#rurusharing

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some people will try to invalidate my intelectual disability and struggling of understanding their simple statements/comments whatever because of "how i type my messages". if you ever do this, you're just ignorant. most of the time where i type to others or about topics im literally confused by what i wrote a setnece beforehand and often use words i may not even understand the meaning of but just heard and thought it fit, auto correct and other such. and more often than you realise i cant even speak about a topic because my vocabulary isnt advanced enough and i don't have the words to express what i feel about it and dont even know how to write a sentence on it, few words even.

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i dont know how to say this, but sometimes when i will share an experience related to me being level 3/HSN Autistic, and low needs folk say "oh same!!" or theyre like "low needs people struggle with this too! :)" im just . no . its not the same we are not the same you will not get it, yes we are both autistic yes we will have some similarities but no its not the same, maybe you relate to a thing or two on a other level but it's not the same

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im on season 3, episode 2 of Lego Ninjago; Masters of Spinjitsu! im loving it all so far its very interesting and stimulating.

season 3, episode 2 is when the Ninjas find out that the overlord has not been destroyed and operates over technology in the modern Ninjago City. and at one point he decided to have way more advanced robot workers, Nitroits, created for going after the Ninjas and the golden? blades or something, and the Green/Golden Ninja.

at one point this smaller sized Nitroit was met with the Ninjas and Jay said "great! now they come in fun-sizes!" 😭😭 it was honestly so silly.

though im slightly curious and confused, is Nya still in love with Jay? she's showing strange behaviour and she blushed at Cole and held his hand close and looked at him weird at one point in Season 3, Episode 2. 🤔

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hi everyone, my current hyperfixation is Lego Ninjago and Cole and Zane are my favourite characters. im planning to likely change my profile theme into such! :D

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it's hard to describe to lower needs/low support needs folk that my autism and intelectual disability has made me housebound for most of my life. they often ask "are you in a wheelchair?" not currently, but i should be. but no, i don't need to be in a wheelchair to not be able to go outside, i cant function outside no matter the accommodations i have, i go out sometimes but not for long and that's horrible and exhausting. i dont know how to describe it all either its hard.

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sometimes i want a certain sensory item/aid/tool but i worry i wont be able to enjoy it because of my joints in my fingers (chronic joint pain + hEDs.) like i find this roller into your hand thingy cool and seems like tactile wise it would be nice but what if it wouldn't go well with my joints OnO

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HIIIIIII !! went to town today with my caretaker! we got me a pair of trousers i wanted :D theyre super comfortable i like them so much!

i also got a new Fuggler plush and a fidget toy! and i had boba tea too! :D im very very tired, being autistic and chronically fatigued (CFS) really does it for me qwq but im resting now and have a fave drink and nice snacks.

look at my stuff i got! the plush and fidget toy!

im totally appreciating of anyone who's able of doing image description(s) and possibly making ones for these.

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also . reminder. no, you cant selfdx intelectual disability, it is not possible to do so. intelectual disability is quite complicated, and impacts everything not just ""your mental capacity"" or whatever you all insist. intelectual disability does not have a criteria like other disabilities may do, its way different. im intelectually disabled and even i can't pin point to you stuff about it. you cant selfdx intelectual disability, end off.

what ive been met with mostly, is people describing completely different issues from different roots when they say they ""suspect"" intelectual disability. an example would be cognitive differences or things related to autism. how may you even suspect intelectual disability, your suspections arent able of being based on things concrete enough to even insist that.

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hi peoples! so i was able to go out yesterday :) no this doesn't mean im not housebound anymore due to autism and intelectual disability, what housebound for me was *majority* of my life was no going out at all. but for the last about a year nearly ish two years its been "i cant leave the house at ALL without severe support and even so i do *very* rarely" which yes, is still, being housebound.

anyyyyyways thou! we went out to town a bit! i got two sensory items, a strawberry cow plush as well as this Fuggler small plush u can stick on a window and its so so silly!

here :D i took this on the day i got them

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being plural and explaining to people how as a base, yes my origin and "structural" works of my system is different, is one thing. but trying to explain that having hsn autism and intelectual disability affecting it so much that headmates actually can't have all these complex helpful roles and better functioning and coping or whatever. that does not exist for me because of my autism and intelectual disability, genuinely not possible. all i do have is "theoretical" label roles we like to use for comfort if it matches a feeling or relation to source in some way or a somewhat visualisation within headspace and even that's near to impossible and very different

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hi! so it is 10:46 (evening, friday) as im writing this! today was quite okay, i played Adopt Me on roblox and read some of my Pokemon manga!

as i have talked about before, i want to host an among us game, i like among us! its cute silly and fun! as i got wifi now, that means i can do it.

i will likely host more in the future! it is great! my plan is to maybe host the first one this Sunday? or Saturday, or both maybe. whoever wants to participate please let me know.

for communication purposes, id like if we could make a discord group chat regarding this matter! i am planning possibly on a small server in the future, thou thats on hold right now and i would need some people i can trust to moderate and help.

i want to make a discord group chat, so that we can communicate on when to finalise the date of the start of gameplay, the settings we will use, what map, all that so everyone feels comfortable playing! we will also arrange how many rounds we want to do!

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i also want to change up bio a bit . unsure how yet thou andddd going into education on Friday, again starting . not very looking forward to that because i am a housebound person, only go out at intese support and generally very rarely . do education thou it's like specialised for me and works differently to others schedule wise bla bla and school is too hard for a person like me with HSN autism and intelectual disability and chronic illnesses and physical disabilities anddd medical issues bleh . i have generally been housebound nearly all life, as a child upto nearly? later teenager years was housebound in a way that never went out home

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hi peoples, im not usually this inactive on here . quite the opposite! i like making multiple posts a day,, though we moved into a new house, permanent home now, from government, and its been a lot .

i am also going off of mobile data as our wifi gets set up on the 5th of september .

sorry to all the new people who may think i dont post much ! i do, a lot! i like it! :D

testing if this post will go through ..

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hi peoples ! i got some sensory toys/aids today and i am pleased with most of them :3 one will go to this autistic guy at my place of education because i gave him the same one about a year ago and he really liked it .

i also got extra ear defenders with bigger noise reduction,, i wanna put MLP stickers on them .

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also . sorry everyone for that whole messy interaction including slur mention, ableism and such . my page wont and isnt like this usually because i don like interacting with such things but that person was deeply wrong and in a fixated mindset on it , and quite frankly i would of probably not changed that anyways and don have the ability to express the things i want to .

individual has been blocked .

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i am so extremely happy right now my favourite website for watching things has the very old episodes from Sesame Street. its generally quite difficult to find old Sesame Street media online containing full episodes and many of them. but i finally accessed it which is awesome!