#self-affliction

[sunderwight]

Further speculation on Shen Yuan transmigrating in some kind of Beast:

Werewolf Shen Qingqiu.

And like, major emphasis on the wolf, in his case. Not wolfman. Every full moon Shen Qingqiu has to make arrangements for himself to turn into a gigantic silvery-white wolf that retains extremely little of his consciousness, and mostly just seems to want to do Wolf Things, though according to PIDW and all information he has on the matter, he ought to be turning into a violent and bloodthirsty predator.

However, it turns out that the wolf form does retain some awareness from the mind/soul of the human, meaning that the reason SJ's wolf was so incredibly unsafe to be around was because it was constantly trying to process SJ's trauma in wild animal terms. So, it was hostile towards the vast majority of humans and in a heightened state of anxiety, always anticipating violence (and reacting accordingly) whenever something unexpected happened. Matters were not helped by SJ's decision to try and lock himself up for every transformation, which of course freaked his wolf out even more (trapped) and resulted in self-harm as it desperately tried to escape. It was just that SJ interpreted the self-harm as a sign that the wolf was so extremely violent that it would cannibalize itself rather than go a single night without the taste of blood.

SY, who is a lot less traumatized, conversely has a much more calm and curious wolf. Like he's extremely cautious and nervous about the whole thing, because he's expecting it to be violent based on his information, and since he doesn't retain much awareness of his transformations he has little idea of what his wolf-self does. But he also isn't great at locking himself up like the original goods did, and he never really seems to wake up covered in blood or anything? Once or twice he thinks he might have hunted a rabbit, but they definitely were rabbits and not like his subconscious somehow going after children in the middle of a wilderness somewhere, because when he came to the wolf had brought the leftover bunny bits along back to the ruined temple he was supposed to be shutting himself up into.

The new Shen Qingqiu consequently gets a bit complacent about the whole thing. He can only blame himself. Maybe he should have anticipated Luo Binghe, with his boundless curiosity and interest in his shizun, would notice the oddities in his schedule and follow him out one night. Everyone's supposed to believe that he's just going to brothels and engaging in purely mundane debauchery, though, so why would Binghe doubt his story?

But he did, and so of course Luo Binghe ends up witnessing his shizun's terrible transformation into a wretched and hated beast. Stunned, the young disciple stands transfixed (no doubt in horror) in the moonlight. The wolf sees him, and though Shen Qingqiu doesn't retain much memory, he recollects the running, the leaping, the... uh... licking...?

Well. Turns out that even Shen Qingqiu's subconscious wolf mind recognizes Luo Binghe as pack, and thank goodness too, because at least he didn't attack him!

Although after that it becomes an extreme challenge to explain to Luo Binghe why he can't accompany Shen Qingqiu for his transformations every month. It's not safe, the wolf is unpredictable and Shen Qingqiu can't promise that he won't startle or suddenly change his tune and lash out, and even though Binghe's cultivation is progressing in leaps and bounds, the wolf also isn't limited to normal mortal strength. It would be able to track his scent and follow him relentlessly, chasing him down to catch and pin him beneath its massive paws, and... Binghe why is your face so red? Are you feeling alright? If it's too frightening, then let's not describe it any further, but the point is that it's dangerous.

Shen Qingqiu has to put his foot down. In the end, he has his suspicions that Binghe is still circumventing him, as he could swear he sometimes remembers running around the wilderness with company. (Binghe is absolutely sneaking out to go spend time with Wolf Shizun.) But there's nothing concrete enough to be certain. Meanwhile, Luo Binghe has at least agreed to keep it secret (for now -- probably not once the time comes for Shen Qingqiu to be put on trial) and fusses over his shizun, helping him keep track of the moon scheduling and always making sure he has a full belly before he goes into wilderness seclusion (Shen Qingqiu never says, but somehow Luo Binghe guesses anyway that he doesn't like waking up to find that the wolf had a snack during the night...)

Another hazard: lycanthropy in the PIDW setting is a curse. Like admittedly it's kind of a kickass one, but it still has tons of negative associations, most commonly befalling impoverished individuals or travelers who get bitten by wild wolf demons, and survive only to find that a piece of the wolf's spirit has gotten stuck to their own. Cultivators with lycanthropy are often associated with demons and disrepute, like Wu Yanzi, and there are countless tales of them turning on their own people or being revealed as violent, depraved criminals. It's only slightly more acceptable than being a demon outright.

In other words it's not a desirable circumstance.

And yet, for some reason, Luo Binghe is reprehensibly lapse in his protections against lycanthropy. Shen Qingqiu has told him all of the precautions he knows against it, and yet it's almost like Binghe keeps doing the exact opposite things! Listen, wolves are cool. Shen Qingqiu knows that. He's actually kind of fine with turning into one, since it seems to be less of a ravenous beast situation than he'd feared. But there are still social consequences to this kind of a thing! Luckily, it doesn't actually matter much because even with his uncharacteristic youthful irresponsibility, Binghe's heavenly demon blood protects him from ever being cursed. The only way he'd get lycanthropy would be if he deliberately let a werewolf bite him and then just refused to excise the curse, and even then, he could purge the tainted wolf spirit from him just by force of will whenever he wanted.

Seriously, though! It's only when Shen Qingqiu points out that Luo Binghe is going to make people suspicious with all his negligence towards basic precautions that Binghe finally smartens up about it.

(Luo Binghe, out in the woods during a full moon: Wolf Shizun please bite me? Bite Binghe? Then we can be together every full moon! Look here I'll stick my hand in your mouth... just, just chomp down... no don't lick... *sigh*...)

Anyway, the plot still goes mostly the same, except that when Shen Qingqiu put into the water prison it's the full moon. He expects this is part of Luo Binghe's plan against him -- Binghe probably couldn't reveal the lycanthropy without also admitting he'd known before and helped hide it, but this way, Shen Qingqiu can just get caught as a wolf by the palace guards. But Luo Binghe's just been so frazzled and distressed by everything that he genuinely forgot what phase the moon was on. Shen Qingqiu's expecting a lot of things when he wakes up after transforming in the Water Prison, but being back out of the Water Prison and snuggled up to the protagonist's chest wasn't on the list.

Turns out that after his confrontation with Luo Binghe and the Little Palace Mistress, Gongyi Xiao went to check on him and found him transformed. After Gongyi Xiao alerted the rest of the palace, the Palace Master determined that Shen Qingqiu being a werewolf was as good as a confirmation of guilt, and had the wolf dragged out to be killed. Luo Binghe intervened, Shen Qingqiu took off, and between one thing and another the whole night was spent with Huan Hua and Cang Qiong cultivators trying to catch him (for different reasons).

Of course it was Luo Binghe who eventually cornered the terrified wolf, at which point the wolf actually, finally did bite him. But when Binghe failed to react, it whimpered and went back to its usual behavior, and let Binghe lead it out of the city and off to its usual territory near Cang Qiong. The wolf then proceeded to act like an overjoyed puppy whose owner had finally come back from war, until Binghe broke down and sobbed himself to sleep. It must have curled up onto his chest afterwards.

Shen Qingqiu is deeply embarrassed, but... somehow Luo Binghe doesn't seem to be taking revenge on him?

He's going to need to treat that bite wound soon, though.

Binghe.

Binghe, you are going to treat that--

[the-meme-monarch]

drawings from recent that i didn’t really want to post as just One Or Two images each so i was saving them up <:] frankenbugs they’re funny streamers i like + new discord pfp

[jujoobedoodling]

Weapons.

Kiss the hands that can kill you. Kiss the hands that choose to bring you light instead. Kiss the hands of the woman you've fallen in love with.

inspired by this femslash february prompt list

[poolseason]

remembering something...

[ophiotartarus]

the untapped potential for supernatural / locked tomb au crossovers is gently smothering me in my sleep!!!!

i mean apart from the fact that point blank Dean and Gideon fulfill the same archetype in their respective stories, the mystery and gruesome magic of each world brings out a different kind of sandbox for the other to play in! like okay

an spn!au where emotionally unavailable himbo Gideon and reticent college dropout Harrow reconnect after a fraught childhood together to track down the demon that burned their town (Harrow's parents were infertile and made a deal with a crossroads demon that killed 200 people)

or Harrow is stuck living through different aus and has to figure out a way to stop the trickster god that's causing it

or ghosthunting worsties Ianthe and Gideon occasionally ask for information from a vindictive demon with her own agenda but both have been developing a crush on her it's getting kind of ridiculous AKA they call on Harrow at the same time and she has to stage an intervention

OR THE INVERSE!!

a cav!Dean necro!Sam au where they hunt the evil spirits that come up from the river to possess 8th house cavaliers

or lyctor!Castiel at caanan house falling for dean and telling him not to sacrifice himself to become something he deeply regrets – possibly playing the role of Cythrea here and killing multiple innocents to try and stop anyone from ascending but maybe he gains a little too much of a conscience in his short time there

or a BOE au where the brothers storm the mithraeum only to find out John (!!), the emperor undying, is their father... thinking specifically about of the soulless!Sam and Kiriona parallels !!!!

like there's been ghosthunting aus in the tlt tag but i cannot find one single sincere crossover on a03 and i need somebody fix this! the potential!! aaahhh!!!!

[theeminentlyimpractical]

🎶 on the 10th day of Sheenantmas the polycule gave to us 🎶

🎵 Ten-nant’s weird headband🎵

🎵 nine bitchy blinds🎵

🎵 eight total children 🎵

🎵 seven sozzled selfies 🎵

🎵 six soirées for Georgia 🎵

🎵FIVE BAFTA NOMMMSS🎵

🎵 four reindeer sweaters 🎵

🎵 three almost seasons 🎵

🎵 two spicy margs 🎵

🎵 and Bark Ruffalo in the first row 🎵

[qoldenskies]

Also you 🤝me

Doing Bad Things Happen Bingo looking at Rise and cackling wickedly…..now to make them their own separate thing or write more CC brainrot

always the option to mix it up a little !!! i'll probably be writing a little cc if i get an idea for something really good with my bthb but im probably going to focus mooostly on original prompts so mess around. do what your heart desires!!!

[dyrewrites]

"If you don't handle this correctly people are going to think this stupid clown story is a metaphor for aids."

My brain has given me a new fear, my frens. A whole new fear. I am stalled on the horror story because of this new fear.

Now I gotta police my own tone and wording and make absolutely sure my point is clear so there's no chance it is taken as what it is not.

Isn't writing fun?

[payaso-affairs]

Been knee deep into pokemon since i was bribed and cruelly suggested to download pokemon masters ex so have some wips :)

Pokémon team in their outfits and a little comic based on that one audio from Kawaii Vocaloid's song

[ratatatastic]

there is something so special about self fulfilling prophecies

[lilmissiamenough]

[moodycarcass]

Combo sleep deprivation and misophonia making me about to rip someone's head off I need a towel duct taped over my head like an alligator getting relocated from someone's swimming pool by fish and wildlife services

[igniferous]

oh, god-- my lord, i have a secret to tell you... unfortunately for you, they also bribed me to keep it a secret from you so. idk. your move.

ㅤ██▐ @hiisfire. | ✖ | unprompted. ( always accepting ! )

ㅤㅤ〝 WH - WHAT —    WHO — ! ! ! 〞

He should be well accustomed to this unbridled force of disturbance to his daily routine already. But Wolfram never could decipher whether Kinji  has made it a leisurely sport to spite him personally at every turn, or whether he simply was this unapologetically duplicitous a bastard. And he has yet to decide which would actually be worse ( ! ) 

ㅤㅤ〝 — Who are THEY ?!     What do you mean, MY MOVE ??!   What’s the point in telling me anything at all if you plan to collaborate with my adversaries for small coin, you double - crossing cur ?! 〞   Finding his voice with an indignant sputter, he’s jumping to the most dire of conclusions almost as fast as he has jumped to grab onto two fistfuls of the stupid fox’s collar.

[raddest-laddest]

i wish i could enjoy things and be creative on my own at the same time

[beeapocalypse]

comic idea. coughs

[fangsandsoftgrass]

Greymoor headcanon #???

In the few days before blackreach, when Fenn was staying with Mjolen outside morthal, Cirwedh would camp in the surrounding wilds at night just far enough to stay out of sight but close enough to keep an eye on them and make sure they were safe since the Host was aware of their presence by now. She was really just keeping an eye on Fenn. She knew from her own experience that Mjolen was capable of keeping herself safe, but Fennorian was new, and had already said himself that he wasn't a fighter. From the moment he tried to warn her away from the harrowstorm atop kilkreath despite her being covered in gore and magic, she found herself oddly compelled to protect him. Mjolen knew she was there every single night but never said anything to Fennorian because she found it entertaining to listen to him talk about her every night and not know she was just out of earshot LOL after Tzinghalis she was even more protective, and even spent the night sleeping outside the door of the room he'd stayed in the night after the incident. She had Glad sleep in the room with him bc she thought it would be less weird somehow.