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me-a-mess-morelikelythanyouthink · 1 year ago

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thinking abt how for me love only exists w a knife in hand, and i don’t know how to live without baring my teeth and hiding my neck, and I’m desperately reclaiming pink and kindness and trying so hard to take back the things I was forced into, but the thought of being a Girl*** rings hollow, but I love being a girls girl and I want so badly to be loved but I can’t fathom it in any sense of the word, and when I die I want to be someone’s loving daughter but I can’t see myself being someone’s wife, can anybody hear me???????

#silv’s back on her bs #inspired by my own ramblings in the hashtag ramble channel accumulated over the last three years but most recently influenced by the barbie #movie and sapphic_terrors gl!niki #im just so. UGH #I’m a girl but no I’m not but what’s the point in all that I’ve reclaimed for it to still ring hollow and it’s terrifying realizing that I #can just Be bc it feels like I constantly need someone’s validation or approval to exist but the second I can feel that validation I crumbl #I’m my mothers daughter but scratch that I’m my mothers son but my fathers daughter but sometimes I wonder if it would be easier if I was #his son #trying to find the fine line between expressing femininity as opposed to being it and realizing that it’s not me as a concept except for al #of the ways that it is #and this is BEFORE throwing my silly little aro ass into things #god #insert obligatory I’m sick of being told love is all a women’s fit for #just UGH

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