#sapphic_terror

[sapphic-terror]

He got used to burying people a long time ago.

(Or, Javi wears his dog tags every time he goes out chasing, it means nothing (it means everything.)

[me-a-mess-morelikelythanyouthink]

thinking abt how for me love only exists w a knife in hand, and i don’t know how to live without baring my teeth and hiding my neck, and I’m desperately reclaiming pink and kindness and trying so hard to take back the things I was forced into, but the thought of being a Girl*** rings hollow, but I love being a girls girl and I want so badly to be loved but I can’t fathom it in any sense of the word, and when I die I want to be someone’s loving daughter but I can’t see myself being someone’s wife, can anybody hear me???????

[callum-hunt-is-bisexual]

giggling n kicking my feet

[jayladfanpage]

just out of curiosity, wht r ur fav fanfiction tropes for Jason?

Ohhhh!!!! Gosh that's so hard, I love so much stuff!!!

I think my absolute favorite is Child Prostitute Jason Todd, as I am a "Jason was a CSA victim" truther and those fics are always deliciously angsty

Some faves of that trope:

Sugar Baby by iselsis

put me back in it (i would do it again for you) by Sapphic_terror

You’re Alone ‘til You’re Not Alone by WorkingChemistry

the living sea of waking dreams by r_astra (mind the tags, this one's heavy)

Overheard by Sun_Moon_Stars_Jedi

I also love a good Time Travel AU, though I don't usually love "fix-it" time travels a lot. There are exceptions to this but in general I prefer it when the time travel doesn't have huge stakes

Some faves of that trope:

The Time Before by Cdelphiki

Laws of the Universe by minnow_doodle_doo

I also love roadtrip fics! Jason being stuck in a car/train with literally anybody for hours on end is just always hilarious to me. He's such a little shit

Some faves of that trope:

crash, burn, romance by lysiabeth

A Meditation on Railroading by eggmacguffin

Last but certainly not least, magical de-aging!!! There are NOT enough fics of Jason Toddler, most of them are about Tim, but it's always a delight to find one!

Some faves of that trope:

Time is Not Your Friend, Time is Not Your Enemy by EventualToast (Literally my absolute favorite fic of all time, and the author is the SWEETEST person)

Repeat Your Favorite Mistakes And Love Them All Again by watchingthestars13

Return to Sender by novashyperion

Journey to the Past by therisenbird (thesecondsmile)

[buddiefix]

Injury (Major/Minor) Fic's

The following are some of my favourite buddie fanfictions that involve the character(s) getting injured, sick, presumed dead or experiencing a close call.

(Any new fic's I find that fall under this category will be added to this post, so feel free to check back for edits!)

All the Things We Already Knew by jupiterfics

9-1-1 (TV)  

It's the smoke that wakes him, seeping into his apartment not ten minutes after he finally knocks off.

He's off the couch in half a second, heart pounding with adrenaline, at the kitchen counter before he even realizes that the familiar smell in his nose is burning insulation.

There isn't any alarm going, no sprinklers on, no neighbors screaming or doors banging open, but Buck knows.

"9-1-1," says a vaguely familiar voice on the other end of the phone once he punches in the numbers. "What's your emergency?"

Language: English Words: 21,640 Chapters: 1/1

Dreaming Through the Noise by maybeamystery

9-1-1 (TV)  

To his right, he sees the familiar railing of his loft; to his left, the staircase appears. Eddie sucks at the pulse point just under Buck’s jaw, and Buck shivers as his eyes trail somewhat hazily over the rest of his bedroom furniture. But then he realizes his TV is gone. Why the hell is his TV gone? Buck opens his mouth to ask Eddie if he knows, and—

—he wakes up—

—to a rain shower over his bed.

[Buck is sick. His family takes care of him.]

Language: English Words: 8,181 Chapters: 1/1

say a prayer for the broken bones by SourwolfSeblaine (smilingbuckley)

9-1-1 (TV)  

While Eddie is on a two-week vacation trying to fix his relationship with his parents, Buck gets hurt on a call. He makes them promise not to call Eddie and moves in with Bobby and Athena for recovery... Eddie is not thrilled when he finds out.

Language: English Words: 5,318 Chapters: 2/2

Natural Instinct by inkinmyheartandonthepage

9-1-1 (TV)  

Buck drives Eddie and Chris to the airport and, on instinct, he kisses Eddie goodbye.

OR

“Oh shit,” Buck whispered out. His head swam as he stared unseeing, the moment he said goodbye to Eddie stuck on a loop inside his brain – cupping the back of Eddie’s head, fingers sliding into his hair and dragging him forward for a kiss.

“Buck? What’s wrong?” Bobby demanded, stilling his movement in the kitchen.

“I kissed him,” Buck swallowed, his voice barely above a whisper. “I kissed Eddie goodbye and told him I loved him.” He turned slowly to look at Bobby, hands shaking. “Oh fuck, Bobby what have I done?”

Language: English Words: 7,927 Chapters: 1/1

no grave can hold my body, i’ll crawl home to him by Sapphic_terror

9-1-1 (TV)  

Buck didn’t believe in much, not in God and certainly not in his parents. But for some inexplicable reason, he believed in the utter goodness of Eddie Diaz.

It started with a grenade in a man’s chest. It started with jokes during shift and the absolute love and adoration on his face when Christopher was around. It started with the way he made everyone feel at ease, the bloody and injured people he was helping, those working alongside him, anyone and everyone.

It started with a million little, bright things, but Buck has always been - oblivious. So he finally realized it, the trust he had, the love he had for Eddie in the worst moment. With a gun to his throat and a very angry man talking calmly in his ears.

-

Buck and Eddie have always been inevitable, they just needed a shove, or a near death experience, to figure things out

Language: English Words: 8,165 Chapters: 2/2

Cruiser Bruiser by FandomLife54

9-1-1 (TV)  

There’s a quiet determination to his step when he walks into the locker room that morning, but any and all thoughts he had come to a grinding halt as he takes in the scene before him. Buck is sitting on the bench, back to him, and blowing out air slowly like he’s bracing himself for something. That something turns out to be putting on a shirt.

He lifts his arms a fraction and immediately drops them with a hiss, movement tugging at the vicious splotch of purple and blue bloomed over the right side of his lower back.

OR

A close call on the side of the freeway has Eddie reevaluating his relationship with Buck, particularly how strained it's become due to Eddie's anger since the lawsuit. Some domestic love and more than a few heart to hearts have Eddie confessing things he should have a long time ago.

Language: English Words: 8,530 Chapters: 1/1

sometimes an onion really is just an onion (and that’s all there is to it) by snarkymuch

9-1-1 (TV)  

“Shit, shit, shit,” he cursed as he gripped the wrist of his injured hand, holding it above his heart. The cut wasn’t massive and, by design, not something you could stitch, but that didn’t make it any less messy or risky.

The blood thinners were not his friend right now.

A singular river of red trailed down his forearm to his elbow, then dripped onto the floor, leaving little splatters that his shoes soon smeared against the tile.

“Towel, towel, towel,” he said, spinning on his heel, gaze raking the room frantically. “Fuck—shit, there you are.”

-

Buck wanted fajitas, so he went to the store for the sweet onions he needed, but he got the wrong kind because he unexpectedly ran into the team, which had nothing to do with why he was crying in his kitchen--obviously, the shitty onions were to blame.

And his day just gets worse from there--as he ends up fileting off a strip of skin, bleeding everywhere, then accidentally hitting his talk-to-text and sending a ramble he never meant anyone to hear to the last person on earth to care: Eddie.

Language: English Words: 5,416 Chapters: 1/1

after everything i must confess (i need you) by Ink_Dancer

9-1-1 (TV)  

After the lawsuit gets resolved, Buck and Eddie get stuck in an elevator during Buck's first shift back. Buck, stung by Eddie's icy behavior, forces Eddie to talk to him.

or: very cliché elevator fic, set immediately post-lawsuit and pre-season 3 episode 6 "monsters." aka: grocery store divorce part 2

Language: English Words: 5,779 Chapters: 1/1

it’s okay by itsmylifekay

9-1-1 (TV)  

Finally back with the team, Buck isn’t going to let anything tear him away again. He has to prove his place, his part in the family, even if that means smiling through the pain.

Or, Buck gets hurt on a call and doesn’t tell anyone.

Language: English Words: 11,087 Chapters: 1/1

Rubble by Hpdm20

9-1-1 (TV)  

Taylor broke up with him a month ago and he hadn’t told anyone, not because it was a secret, but because he hadn’t gotten the chance to talk to them. It reminded him so strongly of the time after the bombing that he wanted to cry. How easily forgettable he was. Apparently punchable, as well. He’d been punched before; it came with the job as a bartender or when he tried out for Navy SEALS. Even his dad had gotten in a few good ones when he disobeyed to get their attention. None of the people who punched him mattered. Not like Chimney did. His brother, someone he loved. But maybe Buck’s love just wasn’t enough. Not to stop people from leaving or from wanting him gone.

OR: Buck is badly hurt when the floor of a building caves in. Eddie talks to him through dispatch and Chim finally apologies.

Language: English Words: 5,947 Chapters: 1/1

this love is alive (back from the dead) by Ink_Dancer

9-1-1 (TV)  

Maddie's panicked call. Eddie standing in Buck's empty apartment. A needle in his neck. Buck, now, on the table in front of him, unconscious. "Hi, Eddie," said Jonah.

or: buck and eddie in the hen and chim situation from 5x17 "hero complex."

Language: English Words: 5,323 Chapters: 1/1

your heart beats my blood (my breath fills your lungs) by Yavilee 

9-1-1 (TV)  

They break the surface at the same time and she is coughing and gasping, but she’s breathing and she’s alive and that’s all that matters. The elation bubbles sweet at the back of Eddie’s throat and he turns, grin already stretching up into his cheeks, expecting to meet Buck’s equally triumphant gaze. He’s met with only water, the surface still and unbroken except for the waves Eddie is kicking into existence. It takes barely a second for his lungs to go tight with the realization that something is wrong, so very very wrong. * Or the one where there is a car accident, Buck almost drowns and Eddie fights to keep him alive.

Language: English Words: 9,225 Chapters: 1/1

Buy Back the Secrets by allyasavedtheday

9-1-1 (TV)  

He casts his gaze to the right, to the voice he’d heard a minute ago and the hand still on his shoulder.

And, well. Okay. So Buck may have just been unconscious for an indeterminable length of time but he doesn’t think he’s exaggerating when he says the guy leaning over his bedside is one of the most attractive people he’s seen in a long time. Especially when his face splits into a smile that rivals the brightness of the hospital lights that almost just fucking blinded Buck a second ago.

“Welcome back, hotshot,” the guy says and it sounds fond – familiar – and Buck honestly has no idea who this guy is.

His brown hair is dishevelled on top of his head and his eyes look tired but then Buck notices the LAFD t-shirt so- alright. Someone from the firehouse, maybe? But he’s pretty sure he’d remember a face like that.

-

After getting hurt on a call, Buck wakes up thinking it's 2018. AKA Buck can't remember who Eddie is but he's pretty sure everyone's lying when they say they're "just friends."

Language: English Words: 18,808 Chapters: 3/3

Exhale by themandylion

9-1-1 (TV)  

Buck’s Jeep gets stolen, which is a pretty shitty way to start the day. The 118 answer a collision and find said Jeep on fire, a deceased driver inside, which is arguably an even worse way to start the day. Or, a wildly indulgent "i thought you were dead" idea that wouldn't leave me alone.

Language: English Words: 5,297 Chapters: 1/1

(Friendly reminder I do not own any of the works listed in this post, and all can be located on archiveofoureown.org)

[hpandcarbs]

This is so good

[ao3feed-brucewayne]

you cannot save people (you can only love them)

by Sapphic_terror Let me tell you a story about hope: it always starts and ends with birds. Victoria Chang - (Or, Tim loses his memories, becomes Ra’s al Ghul’s right hand, gets kidnapped by his family, escapes by holding Damian hostage and - goes back to the League. He comes home though, eventually.)  Words: 5051, Chapters: 1/2, Language: English Series: Part 8 of gotham doesn't let go of her own (not easily) Fandoms: Batman - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Categories: Gen, M/M Characters: Tim Drake (DCU), Jason Todd, Damian Wayne, Dick Grayson, Cassandra Cain, Bruce Wayne, Barbara Gordon, Stephanie Brown, Alfred Pennyworth, Ra's al Ghul, Original Characters Relationships: Batfamily Members & Tim Drake (DCU), Tim Drake/Ra's al Ghul, Tim Drake & Original Character(s), Tim Drake & Slowly Gaining His Autonomy Back, Tim Drake & Running and Learning to Heal Additional Tags: Tim Drake-centric (DCU), Tim Drake Needs a Hug (DCU), League of Assassins Tim Drake, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Canon-Typical Violence, Memory Loss, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Tim Drake Makes Bad Decisions, Trauma, fanfic of a fanfic, in which i make things so much worse, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Healing, tim slowly claws his way home, very slowly, Road Trips, but it's tim learning how to live again via https://ift.tt/Aaz6xNC

[viisbubble]

TBOSAS has made me so obsessed with The Hinger Games and I’ve literally only read the 1st book and that was years ago. But I just need to rant about how amazing this series is (and about Snow) because I’ve read so much about this now. Disclaimer: this is a very disorganized ramble about my thoughts of TBOSAS and the Hunger Games in general as I have collected through various internet analyses. If I’m misinterpreting anything, please please tell me. I just wanted to get this out there because TBOSAS has me in a chokehold.

Honestly I loved Snow as a character. I loved how Collins portrayed him because he was a total psychopath from the beginning, but there were also so many chances for him to change. Like sure he has trauma, but Tigris is living proof that they could’ve been kind.

I think the book portrays how cruel or a person Snow is better than the movie, which paints him in a more sympathetic light, but I think both interpretations are equally valid.

I remember one post I read talking about how Snow is an unreliable narrator due to his inability to understand his own emotions. Snow is portrayed as smart and analytical in the book because that’s how he views himself. It’s also shown in how he, and the reader through snow’s eyes, believes Sejanus to be stupid when he really isn’t. I’d like to think that Coriolanus truly cared, but that he refused to believe that he’d care for people below him like Sejanus and Lucy Gray, due to his upbringing.

Coryo was too obsessed with himself to see the bigger picture, and that is ultimately his downfall. His rush of power when he killed Bobbins (the tribute, idk I might be misremembering the name) makes him believe that all humans are savages that find joy in violence. He’s too self absorbed to realize, despite being proven wrong multiple times throughout his presidency, that he might be the exception and not the rule.

TBOSAS made me cry because Coryo, Sejanus, and Lucy Gray could’ve had a good future, but it was also an impossible dream. They all had dreams they wanted to achieve, it’s just that Coryo’s obsessions won out. But also, I don’t think his and Lucy Gray’s relationship would’ve ever worked. Coryo needed power and to return to the capitol, and Lucy Gray wouldn’t have given up her freedom, her dream, to go to the capitol with him. But it’s so tragic because their all so young. Coryo and Sejanus are barely adults, and Lucy Gray is 16-17. And I can’t help but be sad because I believe that in a world without the hunger games, they all could’ve lived on happily.

Even though Snow made choices that demonstrated his lust for power, I still think he’s ultimately a product of his environment. The pressure of his father, their family’s legacy, and DR.Gaul we’re large parts in him becoming the antagonist he is.

I read in a fanfic (https://archiveofourown.org/works/51604627 please please read it’s so good I cried so much) that the capitol eats their young, making cruel children crueler and killing the kind ones, and I think that summarizes the tragedy of the story beautifully.

Honestly I just want them to be happy.

[ao3feed-irondadspiderson]

you're the greatest thing we've lost

https://archiveofourown.org/works/50604859 by Sapphic_terror There is something terribly freeing about being alone. There is no one to hold you back, to hold you down to this earth with their desperate love. There is no one who will mourn if you don’t come home, there is no one waiting with a light turned on for the sound of your familiar footsteps. But with the freedom comes a profound sense of emptiness. A hollowness that can never be filled. Peter knows that better than anyone. - In which the world forgets about Peter Parker but this isn’t a tragedy. Peter won’t let this be a tragedy. Words: 3306, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: F/F, Gen Characters: Peter Parker, Aunt May Parker (Marvel), Michelle Jones (Marvel), Ned Leeds, Original Characters Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark, Michelle Jones & Ned Leeds & Peter Parker, May Parker (Spider-Man) & Peter B. Parker, Peter Parker & Original Character(s), Peter Parker/Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Canon Compliant, Post-Canon, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Grief/Mourning, Healing, Magic Spell Causing Everyone to Forget Peter Parker, Peter Parker Gets a Hug, Male-Female Friendship, Found Family, Finding a way to live again, Peter survives and then he lives and this is not a tragedy, Character Study, Non-Linear Narrative, Recovery isn't linear, the world can end and keep turning, Peter knows this better than anyone, Hurt/Comfort, Peter Parker-centric read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/50604859

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

🪰🪰🪰

Recommend a fic that makes you sad (in the best way!!)! Some great angst and/or hurt/comfort! [x3]

Hehehe you chose Pain I see >:)

1. im a deceased playing victim by sunburnt_hyacinths! I’m not gonna lie, this fic actually horrified me lol

IT’S BASICALLY GHOSTBUR GOING MAD IN LIMBO AND IT WAS AWFUL!!! IT WAS SO AWFUL!!! I REALLY LIKED IT AND ALSO IT SHOOK ME UP!!! A LOT!!!

Goshhhhh I don’t often read Ghostbur angst and this is one of the reasons whyyyyy 😭

2. A Ghost and His Boy by BogFrog! I promise this is the last Ghostbur fic I’ll recc for you alsgakgsajg

Not too long ago I was feeling sad over the lack of Ghostbur fics people have written, so I (somewhat hopelessly) looked through his tag and tried to find something good.

And then I found this. And. It very quickly became. A favorite. Of mine.

GHOSTBUR IS WRITTEN SO KRIFFING WELL I AM IN AWE AND EXILE AND ANGST AND TOMMY AND BEGINNING WITH WILBUR AND ENDING WITH WILBUR BUT THE GAPS IN BETWEEN ARE FILLED WITH GHOSTBUR AND I JUST OUGH OUGH THIS FIC HURT ME AND PAINED ME BUT IN GOOD WAYS YES VERY GOOD WAYS I LOVE IT YES YES YESSSSSSSSSS!!!

3. Only in Dreams by Ranbootslol! I was not expecting a Utahbur fic to so goshdarned sad but </3

4. I want to know what to do with the dead things we carry by Sapphic_terror! Lovely Niki fic that I should reread soon :0

[sapphic-terror]

You know what my favorite twisters hc is? Addy having a little sister, obviously played by Mckenna Grace, who is just a teenager when her sister dies. But years later she ends up in the same town as The Wranglers + Kate and Javi (this taking place around a year after the movie) and not only is she the same age Addy was when she died, she’s also the spitting image of her. And did I mention that she also chases storms??? And did I mention that she’s a few months away from being older than her older sister and her entire life is about trying to make sure her sister didn’t die in vain, to live the life Addy didn’t get??? And did I mention she doesn’t talk to their parents so Gracie is utterly alone in this word??

Kate and Javi are finally healing and dealing with their issues and falling in love with the Wranglers, and then the girl they watched grow up, who looks exactly like Addy, rolls into their camp demanding to know if they finally accomplished what her sister died for. And all of their old trauma hits them with the grace of an EF5.

Anyways, I may or may not have wip called your my sister but your eyes are closed because I crave angst and forcing Kate + Javi to deal with all their issues :)

[ao3feedbuddie]

I am haunted by waters

read it on the AO3 at by Sapphic_terror When Maddie was twelve she nearly drowned in the ocean. She had gone too far out, her parents too busy with setting up an umbrella, and had gotten caught in a rip tide. If anyone asked, and only Buck ever had, she would say she didn’t remember anything but choking up water and the sun glaring in her eyes. It wouldn’t be the truth. - In which Maddie Buckley loved her brother long before she loved anyone else Words: 2765, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 2 of is it the end of the world? (not as long as you're here) Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: Gen Characters: Maddie Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley & Maddie Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Daniel Buckley & Maddie Buckley Additional Tags: Post-Tsunami (9-1-1), Hurt Evan "Buck" Buckley, Hurt Maddie Buckley, Character Study, Suicidal Thoughts, Drowning, Minor Character Death, Near Death Experiences, Evan "Buck" Buckley Needs A Hug, Evan "Buck" Buckley Gets a Hug, Maddie Buckley Needs A Hug, Hurt/Comfort, Brother-Sister Relationships, Maddie has already buried one brother and is terrified of burying another, Drowning as a form of character exploration, Evan "Buck" Buckley and Eddie Diaz Are In Love, (in the background while he has a break down), Communication, I swear if they just talked it would fix everything read it on the AO3 at

[callum-hunt-is-bisexual]

everyone in the world should read sapphic_terror's works omfg

[sapphic-terror]

Because maybe Bradley burned down all of his bridges, but Jake never had any to begin with.

third times the charm by sapphic_terror on ao3 :)

[sapphic-terror]

Her first impression of Tyler Owens doesn’t involve him at all. Instead, it involves his bright red truck, and his less-than-adequate undercarriage and connecting anchors. (A rather fitting metaphor and all that.)

First paragraph from my current fic, chapter 3 of people help the people