what they did and i doubt I’ll forgive anyone apart of it.

I do know there is one writer who is rewriting the ending to where he lives. Once that’s posted I will be diving into it to rewrite my head cannon. I’ll post the link here when she’s done. I think it’ll be cathartic and a healing fic for us all.

It means a lot that you have found comfort in my fics the way I found comfort in so many others. The connection of this fandom is what I love the most about writing. I met my best friend through this ship and writing and I can never turn my back on it for that alone. I love writing and writing jiara specifically.

Thank you so much for talking with me and encouraging me to keep writing. I will continue 🖤

[timandlucy]

hello, hello, it's secret sleuth time! i hope that you've been able to rest a bit more this week! it's been a pretty good week for me, not super busy but enough going on so that i don't get bored which is nice.

re: 2x05 -- i totally understand why the crew reacted they way that they did, they were scared and when we're scared we don't think logically. i don't blame them for reacting the way that they did. i do, however, hold them accountable to how they behaved after and the non apologies that they gave nancy. that really will never sit right with me, but hey, that's what fix-it fics are for, right?

you're so so right about long story short, that song really has always made me think of nace. i mean, everything makes me think of nace, but...you know, that one is very nace coded! lol

i'm sorry that the holidays aren't the most fun time for you. i hope that you're able to find things that bring you joy during this time, no matter what it is! i have cookies that i bake every christmas season, so i'm definitely looking forward to baking those, it always feels so cozy when i do! really, during the holidays, i just like finding time to relax and watch holiday movies, and spend time with family. and curling up with a good book whenever possible!

i definitely feel like we're vibing as well and i'm so happy to be your secret sleuth! what are some of your favorite things, just in general? what do you like to do in your free time? what are some things that you have really loved this year?

sending you lots of love and talk soon! - secret sleuth 🧡🔎

Hii! I'm so sorry for the late reply, but I got really sick and I wasn't capable doing much of anything these past couple days! But your week sounded amazing, I love when the balance between stuff happening and not happening strikes. I hope that makes sense, if not please blame it on the fever.

re: 2x05 oh totally, I do understand their fear of dying, it's hard to imagine how a person would react in the same situation! I'd just hoped they'd done a better job of fixing it. I haven't seen many fix-it fics for 2x05, but maybe I need to search harder haha!

Those sound like lovely holiday things to do! Are those cookies included in the SS package? Because I'd totally love some 🤭 I'm not much of a baker, but I have been spending most of my cold era just now by watching Hallmark Christmas movies. It's made being sick like 1% less miserable!

Yay, I'm glad I'm not the only one vibing 🙈 my favourite things... hmm, I love writing. There's not a better feeling in the world than finishing a piece and being proud of it. I also like to read, though I'll admit I haven't been doing it as much as I'd like lately. I love summer! I love that feeling of endless possibility when it's summertime. And I adore the sea. If it were up to me I'd live next to the sea. I also like ballet (watching it not doing it). And yoga (doing it haha). You already know my undying love for TS. I don't really have any other stuff. I am a pretty pathetic person. 😂 I've loved getting into the ND fandom this year. I met some pretty kind and amazing people. Getting the nace endgame was pretty much the highlight of my year.

How about you? What were your favorites this year?

Thanks so much for spoiling me with these messages 💛 I hope you have a lovely week!

[bokettochild]

Weekly check in with stardust

i have been creating a lot of stuff and im nearly done with my online science course and should be done by the end of this week!

the other week was eid and ur girlie made sweets, dressed up, visited a friend, and made Mario Lego B) I also got stickers for my laptop but that's unrelated lol

also we made bakhlawa and makrout they are literally my favorites lol, even the people at my friends party seemed to really like them too lol

apparently I look really good in olive green so that's like also a major win for me

the stickers are like vintage looking florals ones lol

btw I've been working so much on my four swords DND au, I'm not sure what to call It tho? I was thinking like "Four Keys" because the swords are literally keys to a secret realm or whatever

btw have u had any good recipes recently? Im fasting just because I can and rn I'm just thinking about food lol

i made a fajita tonight using colored peppers too lol

if u have any good recipes please tell me I love hoarding them

btw, I have one character left with enough space for an additional trauma/mental issue on my roster for the au so honestly just send me a few different ideas for them and I'll probably choose one lol

btw the dudes got the thickest Russian accent, is very brutally honest, soft and gruff, non nonsense and needs to adopt every small thing in sight or else he will die because this is how he's coping.

he was stuck in like an iceberg for like 200 years (there's a wholes Tory behind that) and then we he emerged (thats also a story) everyone he knew is kinda super dead because of the passage of time

*someone saying something stupid*

"Your voice, very ugly, please, do the shut up :] "

thats him in a nutshell^

also remember to do wrist and finger stretches for writers and artists

also I acquired a glass orb with glass art inside <3 o r b

also what's legend's irrational fear?

also I love legend being like, an actual good influence on wind in his own weird way

i want them to bond more, maybe do a whole stealing heist from some knights-

im not asking u t write it but I just wanted to share lol

i hope you've been doing well, u seem to be lol

also do u like wearing jewelry? and if so how often lol

Wow, that's a wall! (pos)

I'm glad you got to enjoy some nice food, time with friends, and dressing up! Also, it sounds like you're having a ton of fun creating recently! I am as well, but it's slow going as I'm working on a multi-chap that's very demanding about where and what is supposed to happen (I did this to myself but the results are fantastic!)

"Four Keys" sounds like it has great potential as a title! I like it! I also love the Russian accent. the character is giving slight Captain America vibes, but only for backstory, and I love the concept so much!

As for a irrational fear..... ma am I bad at those I rationalize anything so... maybe large empty spaces? Usually those are indicative of a boss fight in his mind, so just having one that isn't hiding some threat throws him way off. He's also insanely wary of any room with a tiled floor. Because >:)

I also love him and Wind! The fact that they're both on the younger side here but also both accustomed to being the person others look to gives great opportunities for them to bond and interact. Legend has a lot of experience to share but he's also not up on a pedestal like Time or Warriors is, so there's more opportunity for direct communication and less a need to impress. (I actually just finished writing something with them, as it happens!)

I'm honestly not the best baker in the world, or cook in general (I'm still building up my recipe book after leaving my parent's house) but I can share my mum's bread recipe! It's very good, for every day, or to make into rolls for the holidays and with nice meals!

Recipe makes 4 large loaves btw

Dissolve 2 packages of dried yeast into 4 cups of warm water.

In a separate bowl, mix 1/2 cup soft butter with 1/2 cup of honey (you can also add 1/4 cup of molasses for super dense rolls/loaves).

Once the honey-butter is combined, add the yeast water to the bowl

Scoop in 6 cups of whole wheat flour + 4 cups white flour.

Mix, knead, and set into greased bread-pans, or roll into balls on a cookie sheet.

Bake loaves for 35-40 min at 375 F, or rolls for 10-15 min at the same.

After you remove it from the oven, brush generously with butter before they cool, for extra flavor and to preserve moistness.

Hope this one makes you happy! It's great to use in sandwiches, serve with soup, or eat with jam, or alone!

[victo1re]

◈　NAME　 ⋯ 　jadzia :)

◈　PRONOUNS　 ⋯ 　they/them

◈　MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?　 ⋯ 　victoria is like... all that's in my brain rn and it's been that way for several weeks now so i think she's here to stay lol

◈　RP PET PEEVES?　 ⋯ 　this question, to be honest, and the culture that enables it. can we stop holding each other to ridiculous invisible standards of etiquette, please? can we stop this formation of an ingroup and an outgroup based on whether you know to reblog from source or prefer to soft/hardblock someone? this is how we get anon dogpiles on people who have done literally nothing wrong whatsoever. we're all spending our free time pretending to be fake people on the internet. it's not that serious.

◈　EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS　 ⋯ 　i started roleplaying on instagram in the year of our lord 2015. writing that made my bones hurt.

◈　FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT　 ⋯ 　yes to all? the quiet moments in between the big ones are just as important, but they're nothing without the drama to contrast them. this blog is a healthy mix of the three i like to think, although the fluff does edge into angst quite often just because of what i like to affectionately call bhaal cw lol

◈　PLOTS OR MEMES　 ⋯ 　i am highly plot-based. i'm so bad at sending and/or responding to memes without an established sense of the vibe.

◈　LONG OR SHORT REPLIES　 ⋯ 　i ramble on vic quite a bit. she has a lot going on in her head and out of it, and she's someone for whom i find physical/setting details to be more important than other muses i've written. her thought processes are complicated and difficult to wade through succinctly, but i do try to match length and not just... go ham all the time.

◈　TIME TO WRITE　 ⋯ 　usually evenings. sometimes mornings if i have nothing else to do. this will probably swap as rehearsals start to pick up.

◈　ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)　 ⋯ 　lol... yes. absolutely yes. obviously i don't want to kill anyone and i'm not going through life treating people like toys, but i built victoria from my own deeply personal struggle with learning to care for others and individualising. the way she needs to consciously work through considering the people around her, her relationship to names and naming conventions, the guilt she experiences in her good ending and how she experiences it - all highly relevant to my life, yeah.

❥ 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘　 ⋯ @governoir, thank you <3

❥ 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆　 ⋯ i genuinely don't have the spoons rn so for real, if you're reading this, i tagged you

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rotating hazel and leon in my mind again....... but also thinking about hop!!!! (i'm playing SV with him in mind as the protagonist- so some spoilery-ish thoughts on the DLC will be below the cut! i am NOT finished with the DLC, so please, no Indigo Disk spoilers!)

so i'm rotating how i want Hazel's Paldea run to pan out

the focus really ends up being on Hop, because he's the protagonist, but i'm still trying to settle on how much attention i want to put on hazel (and leon) too

i think the way i'm gonna bridge it though is in a few ways-

i already decided i want to come up with a reason to give Miraidon to Hazel, and blend scarlet and violet into a single story for convenience reasons- while i COULD just choose the version i canonically played, i think it makes more sense here to play with the time travel aspect and combine both into one narrative (i.e. both box legendaries, both professors, etc.)

additionally, Sonia is gonna be present (and honestly, i should write her in more so she's not just a background character) and Hop is also still assisting her while she investigates the Terastal phenomenon here in Paldea- which gives Hazel and Leon an excuse to be around as they also help and look into things too

It's a little easier to include them in the main story because Hazel's going to be tackling the gym challenge for the badges (and Leon's also challenging the gyms because he's super interested in getting to battle La Primera herself) while the two of them are assisting teaching at the school (Hazel's working under Hassel as an assistant, and Leon's doing a few different classes but it's primarily Battle Theory with Dendra) they're still chaperoning for Hop, and also suddenly chaperoning for these weird kids Hop keeps befriending, too

(Nemona really wants to battle Leon, Leon's older brother instincts kick in with Arven, Hazel really understands Penny's anxiety, etc)

but the DLC on the other hand...... difficult. i haven't gotten far enough in the Indigo Disk yet to know what the hell is going on with Briar, but i'm thinkiiiing Hazel and Leon would probably be a little put off by her, and the academy, and would probably be doing their own digging while Hop's off learning.. (i imagine blueberry academy itself probably isn't nefarious by any means but i don't know that yet LOL;;;)

that said, on Hop's end, i'm loving imagining him as the protagonist because it??? honestly really works??? going to an academy to work on his education towards eventually becoming a pokemon professor (i'd imagine he'd be on a more accelerated/specialized track)

but uh. also. also the DLC. good lord. with poor Hop in mind, Kieran takes on a wholly different vibe..... imagine going through a difficult arc in your life, being able to get through it with support, and then going on a grand adventure only to meet someone who might as well be you if you took losing a LITTLE too hard....

Hop's still figuring himself out. He's young, he knows what he wants to be but not exactly what he wants to do, and now it's tough because he went through something so similar to Kieran, but between Ogerpon, Carmine and everything else, I can get the sense it'd be tough for him, especially since this is a new friend and he's. kind of on the other side of things now, where he's been considerably lucky, not unlike how Gloria was

but uh!!!!! i need to think about it some more, honestly! i always phrase these rambles as if i'm actively planning on writing it out as a fanfic but it's more me sorting it out in my head LOL;;; i write a little, it's unlikely that i'll end up releasing something (though not impossible, but usually if i write stuff i'll send it to friends and that's about it)

i gotta finish the DLC though, i want to get to what i have heard is a Very Silly epilogue

EDIT: OH YEAH ALSO HAZEL IS PSYCHED TO BE BACK IN UNOVA AGAIN. briefly disappointed they're not on mainland but it's fine because she can now order pizza anytime she wants and she SORELY missed castelia style deep dish pizza.

also if i can help it i still gotta figure out how to throw camila in for either a cameo or joining for the last part of the DLC............

[actuallyitsstar]

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

✍ Do you have a beta reader?

⛔ 🎶 ⏳💥 🎃❌

🧠 Pick a character, and I'll tell you my favorite headcanon for them.

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

🤲 Would you please share a snippet of a wip?

(this is so many and obviously feel free to answer however many you want!!)

✨ send me an emoji and ask me about my fanfic! ✨

😈 has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

honestly, i can't say that there has been! i mean don't get me wrong, i have certainly been writing EVEN MORE ANGST AGAIN and been like. hmm. the people in my phone are gonna hate me for this :) lol. but that angst is also for ME bc like. that's my jam lol. and i never post unfinished multichaptered fics, so i feel its not likely that i'd ever do this, since i don't get feedback on my writing until after it's already completed, lol.

✍ do you have a beta reader?

i don't! i never have, actually. it is an intriguing idea but i've never been a ~serious~ enough writer for it, i don't think, and i also cringe at the idea of anyone seeing anything i've ever written before i have re read and re-edited it about 50 thousand times lol

⛔do you have a fic you started, but scrapped?

recently, no, but i have at least 10 unfinished fics for various old fandoms that are like. not *scrapped*, per se, but just uhhh unlikely to be completed any time soon lol, some being 10+ years old. i never say never but like AM i going finish that OC-au of the mentalist season 6 where somebody is trying to attack all the "psychics" in texas because they have a grudge against what some fake psychic told them like 10 years ago???? honestly, probably not, lol.

🎶do you listen to music while you write? what song have you been playing on loop lately?

yes, i do! can't write in just silence, usually, but it can't have words, either, because i can't hear Words and also Write Different Words, lol. recently i have been listening to 70s-80s Japanese city pop playlists (here is one of my favorites!) since i don't speak the language and it also is such a vibe. in the past i've also done the in love with a ghost vibes, lofi girl, and instrumental synth-wave, as well. i also really like the artist City Girl for that reason, and i think my favorite album of theirs is Neon Impasse. I listened to that on loop a lot writing ttnp!

⏳how long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

this is a very difficult to answer question because it depends on a lot of factors, lol. I have written 20k words in two days before. I have also gone weeks only writing a thousand. it depends on how much free time i have (recently, almost none, lol), how much down time there is at my job (i wrote a large portion of ttnp in down time at my job, and there is not going to be job down time for the foreseeable future unfortunately, which has really put a damper on things). as long as i am at least mildly inspired or motivated, and have ample enough time, i can get a lot done, usually, but it all depends on a lot of factors.

💥how do you feel about criticism?

i am made of tissue paper pls dont hurt me akdshdjfhf i am actually very much okay with and welcoming of it, actually, bc without it, i would never improve. definitely needs to be in good faith, because being made of tissue paper isn't entirely a lie lol, but if there's something i have done poorly or something that i have the opportunity to do better next time, i am always happy to take it into consideration!

🎃do you write fics for holidays? what is your favorite holiday inspired fic?

hmmmm well i actually never have but i love the concept and i am hoping to get to do it this year ;) ;)

❌what's a trope you will never write?

for an actual trope i'd probably have to think a lot longer and harder than i have in answering these questions so far, lol, but one thing i can say, though it's not a trope, is that i'll never write smut. your local sex repulsed asexual is just not about it, lol. which is not to say ive never read and enjoyed fics w/ smut in them!!! i just skip ahead until it's over, lol.

🧠pick a character and i'll tell you my favorite headcanon for them!

omg i don't know which of us is supposed to be doing the headcanoning but i'll go ahead and assume it's you ?????? and my pick is iceman. pls tell me ur fav headcanon !!! i am excited !!!

🤩do you have a favorite character to write?

recently, it had been maverick, to no one's surprise, lol. what can i say. somethin' about the inherent trauma just speaks to me <3

🤲 would you please share a small snippet of a WIP?

HMMM...... I SUPPOSE..... A SMALL ONE......... ;)

THANK U SO MUCH for the ask !!! i loved answering all of them and i am so sorry it has been taking me so long to do everything recently oh my god. i am, as bilbo would say (im paraphrasing), feeling like butter scraped across way the fuck too much bread these days akdhfdjfhf but i rly appreciate ur asks and ur support and time and continued habit of thinking of me !!! <3 <3

[lunapwrites]

when you get this ask you have to you could perhaps maybe bless us with 5 of ur fav songs (currently or of all time), and then send this ask to 5 of your moots who you think have good taste!

Hi hello yes this is one of my FAVORITE games to play. But please be prepared for some slight genre whiplash haha.

At heart, I am an angsty bitch. This song MOVES me like nothing else in this world, and is one I will absolutely belt out in the car if I'm by myself. But also - this is one of a small handful of songs I have always wanted to animate something for because it gives Remus-post-81 vibes but alas, my brain and hands continue to be on non-speaking terms.

Fun fact about me: I decoded the entire alphabet they'd used in the album art for this, and used to write notes to my ex in them so that teachers couldn't tell what I was writing. (S and R were also the same symbol, reversed, which is really funny in hindsight, even if at the time it fucked with my ADHD lol.) I have also done this with dwarven runes from LoTR, and also the entire Al Bhed language from FFX. Anyway this album saw a lot of play during my sophomore and junior years of high school, specifically, but this song has always been one of my favorites.

Tori my beloved!!!! This song goes so goddamn hard, and I have very strong memories of coming home from school and turning on "we have MTV at home" (which was in fact actually better than MTV bc they were JUST music videos, no fluff), and watching this woman marching barefoot through the woods, blindfolded and bound, and just !!!!! Choirgirl Hotel was one of the first CDs I ever purchased for myself for a reason.

This song has the distinction of inspiring the tone and tenor of my first ever poem when I was 12, which I had to submit as a school assignment, and which my teacher felt compelled to pull me aside and ask if I was okay about. Having to explain to said teacher that I was not in fact being imprisoned in my own home and that the poem was about our new puppy crying in his kennel was... an interesting experience lol. What can I say, angst is in my blood lmfao. Anyway, this is another one I like to sing along to a lot, and holds the distinction of containing both the lowest and highest notes I can reliably hit. (I know that Chris is a Baritone with a roughly 4 octave range, but as for what notes he's hitting in this song in particular? Fuck if I know.)

This song. Has such a GORGEOUS buildup - there's a hypnotic rhythm to it also that is fairly common with Tool songs, but just... really really shines in this one. Also it's a song about his mother dying, and about his complicated relationship with faith (and hers.) Like... my god. I know everyone likes Vicarious and The Pot, and they're great songs, but like....

COME ON.

Anyway, honorable mentions go out to "Orion" by Metallica and "Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town" by Pearl Jam and the combination of "Reset" and "Homecoming" by Misery Signals off of their absolutely stunning and literally flawless album Controller, and yes they do need to be in there together. I did also have "5 Dollars" by Christine and the Queens on here originally, but while that song is the epitome of queer joy to me, the impact of it largely comes from the video (being my enby awakening.)

Thanks for the ask! This was really hard to narrow down hahahaha.

[harmonictechnicality]

HARMONY! HARMONY!!!! I ran out of tags trying to describe how much I loved this last update to Memory Logs I am having an out of body experience rn I didn’t even get to describe my favorite part!! THE WAY!!! YOU DESCRIBE THE FEELING OF BRAND NEW FINALLY REALIZED AND REQUITED LOVE!!!!! AAAAAAA literally how do you see and write on the human experience so clearly, you are some kind of wizard, *you’ve got mail voice* ms. 152 insights into my soul… “you thought I was mocking you??” vs actually teasing him about the !!!below deck!!! club (which lmao the existence of) but Steve just being so hyped that Eddie’s into him that it all comes out in this wash of bubbly feelings (“dear god stop this madness”), and “wants to stock up on chapstick and water so they can make out all night” OK SO I SWOONED, SHOW ME SOMEONE WHO WOULDNT, Steve giVeS EDdIE hiS RIIINNNNGGGG, “IT WOULD BE A PLEASURE TO RESTART WITH YOU”, the FOREHEAD KISS!!!! I don’t know how you do this, but if I ever lost my memory, rereading all of your fics again for the first time would be such a pleasure. Rereading them after a week is a pleasure. Rereading them right after finishing reading to note down every favorite line is a pleasure!! You get my drift haha… anyway thank you for being such a queen and sharing your incredible writing with us for free. I am wishing you many dark chocolate pudding cups, and much fan art to delight you, and a very generous rest for your wrists on the other side of all this typing, and a very marvelous week 💕💕

OMG your tags were giving my LIFEEE how rude that they would ever cut you off like that! I need to speak to the internet manager asap!! 😂😂

HAHA the wizard line is *extra* perfect because Steve would *also* blame such sorcery on a wizard (he definitely called Vecna a wizard that is obsessed with clocks and I will never let that go lol).

There hassss to be unreleased footage in the ST vault of all the divorced moms and Eddie just waiting for Steve to turn around and scoop in the back ice cream counters, like PLEASE tell me the footage exists and I didn't just make it up 😭

AGH the ring and forehead kiss goodbye are maybe my favorite parts ❣️❣️ like Steve knows there's nothing else he can do but give a little piece of himself and then hope that there's magic-memory powers in his expert kissing abilities - it's very naive and endearing and heartbreaking all at once and I just want to give him the biggest hug for trying so hard.

Sweet deerling, that is SO incredibly kind omgggg my tender heart cannot take such kindness!! If someone ever made fan art for this I would *weep,* even if they just thought about it, I'd still be teary! I don't have dark chocolate pudding but I dooooo have dark chocolate raisins, which is definitely a win. I'm sending you all the good vibes for the rest of the week/weekend ✨✨ Thank you so much for always being so supportive of the little stories I write.

Have a spectacular day!! Watch all the Meg Ryan films your heart desires!! ❤️🥰❤️

[1d1195]

Sam! The newest part of Most was EVERYTHING!! Now you know absolutely LOVED Lauren getting publicly embarrassed by Harry calling her out like that! I swear I was so happy knowing that she finally got exposed and she technically exposed herself lol I do think it was so right for Harry being the one to find out because I fear the MC would have just been too nice to her lol but also I think it gives him some closure? Idk if that’s the right word but I think it helps fill in some gaps for that time of the breakup. ANYWAYS loved reading that lol

Now you have been putting this couple through so much but honestly I love it! Harry was literally in shambles while driving to her apartment and he had to find out she was TRAPPED IN HER BUILDING THATS ONE FIRE?!? And she DIDNT REALIZE IT?!? I would start crying ngl if I was in his position lol I was so invested when reading the last half especially when she dropped her love confession as almost a goodbye?! I’m so excited to see how their story will be wrapped up! They are so in love I can’t! So so good bestie as always you’re killing it with these stories!

Also sorry it took so long to reply back! Had such a busy week and I’m just so tired lol my summer classes end in 3 ish weeks so this upcoming week are my midterms(so crazy 😔)! Idk when fall classes start exactly but I think the last week of September maybe? Idk I’m avoiding knowing it lol and don’t be sorry for asking questions! I love questions! I commute to school so I’ve never lived on campus. I live with my parents still so it has its pros and cons lol

Though I’m so surprised you almost start your school year again?? Idk if I’ve just lost the concept of time but I thought you still had a pretty good chunk left of summer break for you?! I can only imagine how hard it is to be “on” all the time especially as a teacher and I hope that you do set goals for not overwhelming/working yourself this year! I just know you can do it my love because you are so important! Always rooting for you💗

I LOVE that you’re having some free time to read! And honestly some smut/romance books are needed sometimes so I don’t blame you for gobbling them up! Anything that you come up for Monday I’m sure it will be great even if it’s sad lol and a check in is always nice! I love to see how the couples are doing! I was just thinking about the Zipper couple bc I saw a horse drawn carriage yesterday when I went out lol and I LOVE YOUR RAMBLING!!! I could never get tired of it or you!! Love little updates on the life of Sam lol

Hope this weekend treats you well and sending the best vibes! Love you lots!!!-💜

Hi!!!! I have been dying for Harry to figure it out. I know it took a while but I hope it was kind of worth the wait. It's funny you say that about the MC finding out 👀 It def gives him closure. I'm so glad to be done with Lauren. (Although I'm sure I'm going to have to write an extra about her running into Lauren hehehe)

I just LOVE to have drama and make Harry stress out when I write 🤭🤭 There's something DEFINITELY wrong with me its in all my romance books basically. I'm just a sucker for a protective guy getting all worried about his lady 😅 HE DEF was SOBBING. I think I wrote he was crying but it was subtle because I had to make sure he could still see but maybe that's the next part hahahahaha but in my head he was a blubbering mess 🤭 This part was SO short when I originally wrote it. I know it's pretty dialogue heavy and I just couldn't figure out how to make it any longer so I just kept throwing stuff in and I was like "she should just tell him. It's pretty obvious anyway."

I am so appreciative of your compliments as always 💕

Please don't apologize! I bet you're exhausted! 3 weeks seems like forever. That's interesting you start toward the end of September. There's NOTHING wrong with living at home and commuting. I have an apartment and I love my bf but I would move back home to my INSANE family in a heartbeat if it meant I could save more money 😅 I was lucky to live on campus because of scholarships and stuff but even still I was only an hour away from home if I needed anything and after my first year I had my car with me.

I have one more full week off but I've been SO busy I feel like I didn't really get a break :( idk. I know people complain about teachers having all this time off but it goes quick and shoving all the things you need to do into it is difficult. I haven't even seen like half of my friends that I wanted to see which I normally budget my time off with. The thought of meeting up with them is exhausting and as I've mentioned before I always do the reaching out so that's exhausting in it's own right. I think I will likely have to book myself into September and hang out with them at that time.

I actually reread parts of Zipper the other day 😭 I think they probably rotate through my top 3 couples and stories. But what's a little sad is I would love to write more about them, but I think they might be done. I feel (hope) I wrote a really solid ending for them and I could write about their kids or whatever but idk if that's worth it. I like to think of them as all wrapped up--zipped closed, if you will. 🤭

LOVE YOU hope your weekend allows you some time to yourself and your midterms are easy peasy 💕

xoxo

[witchofthevale]

I think there is type of people who have problems irl and they go venting and sending rude asks to people in every fandom because that is how they cope with anger. It's wrong though. I have anger issues but I am on therapy for 5 years and I learned to be part of fandom by using block button. I have specific criteria about hotd fandom. Anti Alicent blog? Block. Pro Daemon Targaryen blog? Block. Pro Viserys Targaryen? Block. Shitting on Alys and Gayle before she even appeared on screen? Block. Writing smut with tropes I don't like? Block. I am very picky, but it's impossible to try to engage with everyone esp when they like characters I hate. I know new users read every Aemond fic even though they don't enjoy them because they feel pressured to read each of them because they want to fit in. My advice is: don't read things that disturb you. Read 3 chapters of each fic writer and ask yourself Do I really enjoy it? Or it's meh for me? It's okay to dislike a fic. It's okay to block people so you'll never hear from them again. Feel no shame in blocking people. For me blocking people I don't vibe with it's like taking out the trash. It's good when they're not around.

Fun quip just because it's relative, but I started reading this right when my melatonin kicked in and I tried to figure out the tone if I was getting my first anon hate just from the paranoia of recent events jshdjshd. Sorry, too funny and actually quite sad not to share lol. I just felt discombobulated by getting this and at the random time ahaha!

Anyways, this is a lot and I wanna reply properly, have Elle's off-tangent reply thoughts because ADHD and 3am. I think I'm still coherent.

I mean for the most part, nons, I agree with your core sentiment. Block button is definitely good for sanctifying your space, in a place like fandom where you will interact with a level of unrestrained level of self expression, anything that helps you make it easier to navigate such a thing is basic form of self preservation.

For most of us, fandom is a space of comfort and when ugly shit rises, it really hits hard because your comfort is being threatened.

For another, if it's truly engaging and making friends is your goal (even if it's not, it's just how fandom as an ecosystem works)— or just the FOMO of not being a part of the fun because you've literally blocked 90% of people — sure it's difficult to really be part of it if you're blocking left and right. Which is also why I'd like to offer and employ the ignorance is bliss system.

Like you said, there are certain things you might not agree with someone you're moots with/follow but as a whole, you still want to engage with them. It's just how individuality works, and that's okay too. Just because you and another person can't agree on the one thing— character, team, whatever the fuck — you can just skip and scroll, and mind your business.

And at the same time, you can still be able to connect with the parts that you do like/have in common with the person.

Just a tip since I actually use the block button sparingly (unless you're a bot lol). But if blocking is what comforts and sanctifies your experience, have at it! I hope you're in a sweet space where you feel at your most comfort because that is what fandom is supposed to be. We're here to have fun and it's truly fucked up to see that tainted with ugliness.

On that note, I can't begin to start wondering why people send hate.

I'm a very lazy person, nons. I cannot imagine myself going through someone's Ask, toggling on the Anon button (again, as a lazy person, it is such a big step to even do this part 'cos then it asks you if you're sure and you have to click again please I cannot), and writing your pièce de résistance like you aren't going to be pitied.

Because in the end, what you look like— to me at least — is a sad, sorta masochistic coward who needs that anon button to feel safe because you know what you just sent is cruel, unwarranted, and something you would never be able to spit in a person's face, much less mumble.

I cannot begin to unravel why someone would do this. I don't want to try. I've been in fandom spaces since 2012, at the height of shipping wars, fruit NSFW tagging, and feet fetish scammers to name a few.

Whatever catharsis they feel at being able to receive a reply is only temporary cos at the end of the day, they sent that through anon for a reason. They know what they did was shameful.

And if you can't even do it with your full chest, why would I bother lol?

I'm personally a lazy person and tired from irl when I come to fandom spaces to detangle and have fun. I cannot be bothered with you.

But yeah no, I dunno. People can do whatever they want with their blogs, it's their space. Block, ignore, whatever. I like where I'm at, I enjoy my little corner of fandom. I adore so much of my moots and have fun interacting with everybody so far.

I'm glad you've curated your space though, nons! And I agree that you can wholeheartedly dislike a fic. Not everything's going to be for you and that's okay.

PS. Do people really feel pressured to read for Aemond omg? I personally never did, I got back into fanfiction because of Aemond fanfics actually ahahaha! I just lurked around before 'cos I watched HOTD late; too many months later 'cos my best friend watched it first and she's a hardcore ASOIAF girlie and she ranted ahahaha!

When I braved it, I just watched it as a separate entity and had fun 'cos the actors were really good and somehow, I jumped back in fandom space enough to write lol

[ram-de]

paper hazes

just back from another stop... am i in a reading slump...

ugh... i know well what's messing with me now. it's expectations. the very same reason i probably didn't like how things turned out for how the story unfold is that, expectation. like, looking for something that the book doesn't offer. tropes. right, tropes. i should take a break💀 it's never that serious bro I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HAVING FUN AND GIDDY AND JOY... like when i read ari&dante???? I squealed over the yearning in the letters and cried when the accident happens?!?!?! or like when i read eleanor oliphant??? when she slowly opens up to raymond and his family or when that time i was all oblivious so the twist of dissilusionment hits me like a truck or when she broke down and felt like all is over?!??! or mr. linus baker?!??!?! when i could lowkey relate the bleakness of his mundanity and how it changed when he got to know the kids in orphanage and how he allows himself to be more than what he allows himself and when i cried again when he's reunited at the end of the story?!?!? heck even the very short children tale like the little prince and how it's so poignant and bittersweet despite the innocent and rather forward story.

instead i am nitpicking about things i didn't like now. i barely put my thoughts here. i consume like crazy. it's not healthy. it's never been. now ask me about the 20+ titles i've read in the span of two? weeks. can i remember all of them? do i even look up spotify playlist someone made for those books like i used to before? because i used to. though not every track is a hit for me haha so bless those who creates those playlists🙏

i got to know tentang rumahku from laut bercerita, and it reminds me of laut and mara!!! feel good inc. and burn the house down from leonard peacock, and the vibes fit well with how bold and badass these sound. send me from house of cerulean sea, because of how precious this track got mentioned and the scene it attached to? and it's not limited to books either.? i got to know supermassive black hole from black mirror's mazey day.

i mean... like, when i listened to those songs, i can pinpoint exactly what book i read simply because they introduced it to me. and that... that gives the story more meaning for me, in a way... aah!!! i haven't been even thinking of the story before moving on to another nowadays... i don't want to lost the joy of reading!!! that's why i need to take it slow!!! i want to think about it days after i read it!!!! not to be replaced it soon by another!!!! so!!!! listen to me, self!!! ugh,.... though i know it already did become one, don't let this continue be simply a distraction, please... :(

everything in moderation. a certain dj in a mascot from a rhythm game would say.

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just negative vibes here... i had a revelation so i wrote whatever i wrote above.

YES. HELLO. i am... i am burning with a sudden passion to write about tropes. i've been reading a lot of romance books for the past few weeks until... until i began seeing patterns and similiarities in how they progress and then it struck me... i'm losing sparks in reading because most of the time it become a bit too repetitive. not saying i'm not going to read more because if i liked the trope i'd be eating it anyway.

I may or may not be a hypocrite when i wrote this post, know not why my beloved. so, the thing is, i've started reading that book because an undeserved 1 star rating, right. i used to think it's cruel to judge a book because people expected it not to be what it is. BUT THEN... but then i came across a book that made me groan uncomfortably, wishing it to be over. looked at the ratings and then... lots of undeserved 4, 5 stars, of course in my opinions lol. looked at the lower rating AND IT RESONATES WITH ME!??!?! hello!??!?! at this point i'll try not to judge other people tastes and what they rate. i mean, review based on anything, at the end of the day reading (for a hobby) is about enjoyment. and if i or you don't like it, then it's ok.

now. after i confessed my own hypocrisy. let me breakthrough some of the tropes I DETEST. a disclaimer that this is purely my opinion and if anyone (whoever idc) reads this enjoys these then it's ok!!!

codependency. big no for the unhealthy one. super uncomfortable to read when the plot is about when one can't function without the others. like yeah. i hate it. i read this one book where two people are stranded on an island and they become codependent because of it. yeah... yeah no. YEAH NO. I'M THINKING ABOUT IT AND I'M ABOUT TO PUKE. ew... UGH... IT'S SO GROSS. i'm staying away from any stories with THIS TROPE. EVER. screw broaden my reading experiences. I'M NOT TOUCHING THIS TROPE.

age gap. no explanation i think i just am not really comfortable because it's usually paired with some heavy one-sided power dynamics and that usually being the older one. and it's...???

groveling TOO LATE. i love me some groveling and second chances. but when it happens at like 70% of the book and before that it's just one of the character being an asshole to the other one... is it worth it. on that note. lack of consequences. WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR THE WRONGED TO FORGIVE!?!??! HELLO?!?!?!? GET OFF THE FLOOR AND HAVE SOME SELF-RESPECT!!! MAKE THE OTHER ONE BEG AND KNEEL AND WHAT THE HELL... WHERE'S THE WRATH?!?!?! FURY!?!? like... ugh...

i'm such a vanilla person because i rather prefer fluff than spice (though i'm not going to deny spices are good too) but when the spices overrides the vanilla so much it ALSO overtook the plot then i don't know what else to think of. like... i guess the seventh time i ate the chili it's not as spicy anymore and at that point i'd rather stop haha

ugh talking negatives is draining. i'm losing energy. i'll stop here.

[timandlucy]

hi suz! i'm sorry that you got sick, are you feeling better? sending you lots of healing thoughts and vibes if you're still feeling it!

you know...i don't think i've actually seen a fix-it fic for 2x05...that might've been wishful thinking but fic writers who see this 👀 lol

i love hallmark christmas movies tbh. they're just so wholesome and predictable and comforting because of the predictability, you know? i'm glad that made you feel a little less miserable! do you have any favorite hallmark christmas movies? i always watch the one with scott and kristin chenoweth because it's just so cute! but i really unironically love a lot of the hallmark films lol

do you have a favorite piece you've written? i love listening to writers talk about their stories! i also love reading! did you have any new favorite books this year? what are some of your favorite books? ohhhhh i'm a summer girlie as well! it's a super busy time of year for me, but i feel much more like myself when the sun is out! i love chilly and cozy weather, but it's definitely harder for me mentally, so the spring and summer is my favorite time of the year. i love the beach/sea, i find it so relaxing, and i love going to the beach when i can, i feel like it recharges me, you know? i also like watching ballet lol i love dance -- during the height of the pandemic one of the ballet companies in my area put some of their shows on demand for a bit and i watched their production of a midsummer night's dream and it was so beautiful. i don't get to go to the ballet a lot, but that's definitely something i would love to do next year! sfbgkhdsbglhkdsavg you are not pathetic please, plus like at this point 80% of my personality is being a taylor swift fan (i'm literally wearing taylor merch as i write this lol)

nace endgame was definitely one of my favorite things this year! lol something else that i really loved this year was getting to see my best friend in 3 different trips. we've been best friends since we were teenagers, but she went to the other side of the country for college and she's lived on the other coast since so we only get to see each other a few times a year, but this year i got to visit her twice and she visited me once so that was definitely a highlight of the year! i've done a lot of fun stuff this year, and one of the biggest highlights was going to the eras tour! i love reading, so i loved reading new books this year and discovering some new authors and new favorite books. as i mentioned before, i like baking and i learned how to make swiss meringue buttercream -- it actually turned out so good, so i was proud of myself! this year i also fell back in love with one of my biggest passions (i feel like if i say what it was specifically it'll give away who i am, so i'll tell you later lol) and god what a beautiful feeling it was! i don't think i realized how...lost i felt without that passion and i felt so much more connected with myself once that passion came back. sorry, that got a little intense lol i just think it's beautiful how we can fall in and out of love with things, but the things that are apart of who we truly are we always find our way back to.

i'm glad that you enjoy the messages and aren't like "ugh, it's them again!" lol lol lol i love sending messages and talking to people, so 🤷🏻‍♀️ sending you lots of good vibes and i hope that you have a wonderful week! love, your secret sleuth 🧡🔎

Hi! Thank you so much, I still need the healing vibes, I am better but I'm so not at 100% yet, if you know what I mean? It really got me hard, I do not wish it on anyone.

Exactly!! I haven't seen one, and I need it haha.

Omg I unironically love so many of them tbh. Out of the ones I caught this year I've loved The Christmas House, Ghosts of Christmas Always, and just yesterday I watched A Very Merry Bridesmaid which I super enjoyed. But you know how it is, they play different ones all the time and they're so easily forgettable 🙈

My nace fic obviously has a special place in my heart, but if I had to choose a favorite thing I've ever written, I'd have to go back to my og days in the Linstead fandom, so I won't babble about that! Overall, I am trying to feel more confident in my writing, but that's something I struggle with and compare myself to others all the time. Ooof asking the hard questions! My fave books... Definitely Pride and Prejudice is at the top, I have a comfort series I keep going back to, which is Chesapeake Bay saga by Nora Roberts (I love her explorations of found families and how they can be just as important as biological ones). It feels weird to name the HP books, but I grew up with them and they are a part of me. This years... I read Roisin Meaney's Life Before Us this year, and really enjoyed it. I am sad to report I don't read as many books as I'd like lately, and I need to change that! And yeah, I absolutely know what you mean. The sea recharges me like nothing else. Even just listening to it and watching it. It's amazing. Winter is definitely hard on me too, emotionally. Sometimes I feel during the winter I'm just existing, waiting for it to pass. so I can be myself again in the spring. And that sounds amazing! I've never watched Midsummer Night's Dream ballet!

Hahaha we are the same in that! Actually one of the highlights of this year I forgot to mention was getting tickets for the Eras Tour! I'll be seeing her once in Paris with two of my best friends in the world, and then again in August with a friend I've had since childhood, and then again with one of my best friends. So that's something I'm super excited about for next year! My entire year is gonna be TS coded.

Two of my best friends live two far away for me to see them regularly (actually one of them I've never actually met in real life) so I understand how that made you feel and I'm so happy for you!! It's an amazing feeling when you finally got to spend time with them. And you're so lucky you went to the Eras Tour! Okay, since I told you I need to get back into reading, can you recommend me something fun and possibly romancey? You clearly have good taste so... hehe.

Ahhhh I love buttercream, but cannot for the life of me figure out how to make it properly, so I just gave up pretty much. That's so amazing you mastered it!

What you said about our passions was really beautiful and it resonates with me a lot. And you're absolutely right, it's funny how essentially we are just a mix of our favorite things. That's what makes us who we are. (I'm super curious about your passion, I hope you'll share that with me after! And I hope we can continue talking when ss is over, I feel I'll miss these letters otherwise!). I'm in a similar boat, I had a really long and extensive writer's block at the beginning of this year, and I felt lost without it. It made me realize that whether I post or not, I should remember why I love writing despite that and keep doing it. So please don't apologize! I love what you said, and I am so happy that you got your passion back.

Omg never!! Sitting down to reply is one of my fave things lately, and it truly made being sick more bearable, so thank you! I hope you have a very lovely week as well and I am looking forward to your next message! 💛 lots of love to you my secret sleuth!