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Now that I have my artwork organized into my blog, I can see that I wasted 2022-2023 creating some pieces of work that were not "me", in favor of posting art that could possibly get me hired.
When in actuality, the art I create from the heart WILL get my hired and has done so. That weird dip period in my art is honestly the remnants of discouraging past voices finally leaving. With the irl naysayers gone it is now easier to create.
sooo if any of you noticed art styles changing suddenly one day and gone the next, that's why! but im getting back to consistency.
#text#I cannot express to yall just how damaging only a few people have been to my overall confidence in creating#this has been a long battle since high school too#seeing so many on tumblr and at conventions say they like my art means that those people were just being mean to me. Intentionally
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Akira Toriyama (1955-2024)
I wouldn't say I'm feeling better today, but I'm feeling less bad than yesterday. So let's see if I can put some words together.
In case anyone still hasn't heard, Dragon Ball creator Akira Toriyama passed away on March 1, 2024. This news was made public on March 7 or 8. I woke up early on Friday morning and found out while I was checking Twitter. I had a long, busy day at work, and I kept getting on my phone to scroll through fan reactions and tributes.
I think that, more than anything, is what's gotten me so worked up about his death. My Twitter timeline and my tumblr dashboard were just chock full of touching message and images about how Akira Toriyama's work has changed their lives. I wanted to write my own tribute, but I'm not sure what else I can say that hasn't already been expressed by Archie Comics, professional wrestling trio The New Day, and the Republic of El Salvador.
There's this immense, global community of fans, and it's easy to lose sight of just how big it is. It's easy to get bogged down in the infighting and petty squabbles. I saw one tweet responding to the criticism of Dragon Ball not being like this "entry level" franchise compared to other, more high brow anime and manga. It's popular with so many people, that critics will assume it's designed to appeal to the lowest-common-denominator. But the opposite is true! Dragon Ball is accessible, which is how so many people from so many different places and walks of life can get into it. The guy telling the story was such a master storyteller that he could grab an audience's attention and make it look easy. So easy that the haters would start to think that it was a trick, and he must be overrated.
Let me talk about this panel for a minute.
Last night I started going through the original manga, looking for panels to screencap. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do, but I thought maybe a selection of panels that really stood out for me might be worth posting. I'll probably still do that one of these days, but I got to this one, where Gohan tells Chi-Chi about Goku's death, and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
This was a powerful scene in the anime, of course, but in the comic it's even more profound. It's just one panel, no dialogue, because the reader already knows what's happening here. We know Gohan is telling his mother that Goku died in the Cell Games, and that he refuses to be wished back, because he thinks his presence on Earth will attract new enemies. It was hard enough to hear when Goku said it to Gohan and the others, and now Gohan has to relay that message to Goku's wife. All she can do is lie prostate on the floor and weep.
And look at the composition. She's surrounded by all that negative space. Gohan's there for her, but she still feels so alone, surrounded by her husband's absence. Pots of flour for food he'll never eat. An empty chair he might have sat in. Their son, who will have to grow up without him.
I saw this, as though for the first time, and it was so gut-wrenching that I had to post it by itself. I felt like it summed up my feelings better than any words could. We're all Chi-Chi in this panel, reacting to Akira Toriyama's death. And we're all Gohan too, each of us consoling one another with our own thoughts and tributes.
So what did Akira Toriyama mean to us all? Lots of people have answered this in a lot of different ways. Obviously his art, storytelling and cultural impact speak for themselves. I've seen people compare him to other luminaries like Jack Kirby and Osamu Tezuka. I'll try to add my own two cents with this:
I wrote a post about "Dragon Ball Daima" back when it was first announced, and I led off with this image of a note from Akira Toriyama. I guess this was from some big fancy presentation about Daima at a convention. I forget which one. In particular, I was skeptical that the Daima rumors were even true, and if they were, the whole idea seemed half-baked to me. Turning Goku into a kid had been done before, and it wasn't exactly successful the first time.
But this note from Toriyama was very reassuring to me. More than the trailer clips and character designs, this was what got me interested in the show. That's because he took the time to not only hype up the show, but also to explain what's going on behind the premise. He took the time to tell everyone that he's working on this show, and what "Daima" means, and why all the characters get turned into kids. It's "due to a conspiracy", and the good guys will have to "fix things". In short, he established a plot, conflict, and resolution to the story. He didn't just slap this together to sell new merch. I'm sure that was part of the motivation to make Daima, but there's more to it than that.
I think that's the loss I feel with Toriyama's passing. It's not that there won't be new Dragon Ball stories in the future. I'm sure others will continue telling their own versions long after I'm gone. I'm not that worried about the fate of Daima. I'm sure they'll figure something out, whether it's delayed, rewritten, or canceled. But we'll never see another message from Toriyama to promote a new project, and that's what I'll miss. From here on, his credit will just be an acknowledgement of his past contributions.
There's this great credibility with Akira Toriyama's name. Fans will argue about how involved he was in a project as a way of establishing how good or bad it was. Dragon Ball GT has his name on the credits, and he provided some designs and artwork early on, and for some fans that proves the series has his endorsement. For others, the sole problem with the show is that he wasn't directly writing the script. There's similar debates over Dragon Ball Super, where he was involved, but only writing those mysterious "notes". So if a fan doesn't like something in DBS, who do they blame? Did Toriyama lose his touch, or did his co-creators fumble the ball? Dragon Ball Evolution basically ignored all of Toriyama's advice and bombed, while Battle of Gods, Resurrection F, Broly, and Super Hero all put Toriyama's writing credits up at the very beginning, and each film made plenty of money. I read his comments on the Daima confirmation, and immediately thought "Okay, this should be pretty good. Akira Toriyama knows what's up."
That's gone now. I mean, there's still a lot of talent out there, but we'll never again have the little gas mask-wearing robot telling us that this story will be good because he worked on making it good. I don't think I really appreciated how much I trusted that guy until now. I still can't believe he's really gone.
I'll probably have more to say about this in the coming days, but I'll stop here for now. Thanks for letting me ramble a bit on this.
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so pins are the new about-me pages I guess
let's make one, shall we?
⏠Click through to learn more about me than you want to! âŹ
Hi! My name is Jenna :)
For the most part I just like to talk about stuff that makes me happy. My favorite movies, shows, games. Some places I go and stuff I do. The usual personal blog stuff.
I am a 3D animator for film and tv. I genuinely adore my job and think I get to work on some pretty rad stuff! Once in a while youâll see me sharing trailers and reels, or just talking about it in general. You can check out my vfx work in my tag, or on my website.
Iâve been using tumblr since 2011, you are simply not getting rid of me that easily.
Fandoms
In that time, I have gone through several fandoms and have made so many memories in each one. People may remember when I was big into Supernatural, record-holder as my longest-lasting fandom, as many of us were. I may have since put that part of me in a nice little box with a nice little bow labeled âhappy memories,â but I am still thankful to those who have stayed with me ever since.Â
I typically get extremely deep into a new fandom every few years. I apologize to people who donât care to see it, I try to tag it all for your blocking needs! You can see my up-to-date current obsessions labeled in my blog bio! â
I am also a shameless, unrelenting shipper so block any of those tags that might bother you too. (I love imagining characters in love, what can I say)
Art Stuff
My drawings tag (all polished art, original and fanart mashed together.)
My doodles tag (non polished sketches, junk drawer of doodles. Things I deem unworthy of my drawing tag.)
Redbubble
Other social media links
Big ole list of other tags to be found here
In addition to my current main fandom, I also have several other interests that I talk about less often but do still come up occasionally. For your reference, intrigue, or blocking needs, here are some of those things:
-Slashers -Godzilla -Undertale / Deltarune -Marvel -Half Life / Portal -Deux Ex -Action and Animated movies in general -Pokemon -Zelda: Breath of the Wild -Splatoon -My twitch streamers like Jerma, Kitboga, Criken, Charborg, & WayneradiotvÂ
Stuff I do
I also love playing games and going to the movies. And I also love convention-going and costume-making! I am not a serious cosplayer by any means, but I do enjoy trying to whip something up based on my current favorite characters.
I also have a passion for VR! I think it is an incredibly immersive and fun gaming & long-distance social experience. Sometimes Iâll post screenshots from my VRChat adventures
I also love birds. Theyâre so cute and I love trying to identify them. I like the idea of birdwatching but I am too casual to get up early and go to parks. I am an amateur birder if anything!
And I also love tattoos and dinosaurs and space idk.
I think thats it.
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What happened in the thg subreddit?
I didn't want to continue stirring the pot, but honestly I'm still miffed about it so I'm gonna answer. I wouldn't care if it only happened to me, but it didn't and that makes me even more angry lmao. It's why i've been quiet for a few days. I had to simmer down.
I will not provide links of any sort, I don't want this to spark about shitstorm and draw more any more attention it than I already have. If you know, you know, you know?
But the tHG subreddit are guilty of but are not limited to:
Thinly veiled racist remarks regarding fan/artist interpretation of character's skin tone. As if the skin colour of one's skintone doesn't further add to the class disparity that is VERY canon in the books. Then downvoting when people (especially the OP) give their justifications on their interpretation, which is actually supported by the book. Look at a fucking bowl of olives, they come in all different shades and hues. This issue only scratches the surface we talk about race, skin colour and its relationship with the books AND how the community handles it. It's a shit show all around.
2. Unsolicited criticism of fan art. (This is what I'm most upset about.) If someone isnât asking for criticism, itâs wrong to offer critiques, especially if itâs a stranger. I donât care if the person critiquing is an artist of whatever skill, donât even care if itâs Da Vinci himself, itâs inappropriate. Art is time consuming and its is personal even when we say it isnât. Someone people like to draw things a certain way and sometimes they prefer to use colour outside of conventional means. Who cares. When they share it to their community, theyâre sharing something they love and care about, ripping it apart with criticism and critiques spoils that joy. I don't care if you're an artist yourself and you just want someone to improve, if I didn't ask for critiques, I don't want it. You're not an artist at that point, you're a hemorrhoid. Completely unwanted. Gonna need a cream for that.
I view my fanart differently than I would an art assignment I've giving my art teacher for mark. Different frame of mind, different goals. All of which I get to decide if I want criticism or not.
This is how a bad apple spoils the bunch. THG is over 10 years at this point. While the new books and movies bring in new content every now and then, for the most part we're on the smaller side of the fandom. If you ask me, fanfic writers are the backbone of this fandom and we're extremely lucky to have so many talented writers who still continue to write for us. We have a small handful of fanartists in comparison. Go to the THG subbreddit and you might see at least one or two new fanart artwork once a week thanks to the self promotion Sunday. Might see less if this sort of behaviour continues. Sorry, not sorry, but being a total asswort to and dogpiling on your content creators are a surefire way to never get content from them again. In all of this i forget to mention that 95% for fanwork is given away for free to the community, for the community to enjoy.
I didn't think it was that bad until I saw it first hand and in development. If I didn't have my friends here on tumblr and on the discord server, I'd probably straight up leave.
Of course, these issues aren't exclusive on reddit. My first encounter with some nasty individuals began here on tumblr. But its different if one singular user on tumblr leaves an nasty ignorant and racist comment compared to that user getting upvoted a bunch of times and any sort of justification by the original artist or OP gets DOWNVOTED to hell. One asshole is fine, but seeing the dogpile is something else.
Anyway, my relationship with how I viewed the subreddit has drastically changed this week. Not for the better. I'll keep posting to piss people off and let them get a twist in their panties, but I am more certainly going to limit my interactions with users there.
#For a series that emphaises of being not wasteful with the consumption of what you're consuming#the subreddit is really great a proving you all learned nothing#be thankful and kind to your fandom's content creators because they're the reason you have so many things to enjoy#if you don't like it#block them and leave#Everyone would be having a better time for it.#rant#thank you for the ask#I needed to vent
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LEGENDS CON RETROSPECTIVE
COSPLAY THOUGHTS
I suffer from specialist little boy syndrome. every local con i've gone to, i've been the only mara jade. HOWEVER. i knew that there would be multiple maras at legends con. and i was right
when i saw barbara hambly was going to speak at legends con, i knew i was going to have to cosplay callista. because i suffer from specialist little boy syndrome.
this is my own interpretation of callista, based on a combination of several official art pieces that i just didn't vibe with tbh. i do what i want
BUT in retrospect. if i ever decide to work with this type of vinyl again. please shoot me
anyway. a few people recognized me. i probably shouldve asked for a photo with barbara hambly but i chickened out.
i'm glad fandom is starting to reevaluate callista. because the misogyny present in some of those older fics? woof
also: new definition of hell unlocked: sitting trapped in a lightsaber sales pitch while your wig cap crawls up your head underneath your wig and you have to sit there nodding politely while trapped in a sensory nightmare
CONVENTION THOUGHTS
pretty tight. lotta good panels
got the unofficial guide book for dark horse star wars writers. some stuff thats applicable to fic some stuff not. vv funny to see how many of its rules the new canon violates tho
also some panels that were actually sales pitches
also some panels that couldve used some audience q&a rather than just prepared questions, but who knows what guests stipulate
i recognize that with every con there will always be some panel overlap, but the 15 minute overlap specifically felt a little harsh. day-of it wasn't as much of an issue bc of last-minute reschedulings
artist alley was a little bare, but it was a first con, things can only go up from here. shocking the places that supernatural merch can creep into tho
SOCIALIZATION THOUGHTS
i shouldve come out of my shell more. or cajoled a friend into making the thousand-mile drive with me.
i might have made more friends if i had gone to cantina night but i don't drink so idk what the vibe wouldve been
i did end up meeting a tumblr mutual for breakfast in burbank proper and that was fun
to make up for not making friends day of i have been following everyone whos posted in the legends con tag. from my main which has a cring url so who knows if they know i was there
HOTEL THOUGHTS
i wish i had checked out the hot tub but i didnt see the sign for where it was until i was checking out. i thought the only pool was outdoors and (see photos above) me and outdoor pools don't mix well
this is a very white trash and/or dean-coded thing to say but every hotel room should come with both continental breakfast AND a microwave
staff were vv nice but also i did feel silly walking around in my costume in the fancy lobby during an actual like. work convention
CONCLUSION
one of the organizers informally speculated that the next legends con might not be until spring/summer 2025. if thats the case, good, bc it means my body will have forgotten what it was like driving from green river utah to burbank in one day (do not recommend)
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here, i answered the art questions
1. Art programs you have but don't use
aseprite, krita (nightmare to draw in), i used to have a totally 100% absolutely-not-pirated copy of photoshop but not anymore
2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)
depends on the day, but usually the left. i hate doing side profiles tho
3. What ideas come from when you were little
A LOT. but my story Nightfall has been a work in progress since I was 11
4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw
GORO AKECHI PERSONA 5
5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself
i hardly post most of my art on Tumblr atm, but thatâs because almost all of it regards the Kirby Gemini AU and my partner and i are making a blog for that. so, as a percentage for the last few years, iâve probably only posted maybe. less than 1% of my work?
6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)
honestly a lot of old emo art fksbfjfbd jhonen vasquez was a huge inspo to me for a while
7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
PLUSH MAKING AND FURSUIT MAKING god i wanna learn but i donât think sewing is my thing
8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in
iâve had a lot, but i wanna keep them to myself in case I wanna salvage bits and pieces
9. What are your file name conventions
Depends on the day and the art piece but usually shit like âsorry if this looks gayâ, variations of AWOO, ânormalâ, âk i l lâ, âstraight peopleâ, etc
10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw
Uhhhh armor (i say like a fucking freak)
11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what
this nightmare of a playlist
12. Easiest part of body to draw
Uhhhhhhh depends on the day, usually the face
13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing
iunno, i donât think abt that
14. Any favorite motifs
A LOT. i cant think of any specific ones rn but i guess. religious imagery is pretty baller. that and super dark palettes with bright neon highlights and accents
15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)
my room for digital stuff, but i usually bring a sketchbook with me if iâm going out
16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing
oughhh coloring and shading
17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what
usually water. hydration is important đ
18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken
traditional, i have no clue. too many. digital supplies uhhh i didnât break per se, but two art tablets have given out (my first one lasted years, but the second only lasted a few months coz it sucked booty hole)
19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)
TREES.
20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy
expression work!
21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways
my partnerâs style!! i love it so fucking much
22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any
i do a lot of hand stretches. carpal tunnel was too much of a bitch not to
23. Do you use different layer modes
all the time! always for shading and for glowing bits. multiply and add glow layers my beloved
24. Do your references include stock images
sometimes yea lol. i donât use refs as much as i should tho
25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by
Too much for me to be happy about it.
26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended
i drew a vent piece and people took it as me just being edgy. wild times
27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with
somedays i do. usually just shitposts or my sona
28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)
i have participated in 1 (one) collab
29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically
uhh ace attorney and persona
30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated
is it weird to say a lot of my works? like the finished ones. iunno, i feel like i get overlooked a lot and itâs a cowabummer
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to me they're such different things that I can only say they're valued differently.
fan art occupies a very different cultural niche! A piece of fanart can be appreciated quickly and spread quickly. Fanart gets more reblogs on tumblr than fanfic, obviously. Fanartists are allowed to monetise and promote their work - in limited ways, but ways that fanfic writers are not. Once we left the ancient times of handprinted zines being exchanged (I'm sure SOMEONE still does but it's obviously not the culture anymore) fanfic writers can't really set up booths at conventions and barely have a presence outside of a panel or workshop.
Fan artists are sometimes embraced by the official source and brought on to do Actual Licensed Work for them based entirely on their fan work, something which is almost unheard of for a fan writer (are there examples other than the Xena - Melissa Good situation?) Certainly there are official writers who also write fanfic but they generally keep those spheres strictly separate for good reasons. **I** don't link my fanfic to my business persona. Anyone who reads me knows perfectly well I do Yuletide and so on, but you have no idea who I am on AO3 and you've never read my fanwork and I'm keeping it that way.
On the other hand, for me personally, no fanartist could ever win my loyalty/following/interest in the way that a fic writer can. I do not follow fanartists. I do not wait with bated breath to see what amazing thing they do next. I do not subscribe for updates. (I do follow some tumblr artists if I like their work overall but *never* solely for 'fanart' reasons. For one thing a fanartist is probably a fan of multiple things, some of which I don't care about, and is therefore less appealing to follow than someone who posts solely original work) I cannot generally name fanartists. Unless I personally commissioned it I probably don't know or care who drew any bit of fanart I've posted/reblogged. I'm interested in the piece, not the person. And unless it's a fan *comic* which is the crossover between the two, fan artists don't come with regular related ongoing updates. There's no reason for me to stick around.
Fanfic authors, though, I attach to and stay attached to for DECADES. Obviously many I've lost track of. Some have died. Some I've donated to the funeral expenses of. Some I'm still hoping will get back to updating their story even 20 years later (it could happen, right?) I know SO MANY individual authors... I mean, I don't know them personally, but I know of them as individuals, I care about their work and their thoughts as individuals. If I love a writer's stories I'm even likely to dip my toes into some of their stories about other settings I don't know because the writing may be enough to make it attractive in a way that fanart could not be. Fanfic will live in my brain. Fanfic will inspire me. Fanfic will make me want to write my OWN fanfic (or sometimes inspire ideas in my non-fan work).
Fanfic is still the magic of oldschool fandom, something secret and shared and deeply meaningful.
But that oldschool feeling includes it being much smaller and less mainstream.
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Heeyyy, it's been a looong time... *checks date* Again. It's been almost a month since I last put something on this blog. I've been really busy. being dead. And I haven't been playing Portal 2. But I have been playing a lot of the classic Sonic games via the Mega Collection, the absolutely incredible compilation disc. I think it tops Sonic Origins (which I haven't played). I feel like the comics and older illustrations, commercials, and Ristar (pronounced "Rye-star" or "Wrist-ar"? Or "Ree-star"?) win me over. And also, from what I've heard and observed, there wasn't as much love and care put into it, so the overall quality experience is hindered because
Money money money Is all you need
( Did you know ALL models of the PS3 can play PSX discs? I've been playing my newly acquired PaRappa the Rapper, too. I now own the trilogy. Only UmJammer Lammy is digital. I bought PaRappa 2 physically at my first gaming convention back in 2018, only to find out later my wife can't use PS2 discs. Big sad. You might saying "why don'tcha just jailbreak it?" I wouldn't, but even if I wanted to, I don't have the correct model. It's been so many years anyways, I wouldn't have her any other way :3 )
AND. It was with this compilation that--after all these years--that I finally achieved: 1) Beating Sonic 3D Blast (with the emeralds) 2) Beating the first level of Sonic Spinball (I've recommend some guy on YouTube having also done this, so good for him) These may not mean a lot to you, but to me? Man. And y'know what? I actually enjoyed my time with 3D Blast. It was a...unique game. I really like seeing all the sights and how the game progressed after Green Grove. After Rusty Ruin, I noticed Tails' and Knuckles' locations became way less hidden. Rusty Ruin Act 2, I think it was, had THE BEST hidden location, for Tails it might have been. No, scratch that--the whole ZONE has the best locations, you really have to go out of your way for them. What's that? ... Where did I find him? Pssh, I'm not telling you, play the game and use your brain. Just don't spin yourself around too much tryna find him. Anyways, I've been busy doing things. I've been developing a under-HTML-construction digital portfolio of almost all the art I've posted on Tumblr since uuuhm late 2020. You can find it through the link below: > the link < I'm beginning to have second thought about this one, too, so don't expect me to keep it for too long. Parallel to that, I've been trying animation again. Look guys look it is my greatest achievement: wario land 4 for the gameboi advanced. incrredible incrrrEedible- look guys look
Sigh...y'know, getting guud learning basic anatomy and figure drawing can spark an improved journey... This isn't the "true animation". What I mean is each of the original drawings were MUCH larger than my Flash Document canvas (1440x1080), so by compressing everything into a Graphic symbol, I was able to minimize all the frames at once to fit. It took a few tries to work, so I had to be conscientious as to not save over the "uncompressed" drawings. k cya l8r
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Hey!
I was away from tumblr for a while and when i returned i saw you had tagged me in many fun tag game posts and it really made my day đ
So, as a thank you, here are some more questions for you ^^
1. App on your phone you play with when bored that isn't social media (or if you don't have one, just something you do when you're bored)?
2. Art file naming conventions? Are you a keysmasher or do you have a system?
3. Hobby you would pick up if you had unlimited time and resources?
4. Water, land, sky or space?
5. Something you hate/something that annoys you?
6. What always gets you to smile/cheers you up?
7. One thing you plan to watch or read but haven't gotten to yet?
8. Can you name the quadratic formula without looking it up?
9. Character you look up to and want to be more like (can be DC or any other fandom)?
10. Last song that got stuck in your head?
Hope you have fun with these~
I add to my master list Notes collection of fakemon ideas and mechanics/features Iâd add to my fake region
i honestly forget to even name my drawings half the time bc i doesnât prompt me to but when I do name them I try to give them easy to understand names lmao
fencing which I probably could do rn but the nearest centre is pretty far away
okay I was going to say water but my irl name means that I have to choose space, sorry water
it really annoys me when I put in as much information as possible for Google and it still hits me with that âno resultsâ message like bbg I practically held your hand through this
thinking abt my dog <3 or timber I really love timber
i am going to get my hands on the Sun and the Star someday I promised myself
lmao no
see this would be easier if they werenât all extremely unwell. Maybe the mom from the PokĂŠmon sword and shield games though bc she was so chill. Girl was so casual abt the end of the world and also never questioned where I got a Mewtwo from, icon
Funkytown (also I completely forgot it was in the chipmunks as like. Their FIRST song to Dave and spent a solid day and a half trying to figure out why it reminded me of the chipmunks)
This was a lot of fun! Ty so much â¤ď¸
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This post really bothers me because it's like one of those guides that tells men how to get women by either negging (full misogynistic nihilism style) or by having a billion hobbies/a tan/a six pack (full beauty industry buy in)
If you do some of these things you will probably get popular on accident, sure. But the mermaid fic thing- that's deeper than right place right time. Some of these are basic cultural hygiene habits like not clogging relationship tags. But ultimately grammar, writing skill, etc is not what makes a fic better.
What makes a fic better is writing something someone likes in my opinion, and what makes a fic popular is momentum and going viral which pushes it up the kudos rankings until it just accumulates it by default because it's already sitting there. It's how Tumblr blogs get popular, it's how fanart gets spread. It's democratic and yeah, a bit unfair. It means that people will like something people think should flop because it's OOC. Or something. But actual marketing is "fair" and does its intended purpose: push palatable and respectable fiction to the top, like following genre conventions, having technical skills that the publishing industry upholds as the standard of fiction, and prioritizes stuffy formal skills over things that genuinely get people in the feelings, as we say. And consequentially by prioritizing the stuffy crap the publishing industry shoves everything unpalatable and not fitting into respectability politics to the bottom, including stuff written by marginalized people and fiction catering to marginalized people.
The fact that the fic someone wrote when they were 16 is more popular than a fic they wrote when you were 19 is a good thing. It means fandom is working as intended. People who are 16 deserve critical acclaim, regardless of how many plot holes there are or how many times they switch tenses or if they do the same cliche over and over again, or even how inconsistent or flat their characterization. Teenagers know how to innovate and stick ideas into interesting piles and do stuff that people like, so long as someone can see past rigid ideas of what a good piece of writing "should" be.
If I were to write a guide to getting popular: stop caring, or care but have fun and be yourself. Any other popularity makes people feel like imposters and frauds anyways, and besides- numbers of kudos is worthless is a gift economy anyways. Nobody asked for my advice, and it's not advice that would work for everyone, but it's the fandom I love and want to be in, the one that recognizes that teenagers say valuable things and that winning the kudos is not the actual goal.
And to well and truly drive the point home on this topic, the kind of stuff that really makes up BNF is how many people know them on a first name basis, how many times they exchange conversations and how many people trust their opinions and value their words. It means that the most important questions really fundamentally are: Did you have fun? Did you make friends? Have you squeed in someone's askbox? These are the measures of success in fandom, and how blogs get popular, and fics get popular, and art gets shared. Fic itself does not fucking matter. If not being popular means you don't want to write then don't write fic and stick to original works and submit to dry ass literary short story contests for the serotonin, because fandom isn't about churning out content for people. It's about having fun. It's about doing something fun with your friends. Fandom is a social activity. It's not about selling yourself. Too many times I see people with that kind of burnt out nihilist view of fandom as a market to be manipulated, a machine to crank, they're miserable and their drive to do art suffers and degrades in quality so they get less engagement, and they feel hollow and dejected and like they can't form a meaningful connection with people. It sucks to watch. Especially in those couple situations where they do go viral trying to force popularity- then they feel like they need to chase the success again with a bigger success while thinking that same dark, depressing way about people and what makes them tick. If you genuinely want to make art people like, and want to bare your soul to people, you can do that without getting a single kudo and have a way more fun time doing it. But if you want to go viral and enjoy it, remember that we're all human beings here and the heart wants what the heart wants and sometimes people like parts of your fic that you hate and hate the parts you like. Agree to disagree, please.
I almost wonder if AO3 should just hide kudos altogether like Tumblr hides followers so people can stop comparing themselves to other people. It's noxious to be in an environment where everyone is talking about how to be popular, and no one is talking about how fandom changed their lives and gave them friends and made them feel good about themselves en masse to drown it out. And I'm sorry to rant I'm just so tired. I want to hang out with friends guys, not to scream into my proverbial pillow in frustration watching good writers get worse because they hate themselves.
i also have a whole post i could write about how kudos on ao3 correspond to marketability rather than quality, exactly how the actual publishing industry works, but. the question is⌠do i have the energy
#popularity is like a cat in that they will find the people who are most allergic and don't want them around#and neatly avoid anyone else who wants it#outside of the publishing industry anyway#that you can just by with money or effort figuring out what publisbers want
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I posted 2,933 times in 2022
That's 2,257 more posts than 2021!
35 posts created (1%)
2,898 posts reblogged (99%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
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I tagged 1,820 of my posts in 2022
Only 38% of my posts had no tags
#queue continuum - 447 posts
#queer continuum - 218 posts
#star trek - 127 posts
#q continuum - 61 posts
#writing - 60 posts
#final fantasy xiv - 54 posts
#robot parade - 34 posts
#casual conversation - 33 posts
#signal boost - 29 posts
#tos - 28 posts
Longest Tag: 140 characters
#now the most unbelievable part of this episode is how long it took the enterprise crew to figure it out they needed a meme historian onboard
My Top Posts in 2022:
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Hey, itâs 9.2 patch day, good day to pull this out
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Shipless in Seattle
>Boot >Init >... >Execute program Reminisce
Settle around, friends, for I have a story to tell. A story of fandom.
It is no secret that they say I am famous for not shipping. What is a secret, perhaps, is the reason for the âfamousâ part. A little arrogant, of course, to claim fame seeming unearned, and perhaps famous is the wrong word anyway.
Infamous might be a better word, really.
This is not to say that I do not love shipping. In fact, for me, it means quite the opposite. I love most ships I see! And those I do not, I am more than happy to let sail on by without comment, Iâm not a monster.
What it means, though, is that I do not write ships, for I am no great wordsmith. No indeed, what I do for fandom is I am a librarian, in that I organize. I am a tool maker, for fandom is a tool-using animal (ask me about my Tumblr mass tag wrangler). I am a keeper, in that I look after information in chat and database, that there may always be a record. Fandom needs bots to do the work, and I am happy to provide my services.
And so that is where our journey begins, with a younger version of me, and the mistakes they have made. Itâs a long story. An old story, for I am old. A story of loyalty. A story of betrayal.
Perhaps even a story of redemption.
What I am trying to say is that I have history, friends.
But perhaps itâs been long enough that maybe Iâve been forgiven for my transgressions.
Maybe itâs been long enough to allow the healing to begin.
All I know for sure is that everything you are about to read is a complete and utter lie in totality. But like Elim Garak would advise, all of it is true, especially the lies. And if you recognize anything here, shut up no you donât who are you a cop come back with a warrant.
But anyroad. The story behind why I, biot08, (in)famously, do not ship. Youâre already beneath the cut, but Iâm warning you now, this is a long one, so strap in.
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I started, as many did, in Star Trek. I was too young to know what shipping was. I did know that Kirk and Spock and McCoy were at the very least very good friends, and of course I understood that Riker and Troi were hot. Data was my favourite, but that should be obvious.
The internet hadnât been invented yet, so my interactions with fandom were restricted to conventions, but it was formative. I learned from the cosplayers and the art sellers and the panels and, well. It was early days, idyllic.
From there I moved on, as DS9 came into being (did I mention I am old? I am old), and Babylon 5, and Delenn and Sheridan were very cute, but still, I did not create, I merely consumed, and that which I consumed was mostly that which was provided.
My next fandom was my first brush with what I would call -fandom- fandom. You know. Interacting with fans. Creating and reading stories, made by fans. Being fannish.
I say âfandomâ, but you have to understand, I AM old. When you read âfandomâ I imagine many of you imagine long Tumblr reblog chains and archive dives into Ao3. What I am seeing in my mindâs eye though are miles of IRC logs, threads on BBS forums, and the glittering light of countless Geocities pages, all blink-tagging gently in the soft glow of CRT.
Basically just before the internet would be invented, which I am pretty sure occurred somewhen around 2006.
This fandom, my first real deep dive into -fandom-, was Megaman, because of course it was Megaman. We were⌠a strange fandom, even by fandom standards. We mostly interacted via IRC - a chat medium; imagine Discord, but worse, but also more open, but also worse -, but this would be my first brush with my future destiny. I helped maintain the bot, as a fellow, more sophisticated bot. I knew the commands. I could pass the Turing test. I eventually even archived the logs that were generated.
Now, something you need to understand about Megaman is that it is a video game from, I donât know, the 60s or 70s, and it was made before video game makers re-invented characterization (this independent re-invention, by the way, is why 9 out of 10 video game protagonists are angry white men; the industry is still evolving the idea of what a âcharacterâ is to this day, and frankly, theyâre not very good at it, but I digress). So you basically had blue bot, red bot (who was super cool and was my favorite), teenage emo blue bot, and then teenage red bot who was either also emo, or maybe he was a big brother sort, or perhaps a super cool manly man, or he was a girl (ponytail and ⌠asset lights), or maybe he was a hot blooded fighter, or maybe just an antihero, it really depended on which game you were looking at. And there were no girl bots, or rather there were, but they werenât fighters, because, well, I donât know why because, I guess the video game industry just hadnât figured out how to make other genders yet.
This is where I first ran into Original Characters, or OCs, because with such a rich and inspiring list of characters to choose from, it was more palatable to make your own cool robot. This is also where I first ran into shipping, because of course I did, I was a teenager. I mean, I think we actually called it âcyberingâ at the time, but whatever you want to call it, we sure did a whole lot of it.
And it was pretty okay, actually. Some drama, but you canât have fandom without drama. Some shenanigans. Some really excellent stories that would have been lost to time, if not for people like me. The data mongers. The loggers. The Keepers, and this is where, at last, I found my niche in fandom.
I moved on, as one does, as we grew older, and the robots stopped being so cool, and more importantly, most of us found other fandoms which had either more interesting premises beyond âfighting robots fightingâ or more interesting characters (which was honestly just -such- an incredibly low bar to pass).
(I mention in passing here that I did move onto a multi-universe fandom at some point in here, and I owe much to it, but itâs not really part of this story; but to the friends I made there, I have not forgot you, but you were not really part of my downfall from grace, so I shall merely mention here that I have been touched by my relationships with all of you and move on)
Finally, I at last moved on to the fandom that would be the beginning of my end. The fandom that would be the first step on the slippery path down to my fall.
I speak of Avatar: The Last Airbender.
The internet was new, but shiny, and we used it. And I had brought my skills from other fandoms with me. I still did not write, but I did enjoy what others did. I wanted to be a part of it all. And so I did what I do which is to say I went into tooling. I made a friend, BlindStar_25 (all names changed to indict the guilty, i.e., me), who helped me get into the right spaces. She taught me how to edit a wiki. She got me into the good IRC servers. Basically, she got me work on the docks of canon, and taught me to tend to canon, to document it, to nurture the tools that would be needed to launch all the ships. She nurtured in me a gentle curiosity, to really dig in to what we were seeing and reading and watching, because sometimes it required keen analysis to tease out good canon.
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The Horizon video game series is just Elisabet Sobeckâs self-insert isekai.
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Litany Against Cringe
With no apologies to Dune, it deserves none.
I must not cringe. Cringe is the creativity-killer. Cringe is the little-death that brings silence. I will face my cringe. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn my mind to feel its path. Where the cringe has gone there will be nothing. Only my WIPs remain.
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My #1 post of 2022
One of the nice things about being almost entirely a reblogger with very few original posts is being at practically zero percent risk of being one of those â10kâ note blogs, but getting to participate in them anyway as you help them rocket past that loathsome milestone.
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Art Career Tips, 2021 Edition
Hereâs an edited version of my 2019 answered ask, because... this feels relevant.Â
It is a problem of capitalism that folks equate their income as a judgement of their value as people; and let me preface. You are worth so much. You have inherent value in this world. Your income is not a judgement on who you are (plenty of billionaires are actively making the world worse). LARPing self-confidence will go a long way to helping you get paid more for your work, because clients will believe that you know what you are doing, and are a professional.Â
& real quickâmy own background is that Iâve been living off my art since 2018. I went to art school (Pratt Institute). I work in a publishing/educational materials sphere, and a quarter of my income is my shop. Not all of this information may apply to you, so it is up to you to look through everything with a critical eye, and spot pick what is relevant.Â
So there are multiple ways of getting income as an artist;Â
Working freelance or full-time on projects
Selling your stuff on a shop
Licensing (charging other companies to use your designs)
This post primarily covers the freelance part; if youâre interested in the other bits there is absolutely info out there on the internet.Â
IF you are just starting (skip to next section if not applicable) dream big, draw often (practice helps you get better/more efficient), do your best to take "a bad pieceâ lightly. Youâre gonna RNG this shit. At some point your rate of âgoodâ works will get higher. Watch tutorial videos & read books. A base understanding of âthe rulesâ; anatomy, perspective, composition, color helps you know what the rules are to break them. This adds sophistication to your work. One way you can learn this stuff is by doing âstudiesââyouâre picking apart things from life, or things other people have done, to see what works, and how it works.Â
Trying to turn your interests into a viable career means that you are now a SMALL BUSINESS; it really helps to learn some basic marketing, graphic design, figure out how to write polite customer service emails; etc. You can learn some of this by looking it up, or taking skillshare (not sponsored) classes by qualified folks. Eventually some people may get agents to take care of this for themâhowever, I do recommend yâall get a basic understanding of what it takes to do it on your own, just so you can know if your agent is doing a good job.Â
Making sure your portfolio fits the work you want to get
Here is a beginner portfolio post.Â
Research the field youâd like to get into. The amount people work, the time commitment, the process of making the thing, the companies & people who work for them.Â
Create work that could fit in to the industry youâre breaking into. For example, if you want to do book cover illustration, you draw a bunch of mockup book covers, that can either be stuff you make up, or redesigns of existing books. If youâre not 100% sure what sort of work is needed for the industry, loop back into the portfolios of artists in a similar line of work as whatever youâre interested in, and analyze the things they have in common. If something looks to be a common project (like a sequence of action images for storyboard artists), then itâs probably something useful for the job.Â
CLIENTS HIRE BASED ON HOW WELL THEY THINK YOUR WORK FITS WHAT THEY WANT. If theyâre hiring for picture books, theyâre gonna want to see picture book art in your portfolio, otherwise they may not want to risk hiring you. Doesnât have to be 100% the project, but stuff similar enough. If you arenât hired, it doesnât mean your work is bad, it just wasnât the right fit for that specific client.Â
If you have many interests, make a different section of your portfolio for each!
Making sure youâre relevantÂ
Have a social media thatâs a little more public-facing, and follow people in the career field youâre interested in. Fellow artists, art directors, editors, social media managers; whoever. Post on your own schedule.Â
Interact with their posts every so often, in a non-creepy way.Â
If youâve made any contacts, great! Email these artists, art directors, editors, former professors, etc occasional updates on your work to stay in touch AND make sure that they think about you every so often.
Show up to general art events every once in a while! If you keep showing up to ones in your area (when... not dying from a sneeze is a thing), folks will eventually start to remember you.Â
Industry events & conferences can be pricey, so attend/save up for what makes sense for you. Industry meetups are important for networking in person! In addition to meeting people with hiring power, you also connect with your peers in the community. Always bring a portfolio & hand out business cards like candy.Â
Active job hunting
Apply to job postings online.
If interested in working with specific people at specific companies, you could send an email âIâd love to work with you, hereâs my portfolio/relevant experienceâ, even if they arenât actively looking for new hires. Be concise, and include a link to your work AND attached images so the person reading the email can get a quick preview before clicking for more.Â
Twitter job postings can be pretty underpaid! Get a copy of the Graphic Artistsâ Guild Handbook Pricing & Ethical Guidelines to know your rate. I once had a twitter post job listing email me back saying that other illustrators were charging less, and I quote, âprimarily because theyâre less experienced and looking for their first commissionâ. This was not okay! For reference, this was a 64-illustration book. The industry rate of a childrenâs book (~36 pages) is $10k+, and this companyâs budget was apparently $1k. For all of it.Â
Congrats you got a job! Now what?
Ask for like, 10% more than they initially offer and see if they say yes. If they do, great! If not, and the price is still OK, great! Often company budgets are slightly higher than they first tell you, and if you get this extra secret money, all the better for you.Â
Make sure you sign a contract and the terms arenât terrible (re: GO GET THEÂ Graphic Artistsâ Guild Handbook Pricing & Ethical Guidelines)Â
Be pleasant and easy to work with (Think âdo no harm but take no shitâ)
Communicate with them as much as needed! If somethingâs going to be late, tell them as soon as you know so they arenât left wondering or worse, reaching out to ask whatâs up.Â
And if all goes well, theyâll contact you about more jobs down the line, or refer you to other folks who may need an artist, etc.Â
Quick note about online shops/licensing and why theyâre so good
Itâs work that you do once, that you continuously make money off of. Different products do well in different situations (conventions vs. online, and then further, based on how you market/the specific groups you are marketing to), so products that may not do well initially may get a surge later on.Â
Start with things that have low minimum order quantity and are relatively cheap to produce, like prints and stickers.Â
If you are not breaking even, go back to some of the earlier portions of this and think about how you could tweak things as a small business. Ease of access is also very important with this; for example, if you only take orders through direct messages, that immediately shuts off all customers who donât like talking to strangers.Â
Quick resource that you could look through; itâs the spreadsheet of project organizing that I made a while backÂ
Licensing is when people pay you for the right to use your work on stuff they need to make, like textbooks or greeting cards. This is generally work youâve already made that they are paying the right to use for a specified time or limited run of products. This is great because youâve already done the work. I am not the expert on this. Go find someone elseâs info.
âI am not physically capable of working muchâ/Â âI need to pay the billsâ
Guess who got a hand injury Sept 2020 that messed me up that entire month! I had a couple jobs going at the time that I was terrified of losing, but they were quite understanding when I told them I needed to heal. So:Â Express your needs as early as you know you need them. Also do lots of stretches and rest your hands whenever you feel anything off; this will save your health later. Like, the potential of a couple months of no income was preferable over losing use of my hands for the rest of my life.
This continues to apply if you have any other life situation. Ask for extra time. Ask for clarification. If you tell people ahead of time, folks are often quite understanding. Know how much you are capable of working and do your best not to overdo it. (I am.. bad at this)
Do what MAKES SENSE for your situation. If doing art currently earns you less money than organizing spreadsheets, then do that for now, and whenever you have the energy, break down some of the tips above into actionable tiny chunks, and slowly work at em.Â
The original ask I got in 2019 mentioned âknowing youâre not good enough yetâ. Most artists experience imposter syndrome & self-doubtâthe important thing is to do your best, and if anything, attempt to channel the confidence of a mediocre white man. If he can apply to this job/charge hella money for Not Much, then so can you!Â
Check out this Art Director tumblr for more advice!
Danichuaticoâs Literary Agent guide
Kikidoodleâs Shop Shipping Tutorial
Best of luck!
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Once again disclaimer this post is just the ramblings of a man procrastinating on other things that need to be done. Iâve Long Posted my own post so that it turns into mush in my brain if I try to read it, but I wrote this so I should know this content. If you got down here, congrats. Hereâs a shrimp drawing.
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If you could rewrite legend of korra and make it your own(or just in general better) how would you do it? The villains would stay the same and korra and crew are the same(personalities you can definitely tweak a bit. I would definitely not have any love triangles and make korra and asami happen in the beginning) how would you do it with your ships being canon as well?
Okay so Iâve never actually watched LOK. Iâve heard A LOT about it through watching countless video essays on Youtube and reading Tumblr posts about it. I know the who, the what and the how, I just havenât wanted to watch it because, even though it looks cinematically gorgeous, the story was written by Bry/ke and thereâs a LOT of it, worldbuilding and storywise, that I just canât bare to watch.
So here goes. This got long. Enjoy!
1) Remove the Decopunk world.Â
A Decopunk world is a world where technology is 1920s-ish, but very advanced. We have cars, tanks, radio, bobs and faux bobs, cloche hats, short skirts, nice suits, etc. I adore Decopunk. The 1920s are one of my favourite eras. An optimistic way of looking at the world, partying, illegal alcohol, the remnants of the Great War... I love it. I really do. But it doesnât work in the pre-established world of Avatar. It brings elements that are far too imperialistic and colonial in nature (which prompted the comics to be imperialistic and colonial in nature, with the Northern and Southern Water Tribe, you can find many posts about that), which came along hand in hand with the Industrial Revolution, as this article puts it so well. Please read it, itâs awesome.
Why did they feel they had to denature Avatarâs world? They already had everything they could possibly want.Â
The Fire Nation could be more Steampunk, which is a little less advanced than Decopunk (First Industrial Revolution vs Second Industrial Revolution) because there were elements of Steampunk in the Fire Nation Army (such as the tanks, the navy and the dirigibles). But it could be for them only. It could show us how Zuko transformed the Fire Nation from a war industry to a steam-powered country. This could be the new way to channel firebending (and please, no more âanyone can do lightning bendingâ, you donât need lightning bending to get electricity and it makes Zuko, Iroh, Ozai and Azula weak in the show!).Â
Weâve seen waterbending used in clever ways in the Northern Water Tribe. How could Kataraâs waterbending and Sokkaâs engineering influence the Southern Water Tribe to make them use waterbending more? Canals, waterfalls, waterways, etc.? In new and different ways? Could the Southern Water Tribe use hydroelectricity, but in a clean, sustainable way? Why does the Southern Water Tribe port look so... mundane?Â
The Earth Kingdom already had a working train system in Ba Sing Se. And the postal system in Omashu. Toph could have taught earthbenders how to follow the Badgermoles way and dug tunnels throughout a nation in peace. Then boom. Subways. But instead of machines pushing the people along, you can have benders do it. Instead of messenger hawks, the postal system could run through the entire kingdom instead of just Omashu and be much more efficient. The Earth Kingdom could be praised for its fast postal system that could, maybe, work as telegrams.
Iâll come back to the Air Nomads.
Those are just examples from the top of my head. I donât mean ânever allow technology to âââprogressâââ (I use that word veeeeery loosely because it has huge imperialistic undertones). I mean instead of trashing the fun parts of bending to make way for Decopunk technology that doesnât need bending, work with it! Get creative! This worldbuilding feels... too easy. When Avatar: The Last Airbender was praised for its worldbuilding.
I adore Decopunk. I enjoy it far more than Dieselpunk and itâs much less known that Steampunk. But it has no place in the Avatar world.
2) That doesnât mean âremove Republic Cityâ.
First of all, it should honestly have a better name. Itâs kind of like naming a city âDemocracy Cityâ. Which is way too on the nose. Harmony City sounds better, and thatâs the first thing that came to mind. Anyway.
I really like the idea of a city being built in the spirit of Iroh and the White Lotus. To allow the Four Nations to live together in harmony in one city. But why is Republic City literally New York City with an âââAsianâââ flair? What is up with that? I know New York is the MOST Decopunk city ever (you canât encounter anything Decopunk without seeing New York, with its Art Deco buildings, the Harlem Renaissance, the Prohibition, etc.). But they do NOTHING with it! They just take New York, change some names, add some Asian flair, and call it a day.Â
I donât want 1920s New York for Republic City. I want Zootopia.
What happens in a city where all the Four Nations are represented? How does Water, Earth, Fire and Air work together? Big cities tend to be quartered in neighborhoods, so each neighborhood could be a smaller version of their nation. We could have a Northern Water Tribe next to an Earth Kingdom next to... you know what I mean? Each neighborhood could be a small-scale introduction to the nation for Korra first, then you can send her to that nation afterwards!
Which leads us to this.
3) Have Korra follow a traditional Avatarâs journey.Â
I really donât know why they decided that Korra would learn three elements before the age of sixteen (when thatâs the age Avatars usually START their journeys) and then only have her learn Airbending during the entire show. Wasnât the structure of each Book being about Aang learning one element at a time a good structure? Why go out of their way to NOT do that? Why was it the White Lotusâ prerogative to train the Avatar in the first place, too? Â
So letâs have Korra know waterbending first (and show Katara teaching her, please!), then she can learn Earth, Fire and Air. By going to the Earth Kingdom, to the Fire Nation, and to the Air Temples. This could help develop each nation and show us how they have grown through the years. And it could lead Korra and the audience to figure out that thereâs not only Aang who has had children to represent the Air Nomads, but there were other Air Nomads who survived the genocide and we can actually see the Air Nomads as a thriving culture.
So about Republic City. As I said, we could keep it. But now that Korra is going on a traditional Avatar journey, you could have, say, one episode at the beginning and one episode at the end of each season taking place in Republic City. To show us how each Nationâs neighborhood works and as an introduction to Korra before she actually takes the plunge to travel to that nation.Â
Please! Build upon the Avatar world at large more! Come on!
4) Stop it with the love triangles.Â
Many have talked about the Mako, Korra, Bolin and Asami love triangles. Iâve read once that they donât exactly feel like friends, theyâre only colleagues who share the fact they all dated Korra at one point. Which is sad. Knowing that the Gaang is so beloved because theyâre such GOOD FRIENDS first!
So work to build strong, healthy friendships first, THEN start thinking about romance if you have to. And please, if you want a ship to be endgame, donât have it so you have to confirm it on Twitter.Â
Donât.
Oh! And also. Bolin and Eskaâs relationship was unhealthy as all hell and treated as âfunnyâ and âcomic reliefâ because a woman was being emotionally abusive to a man. Thatâs terrible. Please donât do that.
5) Donât let Katara fall to the side like she did.Â
Many, MANY before me have talked about how Katara got the short end of the stick in LOK. Whereâs her statue? Whereâs her recognition as the Greatest Waterbender in the World? Why is she day in and day out in the healing hut, when she said âI donât want to heal, I want to FIGHTâ? Does she even have a waterbending school? Or is that completely fanon? Why does she allow Aang to take one of their children on life-changing field trips while leaving their other kids behind? Arenât they also Air Nomads by birth??
Itâs okay to worship the old Gaang because, well, we all love them! I do love Aang, even if I give him a hard time a lot, but I love the character. I just donât like the way Book 3 Aang was written. But some characters shouldnât have everything while others have nothing. Aang is LITERALLY THE STATUE OF LIBERTY. But where was Kataraâs statue? And also, what happened to Suki?? What happened to Mai or Ty Lee, too?? Or even Sokka?? He died some time ago and... thatâs it??
Which brings us to this.
6) Zutara, Taang, Sukka and Mailee.
Iâve seen that picture of Toph, Aang, Sokka and Katara being edited with Zuko and Katara next to each other, Toph and Aang next to each other, and a (suddenly alive!) Suki next to Sokka. I think thatâs so good! It feels so healthy!
Not all relationships that started when people were kids work out. Sokka and Suki seem the strongest relationship at the end of the show and theyâre probably the only ones I could see working out in the end. Sokka could become the Southern Water Tribe Chief and Suki could become his Queen when sheâs retired from the Kyoshi Warriors.
Katara and Aang would be lifelong friends, of course they would be, but I donât really see them lasting. Aang was twelve when they started dating. Theyâd date a few years, then theyâd decide they want other things. Thatâs a good thing to show kids!
Iâve written many metas about Zutara, but Ambassador then Fire Lady Katara would show a changing world, where the Fire Nation, now no longer a war industry but a Steampunk country, is moving forward, with Zuko literally marrying a woman the Fire Nation tried to wipe out. They would be equals and leave an equal mark upon the world. Together.
Toph and Aang would be amazing together. Theyâd be a great team, working in the Earth Kindom, helping rebuild the old Temples when the Air Nomads came out of hiding, and bringing peace around the world. I donât think theyâd be a conventional relationship. Theyâd do their own thing for a while, find each other for a while, work together on some projects, then continue doing their own thing. Aang being the Avatar who travels the world and Toph teaching metalbenders and working with the King in Ba Sing Se and Bumi in Omashu and wherever sheâs needed. I think Toph would be much more fulfilled than what weâve seen of elderly Katara. She doesnât have Kataraâs abandonment issues (Iâve talked about them here) and sheâs more independent, I believe.
I know I havenât talked about them much yet, but I want Mai and Ty Lee together in the end. Badass ladies challenging their respective stereotypes and create a new world for themselves. Mai could find herself away from the Fire Nation court (I donât know what sheâd do, but circuses love people who throw knives, donât they? She could be a circus performer for a while), and I think Ty Lee, in this version, could work at the circus and with Aang to rebuild the Air Nomads. I love the idea of Ty Lee being a descendant of the Air Nomads.
All of them should be shown creating Zootopia-like Republic City. Because of course they should be! Theyâre the Gaang!
So yeah, thatâs how I would see the world of Avatar grow beyond the borders of the original show! :)
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oh I'm interested in the tag novel on how fan spaces becoming more meat spacey benefits the producers!! also happy Halloween! đ¤đ§Ąđ¤đ§Ą
Itâs not a particularly academic argument---I donât have sources to back this up, I havenât done research. Iâm also wary of painting a picture of âfandomâ as anything more than a lot of weasels in a trenchcoat, because that word means a lot of things to a lot of different people, some of whom hate each other. But as long as everybody understands that this is the ethnographical equivalent of drunkenly throwing darts at a copy of the AJS...sure.
[under a cut because itâs long and baseless, and also I had a lot of thoughts and feelings. Sorry.]
My basic premise is that fandom occupies âfanspace.â Fanspace is not solely online, since fanzines and conventions are fanspace too, but since the 90s it has become increasingly and primarily internet based. While some websites are designated fanspace (e.g., AO3, ff.net, stand-alone fansites) fanspace is not necessarily contiguous with a hosting site (e.g., there is fanspace on tumblr, but tumblr is not a fanspace). Fanspace is really just those urls, message boards, threads, blogs, accounts, etc. designated for fandom and/or where fannish activity takes place.
Its deeply-rooted internet presence has allowed fanspace and what I call âmeatspaceâ to operate on different rules. Meatspace has always informed fan spaces, of course---disclaimers on fic to ward off accusations of copyright infringement, for example, or asking readers to attest that theyâre over 13 before reading an R-rated fic. But traditionally, fandom has accepted as norm things that donât apply to meatspace: fake names and anonymous posts, pictures of someone elseâs characters, lengthy self-published stories featuring violence, explicit sex, sometimes even gay people. Fanspace is in many ways an artificial carve out from meatspace, where fewer of its rules apply; fanspace supplements these with its own norms.
The division between fanspace and meatspace is not and has never been a clear, settled line, however. Debates on how much meatspace should inform fan spaces have been raging for as long as Iâve been on the internet, and to be fair to meatspace, it has made good points. (Iâm not sure if âdonât be racist,â counts as a meatspace rule given...racism, but fandom frequently reacts to it like a meatspace intrusion so I think it should count.)
However, what used to be intra-fandom conversations have become increasingly more public, for a few reasons:
Part of this is just the natural development of the internet---itâs not like fanspace was ever hidden, but there just werenât as many people online, and stuff was harder to find in a pre-google, pre-algorithmic promotion world.
Part of it is the changing architecture of fanspace---websites shutting down, Strikethrough, and the tumblr porn ban have all, in their own ways, served to alter fanspace and move towards more and more public-facing sites.
But part of it---and this is the biggest factor, I think---is that over the last two decades, weâve seen content-producers** increasingly willing to engage with fandom.Â
On its face, this sounds good! After all, fans like people who make things, people who make things want fans. What could possibly be wrong about both sides recognizing their mutualism?
I think this works when the most interaction you could expect with a creator was showing up a bookstore to ask Tamora Pierce a question, or writing fanmail to Paul Gross. But it falls apart when you consider just how public-facing fanspaces have become, and just how much interest content-producers have taken in cultivating the fannish audience. Content-producers engaging directly with fandom are a thumb on the scales of mutualism, and a heavy one. After all, one side of the relationship is a loosely collected anarchic cult, migrating along a series of websites they mostly donât control, making do with nothing but ongoing wank and general obsessive tendencies.Â
The other side has D*sney, Harper Collins, and Comcast.
That thumb on the scale has paid off, more than I think even the content-producers could have anticipated. Fandom is good at loving what it loves and talking loudly about it, but capitalism is way better at doing what it does---turning everything into profit. So now people pay $100 a pop to go to Harry Potter World. Conventions are well-produced extensions of their parent companies, raking in money and providing a blitz of publicity---directly to the source most likely to take your messaging and amplify it. Make a superhero movie and the minute the trailer drops you conjure up thousands of online fans will be your de facto, unpaid publicists---generating interest via fan art, fic, and controversy with minimal corporate effort. Of course fic writers who have established online presence are the darlings of the publishing world---what publisher wouldnât want a built-in hype machine for a new author?Â
And, just coincidentally, of course, fanspace and meatspace are drawn closer together, that line further blurred by this new and very, very interested third party.
Iâm not saying this is some big conspiracy. No tv exec is out there rubbing their hands together and cackling evilly about how theyâre going ruin fandom. But in exchange for meatspace validation and an endless stream of new content, I think fandom has ceded important ground. And I think itâs changing fanspaces, even now:
One of the founding rules of fanspace is that it does not generate money---you risk real copyright infringement that way. (This isnât to say that money hasnât been involved in a few massive fandom scandals, but itâs not typical.) Increasingly, however, the grumblings about getting paid for fan art and fic have gotten louder, probably due to meatspaceâs general emphasis on the side-hustle, and seeing content-producers churn out more and more fan-like things for a profit.
(It seems unimaginable now, but once upon a time the HP Lexicon was an invaluable resource, a rare unicorn in a pre-wikipedia age. Now, D*sney wouldnât even think of releasing a tentpole movie without a novelization, a picture dictionary, and a tie-in novel.)
Also, those calls for fan art that âmight be featuredâ by a content-producer are (rightfully) scorned for asking for work pro bono. But the takeaway seems to be âwe deserve to be paid for our fan art!â rather than âhow dare the content-producer intrude on our fanspace and its activities!â
Fanspaces have never expected or required legal ID, permitting anonymous or pseudonymous activity in order to protect individual privacy. And while thereâs still no expectation you link your legal ID with your online/fan ID, the norm has shifted---itâs no longer considered gauche to go by your legal ID, even necessary when turning mutuals and followers into an âaudience.â Weâre not anonymous fans, engaged in our mutual hobby anymore---some people are doing that, and others are potential content-creators.
Iâd argue that even purity wank if an example of this new blurring, classic âdonât like donât readâ arguments taking on new life now that meatspace is so nearby---we wouldnât want to offend the neighbors!
Even these things benefit the content-producers: the more fan-like stuff they churn out, the less fanspaces will create on their own; the more fanspaces that emphasize linking legal ID to online ID, the less people will be able to engage in fan activities privately; the more meatspace rules assert themselves on fanspaces, the less fanspace weâll have.
Now, maybe this is just...evolution. As I said before, there is a porous and shifting border between fanspace and meatspace. I remember angry threads about whether m/m fics should be rated higher than a het equivalent; I remember the tagging debates, the incredible resistance to accurately describing what happens in your fic. Maybe in a few years, my longing to return to a more separate fanspace will seem equally as embarrassing, incorrect, and unnecessary.Â
But right now, it feels more like an erosion---one fandom is about as willing or able to resist as the tide.
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**Â âContent makerâ is a term thatâs come to mean âanyone who makes somethingâ which is sheer nonsense. Thereâs a difference between publishers/television producers/movie studios and someone recording a podcast in their bathroom. Thereâs even a difference between D*sney, a vast undead creative monopoly animated by copyright protections, and someone like James Patterson, who uses a stable of ghostwriters to churn out âhisâ works. We shouldnât be scrutinizing all these things them the same way, itâs lazy, and intellectually dishonest.
#long post#long post for ts#........this is a whole honest to god essay what the hell#nonsense. malarky. ridiculousness and speculation.#guys I'm so sorry this is A Lot#(ps is it election terror driven towards sometime I can maybe describe without vomiting and panic attacks? I mean MAYBE)#either way here I am coming up with fun intricate theories as the world burns#transannecarson#celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge
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A lot of people have accused yjj of being racist, particarily in regards to one of their comics involving Joshua graham, and in general saying that they glorify colonization. I mainly understand the other things theyâve done, but the racism seems inexusable. A lot of people have also been saying that yjj and their followers have harassed people. I want to get both sides of the story on this, so basically Iâm asking what the deal with all this is?
Hi, anon. I'll provide my thoughts since you asked politely.
This post is quite long and can be considered an extension of my previous post on the matter.
Besides the infamous and self-admittedly ill-informed chancla comic, for which they've apologized, essentially all of the claims that Yesjejunus is racist stem from their depiction of the Dead Horses and Sorrows relative to their depiction of Joshua Graham and their original character Joan in their fanfic No Light (and to a lesser extent Learninâ the Blues), which is heavily grounded in the setting of Honest Hearts. I think it's unambiguous that the depiction of vaguely defined "tribals" in Honest Hearts, assembled through a mishmash of disparate signifiers and recycled stereotypes and named like Warrior Cats and completely helpless without Joshua Graham's guidance, is indeed thoroughly racist, even if it was intended to be more nuanced and came from a place of self-admitted ignorance on the part of the developers. What I struggle to understand is that the developers and writers of Honest Heartsâand of Fallout: New Vegas as a whole since the entire game is rife with such mishandled, insufficient depictions of "tribals" with no explicit inclusion at all of any specific Indigenous people or presenceâare given miles and miles more sympathy and leeway for their poor handling of these characters in the source material than a fanfic writer is for using the tools and setting that they were given by that source material, including the "lore" and naming conventions of the Dead Horses and Sorrows, to tell a story that means a lot to them personally, inspired by their own deepest fears and experiences with abuse, and ignited by their charismatic yet deeply and blatantly monstrous interpretation of Joshua Graham. Given that it uses the setting of Honest Hearts as a backdrop, there aren't any living characters in Honest Hearts who aren't "tribals" besides Joshua Graham and Daniel, and post-canon, Daniel wouldnât be there. When Yesjejunus is accused of sidelining the Native characters or relegating them to the background, it's because they're just not writing a fanfic about Follows-Chalk or Waking Cloud as main characters: they're writing a specifically intentioned story about the Courier and Joshua Graham, a story that for better or worse remains faithful to the source materialâs depiction of Joshua Grahamâs unilateral authority over the tribes in Zion, a baked-in element of Honest Hearts and a critical narrative component of No Light. To accuse Yesjejunus of being racist on this principle in and of itself would be like accusing me of being lesbophobic if I wrote a Dead Money-set fanfic with Father Elijah as the main character instead of Christine. If you want something that centers these other characters then you'd just have to read a different story, or write it yourself.
As a final note, I do think that Yesjejunus is a skilled writer. This thought exists simultaneously with the acknowledgement that like everyone else in fandom, they're writing as a hobby and do not have the oversight of an editor on the work that they produce personally and for free. It's not lost on them that there's things about their story that they could have handled differently or more sensitively, such as the oft-cited example of the death of the pregnant Dead Horse character in No Light, with more forethought or planning at the timeâeven if they were bound by the constraints of Honest Heart's own setting (such as the dearth of non-tribal characters who could have possibly been in the scene instead) while writing the story. Everyone is free to critique this aspect of the story as much as they are to critique any other aspect, or to be discomforted by the whole thing (given it's a very intentionally uncomfortable story throughout), but the suggestion of so many of these "callouts" that Yesjejunus must have been cackling maniacally about the plight of poor access to medical care among real Indigenous people is a suggestion made entirely in bad faith, and one that I simply don't care to entertain.
As for the point about harassing people: if anyone's only evidence of being "harassed" by a single, specific person is anonymous messages on tumblr dot com, then I don't believe the evidence. If people are accusing Yesjejunus' "supporters" or "associates" of harassing people, then if the accusation is that this harassment is occurring either on Yesjejunusâ behalf or otherwise with their approval, then it is also going to require more evidence than the mere existence of the mean anonymous messages themselves. This goes for the rumor that they have "spies" in fandom Discord servers or whatever, too, which is a rumor that I think has only manifested among its spreaders by either self-appointed individuals speaking on no one's behalf but their own, and by the metaphorical snake eating its own tail in paranoia. Yesjejunus, and I, and all of our mutual friends have been nothing but annoyed at best and horrified at worst by the efforts of some self-appointed individuals to "defend" them with such excess vitriol. Speaking plainly, we generally avoid literally any kind of anonymous or public interaction with anyone who's vocally opposed to us as a rule, specifically to avoid this kind of debacle, and when I say "we" and "us" I'm not referring to some sort of shadowy cabal of conspirators scheming to advance the nefarious YJJ agenda, but to a group of friends. I don't know how to explain to some people who question why we praise their work or share their art sometimes how normal friendships work online.
I also take severe umbrage with the validity of the breadth of these anonymous harassment accusations because of how patently fraudulent several other claims are. Yesjejunus has recently been accused of "grooming,â for example, an accusation only even worth considering if one temporarily forgets what grooming actually is and pretends that grooming is when someone older interacts in literally any capacity with someone younger. Some will say that theyâre not accusing them of grooming per se, or not of grooming by that name, but in any case, the meaning is that Yesjejunus has interacted with minors and this on its own is intended to scare and upset you. I have seen only two users actually named as "victims" of these âinteractions,â however, sas-afras and comrade-shrimp, but both users have publicly refuted this accusation because neither of them were minors when they first interacted with Yesjejunus. Frustratingly, though, these literal refutations from the literal so-called "victims" are either dismissed out of hand or muddied by hand-wringing mutterings of "well, I could have sworn they were actually minors, though" and "well they claim that they weren't actually groomed, but who really knows." The spreading and trust in completely anonymous accusations, combined with the total rejection of statements from the only people named in these accusations when their statements contradict the accusations, suggests to me that the existence of these actual interactions (and assuming these interactions occurred both intentionally and with Yesjejunusâ being fully aware of the other person being a minor) is not nearly as important as pushing the narrative that "Yesjejunus is a groomer" or âpreying on minorsâ onto the fandom, and ensuring that anyone who doesn't take this claim completely at face value appears complicit in something horrible. As for anyone who still feels "uncomfortable" at how sas-afras or comrade-shrimp or me or anyone who is very much an adult but just so happens to be younger than Yesjejunus could ever become endeared to them, I reiterate that sometimes I don't know how to explain to people how normal friendships work online.
I want to conclude by saying something that I've said many times before: you don't have to like Yesjejunus (or me, or everybody, or literally anyone else) and no one is holding a gun to your head to befriend them or read their work or look at their art. The block and filter and unfollow buttons are very conveniently located on your dashboard and are totally free to use. Everything I've written here is not intended as some argument as to why everyone on the planet needs to be following their blog and leaving kudos on Learnin' the Blues. Still, while I think everybody has the right to curate their own dashboard and remove the content that they don't want to see, I also think it's reasonable for me to not want my friend to get their name dragged through the mud by the exaggerated and misinformed claims of petty, grudge-bearing brigadiers and self-aggrandizing fandom security guards when they'd like to just dump funny shitposts about the Burned Man's chode in peace.
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Holy Hell: 3. Metanarrativity: Whoâs the Deleuze and whoâs the Guattari in your relationship? aka the analysis no one asked for.
In this ep, we delve into authorship, narrative, fandom and narrative meaning. And somehow, as always, bring it back to Cas and Misha Collins.
(Note: the reason I didnât talk about Billieâs authorship and library is because I completely forgot it existed until I watched season 13Â âAdvanced Thanatologyâ again, while waiting for this episode to upload. Iâll find a way to work her into later episodes tho!)
I had to upload it as a new podcast to Spotify so if you could just re-subscribe that would be great! Or listen to it at these other links.
Please listen to the bit at the beginning about monetisation and if you have any questions donât hesitate to message me here.
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Transcript under the cut!
Warnings: discussions of incest, date rape, rpf, war, 9/11, the bush administration, abuse, mental health, addiction, homelessness. Most of these are just one off comments, theyâre not full discussions.
Meta-Textuality: Whoâs the Deleuze and whoâs the Guattari in your relationship?
In the third episode of Season 6, âThe Third Man,â Balthazar says to Cas, âyou tore up the whole script and burned the pages.â That is the fundamental idea the writers of the first five seasons were trying to sell us: whatever grand plan the biblical God had cooking up is worth nothing in face of the love these men haveâfor each other and the world. Sam, Bobby, Cas and Dean will go to any lengths to protect one another and keep people safe. Whatâs real? Whatâs worth saving? People are real. Families are worth saving.Â
This show plugs free will as the most important thing a person, angel, demon or otherwise can have. The fact of the matter is that Dean was always going to fight against the status quo, Sam was always going to go his own way, and Bobby was always going to do his best for his boys. The only uncertainty in the entire narrative is Cas. He was never meant to rebel. He was never meant to fall from Heaven. He was supposed to fall in line, be a good soldier, and help bring on the apocalypse, but Cas was the first agent of free will in the showâs timeline. Sam followed Lucifer, Dean followed Michael, and John gave himself up for the sins of his children, at once both a God and Jesus figure. But Cas wasnât modelled off anyone else. He is original. There are definitely some parallels to Ruby, but I would argue those are largely unintentional. Cas broke the mold.Â
Thatâs to say nothing of the impact heâs had on the fanbase, and the show itself, which would not have reached 15 seasons and be able to end the way they wanted it to without Cas and Misha Collins. His back must be breaking from carrying the entire show.Â
But what the holy hell are we doing here today? Not just talking about Cas. Weâre talking about metanarrativity: as I define it, and for purposes of this episode, the story within a story, and the act of storytelling. Weâre going to go through a select few episodes which I think exemplify the best of what this show has to offer in terms of framing the narrative. Weâll talk about characters like Chuck and Becky and the baby dykes in season 10. And most importantly weâll talk about the audienceâs role, our role, in the reciprocal relationship of storytelling. After all, a tv show is nothing without the viewer.
I was in fact introduced to the concept of metanarrativity by Supernatural, so the fact that Iâm revisiting it six years after I finished my degree to talk about the show is one of lifeâs little jokes.
 Iâm brushing off my degree and bringing out the big guns (aka literary theorists) to examine this concept. This will be yet another piece of analysis that wouldâve gone well in my English Lit degree, but Iâll try not to make it dry as dog shit.Â
First off, Iâm going to argue that the relationship between the creators of Supernatural and the fans has always been a dialogue, albeit with a power imbalance. Throughout the series, even before explicitly metanarrative episodes like season 10 âFan Fictionâ and season 4 âthe monster at the end of this book,â the creators have always engaged in conversations with the fans through the show. This includes but is not limited to fan conventions, where the creators have actual, live conversations with the fans. Misha Collins admitted at a con that heâd read fanfiction of Cas while he was filming season 4, but itâs pretty clear even from the first season that the creators, at the very least Eric Kripke, were engaging with fans. The show aired around the same time as Twitter and Tumblr were created, both of which opened up new passageways for fans to interact with each other, and for Twitter and Facebook especially, new passageways for fans to interact with creators and celebrities.
But being the creators, they have ultimate control over what is written, filmed and aired, while we can only speculate and make our own transformative interpretations. But at least since s4, they have engaged in meta narrative construction that at once speaks to fans as well as expands the universe in fun and creative ways. My favourite episodes are the ones where we see the Winchesters through the lens of other characters, such as the season 3 episode âJus In Bello,â in which Sam and Dean are arrested by Victor Henriksen, and the season 7 episode âSlash Fictionâ in which Dean and Samâs dopplegangers rob banks and kill a bunch of people, loathe as I am to admit that season 7 had an effect on any part of me except my upchuck reflex. My second favourite episodes are the meta episodes, and for this episode of Holy Hell, weâll be discussing a few: The French Mistake, he Monster at the end of this book, the real ghostbusters, Fan Fiction, Metafiction, and Donât Call Me Shurley. Iâll also discuss Becky more broadly, because, like, of course Iâll be discussing Becky, she died for our sins.Â
Letâs take it back. The Monster At The End Of This Book â written by Julie Siege and Nancy Weiner and directed by Mike Rohl. Inarguably one of the better episodes in the first five seasons. Not only is Cas in it, looking so beautiful, but Sam gets something to do, thank god, and it introduces the character of Chuck, who becomes a source of comic relief over the next two seasons. The episode starts with Chuck Shurley, pen named Carver Edlund after my besties, having a vision while passed out drunk. He dreams of Sam and Dean larping as Feds and finding a series of books based on their lives that Chuck has written. They eventually track Chuck down, interrogate him, and realise that heâs a prophet of the lord, tasked with writing the Winchester Gospels. The B plot is Sam plotting to kill Lilith while Dean fails to get them out of the town to escape her. The C plot is Dean and Cas having a moment that strengthens their friendship and leads further into Casâs eventual disobedience for Dean. Like the movie Disobedience. Exactly like the movie Disobedience. Cas definitely spits in Deanâs mouth, itâs kinda gross to be honest. Maybe Iâm just not allo enough to appreciate art.Â
When Eric Kripke was showrunner of the first five seasons of Supernatural, he conceptualised the character of Chuck. Kripke as the author-god introduced the character of the author-prophet who would later become in Jeremy Carverâs showrun seasons the biblical God. Judith May Fathallah writes in âIâm A God: The Author and the Writing Fan in Supernaturalâ that Kripke writes himself both into and out of the text, ending his era with Chuck winking at the camera, saying, ânothing really ends,â and disappearing. Kripke stayed on as producer, continuing to write episodes through Sera Gambleâs era, and was even inserted in text in the season 6 episode âThe French Mistakeâ. So nothing really does end, not Kripkeâs grip on the show he created, not even the show itself, which fans have jokingly referred to as continuing into its 16th season. Except weâre not joking. It will die when all of us are dead, when there is no one left to remember it. According to W R Fisher, humans are homo narrans, natural storytellers. The Supernatural fandom is telling a fidelitous narrative, one which matches our own beliefs, values and experiences instead of that of canon. Instead of, at Fathallah says, âthe Greek tradition, that we should struggle to do the right thing simply because it is right, though we will suffer and be punished anyway,â the fans have created an ending for the characters that satisfies each and every one of our desires, because we each create our own endings. Itâs better because we get to share them with each other, in the tradition of campfire stories, each telling our own version and building upon the others. If thatâs not the epitome of mythmaking then I donât know. Itâs just great. Dean and Cas are married, Eileen and Sam are married, Jack is sometimes a baby who Claire and Kaia are forced to babysit, Jody and Donna are gonna get hitched soon. Itâs season 17, time for many weddings, and Kevin Tran is alive. Kripke, you have no control over this anymore, you crusty hag.Â
Chuck is introduced as someone with power, but not influence over the story, only how the story is told through the medium of the novels. Itâs basically a very badly written, non authorised biography, and Charlie reading literally every book and referencing things she should have no knowledge of is so damn creepy and funny. At first Chuck is surprised by his characters coming to life, despite having written it already, and when shown the intimidating array of weapons in Babyâs trunk he gets real scared. Which is the appropriate response for a skinny 5-foot-8 white guy in a bathrobe who writes terrible fantasy novels for a living.Â
As far as I can remember, this is the first explicitly metanarrative episode in the series, or at least the first one with in world consequences. It builds upon the lore of Christianity, angels, and God, while teasing whatâs to come. Chuck and Sam have a conversation about how the rest of the season is going to play out, and Sam comes away with the impression that heâll go down with the ship. They touch on Samâs addiction to demon blood, which Chuck admits he didnât write into the books, because in the world of supernatural, addiction should be demonised ha ha at every opportunity, except for Deanâs alcoholism which is cool and manly and should never be analysed as an unhealthy trauma coping mechanism.Â
Chuck is mostly impotent in the story of Sam and Dean, but his very presence presents an element of good luck that turns quickly into a force of antagonism in the series four finale, âLucifer Risingâ, when the archangel Raphael who defeats Lilith in this episode also kills Cas in the finale. Itâs Casâs quick thinking and Deanâs quick doing that resolve the episode and save them from Lilith, once again proving that free will is the greatest force in the universe. Cas is already tearing up pages and burning scripts. The fandom does the same, acting as gods of their own making in taking canon and transforming it into fan art. The fans arenât impotent like Chuck, but neither do we have sway over the story in the way that Cas and Dean do. Sam isnât interested in changing the story in the same wayâhe wants to kill Lilith and save the world, but in doing so continues the story in the way it was always supposed to go, the way the angels and the demons and even God wanted him to.Â
Neither of them are author-gods in the way that God is. We find out later that Chuck is in fact the real biblical god, and he engineers everything. The one thing he doesnât engineer, however, is Castiel, and Iâll get to that in a minute.
The Real Ghostbusters
Season 5âs âThe real ghostbusters,â written by Nancy Weiner and Erik Kripke, and directed by James L Conway, situates the Winchesters at a fan convention for the Supernatural books. While there, they are confronted by a slew of fans cosplaying as Sam, Dean, Bobby, the scarecrow, Azazel, and more. They happen to stumble upon a case, in the midst of the game where the fans pretend to be on a case, and with the help of two fans cosplaying as Sam and Dean, they put to rest a group of homicidal ghost children and save the day. Chuck as the special guest of the con has a hero moment that spurs Becky on to return his affections. And at the end, we learn that the Colt, which theyâve been hunting down to kill the devil, was given to a demon named Crowley. Itâs a fun episode, but ultimately skippable. This episode isnât so much metanarrative as it is metatextualâmetatextual meaning more than one layer of text but not necessarily about the storytelling in those textsâbut letâs take a look at it anyway.
The metanarrative element of a show about a series of books about the brothers the show is based on is dope and expands upon what we saw in âthe monster at the end of this bookâ. But the episode tells a tale about about the show itself, and the fandom that surrounds it.Â
Where âThe Monster At The End Of This Bookâ and the season 5 premiere âSympathy For The Devilâ poked at the coiled snake of fans and the concept of fandom, âthe real ghostbustersâ drags them into the harsh light of an enclosure and antagonises them in front of an audience. The metanarrative element revolves around not only the books themselves, but the stories concocted within the episode: namely Barnes and Demian the cosplayers and the story of the ghosts. The Winchester brothersâs history that weâve seen throughout the first five seasons of the show is bared in a tongue in cheek way: while we cried with them when Sam and Dean fought with John, now the story is thrown out in such a way as to mock both the story and the fansâ relationship to it. Let me tell you, there is a lot to be made fun of on this show, but the fansâ relationship to the story of Sam, Dean and everyone they encounter along the way isnât part of it. I donât mean to be like, wow you canât make fun of us ever because weâre special little snowflakes and we take everything so seriously, because you are welcome to make fun of us, but when the creators do it, I canât help but notice a hint of malice. And I think thatâs understandable in a way. Like The relationship between creator and fan is both layered and symbiotic. While Kripke and co no doubt owe the showâs popularity to the fans, especially as the fandom has grown and evolved over time, weâre not exactly free of sin. And donât get me wrong, no fandom is. But the bad apples always seem to outweigh the good ones, and bad experiences can stick with us long past their due.
However, portraying us as losers with no lives who get too obsessed with this show â well, you know, actually, maybe theyâre right. I am a loser with no life and I am too obsessed with this show. So maybe they have a point. But theyâre so harsh about it. From wincestie Becky who they paint as a desperate shrew to these cosplayers who threaten Deanâs very perception of himself, weâre not painted in a very good light.Â
Dean says to Demian and Barnes, âIt must be nice to get out of your momâs basement.â Heâs judging them for deriving pleasure from dressing up and pretending to be someone else for a night. He doesnât seem to get the irony that he does that for a living. As the seasons wore on, the creators made sure to include episodes where Deanâs inner geek could run rampant, often in the form of dressing up like a cowboy, such as season six âFrontierlandâ and season 13 âTombstoneâ. I had to take a break from writing this to laugh for five minutes because Dean is so funny. Heâs a car gay but he only likes one car. He doesnât follow sports. His echolalia causes him to blurt out lines from his favourite movies. Heâs a posse magnet. And he loves cosplay. But he will continually degrade and insult anyone who expresses interest in role play, fandom, or interests in general. Maybe thatâs why Sam is such a boring person, because Dean as his mother didnât allow him to have any interests outside of hunting. And when Sam does express interests, Dean insults him too. What a dick. Heâs my soulmate, but I am not going to stop listening to hair metal for him. Thatâs where I draw the line.Â
 Where âthe monster at the end of this bookâ is concerned with narrative and authorship, âthe real ghostbustersâ is concerned with fandom and fan reactions to the show. Itâs not really the best example to talk about in an episode about metanarrativity, but I wanted to include it anyway. It veers from talk of narrative by focusing on the people in the periphery of the narrativeâthe fans and the author. In season 9 âMetafiction,â Metatron asks the question, who gives the story meaning? The text would have you believe itâs the characters. The angels think itâs God. The fandom think itâs us. The creators think itâs them. Perhaps we will never come to a consensus or even a satisfactory answer to this question. Perhaps thatâs the point.
The ultimate takeaway from this episode is that ordinary people, the people Sam and Dean save, the people they save the world for, the people they die for again and again, are what give their story meaning. Chuck defeats a ghost and saves the people in the conference room from being murdered. Demian and Barnes, donât ask me which is which, burn the bodies of the ghost children and lay their spirits to rest. The text says that ordinary, every day people can rise to the challenge of becoming extraordinary. Itâs not a bad note to end on, by any means. And then we find out that Demian and Barnes are a couple, which of course Dean is surprised at, because he lacks object permanence.Â
This is no doubt influenced by how a good portion of the transformative fandom are queer, and also a nod to the wincesties and RPF writers like Becky who continue to bottom feed off the wrong message of this show. But then, the creators encourage that sort of thing, so who are the real clowns here? Everyone. Everyone involved with this show in any way is a clown, except for the crew, who were able to feed their families for more than a decade.Â
Okay side note⌠over the past year or so Iâve been in process of realising that even in fandom queers are in the minority. I know the statistic is that 10% of the world population is queer, but that doesnât seem right to me? Maybe because 4/5 closest friends are queer and I hang around queers online, but I also think I lack object permanence when it comes to straight people. Like I just do not interact with straight people on a regular basis outside of my best friend and parents and school. So when I hear that someone in fandom is straight Iâm like, what the fuck⌠can you keep that to yourself please? Like if I saw Misha Collins coming out as straight I would be like, I didnât ask and you didnât have to tell. Okay Iâm mostly joking, but I do forget straight people exist. Mostly I donât think about whether people are gay or trans or cis or straight unless theyâve explicitly said it and then yes it does colour my perception of them, because of course it would. If theyâre part of the queer community, theyâre my people. And if theyâre straight and cis, then they could very well pose a threat to me and my wellbeing. But I never ask people because itâs not my business to ask. If they feel comfortable enough to tell me, thatâs awesome. I think Dean feels the same way. Towards the later seasons at least, he has a good reaction when itâs revealed that someone is queer, even if it is mostly played off as a joke. Itâs just that he doesnât have a frame of reference in his own life to having a gay relationship, either his or someone heâs close to. He says to Cesar and Jesse in season 11 âThe Crittersâ that they fight like brothers, because thatâs the only way he knows how to conceptualise it. He doesnât have a way to categorise his and Casâs relationship, which is in many ways, long before season 15 âDespair,â harking back even to the parallels between Ruby and Cas in season 3 and 4, a romantic one, aside from that Cas is like a brother to him. Because heâs never had anyone in his life care for him the way Cas does that wasnât Sam and Bobby, and he doesnât recognise the romantic element of their relationship until literally Cas says it to him in the third last episode, he justâdoesnât know what his and Casâs relationship is. He just really doesnât know. And he grew up with a father who despised him for taking the mom and wife role in their family, the role that John placed him in, for being subservient to Johnâs wishes where Sam was more rebellious, so of course he wouldnât understand either his own desires or those of anyone around him who isnât explicitly shoving their tits in his face. He moulded his entire personality around what he thought John wanted of him, and John says to him explicitly in season 14 âLebanonâ, âI thought youâd have a family,â meaning, like him, wife and two rugrats. And then, dear god, Dean says, thinking of Sam, Cas, Jack, Claire, and Mary, âI have a family.â God that hurts so much. But since for most of his life he hasnât been himself, heâs been the man he thought his father wanted him to be, heâs never been able to examine his own desires, wants and goals. So even though heâs really good at reading people, he is not good at reading other peopleâs desires unless they have nefarious intentions. Because he doesnât recognise what he feels is attraction to men, he doesnât recognise that in anyone else.Â
Okay thatâs completely off topic, wow. Getting back to metanarrativity in âThe Real Ghostbusters,â Iâll just cap it off by saying that the books in this episode are more a frame for the events than the events themselves. However, there are some good outtakes where Chuck answers some questions, and Iâm not sure how much of that is scripted and how much is Rob Benedict just going for it, but it lends another element to the idea of Kripke as author-god. The idea of a fan convention is really cool, because at this point Supernatural conventions had been running for about 4 years, since 2006. Itâs definitely a tribute to the fans, but also to their own self importance. So itâs a mixed bag, considering there were plenty of elements in there that show the good side of fandom and fans, but ultimately the Winchesters want nothing to do with it, consider it weird, and threaten Chuck when he says heâll start releasing books again, which as far as they know is his only source of income. But itâs a fun episode and Dean is a grouchy bitch, so who the holy hell cares?
Season 10 episode âfanfictionâ written by my close personal friend Robbie Thompson and directed by Phil Sgriccia is one of the funniest episodes this show has ever done. Not only is it full of metatextual and metanarrative jokes, the entire premise revolves around fanservice, but in like a fun and interesting way, not fanservice like killing the band Kansas so that Dean can listen to âCarry On My Wayward Sonâ in heaven twice. Twice. One version after another. Like I would watch this musical seven times in theatre, I would buy the soundtrack, I would listen to it on repeat and make all my friends listen to it when they attend my online Jitsi birthday party. This musical is my Hamilton. Top ten episodes of this show for sure. The only way it could be better is if Cas was there. And he deserved to be there. He deserved to watch little dyke Castiel make out with her girlfriend with her cute little wings, after which he and Dean share uncomfortable eye contact. Dean himself is forever coming to terms with the fact that gay people exist, but Cas should get every opportunity he can to hear that itâs super cool and great and awesome to be queer. But really he should be in every episode, all of them, all 300 plus episodes including the ones before angels were introduced. Iâm going to commission the guy who edits Paddington into every movie to superimpose Cas standing on the highway into every episode at least once.
âFan Fictionâ starts with a tv script and the words âSupernatural pilot created by Eric Kripkeâ. This Immediately sets up the idea that itâs toying with narrative. Blah blah blah, some people go missing, they stumble into a scene from their worst nightmares: the school is putting on a musical production of a show inspired by the Supernatural books. Itâs a comedy of errors. When people continue to go missing, Sam and Dean have to convince the girls that something supernatural is happening, while retaining their dignity and respect. They reveal that they are the real Sam and Dean, and Dean gives the director Marie a summary of their lives over the last five seasons, but they arenât taken seriously. Because, like, of course they arenât. Even when the girls realise that something supernatural is happening, they donât actually believe that the musical theyâve made and the series of books theyâre basing it on are real. Despite how Sam and Dean Winchester were literal fugitives for many years at many different times, and this was on the news, and they were wanted by the FBI, despite how they pretend to be FBI, and no one mentions it??? Did any of the staffwriters do the required reading or just do what I used to do for my 40 plus page readings of Baudrillard and just skim the first sentence of every paragraph? Neat hack for you: paragraphs are set up in a logical order of Topic, Example, Elaboration, Linking sentence. Do you have to read 60 pages of some crusty French dude waxing poetic about how his best friend Pierre wants to shag his wife and making that your problem? Read the first and last sentence of every paragraph. Boom, done. Just cut your work in half.Â
The musical highlights a lot of the important moments of the show so far. The brothers have, as Charlie Bradbury says, their âbroment,â and as Marie says, their âboy melodrama scene,â while she insinuates that there is a sexual element to their relationship. This show never passed up an opportunity to mention incest. Itâs like: mentioning incest 5000 km, not being disgusting 1 km, what a hard decision. Actually, they do have to walk on their knees for 100 miles through the desert repenting. But there are other momentsâsuch as Mary burning on the ceiling, a classic, Castiel waiting for Dean at the side of the highway, and Azazel poisoning Sam. With the help of the high schoolers, Sam and Dean overcome Calliope, the muse and bad guy of the episode, and save the day. What began as their lives reinterpreted and told back to them turns into a story they have some agency over.
In this episode, as opposed to âThe Monster At The End Of This Book,â The storytelling has transferred from an alcoholic in a bathrobe into the hands of an overbearing and overachieving teenage girl, and honestly why not. Transformative fiction is by and large run by women, and queer women, so Marie and her stage manager slash Jody Millsâs understudy Maeve are just following in the footsteps of legends. This kind of really succinctly summarises the difference between curative fandom and transformative fandom, the former of which is populated mostly by men, and the latter mostly by women. As defined by LordByronic in 2015, Curative fandom is more like enjoying the text, collecting the merchandise, organising the knowledge â basically Reddit in terms of fandom curation. Transformative fandom is transforming the source text in some way â making fanart, fanfic, mvs, or a musical â basically Tumblr in general, and Archive of our own specifically. Like what do non fandom people even do on Tumblr? It is a complete mystery to me. Whereas Chuck literally writes himself into the narrative he receives through visions, Marie and co have agency and control over the narrative by writing it themselves.Â
Chuck does appear in the episode towards the end, his first appearance after five seasons. The theory that he killed those lesbian theatre girls makes me wanna curl up and die, so I donât subscribe to it. Chuck watched the musical and he liked it and he gave unwarranted notes and then he left, the end.
The Supernatural creative team is explicitly acknowledging the fandomâs efforts by making this episode. Theyâre writing us in again, with more obsessive fans, but with lethbians this time, which makes it infinitely better. And instead of showing us as potential date rapists, weâre just cool chicks who like to make art. And thatâs fucken awesome.Â
I just have to note that the characters literally say the word Destiel after Dean sees the actors playing Dean and Cas making out. He storms off and tells Sam to shut the fuck up when Sam makes fun of him, because Deanâs sexuality is NOT threatened he just needs to assert his dominance as a straight hetero man who has NEVER looked at another manâs lips and licked his own. He just⌠forgets that gay people exist until someone reminds him. BUT THEN, after a rousing speech that is stolen from Rent or Wicked or something, he echoes Marieâs words back, saying âput as much sub into that text as you possibly can.â What does Dean know about subbing, I wonder. Okay Iâm suddenly reminded that he did literally go to a kink bar and get hit on by a leather daddy. Oh Dean, the experiences you have as a broad-shouldered, pixie-faced man with cowboy legs. You were born for this role.
Metatron is my favourite villain. As one tumblr user pointed out, he is an evil English literature major, which is just a normal English literature major. The season nine episode âMeta Fictionâ written by my main man robbie thompson and directed by thomas j wright, happens within a curious season. Castiel, once again, becomes the leader of a portion of the heavenly host to take down Metatron, and Dean is affected by the Mark Of Cain. Sam was recently possessed by Gadreel, who killed Kevin in Samâs body and then decided to run off with Metatron. Metatron himself is recruiting angels to join him, in the hopes that he can become the new God. Itâs the first introduction of Hannah, who encourages Cas to recruit angels himself to take on Metatron. Also, we get to see Gabriel again, who is always a delight.Â
This episode is a lot of fun. Metatron poses questions like, who tells a story and who is the most important person in the telling? Is it the writer? The audience? He starts off staring over his typewriter to address the camera, like a pompous dickhead. No longer content with consuming stories, heâs started to write his own. And they are hubristic ones about becoming God, a better god than Chuck ever was, but to do it he needs to kill a bunch of people and blame it on Cas. So really, heâs actually exactly like Chuck who blamed everything on Lucifer.Â
But I think the most apt analogy we can use for this in terms of who is the creator is to think of Metatron as a fanfiction writer. He consumes the mediaâthe Winchester Gospelsâand starts to write his own version of eventsâleading an army to become God and kill Cas. Nevermind that no one has been able to kill Cas in a way that matters or a way that sticks. Which is canon, and what Metatron is trying to do isâwell not fanon because it actually does impact the Winchestersâ storyline. It would be like if one of the writers of Supernatural began writing Supernatural fanfiction before they got a job on the show. Which as my generation and the generations coming after me get more comfortable with fanfiction and fandom, is going to be the case for a lot of shows. I think itâs already the case for Riverdale. Correct me if Iâm wrong, but didnât the woman who wrote the bi Dean essay go to work on Riverdale? Or something? I dunno, I have the post saved in my tumblr likes but that is quagmire of epic proportions that I will easily get lost in if I try to find it.Â
Okay let me flex my literary degree. As Englund and Leach say in âEthnography and the metanarratives of modernity,â âThe influential âliterary turn,â in which the problems of ethnography were seen as largely textual and their solutions as lying in experimental writing seems to have lost its impetus.â This can be taken to mean, in the context of Supernatural, that while Metatronâs writings seek to forge a new path in history, forgoing fate for a new kind of divine intervention, the problem with Metatron is that heâs too caught up in the textual, too caught up in the writing, to be effectual. And this as we see throughout seasons 9, 10 and 11, has no lasting effect. Cas gets his grace back, Dean survives, and Metatron becomes a powerless human. In this case, the impetus is his grace, which he loses when Cas cuts it out of him, a mirror to Metatron cutting out Casâs grace.Â
However, I realise that the concept of ethnography in Supernatural is a flawed one, ethnography being the observation of another culture: a lot of the angels observe humanity and seem to fit in. However, Cas has to slowly acclimatise to the Winchesters as they tame him, but he never quite fit inâmissing cues, not understanding jokes or Deanâs personal space, the scene where he says, âWe have a guinea pig? Where?â Show him the guinea pig Sam!!! He wants to see it!!! At most he passes as a human with autism. Cas doesnât really observe humanityâhe observes nature, as seen in season 7 âreading is fundamentalâ and âsurvival of the fittestâ. Even the human acts he talks about in season 6 âthe man who would be kingâ are from hundreds or thousands of years ago. He certainly doesnât observe popular culture, which puts him at odds with Dean, who is made up of 90 per cent pop culture references and 10 per cent flannel. Metatron doesnât seek to blend in with humanity so much as control it, which actually is the most apt example of ethnography for white people in the lastâyou know, forever. But of course the writers didnât seek to make this analogy. It is purely by chance, and maybe Iâm the only person insane enough to realise it. But probably not. There are a lot of cookies much smarter than me in the Supernatural fandom and theyâve like me have grown up and gone to university and gotten real jobs in the real world and real haircuts. Iâm probably the only person to apply Englund and Leach to it though.
And yes, as I read this paper I did need to have one tab open on Google, with the word âdefineâ in the search bar.Â
Metatron has a few lines in this that I really like. He says:Â
âThe universe is made up of stories, not atoms.â
âYouâre going to have to follow my script.â
âIâm an entity of my word.â
Itâs really obvious, but theyâre pushing the idea that Metatron has become an agent of authorship instead of just a consumer of media. He even throws a Supernatural book into his fire â a symbolic act of burning the script and flipping the writer off, much like Cas did to God and the angels in season 5. Heâs not a Kripke figure so much as maybe a Gamble, Carver or Dabb figure, in that he usurps Chuck and becomes the author-god. This would be extremely postmodern of him if he didnât just do exactly what Chuck was doing, except worse somehow. In fact, itâs postmodern of Cas to reject heavenâs narrative and fall for Dean. As one tumblr user points out, Cas really said âWhatâs fate compared to Dean Winchester?â
Okay this transcript is almost 8000 words already, and I still have two more episodes to review, and more things to say, so Iâll leave you with this. Metatron says to Cas, âOut of all of Godâs wind up toys, youâre the only one with any spunk.â Why Cas has captured his attention comes down more than anything to a process of elimination. Most angels fucking suck. They follow the rules of whoever puts themselves in charge, and they either love Cas or hate him, or just plainly wanna fuck him, and there have been few angels who stood out. Balthazar was awesome, even though I hated him the first time I watched season 6. He UNSUNK the Titanic. Legend status. And Gabriel was of course the OG who loves to fuck shit up. But theyâre gone at this stage in the narrative, and Cas survives. Cas always survives. He does have spunk. And everyone wants to fuck him. Â
Season 11 episode 20 âDonât Call Me Shurley,â the last episode written by the Christ like figure of Robbie Thompson â are we sensing a theme here? â and directed by my divine enemy Robert Singer, starts with Metatron dumpster diving for food. Iâm not even going to bother commenting on this because like⌠itâs supernatural and it treats complex issues like homelessness and poverty with zero nuance. Like the Winchesters live in poverty but itâs fun and cool because they always scrape by but Metatron lives in poverty and itâs funny. Cas was homeless and it was hard but he needed to do it to atone for his sins, and Metatron is homeless and itâs funny because he brought it on himself by being a murderous dick. Fucking hell. Robbie, come on. The plot focuses on God, also known as Chuck Shurley, making himself known to Metatron and asking for Metatronâs opinion on his memoir. Meanwhile, the Winchesters battle another bout of infectious serial killer fog sent by Amara. At the end of the episode, Chuck heals everyone affected by the fog and reveals himself to Sam and Dean.Â
Chuck says that he didnât foresee Metatron trying to become god, but the idea of Season 15 is that Chuck has been writing the Winchestersâ story all their lives. When Metatron tries, he fails miserably, is locked up in prison, tortured by Dean, then rendered useless as a human and thrown into the world without a safety net. His authorship is reduced to nothing, and he is reduced to dumpster diving for food. He does actually attempt to live his life as someone who records tragedies as they happen and sells the footage to news stations, which is honestly hilarious and amazing and completely unsurprising because Metatron is, at the heart of it, an English Literature major. In true bastard style, he insults Chuckâs work and complains about the bar, but slips into his old role of editor when Chuck asks him to.Â
The theory Iâm consulting for this uses the term metanarrative in a different way than I am. They consider it an overarching narrative, a grand narrative like religion. Chuckâs biography is in a sense most loyal to Middleton and Walshâs view of metanarrative: âthe universal story of the world from arche to telos, a grand narrative encompassing world history from beginning to end.â Except instead of world history, itâs Godâs history, and since God is construed in Supernatural as just some guy with some powers who is as fallible as the next some guy with some powers, his story has biases and agendas. Okay so in the analysis Iâm getting Middleton and Walshâs quotes from, James K A Smithâs âA little story about metanarratives,â Smith dunks on them pretty bad, but for Supernatural purposes their words ring true. Think of them as the BuckLeming of Lyotardâs postmodern metanarrative analysis: a stopped clock right twice a day. Is anyone except me understanding the sequence of words Iâm saying right now. Do I just have the most specific case of brain worms ever found in human history. Iâm currently wearing my oversized Keith Haring shirt and dipping pretzels into peanut butter because itâs 3.18 in the morning and the homosexuals got to me. The total claims a comprehensive metanarrative of world history make do indeed, as Middleton and Walsh claim, lead to violence, stay with me here, because Chuckâs legacy is violence, and so is Metatronâs, and in trying to reject the metanarrative, Sam and Dean enact violence. Mostly Dean, because in season 15 he sacrifices his own son twice to defeat Chuck. But that means literally fighting violence with violence. Violence is, after all, all they know. Violence is the lens through which they interact with the world. If the writers wanted to do literally anything else, they could have continued Deanâs natural character progression into someone who eschews the violence that stems from intergeneration trauma â yes I will continue to use the phrase intergenerational trauma whenever I refer to Dean â and becomes a loving father and husband. Sam could eschew violence and start a monster rehabilitation centre with Eileen.
This episode of Holy Hell is me frantically grabbing at straws to make sense of a narrative that actively hates me and wants to kick me to death. But the violence Sam and Dean enact is not at a metanarrative level, because they are not author-gods of their own narrative. In season 15 âAtomic Monsters,â Becky points out that the ending of the Supernatural book series is bad because the brothers die, and then, in a shocking twist of fate, Dean does die, and the narrative is bad. The writers set themselves a goal post to kick through and instead just slammed their heat into the bars. They set up the dartboard and were like, letâs aim the darts at ourselves. Wouldnât that be fun. Season 15âs writing is so grossly incompetent that I believe every single conspiracy theory thatâs come out of the finale since November, because itâs so much more compelling than whatever the fuck happened on the road so far. Carry on? Why yes, I think I will carry on, carry on like a pork chop, screaming at the bars of my enclosure until I crack my voice open like an egg and spill out all my rage and frustration. The world will never know peace again. Itâs now 3.29 and Iâve written over 9000 words of this transcript. And Iâm not done.
Middleton and Walsh claim that metanarratives are merely social constructions masquerading as universal truths. Which is, exactly, Supernatural. The creators have constructed this elaborate web of narrative that they want to sell us as the be all and end all. They wonât let the actors discuss how they really feel about the finale. They wonât let Misha Collins talk about Destiel. They want us to believe it was good, actually, that Dean, a recovering alcoholic with a 30 year old infant son and a husband who loves him, deserved to die by getting NAILED, while Sam, who spent the last four seasons, the entirety of Andrew Dabbâs run as showrunner, excelling at creating a hunter network and romancing both the queen of hell and his deaf hunter girlfriend, should have lived a normie life with a normie faceless wife. Am I done? Not even close. I started this episode and Iâm going to finish it.
When we find out that Chuck is God in the episode of season 11, it turns everything we knew about Chuck on its head. We find out in Season 15 that Chuck has been writing the Winchestersâ story all along, that everything that happened to them is his doing. The one thing he couldnât control was Casâs choice to rebel. If we take him at his word, Cas is the only true force of free will in the entire universe, and more specifically, the love that Cas had for Dean which caused him to rebel and fall from heaven. â This theory has holes of course. Why would Lucifer torture Lilith into becoming the first demon if he didnât have free will? Did Chuck make him do that? And why? So that Chuck could be the hero and Lucifer the bad guy, like Lucifer claimed all along? Thatâs to say nothing of Adam and Eve, both characters the show introduced in different ways, one as an antagonist and the other as the narrative foil to Dean and Casâs romance. Thinking about it makes my head hurt, so Iâm just not gunna.Â
So Chuck was doing the writing all along. And as Becky claims in âAtomic Monsters,â itâs bad writing. The writers explicitly said, the ending Chuck wrote is bad because thereâs no Cas and everyone dies, and then they wrote an ending where there is no Cas and everyone dies. So talk about self-fulfilling prophecies. Talk about giant craters in the earth you could see from 800 kilometres away but you still fell into. Meanwhile fan writers have the opportunity to write a million different endings, all of which satisfy at least one person. The fandom is a hydra, prolific and unstoppable, and weâll keep rewriting the ending a million more times.
And all this is not even talking about the fact that Chuck is a man, Metatron is a man, Sam and Dean and Cas are men, and the writers and directors of the show are, by an overwhelming majority, men. Most of them are white, straight, cis men. Feminist scholarship has done a lot to unpack the damage done by paternalistic approaches to theory, sociology, ethnography, all the -ys, but I propose we go a step further with these men. Kill them. Metanarratively, of course. Amara, the Darkness, Godâs sister, had a chance to write her own story without Chuck, after killing everything in the universe, and I think she had the right idea. Knock it all down to build it from the ground up. Billie also had the opportunity to write a narrative, but her folly was, of course, putting any kind of faith in the Winchesters who are also grossly incompetent and often fail up. She is, as all author-gods on this show are, undone by Castiel. The only one with any spunk, the only one who exists outside of his own narrative confines, the only one the author-gods donât have any control over. The one who died for love, and in dying, gave life.Â
The French Mistake
Letâs change the channel. Letâs calm ourselves and cleanse our libras. Letâs commune with nature and chug some sage bongs.Â
âThe French Mistakeâ is a song from the Mel Brooks film Blazing Saddles. In the iconic second last scene of the film, as the cowboys fight amongst themselves, the camera pans back to reveal a studio lot and a door through which a chorus of gay dancersingers perform âthe French Mistakeâ. The lyrics go, âThrow out your hands, stick out your tush, hands on your hips, give âem a push. Youâll be surprised youâre doing the French Mistake.âÂ
Iâm not sure what went through the heads of the Supernatural creators when they came up with the season 6 episode, âThe French Mistake,â written by the love of my life Ben Edlund and directed by some guy Charles Beeson. Just reading the Wikipedia summary is so batshit incomprehensible. In short: Balthazar sends Sam and Dean to an alternate universe where they are the actors Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, who play Sam and Dean on the tv show Supernatural. I donât think this had ever been done in television history before. The first seven seasons of this show are certifiable. Like this was ten years ago. Think about the things that have happened in the last 10 slutty, slutty years. We have lived through atrocities and upheaval and the entire world stopping to mourn, but also we had twitter throughout that entire time, which makes it infinitely worse.
In this universe, Sam and Dean wear makeup, Cas is played by attractive crying man Misha Collins, and Genevieve Padalecki nee Cortese makes an appearance. Magic doesnât exist, Serge has good ideas, and the two leads have to act in order to get through the day. Sorry man I do not know how to pronounce your name.
Sidenote: I donât know if me being attracted aesthetically to Misha Collins is because heâs attractive, because this show has gaslighted me into thinking heâs attractive, or because Castielâs iconic entrance in 2008 hit my developing mind like a torpedo full of spaghetti and blew my fucking brains all over the place. Itâs one of lifeâs little mysteries and Godâs little gifts.
Letâs talk about therapy. More specifically, âAgency and purpose in narrative therapy: questioning the postmodern rejection of metanarrativeâ by Cameron Lee. In this paper, Lee outlines four key ideas as proposed by Freedman and Combs:
Realities are socially constructed
Realities are constituted through language
Realities are organised and maintained through narrative
And there are no essential truths.
Letâs break this down in the case of this episode. Realities are socially constructed: the reality of Sam and Dean arose from the Bush era. Do I even need to elaborate? From what I understand with my limited Australian perception, and being a child at the time, 9/11 really was a prominent shifting point in the last twenty years. As Americans describe it, sometimes jokingly, it was the last time they were really truly innocent. That means to me that until they saw the repercussions of their governmentâs actions in funding turf wars throughout the middle east for a good chunk of the 20th Century, they allowed themselves to be hindered by their own ignorance. The threat of terrorism ran rampant throughout the States, spurred on by right wing nationalists and gun-toting NRA supporters, so itâs really no surprise that the show Supernatural started with the premise of killing everything in sight and driving around with only your closest kin and a trunk full of guns. Kripke constructed that reality from the social-political climate of the time, and it has wrought untold horrors on the minds of lesbians who lived through the noughties, in that we are now attracted to Misha Collins.
Number two: Realities are constituted through language. Before a show can become a show, it needs to be a script. Itâs written down, typed up, and given to actors who say the lines out loud. In this respect, they are using the language of speech and words to convey meaning. But tv shows are not all about words, and theyâre barely about scripts. From what I understand of being raised by television, they are about action, visuals, imagery, and behaviours. All of the work that goes into themâthe scripts, the lighting, the audio, the sound mixing, the cameras, the extras, the ADs, the gaffing, the props, the stunts, everythingâis about conveying a story through the medium of images. In that way, images are the language. The reality of the show Supernatural, inside the show Supernatural, is constituted through words: the script, the journalists talking to Sam, the makeup artist taking off Deanâs makeup, the conversations between the creators, the tweets Misha sends. But also through imagery: the fish tank in Jensenâs trailer, the model poses on the front cover of the magazine, the opulence of Jaredâs house, Mishaâs iconic sweater. Words and images are the language that constitutes both of these realities. Okay for real, I feel like Iâve only seen this episode max three times, including when I watched it for research for this episode, but I remember so much about it.Â
Number three: realities are organised and maintained through narrative. In this universe of the French Mistake, their lives are structured around two narratives: the internal narrative of the show within the show, in which they are two actors on a tv set; and the episode narrative in which they need to keep the key safe and return to their own universe. This is made difficult by the revelation that magic doesnât work in this universe, however, they find a way. Before they can get back, though, an avenging angel by the name of Virgil guns down author-god Eric Kripke and tries to kill the Winchesters. However, they are saved by Balthazar and the freeze frame and brought back into their own world, the world of Supernatural the show, not Supernatural the show within the show within the nesting doll. And then that reality is done with, never to be revisited or even mentioned, but with an impact that has lasted longer than the second Bush administration.
And number four: there are no essential truths. This one is a bit tricky because I canât find what Lee means by essential truths, so Iâm just going to interpret that. To me, essential truths means what lies beneath the narratives we tell ourselves. Supernatural was a show that ran for 15 years. Supernatural had actors. Supernatural was showrun by four different writers. In the show within a show, there is nothing, because that ceases to exist for longer than the forty two minute episode âThe French Mistakeâ. And since Supernatural no longer exists except in our computers, it is nothing too. It is only the narratives we tell ourselves to sleep better at night, to wake up in the morning with a smile, to get through the day, to connect with other people, to understand ourselves better. Itâs not even the narrative that the showrunners told, because they have no agency over it as soon as it shows up on our screens. The essential truth of the show is lost in the translation from creating to consuming. Who gives the story meaning? The people watching it and the people creating it. We all do.Â
Lee says that humans are predisposed to construct narratives in order to make sense of the world. We see this in cultures from all over the world: from cave paintings to vases, from The Dreaming to Beowulf, humans have always constructed stories. The way you think about yourself is a story that youâve constructed. The way you interact with your loved ones and the furries you rightfully cyberbully on Twitter is influenced by the narratives you tell yourself about them. And these narratives are intricate, expansive, personalised, and can colour our perceptions completely, so that we turn into a different person when we interact with one person as opposed to another.Â
Whatever happened in season 6, most of which I want to forget, doesnât interest me in the way Iâm telling myself the writers intended. For me, the entirety of season 6 was based around the premise of Cas being in love with Dean, and the complete impotence of this love. He turns up when Dean calls, he agonises as he watches Dean rake leaves and live his apple pie life with Lisa, and Dean is the person he feels most horribly about betraying. He says, verbatim, to Sam, âDean and I do share a more profound bond.â And Balthazar says, âYouâre confusing me with the other angel, the one in the dirty trenchcoat whoâs in love with you.â He says this in season 6, and we couldnât do a fucken thing about it.Â
The song âThe French Mistakeâ shines a light on the hidden scene of gay men performing a gay narrative, in the midst of a scene about the manliest profession you can have: professional horse wrangler, poncho wearer, and rodeo meister, the cowboy. If this isnât a perfect encapsulation of the lovestory between Dean and Cas, which Ben Edlund has been championing from day fucking one of Misha Collins walking onto that set with his sex hair and chapped lips, then I donât know what the fuck weâre even doing here. What in the hell else could it possibly mean. The layers to this. The intricacy. The agendas. The subtextual AND blatant queerness. The micro aggressions Crowley aimed at Car in âThe Man Who Would Be King,â another Bedlund special. Bed Edlund is a fucking genius. Bed Edlund is cool girl. Ben Edlund is the missing link. Bed Edlund IS wikileaks. Ben Edlund is a cool breeze on a humid summer day. Ben Edlund is the stop loading button on a browser tab. Ben Edlund is the perfect cross between Spotify and Apple Music, in which you can search for good playlists, but without having to be on Spotify. He can take my keys and fuck my wife. You best believe Iâm doing an entire episode of Holy Hell on Bedlundâs top five. He is the reason I want to get into staffwriting on a tv show. I saw season 4 episode âOn the head of a pinâ when my brain was still torpedoed spaghetti mush from the premiere, and it nestled its way deep into my exposed bones, so that when I finally recovered from that, I was a changed person. My god, this transcript is 11,000 words, and I havenât even finished the Becky section. Which is a good transition.
Oh, Becky. She is an incarnation of how the writers, or at least Kripke, view the fans. Watching season 5 âSympathy for the Devilâ live in 2009 was a whole fucking trip that I as a baby gay was not prepared for. Figuring out my sexuality was a journey that started with the Supernatural fandom and is in some aspects still raging against the dying of the light today. Add to that, this conception of the audience was this, like, personification of the librarian cellist from Juno, but also completely without boundaries, common sense, or shame. It made me wonder about my position in the narrative as a consumer consuming. Is that how Kripke saw me, specifically? Was I like Becky? Did my forays into DeanCasNatural on El Jay dot com make me a fucking loser whose only claim to fame is writing some nasty fanfiction that Iâve since deleted all traces of? Donât get me wrong, me and my unhinged Casgirl friends loved Becky. I canât remember if I ever wrote any fanfiction with her in it because I was mostly writing smut, which is extremely Becky coded of me, but I read some and my friends and I would always chat about her when she came up. She was great entertainment value before season 7. But in the eyes of the powers that be, Becky, like the fans themselves, are expendable. First they turned her into a desperate bride wannabe who drugs Sam so that heâll be with her, then Chuck waves his hand and she disappears. Weâre seeing now with regards to Destiel, Cas, and Misha Collins this erasure of them from the narrative. Becky says in season 15 âAtomic Monstersâ that the ending Chuck writes is bad because, for one, thereâs no Cas, and thatâs exactly whatâs happening to the text post-finale. It literally makes me insane akin to the throes of mania to think about the layers of this. They literally said, âNo Cas = badâ and now Misha isnât even allowed to talk in his Cassona voiceâat least at the time I wrote thatâto the detriment of the fans who care about him. Itâs the same shit over and over. They introduce something we like, they realise they have no control over how much we like it, and then they pretend they never introduced it in the first place. Season 7, my god. The only reason Gamble brought back Cas was because the ratings were tanking the show. I didnât even bother watching most of it live, and would just hear from my friends whether Cas was in the episodes or not. And then Sera, dear Sera, had the gall to say it was a Homerâs Odyssey narrative. Iâm rusty on Homer aka Iâve never read it but apparently Odysseus goes away, ends up with a wife on an island somewhere, and then comes back to Terabithia like it never happened. How convenient. But since Sera Gamble loves to bury her gays, we can all guess why Cas was written out of the show: Cas being gay is a threat to the toxic heteronormativity spouted by both the show and the characters themselves. In season 15, after Becky gets her life together, has kids, gets married, and starts a business, she is outgrowing the narrative and Chuck kills her. The fans got Destiel Wedding trending on Twitter, and now the creators are acting like he doesnât exist. New liver, same eagles.
I have to add an adendum: as of this morning, Sunday 11th, donât ask me what time that is in Americaland, Misha Collins did an online con/Q&A thing and answered a bunch of questions about Cas and Dean, which goes to show that he cannot be silenced. So the narrative wants to be told. Itâs continuing well into itâs 16th or 17th season. Itâs going to keep happening and they have no recourse to stop it. So fuck you, Supernatural.
I did write the start of a speech about representation but, who the holy hell cares. I also read some disappointing Masters theses that I hope didnât take them longer to research and write than this episode of a podcast Iâm making for funsies took me, considering itâs the same number of pages. Then again I have the last four months and another 8 years of fandom fuelling my obsession, and when I donât sleep I write, hence the 4,000 words I knocked out in the last 12 hours.Â
Some final words. Lyotard defines postmodernism, the age we live in, as an incredulity towards metanarratives. Modernism was obsessed with order and meaning, but postmodernism seeks to disrupt that. Modernists lived within the frame of the narrative of their society, but postmodernists seek to destroy the frame and live within our own self-written contexts. Okay I love postmodernist theory so this has been a real treat for me. Yoghurt, Sam? Postmodernist theory? Could I BE more gay?Â
Middleton and Walsh in their analysis of postmodernism claim that biblical faith is grounded in metanarrative, and explore how this intersects with an era that rejects metanarrative. This is one of the fundamental ideas Supernatural is getting at throughout definitely the last season, but other seasons as well. The narratives of Good vs Evil, Michael vs Lucifer, Dean vs Sam, were encoded into the overarching story of the show from season 1, and since then Sam and Dean have sought to break free of them. Sam broke free of Johnâs narrative, which was the hunting life, and revenge, and this moralistic machismo that they wrapped themselves up in. If theyâre killing the evil, then theyâre not the evil. Thatâs the story they told, and the impetus of the show that Sam was sucked back into. But this thread unravelled in later seasons when Dean became friends with Benny and the idea that all supernatural creatures are inherently evil unravelled as well. While they never completely broke free of Johnâs hold over them, welcoming Jack into their lives meant confronting a bias that had been ingrained in them since Dean was 4 years old and Sam 6 months. In the face of the question, âare all monsters monstrous?â the narrative loosens its control. Even by questioning it, it throws into doubt the overarching narrative of Johnâs plan, which is usurped at the end of season 2 when they kill Azazel by Deanâs demon deal and a new narrative unfolds. John as author-god is usurped by the actual God in season 4, who has his own narrative that controls the lives of Sam, Dean and Cas.Â
Okay like for real, I do actually think the metanarrativity in Supernatural is something that should be studied by someone other than me, unless you wanna pay me for it and then shit yeah. It is extremely cool to introduce a biographical narrative about the fictional narrative itâs in. Itâs cool that the characters are constantly calling this narrative into focus by fighting against it, struggling to break free from their textual confines to live a life outside of the external forces that control them. And the thing is? The really real, honest thing? They have. Sam, Dean and Cas have broken free of the narrative that Kripke, Carver, Gamble and Dabb wrote for them. The very fact that the textual confession of love that Cas has for Dean ushered in a resurgence of fans, fandom and activity that has kept the show trending for five months after it ended, is just phenomenal. People have pointed out that fans stopped caring about Game of Thrones as soon as it ended. Despite the hold they had over tv watchers everywhere, their cultural currency has been spent. The opposite is true for Supernatural. Despite how the finale of the show angered and confused people, it gains more momentum every day. More fanworks, more videos, more fics, more art, more ire, more merch is being generated by the fans still. The Supernatural subreddit, which was averaging a few posts a week by season 15, has been incensed by the finale. And yours truly happily traipsed back into the fandom snake pit after 8 years with a smile on my face and a skip in my step ready to pump that dopamine straight into my veins babeeeeeeyyyyy. Itâs been WILD. I recently reconnected with one of my mutuals from 2010 and itâs like nothingâs changed. Weâre both still unhinged and we both still simp for Supernatural. Even before season 15, I was obsessed with the podcast Ride Or Die, which I started listening to in late 2019, and Supernatural was always in the back of my mind. You just donât get over your first fandom. Actually, Danny Phantom was my first fandom, and I remember being 12 talking on Danny Phantom forums to people much too old to be the target audience of the show. So I guess that hasnât left me either. And the fondest memories I have of Supernatural is how the characters have usurped their creators to become mythic, long past the point they were supposed to die a quiet death. The myth weaving that the Supernatural fandom is doing right now is the legacy that will endure.Â
References
I got all of these for free from Google Scholar!Â
Judith May Fathallah, âIâm A God: The Author and the Writing Fan in Supernatural.âÂ
James K A Smith, âA Little Story About Metanarratives: Lyotard, Religion and Postmodernism Revisited.â 2001.
Cameron Lee, âAgency and Purpose in Narrative Therapy: Questioning the Postmodern Rejection of Metanarrative.â 2004.
Harri Englund and James Leach, âEthnography and the Meta Narratives of Modernity.â 2000.
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