#seeing people make fools of themselves is always so silly!!! ^u^

[femboy-valentine]

My freak ass deciding that the first DM I’ll answer in weeks is gonna be the one on my alt from the guy saying my posts was making him aggressive.

It’s entertaining :3c

[justenjoythegossip]

MEAN GIRLS, CONTROLLED OPPOSITION, “USEFUL FOOLS” & THE STREISAND EFFECT

There has been some controversy regarding my post about the Middle Voice and some misunderstandings that I feel I should clear. I never intended to cause any harm to anyone, that is why I never use mods’ name (not when I talk about Team Real or Team PR or the Middle Voice either) as my goal is never to attack an individual or a group of people. I just try to share my observations, to look past the picture that is being sold, question narratives, try to show the dynamics at hand and the responses that could result from it.  

Mean girls recognizing themselves…

Certain mods felt attacked by this article when I never had them in mind in the first place when I actually wrote it (which, I guess, is quite telling). But also, some rightfully recognized themselves, managed to gather around with their friends for a senseless blocking spree to boot me off the island. They have twisted my words, tried to discredit and ridicule them, which is a classic manipulation technique by the way. 

It has been fascinating to see that all that I wrote (and I wrote plenty) has been reduced to the very silly notion of… plants. And yet, the picture is so much more complex than that. And I have been very careful anytime I have written about Team Real/PR Blogs or the Middle voice to define those groups very specifically and with as much accuracy as I could. And as you probably noticed, I always use the expression “plants/trolls”. Why? Because, those groups encompass a wide range of different profiles. Plants are actually the small minority of the bunch while trolls represent the largest majority. But since trolls consist of so much more than trolling, I guess it is rather important to define who they are and what they do. 

Controlled opposition: a powerful strategy & a psychological weapon… 

* “Controlled opposition is any person or organization which appears to be on one side, but is secretly working against the interests of that movement… With controlled opposition, one organization can play both sides. Controlled opposition can also act as spies, feeding information back to opposition organizations, feeding disinformation to those they pretend to ally with, and deliberately instigating infighting to ensure activist work does not get done”. https://www.hegemonmedia.com/p/what-is-controlled-opposition

PR strategies tend to mirror the games we find in Politics, so we can often use the same concepts to explain what is going on. Lenin once famously said that: “The best way to control the opposition is to lead it ourselves”. Middle Voice mods, Team PR mods and even Team Real mods work according to those very same basic principles. Some might find it strange that I include Team Real blogs to the controlled opposition. And yet it makes a lot of sense because some key players from that faction of the fandom used to debunk the stunts Chris, Abba and their teams were “trying” to pull, and they also used to criticize Chris very vehemently, even calling him disgusting names such as groomer or pedophile. And yet, some of those mods made a very “(non)sensical” U-turn and started to ship the very controversial couple. Obviously it only appeared to be nonsensical, but the reality is very different. Those mods were meant to pave the way for the fandom to embrace them as a Hollywood power couple after initially rejecting them vigorously. If such extreme voices could come to “accept” them, then the casual fan might just do the same. A classic manipulation technique in PR games that include so many of it. 

Such tactics include plants (as discussed previously), who work directly for their teams and are meant to drive/sell certain narratives to the fandom. But what is particularly interesting is that you don’t need a whole bunch of them. You might only need one or a couple in each groups. That’s the beauty of it. The rest of those groups will consist of “useful fools”… 

By the way, important sidenote, some people (or groups of people) likely use different accounts to add more weight and credibility to what they are selling. Certain Team (Real/PR/Middle Voice) mods share such similar tones, voices and rhetoric that it seems quite suspicious. It might be coincidental of course. But again probably not. 

The “useful idiots” are very useful tools…

Plants are the original agitators and lead the way while trolls follow in their path. If we use the same concepts as earlier, they are the equivalent of the “useful idiots” in a controlled opposition. 

“A useful idiot or useful fool is a person perceived as propagandizing for a cause without fully comprehending the cause's goals, and who is cynically being used by the cause's leaders.”

So obviously you don’t need to be a paid plant to play the exact same role in those PR strategies. All you need is to be susceptible and respond to a certain narrative, not question it and then amplify it yourself. So anyone can be an unwilling “useful” idiot” without even being aware of it, that is what it so pernicious about it. 

And when it comes to trolls, they will respond to very specific narratives that involve any kinds of controversy or that will trigger heated discussion because they tend to crave the attention and the drama. 

The “Streisand effect” or how not to draw attention to an issue…

*”The Streisand effect is an unintended consequence of attempts to hide, remove, or censor information, where the effort instead backfires by increasing public awareness of the information. The effect is named for American singer and actress Barbra Streisand, whose attempt in 2003 to suppress a photographer's publication of a photograph drew far greater attention to the obscure photograph”.

From a PR perspective, it’s very often smart not to respond to a rumor (true or false) or to a controversy so that you don’t draw more attention to it. Especially since it can be quite dangerous, if your response to a PR crisis is deemed inadequate, it can have even more lasting damage. Mila Kunis and Ashton Kutcher’s recent apology is a good example of that. They didn’t grasp the severity of their situation and their frivolous response got them cancelled. Pure and simple.

It's true for Chris’ shitshow with this very problematic woman as well. No acknowledgement, no problem! But it’s also true for all these mods who made such a ridiculous (and stupid?) fuzz about being called out plants/trolls when they were never even mentioned by names. Good job on planting this seed inside the minds of their followers. Although I am sure some of them are very much aware of their tactics at this point. 

[2129888]

hii, I love love LOVE your art so much omg you are very talented, I adore the colors you use and the expressions - your art is so soft and literally gorgeous. also so cool to see you are an oofuri fan hehe , makes me want to get into oofuri again like HARDCORE>>> if you want to for fun, pls list three reasons to read oofuri or why u love it!!!! I was watching the series like 7 years ago or something, but it lies dormant in the back of my mind bc I know I need to revisit it . ur passion and art triggered this chain reaction!!! I have to see Them (the characters, broo damn they are so cute) anyway have a fabulous day and summer, hope you take care!

guh. wuh. hello... buuhuhuhuuuuuuu ← (me drowning in my own tears) omg thank u so much... you've really made me smile ear to ear from this!!!!! you are so kind 💖 honestly i feel like i've completed my life's purpose if oofuri made it back on your radar because of me LOL my evil agenda grows stronger 😈 it is such a fun and unique story with the sweetest funniest cast of characters ever and such heartfelt writing with a great mix of serious and lighthearted moments... it really is worth a read 100%!!!!! and ofc i would love to share propaganda i mean a few reasons it's my favorite forever hehehe <3

1) reason number 1 goes to the number 1 boy. him.

i love him so much <3 in the manga he's hilarious as always but also goes thru a lot of great character development that the anime only covers a fraction of!! but really all the characters in oofuri are endlessly endearing and interesting...it's so fun to read about their lives! i especially like when silly convos are had between them in the background that give us more insight on everyone's families, favorite things, hobbies, etc... the small things really matter in oofuri and it shows. everyone and everything has its place in the world... there is a great sense of interconnectedness that feels so natural in the story and makes it a joy to read. the mangaka shines showing us the magic in mediocrity; in little everyday things and routines. it's so touching... the world is full of so much life and laughter i love it so much!!!! (live laugh love oofuri)

in general i just love how kind oofuri is to its characters... ofc there's drama every now and then and i eat that up too BUT ☝️ i love how the narrative encourages understanding, communication, open mindedness, perseverance, a positive mindset... everyone has their struggles and goals throughout the plot, but no one is told they don't belong, or that they can't rise up to the occasion and go after what they really want. it creates really interesting scenarios too where you sometimes get a look into someone's innermost dreams/insecurities/fears and it's so relatable and sweet and human much of the time. it all ties back to how well the development of these characters is handled. it's just peak writing... oofuri makes u feel like it's all possible as long as u keep going. it's just so sincere i love it......

2) and the matches are so fun!!!!! once you learn a bit of the terminology they're pretty easy to follow too! a lot of the greatest moments in the series happen during matches. you get to see so many characters shine or make fools of themselves <- also good i laugh a lot. higuchi-sensei knows her stuff and creates such thrilling situations that have me losing my mind sometimes and whether my favs win or lose i'm always excited to see what comes next bc they always take it and DO something with it. nothing ever feels stale to me about their club trainings or school studies either... bc the characters are so interesting everything they do is a joy to read!!!

3) and ofc the art is so cute and scrunkly and has been a huge inspiration to me over the years!! she's great at capturing emotion on people's faces and i've always wanted to emulate that... also love when she draws them itty bitty or all just hanging out together it's the cutest thing eveeeeer 😭

i really just babbled forever and maybe in the end said nothing at all LOL but thank u so much again for sending this @angelaive 💖 i hope i've convinced u a little to give the manga a shot!!! please enjoy if u do!!! take care 💕

[garfinkelstingle]

i chose you | draco malfoy

pairing: draco malfoy x fem!reader (also mentioned past!theodore nott x reader, past!george weasley x reader and past!oc x reader)

warnings: none? at least i don’t think so lol. first time i didn’t use any swear words ha. kinda angst but with a very fluffly ending though!!

word count: 2.1k

summary: inspired by “pierre” by ryn weaver; reader has tried to find someone else to love, someone whom she wasn’t so afraid to lose, but in the end she always kept coming back to draco

a/n: hi!!!! yes!!!! so sorry i havent posted in literal ages but school is a pain and my bio exam is coming up and with all the stress i just havent been able to sit down and actually write :( but i got this idea last night and just had to put it down!!! not my best work but i’m happy with it nonetheless and hope u will be too <3 ALSO OMG WHAT I CANT BELIEVE THERES MORE THAN A HUNDRED PEOPLE FOLLOWING THIS BLOG AND READING MY STUFF ??? that is nothing if not absolutely wild

masterlist

She was currently in her seventh year, which meant that she had somehow managed to break the hearts of a total of three guys in the last three years. That had to be some kind of record.

The funny thing about all of this, though, was that through all of it her heart had remained untouched because the person it belonged to, who had every right to rip it into a million shreds, didn’t.

At first there had been Theodore Nott. It had made sense for the two of them to get together. They were both pureblood Slytherins, knowing each other from when they were children and would attend the same boring events their parents were adamant on throwing and dancing the night away in some hidden corner and laughing at the adults who got too drunk and started making fools of themselves.

It had been exactly the kind of relationship one was to except from two fifteen year old teenagers who had been friends since long before they even knew that there was such a thing as kissing with tongue: Messy and childish, with unnecessary fights breaking out all the time, her screaming at him to just give her space and let her breathe and him being jealous of the time she was spending with Draco Malfoy, time she should be spending with him, her boyfriend, instead.

Every time they fought they would ignore each other for a day or two and then just pretend like nothing happened, with him being just as clingy and her spending just as much time with Draco as she had before.

He had told her he loved her by Christmas and she had broken up with him less then three minutes later.

After that came George Weasley. Things were different with him. He was older than Theodore had been, and she was, too. She could see herself falling in love with him in another life, a life that didn’t have a certain platinum-haired boy in it.

She had wanted to try, had wanted to believe that maybe things could work out. For a while, they did. George made her happy, happier than anyone around her expected.

It was an odd match, truly, with him being goofy and sarcastic, trying to take life as lightly as possible and her being the embodiment of the Slytherin house, cold and hard and as closed off as one could be. But George tried with everything he could to make her laugh, told her the corniest jokes and used the cheesiest pick-up lines on her and for the first time in her life she had felt giddy. Being with him had brought out a side in her that nobody else had before, not even Draco, one where she would giggle when she found something funny, no matter how silly it was, and one where she would snort with laughter whenever her boyfriends twin made a remark about how he truly felt sorry that George had gotten all the ugly genes, not caring how embarrassing it might be.

She had prayed, every night, that she would wake up the next morning and be in love with him, the same way she had prayed that he would wake up and decide not to tell her he was. Because she knew he was, by the way his gaze lingered a little longer on her than usual, his eyes softening and mouth turning into a smile sweeter than honey. All she wanted was to slap that look off his face because she didn’t want this to end, not now, not ever, but she couldn’t lie to him, not like that, not when he didn’t deserve it, when all she wanted to do was love him. Maybe he knows, she thought. Maybe that’s why he hasn’t said it yet. Maybe he never will and we can just pretend forever and this happiness never has to end. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

But like expected, it didn’t last. She had cried that day harder than she ever had before. Not because her heart broke, because of course it didn’t. How could it when it was being held so tightly by someone else, someone who just wasn’t George? But seeing him hurt, watching his heart break, made her feel a sadness she never had before. A part of her had wanted for him to scream at her, to tell her that she was a terrible person and that he hated her, something, anything, to make her think that she had done the right thing, that she hadn’t just thrown away something good and right. Instead he smiled at her the saddest smile she had ever seen and pressed a kiss to her temple and told her “It’s alright” and Merlin did she hate him right now because why did he have to be so good?

She had vowed herself to stop at that, to not ever go through anything like that ever again and to never, ever, put anyone through that, either.

Then Pierre came and it’s like she had forgotten everything that had ever happened.

He was an exchange student from Durmstrang who was supposed to spend the first half of their seventh year with them and for some reason, she believed that he might be the one. Believed that Pierre, with his crooked nose and broken English, might be the one who might actually make her forget Draco, who might manage to take her icy little heart from him and melt it and make it his. A part of her believed that Pierre might actually be the very first person to break it and even though it should’ve, it didn’t scare her.

They had spent every waking moment together, aware that their time together would be short. He had told her that he loved her and held her tight when she told him that she couldn’t say it back, telling her that it was okay, that as long as she was by his side, he had everything he needed. It would’ve made so much sense had it been him.

He was funny and charming, rich and beautiful, kind and caring. And yet every time she looked at him she only noticed all the things that he wasn’t, compared to Draco.

And now here she was at the Astronomy Tower, thinking of no one else but the Slytherin boy, moments after breaking up with Pierre, someone who could’ve been it, someone who had to be it, because no matter how much she wanted it, he just never would be.

It had always been and always would be Draco.

Draco, who had been her closest friend from the moment the pair of them stepped on the Hogwarts Express for the very first time.

Draco, who had been her first kiss and first of everything else, who had taken up all the time before and after and in-between her boyfriends.

Draco, who has always been the person Y/N could run to whenever something or someone was bothering her, who would listen and give advice whenever he knew she needed some, who would rub soothing circles on her back and hold her while she cried.

Draco, who had told her he loved her and whom she loved back.

Draco, who had stayed by her side even after she had told him that she couldn’t be with him, not when it meant that she might lose him.

Draco, who was coming up the stairs now after hearing the news that Pierre, too, was nothing but history.

“It’s never going to work with any of them, you know?”

Of course she did. How could it possibly work when she was never fully in, when her heart would always and forever belong to someone else?

“It doesn’t hurt to try, does it?” she told him, turning her head to the side once he joined her at the railing, looking out at the beautiful night sky. He looked so exhausted and she couldn’t blame him, not when she knew that it was partially her fault. Maybe even mainly.

Exhaling, he carefully cupped her face with both hands, as if she was as delicate as porcelain and he was afraid that he might break her. “Every time I see you with someone, anyone, else, all I can think is how wrong it is because you should be with me. We both know that that’s where you belong, Y/N.” And he was right, really, truly, right.

He was the one and only person she belonged with, the only person she could ever imagine herself belonging with. Because at the end of the day, it didn’t matter how well she fitted with Theodore, or how happy George made her, or how perfect Pierre seemed to be.

None of them would ever be Draco. None of them would ever know the right thing to say when she was upset. None of them would ever know that her favourite Bertie Bott���s Every Flavour Bean was, in fact, mint, even though she insisted that it was watermelon, simply because the fresh taste reminded her of him, the way everything else always seemed to.

None of them would ever understand how there was not a single soul more important and valuable to her than Draco, who knew all of her deepest and darkest secrets and still chose to stay by her side, someone who was so irreplaceable that the mere thought of maybe, someday, somehow losing him was just not something she even dared to think of.

That had been the reason why she told him that she couldn’t be with him all those years ago. Not because she didn’t want to, but because she knew herself. She knew she was a screw-up, knew that she would eventually find a way to push him away, to make him see that he could do so much better than her. That had never been something she worried about with anyone else, because she knew that none of it mattered anyways. She could lose every single person around her without giving it a second thought because as long as she had Draco, everything would be alright.

But losing him? That’s not something she would ever be okay with.

Seemingly having read her mind, he lowered his head until their foreheads were touching, still softly cradling her face in his hands, the cool material of his rings on her cheeks sending a small shiver down her spine.

“You’re not going to lose me, Y/N. Not ever.” he reassured her, giving her a quick peck on the lips.

Tears began streaming down her face and she wasn’t even sure why. Was it because she was touched by his words? Or because she so desperately wanted them to be true but knew that they might not be, that that might not be a promise Draco could keep? Or maybe the fact that she broke up with her boyfriend finally caught up with her, even though she was highly suspicious of that being the case.

“You can’t know that for sure.” she whispered, grasping his wrists and holding on for dear life. “What if you realise that you have to? That you can’t stay?”

Wiping the tears off her face, he gave her a sad smile. “Do you know how much it hurt to watch you with them? All of them? Wishing that it would be me, knowing that it should be? I could have left, could have told you that it was too much, that I was done, but I knew, I always knew, that at the end of the day, eventually, you’d choose me because I chose you. I chose you that very first day on the train and I’ve been choosing you every day since.”

Wrapping her arms around his neck she pulled him in for a passionate kiss that was equal parts messy and hungry, the taste of her salty tears mixing with the fresh taste of the breath-mints that were almost as much a part of him as she was.

There would never be a day where she wouldn’t be terrified of losing him, but pulling away she looked him in the eyes and said the one thing she had heard far too many times by far too many people and never had the guts to say back.

“I love you, too.”

[leejeongz]

nsfw a-z JUNKYU (treasure)

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

lots of cuddles and stroking your skin. he wants to make you feel calmer than you did even before the scene, calm enough to fall asleep. he can sense when you’re back to being your usual self but the softness doesn’t stop.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

he has two favourites on his own body and on you! on him, it’s his lips and his legs. his legs because well it’s junkyu he has fabulous legs duh. and his lips because he constantly notices you staring at them. he bites them on purpose when he sees you staring at them and knows that you want to kiss them 24/7

on you, he likes your hair and your fingers the most. he likes the way your fingers wrap around his dick and how you tease the tip with your index finger, sending him straight to heaven. and he likes to stroke your hair. he knows it sends shivers down your spine when you’re already turned on.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

he definitely looks forward to seeing you covered in his cum. even if you let him cum inside you, he doesn’t because he wants to see it actually on your body. he lovessss watching it trickle down your fingers before you suck it off them and also clean the remaining liquid off his dick too. he also sometimes has you take selfies on his phone after he’s finished all over your face for a later date.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

when you sit by him in your short dresses and skirts, he wants to do nothing more than to slowly inch his hand up your inner thigh and finger you, making you leave a damp patch on the seat, but he’s nervous that other people in the room might notice.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

2 different partners, one of which was a long time girlfriend, the other a one night stand. he can be romantic, he can be distant, he knows it all. he’s still a little shy with saying things out loud, but that doesn’t affect his skill and will happily discuss things via text.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

ride him and he’ll be your whiney little bitch. don’t get me wrong, he’s still in charge, but the noises and the faces he pulls have you fooled for a second. he doesn’t have a preference, reverse cowgirl and cowgirl are even, both get him to cum quicker than any other position.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

he’s a silly guy, you think that’s gonna stop just because he’s got his dick out? he’s so loving, even if you are friends with benefits, he just wants to make you smile and to make you feel comfortable and safe, as well as making himself feel comfortable too. a tense atmosphere is only saved for those scenes where you are mad at each other.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

he’s always completely shaved. balls too :)

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

he’s a huge romantic and is solely focused on you. even if he’s desperate, he’s still gonna make it loving and share lots of intimate moments with you.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

he takes his time when it comes to masturbation. he wants to set the scene in his mind as takes a lot to actually turn him on when you aren’t there. he usually gets off at his desk to those pics he’s taken of you or to just his imagination. he gets caught by his members a lot, but he somehow convinces them he’s just working on a song.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

he loves when you call him sir or master, especially when you look at him all innocently. it lets him know that you know your place and that he has you wrapped around his little finger. call him one of these in a sfw context and that’s when you know you’re in for a good time.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

studio or at his desk in his room. although it not ideal for his job, the best sex usually happens when you’re distracting him from something you can tell that he’s stressed with. giving him head while he’s working or while he’s gaming usually gets him really turned on and as much as he’s saying that you guys can’t do anything at the time, you definitely can and will.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

pictures of you! it’s not secret that he has a folder of pictures of you that he uses to get off to. your selfie’s alone really turn him on, especially the ones where you have your fingers in your mouth. but of course there’s plenty of nudes and little teasers in there too. and those pics of your face covered in him cum of course.

lingerie!! boy loves seeing you in the sexiest pieces and sets, so much so that he doesn’t mind splashing the cash and buying you some as a “just because” gift. he’s very gentle (most of the time) and does not rip them because they’re stunning on you! but sometimes he gets carried away and tugs on them a little too much while pulling you towards him.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

no food play. it’s too messy and too much of a hassle after a scene when he’s super tired.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

my mind always goes to junkyu getting head under his desk while he’s producing a song, tell me that wouldn't be hot. i can imagine him to be quite whiney but he just lets you do your thing without telling you how to suck it. running the underneath of your tongue over the tip is for sure something that he CRAVES. if he asks he gets, but he just wants you to do it anyway without even being asked.

his oral skills aren’t anything special, they’re good enough, but he gets you so worked up beforehand that the slightest touch will make you cum. he loves to press little kisses against your inner thighs before actually getting to eating you out.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

most times, he wants it slow. he wants to drag out every last moment and make the most of everything and so he keeps the pace slow. he doesn’t wanna tire you or himself out, knowing that you’ll both crave more after the first round. but sometimes he’s a little desperate, there’s nothing slow about it when he’s like this.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

he’s not a fan at first, but you soon show him the wonders of quickies in a vacant room where you can get caught, and he’s craving them all the damn time. he becomes a quickie lover and sometimes all he needs is to be satisfied for a while.

honestly though, he wouldn’t choose them over somewhere comfortable like your bedroom and wonders why you’d rather do stuff quickly when you could just wait a few more hours and get ruined properly. if only he understood that sometimes, you just cannot wait, and that it’s all his fault.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

he gets excited at just the mere thought of experiments and venturing into a new world with you. the potential danger of literally anything out of the ordinary happening is something that really gets him going. he’s down to try anything once if you are, but he gets a little shy about discussing them.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

usually 2 rounds with a small break in the middle for water and such. he can last around 15 minutes per round inside of you and he’s pretty proud of himself for that lmao, especially since he’s receiving head for like 20 mins lol

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

he loves knowing that you use toys when he’s not around, it gets him horny to think about you holding a vibrator against your clit while you think about him. but i don’t think such toys would be welcome in the bedroom while he was there.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

angry/jealous sex, there is no teasing at all. he gets what he wants and that’s it, there’s nothing in it for you (or so he thinks). if you don’t cum that’s your problem because he’s given you ample opportunity.

normal, “everyday” sex, is full of teasing, especially when it comes to giving you oral/foreplay. there’s lots of kissing, lots of orgasm denial and LOTS of touches and kisses. pressing light kisses onto your clothed clit was his signature move, just one had you wanting to cum sometimes.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

he’s whiney as FUCK okay. he’s very loud,you can definitely hear him, maybe even some other people too hehe. sometimes he sends you voice notes of him moaning when he knows you’re horny and alone. he’s not really into dirty talk because he doesn’t want to say anything that will ruin the mood.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

he runs his hand through his hair A LOT while you two are being intimate, especially when your lips are wrapped around his length. usually his hair gets sweaty and also, he wants to see you, so you catch him brushing it out of his face a lot.

he’s definitely a tits man. he loves to hold them, sleep on them, suck on them, whatever you/he wants. he holds them while he fucks you because he knows it hurts, it’s a win win. they aren’t always sexual to him either, they’re just another part of you that he can admire (but he’s too shy to compliment you on them and also thinks it would be kinda weird if he did lol)

he. kisses. you. constantly. the kisses are often broken by the thrusts but he doesn’t care and he actually thinks it makes the whole thing more romantic.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

just over average length with a litter under average thickness. i think he’s a show-er too.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

honestly, not that high. he goes through spells of not wanting any to wanting it twice a day, but on the whole, it's not extraordinarily high nor low

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

he’s pretty tired, but he doesn’t want to fall asleep until you have or you’ve said it’s okay for him to sleep. he’s a little groggy so you usually make him go to sleep whenever, but it’s also really cute 🥺

[blu-joons]

DATING A⇴Z HEADCANON ⇴ Kim Hyojong

A ⇴ AFFECTION

Hyojong is incredibly soft around you, he loves to be able to cuddle up to you and often uses his affection to make sure that you feel loved as that’s his number one priority. His affection will always be close and meaningful with you.

B ⇴ BEFORE DATING

The two of you met when you were working at the studio that he was rehearsing at. You weren’t quite sure what it was about you both, but the two of you just instantly seemed to click. You spent the whole day chatting away to each other and getting to know each other, finding out about all the things that you had in common with each other.

C ⇴ CONFESSION

It didn’t take too long for Hyojong to confess to you, he enjoyed your company, and there was no way that he was going to risk losing you to someone else first. He confessed one evening when the two of you went out for a walk, he sat you down on a bench halfway through your walk, taking a tight hold of your hand as he tried his hardest to remain calm and tell you everything that he wanted to say to you.

D ⇴ DATES

Hyojong always made time for you, at least once a week the two of you would have a whole evening where you’d just be with each other, with your phones switched off. He knew he was busy a lot, so he’d make up for plenty of lost time with your dates. He would make sure that every date the two of you had was special and made sure that it was something you’d remember. He much preferred your dates to be quiet and relaxed then anything too overwhelming, his main focus was just being able to talk to you.

E ⇴ EXPERIENCE

He didn’t care what anyone thought about the fact that he was in a relationship, he wanted to put his own happiness first, regardless of what anyone else thought. He knew what he had to do in order to go about things in the right way, having learnt from previous experiences, but if anyone was to tell him no, then he’d definitely go ahead and do the complete opposite. He was his own person, he didn’t need his company to tell him what he could or couldn’t do, his career would always be important to him, but so was love.

F ⇴ FIGHTING

The two of you didn’t tend to fight often, but if you did, it would usually end in something pretty big. The two of you were stubborn, and firmly believed that you were right in any disagreement that the two of you had. It would usually take for one of your friends to nudge the two of you back together and encourage you to talk things through. As much as you hated to fight with each other, you both knew that arguments were natural in relationships and that no one expected to live your lives always on the best of terms. Eventually, the two of you would always talk things through and carry on like nothing ever happened.

G ⇴ GETTING TO KNOW HIS FAMILY

To begin with, Hyojong’s family were quite protective, it took a couple of visits for them to really warm to you. It certainly made you nervous for a while, but as you gradually began to feel that you were accepted as a part of his family, it definitely made life easier for you, and put you in a much happier position with Hyojong.

H ⇴ HOME

Hyojong didn’t want to rush your relationship, he wanted to work at a pace that was comfortable for you both, but as he began to work a lot more, he was keen to move you in after a few months so that he could spend more time with you. He didn’t want to wait for days to see you anymore, he wanted to see you when he got home instead.

I ⇴ “I LOVE YOU”

He was the first one to say, ‘I love you,’ when you surprised him at a concert. He hadn’t seen you for a couple of weeks because he was working so hard, so when you had the chance to head over and see him, you took it in an instance. He didn’t have time to think when he saw your face for the first time, he just found himself letting you know that he loved you.

J ⇴ JEALOUSY

Around other people is often when Hyojong will feel most insecure. He knows that others think of him as a bit of a unique character, so when someone else tries to compare themselves to him, he’ll often shrink back into his shell. Just the feeling of your hand holding onto him will usually be enough to convince him that he has no reason to get jealous, but for the rest of the night he’ll definitely be a bit off the ball until the two of you can finally leave and he can go back to being in a more comfortable environment.

K ⇴ KIDS

Starting a family was a huge deal to Hyojong, he wanted to complete that family dynamic whenever the time was right for the two of you. You knew at the start of your relationship that his career was the priority, but as your relationship became more serious, that focus tended to shift more to trying to find a balance of making his career work, but also looking towards a future with you, preferably with children too.

L ⇴ LAUGHTER

You loved the many quirks that Hyojong had, he was unique, which was what you loved the most about him. There was never a day when he didn’t make you laugh, even if he was busy at work, he’d send you a dodgy selfie or send you a silly joke that he knew would put the smile on his face. He didn’t care how much of a fool he looked around you, if it was enough to make you laugh, then it was good enough for him. You would never not find yourself smiling around him, you just couldn’t help but enjoy Hyojong’s company.

M ⇴ MISSING

Now that he was travelling alone, Hyojong was more desperate to have you with him than ever. He’d try and work his schedules around you too so that you could take along and he could show you a bit more of the world. If you weren’t there, touring and promoting would feel very lonely for Hyojong. Not having you by his side was hard for him, especially if time zones meant that he wouldn’t be able to call you every day or receive a text from you. Whenever he came home from tour, he didn’t let you go for a very long time, he knew he had a lot of time to make up for, and despite your protests, he’d refuse to let you go.

N ⇴ NICKNAMES

When you first started dating, Hyojong mentioned to you how he loved when you called him ‘jongie,’ so that was what stuck for you both. Any time he heard you say it, it was a guarantee that his cheeks would turn bright red.

O ⇴ OBSESSION

Hyojong is obsessed with your heart, he loves what a pure and kind person you are, it’s the exact type of person a personality like his needs.

P ⇴ PDA

Whilst he’s not over the top with his affection, Hyojong isn’t afraid to be affectionate with you in public. When he tells you that he doesn’t care what other people think, he means it, if he wants to show you off and hold you close to him, then he will. He never fusses or lets other people’s stares bother him.

Q ⇴ QUESTIONS

He’ll ask you a lot of questions, as he loves to strike up conversation with you. A lot of his questions are random, but that’s something that you’ve come to expect over the years, you never quite know what he’ll say.

R ⇴ RANDOM FACTS

Whenever he’s away on tour, Hyojong will carry a bracelet with him and wear it for his shows. It fits in well with the other bands around his wrist, but when you see it on his wrist, you know that he’s wearing it because of you. In interviews or segments, he’ll often fiddle with the bracelet to make a point of making sure that the camera focuses on it so you can see that he’s playing with the bracelet especially for you.

S ⇴ SEX

He’s incredibly soft when it comes to intimacy, he loves to make sure that you feel loved and special around him. Out of the two of you, he’ll tend to be the one that dominates a little more, he still likes to be the man and be the one to put in all the hard work, but if you mention to him that you want to switch, then he definitely won’t turn you down. Ultimately, all Hyojong ever wants is for you to be happy with him.

T ⇴ TEXTS

Texting is not something Hyojong is a fan of, if he wants to get in contact with you, he’ll usually call, just so he can see your face. Even if it’s only for a couple of minutes, just being able to see your face is a huge relief for him.

U ⇴ UNIVERSE

There were many times when Hyojong was left feeling pretty misunderstood or like an outsider, but around you, he really knew that he could be himself. You made him feel safe and protected, which was all he ever wanted.

V ⇴ VACATION

Hyojong loves the fact that he’s the one who can show you the world, he loves to take you to new places and give you as many new opportunities as possible. Even if it’s just a quick stop on a tour or for a promo, he’ll make sure to show you around so that you can explore and open your eyes to a whole new world.

W ⇴ WHINING

If he doesn’t have your attention, there are definitely times when Hyojong can get quite loud to make sure that you know he’s in the room and wants you.

X ⇴ XXXXX

He’s incredibly affectionate, and with that, he loves to kiss you. His kisses vary a lot, sometimes it will just be a light peck on the cheek, other times he’ll love to tease you, either by allowing his lips to linger against your skin or nibble gently against your skin. The feeling of you squirming as he presses his lips to you is exactly the reaction that Hyojong craves, all he wants is for you to be on your toes when he’s around.

Y ⇴ YOU

You were the one that understood exactly who Hyojong was, which he loved.

Z ⇴ ZZZ

When you slept, it became a bit of a habit for you to start tracing Hyojong’s tattoos. He loved feeling your hands dance along his skin, often coming up with new designs too against whatever exposed skin you could find.

---

Masterlist

[aonogifreactions]

Yukio Okumura Alphabet Headcanons - [SFW]

a/n: its finally here! and suprisingly, its not 2am, lmfao- heres our fave problematic boi. he deserves love too.

Yukio:

A = Affection (How affectionate are they with an s/o?)

Yukio's quite affectionate! However, most of the affection occurs somewhere in private, rarely in public; but it's not like he doesn't like showing it - he considers it somewhat intimate. Yukio has no problem holding your hand in public or wrapping his arm around your waist, though.

B = Breath (What could their s/o do to take their breath away?)

Being yourself. Not acting like completely another person, whether its to just to fit in or to get an advantage in something. Even though it sounds kinda silly, he loves seeing you being yourself, the real you, doing what you like. It comforts him in a way, considering that he always had to change himself to either be an adult and take care of someone, or fighting his own demons. Since he always has to have a facade on, it's oddly satisfying seeing the person he loves the most being true to themselves and others.

C = Cuddling (Do they cuddle? If they do, how and when do they cuddle?)

In private? hell yes. anytime, unless he's doing some important work (well,, he still lets you sit on his lap nonetheless). Loves to cuddle, even if he's a bit reluctant at first, since he isn't really used to it. Whenever you cuddle, he always unconsciously intertwines his fingers with you - it's a habit he's developed as he got used to the other person's touch.

D = Dream (What do they dream of doing with their s/o?)

Similar to Rin - having a normal life. No satan, no Illuminati, just quiet and peace. Yukio also wishes to open up about himself and finally, leave any troubles and dishonesty behind. He feels guilty a lot knowing he's probably messed up too much and it's probably not gonna happen.

E = Effort (How much effort do they put into a relationship?)

He does his best! He has a great memory, so whenever an anniversary or bday approaches, he's already prepared. He also cares a lot, and it shows whenever he checks up on you - he acts kinda like a strict and caring mom, but that's just how he is. Questions about your wellbeing are always honest. Emotionally, he might be a little clumsy.

F = Fear (What do they do if their s/o is scared? How do they handle it?)

Outside is calm and collected, but outside he's panicking. He handles the situation pretty well, no matter if it's something serious or not. He asks if you're okay, if you need anything; if he hears "no", he kisses you on your forehead, sits next to you and pulls you closer to him, so you can wrap your hands around him and listen to his heartbeat. He doesn't say anything; instead, he plays with your hair and gives small kisses on the crown on your head.

G = Gifts (What type of gifts do they give their s/o? Do they want a gift in return?)

He's the jewelry type of guy. Whether it's expensive or something on the cheaper side, he likes both if it holds some kind of meaning. He loves buying you bracelets, sometimes he gets himself a matching one and wears it hidden under that black, exorcist coat. Doesn't really want nor expects to get a gift in return, and will have a hard time accepting one, but eventually, he'll take it. (and I mean, if you shove it in his hands and leave)

H = Hugs (Do they hug their s/o? How often?)

Hugging is a must, but in a very subtle way. Oh, you two greet for the first time this day? He side hugs you, placing a kiss on your forehead. Side hug works as a goodbye as well. Full-on hugs occur usually after a tough mission, if your life's been in danger or he feels particularly affectionate that day.

I = Intimacy (How romantic are they? Do they have problems with intimacy?)

He's pretty romantic, likes those cliche things, like giving you flowers or lighting candles for a special dinner for you two. Sometimes he cringes a lot because of that cheesy things, but it's really sweet, considering his personality. The only problem with intimacy is, well, his mind that at first, doesn't want to allow you to get to know his struggles. Since he's always self-loathing, it's really hard to get through that thick walls he's built throughout the years; He does actually open up eventually, but it takes him a lot of time - he wants to know that he can trust you.

J = Jealous (Do they get jealous? How do they act when jealous?)

Gets jealous only if you're "interacting too much" with people close to him - like Rin (sorry), Bon, or Renzo. Yukio just stares and, possibly, burns holes in the other person's skull. He'll place his chin on his palm, resting his elbow on the desk and.. just stare with no shame. If that person looks at him, he just smiles, but let me tell you, that smile is NOT a pleasant one. (aka "you better stop or else" kind of smile)

K = Kiss (Are they a good kisser? Do they like to kiss? How often do they try to kiss you?)

He's a decent kisser. I think he's kissed before, so he generally knows what to do and gets better as the relationship goes. Likes kissing, surprisingly! Often kisses you around your face, like on the forehead, cheeks, or your hair. Lips kisses, however, are mostly shared in private -  he feels it's way more serious and intimate than any other kiss.

L = Love (When do they say they love you? How often do they say it? Do they prefer to say or show it?)

Yukio says "I love you" when he feels like it; it's not like he doesn't love you, it's just the way he is. Even though it's not often, he pours everything from his heart into these words. He's most likely emotionally vulnerable during this time, too -  when his walls break down and he finally lets some of his struggles out, he always says that three words when he's done with his monologue. Sometimes however, you can do a random thing, and out of nowhere you hear him saying it too (just imagine eating marshmallows and hearing his "I love you", then looking at him with your stuffed mouth.. well-). He's a 50/50 guy - he knows he doesn't say that often, so he makes it up by trying to show it in different ways.

M = Marriage (Do they want to get married? If so, what kind of ceremony?)

Would love to get married! But Yukio being Yukio, thinks that who'd want a fool like him to spend their life with? with him? after all he's done? You won't accept his proposal, bet! When he's actually going to propose, he thinks "you only die once" (this proverb is so cursed-) and he's just gonna do it, thinking he's gonna be rejected. Would like a small ceremony, only with people he trusts the most and your families. (Mephisto is NOT invited, by the way.) ((yes, he's mad about it. hoes mad))

N = Night out (What type of dates do they like to go on? How often do they like to go on them?)

Home dates all the way! Or, if night walks are considered dates, they're his favorite. Walking through the city with a cold breeze, empty streets, and blinking stars above him - it's his guilty pleasure. There's no one to bother him, and the fact that he can share this feeling with you makes him feel fulfilled inside. If it's okay with you, he can go on walks like this every night (unless the weather sucks).

O = Out of the Ordinary (What’s something they don’t normally do with/for their s/o?)

As silly as it sounds, he's usually against a nice, specific skincare routine. Whether you suggest giving you both masks, he turns that down. He thinks it takes too much time and ultimately does nothing to make his skin better. (psst, just beg him until he gives up and gets a tiger mask on)

P = Playful (Are they playful in a relationship? If so, how do they play around/mess with their s/o?)

He's quite playful if he's in a good mood. His only weapon is to tickle you whenever you expect it the least.

Q = Questions (Do they ask their s/o their opinion on things? Do they share theirs?)

Depending on what topic the discussion is about, he might or not ask you for your opinion. He does value your thoughts on things, but if it's something regarding his actions, he's very likely to listen to himself anyway. If it's about something more light-hearted or less serious in general, he's definitely gonna ask you. He himself shares his own opinion rarely, unless he's cornered.

R = Random (How spontaneous is their relationship? Do they do things on the spot or plan ahead?)

It's been planned ahead, at first, but given that his "adventures" with both the Order and Illuminati made things quite... messy, it's now considered kinda spontaneous. He, to be honest, doesn't want anymore to plan things too far ahead, not knowing if they're gonna actually work out or not.

S = Sleep (How do they sleep with their s/o?)

He's a switch! Most of the time he's the big spoon, sleeping behind you with his arm over your hip, but when his mental health gets worse, he likes being spooned. Before sleeping, he has a small routine with you - when you're lying in bed, he hugs you tightly to reassure both himself and you that you're still here for him and he's for you, safe and sound.

T = Trust (How much do they trust their s/o?)

Yukio's got a little bit of trust issues, at first. In the first few months, he won't tell any information about either himself, or Rin. If his s/o doesn't participate in exorcist classes, he won't even bring up the topic of being the son of Satan himself (so his schedule might seem a little bit sketchy). He's that kind of guy that believes his relationship won't last long, so he sees no need to tell any sensitive info that could possibly cause even more problems. As the relationship progresses and he realizes his s/o deserves to know and has put up with his shit to the current day, Yukio will slowly break the news, feeling extremely guilty.

U = Unique (What makes them unique as an s/o?)

Despite him bottling up his emotions and thoughts, he's a top-notch listener. Whenever something is bothering you, he's gonna ask if you wanna talk about it; he's gonna listen to it and give you the best advice he could possibly think of. He thinks something along the lines of "if I can't be helped, at least I'll help someone else that actually cares about me."

V = Vulnerable (How long until they can be vulnerable around their s/o? What are they like in this state?)

Very, very long. A whole ass year, if not more. His breakdowns are very violent - they start with him being furious - he's yelling, pacing around, and holding guns all the time; might also throw stuff, so in this phase, it's better to let him do his thing, instead of getting yourself injured and making him blame himself for more. The second and last phase is when he just kneels and lowers his head, dropping the guns on the floor and placing both of his hands on his face; that's when he starts sobbing, apologizing, and saying what's been on his mind all that time. He chokes on his sobs whilst talking, his entire body is shaking and when you come closer to him to embrace him, he throws himself at you and holds you like it's the last thing he's doing on this world.

W = Wild Card (Get a random domestic headcanon of the character of your choice)

On a happier note, Yukio's all ready to try out some basic, simple things you're interested in! You're baking? He's here to help you in any way he can - mixing, decorating. I headcanon that he's able to read extremely fast, so he might as well read any of the books/manga you like and talk about it later on. If you're an artist, no matter if the beginner or not, he's very willing to help you with anatomy, drawing certain parts of the body, or explaining them in detail!

X = X-Ray (What would they do if their s/o got injured?)

Surprisingly calm, unlike Rin. He's patched Rin up before, plus he has a meister in doctor, so he's familiar with it and is pretty skilled with his hands. If the injury is too much for him, he's gonna get you to the hospital.

Y = Yuck (Do they have any pet peeves about their s/o? Are there any habits that might bother their s/o?)

The only things that bother him are sticking nose in other people's business or forcing him to talk about certain things.

Z = Zeal (Are they passionate as an s/o? Do they want or like passion?)

He's trying his best to be; likes passion himself, but feels like he doesn't deserve a single bit of it.

Yukio edit isnt mine! credit to the author! <3 headcanons written by me.

[freakynct]

「𝒂-𝒛 𝒂𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒚𝒔𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔」

— lee taeyong

‏‏‎ ‎

a; aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

he's such a caring person and loves to cuddle with you more than anything after sex. holds you close, plays with your hair and likes to intertwine your legs together as you giggle about something silly he said

b; body part (their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

i feel like, on himself, he likes his hands and eyes the most. on you he absolutely melts with your smile, it's his favorite thing. seeing the corners of your mouth turn up in a beautiful smile that shows a little bit of your teeth just makes him smile too

c; cum (anything to do with cum basically)

he really likes to cum on your stomach but he really really loves to see his cum dripping down your hand when you jerk him off, just the sight of it can make him hard all over again. he also likes when things get a little bit messy or when you collect some of his cum on your finger and then lick it off, he finds it really hot

d; dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

taeyong secretly likes to record himself jerking off, not even to send it to someone, just for himself. he especially loves standing in front of a mirror, either all naked or with just a thin shirt on and starts stroking himself, getting off to how his body moves and looks while he's touching himself, loving how his cum goes everywhere on his hand and stomach. he also fantasizes about having a secret account where he can post these videos and see people's feedback because just the thought of it turns him on but he knows it's too risky

e; experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

i think he isn't super experienced but probably has had 2 or 3 partners before with whom he learned a lot from and got to experience different things so i feel like he knows pretty well what he's doing

f; favourite position (goes without saying)

he absolutely loves when you ride him and not just in the conventional way but also reverse cowgirl. he just loves how exposed your body is for him and how he can just caress it, grab at your breasts and also watch the way his cock slides in and out of you, it drives him crazy

g; goofy (are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

i really don't think taeyong is the type to goof around during sex, he's pretty serious and sensual and he feels like that's what makes him confident and works for him

h; hair (how well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

he's really neat, i think he either shaves it all off or trims it really really well

i; intimacy (how are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

taeyong likes filthy rough sex so i think he wouldn't be the most romantic person during the action but if he's really in love with someone he will have certain nights when he feels more vulnerable and sweet and just wants to have slower sensual sex with you. he can have purely sexual relationships with people but sometimes he's not the best at separating his emotions from sex so he might end up getting hurt in a relationship like that

j; jack off (masturbation headcanon)

does it pretty regularly, about 4 or 5 times a week, like i've mentioned on his fantasy, he does enjoy jerking himself off. likes to stare at himself while doing it so either in front of a mirror or just looking down at his cock but he only closes his eyes when he cums. likes to tease himself and play around with his cock, slapping it a little bit and applying pressure at the tip with his thumb until he's cumming hard all over his hand

k; kink (one or more of their kinks)

he can fool people into thinking he's a cute boy when in fact he's really kinky and loves to experiment. i would say some of his kinks are cum play, choking, pet play, oral, edging, finger sucking, restrains [ropes, scarfs, etc.] and mirror sex

l; location (favourite places to do it)

honestly i don't think taeyong feels comfortable in having sex anywhere else other than in the bedroom or at least behind closed doors but i really don't think he would like to have sex somewhere where you can just get caught by someone, he would just feel anxious the whole time and wouldn't be able to perform well

m; motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

seeing the effect he has on you really gets him going. he loves to see you shiver and squirm when he touches you or when he kisses your neck and you let out a sweet little whimper, he just loves to see you melt under his touch. or when you can't stop looking or touching him because he looks so good that day

n; no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

i tried really hard to think about something that he would absolutely not do and i honestly can't. i think he's very much open to try anything in the bedroom, he doesn't like anything too disgusting but i think that's obvious and goes for every member

o; oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

i would say he prefers to receive it and watch you wrap your pretty lips around his cock. he loves when you lick up his shaft while maintaining eye contact with him and when you suck at his tip while you stroke the base of his cock with your hand. he's a very specific guy about what he wants from you i guess

p; pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

i think he's fast but very sensual. he knows how to move his hips and his thrust game is strong, so even when he's fucking you fast and rough, he's still able to make it sexy and sensual, i don't know how to explain it better than this

q; quickie (their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

it's not really his thing but again, he doesn't mind trying it out. he just probably won't be doing it nearly as much as proper sex

r; risk (are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

i think i already touched on this subject a little bit but he's not one to love risk and wouldn't want being caught by anyone while having sex. but he loves experimenting and he's open to try a lot of things

s; stamina (how many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

i don't think he can go for many rounds, i feel like after the first one he won't see a need to keep going but that's also because he makes that first round count and he makes it last a long time, so really you don't need another one

t; toy (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

he probably owns a lot of different ones and has experimented on himself as well but i think he finds them really fun to use on you. he won't bring them out all the time but when he's feeling a bit more freaky or wants to punish you for something, he will definitely have his fun using them on you

u; unfair (how much they like to tease)

i don't think he's one to tease a lot. he might do it if he's trying to edge you or really making you beg for him or even when he's using his toys on you but most of the time he likes to go straight to the point and doesn't want to waste time with little games. he only teases you while you're already having sex, i don't see him teasing you that much outside of it

v; volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make)

i think he's pretty loud, can't really control the sounds he makes when he's feeling that much pleasure so he moans, groans and hisses a lot

w; wild card (get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

"fuck.." small curses fell from taeyong's lips as his fingers left bruises on your hips from how tight he was holding them. he had you on all fours, pounding into you so hard that your body kept jolting forward, your arms giving up and letting your head fall into the mattress as taeyong kept holding your ass up at the perfect angle. he lifted his head up to look at the big mirror in front of the bed, running his hand through his hair and licking his lips as he stared at the reflection of you taking his cock and the image only turned him on even more. his chest glistened from the beads of sweat forming on his skin and he only moved faster when he felt you clenching around him, holding your hair in his fist and pulling your head back. "look at yourself in the mirror baby. look how well you're taking my cock."

x; x-ray (let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

i think he's just a little bit bellow average and leaning on the thinner side. circumcised and i think the tip of his cock gets really red when he's hard

y; yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

i think he has a rather high sex drive and would probably have sex about 5 times a week

z; zzz (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

if he's really really tired he might fall asleep pretty quickly but he always prefers to cuddle with you for a while before going to sleep

[kanene-yaaay-o-retorno]

The Color of my Soul(mates) [2]

[First oneshot]

[AO3 link]

Kanene’s Notes:

Nope, I do not regret the pun. New oneshot yaaaay!! Just a quick reminder that both Virgil and Patton’s mindsets are bad. They can work, of course, but only for a certain expense. Worry not. They will both start to go to a therapist and take care of themselves, even though this will not be heavily shown in the oneshots.

Warnings, fun facts, random things and stuff:

* That fanfic has Moxiety and Past Moceit and Past Virgil/Remus (no idea how it’s called dfghjdfghj) in a platonic relationship (yet), but it can be viewed as romantic, if you wish.

* Swearing, depreciative thoughts, losing someone (not death, just stopping to be soulmate), anger issues, anxious thoughts and nightmares. It’s hurt/comfort.

* [~*~]  Means passage of time

* [...] Means change in the focus of the narrative 

* This characters do not belongs to me. They all belongs to the amazing Thomas Sanders in his series of Sanders Sides.

* Something around 5.300 words. -w-)b.

* Sorry for any spelling, pontuation and grammar mistakes! Any advice is very very welcome!

* Tô com preguiça de postar a versão em português brasileiro aaaa! Thankys for reading, my lollipops! Say to someone important how much you love them, be safe, talk with the one that you love, drink water and sleep well! Byeioo!~

                          [~*~]

Loneliness is an island with missing boats.

Missing is when the moment tries to run away from the memories to happen again and can’t do it.

Memories are when, even without authorization your thinking re-presents a chapter.

-       Adriana Falcão - Meanings

[~*~]

Hey, Dee! It’s been some time, huh? Nothing really happened around here, so I have no interesting news to share today. Buut, I learned a new knock knock joke! I would finally get you to laugh with this one! It’s like that:

Me: Knock, knock.  

U: Who’s there?  

Me: Ice cream.  

U: Ice cream who?  

Me: Ice cream if you don’t let me in!

Funny, right?!

… It feels silly to continue to talk with you through those letters. I can’t-

I don’t even know where to send them! That is stup- not great.

I just… I just miss you, Dee. A lot. My uncle says that I should get your old representation out of the bed and hide it so I can start moving on, but… It feels empty, you know? Everything.

I really miss you.

Love, Heart.

[…]

“No.” 

His words echoed in his mind, the strap of his backpack slipping from his grip, his body throwing itself forward, heart jumping in the back of his throat as his steps inevitably brought him even closer to the faded green, almost white, shark plushie in front of him. 

“No.” 

He repeated, as if this was a spell able to make the scene before him change. His hands trembled and failed in touching the so loved object, a silent scream slipping from his slightly parted lips. Yet, he still tried to think of something. Anything that would erase his choices. He knew it.

He should have known. He read about it before, the butterfly effect. Any choice, any movement, any little thing you did could change drastically your future. It could make events – people – which would happen in your life just…

Disappear. 

[The stuffed animal remained quiet on his hands, it’s blank face staring superficially, not really seeing him. Not like before.]

He knew it. 

“Rat?” He knew it. He knew it. He knew, knew, knewknewknew it! “Ree?” His soul searched desperate for an answer. But he got none. No thoughts, no feelings, no small touches, no acknowledging sparks, nothing. 

That word seemed to ring unbearably in his ears. There was nothing there. Nothing except for the silence and the void which filled itself with despair at every that went by.

“This better not be a prank or this time I will throw you in the washing machine for real!” Virgil’s eyes were stinging. He should have done better, should have thought in another way or another anything. He shouldn’t have done that, he shouldn’t! 

“Ree, stop. That is not funny.” Ree actually preferred when Virgil called him Rat, and as his chest was scratched by an agonizing, crescent fear, deep down the young boy wished his soulmate would jump – his thoughts always felt like that, excited, uncontrollable jumpy frogs just playing around – from somewhere and demands Virgil called him by it. “Answer me!!”

His fingers squished the soft fabric, a short, unexpected wave of anger pleading for at least a shout of pain before Virgil realized what he was doing, immediately lighting his touch, tears shining in a sad gloom in the corner of his eyes. His breathing started to hurt.

He needed to do something.

“MOM!!”

Virgil opened his door with a strong slam, running through the wooded floor of the corridor, stumbling his way to the stairs, coming down at the highest speed he could muster. The adult figure was already standing in the living room, the Tv blasting a show in the background, probably the activity his mother was concentrating on before his cry. A frown painted her face and her dark eyes stared at the boy when he stood in front of her, holding his stuffed shark in her direction.

“Fix him!” 

[‘it’ a quiet whisper from his brain corrected his sentence.]

Her analytical eyes danced around the toy in front of her, looking for any teared fabric, any stain or hint of what happened to it, the confusion in her actions becoming more and more prominent as no visible result was found.

[And, as her analysis occurred, the quiet whisper in the back of his mind wondered if this was the original color of the shark before it became a representation of his soulmate. They were together for so long Virgil didn’t even remember what it used to look like.]

No! The boy with heterochromatic eyes firmly gritted his teeth, head shaking. This was NOT the shark’s real color. Its real color was a dark, deep, enthusiastic green full of chaotic ideas and dumb jokes and sparks and grins.

He refused to let everything end in this way.

Realization fell in her face, a soft gasp coming from her open mouth. “Oh, Virgil…”

“No, no, no! You- You need to fix him!” But her eyes… “Mom, please,” the way her arms opened to involve his small, trembling form… 

“Please, he is my best friend.”

[‘Was’]

She hugged him, cradling her fingers in his hair and lightly rocking Virgil and his sobs, her sweet words muffled by his cry. Then the younger one wiggled out of her touch, getting the plushie and running back to his room, the door slamming one more time.

He refused.

“No! No!!” He kicked his backpack, its content spreading across his carpeted floor. The shark was placed in his desk seconds before the Virgil focused his anger on his bed, throwing everything on the floor. His pillows hit the walls and the toys on his shelves. The cacophony of sounds made his head hurt, but he ignored this in order to kick and throw more things. 

Seconds, minutes, countless pieces of time passed before he stopped, panting and with stinging eyes in the middle of the room, his only possessions left untouched was his guitar and Ra- His shark stuffed animal.

Because he loves playing guitar. Because he loves Ree.

His fingers pet its soft fur, wandering in every detail, trying to burn in his soul how alive and colored it used to be before today.

Virgil felt like crying, felt like hugging his old-representation with all his might and just spent the rest of the day like this, pleading that Ree would come back and Virgil would do better and everything could be back to normal again.

But he refused.

He refused to cry like a baby. He refused to let this happen to him. He refused to be made a fool by the Soulmate System or whatever sadistic creature that observed him right now. He refused to go through all of this again. 

Ever again.

Virgil opened his closet and got up on his chair, hiding the shark on the highest shelf under a bunch of old comforts he never got to use.

They wanted him to be a Colorless? Very well, then.

[~*~]

Anger is when the dog who lives in you shows its teeth.

Sadness is a gigantic hand that squeezes your heart.

-       Adriana Falcão - Meanings

[~*~]

Hiya, Dee.

Some days are better, some are worse. 

It hurts.

But, hm, good things, right? Today was sunny and refreshing, I love when this happens. A ladybug landed in my hand yesterday, it was so small… I also found another beautiful feather when I went to the park last weekend, very fluffy and a baby on the bus smiled at me after I made some funny faces.

I hope you’re also receiving and giving some beautiful smiles there. Aunt just called me for the movie night so… See you later!

I miss-

Love, Heart.

[…]

Virgil woke up sweating. A tight feeling clutching the back of his mind. However, he managed to catch himself before his eyes opened, the back of his hand pressing them, as if to make sure they wouldn’t open against his will.

Urg… Not this again…

Virgil pressed harder the pillow curling around his head, the pressure easing the irritation as he groaned in protest, wondering how much more time it would take before he finally grew used to this routine. An annoying sensation banged rhythmically on his chest, hammering together with his heart and flying along with the butterflies on his stomach over and over again until a slightly nausea almost leaded the one in pajamas to give up and just find the nearest stuffed animal so his soulmate’s bond could finally be initiated, his representation showed up and then the exhausted teen could finally get some freaking rest  and then proceed to turn a blind eye to his soulmate for the rest of their lives.

Who would say that ignoring the Soulmate System would be so hard?

But, damn, even if this shit always came back at the right moment when the first ray of sunshine hit his face, usually Virgil had at least the freedom of the night to sleep!

His hand wandered clumsily, hitting the bean bag next to his bed and looking for the small device he always left there for the night. He sighs when his fingers make contact with the cold of his phone, quickly bringing it up to his face and making sure nothing else could get in his eye field. On the third try he succeeded to put the right password, ignoring the video shining on it and quickly lowering the brightness of his screen until it was almost nonexistent. 

Four in the morning. What the heck was his not-for-much-longer-soulmate doing up at this hour??

Ok. It didn’t matter, Virgil murmured to himself, his words slurring, completely engulfed by the fog of sleepiness which continued to involve him. It didn’t matter because Virgil was sure he would manage to win that battle, just like he did on every other occasion since Ree. Of course, he never had a perfect receipt for this, only a group of superficial orientations as focusing on something else, tossing around the mattress until the exhaustion took over his body or doing anything that guaranteed his suborn nature to fight until the bond faded away with some hours, maybe one or two days. 

However, this one was about to complete a whole week and his resolution was beginning to weaken, escaping between his fingers regardless of how much he fought to hold it with tooth and nails. The mild headache growing on him was the proof of this.

He flipped his pillow, letting its cold surface rest on his face, adjusting himself to lay starfished onto the bed. 

He needed distractions. 

Songs. He liked to listen to music a lot, something he would be very much inclined to do now if it wasn’t so late and his earphones were so far away. But, stopping to think about it, it was crazy how sounds work, like, even if they’re far away they manage to be heard. Pretty much like that weird sound captured by that boat who was only minding its business… The Bloop. Heh. The Bloop. Such a stupid name… He wondered if it was a Jurassic animal doing that and when humanity would be finally able to answer his question. If it is really an animal will they call him Bloop? That is a horrible name to give to something probably gigantic and scary… Bloop… Bloopers… blooo...

His muscles from his toes to the tip of his fingers began to relax, his breathing becoming more erratic as the trail of nonsense thoughts led him away from reality and straight to the cloak of Morpheus. Bit by bit he started to be unaware of his room. First the faint sound of his spider quietly scraping the sand on her terrarium, second the sensation of the pillow on his face, then the cold of his phone as it slipped away from his hand…

And, unsupervised by the teenager's eyes, his index finger hit the ‘play’ button on the video, and the blasting of Aquiles Priester’s drums filled the room in a hot shot, followed in the same second by Virgil’s hoarse scream. The confusion and sound making the one with heterochromatic eyes stumble to a sit position, blankets and pillows falling from him as his astonished movements tried to be coordinated enough to turn off his phone before his mother woke up and decided to know why and what her son was doing up at four-darn-morning. 

The button was hit and the silence was faster in cover the room all over again, being only broken by Virgil’s shaken gasps, his trembling fingers laying on his adulterated heartbeats, taking large, wobbly deep breaths in order to normalize it, his attention entirely focused on hearing any hint of muffled step outside his room.

In. Hold. Out.

In. Hold. Out.

He was fine. Everything was fine. 

This was only a scare.

In. Hold. Out.

In. Hold. Out.

Okay. No sound. Virgil allowed himself to fall on his bed, stretching and humming in attempts to ground him to reality, not taking too long to let the sleepiness begin to slowly crawl to his mind again, his body feeling surprisingly much lighter than it had been in days. A yawn escaped from his lips. What the hell he was doing with his cell phone anyway?

For the second time in the night his body fled to a sitting position, the sudden calm and coziness which hit his senses now having a slightly sour taste on his mouth as the teenager realized what it meant.

His soulmate bond was complete.

His gaze flew to the small pile of fabric on the floor, a glint of a sky-blue color shining amidst it. He pushed his blankets away and his breath hitched when the full form of his soulmate’s representation was shown.

Oh no. Nononono. That was- 

That wasn’t normal. Nor supposed to happen. Oh shit. Shitshitshitshit. What could he do?

Virgil dropped – carefully, even if the cold on the bottom of his stomach screamed for him to run! – the object on his bed, getting across the room and right in front of his closet in a blink of an eye. The door flung open, his gaze scrambling through all his possessions in search of that specific teddy bear his mother gave him a year ago, telling it was going to help him to heal, grabbing it firmly and plopping it next to the blue fabric calmly laying on his mattress. He bit his nails while his eyes ran from an object to another, waiting for the color to somewhat jump on the plushie, where it was supposed to go in the first place.

Virgil stared inquisitively at his pillow- no, his soulmate’s representation, as if he could scare the reality into changing itself. His fingers ran through his hair, feet pacing on the floor.

 Ok. His soulmate was a pillow. A literal pillow. That was not good.

Before he could fall on his parasitizing thoughts or hide the pillow and pretend nothing had happened, a badly muffled sound reached him, making his body freeze as his brain immediately recognized what it was:

Crying.

[...]

Before is a caterpillar who didn’t become a butterfly, yet.

Indecision is when you know very well what you want, but you think you should want another thing.

-       Adriana Falcão - Meanings

[...]

Hey, dear! Heart here again! It’s been a time, huh? I discovered a new Pet Shop nearby and a very nice old lady let me play with the puppies after school. You really should see the hamsters there! They’re the cutest, most precious soft things!!

They don’t have any snakes, sadly.

I… I hid your teddy bear and I’m getting used to not stare at the right corner of the mattress, looking for you. 

I still miss your smooth thoughts, your warmth, your advice and receipts and… you.

I think I’m getting better. The sensation is starting to feel… normal.

Remember we-

I used to-

I know you won’t really read this, but I’m trying to keep taking care of myself. 

Hooray?

Love, Heart.

[…]

Patton loved stuffed animals and this was a fact that anyone who got into his room for barely two seconds would realize. Small plushies of multicolored frogs rested on his shelves. A big polite giraffe sat on his desk, proudly showing off her new necktie and his older ones were in the closet, guarding his favorites clothes. His soulmates, of course, had a special treatment, receiving a seat on his bed, closer to him and within his research at any occasion, emergency or not.

And that was an emergency. Well…technically. 

Maybe…

Perhaps not. 

The teenager changed to a sitting position, his fingers trapping the mattress in a deadly grip, tears falling from his eyes, which was firmly focused on the moon shaped night light across his room, trying to kick out the too cold, too hot feeling the nightmare left on his skin. 

His brain felt fuzzy and his thoughts were all mushed together, way too messy to properly fight against the memories of his dream replaying on his head. The sensation of pure despair still running on his veins as the monster – tall, fast, its shadow hovering over his small form – chased him and his friends. Patton still felt his throat dry after running for what seemed hours, and for when he realized they would never manage to actually escape from it. He could feel the betrayed eyes of his loved ones as he made each one of them trip, the small period when the monster got them giving him enough time to escape, the screams ringing on his ears.

He muffled his sobs, slapping his hand on his mouth and getting up, going to his closet and grabbing his panda. It was one of the fluffiest stuffed animals he had and he could use a bit of softness right now. His steps were tired and he hid his face on the plushie even before laying on his bed again, curling around the bear as if it was the core of safeness, as if it would make all the bad thoughts and feelings go away.

As if it could erase all the nightmare and convince the part of his mind which said that if it was real life, that would be exactly what he would do, that it was wrong.

It was! It was completely wrong! Patton would never, ever, betray his friends, or hurt them, or go away when they needed most! He wouldn’t. He would fight, if it was needed. He would do his best every single time to help them! To be there. He wouldn’t just run away. He couldn’t. He couldn’t be alone. He didn’t even bear that thought.

[A part of his soul struggled, firm on its position. It kept holding into a bond that directed to another soul who kept pushing him away, both refusing to change their mind.]

Bear. Patton let go of a weak, barely audible, forced giggle, squeezing the panda on his touch tighter. Panda was a bear. Heh. His tears began to calm themselves, falling slower from the corner of his eyes, a strange and sudden wave of strange, but welcomed calmness hitting him.

A sudden warm touch laid on his forehead.

“Hey, are you okay?”

Patton gasped, his wide eyes flying open to stare at the now purple plushie on his grip.

Purple. Pandas weren’t purple. He was sure this one was always white with black dots and tiny glasses on it. Definitely not purple. Not unless it was-

Oh. 

Ohhh.

Oh no.

For a moment his breath was taken, adrenaline exploded across his body and his mind went blank, his face stumbling forward to press his lips on the panda’s forehead, a completely lack of words, especially when a flow of sentences began to appear running over themselves and leading to his very tired brain to struggle in order to try to grasp their meaning before another phrase came and took its place.

[His body seemed to relax, letting go of a ball of tension Patton didn’t even realize he had in the first place.]

“Fuck, sorry, that was pretty dumb. Of course you’re not fine, why else would you be crying? What I was trying to say is: Can you get better? No, wait! That sounded harsh and it’s definitely not what I meant- wanted to say. Ehh, shit. Okay. Uhh. Breath, okay? Breathing is a good thing. You have to breathe to stay alive so I think it’s already a good start. Keep breathing, please do not die. Oh god, wait, that is not a dangerous situation, is it? Are you in danger? Are you dying? Oh, fuck I can’t hear-”

A startled giggle made a run from Patton’s lips, making his new soulmate to be quiet.

“Urg, sorry.”

“No, no. I was not laughing at you!” He adjusted his grip so the only part touching the purple bear would be him holding one of his paws, realizing he forgot to stop hugging him earlier. “I am okay. I just… didn’t want to cry on you, sorry.”

“It’s okay. I don’t, huh, care.”

“Crazy how bonds happen nowadays.” Patton attempted a joke, feeling suddenly a bit vulnerable, internally wishing the other wouldn’t ask about the reason for his tears. “It-It’s hot today, don’t you think?”

“Yeah, with the Sun and everything.”

“Yeepp.” Patton sniffed, cleaning the tear track left on his cheeks before resting his back on the bed’s headboard, a beginning of a headache after that waterfall of emotions shining in the horizon.

“...Do you want to listen to a song? It helps me to calm down when I’m, ya know.”

“Oh, don’t worry, I’m already a bit better.”

“Ok, sorry.”

“Don’t be.” Maybe it was sleepiness or the excitement of having a new soulmate, but before he could think much more about it the hidden truth was slipping from his mouth, “I’m grounded. No phone for the week.”

“That sucks.” The teenager just shrugged, hoping his soulmate would understand the action by his movement. 

Silence impregnated the room, spreading and filling his system, his eyelashes closing bit by bit.

“I know how to play guitar. I can… play a song for you. Onlyifyouwantofcourse.” The thought was quick, quiet and disappeared as soon as it arrived, leading Patton to almost believe he imagined it.

A good feeling bloomed in his chest, a smile flourishing on his face as he held his soulmate’s free hand, carefully squeezing them in what he hoped it showed his gratitude.

“I would love to.”

“’Kay. Uh, cool. Give me a second.”

And then a few minutes later his form was engulfed by warmth. Patton let go a sigh of relief, basically melting in the so caring touch, don't having the heart - that word gave a hurtful tug in his chest - to remember his new soulmate he couldn't really hear the accords, only the shy, calming humming rumbling on his chest and lullabying them to a peaceful sleep.

[~*~]

Feeling is the language the heart uses when it needs to send a message.

-       Adriana Falcão - Meanings.

[~*~]

"How can I call you?" 

Patton stopped his voice before that old nickname got out, scratching his throat. He should try to move on, right? 

Baby steps. 

"Pat." 

"Pat?" 

"Pat-Pat!" 

Virgil rolled his eyes, denying the small smile which appeared on the corner of his mouth.

“You can call me V.”

[…]

“So, you’re a pillow.”

Patton blinked, a surprised snort filling the room. “V, I know I often say I’m soft but if you wanted to rest on me all you needed to do was ask!” He added some shadowing on some feathers, giving the drawing of the Bem-te-Vi more profundity. He was really happy he found that site about the birds of America. 

“No, I mean literally. Like… your representation is not a stuffed animal, it’s a pillow.”

“Oooh…” He blinked a few times. “I didn’t know that still happens.”

“What do you mean with ‘still happens’? This happened to you before?”

“Not with me, but I saw a video about this! Before the plushies became famous due their shape being easier to be seen as human-like, the bond would form in anything that could be quickly dyed, just like clothes, pieces of fabric, pillows… I think if they showed it to a doctor, he would describe their condition as ‘comfortable!’” Patton shook lightly the panda’s shoulder, smiling. “Uh? Got it? Comfortable? Because they’re soft?”

“Pat, that was horrible.”

“Awww, come oon.” Patton rested his chin on V’s head, forgetting his drawing for a while. “Puns are harder than knock knock jokes! You have to wait for the perfect timing to make them.” Virgil huffed. “Not even an itsy bitsy giggle?”

“Nope.”

Silence.

“Pat?”

“No. I am pouting.”

He felt a couple of pats (ha-) on his head, the touching going away in a few seconds. “You will get there some day.” The other answered his soulmate with a raspberry, giggling a bit of his own silliness before going back to his hobby. He really was planning to finish this bird today.

“The thing is… Since you’re, ya know, a pillow. I was thinking… okay, I know that this will sound weird but… I was thinking of putting some clothes on your representation so I can… try to see you better.” 

“Ah.”

“Only if you’re comfortable, sure!”

“No, no. I am! It’s just…” Patton bit his lips, lightly squeezing the shell of his ear with the hand that wasn’t holding the pencil, adjusting his body to a better sitting position. “What clothes do you have in mind? Not that I think your taste is bad or you don’t know how to choose good clothes or something like that!”

“No, it’s cool!” The thought came in the moment Patton forced himself to stop his nervous talking. “I wanted to ask you because of that, I, uh, have black t-shirts, jeans, an old grey hoodie, PJs, clothes when I was a kid, onesies, maybe I can get a dress?”

“Gasp. Do you have onesies?? Aww, I want!”

“Everyone has a onesie.” Virgil mumbled in defense, feeling his cheeks getting hot. “I have a skeleton one, a raccoon and the Toothless from How to Tra-”

“OHMYGOSH YOU HAVE TOOTHLESS!” Virgil had absolutely no idea how Pat managed to make a thought so high pitched and excited to the point the words themselves were barely understandable. “HE IS THE MOST PRECIOUS, CUTE LIL DRAGON…” and then a bunch of squeaks and mumbling took over his brain just as he has hugged and then lightly bounced before suddenly everything disappeared.

He decided it was safer to let the silence prolong itself a bit longer.

…

“Pat?”

“You might need to give me a few more minutes, kiddo.”

“You need to chill, dude.” Virgil remarked, a ray of fondness shining in his words. He gathered his onesie. It was his favorite one when he was fourteen, now it didn’t even fit on him anymore and it clearly wasn’t made to be used by a pillow, as well, but it would suffice until he thought of a better solution. “Ok. Got it, you might want to use your Blocker now.”

“Okayy, it’s somewhereeeeee...” Patton rummaged the content of his backpack, looking for the earphone-shaped object. He hadn’t the chance to buy the wireless prototype, so he struggled a few seconds to untangle the cables. “Here! So, see you in fifteen minutes?”

“Ok. If you hear or feel something just touch my arm and I will immediately stop.” 

“Right!! Bye!” Patton waved, more a habit than anything else, plugging the Blocker on his ears and the cluing its ventosa behind his head, right where his cerebellum was. A few pieces of time went by before his head became partially empty, only his thoughts filling it. He put the panda away. 

It was a strange feeling, to use this outside his school, nor parallel conversation of his classmates or a teacher’s voice filling the air to distract his attention for the fact that he couldn’t hear or feel his soulmates anymore. He hummed, wondering how Lo was and writing a self note on the corner of his paper that he should check on him later, ask for him to finish that story with the smart detective he was telling him on Sunday before Patton fell asleep due the other’s habit to keep petting his hair, probably a revenge for Patton’s constant need to hugging, holding or actively interacting with his serious soulmate’s representation, more often than not receiving fond-exasperate pokes in return.

He looked through the window, mind wandering as the wind hit the tree in his neighbor’s yard, messing with its leaves. It was a bit lonely to have your thoughts all to yourself…

But not entirely bad.

[…]

“Sooo, howz does it looks like?” The naturally excited voice asked. Virgil just pressed his hand firmer on his lips, his other arm hugging his middle. His gaze fell for what it felt the umpteen time in the blue dyed pillow before him, the sleeves of  his onesie folded inwards in a poor attempt to cut half of its original length, the ‘legs’ were criss crossed and all of this ignoring, of course, the unnatural rectangular shape of the whole thing.   

‘Like shit.’ It was his first thought, but he decided to not send it to Pat.

“Weird.”

“I am looking at my pillows right now and-” giggles, “but come ooon, it’s Toothless! There is no way it isn’t at least a bit cute!”

‘You have no neck.’ He internally panicked, looking at the few, sporadic tiny blue hearts appearing amidst the black onesie, showing the representation was getting used to the new fabric attached to it. ‘A probably-head, shoulders but no neck. It’s like a reverse freaking giraffe!’

However, Virgil decided against sharing this particular vision with the other. 

“I guess. Are you… breathing well or whatever?” His tune was a mix of nonchalant and nervous, the choice of words making him wince.

“I am. Why?”

“No. Nothing. No reason.”

“Oookay.” The teenage signed at the confusion on his soulmate’s tune, why did he had to talk in the first place or be so weird making a such big deal of something stupid like that? Urg. He stared at the blue object one more time. Damn Soulmate System. Damn destiny. Damn lack of socialization skills.

…………

But, dude, really, the guy has literally no neck here, there is NO WAY he isn’t feeling nothing because of that. Pat is probably lying because he pities him after a so horrible, futile attempt of fixing what he caused. No. Wait. He can’t just assume his soulmate is lying because of his overthinking, the other part of his brain retorted. Was he overthinking? He probably was. He always did it. Or perhaps this was a correct inkling of Pat. Soulmates were supposed to do that sort of thing after some time, right? One week was enough time? What he-

“Hey!” Pat’s thought cut his own. “Sooo, now that you can ‘see’ me a bit better… hug? You can say no if you want, sure!”

Virgil blinked one, two, three times.

“Ok. But you let go when I let go, got it?”

“Sure thing, V!” Warmth bloomed in his chest when he heard his nickname, Virgil wasn’t sure why.

He embraced the representation, feeling a bit silly, the same feeling that was fast to go away as Pat hugged him as well, firm but careful. The sensation overwhelmed his senses, but in a good way, leading the one who loved guitars and got a strange hyper fixation on drums to let go a sigh, body relaxing.

He patted Pat’s back two times before finishing the touch. “There you go.”

“Thanks! Sooo, see you later.”

“Sure thing.” He agreed, wanting nothing more than a good hot bath after so many feelings in such a small period of time. 

“uwu”

“How the fu-” 

“NO SWEARING!”

“-did you do that?”

Virgil snorted, the warmth still spreading on his chest and maybe - only maybe, - having a new soulmate wasn’t an entire bad thing.

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

pls scream about Leo a lil bit cause my love for that man is neverending and i live for you guys' blog,,, and ur comte love fuels me??? head empty except for those two pureblood clowns

HNGNGNG I hope that both you and everyone that reads my shenanigans knows how utterly understood I feel when I see anyone stan Comte, if not both of those idiot purebloods bc good lord...I live for two tired fossil men that just want DOMESTIC BLISS. Literally they have no brain cells beyond respect women and we love that for us, it’s spectacular!!

Under a cut bc I went off and is long:

That being said I’d be happy to yell abt Leo!! Where do I even begin, this man was the reason I got into Ikevamp in the first place, and I’ve read just about every single one of his events at this point. He just makes me so TENDER!!!!!! For whatever reason the first thing that came to mind was this one time he lies about being jealous and MC is lolol u a fool if you think I can’t tell when you lie to me. And he’s so fuckiNG SHOOK?????? It’s even funnier because she’s internally like [I’m not 100% sure but for a second there he almost looked mad...time to test this theory even if it’s just A GAME T H E O R Y] And he’s so fucking pikachu meme that shit sends me. I can’t handle the fact that he’s so used to people just assuming he’s fine, that he can handle himself. That he’s lived for so long without really anyone noticing at all. (Comte absolutely notices and will lightly roast him, but doesn’t really push him about it or wants to overstep). And so when MC just actively pays attention and is so gentle with him he’s just floored???

God I’m crying now, but I will just never forget the funeral scene in his fucking rt. This asshole, this absolute moron, straight up tries to come at us with “yOu GeT uSeD tO iT aFtEr HaLf A mIlLeNiUm, i’M nOt SaD”. Like are you serious. Come here and let me hold you before I throttle you. Absolute clown. He’s just always trying so hard to get by on his own and it breaks my heart. How long...how long has he lived just getting by, nursing his own wounds and dragging himself up all by himself. HE LEFT HOME AT LIKE 14 (whatever the fuCK SOME TOO YOUNG AGE) AND RAN STRAIGHT INTO THE HANDS OF PEOPLE THAT HATED HIM FOR HIS TALENT. HE REMEMBERS HIS MENTORS DESTROYING HIS UTENSILS WHILE TRYING TO ESCAPE PARENTS THAT WHOLEHEARTEDLY REJECTED ANY EXPRESSION OF LOVE OR COMPASSION FOR HUMANITY THAT HE CHERISHED SO DEEPLY. I DON’T NEED SLEEP I NEED TO HUG HIM IMMEDIATELY FUCKING HELL.

Like.........there’s just........I don’t know how to explain it, but I once saw it explained so well in a post. It was basically talking about Castlevania, and how in that show Dracula sees humanity’s folly and develops so much hatred he just goes straight to murder rage. And while in some ways I understand that, I understand even more deeply Trevor’s response to humanity’s fear and violence. He says that he knows they’re short-sighted, that maybe we all just don’t deserve saving...but that he’s going to do it anyway. Leonardo just so much gives me that energy of knowing there’s so much pain in the world, but all we can do is keep walking--keep trying, even if we have to claw our way forward. Because if you only see the awfulness in front of you, you forget the way that strangers make silly faces at babies to make them laugh on the train, how a friend will put everything down to race over to someone and comfort them with some ice cream--do anything they can to distract them from the hurt. How the sight of a child crying will prompt careful cooing from a stranger as to their bravery, an offering of cool water, the gentle placement of a bandaid. How a pair of teenagers will spot a lost child in milliseconds and help them seek out their parents protectively. There is so much wretchedness, but also so much beauty in it all, and the older I get the more I see myself wanting to believe in the latter. I want to be hopeful, and easily impressed, and full of love. To be bitter and jaded accomplishes nothing, and only becomes a worsening self-fulfilling prophecy. The more you seek negativity, the more you will find it; and worse, create it.

I also scream a little bit bc like. I’ve gone on and on about how Comte is very obviously in love with MC all the time, and sure that may be true. But...I really don’t think Leo is exempt from that either if I’m honest lmfao. Only because what does Leonardo do when it isn’t his route? He almost never shows up. Once in a while he might appear for a split second in a scene, but he almost never converses with MC beyond those short moments. While Comte is the one to pine openly, I’d wager Leo is the opposite. He pines in absolute silence, because he knows that if he gets any closer--he’s going to fall. He’s going to enjoy it too much, going to keep seeking out more before he can stop himself. And losing another person he loves...he just can’t do it anymore. In his first meeting story he talks about seeing MC’s eyes and feeling like he’d known them all his life, and even in his MS he speaks to just being completely fascinated by and enamored of her. She doesn’t hesitate, always does her best, meets people head-on and without much hesitation. After a lifetime of people that are probably just immediately interested in him for his talents, or always seeking out his company for the novelty, this is someone that doesn’t give a single fuck if he’s Leonardo da Vinci. Sure she’s aware, and sure she’s impressed to some extent, but her respect--her attraction and admiration--is something that has to be earned. 

There’s something so refreshing about how their love was written. Sure it’s the whole fake marriage to a real relationship, but it’s also a kind of subtle enemies to lovers pulled off masterfully. MC is 100% minding her own business, just wants to do what she must in order to get home, tries to focus on her work to keep from thinking about how much she misses her old life. She doesn’t rely on anyone, doesn’t talk about how hard it is or how scary it is or how confusing. And even Leonardo forgets in his curiosity, is just chillin and also just trying to do the bare minimum to keep from getting too attached--figures he can admire her from a distance. And then he sees her staring at the hourglass. And suddenly, he can’t just watch her do that herself. Just wait for the hard times to pass, just sit with her own loneliness--that hollowing silence. There’s something so moving about it because he reaches out precisely because he knows that feeling to his fucking marrow, and literally just cannot watch somebody else do that to themselves. Sure he’s been dealing with it for three hundred years, BUT THIS GOOD BABIE CHILD DOES NOT DESERVE THIS. SHE WORKS HARD AND DESERVES NICE THINGS!!!!!!!! And so he drives her crazy as he races ahead of her, intercepting any attempt for her to preserve that silence and hide. She doesn’t see any pattern to it, and that’s just how he likes it--he doesn’t want her to worry about the how or why. 

Like I fully remembering playing in Japanese and being like oh my fucking god this is hilarious, this man is just a wild fucker and I love this. I was enjoying myself, mostly laughing and shaking my head. But then it just gets so, so serious. I was having so much fun that I, like a fool, forgot the anime effect. If you’re having fun, it’s going to come crashing down without mercy soon enough. And it does. He helps a little girl without any hope play her violin again, and maybe I’m just too English major but I was fucking FLOORED when I realized I didn’t see that that was straight foreshadowing. That little girl without hope? That was MC (and by extension depending on how you play, us). Though the metaphor isn’t quite so easily mapped without a physical space, the connection is clear when you think about it. With his careful social awareness, he makes a place for MC to exist in the mansion so naturally--as though she was meant to be there from the start, crafts a positive impression of her presence with each of the residents. And he does it with zero expectation of anything in return; he’s just happy to see her not stressing herself out anymore or trying to do everything alone. MC doesn’t fall in love with him despite their differences, she falls in love with him because they are the same in a singular and all-encompassing way that matters; they both care about other people so deeply, to the point where they will forego any personal needs in order to make that person’s life easier. Whether it be muting their own hardship, or working to involve another person in a new space (or opening up to the point of self-destruction to keep a person from feeling alone), they go above and beyond what anybody asks of them--perhaps strong to the point of their own detriment, in some cases. 

It’s why I always laugh when he says to Sebastian “That cara mia, she has a good heart.” Of course she does, Leonardo; it certainly takes one to know one. 

And because I literally have no brain cells beyond being in fucking love with Leonardo THE LAKE SCENE IS AN AFFRONT TO MY DIGNITY AND SELF-CONTROL. HOW DARE YOU, SIGNORE. HOW DARE YOU ASK ME TO SIT THERE AND WATCH YOU OPEN YOUR HEART TO ME AND NOT BAWL MY EYES OUT AND TRY TO KISS YOU ALL AT THE SAME TIME. SIGNORE “hAhA yOu’Re So SmAlL yOu LoOk LiKe YoU’rE DrOwNiNg In My CoAt.” I WOULD DROWN AND DIE HAPPY--BITCH I TELL YOU THAT.

Like. I can’t think of another route I’ve ever done where I spent a good amount of time like “lmfao this guy is so wild im gonna punch him” to just be in a whirlpool of my own tears, regretting my entire fucking LIFE days later. Like Leonardo’s cultural impact???? Fucking immeasurable, I wish every white man disaster I ever met had a hidden heart of gold in all of his boyish dumbassery, an ICONIC himbo of our time. 

Also because I remembered it before posting and I am Dying^TM. The event where MC was a pureblood and he was human. That entire fucking event. I literally can’t think about it without screaming and crying. Her just so flustered at his reaction to her like “oh look, free real estate” as he plops her in his lap, absolutely no fear, treating her like a princess because of her noble title despite NO NECESSITY BEYOND PLAYFULNESS BUT ALSO STILL MEANING IT IN AN EARNEST WAY, being charming to no END just to see her laugh or look away shyly. 

WHEN HE SAID. WHEN HE SAID “...Can’t leave you alone, or you might go off someplace I can’t follow.” I. CONGRATULATIONS, YOU STRIPPED DEVOTION DOWN TO ITS BARE ESSENTIALS!!!!!! GAH HOW MC HERSELF SAYS “I would tell him the truth but...he’s much too generous for a human. I know he would offer his life without a moment’s hesitation.” How Leo describes the aftermath of her biting him: “Lucky for you, I’m a true gentleman, Unlike my principessa, who took me like a storm” HELLO??????? H E L  L O ???????????????????????? ARE WE JUST GOING TO SLEEP ON THE FACT THAT HE LOST HIS ENTIRE SOUL WHEN SHE BIT HIM???? I--

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

(Also as much as I love him the cigarillos have got to go at some point, boy do you have any idea the shit secondhand smoke does good lordt)

[succubusphan]

A Balancing Act

Summary: Phil is trying to balance work with life and love. Maybe it’s time for a change of pace.

Rating: G

Tags: Introspection, Slice of life, fluff, Established relationship.

Word count: 649

A/n: This was written for the Im-PROMPT-u phandom creator challenge hosted by the @phandomreversebang. Day 12: Balance. If you can figure out what he was scripting I’ll give you a kiss... jk, there’s a pandemic and you could be very young and that wouldn’t be cool, but I’ll give you pics of my cats.

Read on ao3

Phil turns on the kettle and goes about making some coffee. He hums a song to himself although he is not sure what songs it is, he can’t really remember. He sets his favourite mug on the counter, adds the coffee, the sugar and walks up to the window. The wind is blowing fast, rustling the leaves that are already turning orange in preparation for their imminent death. 

He smiles. 

The way time changes used to drive him mad but he’s grown to like it. He knows that Every year the cycle will start over again, a full cycle of life and death. His cycle still has a long way to go though. He is tired of working himself sick over and over, constantly promising both himself and Dan that he’ll be more careful now, only to let it turn into an empty promise.

He remembers how easy it was when they started their careers and everything was so new to just say yes to everything, always relegating life for a later date. It happened naturally. What they wanted was to be able to support themselves with their internet careers and to spend their time together, the fact that people enjoyed them both more as the “Dan and Phil” that Dan or Phil came as a happy coincidence. So they worked and worked and spent their time together and laughed and loved… but they didn’t really live - not for the biggest part of the last few years.

The kettle beeps, pulling him from his musings. He pours the hot water into his mug and adds the milk before sitting at the kitchen table in silence. He takes the first sip and it warms his throat and his heart. The sense of comfort makes him sigh in content. 

Phil opens his scripting notebook and clicks the pen open, taking a moment to collect his thoughts for a moment before writing down some key words into a list. He taps the pen against the pages as he thinks about what he’s going to say.

Ever since they decided to step away from their joint  branding it has been a bit of a trial and error. They shut the curtains into their privacy a bit while opening them a bit more into other aspects of their lives. He decides that it’s only fair to give some sort of warning to his followers about the upcoming changes. Having come out recently, they both have things to explore in their life. Dan being new to the community, wants to express his support and join the activism, Phil will do so in a more quiet way, for him it’s about living. 

They don’t have to work themselves silly to pay rent anymore, they don’t have to worry as much about what tomorrow will bring, they have earned some time off, they have earned to have a healthy relationship with work. Phil wants to see the world, he wants to reconnect with friends, he wants to go out and to stay in and he wants it all with Dan. 

They are trying to form a sort of balance between their free time, their relationship and work and even though it won’t always be perfect, Phil can’t wait to try new things, old things and everything in between with his love.

He looks up and finds Dan leaning against the counter, smiling like a fool in love, it causes Phil to mirror his expression. Dan walks up to Phil and leans down for a kiss, burning his fingers on Phil’s hair. 

He pulls. “Come back to bed, it’s too early,” Dan whispers with a little smile on his lips.

“It’s 11,” Phil notes with a smile of his own. 

Dan chuckles. “Like I said, too early. Come on.” He pulls Phil in the direction of their bedroom. 

Phil lets himself be dragged along, working can wait anyway.

[ilikezodiacs]

How the signs show they’re interested in you.

Aries: Aries tend to fall easy and quickly so its important for you to give them a lot of compliments in the beginning. They are direct and dominant. so let them take the lead. its ok to start the first few conversations but let them take the lead. let them know you and be sure to be flattering they love to be encouraged. Aries are also good listeners! so its  easy to see if they like you because they will show more interest in you as well. they are impatient people so be sure to act fast in the beginning to get their attraction.

Taurus: Make sure to feel them comfortable. because they’ll open up about themselves. be patience because they need time to get used to it. be honest and don't be dramatic. be their friend at first if you wanna play save. show you're interested in serious subjects that not everything is about funny jokes and memes. sure they love to joke often but they seek maturity in a relationship. they’re going to be more sensual and physical affectionate. dont be stressed if they'll act awkward and shy around you!! its just who they are they need time and it DOES take a while for them to get used to it but dont give up if this happens!

Gemini: they’re an open book. they'll probably tell their close friends if they are interested in you. Gemini are seriously good flirts so they’ll be extra romantic and nice around you. since they’re so outgoing of at least a lot on social media they’ll try to contact you as many ways as possible. for ex. snap chat, Instagram. or even just tagging you in some stupid meme on Facebook!! So if you wanna text them as much as possible its ok! Geminis are totally fine with that there is no limit. they like long interesting conversation. since they're curious. try to talk about the future and cool things you both want to experience.

Cancer: The most striking thing is that they’ll open up about their true emotions to you. that's definitely the sign they’re comfortable around you. they’re usually shy to people but once they’re interested in someone they tend to let their guard down. they usually dont notice that so be attentive! they will be super loyal around you and will ask a lot of questions about you. that's just because they dont usually open up first. so dont be stressed if you see them not opening up to you they need the right time and moment because if something doesn't goes their way they'll be moody.

Leo: Easy, there are so many things you can easily see if a Leo is interested. they want your creativity and passions to come out. they love to hear more about you. like stories,ambitions,pictures. they will also give you a lot of attentions. they will cheer on you and encourage you on you daily activities. but you’re insecure? dont worry i know a lot of sites say that leo ppl dont like insecure ppl. they kinda do? but they'll seriously help you with that because that boosts their ego. they’ll make you feel special. so i think its pretty obvious.

Virgo: these ppl analyze a lot once they’re interested so it could be they're quiet af in the beginning. they're not ignoring you they’re just observing the whole situation because they dont wanna fuck it up. they will open up to you once they're interested. they will also slowly show more romantic hints.  they also like to ask a looot of questions. thinks about your family or your life itself. they talk easier through the phone than in real life. they will also think highly of you, they look up to you and see that you're a person who takes they're emotions seriously.

Libra: just like the Gemini they’re obvious flirts. but dont make conclusions too soon! they're like this to everyone. dont be fooled by their false signs. one of the signs that they're interested is that they will invite you to things. like parties, dinner, or just to study. they tend to act the clumsy jealousy act towards you. they dont want you to be open toward anybody else than them. they like to compliment you so they probably  text you at midnight just to tell you're beautiful. they will be also more determined if you play hard to get. they will put more effort in it to make sure you’re going to be theirs.

Scorpio: They’ll try to have a deep connection with you. by starting deep conversations. also they will try to gain your attraction by flirting constantly. they also analyze the shit out of you. So dont worry once they reply later on your texts. they also like to drag you to their world. like their hobbies, friends, family. one thing that is notable is that they will act extremely protective and jealous ! they come over as mysterious creatures but once you’ve gain their attention its clearly that they like you. but dont stress if you think that they dont open up to you too much because these people will always have secrets for you they stay mysterious. they will eventually tell you everything but it takes time...

Sagittarius: these people are just to straight forward. they will probably tell you right away that they “like to hang out with you“ or something like that. so dont be shy to do the same! they are super honest and bold. they are also people who flirt through compliments. they are intelligent people so they will tell how good that brilliant and intelligent that last convo went! or how smart you are. they are adventurous so they will ask you to do things with them as well. like go doing sport sometime or just some silly adventure. these people will text u a lot. so do the same to them. the also like to make a lot of jokes around you :)

Capricorn: Very serious people. they can be goofy or outgoing but they take love very seriously. they will act shy at first but soon after they will be super passionate to you. they act sold sometimes so when they’re interested they act very sensitive around you. they will also be more dependable on you. they will rely on you and trust you more. for ex. when they plan something with you they expect you to be there early. one thing that just stands out the “i like you“ atmosphere is that they will adjust their schedule for you. they like to make you feel loved and comfortable so they will talk about boundaries.

Aquarius: Very playful people but still clumsy. they will try to flirt with you in a playful way. its not always recognizable. They are creative and unique people try to act cold and aloof at first but that's because they enjoy their freedom. so expect them to tell crazy en weird things they wanna do! for ex. going to some awesome place they know, last minute planning, taking the train to i dont know where. they are more of a listener so its better to take the first steps. they wont always reply directly because they are just not that active. dont worry! another sign is that they will be fascinated by you. saying how good you are or how cool your hobbies are. how they take example of you. they want to spend a lot of time with you to know you better.

Pisces: probably the best flirts and smoothest sign of the whole zodiac. they fall in love very easily, they will probably tell you at the beginning that they are starting to feel something for you. they will be extra romantic and physical affection is also a big thingy like hugs etc. they like to just have a date at home like watching Netflix or having a dinner at home with each other. they are very smooth so they will try to ask personal questions. They also share their dreams with you and will protect you from everything negative these people are optimistic so they want to see you happy too. It could be that they are shy and awkward at first but they just need to go with the flow.

[wtfzodiacsigns]

How the signs show they’re interested in you.

Aries: Aries tend to fall easy and quickly so its important for you to give them a lot of compliments in the beginning. They are direct and dominant. so let them take the lead. its ok to start the first few conversations but let them take the lead. let them know you and be sure to be flattering they love to be encouraged. Aries are also good listeners! so its  easy to see if they like you because they will show more interest in you as well. they are impatient people so be sure to act fast in the beginning to get their attraction. 

Taurus: Make sure to feel them comfortable. because they’ll open up about themselves. be patience because they need time to get used to it. be honest and don’t be dramatic. be their friend at first if you wanna play save. show you’re interested in serious subjects that not everything is about funny jokes and memes. sure they love to joke often but they seek maturity in a relationship. they’re going to be more sensual and physical affectionate. dont be stressed if they’ll act awkward and shy around you!! its just who they are they need time and it DOES take a while for them to get used to it but dont give up if this happens!

Gemini: they’re an open book. they’ll probably tell their close friends if they are interested in you. Gemini are seriously good flirts so they’ll be extra romantic and nice around you. since they’re so outgoing of at least a lot on social media they’ll try to contact you as many ways as possible. for ex. snap chat, Instagram. or even just tagging you in some stupid meme on Facebook!! So if you wanna text them as much as possible its ok! Geminis are totally fine with that there is no limit. they like long interesting conversation. since they’re curious. try to talk about the future and cool things you both want to experience.

Cancer: The most striking thing is that they’ll open up about their true emotions to you. that’s definitely the sign they’re comfortable around you. they’re usually shy to people but once they’re interested in someone they tend to let their guard down. they usually dont notice that so be attentive! they will be super loyal around you and will ask a lot of questions about you. that’s just because they dont usually open up first. so dont be stressed if you see them not opening up to you they need the right time and moment because if something doesn’t goes their way they’ll be moody.

Leo: Easy, there are so many things you can easily see if a Leo is interested. they want your creativity and passions to come out. they love to hear more about you. like stories,ambitions,pictures. they will also give you a lot of attentions. they will cheer on you and encourage you on you daily activities. but you’re insecure? dont worry i know a lot of sites say that leo ppl dont like insecure ppl. they kinda do? but they’ll seriously help you with that because that boosts their ego. they’ll make you feel special. so i think its pretty obvious.

Virgo: these ppl analyze a lot once they’re interested so it could be they’re quiet af in the beginning. they’re not ignoring you they’re just observing the whole situation because they dont wanna fuck it up. they will open up to you once they’re interested. they will also slowly show more romantic hints.  they also like to ask a looot of questions. thinks about your family or your life itself. they talk easier through the phone than in real life. they will also think highly of you, they look up to you and see that you’re a person who takes they’re emotions seriously.

Libra: just like the Gemini they’re obvious flirts. but dont make conclusions too soon! they’re like this to everyone. dont be fooled by their false signs. one of the signs that they’re interested is that they will invite you to things. like parties, dinner, or just to study. they tend to act the clumsy jealousy act towards you. they dont want you to be open toward anybody else than them. they like to compliment you so they probably  text you at midnight just to tell you’re beautiful. they will be also more determined if you play hard to get. they will put more effort in it to make sure you’re going to be theirs.

Scorpio: They’ll try to have a deep connection with you. by starting deep conversations. also they will try to gain your attraction by flirting constantly. they also analyze the shit out of you. So dont worry once they reply later on your texts. they also like to drag you to their world. like their hobbies, friends, family. one thing that is notable is that they will act extremely protective and jealous ! they come over as mysterious creatures but once you’ve gain their attention its clearly that they like you. but dont stress if you think that they dont open up to you too much because these people will always have secrets for you they stay mysterious. they will eventually tell you everything but it takes time…

Sagittarius: these people are just to straight forward. they will probably tell you right away that they “like to hang out with you“ or something like that. so dont be shy to do the same! they are super honest and bold. they are also people who flirt through compliments. they are intelligent people so they will tell how good that brilliant and intelligent that last convo went! or how smart you are. they are adventurous so they will ask you to do things with them as well. like go doing sport sometime or just some silly adventure. these people will text u a lot. so do the same to them. the also like to make a lot of jokes around you :)

Capricorn: Very serious people. they can be goofy or outgoing but they take love very seriously. they will act shy at first but soon after they will be super passionate to you. they act sold sometimes so when they’re interested they act very sensitive around you. they will also be more dependable on you. they will rely on you and trust you more. for ex. when they plan something with you they expect you to be there early. one thing that just stands out the “i like you“ atmosphere is that they will adjust their schedule for you. they like to make you feel loved and comfortable so they will talk about boundaries.

Aquarius: Very playful people but still clumsy. they will try to flirt with you in a playful way. its not always recognizable. They are creative and unique people try to act cold and aloof at first but that’s because they enjoy their freedom. so expect them to tell crazy en weird things they wanna do! for ex. going to some awesome place they know, last minute planning, taking the train to i dont know where. they are more of a listener so its better to take the first steps. they wont always reply directly because they are just not that active. dont worry! another sign is that they will be fascinated by you. saying how good you are or how cool your hobbies are. how they take example of you. they want to spend a lot of time with you to know you better.

Pisces: probably the best flirts and smoothest sign of the whole zodiac. they fall in love very easily, they will probably tell you at the beginning that they are starting to feel something for you. they will be extra romantic and physical affection is also a big thingy like hugs etc. they like to just have a date at home like watching Netflix or having a dinner at home with each other. they are very smooth so they will try to ask personal questions. They also share their dreams with you and will protect you from everything negative these people are optimistic so they want to see you happy too. It could be that they are shy and awkward at first but they just need to go with the flow.

Source: ilikezodiacs

[synge-street]

honestly a big difference ive noticed between moffat and russel t davies was the way they portayed moral arguments on the show thats Meant for Kids

now, just so you know, doctor who is Supposed to be a kids show, and the best kids shows Almost Always end up tackling big ideas and moral arguments and painful moments and breaking them down in a digestable way for kids (atla, shera, the dragon prince, fucking sesame street, Steven universe, etc)

knowing it’s a kids show, the whole part of breaking things down and explaining heavy topics is sort of where russel t and moffat breakoff (and many other differences ofc)

in a lot of rtd episodes, he comes up with some bs “future science” things that dont make sense but the episodes still have an impact because of the moral argument behind them

for example, in world war three and the other episode, we have a pig being stitched together, we have giant green aliens that Zipper themselves into humans that also fart a lot ??? as u can see , this is the silly part meant for kids

but behind all of this you have the argument, greed kills and drives people to be terrible and acting only for money and prestige can not only hurt yourself but the people around you (also im p sure they were scavenging the planet for oil, which, Not Subtle bruv)

however, with moffat, a lot of the bullshit space science that isnt even supposed to be the interesting part is sometimes at the center of things for no reason ????

like the vashta nerada episode where if u turned on the light these micro creatures would slow down a little and then we’re introduced to river song who explains the time travel that doesnt really make any sense and we also have CAL and stuff like that (this is supposed to be like a darker scooby doo episode i guess)

and honestly that wouldnt have mattered if there were a Bigger driving force behind it. maybe showing Children that destroying someone’s or your own planet has repurcussions (the vashta nerada’s trees were cut down w/o their consent) which would be an Incredible thing kids can learn from

with moffat, science and reason are usually at the forefront. sure he’s had some Very well done concepts that havent revolved around a moral issue (blink is cool but its also just that. its interesting) and some that have (how doing wrong and trying to win no matter what causes unseen damages from the empty child)

eventually theres also something that a lot of kids shows deal with and thats Death. and honestly my fav kids shows have almost always dealt brilliantly with that topic (in atla, people tell aang that killing and death are sometimes necessary but he decides that u have to always try to be better. in steven universe, death is talked about as something inexcusable but also something that has unforseen consequences)

anyways, lets start with moffat for once. moffa t doesnt really, Kill anyone. which for companions, i understand. its tricky to kill off a companion. but the way he does it ? it sucks. he treats death as something people just come back from. the “lesson” is : hey u dont have to Fucking mourn because death isnt actually real its something i use to scare the audience than revert because its more “interesting”

and other than that, the second message is who Gives a Fuck if u kill some meh bad people. like seriously thats it. we see the doctor fool the human race into commiting genocide because the silence stole One baby ? the purpose/moral arguments behind those episodes dont exist except murder is bad unless that person sucks, then Treat yo Self.

this isnt even the only time the doctor does this, like in Dinosaurs with a Spaceship. just straight up fucking murder. and its not even called out or really explained why the doctor Had to make that choice. nothing. (also murder isnt even that interesting for a while. to me the harshest and one of the lowest points for the doctor was when he granted Immortality to the family of blood and also saved the people from Waters of Mars.)

with russel t tho, he tries to explain to the audience (FUCKING CHILDREN) that “everything has its time and everything dies.” and i fucking Loved that. i really did. one of the episodes that Really deals with that, is the School Reunion. we see a beloved character come back (which is also to have more things an older audience can relate to) and its about these creatures that evolve and are trying to take command of reality by using a school etc etc whatever its kind of interesting but shhh

anyways one of the reasons this episode is So Fucking Good is because it uses that as a set up for tackling something So Important with kids. which is Loss and death. loss doesnt always mean death of a loved one but it can also mean just losing someone close to u. with sarah jane, we see the effects of losing an important relationship and how its impacted her life (showing u should be considerate in who u end up ghosting, jk jk i jape and i jest) but it also shows how thats Alright. losing a relationship, no matter what kind, is and Can be tough but its inevitable. its something u can learn from and the relationship shouldnt be seen as tragic but rather a part of ur life where u learned and loved and gave u hope

it also shows how fear of losing a relationship is something thats normal and okay to deal with but also something u should talk about. the doctor and rose end up talking about Both the doctor and rose’s fears of losing one another, whether it be to rejection or to time. it shows that people make mistakes but communicating and expressing ur love is Encouraged. people have a past and have made mistakes but thats something that makes them knowledgable and wise and open. loss for the doctor and sarah jane has made them sad and lost and anxious. but it also caused them to grow and to love

an episode that Greatly deals with death (especially that of a loved one) is Fathers Day. rose changes something in the past and now reapers are coming out and people are dying etc etc (also Really interesting but im not talking about that)

the forefront, the true Focus and purpose and the Lesson of the episode is rose (the audience pov) coming to terms with her fathers death and learning to cherish their small moments. rose tries to save her father but that has untimely consequences. (aka people die and u cant change that thats not up to u). during the term in the church, she learns about her father and about how normal he was. and since its 2 am and idk how to explain it, rose comes to terms with the fact that some people die. thats how it works. she’s allowed mourning and she doesnt get told down for that and she learns about it but she Gets it Now. she learns that losing someone is terrible but that doesnt mean its a waste. doesnt mean u cant grow. u will always have what u shared with that person and thats beautiful. fantastic even

in the end, i genuinely believe some shows are so good not Only because of how interesting their ideas were, but because they Teach you and show you and give u hope. and when i watched moffat, i didnt get any of that. all i got was lying can be good and murdering when convenient is encouraged. and it makes me Sad becuase dw used to be so much more you know ? ive learned a lot from this show and it saddens me how some kids might not get the silly stories with all the life packed into them

[owlespresso]

Mirio / NSFW Alphabet

A list of headcanons done as a commission! If you would be interested in commissioning me, you can find my prices+rules HERE or you can donate HERE.

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Mirio is an absolute darling during aftercare. Before you can even regain your ability to speak, he’s asking you if you need any water, if you’re feeling alright, if you want a massage, etc. He talks so fast that you’ll have to interrupt him and tell him to wait a moment.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves his hands. They’re large, big, and calloused from years of training. He likes them because he uses them to protect people and to make you feel good. He also holds your hand constantly.

His favorite body part on you, as cliche as it might sound, is your eyes. He thinks they’re beautiful and he could spend all day looking at them.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Prefers to cum inside. There’s something so bestial and carnal about it, and it kind of feels like he’s marking you in some way.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Has a bit of a breeding kink. The idea of filling you up over and over with the purpose of impregnating you really turns him on, but he’s too shy to tell you.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

People have wanted to jump on his dick since he landed a top spot at UA. Fans, fellow heroes, everyone is into this guy and how could they not be? He’s so welcoming and friendly.

That being said, he’s a pretty experienced guy. He likes to casually fool around and he’s just good, at everything. He’s not ashamed of how open to sex he is and he has the experience to show it. It’s safe to say that he’s fucked at least once before graduating UA.

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Cowgirl or reverse cowgirl, or doggy style. He loves grabbing your hips and forcing you back and forth, up and down on his cock. The sense of control just fills him with an (admittedly shameful) sense of carnal control and lust.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Absolutely goofy. He believes that in order to have a functional, loving relationship, you need to be able to fool around with each other. He just can’t be serious all the time during sex, and he uses jokes as means to diffuse tension/worry or to soothe his partner, should they be anxious or self-conscious about something.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Well-groomed. His public hair is a little darker but he takes extra care to keep it neat and presentable!

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

He loves the idea of being silly in the bedroom. To him, it’s a crucial part of having an intimate relationship. He has to be be able to joke with you during sex, because it’s a part of his upbeat personality.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Masturbates regularly, and owns several flesh lights. He does it less frequently when he finally gets intimate with you, but if you’re not feeling like having sex or you’re not around, he’ll jack off every day. Maybe multiple times a day.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Creampies. As said earlier, he loves cumming inside of you.

Also, gets turned on very easily by a pair of heels and stockings. If you wear them, he’ll ask you to keep them on while he fucks you.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

Anywhere, really? He dislikes doing it in completely public places, but he loves fucking you on top of the kitchen counter, or having a quickie in a broom closet. He’s certainly not picky, though he prefers the bedroom for passionate, loving sex.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

It’s not hard to turn him on. Just the small flash of your panties from under a cute skirt will do it for him. He also enjoys seeing you in form-fitting clothes, turtlenecks, tight leggings, etc, etc. Bending over with your ass facing him (whether it’s on purpose or just to pick something up) will get him horny instantly.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Doesn’t like anything that hurts you. He’s kind of particular about it, though. Spanking is all good and fine, but he doesn’t like the idea of slapping you, or cutting you, or choking you. He knows how strong he is an he’s afraid of hurting you. Over the years he’s learned to control and hone his strength, but that doesn’t stop him from worrying.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Prefers to give, because he loves pinning your hips to the bed and watching you buck and cry and struggle. He’s incredibly skilled and always eager to eat you out. One of his arms will wrap around your thigh to anchor you to the bed while his tongue toys with your slit.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Mirio prefers a fast, rough pace. But if you’re going for multiple rounds, he’ll definitely switch it up. After the first round, he tends to become gentler

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

100% game. Being a hero is time-consuming and his high rank means that his schedule is full more often than he would like. He’ll take anything he can get from you, because he misses you a lot when he’s stuck at work.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Mirio is absolutely open to experimenting. He’ll try almost anything because hey, he’s an open-minded guy and he just wants to make you happy. If he finds himself enjoying what he’s trying out, then that’s great! He hesitates to try anything that can hurt you, and will outright refuse to cut or choke you, should you ask.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

An incredibly long time. He can go for multiple, long rounds as long as he has a few minutes to rest in between each one. He can easily fuck everyday, multiple times a day.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

Fleshlights! He uses them more when he doesn’t have an actual partner to fuck.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Loves teasing! He doesn’t get too sadistic with it, but he might deny you orgasm once every now and again. More than anything, his teasing is just silly little jibes and jokes.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Unabashedly loud. He doesn’t care who hears (unless you’re in a public/semi-public place and trying to keep quiet). Most of his noises and low and throaty, growls and groans. He doesn’t whine, and his pitch never goes high.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Tends to like being dominant, but he will be submissive for you if you ask him. Gets turned on if you step on him.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Mirio’s dick is big. At least 6 inches, girthy and heavy. It’ll take some time for you to get used to it, but he definitely knows how to use it.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Mirio, despite how hard he works all the time, has a seemingly infinite amount of stamina and can fuck daily for multiple rounds. If you’re up for it, he’s up for it. No question. Always down to fuck.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He doesn’t fall asleep until he’s 100% sure you’re alright and you don’t need anything, but he falls asleep almost immediately after aftercare.

[snapchattingnct]

hello, can i request a ship from all units! i am 5’5 with short, dark brown hair. i love to clean and organize. other things i like include dancing even though i’m not the best, and listening to music. i dislike when people do not pick up after themselves, it is a pet peeve. i value knowledge a lot as well and need a kind person, but humorous. i’m independent and have walls up so i would need someone to work their way in if they liked me. i can be wild, but also calm sometimes. tysm !

Hello!

In NCT U, I ship you with Doyoung! With his sassy personality and attitude, I can totally see him “nagging” or bugging the members who leaves a mess behind. He’ll probably do it all day long if he has to until they come back and clean it up. Doyoung is a fairly well-rounded person, he’s great at the performing arts, sports, and he’s pretty smart too. Recently, we’ve been seeing a much more funnier side to Doyoung and it’s great. His snarky comments and savage inputs will have you dying of laughter even in serious situations. He’s also someone who can be extremely warm and caring so I don’t think he’ll have any trouble breaking down those walls of yours.

In NCT 127, I ship you with Taeyong! Taeyong is deemed the tidiest member in the 127′s dorm. But unlike our Bunny though, I think Taeyong would just clean up the mess himself. So much more efficient and not to mention he just takes cares of the other members really well. Taeyong is also a great dancer, which I’m sure that you and everyone in the world already knows lol. He literally moves like he doesn’t have a spine and he just draws everyone’s attention when he’s dancing even if he’s not your bias. With a soft personality like his, I think you’ll really enjoy having him as your dancer teacher. He’ll be extra attentive and will teach you at your pace.  

In NCT Dream, I ship you with Jaemin! Even though a lot of the Dreamies are young so they tend to be a bit more messy, I think Jaemin is one of the more organized one. As seen with their behind the scenes of their Dream Concert, while everyone else was getting hyped post concert, Jaemin was vlogging how he put his ear and mic piece back together. And you already know how silly Jaemin can get. He’s literally meme quality. In addition to this, Jaemin has so much love. He’s extremely affectionate, he’ll be showering you with love all day long. With how cute his actions are, you’ll definitely open up to him in no time.

In WayV, I ship you with Kun! As the mama bear of the group, you already know that’s he’s the member that’s always making sure that everything is in it’s place and where it’s supposed to be. Like our Bunny, Kun is definitely one to nag the other members if they leave a mess behind. He’ll even throw hands if the member wants fight back lol. Don’t let that soft image of his fool you. When it comes to things that he has a passion for, Kun knows a lot about it. For example with the “Take Off” MV with the behind the scenes cuts, he was talking with the other members about all the different types of planes on their set. He’s an amazing singer and pianist too. 

- K 🌱