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I've seen a lot of people writing Danny as a space ancient and Dan and Dani as ghosts with moon and sun cores, being sort of parts, versions of Danny and therefore weaker. Now, consider: Dan and Dani are both powerful ghosts with really cool cores and stuff but Danny is just some guy™
Dan, who came from an alternate timeline and is kind of from the future but also not, is Clockwork's apprentice and will eventually become an ancient of time. He probably only agreed to have some lessons with Clockwork to understand better what happened to him, but he enjoys his apprenticeship now.
Dani, with her love of travelling, loves seeing all the different places the world offers to her, and that includes space and different planets and maybe even parallel universes, and she accidentally ends up being an apprentice of the space ancient. For now she's probably a baby ancient of freedom or something like that, but she might become an ancient of space in the future.
We can also have something like Dan having a core of destruction or Dani being the Speed Force if you want it to be dcxdp, or any headcanon of yours about their cool powers.
And then there's Danny. And yeah, everyone knows that he's super powerful, but also he's just some guy.
It can go different routes. Does everyone know that Danny is just Danny? Or do they think that with siblings (well, technically a clone and an alternate version, but whatever) so powerful, he must be even stronger? Is Danny actually something terrifyingly eldritch and ancient and strong, almost a god, but he just doesn't know himself? Or is he just really some guy?
Now, because it's obvious that I have a dcxdp brainrot, have a regular "JL summons/meets a powerful ghost" but its Dan and Dani, and they keep mentioning their original/brother who won a fight against them at some point. The JL is very concerned about Dan and Dani's godlike powers, and they can't imagine what Danny is like. And then they meet him (in his human form), and it's just a young adult in casual clothes, very friendly and helpful, with no evident powers. Imagine the confusion. Imagine Dan and Dani, radiating power, in their eldritch ghost forms, admitting that fighting Danny for real is the dumbest thing to do and not even they would succeed... And then there's Danny is jeans and silly t-shirt, waving shyly.
#DO YOU SEE MY VISION#please#I'm not getting enough sleep#my brain is obsessed with weird stuff#I want Sam who barely looks human because she's one with nature#I want Tucker who looks regal and dangerous in his pharaoh clothes#I want Dan look like he can destruct the Earth with a wave of his hand#I want Dani who is everything there is in the world and you feel it in your bones#I want Jazz who sees your soul and your mind and you know it and there's nowhere to run#I want JL to meet all of them before meeting Danny#I want all of them to admit in their different ways that Danny is the greatest of them#I want JL to be VERY worried about meeting Danny#and then I want Danny to be as normal and friendly as possible#and I want him to treat all those eldritch creatures (his family and friends) as they're regular humans and nothing is weird about them#just hugs and love and praises#because it would cause so much confusion#this is NOT ghost king Danny#unless it is but he doesn't know (and either no one knows or no one told him because it's funnier this way and he's super oblivious)#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc#dc x dp#DPxDC#DCxDP#danny phantom#isn't a crossover if you don't want it to be#could be any crossover if you do want it to be
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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am
#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils#but it's ok i just needed a nap#something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me#wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas#something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh#i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn#(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e#i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real#i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel#also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay#is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level#when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU#look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it#at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal
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Hi hello, would you look at that, huh! Saw this lil fella on our backyard a dozen times already.. he looked lonely and it's getting cold here, so maybe I should take him in -
You seem to know a thing or two about bugs and I never seen one like this! So I thought I could ask for advice, like is he the friendly kind at all?
(Couldn't take much pictures cuz he kept wiggling around 😔😔)
I G A S P E D
THE LITTLEST OF GUYS
#MARKETABLE PLUSHIE ROBBIE REAL?!?!?!?!#AWEAWEAWEAWEAWEEEEEEEEE THE LITTLEST OF GUYSSSSSSSSSS THERE HE ISSSSS;;;;;;;;;#Very friendly lil guy- he probably got lost again following a frog or smth-#Survived off of eating dandelions and some dirt…#And possibly a orange peel or two-#AWEEEEEEEEEE LITTOL GUYYYY;;;;;;;#He may head butt your ankle for attention if you leave him alone for too long— (or nibble you)#robbieeeeeee ;;;;;; he looks so lovely and handsomeeee;;;#him in his natural habitat… what crimes has he committed before being found?#(Possibly arson and/or tax fraud- he’s on the run with a warrant out for his arrest)#So many possibilities you can do with the lil guy… like spin him around in a tight hug or throw him at a wall-#So cuuuteee waaAAAAhh ;;;;;#Robbie robs#must put this in his tag cause he deserves it JDDHHDH#AWEEAWEEEEEEE I LOVE THIS SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEAAAAA
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extremely belated gift for my dear friend @phidont 🧡 i hope i did your diego justice, he’s such a cutie, your art will always be some of my favorite ever 😭 thank you for being my pal and for all your support and kindness and ofc for the dinopants conversations, i really do treasure you more than i can say 🙏🏻
#diego brando#steel ball run#jjba fanart#sbr#jjba sbr#i finished JUST IN TIME before i gotta dash for work 🏃🏻♀️💨#no HP this time but mayhaps next time ☝️🧐#i know stuff is rough for you rn phi but I really hope things look up soon bc you deserve peace and happiness#sending love and hugs as always 😤🧡#my art#diego
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is gemstuck sollux a fusion? :0
WHAT A FITTING ASK I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF DRAWING THESE GUYS!!!
yes, yes he is.
#chris doodles#homestuck#gemstuck#hs#sollux captor#i'm obsessed with them#was talking with a friend and we have their fucking entire story and vibe built out#in an episode like jailbreak#rather than how sapphire was kinda distraught and ruby was panicked to find her#bixbite and maxixe are both collectively like “i need to get out NOW before (other one) does because i REFUSE TO LET HIM HOLD IT ABOVE ME”#“HE CAN'T ESCAPE FIRST HE'LL HOLD THAT OVER ME FOREVER”#when they both escape the screen does a split screen and we see them running to try and find each other desperately#when they do#they rush at each other calling out each other's names#slamming into each other with something half between a headbut and a hug#one mutters to the other “i saw you first” the other says “i missed you” just as quietly#holding each other's gems as they touch foreheads#and theN THEY FUSE BACK TOGETHER!!!#he has this moment where he stands there and blinks#relishing in the moment#before summoning his visor and flicking it down like “alriight. back iin fuckiing buii2ne22”#stronger than you but its blackrom#instead of fighting jasper he fights eridan because fef and eridan are kinda the first antagonists to the group#and it gives SOOO much background for what happens with erisol later (i have a whole story for that fusion planned in my head)#anyways holy fuck#yeah im insane ask me more about them
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sydney and carmy have such a deranged dynamic so it's very funny when people try to put them in a "professional coworkers" box like bffr nothing about their relationship is professional
#sydcarmy#do you hand the reins of the restaurant your late brother left you over to the coworker you've known for only a few weeks/months#do you run your hands delicately along an item your coworker left behind after you were an asshole to her and caused her to quit#do you text your coworker first to calm your nerves before opening up your late brother's last message to you#do you have a panic attack where only your coworker's image and words can soothe you when the gf you love didn't#do you go back to the job you quit to pick up your last check and end up accepting your coworker's proposal to open up a new restaurant#do you tell your coworker to clearly define whether his gf is actually his gf#do you joyfully hug your coworker first after a do or d-e situation that your restaurant's success hinged on#do you gulp awkwardly and try to compose yourself after a tender convo with your coworker where you were open abt your fears#if you do all of that with your coworker well i have news for you!!#and i've called HR they're on the way#still sitting back and observing#...i scream into the void as i write yet another post about sydney/sydcarmy#text
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terrible awful realization
[image transcript:
arisveah: and the surgery scene was so much more piercing seeing it from a different angle like omg now we have the idea that he was screaming the whole time omg.
best friend: RIGHT
arisveah: (referring to a previous comment about the exposure) "nerd" okay star wars. what am i supposed to do with the knowledge that charlie was screaming for half an hour what the fuck. what do i do with that? poor boy. if he ever escapes his voice is going to be absolutely shot. and plus saying all that (referring to the horror of promoting a future sex channel with your voice and not your authority) on stream- poor man might never say anything again (if he gets out) :(
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#generation loss#genloss#slimecicle#genloss charlie#mute genloss charlie#the founders cut#u ever get such a foggy brain in public that your mouth speaks without your consent and now u said something very violating about yourself?#now imagine that its been streamed in front of thousands of people and you can’t stop your mouth despite your best efforts#and before you know it youve made promises you know youll be forced to keep#because you didnt make them the people controlling your life did#and now you just have to wrestle with the reality of keeping these promises while your legs run with a boy. you know will die#and your eyes are too heavy to tell where the camera is focusing#but youre pretty sure its already focused your butt after you were forced to eat people and you dont know what else mightve happened after#terrifying#poor fucking gl charlie slimecicle#and he thought he was in the sanctity of his home too#maybe im reading too much into it#but my heart cries for that character man#he needs a hug and a warm blanket BADLY#i will give him hot chocolate and a Gun and he will be safe forever slash platonic#i want to steal him and niki and sneeg and vinny and carry them away to a safe little house on the prairie where they learn how to be human#and they farm carrots and wheat and charlie and sneeg go vegetarian while niki joins the police force and vinny works as an accountant
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yeah hugo Never liked being around jacques as a kid even before his mom died and before he even really knew why. always hated it when he had to hug him, wanted him to stay longer on his business trips, bristled and got angry every time he heard jacques's childhood nickname for him that he hated ("bush baby"). his mom just kinda didn't register any of this and thought everything is fine hugo is just very very clingy and the nickname is cute surely he's not actually upset over it and
#love you ivanna kisses to the sky but good GOD. making excuses for jacques like it was a full time job#to be fair jacques wasn't even really Doing anything here. he was just trying to be a normal dad but hugo wanted nothing to do with him#hugo was very scared of him and he's very sensitive :( he takes things the wrong way often :((#it was also kinda like. hugo knew jacques didn't want to do it either#jacques holding his arms out like 'come here hugo i'll be in germany for two weeks i'm leaving now'#and hugo's just half-hiding behind ivanna being gently nudged towards him (she thinks hugo's upset about him leaving)#but hugo gets the sense jacques is actually saying 'come get this over with for your mother so i can leave'#cue a very awkward quick hug before hugo runs back inside the manor#the nickname jacques did genuinely just think was cute though. that made it worse though. that meant jacques was in a /good mood/ gross#jacques with just a hint of a smile like 'good morning bush baby' and five year old hugo's like one of us should jump out of the window#this is the fall: extras
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rivers if he was absorbed by poisonous gas but didn’t care too much
#weezer#rivers cuomo#poison gas#poison#maybe i’ll get more fans#THE WEEZER ARMY MUST GROW#THE WEEZER LVOERS !#please send me asks guys am so bored!!!#plus also dms are always open for any of u! i love u all n would love to talk to any of u#i took this pic and Wonderfront#i miss it. i wanna see them again :( but im broke!#i have to spend my money on my anniversary gift for my boyfriend which i’m NOT complaining about bc i love him obviously but am seriously SO#broke. i will draw whatever you guys want actually#for either 1) a follow (or if you are already following ; then free) 2) a little kiss#not on the lips though#but ya! please send. asks i always love interacting with you all! you guys r so sweet <3#there’s this tiktok user#maladroitlover579 and i love their videos so much they’re genuinely so silly n funny#i love commenting on their videos you guys should check them out they r huge weezer fan too!!! if you couldn’t tell by the name#omg today someone complimented my hair and i got so happy#MY OUTFITS HAVE BEEN SO FIRE LATELY🤤🤤 today i wore a short denim skirt with an off the shoulder black long sleeve with white leg warmers!#then yesterday i wore a black tube top with a long black skirt which hugged me#before i wore my brown sweater with my black skirt (which has POCKETS.) so it was super cute.#then monday i wore black yoga flares; white tank top with cute buttons; and a red shrug!#i got compliments on my style. 😎 guess i’m just the cutest girl on the block#or should i say… ON GHE BLOG??!#cuz it’s weezer blog… and i’m the only girl posted on here consistently….#always between my words i wanna add ‘da’ in the middle of them because that’s a running joke w my boyfriend#like da obviously! 🙄 da seriously? 😒 da Lol 😂#idk he’s silly and i’m silly
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Call me stupid but if I met William Cobb I’m gonna tackle hug him
I had this ask show up in a little window at the top of my screen and immediately went “R.I.P.” 😭
Seriously tho dear, pls do not tackle the trigger happy Talon in a hug. It reduces the likelihood of survival drastically 😭😭😭😭
#I mean I can totally relate#the urge to hug awesome characters is STRONG#but also if you see Cobb run the other direction#quickly#that’s a murder owl in the scariest sense of the word 😭😭😭#William Cobb#talon#court of owls#may I suggest instating yourself as a court member first#chances of survival if you attempt the hug then go up by at least fifty percent#whereas before the were at a solid one percent#what if Gotham#ghost talks
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*thinks for 2 seconds about morgan's death scene* that was so fucked up. that fucked me up. i need to lie down.
#we've never had a lostbelt king have that pitiful and awful a death#the others at least got to have some dignity#morgan spent her entire life fighting for britain while running from the fairies knives#she did so much for them#and in the end it still ended the only way it ever could#the same way it ended for cernunnos#everything you did for them ignored as they make up a chorus of lies to justify what they already wanted to do: butcher you#the one person you cared about forced to watch before she too was torn to pieces by the mob#god i just need a scene in chaldea where morgan and babohan sith get to hug
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don't you love (hate) being at your relatives' and trying to write with no headphones (pure hate) while having to hear your family talk shit about you (blind fucking hate) out loud in the other room knowing perfectly well you can hear them (hate. hate. H. A. T. E. hate.)
#you know those moments where you're like ''oh so I won't ever tell you anything about myself ever again. cool''#i was having a good day. i was having a good fucking day before this.#like i was actually happy with my achievements in school but sure. sure. tear into it like wet paper#I don't care about anything anyway you convinced yourself of that. sure.#heard little bro take my defense at some point and i was about ready to run out there and wrestle him into a bear hug#i should stop coming. no better. i should start coming with my own car. se when they start acting like jackasses i can make my little scene#where i pick up my things and leave. while also getting to say hi to my grandma. who's done nothing to me ever.#i love my mom. not like she makes it any fucking easy#aaaand there she goes again. god shut the fuck up.
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a shorty poked in by monty on a barky pass in front of the net makes it 6-1 cats
a scrum ensues when monty grabs marchys attention and cellys in front of him
boston bruins @ florida panthers game 2 | 5.8.24
and the misconduct call to which the ref could not be bothered to name every player and just went "all 4 guys have a 10 minute misconduct"
#brandon montour#niko mikkola#aleksander barkov#sam reinhart#florida panthers#2324#playoffs 24#second big scrum in the third and ofc monty has to start it#and ofc mikksy has to run in before he gets his ass beat by mcavoy#sashas gentle hand on montys shoulder before things go to shit#a tired mother please save her#also do you realise how mad you have to get reino for him to join a fight like#also i just noticed sasha gets hugged by two bs#theyre shorthanded and no one wants to get in between the other fights because honor rules or whatever#which just results in sasha getting squished between geekie and vanriemsdyk#oh i want to cry im laughing so hard#sasha is the least threatening guy on the ice rn
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Irreplaceable
Or, Chains thinks about Houston.
(Hi @neomineom ! I was your secret Santa! Sorry for taking years, it wasn’t canon compliant so I scrapped it and restarted. Among other real life things. it was totally my fault! I hope that I got your boys right and did them justice 👀)
written for @paydaysecretsanta
// canon compliant fluff with a bit of angst :)
Chains remembers Houston from before they both were in the PAYDAY gang. It was back in the early 2000s, when Houston would unlock the back door every morning so that they wouldn’t bother any customers while talking. The younger man didn’t really speak all that much, but Chains hadn’t minded. He’d met much worse, and the glint in Houston’s eye hinted to his amusement.
Houston was stoic from the beginning, forced to grow up in a household that had no place for a kid. Chains could put two and two together just by the way he mentioned his brother, those glimpses into complex feelings caused by years of neglect. He “had no chill,” as Joy used to say. It might’ve looked like that, but she didn’t know how he was back then.
The Ghost was almost completely silent, immediately getting down to business. He made no time for small talk, finding every conversation meaningless if it didn’t have a point. Chains admired the way that Houston was serious about his work, but it wouldn’t have killed the guy to loosen up a little. Chains had—for lack of a better term—annoyed Houston into relaxing every so often. When the younger man would roll his eyes, the veteran counted that as a victory.
At first, Houston was visibly irritated by Chains’ antics, having half a mind to kick him out of the range. Chains’ disrupted his usual quiet, but Houston began to grow used to it. He didn’t know when it happened, but he had started to expect his presence.
Chains started off by looking at the merchandise, then moved on to talking about other weapons and what Houston used to clean them out. The Armorer, knowing full well how to do it by himself, watched the younger man dismantle a desert eagle with deft fingers.
…When Bain chose Houston as a stand-in for Hoxton, Chains had agreed to it. He had seen Houston’s potential in how he applied himself and in the way he handled his weapons. (It was a mistake. He didn’t regret working with Houston, but Chains never meant to hurt Hoxton. He had always seen the two as separate people despite their similarities.)
Chains would keep it on the lighter side, but he wasn’t afraid to speak his mind. Houston wouldn’t judge him for any of it, sometimes agreeing with what he said. Likewise, Houston had no qualms with asking him for advice.
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Asking people for help was weak… but with Chains, Houston felt different. This was just two friends talking to each other.
It didn’t stop him from feeling a bit dumb for asking Chains for ideas about what sort of Christmas present to get Dallas. It’s not like he could stroll up to the guy and go “so is there anything you need other than me forgiving you for every time you weren’t there when I needed you?”
…Because that would be distasteful. Probably.
But it could definitely throw a wrench into their operations. With a heavy heart, Houston goes back to the drawing board.
“Would he… actually want anything?” Houston asks his partner in crime. He can’t really keep his eyes on the other man, pretending to work on something. The Ghost tightens screws on a spare ECM, but not enough to strip the thread.
“Heheh, yeah. The guy doesn’t go around screaming his love for Breaking Bad… except when he does,” Chains replies lightheartedly, knowing the Crew Chief’s love for old men getting punched in the face. (They never miss a chance to tease Dallas for being a decade older than the rest of them.)
Houston doesn’t think that Dallas does meth. It wouldn’t be professional. If he did, Bain would fire him… on second thought, maybe he wouldn’t. But Dallas’ level of methness is beside the point.
“He wouldn’t like that,” he says with a slight grumble. Houston could get him something related to the retirement home show, but Dallas would be too embarrassed to actually do anything with it. Houston doesn’t blame him. He’s gonna act like he does, anyway.
“…Well, he likes money,” the Armorer shrugs, “but you should be the one to decide, you know? Can’t do it for you. But I’m sure he wouldn’t mind either way.”
The Ghost can tell that Chains is listening to what he’s saying, and he appreciates the sentiment. No, he’s always appreciated the way that Nicholas understood him. The younger heister turns to nod at his friend and is greeted with a smile, as always.
(Houston ended up getting Dallas a pair of ugly Christmas sweater socks with tacky dollar designs emblazoned across them. Dallas acted polite about the gift as if he didn’t like it, but Houston noticed that his brother wore those stupid fuzzy socks with each subsequent holiday.)
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Chains sometimes tells stories about how him and Houston used to work in the same room—something that the latter never rarely did by choice. People would take his stuff without asking or get things dirty without cleaning up afterwards and it irked him to no end. Chains was someone who respected Houston’s boundaries, and there’s the fact that they’d known each other for over a decade… that’s gotta count for something, right?
Eventually, the Armorer taught Wolf how to behave himself around Houston as well, slowly helping his friend branch out. Houston learned how to trust a select few, settling both Wolf and Chains into his close circle of friends. Still, the older heister was different to him than the rest. He had bad experiences with Dallas, and Wolf was sometimes unpredictable. They were each unique in their own ways.
Houston was uptight, rigidity mellowed out with time. He knew his own boundaries, pushed them and even went to open a bar in Mexico with the crew’s support. Sure, Chains had shown him the way, but how much he changed was all on him. Chains helped Houston get a foot in the door, allowing him to meet new people. To see new things. To be independent again—apart from both Hoxton and his brother. Just because the gang was apart hadn’t meant that they cut all contact—they met every now and then just for the sake of spending time together.
Chains had sent letters to the former heister between his shoots, talking like they did back in the old days. He would light up whenever he found a reply in his mailbox, putting it elsewhere for safekeeping. Houston never completely chilled out, but he built his own life over there, at his own place! Chains was proud of the younger man. Houston updated his friend on the things that were happening… until he couldn’t.
Chains wasn’t able to save anything from his house when he was attacked.
Which is why when Dallas looks out the window for someone who will never arrive, Chains can put a hand on his shoulder. That’s why he doesn’t have to say a single word. He’s able to show the Crew Chief that he understands. Hoxton is his own person, and Houston never could’ve replaced him. He didn’t have to. Hoxton can’t replace him, either.
The two of them wait for an impossibility until after the sun sets.
#payday 2#payday 3#pd3#pd3 spoilers#payday3secretsanta#chains payday 2#houston payday 2#I’ve never written for them before. ever#where is hous :(#chains has lost people before in the military#but I also think he would tell some of the newer members about hous#because he wouldn’t want the others to go on never knowing him#do you think that hous would accept a hug if he crawls back to the crew all bloody and bruised from RUNNING AND HIDING#just without thinking#from just. the pure joy of coming back home
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loveee when a character is crushed under the weight of someone elses expectations for them love when a character dedicates their entire life to something they never even wanted for themself love when the only reason a character keeps going is because theyre Supposed to and bc theyre supposed to make another person happy/proud. YES !!! CLAPPING !!! YES !!!!!!!!
#this isnt rly related to any character in particular i just thought abt this and it made me scream.#flirting at a bar Damn girl you look like youre trapped in a life you built to please someone else. and then i kneel down and pull out a 💍#sry i ran out of space for the full word ring. also why when i type 💍 Ohh theyre hiding it. bc now the emoji is 💍 Oh they changed it again#pox on their home..originally it was 🔐 sughested emoji#but then the second time it was 😭.... very anti marriage. well ig maybe the sob could be like OMG... YES!!!!! I WILL MARRY YOU!!!!!!#ngl getting proposed to is such a big fear of mine like. i dont think id ever be able to propose to someone so id have to be proposed to i#suppose but it makes me quite nervous not bc im like ohh nooo dont propose i just rly worry ill react the wrong way and theyll change their#mind. like its a very high emotion moment so ik i would be supposed to be emotional And i would be but idk if id do it in the right way . y#idk. what if my autism looms and i end up just being like 😐 on accident. fuckkk. what if i say somethinf dumb. like i try to be like YES !#but instead im like YEP! god. can you imagine. id have to just bury myself at that point. so embarassing. or like what if i get excited and#flap my hands but it was supposed to be more of a like. joyful crying type of thing... or what if im supposed to just be shocked and like .#Oh my god ....#and am I supposed to run at them and sweep them into a hug or do they do thst to me. UGH. ITS SO STRESSFUL. i suppose ill just remain alone#forever so I never have to confront any difficult situations ever again . Joke .#idk it just makes me nervous. but i suppose hopefully the person proposing to me will love me . that would be nice so hopefully they wont#mind if i dont respond the right way . and they wont be upset with me bc they love me eversomuch. a girl can dream i suppose... my head lik#is pounding sry. i need to sleep probably.. stayed up too late again -_- 8am -_- and im sposed to do laundry today But i dont want to . and#since im gonna fall asleep i fear it shant happen. UGHHH#wtvr. idk what my ideal proposal would be likeee. i don't want to be blindsided ig#i like surprises but Obviously im too worried abt like. my immediate reaction#+ i think its important to talk abt marriage Before proposing just so everybodys like#on the same page and such. Obvs... but ya. i dont think id want a super public proposal like. id like it to be somewhere nice with maybs#significance to our relationship and such. and its fine if theres like Some passersby but id hate for it 2 be like. somewhere crowded. or i#a restaurant or something#Altho if it was in a restaurant maybe we could get free food..#but maybe that can be just fake proposals later on. and our real proposal can be somewhere else. YIPPEEE. me and my imaginary future spouse#who is To be honest rather bare minimum#normal girl will be like Wistful sigh maybe my future spouse will even love me and wont scream at me and will like to listen to me speak 😍#but anywyas. my beddybye time. SURPRISE GN POST#woahhthis got off topic i forgot what the original post was this always happens. i do love characters like that
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ever since i started working with women experiencing homelessness i’ve learned that there is no perfect victim, no victim without flaws, but they are victims no less and unconditional love feeds at you like a leech and you can say i love you to a stranger and mean it and sometimes weeping with others is worth more than it’s weight in gold and forgiveness is often unspoken but shared in hugs or carefully placed umbrellas or a bundle of bananas and sometimes the people you thought would never get better do. sometimes people die. i’ve learned to grieve for my loss of their presence and celebrate for their descent into safety. i’ve learned that grief exists because so does love.
#i’ve learned that everyone will remind you of home or youth because we’ll forever be searching for that feeling again#i’ve learned that i am the children running to hug me before family sessions and i am their mama crying with a secret cigarette too
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