#saturdays be like that i guess xD

[sentientstump]

i was on the verge of losing hope xD

[elvenbeard]

Road Trip 4/4 🌃

V: "And next you'll draw me like one of your French girls!" Kerry: "Wow, impressive... really brushin' up on your early 2000s meme knowledge!" V: "I'd watch the original extended version of Lord of the Rings for you, babe..." Kerry: "Nerd, you'd do that anyway!"

Every trip has to come to an end, but that only means the next one can start :D Nothing better than winding down on clean sheets and with a long shower after a day-trip through the desert!

Honestly, I had so much fun with this little project, I might do something similar again in the future XD See where else they'll end up on this or the next journey :3 Hope you also had fun following along!

[victorluvsalice]

Goo Goo Dolls - Fearless [Official Lyric Video] by Goo Goo Dolls

Another recent add to the list of songs that make me think of my Valicer In The Dark AU! Admittedly, I wasn't entirely sure why at first -- my brain just went "yes, this has the right vibes" one day. XD But after a few more listens, I've decided the lyrics DO fit the VITD crew rather well. Stuff like "Some days will be harder than others/so we gotta lean on each other" describes their dynamic well, while the pre-chorus "We're living in a world unfair/We're living in a world so scared" is an excellent description of Duskwall, and especially their adopted neighborhood of Six Towers (which is essentially a big old slum made out of abandoned rich people houses). And the chorus! Not only do you have to be fearless to be a scoundrel in Duskwall, it suits their own personal situations well -- conquering their personal demons and discovering how happy they can be together. :D Plus it's one of those songs where I can easily make up my own mental music video of the gang having adventures to the lyrics, so -- yeah. Good stuff all around, can recommend. :)

[underqualified-human]

2012! Donnie: Secret relationship revealed

→ Request: Hi! I love your tmnt posts and was wondering if you could write a one shot (no 1st pov pls) of 2012!donnie x (fem) reader in a secret relationship but getting caught kissing/(or making out) XD I think the gangs reaction would be priceless!!!!

→ A/N: It’s been quite a while since I last watched the show, so some of it may be a little bit OOC

→ Warnings: Super indulgent because I was super sick and I hated it, no beta, nothing else I believe

→ Fandom: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

→ Genre: Oneshot

→ Word Count: 473

→ Pronouns: She/ Her [though most of my 2nd person writing pieces tend to lean more ]

You tapped your pencil against the blank answer sheet, subconsciously rubbing your runny nose on your sleeve. 

Your headache wasn't intense enough to call 'splitting' but it was bad enough to be a distraction. While you were out sick the maths teacher had covered new material while you were out, and you understood none of it.

You sniffed and reached for your glass of water, your throat was dry and itchy but almost nothing you drank helped in the long run. You rubbed your eyes and tried to turn your attention back to your work, but it was a lost cause.

You laid your head down on your desk, using your arms as a pillow.

The window opened while you were cradling your aching head. You sniffed again, which instantly caught Donnie’s attention. “What’s wrong? Did someone say something to you? Are you hurt?”

You cut off his concerned questioning with a sneeze, which made him calm down the smallest bit.

“You look terrible,” he noted. You shot him a half-hearted glare while taking a large gulp of water. “Not like that. I just- I mean you look really sick.” You would have laughed if it didn’t mean feeling nails scratching the inside of your throat. 

He was always like this, shy and a little jittery, even though you’ve been together for a few months. It’s endearing, in Donnie’s own way,

He glanced at the clock in your room, and then back at your tired figure. “Shouldn’t you already be sleeping?” 

You let out a small groan, “I guess…”

“How long have you been working?” He asked, stepping closer to your desk.

“Not that long-” you slurred and took another sip of water “-since seven I think.”

Judging by Donnie’s face, it was quite a bit past seven already. 

“You really need some sleep-”

“I know.” You snapped, then let out a sigh, noticing his hurt expression. "I know,” you repeated, softer this time, “It’s just - this homework needs to be finished for tomorrow and-"

"Tomorrow's Saturday."

"...Oh." You both let out a small chuckle and you immediately reached for your water.

Laying down on your bed, you stared up at the ceiling and let out a sigh. “I’m sorry we couldn’t do anything tonight, D.”

“It’s fine,” he responds quickly, “It’s not like you chose to get sick.” 

“See you next week?”

He gave you a quick nod before jumping out of your window and onto the roof, only to be met with all three of his brothers waiting for him.

Leo stood front and centre, his arms crossed over his plastron. “Care to explain?”

“Um, well you see, the thing is- smoke bomb!” The egg landed at their feet, exploding into a cloud of black and purple fog.

“Donnie!”

“So not cool, dude.”

“He is getting pummeled when we get home.”

Tagging: @urfavarab[requester]

[oumiyuki]

First Outdoor Live for Shuka and me: Saito Shuka 5th Anniversary Shuen 2024: Tenshi to Akuma no Sasayaki 👼😈

Gosh, how do I even begin…?

First, I just want to let everyone know how hot it was XD I’m already someone who sweats a lot and the heat from the Sun returning the same passionate feelings as us Shukajins and Shuka ;D was simply…! HOT!!

For Day 1 (17 August 2024, Saturday), I did not have the leeway of using my analog hand fan or the Aqours electronic fan I had on hand as I was finding my way around Saitama to get to Tobu Zoo where Shuka’s Live was being held.

As you all know, I was running late due to that! And it was also because I made the mistake of still wearing my watch – that made me think I still had time, but Japan is one hour ahead of Singapore! XD Gyaahh!

I feel like the guide Shuka and staff left about exiting from the North Exit and it being a 10 minutes walk to Tobu Zoo is…for people in the know XD and interestingly, the station itself had a paper put up guiding visitors to take the West exit! So well, I followed that instead.

I was already running late, I was attempted to follow guys that wore Converse shoes cos that’s a good way to guess that they are Shuka fans heading to her Live venue but because I was already late, I figured it’s not wise to follow random dudes in hopes they are going to the zoo XD So don’t worry, I didn’t. Instead, I went to the bus and asked the nice bus driver uncle if it goes to Tobu Zoo >v<

When I made it there, 2 lady staff was waiting in a tent and helped me put on the wrist band for the zoo pass and Shuka’s Live pass – thank you! Because I would’ve been stumbling to put it on (I was fumbling with it for Day 2 XD) The nice ladies then told me it’s another 15 mins to Shuka’s Live venue and I was like – “Ah, thank you.” On the outside. But inside my mind, I was like, “Ehhh!? Another 15 mins?! Even though I’m already late. Mouuuu!!” And I jogged and sped walk my way to the venue XD

The “good” thing of being late is that you get to be led to Shuka’s venue by her wonderful singing voice XD

I also like how when I ran past the attraction for a roller coaster ride that had tall stones with Egyptian carvings on it and some other horrific poster near it, I was like, “Yeah nope, turn right because no way Shuka’s Live venue is where something scary is XD” And it is the right way to continue on my way.

[Egytian carvings to the left, let the Shuka poster be your guide]

Speeding things up, because why would you want to know what else I saw on the way there, right? >v<``

When I neared the Live venue, that’s where you’ll see the Live Goods tent too. As I ran pass, I saw the merch I wanted sold out already so I was a bit sad but more importantly!! I could sense Shuka already XD Jogging in and slowing to a walk so as to not disturb anyone, I tried looking for my seat but it was like “BWAAHH!! AAHHH!! WOOO!!!” energy from lots of guys cheering so I was like “Never mind, I’ll stay at the back” XD

I joined in just as Shuka started the Devil Side of the Live!! (Courtesy to the Shukajin who made a set list record so I could fact check where I popped in >w<) So, it was where Shuka was singing “Baby Tell Me”!

But truth be told, I can barely remember how the song went cos I laid eyes on Shuka in her Devil themed outfit and I was just speechless, eyes glued to how amazing she looks and while I was amazed by her shining on stage and performing, I was very much constantly thinking about how good she looks in that outfit XD

You’ve seen the pics, you felt the same way! I bet on it!! XD Aahhhhhhh!!! >w<♡♡♡

[mind blown, attention stolen, Devil Shuka is here]

Followed by a Medley of HYPED songs…!! *O*

Tsuki de hoshi de Taiyou da

Zenshin Zenrei

Ippai Attena

Bokura wa Genius

Excuse me, Shuka-san?? I believe this was where I jumped a bit too much and knocked my knees against the long bench XD And Miyuki here didn’t even realize it until she’s back in the hotel later to see the bruises. I’m telling you, the hype and high and smiles you feel from being on cloud 9 after experiencing a Shuka Live let’s you not feel pain XD But adrenaline aside, I did apply my essential oil blend that soothes pain so I’m guessing that’s why I could still go all out for Day 2! HAHAHA!

*coughs coughs* Back to the Live!

Shuka performs Darake next, and you can bet the energy explodes even more because everyone was looking forward to the 555 songs?? At least I was!!!

ShuShuShu is next and I had my Ai no Yajirushi towel with me so I took it out to twirl for this towel song!! Towel songs are so funnnn~ (I’ve been a fan of towel songs since μ's Mermaid Festa Vol.2, and have been looking forward to any towel songs. SO, I thoroughly enjoyed Shuka’s one too!!)

Mata Ashita was the next song. I vaguely remember me swinging my hands along to it >v<

I don’t remember where the MC part takes place, but I’m going to assume here where she had performed a bunch of songs already. Shuka mentions how she posted about her having a sore throat and that made everyone worry so she apologizes and reassures us that she is alright and in fact, super energetic >w< She’s adorable when showing how energetic she is. >w<

I felt that her sore voice wasn’t obvious in her singing which is really cool. Other than when she performed “Mikata”, that one was when you hear some scratchiness in her singing voice. Ah, and when she talked, that was when her scratchy voice was obvious.

Shuka calls out the dancers called “Gyaruz” to introduce them and that’s when a cute moment happens cos Shuka starts asking her band members if she forgot to introduce them XD Usually the flow would be to introduce her band members first! And so, her band members told her Shuka did forget and she was a little in denial about that like “I forgot?? Ehh? I forgot??” XD Too cute. And then she introduces each of them!

Shukajin then goes: “You forgot something!”

Shuka: “Mm?”

Shukajin: “Vocalist?”

Shuka smiles, “And the vocalist is Saito Shuka.”

And we all clap and cheer for her!! >w</

Somewhere in between the MC part is a conversation where Shuka makes a cute noise with her scratchy voice too and it was extra adorable. I think it might be where she was asking her band member if she forgot to introduce them? I don’t remember exactly, I just know she was adorable XD That voice was hnnggg XD

Oh, and Shuka asks if we got hit by the water she shot. And the reaction was… “Yes!!!” and she apologizes that only some got hit by the water? XD

I… …also remember Shuka saying that we have now seen Angel Shuka, Devil Shuka and now that she is wearing the Live Tee she is Real Shuka! (which is the purple coloured Tenshi to Akuma no Sasayaki t-shirt but cut up and redesigned into a different fashionable way which allows Shuka to show off her midriff when she dances >//w//< paired with her jeans-shorts. Healthy legs in display =//w//=b)

[Real Shuka and her midriff ahhhh >//w//<♡]

You know, now that I’ve reminisced to here, I wonder if Shuka performed One Piece and Kutsuhimo first before the MC part >v<``

Because, when wanting to lead into a song, birthday bgm plays by the band member and the Gyaruz girls help to bring out the birthday cake and we all sang “Happy Birthday” to Shuka!! >w<7 It’s always so fun singing it to her hehe~

Shuka sneaks some to eat and from there is where it became picture-taking time!!

I love how everyone sat down and Shuka was like, “If you sit, we can’t see you!”

Then, some of us stood up again. And Shuka continues to say, “Ah, but it’s okay, we can take a proper picture later.”

That leaves us lost as to whether we should sit or stand XD So some was sitting, some was standing XD

[Day 1 together picture; I can be seen hehe >v<]

The photo gets taken and we go on to have Shuka perform the final song Mikata.

Shuka thanks everyone after, running to the sides of the stage and back to the middle to bow, the Gyaruz and band members join her to join hands and bow to us too…

It’s always such a bittersweet feeling when the Live ends. And as she’s going back stage, she waves to us, smiles, bows, all of that. It doesn’t take long for her to disappear behind but it’s kind of slow motion in my memory…=v=

And once you hear the electronic announcer voice says it’s the end of Shuka’s Live, that’s when we clap real hard again and then start to disperse. :>

I was at the back so I just made sure to drink more water, wipe my sweat, take a photo of stage and the Sun shining through the ferris wheel to us. 😊I then bumbled my way over to the goods tent and checked what else is selling. Although the t-shirt and keychains were sold out already, the hood towel was still available! So I went to buy one >v</ (LITERALY NO REGRETS FOR THIS BUY. More about it in Day 2 gushings :P)

Aaaand, the next part of the tent is where they are selling Shuka CDs and whatnot, I already have all her CDs so I didn’t buy anything from there, so onto the third section of the goods tent, there was where a staff would give out a postcard with Shuka at a spot in Tobu Zoo where the bears are at! Super cute picture UwU Alongside the Stamp Rally card and he stamps Day 1 on it! The tiger is so cuteeeee!!! Look at her!! >w<

[Tobu Zoo kuma Shuka!]

Beside that booth, is a present box where we can put our gifts to Shuka there. So, I took out my gift for her and placed it gently inside ^w^ From what I noticed, I think not many knew if there will be a present box cos I think there was less than 5 presents including mine XD While on Day 2, I believe I spotted a bit more presents in the box XD I hope Shuka loves the present I chose for her!! \>w</ Woof woof!

(Gosh, I’m making you all read so many words. There’s no way y’all are reading all these, right? XD To you who read all the way to here. Thank you. And I hope you’re smiling as much as I am while writing these~ ^w^)

[Sunset. This picture captures the feeling after a Shuka Live… Breath-taking, at a loss for words yet so much feeling/emotion running through your mind…]

~ DAY 2 ~

The Summer heat was high. I am early at Tobu Zoo this time because I don’t want to miss a single second of her Live. I won’t go into details of the fun before the performance but just so you know, it’s so awesome that our Live ticket already includes full access to the zoo and amusement park attractions! ^w^

Now…

It’s really hot and I kid you not. I was grateful for any natural wind and not natural wind that blew our way. When it was time to enter the space where the Live will be though, there was no natural wind there and my Aqours electric fan of course decided “I’ve worked hard for you for HOURS now. Time to rest…zzz…” [cue my shocked face XD] But it’s okay!! It’s like minutes to the start of Tenshi to Akuma no Sasayaki Day 2!!! I’ll just keep wiping this sweat and hydrating—

AHHH!! When the music changes to like a storm is brewing and SOMETHING IS COMING…!! And the band members come out!! I love them, by the way. We all love Shuka so we’re here but her band members just feel like family or super good friends already (to Shuka) so the feeling of cheering for them is sincere and excited~ >v<

And then, and then, there was this mash up of Shuka songs too…That one made me feel like if there was a montage playing too of Shuka’s growth, that’d be so cool too. But just hearing the songs mashed together like that… It evoked that feeling already and the scenes of MV to Shuka Live performances played in my mind too anyways—

HYAAAA!! From that, THE wedding-like music starts playing and, I think the backup dancers were already around and I was doing my best to absorb all that was happening. (Oh, also there were a bunch of tall guys so I had to tiptoe to see Shuka XD) But it’s all worth it when I saw Shuka in her Angel form which was this outfit like a wedding dress. Miyuki mind: CHOTTO MATTE EEEHHHHHHH?? KAWAIIIIIIIII!!! HOLD ON. WHAT, HOW, WHY, SHUKA?? >w<

I was smiling widely and fangirling hard inside XD And she starts singing Aishiteshimaeba. I love this song a lot too but because of being caught up in the moment…? I totally forgot Shuka’s Live performances are extra fun with the dance moves she came up for us to dance along with her XD So when this super enthusiastic fan beside me did the moves – I was like OH YEAH, THERE WAS THAT. WAHHH. And tried to mimic and dance along the best I could >v< I kept remembering how Shuka told us she wants us to not be shy and be cute for this song so I focused back on seeing her perform on stage and did my best for the moves where I can remember XD

PaPaPa is the next song. And this is one of her super hyped songs too. Understandable considering how fun it is and one of her early songs too! >v< So, as someone who usually play the blurays at home and cheer with my hands/light sticks, I forgot again that there’s like claps and other things the at-the-venue fans do XD I feel like I’m being too focused on this because of the enthusiastic and loud fan beside me but I’m not opposed to learning the fan moves in the first place! I especially like the Love Live! ones after all :P So well, I was trying to follow along…again… XD

P.S. It feels good to be praised by Shuka when you pull off the moves so it pays off? >w<

PiPiPi next!!! I loooooove this song a lot >v< Maybe it’s because I love old school things but the lyrics having “antenna” in it just makes me smile so much XD And and, it’s such a cute song?? And thus, I didn’t forget the dance moves for this one XD I can’t even explain how adorable Shuka looks throughout this song as she sings and dance it… I’m sorry for my lack of vocabulary for it… But just imagine that…that megawatt smile, glowing not just from the stage lighting but from the Sun and her angelic form?? That’s how it was from my POV… TvT

Here comes the new song from her 555 album! And yes, it’s PuPuPu!!! MEANING SHE JUST CHAINED THE PAPAPA-PIPIPI-PUPUPU SONGS!!! That’s such a cool thing to do, right!? *O* And I love this song from her new mini album!! It’s peppy, it’s fun, it’s cute, it tells a story of friendship when two argues and how they care about the other, and understands the other too, and how they make up and it’s all good again. >v<♡♡♡ I know I had the biggest, silly smile as I watched her sing this song, staying on my tippy toes to keep my eyes on her… mmm… Cute and wonderful. (I also clap hard after each song I think XD)

After that much hype, it’s MC time!

I found it cute how Shuka knew we’d want to do it?? So she gets us to congratulate her for her 5th Anniversary. And also to wish her happy birthday XD So she would say “Shuka-chan, congratulations on your debut 5th anniversary” and we’d echo “CONGRATULATIONS!!” and she goes, “Shuka-chan, happy birthday~” and we’d echo, “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!” >w<

Shuka then mentions about wanting to go bbq together and we’d shout back things like “Let’s do it!” and another one even went, “Right after this??” XD

Shuka likes to know the fans that are around so she starts asking our age group! When she asked “Are there teens?”, the person behind screamed so loudly <v<; Me and the other guys in front visibly flinched from the loudness XD I think Shuka was looking to the other side so perhaps she was not affected by that screech! Then she goes, “Those in the twenties?” and I cheered! I chuckled a bit on the inside that those in their twenties did a very cordial cheer? It was properly loud but not annoying is how I remember it XD And then Shuka goes, “Those in the thirties?” There was quite a bunch too and I remember I accidentally pumped my fist up too XD I was like, Hold on, Miyuki. We still have a few years to that. XD And when she asked for the older age group and there were still replies Shuka was happy about that!! :D

[Shuka serenading us and playing instruments for us at the same time TwT She's so amazing, mouuuu, daisuki! >w<]

Shuka spoke more and then asked us to take a seat for now as she wants to serenade us >v</ I gladly sat down to hydrate myself but I was concerned if I could see Shuka when sitting down @v@ Thankfully? I could see her in between the heads of the tall people in front of me XD But it was slightly tough to make the head of hair become unfocused while I tried to make my eyes focus on Shuka only. It was a strange first minute or two while I watched Shuka play the harmonica and sing Himitsu Dogu. But gosh, I’ve wanted to experience this Live too and it’s wonderful each time!!!

Next, Shuka sings Kokoro from her 555 mini album. My eyes soften as I nod to the music and her singing voice, taking in each lyric into my heart. I really liked how everyone sat quietly and listened. And I couldn’t tear my eyes away from Shuka for even a second.

When the music started for Hanarenaide, I felt something from the tip of my toes to my fingers and the top of my head. I knew this song resonated with me from when I heard it back home, but Shuka singing it to you Live? While you’re sitting there, and she’s sitting up on the stage… It’s like the world just had me and her. I remember I could not help but groove to the song and her words and I simply wanted the words in my mind to reach her – zutto hanaremasen. zutto soba ni… (I’m never letting go. I’ll be by your side always.)

We clapped so hard when she finished singing. >o<♡♡♡

And while I was feeling things, Shuka goes off stage to get changed and the band gets their solo moments!! It’s suuuuper cool! *w*

Miss Devilish Shuka returns in her full devil form and I swear I still feel the same way as Day 1 – Excuse me, Shuka-san?? What are you wearing?? What are you doing to me?? XD That looks so sexy and pretty and devilish indeed!? XD

[The Devil owns my heart and takes good care of it!?]

Shuka is singing Baby Tell Me and it’s such a fun song too to be bouncing to while she have fun singing and running about the stage?? Oh, but she did not just run around the stage. This was where she was going to shoot us with water XD So she also ran all the way to the back and climbed a tower?? A high place XD And she sprayed a whole lot of water – from that far back, the water barely not reached me XD So I was like “Aww” >v< But it wasn’t over yet…!! She ran down and came all the way the sides too to spray us with water with her water hose-gun thing XD So yes – I was hit by the holy or maybe not so holy water since she’s on the Devil Portion of the Live now XD

It's one heck of an experience to see her up close!! It’s like, “Oh right, Shuka is that small. How is she so small but so amazing? Oh gosh, Shuka is right here…!!” kind of thoughts as she ran between the aisles to spray us with water! And then back to the stage!! >w<

After this hype marathon, there was some music box and thunder bgm which brought the mood back to “Oooh what’s next??” >v< And Shuka starts singing Tsuki de hoshi de Taiyo da! So I was jumping and hyping along to it! >w</ And when you’re hyping to it, suddenly it’s a little interval bgm thing again and she’s onto the next song Zenshin Zenrei…!!! *O* Waahhh!!

You’re Zenshin zenrei-ing one moment, and then bam, now it’s Ippai Attena!! XD It’s one hype song after another, I’m telling you!! All I remember now is being unable to stop smiling, to be bouncing on my tip toes to constantly get to see Shuka and cheering happily. (All while appreciating her moves and smile of course ;D) Bokura wa Genius is the final of the Hype Medley. This song was always super energetic for the full version too so definitely a wonderful finale of the medley hehe >w< Ugh, whenever she lowers her voice for a cool moment during the song…! >w< It’s so goooood >w</

Oohh, I like this next part – the BGM gets you pumped and Shuka asks you to do a few rounds of “S-H-U-K-AAAAA SHUKA!” cheers before her next song Darake!!! >w< I want to do that agaaain >w</ Shuka counts the number of times we cheer it with her fingers so we know how many to go too \*w*/

[Inner Miyuki reacting to Shuka counting down >v<]

And now we are onto the 4th song of her 555 mini album. I was trying to take note of where she planted each of her new songs too, and I loved how they were placed!! ^w^

PuPuPu alongside the other fun triple P songs >v<

Kokoro and Hanarenaide as a ‘sit down get serenaded’ segment

Darake as part of the Devilish hyped portion

And last would be Mikata >v<

But first, TOWEL SONG…!! ShuShuShu!! As mentioned in Day 1 report, I find towel songs extra entertaining and fun for us to participate in >w</ This time, I tried twirling the Tenshi to Akuma no Sasayaki towel… and I must say, it’s a bit heavy to spin XD But all in all, there was spinning, jumping and cheering \>w</

Sekai no hate is one of my favourite songs too. It’s so cool, empowering, and the MV is as gorgeous as Shuka! I remember hearing it for the anime and then the MV…Shuka’s brown eyes literally so bright and alluring! And I would think Shuka rocks any colour but she rocks her favourite colour red so, so well…!! u>v<u I digress. Shuka on stage performing Sekai no hate is charming and I was left staring and experiencing her performance. I didn’t even bother doing the cheers the dudes around were doing. It’s that feeling of…like, all you can see is Shuka, all you can hear is Shuka, and…it’s just an amazing feeling.

At the end of this song though, Shuka reached out her hand skywards and stayed in that pose for a long time, so it’s like she froze and the people around started wondering if she really froze XD Then she “unfroze” and head towards the backstage again for outfit change! I bet she was feeling the moment thus the elongated pause in pose. =w=♡

Piano version of Hero ni narikatta plays while we wait for Shuka to return. 😊And this is another one of my favourite songs from her. I especially love the acoustic version and so I was loving the instrumental as I get hydrated, waiting for what Shuka is going to bring next—

I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR MY TOP FAVOURITE SONG OF SHUKA’S TO BE PERFORMED NEXT.

THE SECOND THE FIRST BEAT DROPPED.

My eyes widened, my jaw fell agape morphing into a smile of disbelief and awe.

My processor was going into overdrive as I understood that Shuka was singing “Mou Muri Demo Hashiru”. I literally, unapologetically, and fervently tell whoever I can and Shuka that my favourite song of hers is this. It’s been an unspoken dream of mine to get to experience this song of hers Live. I’ve seen the MV, I’ve looped the song a gazillion times, I’ve watched her perform it in other Live performances via the Blurays, but…Live in person?? I wanted to get to taste this. And I am living it. The world does not even need a rebuilt or to “fall apart” again as I was still living in the space that felt like it was just Shuka and me as my eyes never strayed from her, when she pours her heart out in singing each syllable and verse which she would go lower to the stage’s floor, I’d just do my best to tip toe some more to see her, chasing after every poignant second of this performance. I lipsynced to it as the words were known by heart. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to properly convey my love for this song and how good Shuka’s Live performance of this was.

If you ever have the chance, please go to Shuka’s Live and experience her performance. It reaches your heart…

And while I’m still reeling from having a dream come to fruition unexpectedly… (Shuka is amazing that way, right?  (◕‿◕)♡) The next song Shuka performs is Kutsuhimo.

Gosh…It felt like coming full circle. Of course, I came to know Shuka from loving Watanabe You, but when I got into loving Shuka too, I supported her from her debut song too. And Kutsuhimo is like the string that ties us together. A strong bond that’s like…fate and like a pinky promise too. We put in the effort to continuously support one another. :)

[Shuka performance touches my soul and I have ascended (again)]

MC time! Both Shuka and I need that moment to hydrate and breathe again XD (By this point I think I already finished my sports drink and my 2 litres of water is probably down to 500ml or less OuO;)

I think Shuka liked to ask us if it’s hot / if we’re feeling hot, and we would go “It’s hot!!!” XD And while she’s drinking, someone asked if the water was delicious, she smiles/smirks and under her breath, she goes, “It’s not water” XD But doesn’t tell us what it is. Well, considering the hardcore setlist, you’d think it’s a sports drink at least XD

Shuka then asks us if we are enjoying the outdoor live which we of course tell her we’re enjoying it to the max. Then Shuka goes, “Tasukaru?” (“Does it save you?”) and we all laugh with her because this is like a youngin’ slang. Probably the Japanese Gen Z slang? XD Basically a thing to say when what you love is there. (Fun fact: Shuka did not understand this slang is either and learnt about it during Uraraji when the person who wrote in used this slang. And further understood it more the more people used it even during her InstaLive. >v<)

Shuka continues to talk about a bunch of stuff such as how she would think a lot into what song to perform for each Live, and to cherish every second there is with everyone… And that’s how quite the tough and crazy setlist got decided for this first ever outdoor Live too. She smiles sheepishly yet happily at this, and we laugh because we know it’s really a setlist jam-packed with energetic songs and Shuka really kept going song after song. But we love it >v<

Shuka also tells us about how she feels that with each Live performance she gets to do with us, with each challenge she overcomes from the various performances, she finds/hones a new weapon to be able to be stronger again >v< (EXP points gained and levelling up!!)

When she goes “The last song for today”, me and everyone around whines for more XD And we asked for extension XD but of course, it’s the last song for the day. And Shuka leads in with her these heartfelt words…

“For a final song…Right now, what I am feeling up to this point have been enveloped into this song and I hope to deliver it to you. You all are not alone, you have me. No matter how tough or sad things get, or when things seem out of reach, I will definitely be unwaveringly by your side. You can come over to me knowing it will be okay. Every day, every day, let’s keep supporting each other and walk together. So…please listen to this song – Mikata.”

Mikata to me, is another song of hers that is one where she bares her vulnerable side to us like she did in “Yoku warau riyuu”. Some lines that calls out to me are “I’m going to continue singing at the place where I am reflected in your eyes.”, “Even if feeling like a coward or feeling uncool. Put that aside, and take my hand.” and “I’ll tie my shoelaces again and start running once more.”

When Shuka sang the final line of Mikata, I like how there’s such a loud silence and then the band plays the instrumental of Mikata, like it just continues and then Shuka goes, “Thank you so much for coming over to play with me for the 5th Anniversary Live. Now, allow me to introduce the band…”

“I may not be a hero yet…but right now, I know that what I can say with confidence is that I’m your ally (mikata). And will always have your back.” Shuka… >o< To me, you ARE my hero. But I’m also just…so, so happy to have you as my ally. That’s for certain!! >o< ♡ (I also teared up at this part when Shuka talks about her journey of 5 years as a solo artist, how she wants to be our hero and don’t think she is yet… Shuka… OmO♡)

Shuka also asks if we will continue to see more sceneries with her. And I can tell you, my answer is a resounding yes. My new dream is to get to attend her FC event performance because I adore her acoustic singing and I want to get to experience that too.

So… With this feelings of adoration, admiration and endearment, I once again have set forth to reach that dream! >v<

Ah, I just realize I did not mention about how Shuka was in “real Shuka” mode AKA where she is in the Live T-Shirt and shorts and the way it got redesigned is so hawawa too O//w//O

If you asked me whether I like Angel Shuka, Devil Shuka or Real Shuka more… I don’t think I can really give an answer right away XD They are ALL so wonderful hehe~ >w< ♡

After Shuka introduced the backup dancers, Gyaruz, I think there was picture-taking moment… And then they go off backstage…and then Shuka asks for her phone cutely, “I want my phone~ My phone, please~” >v< Kawaii sugiru desho?? (Isn’t she too cute??) >w< And once she got it, she gets to record her usual video where we all cheer loudly and she asks the question which we go “SAIKO JAN!!!” >w<

…haaa… …

This 2 days of Shuka Live was simply awesome. I’ve got no words. XD I mean, I’ve said so much, I feel like there’s more to say but…it’s that…basking in the moment feels. The post-Live euphoria… You can’t wait for the next time you get to see Shuka but at the same time, you’re just…smiling and remembering the 4 hours you just had with her for this 2 days… =v= ♡

For me, the feeling of missing Shuka and Japan while feeling like I’m still there…lasts quite long XD It’s probably why I can still be gushing about Shuka’s Live even though it’s September already :P But I really wanted to get to share it??

Again, thank you for reading all the way here. I love Shuka!! Aaahhhh >w< ♡

Fangirling OuMiyuki signing out (≧◡≦) ♡

See you around! \(^ヮ^)/

[multiverse-imagines]

um… so I literally just binged read all your Vash fics. Planning on watching the anime on Saturday.

but I’m even tho I’m a newcomer……

can I get a Vash x Reader, where maybe homeboy gets her pregnant.

👉👈

he’s already taking over my life…

A/N: so I'm not typically comfortable with writing this kind of thing, but for specifically you, (and Vash) just this once, I'll indulge a pregnancy fic request. It gave me a chance to think about things I don't want to write in the future. It's my fault for not putting it in my pinned post. I will say this was one of the cutest things I've written in Vash's pov, and probably how I would react if I got told I was gonna be a dad. I do appreciate getting out of my comfort zone sometimes. ^-^

On the lighter notes, I'm so excited for you to be joining the Trigun cult we've amassed on Tumblr! Give the manga a read too if you can! Don't worry about being a newcomer. I've only been in this fandom for a year. (Where has he been all my life?) It's never too late to start a new series!!! If you want someone to gush about the series with, hit me up!

I've only had Vash for a year, and in my head we've already been married for 10. xD

Sprout

I carried a box of donuts, sandwiches, and a couple of sodas towards City Hall, where she worked. She, My Lovely Mayfly, worked there as a volunteer coordinator. I decided to surprise her with lunch. She always works herself too hard, and sometimes forgets to eat. I entered the main lobby, quickly finding the office she worked in. It was empty. I came in early enough where she wouldn't have gone to lunch with anyone else. The hairs on my neck stood on end as I thought of the worst. Making my way back to the front desk, I asked the receptionist where she was.

"Oh, She went out for a bit. She said she had a doctor's appointment. Said she'd hopefully be back by lunch." The receptionist took a sip of his coffee. A doctor's appointment? She hadn't said anything about an appointment this week. Before I could make my way back to her office to wait, a chime of the front door revealed someone entering City Hall. I turned around to see her, My Mayfly. She almost seemed troubled, looking at the ground, not quite noticing me yet.

"Hey, Mayfly!" I cheerily greeted her as always. She seemed to stiffen up, but was immediately happy to see me.

"H-hey, Angel. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, I brought us some lunch! How was your appointment?" She stiffened up again at this.

"Why don't we eat lunch!" She seemed to panic as she dragged me into her office, shutting the door, almost too quickly. She leaned against the door with a sigh. She was acting strange, well, more so than usual.

"Mayfly, is something wrong?" I let my voice drop to a concerned tone. Her breath hitched, and the facade of being around other people faded. Her face was almost… scared. Vulnerable, Worry, such things I never wanted to see on her face.

"Do you remember when I said sometime last week that I was feeling kinda funny?"

"Y-yeah, I thought it was the burger from the bar."

"Well, it wasn't the burger, I guess…"

"You didn't get sick, did you? You're not dying are you?" I began to worry. Humans didn't live too long on this planet. Taking a chance with her as my partner was a struggle for me. I often distance myself from others where I can, even though it doesn't ease the pain when they die. We had spoken on this topic a few times when I tried to deny her advances, even though every fiber of my being wanted her. What if she really was dying? I couldn't take her with me as I continued to run from bounty hunters and the like.

"Vash." My name leaving her lips broke my panic, and I hadn't even noticed she had taken my hands, "I'm not dying. I…." She took a deep breath, "I'm pregnant."

"P-pregnant." I repeated back to her, "wh…what?" My face relaxed from panic to surprise as my gaze drifted to her hips, "I.. I didn't think that was even possible." A wave of emotion was flowing through me all at once. How was my DNA compatible with human DNA? How was I supposed to keep the two of them safe? Raising a child on the run? What if Knives targeted them? What if I died before I could see the kid go to school? Or get married? Oh, Rem, help me. What if they died young? What if I lost Mayfly during the birthing process? What if I lost both of them?

My body moved on its own as I leaned down to press a kiss to her lips. I rested one hand on her back, the other rested on her cheek. I allowed my mind to clear as I lost myself in her kiss.

I whispered her name when I parted from her lips. Holding her chin to keep intimate eye contact.

"I love you. Let's have a family together." I found myself laughing a little bit as a smile came across my face. The laughter spread as I pressed more little kisses to her lips, "I'm gonna be a dad." I toyed with the idea of teaching the little sprout how to color, ride a Tomas, reading them bedtime stories, falling asleep with them cradled into my chest on our ragged couch, and even teaching them good morals if I could help it.

"I'll keep you both safe. I promise."

[lazzarella]

And it's Wandee Goodday rambling notes time again! I'm so glad I've been out of it this week because Saturday got here quicker than usual haha

- Ahh, opening with another soft sleeping scene! Look at Dee, he's so fond just looking at Yak sleep!

- Another nightmare!! Aww, poor Yak

- Why is Dee scratching Yak's back so cute and sweet?? Also, where can I get me someone to scratch my back??

- I love that Dee asks Yak for some support! And that Yak immediately takes his hand and tries to boost his confidence! For all their inability to verbalise or settle on their own feelings for each other, they're still good at communicating in others ways, and I like that it adds this layer of complexity that makes them feel more real?

- First watch, Dee felt a little pushy about the psych thing, but the second time I realised he doesn't push too much before Yak agrees. Plus, Yak is always pushing the no kiss boundary XD

- Is Yak in another now unneeded disguise or is that just a really ugly outfit?

- And why is he noseying through Dee's things? Oof! That photo! But that's what you get for snooping I guess :P

- Still! My heart! His sad little face ;__;

- What's up with the first kiss poster in the lift? Am I missing something?

- (Okay, that double flashback with the notebook/photo was a little confusing and usually the editing in this show doesn't confuse me lol so, Yak saw that Dee was going to get rid of the book/photo at some point, but then he didn't, which might be more upsetting than if he'd just found it for the first time that morning?)

- Kao yet again calling Dee out for complicating things! lol I totally get Dee's hesitation, though!

- That quote about losing someone you love if you don't show it sometimes is so on point

- Ter throwing down the gauntlet! I do not like this man lol

- "Mommy is all ears" But I LOVE Cher! And I love Yak's little family

- Ooh, I love that the "If you say you don't care about someone but keep their things" (paraphrased) from the trailer was about Dee keeping Ter's photo

- Blimey! That weight training scene!!! Also, how do they go from sexy to sweet so seamlessly??

- Ahhhh! I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR YAK IN THE SHOWER! Give a girl some warning. Whew

- That bathroom scene is SO flirty! I'm glad we're still getting flirty scenes with them. And Yak looked kinda into getting sniffed by Dee there 👀

- Omg. Omg. Yak and Yei's adorable little boxing glove signs with their names on their doors. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. Have they had them since they were kids??? It's so cute :3

- Yak sneaking out is so funny! But then seeing Yei WATCHING HIM took me out lmaoooo

- A candlelit dinner!!! Is that Dee taking Kao's advice?? (To show how he feels)

- Oh, there are candles everywhere! I guess that's romantic but my brain always screams death trap XD

- ugh, go away, Ter! That's what Dee should've said >:(

- OMG YAK HAS A KEY??? We didn't know this before right???

- Okay, I thought I was disappointed in Dee for going with Ter when he has plans with Yak, but I'm actually disappointed that they set it up so weakly. We know Ter is manipulative and have seen Dee is still getting caught up in it and is still uncertain of his feelings toward both Ter and Yak. And I can believe he might want to resolve those conflicting feelings. BUT we've also seen him push back against his manipulative tactics more than once lately (though we’ve also seen him start to soften again), so it makes little sense to me that he'd just go so willingly so quickly when he’s in the middle of setting up a romantic dinner for Yak? If they'd just shown him be like 'I have plans' and Ter cajoling him, I'd have believed it. But it felt kinda weak and I wouldn't have cared but I love Dee so much and it just feels off enough to bother me!! But it's also the ONLY thing in seven eps that's disappointed me, so... Anyway, we now return to our regularly scheduled programming rambling:

- Yak just waiting is breaking my heart ;__;

- Wait, Dee sent Kao a voice message? When? How? Dee left his phone in his apartment?? I'm so confused lol (it really feels like they didn't know how to get Yak to Ter's apartment to see him and Dee together XD whatever, I'm handwaving it, it's going to lead to delicious angst, and I've handwaved bigger things)

- Pow! Right in the kisser!

- Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

- (by the way, I 100% believe Yak getting upset this fast and ending things because Ter was goading him earlier and he found that photo and we know he’s super insecure in general)

- Oh no! Yak taking the necklace off Dee as an inverse of when he gave it to him ;__;

- (This is why I handwave inconsistencies because it gives me scenes like that 👆🏻)

- So pretty when cry (this is literally what my notes said lmao)

- Omgggggggggg! Dee reaching for the necklace but it's NOT THERE! That look of UTTER devastation!!! Fuuuuuuuuck. Inn's acting in this scene is on fire

- Ofc Taem is there! Haha. Idc because Yak is so endearing when he's sad—Great's acting is also fire

- Dee is still messaging Yak!!!

- Awwwwwww! Dee has a pink suitcase! I love this man so much <3

- Oof! Super awkward almost kiss with Taem! Like... There was tension, but it was not sexual lol on either side. At least, I don't think so. Taem's hard for me to read?? She looked shocked, but not happily so, but maybe she did want to kiss him, I have no idea, arghhhhhhh. I have like 3 theories about her but they’ll probably all be wrong so I’m not sharing them 🤣

- AND! I love that they both opened their eyes and pulled back? Like, you can see Yak is realising that's not what he wants. That was really nicely done

- I have nothing to say about Dee and Ter in Japan or drunk!Ter or their almost kiss lol

- Sigh. Boxing is so boring...

- (Okay, to date, my only encounter with Luke was him saying Mix has a big(?) ass and a sweet face in Safehouse lol I just needed to write that down)

- The boxing match is excruciating! D:

- okay, seeing Dee and Ter everywhere, already explained but what’s with the Nazgûl dude???

- Hee! Dee speaking English is so cute!

- "Someone like me keeps disappointing everyone" -> oof, we're really seeing the depths of Yak's insecurities! Because earlier he said something to Dee about never doing anything right in his eyes?? Damn

- That single tear rolling down Yei's cheek ;__;

- "Doc. I lost" Ahhhhhhhhh! MY HEART! The way he says that????

- THEY ARE KISSING!!!!! ON MY SCREEN! THEY. ARE. KISSING!!!!

- I love that Dee initiates and just goes right in, his hand cupping Yak's face, no need to say anything, because the kiss is enough

- Awww. Yak's face when Dee says it's a consolation reward! He looks kinda disappointed but resigned??? Goodness me

- THIS KISS IS ALL FROM ME! OMFG!!!! YES! YES! SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WAY TO DO THIS!!!!

- I no longer care about inconsistencies or weak characterisation THIS KISS IS EVERYTHING!!!!!

- (I wonder how many of the fifteen kisses we saw, I didn’t count lol)

- The preview is giving me a lot, but also kind of nothing, but also DEE HAS THE NECKLACE BACK! WOO! Hope we get to see it being returned to him

[daddyplasmius]

this is let grief do its work, a fic (currently unedited rip) I started as a kind of sister fic to hand on my stupid heart, another fic I'd written earlier and uh. yeah. you guessed it. haven't finished. I'm working on this on the side, Flying Over the Pit of Death + its sister fic & my original novels being my main focuses right now. I will most likely continue lgdiw sometime in the future, it just isn't my main priority. Like all of my fics, this idea is free for anyone to take & run with. if/when I finish this fic, the edited version will go on ao3. For context: this is just a prologue of sorts, depicting vaguely what is happening on the human side of the Portal the month after the Accident. On Danny's side, he's been chillin' in the Ghost Zone, where he ended up after half-dying, believing he's fully dead (he's not) & only realized he's still alive after it was too late for him to tell everyone what happened cuz like, awkward & embarrassing lol. HOMSH takes place a year later, when things come to a head. I feel it's important to reiterate that, although Danny isn't actually dead, the characters think he is & act accordingly. okay author's infodump note complete, fic under a readmore

“when they first go, let yourself think every selfish, no-good, dirty, angry, filthy, horrible thought. let the waves of anger wash through you. let grief do its work.” ーCaitlyn Siehl; Grief Counseling

On the first day, Sam had thought that, maybe, Danny was just busyーtoo busy to answer their texts, and their calls, and everything else. But then Tucker called her. It was a horrible game of telephone at first. Danny’s parents told Jazz, who told Tucker, who told Sam, and that’s how the communication went for two days until she and Tuck had enough.

They went to FentonWorks, the big, ugly building on the corner of Mockingbird and Cedar, and were surprised to find no one home at all. Not even Jazz. And, for the first time since they’d known the Fentons, the doors were locked. And when they tried to talk to Jazz later, they would find that they’ve officially filed a police report.

ー

Danny Fenton is missing. The last time Sam talked to him she was making fun of him, for being too scared to go check out the Fentons’ new Ghost Portal. She knew he was freaked out by stuff like thatーby ghosts. Now she doesn’t know if she’ll ever see him again.

There’s just no way. He can’t be gone. She literally saw him on Saturday. His empty seat in homeroom on the first day of school is the thing that does it. There’s this gap in the desks where he should be, but he’s not. Like he’s already haunting her.

It makes her sick. Everythingーeverything in her head, everything she knows. Despite what Dash and his asshole friends say, Danny wouldn’t run away. And the longer a person is missing, the more likely it is that they’reー

Sam doesn’t wait for the bell. She leaves Tucker in homeroom, goes straight to the bathroom, and wipes her face down in the sink, water turning black. Suddenly, everything macabre, everything dark and creepyーit just disgusts her.

She goes home early. No one even says anything, not the school, not her parents, not Tucker. Alone in her room, Sam starts to shake. She sobs once, something seething just under her skin. She stalks over to the wall where most of her horror movie posters are taped and starts tearing them down, one by one.

ー

Danny Fenton has been missing for a week, and Tucker, staring at the sweater his best friend forgot at his house, laid across his computer chair, thinks he’s starting to feel it.

Opening his phone, he feels it again. Looking at his texts, he feels it again, and again, and again.

Saturday • 4:47 p.m. Danny Phantom: xD Danny Phantom: not playing tonight, ghost portal opening night 👻 Danny Phantom: can play tmrw tho Too Fine: hell ya txt u then Danny Phantom: 👍 Sunday • 10:20 a.m. Too Fine: yo still up 4 doomed Too Fine: dued Too Fine: dude* Too Fine: you there Sunday • 10:21 a.m. Too Fine: txt me when you wanna play Sunday • 11:58 a.m. Too Fine: you up?

Tucker lets his phone fall on his bed. He doesn’t bother checking in with Sam. She’s been out of school and ignoring him for the last three days. It’s almost been a week sinceー

He gets up and stumbles to his chair. He sits down, careful not to mess up Danny’s NASA hoodie. Tucker turns on his desktop, types in his password, checks his emails. He messes around for as long as he can before he literally cannot take it anymore. He just can’t ignore it.

God. His best friend is gone. Is he coming back? Is heー

It’s like something inside his chest cracks. Without thinking, he pulls the NASA hoodie into his lap, and then over his head. It’s been here too long. It still has that smell of ozone and copper on it, though.

Tucker leans back in his chair and stares at the wall.

ー

Danny was home. That’s the thing. The last time Jazz saw him, he was inside the house, and she never saw him leave. He must have, at some point. She has no idea why, or for what, but he must have. It’s the only rational explanation. Danny left. Something happened. He never came home.

She feels the panic rising, gripping her throat again. She puts the candle down on the bleachers. Wipes her face. Whoever is speaking to the crowd of students holding vigil is a mess of white noise in her ears. It doesn’t help. It should and it doesn’t. A lot of things are the opposite of what Jazz knowsーthought they are.

She almost wishes it had just happened at home, been a little less drawn out.

As soon as it pops into her head, she feels sick, disgusted at herself.

But no one goes missing this long and lives. A very small percentage do. And if it had been some accident in the lab, like she always feared would happen, at least they’d have a body to mourn. At least they would know.

ー

Sam’s parents pretend they aren’t happy. They have to look worried, grieving, because what would the neighbours think if they didn’t? She can see through it, unlike them. They always hated the Fentons. They always hated Danny. They always hated Sam’s fascination with the macabre.

Well. They got what they wanted.

It’s like he’s in everything. She isn’t even looking for him, and he’s still there, still everywhereー

Sam rubs her eyes on her sleeve before she can properly cry. There’s no body. He could still come back. A month is a lot, but he could stillーhe could show up. Someone could find him alive. He could be alive.

Her parents look at her from across the lavish, stupidly large, solid wood table. She should know what type of wood it is but it’s like the information is behind a fogbank. She can see the silhouette. She just can’t make it out. Mom places her cutlery down neatly, dabs her mouth with a cloth napkin, and clears her throat.

“Sammy-kins…” She starts, and the rage inside Sam bubbles up like lava bursting through rock. “There’s been… We…”

She looks to the side for help, from dad. He looks incredibly awkward for a moment before turning to Sam with an expression she hasn’t seen since grandpa died.

“Saman… Sam.” He says, simply, slowly, and the lava in Sam’s gut turns cold, and heavy. “They’ve found evidence that has given them reasons to believe that… your friend is gone.” He’s never spoken this softly. Ever. His voice is barely audible above the blood rushing in her ears. “They’ve called off the search.”

ー

Tucker didn’t expect nightmares. He wakes up and he panic-cries into his pillow and hopes to whatever god or deity is listening that ghosts in dreams aren’t real. He can’t explain the fear. Everything is incredibly normal, more normal than his dreams ever have been, and then Danny walks in.

He would give anything for this to happen, right now, in real life. He’s afraid, though. In his dreams, a sheer terror overcomes him. He can’t get away fast enough. He can still hear his own voice echoing in his head. “You’re dead! You’re dead!”

It’s a wrongness he can’t quite graspーor doesn’t want to. He doesn’t want to be afraid of his best friend. Tucker wants him back so badly. But his brain knows the truth, even if Tuck is digging his heels in and refusing to budge.

Someone knocks on his door, and he tenses.

“Tucker, sweetie? It’s…” Mom takes a deep breath. “It’s time to go.”

He grits his teeth and shoves his face into his pillow so hard he can’t get air. He stays like this until he can’t. He gets up.

Tucker walks across the floor like a zombie, barely aware of what he’s even doing. He manages to put on the suit his mom put out for him yesterday, and goes downstairs. He refuses breakfast. The three of themーmom, dad, Tuckerーgo out to the car, and drive to his best friend’s funeral.

ー

Jazz stares at the closed casket. There’s a pair of police officers out of uniform, or maybe detectives, standing in the corner by the photo album laid out on a table looking haunted. Aunt Alicia, uncharacteristically wearing a plain, black dress, sits with mom and dad at the other side of the room. Jazz stares at the casket and she tries to imagine that it’s not empty. That it isn’t making her scream inside with the frustration of it all. Her baby brother is gone. They couldn’t even find him. And probably never will. Because that’s how these things end.

Tucker walks into the room. Dark bags circle his unfocused eyes. His parents are right behind him, his father’s hand on his shoulder. Tucker looks at the casket. He turns away, catching sight of Jazz, and when his parents break off to meet hers, Tucker walks over.

He picks at his sleeves. Says nothing. Jazz tries to pick at the grief counseling she knows she’s studied for fun, but finds herself falling short.

She doesn’t see Sam or Mr. and Mrs. Manson walk in, but suddenly they’re there as well, smiling tightly and giving their condolences to Jazz’s parents. Sam doesn’t walk over. She stands in a corner and stares at a wall with purpose.

Jazz breathes slowly, willing her heart to stop pounding. She counts the stages she can see in front of her.

Too much Acceptance, all from strangers who never even knew him personally. She glances at Dash Baxter, tugging on his tie and looking annoyed. She can feel Anger in her. But also Denial. Bargaining. Depression.

And somehow, Acceptance, too.

They’re not stages. She never really got that before. You feel them all at once, all the time, and they don’t go away. The intensity changes, turning from a background hum to bright bursts of emotion at any little reminder.

She looks at Tucker out of the corner of her eye. She wonders if he’s feeling that way too. Being bombarded by the stages of grief in a way no one prepared them for. Is this why mom and dad never let them get any pets? Besides Danny’s gerbil, which promptly disappeared before she could even get used to the rodent’s smell. What happened to it? Was it rehomed, or is its body still somewhere around the house, unfound, unlooked for?

The stages start over, skipping between Depression, Anger, Denial, the emotions falling over themselves. She wished the cops would leave.

Not soon enough, it’s over. The funeral home employees usher them out, the rooms and halls now empty. The drive home is simultaneously the longest and shortest ever. She stares up at the brick and all she wants to do is sleep. She heads inside intending to do just that.

She takes her shoes off at the door. Mom and dad take off their jacks and move to settle in the living room. Mom is holding a tissue to her eye. Jazz hesitates for just a moment.

Should she do something? She feels like she should do something, anything. She wants to suggest therapy. She’s afraid to open her mouth, though. Jazz can feel the blame on the back of her tongue, ready to spill out. That would be the worst thing for her to do, and she doesn’t know if she has the strength to hold it back, because for fucks sake, if they just watched their children, this wouldn’t have happened.

Jazz turns to the stairs and starts climbing them. She doesn’t get halfway before she’s blinded by drywall dust and knocked off her feet.

[im-a-king-baby]

I love ELYN, it was a wonderful read. 🪷

<333

Today's bonus scene is a post-epilogue snippet, because Kevan is one of my favourite characters who barely appeared in the actual fic XD

Under the cut for maaaajor ending spoilers! Go read ELYN first!

“The band should have arrived,” Simon checks his phone, for about the twentieth time since getting out the car that had picked them up at the airport. “Normally we’d meet in the bar, have a drink.” He looks across the lobby to the hotel bar, racks of liquor stretching up to the ceiling.

Wilhelm catches his hand. “The schedule I got said we were meeting for dinner,” he says. He’s pretty sure Simon knows that, but sometimes it helps to have someone else say it out loud. “So let’s check in, and you can have a shower while I ask Farima what time.”

“Right.” It takes Simon a second too long to drag his eyes away from the bottles. He keeps tugging on the straps of his backpack, bouncing on the balls of his feet.

Wilhelm had asked widely around for advice on how he could support Simon going back to playing live shows but the consensus from everyone was just, ‘It’s going to be hard, but if he wants to tour again you have to start somewhere.’

“Hey! Si…imon!”

Wilhelm barely has a chance to jump before someone is bounding across the lobby. He’s a huge man with long black hair dressed in a leather jacket with silver studs and for an instant Wilhelm wonders if he should be throwing himself in front of Simon - where are the bodyguards when you need them?

Then he registers that Simon is laughing. “You can keep calling me Simme,” Simon says, stepping past Wilhelm so the man can pull him into what looks like a bonecrushing hug. “I don’t mind.”

“Oh thank god,” the man says, letting Simon go and stepping back. “Farima keeps sending emails about ‘Simon’ and I’m like ‘who?’ every single time.” He notices Wilhelm for the first time, slightly off to the side in his carefully nondescript jumper and jeans combo. “Let me guess, you’re the boyfriend formerly known as Prince?”

Simon snorts. “Kevan, this is Wilhelm. Wille, Kevan. He plays guitar.”

And now Wilhelm remembers him from the Faktory, standing off to the side of the stage with a red guitar. And the name, too. Kevan was the person Simon called in Bjarstad, the one who told Candace where to find them. Wilhelm’s first instinct would be to keep him far away from Simon, but he’s aware that - as much as he doesn’t like it - the Candace Issue is more complicated on Simon’s side.

Simon met her for coffee, when he was in L.A. and Wilhelm was stuck in class a million miles away, and Wilhelm’s phone left imprints in his palm he was gripping it so tight waiting for a phone call that didn’t come, just a text two hours later: she’s gone, all still standing and heading to the airport. See you soon xx

Here and now, Simon seems relaxed for the first time since they entered the lobby, flicking the studs on Kevan’s jacket and saying, “Did you listen to the EP?”

“I did. Not really my thing,” Kevan says, but with a grin as though this is some shared joke between them. “But we can add more guitar solos when you record the full album.”

Simon snorts a laugh, like he hasn’t been up all night for the last week worrying about The Full Album. “Let’s get through these shows first.”

“Speaking of, I did need to catch you.” Kevan’s smile drops. “There’s a problem with my schedule.”

Fuck. Wilhelm steps a bit closer to Simon as his laugh dies and he casts a desperate look towards the check-in desk and escape. “The schedule isn’t really my area,” Simon starts. “Can you talk to Farima about it?”

“No,” Kevan says. “I think I need you.” He’s already pulling out his phone. “See, I’ve got the dinner tonight, rehearsals tomorrow, shows Friday and Saturday, but in the middle I have something called a ‘day off’? I told them, this is a Simme tour we don’t do that here -”

The tension drops entirely out of Simon’s body. "Oh my god," he says, shoving at Kevan’s shoulder, the kind of easy roughhousing that he would've done with Ayub or Rosh back at school. “You’re such an asshole.”

Kevan uses his height advantage to ruffle Simon’s hair then takes off running before Simon can retaliate. Simon is laughing, but pauses to kiss Wilhelm’s cheek and shove his backpack into Wilhelm’s arms before chasing Kevan across the lobby, scattering guests and hotel staff in all directions.

Wilhelm slings Simon’s bag over his shoulder and heads to the desk, only glancing back every other second. “Simon Erikkson and Wilhelm Kassel, I think our bags have already been dropped off.”

She digs out some paperwork for him to sign - he’s still figuring out his signature, still forgetting to respond for a minute when he hears ‘Mr Kassel’ - and she’s coding up two keycards when Simon stumbles back up against the counter, breathing hard.

“Hey, sorry. Didn’t mean to abandon you,” he says, and Wilhelm can’t blame him for it when he’s still smiling like that, lighting up his whole face.

He had kind of understood what Simon said about wanting to be back on stage - in that he could see it was something a person might want, even if the idea of doing it himself made him want to throw up - but he’d thought the touring was a necessary evil that went with that, not something that could possibly be enjoyed. When Simon had arranged these first shows for Spring Break so Wilhelm could come along, Wilhelm had just assumed it was so that he’d have someone other than Farima there to fall back on.

But as Kevan falls into step with them on the way to the elevator, talking about dinner plans like booking a table at a restaurant is the most outlandishly posh thing that any person has ever done, he realises maybe for Simon it was about showing Wilhelm this other side of his life. To show that he’s not alone out here.

“Di was asking if we need to dress for dinner,” Kevan says. “I said I didn’t think we should go naked but I’d check with you.”

Simon elbows him in the side. “I think we can be us,” he says. “It’s not -” he pauses as Wilhelm presses the button to call the lift, waits for the doors to open and them to step inside before he continues. “It’s just to keep it out of the bar, you know?” Wilhelm steps closer, so their knuckles touch and Simon gives him a sideways smile. “Things are going to be a bit different this time.

Wilhelm half expects Kevan to make another joke, but Kevan nods, like he gets it. “You let us know what you need, yeah? We’re all rooting for you here.”

[tobiasdrake]

Well, chief. I guess this is it. Thanks for everything, and I'll see you aro-- Oh, we aren't finished yet.

Goddammit.

Hypothetically speaking, if you were going to be alone with a man who might try to kill you, what size of knife would you carry on your person and where would you stash it? Asking for a friend.

Are you, though? You know in a Saturday Morning Cartoon when the adult guardian goes, "The plot is happening but YOU will go to your room and behave yourself. You will NOT slip out and go do the thing."

But this is like episode 87 and we all know they're going to slip out and go do the thing anyway so, really, saying this is just a formality at this point?

That's your level of authority, Yakou. Thank you so much for saving my life from my terrible mistakes last chapter; Anyways, back to doing the things that got me in trouble in the first place!

I'll write him a note and leave it in Halara's hotel room, along with an IOU formally requesting that they deliver it to Yakou upon confirmation of my death.

I obviously won't be able to pay the IOU but at this point I'm pretty sure Halara only cares about the optics of charging money.

Kurumi, I took you to meet my dangerous, ambiguous wildcard contact. There's a 50/50 chance he's going to tie you to a chair and dangle you over a vat of acid before all is said and done. We are well past the point where something as innocuous as worry is inappropriate.

OH THANK GOD. Of Death. Literally. Thank you for finally ending this awkward quasi-farewell, Shinigami.

We're running out of good ideas to escape from this sub. This is one step above pointing behind Yakou and shouting, "LOOK, A FALSE LEAD!" then bolting when he turns around.

Because then it will spoil. The best kinds of evidence have an expiration date!

Yuma finally proving that abandoning all pretense and bailing at the speed of feet is, and always has been, a viable option for dodging Yakou's paper-thin attempts at professional responsibility.

Sorry, man, but you-

HAHAHAHA OKAY, Yuma made me laugh but I was unprepared for Kurumi to then also bolt out the door. XD Run, guys! Yakou looks like he maxes out at a shamble! A brisk jogging pace should do!

To be fair, she does not work here. It'd be uncomfortable for her to stick around someone else's workspace without her one and only connection to this place.

Sorry, Yakou. As hard as you're going to kiss her ass, Kurumi is not interested in becoming your intern. She's here for Yuma. And she is as much of a troublemaker.

HOLY SHIT YOU GODDAMN VAMPIRE

I legit did not turn the camera to check the fireplace. He may have been here for this entire scene thus far.

I KNOW RIGHT!? We need to put a bell on him. Wait, no, bell only chimes when you move. ...one of those perpetual motion clicky ball sets that managers have on their desk to make them look important. He can wear it around his neck.

You heard as much as Yakou, man. Yuma was super cryptic and then fled.

*sigh* Okay, what's Desuhiko pulling this time, Vivia? Is the pale blue blink supposed to be Fubuki? But then the storm would be... him getting the shit kicked out of him....

Ugh, I don't have time for his shenanigans, I have a trap to go die in.

For a man who was all gung-ho about box cutting my throat out, you sure don't seem to be in any rush to do it. I think Vivia used up all of his energy trying to stand up dramatically.

How are you going to feel if I die before you have a chance to kill me, Vivia? Can you live with that regret? Or... I guess, since you want to die someday, maybe not being able to live with that regret would be a good thing.

I guess. Keep doing what you're doing and hope for the worst, my guy. Power of positive thinking!

[struungout]

Resin Rose Thoughts

As I mentioned the other day, I got Opinions about what I did experience of the convention. In my case, I was kind of a failure in regards to the socializing part of the con and primarily trolled through the vendor’s hall and shopped ‘til I dropped before me and my friend went off to goof off at Target and our hotel room (the one place I didn’t feel like a walking sweat puddle).

So yeah, I didn’t go to any of the panels because I was busy shopping and, frankly, none of them grabbed my interest. It was a lot of stuff for newbies to dolls or crafting, neither of which was applicable to me. xD There was a general meet-up scheduled, but by the time 6PM came around, I was at capacity for being around people and was completely drained due to walking around so much + the heat.

That said, I did have some thoughts about the vendor’s hall and the big swap. I will attempt to keep my usual blunt mean-ness to a minimal since I know a lot of people enjoy Resin Rose and had a good time this year. That said, if you don’t like to hear critical shit about things you like, what’s below the cut ain’t for you.

Registration

Registration/badge pick-up was a chaotic mess, to be frank. For one, what a choice to have check-in to the right of a vendor table at the entrance. Badge pick up and con merch should be front and center and the first thing you see when you walk in. Also, for the love of god, get those poor people a laptop or tablet + keyboard with a spreadsheet or something for checking names instead of those physical paper lists. Opening for general admittance is chaotic enough without adding extra steps that hold up the line and cause walkways to be blocked/clogged at the LONE ENTRANCE/EXIT*.

There also didn’t seem to be anybody checking for badges at the door or anything so it feels like there’s not a point to making 2-day and 1-day pre-registered pass holders to wait until Saturday to pick theirs up. Anybody with the audacity could just peruse the hall and buy shit without a pass. Considering how chaotic just purchasing from some vendors could be, checking if someone is wearing their pass would be the last thing on their mind lmao. Coloring coding passes would likely help close up that particular hole if you’re genuinely worried about not getting paid for someone to check the Vendor’s Hall out.

Back to the lists—they couldn’t even find my name (I was supposed to have had a helper badge through my friend Rae since she was vending at RR) and I had to pay for my badge. On top of that, I didn’t receive an envelope that I guess had raffle or scavenger hunt information in it? Didn’t even realize I was supposed to get that until my friend asked me about it ten minutes later. Not even mad about paying (planned to pre-register before Rae said she’d take care of it), but the chaotic mess was a really rough beginning to my visit. Mayhaps just have everything in an envelope and organized by badge-type.

*Yes, there really was just the one place to come and go to this room because the door to the pool area of the hotel was blocked off by vendor tables (how is that not a fire hazard lmao). Also…Monarch Hotel, why the fuck would you give a room this big a single door entrance? That fucker needed double doors and you know it.

Vendor’s Hall

The general layout seems pretty run of the mill for conventions from what I’ve seen online, but there just wasn’t good space between tables. People were wearing big backpacks to display their dolls in, plus got swag bags they’re carrying, and then stopping to check out what’s for sale. Shit clogs up quick, especially when there’s a popular vendor. Saw one poor woman with a walker nearly take out the wheel thing the raffle tickets were in because something hanging on her walker handle caught onto the wheel’s door, and that was at the entrance area of the hall. If two people in wheelchairs can’t comfortably pass each other, there isn’t enough room.

The outer ring of tables were basically a dead zone, even with the chaos of the hall opening to 2 and 1-day pass holders. Most everyone buying stuff were concentrated in the middle and alleyway type tables because that’s where the well-known sellers were. It’s already a hard time being a vendor that may not have a huge and viral social media presence where they can hype people up for a convention appearance, but it’s all the worse when you’re out in the boonies. Plus I feel like the eyes just don’t get drawn towards the outer corners of these kind of set ups—there were several tables I completely glazed over the first time because they got huddled away into some dark corner.

Speaking of the outer ring, in one corner, they were right there with the air vents and were keeping nice and cool, and in the exact opposite corner diagonal from them, the people were fucking slow roasting next to the windows. I didn’t see any sort of box fans or anything set up for them to help keep them cool, just papers and handheld fans they either got from the freebie table or brought along themselves (or purchased from someone else). That really isn’t acceptable and I feel it’s on the convention and hotel staff for not looking out for them. That’s such an easy way to give someone heat exhaustion or heat stroke. The gift shop I work at temporarily got moved to what was essentially a shoe box with no real heating or cooling and we had one of the hottest summers at the time and just one hour during peak heat in that hot box was fucking horrid. I would have refused to come to work if my boss and her assistant hadn’t gotten me a box fan to keep my work area cool. It wasn’t exactly a secret that Portland was getting hot weather; there should have been contingencies in place to keep people safe and comfortable.

Generally, there just shouldn’t have been vendors set up by the windows, particularly ones that’d get a lot of sunlight. Instead, you should just cluster the contest tables (preferably with backdrops that could block the sunlight so the dolls don’t get potentially damaged), raffle jars, freebie tables, and sitting areas for that space. Basically stuff that isn’t going to draw consistent crowds (people generally drop by the once and then off to shop).

For the raffle stuff, that all should have just been photographed and put on like…a big poster board or a QR code to a dedicated web page to show the prizes and just have the prizes themselves stored away somewhere safe until they’re actually getting handed out (think that was primarily at the closing ceremony?). Then you got several tables freed up for vendors.

Overall though, enjoyed shopping and seeing all the stuff. Just felt very awkward to attempt to stop and chat with other people about their wares or dolls in general and whatnot. Managed to spend 3+ hours in there on Saturday, so my hermit and socially awkward ass managed to survive well enough. Only left because my stomach demanded food. xD

Got to see Rae, take a picture of my dolls with Shrimp, and spent over $500. 8/10

The Swap

So bad it was embarrassing.

The space between tables was hellishly tight, there was absolutely no direction in traffic flow, which just made things worse. There was also one person I remember with two luggage bags ON THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF THEIR TABLE alongside all the shit they had actually on the table. I don’t know who the fuck told them THAT was okay, but they clearly don’t know what a fucking tripping hazard is.

There really should have been HALF the amount of tables in that room than there was. If you’re gonna have that many people with swap tables in a room that small, then you need to make it an all day event and cycle people through. I managed to put up with one walk around the room to see if there were any dolls that were on my wishlist, bought a pair of boots, and then got the fuck out of there.

Couldn’t get out fast enough, 0/10.

Other Thunkin’

Didn’t go to the closing ceremony since by the time me and my friend got back to the hotel from our day trip to the Clackamas Town Center, we were hungry and exhausted and there just wasn’t enough time to have the nice dinner we planned and then go to the ceremony, so we just did our dinner, made a trip to a convenience store + Target and went back to our room. Heard it was crowded and warm tho, so I’m not too broken up about enjoying a steak and drinks instead. xD

Overall, I don’t regret going, but it was definitely uhh…underwhelming, I suppose? Maybe if I wasn’t sweating my tits off because the hotel’s air circulation sucks and I was actively talkative on the likes of Instagram and the RR channel on the BJD Discord server, it’d have been easier to meet up with people I’m actually acquainted with to chit chat and all that shit. It was really nice to get to see Rae in person for the few minutes we got, but she was busy keeping an eye on her table and I was busy shopping and oogling stuff, so we didn’t get to hang as much as I would have liked.

I’m not likely to go to another doll convention anytime soon since just the flight down south is expensive on top of saving my money all year to make sure I had plenty to splurge on what I wanted and still have some in case of any emergencies. Put off a lot of doll plans this year for Resin Rose, and while that was fine this time around since I had my attention on other hobbies, I can’t do that on a yearly basis haha (and if I’m gonna be leaving my small ass town, I’m GONNA be buying shit).

[hekkoto]

You say Im blinded by love, I say you will be blinded by acid if you keep resisting me~

I have little change of plans as when I got back home yesterday I was extremely exhausted and in awful pain so I slept through most of yesterday and today lolz I gonna post photo of Patreon print soon, I need to do few things and make photo + edit it. And I guess I gonna do my 24h art challenge tomorrow or on Saturday ;p I dont like to change my plans but sadly human body has limits. Especially mine >XD

Im doing quite good lately :> maybe beside thinking about past and such but I guess I still need to work on forgetting and forgiving. Sadly it seems its one of this things Im unable to do >XD nevermind, Im working on sorting my life out and step by step its getting better~ I guess having will to live and do stuff is one of the biggest things that will matter the most ^^

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto

Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤

[slashingdisneypasta]

I guess I'll make myself feel like the elderstatesman here since it's a discussion. Not only did I spend far too much time (and often money) at Blockbuster, when I was much younger, like below ten, we have a local video rental place too that we often went to. Friday/Saturday night movie time was always a thing. It went out of business not long after Blockbuster established itself. And I still pass that building every day since nothing has been done with it. I am also of the age where I remember Netflix starting out as a mail in movie rental company rather than streaming. And used it as such once. That and Gamefly, which apparently still exists? Wild man. Definitely would he amazing to see a rise of the physical media rather than streaming. Not that streaming doesn't have it's benefits but just like a book, there is nothing that beats actually having that copy in your hand.

Haha, yes, please ^^

I'm so showing my ignorance here but... Netflix used to be mail order?? 😅😆 Thats kinda cool. Reminds me of when a mum at the primary school used to make copies of all of her DVD's (Definitely NOT pirating << >> ) and mail them to us 😅😅😅 I dunno how my father ended up apart of the suburban mums dvd piracy club, but he did 🤷‍♀️ XD

I would love to see a rise of physical media too <3<3<3 Books are still heavily a thing, of course, but I agree- DVD's are still good too. I wish it was the thing to use Netflix and other Streaming to gage a show or movie -> -> then buy the DVD/s when you decide you liked them enough. Like people do with Kindles and E-Books.

CD's are another one that's really losing popularity because unlike streaming services, music apps don't really delete any conten. Which is good!! <3<3<3<3<3 But it does mean the death of CD's and the little pamphlets inside with all the lyrics and posters and notes from the musicians 😅

[victorluvsalice]

Skrillex - Bangarang (Ft. Sirah) [Official Audio] by Skrillex

You guys don't know how long I've been sitting on this one. XD I've had this in mind for a Song Saturday for a few months now, but I didn't want to post it until I started posting the Smiler's Otherland stuff I've been working on -- specifically, the post regarding their weapons from earlier this week. Reason being, I now associate this song with the trio battling Ruins in Wonderland! Specifically, the scene runs like so:

-->The trio are up against Bumby/The Dollmaker, who is spawning Ruins to go after them; Alice starts off alone at first, slicing, dicing, smashing, and otherwise wrecking them with her weapons (both AMA and A:MR ones)

-->Eventually, though, she starts to get overwhelmed despite her best efforts (around the time of the second set of "shout to all my boss boys") -- cue Victor running in with HIS weapons in time for the second "BANGARANG," and the two fighting together to destroy yet more Ruins as Bumby starts sending out the big guns. They do really well for a while --

-->And then a bunch of Drifting Ruins get off some lucky hits (around the spot where it gets a bit quieter and calmer), and the pair find themselves pinned by a bunch of Ruin glop. Bumby sends in a Menacing Ruin to finish them off -- but before it can actually do anything, it's suddenly hit by a stream of glowing yellow liquid. Pan over to Smiler holding the Inoculator and grinning. Bumby derisively points out the liquid doesn't seem to have done anything, and Smiler explains that their weapons are actually based around converting enemies to their cause.

-->And then as the bass picks up again, the Menacing Ruin turns toward Bumby with a snarl, and Smiler goes, "Or, to put it more simply -- that's my friend now."

-->Cue Bumby having to dodge his own creation's fiery Ruin balls in the last part of the song as Smiler frees Victor and Alice, and the trio working in concert to finish off the last of the Ruins -- Smiler softening them up or turning them to their side while Victor and Alice take them out.

Yeah, perhaps a little weird, but I think it's a lot of fun. :) I like imagining the trio working together in Wonderland to take out a threat -- and I really like Bumby having to run for it while being chased by his own monsters. XD Good stuff. And the song is great on its own if you like the scratchy bass-drop style! Go ahead and give it a listen if you like.

[gurokichi]

Bon guess whose birthday is going to be tomorrow and won't even be able to celebrate it :D

Yeah tomorrow is my birthday, and I wouldn't celebrate it because right tomorrow I have to go on a school trip (which in fact I was originally going to have an exposition (I don't know if I write right) tomorrow, but the date of the exposition and the trip changed, so now tomorrow will be the trip and the exposition I think it going to be the next week).

But it's not like I'm upset or anything, in contrary I'm very glad that anyone would celebrate my birthday, because for me, my birthday isn't important, for me celebrating my birthday is such a waste of time and money, and I like to see my birthday just like another boring day and not like my "special" day.

But leaving that aside, I don't want to go to school today, I really don't want to, but I have to, and I hate it.

But, I think it's ok, it's not like something so bad is going to happen at school XD (I'm very scared of the words that I just said, because I know that when someone says that, something really bad happens ;-;).

Ah and yet used to me to put "xd" in the end of a sentence, because when I trust someone, whenever I write to them I will put “XD” at the end of a sentence (I don't know why I do it, but it's something I like to do).

And btw.... ERIS I JUST NOTICED THAT YOU FOLLOW ME YESTERDAY, THANKS YOU! :D, I'M VERY HONORED I PROMISE!!!.

Sorry I got excited, it's just I wasn't expecting that, it really took me by surprise, a happy surprise I can say.

So now you were watching KNY when I send you the ask?, wow perfect timing xd.

And yeah I know that already, and I suppose that you was playing dumb with me, but not anymore I thought, so you know at least something about the character of my profile pic, I didn't know that one of your watch amphibia, in my case, none of my friends watched it, well, one of them do but, she didn't finished ;-;.

And talking about her, she answered me this morning :D (she have sleep problems too, so we were talking from 4 to 5 am today, yeah, we need to sleep better we know that) I can live again, I'm so happy that she doesn't seem mad at me, I would die if she was really mad at me, I just love her so much, that I couldn't help it but being so scared, I don't told her that though,she didn't even know that I'm telling you this, but she knows about you bon, I told her that I have a friend on tumblr (however I don't know if you consider me as your friend),and she's happy about that, she's happy that I finally have a friend after what happened to that "friend" (you know what friend I'm talking to).

She knows that my birthday is tomorrow, and told me to have a "good time" tomorrow I know she's trying to cheer me up, but I'm just not excited about tomorrow's trip.

RIGHT? some bugs are just disgusting to me, specially.... Spiders "but unnamed anon spiders are not bu-" I don't fucking care if they are arachnids and not bugs, i'm calling them the way I fucking want.

My father told me that we were going to clean my room on Saturday (because seriously my room is made of shit, with cobwebs, dust, and possibly cockroaches, in short, basically my room is a reflection of myself xD), so, my room isn't going to be shitty anymore :D.

You're welcome, I know that sometimes I said things that nobody but me would understand, so it's ok to me to explain what I was referring to (however sometimes it is annoying, but like I said it's just sometimes, not all the time).

I think it's all for now, goodbye bon! :D (I have school today so, maybe I wouldn't answer you, but if you answer me "sooner" then I'm going to try to answer you back! I promise!).

- Unnamed anon :p

Late to this ask and already sent you something about your birthday in DMs, so I am going 2 mostly skip over those parts… however, before I do, forgive me for pushing here, but your birthday isn’t a waste of time or money. People want to celebrate it because they love you. I do understand that feeling, though, and I hope that your birthday today goes how you’d like it to, whether you celebrate or not!

I’m sorry to hear that you don’t like school. I was the same way when I used to actually attend school. School sucks, but it’ll be okay, and when you get home, you can do the things that you like!

Aw, you’re adorable with the xd thing and the excitement towards Eris following you 😭😭

I was! I’m planning to watch some more later today. I really like it so far, but I’m also only a couple episodes in.

I’m glad to hear that you and your friend are talking again! Have you two sorted things out?

Spiders are the worst. Also, it’s just easier to call them bugs!! I’m excited for you that your room’s getting cleaned; it sounds like it wasn’t in too good of a state before. Eugh, I hate cockroaches. Had several in my house recently… actual jumpscare looking up on the ceiling and seeing one above my bed.

How’ve you been? Done anything interesting in the time it took me to write a response?

Alrighty, I’ll be eagerly awaiting your reply! Bye bye! (^^)/

[teen-cups-au]

WIP Game

Guess what's going on. Comment or reblog with your answer!

Doudy (mod): Preview Sunday. About time, this break feels like foreveeeeeeeeer! And the page isn't even ready, had an artblock haha (planned to prepare stuff the 2nd half of July, big fail).

Anyway, here's a lil' game for you meanwhile!

Edit:

I MEANT PREVIEW SATURDAY! TODAY! POSTING RN!!! AND NEW PAGE TOO oh boy it's hard to get back into it XD