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Do you ever just lay awake at night, turning over in your head the stark difference in delivery between Hewson's Van saying--steadily, unshakably--"it's just something that's happening to you...happening to us" and Cypress' Taissa saying--imploringly, whiningly--"this was not just my dream, this was our dream"?
Do you ever just turn it over and over, how often Tai tried to scare Van away, and how it only made Van set her feet more firmly? How Taissa's first love was this person who saw a problem fall into Taissa's lap, a problem that was quite literally trapped inside Taissa's body, and decided unflinchingly: No, that's an us problem now? How she refused point-blank to walk away even with blood in her mouth, how she flatly informed Tai "I'm never gonna be scared of you", and promptly turned a moment of pain into a declaration of love? And how this would etch itself into Taissa for the rest of her life? How she'd take these things that worked with Van--with the person Van was, with the bond they shared--and try so hard to run through an identical script with Simone?
Except Simone is her own person. A completely different kind of person. A person who hasn't been offered any of the context, any of the realities going on inside Taissa. So: naturally she doesn't respond the way Van did at eighteen--and will go on to do all over again in her forties. Naturally, she hears our dream as the excuse it is, not as a plea for connection. Naturally, she is scared away when Taissa pushes, and shouts, and begs. Because there isn't blood in her mouth, not yet, but there will be. And they have a son to worry about. And she isn't eighteen and a special kind of immortal, a special kind of romanticized. She's a grown woman with responsibilities, with priorities, with an understanding that you can't fix someone just because you love them. And Tai can't just perform a revival of the play she and Van had memorized twenty-five years later with a whole new performer in the works, and expect it to shake out the same.
Of course it doesn't work. But look at Taissa trying it. Look at Taissa trying to reframe her first love through a new lens. Trying to recast it. Trying to play it through again. Van taught her love was sticking out the blood, shaking off the pain, making a you problem into an us problem. Does it ever just eat at you, how tragic it is, watching Taissa try to shape her marriage around a woman who isn't even wearing a ring?
#yellowjackets#yj meta#taivan#sorry i'm just fucking obsessed with cypress' delivery choice in that scene#it is the most immature we EVER hear tai sound#and it's not teenage taissa. it's adult wife-mother-almost senator tai flat out whining in desperation#it is SUCH a choice#and then after the S2 opener to hear van sound so adult offering a glimpse as to WHY tai would#so pleadingly seek turning a Tai Thing into an Us Thing#yeah. yeah of course she would. because van shared the worst of her#van shared it without allowing tai to dissaude her. van quite literally tethered herself to tai's problems#and tai learned: that is what love is#and tai thought: this is what love is#it's sharing. and giving up on sharing is surrendering the whole thing#and she's lying! is the thing! she's lying to simone and to herself#she's making excuses for doing what she wants to do even though she shouldn't be doing it#but the core of it is Team. the core of it is Us. the core of it is#'if you love me you will be on my side. for better or worse.'#because that's what van did. for better. and for so much worse.#which isn't true. isn't actually how love works. love is sometimes putting your foot down and saying 'nah dude that ain't it.'#love is communication. but that was never taivan's game and it isn't tai's now and so she's just trying old plays#and it is NOT a play that can ever work the same with simone in the leading role. nor should it.#but god everything about them makes me so sad because simone deserves better and taissa needs what she won't admit to#anyway. will be absolutely gnawing at the walls until S3.
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this tag under the smash or pass LDPDL poll........................... God in heaven give me strength. hold me back God pls i'm about to prove my title as LDPDL defender
#tv: interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#amc interview with the vampire#iwtv#iwtv s1#iwtv season 1#iwtv s2#iwtv season 2#louis de pointe du lac#i'm not even going to put this in Jacob's tag this doesn't even deserve to be under it. what in the fuck. are we talking about#the same man right now. is that possible#'least fuckable man on the show' why Armand Lestat AND Daniel always trying to hit it though. that's a bad bitch what you mean#least fuckable. the fuck#LDPDL walks into a room and WAP and Enough (Miami) start playing simultaneously from the speakers. Beyonce couldn't write#enough songs to coherently describe the Helen of Troy strength of that pussy pls don't make me laugh#so many ways to say you'd respectfully pass and you chose this one. my God
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the way that in mandy’s first ever scene she stands tall and walks and speaks with such confidence, but by her last scene she seems embarrassed and more timid. free my girl she did nothing wrong
#this is not an invitation to whine about prefering her in the first season btw#but season 6 mandy reminds me a lot of a deer#<- idk how to explain that she just does#i just feel so fucking bad for her#she deserves the world#but referring to what i just said- can we start acknowledging that despite the actress change she is the same character?#she wasn’t the only one who’s personality changed from s1 - s2#ever heard of kevin ball?#her personality in the later seasons is what happens when you’re seriously abused your entire life#you realize she was impregnated by her father at sixteen right? her life is FUCKED#of course she isn’t bubbly anymore she’s a sexually abused teenage girl#she’s also only 19 when we see her last#i just want to give her the biggest hug ever and apologize to her because of everything she had to go thru#shameless#mandy milkovich#1x03#6x09
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Kristian a "good man"? What?!
#characters section on tv tropes is wild. calling kristian a good man who serves as jillian's conscience is... something#some updates to the page would be welcomed it seems...#NO mention of mother superion's blasting through the conclave in s2 in the awesome page. did we watch the same show?#i should get my little text ready soon because superion doesn't tell AVA she doesn't deserve this or that in s1#she calls her a coward sure but not much more. not to her face.#i transcribed the whole dialogue the other day for this text. rewatch and you'll see i'm right#(it's cool because it shows how much people fell into s01e03's trap but still. we're beyond that point aren't we?)#anyway. i needed to do nothing for a few hours and tv tropes it was lol just skimming in search of mentions of my faves oops#silly blabbering
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ok I have so many thoughts where this is concerned but think about the potential a Sara, Kate, and Alex trio has especially as like a ‘mean girls trio’ kind of dynamic but also imagine how unstoppable they would be as a trio of conwomen reluctantly working together but they don’t even like each other they just work together well like au where those three go after the music box together WHEN. they’re such an odd mix of girlbosses and loserwomen that together their dynamic would just be too powerful I know it in my heart
#they’d somehow completely slay and be the biggest losers ever at the same time and I love that for them.#no they mean the world to me and I mean like a more fleshed out version of Kate cause canon Kate is not developed at all#but i could fix that !#these three deserve to be besties like that one very short Alex Sara convo in s2 finale made me go INSANE#Alex x Sara for the win guys#but also if we think about it hard enough Sara x Kate and they’re both always annoyed at Alex but she’s always showing up out of nowhere#Idk there potential there I feel it in my soul#white collar
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look i didn’t have “riyo chuchi says clone rights” on my star wars bingo card but i am so delighted my girl, one of my absolute favourite star wars characters, she was in like two arcs but i was OBSESSED with those two arcs, my OG blorbo, my MVB (most valuable blorbo), she is here, she is back, she is saying clone rights!
#riyo chuchi#tbb#tbb s2#the bad batch#the bad batch spoilers#the clone conspiracy#truth and consequences#i bet ahsoka is watching on from the shadows of the pre-rebellion like yes. go bestie. i am cheering you on.#padme is watching om from force ghost heaven like youre doing amazing sweetie#ahsoka is like ‘i knew we were besties for a reason’#do you think riyo chuchi and ahsoka went on like. rants about clone rights in their younger days bc i bet they did#anakin and obi wan would just be like#‘go along; have a fun playdate with your friend!’#obi wan: so nice she can spend time with someone her age anakin: i know; she doesn’t get enough time to just be a kid#meanwhile; ahsoka and riyo chuchi; CLONE RIGHTS! CLONE RIGHTS! CLONE RIGHTS!#ahsoka comes back anakin’s all ‘did you have fun on your playdate?’ ahsoka’s like WHY DON’T THE CLONES HAVE REPRESENTATION IN THE SENATE#you can’t tell me ahsoka ‘i am not the one who is going to kill them’ tano#and riyo ‘they deserve the same rights as any citizen’ chuchi#didn’t bond over going on rants about clone rights
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Everyone light a candle for my poor best friends on discord who have to endure my miles long rambling about the tgcf audio drama and every single thought I think about it
#I am simply incapable of shutting up about things I like and unluckily for them I am soooo insane about tgcf#and have spent the last week rekindling that obsession in preparation of the s2 donghua coming out#Y'all are so lucky I'm too anxious to publicly post my ramblings on tumblr also or you'd be dealing with the same thing lmao#/hj though‚ they're fine with the ramblings. Apparently 'it's fine' and 'we like to see you excited about something'#Insane. What do you mean someone is happy to listen to me talk? That's not how it works. What have I done to deserve them? 🥺
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remember when in s1 they said Mike and Lucas were best friends and then never brought it up again
#why did they do that.#I mean I fucking know why they did that. they sideline Lucas hardcore all the time . it's racism#I just think we deserved seeing them be best friends..#and also I know the point of that s1 scene is Mike being a sweetie and saying Dustin is also his best friend and that he can have multiple#and I KNOW we don't get to see much like. slice of life. in the show itself because well. there's shit going on#but I just want them to be actual besties..#in s2 they're separated most of the time#s3 they're in the same group but like. Mike is extra stupid that season (<- I am a Mike apologist don't come for me for this I'm right)#and s4 is a greatest hits of prev like they're arguing and then Mike is stupid and then they're separated again#I just want them to be actual besties in s5. please#if the ST writers won't provide it for me I'll have to do it myself (opens google docs fanfic folder)#also Mike needs to fucking apologize to Lucas for the Hellfire nonsense. I know Lucas was also a little in the wrong but like.#Lucas experiences racism of course he'd want to blend in better at school..#I have so many opinions about this btw. Mike wouldn't understand what Lucas goes through at school#nor would he understand Dustin experiencing ableism nor Will experiencing homophobia#I mean I have my thoughts about Mike's sexuality but no matter what they may be; Will is the one we see getting called a fag and fairy#and Mike wouldn't understand the classism Max experiences! Mike is a little privilege boy. sorry I don't know why I said that#what was I talking about. oh yeah Mike and Lucas bestieism in s5 or we riot#stranger things#mike wheeler#lucas sinclair
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sagisawa was born to be drawn in the mahoyome artstyle. karasuma? passable but he starts looking like other guys with the same haircut the instant you stop stylizing his hair like that. takayama though?? takayama's so fucked. takayama's going to look completely different. takayama's not even going to be recognizable in the mahoyome style
#just thinking thoughts...#HEAR ME OUT. takayama as chise and eva as elias. NOT AS A SHIP NOT AS A SHIP#idk gonna be real i dont rly ship chise and elias LOLLLL#er. I think karasuma ought to be philomela (favorite character bias)#which makes his mom her grandmother which feels like a terribly mean casting but we can roll with it.#I am sympathetic towards kiriko but I am sure some readers wanted her smited into ash idk#well here's the thing s2 has such complex relationship webs it's ab bit hard to map things properly but it's fun to try#the twins are obviously the twins but I think the gender spin on guangfeng and yinhuang is soooo cunty and fascinating#please we need this for yinhuang it would make her character a million bajillion times better trust me#I personally just think it's fun to cast sagisawa as rian (this is why I was thinking about rian earlier lol)#and I think it could be fun if isaac was kamodaaaa hahaha#wouldn't it be fun. I don't really ship philomela and isaac in canon but I could get behind karasuma and kamoda. we deserve it#now unfortunately the question arises: who is the lucy webster to takayama's chise.#if they weren't roommates I'd cast fiona but it just makes no fucking sense if takayama's a guy...#there aren't that many characters with vague animosity towards takayama who are the same gender as him. like what. miguel???#much to consider#stray bird thoughts
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I'm ngl this show really did call me the fuck out re: my own trauma and lack of addressing it. In many ways, but I'm sitting here trying to write cute s2 fic and I keep coming back to Izzy having to learn to open up enough to accept others caring about him, in a way that's comfortable to him and shows they accept who he is, and fucking. That line from Pete. Bro. How dare you but also yeah
Not a bad question. I focus a lot on the ways I've nearly died. But I haven't ever let myself think in detail about the fact that I've lived. Isn't that a motherfucker of a question lmao
#text post#i mean I don't feel like I deserve it and every time I hear of someone else who did amazing things dying I can't help but think#maybe if i'd died earlier at one of the various times I nearly did then there would be room for another person like that#vs myself who exists and like that's fine bc we all have a right to exist and be here and live but at the same time the rule doesn't#feel like it applies to me#anyway in the fic izzy is making lil whittled animals for everyone and it's very good#ofmd spoilers#ofmd s2 spoilers#spoiler tags to b safe
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actually going the fuck wild over the fact that swres wrapped up before we ever got an explanation about how the xionos mysteriously survived the destruction of hosnia
#star dorks#like. I think we all have suspicions in the same direction but I desperately wished they'd explored it in the show#also on twitter we're going absolutely fucking buckwild with a pyre backstory that intertwines with that and it's great#of all the loose threads in the show the xiono one is probably under tam's arc wrapping up and synara's disappearance from the final scene#in terms of the most frustrating#idk I don't talk about it much on here but resistance deserved at LEAST a season 3 if not a season 4#and for those at home basically I think brendan auman confirmed that while s2 was a stopping point#if resistance had gotten good ratings there was room for a s3#which I'm convinced there was some steup for due to the xiono thing#but the thing is swres was a kids show slapped in a 10pm timeslot on sunday nights and didn't get ported to D+ right away#so of course the ratings weren't as good#it was doomed to fail either accidentally or on purpose#and due to the tight-lipped nature and constant changing of the ST plot they had to work around/outside that#idk it had SUCH potential to grow up with the audience but we got none of that#sw negativity#for the massive swres tag rant
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all the people saying stuff abt the deli being fives name
i dont think its his name, but i also think its a missed opportunity to do something fun
like. fives name has been a tua mystery since day 1, why doesnt he have a name, was it his choice, if so why stick to five, how were the others given names and is that why five didnt get one etc etc
and none of those questions have been answered within the show (they have been answered outside of it but the statements of the creators often conflict with whats actually seen in the show.. so not reliable info basically). so there is an opportunity here to do what we did with ben in s3 - show how much five changes across timelines.
and in one sense, they could be making a statement here. five, unlike ben, is commanded more by nature than nurture. he always ends up the same regardless of his circumstances.
but given the general lack of care seen this season i generally think that the deli and the fives are more so a display of a lack of attention. the reason they all wear the same suit and have the same hairstyle, and are all the same age with the same appearance, its the same reason five doesnt change outfits after 7 years in the subway. the creators didnt care.
so i think that this would have been a really interesting opportunity to explore who five could have been. bring back old five, show us apocalypse five, toddler five with older fives looking after them, fives who got to have a family of their own and fives who were never a part of reginald's adopted children at all. irish fives and american fives, maybe even jewish fives if we follow aidan's faith/ethnicity (?).
we could have seen fives at different stages, fives from s1 and s2 and s3. we could have seen how five from the phoenix academy could butt heads with five from the umbrella academy over whose siblings deserve to live more. we could have seen founder five, missing arm and all, before he founds the commission. five from the comics could have made a cameo.
we could have had fives with different names. fives who grew up in the academy and did choose names. fives who were named by their birth mother. max could have been a five name, along with a thousand other names, and it could have shown that fives name isnt about him needing a name but instead how his family has affected him and how he sees himself.
instead we got.. basically nothing
this post is not about brisket five hes perfectly wonderful as is
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sharing is caring pt II (Logan x Reader x Wade)
Reader: (gender neutral)
/NSFW Logan x Reader x Wade/
A/N: This is really short and is completely plotless so enjoy the smut! This is a sequel to this fic if you're interested (it will make much more sense if you read the first part). Requests are open for these two! S2
Tags: afab reader (reader has a vagina), no gendered terms were used, oral sex (reader! receiving), fingering, dirty talk, boys kissing (hihihi).
Word Count: 810
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After you washed your face in the cold water of the bathroom sink, Logan called you to join them again... but this time in his bedroom.
"You did such a good job, sugar... think you deserve a reward, hm?" He said while Wade smirked beside him. “Lay on the bed for us.”
You obeyed immediately, fantasizing about what they would do. The predatory way they looked down at you, the way Wade licked his lips and Logan showed his teeth… it only turned you on even more.
Logan pulled you by the thighs so your legs were at the edge of the bed, and then carefully took your shorts and underwear off. His rough hands smoothed the skin of your hips, thighs, calves… he took his time to savor the moment, breathing heavily through his nose.
“Open your legs for me, bunny.” He demanded. You shyly complied, opening your thighs slowly and exposing your dripping sex. You could see a big sly smile forming on Logan’s face, while Wade just kept talking. “Hell yeah��� look at you.”
You blushed heavily as both men kneeled in front of your open legs. Wade caressed your inner thigh as Logan kissed dangerously close to your most sensitive spot. He looked at Wade and cockily spoke. “Watch and learn, pal.”
Before Wade could respond, Logan buried his face in your cunt, licking and kissing and sucking all the right places. You moaned loudly, whining at every move of his lips and tongue.
He groaned from pleasure and the vibrations only served to stimulate you even further. The grip he had on your legs almost hurt but in a good way, sending electricity through your body.
“Not that I don’t like to watch, peanut, but… kinda wish I-“ Logan once again cut Wade off by grabbing his hand and bringing his fingers into your entrance. “You know what to do.” Logan said between kisses.
“Ohh…” Wade realized as he slowly put his two digits inside you, curling them at the end.
You bucked your hips and squirmed at the sensation. Logan’s lips sucked on your clit as Wade fingered you… it felt heavenly.
“Oh wow, look at that… you like his mouth on your pussy, hm? Like my fingers inside you?” Wade would taunt, continuing to speak obscenities as you struggled to keep quiet. “Your cunt will feel so good around our cocks, gorgeous. Can’t wait to see you bouncing on each one of us.”
“W-Wade! Hm, Logan! Ah…” You felt heat building up in your body until it finally exploded, your climax coming to its peak as you came with their names in your mouth. You trembled a little, breathing erratically and holding the sheets with closed fists.
Logan licked the mess you made, savoring your taste while Wade pulled his digits from you and also tasted them, making a “Hmm” sound as he did so.
They got up from their knees and looked at each other, Logan breaking the silence. "At least all that banter served a purpose in the end, huh."
"Hey! Someone had to do the dirty talk, ok? Also, your whole chin is covered in juices right now, just so you know." Wade responded.
"Why don't you just kiss already?" You suggested playfully, breaking a bit of the tension.
"We have! Indirectly, of course... just a few moments ago you were kissing us both so it means we already traded fluids by now."
Logan, on the other hand, didn't lose the opportunity to act. He grabbed Wade by the T-shirt he wore and connected their mouths with a gentleness almost unknown to him. Wade kept his eyes momentarily open because of the shock, but soon melted into the kiss as their tongues finally met.
They could taste each other and you all together at the same time, and Wade hummed in approval as Logan pulled him closer, closer...
You were giggling like an idiot, hand covering your mouth in surprise... that was the hottest thing you could've imagined.
When the kiss finally ended, Logan pulled back but only enough so he could speak into Wade's lips. "Is this direct enough for you?"
"Y-Yeah... I mean..." Wade stuttered, and if it wasn't for the scarred skin, you would definitely see he was actually blushing. "Maybe you could show me again? See if we can get even more direct, y'know?"
Logan scoffed and pushed him lightly on the chest, distancing from him. "Maybe another time, bub."
"Oh, come here, boys..." You called sweetly, and they slowly made their way by your sides on the bed. They got comfortable, and so did you... curling yourself with your back facing Logan, you kissed them goodnight before drifting away. Wade held your hands as Logan spooned you firmly, and it was then you knew... your life would definitely take a turn alongside the fantastic duo.
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#wolverine x reader x deadpool#logan x reader x wade#logan howlett x reader#wade wilson x reader#deadpool x wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#wolverine x reader#deadpool x reader#marvel#fanfic#fanfiction#imagine#headcanon#self insert#y/n#gender neutral#deadpool#wolverine#notyourhetloki
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Aziraphale does NOT need to suffer MORE
Can't believe I have to say this. TW: grief, mourning, death (sorry) I have, since falling into the fandom 6 months ago to escape real life, seen many takes on how Aziraphale needs to (or at least should) suffer in S3 to match Crowley's suffering. As the counterpart to the moment Crowley thinks he lost Aziraphale as he's looking for him desperately in the burning bookshop....
...after this he drinks, we suppose, to dull his pain, waiting for the Armageddon. Or, for the way Crowley suffers at the bandstand argument, the 'I Forgive You' moments, which many people find utterly devastating and incredibly heartless from Aziraphale. Not to mention when he doesn't react in the 'right way' to Crowley's confession in the Final 15. And then on top of that, 'abandons' Crowley. For Heaven. Oh and also for, and I quote: "The smug and entitled way Aziraphale went around in S2 assuming Crowley would love and follow him everywhere." And so for all this pain that Crowley endured for him, Aziraphale should suffer in S3 (to I assume) even out the scores. Or... to deserve Crowley. Some people also want to see him lose it, show his emotions, to cry or beg or otherwise show how much he misses Crowley and how very sorry he is for what he has (so thoughtlessly) done.
Now for the TW grief content I motioned above. You can skip to the next sentence in bold.
I was on holiday late September last year, visiting my mum, stepfather and my two younger brothers. We went to a cousin's wedding. It was great. The day after, as I was hanging out reading a book, my mum got a call. The kind of call every mother fears. My youngest brother (he was 27) died in an accident. We needed to speak to police and the coroner. She cried and cried. She's still crying. She asks questions. She gets no answers. I...did not cry. I talked to the police. I googled a funeral home. I bought my brother his last set of clothes. He lived in a hoodie and torn black jeans. Mum wanted a suit. I texted a lot of people. I bought snacks for the many friends who came to the funeral and wanted to speak to us after. My grief feels like a vice. I am not sad. I do not appear sad. Contrary to what people expect. But I am ANGRY. I am furious. But nobody can see this. I am not fine and I wish no one would ever* ask how I was again. TW/Personal content over. WE ALL SUFFER DIFFERENTLY Since I was small (because I am weird like that) I genuinely wondered if, finding myself in danger, I could scream like people in films do. I don't think I could. I cope with hard situations, fear and stress and anxiety by shutting down, sometimes by retreating as well, and by furiously (but quietly) trying to find a way out. And I think Aziraphale does the same. And that's why I love him so much. And why I feel I get him and understand that people sometimes can't tell how much he's actually feeling. I also express love the way Aziraphale does - by organising things for people, inviting them places, making plans. When Crowley said you call me for three things (and it's basically any old reason) I felt SO SEEN. This is what I would do with a friend who I know is feeling unmoored, sad, stuck (Crowley's 'What's the point of it all' at the beginning of S2). I'd text them with any old thing. I'd never actually say I love you, but I would try to get them to talk, meet me, go somewhere. Aziraphale does not express emotions the same way as Crowley.
But his emotions are valid nonetheless. He is worried for Crowley from around 3 minutes into their acquaintanceship. And he NEVER stops worrying from then on.
And are we quite sure he has never lost Crowley?
How many times did Aziraphale's heart freeze in horror when he realised Hell has taken Crowley and he had no idea if he'll ever come back and what is happening to him?
How did Aziraphale spend the night after vanquishing the demons and starting a war? He had no idea where Crowley was. What happened to him. He was probably sick with worry that Hell just took him away. We didn't see him drink and cry, but surely, the worry must have been overwhelming. The wait for what will happen now.
ALL his worries over the Arrangement. Was he worried for himself? Do we really think that?
Crowley thought he lost Aziraphale in S1, yes, we saw that. And what happened to the angel then?
He got blown into atoms which I bet wasn't pleasant and when he arrives in Heaven he limps. Why is he hurt? And why is he quickly pretending he isn't? Why is he always hiding how he feels? Also, he immediately deserts, wants no part in the Holy War and quickly finds an extremely unconventional way to get back. It's not a grand gesture, he doesn't deliberate, doesn't worry that he will Fall (although surely that must have been what he thought will happen if he survives this), there's no pomp around it, he thinks it and then does it. No hesitation.
Is this coming from an angel who just can't leave Heaven behind and longs to be a part of it? Who loves to follow rules? And let's not forget in those moments Aziraphale thought Crowley was most likely gone. That he probably left for Alpha Centauri. Last he heard from him he was told he was talking to an old friend and had no time for him. Why we NEVER talk about how that might have felt for Aziraphale? About his sadness?
Things are not as simple as Aziraphale has been supressing his emotions and lying to himself about how he feels and he should get over it and become free. That's not how this works. First of all, he was suppressing his emotions OUT OF LOVE. His main goal was always to keep Crowley safe. They simply couldn't run away or hoodwink Heaven and Hell. They had nowhere to go. They had no hope and yet they kept loving each other. That's courage. I know we all grew up with Romeo and Juliet and Heathcliff and Cathy and we FORGOT that those were CAUTIONARY tales. And this is not what Aziraphale wants for them. He would never allow himself to go so fast he would hurt Crowley. He feels guilty enough for agreeing to the Arrangement and for meeting Crowley at all when he knows they can be discovered and punished at any point. And Crowley knows it and RESPECTS it. He does not tolerate Aziraphale's decision to not go on a date and to hell with circumstances. He understands Aziraphale's reasoning and he respects Aziraphale's decision. Don't forget, they have NO POWER. They can't change Heaven and Hell. They can't stop believing in God and work on their religious trauma. Their Heaven and Hell are real places with real power and they both BELONG to them. Aziraphale's trauma and his personality are deeply intertwined and he'd probably never be the kind of person who is open in showing their grief or stress like Crowley does. He will learn to be more open, I'm sure. With his love especially, we see him reaching for and touching his demon in S2. Openly being with him, looking at him without guarding himself. They got a little bit of freedom for themselves despite ALL odds. So. Just because Aziraphale is not crying and screaming and I dunno, tearing his hair out or whatever some people would have him do, does not mean he isn't overflowing with pain, fear, uncertainty, doubts, worries, and so much anxiety that if he let it all out, half of the solar system would turn to ashes.
Aziraphale does not need to suffer in S3 to level out Crowley's suffering. They are, unfortunately, equal in their pain as they are in love. If there is one thing Crowley would never abide, it'd be this take from the fandom. * One more note on grief: (obviously from my personal experience) As initiated by @anthony-crowleys-left-nut in a comment
It's not that I mind to know people care and worry etc, not at all. But asking how I am can only end up in me lying (fine, thank you) and both of us knowing it's not really true and feeling awkward or not lying (I feel like shit, mostly cos I can't sleep and think the world is a stupid, unfair place) and both of us feeling awkward anyway. Does that make sense? I wish I could tell friends/colleagues to ask what I've been up to or something similar instead. What I've been reading (um, AO3, but I'll make something up), watching, do I want to go see some spring flowers bloom (I do). I think...this would probably work not just for someone who is grieving but also for someone who you know is dealing with depression for example or a serious illness etc. Edit 2. It's now almost (in 15 days) a year since my brother died. The random attacks of pain and grief have lessened and I have started to do more of the things I enjoyed before... and I am able to answer how are you questions without feeling like they are trying to mock me (the questions, not the people). So I suppose things do get ... lighter? More diffused? I'm not sure. Because it's still exactly as unfair that my brother has not lived this past year as it will be however many years I will be here without him I expect.
#aziraphale#good omens#crowley#aziracrow#ineffable husbands#neil gaiman#ineffable divorce#aziraphale my beloved#good omens thoughts#aziraphale defense squad#suffering in silence#grief#tw grief#dealing with grief#loss#tw death#kaypost
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I see (almost) everyone drawing/writing Crowley as the one always asking for attention, initiating cuddles, laying on an unbothered Aziraphale, starting sexy times... And I love it, really. But consider Aziraphale doing the same.
We got confirmation in s2 that he is needy. He tries to touch Crowley a LOT and succeeds a few times. He too deserves to get Crowley’s attention.
I want Aziraphale to come sit next to Crowley on the couch. I want Aziraphale’s head on Crowley’s laps. I want Aziraphale leaning against Crowley’s back while he is cooking his favourite meal. I want Aziraphale to tentatively take Crowley’s hand in the street. I want Crowley to be the one holding his Angel in his arms when he tries to take a nap.
They are both lap cats.
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Thinking about Wrath of the triple goddess again and I just saw the interview Rick made and-
He openly says that he is mixing up two canons together, how he gets inspired by the "actors" and their dynamics. I read @lilislegacy 's criticism again and I just dont know how would we handle new books if he just keeps doing it. Because we saw the results, we saw how ooc characters become, we saw how it felt like Rick didnt read his own books for years and actually this is funny:
Just read your own books...And like, missing every detail even big ones or the ones we kept in our hearts for years(Annabeth's lemon shampoo...) is gone! Like what are you on?
This is why I always believe, if you make an adaptation, keep them separate from the canon material, in this case, books. It is hurting the both of them. Also this is the reason I personally dont like any mixing in the arts or in fanfics. I respect who does or prefer, but for me, universes need to stay separate or we have this situation in our hands.
Show and the books are so so so different, they deserve to be their own things. Show deserves to have its own canon, own events, actors need to have their own development. While books should stay books and book characters should stay book characters. Like please, book characters and show characters are different. We cant pretend the otherwise, we just cant. You cant tell me Walker is exactly book Percy, Leah is book Annabeth or Aryan is book Grover. They are all amazing, yes. We should support them, also yes. But pretending they are the book characters, that they are the exact same is just a big no.
Rick trying to write the actors' dynamics into the new books felt so ooc! And anyone who is hyping "Oh he imagining them as he writes", you cant see how ooc they were? And someone should tell Rick that. I dont know how to reach that man, he loves keeping himself away from the fans. But someone gotta let him know because the new books feels nothing but cash grabs. Amount of typo mistakes, ooc characters, all the stupid advertasing for the S2. So so cringe :(
I really dont want new book to be the same and I really dont know what to do *sigh* It hurts to see the man, who I admired for my whole childhood, getting so so much hate from the fans, but it is getting so hard to defend him, he is turning to JK.Rowling and it is creepy :(
#its a big no no#rick riordan#criticism#annabeth chase#percy jackson#grover underwood#pjo#hoo#aryan simhadri#leah sava jeffries#walker scobell#wottg
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