#sad soul

[justmeandmylonelywords]

Und sie sagen du bist unfreundlich und gemein, dabei schützt du dich nur, weil dir so viel angetan wurde, als du nett warst.

[alexispink31]

I’m a sad soul, I feel everything too much.. I love with all my heart. There is no in between, I notice the smallest of things.. change in tone, change in mood, in the way you treat others. As much as I feel that everything I’ve been through is why I’m this way, I’m starting to think I was just born into this world this way…

[thesleepyblueocean]

"Maybe we fall in love with sad eyes because we see our souls reflected in them."

Bridgett Devoue

[deadinside8]

Today is my birthday. I don’t particularly like my birthday. In fact, I hate it. I don’t like to be reminded that I’m alive and real. It forces me to acknowledge that time passes and im still broken inside. That I have not gotten any better. i dont feel older, in fact i still feel like a child hiding under my bed.

[ny1hettx]

feeling the melancholic life is coming back

[bluebird-poetry96]

Whispers of Life

The Darkness threatens to swallow me whole,

My soul, too tired to resist...

I stand at the edge of a cliff, the abyss beckoning,

Its embrace so welcoming,

I let go.

I jump,

Beginning my fall into the end of life.

But something grabs my hand,

My descent abruptly halted.

Why?

What stopped me?

Why can't I just be done?

I look up,

It's Him,

The most important person in my life.

I start sobbing, rivers raging down my cheeks,

Begging Him to let me go.

All he says is,

"It's okay, I will love you forever,

No matter what."

He holds my hand tight,

His grip unwavering.

I scream, blood curdling,

Trying to release the romanticized ideas of death.

Praying for release, yet...

The Burden of Darkness,

Is Interrupted.

For a fleeting moment,

A small light flickers,

An orange-yellow flame of hope,

A candle in the storm.

The cyclone inside me threatens the flame,

Terrified of it being blown away,

I am held firm in His grasp.

He doesn't want to let go,

He never will.

With non-judgmental support and encouragement,

With love unbounded,

He whispers, "It's okay.

You may lose your battle someday,

But, I want to spend every moment

Of the rest of our lives together.

Whether it's two weeks or five years."

He is my Divine Sanctuary,

Relief floods my being.

The light from the flame of hope grows,

He makes it easier to breathe,

Helping me want to live.

I want every moment with Him,

For the rest of my life.

Every sunrise,

Every sunset,

Every storm,

Every calm.

Through laughter and through pain,

Every moment perfect,

With Him by my side.

-Raven Blue Bell

[beingsophiesposts]

Love is felt the most when it's leaving,

I can hear your breathe linger at the door,

The calls more frequent than before,

it's too late darling.

My heart remembers the pain more,

How you turned away when I wanted to be held close,

your sharp tongue when I cried for help,

I remember it all.

I love you but I want more,

someone excited to see me, excited to be by my side.

not a begrudging imitation of what I'd want for the night.

You gnawed at my soul and it's all gone, don't question the temperature of my skin when you were the one who left me cold.

[from-the-gray-spaces]

Some days must be dark and dreary 🌧 FOLLOW ME❤️

[pursuingtheway]

I WANT TO DO GOOD...

...So I find this law at work: although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 

For in my inner being I delight in God’s law;  but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.  

What a wretched man I am!

Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death?  

Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!...

*

*

[rainninpain]

[your-heart-is-a-treasure]

“You are not a drop in the ocean, you are the entire ocean in a drop.”

- Rumi

[justmeandmylonelywords]

In dem einen Moment ist alles in Ordnung und plötzlich ist alles wieder kalt, schwarzweiß, einsam, hoffnungslos und kalt.

[covered-in-bones]

theres a part of my soul that never stops screaming and crying, part of my soul that is always in pain, always suffering and ive tried for years and years to soothe it and heal its pain but its not me it needs its you and that part of my soul will always be shattered and unconsolable without your touch, without your love

[50kgannamolly]

[deadinside8]

What have I done to have all this hurt inside me ?

[bluebird-poetry96]

Night thoughts

How do I get peace of mind, when the only peace of mind is the thought of greeting death as an old friend...

- Raven Blue Bell