#rip to you guys but i'm different

[sinnohan-marshmallow]

okay not namedropping anyone but this is like the third person I've seen on this site insist that Bisharp are physically unaffectionate/you should make no attempt to express your affection for them with physical contact. I don't know what absolutely joyless planet y'all are from but if that's really true then how tf else do you explain these

[lexsnotdead]

weeping and wiping the tears from my eyes as i have to uninstall dishonored 2 and dos2 to make space for 126 fucking gb that is bg3. i hate hate hate being a laptop user

[elv-arts]

Was doodling + made an attempt to figure this guy out in a more "realistic" style. idk

+ bonus fidds doodles below

[benevolenterrancy]

Another batch of artfight attacks!

credits:

Artfight: amara-laz

Artfight: Kitinthecatthing

Tumblr: @lim-i-nal

Twitter: oshikasa

[hatterladz]

Ok now I am wondering I saw that post about Raph. I don’t know if I fee comfortable saying Raph is the one always putting his family in danger he does try to protect them. But never mind that. Overall what is your opinion on Raph how do you feel about him from besides rise that is.

First I wanna say that Raph and Mikey are tied as my favorites overall. So I do love his character, always have since I was 8. And that I absolutely love this ask I hope you're ready for a very. Very long post.

Next I wanna mention I feel like I might've came off a little wrong? I didn't mean he always puts them in danger, and I did mention he's extremely protective of his family, however he does put them more at risk, at least, especially in Splinter and Leo's point of view.

It goes back to the "caught between wanting to do the right thing, having a sense of duty due to his strong empathy and justice", which I'd say his desire to help people is actually more then Leo's. But I'll touch on the Leo v Raph thing later.

And also caught between wanting his family safe and alive. He gets angry when his family screws off, but he freaks out the moment they're hurt. As I mentioned before he deeply cares about the people around him, he's the kinda guy who you get close to and every single time you're invited to family dinner. [Seen usually with Casey Jones]

They're two very warring desires, you can't be on the battlefield and keep your family safe too. Not that I'm sure Raph fully ever realizes this. Raph is centered around protecting people. He's always been a protector. They're two very conflicting desires. And this is brought up repeatedly in the franchise.

You see snippets in 2012, recently it was mentioned in TOTTMNT, in the Rise movie the infamous "Hero moves are totally your style" scene is also a perfect depiction of this, and one other spot you see this is again the TMNT 2007 prologue comics of how Raph became the Nightwatcher.

Since I'm pretty sure most people don't know what I mean by the 2007 Prologue comic, all of them are walking through the sewers after a patrol. They hear a man being mugged on the surface and Raph insists on helping him, but Leo tells him to leave it that it's none of their business and risking revealing themselves is too dangerous. Raph sneaks out and saves the old man anyway.

That's what I mean about how he did it anyway, at the risk of his family. Because he has a desire to help and protect the people around him.

Which leads me to the Leo and Raph conflicts. Personally I love all of them, I think they're also needed. Leo and Raph balance each other out. Leo is by far the most different by iteration but also the most consistent; he's just like Splinter. Obviously there's differences but this is about Raph not Leo.

Leo often gets caught in his plans, or his responsibilities and obligations. At the end of the day Leo easily gets swept up in his own desires or following whatever kind of rules. This is where it's important Raph's character comes in.

Leo is spiralling? Raph grounds him. Leo is being too strict and bossy and even putting his own family's wellbeing in danger because Leo is too caught up in being a leader before being a brother? Raph is quick to try to shut it down. Leo trusts some sketchy person? Raph starts being Leo's biggest pain in the ass by refusing to work with him but staying around for his brother's safety. Leo tries to sacrifice himself [again]? Raph is quick to try to get him out of the situation if he can.

Raph in a way, is like a coleader, but more then that he reminds Leo that Leo is their brother first, leader second. Because although he cares about helping people more then Leo ever could hope to, Raph is also terrified of losing his family, which is all he has.

In 2012 when Leo starts struggling with his mental wellbeing and replicating Splinter's... Less then ideal habits of being a "sensei", it's actually Mikey who flags this up and is the most worried. And Raph is immediately the one who steps up to soothe him.

Which brings me to my next point, second to Mikey he's the most emotionally intelligent and empathetic. This is due to how emotional he is himself. And whereas for Mikey he shares Leo's habit of wanting to believe in the best of people, Raph is extremely perceptive and is the first to sniff out bullshit and if someone is dangerous to be around.

It's seen in some moments in TMNT 2012, and also in 2003. He's slow to trust, but quick to defend.

But back on the self-loathing Raph has, it will not never fuck me up over the implied fact that Raph, is suicidal. At the very least in 2012 but I believe we can see this in other iterations as well. In 2012 Raph says "I don't care if I get hurt for my actions, it's different when it's my family" [<-or something similar to those lines]. And honestly you can see this with every iteration with how reckless he is in battle, and his reaction to being injured himself vs his family being injured.

Anytime his family is in danger, he snaps and immediately goes in with the very changed intent to kill. He usually doesn't succeed, but it is a point emphasized in Last Ronin before he dies. When he's injured you don't really see him mention any response to it. Maybe a spiteful "I don't want to die in THIS place" but there's never any attention done on if he cares about being injured [maybe mentions in TOTTMNT where he's scared rightfully of being sold and tortured]

Because Raph doesn't see himself in good light. I'm going to emphasize in the newest soft reboot of IDW of some of his dialogue about himself while undercover in prison [btw HIGHLY recommend picking it up it is so insanely good it's the best version of "what will the turtles do if older and separated and can do anything"].

The way he talks about himself he compares himself with being just as awful as the prisoners he's with. He has no desire to leave [outside of being undercover] because he feels he deserves to be there. He explains it's because of how violent he's been, and even mentions how upset he is about not being around his family anymore, but in a way that it sounds like he's betrayed by that [granted so far all of them seem to feel that way but I'll mention his issues with being left in a second]

When he talks about himself he compares himself to the violent criminals around him, states that violence is all he knows, and it doesn't seem like he likes that either. It's not the first time we see Raph hating his violence and anger issues, playing up being a villain or being distraught over how he hurts the people he loves around him.

There's a moment in 2003, a few in 2012, and obviously ROTTMNT, and now this newer iteration. But you also see it in 2007 when Leo gets taken after their fight.

Despite how much he cares about everyone, how much he's willing to throw away to do the right thing, how much he's willing to throw himself in danger before anyone else, he sees himself as nothing but a violent monster.

Speaking of 2007 I'm going to touch on the last part of this post; Raph hates being separated from his family. In 2007 the worst Raph Leo conflict and actual fight I've seen in TMNT thus far, goes to when Raph is upset that Leo left for 3 years, when he was supposed by back after 1.

Whereas most of their conflicts is Raph being the one telling Leo he's being stupid [or vise versa], this is the one where it's about Raph holding a grudge and struggling to manage his feelings about Leo's absence. So in a flip of roles when Leo tells Raph that Raph's sense of obligation and justice has caused more turmoil for his family by him not being there for them, and that going out as the Nightwatcher alone puts them at risk, Raph doesn't respond well.

He says "You can't leave and come back in here to play leader again" [again not direct quote but it is something similar along those lines], but it translates to "You can't leave me and come back acting like my older brother again"

Obviously we also know in ROTTMNT that Raph struggles with separation anxiety. Raph hates being separated from the people he loves, because although he'll ALWAYS try to do the right thing, he can't stand to be without his family.

[uh-mozzaza]

in S1 Jayce was too busy boinking when Viktor was dying and in S2 he was too busy hex-tripping when Mel was getting kidnapped, truly the king of failing the people close to him when they most need him 🙏

[mynameisrobiniamadumbass]

the first of several refs for to have and to hold!!!!

had to start with scott, of course!!! i definitely haven’t already done martyn but am being forced to hold off on posting him because his red life changes have yet to be revealed!!  :D definitely not. what are you talking about.

anyway in scott’s case the red life mutation involves that scar on the back of his neck, the sort-of-roots (they are glowy...) and um yeah his entire ribcage is on show. i’m sure it’s fine.

[jgys-hat]

He was a horrid little bastard who helped kill one of my favourite characters, but I still feel sad for Jinzhong with how quick Yanwan was to dispose of him the second he was no longer convenient. He looked so excited to see her and really seemed to think she'd save him - he's so right about how ungrateful she is :(((

[noivoom]

Y'know, when Ruin first showed up I thought that if Bloodmoon were still around, they would either get along like a house on fire (and the house would BE on fire knowing those three) or they would LOATHE each other with a burning passion (drop everything and kill each other on sight like a pack of feral chihuahuas level hatred), with no in-between.

Unfortunately for the gang I was right and it's the first one lmao

[neriyon]

How about... Claudien and Yulan for the shipping ask!

Ooooh, did not see that one coming!

Biggest hurdle for them is that Yulan is not the WoL so they didn't really meet during MSQ events. But Yulan is a goldsmith with an intense fascination towards mammets, and Claudien is a scholar, so they could theoretically meet due to their jobs. Either with Yulan being contracted to work on mammets in Labyrinthos, or with Yulan being asked about the crystal from pandae questline 🤔

Other than that, I don't really see too many problems for them~ Claudien is a good looking lad, and Yulan would be attracted to both his forward way of speaking his thoughts out loud and his dedication to his work. I can imagine Claudien blurting out his budding crush on Yulan, and the viera lad just going beet red and running off all angry looking, haha. I feel like he'd be forward enough to work it through Yulan's little bursts, and manage to calm the skittish goldsmith down enough to get him to open up about his own feelings.

Or, failing that, they'd be good buddies I think. Just like, chatting about their work, cool rocks found in Aitiascape or something.

[tonyglowheart]

reading thru old meta posts on qian qiu and there's like, some stuff I agree with sure but there's also a lot I don't lol. w like yan wushi especially. there's a lot of. I think too much conventional-mindedness in approaching yws even from the ppl who did like him as a character. saying he's a difficult character, and is meant to be a difficult character, but then still framing him along more conventional moral frameworks. yet another apartment 'complex'? strange, I find it quite simple moments.

[katetcake]

Oh God why does he sound like that lmaooo

[picnokinesis]

Hi Taka, your drawing of Honey looks great, especially because the red glow gives it an ominous vibe and I absolutely LOVE the lighting on the stair railing. It looks amazing. And Im also the anon from your last question and I was refering to the conversation with Graham and Ryan. Grahams tone of voice suggested that he and the Doctor had, I assume, quite a heavy conversation and Im ALL for heavy conversations so I cant wait to read what it was about. (Maybe/Probably about Grahams cancer?)

Ahh hello again!! Thank you so much!! <3 I actually drew that picture specifically to mess with the lighting, and it took ages to get it to look like I wanted it too, and I'm really happy with how it turned out in the end so I'm so glad that you liked it :D (also ominous was definitely the vibe that I was going for sksks so thank you!!)

But aaahhh yes I was actually really hoping you were referring to that little bit :) There are going to be quite a few little moments in this fic where you'll get a sense of what other characters are up to/thinking but often - and especially with the Doctor - you won't really find out what's actually going on with them until you read their pov. The Doctor and Graham's conversation after they leave the cafe was actually one of the most difficult sections to write (and I had to do it TWICE - you'd think it would be easier the second time around, but it really wasn't!) but it is also one of the really key moments for both of them in this fic. Talking about heavy and emotional moments, though - this fic did actually make me cry twice whilst writing it (out of emotion, not frustration HAHA), but it wasn't the post-cafe conversation scene that did it! The first time was actually at another point during Graham's pov, in a scene that was supposed to be rather innocuous but ended up getting me right in the heart. And then the other bit was right at the very end of the fic, during the very last chapter. So I'm looking forward to everyone reading both of those bits!

[secondpersonpoetry]

hi! heard the released “Merry Christmas, Please Don’t Call” (which i’ve seen you’ve heard live, if i’m not mistaken!!) this morning and i don’t know if there’s really a particular vibe/dynamic/ship hrpf-wise (personally haven’t yet been able to put my finger on it) that quite relates but the lyrics have been rotating in my head all day and i was wondering if you had any thoughts? hope you have a good one! <3

OH ANON HAVE I EVER SEEN IT LIVE!!! and the second that song came out i zoomed it straight into my fic playlist and unfortunately there are so many guys this could be. right now the one that's resonating is, of course, the golden boy and his haunted ghost themselves: mcstrome.

i am thinking about connor, specifically, after the stanley cup final. that game seven. how angry he was, how loud the silence when they told him he won the conn smythe. how close he's come before and again and again lost. there's nobody else to blame but himself. he's in the empty room and he knows why (1)

at!! your best!!! you were magic!!! oh, golden boy. connor the anointed, of course. at the very beginning of his career we always knew he was something special and who wouldn't have fallen in love with him? weren't all of us a little bit dylan strome in awe of the generational talent? we were all bathed in radiant light just by being in the vicinity (2)

don't even tell 'em that you know me breaks my heart (3). in terms of building a narrative i think i've said before there is a universe where connor/dylan were together before the draft and to protect both of them, dylan breaks up with him. connor says i love you and dylan says i don't. because he doesn't, you know? he loved connor. he loved davo. he can't be in love with connor mcdavid, first overall pick of the edmonton oilers. i'd rather be hurt forever than have to watch us try to make this work and destroy us.

and after connor mcdavid left the otters, dylan strome captained them to a memorial cup win. what a haunted home, eh? to be captain of the team you and your best friend were on, only now he's left you? don't call me to tell me about your rookie season with the oilers--we both know about your broken collarbone. don't call me to tell about becoming the youngest captain in franchise history when i stepped into the shoes of your captaincy here. don't call me. (4)

narratively: dylan's the one who broke connor's heart and his own but by god it wasn't easy. we both know what happened, you went first overall. please don't make this harder on me. please don't call.

this verse can be about the weight of dylan having to live up to connor's standards and always being measured by him. i would just like to bring up the connor stepping stone chart for absolutely no reason as well (5)

we are, at long last, at the potential future of now: dylan strome, happy, smiling, thriving on the washington capitals. connor, on the oilers. i'm not yours, dylan can say. haven't been for a long time. it took some time but i made this. please don't call and ruin this for me, stay out of my life. i don't want you or need you (6)

[p.s. this took a while because when i received this ask i was a) immediately possessed to write this verse by verse breakdown i had never thought of before and then b) immediately plagued by the idea of making you a little graphic (above the read more) and finally got to do it after banging out all the actual lyric thoughts two (?) weeks ago. emerging two and a half hours later from the fugue state of GIMP with 37 layers in this bad boy hope you enjoy!!!]

[icryyoumercy]

things seneca does not understand: fucking syllogisms of all things

[rarespawnwrites]

‘Oh man, oh jeez, okay…’

Review the situation: Red Hood, JL’s most wanted, standing at the alley exit, a gun in his hand. Some old guy Danny had landed on, unmoving on the ground next to Danny. Danny himself, in his human form, ass on the ground and hands in the air as he and the Red Hood stared at one another.

‘This will be SO awkward if my unwilling gene donor did not, in fact, grow up to be Red Hood. I called him Dad!’ Red Hood still had not responded to that, actually. He hadn’t done anything; though the barrel of his gun had drifted further and further away from Danny’s direction. Small mercies.

‘Okay, yeah, this is awkward either way. How did the tiny hero kid grow up to be this giant murder-hobo anyway?!’

Danny abruptly remembered his own villainous older self, and his current situation suddenly made a lot more sense. ‘Oh, wow. I really was the wrong person to give a bunch of superpowers to, huh?’

Well, that was everyone else’s problem. Danny’s problem was still frozen in place, staring at him through his evil-looking mask as though whatever was behind it had crashed. It was really dragging out this moment to excruciating lengths.

Danny dropped his right arm enough to scratch the back of his neck nervously. Guess it was up to him to save them both from this encounter.

“Ha ha, just kidding!” he said, slowly pushing himself to his feet. “I’m actually a hallucination. Oh no! Your subconscious is fighting me off now that you know that!” Danny started fading into invisibility, hoping that his ghost-villain-dad would keep buffering for just a few seconds more.

“Aaaah. I can exist no longer.” Danny raised both arms again, taking one step back and wiggling his fingers. “I am defeated,” he said in a monotone, and vanished completely. Then he ran through the alley wall and kept going, one hand covering his mouth as his face burned in mortification.

At least he knew he wasn’t blushing, as he was currently transparent.

Now to find somewhere to transform, get his phone to map him a way back home, and fly back to take care of whatever it was Desiree had wanted him out of the way of. Ugh. Wishes sucked. Stupid jackass-genie ghost.

~

Back in the alley, the Red Hood had finally begun to move again now that the too skinny, bruised up, Ghost of Christmas Past or whatever had fucked off. He stalked forward toward the blonde man on the ground. The man groaned, starting to wake up. Jason casually kicked him none-too-gently in the head, then knelt down.

There was a wallet on the ground where the kid had been sitting. Jason snatched it and opened it up.

‘Danny Fenton, huh?’ Now where had he heard the name Fenton before? Jason folded the wallet back up and shoved it in his jacket pocket. He’d have to look into it.

Dad, the kid had called him. Huh. Probably not Talia’s? Unless she’d aged him up. That was possible, actually.

Kori was even less likely, the kid wouldn’t have even hit double-digits. Though… how fast did Tamaraneans age, anyway? Could explain the powers, at least.

Whoever the kid was, if he wanted to claim the Red-fuckin-Hood as his father, he must be desperate. There was one thing Hood was known for, and if little Danny Fenton was looking for his attention, he must be after that particular skillset.

He got a grip on the back of his target’s jacket and shirt and stood up, the man’s limp body rising with him. Jason lifted his arm over his right shoulder, carrying the man behind him like a bag of groceries as he walked toward the alley’s exit. He ignored the soft whimpers with the ease of long practice, still trying to place that last name.

Eh. He’d figure it out.

It’d been a while since he’d made time for family. He’d wrap up his business with the current group of scumbags infesting his territory, and then he’d figure out what had driven Danny his way. Redo the introduction. Kill whoever needed killing.

This was great, actually. Just the break in routine he needed.

As he left the alley just to enter the streets of the Alley, the flickering streetlight finally died. Shrouded in darkness, the Red Hood sauntered onward, the eerie eyes of his helmet glowing without managing to illuminate anything around him.

‘See you soon, kid.’

Danny lands at the feet of his cloning template, and in a desperate bid to not get murdered by said template, he gave a wry smile before saying, "HI, dad." He then used the moment of stunned silence to escape.

A week later, he regrets his decision as he walks down the stairs to find his template in his living room, interrogating his tied up parents.