#samrambling

[tunababyyyy]

btw slimeriana are like a binary star system made to always orbit each other, born of the same cold dust, destined to destroy each other in a beautiful explosion of matter and energy and light. if you even care.

[satorusgummies]

▶︎ •၊၊||၊|။||||| 0:10 "𝐌𝐀𝐏𝐒 by 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡𝐬"

divider by @/cafekitsune

I think I like the way you look at me, the way you can so easily make me smile. I can only wish that I can do the same for you one day; make you smile when you need it most – through voice calls and meet-ups, through stupid jokes and pictures. You so effortlessly make my day, with the way a notification from you never fails to make me perk up, and that talking with you feels so easy and simple. We don’t always have to talk to feel comfortable, moments of silence feel like little pockets of safety, where I can just exist as myself with your presence to keep the noise quiet in my mind.

I think I like the way you so easily get along with everyone around you. I remember the way you came into my life, you shocked me from behind with a little yell, and we remained friends for two years now – maybe more. You just managed to get along with almost everyone you were with, and nothing made me happier than seeing you get along with my best friends, and seeing them like you too.

I think I like the way we can be vulnerable, the way we can talk about anything and the way that your secrets are mine, as mine are yours.

But this one secret will be mine to bear, at least until you’re ready to hear it – because I think I like you, and I wish that you could like me too.

[samcat71470558]

at first I didn't read that it's about the scores, and now I'm imagining something better.

Imagine the Tracy bros as the only dragon riders, saving people across the world like the show. They've got special bonds with them, which makes controlling them easier bc it's almost like they're reading each others minds

It's set in the modern day and Alan has a special suit fitted to last years of oxygen and rides a giant space dragon.

John still lives in normal tb5, but he's got one of those tiny dragons that helps him. The catch: that's EOS and she's a special kinda Cyber dragon or summ idk.

Scott has a kickass supersonic dragon fitted with a special seat so Scotty doesn't lose every bit of flesh from his body whenever he rides it.

Virgil has a giant dragon, like, a giant dragon. It's slower than 1, but carries either two smaller dragons (the pods) or tb4 bc it's hella strong.

Gordon coming in with an aquatic dragon, ofc. I'm kinsa stuck between a sea serpent with legs and straight up a seawing from WoF. It does need arms, bc well tb4 has them, and it needs to be kinda small.

And lastly Kao. Small, stealthy, slim frame with that sonic blast thing tbS did in Weather Or Not. It's scales can camouflage into anything.

The rest of the team's pretty much the same. Brains has MAX, bc idk if a dragon could be as great as him, and I don't think Granny allows them in the house anyway. Maybe John used to have a phobia of dragons, and that's why he doesn't ride the big ones like his brothers and only when he saw they can be smol like Eos did he decide to take her in? Maybe I'll make art of this.

They need names too...

Sorry for the long rant have a nice day!

Man

Can you imagine how amazing a httyd/TAG combined score would be?

Like, combining the main theme with test drive or something?

That shit would slap so hard I’m not even joking

@idontknowreallywhy

[tricky-pockets]

To any autistic people reading my blog: I care about you. I don’t want to make you easier for the world to ‘deal with’; I want to make the world easier for you to live in. My partner is on the spectrum, and these are some of the habits I’ve developed from being close to him:

Skipping the small talk is always okay; you are welcome to throw an infodump at me. I love to listen. I will never be weirded out by your level of interest in something. In my house, this is called Obsession Of The Week and my partner and I both do it (I have ADHD with a lot of hyperfocus).

I will not be offended by the timing of messages. You can drop out in the middle of a conversation any time. You can be afk for 2 weeks and then pick up where you left off (as long as I can do the same - I have severe anxiety and sometimes I have to just stop talking).

Questions are always okay. I am happy to hash out details until we understand each other. I will ask precise questions if I don’t understand, because I don’t like to make assumptions about what you meant. 

If you want to establish protocol, I’ll stick to it. I’m good at being consistent. Some of the rules in my house are: “Give me context when you want to have a conversation about feelings, so that I know what you want from me,” and “If I say ‘epistemological safe word’, that means I can’t tell if you’re being serious. When you hear that phrase, stop and tell me if you’re joking or not.”

Consent is everything. I will ask before I vent. I will tag whatever you need me to tag. I am not entitled to any level or kind of interaction with you. I will respect boundaries. I will change my vocabulary if needed. I am in the habit of asking “Can I hug you?” before even typing *hug*.

I don’t expect that all of these will be useful to everyone. What makes life easier for me and my partner might not apply to you. I just want you to know that I am willing and able to adapt if it makes your life easier. And I would like to make some new friends.

[xialing-gf]

i just realized that most of the people on tumblr share one thing in common with me: becoming emotionally attached to fictional characters due to the lack of stable, meaningful relationships to us in real life

[sanctimonious-sobriquet]

i’m going to subject my players to a joke

so if you remember THUNDERBONES...

here’s the plan

players are part of a cult that worships thunderbones as a being of ultimate power (just roll with me on this one). thunderbones will be described as a harsh and mystical character. the players will probably expect to fight him.

a cult leader will send the players on a mission with three objectives so that the cult can perform an occult ritual

1. retrieve a locked chest (described as a “box” to the players before they see it so that they think it’ll be small and easier to transport) with certain needed supplies

2. abduct a certain man of important political standing

3. clear out a warehouse for the cult to use

the party will do these things because of course they will

the man is a baker. the box is full of party supplies. the ritual is a surprise birthday party for thunderbones. the end.

[wanderingcas]

blogkeeping <3

welcome to my blog! I'm glad you're here:)

currently writing: the common hours [destiel] and what's past is prologue [dreamling]

also banging my head against the wall with my original novel (more details at @hantisenovel)

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[the-ace-of-the-moon]

this got derailed oops

im really sorry i havent refilled the queue lately and that i havent been posting much but i sorta have good news and bad news. Both are mostly related to me personally but obviously they have been (a/e)ffecting the blog so i will be sharing but to start off, i will be continuing this blog and its here to stay. If you want my whole rant/ breakdown its below the break but long story short good news i got a job bad news im having some life problems that are making my mental problems flare up like my anxiety and trichotillomania so i will do my best but i probably will only have scattered posting for a while sorry.

The good news is that i fimally got a job so i wont just be lazing about anymore and so far ive been enjoying it there! I dont know what i get paid but tomorrow is the last day of my 2 weeks of training, which is great because i actually got proper training and also i get to see how i do on my own after this!

The bad news is i have a lot of things that have been getting set aside even before i got the job and some of it is kinda approaching deadlines and while im trying to forcus on the new job, the job is taking a forefront priority as a commitment thats blocking everything else out. I have to return a couple audio books, start and finish a painting that im just blocked on, set up a day to talk to a councillor so i can apply to a new college, apply for college, and balance my social life with my down time. The new jobs sorta eclipsing everything so im trying to think of how i can even do college while having a job and my mom keeps pressuring me about college and in the meantime my friends keep trying to schedule things and i dont know how to react so my brain keeps just kinda fritzing and then rerouting to a different task so i end up ignoring them which is bad but i dont know how to explain to this one friend that shes kinda pushy and ive been really nice about it but its not realistic to expect someone to drive for hours on end not only frequently but also at insane hours of the night and not even out of town. Like just cruising the streets from 9 pm to 3 am. And enjoy it. And not get paid for gas or anything. Just tonight she said "oh yeah and [name redacted of friend who usually tags along] is leaving in a couple weekends (this person goes to college out of state so we dont get to see them) so we are gonna need to go on a drive soon" I dont want to? But if the friend thats leaving wants to go its 2 against 1 and honestly both those 2 have been having some drama of each saying the other interacts with their significant other too much and they keep talking to me about it and its exhausting? Like i get that both of their significant others live far away and in different time zones and have jobs but neither of my friends have jobs or can drive and i have to listen to their shit waiting for something to blow up and worry about how im gonna take care of my problems and its not like i can drop these 2 bc i keep burning bridges due to lack of social motivation so i only have 4 people i actually consistently initate contact with but 2 of those people are far away and have actual lives so i try not to bother them and the other 2 are these messes and really its the one that causes the most problems but all of this has been stressing me out which makes me anxious and kinda depressed and unmotivated to do anything and its all made my trich worse but ive been doing my best to control it but now today there was too much going on bc i had my axiety at the forefront, my problems on my mind, i had an exhausting family event to go to earlier, and then this shit gets shoved back into view and since im home alone i finally dug out the tweezers ive been trying to hide from myself and now half of the inner lashes on my top left lid are gone and i look fuckin wierd and im too keyed up to sleep and im ignoring my friend and i want to pluck more but ill just go for the left eye again bc it looks wierd and ill end up with no lashes and my coworker who's training me will ask and itll be awkward and my mom will see and be mad bc she thought the trich was just a phase when i was in elelmentry and why didnt i tell her about it still going on ant ittl be a whole thing which will make it worse and now im fucking crying. Or not bc apparently ive suppressed my emotions too much and too often that im fine now ok that was wierd any way sum up lifes good but simultaneously shitty so now my lashes and skin (didnt mention but i typically have really good skin unless im stressed real bad so now my face is starting to break out and get dry and irritated) are fucked up and i wont be posting as often until i can find the motivation to fill up the queue agan. Sorry you had to read this mess and apparent roller coaster of emotions (with an anticlimactic end) but hey now you know more than you ever would have about the admin of this blog other than that shes an aro(flux)ace witch

[blureverie]

Got that darn little devil stuck in my head. Curse you beautiful musically creative ‘Tubers for making catchy songs about an inky little demon thing. That swing is addicting. Can’t wait for Chapter 3.

[tunababyyyy]

also i think we as trans people need to start being a problem again. call yourself a faggot transvestite and crossdress whichever way you want in public. embrace the inherent glorious punk nature of a sex change. be a horrible freak full of love. i'm so sick of being palatable

[tunababyyyy]

i think too many people assume gillion's upbringing was lavish. he says that he lived in/near the palace, but at one point he refers to his clothing as what "servants" of the elders would wear (i think in one of the episodes in edison city when they are disguising for the heist maybe?). I think gillion was intentionally raised utilitarian and humbly so that the elders could better break his spirit and make him follow orders similarly to how the military does in real life. by making him wear servant's clothes and train alone, they effectively strip him of his identity. keeping him away from his family is another strategy used by real-life militaries and cults to groom members into only taking orders. i have a hard time believing someone with an inferiority complex level like gillion would have been given any preferential treatment or luxuries.

[tunababyyyy]

love that british people say they're "called" their name instead of "named." "i'm called" versus "my name is" or "i am." it implies none of them ever give you their true name. or that the name is separate from the person.

[tunababyyyy]

if i were a late 18th century italian oil painter who was kicked out of my convent/art school at 17 for having relations with a nun (sorry not sorry) and eventually began to make a living doing portraits of horrid bourgeoisie aristocrats while crossdressing as a man so they would take my art seriously but i eventually made enough money to buy a secluded villa in northern italy with a view of the mountains and the coast only a few hours' ride on horseback and i was in the town square one morning picking up fresh bread and tea because i had been so busy painting i didn't have time to bake any at home and i ran into you selecting a fine cheese to take home to your mother in naples where you were studying chemistry at the university and learning about electricity with the top minds of the western world and i was struck by your beauty and insisted you come back to my villa so i could paint you and there we basked in the sun and ate the cheese you picked out and the bread i was able to make the next morning before i continued on your portrait, but when you saw it, you said it felt stiff and not like you at all and that you believed a painter of my talents could capture your soul if we spent enough time together and so we bathed in the river and chased each other through the trees and i kept painting you and painting you and painting you until suddenly you had become my muse but it was august and you had to return to naples to continue your studies but you promised to write and i didn't know what to do with myself but continue painting you as the fall set in followed by a winter where you couldn't visit either because your father had fallen ill and you had to help your mother care for him in the city where the best doctors were so instead of painting you i took up sculpture and i recreated your figure from memory out of clay dug from the rivers we swam in but i still couldn't capture you perfectly, even as the spring came and warmth came back to the earth and you still couldn't return to the villa because your work in the lab took up all of your time working on a cure for the illness your father was still ailing from and then one day i got it right, the painting of you, on the last day of may when you finally arrived to see me again and you said the painting was perfect and we laughed and i went to meet your parents in naples where i sold the painting of you and then proceeded to make more like it over the years with different subjects, but mostly you, i would accidentally invent the style of romanticism because i wanted to capture you properly in oil and ink and stone and clay. that's probably what i would do.

[tunababyyyy]

i've always thought jonathan bailey should play jonathan harker in a deeply homoerotic seven episode shot on film limited series dracula adaptation and now that i've seen him be the worlds most tragically beautiful catholic subby power bottom in fellow travelers i am only further vindicated in this notion. he was born to be that tormented real estate agent im telling you

[tunababyyyy]

anyone else notice that we like to talk about websites like they're physical locations?? "i don't go here" or "what are they doing over there" and what not. it's just so joyful to imagine that every website is like a campus of sorts, with different fandoms/spaces having their own buildings and departments. like hello yes i am now walking from my office in the podcast fandom building to see a lecture in the hall for people who reblog photos of cute birds. oh listen, in the distance: the tiktok live outdoor amphitheater that you can't avoid no matter which route you take. it helps me stay whimsical to imagine things like this.

[tunababyyyy]

love when i see kids posting online like "man i wish i was a teen in 2014" like you can't still enjoy that stuff. i'm literally listening to mcr and 5 seconds of summer and reblogging gifsets of dan and phil right now nobody is stopping you girl. do whatever you want!!!