#self loathing d20

[dropoutconfessions]

“In Mentropolis, I didn't think the fact that Madam Loathing was Self Loathing was a twist.”

I think some things are a twist for the characters, and others are a twist for the audience. Personally I hadn't realized that the two Loathings were siblings so I was satisfied. I also love the dramatic facial expression Brenna pulls when he's doing A Reveal™ even if it was something I'd already guessed. You can tell that he's in his element and the cast are amused every time

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[throwntotheair]

You cannot hide your self loathing under the guise of self improvement.

The way Self Loathing was corralling all the things that used to make Elias happy in favor of things that could bring him money and prestige.

Let me tell you... When I started crying...

Elias had hurt himself for a very long time because underneath all his accolades, he very much did not like himself.

And when Conrad just accepts the Madame - like can't focus on her but can't hate her either - hate only put her in a corner where she festered and haunted the same crevices as Conrad

That "step into the light" moment - when Elias acknowledges his self loathing and uses it to do better now - get good now

Let me tell you, I wept

[spooky-dice]

elias hodge + i don’t like my mind by mitski. you get it

[rqg179]

watched fantasy high live episode 10 the dangerous mind of aelwyn abernant. i am in tatters

[sea-buns]

everyone sweating buckets and hunch is just like:

now i'm thinking about the mentopolis pcs and adhd.

obviously the fix, imelda pulse, and dan fucks work overtime, anastasia tension is... less present than we would like, and who among us hasn't felt SO much guilt/shame due to executive dysfunction?

hunch curio is the least directly impacted, i think, but i know i've lost so many hours to wikipedia rabbit holes started by a passing curiosity.

[sarcasticsra]

HE COULDN’T THINK OF ANY FACTS.

Hyperfixation and passion got married and are taking care of all of the interests! Elias’ brain is just absolutely flooded with dopamine right now, it’s the BEST.

“A strong sense of pleasure slightly tempered by conscience sounds pretty fun.” Trapp is always 100% correct. My god this man is so quick and talented. More Trapp on D20 2kforever.

Conscience understanding the place self-loathing can come from and shrinking it back into more helpful “you fucked up but you’re going to fix it” guilt, accountability. Goddamn seriously self-loathing evolving from guilt Brennan you’re a goddamn genius.

Impulse and hyper vigilance have gotten divorced and remarried 17 times at least already, you can’t convince me otherwise.

Way to go, Elias. I knew you could do it, buddy.

[saingirl101]

Mentopolis Episode 5 Liveblog as Gifs (SPOILERS)

Man I can't believe next week is the series finale for this show. legit been one of my most favorite seasons of D20 and 6 episodes were absolutely not enough. Like this cast is so so so good. I can't believe how quickly I have grown to love and care them all. But all good things must come to an end I suppose and theres at least one more episode after this.

As always spoilers below:

Hunch giving bluh reaction to a tension giving him a hug after he gives her the occulus:

Hunch proceeding to be the most insane detective man wo ever lived with Mr. Thalamus:

Alex realizing that the drawing of a snake Dan fucks found with the initials R.R. stand for ronnie reptile:

the gang putting together that Norrell destroyed the keyhole to protect the big guy:

Conrad not knowing what a palooka is:

Finding out gobstopper definitively being used as a weapon for mind control:

The Fix intimidating frank freeze into telling the PIs where all the keyholes are:

The gang splitting up again:

Frank finally deciding to do something and that something being changing elias' pants:

Imelda winning the standoff between H. V. Lance and them kissing and having a marriage proposal:

A Tension and Danny fucks trying to convince the judge fusion that danny should be the mayor:

A Tension getting a 19 snoop after her impassion statement that Mark Ambition got a campaign check from Don Avarici:

ANASTASIA GETTING EXTRA NUMBERS TO EXPLODE HER SLICK DIE ON AND BEATING M. BITION CONVINCING THE JUDGE TO MAKE DANNY MAYOR:

A tension and Danny getting coerced into a car with Don Avarici:

The Fix telling Madam Loathing to shut the fuck up:

Finding out Madam Loathing is siblings with Self Doubt:

The fix giving ronnie a snake fact and then we jumpscaring to shadows downstairs:

BRENNAN TRYING TO KILL JUSTIN WITH THE WHITE KEY:

HUNCH EXPLODING ON HIS SNOOP TO FIND A COPPER PIPE TO TAKE DOWN MADAM LOATHING AND JUSTIN:

Hunch and Fix failing to convince justin to come back to their team:

CONRAD SUMMONING HIS OWN KEY BY SUMMONING THE ICE SKATES TO SAVE JUSTIN:

Conrad growing because Imelda had the big guy do the right thing for the first time in awhile:

Me seeing Fanny and wanting to marry her:

Anastasia easily getting the Key from Fanny:

And then losing a key to Flight:

Danny and avaricci having a flirty mode:

Fuck having moral quandries about what avaricci is offering vs not letting conrad be killed:

A tension figuring out Flight is stacy fakename:

Us after that jam packed episode and there only being one episode to wrap this all up:

Brennan leading us into the finale:

[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

thank you for sending me all these asks! i have some for you as well!

d20 related:

favorite npcs from your top 5 favorite seasons

who's your favorite intrepid hero (if you can choose lol)

favorite non intrepid hero?

favorite pc from each intrepid hero

predictions for junior year?

any settings you would like to see d20 do?

favorite setting they've done so far?

favorite dm besides brennan?

least favorite npc?

a line that makes you emotional?

a funny moment you love

omg hell yeah i feel so honored

1.favorite npcs from your top 5 favorite seasons (its so hard to choose lol)

Fantasy High Sophomore Year: Ayda !!!! of course A Starstruck Odyssey: I really love the Junkmother, but also Plug ofc MisMag: that one professor who was all vibes and had the branches ACOFAF: jeremy renner theodore TUC: my girl ester or my guy dale. also pizza rat.

who's your favorite intrepid hero (if you can choose lol)

i love them all for different reasons, but as someone who is playing a circle of spores druid in a dnd campaign currently and is up to So Many Shenanigans and causing my dm to facepalm way more than usual, i gotta say my girl Emily Axford (but honestly this answer could change tomorrow)

favorite non intrepid hero?

erika. geese with the stats of velociraptors. (and all her other shenanigans, but that one is most notable)

favorite pc from each intrepid hero

Emily: a tie between Fig and Chirp, both so amazing Zac: Pib!! a little guy!! Siobhan: Imelda Pulse was too iconic to not make the list Lou: a tie between Kingston and Squak (i love the acofaf cousins, okay?) Ally: Pete Conlan! My wild magic tea-loving bookshop boy! Murph: Riz! My aroace private investigator!!

predictions for junior year?

Tracker and Kristen officially break up

something bad happens to Ayda

aroace riz content

at least one of Fig's parents perma-dies (and its probably Jawbone)

at least one of the bad kids starts using they/them pronouns (and lets be real its probably kristen)

any settings you would like to see d20 do?

would love to see a true pirate setting. I think they do so well with PoL and the ship battle in acoc, i would love to see a whole season of just that removed from everything else. also, classic fantasy would be fun. just chill, nothing else funky. kinda like DaDQ.

favorite setting they've done so far?

Starstruck definitely, or PoL. also, of course, ACOFAF.

favorite dm besides brennan?

aabria!!!

least favorite npc?

Dayne Blade. others are bad, but he's manipulative and a real asshole. fuck him.

a line that makes you emotional?

so so many. most recently tho, Conrad's speech to self loathing in Mentopolis.

a funny moment you love

Chungledown Bim is so funny every time. Also, when Gorgug thinks Jawbone is Tracker's dad, his voice on "nOoO. you're hER dad" is so funny, go rewatch it.

[trailblczed]

Runner Status Effect Time Remaining: 0

"Boy, deal with the others". Ignore the mental flinch, Caelus. The Shadow doesn't mean anything by it ( he hopes ). But.. how? What could he do? Were they just tossing fists? No, they both said that'd be bad. So they're using the one the other took out as the new disguise..he guesses? What to do, what to do.. What the hell is he even supposed to do? Poor lad just ends up staring dumbly at where the remaining three guards were, concern rising in his stomach- the guards were no longer tussling. The guards are no longer under his influence- Caelus quickly looks towards their Ripper, voice as quiet as possible ( who knows how well those things' hearing was ).

❛ If you're going to change, do it now- My hacks have worn off! ❜

The silver is still nervous about the entire thing, worried their escort somehow will be able to scan Mei and know she is not one of them- or notice the dismantled guard locked in a cell- He can't just follow up the snow haired man, taking out a few of the guards himself--- who knows how fast they'd set off an alarm, and how quickly their other group would be put in danger. Think, Caelus, think!!

..Well, they guards were still robotic at the end of the day- so why can't he just hack them again? Yeah it might be his last usage of his ability ( he's too tired- he knows he won't be able to even attempt another ), but it's worth a try anyway.. right? Maybe Caelus can just.. mastermind the remaining escorts.. You know, become the puppeteer that's pulling their strings? Or even rewrite their command scripts--- no. Keep it simple. Make them listen to him. Yeah- alright.

"Deal with the others" repeats in his head with a non-visible nod. The Runner raises a hand just a tad, hoping a more direct shot will help the chances of it working please please please he can't let them down now is not the time for a bug in the system that is his body please just-

Roll: d20 || Result: 11 ( Unsuccessful )

Caelus' eye watch his targets intently, noticing only the smallest stutter shake the guard's body- almost as if they were shaking off a chill breeze. ....It... it didn't work-- How? Why-- why did it not--?! DAMN IT. Wide eyed, fear slowly eating away at his soul, mouth agape in shock and disappointment, Caelus stares in silence as he watches his failure play out in front of him.

He should have said something to them-- should have said there was a high chance that he would let them down, that he would be useless to them on this mission- Hell, he wasn't useful to Wanderer either. The team is now going to suffer due to his insecurity of whatever the hell was going wrong with him. They would have been able to make up another plan if they had known. This could have been avoided, but now.. it is too late.

In his self-loathing, the silver once again can only come up with a panicked, frantic plan. Maybe Caelus can be a tad rough with the "new guard", then have her apprehend him in some way to sell her ruse. But then again.. the plan is, in fact, stupid. That would still out them as traitors and put the whole mission at risk ( and the Nameless has already fucked it up enough as it is- ). Plus the guards likely aren't going to question Mei's presence to begin with..

When he said he wasn't a smart dude, or more specifically bad at strategizing- he meant it. Especially if it's having to come up with something in such a tense, every-second-counts, situation. On top of the fact that the silver does not know these two individuals, so their fighting style, moves, and typical plans of attack ( or defense ) isn't something he knows - so it isn't as if he can even ( attempt to ) plan around that since he has no prior knowledge of the two.

All Caelus can really do is stand there, dejected, arms dropped to his sides at the weight crushing him from the inside- staring dumbfounded and terrified at the escorts before them, then ever so slowly looking down at his own hand that had malfunctioned yet again.

A soft, broken plea for forgiveness is all the boy can muster out.

❛ It.. I can't- It failed..... I'm sorry. ❜

Next: @originsrebirth

for the sins of our hand, the sins of our tongue

[jam-every-other-day]

Skeletons

I finally built up enough courage to post the first chapter of my Fantasy High fic

Nothing was going to slip past their grasp, and now they have the final piece, the son of Bill Seacaster. They had accounted for everything. Everything, except for five teenagers who would move heaven and earth to get their friend back. Or Fabian is kidnapped and his friends do everything in their power to rescue him.

Chapter one

[thecreaturecodex]

Sahkil, Kwevencha

Image © Wizards of the Coast

[Commissioned by @annotaremonstrorum​. I’ve talked about d20 Modern’s category of “fiends” before, and how they don’t play super nicely with evil outsiders in either D&D or Paizo’s categories. So the question arose of how to convert them when I got a whole bunch, this time from the D20 Modern Menace Manual. The commissioner suggested I make the kwevencha a non-demon Abyssal outsider, and a servitor species of Mazmezz the Creeping Queen. I looked into Mazmezz, and in Book of the Damned bebiliths take that “favored servitor” role... and have a fun relationship with her where she ignores and makes excuses for them hunting and killing demons. So I went with a Plan B here: an embodiment of arachnophobia. It’s a little redundant with the wihsaak sahkil, but as any bug loving eight year old can tell you, spiders are not insects.]

Sahkil, Kwevencha CR 7 NE Outsider (extraplanar) This creature looks something like a mammoth spider, but it has two pairs of hatchet-like mandibles, and its front set of legs is modified into wicked hooks. It has a cluster of eight forward-facing eyes. Its skin ripples and bulges as smaller spiders crawl over, into and through its bulbous abdomen.

A kwevencha is a sahkil embodying arachnophobia. The long legs and staring eyes of spiders inspire more than their fair share of fear, and kwevenchas have impossible anatomies that combine the worst traits of spiders of all kinds. They can reach into the minds of giant spiders and steer their actions, and areas with especially active monstrous spiders may have a kwevencha pulling the strings.

In combat, a kwevencha prefers to attack from ambush whenever possible. It maintains range for a few rounds with its impressive mobility, only descending to melee when enemies are entangled in webs, weakened from poisonous spurs spit from its mouth, or both. Those that succumb to the look of fear of a kwevencha feel the sensation of creeping and crawling along their flesh. The body of a kwevencha is covered in a skittering carpet of spiders, which help to protect it from attacks and punish those that would dare strike it. These can be temporarily destroyed by area of effect spells, leaving the monster vulnerable while it regenerates its shield.

Kwevenchas are somewhat stupid, but clever enough to be dangerously full of themselves. Their plans to spread fear and misery are often overly complex and filled with multiple interlocking layers, like a spider’s web. Any minion that dares point out the flaws in a kwevencha’s designs is consumed as an example to others. They often work with monstrous arachnids of all types, ettercaps, and lesser sahkils. They never work with wihsaaks, and attempt to eat them or disrupt their plans whenever possible.

Kwevencha     CR 7 XP 3,200 NE Large outsider (evil, extraplanar, sahkil) Init +5; Senses darkvision 60 ft., Perception +15, tremorsense 30 ft. Defense AC 18, touch 10, flat-footed 17 (-1 size, +1 Dex, +8 natural) hp 85 (10d10+30) Fort +8, Ref +8, Will +9 DR 10/good or silver; Immune death effects, disease, fear, poison; Resist cold 10, electricity 10, sonic 10; SR 18 Defensive Abilities shroud of spiders Offense Speed 30 ft., climb 30 ft. Melee bite +13 (2d6+4/19-20 plus poison), 2 claws +13 (1d6+4 plus grab) Ranged venom dart +10 (2d4+4 poison) Space 10 ft.; Reach 5 ft. Special Attacks emotional focus, look of fear, web (+10 touch, 10 hp, DC 18) Spell-like Abilities CL 7th, concentration +9 At will—detect magic, greater teleport (self plus 50 lbs. only) 3/day— unadulterated loathing (DC 17), unholy blight (DC 16) 1/day—aura of doom (DC 18), summon (2 fiendish spider swarms, 100%, 3rd level) Statistics Str 18, Dex 13, Con 16, Int 8, Wis 15, Cha 15 Base Atk +10; CMB +15 (+19 grapple); CMD 26 (38 vs. trip) Feats Blind-fight, Great Fortitude, Improved Critical (bite), Improved Initiative, Nimble Moves Skills Acrobatics +14, Climb +25, Intimidate +15, Perception +15, Stealth +10 Languages Abyssal, Celestial, Infernal, telepathy 100 ft. SQ arachnid empathy (+16), easy to call, skip between, spirit touch Ecology Environment any land or underground (Abyss) Organization solitary, pair or cluster (3-6) Treasure standard Special Abilities Arachnid Empathy (Ex) This ability functions as a druid's wild empathy, save that a kwevencha can only use this ability on spiders, scorpions, solifugids, whip spiders and other giant arachnids. A kwevencha gains a +4 racial bonus on this check. Arachnid empathy treats swarms as if they were one creature possessing a single mind—a kwevencha can thus use this ability to influence and direct the actions of swarms with relative ease. Look of Fear (Su) 30 ft., Will DC 19, staggered 1d3 rounds. This is a mind-influencing fear effect. The save DC is Charisma based and includes a +2 racial bonus from the emotional focus SQ. Poison (Ex) Bite, shroud or venom dart—injury; save Fort DC 18; duration 1/round per 4 rounds; effect 1d3 Str damage; cure 2 consecutive saves. The save DC is Constitution based. Shroud of Spiders (Su) A kwevencha’s body constantly produces monstrous spiders that cling to it. It gains partial concealment as long as its shroud of spiders is active. Any creature striking the kwevencha with a melee weapon, natural weapon, unarmed strike or touch attack must succeed a DC 17 Reflex save or take 2d6 points of piercing damage and be exposed to the kwevencha’s poison. A weapon with the reach property protects its wielder from this effect. If a kwevencha takes 10 or more points of damage from an area of effect spell or ability, its shroud of spiders is destroyed, but is replenished in 1d4+1 rounds. The save DC is Charisma based. Venom Dart (Ex) As a standard action, a kwevencha can spit a dart made of hardened webbing and venom at an opponent. Treat this as a thrown weapon with a range increment of 30 feet. A creature struck takes 2d4 damage plus the kwevencha’s Strength bonus, and is exposed to the creature’s poison. A kwevencha can make an infinite number of venom darts.

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Then/Now

I wrote a Fantasy High fanfiction a while ago and put in on ao3, [link here], but there’s a bigger community of D20 fans on Tumblr, so I thought I’d post it here as well!

It’s 1st person, Adaine-centric, and deals with the topic of anxiety and panic attacks in great detail, and has a small theme of self-harm (barely there, but worth noting), so trigger warnings for those topics in case you need them :)

Part 2 is here

Part One- Then

It's a fairly normal day. I'm sat on my large bed, in my large room, in my large house, and I am studying. The entrance exams for the upper school at Hudol are soon, and I have to do well. I have to get in. If I don't.. life literally wouldn't be worth living. I would never hear the end of it from my family, and I'd have to go to Augefort, or even Mumple. Besides, Hudole is the best, and I'm really good at magic.

Well, clearly not as good as my perfect sister. She's already in Hudol, and takes every opportunity to remind me. As do my parents.

So, I must pass this exam. I can't afford not to. I'd ridiculed, humiliated. And Aelwyn will look even better, because I failed where she succeeded.

I really, genuinely cannot afford to fuck this up. I'll probably be kicked out if I fail. Kicked out in a way that doesn't cause a public scandal, at least. And I have to show them that I can be just as good as Aelwen. If I just study very hard, learn everything I can, devote all of my time to practicing for these exams... work like Hell for everything that comes so easily to her, maybe I can prove to them that I'm not useless. Maybe they wouldn't compare me to her, because we'd be on the same level.

...I know that's not true. My parents love Aelwen more, and that's just a fact. I'm going to have to live with that. They have impossibly high standards that I can never seem to meet, where Aelwen can simply breathe and be showered in praise.

I do know that's it's not fair, but I also know that's it's probably justified. Aelwen is far more clever, pretty, skilled at magic, social, confident, charming... Perhaps if I were better, they'd love me more.

But, that's never going to happen. I'm not good enough. I'll never be good enough! I'm just a stupid fuck up- a blight on this family. I don't deserve to behold the name 'Abernant'!

My chest tightens, and the words in my book start to swim. No, not again. This has been happening more and more often, and I can't control it. If this keeps happening, when am I going to have the time to study?

I need to study to pass the exam! If I don't, I'm dead! My hands are tightly clasped together, and my breaths are short and quick. I need more air, there isn't enough. But I can't leave my room and let my parents see me- or worse, Aelwen! I can only stay here and hope to ride it out.

My knuckles are now white and I feel dizzy; shallow breaths escaping me. My head seems as though it's spinning, making me feel sick.

My book feels like a weight on my lap, the swirling words taunting me, jeering that I'm too stupid to understand, so pathetic that I get into such a state over nothing. My magic acts without my permission, and I Mage Hand the book across my room. It slams into the wall and thuds to the floor. A scream of frustration rips through my lungs, as tears begin to form in my eyes.

"Shut up, you little freak! I'm trying to study!" my sister yells through the wall. "God, you're so annoying!" I don't respond, afraid that I shall burst into tears the second I open my mouth.

My head takes solace in my hands as I try to control my breathing. I'm so dumb for letting this- this nothing- get to me. I'm supposed to be poised, and proper, and clever! Too clever to freak out like this for no reason! A diplomat's daughter does not behave in such a childish, immature manner! This is ridiculous!

Hyperventilation advances to great heaving sobs, forcing me to double over, a hand covering my mouth to stifle the noise. Waves of tears cascade down my cheeks, unrelenting and unwavering.

My door is flung open. "Adaine! Shut the fuck up!" Aelwen shouts.

Involuntarily, my hand shoots out towards the door, fear and anger and panic taking over, and I feel magic leaving me.

"Argh, what the fuck?!" she must have deflected, because she doesn't sound in pain. I pull my hand back to me. What the Hell was that?! Freak! "Mummy! Daddy!"

I wince pre-emptively, begging myself to stop crying before my parents get here. Fight or flight kicks in and I manage to shuffle back away from the door, bracing myself against the wall. Preparing for the worst.

"Adaine Ailenia Abernant, what the Hell do you think you're playing at?!" I don't hear exactly what my father is shouting, my hands protectively covering my ears. "Look at me while I am talking to you-! Aelwen has done nothing wrong-! a diplomat's child-! ungrateful, selfish little-! lucky that I don't-! grounded!"

His screaming surprisingly doesn't help and only succeeds in making me cry harder, apparently pissing him off even more. He slams my door closed and locks it from the outside. Trapping me.

The walls are closing in on me. I am suffocating. My father's voice richochets throughout my head, combining with my sister's insults, my mother's nonchalance, my own self-loathing... It's all just too much.

Unconsciously, I begin scratching at my legs. Tearing at my skin hysterically, trying to force all the bad feelings out. My nails have been bitten short during previous anxiety-inducing events ("Really Adaine, that is most unladylike"), and thusly cannot break my skin or cause any real damage- only frustrating me further.

After a while, I have run out of tears, and the sobbing quietens down into heavy panting, trying to get enough air into my lungs to think straight. My head is banging; a fierce ache taking root in my skull, worming its way into every crevice of my mind. It hurts

Everything hurts. Everything feels wrong and disjointed, like trying to put together two puzzles pieces that don't fit. A wave of nausea washes over me as I notice how hungry I am. I was too busy studying to eat so far today and, from previous experience, I know my father will not open my door until tomorrow, at least.

A sudden rush of dizziness hits me, and I have to lie down. Focusing my spell energy, carefully this time, I Mage Hand the light off.

Lying in the dark on top of my covers, tear tracks still staining my face, my head pounding and my stomach growling... I feel so weak. Why does this keep happening to me? I have an idyllic life- rich parents, a big house, an exceptional education. So why do I feel like crap all the time? Fresh tears well in my eyes.

Maybe if I work harder, I'll feel better. I shall study twice as much tomorrow. Focus more, quit being so pathetic. If I'm better, there'll be no need for this ridiculousness to keep happening. Right?

Right?

I can't keep my eyes open anymore, and I feel myself sinking into my bed. I quietly cry into my pillow until the inky blackness of sleep takes me.

[fates-theysband]

🦄☔️ (if you're still doing these ^^)

thank you!!! since you didn’t specify a f/o i rolled a d20 and got...perhaps appropriately, the purple bastard himself, Kars!

🦄: Are there any favorite AUs you have for your self ship?

weirdly enough, this isn’t one i have a lot of AUs for; i think the most adventurous i’ve gone is like...your standard “everybody lives” where not only does kars not get sent drifting endlessly through the cosmos but esidisi, wamuu, and santana (and caesar because hey, why not, i did say everyone) manage to make it out of part 2 alive. for reasons of “i want the remaining parts to still happen” kars undergoes a sort of bastard decay where like...eventually it gets to a point where he nominally still wants to get the red stone of aja so he can become the ultimate being and murder the world, but he’s loath to turn down the chance to help take out some competition (a word which here means “other jojo villains”). also in this au he and my s/i journey have a very gomez and morticia addams vibe. that’s important to note.

☔️: What do the two of you do during rainy days?

Well, I don’t know what even qualifies as “sun exposure” in this fucking series anymore since standing in the shade was enough to protect santana from turning back into stone and vanilla ice didn’t fizzle until he was actually in a position to receive direct heat from the sun, but even still probably nobody’s going outside since kars is a pillar man and journey may or may not be a vampire depending on when the rainy day is happening timeline-wise. anyway the point is that given the situation at hand pretty much any weather is “cuddle weather” but on a really cold rainy dreary day cuddles are especially happening. even someone as goal-focused as kars hears the rain pounding on the roof of his base and looks down at journey sleeping soundly in his arms and thinks “...perhaps world domination can wait a few more hours”

[chungledown-bimothy]

#curiosity thrives in any scenario imo#even if it gets his host killed this man (curio) will have gone out living his best life#dimension 20#d20#mentopolis#hunch curio#i like the interpretation that in an adhd brain the fix is working overtime. cuz i automatically assumed that the fix would be slacking off#like instead of there being an increase in distractions the fix has a major decrease in motivation and hours clocked#but when you think about it doesnt that sound more like a thought from the guilt/shame?#the figments of your mental processes blaming each other is pretty much just self-loathing huh?#so ye the positive take that the fix is still out there doing his damnedest was v refreshing and i like it v much#the fix#adhd#not me choosing to meme in the main post and hiding the meaningful contributions in the tags smh

the meme is great but so are your tags and i'm not gonna let you get away with hiding them <3

now i'm thinking about the mentopolis pcs and adhd.

obviously the fix, imelda pulse, and dan fucks work overtime, anastasia tension is... less present than we would like, and who among us hasn't felt SO much guilt/shame due to executive dysfunction?

hunch curio is the least directly impacted, i think, but i know i've lost so many hours to wikipedia rabbit holes started by a passing curiosity.