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justwritedreams · 2 years ago

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Thinking of you | Junmyeon

Mafia!Junmyeon x Reader

Word count: 2826 Genre: fluff, angst. Author: maari Warnings: Post-breakup, mention of alcohol Note: I'm not used to writing with him, Sammy used to do that soooo my first story with Junmyeon that I post here 🙈 i got really carried away with this one Request: you could do a oneshot of junmyeon, where he is the mafia boss and in a club he meets his ex girlfriend, who broke up with him because she found out what he works for. they are suffering apart and want to be together! angst and fluffy ⫷ Exo Masterlist

Y/N looked at the dark landscape outside the car completely thoughtful. It had been like this in the last few weeks, she had relived the scene of her breakup countless times and tears always accompanied her.

Was it torture? Possibly.

But it still hurt her so much to remember that she no longer had his arms wrapped around her waist, or the way he always buried his face in her neck to smell the sweet perfume he loved for her to wear.

She swallowed the urge to cry once again, she had chosen to break up because it was the best thing to do in the situation she had found herself in.

She loved him so much, she didn't even know how it was possible to love someone that much, but she couldn't be with him. As much as she wanted to.

That night in particular she had promised her best friend that she would do everything she could to have a little fun and forget about the crack that had lodged itself in her heart since then, well either it was that or her friend would have dragged her by force to “live a little ”, in her friend’s words she should stop being so miserable.

Of course, not even her friends or family knew why she broke up with him, or else things would get worse.

But going to the club reminded her of all the nights she went out with him, especially the night they met. So even though she was fighting not to think about him, the memories came.

She took a deep breath as she got out of her friend's car, smiling lightly at her to assure her she was okay, or at least pretend like she was.

As soon as she entered the club, she felt an icy wind and a chill down her spine, she hugged her body and swallowed hard as she tried to shake off the clouds of memories that invaded her head.

She had barely arrived and she already knew it was a bad idea to go there.

She and her friend went to a high table that was empty, they talked a little while observing the place, Y/N's anxious eyes looked for a single person and her reason said that it would be better if he wasn't there.

As time went on, the music got slightly louder and the place got a little more crowded.

“Tae!” Y/N's friend called a boy with her hand, as soon as he turned and found her, he smiled widely.

"What are you doing here?" He asked as he approached her to hug her, he was accompanied by another boy. “This is Jinyoung, my friend.” he introduced and the boy extended his hand to shake both of them.

“This is Y/N, my best friend.”

Y/N smiled at the two of them and when she shook Jinyoung's hand her eyes stopped at his neck.

“Are you a soldier?” She asked, curious.

She recognized the ID necklace anywhere.

“Yes, army lieutenant.” He smiled, proudly.

"Really? My brother is a sergeant, but in the navy.” she explained and he smiled slightly at the answer.

“Y/N comes from a long line of soldiers.” Her best friend commented, smiling when she finally saw her talking.

“And you’re a soldier too?” Jinyoung asked, interested.

She laughed, shaking her head.

“No, I’m the only one who has a boring job.” She joked and got a laugh from the soldier.

Y/N had a lively conversation with Jinyoung, her best friend and Tae left them alone with the excuse of going dancing.

Jinyoung was pleasant to talk to and had a captivating smile, he didn't take his eyes off her and even though she was shy, she wasn't uncomfortable. Although her initial plan hadn't taken into account going out with a guy that night, she wasn't depriving herself of wanting to get to know him better.

But she had one small problem. The ex that wouldn't leave her sober mind.

That's why she decided to do what anyone in her position would do, drink until the image of her ex's eyes evaporated from her mind along with all the walls she had built around herself since the breakup.

She excused herself from Jinyoung, telling him that she would go to the bar and come back soon, he quickly patted her arm.

When she arrived, she looked at the drinks. She wasn't that big a fan of alcohol but she knew that the only way to forget about him was to do it.

“Double whiskey, please.” she asked the bartender who nodded before leaving to get her drink.

“Whiskey?” Y/N felt every hair on her body stand up and her legs trembled. “I always thought you preferred wine.”

She swallowed hard and the bartender returned, holding out the glass which Y/N quickly took, feeling her hands go cold.

Without any courage, she turned around and saw him standing next to her. She had to lock her jaw so a sigh wouldn't escape her lips.

He was still intoxicating.

His slightly wavy dark hair didn't fall entirely into his eyes, his face was hard and serious with his eyes fixed on her, he was wearing a white silk blouse with the first few buttons open that left a part of his chest exposed so that the necklace he wore sparkled. The necklace she had given him.

He wore a black vest and she couldn't resist continuing to analyze, her eyes went down to the black pants he wore and the expensive shoes.

It wasn't possible for a man to be as beautiful as him, it must be a crime.

Although he knew very well about crimes…

When her eyes returned to his face, he saw the slight smile that threatened to break.

“Not everything is what it seems.” She spoke quietly, unable to control how weak her voice sounded. “You know this better than me, Suho.”

She wasn't used to calling him by that name, he would always be Junmyeon to her.

Her Junmyeon.

But Suho was his battle name and since she discovered that, she used the name a few times just to speak to all the hurt she felt for having been betrayed.

Feeling the world around her spin in a spiral, she left without waiting for his response and returned to the table feeling watched.

Jinyoung greeted her with a smile and she did the same before downing the glass, drinking the whiskey in one gulp, making the poor boy next to her get a little scared.

The liquid ran down Y/N's throat but nothing was as strong and intense as Junmyeon's eyes staring at her from the other side of the club.

She didn't want to be the worst person in the world but she couldn't follow what Jinyoung said, she also didn't want to return Junmyeon's gaze but it was an impossible task.

Mainly because he divided the attention of his eyes between her and Jinyoung, as if he was reading what was happening between them.

During their relationship, he was never jealous because Y/N always assured him that her eyes were always on him, that no other boy would take her focus away from him.

But now they were no longer together and there was a slightly strong soldier beside her.

Yes, he had identified that he was a soldier before even noticing the identification necklace he wore.

People like him had training to recognize soldiers and police from miles away.

And when Y/N didn't look back, she lost the chance to see the fear in his eyes.

Y/N has always been a very correct woman, she was taught to be like that by her family, war heroes who had respect and principle.

And Junmyeon was the opposite of all that. He wasn't honorable and definitely not a hero, he was nothing that she really deserved it.

It was clear that after she had broken up with him, when she discovered the illicit work he did, he was afraid of losing her for good.

Not because his enemies could go after her, firstly, he would never let that happen, secondly, he had some of his men protecting her in secret to prevent that.

But because he knew she could find someone better than him easily, she just snapped her fingers and a line of men would form.

Because, after everything that had been said between them, he imagined that she would look for someone with the same principles as hers.

Someone very different from him.

And well, a soldier was exactly what he imagined she would find.

He just didn't think it would be so difficult to see her around a man other than him.

But Junmyeon didn't even know what was going on in her head, even though she was looking at Jinyoung attentively, she wasn't listening to a word he was saying.

What was happening inside her was a real battle.

She knew it was wrong and dangerous, but seeing him there only concluded what her heart already knew, she was still crazy about him.

Even if his work or business, she still didn't know how to say it, went against everything she believed in, it was impossible for her feelings not to speak louder.

Jinyoung was a correct and honest man, from what little they talked she concluded that, she only had one problem: he was not Junmyeon.

Even though he was just as handsome, knowing that her ex was there watching her nullified any less friendly thoughts she might have had with Jinyoung.

Y/N felt her head spinning, there were many reasons, and the alcohol she had spilled wasn’t the only one. In fact, she had only made her situation worse because she had been drinking to forget her ex-boyfriend and here she was, remembering him more vividly.

“Y/N is everything okay?” Jinyoung asked, worried, seeing her face suddenly turn white.

She took a deep breath, nodding.

“Yeah, I just…” she looked at the bar where he was, Junmyeon didn’t even blink when he looked at her. Even from afar she felt how intense his eyes still were. “I need some air.” she confirmed, looking away from Jinyoung.

“Do you need me to…” he let the sentence die in the air and she smiled slightly

She brought her hand to his arm and gently stroked it.

“It’s okay, I just need 5 minutes alone.”

He nodded, placing his hand over hers, understanding what she was saying.

Y/N left feeling the air running out of her lungs as if she had run a marathon and when she finally found the exit of the club, she closed her eyes feeling the first tear run down her face.

She had promised herself that she would try to be strong, she even tried to convince herself that she didn't feel what she felt for Junmyeon - a failed attempt to forget him - but she didn't count on finding him there.

In fact, she didn't even imagine one day meeting him again. After the harsh words she used, she thought he would never talk to her again.

Y/N looked for a corner to sit down, hugging her legs to cry in silence.

It hurt her to be away from him, more than she had imagined. But it hurt even more to be so close and at the same time so far away from him.

She was so wrapped up in her own pain that she didn't notice when he crouched down beside her.

"Don't cry, please." he pleaded and she sobbed. “You know I can’t stand it.”

Y/N lifted her head with her face soaked, looking to the side and seeing him grimacing in pain.

She kept her eyes fixed on him as Junmyeon raised his hand to dry her face with his fingertips, making Y/N close her eyes at the gentle touch.

She had missed that. Much more than she should have.

"I can't."

"What?" He caressed her face for a longer time, making her open her eyes.

“I can’t look at you and forget everything I know.” she admitted, hurt.

Junmyeon gave in, fingers retracting to cease the caress.

Y/N sighed and stood up, pushing him away completely. Ready to get out of there, she just didn't expect him to step in front of her, stopping her from going.

“I'm still the same.”

She laughed in disbelief and tried to pass, but he held her arm without hurting her and brought her closer so she could look into his eyes.

“I’m still who I’ve always been with you.”

Y/N felt her breathing became labored for two reasons, he was too close that she could feel his breath against her face, and because his eyes didn't lie.

And that disconcerted her, broke all the arguments she could have and that she had rehearsed in her head.

“You have a side that I never imagined and that I don’t agree with!” She tried to speak a little more firmly, her rational side was being drowned out by her heart at that moment.

She was finally where she wanted, in his arms.

“This is just business, Y/N.”

"Business?" she asked, frowning. “A mafia is not a business, Junmyeon, it is a sect. One from which you will never be free because you’re the boss.”

"You’re right!" he agreed, seriously. “But look into my eyes.”

She looked away, shaking her head. That was why one of his hands released her arm and went to her chin, making her look at him.

“Look into my eyes and say you don’t see how much I love you.” he begged and she was silent. “If you say that you don't see how much I need you then that's fine, I'll let you go into the arms of a guy who has the same principles, who is your hero.”

Y/N felt her eyes water.

He was her hero long before she found out where his money came from.

"I cant do it." She spoke quietly, shrugging her shoulders.

"And why not?"

“Because I would be denying the whole truth, including that my love for you also exists.”

The corners of his lips threatened to lift into a sad yet happy smile, all he needed to hear was how much she still loved him, the rest they could take care of later.

He could find a way out as long as he was with her.

Without having anything to say, Junmyeon put his hand on the back of her head, making her goosebumps rise from head to toe, she knew what was coming and didn't stop it.

He brought his face closer to her, without taking his eyes off her because he wanted to make sure she wanted it so much as him and when he didn't see any sign to the contrary, he sealed their lips.

Y/N sighed, resting her hands on his chest as she closed her eyes at the feeling of his warm lips once again against hers.

Junmyeon's hand went down her arms to her waist, hugging her with a certain desperation as he moved his lips slowly, as if he was discovering her again.

Junmyeon tilted his head to the side as he opened his mouth to deepen the kiss, all Y/N could do was grab the vest he was wearing tightly as their tongues met, eager for the sensual dance they were in accustomed.

Y/N's entire body seemed to light up, she felt so warm and so alive, it was as if she had awakened from a deep, cold sleep.

Their kiss became more desperate, causing him to press her against any surface he could find in the dark, which ended up being the club wall itself.

Completely panting, they separate, he even takes her lips in one last kiss before touching their foreheads.

“I've been thinking about you every second.” he spoke quietly and Y/N kept her eyes closed, her legs still wobbly. “I can’t live without you, Y/N.”

She smiled sideways, put her hands on his shoulders and then opened her eyes, looked at his red and swollen lips before moving up to his eyes, Junmyeon looked at her with a sparkle in his eyes.

“I could be making the biggest mistake of my life.” She sighed, reaching up to caress his face when she saw him frown. “But if I had to choose you a thousand times, I would.”

He smiled restrainedly.

“It was always you, Junmyeon. Always."

“You’re my eternal love,” he said firmly. “And you always will be.”

She smiled before pulling his face for another kiss that wouldn't be the last that night.

Was it wrong? Maybe, but everything she believed in didn't make any difference when she was with him or thinking about him.

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grumpyfr0gs · 6 months ago

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i got tagged by @notasimblr to share 10 people id like to get to know better and im so honored UvU i hope u enjoy sum interesting facts about me!!

last song: very little effort by julie (one of my fave bands ever)

favorite color: red. easily. forever (and black but im not really considering it as a color)

last movie: i barely watch movies so last movie i saw was sonic 3 with my boyfriend… i am obsessed with shadow and i love keanu reeves and i ordered a sonic cocktail… good times

sweet, spicy, or savory: easily sweet; i like all of them but i have such a sweet tooth its actually foul. ive been getting more into spicy foot lately. my favorite combo is sweet and salty

last thing i googled: icon black moon boots (the fuzzy onessss i need)

current obsession: tbh being done with college has made me lose some of the joy i used to get out of certain things so i havent really had any recently… i guess i would say persona 5 because im on the final palace and itching to finish (i have almost 100 hours!!) tae and makoto are my favorite characters

looking forward to: starting a new job tomorrow! im very excited because its my first real job out of school (ive had other jobs but they didnt really pertain to my field of study)

i tag @dreambot, @socialtownie, @kittyweskers, @corbeausim, @venriliz, @orphyd, @uxji, @sammi-xox, @sikoi, and @gnael!! thank u so much for listening

#nonsims #text posts and shit #these r so cute #i love tumblr

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ace-angel-judas · 23 days ago

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No way a saesang actually tried to break into Jungkooks house.. Ayden would have gone for the throat!

I saw that!!!

Like whaaaat the actual fuck 💀 people have no fucking shame.

It’s like when a saesang tried to break into Sophia and Tae’s apartment after she just had Sammy. Where did Sophia go? Ayden and Ari’s house.

I just know Belle was on the phone to Ayden.

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mediaaddictsanonymous · 7 months ago

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SURPRISE! We're back already?

Ep. 9 - "Everything RIGHT with WICKED"

Sammie and Tae gush about "Wicked" (2024) in this week's episode. Journey with them as they unpack how Wicked broke a years-long trend of awful movie musicals, did love triangles right, and injected more emotional depth into the musical's existing narrative. They grapple with the big questions like: Was it gay enough? Does Elphaba really like Fiyero? And what does Wicked say about change, complicity, and propaganda?

Join Sammie (she/her) and Tae (he/him) on their weekly quest to unpack popular media. The two cousins will delve into the significance of queer media representation, the ins and outs of fandom culture, and how what we watch and read is influenced by and influences our world. Tune in every month on Saturdays at 12 p.m. PST!

Listen on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, YouTube, Castbox, iHeartRadio, GoodPods, and Amazon Music!

#podcast #wicked #fandom #lgbtq #wicked movie #wicked 2024 #ariana grande #cynthia erivo #gelphie #galinda x elphaba #wicked the musical #wicked the movie #queer #glinda x elphaba #elphaba thropp #galinda upland #fiyero tigelaar #wicked fiyero #fiyero x elphaba

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scotianostra · 1 year ago

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Happy Birthday the Scottish folk singer/songwriter Brian McNeill born on April 6th 1950 in Falkirk.

Brian was a founder member of the Battlefield Band, one of our finest Folk Groups. He also joined several other top Scottish Folk musicians including Dick Gaughan in Clan Alba.

Brian is a multi instrumentalist – chiefly fiddle, bouzouki, mandocello, guitars and concertina – and the importance of his songwriting has long been recognised with such songs as The Yew Tree, The Lads O' The Fair, The Snows of France and Holland, Strong Women Rule Us All With Their Tears, Any Mick'll Do and No Gods and Precious Few Heroes. Many of his songs have been performed and recorded by artists worldwide. He has been described as ‘Scotland’s most meaningful contemporary songwriter’.

Brian’s audio visual shows, The Back O' The North Wind, about Scottish emigration to America, and the sequel, The Baltic Tae Byzantium, exploring the influence of the Scots in Europe, have won wide critical acclaim. His long connection with America's Lone Star State led to him being created an honorary Texan by the then Governor George W Bush. For six years Brian was Head of Scottish Music at the RSAMD, now the Royal Conservatoire of Scotland.

Brian is increasingly in demand for his production skills and his album credits include Davey Arthur, The Paul McKenna Band, Lorne MacDougall, Rua Macmillan, Eric Bogle and John Munro, Matt Tighe and Tad Sargent, The John Wright Band, Drones and Bellows and Missouri a cappella quartet The Wee Heavies.

As well as his musical talent Brian has also turned his hand to writing, he pens short stories, crime and mystery fiction involving his hero, busker Alex Fraser and his heroine, private sleuth Sammy Knox.

Brian is currently on the road with the The Feast of Fiddles 30th anniversary tour.

A song Brian wrote is one of my favourite modern folk songs

No Gods And Precious Few Heroes

I was listening to the news the other day Heard a fat politician who had the nerve to say He was proud to be Scottish, by the way With the glories of our past to remember "Here's tae us, wha's like us", listen to the cry No surrender to the truth and here's the reason why The power and the glory's just another bloody lie They use to keep us all in line

For there's no gods and there's precious few heroes But there's plenty on the dole in the land o the leal And it's time now to sweep the future clear Of the lies of a past that we know was never real

So farewell to the heather and the glen They cleared us off once and they'd do it all again For they still prefer sheep to thinking men Ah, but men who think like sheep are even better There's nothing much to choose between the old vain and the new They still don't give a damn for the likes of me and you Just mind you pay your rent to the factor when it's due And mind your bloody manners when you pay

For there's no gods and there's precious few heroes But there's plenty on the dole in the land o' the leal And it's time now to sweep the future clear Of the lies of a past that we know was never real

And tell me will we never hear the end Of puir bluidy Charlie at Culloden yet again? Though he ran like a rabbit down the glen Leavin better folk than him to be butchered Or are you sittin in your Council house, dreamin o'er your clan? Waiting for the Jacobites to come and free the land? Try going down the broo with your claymore in your hand And count all the Princes in the queue

So don't talk to me of Scotland the Brave For if we don't fight soon there'll be nothing left to save Or would you rather stand and watch them dig your grave While you wait for the Tartan Messiah? He'll lead us to the Promised Land with laughter in his eye We'll all live on the oil and the whisky by and by Free heavy beer! Pie suppers in the sky Will we never have the sense to learn?

That there's no gods and there's precious few heroes But there's plenty on the dole in the land o' the leal And I'm damned sure that there's plenty live in fear Of the day we stand together with our shoulders at the wheel Aye, there's no Gods

#scotland #scottish #history #singer songwriter #folk singer #Youtube

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feuqueerfire · 4 months ago

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ThamePo Live Blogging

Ah, one of my most anticipated GMMTV shows and one that's gotten generally good reception, what a treat. I'd debated watching it as it was airing, especially because I was getting a lot of tweets on my For You when the first few episodes were airing but was nervous about it ending badly, so I waited, and I hope I love it now. I just reread my initial thoughts from GMMTV 2024 Part 2 Showcase, seems like I had A Lot of thoughts lol.

Also this is an original script right? Like it seems to me that it’s written with Lykn and William in mind since it’s an idol band show and I have hopes that it’s like a well thought-out show because of it.

Ep 1: Dreaming With A Broken Heart (Mar 16)

It's actually 12:09AM on Sunday lol. Gonna watch maybe 1 episode or maybe just 1-2 parts and go to sleep. I should've started on Saturday but I just wasted the day away smh

1-1

Oh man, I forgot that in the beginning we have to deal with Po being jobless and unable to find work owwww too close to home

the interviewer saying “Next time if you want work, you don’t have to be this honest” like frrrr why’d you mention your faen lol

Is EarnChop guy Po’s ex? oh lol Already we see the Earn and Po mugs and photos

Dang, at least his parents are supportive, including monetarily

hehe his bias already beginning to be Thame

1-2

lol please why did he go into so much detail about MARS if he wasn’t supposed to be a fan but he is honesty ended up well this time lol

Baifern is a life saver fr the way she hooked up Po w this job

Sammy and Drake as Ming and Tae they’re fun

oooh sasaeng loan word from the korean/kpop scene

I remember seeing a bit about their first meeting

1-3

Ah, poor Po but also Thame must have gone through a lot

moooooody Thame and all the staff catering to him, favouring him

not super taken by the music yet, don’t know if it’ll be a MSP scenario where I loved all the songs and listened on repeat

Clearly there’s bitterness within the group for Thame’s favouritism

please why are they talking about the disbandment in public at the event

lmfao of course Thame remembers Po being outside one single fanmeeting with a camera

1-4

Thame is Po’s Phi heheheh

Po taking out his frustrations in Earn on Thame frrrr omg also it makes him seem even more like an overly emotionally involved sasaeng

Thame remembers Po because he’s different from the others lol

Okay they’re becoming friendly by the end already. I… am tempted to watch ep 2 as well but it’s already 1am. I enjoy a haughty celebrity character for sureee though I think that’s almost over for Thame, if not already behind him after ep 1 lol

Ep 2: A Step You Can’t Take Back (Mar 16)

2-1

Baifern is so funny, love her. Cuise you’re great

not Po accidentally making it seem like he wants to get to know Thame in a more romantic way lol

and digging himself into a hole when trying to explain to Thame that it’s not romantic lolll

“Oh… was that romantic?” the way William says it at 5:30 is sooo good lol

I’ve seen a part of that scene on Twitter I think

Thame’s chocolate milk lol

Mick is such an annoying boss

hiii Joong

in-text acknowledgement from Thame that he does the selfish, conceited celebrity image on purpose

Thame obediently putting his face in Po’s hand

Po staring at his hand lolll

It’s fun to think about the staff who have to actually do prep and setup for the lives and events of the koop idols i’ve watched

2-2

Aw, the members didn’t come/weren’t told to come

We’re beginning the Thame’s real feelings arc

2-3

They made Thame do solo and pressured him to sign with the Korean agency… and told him it’s for the group’s own good because they can’t pursue their own goals because of MARS and his schedules… but I think I’ve seen conspiracies about who set up stuff/lied to different members, so I’m thinking the house with each member’s bed having their own little hobby strewn about and “William and friends” in the journal might be the company’s doing

2-4

Deciding to not go and revive the group on a whim like this is wild but go Thame

ah, the sandwich motif

Done already?! The eps are like 40-45 mins long and so don’t take much time to watch at all. Though it’s 13 eps, so the overall runtime will probably be around the same as around 50 min 12 el series i guess?

Ep 3: Trouble Is a Friend (Mar 16)

uh it’s 6am, gonna watch a little bit before i go to sleep after seheri huhu. I’m already so into this

3-1

he can stay in Thailand but basically not do anything or practice with Mars

Ah… Jun? working with company CEO to find who made Thame stay

3-2

beautiful, gorgeous Fah playing Gam

lol Thame and Jun battling in front of the camera while giving a friendly image

Seems like Jun defeated Thame this time loll even tho Thame dropped a nugget about new album and coming back

3-3

Damn, the Jun and game center story is both so scripted but so genuine hmm Is it really a script that the CEO approved or smth from Thame because how would the script writers know that Jun got Thame to ditch practice when Thame took the blame that time

3-4

clever Jun

Ah, Jun knows how they’re putting Thame through a lot and making him pay for everything and he wants the group to continue. and that Thame is selfless in this situation

Jun’s the one watering the tree?

ahh it’s so fun that Jun punched Thame first before dylan did because Jun didn’t actually mean it and knows Thame well

girl just text him/call him, why does Thame need to memorize Po’s number lol

At first I was a little like they’re not explaining the plan much, how would the members/Jun even know what Thame is planning? But Jun seemed to know quite well exactly what Thame wants, so it makes sense this time I guess

Ep 4: Love The Way You Lie (Mar 16)

1:30pm, starting up my binge again. I had to watch the Shut Up I'm Talking episode with Tubbo first loll otherwise I would've started this at like 12pm

4-1

Are we barely getting any story for Pepper? We're moving onto Dylan quickly

damn Dylan actually thinks badly of Thame now but fr what could Thame even do lol the company gotta accept the song

4-2

hmm what’s Dylan up to?

Ah, hiding among the rows of boxes in a tight space. common trope, reminds me of Semantic Error and Bad Buddy

Jun is so clever and perceptive lol he already know Po likes Thame… though he hasn’t yet figured out that it’s reciprocated or just isn’t letting it out yet

4-3

agh fuck tumblr why’d i lose my thoughts written for this part

4-4

noo why didn’t Po join the group so far when it came to the rap battle

damn Nano was there too?

oh it’s because Po’s in his head about Jun saying Thame won’t like him and won’t need him soon either

ohhh I saw clips of this “sorry i haven’t replied, have you been overthinking?” scene. suave Thame but it’s because he’s learned from his mistakes

ah they’re getting closer

Dylan aiming to publicly humiliate Thame was too much for me. These eps are quite Mars focused with fewer ThamePo interactions until the end but I don’t mind, I actually didn’t notice the lack of their interactions until we started getting their interactions in part 4 lol

Ep 5: Love Never Felt So Good (Mar 16)

5-1

i find it fun that Po wants to prove to Jun that Thame likes him back hehe even though he was insecure before the long call

this is the Thame jealous of Jun episode hehe I’ve been looking forward to it

5-2

lmfao crying at Thame being jealous but Po real for realizing Thame didn’t like Po talking about Jun

Ah, Nano is civil and nice but clearly avoiding them and not getting close. That’s interesting, he’s not as outwardly lashing out as Dylan but obviously hurt

Nano skilled in these camping related problems

Cryingggg at Po’s annoyed “]Why did you interrupt Thame like that?” at Jun

5-3

aw Nano afraid

5-4

They got Nano on board now

if I was a Mars fan, i’d be into Jun and Dylan’s bickering dynamic. Okay I just checked and Jun/Dylan have a ton of fics on AO3 lol that’s understandable. after watching the ep i was on the ep 5 hashtag on twitter and lots of JunDylan edits on there too lmao ppl really can’t resist this dynamic

If I was Thame, Nano asking Jun to thank Po on his behalf because to him it seems like Po is close to Jun would send me over the edge

oh silly Thame doesn’t fully realize if he has feelings for Po lol thanks Pepper for calling him out on it

I’m sorry the street crossing thing really is so silly. Like I get that crossing roads is a skill in and of itself in SEA (girl I can’t cross by myself back home either) but why does Po keep staring at his phone and missing going along with the crowd omg

Bit of an awkward lead up for me but it’s cute that Thame has realized he likes Po after hugging him. but also why in public you’re a celebrity

Ep 6: Somewhere Only We Know (Mar 16)

6-1

Damn, did Thame almost confess to Po

oh, are we following Pepper this episode?

Ah, Pepper was wanting Thame to not have feelings for Po which makes a lot of sense because this makes things more complicated

Pepper is seeing someone, ah. and the CEO knows it too

6-2

Pepper, girl, you can just date in secret like all the other idols

oh no is Po crying, is that a tear

6-3

loll Ming and Tae have matching couple rings. They uncovered a different secret couple instead of Pepper’s person

ohhh Pepper’s dating Gam (Fah)?

6-4

Ah, Pepper is now on board too

lmfaooo not Jun having to apologize for flirting with Gam

Thame is such a fool pleaseeeee he told Po to take care of himself in order to fight together in his journey but worded it as if they’re done and this is the end

Thame looks so cute with the hoodie on the walk with Po

They’re soooo silly, don’t want the night to end. Just walking each other back home and to the bus stop and back home lmaoo okay this is very cute. The other end-of-episode romantic moments were sometimes a bit much for me but this one really hits

Ah, the 5 meter 5 cm line from the pilot trailer

I like Fah so much, I wish her husband wasn’t… like that, meaning she’s okay with it.

Ep 7: (Mar 16)

7-1

Pepper is a real one fr and lmao his frustration that Jun usurped the MV filming plan from Thame

I wonder what Jun wants from Po, he can’t actually like Po, right?

7-2

girl what is up with Jun getting between Po and Thame lmao. Dylan was saying that Jun did the same when he and Thame were getting close at least.

Okay, Jun’s just annoying about pushing Po to do his best and become a director

7-3

Bro why are the vibes again like Jun likes Po or smth? or Thame?

7-4

wtfffff Oner stole their song and gave it to Joong?

Ah, they want the success to be for Tpop abroad, not just for money and success. But a group seems more plausible, no? Like Korea likes their idol groups, not as much idol solos, esp if they’re not from an already popular group.

Oh nooooo Thame dropped his movie ticket and stood Po up. jk he’s crazy in love so he still made it

why are you hugging like this in a public movie theatre

I like Thane’s jealousy because it’s understandable and it’s not overbearing or controlling. It’s also something Po feels, that Jun is getting between them, so it’s not like he feels jealous of Po being close to his best friend or smth.

I really really should have binged this starting Saturday and not Sunday at 12am. Could’ve finished the whole series this weekend instead of just half and I gotta go to work tmrw

Ep 8: The Winner Takes It All (Mar 17)

Watching it again at 8:30 after work and other things. Hope I can watch 2-3 eps tonight and finish tomorrow

8-1

girl, not Jun waiting for Po at the theatre??? it was after Thame and Po already left though…

how would Dylan be a songwriter and not have a vault of half written songs man

bruh, I neeeeed a Thame and Jun confrontation scene nowwww. it almost happened last ep before the other song got released and everybody was side tracked and now at the movie theatre Jun just walked away like no i need an argument right nowww. Like if you’re gonna build up this much, the conclusion has to be explosive

I actually burst out laughing at Jun’s “become a better person for you, unlike the previous guy who was good for nothing” lyrics idea like what is wronggggg with him lmfao

8-2

The other 3 Mars members watching Thame Po and Jun interactions lmfao

not them choosing JunPo vs ThamePo lmfao

8-3

okay finally they’ll talk

sure fine, they go at each other just a bit but then make up which i guess makes sense because they’re from the same actual group Lykn and we can’t have too much fighting??

8-4

are they both gonna try to woo Po? Jun didn’t even admit that he actually likes Po

Ah, Jun said he doesn’t like Po and that he’s realized Thame and Po like each other

lmaooo Jun told each other them about the other’s feelings. “confessed on someone else’s behalf”

Ah, they’re still not explicitly saying they like each other but obviously they know

ahhhh this is the part where i saw so much on twitter, Po’s gonna think Thame’s buying condoms and such but literally Thame is so silly and wouldn’t make any advances and then Mars will be like… so you just watched a movie? and that’s it.. you fool!!

Ep 9: (Mar 17)

I should take a break to go through ThamePo January gifsets and stuff but I’m excited about so 9 lol

9-1

Po is so Aware of that bag containing the supposed condom box

lmfao everything sounds like an innuendo now

i’m kinda flinging myself around whenever Thame says something else that sounds wild lol

ah, hand holding at least

wtf not even a kiss when you’re like 2cm away? and why didn’t Po just lean forward a bit if he wanted

9-2

Mars all roasting Thame for not sleeping with Po last night lmfao

Did Mars finish creating and uploading their self produced song already? that’s fast but i guess they only had a week or whatever

I’ve skipped all their performances ngl

oh i did notttttt know this was actually their first kiss loll its crazy

9-3

Interruption?! Baifern cmonnnn

Ahhh Baifern inadvertently exposing Po’s secret love for Mars about the voting and stuff but also… him still keeping Earn’s shirts and the sandwich and stuff

They were about to have sec and now it’s all this happening lol. but fr I get Thame like okay maybe one random shirt ended up accidentally staying in the closet but all of your ex’s clothes? And you still wear them? And keep his mug with his ex’s name omgggg

the sandwich shop tantrum is funny lol

ah boyfriends…

9-4

Ah, a music show win

This is their first music show win? So is the group unpopular? Biggest money maker at Oner but that doesn’t necessarily mean much? But how is Thame apparently so popular that a korean agency wants him, I don’t even get that aspect at all?? And also they’re hoping for an all-kill?????? this is your first music show win!!!

Also did I dream someone in the beginning saying that Mars is Oner’s biggest moneymaker? or misinterpreted it?

Don’t have much to say about this second time when they hook up, it’s fine but doesn’t do much for me

Ep 10: Set Fire To The Rain (Mar 18)

I’m a bit nervous to start this last 4 episode arc because I think this is when shit starts hitting the fan?

10-1

lmaoo not Mars doing a little celebration for Thame having “grown up”/lost his virginity

girl, this group is hitting #1 in almost all the charts with their song already? A song that took one week to made with no company help? lol

Ah… the public starts finding out. Wild that it took them so long when Thame and Po have been doing everything in public from the beginning

And it’s not even Thame but rather Pepper who got caught after being carful for so long.

If Pepper getting caught means that people are tearing down his posters and everybody’s talking about it and Omer is getting endless phone calls and he’s not even Thame, supposedly the most popular one, then Mars is a popular group!!! How would it not be profitable to keep them going omg

Aw, Peoper and Gam are cute… and Gam is the Phi ahh… but also they are still in public lol

10-2

The CEO leaked the Pepper scandal to stop ThamePo photos getting leaked. I can’t figure out if we’re supposed to think she’s smart or not. Like she’s one track minded which is ehhh and she’s willing to do whatever but it seems silly that she focuses so much on Thame when the group itself seems quite viable

Ah… Po fired…

I mean I don’t disagree here like if you Have to let Pepper or Thame take the fall, Pepper makes more sense and that if they were going to do things their way, they should’ve thought of things like this but… couldn’t Oner just have paid off Leak It

Okay, Po works with Ice now

Aw, Thame and Po meeting each other in all this chaos

The GROUP fanbase on twitter went on Rest? when tf does that happen over a dating scandal

Baifern… a grown adult, why are you reacting like this omg

but the fanbase going on rest makes more sense if she was the only admin lol

10-3

any buzz is good buzz ig

I really cannot understand Baifern’s mentality, especially as someone who doesn’t seem like she lacks much in her real life that she seeks to fill with Mars

oh noooo they found out that it’s Gam?

…will they break up or deny it or smth?

10-4

They’re breaking up… oh no…

oh no I get Gam being upset about it because they’re really tearing her apart and her hard work might go down the drain like this. ;-;

the media is so easily appeased lol. i do worry about Baifern still though

A press conference is interesting, Thai media does seem to love those whereas a kpop company would post written statements

my poor Gam ahhhh oh noooo ;-;

please everybody is so easy to placate lmaooooo and now some ppl are like hmm there’s nothing wrong with being an idol in love

Ah, this will obviously take a toll on Po and how he looks at his relationship with Thame and the future

why is Thame hereeeee, holding hands and maskless are you kidding?? leaveeee girl

I do enjoy watching/reading about consequences of celebrity life and especially idol life with all its rules. So this was fun and I feel like I don’t often get this sort of episode when I watch celeb shows even though there should be.

Saw some people on Reddit saying this is their least liked episode and just… how?? why?? This is like The Conflict that should be in many celeb/idol romances which never appear so I’m very happy to see it play out here but you don’t like it???

Ep 11: Space Oddity (Mar 18)

11-1

the thing is i know there’s a clip of Baifern finding out that Po is dating Thame at the end when they’re at a gathering so I know they aren’t gonna be exposed so i’m trying to be calm that they’re just in public

The FIRST PAK in Tpop? that’s actually insane, what is the popularity of this group and where are they in the general public zeitgeist

warning from CEO to Po

11-2

11-3

Ah, their breakup…

Somehow I was more moved by Gam during her and Pepper’s breakup than this, though usually I don’t get affected by main couple temporary breakup anyway (Love Mechanics was one where it actually did fuck me up)

Po’s promotion to Director bruh was he not a junior or smth loll

A breakup rumour gets a press conference but a Korean debut gets a surprise announcement at another person’s show?!

omgggg she was only on her Thame plan since the beginning omg bye

11-4

I just feel like the 4-member thing could have worked earlier on maybe + i don’t know why Thame doesn’t split time like doing both korea solo debut and Mars or smth (even though ofc it’d be difficult). But even the 4 member Mars and solo Thame would have worked earlier on I feel like if all this hope and dreams weren’t promised and taken away…

Thame paid off all their debt without them knowing

I get the CEO’s ruthlessness in doing what’s best for the company because that’s what ppl in this position do but I feel like she’s not going about things in a clever way so it’s hard to respect it (and not in a professional way either wtf is saying this at a random talkshow omg)

Everybody’s career progressing in Mars, like I get it

Baifern’s little speech about loving the group as they are is so… girl I don’t believe you lol not after your Pepper meltdown

unfortunately this domesticity of figuring out everything that’s running out at Po’s place and then buying it and getting it with a note that says “Let us be a part of each other’s every day life” is literally the most romantic and touching thing between them thus far. I am Obsessed with these regular things in establishes relationship storylines and just ahhhhh

Ep 12: Hey Jude (Mar 18)

12-1

why the hell i’d Earn back agh

Po, do not give that man the time of day agh

oof at least he saw through Earn at last

Oh… I also do not have a dream

Ouch, a Thame box. Is Thame really like gone to Korea? Already? We didn’t even get to see him leave.

an unread letter from Thame…

12-2

i also have no dream

Ouch, Thame had asked Po to not let go of his hand regardless of what happens

12-3

Oh okay, Thame’s not gone if he could have gone to the office rooftop lol

I was spoiled that Mick is apparently on their side and was pretending to be bad at his job or smth

i’m a bit bored of the What People Really Want bit

girl not the CEO coming to meet Po instead of Thame lol

Why is the CEO even talking to Po bruh it’s one thing to explain things to Mars but who cares about explanations to Po

Okay yeah, I expected Po getting fired bc why the hell was he telling Mick that he doesn’t want the Director position lol

12-4

It’s crazy for Mick to get Po fired from his prestigious position in order to help Mars come together as a group lmfaoo esp without consulting Po or hearing out the plan. That’s wild. I would be pissed, I’m really not made for this love shit

Uh, okay. Sure they have a plan I suppose

I like the realistic idol life conflicts, like no dating and having to breakup, or being so busy all the time no clocking out, etc. but this separation drama feels so… like Thame and Mars are also separated, they’re trying to scheme to somehow make Mars come back Again despite past failures, and Po is just A-Okay with losing his job. I don’t know what’s happening right now

Ep 13: I Say A Little Prayer (Mar 18)

Kinda wobbly ep12, hope this one is better. I know they end up going independent or smth?

13-1

Ah, their new documentary broadcast edit. I’m nervous about how it’ll go, esp because i know they’ll have to go independent in the end

13-3

They are all getting fired but they seem fine with that lol

I am not made from the same cloth as them fr, I’d be heaving throwing up at the thought of paying back these damages. This is why they’re following their dreams and I have none I suppose

Ah, they’re talking in the venue I hope nobody finds out? idk if that’s a worry we have to have anymore

13-4

I don’t buy CEO Peemika being glad that it ended this way lol

Nano being a JunDylan shipper is so funny

Oh Po is just introducing Thame as his boyfriend to people okay. Also no homophobia?

So they’re just publicly dating now?

they’re so domestic how cute

A fine final episode, I don’t Love it but they didn’t fumble it either. I liked getting to see ThamePo be cute and domestic again in the end.

Overall Thoughts:

It’s a tragedy how rarely I watch GMMTV shows nowadays, so I'm happy when I find out that it perfectly fine even if I don't love it. For example, the last GMMTV show I watched was 8 eps of Perfect 10 Liners and it was bad and I shouldn't have even started it. Before that, I'd watched Cherry Magic TH in August 2024 and that was also pretty good, liked it the same as ThamePo and I'm glad I watched it after hearing good things. In June 2024, I had started watching Wandee Goodday while it's on-air but got too frustrated and stopped watching around 8 episodes in I believe, rip. And also had 23.5 and Only Friends disappointed me in May that year. I did watch The Warp Effect earlier and really like that though!

So, I've been very cautious about watching GMMTV shows, which is a disappointment because there are many that I'm curious about and want to watch. ThamePo was one such show, I Adored the pilot trailer and I love reading canonverse idol fics and love celeb/non-celeb storylines. So I was glad that ThamePo was getting good reviews, whew.

Overall, an enjoyable show and I like the relationship between Thame/Po and also Thame & Mars. I also liked getting to see my beloved celeb/non-celeb trope and also idolverse trope (though I didn't actually watch or listen to much of the songs/performances, they weren't for me). The show seemed polished in terms of direction, cinematography, styling, etc; they followed the kdrama styling that it seemed like they were aiming for.

However, I do think being so into kpop hindered my enjoyment when it strayed from like... what makes sense. I couldn't figure out how popular Mars were first of all (they're Oner's biggest money makers? but apparently not worth it to just keep 4 of them going while Thame goes to Korea? and also this was their first music show win despite being so popular? but they also achieved PAK?! a much more difficult thing? And people wouldn't care about the other 4 members but would be all up in arms about Pepper having a girlfriend? Why would Korea want to poach a member from an existing Thai boygroup instead of just getting Thai trainees? Thame is popular enough that apparently a Korean company does want him but nobody except paparazzi got pictures of Thame and Po being affectionate in public?). So, how could all of these things be true, are they popular or not and to what degree? I think they should have come up with a better reason for Thame going to Korea because the setup makes no sense. Maybe Mars could've been a really struggling group and Thame goes really viral in Korea for a kpop song cover or something and thus a company wants to poach him. Oner could have been a smaller company who would be incentivised to give up Thame because the contract looked good but not have the resources to keep a struggling group like Mars going. Then, they could've showed that Thame's virality could be translated to Mars' popularity or that he could do 50/50 Korean-Thailand or something else that makes more sense idk. Anyway, this is somewhat nitpicking and somewhat actual criticism.

Thame: I think we got to know him a lot and he wasn't a flat character to just imagine a stock love-interest onto, like we knew his personality, but I wish he was a bit more flawed? Like he's just... so kind and nice to his friends and bandmates and Po. He may have almost accidentally hurt Po in the beginning if he didn't realize his feelings, so he needed a nudge with that, but that was solved very quick! I wish all his wants weren't so... selfless? in regards to wanting the best for his Mars team members. I don't know lol I enjoyed the irritating celebrity persona he had in ep 1 and obviously that's not him, so I don't expect that to have continued, but I liked the fact that he appeared flawed in the beginning.

Actually maybe his jealousy is a flaw? But I enjoyed him being jealous of Jun and Po thoroughly, he had fun reactions but never went too far and tell Po to stop hanging out with people or anything. I wasn't into JunPo either so I think I was more receptive to Thame being annoyed by it loll

Po: I liked Po, I sympathized with him maybe feeling directionless and also feeling left behind by his ex but choosing to leave Thame when need be. I'm not super obsessed with his character but he was a fine enough lead and had depth/matched the themes of the show.

I'd be curious to see if ThamePo will have more shows. If they do, I hope it's another similarly interesting show with plot rather than getting pushed into a We Are/Perfect 10 Liners type thing.

New Trailer:

I had watched this apparently since my Youtube had the red bar, even though I don’t tend to watch trailers especially not the full trailer. I don’t remember this trailer at all and the OST is like fine yknow but this didn’t really affect me that much. Like I think the concept would have interested me if I came across this trailer first bit it specification wouldn’t have made me as excited as the Pilot

Pilot Trailer:

Such a good trailer, half thanks to I Remember as the background music and the way it was weaves into the trailer. This really made me excited for the idol verse celeb/non-celeb drama and WilliamEst had outpouring chemistry. Nothing beats the Bad Buddy pilot trailer but this one is good too.

Rating: 6.5/10

#ep by ep commentary #thamepo

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marcmarcmomarc · 6 months ago

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Kingdom Hearts IV predictions: Toronto, Canada (Turning Red)

Takes place after the movie.

Is visited by Sora.

Starring the voices of:

Meilin Lee: ROSALIE CHIANG

Miriam Mendelsohn: AVA MORSE

Abby Park: HYEIN PARK

Priya Mangal: MAITREYI RAMAKRISHNAN

Tyler Nguyen-Baker: TRISTIAN ALLERICK CHEN

Ming Lee: SANDRA OH

Jin Lee: ORION LEE

Grandma Wu Lee: WAI CHING HO

Auntie Chen: LORI TAN CHINN

Lily: MIA TAGANO

Helen: SHERRY COLA

Auntie Ping: LILLIAN LIM

Mr. Gao: JAMES HONG

Stacy Frick: LILY SANFELIPPO

Devon: ADDIE CHANDLER

Sammy: LAUREN TOM

Lauren: ANNA BRISBIN

Kat: MADISON BRUNOEHLER

Carter Murphy-Mayhew: JACKSON PARFITT

Jaiden: PATRICIA SUMMERSETT

Robaire: JORDAN FISHER

Jesse: FINNEAS O’CONNELL

Aaron T.: TOPHER NGO

Tae Young: GRAYSON VILLANUEVA

Aaron Z.: JOSH LEVI

#kingdom hearts 4 #turning red #toronto canada #lee family temple #sora #meilin lee #miriam mendelsohn #abby park #priya mangal #tyler nguyen baker #ming lee #jin lee #grandma wu lee #aunties #mr gao #stacy frick #devon #4*town #priya x goth girl

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daechwitatamic · 1 year ago

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i canNOT stop thinking about of ruin so here is a collection of questions and musings:

1) are the vampire fangs retractable? i.e., do they come out when hunting or all they always there? (i.e., should i be imagining prince tae with little teeths poking into his lip all the time?)

2) does prince taehyung know what an egg mcmuffin is? i can't stop imagining an ending where he renounces infracticus or something and goes to live a human life with oc in her world, and she needs to teach him about all the mundane human things. i want to know what he thinks about the stanley cup craze.

3) we saw in the last chapter or so that he is thinking about her as his preferred marriage candidate. is it (bordering?) love for him yet or is it still more of an obligatory "i have to do this and she's better than my other options" thing? (drabbles from his pov would be INCREDIBLE if you do wind up being up for it)

4) i can't stop thinking about how absolutely mind blowing the s*x is going to be once it happens. i just know that their magical energy is gonna sync up in some crazy ass way 😫

ok that's all for now byeeeeee <3 <3 <3

ok every single one of these spoils a future chapter so we need one of these read mores~

they do fully retract! often they'll come out without necessarily meaning to when an infracti is feeling either threatened or victorious; kind of like a tooth boner when it senses a heightened emotion. this is addressed a bit in chapter 16, but prince tae is not walking around with teefies poking out

Not yet but he does know about a lot of human food bc blood food mimicks real dishes, so maybe he knows about the concept of breakfast sammies? but now i'm imagining him trying to describe specifically the egg mcmuffin to the magician/chefs who make his blood food. "It's like... a somehow simultaneously stale and soggy english muffin with flavorless 'egg' disc and a slice of melty 'cheese product' slapped on and its better with ketchup" them: ............ reader: i'll bring u one so u can see it.

oh he LOVES her. i think he loved her from the ritual in chapter 8 honestly, even if he didn't have a word for it yet. that's HIS little witch. more on this in chapter 11 :)

SO im gonna say that... when there is sex, which there is in ch 13 lol, i leaned into the vampire aspect more than the magic aspect so now i feel like i should add an extra scene lmao

#answered #re: of ruin #wintaerbaer #ari!!!

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b3alm1ghty · 2 years ago

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ੈ✩‧₊˚ the aftermath

뱀! ✦. 231209 ; bam! shared apartment

✦. characters ; the members of bam!, mentions of yang eunbi ! ✦. warnings ; this takes place directly after hanbin's death and deals with the member's reactions. tw for graphic depictions of death, grief, mentions of blood, and slight body gore ! please let me know if i missed anything else ! ✦. word count ; 2.6k !

Kitae always relished the few days the group had off in a month. First, he started the day off by sleeping until 10:30, a beautiful contrast to the blaring alarm that typically woke the group up at 6:30 each morning. He liked to take long showers on those days, but not long enough to piss off the 5 others he had to share the apartment with. After, he’d go to a coffee shop or a bookstore just to sip on a warm drink and soak in a cozy environment before he felt obligated to return home for dinner.

The day was already going perfectly as planned, the tinkling of the alarm on his phone gently stirring him from his sleep exactly at 10:30 AM. He rose with a stretch, yawning to himself as he blearily looked around the room. Dohyun still slept like a rock in the lower bunk across from him, just as he always did.

He climbed down from his top bunk in his t-shirt and boxers, padding to the bathroom after noting that the rest of his group had already gotten up for the day. Jisung would likely be playing video games in the living room, Sammy still dedicatedly working his worn muscles in the dance studio. Bo liked to visit home when they had free time, and Hanbin had been with Eunbi last night. He tried not to have an opinion on that whole situation for his leader’s sake, but it was clear that the rest of them thought it was a bad idea.

He padded to the bathroom, knocking on the closed door, unsure of who may await inside. “Can I shower now?” he asked through the solid wood, knocking much firmer the second time when he received no response. Somebody must have just knocked the door closed or something.

Sleep still fogged his brain as he pushed the door open. Seeing someone inside, he instinctually apologized and was about to quickly shut the door again when he registered it. The red. The blood. The stained towel in Eunbi’s shaking hands. He froze, only a garbled yelp escaping from his mouth.

“Kitae,” Eunbi gasped. “He fell. Hanbin fell, he hurt himself, we need to get help,” her voice was frantic as she held his head in her lap, his blood smeared on the bathtub and across the tiled floor.

He couldn’t move. He just stared. The red seeped into his mind as it seeped out of Hanbin’s, staining his thoughts.

“Kitae!” she tried again, trying to shake him from his stupor.

“I’ll… I’ll call 112.. Just- just wait…” he stumbled over his words as he backed away from the scene, scrambling back to the bedroom to fumble for his phone and shake Dohyun awake, tears beginning to stream down his face that he didn’t even notice were there.

“Hyung please, please wake up, it’s Hanbin,” he cried, shoving him over and over again until his eyes blinked open, his brow furrowing in confusion.

“Tae, Tae, what’s wrong?” He asked blearily, trying to make out Kitae’s wet face.

“Hanbin fell, please help,” he begged, attempting to drag him from his bed. “I’ll call, just go help Eunbi. Bathroom,” his hands were shaking furiously as he pulled on the elder’s arm.

“Hanbin? Eunbi?” he managed to stand on his own two feet as Kitae pulled him from his bed, wandering towards the bathroom as instructed. The bloody scene caught him as off guard as it did Kitae. It took him a moment to register it all in his sleep-riddled mind. The blood. The lifeless body of his friend. Yang Eunbi in the middle of it all.

“Dohyun, help me, please,” Eunbi’s face had fear all over it, but was notably dry.

But Dohyun couldn’t move. He only saw Hanbin’s pale face, the image burning into his retinas. Usually a responsible one among the group, he always knew what to do when they were struggling. But now, his mind was completely empty, only flooded by the sight of his lifeless leader.

“Dohyun, please!” he heard a woman’s voice calling to him, but her voice sounded far away like he was underwater. Floating. Drowning.

He felt Kitae move him out of the way and watched through his peripheral as people in uniform swarmed their cramped apartment, putting their hands all over his friend. Touching his neck, his wrist, his chest.

Their movements were slower now, not urgent like they were when they first came in. Why did they slow down? Didn’t they understand his friend was in trouble? Or maybe it was his own mind slowing time down, watching everything going by in a slow-motion blur.

The police came. They took pictures of him. Hanbin liked taking pictures. He took pictures of himself, and of his members, and of things that he thought looked nice. He often wondered why more people didn't take pictures of him. He wanted people to want pictures of him. Hanbin wanted to be the thing that looked so nice, everyone wanted to take a picture. Was that why they took pictures of him now?

Somebody brought in a white sheet. Was Hanbin cold? He did always get cold so easily, wrapping himself tightly in layers and blankets. They lay it over his body, covering his face. He must be so cold now after lying on the tiled floor for so long. Dohyun always made sure he wasn’t too cold. If he got sick, they were all in trouble. He was their very backbone, after all.

The strange people carried Hanbin out of his field of vision. He heard crying behind the ringing in his ears. Maybe it was somewhere in the back of his own mind? Dohyun hoped they were taking him somewhere warm. He hoped they didn’t forget to take his jacket. It was so cold outside.

He hoped he would be back soon.

What would they do without him?

Jisung got the call at the internet cafe. Kitae called him first. He let it ring out the first time, engrossed in the game on the screen. He typically spent their free days in a similar state. He said it was the perfect way to rest his body but keep his mind sharp. Usually, he took up residence on their shared couch, hogging the TV and the PS4 as the rest of the members floated in and out around him, but he found Hanbin and Eunbi asleep there this morning instead.

The second time his phone rang, he cut it off, annoyed at the repeated intrusions.

The third time it rang, he finally picked up. “What, Kitae?” his tone was cutting in agitation until he heard the sobs on the other line.

“What? What’s going on?” He tore the headset off his head to focus on his friend’s voice.

“H-Hanbin–” was the only word that Kitae uttered before Jisung broke into a sprint out of the cafe. They would charge his card extra for leaving his station in shambles, but nothing else was on his mind other than what could have possibly happened to his best friend.

Hanbin and Jisung had been inseparable since their 6th year. Hanbin was the big dreamer and Jisung was always along for the ride. They were the first trainees at their tiny company. Hanbin always said they would be the trailblazers, making a name for themself and being the legendary sunbaes to the groups that were destined to follow them. A second coming of BTS. Jisung never quite saw the same vision, but as long as he was by Hanbin's side, he never quite minded either.

He made it back to the apartment, running the full 24 blocks and up all 4 flights of stairs, just as the paramedics were pronouncing him dead.

“Bin!” he called, shoving past the paramedics to kneel next to Hanbin, his blood pooled on the white tiles soaking into the knees of his jeans.

“Why aren’t you helping him?” He yelled at the nearest man in uniform, the man sitting back on the heels of his feet, looking defeated.

“He’s gone,” the man responded in a downtrodden voice. It only made Jisung angrier. Why did he have the right to be sad? If it was his closest friend lying lifeless on his bathroom floor, he wouldn’t stop until he was breathing again.

“Give him CPR! Bring him back! Use the–” he paused his demands, trying to think of the word he needed. “The, the heart thing!”

“We did CPR for nearly 10 minutes and he didn’t respond, his brain has lost oxygen for too long by now. I’m sorry,” he gave him a slight bow to emphasize his apology. This wasn’t easy on him either.

But Jisung wasn’t giving up. What would he do without his best friend? He placed his hands together over his friend’s chest like he saw in the TV shows, pressing down over and over, but he didn’t have real training. All he had was a desperate hope tearing at his heart.

“You’re just going to damage his body, sir–” the paramedic watched his desperate, unguided attempts, truly saddened by the sight.

“Shut up!” he yelled, continuing his attempted compressions. “If you won’t help him, I will!”

“Sung,” a familiar voice softly called to him, taking one of his arms, but he only tried to shake him off, his sole focus on bringing back his friend. Tears were starting to form in his eyes, blurring the view of Hanbin’s body under him.

“Sung, the police are coming now,” Sammy tried again, grabbing his shoulders to try and pull him away.

“Stop! I’m helping him!” His voice sounded as wounded as he looked. He clung to the front of his friend’s shirt now, shaking him instead of trying to force his heart to beat once more. “COME BACK!” He yelled in his pale face, suddenly so angry at Hanbin for leaving him here all alone. “Come back!” his plea was weaker this time as he allowed Sammy to drag him backward, away from the scene.

Sammy held Jisung’s limp and defeated form as heart-aching wails left his lips, heaving sobs wracking his body. They were all close, but no one had loved Hanbin quite like Jisung did. He never imagined he would ever lose him, let alone so soon.

The cries slowly stopped as Sammy helped him out of the way of the police investigators and their cameras. He led him to the couch where he sat, unmoving until he fell asleep from sheer exhaustion that night, simply staring blankly at the dark stains on the knees of his jeans.

Sammy was the second one called. Just as Kitae had guessed, he was practicing the new Shinee choreography in the rundown dance studio the company kept up. Although, “dance studio” was a pretty loose term for it considering it resided in the basement of their apartment building. Their company's CEO was friends with the landlord, the only reason they got their space for so cheap.

The ringtone of his phone interrupted Taemin’s voice, giving the dancer a well needed break. Sweat dripped from his hair and down his forehead despite the fact that the basement studio was freezing in the colder months. Using the edge of his shirt to dab the sweat from his face, he grabbed his phone as his chest heaved in his attempts to catch his breath. “Hello?”

Sammy ran up the four flights of stairs to their apartment, arriving just before the ambulance did. He caught sight of Hanbin, limp and growing paler by the second in Eunbi’s lap, just before he was gently shoved out of the way by the rush of paramedics.

He choked on the lump in his throat as he watched them frantically check for a heartbeat. He watched as they tried to revive him, putting all their weight into compressing his chest, forcing air into his lungs. The sickening cracks of his ribs under the force made him turn away, his whole body trembling. What if they couldn’t bring him back? What would they do?

He sat to the side with a still-sobbing Kitae, staring at his hands and trying to drown out the agonizing long minutes of the paramedics' efforts to revive his friend until Jisung barrelled in through the door, nearly gasping for air from running so far. Sammy’s heart was dreading this. He knew how close Sung and Hanbin had been and he knew that this was going to kill him. He stood to meet him, to hold him, to give him support until suddenly his friend was on his knees, attempting to save Hanbin himself.

It was a devastating scene of desperation as Jisung tried to claw for Hanbin’s soul, begging for it to return to the body before him.

“Sung,” he tried, trying to bring him back to the reality he ran from. The police had been called to investigate the scene as per protocol, and Jisung was about to be in the middle of it all.

He was able to pull him away as he cried out, silent tears slipping down Sammy’s cheeks as he let his friend grieve in his hold, his heart cracking more and more at the dismal sound.

Bokyung was at home when he received the call. It was after Hanbin had already been taken away, a death certificate written and signed. There was nothing he could have done from an hour train ride away.

“What’s wrong, honey?” His mother asked, brow knitted in that knowing concern mother’s had perfected. She could tell in the way that his expression dropped and the way his hand holding the phone to his ear trembled that he was not given good news.

As he set the phone down, wet eyes looked to her and she was instantly by his side, wrapping comforting arms around him. “Hanbin... He’s dead,” his voice cracked on the last word as tears flooded from his eyes.

“Oh, baby… I’m so sorry,” she whispered, gently petting his hair as he cried into her chest. She knew how close her son was with his group members. She remembered Hanbin well, staying at their house one Christmas when he didn’t have time to make it all the way back to Busan when they had a holiday album to promote. He was a good boy, kind and charming, and he had such a sparkle in his eye when he talked about their music. It was something she hadn’t seen in a long time in her own son.

It was a grief and sadness she had never wished to see on any of her children. Her usually sunny and uplifted Bokyung was broken in that moment, and she would have given anything to fix it. She had only met Hanbin’s parents once, after their small debut showcase, but she thought of them now, her heart aching for them. She couldn’t possibly imagine the heart-wrenching feeling of outliving your own child.

“I have to go back,” Bo whispered as his breathing slowly started to even out again.

She nodded in understanding. “I’ll help you pack, just… just rest for now, ok? Your heart needs to rest,” she sighed softly.

The apartment was silent when he returned that night. Jisung still sat on the couch. Dohyun lay unblinking in his bunk, staring at the metal bars supporting Bo’s own bed. Kitae and Sammy both sat in the kitchen, cold cups of coffee on the counter in front of them. No one spoke.

The bathroom door was closed, a haunting barricade hiding what lay just behind it.

Sammy greeted him when he entered, but his voice was quiet and hoarse as if he hadn’t used it all day.

Nothing felt right. There was no chatter, no music, no clicking of a video game controller. No clanging of pots and pans or chewing or laughter. The small apartment could have been completely empty and it wouldn’t have made a difference.

Without Hanbin, it definitely felt empty.

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