#seeming legibility

[asfaltics]

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4571 . a cloud chamber perhaps . 20230317

Esther Kinsky, River (2014; Iain Galbraith, trans., 2018) : 33  

[lucabyte]

Different standards

[boneysoda]

(read left to right :3c)

based off of my prev post caption

sorry for no colour i was lazyyy :33 merry christmasss

[nederlandsespoorwegen]

[alohaasaloevera]

Oh boy do I love it when I see two characters with vastly different personalities and wow their backstory and motivations and developments are in some proximity tied to each other? Wow how I do love that! What’s that? They have a rival-esque dynamic? Which stems from one characters insecurities? How interesting! I can’t wait to see how the pair’s relationship progresses throughout the span of the entire show! Hopefully they will be granted with a blossoming relationship from rivals to friends to an unbreakable bond that not even the insurmountable obstacle that is time and distance can wither! Hopefully the show displays poignant moments between the two that can act as lessons the audience can learn from such as battling your insecurities and being able to rely and trust people etc.!!!!

I do love both of these characters dearly. 😈 HAHAHAHAHA SHIPPING TIME!!!

Ok, let me just binge the whole thing—

[toriliashine]

The more I learn about wallter n Mark the more my low-key initial ick of that wall is validated and I wish it wasn't. dont even wanna ship wallmark ironically anymore, mark deserves the world n wallter deserves a sledgehammer to the face

[cchapsticck]

The words "mundane bad end" have caught my attention. Tell me about Rapture Chaser, please.

The parts of this AU (otherwise known as Dick & Jane AU - which I have posted a little of already) I've kind of fixated on were pretty small potatoes when @saintmarywinchester and I started spitballing the whole thing.

The Steddie part is, admittedly, a very small part of a much wider epistolic work that's kind of like, a collection of urban legend hunter accounts/conspiratorially minded think pieces/accounts of the vague pop culture impact of the various tellings of what really happened in Hawkins 20-30 years later. There's parts of it that are declassified internal government documents and commentary on forums on the redacted nature of them. Blog posts of urban explorers digging through the sewers under the old Department of Energy building. Tabloid articles and interviews with people who say their children were kidnapped and changed by government programs. Reviews of better and worse movies that claim to be "based on a true story" that are more and less accurate to missing persons and murder cases in the area and their intersection with satanic panic of the time. Stuff like that.

But an element of it that we were digging into was how and how-not present the main cast of ST might be involved in this ongoing narrative surrounding their hometown. In those discussions we ultimately made some choices about Steve; who, for the epistolic iteration of the AU was mostly a resource that some of these posters could seek out to ask questions about The Truth of Hawkins - he is available for confirmation of beliefs held by the interviewers but he never really provides new information. He is uninterested in any consequences of his transparency, perhaps because his health is in decline due to the multiple TBIs suffered at a young age.

In our discussions of Steve it did circle back around to Steddie, because it is a flavor we enjoy, which introduced the witness protection program and further layers of deception to the whole story that kind of shot off into its own deeper narrative that actually doesn't play at all into the original AU in a serious way beyond being interested in exploring Eddie being forced to endure whatever legacy he's retained in the whole Hawkins narrative by proximity to Steve. So it is a bad end in that there's really no closure to the main ST narrative, and Steve's life is largely divorced from those events beyond what he actively invites in with these Truth seekers. His life is in a downward spiral partially of his own making that Eddie does not soothe or dissuade him from. I posted a loose kind of overview of that relationship in the context of this AU because I just wanted to write it and get out of my head, as that kind of elaboration wasn't actually necessary to the main collection of texts we were putting together - but then it turned out I was having fun in that mundanely crappy space.

So this is all to say Rapture Chaser is a more direct examination of character details and interpersonal drama implied by that original sort-of primer in a more specific context while also not referencing the original AU this all spun off from. So, here's a little blurb I suppose!

It’d be an easier pill to swallow if like, Steve’s been rough the last few days or something, she needs the assist or something, just an extra set of eyes or something, but he’s been fine. Great, even. Better than he’s been. Had a couple weird weeks last month where he wasn’t sleeping, kept getting these visual disruptions that they haven’t been able to see the neurologist about, but he’s evened out. So he’s just here just because Steve’s wife likes him enough and he’s enough of a fixture in her and Steve’s life to ask him.  It makes his skin crawl a little. He’s met Jess’ family before, couple times; mom, dad, brother, sister, other sister, couple of the cousins they’ve been around for thanksgivings or christmases at the Jeffries-Harrington homestead. Those instances, at least, he’s got a reason to be there that’s plausibly deniable - even, if the truth is Steve asked him to stick around because Steve just wants him around and Jess wasn’t going to be mad if he did. But if he’s gotta dip he can use the shift’s over excuse and go be an alone for the holidays sack of shit in his basement apartment like 30 minutes out from their place, but this is the first time he’s gone to them. Like the first time he’ll be in their space and it’s not like.  Circumstantial. 

ask me 'bout my wips i'll probably work on them

[see-arcane]

Availability update on The Vampyres!

The paperback availability snafu has been un-snafu'd for Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and Indiebound! You can now grab your physical copy from them without the button refusing you access to tangible undead horror.

[simply-sithel]

white winged dove / shadow of a dragon by chrysaliseater [link]

Bound for the @renegadepublishing Tiny Book Bang. Typeset by @admiraltypress. I brought this typeset as uncut sheets with me to @fantailpress's for a @renegadepublishing meetup where we practiced suminagashi in Rhi's yard. In the sweltering heat, if I remember correctly. I don't think I even marbled this... I remember @marvinhere was in town, I think she marbled the text for me.

[c0rpsedemon]

i wish i could get caught up/relisten to old gods of appalachia and hi nay . unfortunately i cannot hear

[nartml]

at least i’m not desperate enough to try to get notes by having like 100 tags on my post🫵🏾🤣 what do u think you’ll get by having tags like #taylor swift crictism and #anti taylor swift IJBOL anw sasusaku canon and taylor swift could write anything better than shakespeare ever wrote while shakespeare can’t even try to outdo folklore because he’s alr 6 ft underground stay mad🥱

I genuinely can't stop laughing at this. Sincerely thank you, I haven't cackled like this in ages

[follineo]

idk how to show my appreciation without doing something silly... I know I drew this meme before but... shhh

Forever thank you for all the art !!!!!! :D That drawing of Connie and the one of Mad Dog are my lockscreen and homescreen respectively lol ‼️‼️💥💥 I'm honored to be your mutual (I feel silly sending this but ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ you're very cool :3 )

THIS MEME WORKS IN BOTH SIDES!!!💥💥💥

I am very happy that you like my drawings!!! In addition I can say that I like your drawings too, and your artfight drawing is still on my computer desktop!! (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

I'm very glad to be your mutual too!!! I like your cowboys, your drawings and your art in general very much! (I can't show it properly in words, (ESPECIALLY IN ENGLISH) and that's why I draw your characters so often hehehe)

[baeddelicto]

I used to explain this with a graph cross referencing the subject-object-abject interaction as a function of human likeness(the uncanny valley) in regards to gendered vectors but i dont rlly feel lik making the more complex graph so just look at this one

The curve can be analogized to perceived reality navigation; the vectors(not pictured) are meant to demonstrate our desires around gender. I thinks its easier to think of gendered vectors along this curve because it has more effective political relevance or at least reference than say "im a whoseewhatsit" spoken into the semantic topography at any given moment.

So on the left we have the object: pcafabs gendered experience of high amounts of allowed variance without any narrative autonomy (This landmass has an apex tho, of borrwed subjectivity, of anthropomorphization) on the far right you have the subject: highly confined, precarious position of authorship(the camab intersubjective millieu, the studious aspirant) and then u have the valley where the individuals who are meant for subjectivity tend to be booted (camab genderwyrds)

I do think its helpful to think of when we ask why do we see this general trend of cafab trans folks more often gravitating toward espousing a non binary id label in shared social spaces than the camab trans folks who more often than not espouse "trans( )woman" as an id label. And so within the ingroup "trans( )women" get maligned as vapid, misogynistic fetishist who could never rlly grasp the complexities of "feminist-informed gender-fuckery"

This phenomenon that cafab trans gendered experience is marked by an attempt at escape from the large landmass of objects. The scrutiny of the world will place every fagdyke clearly in the object category up until the point of convincing masculinity at which point your recognized as a fully fledged member of the intersubjective with all the tenuosness that it entails jumping straight over the valley and a backslide will revert with just as much insidious ease. (I jokingly called this jacobs ladder years ago)

The inverse can be seen with camab gender presentation under the scrutiny of being pushed into the valley leads us to a desire for reentry, for legibility. To arrive at the borrowed subjectivity allowed by feminism. But unfortunately any success at reentry cant shake the precarity that landed us in the valley in the first place. And any legibility doesnt guarantee an escape from the violence afforded to the abject. This legibility even when not coonciding with reentry dances its way around medical and government institutions in a way that can afford you certain resources in exchange for some level of debasement.

So sum preempt the precarity/just refute the legibility as politically ineffective or reprehensible, pushing against the general desire for legibility within and without(i know i say it too often). Ppl dont like it when u say their desires are politically reprehensible or ineffective(im not getting into whether or not its their desire or if any desire can be your own this post is long enuff) and well it blends in with the the oringinal maligning of being vapid, misogynistic fetishists. And often these invalidated tgirls turn around to, you guessed it, call the refuters fetishist, sissies, femboy, cds, fakes of some kind(nobody even seems to be gettn off on it it just makes everyone sad or mad)

[bmpmp3]

dysgraphic artiƨts risɘ UP!!!!!

[cabeswaterdrowned]

this is Declan’s second pov chapter. The trc + td3 gang reads the first Whelk chapter (chapter 5 of TRB).

[rachelfoleyisntdead]

imagine the resident evil characters just making scrapbooks out of all the notes/clues