#sarah talks a lot

[fancyhats-and-fennelsbuds]

Oh no Padraic, from the Bi-Queer Polycule-d family member you instantly deyassificated into the cringe uncle

This wholly started from this drawing

Also i must say the second panel came to my mind after that scene from Ice Age with Manny menacingly asking Sid to pooopy check the baby

[notthatalex]

I think my biggest smosh character unpopular opinion is that the Creekside Killer doesn't exist.

Ofc smosh characters (outside of sword af and baf legacy) don't really have any Canon, only characterization, really. (They are here to be comedic, not build a narrative.) BUT I think the Creekside Killer not existing is important for Sarah Christs' characterization. Or at least my characterization of her.

In the subtext of most of the jokes, the joke or part of the joke is that he isn't real, but a patchworked story/ enemy Sarah created. That's where the humor comes from.

She needs one convenient bad guy. Someone that represents the worst in the world. Because then she can beat it. Then there is a goal, something SHE can do.

I think the Creekside Killer is something her mind created to make her feel less helpless and lost. She is a super paranoid person, that gets pushed into being the straight man a lot because the people around her are unexceptionally over the top (redacted, chosen). When she is alone, the opposite shines threw.

This is the most clear the universal studios video. She is a mess in that video and the whole joke is that she spends the entirety of it (and her life tbh) on a wild goose chase after a man that isn't real.

On the other hand, I am also really interested in having him as a character. Be it from smosh or in fan works. Especially if he is also used as a metaphor for something bigger. I do want a Creekside Killer, but my first interpretation is the "correct" universe for me. The most faithful and true verison of Sarah.

The same how I enjoy BAF Legacy Chosen with him being actual supernatural and special in a way, while he isn't true Chosen in my mind.

I think I am always drawn to the more human interpretations of these characters.

[bxriles]

So I finished A Court of Silver Flames this morning.

This is now an Eris Vanserra stan account. That is all.

Someone come talk to me about this character because I am fascinated.

[tiktaalic]

been watching a lot of hbomb due to the vid drop which means now i'm getting. hold on. i have to block a tumblr user. which means now i'm getting a lot of sarah z recommendations and i finally went oh alright let me look at her uploads surely i can give her a chance. only to get really mad when i see she got 2 million views on regurgitating tumblr posts INCORRECTLY about what happened to destiel surrounded by other #tumblranecdotes .

[that-disabled-radfem]

tw: rape

gyns I wanna be clear that I’m not out here to hate on Women Talking because it was a really really really great film and I love Sarah Polley and wish her nothing but the best. And even though I was confused by Toews’ choice to make so much of the book about August, I still love her writing and enjoyed the book. and I really think y’all would really like the movie and the book and you should definitely go see it if you have the chance

but we gotta talk what happens to Nettie/Melvin in the film adaptation!!

breif overview of the concept: Women Talking is loosely inspired by the events of the Manitoba Mennonite Colony in Bolivia - women were repeatedly drugged and raped in the night. they were told that they were making it up or that they’d been attacked by the devil as punishment but in reality it was the men of the colony. this happened between 2005 and 2009 but probably continued even after the men were caught and arrested

so in the book Nettie is attacked and she is impregnated and later loses her child. this is obviously traumatic. she changes her name to Melvin and begins dressing as a man. (obviously because she’s living in a traditional mennonite colony, she can never fully take on the role of a man - her job becomes caring for the children) it is very clear in the book that this (as well as her no longer speaking to adults) is a trauma response and Toews refers to this character as Nettie, Nettie/Melvin, and Melvin but settles on Melvin at the end though she ALWAYS calls Melvin ‘she’

the movie however, within like thirty seconds of introducing Nettie/Melvin the film explicitly says (via narration. like when I say explicit, I mean explicit!) that Melvin is not living as a man as a result of trauma. It was something along the lines of “Melvin was a man all along. He just couldn’t hide it any more after it happened.” So instead, being raped and losing a child act as catalyst events that make Melvin’s life as a woman untenable

and I just hate that they’ve taken the easy way out with this! it’s so much more interesting and truthful (!) to be like this character is living in an overtly hierarchical, misogynist society and on top of that she experiences a series of distinctly sex-based trauma in addition to living amongst this growing collective trauma that the women are experiencing and so she attempts to live as a man for her safety! like how can you not see that that is what’s happening

[linovadraws]

[eggoatt]

hi!! long post today, but i wanted to upload some refs and introduce you to some of the ocs featured on my artfight, cuz a lot of them have never been posted on main ^^;

first, my main most favoritest oc Sabrina! An empath with a checkered past, re-learning how to express herself and be a good friend. A competitive problem solver type with lots of eclectic skills and hobbies.

next, Sabrina's best friend/qpp Julian! Very emotionally intelligent, likes to match people's energy and have fun. He'd take you to the best local restaurant and be on first name basis with the employees

Julian's girlfriend Beatriz! Small, loud, feisty agent of chaos. One of the most strongly opinionated and bluntly honest people you've ever met. Can come off mean but never malicious. She's just Like That

next, Andrew. The newest and youngest crew member on a sea monster hunting vessel. Struggles to articulate his thoughts and emotions. Autism be damned, my boy can swab a mean deck. (He's also Sabrina's estranged younger sibling)

this is Sarah! Chatty scientist weirdgirl. Intelligent and perceptive with a dry sense of humor and get a kick out of catching people off guard. Professional "witch for hire"

Sarah's boyfriend Ellis! Extroverted peacekeeper with an off the wall sense of humor and a jokester persona. Aggressively genuine. Big malewife energy

bonus babie siblings :3

[vibinglikethat]

this is going to sound harsh but hear me out: y'all have got to stop begging/demanding/guilt tripping people into voting for biden just so trump doesn't become president again. Y'ALL DID THIS SHIT THE FIRST TIME AND IT WASN'T FUCKING HELPFUL. IT STILL ISN'T.

it's just blowing my mind that y'all have somehow forgotten or ignored or dismissed the fact that president joseph biden is actively participating in a genocide against palestine. AND YOU ALL THINK IT'S A GOOD IDEA TO DEMAND PEOPLE TO FUCKING VOTE FOR HIM?

i really need y'all to wake up. democracy isn't dying because it's already dead. if it was ever alive to begin with. i'm not going to vote for a man who cares more about power and money than he does about palestinian men, women and children. your hatred for trump should not come before your compassion for others.

[positivelycarey]

My friend and I were talking about bigeneration and I had a thought— what if the Curator is in 14’s line, not 15’s? And what if 14’s line can ONLY use old faces now. AND, what if he has to go in backwards order??

So when he regenerates, it’s back to 13’s face. She spends that whole lifetime with Yaz. And with each new life he gets a new career, and when it’s 4’s face he knows it’s time to be the Curator.

[quietwingsinthesky]

oh, yeah, another thing i noticed that was odd about s5 in comparison to earlier seasons was how much they relied on like. not the history of the doctor, exactly, but the image of that history. whether from little easter eggs of the first doctor’s picture popping up everywhere to i think the two(?) times in the season we get a montage of past doctors. and i honestly can’t remember anything like that happening earlier (with the exception of the time crash short, which felt more substantial to me and was also like. 7 straight minutes of david tennant being allowed to fangirl.)

and i say ‘the image’ because hell knows the RTD era was pulling from doctor who past left, right, and center, but it rarely felt like a moment of ‘look at this old thing, you remember old thing? old thing was cool and so are we for continuing it.’ and more like ‘here’s a species/character/etc from classic who. and here’s how they’ve changed and fit into the new world we’ve built for the show.’

I guess, the difference here for me is that. i haven’t watched classic who. s5 shows me a slideshow of doctors and to me, those are the guys i once ranked by how sexy i think they are. and not much else. i don’t have an emotional connection to an image. but take, say, school reunion? an episode that was my favorite even back when i was a kid specifically because i adored sarah jane? i had no idea who she was then, i only just figured out a little bit ago which doctor she traveled with, and exclusively all i’ve watched of her is that episode in s2 and the sarah jane adventures. and yet, that episode, without the context there for me, managed to make sense to me. i’m sure it was probably even more impactful to fans of sarah jane from classic who, but it didn’t lose its impact without that knowledge.

so, that’s a shift. i don’t want to say it’s a negative one, exactly, because maybe people who have seen classic who like these references and i’m missing something. but, to me, it feels a little more shallow.

[commsroom]

doug eiffel is, in his own words, a man of many fears, but i think two of the most interesting ones are these twin fears he has about his self perception: he's afraid that no one will ever take him seriously. and he's even more afraid that they will.

i think a lot about his story in all things considered - what it betrays about eiffel's psyche that both minkowski and jacobi present versions of the narrative where they're in the right, but he has this fear. that he's screwing it up, that everything is his fault and everyone knows it, even when he's barely involved and just trying to help. that within his own narrative he is still in some way the one at fault, but also a victim of circumstance who everyone will jump to unfairly blame.

it's his attachment to this perception of himself - as the perpetual screwup, as tragically unlucky, as everyone's punching bag, as ultimately unimportant - that holds him back for so long. because the thought that he will only ever be those things, only ever his mistakes? that terrifies him. but it's safer than the alternative.

with his efforts to cast himself in that tragicomic role, taking eiffel seriously is such a central point to his character development (and specifically in what it indicates re: where he stands with the others) - everything about shut up and listen and constructive criticism, of course, but also. when hera connects with him in bach to the future by opening up about their shared insecurities, she shows him that she takes him seriously and tells him that he should take himself more seriously too. and minkowski can't fully understand eiffel or connect with him as a person until she comes to terms with his conviction and all the complexities that forces her to acknowledge in him.

it's so much scarier for doug "why the hell do you even care what i think? i'm so far beneath both of you that i shouldn't even register on your radars" eiffel to consider that maybe people can take him seriously, that maybe they already do. because if they want him around, if they value his effort, if they care about him and think about him and take the things he says to heart, then that means those things matter. and it means that he matters, which is terrifying both in what it challenges about his own self hatred and the weight it gives to his otherwise careless words and actions.

[antisocialgaycat]

Someday tumblr is going to be gone, or I will, and that's ok. It's sad, yes, but at least I will have known you. At least I'll still be able to quote terrible posts with my friends, at least I'll be able to look back and remember all these people who are closer to me than anyone I knew before. This site has gotten shit, but at least we've been here together. At least I met you.

[princessofmerchants]

CW: anxiety talk about Nesta in ACOSF chapters 45-50

The moment Nesta learns that Amren voted against her—that is, voted against informing Nesta about the weapons Nesta Made—Nesta's entire inner monologue becomes filled again with damaging and spiraling negative self-talk, self-loathing, and false self-assessments of her own unworthiness of anything good.

It literally begins as soon as something cracks inside her at the knowledge that she was weighed and judged and found unworthy by her former friend. (This is in ACOSF chapter 45.)

This begins a really important shift in Nesta's inner voice that's about to last all the way to chapter 50 with Cassian by the lake. It's a shift from the healthier inner voice she's been cultivating through her friendships at the House of Wind (both with her found sisters and Cassian) and through training and Mind-Stilling, back to something more like how she has felt for the majority of her life, but especially since her father died and (in her mind) she failed to save him, at least until she began to heal in ACOSF.

This shift makes Nesta an unreliable narrator about the world around her during this next stretch of the story, in an incredibly important and devastating way. I hope to write more about this when I reach the hike with Cassian in my reread.

The shift in Nesta is incredibly obvious for anyone who has experienced triggers like this themselves, and on this reread it took my breath away at how authentically SJM writes Nesta's experience here.

This next stretch — chapters 45-50 — are the dark and beautiful heart of Nesta's healing journey in this book for me. I know these chapters receive a lot of criticism, so within the bandwidth I have available to me I want to offer my perspective on just how perfectly SJM nails this next stretch of Nesta's story (which we can take from SJM's honesty in her interviews about this book that part of why she got this so right on the page is because she was writing from personal experience with this herself).

Hopefully more on this to come.

(And while there is a lot I could write about the vital role people like Amren play—or don't—in the healing journey of people with the kind of anxiety and negative self-talk Nesta struggles with, and how unhelpful to that journey behaviors like Amren's in this book are, I'm choosing not to focus on her in any reflective writing I do on this, because I care so much more about Nesta than I do about Amren, so I'm not going to waste precious words on her.)

[sarah-yyy]

okay!!! pay review came in at just a little under the 20% increase i was hoping for!!! but considering circumstances, still grateful!!!

[destinedtobeloved]

Stephen buys books by the crate from the bookstore down the street. He reads them and memorizes things he learns. He calls his apartment his ‘dojo of light.’ He’s a man of belief. He watches the nature channel. He bonded with Jack instantly and will always help lil man out if he’s ever struggling with frying or boiling hotdogs ever again. He likes to cook and was sad when Linden didn’t try his eggs. He doesn’t go to narcotics anonymous meetings for no reason. He listens to them preach. He’ll always have a speech to try to get Sarah’s spirits up even if he’s crumbling too. If all fails, he can become a math teacher (not working security at the space needle.) He just wanted to be good at something. Football. Breakdancing. Now he’s a cop.

[seekingthestars]

palia: look at all these npcs you can befriend! :)

me: reth.

palia: oh, and you can romance some of them! :)

me: reth.

palia: and...you can pick one to be your mentor? please someone other than–

me: r e t h.