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[rowritesstuff]

Avoidance (Nikolai Lantsov x Female Reader)

A/N: Heyyyy... it's been a minute... soooo, I could just drop this without saying anything about my disappearance from Tumblr (I mean, I've still been active, but I haven't posted anything), but I figured I should say something. I'm fine. Life's good. I just didn't have the motivation to write. Anyways, this probably sucks ass, but here ya go.

Ro's Masterpost

WORD COUNT: 2.3k words

WARNINGS: SMUT, friends to lovers, argument/yelling, oral (f receiving), unprotected P in V (please use a condom), fingering (kinda).

You laughed while Nikolai told the story of a shared childhood memory he had recalled earlier in the day.

You had been seven years old and it was Nikolai's eighth birthday. Another noble boy, the son of a count, you believed, bullied Nikolai throughout his entire birthday party, and you had made it your sole mission to ruin the boy's life, or day at the very least.

You had actually succeeded. You had known that his parents didn't allow him to eat sweets, so you managed to convince him to have one of every pastry served at the party, of which there were quite a few, with it being a young prince's birthday party.

"The poor boy's parents were fuming when they caught him with his face covered in frosting," you cackled and Nikolai threw a pillow from your sofa, which you were both sitting on, at you, which only made you laugh harder.

"I believe they banned him from any social events for a month because of that incident." Nikolai took a small sip of his whiskey.

"I still think he deserved it."

"Oh, of course."

You settled in a comfortable silence, sipping your drinks, chuckling every few seconds. Nikolai scooted closer to you on the couch, moving the pillow he had thrown at you off your lap and next to him.

You leaned your head on his shoulder. He took a deep inhale before wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you a little closer to him as he took a final sip of his whiskey. Noticing that you had also finished your drink, he took your glass and placed both yours and his on the table in front of you before settling back into you.

"For the record, I would do the same thing for you," Nikolai said, breaking the silence.

You snorted. "You have done the same thing. Remember when we were sixteen? We had just enlisted and that stupid asshole-"

You were interrupted by Nikolai's lips crashing onto yours, pulling you into a kiss. You tensed up for just a few seconds, but before you could return the kiss, he pulled away and turned his body away from you.

"Nik."

Nikolai gathered his coat from your couch and stood up, leaving your room without another word.

Your jaw dropped at the shock that he just left right after kissing you without even giving you a chance to say anything.

Nikolai avoided you for two weeks. Anytime you tried to speak to him he would walk away as if he had somewhere to be. Which, with him being a king, he very well may have had somewhere to be, but it was still rude.

Since he wouldn't come to you, you would go to him. No matter if it was the middle of the night.

You banged on his door, aggressively knocking until he finally opened the door.

"What the hell are you doing here?" he hissed. "It's late. You should be sleeping."

"So should you, but you're not even dressed for bed," you slipped past him and entered his room, stopping at a small table covered in piles of documents of work and you picked one up, "and you're working."

Nikolai closed his door behind you and leaned his back against the wall. "Well, you're dressed for bed." He gestured to the robe that was wrapped around you, covering your nightgown. "Why are you here?"

You dropped the paper back on the table. "I'm here because you kissed me two weeks ago and you have been avoiding me since." He lowered his head to avoid your gaze. "I deserve an explanation."

"I shouldn't have kissed you."

You stomped over to Nikolai. "Says who?"

"Me!" He pointed to his chest. "I shouldn't have put you in that position!"

"If you had waited one more second I would have kissed you back! I was just shocked because I didn't think you returned my feelings for you!"

Nikolai shook his head. "We're not doing this."

"Why?"

He gripped your arms, not nearly enough to hurt you, and pulled your body closer to his. He lowered his lips to your ear. "Because if we start, I won't want to stop," he whispered.

"And what if I don't want you to stop?"

He pulled back from you a little, looking into your eyes. E/C eyes that showed your love for him, your desire for him, and your anger toward him for ignoring you for two weeks.

He swallowed and moved his hands from gripping your upper arms to your lower back, covered by that damn silk robe. He had seen you in it many times before and he considered each moment a blessing. It was your favorite color and it suited your body perfectly.

"Are you sure?"

You nodded. "Yes."

Now having your permission, he spun the two of you, you now pinned against the wall he was previously leaning on. He captured your lips against his, pushing you even closer to the wall while one of your hands landed on the nape of his neck, curling into the short hair there, and the other went to his upper back, pushing him closer to your body.

He obliged your hand's desire, pressing himself against you. His lips wandered from yours to your jaw, then down to your neck. You let out a sigh as you moved your head to the side to give him more access. In appreciation, he sucked a hickey into your neck.

As Nikolai kissed down your body, your hand gripped his hair. Once he was fully kneeling in front of you, he looked up into your eyes as he untied the tie of your robe. He opened the silk fabric, giving him full view of your nightgown-covered body. He pressed a kiss to your clothed hip bone and looked up at you again. "Can you please take your robe off, darling?"

You pushed the robe off your shoulders and let it fall down your arms, dropping it into a pool of silk at your feet. Taking advantage of the robe on the floor, Nikolai placed it under his knees to protect himself from kneeling on the hard floors.

Nikolai dragged his fingers up your leg into your nightgown, pushing it up to your waist. You took the nightgown off and threw it off to the side.

You were left in only your underwear that blocked the one thing Nikolai had on his mind in that moment.

"Can I take these off?" he asked.

"Yes," you whispered.

He dragged the small garment down your legs, lifting your feet to completely remove them from your body.

He took a moment to drink in the visual of your completely naked body. You were perfect. You were the only Saint that he would ever worship, and he intended to do just that.

He nudged your right leg a little bit away from your left, giving you the hint to spread your legs. Once you were where he wanted you, his hands went to your hips and he gave them little massages as he moved his face closer to you.

You took deep breaths as you watched him move closer until he finally placed a kiss on your clit. You gasped, one hand returning to his hair and the other holding onto the doorframe next to you for support.

Nikolai kissed wet, open-mouthed kisses around your pussy, leaving you gasping and moaning while he kept looking up at your face. He kissed and licked and sucked at your entrance and your grip tightened on his messy blond curls.

He licked from your entrance to your clit, closing his eyes as he sucked at it. Your hand moved from his hair to the back of his head to push his face closer into you. After a little fluttering of his tongue on your pussy, then your clit, a high overcame you, making you lean your head back on the wall. One of Nikolai's hands came up to your side to massage it as he worked you through the orgasm, greedily licking at all of your wetness until you pushed his head away.

He smiled as he fell to the floor before he stood back up, holding you against him as he kissed your cheek, whispering praises into your ear while you recovered.

"I've got you, sweetheart. I've got you."

You pulled him into a kiss, tasting yourself on his lips. Slowly, you began making your way to Nikolai's bed until you hit his mattress. You fell down onto the bed, Nikolai following, placing himself on top of you.

You broke the kiss and scrambled to unbutton Nikolai's shirt. Your hands were still shaking, making it difficult to undo the buttons. Noticing your shaking hands, Nikolai took hold of your hands, stopping you. He pressed light kisses on your fingertips.

"Go ahead and lay on the pillows. I'll be right there."

You scooted yourself up his mattress, laying your head comfortably on his pillows as he had asked you to. Only a moment later, Nikolai was crawling above you, completely bare. You looked down his body from his chest, and lower, and lower.

Nikolai gently lifted your chin, forcing you to look him in the eye. He pressed a soft kiss in between your eyebrows. "Have you done this before?" he asked.

You nodded. You had had a few flings in your lifetime, as you were sure Nikolai did too, especially during his time as Sturmhond. He had his own flings on the Volkvolny, as did you.

"Good. I'll give you as much time as you need to adjust and if you ever need me to stop, you let me know. I don't want to hurt you."

You gave him a quick kiss. "You could never hurt me. Except for when you avoided me for two weeks, but- Saints."

His cock entering you interrupted you, though it was quite the pleasant interruption. He filled you slowly and perfectly. Nikolai kissed your cheek as his hips met yours. You took some deep breaths as you got used to the feeling of his cock inside of you. Finally, you gave him a ready nod.

Nikolai started off slowly and it wasn't until you asked him to go faster that he sped up. He kissed you deeply as he fucked you. You moaned into those kisses, the feeling of his cock sending you into euphoria.

"Fuck!" you cursed. "A little harder please?"

He obeyed, going just a bit harder, but enough to have you seeing stars. Your hand started moving down your body to rub at your clit, but Nikolai swatted your hand away and rubbed your clit in small circles himself.

Your hands returned to his hair for the millionth time that night, gripping the blond tufts. He gasped.

"Shit, can you pull it harder?"

You tugged on his hair, making him moan loudly. You smiled as you continued pulling on his hair, loving the sounds that escaped him at the feeling.

He began thrusting into you rougher, bringing you closer and closer to the edge of orgasm.

"Nik, fuck! I'm so close!"

Nikolai rubbed at your clit harder. "Me too. Where do you want it?"

"In me! Just-" You groaned, your orgasm overcoming you.

Nikolai wasn't far behind you. It was only a few seconds after your orgasm when you felt his cum shoot into you. He stilled, peppering kisses on your forehead and cheeks.

After you recovered, he slowly pulled out of you, rolling off you and onto the bed to your right. He opened a drawer in his nightstand, grabbed something, and closed it before rolling back to face you and handing you the Alkemi contraceptive. You drank it and he took the empty bottle, placing it on top of the nightstand.

He pulled you closer to him, where your side was tucked close to his torso. The both of you rested in this position for a few moments, you laying on your back, him on his side.

"I'm an idiot," Nikolai said quietly.

You smiled. "Congratulations, you've finally caught up with the rest of us."

He gently pinched your side before lightly laughing.

"What I mean is I shouldn't have avoided you. I shouldn't have left your room that night without letting you say or do anything. I'm sorry."

Your thumb rubbed his cheek. "Apology accepted. On one condition. You tell me how long you've been in love with me."

Nikolai groaned. "My eighth birthday party is when it started. When I saw how determined you were to ruin that idiot's life over him being mean to me."

You laughed. "Wow. I'm not sure what I was expecting, but it wasn't that."

"Now it's your turn."

You shook your head. "I'm not the one who owed an apology."

Nikolai raised his brows. "Fine. Since you don't want to tell me..."

He moved his hand from your side to your clit, rubbing small circles again. You threw your head back on the pillows, cursing.

"Shit, Nik."

He didn't stop. He kept rubbing your clit, occasionally dipping into your pussy for more moisture. He sped up his motions until you came once again. He gathered all of the wetness on his fingers and licked it all off.

"When we were 16 and had just enlisted. That asshole Novikov was harassing me. You punched him in the face one day. Three times. You broke his nose. That's when I fell in love with you."

"Awww. We both fell in love with each other when we harmed other people." He kissed your forehead. "Should we be concerned about that?"

"Probably, but right now, I want to sleep."

Nikolai hummed in response, pulling the blankets over the two of you. You turned to lay on your side as he got up to blow out all of the candles. When he finally got back in bed, he pulled you into him, your back against his chest, and he wrapped his arms around you.

"I love you," Nikolai whispered.

You closed your eyes. "I love you, too."

"Good night."

You softly smiled to yourself. "Good night."

[sophierequests]

the garden // sophie's 500 followers celebration

500 followers?? are y'all insane?? i literally don't know what else to say to that. thank you all so much for following me and reading what i write! i love reading your reblogs, comment and interacting with you, it genuinely means so much to me <3

i have another event in the works, but i'll put in on hold for this lovely little celebration!

rules: literally anyone can participate, it doesn't matter whether you are one of my long-time moots, a follower or whether you just found my fics in the tags and enjoy reading them! feel free to spam me with as many requests as you'd like, i promise you i don't care, but please make sure that every request is sent via a different message. please don't send me two or more requests in the same ask! also, drabbles will take me a little bit of time, so maybe consider sending in some of the other asks too <3

this celebration starts on the 6th of march and ends on the 14th of march!

🦊 nothing at all - send me your favourite song and a grishaverse character of your choice and i'll write a short drabble about it (can be x reader but it doesn't have to be)!

🍃 pretty little things - ask games! i have never done them before but i want to try it so bad (e.g. cym, fuck, marry, kill, whatever you can come up with really) → these asks aren't only limited for the grishaverse, but every fandom i'm in!

🦔 can't go back - send me a character and a scenario or your headcanons about that character and i'll make a moodboard out of it!

🌿 i talk in my sleep - send me your ideal idea of a first date and some facts about yourself (name/nickname, favourite pastry, favourite song, random fun facts etc.) and i'll ship you with a character and write a short drabble about them → please specify your sexuality, pronouns and whether the ship is supposed to be romantic or platonic!

🦌 down the river - send me your favourite aesthetic (e.g. cottagecore, dark academia etc.) and i'll assign you a song out of my favourite song playlist!

🌷 not the ghost - send me a link to one of your fics and let me gush over it and point out my favourite lines (fandom doesn't matter, neither does the word count)!

🦋 turn out the lights - send me a number and i'll post a little snippet from one of my wips

my lovely moots:

@brekkers-desigirl @writingmysanity @b3kk3r-by-br3kk3r @ell0ra-br3kk3r @juneberrie @velvetarcane @maximoffgxrl @factionlessrebel @dellabearry @yesshewrites1 @freddycarterswife @maliciousbrekker @futurecorps3 @rowritesstuff @hufflesight @spaceagebachelormann @zaypay @jahayla-parker @pregnant-piggy @nyxxxxxxxx @vamp-rom-stuff @grimbanes @the-lonewriter

[ell0ra-br3kk3r]

i- wow... this was super quick haha thank you guys so much<3 i was missing my old blog a few days ago but then i realized i probably wouldn't have met a few of you so i'm grateful for getting the fresh start and a chance to meet some of you guys<3 so we're at 500 followers and it's christmas (kinda sorta almost there)! let's do this!

fandoms for this event are the grishaverse and the wizarding world both golden and marauders era (please specify if you want marauders or golden). please let me know if you have a prefrence for pronouns, otherwise i'll default to she/her.

anyone and everyone can participate! please keep it to one event per ask. thank you!

CLOSED

navi. | masterlist | character list

story telling ~ dialogue requests! send me this with a character and prompt and i'll write a short dialogue for you

christmas photos ~ mood boards! send me this with an activity or senario along with a character or ship and i'll make a mood board for you

mistletoe ~ ships! send me your ideal holiday themed date and i'll ship you with a character (specify fandom and gender prefrence)

wish list ~ send me the link to a fic you've written and i'll share with you my favorite things about it! (it's really more like me annotating your fic like i would my own book haha)

holiday greetings ~ send me your first impression of me and your thoughts of me now and i'll do the same for you (moots only)

secret santa ~ send me this and i'll tell you what i would get you for christmas plus what i'd write in your card (close moots only)

stockings ~ cym, kmk, random asks, ect

@romanticvampire @princess-paramour @sw34terw34ther @bookaholics-stuff @maliciousbrekker @brekkers-desigirl @just-laufeyson @sirisuorionblack @thehalfbloodedwitch @juneberrie @jahayla-parker @robynlilyblack @masivechaos @songofpatrochilless @my-my-only-angel @imabee-oralizard @the-crazy-library-freak @mad-elia @applebittenn @puppy-coded @jackys-stuff-blog @1989tv @rowritesstuff @cauliflowertree @i-live-you-die-i-tell-your-story @sophierequests

[the-tpd-bau]

OKAY!! cym as grishaverse characters

Shit. Now I gotta use my brain...

Kaz Brekker: @crowcaws

Inej Ghafa: @auroravictorium @ketterdam-snack-bar

Wylan Van Eck: @jahayla-parker @rowritesstuff

Jesper Fahey: @starstruckwillows

Nina Zenik: @lilisouless

Matthias Helvar: @maliciousbrekker

Alina Starkov: @thatfangirl42

Nikolai Lantsov: @keikigoodbetter

[usmsgutterson]

moots and followers alike! Hi!

It’s not quite the new year for me and I don’t imagine it is for you, but I needed to write this out at some point and I figured it best to do it before I focused in on writing and forgot what I was going to say at all. 

2022 may have been the best year of your life. It may have been the worst, but regardless, thank you so much for staying and seeing 2022 to the end. Thank you so much for sticking around to see 2023 start out. 

regardless of how you’re going to celebrate, even if you’re not going to celebrate at all, I hope that tonight is relaxing, and I hope that, even if your night is crazy, you have the time to remember not to discount the small victories that will come in the next year. Even a victory that seems as small as waking up is still a victory. Small victories count! 

My hope is that 2023 brings goodness, kindness and strength to us all. I wish you all the best and hope you enjoy tonight, whether you’re going out and having a good time with your friends or staying in with family, or even just relaxing by yourself. I love and cherish you guys so much and I’m so happy that I get to go into the new year with you. Happy new year everyone!!

tagging mutuals! @ell0ra-br3kk3r @b3kk3r-by-br3kk3r @thedelusionreaderbitch @writingmysanity @brekkers-desigirl @sophierequests-trashblog @rowritesstuff @thebestieyoureinlovewith

[rowritesstuff]

okay! i have a request! dad!kaz x mom!reader where maybe their kid gets kidnapped and the reader is distressed and kaz is just beyond angry and rips the whole city apart, in search for their kid. and when they find them its just teary family comfort??

if you dont feel it, dont worry about it!<3

Blood Be Damned (Kaz Brekker x Female Reader)

A/N: The quality of this just kinda goes 📈📉📈📉📈📉 I hope you don't mind that I kinda messed with the dad!Kaz idea (nothing bad, I promise!). If you don't like it, I swear I will write a new version of this. 😂 Also, in my head this takes place post-CK, so Kaz and the reader are probably roughly 18. I also hope y'all like the name I picked for the kid. Also, I need to go to bed, so I didn't do a final proof read. Deal with it. 😘

Ro's Masterpost

WORD COUNT: 2k

WARNINGS: Teen parenting, possibly OOC Kaz (but it's fucking adorable), missing child and kidnapping, mentions of torture, blood, mentions of death, mild violence, slitting the throats of stuffed animals?

GIF found on @naslostcontrol

Kaz had been busy lately, so he was behind on his work. Very behind on his work. Because you were nice (and because you would do practically anything for the man), you decided to help him get it done, meaning it would be a late night.

It was currently just about nine bells in the evening. You were sitting on the bed you and Kaz shared most nights while Kaz was putting Alyx, your daughter, to bed.

Or, at least he was supposed to be.

You were interrupted by the door opening and giggles disrupting the silence. The source of the laughing was Kaz and Alyx, who was receiving a piggyback ride from Kaz.

"She's supposed to be in bed!" Although you were slightly mad; Alyx should have been in bed by now, you couldn't help the loving smile that took over your face.

You never expected Kaz to get along with your daughter so well. Even before you and Kaz were together, he gave Alyx nothing but kindness and care. Alyx had adored Kaz since they met when she was just a few months old. When your relationship with Kaz grew, he swiftly stepped into the role of Alyx's father figure.

Kaz turned his back to face you and let Alyx fall onto the bed in front of you. The small girl erupted into more giggles. "Someone wanted to say good night to the most beautiful girl in the world."

"Hey!" Alyx exclaimed.

Kaz kissed Alyx's forehead. "Sorry. The second most beautiful girl in the world. Right after Alyx."

You pulled Alyx into your arms, cradling her. "Although I am very happy that you wanted to say good night, you need to be asleep." Your gaze went back to Kaz. "I swear to the Saints, if she's grumpy tomorrow, you'll be taking care of her."

Kaz rolled his eyes; he would gladly take care of your daughter any day, no matter what mood she was in. He scooped Alyx back up and placed a kiss on the top of your head. "I'll put her to bed now."

"Thank you."

As Kaz moved to leave the room, Alyx shouted out "good night!" to you.

"Good night, darling!" The door closed behind the two people you loved most in the world.

Shortly after they left and you continued working, Kaz came back and settled down at his desk. He removed his leather gloves, which despite making huge progress on overcoming his touch aversion, he still often wore around Alyx. Alyx was a very touchy, somewhat clingy child. Sometimes overwhelmingly so. Kaz refused to ask her to be more careful with him, or even let you ask her, so he wore the gloves.

The two of you worked in comfortable silence, occasionally asking for the other's help every once in a while until the early morning hours. As more and more time passed, you felt the exhaustion hit you harder each hour. The words on the page blended together, though you could barely focus on understanding the combinations of letters. Your eyes grew heavy as you tried to work through the tiredness.

You must have fallen asleep at some point because you woke up to Kaz shaking you and frantically saying something about Alyx. You couldn't comprehend the words coming out of his mouth.

"Slow down," you said once you were mostly lucid. "What's going on?"

"Alyx is missing."

You sighed. "She's probably just wandering around in the kitchen or something."

Kaz put a stuffed lion toy in your lap. "This was in her bed."

You picked the toy up and inspected it. As your fingers ran around the plush fabric, your breathing shook. Alyx had a stuffed crow, which she loved to death, but she never had a stuffed lion.

You started to take some deeper inhales, attempting to get into a mindspace to think rationally.

Alyx wasn't in her bed.

There was a stuffed lion toy in her place.

You had no idea where she was or when she was taken.

That's all you knew.

Kaz took the toy from your hands and tossed it on the floor to deal with later. He took your hands in his gloved ones, running his thumbs over your knuckles. You knew he was trying to calm you or ease your mind with gentleness, but it wasn't working.

He pulled you into him, resting your head on his chest. He lowered his mouth to your ear and whispered, "I will find whoever did this, and I will make them regret it."

Kaz limped into the bedroom late the next day. After carefully leaning his cane against the wall, he took his coat off and hung it up. His gaze navigated to the bed, where, thankfully, you were sleeping.

You hadn't slept the night before; you were worrying and trying to find Alyx. Before he had left earlier, he asked you to get some sleep, though at the time, you didn't seem happy at the request.

Kaz made his way to the bathroom, quickly finding the washbasin. He removed his gloves, as he stared at his reflection in the mirror. Spots of dried blood decorated his right cheek. He set his gloves aside on the counter, more blood from the gloves smearing on the surface.

Hours and hours of interrogating Dime Lions and torturing Dime Lions and none of them gave any information. They all claimed ignorance. He'd sent Inej on multiple sweeps of Dime Lion territory and nothing.

Alyx was nowhere.

Kaz gripped the edge of the counter, his hands wet from washing the blood from his face. He stared into the water in the washbasin.

She had to be somewhere. Someone had to know something. He didn't care how many people got hurt in the process, he would find Alyx for you. For him.

He knew that Alyx saw him as a father figure and he knew that he cared for the girl, but her being gone made him realize the true paternal love he felt for her. Alyx had a presence that brightened up every room she stumbled into. Kaz missed her smile, her hugs, her laughter, her tears, her curiosity, her light that hadn't been killed by Ketterdam yet.

She was his daughter, blood be damned.

And he was going to find her and bring her home.

He wiped the tears from his cheeks before he went back into the bedroom and changed into clean clothes. From behind him, he heard blankets shifting around. He turned, and there you were. Eyes open, hair tangled; you still looked half asleep. You looked up at him.

He shook his head. Your eyes closed as your hand rubbed your face. "I've sent Inej on another sweep, this time of all of Ketterdam." He sat on the bed as he buttoned up his white shirt. You moved closer to him. "Knowing her, she'll find or intercept something and we'll find Alyx and bring her home to you-"

"Kaz, stop."

He turned his upper body to face you, confusion etched on his features. He removed his hands from the undone top button of his shirt and he placed one on your blanket-covered side. He silently waited for you to continue.

"Please stop sugar-coating this and giving me false hope."

"It's not false hope. Inej may actually find something."

"Kaz, it's been well over a day-"

"Don't you dare tell me what I think you're about to."

You sat up and took his face in your hands, eyes flooding with tears. His hand stayed on your side. "It kills me to even think about it, but we need to be realistic. We're in Ketterdam, for Saints sake. This place isn't known for rainbows and sunshine." Your voice cracked and wavered as you spoke.

Kaz remained silent as tears trickled down both your cheeks and his cheeks.

"Y/N, I have no idea where she is." His other hand went to her other side. "We don't deserve this. Alyx doesn't deserve this."

You pulled him into you as sobs racked the both of you.

You watched Kaz as he slept next to you. You were sitting up in your bed as Kaz's head lay on the pillow next to your lap. Despite his roughed up hair and messy appearance, you admired his peaceful beauty. Your fingers ran through his dark hair, calming you.

He had fallen asleep in your arms, which had only proved to you how deprived he was of sleep. You had to briefly wake him to move into this position, which was much more comfortable for the both of you.

Five quick taps at your window made you zone back into the world outside of Kaz. You removed your hands from his hair and you quickly got out of bed, finding Inej crouching outside the bedroom window. You opened it, letting her in.

Inej held out an opened letter to you. "What is it?" you asked as you took the letter out of the envelope.

"I intercepted it before it got to the recipient. It's a communication from within the Razorgulls."

You skimmed the letter, finding mentions of a toddler girl and Kaz, though he was addressed as "Dirtyhands". The toddler girl must be Alyx, who the letter said was "Dirtyhands' daughter". Whoever sent the letter had Alyx.

"The Razorgulls took her. But they left a stuffed lion."

"Most likely to throw us off their trail and onto the Dime Lions'. And it worked."

"Do you know where this came from?"

Inej nodded. "I wrote the address." She handed you a slip of paper.

"Thank you so much," you whispered before kissing her cheek and pulling her into a hug. "I owe you everything."

"Just focus on getting your daughter back." Eventually, Inej broke the hug and left the room through the window. You ran to the bed and woke Kaz.

He woke up, slightly delirious, but once you told him that you knew Alyx's location, he snapped into full attention.

It was a simple two-person job, with you and Kaz being the two people. When Inej scoped out Alyx's location, she found there was only ever two people guarding the building, which you could very easily take out. The Razorgulls were careless.

You and Kaz studied the building from behind the side of a wall. In front, you saw the two guards Inej had told you about. They would be very easy to take care of. The guards paced around the front of the building, chatting with each other.

Kaz turned to you. "You take the right guard, I'll take the left. Once we get in, I'll focus on finding Alyx while you deliver our message. I'll find you once I have her." He took your hand in his gloved one.

Your other hand played with the strap of the satchel that crossed your body as you nodded. "Let's go."

You and Kaz snuck around in opposite directions, making your way for a sneak attack on the guards. On the way, you picked up a decent-sized rock. You hid behind the wall of the building, watching Kaz on the other side. At his nod, you ran toward the guard on the right.

You brought the rock down on the guard's head, knocking him out fairly quickly. When you looked back up, Kaz had knocked out his guard. The both of you bolted to the front door, swiftly opening it and running inside. You ran up the staircase as Kaz searched the first floor for Alyx.

You eventually found what appeared to be the office room in the building. You stopped at the wooden desk and opened your satchel. You lined up the five stuffed gull toys on the desk. After taking your knife out of your pocket, you carefully made a slice on the throats of each toy bird. Satisfied with your work, you placed the knife back in your pocket.

Not long after you finished, you heard quick footsteps behind you. You turned, and there she was. Alyx ran to you and you scooped her up in your arms, holding her tight as your eyes slipped close.

The tears falling down your face didn't matter. The world didn't matter. Nothing else mattered in that moment.

The sound of a cane clicking against the wooden floor made your eyes open again. Kaz stood awkwardly in the doorway, watching you hold Alyx. After making your way to him, you kissed his cheek.

"I love you," you whispered. "I love you both so much."

[rowritesstuff]

Hey y'all, sorry for not posting or writing anything lately.

Tbh I got obsessed with Wednesday, so give me a few and I'll get back to the Grishaverse. Hopefully.

I am also considering writing for Wednesday, so, let me know if that's something y'all are interested in and that'll probably raise my chances of doing it.

Thank you for being patient!!

[rowritesstuff]

💜Request Stuff (Straight-To-The-Point Version)💜

This is the short, straight-to-the-point version of my request stuff because I can't shut up.

OG Request Stuff

CHARACTERS I WRITE FOR:

Kaz Brekker

Jesper Fahey

Inej Ghafa

Kaz Brekker x Inej Ghafa x Reader (polyamorous)

THINGS I AM WILLING TO WRITE:

Smut

Fluff

Angst

Female Reader

Gender-Neutral Reader

I am also willing to take quote prompts as a request or with a request.

Song fics (sending me a song along with a character and asking me to write a fic based off the song)

THINGS I WILL NOT WRITE:

Rape

Sexual assault

Some smut (depends on the request)

Male Reader

I WILL ONLY ALLOW FOUR REQUESTS IN MY INBOX AT ONE TIME

I WILL CLOSE MY REQUESTS ONCE FOUR REQUESTS ARE IN MY INBOX

Don't rush me to finish your request. I'm a busy person. I have classes, I have a job, I have a life. If you ask about the status of your request more than once, I'll probably just delete your request.

I'll probably have to update this a few times, but this is it for now! I'll be opening my requests! I love you all!

[rowritesstuff]

💜Request Stuff💜

No, I could not come up with a better title.

This is kinda a lot, so if you want to read a shorter version of this or my ADHD brain vomit here confuses you, you can go to this post!

Shorter Request Stuff

Hi!! I hit 30 followers (THANK YOU SO MUCH), so now I'll be taking requests!!

These are the characters I am willing to write fanfiction for:

Kaz Brekker

Jesper Fahey

Inej Ghafa

and I will also write

Kaz Brekker x Inej Ghafa x Reader (polyamorous)

I am a straight woman, so if you have an issue with me writing for Inej or Kanej, please message me so I can have a conversation with you! I want to hear you out and my messages are the best way to do that.

Also, I am only willing to write for female and gender-neutral readers. Since I am not male, I don't feel comfortable writing for a male reader.

I am willing to write smut. I will not write rape and/or sexual assault. I also have the right to deny certain smut requests, depending on what's requested. (I may go into more detail about the specific things I'm not willing to write as I deal with more B.S.)

For my own mental health and sanity, I will only have up to four requests in my inbox at any given time. If and when there are four requests in my inbox, I will close my requests.

This is for my mental health.

I'm a busy person. I have classes, a job, and a life. Please don't ask me about where I'm at with your request. If you ask me once, I'll let it slide, and I'll probably remind you of this. But twice; chances are I'll delete your request.

I'll probably have to update this a few times, but this is it for now! I'll be opening my requests! I love you all!

[sophierequests]

uhm?? hi??

i was offline yesterday, and when i opened tumblr this morning i had over one thousand notifications?? one hundred and fifty notifications were new followers?? i reached five hundred followers two weeks ago and now i have seven hundred?? this does not feel real, someone pinch me (or hit me, because this feels so unreal).

i am very certain that the release of season to has sparked this sudden interest in the fandom, but i am very thankful (and a little bit overwhelmed) nontheless <33 so, hi and thank you for everyone that saw my mediocre writing and decided that i am someone worth following, i am genuinely baffled.

i'm currently a bit slumped with finishing my term paper and finishing the requests for my last follower celebration, so i am a bit busy rn, but i promise i'll do something special as soon as i can!! i also still don't have wifi at home, so please bear with me if i'm a bit inactive or selective with the messages i answer!!

tagging my mutuals because i need some emotional support or someone to bonk me on the head rn (or both):

@brekkers-desigirl @writingmysanity @b3kk3r-by-br3kk3r @ell0ra-br3kk3r @juneberrie @velvetarcane @maximoffgxrl @factionlessrebel @dellabearry @yesshewrites1 @freddycarterswife @maliciousbrekker @futurecorps3 @rowritesstuff @hufflesight @spaceagebachelormann @zaypay @jahayla-parker @pregnant-piggy @nyxxxxxxxx @vamp-rom-stuff @grimbanes @the-lonewriter @mah33n

[sophierequests]

first of all, congratulations!!!!! i love your stories and it's only fair that a lot of people love them too! you're doing great <3

and now, please, cym with the grishaverse

🍃 pretty little things

cym as grishaverse characters

thank you so so much, love <333

i was waiting for someone to do the cym with the grishaverse!!!

kaz brekker: @brekkers-desigirl @b3kk3r-by-br3kk3r

jesper fahey: @writingmysanity @maliciousbrekker

inej ghafa: @ell0ra-br3kk3r @grimbanes

nina zenik: @juneberrie

matthias helvar: @freddycarterswife @hufflesight

wylan van eck: @spaceagebachelormann

nikolai lantsov: @futurecorps3 @jahayla-parker @the-lonewriter

zoya nazyalensky: @yesshewrites1

genya safin: @maximoffgxrl @pregnant-piggy

david kostyk: @zaypay @nyxxxxxxxx

tamar kir-bataar: @factionlessrebel

tolya yul-bataar: @dellabearry @rowritesstuff

harshaw: @velvetarcane

→ to my event post!

[the-tpd-bau]

Also, cym as the sab cast!!

I'm literally so in love with this cast omfg!

Freddy Carter: @ketterdam-snack-bar

Amita Suman: @thatfangirl42

Kit Young: @keikigoodbetter

Jack Wolfe: @jahayla-parker @maliciousbrekker

Danielle Galligan: @auroravictorium

Callahan Skogman: @rowritesstuff @futurecorps3

Jessie Me Lei: @lilisouless

Ben Barnes: @starstruckwillows

[sophierequests]

my lovely moots part two <3

Navigation

“Some people were built for love, and some were built for war. One did not lend itself to the other.”

— stella 🦋 - @factionlessrebel

— della 🐑 - @dellabearry

— 📜 - @yesshewrites1

— 📷 - @freddycarterswife

— cal 🖋️ - @maliciousbrekker

— lola 🌑 - @futurecorps3

— ro 🕰️ - @rowritesstuff

[sophierequests]

To close the year on a happy note:

This year was definitely something. Many good things, may shitty things. But that's just life, and I'm glad we all made it through somehow.

A big thank you to all the people that have interacted with my blog and me in any way, shape or form. Thank you for supporting and enjoying what I write, it really means a lot to me <333

Also, a very big thank you to all my absolutely lovely moots. Without you, Tumblr would be pretty boring. Thank you for all the love <3 I'm so happy to have 'met' all of you. You're all amazing and wonderful people, and I'm so proud to see all of you having made it to the point where you're at right now <333

I want to wish all of you a happy start into the new year! I hope that 2023 is kind to you, and even if it's not, that you can persevere through the challenges it throws in your way.

Much love,

Sophie <333

sending virtual hugs to all of you: @brekkers-desigirl | @writingmysanity | @b3kk3r-by-br3kk3r | @ell0ra-br3kk3r | @juneberrie | @velvetarcane | @maximoffgxrl | @factionlessrebel | @dellabearry | @yesshewrites1 | @freddycarterswife | @maliciousbrekker | @futurecorps3 | @rowritesstuff | @hufflesight

[ell0ra-br3kk3r]

as a writer ~ send me this along with the link to one of your favorite fics, that you've written and i'll tell you my favorite parts and lines! (writers only)

https://at.tumblr.com/rowritesstuff/kitchen-light-xana-kaz-brekker-x-female-reader/xw1043cxvigm

(I hope the link worked. Either way, it's Kitchen Light)

It's so funny to me that people are still reading the disaster that is Disaster that I wrote, when THIS exists. 😂

Anyway, I'm really curious to see what you'll say! 💜💜💜

His heart flipped around in his chest. You were always so gentle with him, never pushing him past his comfort zone. You recently started kissing his fingertips or sometimes his hands, if you had permission. He loved these moments with you, but they were usually in private, not at the Crow Club's bar. He didn't mind it at all.

<3

"Speaking of our relationship, I think we should end this." You took a sip of your drink.

That knocked the air out of his lungs. His eyes searched your face, looking for any signs that you were joking. None showed. "What?"

"I'm already with someone-"

"Someone who you're now drinking to forget."

You set the drink on the table. "Watch it, Kaz."

He took in a shaky breath. He needed to leave. So he did. He left the Crow Club without saying another word.

ouch...

But when Kaz looked at you, sitting on his floor, resting your head on his leg, he knew your apologies were genuine. He knew you regretted your actions. He knew you wanted to actually make this work. His heart clenched in his chest seeing you like this.

He slowly and carefully slid off of his mattress to sit next to you. He removed the pillow from your lap and he placed it behind you as he took you in his arms.

Wiping your tears, you put your head in the crook of his neck, occasionally kissing some spots as Kaz stroked your hair.

~

I think he might be the love of my life.

this hurt and then made me all smiley and warm<33 i love this!

[rowritesstuff]

Disaster - Conan Gray (Kaz Brekker x GN! Reader)

A/N: I done did a thing. If you didn't get the memo from the title, this fic is based on the song Disaster by Conan Gray. I've seen a lot of Kaz Brekker fics on here based on Conan Gray songs, so I am in no way the first person to do this, but I just put a playlist on shuffle and this song came up, so I decided to write a fic from it. Also, I'm pretty sure this is gender neutral, but if it's not, please let me know.

Ro's Masterpost

WORD COUNT: 1.7k words

WARNINGS: Drinking and drunkeness, slight mentions of self-harm and suicide (just barely).

Image found on Twitter.

In your defense, Jesper had gotten you drunk, so risks seemed easier to take that night.

You made the mistake of allowing Jesper to buy drinks for the two of you. You weren't celebrating anything. It had just been a while since you and Jesper had had a conversation that lasted for hours.

After you finally decided to leave the Crow Club at some unsaintly hour, you should have gone to bed. Instead, you couldn't stop thinking of Kaz.

Kaz Brekker. Dirtyhands. The Bastard of the Barrel. What could you possibly have to think about him? Maybe it was his hair, the way the dark strands fell across his forehead sometimes. Or, it could be his sharp jawline or the way he carried himself as if he owned the rooms and buildings he walked in, which sometimes he did.

You have to admit, when you heard the tales of Dirtyhands when you first arrived in Ketterdam, you never imagined he'd be so easy on the eyes until you met him. But he was. Oh, Saints, he was.

You didn't go straight to bed after bidding Jesper a good night, so what did you do? As any drunk person would, you wrote a note to your crush, which, in your case, was Kaz. You could barely even remember what the note said by the time you slid it under his bedroom door.

Then you went to bed.

You woke up the next morning feeling very hungover and regretting the amount you drank the night before. Despite feeling like death, you got up, got dressed, and went on with your day.

You didn't have much you had to do that day, so you took the time to neaten your room up a bit. After finishing that task, you decided to do some shopping around the city, since you had recently earned a decent amount of money from a job.

You returned to the Crow Club late that night. When you walked in, Kaz asked for you to meet up with him in his room. Once you put your things in your room, you followed his orders and went into his.

You had forgotten about the note you gave Kaz until you saw it folded up on his desk. You tensed up a bit, thinking that the note was the reason Kaz wanted to see you, but he didn't even mention it.

All that happened was you and Kaz had a conversation. He spoke about new tips on jobs and some shared memories of old ones while you spoke about the things you had done that day and how you had been recently. Kaz never even brought up the note.

Throughout the conversation, you somewhat hoped he would bring it up, maybe so you would remember what you wrote on it. Or maybe so you could know if he read it or what he thought of it.

At least, no matter what stupid things you wrote on it, you could blame your drunkenness from the night before.

As you were tossing and turning in your bed after Kaz let you leave, you were picking the conversation apart in your head, trying to dissect Kaz's words and find the true meaning of why he wanted to see you.

You figured that it didn't matter for two reasons. One, Kaz Brekker is not a man that is easy to figure out. Two, it was just a one-time thing.

Except, it wasn't.

It became an every night thing.

Every night, Kaz would ask you to come into his room and the two of you would just talk. About everything. About nothing. It went on for weeks before Inej mentioned it to you.

"Are you and Kaz together?" Inej asked you as you entered your bedroom after breakfast. You had no idea she was there, so she scared you.

Your hand flew to your chest. "I swear to the Saints, Inej, if you keep doing that, one day I'm going to accidentally shoot you."

"Answer the question. Are you and Kaz together?"

"No, we're not." You answered after getting your bearings. "What makes you think we are?"

"You go to his room for hours every night. There is clearly something between you and him."

You sat on your bed. "But there isn't anything between us. We're just talking."

"About what?" You shrugged. Inej smiled. "Y/N, do you like him?"

"What?"

"Kaz. Do you like Kaz?"

You played with your hands with your head facing your lap. "Maybe..."

Inej laughed. "Do you think he likes you too?"

You sighed. "I don't know, Inej. Every night when I go to bed, I'm dissecting our conversations, looking for signs that I don't even know are there or not. Sometimes I think he looks at me in a way he doesn't look at anyone else, and then he looks away, and his eyes are the same as they always are. Cold and emotionless."

Inej sat down next to you. "He talks to you for hours every night. Clearly, he wants to see you and be in your presence because he asks you to go to his room every night."

You dropped your upper body onto your mattress. "What if I'm just reading it wrong? What if I make a move and it turns out that he never saw me in that way?" Inej shrugged and she lied down next to you. "I think I'd be better off dying if that happened."

Inej laughed, which made you laugh. Soon, the two of you were mercilessly giggling to the point your stomachs hurt.

Your laughter was interrupted by Jesper barging in and practically pulling Inej up. "Inej, please help me. There's a really cute boy in the Club and I need you to be my wing woman."

Inej looked back at you. "I'll leave you with your thoughts and dissection of conversations. Good luck."

You smiled as she left the room, being dragged by Jesper.

Later that night, you had a couple of drinks by yourself at the Crow Club. Kaz hadn't asked you to come to his room yet, and you weren't sure he would. You didn't know if you were content with not speaking with him that night or if it bothered you.

Kaz was a confusing creature. He managed to have hours-long conversations with you without telling you anything about himself. You still barely knew anything about his past or anything about him.

The only thing you had learned about him, is that he was comfortable taking his gloves off around you. He always wore the gloves, no matter what, but around you, he didn't wear them.

You didn't know why Kaz wore the gloves, and you certainly weren't going to press him about it, but you guessed that they had to be some sort of a shield for him. Or maybe even armor.

However, the gloves were only a piece of his armor. He still wore the rest of it, never showing his full self. You imagined that if you were in love with someone, you would want to take off your armor around them and show your full, true, real self to them. So, maybe he didn't love you. Maybe you were reading those rare glances wrong.

You set your empty glass down at the bar, paid what you had to, and went all the way upstairs, standing in front of Kaz's door. You knew that this could be a disaster, but you slowly lifted your fist to the wooden door, and you knocked.

You heard some small thing drop onto wood, most likely Kaz's desk, and then you heard a chair scraping on the floor and Kaz's cane hitting the floor as he made his way to the door.

You wanted to throw yourself down the stairs when you saw his face in the doorway. You looked down at his ungloved hand resting on his crow-head cane.

"Y/N?" Kaz asked after a moment of awkward silence.

You shook your head. "I'm drunk. I shouldn't have come here."

Kaz sighed. "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine, just drunk. And I have the urge to jump out of a window. Or off a roof."

Kaz moved to the side of the doorway. "Come insi-"

"I love you." Kaz stared at you, his face unreadable. You entered his room and you sat in the chair you always sat in when you came here. You held your head in your hands. "Kaz Brekker, I love you."

Kaz closed the door. The sound seemed so loud in the silent room. "You're lying."

Your head snapped up, your eyes meeting his. He looked almost angry. "What?"

"You're lying to me. That note you gave me is full of lies. You're a liar." He looked away from you, unable to bear your eye contact.

You stormed up to his desk and you snatched the parchment that your note from many nights before was written on and you read it.

Dear Kaz, If you couldn't tell, I am very drunk right now, so, I had the brilliant idea to tell you about my feelings for you. You're really pretty. Like, really pretty. Is pretty the right word? Oh. The word I'm looking for is handsome. You're really handsome. I like you. Sober me would never tell you that, but I'm not sober right now, am I? That's it. Please burn this when you're done reading it. Even better, don't read this at all. Love, Y/N P.S., you're really pretty.

You cringed as you set the paper back on the desk. "I see you didn't burn the note." You glanced back at Kaz. He still refused to look at you. "I don't know why you're calling me a liar when clearly I tell the truth most when I'm drunk."

"Stop lying to me and giving me hope." Kaz took a shaky breath. "You're right. You shouldn't have come here. Now, please go." You stared at Kaz, frozen in your place. He glanced at you for only a second before he turned around. "Go!"

You left the room and slammed his door behind you. You stormed down the stairs.

Maybe you were mistaken. Maybe you just made it up and now messed it up.