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embrace-the-misunderstood · 15 days ago
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1/13/2025
Gender identity is a very complex topic for me. In person, I guess I dress very non-binary in the grand scheme of things. I usually only wear jeans and a hoodie or a band T-shirt rather than a dress or a skirt. I feel more comfortable when I’m not dressed in a hyper-feminine or a hyper-masculine manner. My hair is always down and in a wolf-cut, and my body language is closed off, along with the fact that I rarely smile or show emotion at all unless I need to. However, online, I don’t think I’m much different. I only post pictures that I feel pretty in or more “done up” in, so I suppose my online identity is more feminine than anything. I avoid being hyperfeminine or masculine because it just feels wrong, like I’m not being true to myself at all. I will wear dresses and long skirts, even shorts, from time to time when it’s hot out, but I get severely insecure. I also don’t feel my best when I’m wearing anything masculine, like a button-down shirt. I do think instead of a fancy dress, I would much prefer to wear a suit and tie. Something about baggy clothing makes me feel more comfortable. When I do go out of my apartment, I do feel the need to wear makeup to hide my acne. However, I still have my hair down and wear my baggy jeans and band t’s. Online, I avoid posting pictures of me smiling, but I am still in clothes that seem to scream "feminine." For example, tank tops, skirts, corset shirts, etc etc. 
For around 10 years I have struggled with my very own gender identity. I used to think I was a transgender male due to harsh gender stereotypes about the way I felt more comfortable dressing. My (very toxic) friend group at the time also semibullied me into constantly changing what I thought about myself in every single way, from sexuality to gender to my personality. Little by little, I lost touch with myself. There were times I would only dress hyperfeminine, other times hyper-masculine. I went through a time where I declared myself transgender and changed my name to something that now causes me trauma to hear or see anywhere. Due to the external conflict, it created a lot of internal conflict as well. Along with conflict and confusion about who I was, it also caused major body dysmorphia. Going into middle school, I was extremely "girly." I would wear pink, flowers, pastel colors, shorts, dresses, and skirts; even sometimes I’d wear flower headbands. In those detrimental 3 years, I was always confused about myself due to peer pressure. It wasn’t until high school that I began to figure myself out once more. Due to all of the dysmorphia, I only wore hoodies and jeans; I felt more comfortable that way, hiding my body. Everyone wore hoodies, male or female, so I felt some sort of sanction within this way of dressing. 
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Now that I’m in college, I’ve been able to be on my own. I haven’t had to deal with my mom begging me to dress feminine or comparing me to how I used to be before everything changed and I began to become more insecure. All I can say is that now.. I’m still conflicted. I know my gender. It’s female, and I’m comfortable with it. However, sometimes I wish I was a guy. It would be so much easier. Men are safer in society, and being a woman has always been dangerous. There are always constant threats to my well-being due to my gender. I have, however, decided that instead of changing my gender, I’ll just accept being called any pronouns. He, she, they, it. I don’t mind as long as I’m being treated with respect by my peers. This also means I can feel more comfortable with myself and put my inner child to rest in a way.
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semperardens-juli · 2 years ago
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What is it about masks and loneliness? The obvious answer is that they offer relief from exposure, from the burden of being seen --- what is described in the German as Maskenfreiheit, the freedom conveyed by masks. To refuse scrutiny is to dodge the possibility of rejection, though also the possibility of acceptance, the balm of love.
The Lonely City, Olivia Laing (x)
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summerdazze · 1 year ago
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my self insert with Theseus 😙🫰
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widowshill · 1 year ago
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"for most of my life, i've wanted a place where i've belonged. a place where I could feel at home again. feel loved again. and i've found that place, here at collinwood." this is actually what it's all about babey
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brick-van-dyke · 2 months ago
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"An irreplaceable part of your body" is something sexist cisgender heterosexual men who want women for breeding and that alone say a lot to young girls. So... to be honest? Don't be surprised if said people who grew up hearing that don't trust you and your so-called "Gender Critical" (read gender role adhering) movement aimed to criticise any attempt to not conform to being a breeding sex doll for men to use. Sorry, but I grew up with that and y'all don't sound at all different to the men who told little girls to "let boys be boys".
When transphobic "Gender Criticals" make this argument, they always just can't help but reuse the sexist entitled logic of "women shouldn't ever change any part of their bodies" and "women's ability to give birth is sacred". It's something religious men have told me my entire life, pushed almost violently with policy and treatment of young girls and anyone who just appears to be one, and generally just gives ride to some really gross objectification of girls and their bodies.
So excuse me for being cautious when a GC/ TERF centres their entre argument against giving up my uterus (as someone who really doesn't like children and has no paternal instinct, hates having a period and is repulsed viscerally by the idea of bearing a child all irrespective of even the "gender" part here), being purely far right MRA "girls should be raised to be good wives" rehtoric, all while prominent GCs are calling themselves "trad wives" and working with MRAs to repeal protections for women?? Yeah, I'm going to just see you as a sexist, woman hating pervert rather than a "concerned" lady for the younger generations of girls. The only concern you have for the bodies of people assigned female at birth is whether or not you can use that body to breed it without the care for that human beings personal ideas, personality and feelings. It's all just some big game you play to pretend to be on the side of people with uteruses while promoting the most vile sexist bullshit I haven't heard since old men asked when I'd find a good husband and settle down.
So yes, even beyond the inherent issue of simply Being Wrong and using false information to have a point that makes no sense? People who are claiming "no don't just swap out an irreplaceable part of your body like Mr potato head!" are an MRA who is hates feminism and want to control the bodies they perceive as belonging to women, or more specifically, any type of body that can be used to for breeding purposes and they dehumanise because of their own patriarchal bullshit.
not that transphobes are ever saying anything interesting or insightful but it makes me insane when they see a trans woman who wants a uterus and start frothing out the mouth about how the sinister trans cabal is going to start harvesting organs from the poor and vulnerable... worsties do you have any idea how many trans men and cis women would be THRILLED to rehome their uterus to someone who actually wants it? all I'm doing with mine is complaining about it for a few days every month, I'd happily pawn that shit off to someone who would be happy about it. yes I am on my period why do you ask.
#Like obviously first and foremost it's transphobic as fuck#but I always like to add in with bigots how their weaponisation of other groups of people is always ALWAYS filled with hate for that group#Zionists hate Jewish self idenity and expression and love towards all Jews irrespective of origins#TERFs hate women who are so free in their self expression and content in their own body and choices#White Supremacists are in love with an empire that colonised the Britons and murdered so many from cultures they co-opt the symbols of#Fascism is filled with the lies hateful people tell themselves as they pretend to protect a group they secretly hate#all to try and justify their own oppressive ideals and lonely and pathetic desire to judge without restraint#until they have no one else to hate and oppress but themselves#Fascism and hate is like a snake eating its own tail; it's self defeating and always seeks to justify senseless violence until it dies.#It is honestly (and not to be dramatic) the pure antithesis to society and civilisation.#It is a movement towards brutality for the sake of it until there are no longer people to use for false justifications.#It is about isolation and subjugation for the sake of it until only the oppressors alone are left to begin brutalizing even themselves.#anyway yeah#TERF rhetoric is sexist bullshit and I'm definitely not taking y'all seriously when you reuse patriarchal ideas like this.#“Women can't make choices for their own bodies” is something TERFs have literally said before as if MAGAs don't say that as well.#Y'all just the same people wearing different hats and a fake moustache.
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breezeowci · 5 months ago
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i am done procrastinating my procrastination so now im just procrastinating.
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tenth-sentence · 10 months ago
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They use tech to give individuals what tech has taken from them: belonging, self-confidence and identity.
"Going Dark: The Secret Social Lives of Extremists" - Julia Ebner
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carmelcholate · 11 months ago
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Unsavory Waver's
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When I saved you when I fell
When life brought me back
Who am I?
Where am i
Where are we to go
If no one wants me to go
How far is the end
Is it near then it looks
How will I know to overcome my wishful thinking
Through what paths do I take now…
The places to go vary in my mind
Uncertainty that lies ahead of time to where am i…
So where is it do we all lie greathy unflunece n to dry out
What can do when I am in a world full of fools
They too uncertain with rising aeons ahead
For decades and centuries to rise and glories to come
From an arm length to another zeroing into feels of something
But atlast we all will lay together at once in one bonded by the wines of time
Had i know whats best i would have without a doubt held it close
Thats currently not there as i melt away into my own unsavory Dilemma
~kiwi's
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random-bookquotes · 2 years ago
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The end result, these simple but puzzling equations: a ≤ b or a ≥ b or a ≠ b a being what is expected of me b being where my heart lies x being an unknown quantity utilized to figure out the intersection between them, assuming I ever find out what b actually is.
Edith Pattou, Ghosting
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ladyofthenoodle · 1 year ago
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marinette does have adhd but i do not believe she has developed enough self awareness yet to realize she’s bad at time management. marinette actually thinks she’s superior at time management and that her multitasking is very efficient and actually the best way to get things done. how could she be bad at time management when she’s juggling school, superheroing, hobbies, friends, family, a boyfriend, secret iden—what do you mean school started 20 minutes ago???
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historyinclusionist · 2 months ago
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Harmless Personal Identity coining
Since the term I crafted has been picking up steam in a couple places, I decided it's time to make a official post for it and propose a flag. I'm not good at making flags and you're welcome to redesign the above one if you like this term.
Harmless Personal Identity (HPI) is an umbrella term meant to describe personal identities that people might assign to themselves, coin for others, make pride flags for, and so on, but not any identities that inherently cause harm. If an identity checks the following boxes, it can be called a Harmless Personal Identity.
Harmless: It doesn't encourage predatory behavior, racism, ableism, transphobia etc just by existing.
The identity is being labeled because it makes the person using it comfortable. Not to harm others by deceiving them. For example: LGBT people and systems are not intending to deceive others and simply want to live as they are. This doesn't mean that the term in question is completely free of criticism or couldn't be used in bad faith—I think every term that's ever been coined could be used in bad faith. This means that it may be unusual or strange, especially to people who aren't familiar with the social groups/contexts the term was coined in, but the definition doesn't encourage people to appropriate culture, speak over people of color, commit inc-st/p-dophilia/z-ophilia, or otherwise cause harm to themselves or another living being as part of that identity.
Example: "Transhawaiian" is not an HPI, because by virtue of it existing the coiner and anyone who uses this term are saying that "Hawaiian" is a feeling someone can decide they feel and apply to themself at will, instead of the racial minority that "Hawaiian" actually is.
Personal: Identities which are wholly self-determined and locatable only within that person's interaction with and relations to the world around them.
In general—Other people cannot determine your internal view of yourself because they cannot be you, therefore your identity is personal! Someone who's unfamiliar with xenogenders may tell me that I cannot be -insert gender- because -thing- isn't a gender, but my gender is inside me and I cannot possibly give them the ability to feel it for me. It is located only within me.
This includes labels that get called "contradictory", like identifying as a lesbian and a man at the same time. If you're not familiar with multigender and multisexual lesbian spaces that might sound strange, but gender+presentation and orientation labels are purely self-defined—they are the coiner/anyone who uses that term saying "this is how I would describe my attraction to -insert gender here-," "this is how I would describe my gender that only I can feel inside my head and can't physically show to someone else," and so on. A bisexual lesbian's identity is not saying that all lesbians are bisexual or that they should identify that way; It is saying that that individual determined themself to be bisexual and lesbian.
(This does not extend to, again, racism and cultural appropriation. Queer labels are a self-defined thing, whereas racial and ethnic identity and things like congenital disorders can have self-defined aspects but are largely on a completely different quadrant of identity and can't be "decided" in the same way that queer labels can.)
Identity: A self-applied label or understanding of yourself.
This one is straightforward mostly. I would like to note that this does include things like reclaimed slurs and derogatory words, since in those cases, it's that person who's been called that word choosing "you know what? I AM a -slur- and I love myself for it!" instead of it being used to put them down.
Ok, so what identities specifically?
MOGAI (xenogenders, neogenders, neo/newly coined orientations, presentation terms, neopronouns+etc)
Alterhuman (the entire alterhuman umbrella, excluding any culturally appropriative behavior)
Most plural culture/coined terms for plural experiences
Other identity umbrellas (Dissomei, desirdae, reclaimed xenoidentities, xenonatures, neurowiry,+etc)
And so on. Is it not a radqueer, transrace, transx, etc term or would you call it a "good faith identity"? It most likely fits here.
This also includes a category of personal identity I've been seeing more and more lately, which are these uncategorized identifications with specific words that have pride flags. Some examples: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5
Ok, cool, do I identify as this?
You would say "I use harmless personal identities"/"I support harmless personal identities"/I coin harmless personal identities"+etc. This is less an identity and more of a faster way to describe these identities.
TD;LR— Identities that are probably niche, but don't harm people like radqueer/transid/transrace/transabled do.
Tagging: @gender-jargon | @neopronouns | @radiomogai | @kiruliom | @aspectsofidentity | @beyond-mogai-pride-flags | @neopronouns | @antiradqueerguy
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Two alternative flag ideas which I abandoned, but you can use if you want.
The phrasing "locatable only within your interaction with and relations to the world around you" came from a Tumblr post by txttletale (lost link). This term and the author have no affiliation with them, I just thought it was a wonderful way to phrase this concept. This would later inspire me to coin the term History Inclusionist, which then led to me sort of backwards-coining HPI to describe it.
You don't have to be a History Inclusionist to use the term HPI and I won't tell you not to interact with me if you aren't one.
I might make subset flags later. Maybe?
[11/21/2024] I forgot to add that @kiruliom helped me adjust the flag colors. Thank you.
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edenfenixblogs · 7 months ago
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I respect your opinion that screenshotting is a normal part of discourse, however, that behavior is restricted to online communications and has only recently become normalized in certain communities, which does not mean that it is normal. I cannot understand that you think my comment about how Jews can function as white in certain contexts has led you to remark the following (forgive me if I mistake you): "I don’t hate you. But I am scared of you. I am scared that you hate me and my people, because so many people do and have shown that they do." Please reconsider your position on deleting both posts, and I offer you my promise that I will never speak to anyone on this site on any issue ever again, as I have very rarely ever used this site for that reason. I respect your feelings regarding virulent hate that you've received in comments, but I am a very private person, and I do not like having my blog name across parts of tumblr that I do not frequent. I only responded when your post came across my dash by chance because the statement that Jews are emphatically not white struck me as ludicrous insofar that it suggests that there is a kind of immutable Whiteness that *is* real. In the course of my response, I have been called an "ass" by your followers; a lifelong reader, my "reading comprehension" has been insulted by one excessively pleasant Jennifer; I was told that "race as a social construct is very much real" by someone in Germany, as if I don't know that after living my entire life as a woman of color in America. I have been, in short, utterly baffled and horrified by my communications with all of you. My comments were not intended to be a statement on antisemitism, or whether Jewish pain is real (of which I believe you accused me), or whether Jewish people can be considered "other" in this century or centuries past, but that is how they have been universally interpreted by you and your bullying, hectoring followers.
So there’s a lot going on here. And I’m not sure how I feel about all of it. So I’ll attempt to break it down.
1. I respect that you’re a private person. I will consider altering my post so that my commentary beneath it is removed on only your words as you wrote them will be visible. I will also delete your username from the screenshots. I may also delete the post entirely, but if I do that’s something I’ll need to mull over for a few hours to a few days. The reason I cannot outright commit to deleting the whole thing right now is because of the aforementioned need to archive comments that trigger trauma responses in Jewish communities.
2. I don’t want you to feel like you cannot speak on any issue. You can and should speak on issues if you’re passionate about them. But you should understand that when you’re speaking on communities of which you are not a part, you may be met with ire at the way you speak on things triggers issues you may previously have been unaware of. And not everyone will be patient or kind when you do so.
3. Name calling is not something I encourage or participate in. Followers, please don’t call people names on my behalf, although I very much appreciate your attempt to defend me. It is not necessary and doesn’t foster peace.
4. I don’t think you understand: your reading comprehension was poor in this case. This is not an indictment of your intelligence broadly speaking, nor is it an indictment of your general reading comprehension skills. The point of my post was to explain that the racial categorization of Jews is unfixed. Even white-passing Jews have to contend with uncertainty of how they are perceived with the ever present fear that this can change at any time. While some Jews may self-identify as white, most that I have met do not. Neither do many of us identify as POC. We are a liminal group in between.
There is a lot of discourse about Jewish whiteness these days, which I have discussed before on this blog. The main points here are that even white-passing Ashkenazi Jews with some ties to Europe are not white as a result of privilege and therefore our status as white cannot be associated with privilege (although we do of course benefit from white-passing privilege). White-passing Jews with historical ties to Europe are often white as a result of mass murder and sexual assault. Meaning: those of us who were too ethnic appearing for Europe were murdered. Those of us who looked “white enough” were sexually assaulted and forced to bear the whiter children of their rapists. This was done so thoroughly to Jews over the course of a few centuries in Europe that many of the surviving Jews with European ancestry today have whiter skin than many of our Sephardi or Mizrahi counterparts. And while other “white”peoples in Europe benefited from their European appearance during the previous few centuries, Jews did not. In most countries we were forced to live in ghettos, denied citizenship, only allowed to work certain jobs and then demonized as if we conspired to control those industries before finally being slaughtered in the millions by people who despised us specifically for being not white enough. In fact, Hitler described as an “Asiatic race.” American white supremacists consider us middle eastern usurpers, as do many European white supremacists. In the Middle East they call us white colonizers. And none of this has anything to do with how we look. It has everything to do with what those who condemn us hate most. Which is why I made my initial post in the first place.
Jewish white passing privilege in the United States is completely different than Irish or Italian white privileged, because of the historical circumstances surrounding our perception in Europe, America, and around the world.
And none of this even begins to touch on the infinitely nuanced experiences of black and brown Jews in America, Europe, and elsewhere. Nor does this address the loss of whiteness experienced by gerim (Jews by choice) who grew up with full white privilege and have experienced a distinct loss of that privilege after conversion.
Jews as a people predate the modern concepts and categorizations of race, religion, and ethnicity. These are words and concepts that came into existence long after Jews already existed. And as such, these terms often fail to account for our experiences in myriad ways.
To put it mildly, race as a concept is a very thorny topic for Jews.
5. If my statement struck you as ludicrous, a better course of action would have been to ask what I meant or to look into what I have already said on the subject in reblogs of that very post. But you didn’t. You came into a post by a Jewish person and imposed your understanding and definition of race onto us. As so often happens by non-Jews. And then you spoke down to us by calling us fools. That hurt. Not just emotionally. It hurt in that it causes harm to my community by thoughtlessly igniting cultural wounds. In future, if you see a cultural group of any kind talking about an experience that strikes you as ludicrous, seek understanding. Seek to understand why we feel that way.
6. I did not bully you. Nor did my followers, except those who chose to call you names. Which I do not endorse. We expressed anger at you, because we are angry. We have a right to both feel and express that anger. We are not bullies for having feelings and communicating them. While I always advocate for civility, we do not owe politeness to those who harm us. We should not meet harm with harm. But we don’t have to always be perfect and kind and sweet and understanding. Sometimes, we can be angry.
7. We have all agreed that race is a construct. You. Me. My followers. The German person who you mentioned. What we are having a miscommunication about is how the status of race as a construct uniquely affects Jews in ways that are different from the experiences of both white people in Europe and America as well as from the experiences of other racial and ethnic minority groups. We all know that whiteness is not immutable. What we are all trying to communicate to you is that whiteness as a concept does not now nor has it ever been fully applied to or embraced by Jews as a community.
I want to be very clear: I still don’t hate you. I’m upset about the whole situation—both our conflict here and the status and topic of Jewish ethnicity more broadly. I am trying very hard here to speak clearly and with understanding and compassion for you and your privacy while also remaining steadfast in communicating the feelings of my fellow Jews in hopes that you will understand how and why we have reacted to you in the way that we have. I am also terrified that you will walk away from this interaction feeling negatively about Jews in general and that this will be my fault. Because any less than perfectly sweet and emphatically kind behavior from us as a community so often held as evidence of our terrible [insert negative quality here] and used as an excuse to write us off.
I can tell that you don’t mean us harm as a group nor do you want to be perceived as antisemitic. But just like any systemic prejudice, it must be actively dismantled. Until it is examined and dismantled, its existence will continue to lead you to unintentionally harm us. Antisemitism is a deeply ingrained systemic prejudice. Literally everyone has it until they do the work to get rid of it. That is what I am asking of you. That is what my followers are asking of you. Even if we didn’t ask in the most perfectly polite and self-effacing way.
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adolfusraptor1985 · 6 months ago
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The Effects of DPDR (Depersonalization Derealization) On My Alterhumanity
[Warning: 1,000+ word essay below the break]
The connection between psychological abnormalities and alterhumanity has always been a significant and undeniable experience. I believe that more studies should be conducted to explore the relationship between mental health and alterhumanity. My own alterhuman experiences are closely tied to psychological challenges, and I strongly suspect that while alterhumanity cannot be fully explained by science, there may be substantial links to certain psychological conditions that contribute to it. This short essay will focus on the impacts of and connections between my identity and experiences with dissociation.
To begin, what exactly is DPDR? DPDR stands for Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder, a dissociative disorder that lies at the lower end of the spectrum of related conditions. Dissociative amnesia is in the middle, and at the most severe end is Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). Depersonalization involves "experiences of unreality, detachment, or being an outside observer with respect to one’s thoughts, feelings, sensations, body, or actions." Derealization is characterized by "experiences of unreality or detachment with respect to surroundings." Together, these symptoms can leave individuals feeling numb, robotic, or as though their perception of reality is distorted. They may perceive the world around them as blurry, dreamlike, lifeless, or fake.
I have not been medically diagnosed with DPDR, although I have never seen a therapist or psychiatrist. I am considering seeking a diagnosis to ease my mind and potentially receive help. My research suggests that my experiences align perfectly with the symptoms of DPDR, and the condition has only worsened over time. I’ve spent the last few years feeling increasingly detached from myself, my surroundings, and my life in general. Everything feels unreal to me, like a dream or a TV show. Nothing seems truly to exist—myself, my actions, the people around me, and their actions all seem either scripted or entirely imagined.
So, what does this have to do with my alterhumanity? How does DPDR make me identify as nonhuman? It’s actually not the disorder itself, but rather the impact of the symptoms that influences me. My primary focus here is on the depersonalization aspect of the disorder, as it directly affects my sense of self. For me, depersonalization creates a profound sense of detachment and emptiness. I don't feel connected to my body or as though it truly belongs to me. While I don't dislike my appearance—I generally think it looks nice—I can't genuinely feel it as being "me." Most of the time, my mind feels empty, particularly when reflecting on myself. I struggle with "about me" projects because I can’t identify personal interests, hobbies, or personality traits. The few things I do know about myself have emerged only after the onset of DPDR. To cope, I immerse myself in work or creative projects. I often daydream about being fictional characters I’ve created, allowing me to embody someone with a defined personality, backstory, and identity.
This detachment from myself leads me to feel nonhuman. Typically, humans have a strong sense of identity, but I don’t. Humans are generally aware of who they are and how they fit into society; I’m not. Humans retain memories that shape who they are, but I don't. How could I possibly feel human if I don’t even feel real? Because of this lack of self-awareness, my mind attempts to fill the gaps with things that feel "right" to it—a fluffy tail I should wag when I'm happy, a collar I should be wearing, a walk I should be enjoying with my owner.
One of the few things I've been able to genuinely connect with is animals. Society and human interactions can be overwhelming for my dissociated mind. Growing up with a dog, I find my identity leaning heavily toward canines, though I still lack a solid self-image. I’m comfortable identifying as a dog, as that feels natural, but I’m not comfortable identifying as human (aside from biologically). This is where derealization plays a role. Concepts involving reality—whether something is physical, psychological, conceptual, or spiritual—are difficult for me to comprehend. Since some days nothing feels real, who’s to say that I’m not actually a dog? Why should having a human body matter if it doesn’t feel like me?
In short, my dissociation detaches me from my own humanity. Does this make my entire identity a disorder? Am I not truly a dog because this is all a construct of my mind? Could this even border on clinical kynanthropy? My personal answer is no, but honestly, the answer might be "possibly." The challenge with endelic and similarly caused alterhuman identities is that it’s nearly impossible to draw the line between what’s "real" or not, and asking someone with DPDR to define these things is like asking a four-year-old to solve an algebra problem. I barely understand what reality is—but when you think deeply about it, does anyone? My belief is somewhat divided. On one hand, I recognize that much of my alterhumanity is related to a potential disorder and therefore isn’t "real." But on the other hand, it’s a deeply personal and integral part of my own reality. At the end of the day, no science or logic can disprove the concept of nonhuman identity unrelated to biology, meaning this is, at the very least, not delusion based.
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rockingrcks · 6 months ago
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so i replayed dmc 2 (crazy, i know) for dantelucia content, and playing on lucia's side of the story is so crazy bc it's literally what dante has been going through throughout his whole life
when lucia found out she was a demon and that she could lose herself to that side of her it scares her to the point of wanting to die/to be killed, going as far as to tell dante and arius to kill her bc she doesnt want to hurt others which can be reflected with dante's own views of his demon heritage which is something he feels he couldnt control if he ever taps into it so he does rlly reckless things to cope with it
dante even secludes himself from people and forming relationships outside of trish and lady bc of the fear of hurting them. even with dante's very reckless behavior it can be seen as him self harming which says a lot about his mental health plus the fact that in dmc 2 hes carrying the weight of grief which makes it even worse as seen with him going to hell not even caring on how to get out of it
like both of these characters became reckless ppl when they find out that they have demonic powers and the fact they both cling to the their love for people/family says a lot about their characters
but heres the thing....what makes these two so good to see is the fact that dante comforted lucia and even validated her human idenity by telling her that "devils never cry" and i feel like this line truly stuck with dante bc of what Lady said to him when he cried (basically devils dont cry and u arent rlly a devil if u cried over a love one), its just 3 simple word and yet it holds so much meaning for dante and probably for lucia too which she probably needed at that moment showing how emotionally smart dante is...
dante and lucia's views on their demon heritage is such a good way for them to have a long talk with one another about their feelings and thoughts of being demons and how to control the urge and how protecting people is what makes them human but also feel like its their responsibility bc of their demon heritage....like i need capcom to write more of their relationship or maybe someone just writes it in a fanfic bc their dynamic has so much potential the parallels...the love they have.....it makes me go insane
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