#scheduled two posts for when i sleep tn

[litaesthete]

read 70 pages and still going 💪 i need to finish this book by the next week

[studentbyday]

{ 30.10.24 } · { 50 days of routine } · { day 1 }

actually got out of bed at 7:30 though i woke up at least half an hour before... but i slept at midnight last night (need to schedule proper wind-down time), so i was very sleepy and felt awful all around

*struggling through immunology discussion post due today*

i napped later in the morning for an hour and that's when my two mushrooms died bc I didn't wanna be tempted to use my phone when i intended to nap but the other timer i set to wake me up (in case the forest ding didn't wake me up) went off slightly before the forest timer was up and...well, they're dead now. it was a good nap tho and it gave me the energy i needed to go on with the rest of my day

worked on pathology group asst (not scheduled for today but...i did it anyway bc i felt compelled to, not sure if that was a good idea in hindsight...)

sort of reviewed for the microbio quiz but it was half-assed bc i was impatient and then i just did the quiz anyway...it was more stressful than it needed to be bc of my poor memory and i felt bad about that... we'll see if i actually was able to find the right answers in the end when the answers are released...

continued struggling through that immunology discussion post but we made it in the end (i mean, we had to)

walk and read (maybe 30 mins? started reading about cbt and working through the workbook and i like how it seems to be almost exactly like physio appts but for my brain...sometimes i try to work through my issues on my own through word-vomit journaling, but increasingly it's getting difficult to even know where to begin and how to move forward when it both really matters and i'm so tired and clueless and don't wanna give up, so having someone help you make a sane roadmap that aligns with your own goals is nice 👍🏻 there were some reflection activities in the workbook which i filled out too...)

might actually end a little later tn (goodbye proper wind-down time that i was supposed to have, but hopefully making significant progress on my schoolwork + the journaling i did as part of the cbt workbook will have helped satisfy the part of me that usually resists going to sleep immediately) because i have to finish (or get as close to finishing) a microbiology assignment due tmr morning (not first thing, thank God...i don't even remember how i got to be so late with this...gah so many things happening and the non-urgent stuff gets pushed later and later until woops the deadline is tmr!!! 😣😮‍💨) (update: i'm maybe halfway??? luckily it's just a first draft we need to be sending but omfg do i have my work cut out for me tmr morning 😭 icandothisicandothisihaveto)

[wexhappyxfew]

Every time you post your thoughts about what you’re writing or what’s coming next (like the Annie x Brady thoughts) I read them so quickly lol!! I love getting a sneaky peaky into what is coming up and it makes me feel like I’m getting to peak into your creative thoughts. It makes me so excited. So, just had to drop in and say I am SO pumped for Annie and Brady’s next fic. Like, they are my babies 🥹 (honestly all the couples are, especially Annie and Brady and Kennedy and Bucky) but you know what I mean lol.

- sincerely, excited ☀️

EEEEEKKKKK SUNSHINE ANON IM SCREAMING !!!!!!!!!

that means so so much to me to hear omg!!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹 i think for me it’s just a sort of check-in thing, i guess? during the week i’m so busy and i have no real post schedule, but i also want to keep anyone interested ‘in the know’ of what’s going on or random thoughts that hit me so it means so much to know that you love them!!!!! 😭

a peak into my creative thoughts AHHHHHHH I LOVE THE IDEA OF THAT SO MUCH!!!!!!! and i feel like i want to start thinking of them in that way toooooo!!! because i feel it totally is! just what i’m feeling and vibing with and what i’m hoping to go with in terms of writing. because at the end of the day, i’m doing this because it’s just so fun and writing is a hobby for me to always have when i need it - so thinking of it as creative thoughts is so cute! i love it!!!! (may have to start tagging those as *shannon’s creative thoughts* now haha!) me and my chaos basically 🤣

AWWWWW THANK YOUUUUU!!!!! that means so much!!!! 🥹🫶✨ your excitement for them means the world!!!!! i’m really digging into both their characters here with the particular piece i have coming up for them and WOWEE i got a *lil* emotional writing it because….it’s definitely a piece where i relate to annie heavily. and i think that’s another thing that makes writing the SB crew so enjoyable? each of them have a piece of me where i’m just like i get it, this little part of me is in you and i get it. and that’s just really nice to have. so annie really speaks to me and i feel she will for other people reading too!!!! :) and ofc, brady’s being the absolute sweetheart he always is to her and it just makes my heart 💗💗💗 !!!!!!!

(also thank you for the kennedy x bucky love i stg those two are going to be the death of me - but i think all these duos will haha!)

THANK YOU AGAIN FOR YOUR KINDNESS AND LOVELINESS!!!! i shall sleep very 😄😄😄 tn!!!! <33333 THANK YOU AGAIN MY HEART IS WARM!

[zaerog-infinity]

Posting this here, because my FR sideblog has the best chance of this being seen. Sorry, friends, that just wanted to look at some nice dragons and relax.

Howdy fellas. One of my dachshunds, Belle, is gonna need out-of-state back surgery for one of her discs this Saturday, the 16th of January. I don’t wanna e-beg, I wanna work for my funds; so, I’m making this post to bring a little attention to my commission shop. More under the cut, I don’t wanna bother folks with a big ol’ scrollbar cruiser.

Also: Link to the comm shop is in the replies, if you wanna hop straight to that. Thanks :]

I’ll start with the beginning, hopefully give some validity to my situation for the skeptics.

The night before last, as Belle was ready to go to bed with my grandparents (as she does each night), my pawpaw noticed she wasn’t as ecstatic about the ordeal as she usually is. Typically, she bolts right up the steps, crazy about gettin’ to sleep with her two favourite people. But, this time, she only slooowly escalated them, only going up a couple steps at a time before stopping to rest, and this repeated until she reached the top.

The next day, my grandparents wake up to find that she had done her, uh... unsanitary business on their bed, which had never, ever happened before--not even when she was little. She continued the string of sluggish behavior on an hour or two later, seemingly physically unable to do her normal, excited movements throughout. My grandmother called the vet and scheduled an appointment with our local vet for 2 PM yesterday afternoon.

In our appointment, the doctor diagnosed her with a herniated disc, causing said disc to flare up and press against her spinal cord, causing neurological reflex loss in the back half of her body--a common issue in the breed, but awful, nonetheless--that, if untreated, will lead to eventual paralysis from that point downwards. She was left at the vet under the doc’s orders to be examined while she was prescribed prednisolone, an anti-inflammatory drug. The plan was to keep her there until Monday, the 18th, and if she was doing better, she’d be sent home with the remainder of her prescription. Else, we would receive a call from the vet saying she needed surgery, stat, because her condition was worsening.

Less than 24 hours later, at ~1:30PM today, we receive a call from the vet saying that Belle had been, in fact, doing worse. The medication was not helping her situation at all. She needs surgery as soon as possible. The closest place that can perform the procedure for us is in Memphis, TN, and can potentially cost “thousands of dollars”, the doc tells us. The problem? Besides the glaring upcoming bill, weekdays, this clinic’s hours are 6PM-8PM. Dark, lost, and in Memphis? Doesn’t sound like the best scenario, according to my grandparents. However, on weekends, they offer 24-hour services. My grandparents set her visit up for Saturday, the 16th. She is now home with us, until then, under strict confinement in her kennel to prevent her condition from worsening, doctor’s orders. She was sent home with the rest of her prednisolone and another, separate prescription of gabapentin, a drug usually taken to hold back epilepsy, but can also be taken to reduce nerve pain.

Now then, with that all out of the way: If you’ve reached this point, certainly you’ve seen the up-and-coming price tag associated with her procedure. I’m hoping we have enough in our savings to cover it, but due to recent utility repairs and general broke-ness during this hellish time period, I want to prepare for the worst. I won’t ask you for free handouts, but if you have the green to spare, I’ll be linking my commission shop on FR in the replies, since Tumblr will purge me from the timeline if I post it here. It would really, really help us out a lot. And, hey, even if you’re like me, rock-bottom-wallet-style? A boost will do just fine and will greatly help broaden my audience.

If you’re not on FR and still want to financially help, PM me at any time, and we can work it through there!

Thank you so much to everyone for reading, sharing, everything. You keep doin’ you ‘n bein’ cool :]

Have a picture of my sweet baby girl I took about an hour ago!

[lizzybeth1986]

Trust Me: Exploring the RCD LIs' Reactions to the Dirty Hollywood Expose.

Since it’s been two days since the clusterfuck that was this week’s chapter of RCD, and I’ve actually cooled down a little bit, I have a few thoughts about the story structure, the characters and what Tender Nothings means to at least three of the LIs:

The LIs

What I like, a lot, about RCD is that it’s got four different people, four different backgrounds - but all of them are in very similar places in their lives. All of them have dreams bigger than what they’ve got now. All of them feel they can be better, do better, than where they’re at. All of them aren’t completely happy with what they’re doing at present, but they do it anyway because they want to do more.

Seth

I’ll talk about the non-Hollywood (yet) LI first, coz his issues bear less similarities. Seth came to LA with a screenplay that got rejected, but decided he would move in a different direction - stand-up comedy. The first botched-up performance we see in Chapter 10 hits him hard, and his struggle in dealing with a less-than-ideal audience almost makes him believe he can’t make it.

This standup spot in the club was a big deal for him. This was something he had worked really hard towards. This was something that was supposed to make all the odd jobs, all the hustle, worth it. The fact that this was his one big moment, and he blew it, definitely bogs him down.

(Thank you @violetflipflops for these screenshots!)

The MC is at an interesting place when it comes to Seth. She is an outsider to his situation in the sense that she hasn’t had to face what he faced, in terms of rejection and hustle yet. But she is also familiar with his current situation as a comedian: like Seth, the MC is also at the brink of something big. It’s this ability to both be familiar with AND step outside of his situation, that helps her provide him with a fresh perspective. In doing so, she helps him work through his own issues. That’s why Seth’s situation moves forward so smoothly, and his friendship/relationship with the MC (so far) remains intact.

The MC

Before I move on to the other LIs, I need to address where the MC is at this point in her life as well. She’s a rank newcomer. She’s just gotten into the business, and in a matter of weeks has seen the kind of love and adulation that tends to emerge only from years of hustling and disappointment. It’s not easily for her by any means: the attention is overwhelming, confusing and downright creepy for her sometimes. BUT being in a position like this one places her in a situation where she can’t completely understand what it does to people.

There’s a reason why the story makes her rise to fame so meteoric and sudden. It’s to highlight how truly different her journey is, how much of an anomaly she is, how difficult it is for her to really understand what her love interests are actually going through, and why they act so irrationally at the end of this chapter (it doesn’t justify what they did or said, but it does give us an idea of why). And though she had made some progress in her relationships with either (or all) of them, she doesn’t exactly get who they really are yet.

She’s jumped fifty steps forward in her career, and that’s an anamoly even among these people who are famous in their own right. She hasn’t exactly had to really prove anything to anyone so far (except for that “last chance” Markus gives her post the Trust Falls exercise).

She probably hasn’t had her trust broken in a significant way yet either. So even if she’s in love with any of these three, she’s not in a stage where she is able to fully understand what they’re going through, or even relate. She just hasn’t been where they’ve been yet.

Matt

The MC is a fresh face, and the possibilities for her career are endless. So she doesn’t know yet the struggle of being typecast, the struggle of not being able to be creative about her choices (thanks Matt’s agent 😑), of having to prove she can do more…to people who don’t quite believe her, the way Matt does.

Mateo’s struggle involves a number of things: living up to his father’s legacy, his lack of freedom under his agent, and the fear that he will only ever be seen as potboiler action star with no real talent. He’s also hinted at having massive trust issues: growing up in an environment where he could never know for sure whether people liked him for him, or for being “Marco Rodriguez’s son”. In fact, one of the things that appeal most to him about the MC are her honesty and candidness.

(Screenshot from Vika Avey’s YouTube Channel)

For Matt, taking up Tender Nothings is a risk he is taking with his career, and a way of proving he can be more than an action star. It’s a film his agent - who seems to dictate his every move - disapproves of, and doesn’t want him to participate in, as well as a role that’s completely different from everything he has done so far. If he loses TN, he will get another role no doubt, but chances of him breaking free from the mould are few.

So the MC “leaking” the information hits him on two levels: the cancellation of the film robs him of a chance to prove his worth as an actor, and gives the agent another reason to force him in the most financially viable direction. But worst of all, it makes him regret the one time he decided to follow his gut and trust another person.

Teja

The MC is also a newcomer who has suddenly gained fame - so she probably doesn’t know what it feels like: to be bullied around by an irresponsible director, having to constantly right his wrongs so the set won’t fall apart…all for a dream of doing their own film some day, the way Teja does.

From the get-go, we see Teja in a stressful, thankless job, constantly trying to hold together a set that’s falling apart because Markus either has unrealistic demands or because he doesn’t plan much in advance. Why is she putting herself through this? The food truck diamond scene with her gives us hints:

(Screenshots from the Abhirio YouTube channel)

While her parents were eventually supportive of her dreams, Teja has got a long long way to go before she can strike out on her own. She speaks of LA, and Hollywood, as being “beautiful but lonely”, indicating that she doesn’t have a lot of friends, or people she can trust.

We see how talented and gifted Teja is while she is at work - she takes charge where Markus cannot, she figures out scheduling and puts together looks and finds locations. Basically things on set would go far less smoothly if her commonsense demeanor didn’t balance out Markus’ eccentricities.

For Teja, Tender Nothings is a film that not only includes a hotshot director, but also extremely prolific Hollywood stars. Shooting has barely even begun and Matt and Victoria being in the film has already created a buzz - to the extent that when the MC watches TV in Vegas, even she notices that the scheduling of the programmes was made solely to provide publicity for the film. Imagine the kind of exposure that would come out of such an experience, and imagine what it would mean for someone who is only braving this sort of working condition so she can be an independent filmmaker one day. The expose, for Teja, hurts her in multiple ways as well: she’s just lost something that could make all this trouble and stress worth it, and she has also been reminded of possible earlier encounters where people have taken advantage of her trust.

But worst of all - what Teja has really lost is credibility. She didn’t work this hard and deal with all these demands just so her success could be attributed to “sleeping her way to the top”. The way her expose is worded is a direct hit to everything she has ever worked for. It attacks her work ethic and forces people to look at her as someone who didn’t deserve to get that job on her own merit. And as evidence suggests, the one person she considered a close friend (or lover) had just possibly made it even harder for her to prove her worth as a filmmaker.

Victoria

The MC is also someone who hasn’t exactly seem the darker side of her fame yet - so even the idea that Victoria Fontaine could be viewed as a has-been shocks her. She doesn’t understand yet what it means to have an illustrious career, enough talent to overshadow all of Hollywood, and STILL find herself unwanted and underappreciated, the way Victoria does.

Victoria started out in worse conditions than the MC did when she started out: she addresses the MC’s humble apartment as a luxury compared to what she had, confesses to working as a “boobprechaun”, forced to earn in an environment she didn’t feel comfortable in, has had to face multiple rejections to get where she is today. The “manbun” husband is very possibly a reminder of that past, and it is a past that Victoria is definitely not happy remembering.

At this point in her story, she faces rampant sexist/ageist discrimination - constantly reminded that as a woman in the industry she has a limited shelf life, and that once she has crossed a certain age, she loses any value she will have as an artist, talent and skill be damned. From her latest diamond scene it is clear that Victoria constantly fears going back to that dark place in her life.

For Victoria, Tender Nothings is the only out she has. The only way she can stop herself from moving backwards. She’s desperate enough for the movie to work that she will be willing to swallow her pride and extend an olive branch to the newcomer who Markus humiliated her over.

For Victoria losing Tender Nothings isn’t only about losing her stardom, or losing out to the MC. Victoria is genuinely afraid of going back to where she came from, because it’s a horrible, dark place to be.

The MC “leaking” the news of her first marriage sets Victoria back in two ways: it robs her of what she sees as her last chance to prove she has what it takes to carry a film, that she is still very much bankable star material. It ALSO hints at a life that she has tried so hard to distance herself from, that she doesn’t want to go back to, and exposes it to an unforgiving public.

But I Still Have Problems.

I realise now that my problems with that last scene don’t lie so much in the fact that the scene is there at all. In retrospect, I feel this turning point breaks the illusion that the MC has of Hollywood, gives us an idea of her naivete, and ensures that the MC realises this is a cutthroat, dog-eat-dog place. I’m not happy it’s there, but I think it works as a transition.

My problem lies more in the way the scene was written. I have two major problems on this score:

1. The Painting: Victoria is definitely the angriest of the lot, and the most physically aggressive. A lot of it is understandable, because it took a lot out of her to apologize to the MC ( especially in a situation where she was the one being bullied by Markus and the MC was being treated like a “perfect princess who can do no wrong”), and extend that olive branch. To find out that such a person would screw up her career like that would definitely make Victoria lose it on some level. I probably understand Victoria’s reaction better because she has the biggest trust issues of the three, and because she really wasn’t able to build a bond with the MC the way the other two have. It would make sense for her to immediately believe that the MC is responsible because they’ve spent so little time together.

But what I do take issue with is the physical violence towards the MC, and the fact that the MC is being blamed for ruining the painting - an act that Victoria was mostly responsible for. I understand that making Victoria act out like this is essential for the plot - how else would the movie be cancelled? That goddamn painting is all Markus seems to be interested in during this shoot.

But my issue is that everyone blames the MC for destroying the painting, after witnessing the MC being attacked and roughed up. What else could she have done in this case, but defend herself?

2. Teja and Matt: Teja and Matt express more disappointment than anger, and given the trust issues I highlighted those reactions make a lot of sense. But I feel the writing really set them back here, because they are written as hardly giving the MC a chance or hearing her out, as opposed to dismissively waving off her protestations with “I trusted you but not anymore”. These are people who - if the MC so chooses - she has built a relationship with, possibly slept with, and defended on at least one occasion.

The entire last chapter was about defending Matt and Teja from Markus’ jibes, and using her position as the director’s favourite to back them up. This week’s chapter again the MC has gone out of her way to make sure the executives are satisfied, thus helping Teja. These are characters that players have spent time and diamonds on - most of which were to build trust with that LI - so to have a scene where they immediately express doubt of her motives, ends up alienating players who might have been interested and were ready to romance them.

I believe this scene in relation to Teja and Matt, could have been written with the same outcome far more positively. In my opinion, Matt or Teja could have been shown disappointed at first, but willing to hear the MC out. The MC could have been given choices on what to say. Maybe been given a chance to question how she’d even be able to get hold of such equipment. These two LIs at least would grudgingly hear her out, and then retreat and tell her that the evidence against her was too strong to ignore.

Sure, in such situations people don’t think that clearly, but having them at least willing to hear her out would have indicated to the player that the LI was at least willing to try hearing the MC out, and that those diamonds spent hadn’t entirely been a wasted investment.

In short my issue is not so much that they didn’t believe the MC - it was set up, unbelievably well, for that very outcome - my issue is that the story doesn’t depict them even trying to hear her out, after all the work the player has done to build a relationship between them and the MC.

Conclusion

I believe the story is structured such that the MC isn’t able to fully understand where her love interests (with exception to Seth) are coming from. She is naive and starry-eyed and hasn’t reached a stage where she can be jaded yet. She had acquired fame, but she’s not had to struggle with power dynamics and betrayal of trust the way these three LIs have, so she doesn’t completely get why they won’t immediately believe that she is innocent. She hasn’t been where they are. She has only just tasted fame - not dealt with the crushing rejections (in LA at least) that come with it, or seen the darker side of that fame. The LIs have, and this reflects clearly in their behaviour towards her after the expose. That doesn’t make their immediate dismissal of her protests okay to me, personally, but it helps me understand why this affects them and why they cannot be rational about it.

In short? My MC still loves Teja, and will probably fall into her arms the moment she apologizes. But you BET she’s going to be unbelievably petty about it for at least a while😂

[ktrxs]

LMAO I Lied

The last post, like last week, claimed that I overcame my two weeks of living in the dark. That I was now normal again..

Well, I lied. Because that very night, I stayed up all night and didn’t get to sleep until 8am. 8AM!!!! Why? Why did I do that to myself when I spent two weeks trying to get back to normal? Well, I had a shit ton of energy that I wanted to use to code for fun.

So I did.

Well, It took staying up for 27 hours Sunday night until Monday night to go to bed decently at 8pm and wake up this morning at 4am.

I am not claiming that I have finally conquered my schedule. I could easily fuck up tonight AGAIN and be screwed for another week. But OMG I do not want to go through that again. It’s so hard nowadays to stay up to 24 hours. I used to do it with no sweat as a teenager, but OMG, once you hit 23, you’re as good as gray.

Well, the week also caused a depressive rut for me. I couldn’t concentrate on anything and I was just a wreck. 

Yesterday was pretty nice. I stayed up to have a meeting and then I and Brandon had a date. We have agreed that we need to start prioritizing spending time together. So, every week, we’re going to have a date. And we each are in charge of planning the date on alternating weeks. 

I was in charge this week. I had plans on going on an adventure, but I was so exhausted that we stayed in and had a great time. We talked, played a game of questions then played Rento and Pokemon. I made chili for dinner and it was really nice and really fun.

So, I can’t wait for what he comes up with next week. 

I haven’t gone into too much detail on the horrible months of May and June this year. It was very traumatic and not just for me but for the whole family. And there are several effects that have happened because of it. One effect is that the other part of my family (the ones who stayed behind while my mom’s house was moving to TN) literally bought a house, packed and moved down there within a 3-week timeframe. So now my WHOLE, the entire family is in TN.

The goal of everyone was that my mom would move down there and my other family and I would follow them down within in two years. Well, this whole incident has caused us to move the timeframe.

It’s very important for my family to be together especially in this time of need. My mother and her husband have 5 kids under 18. They are both still healing from injuries and need help. And two kids are still healing from injuries and have numerous appointments. Mom and her husband cannot drive anymore and need transportation. So, we all need to come together and be a big family who is there for one another.

We can’t do that when we’re 12 hours away. So, my aunt and uncle and cousins moved down about 3 weeks ago. And, I wish I could leave right now.

We need to own our own place since no one will rent to someone who has four cats. So, Brandon and I need to save and build up money. Our plan is to save for land and then save to buy a mobile home for the land or save to build our own home.

But, first, we need to change our lifestyle. We already are very frugal people. But, we have started to cut back and are now saving $100-$200 every paycheck that Brandon makes. And, I recently found a way to cut our food bill in half so we can save an extra $200 a month on top of what we’re already saving. It’s so awesome! 

Another part of the equation is making more money. Brandon, as supervisor, gets bonuses every month and he works overtime as much as possible. He also just got a raise! So, he’s kinda maxed out. On to me. My book is about to get published. I am still going to freelance. And I am finally going to launch my online school that I hope will bring in some extra money. 

At this rate, we can have $1000 every 2 months just on Brandon’s income. It will be faster with my money, but we like to make plans with Brandon’s income and treat mine as a bonus since it’s so inconsistent.

I’m looking for more ways and hopefully, we can get down there within two years!

[glamglaremusic]

glamglare’s MONDO.NYC must-see picks

Last year, MONDO.NYC hit the New York music scene for the very first time and is heading into round two, starting October 4th. While MONDO.NYC is still a fairly small festival with roughly 180 participating artists, they come from all over the United States, Europe and Australia and this means a lot to discover! The festival’s focus is clearly on exciting new artists, with a few bigger names thrown in.

The particular allure of a festival like this lays in the possibility to explore at your own leisure without the need to be bound at one big stage or one venue only. With that in mind, MONDO.NYC concentrates on a few independently owned music venues on the Lower East Side, namely:

The Bowery Electric

Rockwood Music Hall

Pianos

The Delancey

Berlin Bar

DROM

Aside from music, MONDO.NYC offers an impressive conference part, three days jam-packed with sessions, panels and workshops all around the music business. A badge gets you into the conference action AND the showcases.

We have listened through most of the 180+ participating acts, checked out the MONDO.NYC recommended highlights and our picks are acts we finally want to see live, or want to see again or are simply curious how they would sound live. With most of the action being on the Lower East Side, we do the festival thing and hop from place to place. Here’s our schedule for MONDO.NYC 2017, with room for spontaneous discoveries… If you see us, please say ‘hi’. Enjoy!

For more info check out MONDO.NYC.

  WEDNESDAY – October 4th

7:00 pm @ Bowery Electric Downstairs Laura Sauvage indie rock Montreal, Canada

7:30 pm��@ DROM Royal Prospect rock pop Lomma, Sweden

8:00 pm @ The Delancey Shag Rock rock Brisbane, Australia

10:00 pm @ Pianos Showroom Blak Emoji pop/rock New York, NY Festival 8 @ C’mon Everybody, August 2016 Live @ Knitting Factory for Northside Festival 2016 Song Pick of the Day – “Sapiosexual”

10:30 pm @ DROM Eli Tyler electro pop New York, NY

THURSDAY – October 5th

7:00 pm @ The Delancey Grit indie rock Paris, France Video – “Divided By One”

8:00 pm @ Pianos Showroom Holy Golden dream pop USA Song Pick of the Day – “Where Were You When”

8:00 pm @ Bowery Electric Downstairs Danny Ayer electronic New York, NY

8:00 pm @ DROM Alpines electronic Kingston upon Thames, UK Song Pick of the Day – “Heaven” Favorite Top 10 Albums of 2016 – Oliver’s Picks

9:00 pm @ Pianos Upstairs MÏRÄNDÄ electronic New York, NY Video – “Them”

9:00 pm @ Rockwood Music Hall Stage 3 Angel Snow indie rock Franklin, TN

11:00 pm @  Bowery Electric Map Room åMBe electronic Brooklyn, NY Live @ The Delancey, May 2017V Video – “Of Your Crimes”

11:00 pm @ Bowery Electric Downstairs Brass Phantoms indie rock Dublin, Ireland

11:00 pm @ Pianos Showroom Von Sell electro pop Brooklyn, NY Song Pick of the Day – “Miss Me” Video – “I Insist”

  FRIDAY – October 6th

6:00 pm @ The Delancey EinarIndra electronic soul Reykjavík, Iceland Live @ Húrra for Iceland Airwaves 2016

7:00 pm @ Bowery Electric Downstairs The Lulls progressive soft rock San Diego, CA Live @ The Delancey, October 2016 Live @ The Bowery Electric for MONDO.NYC 2016 Video – Paris Song Premiere – “Bruise”

7:00 pm @ Rockwood Music Hall Stage 1 Mishti post-pop rock New York, NY Live @ C’mon Everybody, August 2016

8:00 pm @ The Delancey Late Guest At The Party electronic New York, NY Song Premiere – “Add It Up” Song Premiere – “Give You A Life”

9:00 pm @ The Delancey Mt. Wolf electronic London, UK Live @ The Sidewinder for SXSW 2017 Live @ Latitude 30 for SXSW 2017 Song Pick of the Day – “The Electric”

10:00 pm @ Rockwood Music Hall Stage 1 Hillary Capps alt pop New York, NY

10:00 pm @ Pianos Showroom Carnival Youth rock Riga, Latvia Live @ Pianos for Mondo.NYC 2016

10:00 pm @ The Delancey Sleep Thieves indie pop Dublin, Ireland Song Pick of the Day – “Is This Ready”

11:00 pm @ The Delancey Letters to Nepal indie electronic New York Live @ Knitting Factory for Northside Festival 2017 Song Pick of the Day – “Come Find Me” Live @ Cake Shop, September 2016 Live @ Arlene’s Grocery,April 2015

  SATURDAY – October 7th

6:00 pm @ – The Delancey GIRL SKIN folk rock’n’roll Brooklyn, NY Planned Parenthood (compilation) Live @ Knitting Factory for Northside Festival 2017 Live @ The Delancey, March 2017

7:00 pm @ The Delancey Gabrielle Marlena folk Brooklyn, NY

8:00 pm @ DROM Tusks electronic UK EP Review Song Pick of the Day – “Toronto” Song Pick of the Day – “False”

9:00 pm @ – Berlin Bar Beechwood punk New York, NY

11:00 pm @ The Delancey Climbing Trees indie rock South Wales, UK Song Pick of the Day – “Fall”

11:00 pm @ Rockwood Music Hall Stage 3 Jackie Venson blues / rock Austin, TX Song Pick of the Day – “Flying”

11:00 pm @ Rockwood Music Hall Stage 1 Shiffley indie/pop-rock Long Island, NY

SUNDAY – October 8th

4:45 pm @ Pianos Upstairs Maya Lazaro electronic New York, NY Video – “Nothing”

8:00 pm @ Pianos Upstairs Between Giants electro pop USA

Listen to the music of our must-see artists, and then come out and see them perform live:

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[theukefreak-blog]

You know what time it is.... time for a long overdue blogpost!!! 😊

Hello once again readers and welcome to an update on my life this year. Seeing that the year is already half way over (what?) and I FINALLY got a new laptop, I thought it’d be an appropriate time to inform everyone how I am doing and what exactly I am doing with my life and throw out some knowledge (or else lack there of) to you 20 somethings and the like going through the same experience as me.  The experience that is not really knowing what you’re doing.

In my New Year post, I expressed a lot of resolutions I had set for myself.  I have not yet accomplished all of them and have a feeling many will have to carry on in to the next year but I will accomplish these goals! (Eventually...).

I guess the big news to drop (in case you didn't figure it out yet...) yep, I'm still in Florida. As I was making my final decision to stay or go - I heard back for a part time job back at Walt Disney World.  It seemed that, once again, I didn't really have anything else going on so I jumped back on the Disney train and signed a year lease to an apartment on the west end of Orlando. I love my job there. I got to learn to drive raft boats and though it is extremely hot and I sweat 100% of the day- how cool is it to say that I can drive a boat?! Plus I'm only part time so I work on average 20 hours there and 30 hours at my serving job. (I realize having two jobs as an adult is stupid and not completely necessary but I gots money now and... I'm figuring it out. K) Plus the difference in the jobs sometimes makes it feel like I'm really not working much at all... well, until I do get time off and my body hates me... but anyway.

I’ve also recently been trained at Splash Mountain which is going down for refurbishment in t-minus one month. So I’ll work there probably only the 3 - 11 hour shifts I’m scheduled next week (already crying).  And once I’m back from vacay (spoiler alert see you in 10 days TN!) I probably won’t be scheduled at Disney at all.  New CP’s (College Program Cast Members) = No hours for me. Yay.  So I’ll have to fill the gap in the meantime.  I’ve applied to a few seasonal jobs in Orlando in which I should hear yay or nay from all mid - August.

I have completed a couple of my resolutions and have created business cards for myself which have definitely helped.  I now have a show at least once a month and have one student I vocal coach! Hopefully these things progress for me but if not, as always, I'll figure it out.  I feel like that definitely has been the moto since graduating college - “I'll figure it out”.  I'm actually starting to discover that that is a lot of peoples motos... but I'll go deeper and evaluate on that later.

I have definitely managed to stay more positive this year. Has the anxiety completely subsided? Heck no. But it is way less than the year prior. Guess it only took me a year to adjust to FL. Lets be real though, I'll never be completely used to it.  I'm still in search for my niche. I've made more friends and am experimenting on different musical endeavors (don't know if that sentence is grammatically correct.....annnnd don't care) (with different endeavors? Idk) but the musical shenanigans are cool and we'll see if it goes anywhere.  I’m attending more open mics and pushing hard for more shows as hard as that is.

I miss being in a band.  I miss it a lot.  The bass slapping, the harmony singing, the good vibes, all of it.  Solo riding is hard, but I’m trying to take this time to experiment with my own music.  Just bought an interface system and speakers for my fancy new laptop (recording gear for those not musically inclined).  I’m super stoked to throw down some jams.... (EP to come?)  Like I said....working on that bucket list..

I’m trying to get back into yoga.  I’ll preach and preach until I’m blue in the face - YOGA IS AMAZING.  Anxiety? Yoga.  Back pain? Yoga.  Can’t sleep? Yoga.  Bored? YOGA. DO IT.  I find the more I keep with the practice the less stressed I am and the better I feel.  

Speaking of feeling better - I love to write these to get some things off my chest and drop what little knowledge I have acquired.  

Since graduating college - I’ve felt like quite the lost little pup.  I’ve felt failure, I’ve felt pride, I’ve felt confusion, I’ve felt confidence.  I’ve found the real world to be intense.  It feels like I was looking through pamphlets for this roller coaster my whole life and it didn’t look so bad.  But then I got in line and the nerves hit.  I think that’s where I am right now - I’m still in line for the real world and my heart is pounding out of my chest because it looks so terrifying in person.  I need to just jump on the ride though. (After it’s stopped for me to get on...for safety reasons...) Actually no - I do just need to jump on and enjoy the ride because I love roller coasters, and I know that once I’m on I’ll have a blast.  I think I just gave myself advice whilst trying to give you guys advice.

Jump on that roller coaster.  Don’t wait for it to stop.  

ALSO I want whoever’s reading this to know that it’s okay to not have “it” figured out...whatever “it” is.  You don’t have to be your parents or your grandparents.  You don’t have to follow the stereotype of your small town.  You don’t have to find a stable job right away that you’ll work till you die (what fun is that anyway...) You don’t have to get married and have children and live in a house in the same town you grew up in.  Or you can.  YOU DO YOU.  Don’t follow anyone’s path but your own.  If you feel pressured to live another life - runaway.  Maybe literally or metaphorically.  YOGA.  Go out into the world - live in 20 different cities - live apartment to apartment and paycheck to paycheck.  Stay single or don’t.  Just be free.  Never feel caged.  Relax.  Love.  Live by the sun and Love by the moon.  The universe is for YOU.  And so is everything else.  Namaste ;)

Love always, ELIZABETH.